INTERRUPTIONS
by Geneva
During the 1870 Franco-Prussian war a young Prussian spy in Paris is
captured by a brothel owner and is turned into a girl by her magic book.
The new girl escapes and finds refuge. She eventually gets revenge for
an old injury and finds love.
START
I took a deep breath, hoping to steady my nerves as I made my way to the
general's quarters. It did not help much. My stomach was cramping too
much in my nervousness. The general's quarters were near enough to the
rest of the army bivouac and the night twinkled with hundreds of
campfires. There was no need to keep them hidden from the French, stuck
and helpless behind the Paris fortifications. I had been ordered to
report to the general but for him there was no tent and campfire.
Instead, the Prussian army had taken over a French farmhouse and his
staff room was its former large kitchen.
I presented my orders to one group of sentries at a gate and again to
another sentry at the door and when he stood aside, I knocked at the
ancient -looking oak door, almost instantly opened by a uniformed man
who I recognized as the general's aide-de-camp. I saluted him and with a
curt nod of his head he saluted back and gestured for me to enter. "In
here, Leutnant." The general was standing in front of a table studying a
map. His tunic was actually unbuttoned and his head was bare showing his
cropped gray hair, but it did not reduce his air of authority. When he
saw me he straightened even more than the usual ramrod stance he had
shown at his last regiment inspection. As I saluted he gave a slight
acknowledgement, then looked me up and down.
It was just a month or so previously, when I had been barely promoted
from ensign to leutnant. that I had been advised that I was being
considered for an important, yet risky task. I had previously given my
name as a volunteer if such projects were planned.
For some reason, supposedly connected with the task ahead, I had been
ordered not to cut my hair. Usually, like other young officers, indeed
the whole Prussian army, my hair was cropped. I had obeyed, of course,
as my duty demanded, and I was almost embarrassed at its length, now
almost like a civilian's, compared to everyone else in the army. It had
got so that some officers would frown when they saw me and I would have
to give them an explanation. They would be wondering what schemes their
superiors were up to.
"Stand straight, Leutnant!" I heard commanded and I immediately did so,
clicking my heels. Hardly daring to breathe, I looked straight ahead
through the small multipaned farmhouse windows, with the view over our
bivouacked army and its rows of tents, laid out in lines with military
precision. I was aware that he was inspecting me closely. He peered into
my face and he actually walked round me, as if he was even inspecting my
rear.
I noticed another figure there too in the corner. It was my immediate
commander, my captain.
The general came in front of me again and gave my face more scrutiny. I
grimaced. Was I improperly dressed? I had brushed my uniform, polished
my boots, all the metalwork and leather.
"I think he will do, although his hair is messy!" I heard the general
say and I wondered what he meant.
To my astonishment the captain came over to me, saluted and then took my
hand shaking it. He almost looked as if he was about to embrace me but
then caught himself. He almost seemed emotional. He had given me much
rigorous training and instruction since I joined the army, and I knew
that he was meticulous but fair. I was astonished too to see there was a
little sympathy, mixed in with sternness in his eyes, reminding me of
the duty expected of me.
"Leutnant Kroll, Gerhardt, I wish you luck. It was patriotic of you to
volunteer for special service. The success of the Prussian empire may
depend on you. You must have great courage, and remember your duty to
the Fatherland. Hopefully, your task will not last long. Now that you
have been selected you should obey all orders without question!
Understood? We will begin the process tomorrow. We can delay no longer.
This siege has gone on long enough. We must force a quick surrender and
you will be a part of it."
I was flushed with pride. I had been conscripted into the army two years
previously as part of my compulsory military service. It was not to my
taste. I had wanted to make my living as an artist but, when
conscription called, I had to obey, like all Prussian youth. I was not
as strong or tall as other recruits, but they told me I had shown
initiative and courage, plus rigorously attending to orders and I was
happy that I was being recognized with a great task.
The general gave a nod and the captain saluted and left, leaving me
alone with the general and his aide-de-camp.
"You speak French well, I have been told, Leutnant?"
"Yes sir, my mother was French but," I blurted out, " she is a good
Prussian citizen now."
"I have no doubt she is, but I am only concerned with your own
knowledge. You will be required to speak French like a native, a
Parisian."
"My mother was from Paris so I think I will have the proper Parisian
accent, sir"
"All to the good! Well, Leutnant Kroll, I suppose you are wondering what
this is all about?"
I swallowed. "Yes, Herr General."
"Well, as you know, we of the Prussian army are arranged in siege around
Paris. Our armies have triumphed over the French. We defeated them
easily in the field and even captured their emperor." He gave a
contemptuous laugh then shook his head in exasperation. " But still the
war is not finished! They now have another republic, their third!" he
snorted. "They now have a 'Government of National Defense', as they call
it, but we are having difficulty finding anybody to negotiate with! That
is very disorganized of them!
"Our siege will eventually be successful, but the army general staff
wish to see it shortened. We are proposing to bring up our new Krupp
guns. These are designed to fire explosive shells and have a range of
over four kilometres. That would almost certainly force surrender of
whoever is in charge, but the Kaiser is unwilling to cause too much
destruction.
"More to the task for you, it would help us if we have information on
the mood of the population. We have repots that our siege is causing
unrest and disorder in the city. There are competing factions. If the
dissidents overthrow the government they will surely want to sue for
peace. We need a spy in the city to inform us of the sentiment. Perhaps
even one who can start rumors to cause panic." He gave a small laugh.
"The French even have a name for it, agent provocateur! So, Leutnant
Kroll, that is what we want you to do. We will introduce you to the
city. There you will spy out for us, and do anything in your power to
start unrest."
He must have seen my expression of disbelief. "Ah yes, of course, you
will be wondering how we will get you into the city? We have it
surrounded, but there are French lines too, difficult to pass. So, our
idea is, with you and others, to send you in at night by balloons. These
are filled with coal gas. Being lighter than air they will float and
carry you over the city. Then you will set the balloon down and you will
begin your work."
"But Herr General, how will I report back?"
"You will carry some pigeons. You will attach messages to them. We will
give you four and you can attach reports at your discretion."
"Then I will have to get some place to stay, or hide, and suitable for
pigeons, sir," I added hastily.
"That is right. You will use your initiative. Our information is that
there are many unoccupied or partly ruined buildings. You should shelter
in one."
"But how will I get back?"
He twirled his mustache. " I have heard that you show much initiative.
So you will either have to see if there is a way you can pass back to us
through the French lines. If not, you will just have to wait out the
siege. That should not take more than a month anyway. You will be given
a good supply of francs, enough to last about three months.
"You will, of course, be given French clothes to wear, some such as a
workman would wear. I don't have to remind you that as a spy you would
be executed if you are discovered."
That had been first in my mind when he mentioned the scheme. I gulped.
"So will you do this?"
The task would be dangerous. If I failed I would be executed by a firing
squad or maybe even by guillotine and I felt a shudder inside. Still, if
I were successful, I would enhance my military prospects. All able
bodied men were required to spend time in the Prussian army. I had been
selected for officer training, but I really eventually wanted to make a
civilian career. Still, the time I spent in the army would be easier if
I was known to have given good service and I might make useful
connections. It would probably open a few doors and help in my later
life as a civilian too.
"Yes, general, I will be pleased to do it. I want to do my bit to ensure
Prussian success."
"Wonderful!" I thought he was going to shake my hand but he caught
himself and just nodded approval me and I saluted back.
"Then, any questions, leutnant?"
I hesitated. "Please, captain. I will do my best , but if I am not
successful and am killed, or captured and executed, will you send a
letter to my relatives? You may read it. I will make sure it contains no
military information," I asked. "I have lived with an uncle after my
parents died some years ago. I have no brothers or sisters."
"Yes, I will do so. But I am sure that will be unnecessary for a young
man of your initiative. You will carry out your task and in a month or
so when the French have surrendered you can rejoin the army. Then,
dismissed, leutnant! Report back here tomorrow morning."
I made my way back to my quarters, apprehensive and excited.
It did not take long before they had everything ready for me. They had
already procured some French civilian clothing for me, a pair of baggy
trousers, a collarless shirt and a loose jacket. The clothes even fit me
quite well even though they were worn and shabby like a workman's. They
drilled me in my story, that I was a refugee from areas now occupied by
Prussian troops and that unfortunately my papers had been lost in my
frantic haste to escape the advancing Prussian army. I would not have
been the only person so affected. The speed of the Prussian advance had
taken many by surprise. There would be many refugees in the city.
The next day I had an apprehensive look at the balloon. It was attached
to a small wicker basket which was supposed to hold me, my supplies and
the pigeons. It seemed tiny, only about half a metre square.
Lying next to it was an enormous deflated rubberized bag, which they
assured me that, when it was filled with coal gas, it would give me
enough lift to sail over the French defenses. The planned trip was to be
at night, so that the balloon would not be seen by the French. All that
was needed was a suitable wind. Hopefully it would carry me over a
suitable section of Paris. When I saw a suitable part, I was to release
some of the gas, alight in hopefully an open area, dismount with the
pigeon carrier then release the balloon. Relieved of its load it would
rise up again and be carried well away, leaving no sign that I had been
dropped off.
I wondered about training for the mission, but there was little of it,
other than to drill me in the control of the vent for the gas bag,
familiarize myself with the map of Paris and learn the care of pigeons.
"Gerhardt, I hear that you have been selected for the venture." I heard
behind me. "My congratulations!"
I turned to see Albrecht Steinhof, a fellow trainee. I had known
Albrecht for some time, from when we were in the officer school.
However, we were not friends. We had been keen rivals during our
training. I knew that he too had also been considered for a special
task. But I had been the one selected. He shook my hand but there was
resentment in his eyes. Still, that was the army. It was our duty to
strive to be the best soldiers we could. This time I had been more
successful than him.
I offered him my hand. "Albrecht, I am sure that the general will have a
suitable task for you too. It is not as if the army will run out of
things for us to do!" I tried to make a joke of it but his face still
showed envy even though he took my hand. Albrecht had been given the
same training as me. That was reasonable, in case I fell ill.
"So, do you want to go out and celebrate?" he asked. "Maybe we can pick
up a couple of local girls. I've heard that these French girls know a
lot of tricks."
Albrecht's exploits with girls were the talk of or group, but I shook my
head. "Sorry, I'm not of a mind for it."
He laughed. "Then I'll go by myself."
I wanted to get started but the next few days had contrary winds,
followed by a day of dead calm. The waiting did not do anything for my
nerves. Having committed myself to the mission I was impatient. Finally
the wind changed and I was told to be ready within the hour.
It was a moonless night and quite dark and, as I got to the balloon
site, I saw the gas bag already inflated, looking like an enormous great
gray slug in the light of many lanterns. It was tethered to some stakes
by several straining ropes. I had a moment of panic when I saw the small
size of the basket, now looking almost filled with the crate for the
pigeons, but I suppressed my misgivings.
The general was there. He gave my civilian outfit a cursory but
contemptuous glance. "You are ready, leutnant?"
"Yes, Herr General," and I saluted and went to climb into the basket.
Albrecht was already there, doing something with the vent in the
balloon.
"Just making sure all is correct," he said and stood back for me to get
in. "Good luck, Gerhardt," he said as I climbed I into the light basket,
my feet kicking against the pigeons' crate. I heard squawks of alarm and
their wings fluttered as I settled myself in beside them. Their
fluttering matched that of my stomach. At the general's signal some
soldiers began loosening the ropes while others took a firm grip on the
mooring ropes. The tethering ropes were finally cleared and at the
general's signal the men let go of the other ropes. I had a moment of
concern when the balloon rose only slowly at first until it lifted
faster. In seconds it was caught on the breeze and began to drift in the
direction of the city. The soldiers' faces, strangely lit by their
torches, were gaping at me as the balloon lifted up, then becoming ever
smaller as I drifted away from them until their faces were lost in the
gloom.
In a minute I was well over our own lines. I could easily make out
campfires below and the partly lit tents. No one noticed me at all and
looking up I could barely see the balloon holding me aloft. I hoped the
French would be equally oblivious to my passage.
Then, in only minutes, the outlines of the French lines became visible.
No one there seemed to notice me in the darkness either. The stars were
out, but my balloon would have been only a passing shadow, like a cloud,
over them.
The wind was almost right. I was soon drifting fairly close to the city
center and I saw the spoked lines of the streets radiating from their
edifice, 'Arc de Triomphe' they called it, I believe. I wondered if the
French were feeling as triumphant now with their capital under siege,
their armies shattered and their emperor a prisoner.
Ahead I could see a less bright area, and even an open space. That would
be a good spot to let down in. Now was the tricky part. I had to release
just enough gas to permit me to slowly descend. There was a valve I was
to operate, and I had been instructed to take a deep breath before
operating it as the coal gas was poisonous.
So, taking a deep breath, I opened the valve, feeling the swoosh of the
gas as it rushed out. I waited a few seconds, breathing out slowly, then
tried to reclose it. To my horror the valve was stuck open. I had to
wrench at it with all my strength before it reclosed. More gas had come
out than I wanted so I allowed yet another few seconds before I gasped
for a breath. I turned up my nose. There was still the distinctive smell
of the coal gas. I bent down to get a breath but, if anything, it was
worse around my feet and I choked slightly.
The valve had never been so difficult before and when I examined it more
closely I saw some marks on it, as if it had been tampered with. I drew
in my breath. That must have been Albrecht's doing. He had deliberately
sabotaged my mission! He actually had wanted me killed so that he would
be the one to take part in another attempt.
I had little time to curse him. With so much gas released the balloon
was now falling quite fast and the ground was rapidly coming at me. I
braced myself for the impact but with a sudden change in the wind in the
lee of a larger building the balloon was whirled away from the open
area.
I sucked in my breath. The peaked roofs of some buildings were rushing
towards me barely giving me enough time to brace myself before the
basket struck against one, caught for a minute then in another gust of
wind was dragged along a roof. Then, with a sudden jolt it stopped,
caught on some projecting ornamental ironwork. I was almost jerked out
of the basket.
The balloon had stopped moving and as this seemed as good a place as any
I started to climb out. Remembering my instructions, I lifted out the
basket with the pigeons. They were strangely quiet and I looked at them.
All were lying motionless. I shook them but they still made no motions.
I had the sickening realization that they had been asphyxiated by the
poisonous gases from the venting balloon!
There was another gust of wind and this time the partly deflated
balloon, now relieved of its load, was caught in it. The basket tipped
over, spilling out the pigeon crate but I did not have time to react
when a stray rope on the basket caught my leg and dragged me along. Then
I was rolling off the roof, only briefly aware of the balloon lifting
away into the air, before I was falling off the roof. I hit the ground
with a jolt and I surrendered to my pain.
The next thing I was aware of was lying on something soft. I opened my
eyes to see that I was in what looked like a bedroom, a woman's bedroom,
filled with frilly lacy curtains and light colored furniture. There was
a dressing table with a mirror, and on the table were a selection of
brushes and combs, women's cosmetics and even a perfume bottle.
There was a scent in the air too, a woman's perfume, not subtle, almost
cloyingly sweet.
I shook my head and raised myself, wincing at the terrible aches in my
arms and legs. As I raised myself there was a spasm from my back and in
fact, I seemed to be sore all over, but as I gently tested my limbs and
ribs I was relieved to find that nothing appeared to be broken. I raised
myself more and was completely taken aback to see that I was on a bed,
with a pink frilly coverlet, blankets and sheets. It was obviously a
woman's bed, matching the room.
It was then I found I was completely naked under the sheets. My clothes
were there, but in a pile at the side of the room. I threw off the
sheets, grimacing at the scratches, scrapes and bruises on my body and
limbs, dark blue or red, then suddenly horrified to discover my ankle
chained to part of the bed. I had a sudden chill. I must have been
caught and that was why I was chained, and probably soon to be tried and
executed. Then I began to wonder. Why would I be on this soft frilly
female bed, and not in some stark cot in a bleak prison cell?
I had lain there for ten minutes or so trying to make sense of it when
the door suddenly opened and a woman entered. She looked as if she was
about fifty. She was flashily dressed and must have been quite beautiful
when young. Even now she was quite striking. Her hair was still dark,
but with some streaks of gray. Her face was elaborately made up, a layer
of make-up just failing to conceal lines on her face. Her dark red dress
was expensive material, but it was a bit too flashy for everyday wear.
Her waist was well indented. She obvious wore a tight corset.
She looked down at me coldly. She was about to speak but, before she
could begin, "What has happened?" I asked. "Why am I here and why am I
fastened to the bed?"
She lifted her eyebrows. "Ah, you speak French, and very well too. That
will make it easier to communicate. But then I suppose spies like you
would need to speak good French."
I tried to play innocent. "Spy? What? I do not understand! I am an
ordinary Parisian workman."
She sniffed in obvious contempt. "Do you think I'm stupid? I advise you
to give up that pretense. Last night I heard a terrible banging on the
roof and when I went to investigate I found you lying outside,
unconscious. I must say you made a terrible mess of my roses! Lying
beside you, there was a basket of dead pigeons. Actually I thank you for
them. My girls and I will eat pigeon tonight. It will be a pleasant
change from the mean diet we are having since you Prussians laid siege
to the city." She gestured to a pile of clothing by the bed. " I must
say your clothing was appropriate, but you forgot your underwear. Its
label shows it is German manufacture. Also, we had reports of a balloon
found almost deflated about half a kilometer away.
"So, monsieur, I think it is highly unlikely you are an ordinary French
citizen. At the least you could be an aspiring burglar. But it is far
more likely that you are a Prussian spy."
I made a feeble protest but the lie must have shown in my face.
"I thought so. No, the question is, what do I do with you? You deserve
to be executed, yet," there was faint smile on her face, "you are a nice
looking young man. You have, I must say, a nice body. My girls were very
taken with you when they undressed you and washed the dirt and scrapes
off your body. You know, it would be such a waste to have them separate
your head from your body, or have a volley of bullets put into your
chest."
"What are you going to do?" I cried.
"Nothing at the present. In fact, you have made quite a dilemma for me
already. I should have turned you over to the police immediately. Maybe
I will still do that."
"Please let me go. I can give you money."
She looked at me angrily. "Young man. You insult me. I may run a
brothel, but I am a loyal French citizen. It is only my sadness at the
killing in this war that has stopped me from already turning you in.
Continue to insult me and that is what I will do! Besides, I already
have taken all your money. You are without a sou.
"Now, how do you feel?"
Before I could reply the door was pushed open and a younger woman came
in. She was only partly dressed. She was not wearing a dress, only a
white shift with a tight dark blue corset over it pushing her breasts up
nicely into her low neckline. I could not help being stimulated by her
appearance and being naked the effect on me was immediately noticeable.
The girl pointed to my groin and gave a beaming smile while the older
woman laughed.
"Well monsieur, I see that you must indeed be feeling better. I think
perhaps, you should tell me your name. I am Eugenie, Madame Geroux. I am
a widow. This is one of my girls, Pauline. As I said, I run a brothel
here. So, your name is?"
I blushed. "I am Gerhardt, Gerhardt Kroll."
"Well, Gerhardt, I have many things to attend to and I will let Pauline
look after you today. But I suppose you will be feeling hungry? Pauline,
will you fetch some food for our young friend here? There may be some of
that stew left!"
I watched as Pauline turned and left the room. She was a very pretty
girl, with long dark hair in ringlets and a slim figure, but with
voluptuous hips that had drawn my attention. Her lips were full and red
and her eyes had sparkled.
"As for you, Monsieur Gerhardt, you'll stay here until I've decided what
to do with you.
"By the way, it's late afternoon. We'll be having some customers start
here in a few hours. I advise you to be quiet. I'm sure they would not
like to find a Prussian spy in their midst."
I lay there the rest of that day. They actually fed me well and the
pigeons, that had accompanied me on the journey, even tasted quite well.
She had used a wine sauce. Later, I tried the chain on my leg but it
could not be slipped and its other end was too firmly bolted to the
bedframe.
I heard the customers coming and going that night, their voices, then
their bumpings and bangings and occasional cries while I lay in quiet
terror in case I was discovered.
I felt absolutely devastated. I would have failed in my mission. I had
no way of communicating to the army, and if the story ever got out that
I had been a captive in a brothel I would be the laughing stock of the
Prussian army.
The next morning I was awakened from a doze by Madame Geroux. "Well,
young man, how do you feel today?"
I gritted my teeth. "I feel well, thank you, madame," I said
sarcastically.
"I suppose you'll be wondering what will happen to you. I've come to a
decision and I've two choices for you. One of them may help me too.
"One choice is that I will inform the authorities that I caught a young
man who I first thought was a burglar, but now I have suspicions of
being a Prussian spy. You know the penalty for that?
"The other...? Well, you see, I run this brothel. I need girls, pretty
ones. And, looking at you, I see a nicely shaped young man. It would be
such a pity if he were executed. So, I've been thinking. Perhaps that
young man would like to help me here, in return for not being turned
in?"
I was horrified. "What, to have men to use me? I'm not one of those
kind! I'd rather die!"
"Hah! That can be easily arranged, but I should have added something
else. You see, Monsieur Gerhardt, you would act as a girl." I was about
to protest but she held up her hand. "I said girl, and I mean a genuine
girl." She emphasized the 'genuine'. "You see, I have a magic spell
book. One of the spells in it, if you heard it, would make you into a
girl. And yes, a very beautiful one. Yes, you'd be very popular, but
then, all my girls are!"
"That cannot be! A spell book? That would be magic. Nonsense!"
"I assure you that it's not nonsense. Of course you must not reveal what
the book does. For my good, but your's too. The power of the book is too
great to allow its knowledge, even its very existence, to be known. Only
the girls here know of it."
I wondered what book she meant. Magic? I shook my head. Magic did not
exist, but she seemed very sure.
"No, I can't. I'm a man."
"Then, will you be prepared to die like a man, as a man?" She must have
been ready for the expression in my face. She nodded knowingly. "Ah, I
see you have to think about it. I'll give you until this evening. Then
you'll agree or I'll call the gendarmes."
At last the evening came, and Madame Geroux came into my room,
accompanied by another of her girls. She introduced her as Michelle. She
was also very pretty, also with long dark hair, but worn straight. She,
like Pauline, was not wearing a dress, only a tight scarlet corset over
her shift and black stockings. Just as had happened with Pauline, her
pretty bosom, swelling in the low neckline of her shift, stimulated me.
I tried to cover myself. Michelle gave a giggle at my attempts before I
finally grabbed a sheet to hide myself.
Madame Geroux looked at me. "Well, monsieur, I have to ask. You have you
decided?"
All that afternoon I had lain in an agony of indecision thinking about
the alternatives. "Madame," I asked, "if I became a girl, would I start
to behave and think as a girl?"
"Yes, that's a consolation. Or perhaps a reward? Yes, it usually takes
months, but you'll start to think as a girl, have a girl's feelings and
desires. I've been told you'll eventually fully accept and even welcome
your new body, but it will take some time. I wish the spell had that
effect immediately but," she shrugged, "that's the way it is."
"You mean you have changed men in the past?"
"Oh yes, two or three, men who wanted the change. I've brought Michelle
here to show you. She used to be a man, but she persuaded me to use the
book on her. Isn't that right, Michelle?"
Michelle blushed prettily and nodded. "Yes, Madame Geroux." I stared at
her. Surely there was no way a pretty girl like that could ever have
been a man?
"Actually, I've also changed two girls into men. Why on earth they
wanted to be men I can't imagine" She shrugged again, "but there's no
accounting for taste."
"Where did the book come from?"
"My mother gave it to me. She was given it by her mother and before
that? I don't know. All I can say is that it's been in our family for
generations. It's been passed through the female line. I suppose it's
been used before, for various reasons. Actually it's written in an old
language, although it has notations in French, Spanish and other
languages, advice on how to use the spells and some comments too.
Actually, much of the book has healing spells for diseases and injuries.
My mother told me these were used with great discretion because she
could not let the existence of the book be known. That would have been
dangerous for her, very dangerous. This may be the nineteenth century
but our society still has little tolerance of witches or magicians."
She shook her head. "But we've delayed too long. You're ready, then
Gerhardt?"
I swallowed. "Yes, I am prepared." I was miserable, but I meant it at
that time. I was deathly afraid of being changed to a woman with the
added horror of being used in the brothel, but that was better than
dying before a firing squad or under a guillotine.
"All right, I'll read the spell to you. I warn you, the first effects
are not pleasant. First, you will start to shiver, more and more
violently until become unconscious, but when you awake the
transformation will be almost complete. You'll not like this at all, but
it's to save you. Yes, it will help me too."
I decided to plead with her as a last resort. "Please madame, have
mercy. I do not want to be a woman and a prostitute!"
She snapped the book shut, with a look of exasperation. "All right, your
choice. I'll contact the authorities. They can be here presently. I'm
sure you will die well!" She made to move out of the room.
I was broken with the thought of execution. "No please, I will do as you
say."
She nodded. "Then you'd better lie back immediately. You know what I am
going to do?" she asked.
"Yes," I whispered.
"You're already undressed. I'll leave you like that so that I can check
the changes. Michelle or others of my girls will check on you too. They
have all had the spells read to them at some point. The spell affects
all who hear it. With women, it makes them more beautiful. Don't you
think my girls are all very pretty? Actually I'm over sixty, but I have
read the spell several times to girls and to young men, and I flatter
myself that I look much younger. You wouldn't think I'm sixty, would
you!"
She was right about that. I would have sworn that she was only in her
forties.
"Now, prepare yourself. Hurry up! take away that sheet."
I licked my lips nervously. "But I am a man. I should not be seen naked
before a woman."
She raised her eyes and gave a faint smile. "Before this day is over you
will be a woman."
I felt helpless. Something terrible was going to happen to me and I
could do nothing about it. I lifted the sheet from me, now blushing
furiously. I felt the hairs on my legs and arms lift with the chill in
the air.
She examined me, her eyes running up and down my body. "Yes, you'll do
well. You have a straight, well-formed body. As a girl you'll have these
too. I should tell you that you'll become like a girl of your own age,
but there is one lovely effect of the spell. It makes beauties, and you
will always look younger than your real age. That's a nice thing for
woman, eh?
"The only thing is your hair is much too short. " She sighed. "That
means a wig for many months! Now, time to get on with our task."
She pushed me back onto the low bed, opened the bag she was carrying and
pulled out a small package of silk cloth. She unwrapped that to reveal a
tattered book. It was quite small, with a stained yellow leather cover
that looked like pigskin. She opened it at a marked page and began to
read. I began trembling as I heard her begin to sound out various words.
They made absolutely no sense. They were no language I recognized.
"That's a strange sounding language," I said.
"Yes, it's nothing like any language I've ever heard either."
I did not know what I was expecting, but by the time she closed the book
and put it back into her little bag nothing had happened. "Didn't it
work? " I asked. If it had failed to work would she call the police?
Then, what she was doing was fantastic, Impossible, I thought. Why was
she playing with me?
"The spell takes several minutes to start."
"What will happen now?"
"You'll see soon enough. So Gerhardt, why did you become a spy?"
"It was suggested as my duty. Also, if I'd been successful, it would
have helped my career. Also, I speak French."
"Yes, you do, very well, like a native. Did you want to stay in the
army?"
"No, I really want to be a painter, of landscapes, portraits and such, I
mean. But like all young men in Prussia I had to complete military
service. I will take up painting when my army days are over."
"I'm afraid, Gerhardt, that your life has now taken an interruption, a
drastic change! I don't think these plans will happen now." She was
watching me closely. I was trembling with apprehension and then briefly
I felt cold and I shivered.
"Yes, Gerhardt, to become a woman may be your loss or gain depending on
many things. You're a bold young man," she said. "Anyway, I see you are
starting to shiver. That is the first sign. Eventually you'll become
unconscious and the changes will start.
"When you become as a woman, or at least a girl your own age, your mind
will resist the change in your body at first, but eventually, a few
months or so, you'll start to feel and think as a woman. You'll get a
woman's emotions, and in time you will be comfortable in your new body.
You'll get her desires. You're a healthy young man and no doubt you have
had natural attractions to women. Did you ever sleep with a woman?"
"No." I shook my head. My mind went back inexplicably to Albrecht. He
had taken as many opportunities as our army service allowed to visit
whorehouses. He had often boasted to me of his prowess.
"A pity, I didn't know that. Otherwise I might have had Pauline give you
a lesson or two as a parting gift but it's too late for that. It would
be interesting to compare your reactions and experiences. Between as a
man and as a woman, I mean. Anyhow, after some months as a woman you'll
start to feel the corresponding attraction that women have to men.
"Of course, any men looking at you will only see a girl, and you'll be a
beautiful one. Then you will have to learn how to handle both your own
emotions and the attentions of men. I imagine that as one of my girls
you will be very beautiful and popular. You should earn well."
I gasped. The thought of men using me filled me with horror. I tried to
rise but she held me down, gently but firmly. I felt cold again and this
time I gave a definite shiver. She was watching me carefully. "Lie back,
young Gerhardt. It will soon be on you."
I shivered again, a series of shakes that made my teeth chatter, and my
vision grew hazy and clouded. Then, with another strong series, so that
I was shaking continuously, I felt my eyes growing heavy and I slipped
into unconsciousness.
I was told later it was almost two days when I woke again. My eyes were
crusted over and my mouth felt as if it was filled with grit. I felt a
damp cloth wiped over my brow, and some sweet wine dripped on my lips. I
ached and was utterly tired and I just allowed myself to slip back into
a deep sleep.
When I next awoke, it was still to an aching body. I groaned slightly,
and immediately my face was wiped again and I felt a hand at my back,
lifting me slightly and a cup of wine at my lips. I could barely control
my lips and much dribbled down my chin and neck. I tried to speak, but
only managed a slight gasp.
I was totally confused. I was barely awake. I could not understand or
remember anything at first, yet there was something important that I had
heard about. I forced myself to concentrate and even tried to rise, but
I was held by someone's arm, the woman's I supposed. I clutched at it
and struggled to rise and I again felt the blessed water at my lips,
then a cool cloth was washing my face and eyes. I pried them open,
dazzled at the sudden light, and saw Madame Geroux over me. Her look was
half concern, half calculation.
"How do you feel?" she asked.
"What?" I gasped. Her voice seemed to be coming from a distance. She
repeated her question.
"I .... feel.... terrible, " I croaked. "What.... has.... happened?"
"It's the result of the spell. The final result is good, but it was very
severe on you. You have been unconscious two whole days."
"Spell?" Then I suddenly remembered. She had said I would become a girl!
Then I remembered all that had happened before I fell unconscious I
tried to rise but I was too weak and she had to pull me to help me sit
up. All of my body ached. " I hurt," I groaned. "I feel terrible."
"It's a drastic change, to be sure. It would be better if you were able
to rest, but not for too long. Eventually you'll have to face up to your
changes. Besides, it's time you started earning your keep. Do you want
to see your body or face first?"
But by that time I had slid down the sheet covering me. My breath caught
at the sight. Right in front of my eyes in my vision were two rounded
prominent female breasts. On their tips, sticking out prominently, were
pink nipples and areolas. I had seen female breasts before either on
marble statuary, or accidental glimpses of female relatives nursing
infants, but these breasts were not pendulous and swollen with milk;
they were smaller, rounded and pert. I lifted my hand to feel one,
noticing too a slim rounded limb, not sinewy and muscled as my arm had
been, but a woman's arm, rounded and smooth, with a slim hand and long
delicate fingers. I flexed my arm and worked my fingers. They ached
slightly but all moved well. Curious, yet hesitating, I put my fingers
to a nipple but stopped.
"Why did you stop?" asked Madame Geroux." You should get used to your
new body. Do it!" she ordered." She took one of my nipples in her
fingers and pinched and rolled it. I gasped at the sensation. "Do that
yourself!" she ordered. "Your customers will probably do it anyway!"
I put my fingers out and I touched one of the nipples, for the first
time feeling its sensitivity. I pressed the breasts. They felt yielding
and smooth, yet firm on my chest. A man's body had nothing comparable at
all.
I bent further to look at my body. I was still naked. Below the two
breasts my torso narrowed quickly to a small waist, but then flared out
again to wide hips, with a slightly rounded belly between. I bent even
further to view further below, trying not to be distracted by the weight
of the breasts on my chest and saw, at the base of my belly, a patch of
hair, and nothing else. I was too stiff to bend enough to see further.
"You want to check down there? Maybe you'll need a mirror?" suggested
Madame Geroux. "You'll get a better idea of the changes in your body
much easier with it." And without waiting for a reply she handed me one.
I held it between my legs in my shaking hands seeing, in the tuft of
hair, a mound with a vertical slit. My male anatomy was gone completely!
I shuddered.
"Open your legs further," she ordered, and I did so. The slit opened to
reveal a set of ridges of flesh with a small opening surrounded by pink
puckered lips. I looked at it in awe. I had never seen a woman's private
parts before and now I possessed them!
"Go on! Touch yourself," she encouraged. "You should get used to your
new body. You'll have to wash there anyway, frequently. I require all my
girls to keep themselves properly clean! The customers prefer that."
I did so, probing with a finger, wondering at the sensitivity, the new
sensations, almost flinching at times. The opening was moist, but I
could not bring myself to probe further. I dreaded at the thought of
having a man's penis actually being there and then entering me.
"Satisfied?" asked Madame Geroux.
"Of course I'm not," I whimpered. I had no other reply. I was stricken.
The enormity of what I had done was beginning to sink into my mind. I
burst into tears.
She patted my hand." Yes, I know, the changes are astonishing, but
you'll just have to get used to them and not complain. Here, have a look
at your face."
I looked at the mirror in horror. My hand went to my mouth as I saw my
transformed face for the first time. I screamed. "You've given me a
disease! " My face was red and blotchy!
"No, not at all. It's just the first effect of the spell. It will pass
very soon. Look at you. It's a girl's face."
It was a certainly girl's face, but puffy, dirty and stained. Still, as
I stared at it, I saw signs of my own regular features, blue gray eyes,
high cheekbones, although now furnished with full lips. The girl had my
ash blonde hair, but it was far too short for a woman.
"I'm glad you're concerned with your face. As a woman you should be, but
don't worry. It will much improve, even within a day. What you should
look at just now are your features. I see a pretty face, your nose, brow
and chin in proportion. Yes, and pretty full lips. You're blonde too.
That will make you popular." She took my face in her hands and looked
into my eyes. "Pretty eyes too. Dull, but I think they will soon be
sparkling. Your lashes are still a bit short too but if the spell works
as it usually does it will make you grow longer ones." She stroked my
eyebrows and my forehead. "You'll be a beauty."
She looked down at my chest. "Pretty breasts too, nicely shaped. You
still have hair on your chest but it will soon fall out. See!" She
pulled on some and it came way with barely a sting. "See! The long male
hairs on your arms and legs too will soon fall out. Down there too," she
pointed to the base of my belly, "you'll lose some hair and it will
become a woman's pattern. Actually, some of my customers like women to
be well supplied there. Some others like their girls to be shaved. You
can decide later which you want."
I felt my stomach contract. However I did it, I would have to escape
this place! At least I was now well disguised. But then, what would
become of me? My male identity was gone.
"Now, Gerhardt, how hungry are you?" The mere suggestion of food made me
feel nauseous. I shook my head.
"That's fairly usual, but your appetite will soon return. Oh yes, I
think we should now get a female name for you. How about Germaine?" She
shook her head. "On second thoughts, no, it is too like the English for
German. I know ... Gabrielle?
I had no thoughts about it. "I suppose so." I did not like the loss of
my own name, but I had no choice, and to be addressed in a woman's name
was strange.
My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of an explosion. The windows
of the room rattled and I head shouts and screams from outside. "Your
damned Prussian army!" She glared at me. "Now they are shelling the
city. Someone told me that whole streets have been demolished. "She
stared out of the window, her mouth quivering in anger then abruptly she
turned to me.
"Now, Gabrielle, it's time you got up. I need to see that you have come
through the spell with no injury. I want you to get up and walk around a
bit. Come on!" She helped me to my feet and, ignoring my gasps and
groans, supported me as she walked me back and forward in the small room
at least two dozen times.
"Not too bad, Gabrielle! You seem to have undergone the change well. I
know you ache but that's normal for the spell's effect."
My eyes felt heavy and I felt myself sagging. "Yes, you will still be
tired. The spell is quite weakening. I'll let you get some more sleep.
You're still weak. Your aches should have almost gone in a few hours.
Wait here." She went out but came back with a decanter of red wine and a
wineglass. "Here, some wine. That will help you relax and sleep." It was
a large glass, and I had drunk little since I woke up. I was soon very
sleepy, and allowed myself to settle in the bed. I slept for, I suppose,
some hours more.
When I awoke, I was alone in the room. I was still naked, but someone
had put a blanket over me. I threw it off and explored my new body
again. I had never felt anything comparable to the breasts. Their soft
firm texture, unlike anything I had felt on my previous male body. I
touched one of the nipples and felt a slight shiver. I pinched one then
the other and experienced a small strange feeling of pleasure. Both
nipples rose to my touch and the surrounding areolas too. I shivered.
How would I ever get used to these on my chest?
I felt at my groin, still intrigued to be missing my male parts. I felt
into the groove, and spread my legs. As I explored, I found an
exquisitely sensitive spot. When I rubbed it a feeling of intense
pleasure washed over me. I gasped, but then I heard a noise at the door
and I jerked my hand away.
She had not bothered to knock. Madame Geroux pushed her way in, carrying
a pile of clothing. She looked at my blushing face with a smile.
"Exploring yourself?" she asked. "That's good!" She had changed into yet
another gown. I looked at her neckline. It was low, revealing the tops
of her breasts, almost to her nipples. At first I was first taken aback
at her immodesty, then remembered that I too now had breasts. "How do
you feel now?" she asked.
I had not thought of it. In fact I had little soreness left. "I feel
better," I said.
She seemed satisfied. "Good! Now today, we should not delay. We will get
you fitted with women's clothes. You can try this stuff." I realized her
bundle also had women's underwear.
"The girls and I will give you a few hints about carrying yourself as a
woman, how to behave, and so on. Then the rest you'll have to learn
yourself through experience. Now, my girl, it is time you ate something.
You've been through a strain. The spell is not an easy one and you must
keep your strength up."
She had referred to me as a girl. My face flushed with embarrassment.
"I'll call one of the girls to bring some more food. In the meantime,
cover yourself with this. There will soon be men around." She handed me
a dressing gown. It was pale blue, made of a smooth slippery fabric and
decorated with lace and ribbons. It was a woman's gown. I did not want
to appear as if was giving in to her but it was that or stay absolutely
naked. Nervously I put it on.
"That's better. I must say you actually look very appealing." She called
out the door, and within minutes Pauline brought in some water, rye
bread, wine, cheese and some sliced apples. She gave me a quick
appraisal. "Well, isn't she pretty!" she exclaimed.
I was very hungry by this time and managed two large slices of bread
with cheese. I also had another cup of the wine. I had not had much
opportunity to taste wine in the army. Once a week we had been able to
get out for beer. Madame Geroux looked at me approvingly. "Yes, you seem
to have your appetite back." There was a knock at the door and she
answered it. I heard her talking to someone.
"That was one of the other girls," she said as she came back. "She was
wondering how you were. I told her you had undergone the transformation
well. The other girls will be keen to see how you look too. Isn't that
nice of them? You'll need to learn a lot from them. So make sure you
keep friendly with them!
"All right, I have some minutes to spare so, Gabrielle, let's get you
dressed. Properly. Take of that dressing gown," she ordered and I did
so. "And stop trying to cover yourself!" she snapped. She looked me up
and down, ignoring my blushes as she scrutinized my naked body "I
suppose you have never seen a woman dress, or undress for that matter.
I'd better help you." She gave a small smile. "There's little call for
most of my girls to be fully dressed when they are working, but they
like dressing themselves up when they're walking in the streets, markets
or parks. Some even like getting to church on Sundays."
It was true that I had never seen a woman dressing. I had no sisters.
She picked up a white garment. "Well first, these they are called
drawers." She handed me a white loose breeches -like garment, but split
in the middle, so that it was almost like two partially joined legs.
"These pull up over your legs and tie round the waist." I allowed her to
do fasten them on me, but blushing at the feel of the crisp fabric.
"Why is it split in the middle like that?"
She grinned. "It's too much of a fuss to untie them at the waist when
you need to relieve yourself. This way you only have lift your skirt or
petticoat and spread your legs." I winced at her description. To think
that I would be faced with that!
She gave me another superior smile. "Also, there are those monthly times
where you will need to clean yourself regularly to avoid staining your
clothes."
"Time of month? Stains? What do you mean?"
She shook her head in exasperation. "You never knew? What an ignorant
life you have led! Gabrielle, women bleed from their private parts once
each month, unless they are pregnant!"
Albrecht had made jokes about woman bleeding but it was almost
unbelievable.
"Don't shake your head like that. It's part of being woman. All women do
it unless they're pregnant or too old. At these times you'll need to
wear a pad. I'll show you later when your first one comes. It's these
bleeding times I give you a rest. Men don't like the mess." Ignoring my
shuddering she held out another garment. "Now, this is a chemise. This
goes over your head. Hold up your arms." It was like a shirt, although
in a finer fabric. I shivered as it slid down my body. I felt my nipples
harden at the touch of the fine fabric.
I put it on, shuddering at the feel as it draped around me. "This will
do for the present. It has these ties at the front." Without my asking
she fastened it. I felt the fabric brush against my nipples buttocks and
bare legs.
"That's good. That's a start. Next, your stockings, a corset and a
dress."
We were interrupted by another explosion, so near that I even felt its
concussion and I winced. Madame Geroux tensed and swore. "That's your
former comrades at it again, destroying my beautiful city with their big
guns." She looked at me coldly but shook her head and picked up a
garment with laces hanging from it.
"Next, this is your corset. It fastens with these clips at the front,
but you tighten it with the laces in the back. You may need help putting
it on. That's why some women have maids. Here, my girls help each other
when necessary. You'll need it to train your waist to be slim. Men like
slim waists and some like my girls to leave them on all the time.
Otherwise, you can unclip it at the front if you are in a hurry to
undress." She set it round my waist, fastened the front clips and
started pulling at the laces at the back the garment. She worked fast
and the laces made a hissing sound as she pulled them through the
eyelets. The garment became snug, but all of a sudden, she began to pull
the laces tighter and I felt it's the stiffness of the bones and its
compression immediately. "Breathe in more," she commanded.
I drew in my breath. I must have winced.
She snorted. "Stop making faces! I'm tightening it to give you a nice
slim waist. The spell has given you a nice figure, but a little pulling
in at the waist always helps. You can take short breaths for breathing.
You are not used to it, that is all, but it will get better as your body
adjusts. If you'd been born a girl you would have been used to one from
when your figure began to develop." She kept on running her fingers up
and down the back, slowly tightening the laces. With each sequence the
garment contracted, my waist was compressed and my breasts were pushed
further up inside the chemise until they protruded from my chest. When I
looked down they seemed to fill my vision. "That's enough for now,
Gabrielle, now you can relax," she finally said.
Relaxation was impossible. I was panting severely trying to get enough
air, my breasts heaving up and down just under my throat, filling the
square neckline of the chemise. She slipped hand into the low chemise
neck and pinched a nipple. "See, you're still accessible! Yes, you are
very pretty. My customers will like you, " she said, looking at my
heaving chest. "Just take short breaths. It will be better when you are
used to it. Your body will adjust and then it will merely feel snug on
you."
She pulled out some black stockings from the pile. "Next, your
stockings. These are a knit cotton fabric, just like the rest of my
girls wear. Hold out your leg and pull up your chemise." She slid
stockings up my legs, tying then with a red ribbon just above the knee.
"Now, your petticoats. Stand up."
I wondered how much more there was to a woman's dress as she tied even
more layers of fine but stiff material around my waist. They rustled
when I moved, and I felt my face redden.
There was one last garment. "Now, your gown. It's fine fabric, and will
show you off. Of course, for convenience with most customers you can
leave it off. When you start earning maybe we can get you a nice silk
one for when you walk outside. I think you will be very popular so I
imagine you may not get a chance to wear it much." She pulled it over my
head and fastened it at the rear. Like the chemise, it had a low square
neckline, but now filled with my heaving breasts. I felt exposed.
"Doesn't it show too much?" I gasped, speaking as loud as the corset
allowed. I was horrified by how much I was exposed.
"Hardly. You want something to show yourself off and entice men. Last
thing, here are some shoes." These were small and dainty in white
leather. They seemed very insubstantial, but fitted my feet, now much
smaller than they had been.
I felt helpless in the combination of the tight corset and the
voluminous petticoats and dress. "What happened to the clothes I was
wearing?"
She glared at me. "Don't think you will escape! You're now a woman. You
will stay as one so you will not need male clothes any more. Besides,
I've sold them. The money I got will only partly make up the cost of
what you are wearing. Besides, there is no way with your figure they
would now fit you anyway.
"Now, let me look at you." She just shook her head. "Your hair, it will
be years before it is long enough." She sighed. "I'll see about getting
you a blonde wig. I'll comb it this time. After that you will do it."
She opened a small lacquered box. "You'll need a little help with
cosmetics too. You are pretty, but I like my girls to redden their lips
and put powder and shadow on their faces. After all, most of the
customers expect that. So for now, I think some shadow for your eyes and
some red for your lips and a little rouge for your cheeks. Your face has
just about lost any blotches from the spell."
She held my face in her hands, examining me. She still shook her head.
"Ugh, these eyebrows are still too thick. Hold still!" And she thinned
out my eyebrows with a pair of tweezers, ignoring my wincing and
squealing. "Wipe your eyes! She ordered. "I suppose they would thin out
by themselves in a day or two as you lost your male hair, but not quite
fast enough and anyway, many ladies shape their eyebrows."
"Now, some rouge for your cheeks, and a little carmine coloured soft wax
for your lips."
"I can't wear that!" I protested. "That's for whores!"
"So? And what do you think we are here?" She rubbed on some coloring
from her box. "There!" She nodded in approval. How do you like
yourself?" She held up a mirror to my face. I gasped at the girl looking
at me. She was still beautiful even if she was painted like a whore. I
could barely see any trace of my previous male face. Yet my stomach
sank. I was changed so much!
"Please, you cannot do this to me?"
She slapped my face. "I am getting tired of your complaints. I can and I
will! You now have no choice. But, let me see. I think you 'll be
popular. I tell you. You can live here ten years. Then, if you wish, I
will release you to make your own life."
She eyed me critically up and down. "Perhaps I'd better check on you for
a day or more to help you adjust. However, it's time to let the other
girls see you. I can introduce them." She went to the door and called.
Six girls crowded into the room and I saw their eyes grow wide in
amazement. Michelle at the back was giggling as she pointed at me.
Madame Geroux introduced them all to me. Two were in dresses, but the
others were only in their shifts and one, Pauline, who I had met before,
was wearing a black corset. Her waist was even slimmer than mine.
"Girls, this is Gabrielle. She will be joining us. Just like you, she
has had the spell read to her and as you can see, it has worked well.
Her hair is short, but we will get her a wig. Now Gabrielle, these
ladies will help you. You have much to learn about how to behave and
carry yourself in the presence of a customer. If you learn well it will
make you more in demand and increase your earnings.
"Pauline is my senior girl and she can teach you much."
It took me some seconds to understand the implication of her words. I
clenched my teeth. It was bad enough to be changed, then to have to wear
women's clothes. Now I would be trained to face a future as a painted
prostitute. I shuddered involuntarily. I would have to escape.
The next two days were spent under the rigorous instruction of the
girls, who had me practice putting on and removing various articles of
clothing. 'Tantalizingly', one called it. They ignored my protests and
even threatened me with a beating if I did not comply. I was supplied
with a blonde wig that I was supposed to pin to my own hair. I was
taught about using cosmetics, walking in what they called a seductive
fashion, sitting properly, and even how to talk and move my hands like a
woman, and how to speak as woman did. I was told to smile a lot and to
make sure I continually flattered the male customers.
Madame Geroux inspected the results when they had done. "Good! I think
we have delayed long enough. So tomorrow, you can come down to the
parlor to show yourself for your first customer and you can start paying
your way." Her eyes gleamed, " As you are a virgin I'll be able to
charge more that first time. I'll have some champagne too. If you're
good maybe the gentleman will give you a special present."
I could not escape the feeling of dread. I needed to escape, but there
were too many of the girls around. I would be caught before I even
reached the door.
I winced at the sound of yet another explosion and its concussion. The
Prussian army was now firing their big guns about every few minutes.
Once I had even heard the shell whistling overhead followed by an
explosion just a small distance away.
I was in a dither of helplessness as I readied to go to bed that night,
a terrible apprehensive feeling in my stomach at my impending fate.
Madame Geroux had had me fully dressed in a flashy looking low-cut silk
gown. "To get you used to your finery," she said.
I had barely begun undoing my dress when there was a sudden crash and an
enormous explosion. The house shook and some of the ceiling fell on me,
knocking me to the floor and covering me with dust. I spat out the dust
in my mouth and struggled to my feet being aware of the terrified
screaming of the other girls.
When I looked out of the door, the stairs were half torn away and the
house was filled with smoke and dust. As the air cleared I saw that a
large part of the house's front wall was missing and the room was open
to the street. Some of the girls were cowering in a corner and screaming
or crying out. Madame Geroux was lying on the floor, her body covered
with masonry rubble from the wall. Blood was seeping from under her torn
dress. It looked as if she was dead.
Pauline was sprawled just across the remains of the room, covered with
dust and a heavy beam pinning her to the floor. Her eyes were rolling in
fright. Something was on fire near her and she was screaming as the
flames drew nearer. I barely thought before I pulled the beam off her
and dragged her away from the flames. Then I ran to the kitchen and,
taking a large tub of water from the stove I threw it on the flames.
They died back and I beat them out with a wet cloth.
I looked round. The front wall of the house was broken. Almost without
thinking I leaped through the hole in the wall, past some neighbors
gaping at the wreck of the house, and into the night. No one tried to
stop me. I was only wearing the fancy gown and light shoes, barely more
than slippers, but I rushed on until I was completely out of breath and
crouched under a tree. I had escaped from the brothel, but my
predicament was little better off. I was alone, friendless, in a changed
body and penniless. I was a very pretty girl, but I was vulnerable and
lost in a strange city.
When I had caught my breath I struggled on again, not knowing where I
was headed, but only wanting to be as far away from the wrecked house as
possible. Unfortunately it had started raining and I was getting wetter
and colder. At last, out of breath, and desperate to get shelter from
the rain, when I stumbled past a large house I saw stables at its back
and, almost exhausted, I climbed over the low wall. When I tried the
stable door it was not locked. Gratefully I pushed it open. It was dark
inside but I stumbled into a pile of hay and collapsed.
I was shaken awake by a rough hand. I opened my eyes to see a bearded
man dressed in a coachman's uniform. He carried a whip and looked as if
he might use it on me. "Who are you, girl? What are you doing here?"
" Please, I am lost. I took shelter from the rain. Please forgive me. I
will leave." I would have left by myself but he dragged me to my feet
and pulled me to the door where he pushed me out and I stumbled, heading
to the street. My clothes had hardly dried but at least it had stopped
raining. Two women were standing by a carriage outside the stable. They
looked at me disdainfully.
Shamefaced, I tried to hurry past them but one spoke to me. "You girl,
what were you doing?"
I would have rushed past her but the coachman grabbed my arm. "Answer,
you!"
"Please, I was lost and I needed shelter from the rain. I used the
stable but I will not bother you further. I am sorry I had to trespass."
"Where are you from?" one woman asked.
I desperately thought of a cover story. " I am a refugee from Alsace. I
fled in front of the advancing Prussians." I was aware that my face was
still made up like a prostitute. "I was taken in by a woman but it
turned out to be a ... excuse me, madame, a whorehouse and she tried to
make me a whore." I made to cover up my low neckline. "I was able to
escape when a Prussian shell hit the house. I am sorry to have troubled
you."
I made to move away but she held up her hand. "Poor child!" She caught
me by the shoulder, examining me critically. "You would like some work?"
"Yes," I sniffed.
"Perhaps you can help us and we you. My mother is an invalid in this
house. She needs much looking after. Unfortunately I have a young family
and I cannot do both.
Would you be willing to help look after her in exchange for board?"
That was more than I could have hoped for. I knew little about housework
but in the army we had to care for the barracks and sleeping quarters
and most of us had taken turns in the cookhouse and canteen that served
the recruits. I might have a lot to learn but I had nothing to lose. I
nodded my head." Thank you, Madame. You are very kind."
"Then girl, what is your name?"
"It is Gabrielle, Gabrielle Marchand." I used my dead mother's surname.
"Please, I have no identification."
"I am Madame Bouchard, Genevieve Bouchard.