Daughter for a day
I always knew I wanted to have children, even from a young age I had my
whole future mapped out. I would meet and fall for a handsome man, we'd
get married and have two children, a boy first and then a girl. We'd
settle down, in a big house on the edge of town, he would go out to
work and I would stay home with our children, watching them grow into
beautiful human beings who I would be so incredibly proud of. As a
family we'd be there for each other through the good times and the bad.
My husband would be my best friend and my soulmate, my companion to
grow old with. This dream of my future was simply perfect; but I now
know that life doesn't always turn out the way you would like it to.
My dream life started off well, I met my handsome man and we got
married. We had our first child together, a boy we named Timothy and we
were happy. All this happened before my 25th birthday. But by my 30th
birthday, my handsome man had cheated on me, walked out on us and had
filed for a divorce.
Timothy (now he's older he insists on me calling him Tim), had very few
memories of his father, him having been only five when he left us. I
found this incredibly sad so tried my best to compensate. We made the
best of the situation, and while it was a struggle at times, I managed
to give my son everything he wanted and needed growing up. Being just
the two of us, we enjoyed a strong bond; we looked out for each other
and had a lot of fun along the way.
Tim was a good kid, a little shy perhaps but he wasn't short of
friends. He loved to read and write, and was also quite artistic too.
He liked sports, but watching rather than playing, and often he would
disappear into his room for hours to listen to his music. By the summer
of 2006, Tim was 15 and was growing up fast. He was never short of an
offer to spend time with a friend, but despite this, he still made time
for me too, even if it was just an hour or so each day when we shared
an evening meal together. During the meal he would tell me all about
his day, and I would tell him all about mine, I loved our time together
immensely.
It was during one of these evening meals, a Friday evening to be
precise, that our story begins. I had cooked his favourite meal, lemon
chicken with rice, and as usual, he had finished every last mouthful.
He had told me all about his day in school and made a point that he had
no plans for the weekend, but as I was serving his favourite desert,
chocolate cake and ice-cream, he made an unexpected announcement, one
he had clearly been building up to throughout the meal.
"I've been invited to a party next weekend. Abbie from school, it's her
birthday."
"Which one's Abbie? Have I met her before?" I replied as I wasn't
entirely sure who she was.
"You met her once I think. Her parents are rich, she lives in the
mansion on Hazleton Avenue..."
"Oh yes, I know the house. I didn't know you were friends with her?"
"I am, kinda. Well she's inviting me and some other people from school,
so I'd really like to go."
I thought back to when I was Tim's age, being invited to the popular
girl's birthday party was a big deal, especially for a boy. I had no
intention of standing in his way. "Of course you can go. Did you say
next weekend?"
"Yeah, it's next Saturday. It's a costume party."
"A costume party?" Surprised, I looked up from my dessert and across
the table towards my son.
"Yeah, a costume party. You know, fancy dress. Everyone goes dressed as
something or someone..."
I giggled. "Yes, I know what a costume party is!" I then asked the
inevitable question. "So what are you going to go as?!"
Tim went very quiet and started to blush ever so slightly. He delayed
giving me his answer by a few seconds, choosing instead to finish his
last spoonful of ice cream and then take an extra long sip of his
drink.
"Well?!" Curious, I tried to hurry his response along. When it finally
came, I almost fell off my chair with shock.
"I want to go dressed as a girl"
Now it was my turn to go quiet and take time to respond. I didn't know
what to say, Tim's answer had taken me totally by surprise. I wanted to
ask him what had made him come up with that idea, but I also didn't
want to embarrass him, as he had obviously struggled a little to tell
me in the first place. So after taking an extra-long sip of my own
drink, I decided to play it cool instead.
"Oh, ok. That sounds like fun." I smiled politely, before standing up
from the dinner table and disappearing into the kitchen with the used
dinner plates. I'm sure my reaction hadn't been the one Tim had
expected or even hoped for, but I needed some time to think about it.
He quietly left the table and went up to his bedroom where he closed
the door and put on his music, he remained there for the rest of the
evening.
We didn't speak of it again until the next day, by which point there
had been plenty of time for me to get my head around the idea a little
more. I had come to the decision to embrace it, rather than resist it.
If my son wanted to dress as a girl for the day, that was his decision,
and I would support him with it. If I was being honest with myself, at
that point, having had several hours to get over the initial surprise
and then to really think about what it might involve, the thought of
helping him find an outfit to wear and perhaps being able to do his
make-up for him, was quite an intriguing one. I brought up the subject
again after lunch, as we were drinking cups of tea together in the
front room.
"So have you thought about what you're going to wear to this party next
week?" I asked as I took a sip of my warm tea.
"No, not really," he muttered.
"Well you'll have to start thinking about it, you only have a week to
get something sorted."
"Yeah, I know."
"Were you wanting to borrow some of my clothes? I don't mind if you
do..." This was a sentence I never expected to ever say out loud to my
son.
Tim nodded and hid his face behind his mug as he took a couple of large
sips. He was still obviously a little shy about talking about this, I
was starting to wonder if he now regretted having told me.
"Look, Tim. If this is what you want to do, then fine. There's no need
to be embarrassed about it, I'm happy to help you with it, I really am.
Yes I was a bit surprised when you told me, but thinking about it last
night, I think it's a fun idea. And the fact you're willing to do it in
front of people you know at a party... well I think that's amazing. But
if you want me to help you, I need a little more in return. Ok?"
I looked over to the couch on the other side of the room just in time
to see his mood change. An uncontrollable grin quickly spread across
Tim's face, replacing the shyness which had been there prior. I had
given him the acceptance he had been looking for, and for the first
time today he began to engage in my conversation.
"Ok, thanks Mum. I'd love some help with this." Standing up, he took
the couple of steps over to where I was, sat down beside me and wrapped
his arms around me for a few seconds. That was the acceptance I had
been looking for.
After sharing the emotional moment of the hug, and the ten or so
seconds of smiling at each other which followed, I was keen to carry on
the discussion, to see how far Tim wanted to go with his idea, and how
much help he needed from me. I was still curious to know what had given
my son the thought of wanting to dress as a girl, but I was prepared to
wait a little longer for that particular answer. For now I was happy to
have finally got him talking.
"Ok, so if you are going to do this, I reckon you should do it as well
as you possibly can, agreed?"
"Agreed." Tim's reply was much more assertive than before.
"So I was thinking for the party, we'll find you a nice dress to wear,
something beautiful, a real head-turner. I'll teach you how to walk in
heels, we'll do your make up, sort out your hair, paint your nails,
lots of accessories, you'll have a designer handbag on your arm... you
can borrow my expensive perfume too...." The more I spoke, the more
excited I began to sound. I took a glance over to my son who was still
right next to me and I could tell he was starting to share the same
excitement.
"Wow, that's a lot of stuff, I never knew there was so much to it..."
"That's only about half of it," I giggled. "There will be lots of
preparation first, long soaks in the bath, a bit of shaving perhaps....
And I haven't even mentioned underwear yet, we'll have to find you
something suitable." I paused for a moment, allowing time for enormity
of the challenge to sink in. "You sure you want to go ahead with it
still?"
"Yes, definitely!" Tim's reply was quick and convincing.
I smiled. The clock was now ticking, I had exactly a week to turn my
teenage son into a passable and beautiful teenage girl. We didn't have
a moment more to waste.
"Follow me!" Jumping up from my seat, I led the way out of the front
room and to the stairs, pausing only briefly to ensure Tim was right
behind me. Soon we were in my bedroom, which as usual was exceptionally
clean and tidy. "Sit down on the bed," I instructed as I closed the
door behind us.
It was rare for the both of us to be in my bedroom, not because I
didn't like Tim going in there, he had just always been happy spending
the majority of his time in his own room. Being a single woman of some
10 years, my room was exactly how I wanted it to be, no influences from
anyone else, certainly not from any men. It was therefore a very
feminine room, flowery wallpaper hanging from two of the walls, baby
pink paint covering the other two, and a slightly darker shade of pink
coloured carpet. One corner was dominated by a large fitted closet,
predominately white with just a touch of gold in the design; to one
side was a large floor length vintage mirror, to the other, a door into
an en-suite bathroom. The bed was fittingly 'queen sized' (as opposed
to 'king'), and was covered in beautiful turquoise bedding, four plump
pillows at the head. There was a large white chest of drawers in the
far corner, and opposite, beside the bed, was my dressing table,
complete with a generously sized mirror and cute black chair with a
pink cushion. The room was bathed in sunlight as large windows
dominated one wall, a large vase in the centre proudly displaying a
bunch of summery flowers. It was an incredibly cute room to spend time
in.
"To start off, I thought you might like to try on some of my dresses,
see how you feel in them. You can decide which ones you like and then
we can start thinking about choosing one to wear to the party. But
first, go into the bathroom and strip down to your underwear, put on
one of my robes, there's a couple in there. You showered this already
this morning, didn't you?"
Tim nodded as he passed me and headed over to the en-suite bathroom,
closing the door behind him. A minute later he had returned, wearing my
long silky pink bathrobe. I found it interesting he had chosen the pink
one rather than the plain white one which was also been hanging up in
there, but I had to admit, pink did look good on him.
"Ok, you just stand over there, I'll pick out your first dress." Tim
was clearly a little nervous as he stood beside the bed in his robe. He
didn't have to wait long though, as soon after opening my closet doors,
I had chosen his first dress. Being a fashionable woman with a moderate
shopping addiction, I had plenty of outfits to choose from, but I had
already picked out a selection of dresses in my head, I had started
thinking about it as soon as I found myself warming to the idea of Tim
wanting to dress up, as I lay in bed the night before.
"Try this one!" I carried the first dress over to where Tim was
standing and held it in front of myself for a few moments, modelling it
for him. It was a long purple dress, slightly more casual than formal,
but it looked and felt rather smart. It had navy floral design to one
side and towards the lower half of the skirt, and also on the hanger
was a small navy cardigan to cover the shoulders.
"Ok, take your robe off and put your arms up in the air." Tim did as he
was told and twenty seconds later, I had lifted the dress over his
head, and let it fall down into place. He instinctively gave his bum a
little bit of a wiggle, and as he was doing so, I knelt down to give
each side of the skirt a gentle tug, and to smooth out a couple of
creases. The cardigan was a perfect addition, Tim put it on with no
hassle and outfit one was complete. It wasn't a perfect fit of course,
he was missing my generous bust for one, but I was surprised how close
in size we actually were. "Ok, go take a look, tell me what you think!"
I watched as Tim made his way over to the large mirror, smiling at the
first sight of his reflection. He still looked very much like a boy in
a dress, but that was fine as we had hardly started. He did look cute
though and I could tell he was quickly starting to enjoy wearing the
dress, even allowing himself a couple of half twirls.
He didn't manage too many words as a reply, but his frequent giggles
gave his feelings away. I couldn't help bit giggle too. It was strange
seeing my son standing at my mirror wearing one of my dresses, but now
all I could think about was having him try some on more, and to
ultimately see how convincing a girl he could really make by the time
of the party. Standing behind him at the mirror, I put my hands on his
shoulders and stared back at the reflection of the two of us. "Come on,
let's try dress number two!"
Tim went back to the spot in the room where he had first changed,
taking off the cardigan first he then pulled the purple dress up over
his head, carefully putting it back onto the hanger. While he was
waiting for me, he slipped the pink robe back on and sat down on the
corner of the bed. I had already chosen dress two, but before I
revealed it to him, I decided to add a little something extra to his
outfit this time. From one of the drawers in the chest, I pulled out a
plastic packet, still unopened. Taking out one of the two pairs of
pristine white cotton briefs, I held them out for Tim to take. They
were quite beautiful in their simplicity, a single white bow on the
front game them the feminine touch.
"I think you should wear these, they're nothing fancy but they're brand
new. They'll go much better under the dresses than what you're
currently wearing."
Without replying, Tim took the underwear and turning away from me for
the required privacy, switched his old boy boxer shorts for these new
briefs underneath his robe. After giving me the nod he was ready, I
went back over to the closet to pick out the second dress.
The second dress was a much shorter summer dress, predominantly yellow
but with a generous amount of white as part of the design. It had short
sleeves rather than straps, but the stretchiness of the material meant
it was pretty much guaranteed to fit well and look good when worn. As
with before, I held the dress in front of me for a few moments to model
it, before helping Tim to put it on. The dress fastened at the back so
once Tim had carefully stepped into it, I slowly pulled it up around
him, and fastened the single white button. Once again he gave a little
wiggle and the skirt fell neatly into place. Much more leg was on show
this time, the dress only being thigh length, but it was a really cute
dress and once again, Tim looked great wearing it.
"How do you feel in this one?" I asked as Tim was stood admiring
himself in the mirror.
"It's a bit shorter to the last one!"
"Dresses come in various lengths sweetie!" I giggled. "It wouldn't have
been the same wearing this with your boxers, I think the change in
underwear was a good idea, don't you?!"
"I agree." Tim smiled. "I think I prefer the purple one, this is nice
though..."
"Well I have plenty more if you'd like to try some more?"
"Sure, ok." Tim stayed at the mirror while I headed back to the closet
for the next dress.
Tim spent the next hour or so, trying on many more of my dresses and
outfits. He wore my long black evening dress, my long red evening dress
and just to complete the set, my long green evening dress. He tried
another summer dress, this time in pink, a very floaty white dress, a
chequered blue and white day dress and a smart black and grey knee
length shift dress. I introduced him to a couple of skirts, first a
long red gypsy skirt worn with a frilly white blouse, before swapping
for a smarter white blouse to compliment his navy blue pencil skirt and
matching blazer. It was at this point I introduced him to a pair of
heels for the first time, they were too high for a beginner to walk
very far in, but they certainly added to the business woman look he had
created with the skirt suit. It also added a little more fun to
proceedings.
It was now late afternoon, but there was still one more dress I wanted
Tim to try, I was also prepared to take things a little further this
time too.
"Ok, put your robe back on, I have one more dress for you to wear, but
I want to do something else with you first."
"What are you going to do?" Tim replied curiously.
"Sit down at my dressing table; I want you to put some make up on you!"
Most boys would have run away had their Mother told them they were
going to put some make up on them, but after all that had preceded them
this afternoon, Tim appeared quite keen to try it. I had formed an idea
of what I was going to do for him on the day of the party, but for now,
I just wanted to introduce him to a few things, so it was less of a
shock to him when we did it again next week. I brought a second chair
into the room and sat opposite him in front of my dressing table, him
facing away from the mirror so he couldn't see his progress until I had
finished. I pulled out a fancy looking box from underneath the table,
revealing my extensive make up collection. I picked out the items I was
wanting and was ready to begin.
"Ok, take a deep breath and sit still!"
Tim did as he was told. I started by cleansing his face with a wipe and
applied a little moisturiser; this was to be the start of his daily
routine. Being a boy he would overlook little details such as
moisturising, but if he was going to be a girl for the day next
weekend, he needed to start looking after his skin right away.
I began to apply some liquid foundation, covering the few signs of
'maleness' he had, instantly giving him a softer colour to his face. On
top of that I applied a little powder, and then some blusher, which
gave a wonderful glow to his cheeks. I already knew which dress he
would be wearing next, so I picked an eye shadow to match, baby blue. I
then added some mascara to his lashes and a little eye liner. I quickly
plucked a few stray hairs from his brow (I made a note to self to do
them properly later in the week) and he was just about done.
"Hang on, I need to do your lips..."
Tim was desperate to see the mirror, but I had more to do. Picking out
my favourite lipstick, a medium pink which would go with anything, I
applied it generously to his lips before showing him how to blot them
gently on a tissue. I couldn't help but smile when I looked at him, but
I wanted to do something to his hair though, before the big reveal.
While it was short, it was just long enough to work with. I was
thinking Audrey Hepburn (when she went short), that's the image I had
in my head anyway when I started running my fingers through it,
clipping parts of it to one wide with various slides and a couple of
colourful butterfly clips. I added a fabric hairband to his head and I
was finished. For a first attempt I was extremely satisfied. I had a
few more ideas, but was happy to hold them back until next week.
"Ok, now you can look!" I took a step back and allowed him to see
himself in the dressing table mirror for the first time.
"Oh my God!" Tim began to giggle uncontrollably, and so did I. "Wow,
Mum! I look so... different!"
"You look amazing honey! And that's only me on a six out of ten, wait
until next week, I'll do it properly!" I gave a cheeky wink and took
his hand, guiding him away from the dressing table and to the spot he
had been changing during the afternoon. "Come on, you need to put on
your final dress. You'll like this one!"
I went back to the closet and a few moments later, I returned with my
final choice of dress for Tim to wear today. It was one of my favourite
dresses, a beautiful Laura Ashely. Slightly vintage in style, it was a
gorgeous mixture of baby blue, a darker blue and white in floral
design, knee length with slightly puffy sleeves and a combination of a
button and a zipper fastening at the back. I rarely had such an
occasion to wear this dress anymore, although I did have chance to wear
it the previous summer at a family wedding. I of course had no idea
back then that the next time it would be taken out of the closet to
wear, it would be Tim trying it on and not me.
"Wow, that's beautiful!" Tim reacted as soon as he saw the dress. "You
wore that to Aunt Lucy's wedding last year, didn't you?"
"Yes I did Tim, how very observant of you!" I was surprised he had
remembered, but the fact he had brought a smile to my face. "You'll
need a bit of help with this one, but first I need to get you something
to go with it, hang on." I gave Tim the dress, still on the hanger, to
hold, and headed over to the chest of drawers again. Pulling out a pair
of clean white socks, I handed them to him, taking the dress back to
for a moment while he put them on. As plain white socks go, they were
rather cute, the kind a little girl might be seen wearing, ultra-soft
with a little frill around the top. Socks on, it was now time for Tim
to put the dress on too.
Tim removed his robe one more time and I took the dress off the hanger.
With his hair and make-up done, he looked rather beautiful even just
standing there in his plain white briefs and socks. I gave him a smile
and then lowered the dress for him to carefully step into. Slowly
pulling it up over him, feeding his arms through the sleeves, I slowly
zipped up the back of the dress, and secured it with the single pearl
button. I knew, given the fastening, Tim wouldn't be able to take the
dress off without my help, not that he would want to take it off so
soon of course!
Tim was already facing the mirror before I could say anything. The
dress fitted really well, even without cleavage, and with him now
wearing make-up, he really did look like a girl. He didn't say
anything, all he could do was smile and giggle. But I wasn't quite
finished.
"Shoes!" I ran over to the closet one more time and pulled out the very
same pair of shoes I had worn with the dress last summer, a dark navy
court shoe with a medium heel. "Squeeze your feet into these!" I laid
them out in front of him and with a little required effort, he was soon
proudly wearing the shoes to match his dress. "So, what do you think?!"
"This dress is beautiful, and so nice to wear! It's definitely my
favourite!"
I couldn't help but smile as I watched my son wearing my favourite
dress and shoes, twirling left and then right, allowing the skirt of
his dress to fall gently into place each time. There was one more thing
I wanted to do for him, one more addition to his outfit I thought he
might enjoy. I went back to the chest of drawers and, kneeling down on
the carpet, I pulled open the bottom drawer, the largest drawer, and I
soon found what I was looking for.
"What's that?" Tim looked over curiously as I closed the drawer and
stood up again.
"This is your petticoat!" I replied, with a playful smile.
It was by no means a full petticoat, certainly not the type you see in
pictures from the 1950's, but it had several delicate layers of
material in perfect white. It was incredibly feminine, as any garment
of this type would be. I gave Tim no time to think about it, as I was
immediately beside him on my knees again, this time helping him step
inside, pulling it up under his dress to his waist and then smoothing
his skirt out once again.
"It will add a bit more volume to your skirt. Go ahead, have a twirl
now, see what you think!"
I took a step back and admired my work. We had finished, Tim's outfit
was complete. I couldn't help but smile as I watched him admire himself
in front of the mirror, gently swaying his hips and occasionally
allowing himself a full 360 degree twirl. Finally he paused long enough
to notice me watching him, and turned to speak to me, his excitement
was clear to see.
"The petticoat really does make a difference, doesn't it?! Thanks for
doing this Mum, I look amazing!"
"But how do you feel?!" I added.
"I feel amazing too!"
I took a couple of steps towards him and we embraced with a hug. Taking
his hand in mine, I led him towards the bedroom door. "Come on, let's
go downstairs. Careful walking in those heels!"
Tim navigated the stairs perfectly, he was clearly a natural for
wearing heels. Back in the front room, I stood back and took another
long look at my son wearing my clothes, except he hardly looked like my
son anymore. I decided to give him a little test.
"Sit down Tim." I pointed to the couch behind him and watched as he
plonked himself down, skirt puffing up around him. He had no idea what
to do with his legs or where to put his hands, I couldn't help but
laugh. So I took his hand, pulled him back up from the couch and
prepared to give a demonstration.
"When you're wearing a dress or a skirt, particularly a fancy one like
yours, you need to think before you sit down, there's a certain art to
it. It's quite straight forward though, watch me."
Taking centre stage at the couch, I paused a moment, smoothed my skirt
at the back (I myself was wearing a rather long and flouncy skirt that
day) and then carefully lowered myself down to the cushions of the
couch, keeping my posture as I went. Holding on to one arm of the
couch, I then crossed my legs, right over left, and then placed my
hands in my lap, one on top of the other.
"You can cross your legs fully like this, but to really sit like a
lady, you'd do it this way...."
Slowly uncrossing my legs, being careful not to show anything which
shouldn't be shown, I returned both my feet to the floor, legs and
knees together. Then I slowly crossed my legs again, this time at the
ankles, right over left, tilting them slightly, leaving my hands in my
lap once again.
"Your turn!" I moved over on the couch, giving Tim room to sit down
next to me. He had obviously been listening as he perfectly replicated
what I had just done a few moments before, even standing up to try it
again a second time for extra practise.
"You got it, well done!" I jumped up and left the room to go to the
kitchen. When I returned, Tim hadn't moved, still sat like a lady with
ankles crossed and his hands in his lap. I smiled at him, if there had
been a camera to hand, it would have made quite the picture.
Neither of us were very hungry, but we had a light dinner anyway. We
spent the evening together, Tim still dressed as a girl, although I did
allow him to take his heels off after a while. We watched my favourite
Marilyn Monroe film, Some Like it Hot. Tim had never seen it before,
but instantly fell in love with Ms Monroe, as had I the first time I
had seen her. The theme of the film was also quite amusing to us,
considering what had taken place today. But as the night drew to a
close, we both realised it was time for the fun to come to an end, for
now at least, so we went back upstairs and I helped him change out of
his dress and showed him how to take his make-up off. It had been a lot
of fun while it lasted, and of course we had next Saturday to look
forward to, but for now at least, Tim went back to being my son.
I was out of the house for most of the next day so hardly saw Tim. He
spent the majority of the day in his room playing video games (so he
told me), and during the times we were together we didn't once mention
the events of the day before, or make any further plans for the party.
And once the weekend turned into Monday, Tim was back in school and I
was back in work, albeit it on part-time hours which I had recently
changed to. We had our evening meals together as usual, but when
finished, Tim would disappear into his room to do his homework and I
would be left wondering if he had started to get cold feet about
dressing up again for the party.
So on Wednesday evening I brought up the topic over dinner, to
hopefully get things back on track.
"Are you still going to the party this Saturday Tim?" I rarely did
subtle so I thought it best to just ask him straight.
"Yeah, course," he replied quietly, trying to avoid any sort of eye-
contact with me.
"Are you sure? It's just we haven't really spoken about it since the
weekend, and, well... I just thought you might be a bit more excited
about it all after the fun you had trying on my dresses last time. You
did enjoy doing that, didn't you?"
Tim looked up and this time did make eye-contact with me. "Mum, I
enjoyed it immensely, it was amazing having you do all that for me, it
really was. I guess I'm just a bit nervous about doing it in front of
my friends."
"Have you told anyone you're going to be dressing as a girl?"
"No, no one."
"Oh I see." I gave my son a comforting smile across the table. "Well
that's perfectly understandable, it's a really huge thing you're doing,
stepping out in front of your school friends all dressed up. Going to
that party in a silly costume would easy but what you're wanting to do...
it takes balls! I think you're really brave."
"Brave?"
"Hell yeah! You might get a few childish comments, but only from those
who know no better. You'll turn heads, I guarantee it. The girls will
be jealous and the boys will be... well jealous too probably! Jealous of
all the attention you'll be getting, they'll wish they thought of your
idea too."
Tim finally returned my smile. "Thanks Mum, that really helped"
"Good. I know I came up with all these great ideas for you, but
anything you're not comfortable with, just let me know and we can rein
in in a bit. This is your thing, not mine!"
Tim laughed a little to himself.
"What?" I asked, wanting in on what he was thinking.
"You don't need to rein anything in Mum, after last time, I'm kinda
curious to see how much more like a girl you can make me look!"
"Oh I have a few things up my sleeve!" I winked as I stood up from the
table and cleared our plates away.
I wasn't in work at all on Thursday so I had time spare to go into the
city and buy a few things for Tim to wear. I wanted to keep this a
secret until Saturday, though, so made sure I was home well before the
end of school, giving me chance to hide my purchases. Tim assured me he
had been keeping up with his moisturising routine, and later that night
he slipped on a pair of heels again so he could practice for Saturday
night.
We spent Friday evening together, watching another Marilyn Monroe film,
The Seven Year Itch. I noticed that Tim was more relaxed than he had
been all week, and had begun to let himself slip into girl mode again,
he commented on how beautiful Marilyn's dress was on more than one
occasion. He also told me he was now really looking forward to what was
planned for the next day, and that his nerves had mostly been replaced
with excitement. The film was interrupted for a couple of minutes
however when the house phone rang. Pausing the film, I left the room to
take the call.
"Hello?" I looked at the clock as I answered, wondering who would be
calling me at this time of evening.
"Oh hello, is that Mrs Jenkins?" It was a woman on the other end and
she spoke with a slightly posh accent.
"Yes, I'm Louisa Jenkins," I replied, curious to find out who I was
speaking to.
"Hi there, I'm Victoria Weaver, Abbie's Mother."
It took a few seconds for me to recall who Abbie was, Tim hadn't
mentioned her by name for almost a week, but I quickly remembered.
"Oh yes, Abbie, Tim's friend."
"Yes, that's right. I'm sorry for calling you so late in the evening,
but I had a big list of names to get through and you were towards the
bottom. It's about Abbie's party tomorrow, I'm afraid we've had to
cancel it. It's so unfortunate her getting sick the week of her
birthday, but half the family has it now, so it wouldn't be right to
have the party at our house and risk infecting everyone. She's
devastated of course, but I guess it's just one of those things, maybe
we'll do something later in the year for her."
My response took longer than it should, but I struggled to process in
the information I had just heard. After everything Tim and I had been
through in the past week, him first plucking up the courage to tell me
about the party, the amazing afternoon we had had last Saturday, the
doubts which had then then crept in, followed by nervousness and then
finally the excitement he had shown tonight, to not now go through with
it all would be unthinkable.
"Oh dear, that's a shame. Thanks for letting me know, I'll pass the
message on to Tim. I hope Abbie feels better soon."
I had no intention on engaging Abbie's Mother in any kind of small
talk, so I hung up the phone and returned to the front room and our
film.
"Who was that?" Tim asked curiously as he pressed play on the remote.
"Oh just someone from work, asking about shifts for next week." I
rarely lied to my son, but I made an exception this time. I wasn't
ready to let the dream die just yet.
Saturday morning arrived and we both allowed ourselves a bit of a lie
in before getting up. I hadn't slept very well; I had been kept awake
with feelings of guilt for not being truthful with Tim about the phone
call. I knew he would find out eventually, that the party had been
cancelled, but I had decided to go ahead with my plan anyway, hoping
that he would forgive me for it later. I had come up with an
alternative idea for how we could both spend our evening so all was not
lost. I gave nothing away over breakfast though and after a quick trip
out on my own to pick up a couple of extra things from town, it was
soon mid-afternoon and Tim was keen to get started on his big
transformation.
"Go have a nice soak in the bath, use lots of bubbles," was my first
instruction. "I have laid out a selection of soaps and shampoos, us
them all. There's a razor there too, shave your legs, and your chest!"
I smiled as I watched Tim disappear into the bathroom and turn on the
taps. His favourite pink robe was already in there hanging up, along
with a selection of fluffy white towels; once undressed he wouldn't be
wearing boys clothing again for the rest of the day. "I'll see you in
about an hour!" I shouted as he closed the door.
It was just over an hour later when Tim returned from the bathroom,
wearing one of the fully white towels around his waist like a skirt, as
well as the pink robe. He smelt amazing so had obviously taken my
advice about the soaps and the shampoo.
"Sit down on the bed for a minute; I'll dry your hair. But first let me
feel your legs, how was the shaving?!"
"Bit strange at first but I quickly got the hang of it. They're so
smooth now!" Tim lifted up his robe and towel and revealed one of his
freshly shaven, smooth, hairless legs.
"Wow, they feel fantastic! Smoother than mine! You'll be shaving them
regularly from now on I bet!"
Tim neither confirmed nor denied this, instead he sat still on the bed
while I dried his hair with my hairdryer. Other than making sure it was
completely dry, I didn't do anything particular special with it, but I
did insist he put on a pink fabric hairband, to keep everything out of
the way for when it came for him to have his make-up done. I then sent
Tim back to the bathroom to moisturise, while I got out the first part
of his outfit for the evening. Underwear.
By the time Tim had returned again, I had laid out each item of
underwear I had selected for him on the bed. His face was a picture
when he saw it all and realised it was all for him. Whilst on my
shopping trip during the week I had bought him a complete set of
lingerie, a significant step up from the simple cotton briefs he had
worn last week. Laid out in front of him were some beautiful black lace
panties with a matching bra, a pair of sheer dark-nude stockings, black
suspender belt and finally the centrepiece, a long black silk slip with
two small delicate straps and intricate lace detail at the hem.
"Put these on first, then you can lose the towel." I picked up the
panties and handed them to him. He didn't say anything, he seemed to be
in a mild state of shock which I found quite cute. A few moments later
he had slipped on the panties under his robe and put the towel to one
side.
"Next it's these!" I picked up one of the stockings and gave it to him
to hold. "Let's put this on first though, I'll help you." I fastened
the beautiful black suspender belt around Tim's waist and we were ready
for the stockings. "Ok, slip your feet into each stocking, and roll
them slowly up your legs."
Tim didn't need much help with this bit, as instructed he carefully
stepped into the first stocking and rolled it up to the top of his leg,
I then helped out by fastening it to his belt. We repeated this again
for the second leg and soon we were done.
"How do they feel?!"
"Incredible! They're so soft."
"Good, well there's no time to lose, next it's your bra!" I went back
to the bed and picked up the beautiful black bra I had chosen for him.
Without saying anything, I turned Tim around so he was facing away from
me and fed his arms through the straps, fastening it on the middle of
the three clips. Adjusting the straps slightly, I turned him round to
signal that we were done.
"I don't get it though, why am I wearing a bra when I don't have....
anything to put in it?!" Tim looked puzzled, but I wasn't finished.
"How about these?!" I knelt down beside the bed and pulled out two
identical small boxes from underneath it. Placing them on the bed, I
opened them one by one to reveal a pair of incredibly realistic fake
breasts. "I was assured that they are the best money can buy! What do
you think?!"
Tim was almost speechless, and began to blush a little. It had
obviously caught him by surprise. "Where did you get these from?!"
"Oh I did some research and found a place. They're mostly sold to women
who want a bit of a boost with their cleavage. And to men who want to
do the same!" I giggled. "Come on, give them a try!" One by one I took
each breast out of their boxes and handed them to Tim.
It was a strange thing to observe, my son filling out his bra with
lifelike silicone breasts; they were a fair size without being huge and
once he had got them into the correct position, and had given them a
little squeeze and a jiggle, they really did look very realistic. I
didn't give him too long to admire his reflection in the mirror though;
instead I helped him into the silk slip, dropping it down over his head
and chest, tugging it gently into place. The slip hugged his body
perfectly, showing off his new feminine figure. The breasts made a huge
difference, I couldn't wait to see how he looked in his dress later.
Giving him back his robe to put on, as well as a pair of pink slippers
to protect his stockings, we had reached the end of stage one.
Stage two began almost immediately when there was a knock at the front
door. "Right on time!" I uttered as I checked my watch, leaving the
bedroom to go answer.
"What's right on time?" Tim asked, a little panic in his voice. "Who's
at the door?!"
He didn't have long to wait to find out, as a minute later I had
returned to the bedroom, joined by an attractive blonde woman carrying
a large shoulder bag, a long thin cardboard box and a small fold up
wooden table, which she immediately unfolded and set up in the middle
of the room.
"Tim, this is Natalie," I announced, closing the bedroom door behind us
all. "She's a good friend of mine and a professional beautician. When I
told her your idea about dressing as a girl for the evening, she
offered to come and do your hair, nails and make-up for you!" I turned
to Natalie, "Doesn't he look fantastic so far?! Just wait until you see
his dress!"
Time was getting on so I was keen for Natalie to get started. Pulling
up a couple of chairs to the fold-out table, she invited Tim to sit
down opposite her and began to take a variety of nail varnishes and
other products out of her bag. I left them to it for a few minutes,
choosing to make myself a refreshing drink downstairs. When I returned,
Tim's manicure was well underway and he was chatting to Natalie like
they were old friends. So I didn't interrupt them, instead I sat at my
dressing table and began to touch up my own make up.
"Lou, come have a look!" Natalie shouted from the other side of the
room. When I got to the temporary nail studio, Tim was already wiggling
his fingers to show off his new colour. I also noticed that while I had
been gone, Natalie had spent some time plucking and shaping his
eyebrows.
"Wow, they look fantastic!" They really did look amazing, much better
than anything I could have achieved. They had been painted a classic
shade of red, but with an extra top coat which gave them an amazing
shine. "I love what you've done with his eyebrows too, they're much
better! What do you think, Tim?"
"I love them." He blushed a little as he replied; as if it was
something he shouldn't be admitting to. I didn't say anything, but I
was immensely proud of him for going this far. I knew the best part was
yet to come though. Next though it was time for make -up. Natalie took
care of this of course so I sat back and observed from the relative
distance of the bed.
Natalie of course did a much better job of Tim's make-up than I had
done last week; she was a professional after all. She used a variety of
foundations, building up layers of beautiful colour and tone. She did
an amazing job with his eyes too, a thick black mascara gave him
luscious long-looking lashes, and a dark eye-shadow and expertly
applied eye-liner made his eyes look irresistible. Then it was on to
his lips, Natalie chose a gorgeous red to match his nails. Having worn
lipstick briefly last week, he knew what to do and blotted off the
excess on a tissue. Natalie then sat Tim at my dressing table and stood
behind him as he saw his completed make-up for the first time. He
didn't say much more than "wow", but given his uncontrollable urge to
smile, he was clearly impressed with the work done so far. There was
only one thing giving him away as a boy now, as opposed to the
beautiful young woman he was fast becoming, and that was his hair.
I had purposely not told Tim about my plan for his hair, but in talking
to Natalie earlier in the week, she had made a suggestion I just
couldn't turn down the opportunity to see. Still sat at the dressing
table and facing the mirror, Natalie remove Tim's headband and ran her
hands through his hair a few times. She then went to her bag and pulled
out a wig cap, placing it loosely on Tim's head, before pulling it down
tightly and tucking all his hair underneath. She had given the game
away with what was about to come next, but I hadn't seen the wig yet so
was equally as curious as Tim now was.
Natalie carried over the box she had brought with her, and rested it on
the bed. Opening the lid slowly she revealed a beautiful brunette wig.
It was long and dark but with just a hint of redness in the colour. She
immediately picked it up and placed it onto Tim's head, adjusting its
positon until perfect and then securing it into place. It was just
below shoulder length and was already curled a little at the tip. Using
a wig brush Natalie got rid of a couple of tangles which had formed
whilst in the box and Tim's new feminine look was complete. You never
would have guessed it was a wig, I certainly couldn't tell the
difference, it looked incredible. Tim looked incredible.
"It's one of my best wigs this," Natalie announced as she took a step
back to admire what she had done. She had one more idea, and returned
to her bag, pulling out a beautiful flower hair clip which she slid
into one side of Tim's new hair. It was the perfect finishing touch.
"What do you think, Tim?
"Wow, it's amazing! I love it!" Tim stood up and faced us both. Now he
had his hair and make-up completed, he no longer looked like a boy at
all, he easily passed as an attractive young woman. He was still in his
robe, so there was one final stage of dressing to complete, but I was
amazed at how the transformation had gone so far.
"I'd love to stay and see the finished result, but I have to dash. I
have another house call tonight." Natalie started to pack her things
away. "You have an amazing time tonight, won't you Tim? Enjoy every
second of it, you make a beautiful girl."
Tim stood there blushing at the compliment and I showed Natalie to the
door. I promised to send her a picture of Tim wearing his dress, and
thanked her for her help. We were now so close to the end, but I still
had to break the news to Tim about the party. In all the excitement of
the past few hours, I had almost forgotten that the party was not
actually going ahead.
Returning to the bedroom, it was time to reveal Tim's dress to him. I
had kept this part a secret too, rather than have him wear one of my
own dresses, I had been out during the week and bought him his own, one
I knew he would adore. I headed straight to my closet where it had been
hanging and pulled it out, still in its protective plastic sheet. I
held it in front of myself for a few moments, so he could get a proper
look.
"I bought this for you to wear, I hope you like it. It's a designer
label and is one of a kind. I thought you'd like to wear something
extra special for your special night, rather than one of my dresses
again. What do you think?"
"Mum, it's beautiful! But you didn't have to do that, I would have been
happy with one of yours!"
"Yes I did. I wanted to. Like I said before, if we're going to do this,
let's do it properly! You should have your own dress. Come on, let's
put it on!"
The dress was stunning. It was a long black ball gown, which hugged the
body but flared out towards the bottom. There were several layers to
the skirt, but rather than being black, the layers underneath were a
beautiful red; this flash of colour would be revealed playfully
whenever the dress was in motion, through Tim walking or sitting down.
It fastened up the back with an invisible zip and two thick black
straps merged to form a V at the front. A small silver broach was
already attached to bottom of one of the straps, adding a little
sparkle.
Tim removed his robe and left it on the bed. Still in his beautiful
slip, he stepped towards me and held my hand as he carefully stepped
into the dress. I pulled it up over him, and slowly raised the zipper.
It was a perfect fit. The body hugged his figure, the skirt flared out
and his chest was held firm. I didn't allow myself to admire for too
long, he still needed his shoes. These too were brand new; they were
black heels, in his size this time rather than mine. They had a medium
heel and were covered in the most beautiful velvet fabric, making them
look and feel even more special. This little extra height was just what
he and the dress needed.
Still not done, I disappeared for a few seconds, returning with a
sparkling silver necklace and some matching clip on silver earrings. To
complete the set and fastened a delicate silver bracelet around his
wrist and took a step back. Finally, I went back to my dressing table,
and picked up my favourite perfume bottle, the one I only use myself on
special occasions. Spraying one for myself to test, the fragrance was
divine. I sprayed three or four more times, but this time for Tim, and
finally we were finished. Tim turned to face the mirror, and I stood
beside him, not quite believing what we had just done. I had well and
truly turned my son into girl.
It was at this point I began to wonder if I had taken things too far.
Had it been Tim's dream to dress like a girl, or was I just fulfilling
my own dream of having a daughter? The designer dress, the professional
make up, the expensive wig and underwear, all this for a friend's
birthday party. The fact that the party was cancelled and I still went
ahead with it all anyway... I began to feel quite guilty about it all
again. But as I looked up and saw the beaming smile come from my son's
face as he saw his new reflection in the mirror for the first time, I
began to realise that he really had enjoyed the whole process as much
as I had.
"I don't know what to say! Mum, I look amazing, I feel fabulous! This
dress is just the most beautiful thing I've ever seen, and what Natalie
did with my hair and make-up, I never thought it would be possible. I
can't wait for everyone to see me at the party, they're going to be
speechless!" There was huge excitement in his voice, but as he turned
to me, he could tell by the look on my face, I was not sharing in his
excitement. "What's wrong Mum?"
I took a deep breath and took Tim's soft manicured hands in mine. "Tim,
there's something I need to tell you." I paused before continuing.
"First of all, you look incredible. If I didn't know you were my son,
I'd have no idea you weren't a real girl. It's not just the clothes and
the wig and the make-up, you pull the whole thing off so well, you
really do. But I have a confession to make. There is no party, it's
been cancelled. Abbie's Mother called me last night, Abbie's sick. I
wanted to tell you last night, but the thought of you missing out on
everything I had planned for you today... I wanted you to experience it
anyway, even without the party to go to. We've spent all week thinking
about today, you seemed pretty set on being a girl for the day, and I
didn't want you to miss out on that. I'm so sorry I lied, I hope you'll
forgive me."
Tim went quiet for a moment and his smile briefly left his face. My
heart beat a little faster as I waited for his response. I feared the
worst, but when his response finally came I realised I needn't have
worried.
"Of course I forgive you! Mum, today has been awesome; the whole week
has been awesome. The fact you have been willing to help me like this?!
I can't begin to tell you how much fun I've had. Dressing up last week,
watching those films with you, everything which has happened today,
it's been like a dream, the most wonderful dream. Can I be perfectly
honest with you?"
I nodded my head.
"I've been wanting to do this for ages, I guess some part of me has
always been really curious to know what it's like to be a girl. I was
just too shy in telling you, I didn't know how you would react. But
then when I got invited to the party, it seemed like a good opportunity
to finally go ahead with it, with an excuse to hide behind. But even
then I never imagined you'd take to it so well, be so supportive of me.
I thought if I was lucky you'd find me an old dress to wear, but here I
am wearing this gorgeous designer evening dress, professional make up
and all the accessories I could imagine. You've made me feel like a
princess, and I think that's how I always wanted to feel, just for a
day, just to see what it was like."
I had tears in my eyes as I leaned in and gave him a big hug. I was so
proud of him for opening up like that. I had wished he had done it
sooner of course, but it all began to make sense now, why he had been
so willing and comfortable in taking things as far as we had. I no
longer felt guilty; even if I had been partly fulfilling my own dream
today, of having a daughter for a day, I now knew we shared the same
dream after all.
I still had one more surprise for him, so taking him by the hand; I led
him back over to the bed and sat him down next to me. I felt so
underdressed in my casual denim skirt and white blouse, next to him in
his stunning evening dress, but if he accepted my offer, I would soon
be getting dressed up too. It would be a big step for him to take, but
I was sure he was ready.
"So when I found out the party was cancelled, I tried to think of
something else you could do tonight, something we could do together.
And then I thought, I've always been promising to take you to the
theatre, but I never have. So I called the box office this morning, and
I got us a couple of tickets for 'Hairspray'! You'll love it, I've
heard fantastic reviews and tonight is the gala performance. It'll be
the perfect girl's night out. What do you say?"
Tim sounded a little unsure in his response. "You want me to go to the
theatre with you, dressed as a girl?"
"No Tim, I want you to go to the theatre with me, as my daughter!"
A large uncontrollable smile then spread quickly across Tim's face.
"Yes, of course. I'd love to!" he giggled, and so did I, leaning over
to hug him once again.
"But I will need to stop calling you Tim for a while! What shall I call
you instead?!"
Tim thought to himself for a few seconds before replying "How about,
Marilyn?"
"Yes, I love it! Marilyn it is!" I jumped up from the bed and headed
over to the dressing table. "Right we have about half an hour before we
need to leave, I've arranged for a taxi to pick us up; how about you
choose me a nice dress to wear while I finish doing my hair and make-
up?!"
I smiled as Marilyn headed over to my closet and began to root through
my dresses looking for one for me to wear. There were several dresses
in there which I hadn't shown Tim last week in the hope that one day he
would want to have a second dressing up session with me. Now Marilyn
was born, I was pretty sure we would return to the closet again for
that dressing up session sometime soon. While he was in my closet, I
wondered if Marilyn would spot my wedding dress hanging there; of
course she would, it was huge and white! But that was for another day
perhaps, I smiled to myself.
Marilyn picked out my long green evening dress for me to wear that
night. It was the same green dress Tim had worn briefly last weekend,
one of his favourites from that day. After I had chosen shoes, finished
my hair and make-up, and added a bit of sparkle, I didn't look half bad
myself. I found my two favourite clutch bags, and gave one to Marilyn,
filling it with a compact mirror, a few bits of make-up and some money.
Soon the taxi pulled up and after a final stop at the mirror to admire
Mother and Daughter all dressed up for their night out, we left the
house and got into the taxi.
We had the most wonderful evening. Hairspray was brilliant; it was
funny, sweet and charming in equal measures. Marilyn was a little
nervous at first, being out in public for the first time, which was
perfectly understandable, but she had nothing to worry about. To
everyone who saw her, she was an attractive young woman, enjoying a
show with her Mother. Every so often I glanced over to her, saw her
smiling, giggling and singing along to the show, and I felt an
overwhelming sense of pride.
During the interval we were at the bar and inevitably we bumped into
someone I knew, Sarah, a woman I had worked with up until a few months
ago, and her husband John. We exchanged pleasantries and reviews of the
first half of the show, and then Sarah, who had met him on a number of
occasions, queried where Tim was tonight.
"Oh Tim isn't here tonight," I replied. "But this is Marilyn; she's
taken Tim's place for the evening."
Sarah and John both shook Marilyn by the hand, the former commenting on
how beautiful she looked. Marilyn blushed a little and tried her best
to hide behind the glass she was holding, but she needn't have worried,
there was no way Sarah or John were going to suspect who she really
was, not from this brief exchange anyway.
After the show we were in no hurry to get home so instead of taking a
taxi, we walked back slowly through the park, stopping on every second
or third bench to chat and watch the world go by. Tim was so
comfortable being a girl and I was equally as comfortable having a
daughter in place of my son. Neither of us wanted this night to end,
but eventually it did. When we got home, we both decided we were too
tired to stay up any longer, so went to bed. It had been a wonderful
day, one neither of us would ever forget. In the morning though, I
would have my son back.
The next day was slightly strange; we both commented on how much fun
the previous day had been, but as much as I wanted to suggest he
dressed up again and carry on as Marilyn for another 24 hours, I knew
it wasn't the best idea, I had to move on. After helping him remove the
varnish from his nails, all visible remains of Marilyn had gone, only
the memories remained. I persuaded him to keep his dress and other
clothes in his closet 'just in case', but within an hour or so, he was
back to his old self, playing computer games and listening to music on
his own in his bedroom.
As I sat by myself on the couch, drinking tea and watching Sunday
television, I thought back to my dream from when I was young. Get
married, settle down and have two children, a boy and then a girl. Ok
my marriage hadn't worked out in the end, but I was quite settled in my
life now, things were comfortable and I was happy. I had always been
immensely proud of my son, no more so than this past week, but it then
dawned on me that it had been Tim who had given me the final part of my
dream, not my ex-husband, nor any other man I had been involved with
throughout my life. Tim had become the daughter I had never had, even
if only for a day. I had no idea what was going to happen next, but I
knew that whatever did happen, Marilyn would always hold a special
place in my heart. She had been my daughter for a day.