No One Notices a Secretary
Belladonna
[Author's note: Based on a caption made for me by Tranzmute]
"Do you have any leads yet?" My secretary asked as she knocked on my
door.
Still clutching my head, I shook it before I replied, "Not a damn clue."
"Oh," was all Theresa uttered in response.
I shook my head again while I said, "I've spent over a million dollars
trying to find the source of that damn leak. I've used IT, our team, and
outside contractors, just to make sure it isn't our IT, and none of them
can find out who in our design teams is leaking the damn stuff."
Theresa gave me a concerned look while she stared at my flustered face.
I was borderline despondent as I further exclaimed, "Every investigator
I've brought in has come up with nothing! They've searched every person
in this company from top to bottom and have come up with nothing!"
"You've got be making some progress," Theresa replied, trying to console
me.
"You see the leaks still coming. I'm no closer than I was five months
ago when the fucking thing started."
Theresa nodded her head slightly before she asked, "So what's your next
step?"
I sighed as I thought about it. I did not have a single idea left about
what I could do to find out who was leaking my company's trade secrets
and classified information to one of my top competitors.
I was not entirely sure that my competitor was not bribing the very
people I brought in to investigate these things at my company to make
sure that nothing was found. Theresa called me paranoid about it, but I
was sure that someone with an uncorrupted, keen investigative eye would
have gotten to the bottom of it already.
Theresa interpreted my silence as an admission that I was out of ideas.
She walked into my office and closed the door behind her before she
asked, "Why don't you look into yourself?"
"I'd love to," I admitted before continuing, "but nobody is stupid enough
to let on anything around me."
Theresa nodded before a smile came to her face while she asked, "What
would you be willing to give to catch this guy?"
"He's destroying everything I ever built. I'd give my left nut to catch
and crush the fuck."
"What if you could look into yourself?"
"What do you mean?" I inquired.
"What if you could blend in with everybody else and look for it from
within?"
"How could I possibly do that?" I countered.
"A little undercover investigation is in order," Theresa replied as she
sat down and crossed her long, thin, black stocking covered legs.
My eyes drifted to her toned calves as she playfully kicked one leg over
the other. Theresa knew that I was attracted to her on some level, and
she played up her femininity around me to help keep me predisposed to
treat her well.
"What do you think?" Theresa asked, breaking the silence between us.
"If I could, I would, but..."
"You can," Theresa responded, cutting me off.
"How?" I countered.
"We can disguise you as someone else."
"This isn't the movies, Theresa," I retorted.
"No. I'm talking about doing a real good job of it. I'm talking about a
really deep cover."
"How deep is really deep?" I asked with a laugh.
"Deep enough that not a piece of you won't be changed."
I was intrigued by her thought process before I asked, "And what would I
be doing?"
"You would be working here and looking for the leads from within."
"What could I do without any credentials?" I replied.
"The same thing that everyone does, an entry level job."
"So I'd be a mail room boy. I'm a little old for that. I guess I could
be the janitor..."
"No, those positions wouldn't give you the opportunity to look for the
things you need to be on the lookout for."
"What position would?"
"You would have to work under someone who knows about the plan and would
give you some leeway to inquire about things."
"So we would have to bring someone else on. I don't know whom I can
trust. It could be anyone of my executives who's leaking this
information, just as easily as it could be someone from the design team
or IT..."
"What about me then?" Theresa inquired, cutting me off again.
"You?"
"Why not?"
"Secretaries don't get promoted to the head of a multibillion dollar
company!"
"True, but really eccentric majority owners can do what they want, can't
they?" Theresa retorted with a wink.
The wink turned me on, but I replied, "That doesn't mean that my
employees or the people who deal with my company will be happy about it."
"They'll come around if the leaks stop and the company returns to a
higher level profitability."
I shrugged and admitted, "That may very well be true," before adding,
"but even if we could do it, what would I be doing for you?"
"You'd be working the job that opened up."
"What job?" I replied, somewhat obliviously in retrospect.
"The job of my secretary," Theresa answered.
"Your secretary?" I replied, almost laughing.
"It's the perfect position for you."
"What? Why?" I inquired, struggling not to laugh at the absurdity of her
comments.
Theresa explained, "They blend in a lot better than investigators and
bosses. Everyone is always looking at the boss. They know who the
investigators are and know they have to cover up their trails, but no one
notices the secretary."
"You don't think I notice you?" I asked with a smile.
Theresa cupped her hands over her knees as she answered, "I know you do,
but people don't notice them, the way I'm talking about them."
"I hired investigators in those kinds of roles though, and they couldn't
find shit."
"Yes, but as you said, those people may have been paid off by your
rivals."
I nodded, realizing that she had a point.
"I would imagine that you could not be bought off to look the other way,"
Theresa replied as she smiled and raised her eyebrows.
I nodded silently while I began to rub my chin. After a few seconds
passed, I asked, "Could I use you to be my eyes and ears?"
"You could, but I don't know the things that you know about the business.
I'm not sure that I'd even know what I'm looking for," Theresa answered.
I nodded my head and said, "I couldn't expect you to. You're just a
secretary."
"Thanks," Theresa retorted while she gave me the evil eye.
I looked up at her and said, "You know that I didn't mean anything by
it."
"I know, but that doesn't make it any less hurtful," Theresa retorted.
I nodded before I apologized. Theresa accepted it and we moved on.
I then said, "I don't think I could make a believable secretary."
"Why not?" Theresa asked.
"People notice male secretaries," I answered.
"Who said anything about being a guy?" Theresa retorted.
My eyes almost bugged out of my skull before I laughed and said, "Well, I
really can't pull that off."
"With your money? You definitely could."
"But I'm a man..."
Theresa laughed as she shook her head and replied, "Richard, you're
certainly a man, but that doesn't foreclose the option, in and of
itself."
I gave her a curious look before she continued, "You're not a big guy,
Richard. You're 5'3"; most women in the company are taller than you.
You'd probably be less conspicuous as a girl than a guy at your height."
I nodded, agreeing that my diminutive height would certainly never give
me away. I thought that it would certainly be nice for it to come in
handy for once.
Theresa then added, "And you're a thin man. With a little padding, you
could probably have a good physique for a girl."
I blushed at her comment and shook my head, trying to clear away the
image that she had etched in my mind. I responded, "I've still got this
face to deal with."
"There are prosthetics for that kind of stuff," Theresa replied.
"How would you know?"
"I've got connections with this company that specializes in full body
makeovers."
"What are you talking about?"
"It's nothing permanent. Everything can be undone with some special
adhesive removers and other stuff like that."
"You sound crazy," I replied.
"It's all true," Theresa responded with a hurt look.
I shook my head before I asked, "Can you prove it to me?"
"Are you willing to go through with it?" Theresa countered.
I sighed and thought about her words for a moment. I felt as if I really
had no way to find the leaks other than to uncover them myself, given my
investigators' failures to uncover the first clue. I threw my hands up
and admitted the truth, "It's basically the only chance I have left to
figure this out."
Theresa smiled before she asked if she could use my phone to call the
company she had talked about. I shrugged, but did not fight her.
I was still in disbelief about her claims, so I really did not think much
of it when she picked up the phone and dialed the number. She made some
quick plans with the woman on the end of the other line before Theresa
asked if we could head over right then.
I checked my schedule before I said, "Why not?"
Theresa nodded with a smile before she told the woman that we would head
over to the office.
"I'll call for your car," Theresa said as she got to her feet.
"Thank you," I replied, wondering if I should give up humoring her
delusions.
Still, I was intrigued by the possibility that it was real. After all,
what possible reason would Theresa have to lie to me?
Soon after, Theresa called into my office to let me know that my car was
ready to take us to the clinic. I stood up and walked out of the office
beside her. We took the elevator down before I headed for the car beside
her to head on over to the facility.
After the car pulled up near the facility, we got out of it and began
walking towards the discreet city clinic. I looked at the building that
looked no different from any office building in the area. I shrugged
while I walked towards it and noticed that there was nothing on the
building's exterior that gave away that the kind of activities that
Theresa was describing actually took place there.
I shook my head as we got closer to the building. I thought back to what
had gone through my head in the months leading up to that moment. I kept
wondering if I was crazy for even considering going forward with
Theresa's proposal.
The fact that it excited me a little made me concerned as well. I
wondered why the idea of appearing to be a powerless secretary was so
alluring to me, after spending so many years under the gun at my position
at the top. I wondered if the stress of the position was finally
catching up to me.
Part of me knew that I was driven to that point by my desire to get to
the bottom of the leaks, even as another part of me figured that there
was also the appeal of being able to get away from all the pressure of my
position for a little while. Even while I did not really believe her
statements about the clinic, more than a small part of me wished that it
was all true.
I watched as Theresa went up to the door and knocked upon it. A large
man looked out over us before he recognized Theresa from the clearance
information provided to him. The man then opened the door to let us
inside.
Shortly after we entered the clinic, a young woman came over to greet us.
I was a bit surprised that there was actually something similar to what
Theresa claimed as the woman explained what the clinic did. We shook her
hand before the woman brought us into a small room to begin my
consultation.
As I listened to the woman's statements regarding the quality of the
clinic's work, I found myself, in turns, amused and intrigued. While I
wished that the clinic could do everything it promised, I was certain
that it was all an extremely elaborate scam.
"Are there any questions?" The woman asked when she finished her pitch.
"This is all a little much to believe," I replied.
The woman smiled as she said, "Would you like to see some before and
after shots."
I laughed as I replied, "What the hell?"
The woman turned away from me for a second to grab hold of a stack of
photographs. She then placed them in front of me and said, "Why don't
you take a look and tell me what you think?"
I gawked at the before and after pictures that the staff was showing me
before the staff member asked about one picture, "Do you want to see how
this all looks in person?"
Still somewhat in disbelief over the quality of the clinic's work, I
nodded in response. I caught the amused smile on Theresa's face out of
the corner of my eye and wondered again if this was all a very
sophisticated ruse.
"Follow me then," the woman said with a friendly smile.
I walked behind the woman beside Theresa before we were allowed to look
in at room of people in various stages of transformation.
I was stunned by what I saw. I could not believe how the half
transformed people looked. Parts of their bodies and faces were
completely incongruous with the rest. There were gender changes, race
changes, every type of physical transformation I could imagine. A White
man was becoming a Black woman; a thin Asian man was becoming a fat Asian
woman. It was as intriguing to see as it was stunning.
Theresa smiled at my agape mouth and asked, "So what do you think?"
"This is amazing," I responded after a pause.
"Believe me now?" Theresa asked with a grin.
I could not pretend otherwise, so I nodded.
"So, are you going to be using our services?" The young woman asked.
"We need a moment," I replied
"Of course," she replied as she led us back to the consultation room. I
sat alone with Theresa before we began to discuss the pros and cons of me
going through with it.
With every doubt dispelled about going undercover, and certain that there
was no other way left, I agreed to go forward with it. I made
arrangements with the clinic to go through with the changes before we
left.
With that decision made, our planning of my "retirement," Theresa's
"promotion" and my return as a secretary kicked into overdrive during our
trip back to the office. We kept things vague until we reentered my
office and closed the door behind us.
We sat down and hammered out the terms of the business "transition" in
less than an hour. Seeing as I held virtually all of the cards, it was a
fairly one sided negotiation.
We drafted the newsletter and interoffice email to announce my formal
"retirement." The letter noted that the retirement was more of an open
ended sabbatical than a retirement and that I would be returning at an
unspecified date. In the interim, I was appointing my secretary, Theresa
Barros, as my replacement, explaining that she was chosen since she knew
how to run the company "my way."
I still remembering staring at my secretary's name with the title
"Interim President and CEO" and shaking my head. It seemed unreal that I
would see anyone else with those titles at my company during my lifetime,
let alone my secretary.
I'm sure that they were a shock to others when they reached my employees
and those that dealt with my company. People must have really thought
that I had lost my mind over the leaks, and, to be honest, they would
probably have been right.
I did not give Theresa the majority control of the company that she
requested. I knew that would be too reckless as I would be giving up my
reins on the company. Instead, I gave her the job titles and powers of
those positions. I firmly retained ownership, figuring that it would
protect my interests and make for an easy return to reassert control over
the company when the time finally came.
I gave Theresa special benefits, however, figuring that I would be buying
her continuing loyalty. I gave her the full executive salary that I had
been making and even agreed to let her stay at my mansion to entertain
guests, noting that she could not bring business associates to her
apartment.
Theresa thanked me before she agreed to use her position to help me in my
efforts to uncover the source of the leaks from within. I thanked her
for the idea before I sent the email and newsletters out to the world.
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Weeks passed before my "retirement" date. I hoped that the source of the
leaks would be uncovered before I had to go through with it, but the
leaks continued unabated.
As the date with my appointment with the clinic arrived, I took a cab to
the facility. Deciding not to let my driver know where I was going the
last time he was going to see me as a man for a long time, I felt I had
little choice but hail a cab. Regardless, my driver was assigned to
Theresa starting that day anyway, and I did not want to step on her toes
on her first day as the boss by giving conflicting orders to her driver.
I went to the clinic and fought off the last second reservations that
crept into my head. I knew that I had come so far that I could not back
out.
I paid my faire with cash before I hurried towards the door of the
building. I rang the buzzer and was permitted to enter by security.
I sat in the waiting room for a few moments before I was taken in for the
modifications. They started by removing all my body hair. I was
embarrassed to be standing nude in front of the female technician, but
she treated the situation as ho-hum as she took care to spray me with the
depilatory.
I was relieved to finally be able to cover myself up in a hospital gown
while she took to killing my facial hair at its roots before she waxed my
eyebrows. I was shocked by how much that hurt and kind of wished they
had used the depilatory on it, but I guess that would be too close to my
eyes.
After they finished with my body and facial hair, I was taken in for work
on my primary and secondary sex characteristics. I was intrigued as I
watched them contort my cock and balls and shove them into the prosthetic
pussy.
I could not believe how real it looked. It was beyond freaky to see it
below my flat hairless chest before the female technician came towards me
with two jiggling masses that I could tell were breasts without even
seeing the nipples concealed by her hands.
The technician had me lay down while she glued the two masses to my
chest. She told how lucky I was to be thin enough to pull off B-Cups. I
was not counting myself lucky at that point, but she pointed out how much
less they weighed than larger breasts. I suppose I understood her point
about it being easier on my back to have smaller breasts the more I
thought about it.
Once my breast forms were firmly secured, I was given a bra to help keep
them from moving around on me and a pair of panties to give me some
modesty. I listened as the technician advised me how to put on the bra.
I followed her directions and managed to hook it before I put on the
matching black panties.
I felt strange looking down at the hairless female form below my neck,
knowing that I was still unambiguously a guy above my neck. I knew that
I had to look like a freak, but I could not do anything about it.
After I finished putting on the underwear, I put on my dressing gown
again and laid back down on the table. The technician then went to work
on my face. She added prosthetics to my nose and chin to help smooth out
some of the rougher edges to my face.
Once she finished with my face, she began to work on my neck. I asked
what she was doing and she noted that she had to cover up my Adam's apple
and help work on my voice.
I went to ask how, but she scolded me to keep quiet and still while she
worked on my neck. I kept still and felt something press against my
throat. It felt tight, but I could still breathe without an issue, which
was some relief.
After the woman finished affixing a prosthetic to cover up my neck, she
asked me to speak. I said a couple of words before I came to a stop,
stunned by the unmistakably feminine tone of my voice.
She smiled as she explained how the voice box modifier I was adorned with
worked. I was stunned by its novelty, while the businessman in me
wondered what kind of market it had.
After I finished with my prosthetics, I was taken into another room to
match the hue of my prosthetics to my skin. The male technician told me
to strip, which I did with some hesitation.
I disliked the way I looked naked before this man, looking like half a
woman. I covered up my fake pussy and breasts to preserve what little
modesty I had.
This just brought laughter from the male technician, who noted I had
nothing added that he had not seen a thousand times before. I nodded
feeling sick to my stomach before I got into the booth that he told me to
enter.
As I stepped into it, he gave me a pair of goggles and told me to keep my
mouth shut. I nodded as he began to spray my body with this dark liquid.
I noticed the darker coloring that was being left on my skin as the warm
spray crept up my leg and shrieked, "What are you doing?"
"We're just giving you a little more cover," the technician said as he
ceased spraying me.
"Why?"
"You're less likely to be discovered if you don't have the same skin
tone."
"But I don't want to be black."
The technician gave me a blank look before he noted, "Well, good news,
that's not going to get darker. You're severally hues from black, dear.
We're just going for Southern European as opposed to your lily white
Northern European look."
"Oh," I replied, breathing a slight sigh of relief.
I figured it would be difficult enough to transition to a woman without
having to deal with a total race change and all the expectations people
would have of me accordingly. The technician looked at me and asked if
he could continue doing his job.
I nodded and watched the spray work its way up my body, dying my skin
tone a bronzed color. The technician stopped before he reached my head.
He put my hair up in shower cap before he sprayed my face, careful to
avoid my eye area. When he finished, he turned on the shower and washed
away the residue that had not bonded with my skin.
I was stunned by the perfectly even toned, bronzed skin beneath my neck.
The technician pulled me out of the booth and sat me down before he
removed my goggles and shower cap and began adding color around my eyes,
reminding me several times not to move while he did his work.
After the technician finished with me, the clinic's staff came up to me
and brought me down to its in-house cafeteria for lunch. As I sat down
at the table and ate my lunch, I gazed around the room, stunned by the
ongoing transformations of those around me. There were many who were
already completely done, but there were some like me that still had work
left to be done.
I wondered if I looked as strange with my short light brown hair coming
from my bronzed skin as the blonde hair coming from behind the head of
the Chinese looking woman, who I was sure was a man just like me. I
wondered which people were wearing prosthetics and which people were
there not wearing anything to conceal their real identities. Playing the
game of guessing who was real and fake took me through my lunch before I
was brought to get my hair done.
The female technician greeted me with a smile before she sat me down and
began to add extensions to my hair. The process was painstaking and
brutally slow. Only the news channel playing in the background kept my
mind interested while I spent the commercials thinking about what was
happening to me and coming to terms to what I had agreed to.
I wondered how things would be at work as I undertook a new persona that
held none of the powers that I was used to wielding to get my way at the
office. After several hours, the woman finished with my extensions and
took to dying my hair a dark brown color to match my intended ethnicity.
Once my hair was finished drying, I was taken into a makeup studio. The
stylist moved around me and added short acrylic extensions to my
fingertips before she began to paint my elongated fingernails a pale pink
color that stood out against my skin tone.
As they dried, she began to apply the color to my toenails. While we
waited for my nails to dry, she went to work on another client of the
clinics. I watched with intrigue as she worked on the man.
After a half an hour passed, she came back over to me and said that my
clothes were being brought up. I was intrigued to see what I would be
wearing.
It was not long before the clinic staff carried up a bag containing my
initial outfit. I was brought behind a screen to take off my hospital
dress and put on the items contained in the bag.
I was less than thrilled when I saw the short, long sleeved, white dress
that was decorated with pinkish butterfly patterns, as well as a pair of
silver pumps. I aired my concerns, which only brought a response
explaining that the pumps were picked so that I would not mess up my
nails until they dried more and the dress was designed to show me just
how much of a change I had undergone.
I disrobed and pulled the dress over my head. I yanked at its above the
knee hemline, even as I knew that I was not going to make it any longer
by doing so. Once I resigned myself to that fact, I slipped my feet into
the high heeled pumps and emerged from behind the curtain.
The stylist and the other clinic staff gave me approving looks before I
was sat down so that the stylist could do my makeup. She explained every
piece of makeup to me as she applied it, giving me as much advice as she
could before moved onto the next cosmetic.
Once she finished, she stood me up and told me to wait while she called
my handler. I was a bit surprised by the way she referred to the person
as my handler. I wondered exactly what about me they were handling.
It didn't take long for Michelle Luna to walk into the room. She
introduced herself to me and explained that she would be in charge of my
feminization. I was a bit attracted to the girl, which made it difficult
for me to handle the fact that I was not the powerful man I was to being
in her eyes.
After exchanging introductions, Michelle and the stylist asked if I was
ready to see the "new me."
I nodded, almost eager to see the extent of the changes. Michelle and
the stylist smiled while they lead me towards a room. They opened the
doors and I saw the mirrors that filled all four sides of the room, save
for the door.
I was in shock as I stared at myself, examining my body from every angle.
I looked nothing like the man that I knew I was beneath the dye and the
prosthetics. Nothing about me looked the same. The only thing I could
recognize about me, besides my overall build, was my eyes. Even my eyes
were thrown by the dark black eyeliner behind them and the dark mascara
that lifted my eyelashes.
The fact that my thin body had such a feminine look to it with little
additions to my primary sex characteristics was stunning, but looking
back on it, I know I should not have been surprised. I could not believe
how right Theresa had been about everything. There was no way that
anyone at work would recognize me now.
Over the following week and a half, the clinic took to training me so
that no one would ever put two and two together about who I really was.
I was drilled with my back-story for my feminine identify, Susana
Sampaio. I learned all about her fake family and the fake credentials
that my new resume was created to detail.
I was also put through rigorous training to learn how to walk, talk, sit
and otherwise pass myself off as a normal woman. Those training sessions
were also filled with training on applying and reapplying makeup, self-
styling my hair and learning how to wash, put on and care for the
delicates demanded by my temporary sex.
It was a relief to be released from the clinic and sent on my way back to
the office for an interview for the position as Theresa's secretary. I
was concerned about word slipping out about my feminization, given the
other leaks at the company, but no one let onto anything when I entered
the building and met with my human resources director.
I could see she was impressed with my resume, even as she seemed upset
that Theresa was not promoting someone to the position of her secretary
from within. She even felt the need to mention that to me, explaining
that she figured that Theresa did not want someone who was once near her
equal working as her assistant.
I nodded, understanding the woman's conclusion and the bitterness in her
tone about all the far more qualified people that had been passed over
for Theresa's new position. After a half-hour interview, Theresa called
the human resources director to talk about me. The director gave a
glowing report before I was sent to "Theresa's office."
I followed the human resources director to the office. I passed by,
literally, hundreds of familiar faces that showed no hint that they knew
who I really was. I even caught more than a few of the guys leering at
my thin sheer, black, floral patterned tights covered legs that were
peeking out from beneath the hem of my dress. I don't know why that made
me smile, but it did.
The human resources director knocked upon Theresa's door before she
permitted us to enter. I walked through the door and looked around
before I was "introduced" to Theresa. Theresa smiled as she told us to
take a seat.
I sat in front of my desk for the first time ever. I looked around and
saw the various decorations that Theresa had put up to make the office
her own. There was little trace that Richard Frampton had ever called
the office his, just as there was little evidence that Richard Frampton
was in that office at that moment.
I started to talk with Theresa and the human resources director for a few
minutes before Theresa gave her an approving nod and told her that she
would finish the interview with me. After she left, Theresa had me close
the door before she looked me over and said, "They did some job on you."
"Tell me about it," I replied, prompting Theresa to laugh.
"I would have never recognized you, if they hadn't told me that the
resume was yours."
"I can't even recognize myself," I replied.
Theresa nodded before she shook her head and said, "I was hoping that my
secretary wouldn't be hotter than me."
"I wouldn't go that far," I replied.
Theresa smiled as she responded, "I know you're not a threat to me."
I rolled my eyes and laughed as I replied, "That was never a goal of
mine."
"I know it," Theresa said before she sat back down behind the desk I had
ceded to her.
Theresa asked me a few questions about my time at the clinic before I
asked her about what had gone on since I left. We filled each other in
before Theresa got up and hugged me and said, "You've got the job."
"Really? I'm so surprised," I replied, trying to feign shock.
Theresa laughed before she opened up the door to her office. As we
wrapped up the "interview," Theresa took me back down to the human
resources director to complete the forms required to start with the
company before we said goodbye to one another. I finished them up and
parted ways with the human resources director
With the formality of my new "employment" out of the way, I went to the
address that the clinic had provided for my new home. It was all part of
my cover. They had gotten me an apartment that I could afford to
maintain on my secretary's salary.
I was sure that it was going to be nothing special, but I was a bit
concerned as I saw the character of the neighborhood emerging when I got
close to my building. I felt weak and vulnerable walking down the city
streets in heels and a dress.
The comments I got from some men who were trying to hit me up did not do
anything to help put my concerns to bed. Once I got to my building, I
breathed a sigh of relief as I unlocked the front door.
I made my way over to the elevator and pressed the button to go up. Once
the elevator came down, I got into it and rode it up to the twelfth floor
that housed my new home.
I got off and went towards my apartment number before I put my key into
the lock. I pushed open the creaking door and could not help but feel a
little deflated about the cramped surroundings.
I stepped into the apartment and locked the door behind me before I
looked around the one bedroom apartment. There was a tight kitchen that
was located next to a small breakfast nook that I knew that I would be
eating my meals at home in, instead of the large eat in kitchen that I
was used to at my home. The living room was similarly small and was
painted a pale beige color. The furniture was cheap and clearly used. I
realized that the clinic's staff had gone to great extents to make sure
that this apartment looked exactly like that of an apartment of a woman
in my secretarial shoes.
I moved past the small pink tiled bathroom and towards the one bedroom at
the rear of the apartment. The room was not very large, but it had a
wall to wall closet along the side wall across from the one window.
I threw open the closet door and saw that it was stuffed to the brim with
female clothing. All of my work clothes revolved around skirts or
dresses. There were no dress pants in the closet to my chagrin. I had a
few pairs of jeans and shorts, but I knew that they would do me no good
at work.
I closed the closet doors and made my way over to the dresser. It too
was filled with nothing but female clothing, although I was not expecting
anything else by that point.
I closed the drawers to the dresser and made my way over to the bed. I
sat upon the edge of it. It was not terribly uncomfortable beneath me
while I looked around the tight quarters that would be my sanctuary from
the world during my stint as a secretary.
Part of me could not believe that I was crazy enough to be in the
position I found myself in, while another part of me was excited about
the prospect of catching the bastard who was destroying my company and
getting to live another life for a little while. The conflicting
emotions were a drain on me until my first day at work.
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As the morning of my first day of my secretarial employment came, I got
up early and took a shower. After I carefully dressed in my intimates, I
put on a white blouse and a black skirt suit before I put on my makeup
and did my hair.
I adorned myself with a few pieces of jewelry, as Michelle had taught me
to accessorize myself, before I ate a quick breakfast and headed out the
door. I made my way to the building's elevator and got on it beside a
group of others.
I was easily the shortest person in the elevator, and I felt intimidated
by the others in ways that were alien to me when I was a man. I felt
strangely weak even though my body was no weaker than it was before.
Once the elevator reached the ground floor, I headed with the mass of
people towards the door. We each made our way to our various
destinations. I went for a nearby train stop and bought my ticket before
I waited on the raised platform for the train.
It was a cool morning and the wind stung me through my sheer pantyhose as
I waited for the train to come. Once it pulled in, there was practically
pandemonium when it came to getting on it. I rushed aboard with the
crowd and fought for a seat before the train made its way towards my
office.
I looked around the train and reaffirmed my belief that my neighborhood
was not as bad as I first thought. Originally, I thought I was in a
ghetto, but I grew to realize that my neighborhood was just a working
class neighborhood that was not all that bad. I was thankful for that as
the train continued to make its way down the tracks.
As the train pulled into my destination station, I got to my three inch
high heeled adorned feet and moved towards the door, carrying my purse.
I pushed my way out of the train car with a crowd against the masses that
were pushing their way in.
I struggled to keep my balance in my black, patent leather pumps, but I
managed to do it. I then exited the station on the escalator and began
the five block walk to my office.
Walking around the familiar area near my office, I felt far more secure
and safe than I did walking around the unfamiliar neighborhood I was now
calling home. I walked through the door and greeted the security in the
building.
I got my information taken down by the building before they took me to
get a secure pass so that I would not have to go through security each
morning. I thanked them for the card bearing my new identity before I
made my way to the elevator and got on with a group of others.
Once I got off the elevator and made my way to the door to my office, I
took a deep breath before I walked into the office to assume my temporary
role while I searched for the culprits. I walked in and introduced
myself to the receptionist by the door.
We exchanged a few pleasantries and compliments. She liked my necklace,
while I forced myself to praise her dress.
I then made my way to Theresa's old desk. It looked the same, save for
the lack of decorations, which had since migrated to my old office.
I placed my fingertips upon the Formica top of the desk that was so much
different from the glass covered wood top I had grown accustomed to on my
executive's desk. I tapped the tips of my elongated pink fingernails
against the desktop before I placed my purse down on top of the desk.
I looked around for something to do before I decided to meet with
Theresa. I walked towards her open door and stepped inside.
Theresa gave me an inquisitive look before she asked me to close the
door. I closed it and walked towards her desk before she asked me to
take a seat.
I sat across from her in the guest chairs that I had picked out for the
office several years earlier. Theresa put her elbows onto the desk and
leaned towards me and said in a stern voice, "Susana, I can't have you
just walking in here unannounced."
I was stunned by her statement. I was silent for a few seconds before I
asked, "What did I do?"
"You didn't knock and ask if you could come in."
"Oh, come on," I replied.
"Susana, this is a place of business. I can't have all of my employees
thinking it's okay to just walking into my office without permission."
"But they're my employees..."
Theresa cut me off as she explained, "No. For the time being, they're my
employees, and we have to keep that straight. Perception matters. I
can't have people disrespecting me as the new boss, just like we can't
have people wondering why my secretary, that's you, has special
privileges."
I nodded understanding her concerns. Theresa stared at me for a second
before she asked, "Are we understood?"
"Yes," I replied.
"Good," Theresa replied before she asked, "Now, what can I do for you?"
"I just wanted to talk..."
"About what?"
I was surprised by how forceful she was as I replied, "About my work."
"Well, make it quick. I'm a busy woman, Susana," Theresa retorted.
I squirmed a little, which I'm sure was the intended effect of Theresa's
words. I'm not sure why I was intimidated by her, given our true
positions, but there was something about her that seemed powerful at that
moment that I had not seen before.
I replied, "I just want to discuss, what I'm going to be doing."
"You'll be doing my job."
"I guess, but I need to look into the other stuff, while I'm here."
"You can do your little investigation stuff, but I'm a big executive, so
I need a competent secretary, just like Richard Frampton had."
"I understand that, but..."
"There are no buts, Susana. I need you to do what is expected of you as
a secretary. We both need it."
"Why?" I inquired.
"Because we need everyone to think that you're really a secretary and not
some investigator that Richard Frampton dumped off here."
I swallowed hard as I nodded and asked, "What do you need me to do?"
"You know the typical stuff that was expected of me, handling the calls
that our sent our way, making copies when I need them, faxing things when
I need you to, ordering me lunch, picking up my dry cleaning..."
"Picking up your dry cleaning," I exclaimed.
"Mr. Frampton made me do it a number of times, Susana. I'm not asking
anymore of you than my old boss asked of me," Theresa replied, making
sure to keep reminding me that I was no longer Richard Frampton in the
eyes of anyone in the workplace.
"Okay," I relented.
"Good, then you're also going to be getting me coffee or tea or water,
when I'm feeling it. Maybe some snacks from the closet. You'll work on
some correspondence for me and sort and go through my mail. All that
typical administrative office place happy horseshit."
I nodded before I asked, "But when will I have time to investigate?"
"You just keep your ears open. You're going to be moving around this
whole place. Talk to people, maybe some of them will give something up."
I nodded before I asked, "What can I start out with?"
Theresa grinned from ear to ear before she answered, "I'm feeling a wee
bit parched, why don't you fetch me a cup of tea, girl?"
I nodded before inquiring if she wanted milk or sugar. She told she
wanted just a little milk so I took her cup off her desk and made my way
to the kitchen.
I went to the water cooler and filled her cup up with hot water before I
stuck in the tea bag. I pressed the bag with one of the plastic spoons
as Theresa must have done thousands of times before for herself and me
over the years.
As I added milk to the cup, one of my employees walked in and introduced
himself. I told him my fake name, and we made small talk for a little
while. He did not tell me anything I really did not know about him
already before I separated from him and made my way back to Theresa's
office, careful not to spill the hot tea on myself.
I made sure to knock upon her door and wait for her permission to step
inside. Theresa gave me an approving nod before she permitted me to
enter.
I placed the cup of tea upon her desk and asked, "Is there anything else
you need from me?"
Theresa smiled as she handed me a stack of papers and said, "Please make
copies for each of the board members. We're having a meeting late this
afternoon, and I want to hand this out to them for their review."
I nodded as I took the papers from her hand. I made my way back to my
desk and put my purse underneath it before I headed for the copier
machine to get to work.
I thought about the number of board members my company had before I
punched in the number 12 into the copier and let the documents churn out.
I waited patiently for the machine to finishing spitting out the
documents while I kept my ears open for anything of interest.
While I heard some good office gossip and introduced my feminized self to
a few more people, I heard nothing related in anyway to the leaks, other
than a few complaints about their ongoing nature. I struggled not to
shout when I heard some of my employees criticizing "Richard Frampton"
for abandoning the ship while the leaks were still ongoing.
I understood where they were coming from though. I wished I could tell
them that he was still on the case, but I had a cover to maintain.
Once the machine finished churning out the copies, I picked them up and
carried them back to my desk. I began sorting the papers into sets and
started stapling them.
My actions prompted one of my executive's secretaries to turn to me and
say, "You know the machine has a staple function, right?"
"It does?" I replied.
"Yes."
"Shit," I responded, prompting a laugh from the girl. She got up and
said, "I'll show it to you, if you like.
"That would be great," I said with a smile, cursing the extra work I had
made for myself as I walked beside her.
The girl showed me the various functions on the machine and how to access
them. I nodded while I pressed my finger against the screen and toggled
through the various choices.
I thanked the girl before she complimented my silver bracelet. I thanked
her again and returned the compliment with one about her open toe pumps.
I used some stock fashion language that Michelle had taught me at the
clinic, but that seemed enough to endear me to the girl.
We made our way back to our desks and made a little small talk before the
ringing of her phone drew her attention away from me. I continued to
staple the papers together before I picked them up and carried them
towards Theresa's office.
I knocked on the door and drew her attention. Theresa smiled before I
asked where she wanted the papers.
She advised me to bring them upstairs to the boardroom. I nodded before
I walked out of the room and headed for the private elevator that ran
solely between the two floors of the building devoted to our office. I
pressed the button for the second floor and exited and saw the swarm of
people working on various projects for the company.
I kept my eyes and ears open while I made my way through the hallways,
but I heard and saw nothing suspicious before I reached the boardroom. I
entered through the doors I had passed through so many times before, but
I felt strangely out of place given my attire. I placed the papers down
on the large wood table and setup one at each chair that my board members
sat at before I hurried out of the boardroom.
I introduced myself to a few people on my way back to the elevator, but I
continued to learn nothing about the source of the leaks. I shook my
head at that fact while I went down to my floor before I headed back to
my desk.
As I reached my desk, I noticed an email on my computer screen from
Theresa. She had sent me a task while I was up in the boardroom.
Theresa had asked me to draft a few letters for her. I wasted no time in
taking a seat at my new desk and cranking out the correspondence. Once I
finished, I brought the letters into Theresa's office.
Theresa thanked me as she took them from my hand and began to mark them
up with a red pen, as I always did with her work. I struggled to keep
from yelling while she changed my words around and shoved the documents
back towards me and told me to "fix" them.
I largely kept my composure, knowing that I had to keep up appearances,
just like Theresa was making sure to do. I went back to my desk, revised
the letters and printed them on the company's letterhead.
Once I finished, I brought them into Theresa's office for signature. She
stood up and told me to prepare the envelopes and bring them to the
mailroom.
I nodded as I gazed down at the pants of her pantsuit. I had never seen
her wear one before. The suit seemed to be reinforcing her new position
at the company, just as my skirt suit was doing for me.
I turned and walked out of the room and went to my computer. I prepared
the envelopes for mailing before I made copies of the letters for our
correspondence files and sealed the envelopes.
After I reached the mailroom, I walked inside with my bundle of envelopes
clutched by the fingers of my right hand. I looked around the mailroom
for anything suspicious looking, but was saddened to see nothing of the
sort.
Once I finished exchanging introductions with the mailroom workers, I
walked out of the room no closer to the truth than I had been when I was
the CEO. I went back to my desk and continued doing various tasks for
the remainder of the morning.
Shortly before lunch time, Theresa had me arrange a lunch meeting with a
business associate of the company. I setup the reservation with a nearby
restaurant before Theresa took off for the meeting.
As I sat that, waiting to take my own lunch, I watched as the maintenance
company for the building walked towards Theresa's office. I was
surprised to see them in the middle of the day, since Theresa had not
told me about anything being wrong.
I sat typing on my keyboard, while I heard a screw gun running. I jerked
my head to see the crew taking down the name plate reading "Richard
Frampton, President and CEO." I gave them a dumbfounded look as they
removed it and casually tossed into the trash can.
"You know he's coming back," I found myself forced to reply, shocked by
what I was seeing.
"Nobody knows when and, besides, he can afford a new name plate," the
worker replied.
I wanted to scream, but I was in no place to issue a retort. I meekly
accepted the situation and tried to focus on my task at hand. I finished
around the same time that the workers did.
As I stood up to get lunch I read the new, gold plated name plate beside
the door to my former office which read "Ms. T. Barros, President and
CEO."
Analeigh, the secretary that shown me how to work the copier, gave me a
look and said, "A little overwhelmed on your first day."
"Yes," I admitted, although not for the reasons she thought.
"Grabbing lunch?" She asked.
I nodded before she said, "I'll go with you. Usually, I bring my lunch
to save money, but I didn't today."
I said I would appreciate the company before she told that she was happy
to show me around to some of the better spots for lunch in the area. We
exited the building together making small talk. It was stuff that
Michelle had taught me about while I was at the clinic. It was girls'
stuff that did not really hold my interest, but I forced myself to pay
attention to Analeigh.
She took me to a local eatery I was somewhat familiar with. We placed
our orders and waited for our food to be ready before we shared a quick
meal.
Analeigh fixated most of our conversations on office gossip. I tried to
steer it to the source of the leaks, but it quickly became obvious to me
that Analeigh was just as clueless as I was about the source. I was
unsurprised by that, but I still wasn't happy about it as I forced down
the chef salad and water I had bought to fit in with what the other women
around me were ordering.
We finished eating and headed back to the office before our lunch hour
ended. Theresa had still not arrived by the time I got back to the
office, but any anger I had about the name plates had dissipated by then
as I realized that the change made sense.
While I waited for her to return, I took down some messages from people
trying to call her. I sent her emails regarding each individual message.
I also drafted some email responses to emails she forwarded me to take a
look at while I kept waiting for her.
Once she arrived, Theresa put me to work getting her ready for her
meeting with the board. I did not know what was going on, but she noted
that it was just to go over the company's decreasing profitability and
the anticipation of a bad quarterly earnings report coming out.
With that, I understood the importance of the meeting. I made her
whatever copies she needed before she left for the meeting and fetched
various documents to make sure that she had all the information she would
need to conduct the meeting.
She was in the meeting for all of five minutes before she called me up to
the boardroom. I wondered if she had let out my secret. I was hopeful
that she did not, since I did not know whom in that boardroom I could
trust.
I knocked upon the boardroom door with a little hesitation. After
Theresa said I could enter, I asked her what she needed. Theresa smiled
as she asked, "Can you please bring us in a pitcher of water and some
cups, Susana. Does anyone else need anything while she's up?"
A few of my board members asked for coffees and teas. I found myself
forced to ask how each one of them wanted it, given the nature of my
apparent position to them.
If maintaining my cover, meant scurrying to the second floor kitchen to
make them coffee and tea, I had to do it. That did not mean that I was
thrilled about it, but I knew I had to do it.
Once I finished with the first few cups, I carried them into the
boardroom. Most of the members did not say a word to me, as they were
listening to other people in the room. A few did give me some "thank
you, dear" responses that made my skin crawl. I was not any of their
dears, I was really their boss!
After bringing out the second set of coffees and teas, I fetched the
water pitcher. I filled the glass pitcher up and grabbed a sleeve of
plastic cups and made my way back into the boardroom.
I placed the pitcher and cups on the table. I heard them talking about
the leaks, but no one was volunteering anything that would have gotten me
or anyone else closer to the source.
I did not have long to listen as Theresa dismissed me from the room and
told me to close the door behind me. I could not fight her and keep my
cover, so I complied.
I went back to my secretary's desk and finished out my work day. I was
dejected when I walked out of the office that day to catch a ride home to
my cramped apartment aboard a crowded train. I could not believe that I
was no closer to finding the source than I had been when I entered the
office that day. The thought that I likely had to withstand many more
days undercover to find the source simultaneously filled me with the hope
of reaching my goal and the despair that I would be beneath Theresa's
boot for months.
The next day was similar to the first. I soon realized that this was
going to be an unmistakable trend as I was failing into a system of
routines that must have been almost second nature to Theresa given the
years she was subjected to them.
Each day, it was the same thing. Do this, do that! I simply lost track
of the number of orders, not requests, orders, that Theresa gave me over
the course of the first week alone.
It was not something I was used to having to deal with. I was accustomed
to giving orders, not taking them. I almost could not believe the extent
to which Theresa was taking the whole arrangement.
Theresa never failed to take full advantage of her position. She seemed
to like watching my executives squirm, almost as much as she liked making
me do the same.
I took her phone calls and made her travel and dinning arrangements. She
even made me make her personal arrangements for her trips to the salon.
I suppose I should not complain about it, since I made her do it all for
me too when our situations were reversed, save for the salon.
She also made me sit in on some meetings with people I knew. They all
treated me like a servant instead of the boss of the company. But I was
a lowly creature in their eyes, and I knew that I had to make sure they
maintained that perception of me. I was just there to fetch them drinks,
snacks, order their lunches and take down Theresa's notes. That was
their expectations for a secretary, and I had to live up to them.
Theresa seemed to love watching me wait on the people who had once been
my equals or not even that. I could sense it. She liked watching me
lower myself and act beneath them. I almost felt beneath them as time
went on and my hopes grew more forlorn.
She also liked the fact that I was the one cleaning up her office or
conference rooms before and after she meet with our business associates.
I wiped down the tables before they sat down and talked business, and I
was the one who wiped away the crumbs and sprayed clean the tabletops
when they were done with it.
The only thing that Theresa appeared to like more than watching me serve
other people was having me serve her. Every cup of coffee, tea or water,
and each and every snack I brought her, Theresa seemed to treat it all
like a personal triumph.
It did not stop with fetching consumables for her. She loved calling out
to me from inside her office to make get to my feet. I would have to
come and look at her as she sat confidently behind the desk I had picked
out for myself as I addressed her.
Only then would she order me to bring this or that document or file some
document or folder away. Half the time, the documents and folders never
even left her office. She just did not want to get to her feet to move
them from her shelves to her desk or vice versa.
The thank yous for my efforts were few and far between from her as well.
I felt that Theresa was taking advantage of the situation and was also
taking me for granted.
I also spent time of my day each day, sorting her mail. I reviewed each
piece and wrote her brief reviews on post-its to make her life easier
when she had to look it all over. She often thanked me for that, but
little else.
Whenever I had to do something more involved for her, like go out to
pickup her lunch, which she frequently ordered out for more and more as I
became more entrenched in my secretarial position, or pickup her laundry,
she always seemed to be as giddy as if she had won the Super Bowl. It
was bizarre, but I guess she had some revenge fantasies in her head that
she wanted to live out.
I could stand it all, but what really stuck in my craw was when Theresa
felt the need to actually berate me in front of my coworkers. While I
always got sympathy from the other secretaries, who came to view Theresa
as a dick-less dick, I never stopped being humiliated about the whole
ordeal.
The idea that my secretary was publicly scolding and shamming me in my
own office, while I was reduced to staring up at her with my hosiery
covered legs sometimes shaking was beyond mortifying. I could not
believe that I let myself be led into the situation.
Speaking to Theresa about it did not do me any good. She just told me it
was part of her job to keep things running smoothly and that discipline
was important, reminding me of when I had taken her aside to scold her.
Of course, I had largely done it in the privacy of my office. Not at her
desk, in full view of the other executive's secretaries and whoever was
passing by at that moment! I warned Theresa about it, reminding her that
I would be her boss again one day, but she just brushed me off like I was
making a mountain out of a molehill.
Sometimes, Theresa's critiques were more teasing and playful. She
frequently told me that she could do it better, to which I would respond
that if that was so, she was welcome to do it herself.
Throughout it all, however, I managed to keep my ears and eyes open.
Looking at everything I could get my hands on, and listening in on every
conversation I could hear, I tried to steal every bit of information I
could. It was the only thing that kept me sane. Still, although I
accumulated a wealth of pointless information about my employees, I
obtained not a scintilla of evidence regarding who was leaking
information from the company.
I was not attracting much attention to myself though, so that gave me
hope that I would stumble upon the truth at any moment. Theresa had been
right when she told that no one would notice me much as a secretary.
Consequently, I was able to keep up my fruitless efforts. Some of the
girls, however, did distract me from time to time, as they had no
hesitance with sharing the minutia of their lives, their children's lives
and their husband's lives with me, as well as various little gossip
tidbits about celebrities and television shows.
Life at my new home, meanwhile, grew increasingly intolerable. My small
apartment was a far cry from my mansion in every imaginable way. Beside
the obvious size differential, there were little things that drove me
nuts, like the way I couldn't open the stove door the whole way without
striking the cabinets on the other side of the narrow kitchen. I also
had to close the refrigerator door to move passed it to get to any other
part of the kitchen.
Besides the sheer size and comfortableness of the dwelling, there were
other differences as well. At home, I barely ever cleaned up after
myself. At my apartment, however, I did not have a cleaning lady to care
for such things.
Theresa advised that it was something I could not afford on my
secretary's salary, so I would have to do without it, just in case anyone
found out about my living arrangements. As a result, the only time I was
actually happy about the small size of my apartment was when I was
vacuuming my rugs and washing my floors or otherwise cleaning and dusting
my apartment.
Theresa gave me some advice about doing it. I paid attention to her, but
tried to ignore her when she told me that she would make a regular "Suzy
homemaker out me yet."
Despite the teasing, I cooked for myself far more than I ever did when I
lived at my mansion. I was used to going out to dinner several times a
week during my executive days, but I did not have the company to be
bothered enough to do it, despite my access to my bank accounts.
Shopping for groceries in my new neighborhood was also an experience for
me. The local supermarket was not up to the standards that I was used to
experiencing in terms of cleanliness or in terms of clientele.
The shoppers there were far more harried and unkempt than I was used to
seeing at the organic markets that my nutritionist advised me to shop at
during my executive days. I was eager to get out of the store and kept
my shopping time to a minimum, learning the various ins and outs of the
aisles as quick as I could.
It did not help either that Theresa frequently gushed about my mansion
that I had allowed her to take up residence in. She frequently had me
order food to cater her dinner affairs for meetings with vendors and
other business associates at my home. It killed me a little to know that
she was living it up at my home, eating with guests I had at my home over
the years at the large wooden table I had specially built for me over the
hardwood floors and oriental area rugs my interior designers picked out
while I was eating some meager meal at a two-seater Formica table over a
slightly discolored linoleum floor.
Theresa also liked to tell me how nice it was to have someone else to
clean up her mess. I could relate, but that did not help keep me from
getting frustrated about my own conditions at home.
More than two months of the same old, same old passed, and I had gotten
no closer to my goal. Every little demand from Theresa was beginning to
feel like I was getting poked with a stick in the eye by that point.
I was constantly irritated, which some of more enlightened male coworkers
assumed was me PMS-ing. If they only knew what I was going through, the
primping, the hour to get ready every morning, the heels digging into my
feet, the itchy tights and having to sit down on a toilet seat each and
every time you go to the bathroom. And despite the stereotypes, let me
tell you this, the women's room was no cleaner the men's room. It's like
the women feel that keep their home clean, so why should they bother to
attempt to clean up after themselves at work!
It was shortly after my two month anniversary with the office as a
secretary that Theresa tapped me on the shoulder and had another request.
I looked up at her and waited for her to tell me what it was.
"As you know, Easter is almost upon us, and every year we have a nice
party for our employees and some business associates to bring their kids
too."
"Okay," I replied, knowing the party was one of several that had been
held for years by my company as an effort to boost employee morale.
"Now, when I was in your shoes, my boss used to make me work the event as
Little Bo Peep to held guide the cute little ones up to the Easter
Bunny."
"You've got to be kidding me," I said aloud.
Theresa shook her head and said sternly, "No, dear. I surely wouldn't
kid about such things. It's mandatory."
I gave her a stunned look. I knew that she was getting me back for the
years she spent working the event. She also kind of resented that I
didn't play the Easter Bunny and share in her humiliation to a degree, as
I always had the newest executive put on the costume as away of making
them earn their bones a little. I really never thought that it could
ever possibly come back to bite me in the ass.
Theresa walked away with a smirk on her face, knowing what I was going to
go through. I almost wanted to quit then and there and give up the
chase, but the leaks were continuing and I thought I had some suspects
lined up, even though I had no real proof. I contented myself with the
fact that I had decided to payback Theresa for all her slights by firing
her the minute I took the reigns back over before I sighed and resigned
myself to inheriting another demeaning role from my old secretary.
Two days later, there I was getting dresse