Kashmir
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It was cold as fuck.
Pewter gray clouds scudded in from the west, moving low and fast as I stood in line for the bus at the Greyhound terminal in Des Moines, Iowa. Dawn bloomed as a small ball of muted yellow, cowering underneath the stratus. I huddled inside my winter coat, the hood shielding my head, my hands pulled up inside the sleeves, trying to keep to a minimum my exposure to the chilly morning air.
My belongings were in the backpack next to me.
I was twenty years old.
The bus driver motioned me forward. As he took my ticket I looked back along the line of seats, scanning for a large unused space at the back of the bus where I could put down my pack, kick back and stretch out.
The bus driver returned my ticket to me and gestured half-heartedly to the back of the bus. I wrestled my backpack awkwardly down the center aisle of the bus, looking for a place large enough for me and my stuff. All I wanted to do was throw my pack onto a seat and lean my head against the window and let the vibration of the glass against my head numb me into an uneasy sleep until I arrived in Minneapolis.
I walked the length of the bus. No empty rows of chairs. Everyone had taken the window seat in their own row. Someone had laid out on the very back bus seat and appeared to be sleeping. In order to sit down I was going to have to take a seat next to someone.
Fuck.
A kid bobbing his head to the beat on his Walkman sat in the seat in front of the sleeping figure. I resigned myself to sitting next to him.
“You wanted to sit back here, didn’t you?”
I turned and looked down at the person who had laid down in the back seat. A young woman met my gaze. She appeared lost in the thick oversized hoodie she wore. The hood covered half her face.
“I did the same thing,” she told me. “I wanted the back of the bus all to myself. But someone else was here, some old guy. So I had to sit in the seat up front, next to that kid listening to Zeppelin on his Walkman, until the old guy got off the bus. When he did I took the back of the bus over. I didn’t want to take any more chances. I’m sorry. It was rude of me.”
I didn’t know what else to add. “It’s okay,” I said. I flung my pack onto the racks above and prepared to sit.
“You can sit here,” she said. “Next to me. If you want. I mean, it’s a free country.” She looked down and away, toward the cheap ripped plastic of the upholstery.
I’d made her feel awkward. Now I had to decide between acting on my guilt and sitting next to her, and my desire to sit by myself and turn off my brain for the next four to five hours.
Guilt won.
I sat down next to her. She kept her gaze averted from me, and I assumed she still felt awkward about our initial encounter.
“I don’t mind,” I told her. “I wouldn’t mind somebody to talk to either. It’s gonna be a long trip.”
She turned toward me, smiling brightly. “Yay! I love to talk!”
I didn’t love to talk.
I couldn’t figure out if she was conventionally attractive or not. Her body was fully camouflaged by her gigantic hoodie and a long, loose, colorful skirt. Her wide, over-eager eyes took up all the focus when I looked at her face, locking onto my sporadic eye contact like a tractor beam. Her nose looked red and raw, as if she was recovering from a cold. Her full lips were pocked with ragged skin, chapped and peeling.
I tried to picture here dressed nicely, with makeup, and minus the redness and chapping.
I really didn’t want to spend the day talking to her if she was unattractive.
I was twenty years old.
I sat down next to her.
She said, “I gotta admit, I saw you walk onto the bus and hoped you’d come back here. I’m glad you did.”
I shrugged off the compliment, not wanting to get overly involved.
“I was just looking for a place to sit,” I told her.
“So sit,” she said. I realized I’d offended her again. I hated when women were angry with me.
“Where are you going?” I asked her. I tried to sound friendly. Friendlier, anyway.
“Minnesota.”
“Well, yeah, but where in Minnesota?”
“Owatona.” The observation that she was only giving me one word answers was not lost on me. “You?”
At least it was a question. I told her, “I’m going to Minneapolis. I have a friend there. Gonna live on their couch for awhile.” It was a true statement, strictly speaking, but it left out most of the important details. The gender of the friend remained conveniently hidden.
“Are you moving there?”
“I dunno. Yeah. Maybe.” I didn’t know what I was going to do.
“Well, it’s a nice city. Lotsa good music.”
The conversation lapsed. A few more people entered the bus and took their seats, none of them near us. The driver closed the folding front doors, started up with a wheeze of diesel, and shifted into gear. The bus lurched out of its bay in the Greyhound terminal and onto the slushy surface streets of Des Moines, Iowa. Within five minutes we’d merged onto Interstate 35, headed north.
Minneapolis was six hours away.
We were out of downtown Des Moines within minutes. The suburbs disappeared behind us within a half an hour, and rolling, snow-covered hills stretched to the horizon in every direction. I’d grown up in that landscape, and had always found it repetitive and dull, the monotonous conformity of the scenery a perfect match for the people who chose to live there.
Or so I thought. I was twenty years old.
“My uncle lives in Owatona,” she said. “He got me a job at Dunkin Donuts. I’ll have to pay him a little rent, but not much. It’s a small town. I can save money, stay out of trouble this time, figure out what I want to do next.”
My interest perked up a little. “You were in trouble?”
She laughed, loudly enough for others to turn around.
“Oops, sorry.” She laughed again anyway. “Yeah, I was in a little trouble.” She paused, waiting for me to ask what kind of trouble.
“What kind of trouble?” I had nothing else to do.
“Whaddaya got?” she said, laughing again. “Sorry. Again. That’s from an old movie. I dunno what happened. It doesn’t matter, you don’t care.”
I didn’t want her to think that. “Try me,” I said.
“Okay. I saw a dead guy.”
“You saw a dead guy.”
“Yep. I saw a dead guy.”
“Did you kill him?”
“No.” She laughed again. I was beginning to recognize she laughed a lot. “The guy next door got shot. By his girlfriend or his wife or somebody. We were partying in my apartment, next door.”
“We?”
“Me and Dolph and Joanie and Tim. Dolph’s my boyfriend. WAS my boyfriend. Joanie and Tim are just friends. And we were partying, like I said. Nothing hardcore: just booze and weed. And we heard a gunshot.”
“What did it sound like?”
“What do you think? It sounded like a gunshot.” Another laugh. “We all look at each other. And we’re buzzed enough to think that going over there to check it out is a good idea. So we do.”
“That doesn’t sound smart.”
“We walk over there, Dolph pounds on the door, pretty hard, because there’s music and TV playing loud in there. The door swings open. Just like in a horror movie. We walk in. The whole place reeks of booze. Weed too, but mostly booze—I find out later it’s because there’s a broken bottle of Crown Royal on the floor of the bathroom. I mean, like, why bring liquor into a bathroom?”
“It doesn’t sound like they were thinking too clearly.”
“It gets worse. WAY worse. First, Dolph stops and says, ‘I smell gunpowder.’ Dolph wasn’t exactly a smart guy, but he knew guns. I knew what we’d find the second he said that, and I was right. We turned the corner into the living room and there’s the dead guy, face down in a puddle of blood. Dolph goes over there right away, he’s a hunter, he’s the most comfortable with this kinda stuff. He takes the dead guy’s pulse, looks at me and shrugs his shoulders. Joanie and Tim go over. I just watch them standing over the body, talking. And after the shock wears off everything just seems so normal. Someone lights up a cigarette. They start talking about football. Fucking football. And I realize how quickly all this became ordinary. Weed and booze. Blood and glass. Guns and murder. And I hear the TV and the radio from the other side of the wall and I want to scream at those assholes to turn it down, and realize it’s my own apartment. My radio, my TV making all that noise. I’m the asshole I wanna yell at.”
“That sounds rough.” My sympathies beginning to kick in, against my will.
“Eventually someone calls 911, we go back to my place. Same smell of weed and booze in there—we open a window to air the place out before the cops show up. They show up, ask their questions, they smell the weed, they don’t care. We state partying again as soon as they leave. And about one in the morning Dolph gets up off the couch, and he stops, like, trying to regain his balance, he’s really fucking drunk. He stands there, absolutely still, like a telephone pole, for what seems like forever.
“He leans back, he leans forward, like he’s being blown by some invisible wind. Then he falls straight forward. His head slams hard right into the TV. Bone against glass, POW! And it’s loud! The screen cracks. It’s not one of those thin screen things, this was a big-ass cathode tube TV.
“I’m too scared to move. Another dead guy. After a really long pause, Tim checks Dolph’s pulse. Tim shrugs his shoulders just like Dolph did, back in the other room. And it’s like the same moment all over again. TV and music on at the same time, playing loud, the smell of weed and booze everywhere. And some guy who might be dead on the floor.
“I just got up and walked out. Fuck it. Didn’t even wait to see if he was okay. I got a text later that he was fine. By then I’d already taken all my money outta the bank and bought my bus ticket.
“If I hadn’t seen the dead guy I wouldn’t be here now.”
Pause.
“Dolph?” I asked.
“What?”
“His name was Dolph? Your boyfriend? Weird name is all.”
“Tell me about it. No, his real name was Ted, but he hated it. He looked a little like an actor we saw in a movie once. Dolph Lungren. You’ve probably never heard of him.”
“Sure I have. I Come in Peace!”
Together, and with surprising precision, we said, “And you go in pieces!” We both started laughing. The laugh felt genuine, and refreshing.
Our laughter ebbed.
“He sounds like a dick,” I offered.
“He was kind of a dick,” she admitted.
The silence that followed deepened into introspection. Empty white fields slid past us at fifty-five miles an hour, broken stalks breaking through the snow like the buildings of a ruined city. Nothing loomed on the horizon except a farmhouse and three grain silos, clustered together, as if huddling together from the cold. I leaned my forehead against the ice-frosted glass of the window.
The kid in front of us opened his Walkman, flipped the cassette to side two, closed it, and hit ‘play.’ The opening notes of Led Zeppelin’s “Houses of the Holy” sounded through his tinny earphones.
“So why are you on this bus?” she asked me.
I kept my eyes trained on the landscape outside. “I thought I told you. Gonna stay on someone’s couch for awhile.” I didn’t think the situation required any more explanation.
“That’s one of those answers that’s really just a bunch more questions, pretending to be an answer.”
“Huh?”
“You’re gonna stay on someone’s couch, right?”
I nodded, without turning around. I didn’t want to talk. I felt a headache beginning to creep up on me.
“Whose couch? For how long? Why? What’s wrong with your couch?”
I might have answered the first question or two. All those questions posed at once left me weary and overwhelmed. I didn’t respond, or even react much.
“Your kind of a dead guy yourself, huh?”
I didn’t expect that. “Whaddaya mean?”
“You don’t say much. You don’t do much. You don’t even seem to listen.”
“I listen.” I did listen.
“Prove it. What did I say?”
“Your boyfriend’s name is Dolph. Someone got shot in the apartment next to you. You and Dolph went inside and found a dead guy.”
“Mostly. Actually what I was thinking was that we were all dead already. A room full of dead people. But, close enough.”
Whew. Dodged a bullet.
“So, again. Why are you going to Minneapolis?”
She wasn’t going to give up, and Minneapolis was still five hours away.
I lifted my forehead from the glass. “Okay. Okay.”
“Yay!” Her tone was light, but she studied my face intently as she said it.
“That thing you said about everything seeming normal?” I began.
“Yes?”
“Well, it’s kinda like that.”
Silence. I wasn’t sure any more explanation was necessary. I felt a heaviness invade my limbs. I felt very tired. Tears welled up from someplace inside me, though I had no idea why.
She noticed. She touched my arm.
I didn’t feel like talking. Or at least I didn’t think I felt like talking. Because, when she reached out and touched my arm, the words came pouring out. “I live with my parents. I work at the Hy Vee. When my shift is over I come home to my parents, to the same place I’ve lived for twenty years. The Hy Vee is the place I used to go get candy from when I was a little kid. Everything is the same as everything else. One day blends into the next. Nothing changes.”
She put her hand on my knee. “You are changing. You’re on this bus, right now. You’re leaving where you were. You’re moving to Minneapolis, right?”
“I’m gonna stay on a friend’s couch. Not the same thing.”
“Who’s the friend?”
“It’s a long story.”
“We have the time. And you have a captive audience.”
It was a long story, but I wasn’t going to tell it to her. “Old girlfriend.”
“Well that sound’s like it could be comforting.”
It wasn’t an old girlfriend. It was one of my friends from high school. Not even that good of a friend. Just someone I knew from back in the day. I knew his couch was free, I knew he’d be willing to let me stay as long as I wanted. Nothing too bad, nothing too good. Just another day. Normal. It would all seem normal.
Just two dead guys, hanging out together.
Other things that seemed normal in the past few weeks: Going to work drunk. Losing my job. Getting kicked out of my parent’s house. Going to a friend’s house and getting kicked out of there too. Sleeping by the river. Waking up cold and wet, shivering and covered with chigger bites. Bumming change for food. Stealing the money for bus fare from my Mom’s purse.
I’m not sure why I told her I was visiting an old girlfriend.
I was twenty years old.
She pressed against me without pretense, leaning in to kiss me. I felt her lips pressed against mine. My mind fed me an unbidden image of her lips when I’d first met her, chapped and unappealing. I thought about that image during the kiss. I wish I’d felt more. I wish I felt anything. Mostly what I felt was, what do I do now? How do I get out of this?
“Why did you kiss me?” I asked her, when she’d broken the kiss.
“You looked sad.”
“I’m not sad,” I told her. I wasn’t sad. Not exactly.
“Did you enjoy it?”
I didn’t know. I didn’t know how to explain to her that I didn’t feel much of anything. Everything felt like everything else; it was difficult to tell the difference. Things blended together until it was all the same.
I marveled at her ability to put it all out there: talk to some stranger out of the blue, offer a seat, tell him some extremely personal details about your life, then kiss him, like an hour into talking to them. And then ask if they enjoyed it.
Part of me pitied her for the ease with which she opened up.
Most of me was envious.
How did she do that?
“Don’t be a dead guy,” she told me. “You’re so cut off. But you don’t need to be. You’re not a dead guy. Don’t act like it. Please?”
It was her “please” that stirred me. I did not expect it to. The air in the bus was cold, and there must have been six layers of clothes between her skin and mine. I felt numb to the world.
And yet: my cock stirred. Not much. My genitals were shrunken and shriveled, a reaction to the temperature and my own tangled thoughts. But that gentle, earnest “please” reached back to someplace inside me I’d considered unreachable. The head of my cock began to tingle with a familiar energy, my balls began to loosen and drop.
My body knew things about me that I did not.
I was not a dead guy.
I told her so by sliding my palm behind her neck and pulling her toward me. The lips I’d seen before as chapped and rubbery now appeared full and soft and flushed with desire.
I closed my eyes to my surroundings: the cheap ripped Naugahyde seats, the cold glass of the window, the empty, frigid landscape sliding past outside.
I kissed her.
Nearly all of the other non-familial kisses in my life had been straightforward—the fumblings in the back seats of cars and my own boyhood bedroom, the tussle on couches in darkened family rooms, the end-of-date ‘I had a nice time’ leans forward. Simple motivations, concrete goals.
This felt different. As I surrendered to my feelings and my tongue entered her warm invitation of her mouth, I felt like I was leaping into the unknown, at the request of some newly-found, poorly understood faith.
I slid my hands inside the folds of her thick hoodie and was rewarded with her generous curves and warm skin pressing against my palms. I moved my hands up her body, her skin radiating heat and desire. As my fingers discovered her breasts, I felt her torso twist in pleasure, a bird-like cry escaping from her throat and into the warm comforting cave of my mouth.
She wore no bra. I brought my thumb and forefinger up to her nipples and began to roll them softly between my fingertips. She moaned, and disengage from the kiss, bringing her lips to my ear.
“Oh God yes, I love that,” she whispered, biting the lobe of my ear.
My cock sprung instantly erect. Just as that first kiss from her had awakened embers I didn’t know were smoldering, her teeth on my ear caused flames to leap from the same banked fire.
Her hand slid up the leg of my jeans, she cupped and fondled my painfully stiff erection.
“Ooh, I love to feel you get hard,” she whispered. “It’s so hot.”
I opened my eyes, surveying the seats around us. “We can’t do this. There’s someone sitting right in front of us. They’ll hear.”
She laughed. “He’s got headphones on. It’s so loud you can hear it from here.” I paused, looked to the Walkman in his lap, the opening three-note strings-and-guitar salvo of Zeppelin’s “Kashmir” leaking full-blast from the earbuds—duh duh dunt, duh duh dunt—as he nodded his head enthusiastically to the beat. He wasn’t going to hear anything.
Her tongue explored my ear. I pulled on her nipples; she gripped my cock and squeezed and a rush of blood tumbled through my weary veins. It was my turn to squirm and moan. I reached my fingertips out to contain more of her heat, massaging her breasts as she unzipped my pants and took my hardness in her hand.
“I need to suck your big hot cock,” she exhaled.
Her words struck me like a hot poker against my skin; I’d never heard a woman talk like that before. So free, so unfettered, a bird with outstretched wings, a fish leaping from ice-choked waters.
How did she do that?
How could I learn?
She fell to her knees, hiding behind the seat in front of us, and took me in her mouth.
I closed my eyes and leaned back into the complaining spring coils of the seat cushion.
Her tongue fluttered against the underside of my cock, where my nerves were bunched and crowded and firing wildly in response. I accepted that my body knew things I did not, and let my body take over. Her hand snaked down to the hem of her voluminous skirt, and disappeared behind the fabric as she bit her lip and sighed. The scent of her pussy filled the cold air around me.
She took the head of my cock fully into her mouth. All I felt was her tongue and lips on my skin, all I heard was the tinny sound of Zeppelin through the earphones of the kid who sat in front of us, oblivious. Duh duh dunt, duh duh dunt, went the rising beat, and I swear I could feel my heart pound in rhythm with the song, my pulse speeding to keep up.
She played with my balls as she took me deeper into the silky insides of her mouth. Duh duh dunt, duh duh dunt. I felt my cock pushing at her throat. Duh duh dunt, duh duh dunt. My balls began to feel heavy, sparks rose from somewhere deep inside me; I knew I wouldn’t last much longer. Duh duh dunt, duh, duh dunt.
As if reading my mind, she pulled back, my hard length reappearing from the warm paradise of her mouth. She took me in her fist and squeezed hard. I moaned loudly enough for others on the bus to hear me. Even the kid in front of us listening to Led Zeppelin half turned toward us.
She smiled. “It’s been awhile, hasn’t it?” She let her tongue loll, teasing me. “You’re so close,” she whispered. She leaned inches away from my now throbbing hardness. I could feel her breath on every tingling nerve as she cooed, “I want to taste your cum on my lips,” and suddenly I was ready to explode, her words like a riding crop. I thrust my cock back between her lips and pushed hard.
Duh duh dunt, duh duh dunt.
She took me all in, she didn’t choke, didn’t falter, she just opened wider, her lips engulfing me.
Duh duh dunt, duh duh dunt.
Her whole mouth seemed to squeeze against me tightly, milking me, pulling at me.
Duh duh dunt, duh duh dunt.
I felt a my cock jerk and quiver, warmth spread from my balls outward and suddenly I was cumming, cumming hard, hot jets of my stuff leaping down her throat as she continued to suck and squeeze, her eyes bright, her face flushed and eager.
I emptied myself into her mouth, four or five or six endless and uncontrolled spasms, before my rapture subsided, leaving me exhausted, my chest heaving. I sank back into the springs of the seat.
I opened my eyes.
She still kneeled on the floor, head between my knees, a wicked grin painting her face, a trickle of cum leading from her lower lip. Her entire body shivered, soundlessly, as she joined me in orgasm, eyes open, mouth agog. Her hand reappeared from beneath her skirt. She pulled herself of the floor and sat again next to me, her grin morphing into a satisfied smile.
“Mmm, that was nice,” she said.
I responded with sounds that didn’t really resemble words.
“Kiss me,” she commanded, leaning into my face to do so.
Ew.
I recoiled.
She stopped her movement toward me, looking confused.
“What’s wrong?” she asked me.
“Cum. There’s cum in your mouth.”
“So?”
“So?” I repeated, stating what seemed obvious to me. “Ew. It’s cum. My cum. I don’t wanna taste my own cum.”
“Why not?”
I struggled to explain what bothered me. “It’s gross. It’s wrong. It’s like, gay.”
She looked offended by my explanation.
I said, “I don’t know. It’s just…ew.”
“It wasn’t so ‘ew’ when I was sucking your cock.” She sounded offended. I didn’t know why. “It wasn’t wrong when you were cumming in my mouth.”
I just looked at her. It was cum. My own cum. Of course I didn’t want to taste it. My memory flashed back to taunting in locker rooms, and the casual, everyday cruelties boys inflict on each other. They taught me to be ashamed of my own body, be afraid of unruly feelings, be constantly on the lookout for anything that painted me as different.
She reached out and touched the side of my face. “Don’t be a dead guy,” she said, not unkindly.
I wanted to wipe her face, erase the rope of cum that clung on to the bottom side of her lip. In another context I might have found it sexy.
Why wasn’t I finding it sexy now?
“C’mon. Taste yourself,” she said. “Try something new. Learn something. There’s so much world out there. Experience it. Learn what you taste like.”
Insecurities tumbled out of my churning mind. I was about to say “no” one last time, maybe even leave, change seats and hang out with the Zeppelin kid in front of us, when my limp cock twitched. I looked to the thin trail of cum on her lips. Another twitch, and a small drop of cum emerged like a curious animal, wary of injury.
My body knew more about me than I did.
“I’m not going to hurt you,” she said. “No one is going to hurt you.”
I looked into her eyes and hoped she spoke the truth.
I kissed her.
I kissed her, and my cock jumped at the unexpected sensation. The salty tang of my cum bit at my tongue, coating my lips and teeth just as the bleachy acrid smell of it reached my nose, and as I leaned hungrily into her kiss my mind threw me into a clash of memories, a hundred sensual pleasures and confusions: the first exploratory touches of self-discovery, the furtive guilt and unhinged excitement, the bitter seawater mystery scent exploded from my cock as my spunk spewed onto my hand, my stomach, the sheets. I slid my tongue deeper into her comforts, she opened to me, wanted me, accepted me. My cock hardened again, pulsing as I explored her mouth and the nuances of my own taste and texture.
After a long while the kiss subsided. Our lips parted, we pulled unhurriedly away from each other.
“See?” she said. “That wasn’t so bad.”
“It was kinda hot,” I admitted. I wanted to tell her more but could not find words. I met her eyes and saw the simple joy inside them and concluded that I didn’t need to talk. I broke her gaze and looked out onto the frozen landscape beyond. The road signs told me we’d passed from Iowa into Minnesota in the last hour or so. Snow had fallen more heavily here. Smooth white dunes of the stuff piled up in the otherwise vacant fields. When the wind picked up, small whirlwinds of flakes danced in the frigid air.
The world seemed a little larger now.
A mileage sign rushed up in the window, and was past us and gone.
Owatona: 13 miles.
“You’re getting out soon, huh?” I asked her.
“Yeah. Like fifteen minutes.”
“What happens next? Where do you go?”
“I dunno. My uncle is picking me up. Didn’t I tell you this? I’m gonna stay with him for awhile, work at Dunkin, save some money. Then, well, we’ll figure it out.”
“What about Dolph?”
“I don’t care what happens to Dolph.”
“What about me?”
Her look softened. She took my hand. She said, “You get to do whatever you want. Go wherever you wanna.”
“I don’t know where I wanna go.”
She smiled again, and squeezed my hand. “That’s even better. You get to figure out where you wanna go. Decide what you wanna do.”
Ten minutes later the bus pulled off the Interstate and into the Greyhound terminal in the tiny downtown square of Owatonna, Minnesota. The brakes squealed, the bus rolled to a stop.
She gathered her bags from the overhead rack.
“My name’s Tracy,” she said. “Weird we don’t know each other’s names, isn’t it?”
“I’m Les,” I responded. “And it’s no weirder than anything else.”
“Let it be weird,” she said. “Weird is good.”
“When did you get so smart?” I asked her.
She graced me with the gift of one last laugh. “Born this way, I guess.”
She kissed me again, a light peck lacking the passion and mystery of our earlier kisses. Light danced in her eyes, emotions played at the corners of her mouth. Her cheeks flushed with life.
She was beautiful.
I hadn’t thought so only a few hours earlier. I’d not seen her clearly.
It was time to look at the world with new eyes.
She walked down the middle aisle, shot me a quick look as she reached the front door, then stepped off the bus and into the hazy winter air. An older man met her, gave her a hug, and together they walked to his pickup and got in.
She turned one last time and waved, then got in the truck and pulled away, disappearing onto the surrounding grid of country roads and on to the rest of her life.
The bus pulled out of the town square and clamored back onto the Interstate, heading north, toward the cold, the highway unspooling before me like an uncertain promise.
I was twenty years old.
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"Quiet night?" Bob asked the bartender as he drew Bob's first beer. "Oh, early days yet, mate. We don't pick up until a bit later, but mark my words, the first group of girls arrive from the beach around seven-thirty and the crowds aren't far behind them, if you take my meaning." He raised a speculative eyebrow at Bob as if to suggest that he could work fast and get the drop on the competition. Bob had already been back to his grandmother's house, showered, shaved, changed into his...
(ROPEVILLE SCHOOL 1) As we left the bustling City Hall I spoke to Lucy, "So this Principle Salinas, is he a good man?" she gave a laugh. "No SHE is a good principle; she's in charge of the girl's school." She told me. Seeing my look she added, "We're not co-educational here the boys and girls are taught separately, that way there's nothing to distract them. We pride ourselves that our children have higher SAT scores than anywhere else" I stopped and stared at Lucy. "What! I'm...
It’s Christmastime and Kenzie Reeves and her stepbrother Rion King have joined their parents, Artemisia Love and Dan Ferrari, in decorating for the season. The whole family is gathered together in the living room when their longtime friend, Lulu Chu, arrives from out of town for an extended holiday visit. Kenzie and Lulu are very close, but Rion is just now realizing how hot Lulu has become. The next day on Christmas Eve, the girls conspire to let Rion know that they both want his dick...
xmoviesforyouSir Comes To Visit By submissivewife I turned off the shower and grabbed my towel, glancing quickly at the clock and seeing that I only had three hours left until Sir arrived for his visit. I felt my heart begin to pound at the thought, but quickly pushed it aside as I rushed to put on my panties and bra and then went into my daughter’s room to grab some clothes for her stay at her grandmother’s. I then went into my son’s room and got his clothes together. Taking them into the kitchen, I...
My eyes teared in the wind, despite my sunglasses cutting the reflected glare of the sun on the white drifts covering the cemetery. Jeryl hugged my side as the minister finished the graveside service for Cynthia Morgan. I returned her hug with one arm, as I held Ali with my other arm. We had flown in the day before, after getting the call from Janet about Cynthia’s passing. I had not liked Jeryl’s grandmother when we first met, but had grown to respect her for her will and determination, if...
The flurry of activity deep inside the NORAD base under Cheyenne Mountain continued. Every image capturing the flights of the Dragons had been analyzed with meticulous care. General Grayson had an image analysis team reviewing the entire past year's worth of stored image data from the sectors where the Dragons had been spotted and was now quite certain that all of the observed activity was isolated to a single day. The General had assigned two other teams of analysts the task of scouring all...
Introduction: The last pick-up of the night gets interesting. Masood, a 40 year old Pakistani pulled his taxi up in front of the address that the dispatcher had given him. It was 2am and this would probably be the last fare of the night. Then he would turn in the cab and go home to his wife and children, who would already be sound asleep. He gave the horn a short blow to let the person know that he was there. Two young men came out of the house. They had a young woman between then and they...
It’s my birthday and I receive a mystery box on my desk at work. Inside is a room key, number 125 and a note. The note consists of an address and instructions to be on time. Excited I leave early head home, get sexy and head out the door. I love surprises and a party is what I need. Entering the room I am shocked to see my boss Alyssa and partner Kenji. Looking around I realize no one else is here. Either I'm early or this party just got even better. Kenji and I are not strangers we had our...
Three categories of sexual intercourse are commonly practiced: vaginal intercourse (involving vaginal penetration), anal penetration, and oral sex (especially mouth-on-genital stimulation). Sex acts may also involve other forms of genital stimulation, such as solo or mutual masturbation, which may involve rubbing or penetration by the use of fingers or hands or by a device (sex toy), such as a dildo or vibrator. The act may also involve anilingus. There are numerous sex positions that...
Once the atonement was over, Queen Daenerys did not feel any more satisfied than she had after her victory in King’s Landing. There still felt like there was more to be accomplished. The women apologized for things they had done in their past. The Queen knelt at Samwell’s felt and asked his forgiveness. Samwell smiled like a giddy child that was being fawned over and immediately offered his forgiveness. Daenerys was shocked; it had been that easy as well. She said a few words of remorse,...
Brittany Wakefield was a twenty five year old woman who worked as a news reporter for the Guardian newspaper in London. But there was one thing she kept to herself, not let slip to anyone, that she liked girls. She loved them. She’d never been with one before but she lusted after beautiful women that she saw everyday in the office. On the weekends Brittany would go down South London, one of the side streets and walk into a strip club and watch beautiful pole dancers dancing on poles for men of...
This is part one of what I hope to be several chapters of this families 4 years living in Uganda and serving the Uganda Petroleum Company and its men.Many years ago I was recruited by a government owned Uganda Petroleum Company to go work in Uganda. They had found large amounts of oil & gas so the government was looking for high end white collar managers to assist them with the workers and company management. I should have known that something was strange during the interview by the...
And that Sunday was, at last, Laurie's birthday. December 7, 2003. And Laurie Parker was 22. Roger and Lucy came from Larry's house in the morning, just a little after Joan Greene had left. Joan and Julie had spent the night together, and just acted silly during the whole morning. But Joan knew that, even if she was a dear friend (and lover) of Laurie, she had to go. That Sunday belonged to the Parker family. And Brad Johnson, obviously. Like Joan, Brad had also slept there, but he...
Melissa and Leon stood side by side in front of the kitchen sink on that warm summer evening looking out of the kitchen window. They were watching her husband guiding the lawnmower down the lengthy lawn. Apart from the sound of the mower the only other sound she could hear was that of her heavy breathing and her heartbeat. Leon slid his hand over her bottom. She could feel the heat of his fingers through the thin material of her dress as he traced her panty line. “What colour are they?” he...
InterracialThe mine: “Dad, you know I’m just twelve.” “Not almost 13?” “You, Sir, are a bad dad!” We both laughed a bit. “You were born a week before school starts,” I said. “Quick! First day of school?” She shot back with, “January 30. Back to durance vile.” “Let me see what I can do about that.” I made a note in my head, “Now, do we set up camp here or up in the trees.” “You’re asking me?” “I am. Look around and tell me what you see.” She set to exploring. When she was done she came up to me...
“How?” TheOther yelled. “Restore the main energy feed to this system. It has been severed. This system no longer has physical controls.” A holographic image established itself. It was a representation of the Chamber he was in, and a big console not to far was highlighted. “Proceed to the panel indicated and restore the energy feed to the Yah-ha Al drones. They will obey me and restore what must be restored.” TheOther was about to do exactly that, but he stopped. “These drones will also...
Tom picked her up off her feet, and holding her he asked. “Karen? Are you sure about this?” “Tom Wilkins, I have wanted you to do this to me ... ever sense I knew you. You are just so ... sexy. You always make my pussy tingle.” Karen hugged his neck and nestled her face into his shoulder, as he carried her up to her room. Tom set her on the floor and she kissed him, very passionately. Karen walked Tom back toward the bed till he sat down. “Up on that bed mister, it’s time to ride.” Where...
Chapter 2: Let the Fun Begin About an hour later, Rocsi comes back with her friends. They all stand at the door looking dumbfounded at the scene that stands before them. Ten of my best guy friends smiled and raised their glasses to the new guests at my party. The 20 female friends that I just happened to know also waved and giggled as they got back to their conversations. I’m glad that they all listened to me when I said dress to impress. The guys were all clean cut, looking GQ smooth, ready...
I can feel her chuckle as she watches me go, and before her own footsteps start up again. I'm so embarrassed, and my ass is so sore.. that was so mean! She... really controlled me.. my heads still spinning a little... I could have spoken up, could have resisted.. but I didn't.. I so didn't... I blush on the inside, I'm a little horny despite the pain.. I get to Mistress Blacks maid training room with my head still spinning and knock on the door softly. "Enter!" I hear Mistress Black...
Introduction: This scene is about my ex mate and I >,.>, We are furries, so, if you arent into that and do not wish to view anything furry related, please leave ^^ Akelta woke in the middle of the night, very confused and very hungry. Khaal…did you leave the food out….? She mumbled softly, her voice sounding very tired. Khaal grunts and awakes with a start, leaning up with weary yellow eyes gleaming in the darkness. Huh?..o-oh…yeah…on th table… He mumbles, flopping back down on the bed....
Alan's turn: Susan won the race to deliver. Blanket message from her. Jason is loading my bag into the car right now. I've been cramping and the doctor says go straight to the hospital. Bingo. You just KNOW that this news puts Tina to waddling (I'm going to Hell for that one, but she's sooooo pregnant) to me. "We need to go wait with her." "Yes, dear. What about Terri?" "Terri knows the drill. Beck and Sim's." "You know Susan's gonna have a cheering section. You will, too....
I suppose I was the one that first mentioned porn to Nikki. We'd been chatting on a girls' night out and laughed abut how I'd never found any porn in the house. She giggled and said I was bound to find some sooner or later – all men had some, somewhere. A few days later, I'd completely forgotten our drunken conversation and so when Nikki showed up at mine after you'd gone out with your friends, I was surprised when she mentioned it. We'd both had a few glasses of wine at that point and when...
CrossdressingThis is the first in a series of stories inspired by an affair with my office manager. Some are true, some are fantasy. The thing that is funny is the more extreme stories are most likely the true ones. The only one I’ll say is completely true is this first story you are about to read.---I’ve always had a bit of a thing for Tami.She’s worked with me for about 12 years in a small office. She is not any model or hottie, but she’s very appealing, she has a very natural appeal in a country girl...
The name is Damon Edwards. A tall, good-looking young black man living in the city of Brockton, Massachusetts. And I’m surrounded by the fakest people on the planet. They’re everywhere I go. At the library. At school. At church. At the Westgate Mall. Like I said, they’re everywhere I go. Must be something in the water or something. As a brother who’s keeping it real, it’s getting increasingly hard to live. I try not to let these haters get to me, but there are too many of them. And they try too...
DISCLAIMER: This story is solely a work of fiction. Any similarities between people living or dead is purely coincidental. No a****ls were harmed in the writing of this story. When I was a young c***d, I was teased a lot. I was a boy, but I looked more like a girl, and even acted quite feminine. The older girls would use me as a dress-up doll, and the older boys would beat me. My b****r, though, would often come to my rescue, even if it meant that he took a worse beating than I did. I loved...
Hi everyone! I am Priya from Mumbai and this is cliche to say this, but I will say it anyway. I love ISS! It’s so awesome how everyone can come together in a small community and share their most intimate private thoughts experiences. We don’t belong to a high-upper class family, but we are an above-average family. My father is in banking and my mother is a doctor. Let me introduce ourselves: I am 18 years old with a very fair complexion but I keep myself tanned(it wears off though), My body...
IncestThat all changed one day. I was having problems with my geometry homework, so I asked if I could hang out at his place so he could help me. We rode the bus home together, but we had to walk a few blocks to get to his house. Unfortunately, that day it was raining pretty hard, and we both got drenched. You could kind of see through my top, so when we got to his house, his older sister gave me a new one. His mom was in the shower and then her and Phillip's sister were heading out. Because of...
This is a continuation of the Child of a Child series. This is number three in chronological order. I recommend you read Chapter 1 first to understand what is going on. If you have read chapter 1 and 2 I thank you for reading, and I hope you enjoy the rest. I have these chapters written and they are coming out quickly, but after this I have no clue when the next chapters are coming out. I hope you like these and are patient for the next chapters to come out. Thanks again for reading. Enjoy!! ...
The thumping beat of the music blasting in the club was rivaling Blair’s heartbeat from the moment she set her eyes on him. Little did she know, he’d been watching her from the second she set foot in the place. Her honey-colored locks were pinned in an elegant up-do, with a few loose strands framing her heart-shaped face. Her makeup was perfection, dark sultry eyes, with red lips to match. She wasn’t his usual type, not by a long shot. In fact, she was nothing like any of the girls he had been...
BDSMHe’s got you, I’ve got Mexico. — Eddie Raven. Ned Samuels looked at the latest letter from his cousin Matt again as he sipped his rum and Coke on the beach, shaking his head at the man’s good fortune. Matt always was the lucky bastard. Then again, Ned’s own luck was beginning to change for the better, now that Chloe was gone. Oh, he still loved the bitch, but he had begun to let go of her. She left him for Sean Morris, some stupid silver-spoon jackass with more money than brains and no doubt...
One day sitting at home edging, I decided to go on craigslist t4m most of the ladys were black with huge scary cocks then I happen upon a thai girl Tia, we started talking and asked her if she wanted to meet up, she didn't drive so I had to pick her up. as she walked to the car I took notice she was about 5'8 she had tight jeans on and a decent ass for a Asian girl. she had a leather jaket on and I could see she was pretty flat chested. Tia had shoulder length hair and her face all dolled up....
Introduction: Forced to take sisters boyfriends cock If you look closely, you see us all the time, leaning against shop windows, lining the street corners, or sprawling bars. Sometimes we hide behind more discreet clothing but often the light see-through t-shirt revealing the lack of bra, short skirt leaving little to imagination and the sexy high-heel boots make it rather easy to guess what were after – a nice thick cock to fill our hungry whorey cunts and give us good hard fuck. But then, I...
Hello all ISS readers! I am back again with a hot sizzling story. As u knows me I’m Abhishek Singh 18 male living in Delhi near mother dairy of pandav nagar. I will hope that u will enjoy the story. Mail me any comments, queries or anything on or Hi All, I am Reshma, born and brought up in Kerala, a state n India. I was 18 when I had my first sexual experience. I am narrating that below. It was a rainy day. Rain is unusual in February in Kerala. I was going to my tuition teacher’s house about...
Its my first story on this blog and its an incident happened with my office freind and her wife. Its really an erotic incident that how a shy wife become a total slut enjoyed by strangers. I work in a pvt export firm that exports garments, its a small firm with around 20 odd employees, since iam the only professional MBA in comparison to my other colleagues i directly report into the MD Mr. Hussain. Mr Hussain is close to 55 years old has a dark face with spots and would be considered ugly had...
EroticEthel sat Ann, Brenda and Father Adams at the kitchen table and started to busy herself fixing breakfast for all of them. Just as she sat the food in front of them there was a knock on the door. Father Adams walked into the living room and answered the door. He returned in a minute followed by another man who introduced himself as Sam Bradbury, Rosie Bradbury's son. Ethel got him a coffee and sat him down at the kitchen table. She insisted that he allow Ann and the baby to get something to...
The couch wasn't really built for this. Janelle lay atop Will as much as next to him, one leg and one arm stretched over him, soft breasts pressed against him. He felt his elbow hanging off the edge of the couch, and protectively drew his arm more tightly around her. Squeezed against the back of the couch, laying flat on his back, unable to move for fear of knocking her off the couch, her head nestled against his neck, her hair spilling over his chin and mouth... it was uncomfortable. But...
Having been initiated into the gang of the popular girls in school and now released from Miss Caitlin’s lair, Megan finds that her pussy and her bum are both rather tender and sensitive from the deep, sensual treatment she received the night before. In fact, for many days it remains incredibly sensitive and she struggles to concentrate completely on schoolwork when her extra-curricular escapades involve intense pleasure: either giving or receiving. The blonde girl that had managed to sneak a...
MAID OF BUXCOMBE MANOR By Lisa Lovelace After two humiliating years as a male maid in petticoats at Buxcombe Manor, I was desperate to escape - but I had to time my attempt perfectly. Through the kitchen window, I could see that the rear door of the caterers' panel truck was open. I needed to duck away from Ms. Buxcombe's party, at which I was serving as the maid, and stow away in the truck just before the caterers closed the rear door and drove away. With luck, the truck would...
Hi, I’m Beth. I’m 15 and in the ninth grade. I think I’m reasonably cute, nothing special, but I’ve never had a boyfriend. I think it’s because I just don’t have any tits. I have a very slim body, only weighing about 105 pounds and shoulder length brown hair. But I have almost no tits. I can’t even fill out an A-cup bra. I mainly have some pointy nipples sticking out of bumps on my chest. My sister and my mom both have incredible tits. In fact, they don’t have tits, they have boobs. ...
I just have to tell you what happened yesterday when I had my day off. I was doing some laundry and the laundry room is at the bottom floor in the building where I live. It was 10 in the morning and I was just done and tryed to get all my things and open the door at the same time. Then the jordanian guy living on the same floor as I came and helped me to open up the door and offered to carry some of the stuff. I was very greatful for that and gave him 2 of the bags. He followed me to my door...
Your name is Max, the youngest of three siblings at the age of 22. You have three older sisters, all of whom are 24 years old. The first one is Rachel, who seems to hate my guts. She's always glaring at me and finding ways to make my life miserable. I don't know why she's like that, but it's really annoying. The second one is Ashley, who always seems to be in her own world. She's always listening to music or texting her friends and never pays any attention to me. It's like I'm invisible to...
Mind ControlSaturday was finally here...I went out in the afternoon, got a prepaid CC from one of those check cashing places, drove 15 miles out of town, found a motel...rented the room, let the attendant know it would be for me and my daughter, getting work done on our house so we wanted to be out of the way when it was happening...I know, I gave too much information, like he cares. I drove back...and waited. The "dance" was from 730-930, so I let my wife know I would wait around instead of...
I think situation comedies on television and family oriented movies lead us to believe that anyone can be a parent, that raising children is a lark that we can successfully muddle our way through. However, the truth of the matter is that raising children is an experience that forever changes not only the child but also the parent. In my endeavor to shame Suzie into revealing something she wanted to keep secret, I had made a mistake that was to prove fortuitous. I had learned that the abuse...
January 26 It was the night before my birthday and as usual I was stuck doing homework for hours on end so I had barely any time to talk with my girlfriend Nicole. It was nearing 11 o’clock when she gave me a call. “Hey daddy. Are you almost done with your work? I need you to be awake for my surprise tomorrow.” She said as I could hear her giant smile over the phone. I smiled and laughed at her concern and said, “Almost baby. I should be done by 11 or 11:30. Alright? And then I’m gunna...
Chapter 11 Once we got in the bedroom it didn't take long for the three to quickly shed our clothing, what we wore of it that is, and to situate ourselves on the bed. I'd already pulled back the covers and added a couple more fluffy pillows, in case they were needed, so all was ready for our encounter. LuAnn positioned herself to where her butt was on the edge of the bed, with her feet not quite touching the floor, and spread her leg wide as she could. I didn't need an oral invitation to...
I awoke that afternoon with a hard-on. That, in itself, wasn’t amazing. I always awoke with my eighteen year old cock fully erect. Usually it was in my fist, leading to my first jerk-off of the day. What made this special was that it had already been drained a couple of times that afternoon but it was raging again thinking of the new neighbor lady. Man, I had to shake my head (the big one) to make sure that I hadn’t been dreaming. It was like something out of a porno, MILF Milks Pool man....
I'll tell you about my wildest sexual experience of Post Matriarchal Boundaries (PMB). I'm a tall, fiery red headed girl in my late 20's. I've got piercing blue eyes and full lips. I'm naturally very skinny. No matter how much I eat I tend to remain a size 6. I was 8 when the Matriarchy took over Australia. So was aware of the traditional way but wasnt really sexual yet. The traditional way seemed comparatively messy and archaic. So many things have improved since, there is almost no...
I always make it to work on time. I have a routine. Normally I hit the elevator by 7:15, but this day I was early as I stepped into the cab, the door began to close when suddenly a left hand slid into the crevice of the closing door and the doors sprang open. Her hair was a bit out of place, pulled back, blonde highlights but her graying roots were becoming. She apologized and stated something about having a bad day. The doors closed and began its trek up. First floor, second third fourth they...
Oral SexI was riding shotgun in the first armored E-350 1 in the column when, in the rear view mirror, I saw the tree fall. I remember thinking that back home in Virginia I would have called the tree a Poplar, but here in Chechnya I only knew that it was big and tall and that someone had blown it to fall across the road and cut us off from the client. My driver saw the tree fall and was about to punch the accelerator when the windshield exploded and everything went red. The windshield was...
Hi, mera name vipul hai or mai punjab se hu. Iss story mai apko pta chalega kaise maine first time apni best friend ko choda. Meri height 5.11inch hai and dick size kbhi measure ni kra but bda he hai. Iss story ki heroine hai aanchal jisko maine khoob choda. Aanchal ki age 22 year hai sry mai apni age btana bhool gya meri age 22 he hai. If any girl bhabhi aunty wife lady koi bhi age ki ho mere sath pyr time sprnd krne chahe sex krne chahe to mujhe email pr contact kr skti hai . Hamari meeting...
Friday nite was always party night for me and my friends back in our hometown. We lived in a small rural community with not much to offer in terms of entertainment. Typically, a few of us would get together at my place, have a few drinks and just relax and enjoy the company. We had recently had twin sisters move to town, so this particular evening I had invited them to join us and meet some of the locals. My place was a good sized open concept log cabin. The great room had a fieldstone...
Meet the Davis’. Lauren is the baby of the family, and she can be such a bratty little sister. She recently turned 18 and is so excited to be done with high school, she doesn’t even care that her school had to cancel graduation. But she hopes COVID won’t get in the way of her continuing her cheerleading career in college next year at State. She stands 5’1” with a tight, athletic body, and keeps her wavy dirty blond hair pulled back in a bow. Nate is the oldest child, as he likes to remind his...
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