A Well Lived Life Book 1 BirgitChapter 19 Chess and Pool
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March 31, 1997, Chicago, Illinois
“You didn’t!” Kara protested.
“She sure did!” I chuckled. “I haven’t seen Penny THAT feisty since her fifteenth birthday!”
Kara, Jessica, Elyse, Maria Cristina, Deborah, and I were all in the sauna after dinner. Strangely, I ended up between Deborah and Elyse, with Maria Cristina between Kara and Jessica.
“Let me guess...” Deborah said, shaking her head.
“Right the first time,” I grinned. “About the first time.”
“Fifteen?” Maria Cristina asked.
“Yes, and I’m only revealing that because Penny considers it public knowledge.”
“How old were you?”
“Twenty-one.”
“I suppose that’s not so bad.”
“You think I’m too old now?” I asked with an arched eyebrow.
“You’re almost thirty-four.”
“Yes, and you’re nineteen.”
“I think that’s different. I’m not saying a girl shouldn’t make up her own mind, just that it would be a bit strange.”
“You aren’t the only one to think that,” Kara said. “There are plenty of teenage girls who think that’s gross or whatever. But not all of them.”
“I guess I see that things change when you turn eighteen,” Maria Cristina replied.
“And what would you tell Birgit?” I asked.
Maria Cristina smiled, “That she has to make her own decisions, but that she should probably find a guy closer to her age than to her dad’s age.”
“Slick burn!” Elyse teased.
“When you put it THAT way,” I replied, “it even sounds creepy or gross to ME!”
“The age of consent was seventeen back then,” Deborah said.
“Fuck the government,” I spat. “It’s not any of their business.”
“Think that defense will work in court?”
“It ought to,” I replied. “But I know it won’t. Permission to rant a bit?”
“Granted.”
“Treating teenagers like little kids is going to completely destroy the country. Where does it stop? Next, it’ll be college kids. Then older people. Until the government is making decisions for everyone about everything. And that stupidity will go hand in hand with an insane drive for ‘equality’ which will lead to a Harrison Bergeron scenario. Hell, Nineteen Eighty-four will describe a utopia compared to the hell we’re going to encounter!”
“Harrison Bergeron?” Maria Cristina asked.
“A short story by Kurt Vonnegut which presents a dystopian future where the Constitution requires everyone to literally be equal to make things ‘fair’. There’s an office of the Handicapper General, who ensures that everyone is perfectly equal by forcing everyone to wear a ‘handicap’ - a mask if you’re too good looking; a radio in the ears of smart people to disrupt their thoughts; heavy weights for anyone who is athletic.”
“Come on! That would never happen!”
“In a world that has produced Hitler, Stalin, Mao, Pol Pot, and various and sundry other complete assholes? I wouldn’t bet on that!”
“So what happens in the story?”
“Basically a teenager escapes from prison where he’s been sent for refusing to accept his handicap, and is executed on television, seen by his mom who is lightly mentally retarded, but she can’t communicate that to her husband who missed it, and even if she could, his handicap radio would probably have interfered. It’s a short story, and it’s absurd, but sadly, not as absurd as people might think. Animal Farm was absurd, but it is an excellent critique of how revolutionaries become elitist and no longer apply their revolutionary ideals to themselves. Think Stalin, Mao, and Pol Pot.”
“I guess I don’t know enough about them,” Maria Cristina said.
“Pol Pot killed off about two million people, about a quarter of his population, in a quest to eliminate evil Western influences, and to eliminate the urban middle class, with a goal of creating a utopian agrarian socialist nation. He’s got to be the all-time champ. Stalin and Mao killed more in raw numbers, but nothing like that percentage. The grand total killed by communism in one way or another is between one and two hundred million.
“Even if you assign every death in World War II to Hitler, he only comes up with 60 million, and that would make him responsible for all the deaths in the Japanese theater, which I don’t think would be right. Given that at least 20 million of those were Chinese, that takes Hitler down to closer to 40 million, and if you eliminate the Japanese citizens we killed, Indians, Indonesians, and people in French Indochina, I’d only ‘credit’ Hitler with maybe 30 million at best.
“The problem, though, is that the real enemy is totalitarianism in ANY form, and arguing right-wing or left-wing totalitarianism is like asking if you’d rather be beaten to death or stabbed to death. Either way, you’re dead. So consider that in the 20th century alone, and we still have almost four years to go, totalitarianism is probably responsible for 400,000,000 deaths. So the next time you hear someone complain about how evil the United States is for some action, remember that number.”
“Three years,” Deborah said.
“There was no year zero, Counselor! The year 2000 is the last year of the 20th century.”
“Is he ALWAYS this annoying?” Deborah asked.
“YES!” every other woman in the sauna declared.
“Anyway, that was a long way to go to say that when someone argues for more government control of your life, think about where it ends. There will always be ‘one more thing’ for the do-gooders to try to fix by controlling your life, and they’ll never be satisfied. At each step, you’ll be asked to give up some tiny bit of freedom to guarantee a good outcome for everyone. That’s a lie from the pit of hell and it will never come to fruition. It ends in totalitarian misery every single time.”
“How about a different topic of conversation?” Jessica asked.
“That one started with sex!” Elyse laughed.
“Doesn’t everything?” Jessica asked.
“Well, now that you mention it,” I chuckled.
“Feeling relaxed, Deborah?” Elyse asked.
“Very!”
“Steve, what do you think of the suicide cult in San Diego?”
“Heaven’s Gate? Just crazy.”
“Did you see who one of the cult members was who committed suicide?”
“Nichelle Nichols’ brother, Thomas,” I replied. “That is a pretty weird thing.”
“Who is that?” Maria Cristina asked.
“Nichelle Nichols is the actress who played Uhura on Star Trek,” I replied.
“And it was a UFO cult?”
“So they say,” I replied. “I don’t know much more than what I read in the papers. I haven’t seen the news reports beyond that, but supposedly they were going to be picked up by a space ship following behind the comet Hale-Bopp. And suicide was the way to board the ship.”
“And here I thought Steve was crazy!” Deborah teased.
“I AM crazy,” I replied. “Just not THAT crazy!”
“You haven’t said how things went today, Tiger.”
“Ask my mouthpiece,” I replied.
“I don’t think they gained any kind of advantage today. Steve and Cindi each did a good job. And Steve managed to get Dante riled up.”
“It’s like Jesse and Birgit,” Elyse laughed. “All Steve has to do is walk into the same room with Dante!”
“What happens next?” Jessica asked.
“Tomorrow they depose Julia, Tasha, Elyse, and Dave. After that, it’s our turn. Steve and I have to go to Atlanta and Dallas, where we have depositions on Thursday and Friday respectively.”
“I’ll be gone Wednesday and Thursday nights, as is on the calendar,” I added, “and be home sometime Friday night.”
“How come you can finish so quickly?”
“At Peach, we’re only deposing Dante,” Deborah said. “And in Dallas, we’re only deposing Nathan Edwards, and Dante’s team is only deposing Brad Giesma and Manny Nuñez.”
“Why only them?” Kara asked.
“Because we’re staying as far away from the tax scheme as possible. We want to know what happened with the failed merger, and of course, do our best to rattle Dante.”
“Interesting. Well, I think we need to get out,” Kara said. “It’s bedtime for the kids.”
“And I need to get home,” Deborah said.
We left the sauna, and everyone showered and dressed, then Deborah got into a cab for her ride home and my wives, Elyse, and I put the kids down to bed.
April 1, 1997, Atlanta, Georgia
“It’s a necessary fiction,” I said. “Don’t worry about it.”
“Nearly $200?” Deborah asked.
“Are you saying you’re not worth it?”
“Don’t be a jackass!”
“Why should I stop now?”
“A very good question!”
We left reception and went up to my suite, with Deborah not even bothering to go to her room. We quickly undressed and I ran water into the large soaker tub, with bubble bath, and we got in. Deborah snuggled back against me and I wrapped my arms around her.
“Where are we?” I asked.
“In a tub at the InterContinental Buckhead,” Deborah teased.
“I meant with the Dante situation!”
“Supple female flesh at your disposal, and you want to talk business?”
“For the moment, yes!”
“Typical Steve! Anyway, they really didn’t get anything new from any of the depositions. We know they’re going to try to tar you with all of your associations with the criminal element, but that’s not nearly enough. Lone Star, on the other hand, is in fairly deep trouble with the Federal government.”
“But in the suit?”
“No worse than we are, really. The concern, of course, is that they settle. What do you know about the new leadership?”
“Zero. But it’s Manny Nuñez who is going to call the shots. I think everything depends on whether or not Manny thinks he can throw the former CFO, the former VP of sales, and Brad under the bus and keep Lone Star and DCP clean. Handicap that for me, please.”
“I think a lot depends on whether Brad knew or not. If the CFO and VP of Sales conspired and hid it from Brad, it’s much easier for Manny Nuñez to say he didn’t know. If Brad did know, then it’s much more difficult because Brad was DCP’s guy. If I had to wager, I’d say Brad knew, and forgive me, but I think Manny knew as well. I just don’t see a CFO and VP pulling this off without Brad being aware, and if Brad was aware, then Manny and DCP are aware. So, four-to-one they settle.”
“OK,” I agreed. “So, how do we get out of this?”
“Fundamentally, the question is, what will Dante demand in the way of stipulations to accept a deal and how much money can he extract from them?”
“The stipulations are the problem. Money isn’t the issue. And honestly, as soon as the Feds indict Lone Star, DCP, and the individual perpetrators, Lone Star is dead. You told me that the Feds will lock everything up and DCP will have no way to recover their investment.”
“I did. But something is percolating in that mind of yours.”
“Yes, in order of importance, we need to keep DCP and Lone Star from making any stipulations in a settlement. Then, I want to keep Dante from owning the assets of Lone Star, or owning Lone Star outright. And finally, I want him out of my hair, once and for all.”
“That’s no longer your primary focus?”
“I don’t think it can be; do you? We have to prevent him from gaining any advantage in the suit, first and foremost.”
“True.”
“Some things are ruled out, such as canceling the licensing agreement. Unless we can be absolutely sure it would moot the suit against us, all that would do would be to ensure Lone Star cuts a deal that hurts us. Question - is there anything wrong with me offering to indemnify DCP’s settlement with Dante, in exchange for them making no stipulations?”
“I don’t believe that would be illegal,” Deborah replied. “It would be akin to DCP taking out an insurance policy. But if Manny was in on the scheme, will they even care?”
“I don’t know enough about the rest of DCP’s investments to answer that question. And if DCP is involved, doesn’t that suggest that some of their other investments might use the same tax scheme?”
“Which puts us in a very precarious position because DCP would have nothing at all to lose by settling with Dante and throwing us under the bus. And all they have to do is stipulate to the conspiracy or collusion, and we’re dead. Nothing we can say will undo that kind of testimony. In the end, we have to keep DCP ‘onside’. If they sell you out, Dante is going to get tremendous damages, and our reputation will be sunk.”
“I’m curious - what happens if they deny the conspiracy and collusion in their depositions but then turn around and make stipulations that they did do it?”
“Well, one or the other would be perjury, but I’m also sure there is some way around that - some language they can write in the settlement agreement that says it happened even though they denied it happened. Are you sure they’re defunct after indictment?”
“Given what you’ve said, I can’t imagine how they would survive. And I think they’ll have to realize that as well. Individually, I could solve both the lawsuit and the collapse of Lone Star. The problem is, I can’t think of a way to sever them. And the clock is ticking. One day, very soon, the Feds are going to raid them.”
“But why hasn’t that happened?” Deborah asked, turning so she could look at me. “We knew about it a few weeks ago. You have to figure Dante’s team found it about the same time. We know for sure they knew as of your deposition on Monday. There is no way I can imagine that with the kind of smoking gun we found that the Marshals and FBI wouldn’t have already raided the place.”
“Dante didn’t turn them in...”
“Why?” she prompted.
“Leverage!” I replied. “He’s using it as leverage. Once Dante has what he needs from the depositions, Lone Star and DCP settle and promise to implicate us.”
“Then on Friday,” Deborah said thoughtfully, “the moment we’re done talking to Nathan Edwards, you have to meet with the US Attorney in Dallas and give him that email. They’ll swoop in as soon as they can get a warrant from a Federal judge. The Magistrate will have to stay the civil proceedings, as the criminal charges and investigation have to take precedence.”
“Is there any way for Dante to proceed without Lone Star and DCP?” I asked.
“Only if he were to dismiss them from the lawsuit. If he did that, he could still call them as witnesses, but they wouldn’t otherwise be involved in the proceedings.”
“Do you think the Feds will seize all of Lone Star’s assets?”
“That’s a tricky question, despite my speculation earlier, and one I’m not really qualified to answer. I think, and this is just trying to remember my criminal procedures classes, the Feds would have to balance the harm to Lone Star’s customers with the government’s desire to collect taxes due, as well as any fines which would be assessed. And they’ll want to jail the guys if it turns out to actually be criminal activity. Remember, Lone Star said they wanted to evade taxes, but that doesn’t mean that what they did was necessarily ‘tax evasion’ from a legal perspective.”
“What kind of remedies could Dante seek if the case is put on hold?”
“His options really are limited.”
“I’d like you to talk with Jamie and decide how we go about reporting this on Friday, and as soon as the warrants are executed, cancelling our licensing agreement. I’ll talk to Cindi about an aggressive move to bring Lone Star clients to NIKA as soon as the government makes their move.”
“That would certainly limit any damages Dante might win to the three-month period when they were licensed, and might even moot his case entirely. But it kind of interferes with you putting Dante out of business.”
“That can’t be the point now. We walked into the briar patch with Lone Star, and I’d like to leave with no more than a few nicks and cuts. I just thought that given our due diligence with Lone Star that I fully understood what I was getting into; obviously I didn’t.”
“Well, right now, I’d like you to fully understand getting your tongue into me!”
“So long as I escape with no nicks and cuts!” I replied.
“You’ll just have to take your chances!”
April 2, 1997, Atlanta, Georgia
“I was instructed to ask if you were carrying a firearm, Mr. Adams,” a young woman asked when we entered the law offices of Lee Silverberg.
“No,” I replied. “The FAA frowns on carrying them onto flights.”
I could have checked the gun, but I didn’t think I was going to be at any risk in Atlanta or Dallas, and had decided to leave my gun at home.
“Then, please, come this way.”
She led us to a conference room where a court reporter was waiting, offered us something to drink, and then left. Mr. Silverberg came in a moment later.
“Good morning,” he said. “My client is running a few minutes late.”
“Thank you, Counselor,” Deborah said.
He left and she and I poured coffee and sat down.
“Ploy,” she said quietly.
“Of course it’s a ploy,” I agreed. “It’s Dante being his usual asshole self. But we’re only talking to him, and our flight isn’t until 4:00pm, so he can dick around for an hour or two without causing any trouble. Are we still having a late dinner with Krissy in Dallas?”
“Yes. I know how to reach her if the plans go awry because of a certain passive-aggressive jackass.”
“He is that,” I agreed.
“Remember what I said about questions. Write down anything important and I’ll discuss it with you at the breaks I’ll ask for every forty-five minutes or so. Don’t worry about the questioning being jumbled - we’re not in front of a jury.”
I nodded, “I remember what you told me, Counselor.”
“I had a professor who reminded us of the class rules at the beginning of each class. When someone finally asked why, he said that’s how you approach court, or anything like it, with your clients. You remind them what to do each and every time you walk into a courtroom or for a deposition or a negotiation.”
“Not a bad idea,” I replied.
“Most non-lawyers don’t have any idea how this works. You do, because of your obvious special circumstances, but the lawyer’s job is to make sure you follow the rules. The last thing you want is to have a judge or jury think you flout the rules. Or worse, blow your case because you did or said something foolish.”
“That does make sense,” I said with a smile. “And remember you’re focusing on his claims of financial harm.”
Deborah nodded, “Business plans and finances, and I’ll be like a dog with a bone!”
“You and your teeth,” I said, barely whispering in her ear.
Deborah just smiled. She hadn’t left any marks, but she was an expert at using her teeth just enough to give me some of the most intense orgasms I’d ever had from oral sex.
“What’s the over-under?” she asked.
“Fifteen minutes, I expect. Any longer and he risks us complaining to the Magistrate.”
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May 1978 The first couple of weeks in May were busy with school, work, and friends. Except for Becky, I didn’t even have any dates. But I was OK with that. Well, almost OK. I wanted to see Anna, but it likely wasn’t going to happen until school was out. I had tutoring sessions with Melanie, but she still wouldn’t talk to me about anything other than Spanish. Barely a hello. I was grateful for the tutoring, but it was maddening seeing my friend this way. I hoped someday she could understand...
March, 1982, Milford, Ohio As I drove along I-65, I thought about what Stephanie had asked for and what Bethany had said without even knowing about the request. Of course, because Bethany and I were so in tune, she might have actually had an idea that I was struggling with getting involved with my sister again. I kept turning it over and over in my mind and I kept coming to the same conclusion — that I shouldn’t do it. I was torn between doing what Stephanie wanted and doing what Kara and...
September 7, 1992, Chicago, Illinois “That went reasonably well,” Michelle said when her parents drove off. “There were a few times I thought my expression would give away something I shouldn’t. You were messing with me, weren’t you?” She grabbed both my hands and smiled, “I was telling the truth, in my own way. Thank you!” She leaned forward and kissed my cheek. “So, what’s left?” I asked. “To visit UofC tomorrow and formally withdraw from classes. To spend some time with you and your...
October 1981, Chicago, Illinois I arrived back at the apartment just before 10:00pm and saw the address for the party. I decided I wasn’t particularly interested in going so I put on some music, poured myself a glass of wine, and started reading more about Russia. I was alternating between the history and culture book and the Communist Party book, decided on the history and culture book for this time. I didn’t get much reading done because I was thinking about Tatyana, which led me to...
January 23, 1996, Chicago, Illinois “Father, bless!” I said, greeting Father Basil with upturned palms. “Bless you, Stephen,” he said as I kissed his hand. The waiter showed us to a quiet table along the wall of Roditys in Greektown. He took our drink orders and was back quickly. We placed our food orders right away and he left to put them in with the kitchen. “I’m not quite sure how to address this, so I’m just going to ask you bluntly. Are you the father of Michelle’s baby?” I shook my...
June 29, 1995, Chicago, Illinois On Thursday, I finally had lunch with Melissa again, something I hadn’t been looking forward to. Much like with Cèlia, Melissa and I had passed an inflection point and I was left with sub-optimal paths forward. I’d been struggling with the possible solutions, and all of them had pitfalls. When I walked into Takumi, I had something of a plan. Whether it was good or not would only be known once everything played out. “I spoke to my wives,” I said after we’d...
December 5, 2000, Mayo Clinic, Rochester, Minnesota “I had a good time last night,” I said. “I was surprised you invited a friend!” Mary laughed as we walked into the exam room, “Naomi had a good time as well. You know what a Resident’s life is like.” I nodded, “No social life.” “Exactly. You guys seemed to hit it off pretty well.” “Yes, but I’m not here for that!” “You’re everywhere for that, and you know it!” I couldn’t help but laugh. “Let’s just say that you hit the sweet spot -...
March 1980, Hovås/Göteborg, Sweden I woke early as usual, but just enjoyed being in bed with Katt. When she woke, she hopped out of bed and pulled a robe out of her closet and handed it to me. “There’s a spare toothbrush in the bathroom. Go have your shower, then we’ll have breakfast after I have my shower.” I quickly showered and brushed my teeth, and went back to Katt’s room. She went to shower and came back a few minutes later. She dressed, and I got a very good look at her sexy body...
April 5, 1997, Chicago, Illinois “You missed cuddles this morning!” Birgit said accusingly when I walked into the house about 9:30am. “I know, Pumpkin, but I had a work emergency and had to go see Aunt Joyce and Grandpa A.” “And now we have to get ready for karate!” “I know. We’ll have some family time this afternoon. I don’t have any plans.” “Good!” I hugged her and the rest of the kids, then went to find Kara. We hugged and kissed, and went straight upstairs to get ready for...
September 3, 1989, Chicago, Illinois “Good morning, Sensei,” I said, bowing to Sensei Jim. “Good morning!” he said waving me to a chair in his office. “How was your trip?” I asked. “Enlightening. I spent most of my time acting as a manservant to Sensei Robert and Sensei Hiro.” “He who will lead, must first serve,” I said. “Someday, I’m going to send you to Sensei Hiro, should he live long enough. You understand.” “Does that mean you are now 6th Dan?” I...
October 29, 2000, Chicago, Illinois Birgit followed me as far as the stairs, then scooted upstairs when I went to the front door and opened it. “Hi!” Sophie said. “Hi!” I replied and held the door open so she could come into the house. I closed the door behind her then led her to my study where I waited until she went in, and then walked in, closing the door behind me. I nodded to one of the wingback chairs, she sat down in one, and I sat down in the other. “Is something wrong?” she...
This begins with an old-fashioned case of a crush. It was the year 2007. I had seventh period English class, which was the last class of the day. I was good at English, but I would not realize my passion until later. This class was badly-behaved, and oddly enough, I liked it. I was looking for something juicy. Something to get my attention. Then I saw her.It was the beginning of the year and my English class was going smoothly. Until one day when I noticed that all of the band people in that...
Straight SexAugust, 1983, Chicago, Illinois I walked in the near 90°F heat to Carla’s place. I was grateful that the humidity of the morning had dropped significantly; otherwise the heat would have been unbearable. By the time I walked up the steps to the apartment over the photography studio and knocked on her door, I had broken into a light sweat. Carla answered almost immediately and invited me inside her studio apartment. The air was moderately cool, and the window air conditioner was running full...
March 13, 1994, Chicago, Illinois “Hi, Steve!” Ailea said when she opened the door. “Hi,” I replied, accepting the offered hug. There was no touching of lips, just of cheeks, and I wondered if I’d misread her intentions at her birthday lunch, or if, perhaps, she detected my reluctance to return the offered affection. “Lunch is ready, so go ahead and sit. I’ll bring it in from the kitchen.” I went to the low table, sat down, and a minute later, Ailea brought miso soup and sushi, our usual...
April 3, 1997, Dallas, Texas “Remember what I said about drinking too much,” I said, as I poured bourbon into three cups. We’d stopped at a liquor store, bought a bottle of Blanton’s, and then returned to the small suite I’d reserved at the Westin. Deborah’s room was down the hall, and Krissy’s was two floors below. Krissy’s comment had caught me a bit off guard, but I hadn’t reacted visibly. I didn’t know her quite well enough to know if she’d been teasing with Deborah, so I was being...
March 28, 1991, Chicago, Illinois “This day belongs to you, Kara!” I said when the three of us woke on Thursday morning. “Happy birthday!” Jessica said. “Thanks,” Kara replied happily. “I think I’d like an amazing birthday fuck from our husband, and then a nice loving shower with my wife!” Kara said. “Do we have enough time?” I asked. Jessica giggled, “I set the alarm for thirty minutes earlier!” “Then let’s not waste any of it!” I said pulling Kara to me. Kara’s squeals as I plunged...
September 4, 2000, Chicago, Illinois On Monday morning I went to my study to make a surreptitious call to ensure that the surprise I’d planned for Kara was still going to happen, and after confirming that it was, Jesse, Matthew, Michael, and I began preparing for the Labor Day party by getting beer and soda into coolers, getting the grill ready, setting up tables and chairs in the backyard, and ensuring the liquor cabinets were stocked while my wives and daughters worked on food prep in the...
September 1, 1987, Chicago, Illinois “I heard that you have some kind of plan to help Ed,” I said to Connie. “There’s no plan,” she replied. “A witness who saw the shopkeeper alive after Ed left came forward.” That sounded convenient, and I wondered if the witness was real or someone that Anthony had put forward to solve the problem. Certainly, the videotape was real, because I couldn’t imagine how Anthony could have faked that, but the witness? Who knew? “So is he being released? Or is...
August 17, 1997, Chicago, Illinois We finished lunch and Marissa and the younger kids went to play, but Natalie sat with the adults to talk, with coffee, tea, or soft drinks. The Sarcus were very comfortable, but the Heaths were still struggling. But, vitally, they hadn’t left and hadn’t insisted Natalie leave the group. “Can you explain how you developed this attitude and approach?” Chris asked. I nodded, “It started when I was just a bit younger than Natalie. My mom was a total control...
July 1979 — Falkenberg, Sweden On Friday, when I got back from my run, Pam was in her bra and panties again. I whistled at her, she giggled, then finished dressing. I showered, and we went to breakfast and finished up our last day. Once class was done, we were pretty much free. On Saturday, we’d have several optional activities and then on Sunday we’d head back to our host families. After dinner on Friday, I took Pam’s hand and we walked towards the river. It was quiet and peaceful, and...
July 1980, Over the North Atlantic We reached cruising altitude, and I settled back to read my book. Pam raised the armrest between us, snuggled close to me and read as well. The cabin crew offered drinks, and I had my first Coke in a year! Meal service began about an hour and a half into the flight. After the cabin crew picked up the trays and offered drinks again, they passed once more, offering headsets for the movie. Trevor and Maria took them, but Pam and I didn’t, instead we turned on...
July 8, 1997, Chicago, Illinois “Is it really that surprising?” Leah asked. “I suppose not,” I replied. “I just didn’t read too much into the kiss on the cheek.” “I didn’t think it was a good idea to kiss you on the lips with all those people around, because I had no idea who they were or what they would think. You were VERY careful with our dance, so I kind of followed your lead.” Which showed very mature thinking on her part. Both of these girls were exactly the kind of students I...
November 8, 1993, Chicago, Illinois A dark fog swirled before my eyes as I tried to take stock. My head hurt, badly. I felt something on my face and realized, dimly, it was an oxygen mask. My right hand was uncomfortable and I recognized the feeling of an IV and pulse-oximeter. My left arm ached fiercely. On my chest I felt the pads and wires of an EKG. I didn’t feel anything else wrong as I continued taking inventory. I tried to open my eyes, but the fog didn’t clear. I tried to speak, but...
August, 1983, Chicago, Illinois In the morning Anala and I ran as we had the previous time, then showered together, carefully washing each other’s bodies in an intimate but non-sexual way. After our shower we went to the kitchen and I made breakfast and we sat down to eat. “Steve, may I make a suggestion?” she asked. “Sure.” “Broaden your circle of friends. Other than me, all of you are white, nominally Christian, 20-year-old Americans. And you don’t invite me to your Sunday...
June 23, 2000, Chicago, Illinois “Steve,” Kimmy said over the intercom, “I have a Suzanne Aavik for you.” “Thanks,” I replied. “Put her through, please.” A few seconds later, Suzanne was on the line. “Hi!” she exclaimed when I greeted her. “I’m in Chicago for three weeks. Can I still run away and join the circus?” I chuckled, “You might want to find out what the circus is actually like before you join! If you’re free, you’re welcome to come to the house tomorrow or Sunday and meet the...
March 1979 Monday was back to the normal routine of school. Debbie Courtney, who lived across the street and had turned fourteen the last week in February, started flirting more with me on the bus each day. Debbie Vaughn, who lived just down the street, would turn fourteen on March 16th and invited me to her birthday party. And Donna Woody, who lived just down the street in the other direction, would turn fourteen on March 20th. She had made it clear what she wanted for her birthday, and in...
June 2, 1990, Chicago, Illinois “My office, please,” Sensei Jim said after class on Saturday. I followed him to his office and waited for him to bid me to sit. He did, and I sat in the usual chair across from him. “She has a real problem, you know that, right?” he asked. “I do. That’s why I insisted she start seeing a counselor.” “I run a huge risk having her here with that kind of temper and her violent acts.” I nodded, “I understand. May I ask what you intend to do?” “I really don’t...
December 21, 2000, Mayo Clinic, Rochester, Minnesota “No shit, Doc!” I exclaimed. “Why the fuck do you think I’ve spent the last twenty-three years in one form of therapy or another? Will you stop treating me like a typical patient and acknowledge and respect that not only do I know myself, but I am NOT like anyone else you have ever met? I don’t fit into any of your cookie-cutter diagnoses nor can you put me in some little box on a chart and say that’s where I belong.” “Is that what you...
February 21, 1991, Chicago, Illinois “Hi, Sweetheart!” I said, greeting Bethany at the door. “Uncle Steve!” Nicholas exclaimed. I took him from his mom and he hugged me tightly. “Is Jesse with his moms?” Bethany asked. “Yes. They won’t bring him back over tonight so you and Nicholas can surprise him in the morning.” “Perfect!” “How was the drive up?” “The same as usual. Just a bit of traffic in Northern Indiana. Otherwise, smooth sailing. It was driving the other direction that was a...
November 4, 2000, Chicago, Illinois “Good morning, Sensei,” Miyu said when Kara, the girls, and I walked into the dojo on Saturday morning. “Good morning, Miyu.” “Do you have a moment, please?” I nodded and we went to the small practice room for privacy, as Sensei Jim had a family in his office. “What can I do for you?” “I need you to meet a young man,” she said. “I think you might be taking this ‘not do anything without permission’ a bit too far!” Miyu shook her head, “No, I’m not....
May 1979 The limo dropped me at home about 9:00pm. I took my stuff to my room, stripped, and hung up the tux. The rest of the things went into the hamper. I took a shower, put on shorts and a t-shirt, and walked down the hall into my dad’s office. I saw no reason to put this off any longer. “Stephen, you need to explain yourself!” my mom demanded. “I was in Mrs. McGrath’s, well, Mrs. Sanders’ now, wedding, as I said.” “You walked her down the aisle! You’re sixteen and not even related to...
November 3, 1990, Chicago, Illinois “I still don’t understand why you told everyone to leave Katy alone last night,” Elyse said on Saturday morning. “Because we weren’t going to talk her out of it. I could tell by the way she told us. I hoped letting her sleep on it would allow her to hear what we had to say. Obviously I was wrong.” “I was surprised that she wouldn’t talk to Jennifer at all,” Kara said. “I thought Jennifer would be the one to get her to listen to reason this morning.” I...
February, 1983, Chicago, Illinois Our first joining since the previous summer was slow and sweet, trying to express our deep love for each other through the motions of our bodies. When we finished, Karin held me tight and refused to let me move off of her. “Sleep there, please,” she whispered. I kissed her once more then adjusted my pillow so that I could rest my head next to hers. It wasn’t the most comfortable position, but it was what Karin wanted. The feel of her firm body under mine,...