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Chapter 6 ------------------------------------- I heard noises from distant. The noises gradually became more clear. I could distinguish some words but not many! I slowly opened my eyes and saw people around me. Everywhere was blur so I couldn't recognize them. I was, however, certain that mom and dad were among them. A few moments later, everything faded away and I went to sleep again. ---------------------------------------------------------------- I gradually opened my eyes. There were people around me talking. In the beginning the whole picture was blue, but after few seconds I could see clearly. I remembered that I was in the hospital. From the decoration of the room, I guess that I should be still in the hospital. The room, however, looked different. Mom and dad were in the room. Mom looked extremely annoyed and dad seemed furious; maybe they had one of those fights over some stupid thing. Luis was standing further talking over phone but I couldn't hear him. "Mom!" I said almost whispering. Hearing my voice, She rushed over my bed and stared at me. "Hello there, you are awake!" she seemed worried. By this time, dad and Luis also came near the bed. "What happened!?" I asked. Mom looked nervously at dad and then she looked back at me while trying hard to smile. "Well, you passed out. You didn't wake up until the surgery. So they operated on you the day before yesterday." I could see dad's anger grow! I was curious why he is so angry. "Luis, go get the doctor!" dad said. Luis was different also! He seemed anxious! I could sense something is not right! "What? The surgery! Already?!" I said. That news draw my attention to my body. I could feel soreness and numbness down there. "Oh! Shit! Did it go well?" I asked nervously. Mom and dad looked at each other. After a few seconds of hesitation, mom said. "More or less, you will become completely healthy again and fully functional, but there were some complications. The doctor will explain everything to you." "Complications?! That bastard ... !" Dad said angrily before mom stopped him with a hush. He shook his head and returned back to his seat. "Who? What bastard?" I asked horrified. "Did they do something to me?" At this moment, Luis came back together with Lena, another female doctor I didn't know, and two male nurses. "Good afternoon everyone," Lena said. "Will you explain what is happening here? Why dad is angry?" I asked. "Calm down Lucas, I will explain everything to you. But first, I have to run some tests on you" Lena replyed. "No, no, no! I need an explanation now! Mom said there were some complications! What complications?" I insisted shouting. "Ok, I will. But you have to first calm down," Lena said nerviously. "I am calm," I lied. I was super anxious. I knew something is not right and I wanted to know as soon as possible. However, I also knew I must act as if I am calm. "Well, I hope so," Lena said in a very comforting voice. "First, I must say that you will become completely healthy in a few weeks. But your mom is right, there were a number of complications. Dr. Shwindt who was your surgeon acted completely solo and decided to remove your male reproductive organs instead of your female reproductive organs." "What?!!!!!!" I exclaimed. I couldn't believe what I have heard. "He removed your male reproductive organs!" she repeated. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. "You are joking!!" I laughed. "This is a joke! A very bad one!" I looked at dad and then Luis. They were looking at the ground with a sad and perhaps partly angry face. "NOOOOO! NOOOO! This is not true! I didn't agree to that! I said NO, no matter what!" I yelled. "Calm down, Lucas," Lena said. She had expected that kind of reaction from my side. "You lied to me! This is a joke! I don't believe it! Look ..." I moved my hand towards my groin and tried to find my penis! Although, it hurt like crazy, I tried to locate my penis but I could feel anything like a penis! 'Oh no! Where is my penis?' I thought. Despite the pain, I search more and more .... that was the moment of panic! I was terrified! 'This can't be true!' "This is a dream! I know, it's dream..." I shouted and pinched my face. Nothing happened confirming that I am awake and everything is actually happening to me. I was shocked. I couldn't say anything for a few seconds. I was terrified and trembling. Mom, who couldn't bear it more, came to me and hugged me firmly. "Lucas, Lucas, calm down honey!" I pushed her back! "It is not there!" I cried out and then I looked at Lena! "it's not there! You lied to me! LIED to me! I trusted you! YOU BITCH!" Mom came toward me again to hug me, but I push her away firmly. "I kill him! I kill you! You killed me!" I shouted looking at Lena. At this moment the two nurses came closer to restrain me. I fought back and hit them. Eventually, they succeeded and injected some kind of medication into my arm. A few moments later I was very dizzy! Eventually, I went to sleep... --------------------------------------------------------------------- - When I woke up, only mom was in the room. She had gone to sleep while nursing me... I thought 'This woman is an angle'. Then I remembered the nightmare. 'It should have been a nightmare.' 'I must have had a really bad dream.' In order to confirm, I tried to touch my penis. As I couldn't find my penis, the feeling of terror came back. "NOOOOO! It was real! It actually happened!" I shouted and with that mom woke up. I was shocked. I was in deep thoughts. 'they are planning to make me pregnant!', 'I don't have a penis!' and so on. She was still a bit dizzy but after a few seconds she noticed my shock. She came to me and hugged me. This time, I didn't resist. I just started crying uncontrollably and unstoppably. She cried together with me. After few minutes of crying, I was feeling less angry but more empty. I wiped my tears and looked at her "What do I do now?" I murmured. "I don't know, sweetheart! But whatever we need to do, we will do it together. We are always with you," she said trying to comfort me. "Can I have it back?" I pointed towards my groin. Me saying that made me embarrassed but I really needed to know the answer. "We have already asked that the moment they told us what has happened. Apparently, Dr. Shwindt made sure it is not reversible ... er ... You know, he destroyed the removed organs. So, I don't think so honey!" Mom said very cautiously as she was not sure what will be my reaction. I felt sick. Despite that, I decided to stay calm for mom's sake. 'She must have been under a lot of pressure as well during the past few days' I thought. I looked at the watch on the wall, it was around 2am. "Why didn't you go to hotel?" I asked her. "Your dad went but I just couldn't. I needed to stay here. I knew you would wake up," I could see tears were forming in her eyes. "I am sorry mom!" I said feeling guilty of making mom so sad. She just hugged me again and whispered "Don't be! It's not your fault," and the she started to cry again which lead me to cry as well. After a while, I asked her, "Why did he do that to me?" "Why!? He was crazy!" she answered short but I expected a longer explanation. Then I remember my first encounter with Dr. Shwindt. "I also found him very strange and crazy when he visited me on Sunday. He only said one sentence during the whole meeting and that was about turning me into a girl. And look at me now! he literally DID that!" I said muttered. I felt very sorry and bad for myself but I was tired of shouting. Plus, it was after midnight and I didn't want to disturb others. We both were silent for a while and then I cried "I will kill him if I find him!" "He got arrested yesterday when everybody found what he actually did! You father sued both him and MedTechs! Your uncle filed the suits!" she said. My uncle was a known lawyer. I was not surprised to hear that my father has called him immediately! "What is MedTechs?" I asked. "The institute for which Dr. Reed is working. Dr. Reed was also surprised about the news. But apparently Medtechs had suggested Dr. Shwindt to be your surgeon in the first place. So MedTechs is also responsible," she answered. "So Dr. Shwindt was not alone on this?" I asked. "We don't know that yet. He claimed that he did it on his own in the news footage!" she replied. "The news footage?! There was a news footage about me?" I asked terrified. Mom replied, "Yes, the news about the incident is now being broadcasted in almost all channels" and the she added "They didn't mention you but an anonymous boy with PMDS condition. No channel mentioned your name," She said while she put her hand on mine. I was calmer, but still I was terrified as hell. She brought her cell phone and showed me the moment Dr. Shwindt was being arrested. In the video clip, he was handcuffed and was being dragged to a police van. On the way, a reported asked him if he has anything for the public and he replied, "I will never regret what I did! He was not brave enough to choose the right decision, I had to decide for him. He only considered himself in his decision. I considered the human survival," Immediately a group of security officers pushed him into the van. The video made me think: 'Was I really that selfish?' and 'Did he make the right decision?' and many other question like that. I went back to sleep in between my thoughts. Chapter 7 -------------------- I woke up early in the morning and had breakfast with mom. Dad and Luis had their breakfast in their hotels and arrived a bit later. The atmosphere was silent and very awkward. Nobody dared to say anything fearing of triggering my anger. Around nine, the head of the hospital, Dr. Khakvir, visited me and explained everything that had happened. He also explained in details why the hospital and its staffs (which include Lena and Dr. Stevens) had nothing to do with the incident. He also said the hospital will cover all my expenses until full recovery. That information made me regret how I treated Lena yesterday. I made a mental note that I will apologize to Lena. Around ten, Lena visited me. She ran a number of tests and I was speechless. I was still angry about the whole incident. But I knew she had nothing to do with it, so I decided to treat her better. "Lena, I am sorry for yesterday. I shouldn't have treated you that way. I don't know what happened to me. ..Er.. I mean I know what happened: [pause] I lost my penis!!!!" I said embarrassed "but you didn't have anything to do with it. I over reacted. I apologize". Every time, I thought of my lost penis, I felt embarrassed. So I decided that I will never say that aloud in front of other people. She looked at me with a worried look and made a sympathetic smile. "No worries Lucas and you don't need to apologize, I did understand you. And, you didn't overreact. That was a normal reaction for a person in your situation," she said sympathetically. I did like her but I was still mad at her. I was mad because she failed to stop the crazy doctor. I looked at my family and said "Can I have a private time with Lena?" I needed to know everything and all possibilities. I had a lot of questions and the fact that they were in the room made me really embarrassed. I felt less embarrassed in front of mom, but I was really embarrassed in front of dad and specially in front of Luis. They nodded and left the room. "Mom told me yesterday that I cannot have it back!" I pointed at my groin. "Is there any way I could still be a healthy man again?! I mean ... via surgery! I am a freak now." She hesitated a bit and then she sat beside me and said "Lucas, I am going to be really frank with you but you must promise that you don't panic and be calm." She put her hand on mine. I nodded in confirmation. "Your mom is right. There is no way you could get it back. For whatever insane reason he had, Dr. Shwindt made sure of it. So, I would say that it is not a realistic option for you to get it back at this moment. Maybe in few years, we could discuss that," She paused a few seconds and then said, "I suggest that you don't think of that option. Thinking about it won't help you." "What should I do then? How can I live like this? Last week, I had a normal life. Now, I have a ruined life!" I said disappointed with an empty voice. "I totally understand your frustration and your disappointment in life. However, I disagree with you. Although you cannot be a healthy man, you can become a healthy woman," she said cautiously. I didn't like her suggestion. I didn't like it at all. I didn't like the idea of being a woman, healthy or not. I didn't like other people think that it is even an option. But I didn't want to be rude again. I swallowed whatever rude thing that came to my mind. I just looked down. "I know, you don't like this idea. But you have a fully functional female reproductive organs. According to the records after your surgery, you have also got a potentially healthy vagina. In a few months, your body will naturally produce more female hormones and your figure and your face will gradually look more female. After that you can have a normal life as a woman." "I don't want to be a woman! I never wished to be one!" I complained. I had to fight hard to keep my tears from falling. "I know that. I could see it yesterday..." She paused and then said. "Look ... You may think life is going to be miserable for you. But you are wrong. Not every aspect of this incident is bad. You will be able to do almost everything that you could do as a man. I heard that you work as a kind of computer expert. Right? [I nodded] I don't think you need your penis for that. On top of that, you could save the world." "Save the world? You mean ....! There is no way I get pregnant," I replied. But my facing own misery in combination with the imbalance of hormones in my body forced me to cry. She moved a bit closer and hugged me. "Honey! No one asked you to become pregnant! There are many other ways to help saving the world without getting pregnant!" This was the first time she called me 'honey'. I didn't object maybe because being hugged by her felt so good. A moment later, she said "I have to go, but please think about our discussion! I will come to see you again soon," And then she left. As she was leaving the room, I couldn't hold my tears anymore. I started to cry again. Mom, dad and Luis returned a few seconds later. Seeing me crying, mom rushed to me and hugged me. "What happened sweetheart?!" she said. I cried a bit more and then murmured, "I don't want to become a girl, what people will think? I don't want to ..." I couldn't finish that sentence. I looked at dad and Luis who felt really awkward at the moment and then looked back at mom. "Even dad and Luis think I am a freak." Then I broke down. Dad and Luis who heard my last sentence came closer. Dad put his large hand on my shoulder. "Lucas, I am angry at what happened to you. I am not angry with you. You are my child and I love you no matter what!" He smiled. Believe it or not, his way of putting those words made me feel better. Luis said, "Lucas, we don't think you are freak. I don't care if you are my brother or sister. We are siblings!" he said. But then he joked "I told you, I always wanted a little sister!" "I am not going to be your sister! I am your BROTHER!" I shouted at him. "Ok, Ok, it was a joke. A bad one I guess," he said. After his joke, there was a few minutes of silent. During these few minutes, Luis and I avoided each other's eyes. Then Luis snickered. I said, "What? What is it again?" "Nothing!" He paused a bit to reconsider his choice of words. "We just had our first brother and sister fight!" he said cautiously. I looked at him for a few seconds and I didn't know what to say. I wanted to kill him but I knew him. He would make fun of everything. So, I just started to laugh! After all, what he said was funny, out of context. Seeing me laughing, Luis also laughed. Mom and dad also laughed. Then mom said, "Luis, you have to watch what you say. Often, you hurt people's feeling!" "Me? ... Come on mom! I just made him laugh! I deserve a medal for that," he said and everybody laughed. The rest of the morning went smoothly. Dad was busy calling my uncle and following the law suits. Luis was making calls related to his job. Mom went to hotel to sleep. Cindy came to check on me a few times and asked if I needed anything. I needed to go to the toilet around noon. This was the first time I had to pee without a penis. I called Cindy and she helped me with that. It was one of the most embarrassing moments to pee without a penis for the first time. When I returned back, I couldn't hide my embarrassment from dad and Luis. That made them embarrassed too. Hopefully, Luis didn't make a silly joke about that. After lunch, we were interrupted by Lena and a group of people who identified themselves as secret service agents. "Hi, sorry for interruption, these gentleman have a very important matter to discuss with you. They are secret service agents," And the she looked at the two agents while pointing at my bed "Gentlemen, this is Lucas Murphy." The two highly build agents looked somewhat surprised. Perhaps they expected a woman. One of the agents who looked more senior stepped forward and said, "Hi Mr. Murphy, I am agent Lewis. Agent Cook and I are assigned by the agency to provide your security." "My security?" I asked surprised. "Well, it is just a precaution. Unfortunately, after the statement by Dr. Shwindt that went viral, the media became very curious in your case and eventually they found about ZIS virus. At this moment everyone know that Dr. Shwindt's patient has a key role in defeating the virus and that makes you an extremely valuable person. Hopefully, according to our intel, we managed to keep your identity unrevealed and we would like to keep it as such as long as possible," Agent Lewis said. "I would never want anybody to know that I am the mysterious patient of that crazy doctor. But, why would the government and the secret agency care so much?" "You don't understand Mr. Murphy. Unless an anti-virus or a cure is found, no woman could possibly become pregnant in a few years. In that case, many governments, terrorist groups, gangs, mafias and so on would want to have access to a such a treasure like you. They would kidnap you as soon as they get a chance. Even individuals who are obsessed with their bloodline might think of kidnapping you to save their bloodline," he added. 'Oh! no! He is right!' I thought. I repeated his words in my mind once more and then I saw how great the danger is. Technically, they can even rape me. I was terrified to the point that I couldn't say any words. "What should we do now?" my dad asked. "You must be his father?! [dad nodded] First of all, we leave the hospital tonight to a safe house," He said looking at my dad. "We create a cover for him [referring to me]. The easiest way is to enhance his transformation." I was still speechless! "What does that mean?" Luis asked. "Well, normally his body will produce hormones at a normal level. That eventually causes a number of changes on his body. His body will look more and more female through time. We can enhance the whole transformation with a secret recently developed drug. Under this drug, we expect that he will look totally female in about 3 weeks. And since nobody else know about this drug, everyone will be looking for a man and not a woman. If everything works well, we will then make a new identity for him and he can live under that identity. " Both dad and Luis looked at me. I was speechless, terrified, and so confused. "I don't want to become a girl!" I said shakenly. "I am afraid, Mr Murphy, this is the safest and fastest cover we could come up with. As the head of your security team, I strongly recommend this option." "Still, I don't like it," I said. "Like it or not, you will become a girl eventually. The drug will only enhance it. You must see if you prefer becoming a girl earlier or being kidnapped," he said. I was speechless again. The idea of being kidnapped and possible being raped was scaring me so much that I couldn't talk. "You don't need to decide yet. Our first step is leave hospital tonight." I remained speechless. "Does anybody else know about your condition?" he asked me directly. I was still speechless but he repeated his question. "Well, apart from mom, dad, Luis and my uncle, no one knows. My friends know that I am in hospital, but they don't know the whole story. I told them I had a normal surgery," I said. "Emmm, Nick also knows," Luis said. I looked at him surprised. 'How does he know? Oh God this is getting more and more embarrassing,' I thought. "Who is Nick?" Agent Lewis said. "He is a very close friend of mine," I replied. "Please, call him and ask him if he has told anyone. Please also ask him if he could come here as soon as possible." Luis called Nick and asked him if he told anyone. He hadn't, so we were relaxed a bit. Nick also said that he would visit us around 5pm. 'Oh, no! he is coming here!' I thought. I didn't want to see him. I didn't need any other embarrassing situation. "Ok! We need to arrange things for tonight. We will let you know when we have to leave. Meanwhile, rest peacefully," he said and then they left. "Did you tell Nick?" I asked Luis. "He was worried about you and he seemed to know already about the surgery. I thought he knows about your problem. So I told him! I am sorry if I shouldn't have," Luis replied. I didn't say anything else. I couldn't fix it, it was too late. A while later, dad and Luis went outside for a short period and I was alone. I remembered the whole conversation about the possibility of being kidnapped. I started to cry. Cindy came to check on me and saw me crying. She came and hugged me without even asking any question. After a few minutes of crying, I wiped my tears and she left. Around 3pm, mom came back and we briefed her about the shocking news. She was even more terrified than I was. It took the three of us one and a half hour to calm her down. It was half past 5 when Nick knocked the door. "Hey dude! How are you today. Finally, I am here and you are awake," he said. "Hi man! Yes I am awake. Have you just arrived?" I replied a little bit embarrassed. "No, I am already here for an hour! They explained me that your identity must remain unrevealed. Man! All channels talk about you, yet nobody knows who you are. The agents outside were very curious about what I told our friends and colleagues." "Well! What did you tell them?" "In the beginning, when you told me you have a surgery to remove something, I told them the same. They guessed Appendicitis. Today, I called Lisa and made sure that she believes that your appendix was removed during the surgery. Whatever Lisa knows, everyone knows," he said. "Ok," I kept my answers short. I wished he would leave as soon as possible. I didn't want to continue a conversation which most probably would lead to embarrassment. Nick felt my hesitance in having a conversation about my condition and thus he didn't push. Generally, he is quiet sharp in these kind of things. Instead he talked about other random stuff, soccer, volley, board games, politics, programming and ... . Around seven, he decided to leave. Before he left, he said, "Take care a lot buddy. I have missed hanging out with you already. Come back soon, dude." Chapter 8 --------------------- Around eight, agent Lewis rushed into my room and said. "We have to leave NOW... Your identity has been revealed... we don't have time. We leave now. Pack your stuff NOW!" "What? How?" I said surprised. He just left the room without any response. Mom and dad packed our stuff in hurry. I just watched them moving around packing stuff. That made me terrified. Cindy brought a wheelchair for me and helped me sit on it. I could walk, but probably too slow. A wheelchair would be way faster. A minute later, agent Lewis came back and said, "It is clear! We leave! let's go". And then he took hold of my wheelchair and pulled the wheelchair all the way. When we left the room, a few other agents were also in the corridor. They made sure that the path to the parking is clear and safe. It was a really stressful journey to the parking. The parking was located underground. Once in the parking, we (mom, dad, me, Agent Lewis and a couple of other agents) entered one of the black vans that were parked in a row. All black vans including ours left the hospital's parking immediately but after a few minutes, the four other vans took different routes. As I couldn't see the other vans, I felt less secure. "Are we all alone?" I asked nervously Lewis who was sitting beside me. "What if someone attack us now!?" "Don't worry, enough agents are following us undercover. Everything is under control," he said. After 10 minutes, we were on a highway and my stress subsided a little bit. I asked, "What happened? My identity has been revealed?" "Apparently someone from the media noticed that your father has sued Dr. Shwindt the day after the surgery and you had a surgery in the same hospital at the same day. It is not difficult to connect the dots." He paused and checked the window making sure everything is in order. "By now, almost the whole country know about you. Why didn't you tell me earlier! Of course, they can easily track you down if you sue him!" 'FUCK! Every day something adds to my misery!' I thought. 'What do I do now?'. I put my hands on my face. "I didn't think all this would happen! Sorry!" Dad said regretfully. "My life has ended! I will never be able to have a normal life again!" I said. I had a combination of feelings: I was worried about my future, I was terrified, I felt vulnerable and extremely embarrassed. "That is true, at least not as Lucas Murphy!" said Lewis. After a half an hour we arrived to a mansion with a huge yard protected with trees. The doors were guarded by gunmen. Since we left the wheelchair in the hospital, I had difficulties walking. I could walk slowly, but Lewis lifted me and carried me inside. Mom and dad followed us inside [The building was huge]. Then he took us upstairs and showed us my bedroom. "This is going to be your room for the next 10 days." He opened the door of the very large bedroom with a double bed. He put me on the bed. He walked to the other side of the corridor and opened another door. Then he looked at mom and dad and said "This is going to be your room for tonight. We will talk tomorrow, but I guess it's better that you leave to your city tomorrow. This way is better for Lucas's security." "Can we stay with him for a few days?" Mom asked pleadingly. "You could, but I don't think it's a good idea. We will talk tomorrow about that," He replied. That made me nervous and Mom a bit annoyed. I didn't want to be alone and She didn't want to leave me. "Am I going to be all alone here?" I asked nervously. "No, you will not be able. A nurse that you already know ['Cindy' I thought] from the hospital will be here and she will stay here for as long as it's necessary. Also, Dr. Anderson will visit you tomorrow and after that every few days," said Agent Lewis. He paused a few seconds and then said "One of my men will bring you some pajamas for tonight. Tomorrow someone will come to measure you for a few new outfits!" I nodded. A few minutes later, one of his men brought us clean pajamas. Agent Lewis left and Mom and dad went to their beds. I removed my hospital gown and looked for any boxers. They were none! Instead there was a pair of white plain panties. I took it in the air and thought 'Am I supposed to wear this?!' It was not very girly, but it was very soft and delicate... I wanted to go and find the man who brought them and ask him to bring me a pair of boxers but I decided against it. I didn't want to embarrass myself even more by making such a request. I decided that I will ask that from Cindy tomorrow. I was more comfortable with her and I knew she would understand. Reluctantly, I wore the panty [It was really soft on my skin] and the pajamas. Then I laid on my bed. After about a half an hour, I went to sleep. -------------------------------------------------------------------- I woke up with a sound of a car's engine. A few minutes later, I heard people approaching my room in the corridor. Then I heard a knock. Once given the permission, Cindy and Lena entered the room smiling. "How is my favorite patient. How was your first night outside the hospital?" said Lena. "Hi, very stressful," I replied. "Hi!" Cindy waved her hand. I had already guessed that nurse must be Cindy and so I was not surprised to see her. "Hi Cindy," I said. "Breakfast is ready," Mom yelled from the kitchen. "Yeeeey! Let's go downstairs then. Let me help you get up," Cindy said. She help me up and she helped me downstairs. I could walk better than yesterday. Once we reached to the kitchen I saw mom, dad and agent Lewis were talking. We joined them and ate breakfast together. After breakfast, I said, "Agent Lewis ...". "Ben," he corrected. "Huh!?!" I was confused. "You can call me Ben. And I will call you Emma from now on!!" he said. "Who is Emma?!" I said even more confused. "You are going to be Emma! That is your cover." My jaw dropped. 'What the hell!' I thought. I reviewed what I heard for a short time and then I said, "But I don't look like an Emma?" "You will look like more Emma than Lucas in a week or two!" he said. I was still confused. "How so?!" "Do you remember the drug about which we talked yesterday?!" he asked. "You will get an injection every day and after three weeks no one will be able to guess you were a boy!" "No! I will not get any injection! I never agreed to that!" I said clear and loud! "There is no other option!" he said in a very forceful voice. "I am going to be frank with you, Lucas. They will search for you non-stop. We don't even know how many groups are looking for you! If you keep hiding, sooner or later they will find you. The only way is that we make sure there is no Lucas to find. This is your best shot! You have to be Emma!" I was speechless. To be exact, his forceful lecture made me speechless. I was terrified. I didn't want to be any girl, but what I didn't want more was not to be kidnapped. 'What if they find me anyway?' I thought and that thought made me shivered. My lack of words made him continue: "Look, you will look female eventually even without the injections. Right Dr. Anderson?" He looked at Lena and she nodded in confirmation. "These injections will only enhance the process and help you hide better." I was scared. I felt enormously vulnerable. "They will find me anyways!" I said while trembling. "No, they will not [pause] if you play your part correctly," He said. "They look for a boy and not for a girl. According to them, there is no way anyone could change so drastically in such a short time." "There should be another way!" I said pleadingly. I knew I was going to agree at the end. I was so helpless in this discussion. I looked at dad and said, "Dad, you won't let them! right?!" "Son, I am afraid, agent Lewis is right. Your security is my first priority," he said and I felt even more alone. "But! You said you would support me!" I complained. He walked toward me and put his hand on my shoulder and said, "I am, Lucas. This is the only way and I think it's for your own good." "Mom?" I said looking at mom. She didn't reply but just nodded and that was enough for me to know that she was also supporting the plan. I held my head with both my hands and thought for almost a minute. I knew that I was not going to win the conversation and I didn't want to get kidnapped. Frustrated, I looked at Ben (agent Lewis) and said, "Ok, I will do it!" "Atta-girl" Ben said. I looked daggers at him and said "Don't make me regret it already!" He laughed and said, "Sorry. But you just agreed to be Emma," Before I could object he added "Everyone except you and Cindy will leave today. You and Cindy will be here for the next 10 days and then you will be moved to another house." "Me and Cindy alone? Aren't your men guarding the house?" I said a bit uncertain. "Of course, they stay. But remember, this place will draw more attention if it's overprotected. That is exactly why there will be no agents guarding you after 10 days." "You mean Cindy and I will be there alone without any agent?!" I said concerned. "No. Firstly, Cindy will not accompany you to your new house. You will be accompanied with your boyfriend. Secondly ... " he said. "What? Boyfriend? I don't have any ...[pause]... I see what you are doing! I am not playing your game!" I said loud and angry. "That is part of your cover ... no one suspect a happy couple," he said. "NO, NO! It is your plan to ..." I shouted. He interrupted me. "Yes, it is a plan. It is your cover ... You just need to ACT as if you are a couple. Think about it, they look for a guy named Lucas, and not for a girl named Emma who has a boyfriend." I thought a bit. "What do you mean by acting to be a couple?" I asked hesitantly. He replied, "You must look like a couple in public and you are free to be as you wish in private." I was trying to comprehend the whole scenario. It was too much to take in. I was confused. Confused is not the right word perhaps. I had a feeling that could not be described. I was scared. I was embarrassed. I was alone. I was forced to make decisions I didn't like and so on.... "Who is this guy? How can we trust him?" My dad said. It was a strange feeling to hear my dad say that. It was like he was trying to make sure his 'daughter' is in trustable hands. "I would say, he is quite trustable. He will be here soon." I was cornered. I couldn't decide for my life anymore. I was in a very difficult situation. Nobody cared about my opinion. They only cared about making sure that I am safe. Around ten minutes later someone notified Ben over phone that my supposedly future fake boyfriend arrived. My heart was beating fast. 'FUCK! This is nonsense! I am about to meet my boyfriend!' I thought. When he reached the door, I could see his shadow behind the entrance door. He seem tall and big. Cindy went and welcomed him inside. I immediately recognized him. I was surprised. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. He came inside and greeted everyone and then he approached me and said "Hi Lucas. How are you?" I was speechless. What could I say possibly. I was feeling embarrassed and I could not flee. I was going to become my best friend's girlfriend. "Welcome Nick, please take a seat. we have a lot of things to discuss!" said Ben. Chapter 9 ---------------------------- I wanted to just flee. But I knew that would not happen. I had to stay. When everyone sat, Ben said to Nick, "I briefed you over the phone. But now let me explain the details." Nick looked at me for around two seconds and then looked back at Ben. "I am listening." Ben explained the plan and the cover to Nick. He also explained what are the dangers. I was wordless during the whole conversation. Nick listened carefully and asked a few questions: -"When do we start?" - "In around six days from now. You have six days to arrange everything. On the tenth day, we leave to the new house." -"Where do we go?" - "The new house is still in the capital but if needed we may decide to move you to another city." -"What about my job!" - "You cannot keep your current job for sure. It is too risky. The government will compensate. You can start a new business or look for another job. There are many vacancies for a person with your expertise." -"How long does it take?" - "I cannot answer that question. It depends. At least a few months." -"Are you sure it's going to work!" - "if you play your part well and don't blow your cover, there is no way that it fails." At this point, Nick interrupted, "I am in!" It was very shocking to see how Nick was willing to risk his life and career for me. "But what about your job? You could get killed!" I said surprised. "Lucas, you knew how much I hated that job! I wanted to leave long ago! Was it not because of you, I had left that stupid job long ago! I always wanted to start my own business." "If he start his own business, we will help him. But not in the beginning. It is too risky," Ben said to me. He paused and then said, "You, Emma, can also work. But you job must not be related to your current profession! Remember, you are not Lucas anymore, you are Emma!" It looked like he was going to decide my whole life for me. I couldn't say anything again. I knew I would lose the argument. No one was on my side. "Why it has to be Nick? I don't want him risking his life and career!" I said. "Because we don't trust anyone! There are simply too many parties looked for you and each of them have their own spies in our system! They would know if one of our agents becomes your boyfriend," he said "Nick, on the other hand, is the safest trustable option." "Wait a second! If they have spies, they must already know about the plan," Nick said immediately. "Very few in the agency know about the original plan. No one in the agency knows where Lucas is now. The media and the hospital think Lucas was kidnapped." He paused and then looked at me and said "However, we knew this is not enough. So, we set up an accident together with shootings where Lucas will be supposedly killed. That will happen this afternoon. We hope that, by tonight, everyone will believe that you are dead! By everyone I mean everyone except the seven of us, two other trustable agents, the head of the agency and a few people in the presidential office." The news shocked everyone, including me. 'What the hell! No!' I thought. Ben looked at everyone. "That is why, everyone will call her Emma from now on! A simple mistake might blow up her cover!" I thought 'What did he say? Her? Emma?' Everybody except me nodded. They were comprehending the news for a few seconds and the room was bizarrely silent. It was too much. I couldn't take it anymore. Why everybody let Ben decide for me. I had to make myself heard. Suddenly, I stood and yelled "NO! You cannot just kill me! I don't allow that! This is not happening! And this is final! And I will not have a boyfriend! Not Nick! Not anyone else!" And then I stormed out to my room. Cindy came to help me with the stairs but I pushed her back. I wanted to be alone. As I struggled to get to my room, I heard Nick saying, "I go talk to him ... er ... her!" When I reached my room, I closed the door and then sat on my bed. "I will not let them do that to me! I will not let them do that to me!" I said to myself. A few seconds later, I heard a knock. I didn't reply. I knew it's Nick. I heard the knock again "Lucas, can we talk?" he said. "Go away!" I replied. But he didn't. Instead he opened the door (it was not locked) and came inside. I was sitting on the edge of my bed while holding my head. "Hey buddy!" He came and sat beside me. I couldn't talk anymore again. I was on the verge of crying. I tried as hard as possible not to cry in front of Nick. But it was like an impossible task. It was so difficult. I had never had problems in controlling my emotions. But in those days, it was a really difficult thing and I almost never succeeded to control my emotions. Seeing me sitting there speechless, nick said, "Lucas, I know it sucks but considering the situation, it's your best chance! And I am willing to help." I knew he was right. I didn't have many options and I knew it can be my best chance. But, yet I didn't like it. I can say, I hated it. I thought about how fucked up the situation was and that I had no other option. At least I couldn't find an alternative. I was so hopeless and the situation was so messy. I couldn't hold it anymore. I started to cry. Nick didn't know what to do! He never saw me crying. He was very confused and I could feel that. Yet, I didn't have any control to stop crying. After almost a minute he moved a bit closer and grabbed my arm on the opposite side with his large hand. Then he pulled me more to his side. It was a nice feeling but it felt also very wrong. If I wasn't crying like crazy at the moment, I would have freed myself from him. But at that moment, I didn't have any power. I was too helpless and emotionally crushed. After about five to ten minutes of crying, I was a bit more emotionally stable. I could see how awkward the situation was and thus I immediately freed myself from him. My sudden reaction made both of us embarrassed. Neither of us dared to say anything for a minute or so. Then Nick said "Do you remember when Susan died?" Susan was his twin sister. She died about a year and half earlier in a car accident. I simply nodded. I was not yet confident to talk. I was afraid that if I talk, I would start to cry again. He said, "If you were not there for me, I could have killed myself. I was drunk almost every night!" I did remember those days. He was extremely depressed. He added, "Now, it's my turn to be with you when you need me the most!" "But this is different! You could get killed! Besides I don't want to be a girl or a girlfriend. Is that so difficult to understand?" I said. "I am sorry to say this Lucas, but you will be a girl no matter what!" he said cautiously. He was right. I looked at the floor and murmured, "Yeah! I Know! My life has ended!". "No, it hasn't! Unless you kill yourself. Do you want to kill yourself?" he asked forcefully. He paused and then said "Do you remember what you told me when I was depressed? You said: 'No matter what is the circumstance, killing yourself is the most stupid idea!'". "I am not going to kill myself" I objected. "Good. Then you will act as Emma and will play your part. Because otherwise, you get either kidnapped or killed," he said forcefully. I said nothing. I just looked down and remained silent. "Will you be Emma?" he asked. "But ..." I wanted to protest. Before I could finish, Nick interrupted me, "No buts! Come on. It's just an act. [pause] So, tell me: will you be Emma?" I didn't know what should I do. I was cornered again. Seeing no way out of that, I reluctantly nodded. "Good, let's go downstairs and tell the others that you will play your part!" he said standing up. I followed him. Once we were downstairs, he shared the news: "She will be Emma!" he said loud. 'She! Even Nick is using female pronouns now!' I thought. I wanted to complain but I didn't. After all, I agreed to be Emma and I didn't have the right to complain anymore. I just looked down. Mom came and hugged me hard. "I know it is difficult sweetheart! But it's for the best! I wish there were other ways!" she said. And the she whispered in my ear "I am sure you will be beautiful," I looked daggers at her but she didn't pay attention. Lena and Cindy also came and hugged me and said, "You are very brave, Emma." At the same time, Mom went to Nick and hugged him as well and said to him "Thank you!". "I would do that for him ... er ... her anytime!" he said. He paused and then smiled and joked "Besides, I get a free girlfriend!" Hearing that I immediately looked daggers at him and went to hit him. He responded quickly, "Wo! Wo! Wo! I was joking! Bad joke!" I stopped and said in a threatening voice, "Don't make those kind of jokes again!" Afterwards I regretted my reaction. I didn't want to admit at that time but I reacted like a girl! Ben interrupted the awkward situation and said "I don't want to ruin the emotional moment but let's get to the plan. We don't have time!" Then he looked at mom and dad and said "Mr. and Mrs. Murphy, you must leave before noon! People might wonder where you are! Besides, you have a funeral tomorrow and you must get prepared!" "Can we see her again?" Mom asked worried. "I am afraid not, it is too risky. You cannot have contact with her for at least a few months. It is too dangerous," Ben replied. Mom suddenly became very sad and emotional. She looked at me and then came and hugged me really hard. She cried as we hugged and that made me cry too! 'FUCK! Not again! Why can't I control these fucking tears!' I thought. While mom and I had an emotional moment, Ben looked at Nick and said, "You will also leave today and arrange your stuff. You have to quit your job! You can do it the day after tomorrow! You also need to attend the funeral. After that, in order to make things more natural you need to contact the owner of the house and rent it yourself. I hope things works out well with the owner otherwise I have to find a new safe neighborhood. Six days from now, you come here and stay with Cindy and Emma to practice being a couple. On the tenth day, you and Emma move to the new house." The next hour went smoothly as Ben explained us the details and what each of us should do in case something didn't go as planned. After that ben suggested that mom, dad and Nick should leave. We greeted them to the entrance door. Mom hugged me again. She didn't say anything. Possibly she was afraid she would cry again. And then dad hugged me. "Be careful. I love you no matter what! You know that!" and then he went to Nick and said, "Thanks Nick. Look after him ... er ... her". And then they left. Nick and Ben left a few minutes later with a different car. With mom, dad, Ben and Nick leaving, I went to my room and Lena and Cindy sat in the living room. They understood my feelings and let me be alone for a while. In my room, I cried a bit again. After a half an hour when all emotions subsided, Lena came to my room. "Can I enter?" she asked. "Yes! Come in!" I replied. "I have to leave soon. I explained to Cindy when and how often you need an injection." 'Oh Yes! Injections! I forgot about those!' I thought! "Are they safe?" I asked curiously. I didn't know if I should really care! So many bad things happened so far, I really didn't care anymore. "It is safe! But there are some side effects!" Lena replied. "What side effects!" I asked. "You will feel tired and moody! Generally, you will have all symptoms of hormonal imbalance! Which are temporary! But there is one permanent side effect!" she said. "What is that?" I asked more alert. "Well, in a normal hormone therapy, patients loses between half an inch and one inch of height. In this approach, you can lose up to two inches," she said. "But I don't think you should worry a lot about that. You are already tall." I said nothing. I was really tired of struggling in vain. I knew I would lose. "I do the first injection," she said as she was opening her medical case. "Cindy will inject the rest." A quarter after the injection, I was feeling really tired. I fell asleep. Chapter 10 ------------------------ I woke up around 3pm. I was feeling very hungry. I went downstairs and found Cindy in front of the TV watching news. "Hello sleepy head! Come and see, the whole world is talking about your disappearance!" she said. "Really?" I joined her watching the news. "There are many rumors. One claims that you were kidnapped by a Mexican drug dealer," she said. "WOW! What else?!" I asked. "So many reporters are in front of your parent's house! They also showed the footage when your parents went inside! There was a huge crowd in front of your parent's house," she said. "Poor mom and dad!" I said sighing! She suddenly pointed towards the TV. "Look, they are showing your house again!" We both watched the TV carefully. There was a blonde female reporter reporting, "... There is a huge crowd in front of Lucas Murphy's house. People are worried about the fate of Lucas. There are several rumors concerning the whereabouts of Lucas. The governor, the FBI boss and the mayor just visited his parents. We were told that the governor and his father are going to make a joint statement in fifteen minutes. We'll get to you soon. Barbara Jones, NCBC." "WOW! This is getting really serious!" I said. The more serious the situation got, the more terrified I became. "Yes! You are famous like crazy!" she exclaimed. "Do we have anything to eat! I am starving!" "Carl brought two sandwiches for us! I ate mine, yours should be in the fridge" she said. "Who is Carl?" I said as I walked to the kitchen. "The only agent outside!" She replied shouting when I was opening the fridge. "What?" I asked surprised. I left the fridge's door open and returned back to the main hall. "There is only one agent?" "Yes!" she replied simply. "But! What if someone attack us?" I almost yelled. "Agent Lewis knows what he is doing. Don't worry," She looked back at me. "You left the door of the fridge open." I became really anxious. I went back to the kitchen and took my sandwich. I closed the fridge's door and sat beside the window and ate my sandwich as I was watching outside nervously. A few minutes later, she yelled, "Emma, come here." I came to watch the TV. The governor was standing in front of the reporters and was ready to make an statement. "Where is dad?" I asked. "I don't know!" she said. The governor looked serious and sad at the same time. He stated, "I am here to announce one of saddest news I have ever delivered during my whole career. Sadly, we have been informed that Lucas Murphy got shot during shootings between the kidnappers and another group who also wanted to kidnap him. The police involvement also couldn't prevent the tragedy and Lucas died while being carried to the hospital. I express my sincere sympathy to his family and all good citizens of our state. I wish to ask the media and the people to respect the privacy of this grieving family." "I am officially dead!" I said frozen. "You are not! Lucas is! You are going to live!" she said. "At least now everyone who were after Lucas will believe Lucas is dead," I didn't like her talking about Lucas as a third person. But I didn't object as I had agreed to be Emma. "What if they don't believe it!?" I asked terrified. "What if they don't?! they are looking for a boy and not for a girl!" she said confidently. "Look at me! I look like a freak! A boy with a .... " I said but didn't say the word 'pussy'! I didn't want to embarrass myself even further. "You will look like a girl in a few days. Don't worry honey," she said. Suddenly I was thinking that looking more like a girl is actually a good thing. 'What the hell am I thinking!' I yelled at myself in my mind. The rest of the afternoon past with us sitting in front of the TV watching different channels. The news in all channels were covering the details of my death! After dinner, Cindy took me to my bedroom where she had left a number of new clothes. There were certainly more feminine than my old clothes. she said while pointing at the laid clothes. "As of tomorrow, you have to wear these cloths." "But, they are girls clothes," I protested. "Honey, you are a girl," she said. "You are Emma." Indeed, I had agreed to be Emma and play the part. I had promised Nick and Ben. "But we are inside now, why should I wear these?" I asked. "Because first- you need to be Emma all the time - that will help you get used to it and protect your cover - and second if someone visited us at random, we want them to meet a girl and not a tomboy." I couldn't say anything. I browsed around the pieces of clothing that were left there. There were a number of panties and thongs: one lacy white panty, one yellow panty with purple lace around the edges, one pink thong. One cap sleeve crop top with floral print, one black top with colored dots. Two pants: one slim jean and one free-size white pant. "Now take your pajama off and try them out. Let's see if they fit." I hesitated a bit. Seeing my hesitation, she said, "What is the matter Emma? [pause] Aha ... don't be shy, honey ... no one is around; we are both girls." I reluctantly took my pajama off and stand there wearing only a white panty. I tried to hide my embarrassment. Despite my embarrassment, Cindy seemed to care none about me being naked. "Impressive. You have a relatively hairless body for a former boy," she said "But you still need to shave!" She dragged me to the bathroom and instructed me to shave all my body hair, everything below eyebrows. Firstly I protested, but she argued that I will lose the hair anyway. It took me an hour to shave everywhere. Then I showered and it felt so nice: the feeling of the water sliding over my skin was so nice. Once completely dried, Cindy gave me the yellow panty and the slim jean and I wore them. It fitted my body perfectly. She then handed me the top with floral print. I put that on as well. It looked also fine. It fitted okay except around my chest area where it seemed a little bit baggy. She then combed my hair and styled it. Finally, she asked me to turn around and studied me. "You look beautiful Emma" she said with a big smile. She dragged me in front of a mirror where I could see myself. "WOW!" I said not believing what I was seeing. "Yes! Wow!" she said. I could see myself, but way more feminine. I could see that the jeans I was wearing hugged my flat groin tightly. It was obvious that this body doesn't include a penis. The top was almost sleeveless and my hairless delicate arms and hands where completely naked. "I look like a girl," I said astonished. "You are a girl honey!" she said smiling and satisfied. "A little makeup and no one will know you were once a boy!" I panicked. I was not ready for that yet. "Don't panic Emma. That is not for tonight!" she said. Then she asked me to try the other outfit. They also looked good. While I was changing, she said "You know ... He is really handsome!" "Who?" I asked not knowing about whom she is talking. "Nick!" she said giggling. "Your boyfriend!" 'Is she trying to have a girl-talk with me?' I thought. "I don't have a boyfriend Cindy! This is just a show! And you know it! So stop it!" I said teasing. "If you like him so much. You can have him." She ignored my comment and said "Now take off your cloths again, you cannot sleep with them," Then she went to the drawer and picked a small piece of clothing and gave it to me. It was a very soft. I hold it in front of me. It was a nightie made of lace and silk in champagne color. "I am not wearing this!" I protested hard. "Why not honey?!" she asked. "It's super girly!" I said. "It's not super girly. It's just a girl nightwear. Emma is supposed to be a girl and you are Emma," she said. And then she pointed to my pajama on the floor. "I am not going to let you wear that again." I looked at the pajama and I said nothing. "Unlike that pajama, this is much more comfortable," she continued. "Just give it a try. But if you don't like it, you can sleep naked." 'What the fuck! My life is already ruined. What could possibly get worse?' I thought. I reluctantly took my clothes off and wore the nightie. I murmured, "Whatever!" I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth. "This is my girl," she said cheering. When I was inside, I saw my reflection in the mirror and there was a girl in a sexy nightwear. 'What the hell! Is that me?!' I thought. I was shocked for a moment. A few seconds later, I decided to ignore the reflection. I brushed my teeth and went back to my room. Cindy had packed everything and was about to leave to her room. She came close, kissed me on the cheek and said, "Sleep well honey!" and then she left.