Ovid 21 - The Answers
By The Professor
I awoke from an unplanned nap with a start. In spite of the pleasant
sounds of an early summer day - the barking of a dog several yards away,
the sounds of the sprinkler watering the yard next door, and the muffled
sound of a baseball game on TV coming from inside the house where Jerry
was watching a KC Royals game, and the soft buzz of a pesky fly - I had
awakened in an agitated state. I had been dreaming as I lay on the
comfortable chaise lounge on our shaded patio. It was a very, very bad
dream, for I had been dreaming I was a man.
Odd that I should think of being a man as bad, I smiled to myself. But
there it was. How differently I now thought, I mused, considering that I
had been born male and had always been very happy of it - until The
Judge turned me into a woman.
I had been a woman - a wife and a mother, no less - for several years
now, ever since The Judge had turned me into Cindy Patton, his
assistant. I had come to not only become accustomed to being a woman,
but to actually embrace it as well. I had become used to dressing in
skirts and heels and enjoying the looks men gave me. Sure, I could stand
to lose a pound or two, but I was blonde and well endowed, and I could
have probably passed for no more than thirty, although I was, in fact...
well, that's nobody's business, really.
The experience of being forced into a new life in Ovid was a familiar
one to almost all of us who lived there - or at least those of us who
had been transformed by The Judge and were fortunate enough to retain
our original memories. We all went through the same trial by fire,
learning to deal with who we had become - often having to accept a new
age, race, sex, or some combination of all of them. And we all went
through the same stages of disbelief, denial, anger, and acceptance
until we at last became happy with who we had become.
So you see, awakening from a dream in which I had regained (or perhaps
never lost) my original sex was now unsettling and distasteful. I was a
woman - now and forever - and I wouldn't have given up my new life and
my wonderful new family for anything.
There was, however, one thing which gnawed at me - at many of us in Ovid
for that matter. The burning question which many of us yearned to have
answered was short and simple: why were we here? No, that wasn't a
metaphysical question; we all wanted to know why this change had been
forced upon us.
The gods of ancient Greece and Rome had established Ovid for a purpose;
that much seemed clear. However, no one seemed to know what that purpose
was - except the gods, of course. There was no doubt we were all a part
of that purpose, but what was it? Susan Jager and I undoubtedly knew
more of the gods' purpose than anyone else in town, but when you got
right down to it, even we didn't know very much.
Again, I asked myself, why are we here?
Little did I realize on that warm, early summer day that my burning
question was about to be answered.
I had closed my eyes again - not to sleep, but to listen to the summery
sounds, aware that soon Ashley would awaken from her nap, the twins
would be home after visiting their friends, Jerry would awaken from his
well-deserved nap in front of the television, and the house would erupt
into the loving chaos that was a family night at the Patton house. I
smiled at the thought, disturbing dreams of being saddled once more with
a penis scattering from my mind.
"Now all you need is a cold lemonade," a woman's voice floated on the
warm air.
I turned my head to see Diana, my goddess friend, a frosty glass filled
with pink lemonade in her hand. Gratefully I accepted the glass and
sipped. It was the best lemonade I had ever tasted. I was tempted to ask
her for the recipe, but something told me that some if not all of the
ingredients would be a little hard to come by.
"Fantastic!" I breathed.
Diana sat next to me in a patio chair which had been on the other side
of the deck less than a second before. She was smiling as she looked at
me, but her eyes spoke of concern.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"You're needed in The Judge's chambers," she informed me gently. "Right
away," she added.
"On a Sunday?" I sat up. "Is there something wrong?" The Judge was good
about not interrupting my weekends unless there was an emergency. Given
that some of the latest emergencies had meant peril for my family, I was
instantly alert, the taste of the lemonade suddenly sour in my mouth.
Diana laid a gentle hand on my bare shoulder. "Don't worry. It's nothing
like that." I knew she couldn't read minds. None of the gods could
exactly do that, but she had known me long enough to be able to read my
expressions and body language. She paused for a moment. Then she asked,
"You know what's happening tomorrow, don't you?"
I nodded. Yes, I knew tomorrow was to be a big day in Ovid. Well, not
exactly in Ovid, but what was to happen would have a significant effect
on our town. Tomorrow in Tulsa, where most outsiders believed Vulman
Industries was headquartered, our town's biggest employer would announce
the Freedom Engine. The Freedom Engine was the accomplishment of
Vulman's engineers, created as only it could have been with the
seemingly-endless resources of the gods. It was so called because it ran
for hundreds of thousands of miles, fueled by light itself, and the only
petroleum products it required were small amounts of oil whose job it
was to lubricate the mechanical workings.
The Engine was as revolutionary as the Wright Brother's airplane, or the
atomic bomb. Overnight the demand for oil would drop drastically, and
the price of petroleum products with it. Oil stocks would suffer
catastrophic collapse, and leaders in the Middle East and other oil-
producing areas who had had their own way for decades would be ruined.
Just the announcement of the Engine would cause all of that. Then once
the world learned that Vulman planned to license the new device for a
fraction of its true value... well, the results according to the Oracle
would be immense. Unfortunately not all of those immense results would
be positive.
I knew, of course, that the gods had a plan for the chaos that would
ensue. Without a plan, the entire Moslem world was in danger of slipping
into revolution and catastrophic war. But although I knew more about the
actions of the gods than any other human in Ovid, I was still in the
dark as to what they would do.
"We need to make certain that things are... on track," Diana told me as
I started for the house to get changed.
"On track?" I asked as she followed me into the house. I looked over at
my husband who was asleep on the couch. I knew my younger daughter would
still be asleep, too. Diana often spelled them to sleep when The Judge
needed to see me on short notice. I didn't worry about them, though.
Somewhere, a godly guard - probably Officer Mercer - would be watching
over them to ensure that no harm befell them.
"Yes, on track," Diana repeated, but she didn't elaborate. As long as I
had been in Ovid, she and I had been good friends, but the secrets of
the gods were just that - secrets. There was no way she would tell me
what was so important to their project.
When we arrived in The Judge's chambers, I was not surprised to see
several of the more senior gods there as well: the Marches, actually
Mars and Venus, were seated together on the leather couch. Betty Vest
stood beside them, looking every inch the college president, but of
course I knew her to be Vesta. In one corner, Eric Vulman sat in a large
leather chair, the only physical attribute which might have identified
him as Vulcan being the way he held one leg slightly stiff. Ms. Miner,
the Superintendent of Public Schools sat on the arm of his chair,
looking as wise as one would expect of the goddess Minerva.
To my surprise, Susan Jager was also in the room, seated in one of the
other leather chairs. My best friend and colleague smiled warmly at me,
and I smiled back. She looked very content and very happy, for she had
just learned the previous week that she was pregnant again, this time
with her second child. I was glad to see that Joshua would have a
sibling to play with.
And finally, my eyes turned to The Judge. He looked confident and not at
all worried as he reclined in his large leather swivel chair situated
behind his desk. He wore an expensive dark suit, white shirt, and
conservative red tie, which was his usual attire. Silently he motioned
me to the chair just in front of his desk. When I was seated, he said,
"Thank you, Cindy, for coming in on such short notice."
"No problem, Your Honor." And it wasn't. I had been asked on any number
of occasions to come in at odd hours. I suspected the gods never slept,
and no one seemed to know where they lived and played in their off
hours, so I was used to the situation.
"Now that we're all here," The Judge continued, "we can begin our final
check before the Engine is introduced tomorrow. Cindy, I would like for
you to review the case of Joan Sheppard."
"Joan Sheppard?" I echoed. "But she's been here since last fall." Almost
invariably, I was asked to review the case of a newcomer to Ovid, just
to make certain they were fitting in well. Joan's case had never been
reviewed though, and I would be the one to know, since I was the sole
repository of their stories. Joan Sheppard had been around long enough
that she had blended in well, often coming to my house when Myra
Smithwick was babysitting for me.
"When you've finished with your review, I believe you'll understand why
this is so important," The Judge told me. He looked over at Susan and
back to me. "For the past few years, you two have performed invaluable
services for our community. I realize you must have been curious about
our motives, and the time had now come for you to learn of our plans. As
you review Ms. Sheppard's case, the truth of Ovid will unfold for you -
as I know you have been curious about for several years. Then when we
are done, I'll fill in any of the blanks which still exist. Is that
satisfactory?"
We both nodded. I was excited, and I could see from Susan's expression
that she was, too. We had speculated from the time we had become friends
as to what the true purpose of Ovid was. We knew the Engine was a big
part of it, and we knew that a devastating war could be in our future if
the gods failed, but everything we had already learned had told us that
whether or not the Engine was introduced, the war would still happen,
unless..
Unless what?
We hadn't been able to figure that part out, but apparently the gods
had.
In recent months, we had found our own families under siege, but we had
reasoned that that was because of our association with The Judge and the
other gods. However, recently we had come to realize that the reason for
enemies of the gods targeting us might be more specific.
Were we really about to learn the answers?
"Then let's begin," The Judge ordered.
That was all it took to start me into my trance. Slowly, the room began
to fade, and I began to lose all sensation. Instead I could feel myself
in a dreamless sleep, in darkness, yet moving as if...
***
I was awakened at the sound of a "thump" as I experienced a teeth-
jarring shudder that nearly threw me out of my seat. It happened so
suddenly that I took a few moments to remember exactly where I was. The
sensation of movement and the occasional light whizzing by outside the
tinted window which amplified the darkness of the night reminded me that
we were on my bus, cruising through the middle of an Oklahoma night
toward Bartlesville, our next destination.
"What was that?" a groggy voice called out from the row of seats across
from the row where I had been trying to stretch out and catch at least a
couple of hours of much-needed sleep.
"Pothole," a voice called back from the front of the bus. As if to
emphasize his remark, the bus shuddered again, only this time not as
violently. "The road's full of them. Must be the spring thaws. All that
ice on the road in these parts last winter chewed up the asphalt
something fierce. I guess they didn't have the money to fix 'em this
summer."
"Then slow down a little," Aden Cross called out in his clipped British
accent from the row just behind me. "We need to get some rest."
He was right about that, I thought. If I had realized when we were
setting up our tour just how arduous this portion of our schedule would
be, I would never have agreed to it. We were required to pack up late at
night in Broken Bow, Oklahoma, and travel all the way to Bartlesville
overnight to set up for a big Friday revival meeting there. It was bad
planning, I'll admit, but the money we were being offered by a large
church in Bartlesville was just too much to pass up. We were offered a
guarantee of eighty-five percent of the take, plus lodging for our
entire staff. Deals that good didn't come in every day.
Besides, our TV show - God Sees You - was broadcast locally in
Bartlesville, so the audience would be a lot more responsive than most
of the smaller towns on our revival tour. That built-in audience, plus
the expected turnout from the sponsoring congregation, spelled a big
weekend. We were going to be doing meetings both Friday and Saturday,
plus I would be taping my TV show for the following week from the
sponsoring church on Sunday afternoon.
Most of my staff was excited about the prospects - even if it meant
traveling the back roads of Oklahoma on a supposed shortcut north in the
middle of the night. The staff had loudly thanked God for the
opportunity when it was announced. I, however, had remained silent.
After all, of all of my staff I alone seemed to know something they did
not: There was no God.
Don't be so shocked. Any number of evangelists are hypocrites to one
extent or another. Look at all the ones who rise to power in the big
mega-churches, preaching damnation for infidelity, homosexuality, drug
use, and every imaginable "sin" short of bad breath, only to fall from
grace, weeping from the pulpit about how sorry they were when caught
cheating on their wives with a gay lover while taking drugs. At least I
didn't do any of those things. I lived a pretty puritanical life when
you got right down to it - no drugs, no gay lovers, no expropriation of
funds, although I do admit to living fairly well.
But I must admit, I was as hypocritical of any of my wayward
counterparts in that one respect: while they mostly believed in God in
their own warped ways, I had lost my faith the night my wife and unborn
son perished.
Oh, it wasn't just that incident. Rather, the deaths of my wife and
unborn child were merely the straws that broke the proverbial camel's
back. Before that, I had watched helplessly as many of the faithful who
followed me died slowly and painfully of a myriad of maladies -
including my own parents. By the time I was left alone in the world, my
parents, brother, and wife and soon-to-be born child had all been taken
from me. Whose faith wouldn't be shattered after that?
I nearly left the ministry. Morally, I should have, but what was I to
do? It was all I had ever known. I had been the son of a Lutheran
minister, stern and dictatorial in managing my mother, my brother and
me. I had grown up seeking my father's approval as had been drilled into
me from the moment I could walk and talk. There was no doubt that I,
Hans Groenwald III would follow my two namesakes into the pulpit.
That's right - my grandfather was a Lutheran minister as well. He
emigrated from Germany after the Second World War. From him, my father
inherited an authoritarian style which fortunately was not passed down
to me. No, I vowed I would treat my son with respect and not drive him
away as my father had driven my younger brother Henry away. Henry joined
the Army as soon as he could and died in Baghdad early in the
occupation.
My thoughts of my departed family were interrupted by yet another jolt
as the bus shuddered and then stopped. The engine was still running, but
we weren't moving.
"Edgar, what's wrong now?"
"I don't know," Edgar, our driver, called back. "That last hole was
pretty good-sized. I think we may have broken an axle."
That brought groans from nearly all twelve of us on the bus - including
me. A broken axle out in the middle of nowhere wasn't good. We'd be late
into Bartlesville for sure, perhaps without enough time to set up
properly.
"I thought you knew this shortcut," Aden grumbled to our driver.
"I thought I did," Edgar replied, obviously not too happy with himself.
"I think they changed the road, though. This one doesn't look like it's
been maintained for a long time. It doesn't look like we'll be going
anywhere for a while." As if to emphasize the point, he shut down the
engine.
"Better open a door," Marlin, our organist, called out from a few seats
back. "When you shut down the engine, the air conditioning stopped."
"No!" Aden called out. "We won't get any circulation. It's still hot
outside and cool in here."
No one realized it at the time, but Aden's perfectly sensible statement
would nearly cost all of us our lives.
What we found out later was that the damage hadn't been caused by spring
thawing. Rather unusually heavy summer rains had played havoc with the
road our driver had chosen. Had the road been an important one,
emergency repairs might have been arranged, but the road wasn't used
much anymore. Before dozing off, I hadn't noted more than a handful of
cars going the other way. Unbeknownst to our driver, the road had been
downgraded to county maintenance, and since it was used only by a few
local farmers, it had a very low priority. That was why there were
potholes the size of tank traps along its length.
Worse yet, there were several unmarked - or under-marked - hazards along
the road, including a railroad crossing exactly where the bus had
stopped. While most railroad crossings had gates and/or flashing lights,
the one we had stopped on had neither, since the track was only a spur
with two trains a day. Of course, I learned all of this much later.
"Do you hear something?' Annabelle Mason's sweet voice asked in the
darkness.
Everyone had been talking at once, blocking any outside noise. I suppose
since Annabelle was our female vocalist, she may have had the most acute
hearing. The area around the bus was heavily wooded, and the track took
a sudden bend about a hundred yards from the crossing, so perhaps we can
be excused for not hearing the train or seeing its lights until it was
too late.
Someone in the back of the bus screamed, as we all looked to our right
to see the approaching lights of what we at once recognized to be a
train. It wasn't moving terribly fast - probably under fifty miles an
hour, but it would reach us in a matter of scant seconds. Given its
momentum, the bus would be scrap metal in seconds, and as for its
passengers...
It's impossible for me to describe everything that happened in the next
few moments. Urgent screams and shouts seemed to come from everywhere.
Edgar was trying to get the bus door open, but in the panic-inducing
darkness, he must have hit the wrong switch, for the door remained
closed. Outside, the wail of the diesel's horn became louder and
shriller, compressed by the Doppler effect until it hurt our ears.
They say a person's entire life flashes before him at the moment of
certain death. I wouldn't say that to be true, though. The only thing
that rushed through my mind was relief. My life had become empty and
meaningless, my family dead and my ministry a sham. I didn't look
forward to being reunited with my loved ones in a better world, for I
didn't believe in one. I merely wanted the pain to end but had never had
the courage or determination to end it myself. The crushing blow of the
train would be my salvation. I simply stared in fascination into the
bright lights as they came closer and closer.
Then something happened...
I didn't understand what was happening at the time. None of us did. How
could we? We were facing certain death, and then the bus lurched at the
very moment the train should have hit. The train's horn dropped in pitch
as darkness replaced light behind the bus. We stood in disbelieving
silence as the cars of the train rumbled past us in the night.
"The train must have pushed us off the tracks," Aden theorized softly.
"It must have," I agreed, equally softly.
"God was looking out for us," he pronounced. "He has a plan for us."
"Amen!" Marlin called out.
Annabelle began to sing in her strong soprano: "To God be the glory,
great things He has done..."
The others chimed in at the second line: "So loved He the world that He
gave us His son..."
I hoped they noticed that I wasn't singing. I didn't feel like singing
praises to a non-existent deity. Even if He did exist, I had no reason
to sing of his praises, for He had deprived me of the escape from this
life that I so desperately craved.
My staff's joy was short-lived, though. As soon as Edgar managed to
start the engine back up, he turned on the cabin lights. The singing
stopped in mid-stanza as we looked around. When we had all boarded the
bus, there had been fifteen of us representing all of the non-technical
people in our crew. Now there were only five of us.
"Where's everybody else?" Marlin asked, voicing what we had all been
thinking.
"They must have gotten out through the emergency door in the rear," Aden
suggested.
Edgar squelched that idea in a hurry. "I'd have a light on the panel
indicating the door had been opened," he told us. "There's no light,
though."
"But they had to have gotten out somehow," I pointed out. "People don't
just disappear."
"Oh my God!" Annabelle murmured. "You don't suppose they got out through
the rear and were hit by the train, do you?"
We all looked at each other in shock. Then Edgar opened the front door
of the bus and scrambled out, the rest of us following closely on his
heels. I was afraid we would find the bloody remains of our friends
scattered along the path between the rear of the bus and the nearby
railroad tracks. I tried to suppress the image of my wife's body among
the supposed wreckage of human flesh, as I had seen in my mind her after
her own accident. I was afraid our friends would look much as she had
looked when the truck hit her broadside, leaving her as a heap of
unrecognizable carnage. I had been spared the actual sight of my dead
wife immediately after the accident, but I had often imagined the image
of her torn body in my mind.
To our surprise, there was no sign of the remains of our friends. The
rear emergency door on the bus was undisturbed, and there was no
evidence of any foot traffic behind the bus. To both our puzzlement and
our relief, there were no mangled bodies to be seen.
We stood silently, the only sound being the chirp of insects and the
distant rumble of the departing train. I don't think any of us had the
slightest notion as to what had happened to our friends. How could we?
Even if we had known, we wouldn't have believed it - then.
"I'm calling for help," Aden finally announced, breaking the silence and
whipping out his cell phone. He punched in 911 and waited for a reply. A
moment later, he frowned. "No answer. There must not be any cell service
here."
"Just exactly where is here?" Marlin asked, looking around uncomfortably
at the gloomy darkness around us.
"That's Edgar's department," I told him.
We all looked at Edgar, who could only shrug. "I'm not sure," he
admitted. "I think we must have missed the right road a while ago. I
haven't seen any road signs for the past thirty minutes, and nothing
around here looks familiar."
"Come look at this!" Annabelle called from the bus. While we had been
looking around, she had returned to the bus, probably to avoid the
expected carnage from our missing friends.
We piled back on the bus. Annabelle was in the back of the cabin with a
puzzled look on her face.
"What's wrong?" I asked, unable to see anything wrong. All we were
staring at was empty bus seats.
"Don't you see?" she asked plaintively.
"I don't see anything," Aden said, looking around.
"That's just it!" she returned. "There's nothing here - no evidence that
there was ever anyone here. There's no suitcases, no personal
belongings... nothing."
"Maybe they took everything with them," Edgar theorized.
"Not likely," I commented, looking under one of the seats for some
evidence of recent habitation. "We only had a few seconds of warning.
Even if they managed to open the emergency door and get away, they
wouldn't have had time to gather all of their belongings."
"Or close the rear door," Aden added.
"It's a miracle!" Annabelle declared. "Praise God." Sorry, I thought, I
don't believe in miracles, but of course I didn't tell her that. I just
murmured "amen" with the others. And while I didn't believe in miracles,
I had to believe the evidence of my own eyes. Ten people had seemingly
disappeared - or had they? We were all tired that evening - exhausted
really. Had we just imagined that ten more of our number had boarded the
bus with the five of us who remained? Mass delusions were possible; that
was a proven fact. There was no other answer, really. Ten people and all
of their belongings could simply not have vanished from the back of the
bus.
But that begged the question: where had the other ten gone? If they had
never boarded the bus, where were they? Perhaps Edgar had mistakenly
thought they were ensconced in the darkness at the back of the bus when
he pulled out of the site of our ministry in Broken Bow. Of course if
that was the case, why hadn't they called us? Surely the cell phones
worked in Broken Bow.
Perhaps they had opted to go on the other bus - the one loaded with all
of our props and equipment. That bus would be a couple of hours behind
us. Maybe there was some miscommunication which made them think they
were supposed to take the other bus. That would explain why they hadn't
called us. They were probably sleeping peacefully on the second bus,
unaware that we were concerned about them. It had to be that, I
reasoned. There was no other reasonable solution.
I told the others as much. Annabelle and Marlin looked rather
crestfallen at the suggestion that the answer was less than miraculous.
Aden agreed, though. "As much as I would like to witness such a
compelling miracle, I have to agree with Hans. Perhaps we should just be
happy with the miracle we did indeed witness - our deliverance from an
accident with the train. Only God's intervention could have caused the
train to push us away like that."
"There's another miracle as well," Edgar called out from outside the bus
door. None of us had realized he had even left. "I just checked the rear
axle. I could have sworn it was broken, but it's just fine. When the
train bumped us, it must have somehow shaken everything back into
working order."
"Then we're not stranded?" I asked hopefully.
Edgar shook his head. "It doesn't look like it, but as soon as the shops
open in Bartlesville tomorrow, I'd better take the bus in. If the axle
is bent rather than broken, we'll get some uneven tire wear and a real
bumpy ride."
In short order, we were moving again, but I doubted if any of us got any
sleep. The road was too rough for sleeping; Edgar even had to swerve
occasionally to avoid some of the larger ruts. Besides the rough, rocky
ride, each of us was undoubtedly thinking about our missing comrades.
Sure, we knew if had to be just a mix-up. They had to be on the other
bus. There was no other logical explanation.
How were we to know that logic had been stranded by the side of the road
the moment we had turned off the main highway?
Eventually, the road smoothed out, and the countryside began to change,
even in the darkness. Instead of negotiating tight curves through
forested hills, we were back on a smoother road with the trees
sufficiently thinned to give us a view of the lights of farms. It was
too late (or rather too early in the morning) for the farmers to be up,
but we could see security lights passing by our windows. It felt good to
be back in civilization.
I took the jump seat behind Edgar. "Any idea where we are?"
"Not the foggiest," he replied. "We need to get a GPS before our next
tour."
"It looks like there may be a town up ahead," I told him, pointing at a
cluster of lights ahead and to the right perhaps three or four miles
away.
"Yeah. Then I can check the map and see where we are," he said. "Maybe
we should cancel tonight's service in Bartlesville. Everyone is going to
be dead on their feet."
"I wish I could," I sighed, "but we need Bartlesville if we plan to make
any money on this tour." Attendance had been less than anticipated.
There were just too many evangelists in the business anymore, especially
with the ones on TV and resident in the large city churches. Our take
had been dropping for the past two years. It was only our own TV show
that kept us in the black.
"There's a sign," Edgar nodded to our right. "'Welcome to Ovid,' it
says."
"Where's Ovid?"
He shrugged. "Don't know. I thought I knew every town in the state. It
must be pretty small."
But it didn't look that small. Oh, it wasn't a city certainly, but it
looked to be a town of several thousand people, judging from how spread
out the lights ahead were.
"At least the road is getting better," I noted as the lanes split
forming a divided highway. Small roadside businesses were beginning to
appear, reflected in the light of sodium vapor street lights. They were
closed, of course, but they looked well-kept enough to indicate that
during the day, they did a brisk business. None of them appeared to be
national franchises though, so I suspected the town wasn't quite as big
as it looked.
"Looks like they roll up the sidewalks around here," Edgar commented,
running a hand through his dark, thinning hair. "We seem to be the only
vehicle on the road."
The roadside buildings became more clustered, until they were finally
continuous. Traffic lights began to sprout up as well, and side streets
sported awnings of trees - mostly oaks, that sheltered neat, modest
houses reflected in the beam of the streetlights.
"Nice little town," I said to Edgar. He seemed about to reply when
seemingly out of nowhere, a siren wailed and Edgar's balding head was
reflected in alternating red and blue lights.
Edgar looked to his left. I followed his gaze to see a police car at our
side. "Where did he come from?" Edgar wanted to know.
"Must have come in from a side street," Aden mused.
Maybe so, I thought, but wouldn't be have at least seen his headlights,
or maybe the cruiser reflected in a street light? I had been looking
down the side streets and had seen no sign of any traffic. I supposed it
was possible that his lights had been out for some reason, and that he
had been further back, out of the light.
Edgar pulled the bus to the curb, and we all felt the vehicle shudder as
it had when we had found ourselves stranded at the railroad crossing. He
cut the lights, opened the door and began rummaging around to find our
registration. As for the police car, it had pulled up in front of us and
cut the engine, but left the intimidating lights on.
The figure that emerged from the police car was tall and slim, wearing a
dark Stetson and an immaculate uniform consisting of what could have
been either a gray or light blue shirt (it was hard to tell in the
darkness) and dark trousers. But most surprising was the fact that
although it was still night, he was wearing mirror shades with wire rims
just like small town police always did in the movies.
He stepped onto the bus with what I thought was a foolish lack of
caution. For all he knew, the bus could be loaded with a gang of
desperate prison escapees, armed to the teeth and ready to cut him down
before he could get both feet inside the door.
"G...good evening, Officer," Edgar stuttered.
The officer nodded, turning his gaze away from Edgar and toward me.
"Your bus has a bent axle," he informed me laconically.
"We hit a large pothole just a few miles out of town," I explained,
relieved that he was just alerting us to the sorry condition of our axle
- or so I thought.
"It's illegal to drive a seriously-damaged vehicle in Ovid," he informed
us. "I'm going to have to take you in. The Judge will want to see you."
"Officer," I began, "we're in a terrible hurry. We're due to conduct a
prayer meeting in Bartlesville this evening. If you'd just issue us a
citation and tell us where we could rent say... a van to get to
Bartlesville, you'd be helping us do the work of the Lord."
"Sorry," he responded without pausing even an instant to think about it.
He didn't sound sorry, though. Apparently he believed in the letter of
the law more than he believed in the Lord. Given my own views on the
subject, I supposed I couldn't blame him.
Another police car pulled in just in front of the officer's car. In my
sleep-deprived mind, I giddily imagined a team of officers bounding out
of the car, guns drawn with one screaming, "Drop that Bible and back
away slowly!" Instead no one got out of the car, but its presence was
soon explained.
"Reverend Groenwald, if you, Reverend Cross, and Ms. Mason will come
with me, your other staff members can ride in the other car."
He knew our names? Oh, of course. The name of our program, "God Sees
You" was emblazoned on the side of the bus, and the officer probably
watched the show and knew who we were, I reasoned. Marlin was not as
well-known, since the cameras would only briefly pan on our organist,
and of course there was no reason why he would know our driver. But as I
was soon to find out, it was very likely that the officer - Officer
Mercer we would soon learn - knew more about everyone on the bus than we
could have ever imagined.
The three of us sat together in the back seat of the police car for the
short drive to see this judge. We were all from small towns, although
Aden's small town was in England, so his experiences may have been
different. Annabelle, from her center seat, and I exchanged knowing
glance, though. We were familiar with the expression "speed trap." Small
towns throughout America were often the home offices of such activities.
A crooked judge and at least one greedy police officer were all that
were required to fleece unwary motorists. We would be presented with
trumped up charges and be offered to opportunity to pay a "fine" that
would never be entered in the records, but rather would be split between
the judge and the police once we were out of town. The locals never
minded much - as long as the scam didn't involve arresting and fleecing
them.
I only hoped that the fine was halfway reasonable. Since the officer had
recognized us, there was a very good chance that he intended to shake us
down more than the average motorist. Our current tour hadn't been
terrifically successful as it was, so a substantial fine would be felt
sorely.
To take my mind off the ritual fleecing we were about to endure, I
looked out the window at the town of Ovid. It was hard to tell much so
late at night - or so early in the morning if you will. The houses we
passed were dark, as all the good little Ovidians had to be snug in
their beds, unaware (or unconcerned) regarding out plight. From what
little I could see in the pale light of the streetlights, the houses
were neat and well maintained. I made a mental note to consider Ovid on
next year's tour, since any small town where the houses were well-kept
was probably a prosperous small town that would welcome our message with
open wallets.
It wasn't long until we were pulling up in front of an impressive public
building. It, too, was dark - except for a few lights near the entrance.
We were escorted into the building, and to no surprise, the lighted area
turned out to be the Police Department. No one was tending the reception
desk, and we soon realized that the officer who had arrested us would
also be checking us in. Convenient, I thought. He would probably keep us
in a holding area while he got his judicial counterpart out of bed for a
quick and speedy trial that would see us on our way a number of dollars
lighter before the local employees staggered into work - none the wiser
that the shake down had even occurred.
Marlin and Edgar looked a little unsettled as the officer retired to an
office, presumably to get some paperwork.
"What's wrong?" I asked Marlin, careful to speak softly so as not to be
overheard by the officer.
"The cop who brought us down here..." he began.
"What about him?" I prompted.
"He's the same one as the one who brought you in," he finished
nervously.
"Maybe he has a twin brother on the force," Aden suggested.
"Let's just hope he's a triplet and that his brother is the judge," I
grumbled, looking at my watch. It was nearly three in the morning. I had
a lunch meeting with the senior pastor of our sponsoring church in
Bartlesville. At this rate, I wasn't going to get any sleep before our
meeting. I'd be fortunate if I had a chance to shave and change my shirt
at this rate. I recalled an old movie where the judge was called in
wearing his nightshirt to hold a speedy trial. I sincerely hoped our
judge would be equally anxious to shake us loose from our money and shoo
us on our way.
The officer finished whatever he had been doing and called to us, "This
way."
Any hope I had of being led immediately to a courtroom was dashed when I
saw he was guiding us into a small, brightly-lit cell block.
Disheartened, I rushed to the officer's side. "Look, Officer..."
"Mercer," he supplied, staring at me through his ever-present mirrored
shades, his face expressionless.
"Officer Mercer," I acknowledged. "We have a prayer meeting in
Bartlesville this evening, and really would appreciate it if we could
just... pay a fine and be on our way. You see, I'm - "
"I know who you are, Reverend Groenwald," he broke in using that same
neutral tone. "The Judge will hear your case first in the morning. That
will be at nine."
"Nine! But I have to be in Bartlesville by noon!"
I almost thought I saw a thin smile on the officer's face. "I wouldn't
worry about that, Reverend. Now if you'll step inside this cell..."
Sighing, I obeyed. At least we all were given individual cells, and the
way the doors faced, most of them offered a reasonable degree of
privacy. Only Aden and I had cells that faced each other.
"At least we'll get some sleep," Aden sighed, sitting down on the small
but clean bed. I did the same, surprised to find it was fairly
comfortable. "Do you think we'll have to call off the Bartlesville
event?"
"Let's hope not," was all I could reply.
I tried to get some sleep, but I was too keyed up from the night's
events. Of primary concern, of course, was Aden's question. The
Bartlesville event was to have been the crowning jewel in an otherwise
mediocre tour. Rescheduling was out of the question. Summer was the best
time for our events, and summer was all but over. Oh, we'd make do
without Bartlesville, but it would be a long winter.
There was another concern keeping me awake, though. I could still see
the train bearing down on us, its lights strobing into our crippled bus,
its horn blaring a warning which could not be heeded. Since the death of
my family, I had always thought I was ready to die. Oh, I had no
illusions about meeting them in a non-existent heaven. I merely felt
there was nothing to live for.
But when the train missed us, mingled with the disappointment I had felt
at not having the misery of my life end, I had felt something akin to
relief. My conscious mind told me there was nothing to live for, and I
had abided by its dictates since the deaths of my wife and unborn child.
But the relief had come from someplace deep within me - someplace where
a part of me wanted to live. Or at least someplace where a part of me
was afraid to die.
I had believed, once upon a time. People want to believe in a supreme
being and a life eternal. Without them, the universe is without meaning
and life had little purpose. The work I did as an evangelist was easy
work, for people wanted to believe what I said - even if I didn't
believe it myself. But most people don't just believe for believing's
sake. They believe because there's a promise of a life beyond this one.
It's quid quo pro really: Hey God, I'll believe in you and say the right
prayers and sing the right hymns and you can assure me a cozy afterlife.
Yes, I had believed that, too, once upon a time, but no more. The upside
of that was a sort of spiritual freedom to go my own way. But the
downside of it, as I had learned as the train bore down on us, was that
some day, without any warning probably, my life would be over and there
would be nothing beyond. Eternal rest? Bah! Eternal nothingness awaited
me.
Maybe, I rationalized, I was doing good work. I was convincing the rubes
that there was something to look forward to after our lives. That would
at least make them feel good, and when they died - nothing! But they'd
take their dying breath waiting to be carried up to their Lord. Not a
bad deal, really, and I helped them think that way.
Looking back on my vigil that night, my thoughts were cynical and
perhaps a little vain, but how was I to know how my beliefs - or rather
lack of beliefs - were about to be shattered?
I did finally manage to doze off, but it was not a restful sleep. I was
awakened shortly after the sunlight began to filter into the jail from
an overhead skylight. The light was weak and indirect, so I suspected it
was shortly after sunrise.
Officer Mercer called out to us, warning us that breakfast would be
served in thirty minutes. I heard groans from the other cells.
"Can we get a shower and something to shave with before we go to court
today?" I called out.
He turned to face me with what I believed to be a thin smile on his
lips, but since his eyes were still covered my the sunglasses, I
couldn't tell if he was amused by something I had said or not. "You
won't need to shave. You'll be fine as you are."
"It's like some third world jail," Aden grumbled. When I looked at him
quizzically, he continued, "If you deny the prisoner any dignity before
dragging him into the courtroom, you keep him off balance. He'll be
tired and uncomfortable, and to any spectators, he'll look more like a
shiftless bum than one of them. It makes it easier to intimidate him and
easier for everyone else to see him as unlike them."
"But this isn't the third world," I pointed out. "It's Oklahoma."
"Same thing," Annabelle commented, lifting our spirits just a little
with her humor. She had once told me that down in Texas, where she was
born and raised, they tell Oklahoma jokes.
We each chuckled just a little, and I could hear running water from the
small sinks in our cells. I, too, did my best to refresh myself. Wiping
the water over my stubbled face made me once again wish for a razor. I
had never liked facial hair and often wished that I didn't have to shave
my face. Well, as Oscar Wilde once said, be careful what you wish for -
you might get it.
I don't know about other people who have stumbled into Ovid over the
years, but I, for one, was able to tell the exact moment when things
went tilt. I was pretty hungry, so I was listening carefully for any
indication that our breakfast had arrived. My nose detected our
breakfast first though, as someone was apparently arranging trays on a
cart to serve us. I could smell bacon, cinnamon, and fresh coffee, and
my stomach began to growl in anticipation.
But the minute I saw the girl who was serving us, I forgot my hunger at
once. Now up until that moment, everything had seemed pretty normal to
me. To my mind, we had just gotten scooped up in some small town speed
trap, and had been jailed over night to make us more amenable to making
a deal just to get released. All that was irritating but not entirely
unheard of in the small towns that dotted the Bible Belt. But this...
The girl who cheerfully slid our breakfast trays through the narrow slot
in the door was young and attractive, red hair arranged in a neat
ponytail and casually dressed in a denim dress with a short, fairly
tight skirt. She smiled as she slid my tray to my awaiting hands. It was
all very normal and comfortable, except for one thing...
The girl was transparent.
That's probably a bit of an overstatement. It wasn't as if I could see
Aden through her, so much as I could see Aden in spite of her being in
the way. It's hard to explain to anyone who hasn't experienced the
phenomenon, but there it was.
The look on Aden's face was every bit as incredulous as mine. He at
least had a moment to recover though, so by the time the girl had
delivered his tray to him, he was more curious than shocked. He
inspected the girl carefully.
"I thought you were all men of the Lord," she drawled in the distinctive
Oklahoma accent. "Should you be looking at me like that?"
"I...I'm sorry," Aden stammered. I know he wanted to ask her about her
condition, but how do you ask someone why they are semi-transparent?
There didn't seem to be anything to say.
Once she had served all of us and left, Aden and I looked over at each
other, our trays balanced on our laps as we picked at the food.
"Did you see that, too?" Aden asked.
"See what?" Myron called out from his cell around the corner.
"The girl," Aden managed to say.
"Very attractive," Myron returned.
"Sure is!" Edgar chimed in.
"You men!" Annabelle exclaimed.
"No," I broke in, since Aden seemed to be unable to say it. "Aden means
did you notice you could see right through her? - sort of?"
"Reverend, that's not a very nice thing for a man of God to say,"
Annabelle chastised.
Seeing what she meant, I hurried to say, "No, that isn't what I mean.
Didn't you notice? She was nearly transparent."
"Yes!" Aden managed, looking relieved that someone besides he had
noticed.
Our clarification was met by silence.
"We...didn't notice a thing," Myron replied hesitantly, speaking it
seemed for everyone but Aden and me.
The proverbial chill went racing up and down my back, and a glance at
Aden told me he was experiencing something very similar. His eyes told
me there was no sense in discussing it further until we could talk in
private. Otherwise, our friends would just assume that too little sleep
had addled our brains.
That opportunity came very soon. We had no sooner finished breakfast
until Officer Mercer entered the cell block. By my watch, it was a
quarter until nine, and I suspected he was coming to take us to trial.
The walk to the courtroom was short, but Aden and I fell back a little
from the others where we were rewarded with a few moments to discuss
what we had seen.
"Do you think... it's the work of the devil?" he asked. I knew Aden
believed fervently in our ministry, so it wasn't much of a reach for him
to assume that God and the devil were actively at war in our world.
Frankly I believed even less in the devil than I did in God. Sure, there
was good and evil in the world, but mankind didn't need divine beings to
put it there.
"I don't think there's evil involved," I replied in a low tone, matching
Aden's. At least, my response was truthful. That sweet girl who had
delivered our meals didn't look as if she had an evil thought in her
head. Besides, none of the others had noticed anything wrong - only Aden
and I. It was possible, I had to admit to myself, that the girl's
transparency was merely a trick of the light, or perhaps our exhaustion
had led to the illusion.
But if that were so, how had Aden and I both noticed the phenomenon?
I didn't have much time to think on it, for at that moment, Aden and I
followed our friends into the courtroom. I was suddenly too busy taking
in my surroundings. The room was far better appointed than I would have
thought likely in a small town like Ovid. Fine, expensive green carpet
covered the floors, and oak wainscoting graced the walls. The judge's
bench looked imposing, raised above the room in a stately manner. Even
the defense and prosecution tables were of well-turned oak, and the
chairs provided were plush with cushions of the same green shade of the
carpet. The room was practically empty. Although not an attorney, I knew
that was not uncommon. Many - if not most - trials have no spectators at
all. Ours, it appeared, was to have only one. An attractive blonde
woman, probably in the mid to late thirties, was seated primly in the
back row. From her attire - a conservative gray suit with matching
heels, I assumed her to be an attorney herself, probably there to file a
motion or something.
The other woman in the room sat at the defendant's table. She was
attractive and probably mid-thirties as well, but with her darker hair
drawn up in a professional style and her well-tailored navy blue suit, I
had no doubt that she was an attorney.
"Susan Jager," she announced, holding out a feminine hand for me to
shake. "I'll be your attorney today."
"Do we really need legal representation?" Aden asked as I shook her
hand. "Surely this is a minor offense."
"Yes," I agreed. "We'd like to just pay whatever fine the court feels
reasonable..." - in other words, whatever the going rate for small town
speed traps was - "and be on our way. You see, we're due in Bartlesville
today."
Ms. Jager seemed to be stifling a smile. "I'm afraid you're unlikely to
get to Bartlesville today," she informed us.
"But we must!" I insisted. "It's very important. We need to minister to
a large number of Christian worshipers this evening."
All right. I was shamelessly appealing to her religious instinct, but it
came out sound like Dan Akroyd's "We're on a mission from God."
"Reverend Groenwald," she began slowly, "you'd do well to be less
insistent when The Judge comes in. He's been in a rather poor mood
lately. Please let me speak for you."
"Impossible!" I said, somewhat petulantly. "Admittedly, we're at your
mercy here, but a sham trial is unnecessary. Just ask this judge how
much the fine is, we'll pay it without a whimper, and be on our way."
"All rise!" a voice intoned from one side of the bench. It was Officer
Mercer again. Apparently he acted as bailiff - probably so the take
would have to be split among fewer people. "Municipal Court of Ovid,
Oklahoma, is now in session, The Honorable Judge presiding."
I realized we would gain nothing now by arguing. With our attorney and
my associates, I turned to face what I suspected would be a crotchety
old small-town municipal judge with avarice clearly reflected in his
expression as he prepared to shake down yet another unsuspecting group
of strangers. At least, I thought hopefully, the process would be short
and sweet and we'd soon be on our way.
To my surprise, he looked nothing like I would have expected. He was
younger than I expected - early middle age and no more, judging by his
dark hair and neatly-trimmed beard salted with flecks of gray. He wore
glasses, and I recognized the frames as expensive gold rims. In his
black robe, he looked more like a distinguished Federal judge rather
than a municipal magistrate, and I found myself wondering what such an
imposing individual was doing holding court in a town so small that none
of us had ever heard of it.
"Be seated," he intoned in a voice that seemed to command obedience. As
one, we all sat, as if we were children under the tutelage of a stern
headmaster. It seemed so natural, I didn't think much of it at the time.
Now of course, I know better.
The Judge (for I now began to think of "Judge" as more than just a
title; he was The Judge) looked down at the papers before him. Grunting,
he looked up. "Call the defendants."
Officer Mercer formally called, "The court calls Hans Groenwald and
associates before the court."
Ms. Jager rose promptly. "Your Honor, I represent Mr. Groenwald and his
associates."
"Do you have a plea?"
I sighed. This was all way too formal. Why not just get on with it and
fine us? I shifted impatiently while our attorney, without any input
from us, entered a "Not Guilty" plea and soon completed all the
formalities with The Judge. It all seemed as if it were a set piece -
some charade conducted for our benefit to make it seem valid. It was a
ritual - yes, a ritual, just like the opening of church services. They,
too, were nothing more than a charade when I thought about it. In a way,
then, I was on familiar ground. I relaxed a little as at last, we were
ready to get down to the case.
"Reverend Groenwald!" The Judge said sharply. When I looked up, he
motioned for me to stand.
"Yes, Your Honor?" I asked once I was on my feet.
"Do you understand the nature of the charges?"
We had been charged with driving an unsafe vehicle, as well as a couple
of other minor traffic violations associated with our crippled vehicle.
It was all proper - or appeared to be so. I said the only thing I could
think of to get the proceedings moving along smartly. With any luck, we
would still make Bartlesville in time for a late lunch with our sponsor.
"Yes, I do, Your Honor."
"Do you have anything to say in your defense?"
"Not really, Your Honor," I sighed. "I would just like to change our
plea to guilty and pay our fine. It's very important that we be in
Bartlesville tonight. We are doing the Lord's work there."
There, I thought. That should get him moving. In my experience, few
people - even judges - chose to interfere in religious activities. I
suppose it was all the separation of church and state business.
Unfortunately I had guessed wrong this time.
The Judge frowned. "The Lord's work?" His tone was derisive. I hadn't
expected that - not for a second.
Well, in for a penny in for a pound. It would be just our luck to draw a
man who was possibly the only atheist on the bench in the state of
Oklahoma. I didn't realize at the time that it wasn't God he was
sneering at. "Yes, Your Honor. Perhaps you didn't realize it, but I am
-"
"I know exactly who you are, Reverend Groenwald," he broke in, his tone
bordering on angry. "But why should I be solicitous of a man who hides
behind the name of a god he does not believe in?"
I heard loud gasps from my party, and I had to fight down the urge to
gasp myself. Nothing though, could have prevented the icy shiver that
sped down my back. The Judge was right, of course, but how could he
know? Perhaps he was guessing; perhaps he had seen something in my
delivery on my program and surmised that I had lost my faith. I felt I
had no chance but to bluff my way out of this situation. It was, of
course, the wrong thing to do, but obviously at that point I had no idea
who I faced.
"God knows who the faithful are," I pronounced carefully, hoping that he
hadn't noticed that I had neither confirmed or denied his accusation. I
stood stiffly, as if affronted by his remarks. I only hoped my
associates would take the red flush on my face to be one of righteous
indignation rather than the blush of embarrassment.
"Indeed God does know," The Judge agreed with evident sarcasm.
"Your Honor," our attorney interposed, trying vainly to achieve some
modicum of control over what appeared to be a rapidly deteriorating
situation, "perhaps we should review the facts of the case."
"I believe I understand what's happening here," The Judge snapped, but
while his remarks were aimed at our attorney, his gaze was fixed on me.
Just our luck, I thought to myself. Even an atheist would have been
better. An atheist might have been more cautious dealing with a
religious leader. Instead we had to draw a Bible-thumping judge with an
agenda. If word of his accusations got outside that courtroom, I'd be
ruined. The media loves nothing better than to bring down a
fundamentalist minister over either sex or money. While I hadn't exactly
misused the funds I had collected in my ministry, I had lived fairly
well. To expose my hypocrisy would be the fresh meat the media craved.
"I find the defendants guilty!" The Judge growled, surprising all of us
with his abruptness. I was actually a little relieved though, for
although his self-righteousness would probably give him a reason to
substantially raise our fine, it meant we could be on our way. "Sentence
is to be carried out at once."
With that The Judge's eyes bored into us, and he began to speak in what
at first I thought were tongues, but I was familiar enough with the
practices of Pentecostals to realize that what he spoke was something
else. It sounded a bit like Latin, but not the dull, lifeless language
recited by Catholic priests. Instead the words were rich in texture,
invoking exactly what I couldn't say, but the words were causing my skin
to tingle.
I looked around at my associates, and got my first inkling that
something terribly wrong was happening. Myron, Edgar, and Annabelle were
becoming smaller as I watched. Their eyes were glazed over, as if they
had no understanding of what was happening to them.
Aden, on the other hand, was actually becoming larger, but his features
were changing. His hair was changing from a sandy brown to a coal black,
and his skin was becoming darker. He looked more Mediterranean than
English. Also, his clothes were changing - not radically, but I could
see his white shirt darkening and becoming a t-shirt, while his khaki
slacks were changing into denim.
It was at that moment that I realized I, too, must be changing.
Mustering as much mental resistance as I could, I tried to keep my body
from altering. At first, I thought I was actually succeeding, and
perhaps, I reasoned, I did delay the effects somewhat. In retrospect, I
think The Judge was intentionally slowing my changes until he could
speak more with me.
"Remove them from the courtroom," The Judge ordered Officer Mercer, but
when the policeman started to take my arm, he amended, "No, take the
others. I'm not finished with our 'evangelist' yet."
I managed to turn my head enough to watch the strange officer usher a
tall, dark young man in a dark red t-shirt and jeans, followed by three
children who all appeared to be about ten. One was a boy, who looked on
in disgust as two pre-teen girls walked just ahead of him, giggling and
looking back at him with girlish interest. None of them paid any
attention to me - except for the dark young man, who managed to glance
over his shoulder to look back at me for just a moment.
But where were my people? Who were these strangers and where had they
come from?
The Judge either anticipated my questions or read my mind, waiting only
until the door had closed behind the small procession before explaining,
"Those people were your associates."
"What have you done to them?" I asked, my voice suddenly sounding too
high-pitched.
The Judge shrugged. "I've given them new lives. Their old ones are no
longer appropriate."
"And what was wrong with their old ones?" I returned, trying in vain to
pitch my voice lower. Yes, I knew I was transforming as well, but I was
too frightened and too angry to worry about my own changes.
"Left on your own, you would have been hit by a train," he explained
calmly. "The train would have split your bus in two, the back half being
pushed away from the tracks with all of its passengers virtually
unharmed. The front of the bus, where you and your friends here today
would have been was torn apart. There would have been no survivors. We
rescued you. Now don't look so skeptical. You don't really think your
driver was able to perform a miracle and get your damaged bus off the
tracks, do you?"
I said nothing, but now that he mentioned it, it seemed unlikely Edgar
had been able to move us out of harm's way. He had seemed as shocked as
any of us when the train missed us, assuming that the train had somehow
pushed us to safety.
"Your lives belong to Ovid now," The Judge continued with an ominous
tone.
"Someone will come looking for us," I reminded him. "There were other
people on that bus who survived. They'll tell the authorities. And we
were expected in Bartlesville..."
"No one remembers you," The Judge countered. "As far as the world
outside Ovid is concerned, you never existed. The other riders on your
bus who would have survived the accident have had their lives altered so
that they were never with you on that bus. They never worked with you.
In fact, they never even met any of you, for none of you exist in their
world." When I said nothing, he continued, "I have something special in
mind for you - something very appropriate."
I could feel hair trickling down my neck now, and something was rising
up on my chest. Although I couldn't move enough to look down, I realized
I was growing breasts. From the weight tugging on my chest, I estimated
them to be good-sized. Quick, sharp pains erupted in my earlobes, and I
could feel something tugging ever so slightly against them.
I supposed I was too stunned to really think about what was happening to
me. Instead all I could do was note the sensations as they occurred. My
sex was being changed as I stood there; there was little doubt of that.
In moments, I would be completely female. Strangely my body reacted to
this thought, and to my shame, I became very hard - as hard as I had
been in years. That sensation changed as well though, ebbing almost as
quickly as it had begun, and I felt... different between my legs.
So what sort of a woman was I becoming? I could tell I was getting
shorter, but I didn't seem to have lost so much stature as to be
considered a child again like most of my friends. Then I felt the same
type of pain coming from my belly button that I had felt moments before
in my earlobes. So my navel was now pierced as well, indicating to me
that I was probably going to be a younger woman. Not many matronly women
of my acquaintance had pierced navels.
In fact, my stomach seemed bare, exposed to the open air as my shirt
crawled up my body and my pants seemed to settle lower. I could feel air
on my legs as well, and it didn't take much thought for me to realize I
was now wearing a skirt - a very, very short skirt from the feel of air
well up my thighs.
Then the sensations of change happened so quickly, I couldn't keep up
with them. My hair seemed to be growing longer, covering suddenly bared
shoulders. Something was pushing against the front of my shirt, if what
I was now wearing could be called a shirt. My new breasts were growing
uncomfortably larger. A quick look down confirmed that. They were
pressing against what I saw to be a red halter top, and the speed with
which they were swelling made me fear that they might burst right
through the material. Given the skimpy nature of my top, a significant
amount of smooth breast flesh was now exposed, and I had cleavage that
would be the envy of many a girl.
Overlaying the physical sensations that were rippling over my body was
the sound of my mind screaming that none of this was possible. Yes, I
know, some fundamentalists are convinced that there is evil magic - the
Devil's magic - out there in the world, competing for the souls of men.
If I had chosen not to believe in a god though, I had certainly chosen
not to believe in a Devil. And I certainly didn't believe in magic...
So that's when my mind snapped.
No, I didn't go into a catatonic state, but suddenly, I felt as if none
of what was happening could possibly be real. My faith in the lack of
gods, devils and magic was rooted in years of practice. This could not
really be happening, regardless of what my senses told me, but since I
couldn't deny what my senses were relaying to my overtaxed brain, I did
the one thing I could do to reconcile the contradiction.
I passed out.
I awoke slowly. I was lying on a bed, confirming to my jumbled mind that
I had just awakened from the most bizarre dream of my life. It was an
unfamiliar room, but for anyone who has spent a significant portion of
his or her life traveling, it was not a unique experience. Lying there
in what appeared to be the dim light of early evening, I concluded I
must be resting in a hotel room in Bartlesville, making up some of the
sleep I had lost in our harrowing overnight trip.
I tried to recall getting into Bartl