A Well Lived Life Book 6 Kara IChapter 5 Housemates
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November 8, 1993, Chicago, Illinois
A dark fog swirled before my eyes as I tried to take stock. My head hurt, badly. I felt something on my face and realized, dimly, it was an oxygen mask. My right hand was uncomfortable and I recognized the feeling of an IV and pulse-oximeter. My left arm ached fiercely. On my chest I felt the pads and wires of an EKG.
I didn’t feel anything else wrong as I continued taking inventory. I tried to open my eyes, but the fog didn’t clear. I tried to speak, but sensed that my words were slurred and garbled. I heard what I knew to be voices, but they were muffled and couldn’t penetrate the fog. I tried a couple of times, then gave up and let the darkness consume me again.
Some time later the darkness faded, and I found that the fog had diminished. When I tried to open my eyes, I could see ghostly shapes and once again heard muffled voices. I did my best to focus and felt the shroud lifting. I blinked several times, and saw distinct shapes - people, equipment, and furniture. And I heard the one thing every human being responds to - their name.
“Steve?” I heard an indistinct male voice say.
“Steve?” I heard an indistinct female voice say.
I groaned softly from the pounding headache; only a croak came out when I tried to speak. I felt hands remove the oxygen mask and then a straw against my lips. I sucked gently and choked on the water, then tried again and swallowed.
“Steve?” a male voice I now recognized as Al Barton’s said.
“Al?” I responded weakly.
“Just relax.”
“My head hurts,” I whispered, wishing the gnome with the hammer would stop pounding on the inside of my skull.
“You had a syncopal episode and hit your head, twice. You have a concussion, a fractured wrist, and a severe laceration over your right eye that required thirteen stitches.”
“Jess?” I asked.
“In better shape than you are right now,” Al said. “When you fell, you hit your head on the table, then the floor, and landed on your left wrist.”
“Passenger?” I whispered.
“What?” Kara asked.
“Passenger in the car,” I said. “With Jess. Dead.”
“What?” she gasped.
“Steve, relax,” Al said. “Nobody said anything about a passenger.”
“Cop,” I croaked. “Told me.”
Kara gave me some water.
“Doctor Burns, could we find that detective?” Al asked.
“Powell, I think it was,” a voice said.
“Yes,” I said weakly. “Powell.”
I saw movement out the door and a minute later movement back into the room.
“His shift was over,” Doctor Burns said. “The clerk is calling police dispatch to find out.”
“Steve, are you able to tell me what happened?”
“Went to talk to the cop,” I said, struggling to speak. “Said drunk hit Jess. Drunk died. And passenger with Jess.”
“Who?” Al asked.
“Didn’t say,” I whispered. “I had feeling of dread then fainted.”
“Just relax Steve,” Al said, moving the mask back over my mouth and nose. “Kara, do you know who might it have been?”
“For Steve to react like that, he had to think it was Gina or Jorge, probably Jorge.”
“Doctor Swanson?” Al asked, sounding very concerned.
“Yes,” Kara replied.
“Doctor Burns, I need to use the phone,” Al said.
I didn’t hear a response, but since I heard the phone being dialed, I assumed a nod of approval had been given.
“Bala?” I heard Al say. “This is Doctor Barton. I need you to find Doctor Gina Swanson ... Yes; I do in fact know what time it is! Just do it! I’ll wait.”
“Doctor Barton, she might actually be at the Y waiting for Steve. It’s almost time for them to run.”
“He’ll try her home number and page her,” Al replied.
A few minutes passed.
“No, damn it!” Al said. “Page her again. Six nines!”
Five more minutes passed.
“When she calls, have her call the ER at Cook County and ask for me.”
He hung up.
“She didn’t answer at home and didn’t respond to the emergency page,” Al said.
“Doesn’t carry pager when we run,” I mumbled through the mask.
“Non ER-docs have different rules,” Al sighed. “Kara, do you have Jorge’s number?”
“Yes. We called his apartment right after we called you. He didn’t answer, but Steve thought he might be with Trish. I don’t have that number.”
“Call Elyse,” I mumbled. “Tell her Jess is OK. Get number.”
A female voice I didn’t recognize, “Doctor Burns? Doctor Barton? Would you step out here please?”
Kara leaned close, “I’m going to make the calls. Michelle is here.”
Kara moved away and I felt a new presence by my side. I tried to turn my head and that only made it hurt worse.
“Just relax and don’t move,” Michelle whispered.
I heard noise again and Al Barton was at my side again.
“Well, congratulations. You aren’t as hardheaded as I thought you were. You have a linear skull fracture of the left parietal bone. But otherwise, the skull series was negative.”
“How bad?” I mumbled.
“No depression, no displacement. It’s almost identical to Bethany’s, though smaller. We’ll get a CT later this morning, but the x-rays didn’t show any swelling or obvious hematoma.”
“Passenger. Ask Jess.”
“She’s sleeping,” Al said. “Or I would have asked her right away. You should sleep, too.”
Kara came back into the room.
“Trish told Elyse Jorge doesn’t spend the night at her place. She went to knock on the door to Jorge’s apartment but he didn’t answer. She said he has a friend in the suburbs he spends Sunday evenings with sometimes.”
Doctor Burns spoke, “The police won’t release any information about the passenger until they notify the next of kin.”
“Call Tom,” I offered. “Check call logs.”
“Tom?” Al asked.
“Bethany’s boyfriend,” Kara said. “He’s a paramedic. The call logs will say male or female, at least. But I’d have to wake Bethany.”
“She’ll want to know Steve and Jess are hurt, and that they’re OK,” Michelle said.
“OK?” I groaned. “I’m pretty fucking far from OK!”
Kara giggled, “He’s fine!”
“Wake Jess,” I said.
“You are not in a position to make that medical judgment,” Al said. “It won’t change anything.”
“Al!” I protested. “I need to know!”
I started to sit up and Kara’s hand went to my shoulder.
“Doctor Burns, I suggest 10mg diazepam,” Al said. “He’s going to get more agitated.”
“No,” I protested.
“I agree,” Doctor Burns said. “Ortho needs to work on his wrist as well.”
“Snuggle Bear, be quiet, lie still, and let Doctor Barton take care of you,” Kara said firmly. “Doctor Barton, I have health care power of attorney. Go ahead.”
“Kara,” I begged. “No!”
“Shush!”
I wasn’t going to win this fight so I gave up. Five minutes later I drifted off into the fog again. I had no idea how long I was out, and when I woke up, I tried to look at my left wrist and see what time it was, but something kept me from moving my arm. I blinked rapidly, and the rest of the room came into focus.
“Mr. Adams?” a nurse said. “I’m Patsy. I’m checking your vitals. I’ll get Doctor Crenshaw in a moment.”
She finished taking my blood pressure and temperature, then left the room. She was back a moment later with a pretty female doctor who looked to be about my age.
“Mr. Adams?” she asked. “How are you?”
“Bad headache,” I said, muffled by the oxygen mask. “How long was I out?”
She removed the mask.
“Let’s see how you are on room air now that the diazepam has worn off. You were out about ninety minutes.”
“My wife?” I asked.
“Doctor Adams was moved upstairs to Medicine about an hour ago. We’ll send you upstairs now that you’re awake.”
“Kara?” I rasped.
“I’ll have her brought in,” Doctor Crenshaw said. “Doctor Barton is here as well, along with some of your friends. Let me do a quick exam, and I’ll get both of them for you.”
She checked my eyes, listened to my heart and breathing, and then called Al into the room.
“How are you feeling, Steve?” Al asked.
“Like a crazed gnome is pounding on the inside of my skull with a hammer,” I said. “My arm hurts, my head hurts, and I feel like crap.”
“They’ll likely keep you a couple of nights for observation.”
“Everything is still a bit fuzzy,” I said.
“That’s not at all surprising given how hard you hit your head on the table and floor and the after effects of the diazepam.”
“Who?” I asked.
“Just relax, Steve,” Al said. “Let us get you upstairs.”
“Al,” I sighed.
“This may not be my hospital, but you’re under my care.”
“Just fucking tell me, please,” I pleaded. “No more drugs.”
“It was your friend Jorge,” Al said.
“Fuck,” I sighed. “Jess?”
“She knows,” Al said. “The paramedics said she tried to help him, but it wouldn’t have mattered. The other car crossed the center line and hit Jessica’s car head-on just to the passenger side of midline. Her airbag saved her. He suffered massive head and chest trauma. Worse than Bethany’s. It wasn’t survivable.”
“God damn,” I said, tears running down my cheeks. “Kara?”
“I’ll have her come in. She, Elyse, and Bethany were making calls. Most of your friends are here.”
“Dad?” I asked.
“Samantha sent her plane. He’ll be here any minute.”
“Thanks,” I said.
He left the room and I cried softly. Kara and Michelle came into the room. Through my own tears, I could see Kara had been crying.
“Hi, Honey,” I said.
“Hi, Snuggle Bear,” she said softly. “Doctor Barton told you?”
“Yes,” I sighed. “We need to call his mom. The number is in my book.”
“Elyse gave it to the police. They’re taking care of it. Jess told us it was him.”
“How is she?”
“Sedated. She’s distraught.”
“Steve, can we pray?” Michelle asked. “I have the prayer book.”
“Please,” I said.
Michelle and Kara each put a hand on my shoulders, and Michelle read the prayer from the book.
O God of spirits and of all flesh, Who hast trampled down death and overthrown the Devil, and given life to Thy world, do Thou, the same Lord, give rest to the souls of Thy departed servant Jorge in a place of brightness, a place of refreshment, a place of repose, where all sickness, sighing, and sorrow have fled away. Pardon every transgression which he has committed, whether by word or deed or thought. For Thou art a good God and lovest mankind; because there is no man who lives yet does not sin, for Thou only art without sin, Thy righteousness is to all eternity, and Thy word is truth.For Thou are the Resurrection, the Life, and the Repose of Thy servant who has fallen asleep, O Christ our God, and unto Thee we ascribe glory, together with Thy Father, who is from everlasting, and Thine all-holy, good, and life-creating Spirit, now and ever unto ages of ages.
“Amen,” we all said.
“And for your healing,” Michelle said. “And Jessica’s.”
I used my eyes to tell her to go ahead, as nodding would have hurt. Michelle read the prayer.
O Christ, Who alone art our Defender: Visit and heal Thy suffering servants Stephen and Jessica, delivering them from sickness and grievous pains. Raise them up that they may sing to Thee and praise Thee without ceasing, through the prayers of the Theotokos, O Thou Who alone lovest mankind.“Amen,” we all said again.
“What else do you need, Snuggle Bear?”
“A truckload of aspirin,” I said.
“Al told them not to give you anything for the pain unless you requested it. He knows you hate drugs with a white-hot passion. I’m sorry about the sedative before, but Doctor Barton was right.”
“It’s OK, Honey. I just need something to take the edge off, please?” I said. “But no narcotics.”
Michelle left my side and was back a minute later with Doctor Crenshaw.
“You want something for the pain, but your friend said no narcotics? And your chart says no acetaminophen?”
“Yes. I drink, so I never take Tylenol.”
“Ibuprofen OK?”
“Yes,” I said.
She wrote on the chart and left the room. Five minutes later a nurse came in and gave me three tablets which I swallowed with water sucked through a straw. She left, and almost immediately a nurse and doctor came in with Al. He introduced the doctor as the head of Orthopedics, Doctor Snell. Doctor Snell looked at an x-ray while Doctor Barton escorted Kara and Michelle from the room, then came back.
“We re-aligned the bones in your wrist and put on a splint while you were out,” Doctor Snell said. “The second x-ray looks good.”
“How long?” I asked.
“The splint stays on until the swelling goes down,” Doctor Snell said. “I’d say three or four days, but we can wait for your checkup for a cast, so long as you take it easy. As for how long the cast will be on, let’s call it six weeks. We’ll do x-rays every week to check on your progress.”
“What about typing?” I asked.
“If it’s not too painful, and everything is fine, probably in two to three weeks,” Doctor Snell said. “You’re a CEO?”
“Yes, but I type a lot.”
“When I say you’re ready, it’ll only be for short stints. You’ll most likely need physical therapy when the cast comes off to get a full range of motion. Do you play sports or an instrument?”
“Karate,” I said.
“Not for the next six months,” Doctor Snell said.
“Six months?!
“Yes. You can’t hit anything for six months, not even a soft bag. Neuro may tell you longer due to the concussion.”
“Wonderful,” I sighed. “Thanks, Doc.”
He nodded and left the room with his nurse. A minute later, Doctor Crenshaw came back into the room.
“You’re ready to go up to Medicine,” she said.
“Same room as Jess,” I said.
“I’m not sure that’s a good idea,” Al said. “She’s sedated.”
“Al,” I protested.
“Remember who is in charge of medical issues?” Al asked.
“Fine,” I sighed.
Two minutes later, a nurse brought my dad into the room.
“Hi, Son. I’m glad you’re awake. How are you doing?”
“OK, I guess. Jess was in an accident.”
“Samantha gave me the basics and I talked to a Doctor Woodford just now. Your sister is waiting to see you.”
I nodded, “So far, they’ve only let Kara and Michelle in to see me. And now you.”
“She’ll have to wait until he’s upstairs,” Doctor Crenshaw said. “We’re already violating the rules as it is.”
“Thanks, Doctor,” my dad said.
“Dad, Jorge died in the accident,” I said.
“I know, Son. Worry about yourself right now. And your wife. The police called Jorge’s parents.”
“Ray, he needs to rest,” Al said.
My dad nodded and left the room with Kara and Michelle following him out.
“What time is it?” I asked.
“11:45am,” Al said. “Now just relax and we’ll have them move you upstairs.”
Twenty minutes later the ER gurney was pushed into a room on the Medicine floor. Orderlies and nurses helped me move to the bed, and a few minutes later, Kara and Michelle came in and sat on the couch. A middle-aged Asian-looking man came into the room.
“Mr. Adams, I’m Doctor Kim, Head of Internal Medicine. You’re here for about forty-eight hours for observation. Let me review your chart, do a quick exam, and see what we have.”
He flipped through the chart he had in his hands, then did his exam.
“Everything looks good, but I’m going to suggest something stronger than ibuprofen for the pain.”
“No,” I said. “No narcotics.”
“OK, ibuprofen it is. I do want to give you a mild sedative. It’ll help you sleep. Otherwise, I’m concerned that pain will keep you awake. A couple of milligrams of diazepam will help you sleep. And that’s what I’d like you to do now.”
“Please, Steve?” Kara pleaded.
I sighed and closed my eyes. The ibuprofen had taken the edge off the pain, but I suspected he was right that I wasn’t going to be able to sleep.
“OK,” I said.
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March 1980, Hovås/Göteborg, Sweden I woke early as usual, but just enjoyed being in bed with Katt. When she woke, she hopped out of bed and pulled a robe out of her closet and handed it to me. “There’s a spare toothbrush in the bathroom. Go have your shower, then we’ll have breakfast after I have my shower.” I quickly showered and brushed my teeth, and went back to Katt’s room. She went to shower and came back a few minutes later. She dressed, and I got a very good look at her sexy body...
April 5, 1997, Chicago, Illinois “You missed cuddles this morning!” Birgit said accusingly when I walked into the house about 9:30am. “I know, Pumpkin, but I had a work emergency and had to go see Aunt Joyce and Grandpa A.” “And now we have to get ready for karate!” “I know. We’ll have some family time this afternoon. I don’t have any plans.” “Good!” I hugged her and the rest of the kids, then went to find Kara. We hugged and kissed, and went straight upstairs to get ready for...
September 3, 1989, Chicago, Illinois “Good morning, Sensei,” I said, bowing to Sensei Jim. “Good morning!” he said waving me to a chair in his office. “How was your trip?” I asked. “Enlightening. I spent most of my time acting as a manservant to Sensei Robert and Sensei Hiro.” “He who will lead, must first serve,” I said. “Someday, I’m going to send you to Sensei Hiro, should he live long enough. You understand.” “Does that mean you are now 6th Dan?” I...
October 29, 2000, Chicago, Illinois Birgit followed me as far as the stairs, then scooted upstairs when I went to the front door and opened it. “Hi!” Sophie said. “Hi!” I replied and held the door open so she could come into the house. I closed the door behind her then led her to my study where I waited until she went in, and then walked in, closing the door behind me. I nodded to one of the wingback chairs, she sat down in one, and I sat down in the other. “Is something wrong?” she...
August, 1983, Chicago, Illinois I walked in the near 90°F heat to Carla’s place. I was grateful that the humidity of the morning had dropped significantly; otherwise the heat would have been unbearable. By the time I walked up the steps to the apartment over the photography studio and knocked on her door, I had broken into a light sweat. Carla answered almost immediately and invited me inside her studio apartment. The air was moderately cool, and the window air conditioner was running full...
July 1982, Milford, Ohio On Tuesday morning, I kissed Kara goodbye and headed to my parents’ house for my usual morning routine with my little sister. She was happy that I could spend the morning with her and asked to take a walk, so we weren’t in the house with my mom. “Let me guess — this walk will end in the clearing,” I said with a smile. “Yes,” she said, taking my hand as we walked down Overlook towards Klondyke. As usual, we turned around and walked back, taking the path to the...
March 13, 1994, Chicago, Illinois “Hi, Steve!” Ailea said when she opened the door. “Hi,” I replied, accepting the offered hug. There was no touching of lips, just of cheeks, and I wondered if I’d misread her intentions at her birthday lunch, or if, perhaps, she detected my reluctance to return the offered affection. “Lunch is ready, so go ahead and sit. I’ll bring it in from the kitchen.” I went to the low table, sat down, and a minute later, Ailea brought miso soup and sushi, our usual...
April 3, 1997, Dallas, Texas “Remember what I said about drinking too much,” I said, as I poured bourbon into three cups. We’d stopped at a liquor store, bought a bottle of Blanton’s, and then returned to the small suite I’d reserved at the Westin. Deborah’s room was down the hall, and Krissy’s was two floors below. Krissy’s comment had caught me a bit off guard, but I hadn’t reacted visibly. I didn’t know her quite well enough to know if she’d been teasing with Deborah, so I was being...
March 28, 1991, Chicago, Illinois “This day belongs to you, Kara!” I said when the three of us woke on Thursday morning. “Happy birthday!” Jessica said. “Thanks,” Kara replied happily. “I think I’d like an amazing birthday fuck from our husband, and then a nice loving shower with my wife!” Kara said. “Do we have enough time?” I asked. Jessica giggled, “I set the alarm for thirty minutes earlier!” “Then let’s not waste any of it!” I said pulling Kara to me. Kara’s squeals as I plunged...
September 4, 2000, Chicago, Illinois On Monday morning I went to my study to make a surreptitious call to ensure that the surprise I’d planned for Kara was still going to happen, and after confirming that it was, Jesse, Matthew, Michael, and I began preparing for the Labor Day party by getting beer and soda into coolers, getting the grill ready, setting up tables and chairs in the backyard, and ensuring the liquor cabinets were stocked while my wives and daughters worked on food prep in the...
September 1, 1987, Chicago, Illinois “I heard that you have some kind of plan to help Ed,” I said to Connie. “There’s no plan,” she replied. “A witness who saw the shopkeeper alive after Ed left came forward.” That sounded convenient, and I wondered if the witness was real or someone that Anthony had put forward to solve the problem. Certainly, the videotape was real, because I couldn’t imagine how Anthony could have faked that, but the witness? Who knew? “So is he being released? Or is...
August 17, 1997, Chicago, Illinois We finished lunch and Marissa and the younger kids went to play, but Natalie sat with the adults to talk, with coffee, tea, or soft drinks. The Sarcus were very comfortable, but the Heaths were still struggling. But, vitally, they hadn’t left and hadn’t insisted Natalie leave the group. “Can you explain how you developed this attitude and approach?” Chris asked. I nodded, “It started when I was just a bit younger than Natalie. My mom was a total control...
July 1979 — Falkenberg, Sweden On Friday, when I got back from my run, Pam was in her bra and panties again. I whistled at her, she giggled, then finished dressing. I showered, and we went to breakfast and finished up our last day. Once class was done, we were pretty much free. On Saturday, we’d have several optional activities and then on Sunday we’d head back to our host families. After dinner on Friday, I took Pam’s hand and we walked towards the river. It was quiet and peaceful, and...
July 1980, Over the North Atlantic We reached cruising altitude, and I settled back to read my book. Pam raised the armrest between us, snuggled close to me and read as well. The cabin crew offered drinks, and I had my first Coke in a year! Meal service began about an hour and a half into the flight. After the cabin crew picked up the trays and offered drinks again, they passed once more, offering headsets for the movie. Trevor and Maria took them, but Pam and I didn’t, instead we turned on...
July 8, 1997, Chicago, Illinois “Is it really that surprising?” Leah asked. “I suppose not,” I replied. “I just didn’t read too much into the kiss on the cheek.” “I didn’t think it was a good idea to kiss you on the lips with all those people around, because I had no idea who they were or what they would think. You were VERY careful with our dance, so I kind of followed your lead.” Which showed very mature thinking on her part. Both of these girls were exactly the kind of students I...
August, 1983, Chicago, Illinois In the morning Anala and I ran as we had the previous time, then showered together, carefully washing each other’s bodies in an intimate but non-sexual way. After our shower we went to the kitchen and I made breakfast and we sat down to eat. “Steve, may I make a suggestion?” she asked. “Sure.” “Broaden your circle of friends. Other than me, all of you are white, nominally Christian, 20-year-old Americans. And you don’t invite me to your Sunday...
June 23, 2000, Chicago, Illinois “Steve,” Kimmy said over the intercom, “I have a Suzanne Aavik for you.” “Thanks,” I replied. “Put her through, please.” A few seconds later, Suzanne was on the line. “Hi!” she exclaimed when I greeted her. “I’m in Chicago for three weeks. Can I still run away and join the circus?” I chuckled, “You might want to find out what the circus is actually like before you join! If you’re free, you’re welcome to come to the house tomorrow or Sunday and meet the...
March 1979 Monday was back to the normal routine of school. Debbie Courtney, who lived across the street and had turned fourteen the last week in February, started flirting more with me on the bus each day. Debbie Vaughn, who lived just down the street, would turn fourteen on March 16th and invited me to her birthday party. And Donna Woody, who lived just down the street in the other direction, would turn fourteen on March 20th. She had made it clear what she wanted for her birthday, and in...
June 2, 1990, Chicago, Illinois “My office, please,” Sensei Jim said after class on Saturday. I followed him to his office and waited for him to bid me to sit. He did, and I sat in the usual chair across from him. “She has a real problem, you know that, right?” he asked. “I do. That’s why I insisted she start seeing a counselor.” “I run a huge risk having her here with that kind of temper and her violent acts.” I nodded, “I understand. May I ask what you intend to do?” “I really don’t...
February 21, 1991, Chicago, Illinois “Hi, Sweetheart!” I said, greeting Bethany at the door. “Uncle Steve!” Nicholas exclaimed. I took him from his mom and he hugged me tightly. “Is Jesse with his moms?” Bethany asked. “Yes. They won’t bring him back over tonight so you and Nicholas can surprise him in the morning.” “Perfect!” “How was the drive up?” “The same as usual. Just a bit of traffic in Northern Indiana. Otherwise, smooth sailing. It was driving the other direction that was a...
November 4, 2000, Chicago, Illinois “Good morning, Sensei,” Miyu said when Kara, the girls, and I walked into the dojo on Saturday morning. “Good morning, Miyu.” “Do you have a moment, please?” I nodded and we went to the small practice room for privacy, as Sensei Jim had a family in his office. “What can I do for you?” “I need you to meet a young man,” she said. “I think you might be taking this ‘not do anything without permission’ a bit too far!” Miyu shook her head, “No, I’m not....
May 1979 The limo dropped me at home about 9:00pm. I took my stuff to my room, stripped, and hung up the tux. The rest of the things went into the hamper. I took a shower, put on shorts and a t-shirt, and walked down the hall into my dad’s office. I saw no reason to put this off any longer. “Stephen, you need to explain yourself!” my mom demanded. “I was in Mrs. McGrath’s, well, Mrs. Sanders’ now, wedding, as I said.” “You walked her down the aisle! You’re sixteen and not even related to...
November 3, 1990, Chicago, Illinois “I still don’t understand why you told everyone to leave Katy alone last night,” Elyse said on Saturday morning. “Because we weren’t going to talk her out of it. I could tell by the way she told us. I hoped letting her sleep on it would allow her to hear what we had to say. Obviously I was wrong.” “I was surprised that she wouldn’t talk to Jennifer at all,” Kara said. “I thought Jennifer would be the one to get her to listen to reason this morning.” I...
February, 1983, Chicago, Illinois Our first joining since the previous summer was slow and sweet, trying to express our deep love for each other through the motions of our bodies. When we finished, Karin held me tight and refused to let me move off of her. “Sleep there, please,” she whispered. I kissed her once more then adjusted my pillow so that I could rest my head next to hers. It wasn’t the most comfortable position, but it was what Karin wanted. The feel of her firm body under mine,...
July 3, 1996, Chicago, Illinois I blinked several times and took a breath before responding. It didn’t help. The best I could do was contain my visceral reaction at her completely out-of-line request and her wrong-headed assumptions when she had NO idea what had happened in my life the previous eight months. “What makes you think you can make that request after refusing to talk to me for nearly eight months? And equally importantly, without explaining Alexi? And without giving me the first...
August 12, 1994, Chicago, Illinois “Fuck ‘em all,” I sighed. “Especially Donald Fehr. Running to Federal Court, the NLRB, and Congress? I’m really tired of the government putting its thumb so heavily on the scale.” “Well, we’re not going to resolve that problem today,” Elyse said. “Jackie and Jeremiah want to come over.” I chuckled, “Why am I not surprised? I bet you anything he had a rough sketch done ten minutes after they hung up the phone.” “They want to discuss options. Kimmy felt...
July 1983, Milford, Ohio My drive to Ohio was filled with wild swings of emotion. After quickly driving Anala home I had set out for Milford, driving as fast as I thought I could get away with, slowing only when warned to do so by my radar detector. I’d told Nancy that I’d come straight to her house and asked her to call my dad and let him know so that Stephanie wasn’t worried. I pulled into the Blanchards’ driveway at 3:30pm, having managed to avoid any run-ins with the Indiana State Police...
June 1980, On the Train, and in Abisko, Sweden As the train sped across the Swedish countryside towards Stockholm, I reflected on the fact that there were less than three weeks to go until I had to be in Copenhagen to board a flight home. I was torn between wanting to go home and wanting to stay, but in the end, I didn’t have a choice. I really liked my life here, the freedom I was given, the friends I had and, the respect I had from adults. I hadn’t run into a single adult who had treated...
May 18, 1997, Chicago, Illinois “As I said last time, today we’re going to talk about decision making and how to make good decisions. I think we’ll start with what I think has to be the easiest decision with the least controversy - is it ever OK to drive drunk?” “No!” came a chorus from several of the students. “And yet, people do that every day,” I replied. “And they die or kill people because of that bad decision. You have to ask yourself why people would drive drunk; and often it’s...
March 6, 1987, Chicago, Illinois “This is a big improvement,” I said as the green flag dropped for the Goodwrench 500 at North Carolina Motor Speedway. Bill had taken the pole, and when the flag dropped, led the field into turn one. “His car seems fast,” Kara said. It was. Bill led the first 89 laps, most of them under green, though there had been a yellow flag for seven laps when Richard Petty had wrecked in Turn 1 on lap 19. From lap 90 to 143, the lead shifted a few times, mostly...