Chapter #5
Sticks and Stones
Ben easily survived his first terrifying night in the same house as his
father in Ben's original memory. Somewhere deep in his past Ben
understood that the beating he received was nothing new. Nor had it
been the worst one he'd ever received, to be sure. A sock in the eye
for being a "God damned pussy" as Abs had growled, Ben felt he'd gotten
off light. What worried him more was the intense recollection of past
'whuppins' he received when his father's fist had slammed into his face
like a small comet impacting the surface Earth.
Ben's own memory had borne out several visits to the emergency room and
just as many times when he should have been taken and wasn't. His left
leg ached from the distant haunting of a formerly broken leg. There had
been a time when his skull had been cracked, from falling down a flight
of stairs, great big meaty stairs with a name, Abs the staircase. Ben
carried the dark souvenirs his father had given him that were beginning
to point the way to a very certain future.
Worse, no one cared enough or felt they were strong enough to stop it.
His mother tried, God bless her, but she was too small and too scared to
really be effective. Her demonstration with Turk the jerk not
withstanding, Susan knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that if pushed, Abs
would hurt them both. Turk was a coward and toyed with people like Ben
for entertainment. Sure, Turk would be mad for weeks, but eventually he
would learn to let it go as soon as someone else helpless came along.
Standing up to Abs however was an entirely different matter, a matter
that could potentially find them dead at the bottom of a quartz pit
somewhere along the Appalachian Trail.
Ben had not come close to death, not yet. But Ben felt that was really
only a matter of time. Abs didn't want nor need an unexpected dead body
lying around his living room. The ones that came with a plan for
disposal were so much more convenient.
As Ben considered his new world and the enlightenment that came with it,
he considered all his past complaints. He saw now he had never had
anything to complain about before. He had of course, many times. And
many times he had been very bitter in his complaint, always spoiling for
the argument that society had made him an outcast.
He now found something very odd to be grateful for. With all the truly
wonderful things he had been fortunate enough to have, a great friend, a
car, good food and regular meals, a brain... A brain, mind you, that was
capable of working through complex problems at a glance. With all this,
Ben found himself being thankful that his beating had been a minor one.
He was grateful he was walking and not wearing a cast, not suffering the
pain of broken bones or ruptured organs. He was grateful for not
bleeding.
When he returned to school Thursday, the day after the incident at the
Glass's home, he sported an enormous black eye. This was the only
visible injury he boasted. The others were hidden conveniently on under
his jeans and his too-large, second hand, thrift store T-shirt. The
logo on the front was a skull circled by a wreath of red roses. Above
it was lettered the legend The Grateful Dead.
When Ben had seen it where his mother had laid it out for him, his first
thought was, Not just yet, almost... maybe tomorrow, but not today.
Just grateful thank you very much.
Ben also understood, that in spite of the shiner, no one would ask how
he had been hurt. This was the pattern for the perceived looser that
was Ben Ackerman. Here, Ben had a criminal record. Most of it
consisted of accusations of stealing food. He regularly came to school
with no money for lunch. The State's Free Lunch program provided a
nominal meal, but by the end of the day, Ben was hungry again,
ravenously hungry sometimes. Ben had been caught trying to steal food
three times. He had succeeded countless other times however.
With this came a reputation for being a thief. With that reputation,
came the lies about all things that had been rumored to have been lifted
by Five Fingers Ackerman, things like BMX bikes, skateboards, dope, and
cigarettes. Never mind the fact that Ben didn't smoke. Those lies led
to disdain, and more rumors and lies. It was a cycle that guaranteed
Ben's failure in life before his life had ever even really begun.
Yesterday had been a debacle. Upon seeing the black eye, Krik Oswalter,
one of Robert Glass's best friends and heir to Robert's throne as the
Captain football team, declared it open season on Ben. He had possibly
the worse day in his life at school, in this reality or any. By the
time he got home, he had a cut on the bridge of his nose from taking a
locker door to the face. His hair had been washed twice. That's right,
in the toilet. Further, his ankle had been twisted so badly from being
tripped that he was walking with a limp. Still, Ben got the distinct
impression that things could get much, much worse.
The cut was minor. Once the bleeding stopped he was able to hide it
with a small amount of petroleum jelly. He suffered through the
discomfort of the twisted ankle at home so no one would see, especially
dear old dad. The rest was cosmetic and took care of itself with a
small amount of time.
Even these things had not been too disconcerting. What had bothered Ben
was that there had been no Kim at school. As confused as he was, Ben
began to wonder if there ever really been a Kimberly Glass at all.
Perhaps there had been and she just no longer attended this school. Ben
had to force himself to consider the possibility that the aberrant ideas
in his head, the image of a fat, pimple faces boy he felt he should be
able to name, had all been part of a dream. An elaborate dream,
granted, one that his mind had designed to escape his true life, but
possibly a dream none the less.
By the end of the day, he had found an image of her on the schools
website during a computer lab. The caption under her picture had read
simply, Kimberly Lynn Glass ... Freshman ... Captain Mather's
Cheerleading Squad. She was wearing her uniform, blue, white and gold,
pictured from her chest up. Her smiling face and bubbly presence made
Ben smile with relief, at least she was real.
Why she had not come to school was anyone's guess. Only Ben couldn't
just ask anyone. Anyone wouldn't tell him. That was the simple truth.
By the end of the day, he had resolved himself to do the only thing he
could do, that was to try again the next day. He boarded the bus home
and sat as close to the driver as possible to avoid further trouble.
The loss of his car seemed like small potatoes compared to what lie in
wait for him at home. Once there, he was able to remember to do what he
could to make something for his father to eat, fully expecting him to
complain angrily about how rotten the food tasted. Ben cleaned up as
best he could, to save his mother the trouble and vanished into the hole
that was his room. He did not come out until morning. His mother
stopped in for about a half an hour, with her she had brought several
cookies she had filched from work and two slices of pizza, a rare treat.
Ben devoured them and only afterward thought about his mother. She
assured him she was fine and had eaten two pieces herself at work. They
shared the six cookies that remained and talked about nothing until Ben,
secure for the first time that day fell fast asleep.
The second day as Ben climbed off the bus, he could tell that history
was about to repeat itself. His bruised eye, now turning an ugly, sick,
blackish-yellow seemed to be a beacon for all who would vent their pent
up frustrations on the weak. It seemed to cry, Come and beat me! Look!
Look! I'm here, come and pummel me!
"Uhhh" Ben groaned, resolved to the inevitability of his plight. Afraid
to fight and unable to hide, he began his slow funerary drudge across
the long wide apron in front of the school toward the building of doom.
Ben lightly touched his eye, the dull ache there was irritating and hard
to ignore. He flinched when his fingers made contact with the bruised
flesh, "Ouch!"
Now, something was different though. The beacon he was afraid would
attract so much attention didn't seem to be the attraction at all.
Everyone was murmuring, staring at him more oddly than he expected. Is
my zipper open? The off hand thought was Ben's attempt at self-humor.
He found however that the answer was yes, his fly was indeed open and
flushed bright red as other's watched and laughed as he struggled to
pull it back up. A few people laughed in the distance, others however
continued to stare.
Once his fly was secure again, Ben found that whatever these people had
been whispering about to begin with was still firmly on their minds.
The secretive chatter continued unabated.
Whatever it was, Ben felt certain he would find out about it, probably
the hard way, but then, it was tough being Ben Ackerman these days, then
again, somebody had to do it. He glanced at an old beat-up Timex watch
he had on his wrist, there was fifteen minutes before the first bell.
He decided to wait for twelve and then go in.
Suddenly, he was thrust forward from behind. He crashed through a stand
of waist high privet hedges as he pin-wheeled forward, caught his foot
on the stalk of one of the hedges and fell hard, smashing his face on
the ground and bloodying his nose. "Hey, Ackerman can fucking fly,"
someone chortled behind him. "That's not flying, that's fucking
crashing," someone else cried. Laughter broke out and moved away before
Ben could see who had shoved him. His ribs sung an exquisite song of
agony, and he lay there for a moment to let the pain of it subside
before attempting to get up. He had faced a life time of this kind of
treatment. He should be used to it by now. He wasn't however, what he
really wanted to do now was cry.
Ben didn't allow himself to cry. He knuckled up and fought back tears
of indignity as he struggled to his feet. His rib, one his father had
damaged, maybe even cracked, would hurt all the worse now. He brushed
off the leaves and grass, but was unable to remove the stains of wet
dirt and grass from the knees of his jeans. 'Great!' he thought, 'Thank
God, now I've got shit stains on my clothes. I don't know how I would
have made it through the fucking day without something else for them to
target.'
It had started already. He wasn't even in the building and he had
already hit the ground once today. What is it about me that everyone
hates?
Just then a car drove by, playing the radio loudly, its newly rebuilt
engine rumbling deeply through its muffler. The noise of it caught
Ben's attention as it passed. In the front seat of the car sat Robert
Glass and his sister, Kimberly. The pain in his eye and rib vanished
when Ben spied Kim looking in his direction. She seemed to give a
double take, and then craned her head around in recognition as the
modified station wagon passed the spot where he stood. Kim waived and
smiled in his direction, but his insecurity had grown to such a state
the he was unable to bring himself to waive back or even smile, less her
enthusiastic greeting be meant for someone else. Still, he could see
her confusion and something else mingled with it. Could it have been
fear, when he failed to respond to her. Still his mind was overjoyed
and his hear flooded with relief. Maybe it wasn't just a dream. Maybe
the pressing urgency of the dream had been real and the things he
remembered about himself were more than just some sort of imagined and
detached wishful residual image.
He watched as the car pulled into the drop-off circle and vanished
around the corner. Shortly after, the station wagon pulled out and into
the parking lot. It cruised up to and stopped next to a band of jocks,
among their order, Kirk Oswalter, who was, no doubt, pontificating his
greatness to the crowd of admirers gathered there around him.
Then something happened that caught Ben by complete surprise. Robert
Glass stopped his car and to Ben, it seemed that Robert, who had
graduated last year, was simply going to chat with his prot?g?e, instead
strutted menacingly up to Kirk and whispered something in the man's ear.
Kirk looked confused and just a little afraid. Then he shrugged and
shook his head. Robert pointed his finger first at Marla Dalton, next
at Wendy Graff and finally pushed that same finger deep into Kirk's
chest. Robert's face was set to a determined and angry glare as he
backed Kirk into the trunk of Kirk's Camaro. Kirk stumbled backward and
fell, sprawling over the hood. When Kirk tried to push off the trunk lid
and stand, Robert pushed him back down. There was a struggle that Robert
eventually won in short order, pressing Kirk back to the surface of the
trunk of his sports car ending the confrontation shouting "... my baby
SISTER!"
Robert returned to his car, climbed in and started the motor. He said
one more thing to Kirk though Ben couldn't' hear it. From behind his
windshield, Robert leveled an accusatory finger at Kirk who looked angry
and terrified in the same moment. Kirk then watched as Robert Glass
sped away. Kirk stood and watched with a scowl, Marla flipped Robert
the bird when as he drove away, choosing to wait until Robert had
reached a safe enough distance that would prevent Robert's return.
Ben watched as the two girls flocked around Kirk to comfort him. They
were rebuked however, scattering from him when Kirk cried, "Get the fuck
away from me!" Kirk then grabbed his belongings and charged toward the
school building.
What was that about? Ben wondered, smiling to himself. He was
comforted by the idea that Kirk had a vulnerable side, granted, it was
to a much greater power than he himself possessed, but it was reassuring
to see that Kirk was not all powerful. Ben gathered himself and slowly
walked toward the building. He was in no hurry. He certainly didn't
want to run into Kirk now, so he planned a large margin of distance
between himself and where he had to go.
Ben approached the school to go to homeroom class eight minutes before
the first bell rang. He paced himself watching and evading people in the
hope that he could avoid another confrontation and giving his aching
ribs as much of a break from further injury as he could. He smiled for
the first time in 48 hours thinking that at least the day had not been a
total loss. He didn't see Kim Glass racing across the drop-off apron
behind him waving her arms and shouting his name faintly.
Kirk Oswalter however saw Ben, his back to Kirk, enter the school.
After his confrontation with Robert about the man's baby sister, Kirk
felt like re-establishing his manhood. Ben was just the ticket for that
sort of call. Yes Sir, Ben will do just nicely. And seein' as how he's
the founder of my feast, so-to-speak, it would be rude of me not to
offer him a nice steaming helping of what Bobby just gave me to snack
on. Yup, come get some boy.
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Kim woke slowly on the second morning of her existence with little of
the confusion that had plagued her the day before. The previous night
she had found that she had cried herself to sleep, resting her head on
her beloved "Sparkle Bear" and woke to find she had fallen asleep fully
clothed.
This morning the malaise of yesterday, of waking up without the
knowledge of who she had once been trapped deep inside her present life
had not been as lost to her. This is how it will be if I can't get out
of this. I wake up every morning as Kim, knowing that I wasn't supposed
to be her. The thought made her shiver with dread. She also recognized
the urgent signs she was hours away from actually experiencing her first
menstrual cycle. Inside she could feel the pain of her uterus as its
outer layer prepared to shed.
"Ugh, God I have to end this," she mumbled as she sourly threw the
sheets from her body and rose to shower. The night before, Cindy had
relented, allowing Kim to return to school having (in Kim's fine
opinion) finally come to a dawning of common sense. "Note to self,
remember to take tampons today," Kim said aloud. It was a trick she
used to remember critical tasks with little or no planning involved, not
unlike a string around her finger. Kim halted dead in her tracks in the
middle of her room. "I can't believe I just said that," she said
disbelievingly.
Yesterday had given her all the time she needed to invent every
conceivable horror where the mask was concerned. Even the collective
minds of Edgar Allen Poe, Stephen King, Clive Barker, and Peter Straube
would have trembled at the possibilities she was able to formulate to
torture herself. The worst had been about Ben, where he might be and if
fate had some how stepped in and made him a different person like
everyone else. She was the one that had been transformed after all.
Wasn't it logical to assume that since he wasn't under the influence of
the mask as she was that he would walk away and then meld into this time
line as if he'd always been a part of it?
There wasn't much she could recall about Ben's here and now life. She
knew she had him in two late afternoon classes and in homeroom. She had
been heart broken to discover (covertly) that Ben did not live next
door. He apparently never had. If he had at one time, she couldn't
remember it. She couldn't recall, however, just where he did live now or
what the circumstances of his life were. This one aspect fueled the
fires of conjecture for hours. She didn't know how to reach him except
at school. What if he didn't remember her, what then? If either Ben or
herself never made it to school again, she was essentially stuck like
this until she could either find Ben or give up and accept what had
happened.
A random spark of memory flashed in her head. It crippled her, making
her home sick. "Oh no!" she whispered. She saw her father in a
pasture. A radio remote control in his hand, in the air above them was
a bright red and white model Cessna 182. "Let me try Dad," cried the
small voice of a small boy who stood next to his big brother, Robert.
She hardened herself against the image of this memory. She shut her
eyes and ordered it to leave her be. "Not now, I need to focus. Go
away." But she didn't really want it to leave. It was a fond memory, a
ritual the men in the house had shared. Her father loved flying. He
had been a pilot in his younger days. The expense of it, coupled with
failing eyes had cost him his "ticket" as her father had called it. He
resorted to flying models on the weekend instead. He shared this
passion with his sons and while Robert had cooled some on the idea of
flying, Tim had always wanted to be a pilot, just like his dad.
The memory however did just as Kim had commanded and faded from view,
perhaps a little too quickly. Mentally she chased after the way a small
child will chase a parent leaving for work, desperate and terrified they
might never see them again.
In this life, Kim could now see that her father had not taken her
flying. He had still been a pilot, but it was something shared with
Robert. Kim had been her mother's little doll. That memory made her
want to cry. She did her best to shrug it off, but the ghost of it
haunted her for nearly an hour.
Still reflecting on the torture of the previous day, she thought about
how she could hear her mother speaking, making one call after another.
Some of them were presumably about her. Occasionally the phone would
ring and Cindy would have yet another, almost surprised sounding
conversation with yet someone else. Or, for all Kim knew, these
conversations were taking place with the same person, a recruiter for
the Naval Academy for Girls perhaps, who knew for sure.
Around one o'clock, the angst-filled little voice in her head proposed
yet another terrible possibility to her, it whispered to her, What if
he's dead? Kim, who had been trying to read a stupid 'girl's magazine'
as she thought of it, gasped out loud. She nearly fell off her bed.
"He's not dead." Kim said in a trembling voice. Now, however, the
voice would neither confirm nor deny its earlier claim. Not long after,
the day found her crying once more, and searching for a way to get out
of the mask. It remained futile to try; the mask remained resolutely
hidden from her fingers.
Around 2:00 in the afternoon, the anxiety was almost more than she could
stand, only this time she had practiced exercising restraint and
composure. When at last she heard her mother making her way up the
stairs, Kim crawled onto her bed, grabbed another magazine and pretended
to read. Cindy cracked the door of Kim's bedroom. Kim looked, saw her
mother peering in and pretended to be indifferent, her heart pounding in
her chest harder than a steam powered jackhammer.
"Hi Sweetie." Cindy said tenderly. It was the last sort of greeting
Kim expected.
Kim resisted the urge to run and humble herself in front of her mother.
This would have been looked upon as more bizarre behavior. It might
have also served to have thrown her deeper down the pit she was already
in. Nor did she have anything she could confess. In stead Kim simply
said, "Hi," cheerfully enough to seem sane but carefree enough to
suggest she had nothing to hide.
"Can I come in?" Kim's back was to the door, but she could hear that her
mother's tone was repentant and meek. What's up now? I don't think I
can take one more fucking surprise Mom. I sure hope this is good. What
Kim said was, "Sure."
Cindy came in and sat on the edge of the bed silently while Kim
pretended to read. Each could feel the tension of the uncomfortable
silence between them. Kim was too petrified to break the ice, afraid to
find out what kind of axe was going to fall on her skinny neck. On
Cindy's part, the phone calls had revealed much. It was the results of
those phone calls that she had to bare her soul over.
At length, Cindy reached over and placed her hand over the magazine and
gently closed it, "We need to talk about something Kim." Her mother
drew the magazine away from her and Kim bent her head in a dreadful
pose.
She wished more than ever now that her 'Kimmories' were working overtime
so she might have some idea about what her mother wanted to talk to her
about. What now? Am I juvenile delinquent on top of everything else?
"What did I do now?"
"You know perfectly well what you did young lady." Kim cringed. Not so
much at the unspoken accusation, but at the words 'young lady.'
"Could you help me remember then please?" Kim begged.
Cindy paused for moment, took a deep breath and began, "It seems that
during my calls the school, Mrs. Barns, the Girls Dean, informed me
about how disappointed you must be about having to stay home." Kim was
frozen, she didn't dare move or the house of cards she felt she lived in
would surely cave in around her.
"And?" Kim asked. Now no one was more curious to hear the outcome now
than Kim was.
"Aaaaannnnd, she told me how hard you were working to bring your grade
point average up to a 4.0 before the end of the year, doing extra credit
work, special projects, you know, that sort of thing. She told me that
you've aced all your tests since the end of the last quarter and that
you're up to a 3.83 average as of yesterday. You're going to make the
honor roll," Cindy squealed with delight and wrapped her daughter up in
her arms and damn near squeezed the light from her.
Kim's jaw was agape. She couldn't believe that something had actually
happened to give her a helping hand. Waytogo girl, she silently
congratulated her predecessor, I'm sorta sorry for all those nasty
things I thought about you.
Kim open pie-hole turned to a thin, weak smile and had to turn her head
to keep from laughing out loud when she glimpsed tear glistening in the
corner of her mother's eye. To her mother, Kim appeared to be crying.
She was instead, trying her best to suppress gales of hysterical
laughter.
"Oh Honey, I'm so sorry I didn't believe you. I feel just awful. Mrs.
Barnes said that this shouldn't do any harm to your grade point average.
I can always go down and argue that I didn't know anything about this. I
hope you know that if I had I would never have done anything to have
held you up. You do know that don't you? What I want to know is why you
never told me?"
"It's kind of hard to surprise someone if you tell them what the
surprise is, don't you think?" Kim was as stunned as her mother was
humbled. Kim had no idea where the answer had come from. She only knew
that she hadn't missed a beat in answering. She had not had to guess or
invent an answer AND she felt a certain amount of self-righteous
indignation at the idea that her mother had pried it out of the various
resources she had at her disposal as a parent. To Kim it felt as if the
answer were HER answer. Not some contrived, trite string of words
intended to make her mother feel guilty or to facilitate a means to an
end, namely her freedom from her feminine prison. Kim knew it was
exactly what the 'other' Kim would have been planning before she (Tim)
had been inserted into this life.
Even that synopsis didn't feel right to her. Slowly, Kim was becoming
aware that there was no 'other' Kim. What she felt was the residual
memory of a life that had never happened but had still had to play out.
This way there would be a life for her to inherit once she had been
transformed. She had dragged it here with her when Ben and Tim caused
the world to shift in time. Now, all that was left of Tim was the
memory of that boy who didn't want to be a girl, was repulsed by
everything it was to be a girl. He had wanted to BE WITH a girl, marry
a girl, have children WITH a girl, but never wanted to BE a girl.
Now the fact was that she was and had always been one. The dilemma was,
how to reconcile that in her mind or return to what she felt her proper
place and time was? Was that even possible now? Kim couldn't say. She
knew the he part of her was being destroyed from within and if she
didn't find an answer soon she would either be absorbed by the girl
called Kim, lost forever in a world that was very different from the one
she'd come from.
Cindy was talking, apologizing profusely, and cuddling with her last
born child, her daughter. Kim didn't hear what she was saying. She was
lost in her own train of thought immersed with a mental image she could
not break from. She stood on the muddy bank of a great wide river its
calm, slow current so inviting, the water on her feet so cool in the
midst of the deep Tennessee heat. At her back were the sweet oak and
Lop Lolly Pine woods so prevalent in Southern Tennessee.
She took a step out into the river and felt the dark, tea colored water
slip fluidly up her ankles. Her toes squished into the soft mud-sand
bottom and she wiggled them and giggled at the way it tickled the tender
spaces between her toes. It was so deliciously cool. Butterflies were
spawned in the pit of her stomach where they fluttered excitedly all
about her insides, making her feel like the small girl she had been not
so very long ago. Gradually she took another step as the excitement
built.
But as she eased her hips down into the cold water, she discovered there
was no longer a bottom. She had stepped off a bank ledge into the
deeper water. Her momentum was sweeping her out in slow-motion. Her
torso already forward, so even pulling her one leg back still set her
center of gravity out in the current. Kim also found that the current
was not calm but swift, alarmingly swift and she was dragged out and
away from the bank she had waded in from.
Now, out in the river, she thrashed to find something to cling to. The
current pulled down at the plain, white cotton dress she wore. Sodden,
it threatened to weigh her down and bind her legs, preventing her from
swimming. Gasping, she fought to find something that would keep her
afloat. At last she saw ahead, a large fallen oak, its dark, water
soaked branches protruding from the river like the bones of a long dead
hand. The tree frightened her. They harbored snakes and rats from the
river, but what choice did she have? The water would swallow her if she
didn't ignore her fear of river critters and embrace her fear of death.
Kim drifted closer and soon was caught by the unseen branches below the
surface. She tipped over briefly, soaking her head but managed to right
herself choking and coughing up brown water. At last she was able to
grab the branches and steady herself. Still the current pulled and
tugged and bent the branches she clung to.
Suddenly, there was an unexpected separation, a kind of parting or
release of dead weight and she thought for a moment that her cotton gown
had been torn free of her body. When she looked however, she saw that
it was, in fact, a boy, a young man with a large round face peppered
with acne. His terrified face turned up to hers. He had managed to
grab a branch and was clinging on for dear life.
The current however, appeared to strong for him. He was completely
submerged to his neck while Kim was nearly half out of the water now,
where the drag of the current would not be as strong. It was clear that
the temperature of the water was also exhausting his body.
"Tim?" she could hear herself cry in this waking vision.
"Don't let go of me..." He cried back, his voice full of desperation.
He looked briefly down river to draw Kim's attention to the perils down
there if he were allowed to slip away and then looked back at Kim. Fear
had caused his eyes to become milky and he shivered endlessly against
the cold of the water. "I can't swim in this water."
Kim scrambled to try to help him. She couldn't let the boy drown. She
knew him, was intimate with him. The boy was her. She was this boy.
The drag of the water on her body prevented her from lowering her self
too far into the water. She was afraid that if the water got a hold of
her, she too would be torn from the safety of the tree's branches. Still
she got as low to the water as she safely felt she could without
risking... Risking what? If he drowns, don't I drown too?
"COME ON KIM, YOU BITCH, I'M DROWNING HERE!"
Kim was taken aback just a bit, "That wasn't very nice," Kim explained
to her alter-ego, offended and hurt.
Tim looked back in utter amazement and replied, "Fuck nice," the round
faced boy barked! The branch that Tim was clinging to suddenly cracked
under the strain of the water and weight.
"HURRY!" Tim screamed and Kim renewed her efforts.
"I can't reach you. Swim! SWIM TO ME!" The branch broke before either
could act. "Noooooooo." Kim screamed as Tim was carried away. "TIM!"
The body of the boy she was so familiar with tumbled over a half
submerged rock and Tim let out a wail of pain as he somersaulted
backward over the rock. He submerged beneath the eddy behind the rock
and then came splashing and gagging to the surface again, as he inched
ever further away. "Help me Kim!" but Kim couldn't move, she was
terrified, "KIM!" Again Tim hitched as his body caught something below
the surface; he then bobbed and vanished below the water amid wild
splashing.
He resurfaced now several yards away where the river was at its most
turbulent and swift current. Tim screamed in the distance, "Not fair!
I was here first. Not fucking fai..." Tim submerged the water laden
branch becoming a weight. Even the bubbles of Tim's last exhale were
carried off before she could see them surface.
"So, if there's something you want to tell me. If you want to scream at
me..." Her mother was saying when Kim had emerged from the terrible
sight of watching her male self float away down the rain swollen
Tennessee.
"What?"
Cindy sighed, "I deserve anything you want to throw at me. Let her
rip." Cindy closed her eyes and waited bravely for the assault.
Kim thought about it. She was certainly mad enough to do it. After
all, she had not asked to be put into this body or this life.
Nevertheless, she found she could not fault Kim's mother, her mother for
looking out for her, for loving her. "Thanks for checking my story. I
guess a spoiled surprise isn't as bad as the Naval Academy."
"You saw the pamphlets?" Cindy asked with genuine surprise.
This news was a shock to Kim who had simply been joking. "MOM?" she
cried, but even as she did, she could see the smile on her mothers face.
It was going to be hard going back now, knowing what she would be taking
from her mother. Especially now after seeing how much Cindy reveled in
having a daughter.
For a moment, just a split second mind you, she considered abandoning
this entire quest. Who knew what else might become 'unhinged' if the
pursued it? The idea died quickly however. Tim's desires and revulsion
at being female finally won out.
Today, Friday, two days after becoming Kimberly Lynn Glass, she was
ready for it to end. She was beginning to blend in too much now. It
had to stop.
From the inside out, it was now becoming impossible for Kim to know
where Tim ended and she began. Ben would have noticed profound changes
in her habits and personality right away. Had it not been for the
paradox of her Timmories, she would have just gone about her day as
whoever this girl was in this life, oblivious to anything else. She
knew, however, that she had been placed in this vessel from some other
point and had been unceremoniously locked inside with only one way back
out.
She leaned forward toward the mirror, arms still around her waist, "I'm
not staying like this," she spitefully told her reflection. "You go back
to being a theoretical "what-if" today."
Kim?" her mother called from the base of the stairs. Her mind told her
that her mother would wait there until Kim hung her head over the rail
to prove that she was in deed up and getting ready for school. Even
after yesterday afternoon, Cindy still had that control mechanism
somewhere in her psychological profile.
Kim dashed to the door and flung it open. "I'm up Mom, down in a few, I
need to shower.
"Well, it's almost time Kim, you'll have to hurry. What do you want me
to make for a nosh on the way?"
"I'm not hungry Mom." Cindy seemed about to say something, but was cut
off by the sound of Kim's door slamming.
"Okay then, toast," Cindy said quietly to herself and wandered off into
her kitchen.
Kim started her shower, uncomfortable with her body she waited to strip
off her underclothes until the last minute. When she turned, there again
was her reflection in the mirror. It was a dream that she (as Tim) had
dreamt many times as a young boy. This was almost the dream come true.
To have simply been able to have been around someone that looked as she
did now would have been more than Tim could have ever felt he had a
right to have. The simple fact was that she didn't want to be on the
inside of it, she didn't want to BE the dream.
Her ample breasts, covered by two white satiny cups with a small pink
bow set in the cleavage. Oh, how absolutely cute is that? She thought
bitterly. Trying to ignore her physical changes, she caught a waft of
the sweaty smell coming from the fabric of her bra. Kim noted that it
wasn't a vile smell but in the same respect it wasn't clean either.
"Peeeee-u," she said wrinkling her nose. "The girl needs a shower."
She showered quickly. Then dried, and wrapped the towel clumsily around
waist, and with boobies jiggling, she stepped out into her cool bedroom.
Almost instantly, her nipples hardened and began to prominently protrude
forward. The feeling was just a bit startling and somewhat alarming.
Stopping she readjusted her towel higher on her body, covering her
breasts, a chagrinned smirk on her face and proceeded to find something
to wear.
Kim stepped out into her room to find her mother had laid out a pair of
jeans, a black top covered with pink flowers scooped out at the neck,
some black panties and bra. Hum... different colored underwear, shit
when you have to micromanage down to your underwear, you can be pretty
sure that your life is too fucking complicated.
Kim dressed, slipped into pink ankle socks and white tennis shoes with
pink trim, grabbed her books and trotted down the stairs. Cindy slipped
five dollars into her hand for lunch which vanished into her front
pocket, "Thanks Mom."
Kim moved toward the door and her mother stopped her as she reached
around behind her and lifted a plate with four triangular pieces of
browned and buttered bread, "Toast," Cindy again declared. Kim grabbed
a single piece, took a quick bite and dropped the toast back on the
plate,
"Thanks Mom." Kim called out, crumbs spraying from her mouth as she
dashed out the door.
"But..." Cindy cried looking desperately from her daughter to the plate.
Kim was out the door and on her way out to her brother's car. Today,
she felt good. She could almost appreciate what it might be like to
actually be Kim for a while.
"Have a nice day!" Cindy called out as Kim left the door. Bobby was
waiting in his refurbished and cut down 66' Colony Park station wagon;
car warmed up and in idle.
She took her place in the passenger seat and strapped the seat belt
around her waist. "Good morning brother O'mine," she said cheerfully.
He had a very serious air to him, "Well Kim, that's something I've
wanted to talk about for a while now..."
Kim stopped and stared at him cautiously. What now? She wondered, "Talk
about what?"
"Well, see it's like this, you're adopted," Robert said with a grin.
"Shut up!" she cried, giggling.
Once there were on the road and alone, Robert confided in her, "Kirk was
hurt you didn't take his invitation to the prom."
"You didn't tell him, did you? Oh, Bobby he didn't have to know about
that yet."
"Hey the guy deserves to know. He's a friend of mine and I... Well,
asking Ben to take you... He didn't even ask, you had to Kim.
Kim turned to face him in the seat, "And I would have told him, when he
needed to know Bobby. God Bobby, Don't you think something like that
was my responsibility?"
"No! Not when it's my best friend, not when you're turning down you're
one true opportunity to have something valuable in this life. I mean,
just look at the guy. He could have any girl in school and he wants
you." Bobby said angrily, "This is why I feel I have to protect you the
way I do Kim. Its stupid mistakes like this that forces me to take
control and point you in the..."
It was time to let AutoKim take over. She relaxed, opened her mind and
let her mental triggers do their handy-work, "I don't like him Bobby.
And for your information, he does have any girl in school. I don't care
what he thinks or what you think about it. Besides, he gives me a major
case of the spinal creeps."
Robert squinted his eyes, confused. "Kirk? Ah... he's Okay, just eager
and motivated. He likes you Kimmy, and that's all that really matters.
He's going to be a huge football star one day. And I do mean huge..."
Robert rotated his hips in driver's seat to give a visual to his
metaphor.
Kim saw this and wrinkled her nose, "Gross. What makes you think I would
ever sleep with that pompous overstuffed meatball?"
"Because he's the closest thing to a real man you're going to find in
this town next to me. Since I'm off limits, thank you..."
"No thank you... again that's just too gross for word," Kim interrupted.
"I agree, so that leaves my buddy and competitor, Mr. Kirk Oswalter,
future gridiron superstar." Kim didn't answer, she remembered Bobby
pushing the Oswalter product on her last year when Kirk took an interest
in her. It had been a light push. Kirk was after all only a year and a
half older than she, but Kim had been fifteen then and Bobby knew that
something like that wouldn't sit will with their mother.
Gradually Bobby had increased the pressure for his buddy and former
teammate. As Kim could remember, there was barely a week that would go
by that Bobby would try to sell Kirk as some glorious and fantastic new
product for long term security and romance.
Finally Bobby broke the silence and said, "He wants to tale you to the
prom Kim. It's not too late." Robert kept his eyes forward.
Kim looked at Robert and assured him, "Yes it is."
"You turned him down in favor of that dweeb, Ben. He wants to ask you
again, the right way."
"He doesn't have to appease my vanity Bobby. I'm not asking anything
from him. I don't want what he's got. I just don't. What I want is
for him to leave me alone."
Robert remained silent and after a time, Kim asked, "No comment?"
"Nope!"
"I'm surprised." Kim admitted.
"So am I Kim. I guess that's why I have nothing to say," her brother
informed her. Kim had felt like a stranger in someone else's home the
night she put the mask on, now however, she could feel the love that
both personalities had for Robert. The feelings were exactly the same.
This surprised her most of all. She felt that as a girl, she would feel
differently about her brother. If asked to explain how, she wouldn't
have been able to give an answer. Talking to him now, it was not Robert
that had changed. This was the same old Bobby, in this world or any
other would. The fact that she was now his sister and not his brother
had changed the way he treated her.
"I don't like Kirk, Bobby."
"Okay," Robert simply said.
"What's that supposed to mean?" Kim asked back annoyed.
"It means Okay Kim, you don't like Kirk. You like Ben. Personally I
think you're better than that. But it's your choice." Robert fell silent
again.
"I don't like anyone. I just feel more comfortable around Ben, that's
all." She crossed her arms and huffed. How did he get me so defensive?
"And what do you mean, 'deserve better than that'?"
Now the surprise was evident on his face, "Have you seen yourself lately
Kim, you're PHAT."
"Excuse me?" She didn't want to be annoyed or cross, especially about a
vanity issue. She couldn't seem to entirely control it. It seemed to Kim
that when she was around people, she was going to interact as Kim,
whether she liked it or not. She simply had no control over it.
"Not fat! P H A T, Pretty, Hot And Tasty. Look Kim, even as your bother
I can see it. Shit, you grew up in to beautiful girl and you're more
like a grown woman everyday I see you.
"Oh," Kim replied flustered.
"Kim, I know you know this so I'll just come out and say it. You're hot.
You're going to grow up to be even hotter. Sometimes I'm sorry you're my
sister."
"Bobby!" Kim screeched in surprise, disgusted by the idea her brother
was suggesting.
"Well, look at you. Geezzzzzz. Can you blame Kirk?" Robert finished.
Kim thought about her answer, "You know he talks about me."
"Sure I do, he talks about you to me all the time," Robert admitted.
"No Bobby, he talks about me to others," Kim turned three shades of red
at the thought of what she was about to say. Before she could say it
however,
Robert broke in. "He likes you Kim. He wants to be by your side and
protect and care for you. I think he's in love with you. I think..."
There was surly more to follow, but now Kim just didn't wanted to hear
what a snow job Kirk had given her brother. "Don't think Bobby, just
listen. You're not at school anymore, so he feels safe talking about
me." Kim shifted in her seat a bit, "He's telling people he wants me
alright, he's telling them he wants me in the locker room, out at the
lake, in the back seat of his car." As harsh as it was, she dropped the
"F" bomb on him to drive her point home, so to speak. "He wants to fuck
me. He tells them how he wants to fuck me, how long he wants to fuck me
and WHERE he wants to fuck me Bobby," she watched him squirm for a
moment then added, "Paints a nice picture of your sister doesn't it?"
The car Robert was piloting wavered over the centerline and back again
unexpectedly, Kim squealed in surprise as it did and was quiet. "He...
he wouldn't do that Kim. I'm surprised at you. He just wouldn't do those
things! Not about you."
"Oh, but you know he's said it about other girls hasn't he? You don't
think that the jocks talk to their girlfriends. Bobby, their placing
bets on when he 'nails me' as they put it. Wake up Bobby, what makes
you think I'm any different in his eyes."
"Kirk's not like that..."
"Yes he is Bobby, so are you!" Kim surprised him badly with that one.
Robert slammed on the breaks and brought his station wagon to a
screaming stop, "Take that back Kim, right now," Kim recoiled from the
angry demand. She couldn't remember seeing Robert this mad in this
reality or any other for that matter.
Kim manned her guns however and refused, "No Bobby, I've heard the talk
about Susan Richards and Verona Cline. I've heard how you wanted to 'get
into their pants' and that's putting it nicely isn't it?"
"Who told you that?" he demanded to know.
"It doesn't matter. The fact is that Kirk wants me only as a fuck toy."
Robert winced at his baby sister's fowl mouthed metaphor, "Kim, I'm
warning you. Don't say that again."
"What's wrong Bobby, afraid your little sister is going to grow up and
find out what fucking is really all about. I already know!"
"You haven't... Ah, You..."
"No Bobby, I haven't had sex yet," Kim lied. The lie had a two pronged
purpose. First, just the realization, that as Kim, she had already had
sex and that it had been with a guy was enough to cause a stroke. In
fact, Kim's left eye lid had developed an almost imperceptible tick as a
result of the information. With the realization also came the memory of
the act with a host of conflicting emotions surrounding it. The lie
simply allowed Kim to remain in mental denial a while longer. Second,
and even more important, it wasn't any of Robert's business. "I don't
need to have sex to know about it or are baby sisters forbidden by law
from acquiring that kind of knowledge?"
Robert smiled at the idea, "If they aren't, they should be. As for you,
consider it a taboo subject, at least until your 45."
Ignoring him, Kim continued, "I'm not a kid Bobby, I'm human and one day
I'm going to do it. I just want to do it with someone I believe cares
more about me than... let me see how did Kirk put it, Oh yeah, I
remember, 'The snatch that stashed inside my pants'. That's a nasty way
of putting it, but I think it makes the point quite nicely."
Robert's fingers were dug into the foam steering wheel so hard his
knuckles were white. Kim couldn't tell if he was upset with her, Kirk,
someone else or everyone.
"Bobby?" she asked meekly. There was no pretence in her behavior; she
simply understood this was the best way to approach him when he was
angry.
"What!" he snapped.
"Are you angry with me?" Kim asked.
"No... Yes... No... Ah Hell, I don't know. Embarrassed more than
anything I guess." He took a deep breath, exhaled and turned to Kim,
"You're right, what you said about me, that was right. But it's just
guy talk you know... I never would have done anything to have humiliated
Susan or Verona. I just thought I was being, you know..."
"One of the guys," Kim finished and Robert nodded shamefaced. As she
watched the blush on her brothers face spread, she became aware of
something she found completely overwhelming. More than an idea or
something that could be articulated, Kim understood that her brother
respected her ideas, her thoughts more highly than many of his peers.
It's because I'm honest with him, I tell him exactly what I think. He
likes that in people. Even as Tim, Robert didn't spend much time to
understand his younger brother. Robert always thought him... quirky,
even a little odd.
Here, things were different. Even if she felt she was pushing his
patience, she still wielded a kind of power over him. It wasn't
limitless and it had to be used sparingly least he grow tired of its
influence, but it was there just the same. She understood its name too,
respect.
Kim pushed on with her lecture letting instinct and memory lead the way.
"You may not have set out to humiliate them, but they heard about some
of the things you said, and I was being nice by not mentioning it to you
in detail, you know that don't you?" Her brother groaned and slammed his
head on the steering wheel in frustration. "I don't want to go out with
someone that thinks of me as something he can rub his penis between. I'm
a person Bobby. Not something he can use to relieve a woody with.
That's all I'd be in his eyes."
"You know Kim, that's just locker room bullshit. All the guys do it;
most of them don't mean any harm by it." Bobby said but his heart
didn't seem convinced by the lame excuse. In fact, Robert was boiling
inside. He couldn't imagine how Kim must feel, but he knew she was right
about the rumors. It happened everywhere. Now his sister was the subject
of that filth.
It should have been obvious to both of them that she was going to become
the subject of such ideas. She was gorgeous. It had probably happened in
junior high as well, but high school was decidedly different. That was
the place where children grow to find the limits of who and what they
will become. Experimentation with the societal elements of what's
acceptable and what isn't often backfire horribly leaving a wake of hard
feelings for those victims of the experiment.
It was difficult for her brother to lump Kim into the body of girls he
had known as such a different breed of people. To Robert she was simply
his sister, just another one of the family. It didn't hurt that she was
totally unpretentious, polite, and sweet to a fault. She never really
primped or fawned over her good looks. If her hair got mussed or
tangled, she was just as happy to leave it as it was until she could
care for it correctly. She was so different from all the girls Robert
had known, it just never occurred that someone else might see her as he
had seen all the other girls in school, merely a conquest.
That's not to say she didn't care about her looks. She did! She took
care to watch what she ate, she exercised and was an active teen. Kim
took care to look good and dressed well, if not a bit provocative. That
was just his sister's style. She liked the racy look, tight clothes and
current styles made her feel in step with something she couldn't or
wouldn't define except to say that it defined how she felt inside. That
couldn't be helping the way the guys were seeing her. So in large part,
was Kim to blame as well? Robert didn't think so. Wasn't it her right to
dress the way she felt best dressing? The world was saying no. For
Robert, it was a double standard that he wasn't comfortable with when it
came to Kim.
For the most part she was sweet, little innocent Kimberly. She liked
everyone, as evidenced by her long term friendship with Ben as strained
as that was at times.
It broke his heart to think of Kim being spoken about like that by
people she had to interact with. A vision came to him, a vision of Kim
walking the halls at school. In the vision she was wearing one of her
ridiculously short mini-skirts, but something was amiss. The hem of her
skirt was caught in the waistband of her underwear in back. Everyone was
laughing as she walked by. One or two of the guys standing around would
race up behind her and pretend to air hump her. If she were to happen to
turn around and see them following her, she would only smile her most
genuine smile and keep moving toward her next class oblivious that she
was literally, the butt of all the laughter. That was his little
innocent sister, always thinking the best of everyone, everyone that is
except Kirk.
"When you say, 'didn't mean nothing by it,' you really mean like hurting
someone's feelings, making her look stupid or foolish in front of the
school population on her first year? You mean taking the honest
feelings of someone that has a crush on you and crushing them back for
giving you that gift? You mean things like that, right?" Kim asked
innocently.
"Shit, when did you start thinking so hard about this crap?"
"Oh, its crap is it? I'm sorry Bobby I didn't mean to bother you with
all this girl crap."
"Kim... come on." He reached out to pat her shoulder but Kim moved out
of his reach.
"No, Bobby really, I'm sorry to bother you with this. I'm obviously
making more of this than I need to." Even Kim was surprised by her
reaction to this. She genuinely felt hurt by her brother's response.
Even more confusing was the depth to which she had become engaged in
this subject. Where is this coming from?
But she knew where it was coming from. More and more of Kimberly was
coming back to her every second she remained in this body. Soon, she
suspected, going back to being Tim would be just as traumatic as finding
herself as she was.
"Look it doesn't make it right, it's just one of those things guys do.
Hell, Kimmy, guys would love for women to talk about them that way. We'd
be in heaven if women were slutty and trashy and came on to us that
way."
"So let me get this right..."
"Ugh!" Robert exclaimed aware he had inadvertently opened the lid to
Pandora's Box.
"If while you were dating Robin last year, she started talking to the
other girls about how she wanted to 'nail you' or if she were to come up
and say in front of all your friends something like," Kim put on her
raunchiest attitude, "'Hey there sugar dick, Mmmmmmm, you know I just
can't get through the day without a nice squeeze Baby. Come on over here
and let Mamma get a hand full of that...' then slap you on the ass.
You're saying that you'd be Okay with that?"
"Uh... Robin wouldn't have done anything like that."
"Oh," Kim asked, again in an innocent voice. "Why ever not?"
"Okay, I see your point," Robert finally admitted.
"There's a double standard out there Robert. It's in plain sight of
everyone and you guys just explain it away as being something guys do."
"Well Kim, there are some things that only guys do."
"Grrrrrrr." Kim growled. It was a habit she had developed as a little
girl that had developed into an involuntary response to things she got
very angry about. "Okay, like what?"
"Football!"
"Stupid sport, next."
"Baseball."
"On the same list, and not true by the way, lots of girls play
softball."
"I don't know how you can say those are stupid sports. You've never
said anything like that before. And as Captain of the cheerleading
squad I'm frankly just a little surprised, Kim. Okay how about this
military, combat!"
Kim was no longer listening. She had fallen wretchedly silent. Her
face cloudy and full of fear, 'I'm Captain of the... of the... of the
WHAT!' She wanted to shriek. 'I hate this...If I have to wear this face,
then why can't I have all the memories I need all at once, why am I
being rationed out memories as triggered? I don't know how to cheerlead!
What the fuck am I going to do now?' But as she searched the Kimmories
that had suddenly been bridged by Robert's admission, she found she did
know how to lead cheers. The lyrics, words and moves to all the cheers
in their catalog came back to her in horrifyingly vivid detail.
Then as they approached the school, something, or rather someone caught
her eye that took her mind off all the information inside her mind. On
the sidewalk stood a boy that had looked very much like Ben, with the
obvious exception that Ben didn't wear a book bag and was usually better
dressed than the boy she had seen. Kim turned in her seat to face the
direction as they passed to get a better look at the boy before he faded
out of sight. On second glance, she was surprised to find the boy
covered with what appeared to be leaves here and there stuck to his
shirt and pants, as if he'd been rolling on the ground. It sure looked
like Ben to her.
She tried to get his attention by waving to him, and although she was
not aware she was doing it, she smiled sweetly at him. But the boy
didn't respond. In fact, he looked down at his shoes, there seemed to
be something intensely interesting there that he didn't want to take his
eyes away from. As the car pulled around the corner of the drop-off-
circle, the boy in question was still looking at that something on his
shoes.
"Kim? What about the last one?" Robert was asking. He turned as saw her
facing the back of the station wagon, "What are you looking at?"
"Huh? What? Did you say something?" Kim came back unwillingly; she now
wished she'd never started this conversation. She couldn't even remember
what the conversation had been started over in the first place. The
predicament she was in was now far too accentuated in her head for her
to continue as she had only moments ago without seeming upset or odd to
her brother. Best to stop now before more flags were raised.
"Military, Kim. Forget sports, forget things like construction or things
like that... what about combat?"
"Uh... I don't know." She prayed now, that among other things, she would
be out of this realm before she had to put on a cheerleader uniform and
lead her squad in practice. School loomed in the foreground. It didn't
appear to have changed to her, but who could tell? Robert pulled up to
the curb in the drop off circle as Kim gathered her things. Now, going
to school didn't seem like such a good idea. Whatever else might have
or might not have changed, one thing was certain, she was a very
different person. God only knew what that might lead to.
Resolute to getting back to her former life however, she opened the car
door to get out, "Thanks Bobby." She said touching his arm. Robert
smiled but it was a pained smile. "
He was about to pull away when Kirk drove past in his Camaro. "Hey...
wasn't that?"
"Yep," Kim followed the cars tract with her eyes, "He's parking over
there with all the jock's and jockette's." Kim said with a sneer.
Robert looked at her with a funny puzzled look on his face, "Kim, you're
a jockette, remember?"
Kim snorted and said, "Yeah, please don't remind me." She backed away
from the car. "See ya."
"After school, I'll be here at 3:00 to pick you up," Robert glanced over
his shoulder to where Kirk and his cronies were parked. "Think I'll pay
a little visit to Kirk over there."
"Don't embarrass him Bobby, please," Kim begged.
"Now you're concerned about him? If half of what you told me was true,
I see that as a cause for his absence from the Home Coming game due to
an unexpected leg, neck, back, arm, shoulder, and ass injury." Robert
grinned at his sister. Without waiting for a response, Robert pulled
away. She watched as his car pulled across the space where Kirk's car
was parked effectively blocking it in.
Kim quickly turned and walked toward the school. Robert had a temper,
especially when it came to people messing with his baby sister. Among
her conflicting memories was one she remembered of her brother chasing
down the Tarzac kid, ambushing him in the middle of the street when they
had been younger. Robert had beat the kid until he had, as Bobby put
it, 'screamed like a little girl," for harassing and frightening Kim
just a few years ago.
The memory of the beating that boy had received, though well deserved
for the fright Warren Tarzac had given her had, none the less been
excessive and horrifying. Kim didn't want to see something like that
happen again. Kim shut the 'Kimmory' down before the movie could begin
to play in what she was sure would be terribly graphic detail.
Kim did her best to move quickly away and back to the edge of the school
where she had seen Ben standing, looking lost and confused. There was
no cheerfulness in the air. Kim moved with deliberate determination, her
eyes set forward, scanning the sidewalk in the distance for the
disheveled boy in the worn T-shirt and faded jeans they had passed on
the way onto the property.
An over-enthusiastic feminine voice called out, "Kim?" but it spawned no
recognition in Kim to turn and acknowledge its owner. "Kimberly?" it
called out again, then there was a tugging at her sleeve. "Kimberly."
It was Melinda Gilman. Kim remembered her from both this life and the
one that no longer existed. A hated enemy for Tim, she had been the
source of many indignities he had suffered in school. Melinda had hated
Tim for reasons unknown expect both boys had not been 'cool'.
Here however, Melinda had been sort of a friend. Kim could see however
that there was some sort of sinister feel to that friendship. Pleasant
on the outside, both Melinda and herself harbored dark feelings for one
another. And that's the way it is with girls... Kim's mind told her.
Most of the girls here feel that way about the others. It's a sort
of... rivalry thing. Even that wasn't quite right, but it was the
closest label she could put on it. Girls are far more competitive than
boys give them credit for being. A rivalry doesn't end with a
confrontation. Boys can slug it out and twenty minutes later, forget
there had ever been anything to fight over. Girls were far worse.
Their memories were long and their spite harsh and bitter.
Kim understood that Melinda was a shallow girl whose main motivation was
to find and capture the most eligible and wealthiest boy in school and
eventually marry him to secure her future. This fact had probably been
no different in Tim's world either but had been an element unknown until
she had become Kim. To Kim's disgust, when she spoke of such things,
she had a knack for making it sound like a 401(k) retirement plan.
Melinda pulled up along side Kim as she walked toward the school doors.
Kim understood that the fa?ade was merely designed to lower her
adversary's guard for some other purpose. Melinda wanted information.
"Hi Mel," Kim offered kindly, but to Kim the statement smacked of
sarcasm.
"I don't know why you call me that. You know I don't like the name Mel,
it makes me sound like some old bald fat sailor." Melinda returned,
making Kim grin just the slightest bit.
"Yes, I know," Kim admitted with a happy smile.
"I swear, if I didn't know better, I'd think you were doing that just to
annoy me."
"Well then Mel, it's a good thing you know better isn't it?" Kim said
cheerfully.
"Mmmmm, er yeah," Melinda said sounding slightly confused. "Anyway,"
Melinda said, blissfully dismissing anything that wasn't useful to her
primary purpose. "The word on the street is that you blew off Kirk for
the prom."
Kim stopped and turned to face Melinda, "Is there a reason the street
needs to know?"
"No, no reason. I was just curious why anyone would brush Kirk off. I
mean, I told everyone that it had to be a mistake, you know? Some kind
of vicious rumor..."
"I see..." Kim replied not tipping her hand. She resumed her march to
the school leaving Melinda standing, staring after her.
Melinda finally raced to catch up with her. "Well?"
"Well what?" Kim asked.
"Did you? Did you tell Kirk you didn't want to go to the prom with him?"
Kim stopped just shy of the steps to the front door, "No, I didn't."
Melinda looked absolutely crushed, and Kim decided to draw this out just
a moment or two longer. "I thought so, that damned Tracy Seeds, I
swear,"
"My brother did!" Kim interrupted, stopping Melinda in her tracks.
"Bobby did because I never told Kirk I was going to go to the prom with
him."
"Oh," Melinda said in wide-eyed surprise.
"Ben Ackerman asked me to go with him and I accepted," Kim turned and
mounted the steps and vanished into the school, leaving Melinda on the
walkway in stunned disbelief unable to speak.
Kim continued to scan the influx of teens for Ben's familiar scruff of
uncombed hair and his dark mysterious eyes in the faces of the kids that
passed. It was soon apparent that something else was happening. Almost
everyone was looking back at her for some reason. There were waves and
hellos and greetings from almost every eye, hand or mouth that passed
within twenty feet of her. The distraction was enormous and
disconcerting. Before long she was avoiding making eye contact. Still
the calls continued.
If Kim wasn't the prettiest girl in school, she was at least in the
running and raked high in