"Mrs. Tiffany Hollingsworth"
As Ted laid me in the center of the king size bed in the master bedroom
I could feel my heart pounding and hear the ringing in my ears as my
head spun. I was nervous and felt the redness of embarrassment in my
face as I gasped wide eyed and choked a dry nervous swallow as I smelled
the floral scent of the perfume I wore floating around my head as Ted
got into bed and moved in on his knees. I could feel and taste the
slickness of the gloss red lipstick I had on as I tossed my head from
side to side, my light brown curled hair tussling as I tried to look
away, to deny the moment. Ted moved between my legs and swished up the
lace edged layers of the sheer, vintage, pink nylon chiffon baby doll
nightgown. I heard the whispering swish as the layers of nylon zipped
as he fluffed everything up over my waist and out of the way.
I then noticed the totally hairless and smooth ladylike legs in tightly
gartered nylons and the pink six inch stiletto heeled pumps that were on
full display now. I felt the nervous panic at seeing my legs looking
like this, my mind reeled again. The totally smooth legs now sheathed
in opera length vintage neutral grey sheer nylon stockings, the pink six
strap garter belt pulling the tops of the stockings taut, the sheer
filmy fabric shining in the faint room light, the nylons zipping as Ted
spread my legs wide then bent them at the knees as he eased them over
his shoulders. The shiny fabric zipped again as he ran his hands up and
down my feminized legs gasping breathless with excitement as I wore the
very outfit he'd bought home earlier in the day from a local upscale
ladies lingerie store.
His vein engorged erection bobbed in the cool room air and glistened in
the light from the liberal amount of clear lubricating gel that he'd
applied. He took it in hand and as he leaned in between my legs he
began probing with it, steering it into me! As we moved on the bed the
slippery, layered nylon fabric of the gown slipped down. He quickly
fluffed up the lace edged layers of pink chiffon back up over my waist
once again.
I grimaced at the sensation as I felt the dark pink bulbous head of the
large erection as he pressed it against me and worked it up and down. I
gasped again and writhed, squirming under him as he found the opening.
He worked my nylon clad legs wider still. I began to panic as he leaned
in and began to push into me.
"N...no, T...Ted, d...don't! I...I c...ca...can't!" I finally stammered
in a panic.
"Yes you can. Just relax," he assured breathlessly. "We're all alone,
nobody's going to see, nobody's going to know, we'll take it easy, just
relax now," he gasped urgently as he leaned in pressing more firmly now
in an effort to get himself inside before I could escape his grasp and
wriggle away.
The floral perfume continued to float in the air, the satin sheets and
the nylon fabrics whistling and zipping once again as I writhed
underneath him. And then I felt him press harder still then felt the
bulbous head begin to stretch the opening!
I gasped wide eyed as I saw my smooth, ladylike, nylon stockinged legs
high in the air now and grunted as I felt him press against me until
suddenly, I heard Ted moan with pleasure as he felt the bulbous head
begin to enter and I felt myself being stretched. And then still
hunched over me he pushed again! I felt myself being stretched tighter
still as I gasped in panic and grunted and then gasped in a girlish
shriek as I felt the bulbous head finally enter fully stretching me
tight! He continued pushing I felt the large vein engorged shaft begin
to slide in, one inch and then another. He leaned in and continued
pushing as he begin sinking into me, deeper and deeper now.
Firmly inside he quickly put his hands around my trim waist and pulled
me further down on the mattress then leaned in yet again, my legs even
higher in the air now. He then pushed and ground against me in little
pushing thrusts grunting softly with pleasure as I felt him continue to
sink deeper and deeper inside. I grimaced and issued another girlish
gasp as I felt the tight stretching sensation continue until finally
felt his hips pressed tight against mine as he ground against me. I
could feel his large dangling ball sack as it pressed against my smooth
bottom! And then he began pulling out! For some strange reason I felt a
sense of relief that he pulled back, that he was going to pull out. But
after pulling out only a couple inches he pushed back in tight and
ground against me once again. He pulled out again a bit further and
then as he hunched over me he slowly pushed himself back in all the way.
He then continued this humping, pulling out and pushing back in in
longer and longer strokes, the lubricant working to full effect now as
his eyes fluttered and he moaned open mouthed with pleasure.
"D...don't T...Ted! I...I ca...can't! It...it's t...t...too ti...tight!"
I squealed as I writhed underneath him, my nylon clad legs in the air
gleaming in the faint room light as I grimaced.
"D...don't worry. Mmmmm. F...feels s...so g...good," he cooed with
breathy excitement as he began to pump and then thrust in longer and
longer strokes!
I could feel the strokes getting longer now, how he'd be all the way in,
tight inside pressing against me and then how he'd pull out until the
base of the bulbous head would stop at the tight stretched entrance and
how he'd push back inside in another long full stroke. I could hear the
sound of the lubricant, the "splork" of each poking thrust as I grimaced
and grunted. And then as his pumping rhythm began, I could hear the
"pat-pat-pat" slapping sound as his hips bumped tightly into mine at the
end of each long stroke. I heard the bed begin to creak slightly as the
gasping and my "ungh-ungh-ungh" grunting from his thrusts continued and
the "pat-pat-pat" slapping sound the thrusts made as he had his way.
And then I heard the whispering swish of the satin sheets and the sound
of my pink, nylon chiffon gown and my shiny nylons zipping as he
continued.
All dolled up and powdered and perfumed I looked down momentarily
between my gartered nyloned legs as he humped me in and out. The little
trim "V" between my legs, my flaccid hairless manhood flopping small and
useless now, the little nuts in my hairless scrotum looking like
marbles, everything looking emasculated, feminized and small in
comparison to his large vein engorged seven inch erection, the large egg
sized testes dangling in the large ball sack swinging, brushing against
the tops of my smooth nylon stockinged thighs with each thrust. The
grunts and moans echoed throughout the bedroom now and through the open
door and down the hallway and through the house. Thankfully we were the
only ones there, the drapes drawn, the large luxurious house dark and
empty now in the pre-dawn morning with nobody knowing the wiser as to
what was now happening in the master bedroom.
Ted continued, working to a fever pitch and as the bed creaked louder
and the nylon and satin zipped and swished even louder the "pat-pat-pat"
slapping sound continued! I gasped and writhed again, wriggling to
squirm away but with him all the way inside now and with him holding my
hips and with me on my back, my nyloned legs splayed and high in the air
there was no escape. I wriggled my hips and spread my legs wider still
but the tight stretching sensation continued, the muscles in my smooth
shaved legs flexing tight now under the tightly gartered, sheer grey
nylon hose shining in the light from the little lamp on the night stand,
the pink stiletto pumps undulating, the heels twitching in the air over
his shoulders from each of his thrusts. And then I gasped and grimaced
again, wide eyed as I stared at the ceiling and into space. My mind
went blank momentarily as the realization was now complete. I was Tim
Benson, I'd been living with Ted and had begun dressing like a woman for
him during the day, and now here I was all dolled up for the evening in
ladies lingerie and being fucked just like a woman! As he moaned and
grunted and continued thrusting in and out, in and out my mind began to
drift, to drift in thought as to what could have possibly happened to
have put me in such a bizarre position!
Ted had spotted me at a Halloween party nearly a year before. I'd gone
dressed up as a vintage housewife, a June Cleaver type. I had real high
heels on and was wearing nylon stockings and full lingerie under my
floral rayon house dress. But I took a lot of ribbing when the college
friends I was with that night noticed that I'd shaved my legs for the
costume. A couple of the girls giggled and wowed when one of them
swished up my skirt and slips to reveal my white lace trimmed nylon
under slips, my smooth shaven legs and the shiny, seamed beige vintage
gartered ladies nylon stockings I was wearing, my long legs on full
display now, the sturdy white garters at the top of my smooth hairless
thighs straining as they held the stocking tops taut! As I flustered
and struggled to swish my dress and slips back down they said my makeup
looked too good and gasped when they learned I'd taken a curling iron to
my hair instead of wearing a wig. I tried to pass it off as trying to
do a good job for Halloween but I felt my party guests, the girls and my
guy friends pull away at the sight of me now, at my having done too good
a job with my costume. In reality it would have been an amazing and
all-out effort for an average guy to look as proper and vintage as I did
but for me it was almost second nature. I knew right then and there
that I'd really fucked up. But, being my last semester in school I knew
that soon I'd be moving on and these friends for the most part would be
gone for good. So with a few drinks under the self-belt of my vintage
house dress I figured the heck with it and continued with the party.
But something else had happened that I couldn't have anticipated.
Ted Hollingsworth had finished work for the day and had been sitting at
the bar just finishing his second drink. The bartender brought another
and he took a sip. He'd been looking over the costumed partyiers when
he spotted the tussle at my table as the giggling girls swishing up my
dress. There followed an audible gasp from the surrounding tables and
from several men at the bar when they got the full view of my vintage
ladylike legs sheathed in the tightly gartered old-fashioned ladies
hosiery, the legs splayed slightly as my feet wobbled on the high black
patent stiletto pumps. He sent a round of drinks over to our table but
I didn't finish the drink and got up to leave early. Ted followed me
with his eyes noticing my legs and how I minced and wiggled on the heels
and how my nylons shined and how my dress swirled as I walked past him
as he sat at the bar. He then took note of the scent of my floral
perfume. He got up from his chair tossed a twenty on the bar then
turned and stopped me a few steps from the entrance and started up a
conversation.
I figured I'd laugh off this party because I was graduating from college
at the end of the semester because I'd be gone anyway. Even though I
was a non-traditional student being in my late twenties I figured I'd
still be able to land a good job. But up until now it had been a tough
go with the rough economy and not that many good jobs out there. Not
only that, I'd soon have to move out of my small apartment, relocate and
find that job and another place to live. I was about to hail a cab when
Ted offered me a ride home in his luxury town car. I took the offer but
on the way home during some casual small talk I noticed him looking me
over, especially my legs and my black patent leather stiletto heeled
ladies pumps. I stayed aloof and made no attempt to get friendly. But
Ted, in his mid forties took notice, he was old enough to remember the
June Cleaver look. He mentioned my legs once again, mentioning it
mainly because he'd happened to be looking my way when the girls swished
my dress up exposing the shiny, nyloned legs and my red face
embarrassment as I quickly struggled to swish it back down.
He said he had a nice house in a secluded, tree lined area of an upscale
suburb. Once he knew I was going to graduate school without a job he
made me an offer. "How would you like to model for me," he asked.
Model? Model what!? I thought. What could he mean? And then he
mentioned my legs once again. He said he was an amateur photo buff of
sorts with a small studio in his basement. "Just a few legs and heels
pictures, maybe a bit of lingerie," he said then insisted. "I'll buy the
all the clothes and stockings and lingerie you'll need and don't worry,
there will be no face pictures," he assured. I was aghast at such an
offer, imagine me Tim Benson a 26 year old man being offered to model
ladies lingerie for pictures!? He then offered me a thousand-dollars
for each two hour photo session with free food and drink and free
transportation to and from his house.
He gave me his card and number when he dropped me off at my place. I
put the card into my purse and had forgotten the strange offer by the
time I entered my building. But then, three months later I'd been out of
school for over a month with the money gone, groceries nearly gone and
my last months rent payment history. And now, with not being able to
land a job and in having to leave my apartment in mere days I was really
in a fix! That Friday night I rummaged the back of my small closet and
found my Halloween purse, the number and card Ted had handed to me was
still inside. After an hour of thought I nervously dialed the number.
I was nervous and about to hang up the phone after four rings but then
Ted's familiar voice answered cheerfully.
Two afternoons work the following weekend earned me two grand in cash!
Enough to cover my rent for another three months and get some groceries
and buy me enough time to find a real job. But the jobs weren't there.
Sure the flipping burgers or stocking Wal-mart shelves McJobs were there
but that was an eternal dead end. With no real choice I had applied for
a stock clerk night job just to get by, then I waited for the phone to
ring. Two days later it did, but instead of learning whether or not I'd
gotten the new job it was Ted! Another thousand for only a couple hours
easy work was way easier than a month of lugging boxes and stacking
shelves so I couldn't refuse. But still this couldn't possibly be any
answer to a real job.
"You can't find a job and can't afford your apartment. Why don't you
move out and live here?" Ted mentioned after yet another photo shoot as
he spooled the film from his SLR camera and I sipped a beer. He took me
into his dark room and showed me three already framed prints of my
"work," My smooth and ladylike legs in the six inch black patent
leather stiletto pumps on full display as I perched in a pose on a high
studio chair the jet black sheer and shiny nylon stockings pulled taut
with tight black garter straps with just a trace of black peignoir lace
draping down. 11x14 black and white prints so clear I could see the
stitching on the heels and the actual flat knit weave of the glossy,
sheer nylon stockings, even the gleam of the steel garter tabs. A very
impressive and well lit portrait that looked more like fine fetish art.
I couldn't believe those feminine legs were actually mine! I then
learned from Ted that men's legs, when presented like mine now were on
the large and glossy prints were actually better proportioned than a
woman's legs. The calves are more defined and the thighs not quite so
thick. The legs looked more 'willowy' and that was the trick. He said
then added that it was easy for a man's legs to appear to muscular, too
angular but in noting that I was short and slender and slightly built,
and that I did little exercise my natural look came out with just the
perfect mixture of attractive details. "Gee, maybe you could enter one
of those pictures in some kind of leg contest or something, maybe we
could win some money," I wondered aloud.
"Tell you what Tim," he said as he put the camera down and put a few
things away then shut off the studio lights as we returned upstairs.
"I've got a few wealthy gentlemen friends who share my interest in fine
portraits like these. I've already discretely shown them around to a
couple friends. They're interested. Something for their walls in their
private office suites. Because their stodgy, blue haired socialite
wives don't have legs like that, not even their young kept mistresses.
I even have the materials to matte and frame the pictures, to order.
But, being 'fine art' they won't go cheap," he insisted. "I'll go 50-50
with you for every print I sell, what do you think?"
"How much money are we talking about?" I returned quizzically.
"Five-thousand dollars for a numbered print on a very limited and
exclusive run," he returned not batting an eyelash. "I've got three
guys interested and they've mentioned others they know too. It might
just be a fad, but who knows. Class never really goes out of style.
And it would sure pay better than stocking shelves don't you think?" He
finished.
A thousand bucks for two hours work, and then if he moved a print I get
another twenty-five-hundred? In cash? This was starting to sound like
stable employment. I quickly forgot the fact that to rake in that kind
of money I'd have to continue swishing and vamping around his downstairs
photo studio dolled up like a vintage Zsa Zsa Gabor. But then again, I
figured why not? And then to make things easier he made another
suggestion!
"You can have the run of the place as it's just you and me living here,"
he went on. "You can have your own room too. And if you'd like to earn
even more money? Well, I could use a little help around the place, you
know, some light dusting, housework some cooking," In our conversations
during the photo shoots we'd learned more about each other. Ted had an
office in town, his own part-time business as a consultant. He'd
already made his fortune in real estate and was now helping others buy
properties and houses and strip malls and such, a part time job so he
wouldn't have to just sit at home all the time. And conversely, he
learned I liked to cook and since I was a neat and tidy person to begin
with keeping house would be easy. "You can even dress the part of a
proper 'housewife' when you're working around here if you like. I don't
have many friends or house guests that visit anyway," he insisted.
"D...dress like a housewife!?" I guffawed. But he didn't buy my gasping
dismissal.
"Why not?" He added. "I know your legs already look fantastic, but in
watching you swish around in those peignoirs, how you move, I can tell
you enjoy it. And especially how you can navigate mincing around on
those impossible six inch stilettos, well, it's obvious you've had
practice.
I should have slipped out of those black patent heels and hopped back
into my blue jeans and tennis shoes and hit the road I thought. Even
with the possible financial windfall this offer was getting bit too
strange for me. He knew I liked the clothes and he'd noticed how I
could move in the lingerie and heels. And in my being naturally short,
slight and slender, well the numbers added up pretty quick I guess. But
with the latest shoot now done and after a couple of beers I felt the
crisp, new ten one-hundred dollar bills folded in my hand and realized
maybe it wouldn't be so bad to live in a luxury home and do light, part
time housework instead of going back to my present circumstance. Aside
from the photo shoots, Ted didn't have a problem with my dressing, he
seemed like a nice gentlemanly type and even appeared a bit lonely but
his offer would sure help me out. I figured I could maybe try his offer
for a week or two, maybe a month at most while I continued applying for
other jobs. I moved in and then it wasn't long until nearly another
year had passed!
I felt Ted's breathy humping thrusts once again as the bed continued to
undulate and creak then felt the tight stretched sensation as I came
back to reality. I immediately felt sickened at how far this strange
relationship had gone. My head spun once again as Ted picked up speed
his thrusts slapping, pounding fully into me now.
"And then he gasped. I began to panic red faced. I writhed underneath
him and squirmed as I felt him swell even larger inside stretching me
even further, even tighter! He wobbled on his knees as he pressed tight
against me, the ball sack pressed tight against my bottom as he held
still against me, as deep in as he could get. Then he gave another
thrusting, poking grunt as he ground against me then tilted his head
back and with eyes closed let out a stuttering pleasured moan as he
became weak on his knees!
I grunted wide eyed at the sensation and squirmed as I felt the first
twitch then the pulsing as his powerful spasms began pumping his
ejaculate inside of me, the thick ropes of sperm spurting and jetting
out of the tip of the bulbous head shooting even deeper inside. Until
finally he thrust a couple more times to finish then pushed all the way
in once again. I felt him going soft as he fumbled through the night
table. He then took out a pink, paper wrapped object and unwrapped it
and handed it to me. "Get this ready," Was all he said. He then pulled
out slowly and finally plopped out, the quickly softening erection still
gleaming with the clear lubricant as it bobbed between his legs. "Go
ahead," he said in a spent gasping tone as he looked on. And then I
realized the pink object was a woman's tampon applicator!
"Go ahead, get it in so you don't make a mess," he said as he looked on.
Ted noticed with satisfaction the dribble of sperm forming at the
opening. I took the applicator and worked it against the opening and
felt the embarrassed flush on my face as for the very first time I
pushed the plunger that sent the white dribble of sperm and the pink
applicator deep inside. When I pulled the applicator out only a white
braided string remained. "Since you already had a bath I'll just take a
shower while you dress for the day," he said as he moved off the large
king sized bed and headed for the master bath.
I then noticed the faint morning light coming through the white nylon
window sheers of the bedroom windows. I swished my gown back down, got
up and returned to my bedroom that Ted had fixed into a feminine woman's
boudoir only a few months earlier. He'd made sure I had plenty of
stylish vintage clothes similar to the June Cleaver look at the
Halloween party. Seems that look that was a secret favorite of mine was
also a favorite of his. I slipped out of my vintage pink layered nylon
chiffon baby doll then swung open the walk-in closet doors to pick out a
day dress and started my morning ritual once again then looked to the
back corner of the closet. Two packed soft-side suitcases, a baseball
bat and glove and a golf putter propped in the corner and a medium
cardboard box that contained a couple pairs of mens' shoes a few old and
dusty pictures of Tim Benson and friends and such, a few papers and odds
and ends and my framed college degree I'd received the year before.
After what just happened and remembering my ladylike nyloned legs high
in the air and then the tampon my head began to spin again.
A hot shower, scrub off the makeup, comb out the hair and stuff it under
a baseball cap then get dressed and hit the street then walk to the bus
station, I thought. A few more photo sessions had continued on after I
moved in and I'd saved most of the money. And with him selling nearly a
half-dozen of my leg picture portraits I had another fifteen-grand in
cash squirreled away, plus Ted had also paid me for my time in working
around the house . With him paying for everything there wasn't any real
need to spend my money.
I couldn't help but feel sickened and humiliated as I relented and began
to dress for the day yet again, and in full vintage housewife regalia!
Soon I was mincing around the kitchen preparing breakfast, my heels
clicking, my nylons zipping and my dress, petticoats and slips rustling
and swirling as my floral perfume continued to float around the kitchen.
But as I minced around and set the table I could feel that tampon still
deep inside and felt it swelling as it soaked up Ted's large and thick
load. I became flustered as I felt my face redden again as my mind
reeled.
"Mincing around the kitchen just like a proper lady-of-the-house. And
that little session this morning seems to have put an even more feminine
wiggle in your walk," Ted said with a satisfied smile as he entered the
kitchen dressed for the day, the morning paper in his hand as he took
his seat at the table then watched me move about the kitchen. He took a
sip of his orange juice then snapped his paper open to read the
financial section first as he always did. But as I worked and felt that
tampon my mind reeled.
"I...I don't like doing it 'that' way. I didn't like it last night and
I don't like it and I don't want to do it anymore. I don't want to do
that anymore Ted," I said with a firm tone in my voice as I shoveled the
bacon and eggs onto our plates and returned to the counter to get the
toast.
"We took it easy, I was gentle just like I said wasn't I? What we did
was nobody's business. Nobody saw and no one will know," he reasoned as
he folded his paper and set it aside. "It'll get easier once we do it a
few more times if you'd learn to relax and get used to it. You might
learn to like it," he assured.
"No! Fuck that! I don't want to do that anymore," I blurted, stammering
out the toughest Tim voice I could muster while I stood there with my
hair curled and made up and with gloss red nail polish and in nylons and
heels and full lingerie and in a dress and even a woman's vintage apron
tied around my waist. I could feel the coolness of the pearl necklace
around my neck and smell the floral perfume floating around my head and
then feel the studs of the pearl earrings in my ears I'd only had
pierced two weeks prior that were an additional feminine reminder that
took the punch out of my protests. And then it was Ted's turn!
"Let me ask you Tim. Where did you think this was going? Huh?" He
asked bluntly. "We're both adults here."
He reiterated the story he'd told before, about how he'd been married
twice. For some reason it felt like he was conditioning me. But he
continued saying that today's woman was too macho, to competitive to
man-like. Plain-Jane slovenly unkempt women these days would never
return to dressing like I was now as a hyper-feminine vision of a
vintage housewife. He'd bought them clothes and encouraged them but it
was too much and after a short time both marriages ended in divorce.
I'd been a hard luck case that stepped into his ideal role of a
'housewife' and all because I had done too good a job for a Halloween
party. I'd been offered easy money for the "photo shoots" and it was,
and Ted had kept my little secret. I never told him that I liked to
wear dresses, that I liked the feel of women's things but after looking
me over I guess I didn't have to because he'd already figured things
out.
"You do a good job in the kitchen Tim and keep the house nice and neat
and everything but what does it take, ten-fifteen hours a week, at most?
And anything major like carpet cleaning or fixing or painting we hire
that done. The rest of the time is yours to keep your hair nice, do
your nails and makeup, try on clothes and dress as you please, to swirl
and mince around the house to your hearts content. I don't associate
with many people but a few know I've hired a Tim Benson on to help him
out while he looks for a job. I never mentioned your alter ego or our
arrangement have I when we've been seen out with you in 'male mode'? Is
it that tough? Is it that big a deal to ask that you 'do it that way'
once in a while? You can live like a woman if you want but in doing so
and in me always seeing you around the house like that you must realize
that I am a man and I have my needs," he finished.
I swallowed a bite of egg and toast and washed it down with some orange
juice then dabbed my lips. "Yeah, but it's too much Ted. Maybe even
though it won't be near as easy on my own, maybe it's time I hit the
road, you know?" I explained and shuddered slightly letting him know I
felt the previous evening was too embarrassing and just too much for me.
"You live on a gated property, in a three million dollar home in a large
secluded tree lined lot. I've spent thousands on redecorating your
bedroom into something feminine that suited you and thousands more on a
new wardrobe for you to wear around the house. Then I dropped another
eighty grand on a new car for you. Beats walking or taking the bus
doesn't it?" He mentioned.
"Yeah, a pastel pink BMW two door coupe," I returned.
"A perfect choice for a ladies car," he returned with his 'lady'
notation as if with the car and then the tight stretching I'd gotten
with me all dolled up the night before was some sort of a plan to pull
me even deeper into his idea of a feminized lifestyle.
I didn't like where this conversation was headed as I squirmed nervously
in my chair at the kitchen table. I felt my silky lingerie slide under
my shiny rayon dress and felt my nyloned thighs slip and zip and then
felt the tampon swell larger still as my head began to spin again! I
felt cornered and he knew it. "You've got zero net worth, a worthless
degree and you've saved a few thousand dollars? Even if I gave you that
car and you sold it how long would everything last with you in another
apartment until you had to get a burger job, hum? You want to grind it
out, and quit dressing? Can't be fun clopping around a dingy apartment
in thrift shop ladies shoes and things, and what if you get discovered.
Women don't like 'your type' Tim. Single, alone and broke for the next
40 years? Tragic," he reasoned as he finished his breakfast. "I have
to get to the office. You think it over today," he said as he finished
his coffee, wiped his lips with a napkin then folded his paper up. And
then as I stood in the middle of the large kitchen looking like June
Cleaver in my apron and teetering on the high stiletto heels he left for
the office. I was now fucked and in more ways than just last night!
I had the kitchen back in shape and the table and counters wiped down in
another ten minutes just like a normal day. I'd already done most of
the housework the day before and aside from maybe a half hour of light
dusting after lunch that was my day today. I could take a leisurely
nap, read a book or watch a few movies in the home theatre. For now I
decided to head back to my bedroom.
My bedroom. Frilly and feminine and pastel and filled with white French
provincial furniture. Another feminizing aspect, everything upscale
with no expense spared. The lighted vanity filled with every manner of
women's makeup and hair care things, expensive salon stuff from the best
department stores, some things I still wasn't sure how to use just yet
but as Ted had mentioned casually "I'd eventually learn all the tricks
of the trade until it became second nature," Another thought that sent a
chill up my spine.
The dresser drawers brimmed with every manner of lingerie and foundation
garments and vintage nylon stockings in every hue and shade. The
vintage stuff Ted couldn't find he had custom made to order and in my
size. As I swung open the double doors to the walk-in closet I saw
another sight. Rows and rows of women's dresses, skirts, blouses and
gowns of every description. And underneath, row upon row of the high
stiletto heels that Ted liked, most with five inch heels and several
more with a full six inch heel. Most of the dresses and gowns were
classic and vintage and a lot of it had been special ordered. There was
a section of the closet that had a few contemporary women's clothes,
clothes designed for me to blend in with the local upscale ladies and
shoes with lower heels to match and even jackets and car coats and a
full selection of ladies purses, scarves, gloves, everything any ten
upscale ladies could ever need or want. But then I got another chill
when I looked into the back corner of the large closet. My "Tim Benson"
identity in the form of those two black suitcases and the sports
equipment and the large cardboard box I'd brought when I moved in were
now gone!
My head spun as I returned to the room and sat on the quilted pink satin
comforter covering my bed. Still in my frilly vintage apron and house
dress I sat there like a reincarnated June Cleaver. The feminine room
an exquisite feminine boudoir, almost too "girly-girl" for even the most
feminine of real women in the classic old days, and most certainly way
too feminine for the women of today. Surrounded by the ultra-fem and
without a stitch of male clothing or even my "Tim" identity I choked a
dry nervous swallow and swooned as my head spun.
I then picked up the receiver of the pink princess phone that sat on the
white night stand under the small lamp with the frilled white shade and
dialed. "Where's my clothes!" I barked as soon as Ted picked up on the
other end. "Just relax will ya?" He returned. "Try on some makeup or
lingerie or dresses or something, or take a nap if you want. Or, why
don't you take a look at those new swim suits I picked up for you. You
can go downstairs and hop into the tanning bed and get a nice start on
bikini tan lines if you like," he said then finished. "Look, I've got a
client coming in in a bit, I'll be home later this afternoon, we can
talk more then," he assured as he quickly ended the call as if it was
just another day. Maybe for him it was but not for me!
I slammed the phone down and finally got up and straightened the
slippery, pink satin comforter on the bed then moved out into the
hallway and down the stairs and into the huge living room the dress
rustling, the nylons zipping right on cue as I minced and wiggled along.
The place was a palace though, If I worked for a thousand years I'd
never have a place like this, or as nice a car to drive either for that
matter. I thought about calling a couple old friends. Friends from my
old home town 200 miles away, maybe see what Jimmy or John or Dave were
up to lately. Since I'd moved out with Ted my college friends were
gone, moved out and away now and I'd drifted away from them and
everybody else for obvious reasons. And the women? Sure I always liked
the babes but with the way I was, no matter how understanding a woman I
met would be it would soon be no dice. Had to be.
So, going "hey guys, I'll pay for plane tickets, take a break, come on
out, I live in a mansion now. We'll shoot some pool, watch a movie,
toss the steaks on the grill and tap a keg and take a swim in the pool
out in the four-season patio and talk about the old times and how things
are going. And Ted being a nice guy, well he wouldn't mind. I nearly
dialed the operator when reality hit me like a bag of hammers. I was
living as a woman! I had to laugh as their questions flooded my mind.
"You live with a guy!? You live as a housewife!? And what's with the
dolled up fem outfits!? You don't really like all that stuff do you!?"
The retort? "Well, Ted likes it and dressing up isn't so bad, not
really, once you get used to it. And now I live like a billionaire
socialite but have to do it as a woman. Not such a bad trade off when
you think about it really."
Yeah, Tim Benson, hopeless closet cross dresser who stumbled on his high
heeled feet and right into a man of means, and a man who was every bit
as far out on the edge of fetish reality as I was, but from the other
side of the fence. A perfect out of this world match, a one in a
million shot, the absolute perfection as the moon and stars aligned.
Unbelievable!
We'd gotten along so well in this arrangement so far that that aspect
didn't even need to be mentioned, we both read each others minds and
knew! Was I gay? No. Really? Naw! What was happening was a
continuation of the fetish. I'd read it in college in some ancient,
dusty out-of-date psych study. It started with sheer nylons for me as a
kid, seeing them hanging dry over the shower curtain rod shining in the
light. Should I try them on? NO! The memory clanged sharply. But,
yeah, I did and then I was sunk and I knew it. The book said that no
matter how you start you nearly always end up fully dressed and made up
and everything. It's just a matter of time, the progression of such an
accursed affliction. And the advanced cases of CDism being determined
to be TS in followup, a man actually trapped in a woman's body. But
that wasn't me, it couldn't be me.
I minced around the place as the morning sun streamed through the large
living room windows. I looked at the paintings, perused the books on
the shelves and looked around like an impressed visitor, but now I was
living here and had the run of the house and as I moved I could feel the
earrings dangling in my ears, smell the perfume and feel the luxurious
swish of the expensive lingerie under my vintage house dress and feel
the frictionless zip of the shiny, sheer nylons as they made their
"shick-shick-shick" sound as I minced around the room. From head to toe
and from the skin out I was now wearing it all. Ted had seen to that.
He knew what he liked and what I adored, and just what was needed for
the satisfaction and constant soothing of my psyche. My mind reeled at
the situation. Did I miss the baseball caps and the blue jeans and T-
shirts and tennis shoes and stuff? And just a comb through my hair in
the morning and a shave every two days or so to keep my thin-wispy beard
at bay. Then a spritz of Right Guard and I was off. A routine that
shortened my now daily routine by at least an hour! But I did adore the
clothes. The hairdos and makeup and long nails and dangly jewelry
secondary but essential for a complete polished look. And as the months
had passed the complete daily routine had become second nature.
And then my head spun once again when I remembered that large pink box
from the downtown upscale "Lady Grace" lingerie and dress shop that Ted
had brought home the day before. And what had happened next. And then
his words from that morning came back clear as a bell, "you think it
over today," he'd said. But as chilling as things now were where was
this going? It still hadn't registered. And then, in mid afternoon I
heard Ted's car pull into the garage. Moments later he entered the
kitchen and set his briefcase on the table as he greeted me.
He pulled me close around the waist. He smelled my perfume and my
nylons zipped and my house dress swished and I teetered on the stiletto
heels as he pulled me close and nuzzled my neck. But I felt tense and
distant after "thinking" all day and pulled away.
"What's the matter?" he asked.
"Ah, just a bit tired I guess," I added in the small conversation of
just another day. But I knew it was much more than that.
After I'd moved in and after my initial embarrassment in dressing like
the lady-of-the-house every day Ted began treating me as a woman.
Sitting close on the couch in the evenings, him with his arm around me
feeling my silky dress and brushing his hands over my smooth nylon
stockinged legs. It was his enjoyment, innocent at first but unnerving
to me. Then the afternoon greetings, the hugs and the little kisses as
he'd pull me close when he returned home. He'd encouraged me to swoon
slightly and lift and bend one of my shapely nylon clad legs in classic
vintage fashion as he held me. And he'd kept an eye on me to encourage
my "ladylike" manners and movements. Women's clothes and the high
stiletto heels dictated much of my movements but he wanted shorter
wiggling steps, limp wrists and more poise and grace. I guess over the
past year I had learned by osmosis and constant practice, as I had done
with the hair and makeup. I grabbed two beers from the fridge and
handed one to Ted as the after work routine settled in once again.
"Where's my suitcases and stuff?" I inquired as I leaned against the
kitchen counter.
"Ah, you don't need all that stuff anymore," he said as he waved passing
it off.
"You didn't answer my question," I insisted.
"I took all your clothes and sports stuff to the thrift store yesterday.
Your papers I tossed at the office, alright?" He finished a bit miffed
after being put on the spot.
"That was my stuff Ted! Your clothes don't fit me, they're way too big.
What am I supposed to do when we go out or I have to run errands or go
grocery shopping," I returned.
"I'll take care of the errands and you can have the groceries delivered.
Problem solved," he added.
"And going out to movies or grabbing some fast food or going out to eat
or just taking a drive or a walk in town window shopping, what about
that? I don't mind being home most of the time but the thought of not
being able to go out at all bothers me a bit," I added a bit rattled
now, not fully understanding what he meant. But then the other shoe
dropped.
"I'd just as soon that you didn't wear any men's clothing anymore. If
you go out just dress in a contemporary ladies fashion. I think you'd
blend in pretty well after living here as long as you have. The
nervousness of going out as a woman will diminish over time. And you
can start going to the salon, you know, just like a regular lady, weekly
appointments for your hair and nails and make overs. And you could
start laser electrolysis to get rid of that wispy beard of yours.
You'll never have to shave again. I know of a full service ladies spa
near my office," he rattled off like it was now matter-of-fact. "And
your name, Tim Benson, that doesn't work anymore either. I was thinking
of something more fitting now. How about 'Tiffany' that's a nice
ladylike name. Nothing masculine about that. Getting used to 'Tiffany'
and with you dressed only in women's things, it would be so much less
confusing don't you think?"
I gulped the last of my still cold beer and tossed the bottle under the
sink, then I grabbed another from the fridge, twisted the cap and took
another sip. "What are you talking about Ted?" I stammered back. He
didn't waste any time in continuing.
"I don't think it would be a great idea if I was seen out and about with
Tim Benson anymore. Buddies and all, even though people know that I'm
just helping a college kid get back on his feet we should just get some
distance from that," he said as he looked at me, my thoughts still not
coming into focus as he waited then finally erupted. "Oh come on Tim!
Like I said, what did you think this was? We're both adults here!
Figure it out. I enjoy seeing a vintage June Cleaver swirling around
the house and all but what kind of arrangement is that really. I mean
long term? Kinda runs out of steam after awhile doesn't it? And then
after last night, well you made it clear that you don't like doing it
'that way.' And like I said, I have my needs you know," he said as he
downed his last swallow of beer, handed me the empty and waved for
another, appearing a bit tired now but determined as I handed him
another beer, then took my open beer and an unopened third beer to the
kitchen table. I plopped down in thought, crossed my nyloned legs and
smoothed my dress and slips as Ted took a seat at the table as well.
"I've been talking with a doctor friend of mine. He's a councillor and
an MD. He's got experience with male-to-female transsexuals and he's
been looking into a few things for me," Ted started. "After a cursory
meeting and a physical he'll start you on female hormones and a
testosterone blocking agent. Then he'll start working on changing your
paperwork so you can continue on as Tiffany instead of Tim Benson."
"Wha, what!? What the fuck are you talking about Ted!?" I gasped
nearly spitting my beer across the kitchen floor. "I...I'm not one of
those! I'm not a Transsexual! I'm not some man stuck in the body of a
woman," I assured.
"Well, you certainly aren't much of a man now are you Tim?" He reasoned
smiling as I shrunk and cringed at the sensation of all the silky
clothes I now had on. "A college degree to be sure but with no real job
and no prospects. Few friends and no chance of any real relationship
with any women. That's just your situation, the way it is. I didn't
set that up. Go ahead, look at yourself. Are you really a man Tim.
Humm?"
"Well, there's no way I'm starting on female hormones!" I shot back.
"You don't like doing it 'that way' you said, isn't that right? Well my
doctor friend insures me that once on female hormones after a time your
male thoughts will begin to fade. Depending on where in the spectrum
you are. And if you are only just a cross-dresser he tells me that
that's still enough to start with. After a few months you'll start
thinking like a woman and your mental state will be more in line with
you dressing and living as a woman and then getting used to a man's
attentions. A year or two more and all that confusion will end and your
life as Tiffany will be second nature," he said with assurance.
"What the fuck have you been smoking!? Nobody can be sure of any
therapy like that!" I said stymied for anything else to say as my
stomach churned and my head spun at the fact that he'd already gotten
with a doctor friend of his and it would only be a paper shuffle to
start me down the road as a woman!
"We've already been through Tim Benson's future. You want to leave?
Heck I'll steak you, put you up in a nice place, let you keep your new
car. I'll buy you another 'Tim' wardrobe. I'll foot your bills for
another five years anywhere you want to live, within reason. Go ahead
and look for a real job, real friends and then try to find a real woman.
Oh, but then there's that little problem that always comes back to haunt
isn't there? Finding a woman who won't think you're a freak. And then
once your secrets out no more friends and no more job. It doesn't
matter there's all the LGBT rules and laws on the books. An employer
learns about Tiffany and suddenly you'll be a 'difficult' employee,
'argumentative' with few friends. You know how it goes. And then,
either way it's McDonalds or Wal-mart and no car and no benefits and a
crummy apartment alone?" Ted finished with a quite masterful stroke.
It was genius and it was airtight!
I felt sick. My head spun at the very real thought of spending the rest
of my life on high heels.
"Maybe we could continue on for awhile."
"There's no future in that," he continued. "Take the councilling and
start the pills. Give it a month or two to see how your thoughts
measure out. You're lucky really," he said as he looked me over.
"You're what... five-foot-five, a hundred and twenty pounds dripping
wet, you've always been short and slight and almost naturally hairless.
You're not a swish or effeminate but you're learning," he said with a
chuckle. "You've got naturally fine features. You're lucky with your
prissy mind set that you aren't six-foot-three and two-hundred pounds
with rough features and hairy as a gorilla. But as Tiffany you stand a
real chance. Redo the hairline, resculpt the nose a bit, enhance the
cheekbones and you'd be nearly undetectable. A little practice and only
a gynecologist could prove you weren't born a genetic woman," he
theorized.
"And I stay on, living here full time and permanently? And how do you
explain what happened to Tim Benson? And then where did your new live-
in Tiffany come from?" I returned.
"I didn't say it would be smooth sailing all the way. But I've already
put a few things in motion. With the doctor/councilor and a few other
things. The Tim/Tiffany connection may never be found out about. It's
really nobody's business. But, that's a chance we'll have to take. If
it ever comes under question I'll just come out with it. Tim was
transgendered and I helped him along then got along so well with Tiffany
that things just clicked. And if they don't like that explanation, fuck
'em! I don't tell anybody else how to live and I'm financially stable
enough and own my own business and independent enough so that it won't
matter anyway. If I lose clients I'm still solvent," he finished.
"So, it's all planned out then?" I gasped nervously.
"It's a work in progress. You see the doctor early next week and we'll
go from there," he reasoned.
After such a wide ranging conversation most nearly all involving Tim
Benson I had no choice but to realize that his life was nothing more
than a miserable dead end. But Tiffany? That was a whole higher level
I didn't yet fully understand. But, as I looked up from the table I
took the chance and agreed to see the councillor the following week.
And then, strangely, I could taste the lipstick and feel the earrings in
my pierced ears. My head spun again as I squirmed in the chair and I
felt the full silky sensation of the women's clothes I had on. The
frictionless breezy feel, the zipping of the sheer nylons and the feel
of the slips and skirt of the dress mocking me now, a portent, me
falling down the rabbit hole into a feminized world, with me totally and
utterly feminized with no way out, no escape!
I was apprehensive to take the passenger seat as Ted drove to the clinic
the next week. I felt nervous and beside myself in being out dressed as
a woman for the first time and it showed. I still had my nice lingerie
and garter hose on underneath but now wore a simple long skirt and
ladies low heeled boots and a simple blouse and a lady's coat with a
matching purse. My makeup was more plain and minimal and my hair was
combed in a plain style. Yuck! I didn't look like the slob soccer moms
and looked upscale but dressed this way I worried I might be seen as a
guy-in-a-dress, especially when getting out of the car in front of a
mental wellness clinic!
Doctor J. F. Milton, MD greeted me in his office as I entered. Ted stuck
around for a bit chatting and then went out to see the receptionist and
go over some of my paperwork before he took a seat and picked up a
magazine. I took a seat and set my purse down as the doctor looked me
over without a smirk or a chuckle. He seemed professional in his job as
I was far from flawless. But he seemed to understand. Then the
conversation started, the cross dressing came out but I didn't seem to
fit the profile of being TS to the level he had expected. However, he'd
had several conversations with Ted and after knowing our situation and
after a quick meeting he wrote me a prescription for the female hormone
estrogen. I'd done a lot of reading on the subject and mentioned I'd
need a testosterone blocker as well but he only gathered my file and had
me follow him into an out-patient exam room. I noticed the padded
examination bench had stirrups, and that a nurse was already there
working!
He had me step behind a curtain and undress and then put on a hospital
gown. I'd just had a physical so why was this needed I wondered. But,
I was assured that my case history was already well documented. He had
me lay back on the table and before I knew it the nurse was starting me
on an IV. She laid me back on a pillow and I began to feel spacey as
the doctor put my feet in the stirrups. He then wheeled over a tray and
put on a surgical mask. He loaded a syringe and I felt the first needle
stick. I tried to protest but then I began to fade out as if I was in a
light sleep. And then it was over as quick as it started as I woke up.
The doctor was just snapping off his latex gloves as he finished looking
me over. "Put your girdle in your purse for the ride home Tiffany" he
said. "I want you to stay loose and comfortable down there and in a
week, ten days you'll be good as new," he assured. An "out-patient"
procedure I was told.
Within ten minutes I was able to get dressed and limp back into the
reception office where Ted was waiting. My steps shortened as my crotch
felt pinched tight somehow now. And the doctor hadn't given me the
testosterone blocking medication I'd be needing. But Ted merely
collected me and soon we were in the car and on the way back home. I had
trouble sitting and felt another pinch and was so uncomfortable I
finally swished my long skirt up and pulled down my white ladies nylon
briefs. My mind reeled to see my little manhood and my hairless scrotum
and the two incisions on each side of the now empty sack. My testes
were gone! They'd been clipped and I'd been neutered! I eased the
nylon panties back up gently and swished my skirt and slip back down as
my head fell back against the headrest spinning, my ears ringing now
too!
"I thought you said 'try it out for a while,'" I said as I glared at
Ted. "This is no trying anything out Ted, my nuts are gone!"
"Just relax now, everything went fine. The doctor seemed to agree with
me. And, he mentioned that the female hormones will act a lot faster
with no testes in the way," Ted said. "You won't need the testosterone
blocking agent now and the doctor said that within a month all the
testosterone now in your system will be gone and you'll switch over
fully to the female hormones. And there shouldn't be any side effects
just being on estrogen. You'll have check ups to monitor your
medication as we go until you balance out."
We stopped at a pharmacy and Ted went in and moments later came out with
a small plain brown bag which he handed to me. I opened the bag and
looked at the large bottle of pink pills, take one each morning with
breakfast the prescription said on the label.
It was lunch time as Ted pulled into a drive through to order a large
bag of burgers and fries. I was exhausted and knew that I wouldn't be
doing any housework or cooking for the next few days. But Ted already
knew that. I healed up slower than I thought but within ten days I was
back in the doctor's out-patient exam room having my stitches out. And
then as the days went by I continued taking one of those pink pills with
every breakfast.
What a joke I thought. No nuts and gobbling these little pink pills and
no changes. But then as the weeks began passing I started noticing the
tenderness in my chest. And, my areolae and nipples were turning a
darker shade of pink and were indeed getting larger, the surrounding
tissue filling out and getting puffy! I also noticed the hair on my
head was getting thicker and more luxurious while my body hair had
diminished, my skin was softer too. I also began to notice mood swings,
the emotions and how I'd get upset at the slightest thing. Part of it
might have been the tenderness and tingling in my budding breasts but
now I was definitely noticing the changes. And my dresses even started
fitting easier too.
Another visit to the doctor and all was fine. I still wore my silicone
forms at home but now I was an "A" cup for real. The doctor slid a box
and a jar of cream across his desk. "The cream is hormone laced and I
added an anaesthetic to stop the tenderness and tingling. We've had
good results with it, you rub it on your breasts at night. And then,"
he went on as he opened the pink box and took out some clear tubes and
two clear plastic globe like objects. "After you rub the breast
development cream into your chest you put these on," he said holding
them up to his chest. "They're suction, breast pump devices, you hook
the tubes up to the little motor that's in the box and pump your breasts
up tight. Not too tight but snug. Once you're pumped up, unplug the
tubes and leave the globes on for ten minutes a night, three nights a
week. But, use the breast cream nightly," he said as he put everything
back in the pink box. I was soon on my way home once again. And aside
from this new added routine I didn't look much different.
"I thought you'd have wider hips and a more slender waist and at least
by now with those globe things bigger boobs," Ted said exasperated as he
looked me over one evening before I went to bed.
"Well, you're the one who had everything all planned out, you tell me!"
I blasted back in another head spinning emotional outburst. And then
a few more months flew by. Turns out that Ted needn't have worried. As
time went on the estrogen really kicked in, aided by now additional
hormone injections I did at home once every two weeks. My hips did grow
wider and rounder and my waist trimmed down to feminine proportions.
But the most noticeable change was that I was now a full "C" cup! The
torpedo shaped breasts I'd started with had grown out a lot more and had
rounded out and were now taking on weight! I had to relent and visit
"Lady Grace" for my first brassiere fitting!
"I...I'm a male-to-female transsexual," I said nervously and in a
whispered tone to the elderly lady in the women's fitting room as she
looked me over noticing I wasn't that "womanly," I was sure I was about
to get tossed out but Ted had already had a talk with her and she seemed
very cooperative and pleasant. It might not have hurt that Ted owned
the strip mall her "Lady Grace" dress and lingerie shop was situated in.
But still, in this instance the cat was indeed out of the bag. In about
to be fit for new brassieres I had no real choice but to confide in the
fitting lady. She even had smaller silicone forms I could switch to to
keep the same chest size so my dresses and blouses would continue to fit
every day until I finished filling out. How large I'd fill out was
anyone's guess. But so far the pink pills and the cream and the suction
globes were working overtime.
Tim Benson, or the idea of him began to fade now, as did my emotional
outbursts. And when I got my new drivers license photographed as
Tiffany Hollingsworth it was strange to see the word "Female" on the
identification. I then learned that this was possible as since I was
neutered and on female hormones I couldn't be a male anymore and under
my doctor's care my new status was granted. And as more time passed the
other paperwork that drifted in reflected my new female status.
"A hair set, a perm!? And salon nails and pedicure too?" I gasped
after supper a few nights later. "The bra fitting was embarrassing
enough and now you want me to go to an actual beauty salon?" I asked as
Ted stood by. He'd found a picture of a vintage ladies hairdo online
and printed it out. "That's the kind of hair set I want to see you in
from now on," he said excitedly.
"I don't suppose this beauty salon is in another building you own, is
it?" I meekly asked.
"Nope. You'll have to pick a place, a nice one of course but you'll be
on your own this time. Maybe ask for a chair in the back or something.
Tell them it's for a costume party, I don't know. You'll get used to
the new routine," he assured. And he was right. I sure didn't look, or
feel much like a "Tim" anymore!
After looking through the yellow pages and found a place or two we drove
over to the location, something off the beaten trail, something upscale
and suburban. We finally settled on a salon only a couple miles from
the house. I was still nervous about going and when I did I watched my
demeanor and kept my voice soft and as ladylike as I could. Then, to
try and clinch the deal I wore a low cut blouse and a new demi-cupped
shelf bra to show off my ever growing breasts. The fleshy orbs stood
out and jiggled, and with my trim waist and my wider hips I felt I might
just get by. This change-over program was tougher and more nerve
wracking than I thought. I never imagined going to this level, maybe
that was the problem. The day of the appointment I gritted my teeth
took a deep breath before pulling the door to the salon. The bell on
the door "dinged" and I soon found myself at the receptionist's desk as
"Tiffany" ready for "her" appointment!
I got a chair towards the back and the stylist was soon working me over
giving me a cut and style and then a set. Meanwhile I got a pedicure in
gloss red and then had a manicure with long ceramic salon nails glued on
tight and then lacquered with the same gloss red polish. By the time
the lady working on my hair combed out the first section and rolled the
hair I braced for the sensation as the first pink curler was then rolled
and pinned tightly to my scalp. My head spun, here I was as Tiffany
getting my first roller perm hair set, and in a vintage style! My head
was soon festooned with over three dozen curlers arranged in neat rows
and I was being led to a seat under a large hair dryer. I was on my
"high maintenance" way now!
Ted had me change into a June Cleaver house dress a few of the ones I'd
been able to have altered for my new feminine shape, and the black
patent leather stiletto heels with beige seamed nylon stockings even.
He then marveled at the total package, the long, gloss red salon nails,
and my new eyebrows that had been plucked into a high and feminine arch.
He marveled at the change in makeup which included false eyelashes and
was wowed by the tightly curled and styled and very authentic vintage
ladies hair set. He finally pulled me close and danced me around the
living room for a moment until I told him I'd had enough for the day.
He relented.
Gad! Was I being "bitchy" now!? Or maybe it was how I looked these
days, especially now after my first salon treatment. I'd done
everything Ted had wanted after his impassioned and quite logical
argument in favor of his plan. It was a quiet evening. While he sat in
the La-Z-Boy watching TV and I sat on the end of the couch nearby I
asked when he wanted to do my facial work. A couple days later after
contacting the doctor/specialist a clinic was located and I was
scheduled in a months time. But this time the thought of a multiple day
hospital stay got me wondering and worrying about the complexity of my
facial feminization surgery.
We checked into the clinic after a three hour flight and a long cab
ride. After I settled into my room Ted found a nearby hotel with room
service. I was processed quickly and then after tests in the morning I
was scheduled for surgery. Another needle stick, but no out-patient
stuff now. This time it was the full operating theatre. I was out
before I had time to allow my blood pressure to get out of hand. I was
being wheeled back to my room and being told that the surgery went off
without a hitch and frankly, even better than planned. Spectacularly
actually I think were the words the pleased surgeon said as he looked me
over checking the bandages while was still groggy and quite out of it.
After being wheeled into my deluxe private suite I was in and out for
two days. Then, on the third day the pain set in!
"Nurse! Nurse!" I yelled in screaming pain as I laid awake on the third
morning after trying a sip of liquid breakfast through a straw. I'd
found the morpheme drip in the remote button on the bed and had pressed
it so many times with my thumb that I'd maxed it out, to no effect or
relief!
It felt like someone had worked my head and especially my face over with
a ball bat. Not a kiddie junior league wiffle ball bat, no, we're
talking the Michael McGuire/Louisville oak slugger, and that fucker was
on his full steroids and wearing a glove too! I felt the tears rolling
down my cheeks and under the bandages as if I had been slicing onions.
It wasn't sadness but mostly the searing pain that registered in
thumping waves with each heartbeat. But still there was some sadness in
my thoughts. What the fuck had I done!? The nurse flitted by with
concern and returned with a doctor who put me back out with an
injection.
Day four, the twilight of sunset. Another pump of the morpheme drip and
I actually felt better now. But over the past days I'd lost another
eight pounds. I was too sore to even eat a liquid diet. I could only
lay back and watch television and there was nothing on but commercials!
Ted had been in and out but because I could only mumble and looked like
a mummy there wasn't any point in him staying to watch commercials. He
did seem a bit alarmed at the swelling and how wi