An All American Teenage Sex Life II Sophomore SeasonChapter 13
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FRIDAY, JUNE 7, 1991
I did something I had never done for a girl before. I wrote her some little notes.
Sappy? Silly? Romantic? Maybe a little of all of the above, but Deedee was going to be gone for more than two weeks with little chance for contact, and I wanted to stay connected to her. She was a very good girlfriend, and I wanted to keep her that way.
The idea was simple. I grabbed a stack of 17 Post-It notes. On the first note, I wrote: “For Deedee every day. Please peel off one note each day of your vacation. Don’t look ahead, just read something from me each day you’re away. I’ll miss you. XOXO-Jake.”
Each note was for a specific day. I talked about what I would doing, what fun I hoped she would be having, and how much I would miss her. The notes were definitely a step forward for me in our relationship, but I wanted her to know what she meant to me. I put the stack in an envelope and made my way to the pool just after lunch.
I skipped stopping at Mike’s and headed right to the pool. Once inside, I headed right out to find Deedee.
There she was, again near the diving board. She looked bored as she swung her whistle and lanyard around her fingers in one direction, then reversed and swung it back the other way. She had her aviators on, with the red one-piece and a white hoodie covering her top. She hid under the hot sun, keeping her freckled skin as safe as she could.
Her mouth popped open and her dimples showed when she saw me. I didn’t want to bother her, but I told her to come find me on her break. She nodded with a big smile.
I picked an open lounger near some classmates. Mitch and I had patched things up since the Tuesday night game at our next practice. He realized he was way too hard on me, and apologized. Mitch, Lexie, Mandy, Woody and Allison were all tanning at the time. We made small talk and talked about how our summers were going. Woody was pressing me about attending another party, just to give more tips. I grinned and blushed and said no party was needed if anyone had questions. The pool still wasn’t the place.
And then my stunning redheaded girlfriend practically leaped into my lounger with me.
“Hey baby,” she husked, giving me a quick peck on the lips.
“Good to see you,” I smiled.
She touched me on the chin dimple and grinned, blushing a little.
“I’m gonna miss you,” I pouted.
“Me too,” she pouted back.
“Oh my God, my teeth are going to fall out,” Mandy grumped. “They are too sweet.”
We paid her no mind for the moment, trying to soak up time with each other before we would be parted. We just looked at each other, smiled, chatted a little and enjoyed each other’s company.
Before her break ended, I broke out the envelope.
“I have something for you that I hope you’ll take along with you.”
“What is it?” she beamed.
“Inside is a note for each day we’re apart. Just read one every day,” I said with a little husk in my voice.
“That’s so nice,” she cooed. “But I don’t have anything for you.”
“That’s OK, just come back to me?” I asked, giving her a little hug.
A couple of tears fell from her long lashes and she wiped them away quickly.
“I don’t know why I’m crying,” she whined.
“It’s OK,” I whispered, and held her tight.
She had to go. She squeezed me tight one last time before scurrying off to bring her unopened envelope to the locker room. She came back out composed and headed to another lifeguard chair.
I hung out with friends, spent a little time in the water, applied some sunscreen to my face and shoulders and just relaxed away a beautiful Friday afternoon.
Deedee and I got together before I had to leave. I gave her one more long hug and told her I’d miss her.
She shook away one more tear and let me go, giving me a sad smile as I rode off.
I spent the whole ride home on the gravel thinking about her and what I had written on that last note.
FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 23, 1990
There was no snow on the ground, but there was a need for a winter jacket. It was cold. I went with a gray coverall from the farm, a stocking cap and a good, warm pair of gloves to go with my winter mud boots.
We arrived at grandpa’s farm yard to organize the drive. Dad put his Kawasaki ATV in the back of the truck. We pulled ramps out from underneath it and set them up on the tailgate. Dad backed it down the ramps and kept it idling to keep it warm.
Rich Ray had already pulled in, and he and Shelby had saddled horses inside their trailer. Shelby was wrapped up in a jacket and long scarf under her cowgirl hat, making her look like some kind of outlaw. I gave her a look a giggle. She flipped me the bird.
My uncle James, married to dad’s sister, was there to help. He’d drive his pickup, and another of dad’s friends, Allen, would drive the other. Their job was to get out ahead of us and block road intersections before we arrived. Dad would block any field entrances that were open by getting there fast with the ATV, while Rich and Shelby drove the lagging cows onward from behind with the horses. Grandpa would lead the whole operation from his pickup at the head of the drive. The cattle knew his truck, and he’d throw out entire ears of corn from time to time to encourage the cows. Deep ditches and barbed wire fence lines would keep order for the most part.
Grandpa talked us through where we’d be taking the cattle. We’d go from a farm field about eight miles away. He’d gone and closed up what open gates he could along the route. We wouldn’t be crossing any highways today.
Wait, what was my job?
Ride with grandpa and watch any open gates dad missed, and throw out corn.
‘Great.’
Once the plan was in place, we hustled to the open field eight miles away. Grandpa had gotten the attention of the cattle that morning with some fresh feed at the waterer. The whole herd, about 120, were huddled together, seemingly waiting to get things going. Some of these cows had gone on this journey 5-6 times and seemed to know what was coming. They were moo-ing and bellowing in what I assume was bovine excitement.
Rich pulled in, and he and Shelby unloaded their horses and mounted up.
Dad hustled ahead on the quad. I knew he enjoyed his job. I climbed into the back of grandpas old F-150 and settled in with a couple of big bushel baskets of corn.
“Toss ‘em a couple,” grandpa drawled. He had some corn inside the truck to throw out as well.
I did so, tossing the corn like grenades to the front of the herd. Their excitement was almost palpable as they moved forward as a group, heading to grandpa’s cream-colored truck.
“Here they come,” he called and let the clutch out a little, moving the old Ford forward.
The herd streamed ahead, two picking up the full ears of corn to chew as they continued on. Grandpa drove slowly, right out the gate and the entire herd seemed to be following.
Rich and Shelby waited patiently as we slowly rolled down the gravel road, more than 100 cows in tow, looking for a treat as they headed down the road.
The last few stragglers left the field, and Rich and Shelby followed. Rich hopped off his mount, handed the reigns to Shelby and closed the gate. He caught up to her and climbed his mount once again to follow the herd.
Both were experienced riders, but little skill was needed for this. They’d simply trot behind and keep the slowest cows moving along. Cattle were generally suspicious of horses, and people riding them didn’t help.
For my part, I kept tossing out a fresh ear of dried corn every 20 seconds or so. It kept them coming. I was of the opinion that they would have followed without the corn, but it kept them interested. I had a great view of the entire operation from the back of the pickup. I could see the whole herd and the horses at the back, plus I could see well ahead, where two pickups were already waiting at the first intersection.
James and Allen were chatting as we pulled up, but they split up to each cover a side of the intersection, keeping the cattle in line. Grandpa moved through quickly to keep their attention.
“More corn!” he intoned from the relative warmth of the truck.
I doubled my efforts, tossing out more golden grenades of corn. We had no issues, even passing dad in an open field entrance. Dad held his arms out there, standing in front of the running ATV to keep the cattle out of that field.
At the next intersection, you guessed it. James and Allen were waiting for us again. The slow speed of the operation gave them time to drive around the one-mile section to the next intersection before we got there.
Then the hiccup occured. Grandpa spotted an open field driveway that dad wouldn’t be able to get to.
“You’re going to have to jump out and cover that one!”
I didn’t give grandpa a chance to come to a complete stop as I jumped out of the rolling truck and did a quick barrel roll in the gravel and came up running on my feet to get to the field entrance before the herd did.
“You OK?” he laughed.
I shrugged and stood in front of the field driveway with a smile.
He took over tossing some corn out of his window and kept up his slow pace.
The cattle paid me little mind as they mindlessly followed the bovine in front of them, trotting toward some promised land of grass and hay.
The last of them trotted past and I greeted my best friend on her horse.
“Better hop on,” she smiled, holding her left hand out to me.
I didn’t have another option, other than walking the next four miles, so I took her hand and put my left foot in her open stirrup and climbed onto the horse behind her.
She kicked my foot back and put her foot back in the stirrup.
“Keep your heels out of Destiny’s flanks, unless you want to go for a ride,” she warned with a grin.
Awkwardly, I gripped Shelby around the hips to keep from falling off the back of her mare, and kept my ankles out at an angle to keep from kicking her spirited mare.
“Ooooh, keep me warm. Earn your ride,” she teased.
Rich looked over and laughed at my predicament.
“You could let me be up front,” I complained.
“You have no idea what you’re doing,” she teased.
“I can ride,” I shot back.
“You can ride just fine back there,” she giggled.
At the next intersection, I hopped off the horse and climbed into the GMC with uncle James.
We chatted for a few minutes as he hustled his truck around the section to the next mile ahead. Allen met us there and we prepared to block off the intersection just as grandpa rolled up.
He stopped just long enough for me to jump back into the bed of this truck and let the clutch out once again, leading the herd toward home.
I took over corn tossing duties, waving at dad in a field driveway as he seemed to wonder where I’d gone off to for a couple of miles.
We repeated the process until grandpa drove into the open gates of his pasture land, right near the watering tank. He pulled well into the field until the last of the stragglers was herded in by our mounted help. Grandpa turned around and headed back to the gate.
I jumped out there, and grandpa gave Rich a ride back to the first field so he could bring his truck and trailer back for the horses. We tied the horses near grandpas horses, they greeted each other through the fences, sniffing and nipping.
We milled around and chatted while waiting for them. Grandma had made chili, and no one was going to be allowed to leave until they had a bowl.
We waited in the heated garage, where grandma had set up a couple of long church tables. We were getting served our first bowl when grandpa and Rich came back in laughing.
“He jumped out before I could stop, did a complete roll and came up on his feet running.”
Rich was doubled over laughing, apparently at my expense.
“You should have seen him on the back of the horse with Shelby,” he roared in laughter.
I was no ranch hand, but at least I was athletic.
Shelby and I tucked away at the end of the table to have chili and chat.
“Your grandma makes good chili,” she admitted.
“Could be spicier,” I shrugged. “But tell her you like it all the same. Makes her day.”
“Of course,” Shelby giggled, then changed her tone entirely.
“She call yet?”
I’d almost stopped thinking about Mel. Keeping busy was helping.
“Nope,” I said dejectedly.
“Have you called her?”
“No...”
“Why not?”
“Ugh!” I groaned at my friend. “I called her Sunday. Her mom answered and said she was too sick and that she’d call me back when she felt better.”
“But it’s been like a week?”
“I’m fully aware of how long it’s been!” I snapped at poor Shelby, silencing the garage.
“Sorry,” I apologized to the room.
“Sorry,” I offered to Shelby.
“Quit being sorry and call her,” she said flatly, taking a bite of chili. “Mmm, this is SO good.”
“Her mom said she’d call when she felt better.”
“How long are you willing to wait for that to happen while you sit and worry about her?”
“I don’t know...”
Shelby gave me a meaningful look and leaned in close to me.
“If you were my boyfriend and hadn’t called since last Sunday, I’d say you were a pussy.”
I raised my eyebrows at her rather frank assessment of my fortitude.
“You’re not Mel and Mel’s mom is not your mom,” I said in disagreement.
“But you, Jake, are still you,” she emphasized with a final spoonful of chili, pointing it at me accusingly before slipping the spoon past her lips with a flourish.
Shelby hopped up abruptly and left me to my thoughts while she chatted up my grandma for a moment, and filled another half bowl of the chili.
Was she right? Was I doing the wrong thing giving her space? Did I just need to man up and dial the phone?
Shelby had the right advice, just maybe not the way I wanted to hear it. Maybe I needed to hear it that way anyway.
Things broke up and we all went our separate ways. Grandma, grandpa and dad thanked everyone for their help. Dad and I stowed the quad in the back of the truck and we headed home.
I didn’t waste another minute once we got home. I shed my coverall and cold-weather gear and dialed Mel’s number right away.
I practically held my breath as I listened to each ring. Eight rings. Nine rings. Ten rings.
I was about to hang up when the answering machine picked up.
“You’ve reached the Rogers. Please leave a message,” a pleasant older male voice repeated. It was Mel’s dad’s voice.
“Um, hi, this is Jake Parker. I’m sorry to call, but I haven’t heard from Melody, and I’m really worried about her. Could you please have her give me a call when she can? Thanks...”
I hung up the phone not feeling much better than I had before I dialed. But at least I did something. I did what I could.
I left another message Saturday, but no call came Saturday or Saturday night. I wasn’t quite depressed, but I was a little morose.
I hadn’t looked forward to going to church on a Sunday since, well, since never. Sunday morning I was eager to see if the Rogers family would be there.
They were not. That wasn’t all that unusual, as they attended as often as they didn’t.
But I had gotten my hopes up and been crushed once again. When we got home, I changed out of the church clothes and glumly set the table for a big noon meal. Mom had a couple of chickens roasting in the oven with some vegetables. It smelled incredible, but I didn’t have much of an appetite.
We all sat down to eat the meal. I picked at my food quietly until it happened.
The phone rang.
As startling as it was, it didn’t immediately register with me for a moment. Then it hit me.
“I GOT IT!”
I raced to the phone and fumbled the receiver, quickly putting it up to my ear.
“Hello?” I asked breathlessly.
“Hi, Jake,” her small voice chirped a little hoarsely from her end of the line.
“Hello,” I sighed into the phone as my shoulders dropped, the weight of days of worry starting to melt away just at the sound of her voice.
“I’m so sorry,” she said quietly.
I looked over at my family, who were obviously listening intently, then pulled the long cord with me into my room and closed the door, sliding my back down it to collapse on the floor.
“It’s OK, just tell me you’re OK?”
She paused for a long moment.
“I’m gonna be fine,” she said.
“Going to be? What’s wrong?”
“Uh, you know, girl stuff again. I had to go to the hospital last Saturday after I got sick. I was in a lot of pain and couldn’t keep anything down.”
I sighed a little in relief, but something was still bothering me.
“How come you didn’t call until now?”
“I was in the hospital until Tuesday,” she admitted. “Then I was pretty sick and stayed in my room. Today is the first day I’ve eaten real food.”
“I left messages Friday and Saturday. I was worried sick and no one called,” I complained.
“I know,” she said quietly. “I got to hear your voice, but I just couldn’t call yet.”
“You’re going to have to explain to me how you couldn’t call me.”
She sighed and took a few moments.
“This ‘girl stuff’ is very personal, and I just wasn’t ready to call you yet,” she admitted.
“Mel, I hadn’t heard a word from you in nine days,” I said in exasperation. “You could have sent a letter in the mail in that time, and just said you were fine and that you’d call later. That would have been something, at least.”
“I said I’m sorry,” she said defensively.
I bopped the back of my head into my door in exasperation.
“I don’t know if sorry is enough.”
“What do you mean?” she asked.
“Why did we break up last time?”
“We didn’t break up,” she said in defiance, her voice catching a little.
“We broke up,” I said with authority. “And we broke up because you didn’t communicate and I didn’t trust you anymore.”
I could hear her voice tear apart as she started to cry softly.
“I’m sorry,” I said, mostly to end the tension in the air.
She sniffed and seemed to gather herself on the other side of the line.
“I can’t lose you right now,” she cried softly.
“If you do, it will be because you didn’t communicate again,” I said softly.
“Promise me you won’t leave me!” she demanded in a more frantic tone.
“I can’t promise that right now,” I said flatly. “I’ve been worried sick about you for days and you couldn’t pick up a phone and communicate, or have someone else call? How much do you care about me if you can’t do something that simple for me?”
“I’m sorry,” she cried. “I’m so sorry. Please don’t leave me now. I can’t live without you right now.”
I couldn’t help it. I was feeling more empowered and less emotional by the moment. Logic was my friend. Logic was on my side. I chuckled at her claim that she couldn’t live without me.
“You lived nine days without me just fine.”
Her sudden burst of anguish from the phone was palpable, and hurt me to the soul.
“You have no idea!” she cried, now maybe more in anger.
“Then give me an idea!” I barked back. “Talk. Communicate. Tell me what and why. How am I supposed to know, damnit!”
“I can’t!”
“Why?”
“I don’t ... I don’t know, I just can’t.”
“Then I can’t either.” I said flatly. “Look, let’s talk in person. This is just making both of us more upset.”
“You’re gonna break up with me!” she cried.
My head found the door to be hard again as I banged my skull against it one more time.
“I don’t know,” I admitted.
“You are,” she cried in agony. “You’re going to leave me now.”
“I said I don’t know,” I cut her off. “I don’t really know how I feel right now. I should have felt relieved that you’re better, or going to be better, and I do, and I was happy to finally hear your voice, but I’m still mad at you.’
“I’m so sorry,” she cried softly.
“Let’s just talk tomorrow,” I said as soothingly as I could. “This isn’t helping.”
“Promise me,” she said in a tiny, quiet voice I could barely hear.
“I can’t promise you,” I said again.
“Please,” she squeaked.
“Look, I’m not going to break up with you now or tomorrow. I just have a lot to think about.”
“OK,” she said softly, accepting my offer.
“Talk to you tomorrow.”
“Bye,” she said softly, then more fiercely, “I love you!”
I got up and opened my door, then hung up the phone before the emotions could get the better of me again.
I had almost closed my door when mom called from around the corner again.
“Everything OK?”
“Yeah, mom,” I lied, before closing the door.
I collapsed onto my bedspread once again, leaking tears down my cheeks as I dealt with overwhelming emotions. I had surprised myself at how angry I was with Mel. I had gone from just wanting to hear her voice to not wanting to hear it again, all in seconds.
I had to see her. I felt like if I saw her, face-to-face, I could resolve my feelings for her.
To be honest, this was really a third strike with her. She’d broken my heart when she broke up with me. She’d kept our new relationship hidden from her parents, and now she’d gone silent on me again. I didn’t owe her anything other than to talk to her tomorrow, and not break up with her then, but the idea of breaking it off with her was looming larger in the back of my mind. I was 14, and I didn’t need these heavy emotions and feelings from what should be a cute early high school relationship. It was toxic. Sure, I was having sex with her and felt emotionally close to her, but everything that came with it was almost too much to bear for my level of maturity.
I don’t know how many hours I wallowed in self-pity, but a knock came at my door.
“Why don’t you finish your plate now?” mom asked softly.
I WAS hungry. I rubbed the crud out of my eyes and opened my door. Mom stood there with my plate steaming from a reheat in the microwave.
“Thanks,” I said softly, reaching for the plate.
Mom pulled back on the plate.
“First, tell me what’s going on?”
My shoulders slumped and I sighed. “What do you want to know?”
“Is Mel sick. Is she OK? What’s going on?”
“OK, she says she’s going to be fine,” I shrugged. “I’ll see her tomorrow at school, I guess.”
“But are you OK?”
“I’m going to be fine too,” I muttered.
“You sure?”
“Yeah, mom.”
“Jake, we’re here for you. I know this stuff is hard, and you feel like no one but you has gone through it, but everyone has. Both your father and me. You can talk to us.”
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MONDAY, AUGUST 19, 1991 “Here we go around, ‘round, ‘round She givin’ me the run around, ‘round, ‘round, ‘round” I was up early with Van Halen, but shut my clock radio off immediately. Today would be the first day of football practice. I’d been doing this since 7th grade, but something felt very different for my sophomore year. I was taller, leaner and looking pretty ripped. I hadn’t done quite as much farm work that summer, but I was in the gym or at the running track four days a week,...
SUNDAY, SEPTEMBER 8, 1991 Little drops of perspiration gathered in the lovely valley of her spine where her back joined the round globes of her sexy little ass. She sighed in pleasure as she slowly ground her hips back and forth atop me, my throbbing cock trapped deep inside her hot, wet folds. I admired the two little dimples at the base of her lower back, and slid my hands over her hips, placing a thumb pad over both of those indentations in her nearly-flawless skin. Her skin was hot to...
TUESDAY, JULY 16, 1991 “I’m learnin’ to fly ... But I ain’t got wings...” The haunting tone of Tom Petty woke me from a fitful slumber. I knew who Tom Petty was, but I didn’t really consider him a rocker until this latest album. I let the whole song play before shutting my alarm off, just as the DJ started talking about a new album coming from Metallica. I skipped the shower and put my workout clothes on. That meant a muscle shirt and cloth shorts. I picked Mikey up at his house just...
WEDNESDAY SEPTEMBER 4, 1991 Metallica’s “Enter Sandman” is a hell of a way to wake up in the morning. I slapped the snooze button on my clock radio, almost instantly regretting it. Of course, that radio was hardly a stereo, so the sound quality suffered immensely. I loved the song, but it was getting constant radio play in early September. Of course, I had a bootleg copy of the cassette tape so I knew there were many more songs on the album that were just as good. I became more aware of my...
FRIDAY, SEPTEMBER 28, 1990 HOMECOMING A new week had made life all good again. We played a freshman football game Monday afternoon. I dominated at defensive end with a pair of sacks and four solo tackles. I made a nice catch at tight end for twelve yards. We won 35-6. It was our first Homecoming Week, and my friends and I were learning the traditions. Monday had been White and Blue day. We dressed accordingly. Tuesday was 70s Day, and I raided dad’s closet for a wildly-printed polyester...
FRIDAY, JULY 5, 1991 “Jake, wake up. Do you have plans this morning?” “Wha?” Roused from rather pleasant dreams of pretty redheads and curvy raven-haired beauties, I rubbed the sleep from my eyes to consider the source of this rude awakening. “Dad?” “Jake, wake up!” I shook my head groggily, wondering what strenuous farm chore awaited me outside. “Yeah?” “Any plans this morning?” I guess not.” “Good,” dad grinned. “Someone from the phone company will be here sometime between now and...
FRIDAY, SEPTEMBER 20, 1991 I woke up long before my alarm clock was set to go off, feeling sick to my stomach. The anguish was physical, not just emotional. The events from the night before played out in my head while I considered what to do. I hadn’t missed a school day for being sick in years. And if I did call in sick, I couldn’t participate in any sport or activity that day. That meant missing the Homecoming game and the dance. The idea didn’t really seem so bad at first, but a larger...
The Adventures of American-man: Dreamworld By Paul G Jutras Chapter One: Doorway of Doom October 31, 3086, a historical team uncovered a weird chest with pictures carved all over the outside. Each was dressed in hiking boots, knee-high socks, too tight shorts, sleeveless shirts and pit helmets. As one of them broke open the chest a mist rose out and formed into a skull headed demon. Rays shot from it's eye socks, transforming the girls' skin to plastic. As they fell over, the...
South American Cock TormentAndy Douglas was eighteen even though he only looked much younger. Five seven, he had a nice balance of slim waist, good shoulders and a neat, tight butt. Plenty of sport and exercise in the open air had given him a great tan and a body with good muscular definition including a modest six-pack. The sun had also bleached his shock of naturally blonde hair. Coupled with pale blue eyes and a ready smile he looked good and attractive?and he knew it.He liked girls, but...
You know, when you read "The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde" with a modern understanding of science, as a person who understands chemistry, biology, and psychology, the rational part of your mind will tell you it's not possible. That it makes for a fun story, but you could not drink a potion and transform either physically or mentally like the title character of that book. You can't change yourself like that. But the irrational part, oh it wishes you could. It looks at...
America hosts dozens of agents, who work secretly exclusively for me. Although all-American applicants think they are for porn.America's agencies are in all major cities, which house hot tasty teen or twen beautiful brides to be. We will mention all towns.Professor Poet-PETER erotic experiments interestingly include his agencies world wide. Together a dozen of dozens capitals.Professor Poet-PETER prayed his dear great granddaughter Princess Petra to go the other side of the 'big drink', to...
America hosts dozens of agents, who work secretly exclusively for me. Although all-American applicants think they are for porn.America's agencies are in all major cities, which house hot tasty teen or twen beautiful brides to be. We will mention all towns.Professor Poet-PETER erotic experiments interestingly include his agencies world wide. Together a dozen of dozens capitals.Professor Poet-PETER prayed his dear great granddaughter Princess Petra to go the other side of the 'big drink', to...
“The fuck was that this morning in the hallway?” Mike boomed, setting his lunch tray down to my right. “QUIET!” I seethed. “Nothing. I don’t know.” “THAT was not nothing,” Shelby added quickly from my left. I dropped my spoon back into my chili and closed my eyes. Oh yes, chili, maybe my favorite school lunch. And it seemed to taste better than usual today. Then again, maybe everything had started to taste better lately. “Look, I’m as confused as anyone. I’ve known Alexis since what,...
Deedee was holding my hand tightly and giving me doe eyes as we were once again on the back roads headed to my first high school party. “No one has ever done that for me,” Deedee whispered. “It was amazing,” she husked. “Done what, exactly?” I teased in a half-whisper. She bit her lip and shoved me lightly. “You know what!” she whispered with laughing eyes. “Oh,” I said in mock recognition, then leaned to whisper in her ear, my voice deepening. “Do you mean the part where I ran my tongue...
The rest of the week went very well, and I was in high spirits. Every other lunch period was spent either with my crew or my new girlfriend, and each side seemed to appreciate my company more. Well, other than Morgan, who was still a bitch to me. Two new things happened during the week, though. Beast asked if I’d like to go cruising with Tree and him at some point over the weekend. I had to tell him Friday was out, as I was going to the game and the opening night of races came Saturday...
I was up and at it early again Saturday morning with rather pleasant thoughts from the night before. Mom hustled me to grandpa’s shop and I went to it. Grandpa had clearly made more progress on the pit cart, with some metal cabinet doors now in place, along with a thin steel plate top. Work benches were getting cleared off and this was starting to look like a proper race shop again. Grandpa was out to help about an hour after I arrived. He ambled into the shop with a big thermos of coffee...
Deedee and I had surprises for each other Tuesday morning. I walked up to her locker just before classes started and handed her a freshly pressed gray jersey. She eagerly took it and opened her locker to hand me my white jersey. I made a show of pressing it to my nose. “How does it still smell like you?” “A girl has to have her secrets,” Deedee giggled, tapped my chin dimple and gave me a peck on the cheek before spinning off to the girl’s room to change into my jersey. “Get a room!” Mike...
We walked back inside and I quickly discovered my Sunday wasn’t over. Beast was on the line. “Parker, you wanna shoot hoops?” “Yeah, sounds good. We need a fourth?” “I supposed, who you got in mind?” “Mikey?” “Yeah, I guess I can kick his ass as easy as yours,” Beast chuckled. “I’ll call him.” “I’ll pick you both up and we’ll go to Tree’s.” “Later.” I asked mom and dad if I could go shoot hoops for the afternoon. “Be home for supper.” I could hardly think about supper. I was still...
TUESDAY, JUNE 4, 1991 I saw her for the first time on a rainy Tuesday morning. I had never seen anything like her before. But I’m getting way ahead of myself. Let’s skip back to earlier in the morning. Dad had ordered a few items for the Mustang. In particular, a few interior items he wanted fixed. He bought a headliner, new carpet and new vinyl for the both front seats. With installation, this was going to put him back nearly $400. But where to get the work done? Dad had called a brand...
TUESDAY DECEMBER 25, 1990, CHRISTMAS DAY I hadn’t seen Mel since Friday, and while I did miss her, it was probably good for my soul. Every moment seemed tumultuous, and drama buzzed around her like bees to flowers. We did everything at full throttle, whether it was making love or just not getting along. A few days of quiet time around my family was welcomed. Our family had our traditional Christmas Eve meal of oyster soup and appetizers like ham-wrapped pickles with pineapple cream cheese,...
FRIDAY, JUNE 28, 1991 After the playoff loss and public dumping, we skipped any kind of celebratory meal and headed home. I lugged my heavy bag of baseball gear into the house for the final time of the season. I didn’t even have time to strip and get my uniform into a soak before the phone rang. A tiny part of me wondered if Deedee had changed her mind. “Hello?” “Why didn’t you call me?” The feminine voice at the other end of the line was insistent and accusatory all at once. “I just...
SUNDAY, JUNE 30, 1991 I leaned forward with my head in my hands, rubbing my temples. Shelby pulled some of the blanket around her shivering form. It was a warm day, but a body soaked in sweat would get chilly in the breeze. Her horses, Destiny and Doc, munched grass lazily, paying us little heed. “Why not?” I asked the prairie scene in front of me, not wanting to look her in the eye. Shelby sighed and put her hand on my shoulder. “I might have done a bad thing today,” she sighed. “I did...
JULY 4, 1991 “Happy birthday, Jake.” It was a pleasant way to wake up. No alarm had been set. I was allowed to sleep in a bit. It was mom who woke me up in a gentle way at around 9:30. But it wasn’t her words that woke me up. It was the smell of bacon in the oven. I rolled out of bed and felt the sharp sting in my lower half. ‘Fucking leg day!’ I swore to myself. We’d spent the early part of Tuesday morning on the track, running short bursts of sprints on up to a full mile run. Then...
SATURDAY, JULY 6, 1991 ‘Breathe, just remember to breathe.’ The heat, the humidity. Oppressive. Harsh lights shining down on me. Mercifully, my Nomex head sock is soaking up the sweat from my head, keeping the stinging drips out of my eyes. My helmet feels a little suspiciously loose on my head, but the chinstrap is tight. All is almost silent here in the cockpit. I flip my visor up as my breathing is creating a little fog under the lense, with more than two dozen tear offs piled on...
FRIDAY, SEPTEMBER 6, 1991 “I’m out in the cold (out in the cold) Body and soul (out in the cold) There’s nowhere to go (out in the cold) I’m out in the cold (out in the cold)” Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers had it about right. I was out in the cold. Of course, I still slapped the snooze button and shut him up anyway. I had a riot of feelings to deal with. Two rejections, were weighing heavily on my mind. Sure, I had sort of patched things up with Shelby. At the same time, we were...
MONDAY, SEPTEMBER 9, 1991 “What’s on your mind,” I asked as I closed my car door carefully. Jen seemed to stiffen and forced herself to turn towards me in her seat so that she couldn’t avoid looking at me. “What I said about the dance wasn’t entirely true.” “So you DO want to go to the dance?” I said with a lopsided grin. “I don’t know,” she said softly. “Let me finish.” “OK,” I replied, letting her continue. “I have gone to a dance before. It was, it was horrible.” “Go on,” I...
THURSDAY, SEPTEMBER 12, 1991 “And homegrown and down-home, that makes one Cookin’ up that old time, long lost recipe for me, woh It’s gettin’ hard to find Guess it ain’t hip enough now You take an average guy, he can’t identify, uh And there’s a short supply of her fine, fine stuff Lemme get on, lemme get on, lemme get on some of that Shake it up, bake it up nice, uh Lemme get on, lemme get on, lemme get on all that I so love my baby’s poundcake.” Van Halen was so much better with Sammy...
SUNDAY, SEPTEMBER 15, 1991 I woke with excitement Sunday morning. No alarm set, just the refreshing feeling of sleeping in after being worked hard for a few days. Well, that and the fact that I would be shooting hoops with a tall, gorgeous blond that day. The tantalizing aroma of a beef roast in the crock pot was what got me awake. I followed my nose out to the kitchen to see it bubbling away on the counter top. The parents had, as usual, let me have my Sunday while they headed to church...
FRIDAY, SEPTEMBER 27, 1991 Seven days of kisses and bliss. Jen got her kiss every day for a seventh day. Every time I saw her or thought about her, the butterflies were there. We held hands in the hallways and word around school was that we were the hot couple. The upperclassmen had accepted and welcomed me with open arms. If I’d been placed on the varsity team at the start of the season, I’d have likely faced some hazing. As it was, saving the big game and showing them I belonged put...
Harold Spencer Eversly was on vacation in Acapulco with his Mom. He was sixteen but looked younger. His father had died suddenly when he was only eight leaving his Ma a very rich woman. She was very possessive and Harold was something of a mother’s boy. They traveled around a lot, all over the world. Harold had been to a lot of different schools but not learned much. He figured he didn’t have to with the money coming to him from a Trust when he was 25. Until then he was quite...
American-Man At War By Paul G. Jutras "1,2, 3, 4...." Christine said as she stood in gold three inch pumps and a backless evening gown with spaghetti straps. With the clicking of drumsticks the band prepared to join in. Soto began to played the guitar in his usual leather jacket, pants and boots and red tee shirt. Mark played the drums, Luke the keyboard in their yellow and red striped coveralls, and Starshine the tambourine in her purple blouse, leopard print mini skirt...
Ida Hoe was waiting nervously back stage as her arch rival, Holly Keyhole, performed on stage riding Hoss Bigg cowgirl style on a trampoline. She could hear the audience shouting in delight. The raucous cheers were almost deafening.Ida was horrified that Holly might give an unsurmountable performance. Ida barely trailed her for first place in this grand finale episode of Miss American Pornstar. Winning the title of the first Miss American Pornstar would not only make her the newest rage in the...
Group SexNew Job for American-Man By Paul G Jutras Since American-Man's appearance the crime rate in Federation city had dropped way down. Too bad the number band of gigs his rock band had were also way down. Needing the extra pay, it was in his American-Man form that he became a bag man at a Federation City super market. The job was easy and American-man changed his costume with the bluish green shirt, black slacks and sneakers of the market. When he eyed a shoplifter trying to head out...
Okay, here goes nothing. African-American guys like myself have a certain image in the eyes of the world. We’re thought of as tougher, meaner and more athletic than the average guy. Also, people seem to think we gravitate toward either athletic pursuits or criminal endeavors, and nothing in between. Neither is exactly true for most Black men living in the United States of America. Just to prove to you how untrue these stereotypes are, take me for example. My name is Arnold Thompson. And I’m a...
“We knew the world would not be the same. A few people laughed, a few people cried. Most people were silent. I remembered the line from the Hindu scripture, the Bhagavad-Gita; Vishnu is trying to persuade the Prince that he should do his duty, and to impress him, takes on his multi-armed form and says, ‘Now I am become Death, the destroyer of worlds.’ I suppose we all thought that, one way or another.” ― J. Robert Oppenheimer It seems sort of strange looking back on the unfolding events of...
-We learned in Part One of this story that I was a sixteen year-old virgin boy named James, who everyone called Jimmy, with a very thick, nine-inch-long cock. My neighbor Norm was forty-two at the time. His wife Lindsey was forty-one and their son Todd was eighteen and away at college.I went with Norm to open his lake cabin for the summer. We were skinny dipping on an unusually warm day for spring in Wisconsin and he convinced me that we should masturbate one another on the boat. That evening...
MILFTo begin, may I must make something perfectly clear. I’m virgin by my haughty cousin’s definition -- he says we may do it now because it is very assuered our families will marry us together -- but that doesn’t mean I have never made love. My story begins at St. Mary’s, an elite English-medium secondary school for girls. St. Mary’s has a Christian headmistress and several Christian faculty, but few of the students are of that faith. Christians know academics better than do mullahs and holy men....
The unlucky American. ? A reader of some of my other stories challenged me to write one about a terrified boy enslaved by a girl. This is the outcome of my efforts. ? Note: Tim’s private thoughts are marked by single inverted commas: ‘Shit’; direct speech by double: "Yes, Mistress". ? Part one. ? "I'm an American citizen, for chrissake. It's your fucking duty to defend me!" I shouted angrily at the embassy's legal secretary. ? "You are and I have". She looked calmly back. ? "But I was...
American Girl in Bangkok By Tiffany Parker The following story is a work of fiction and is copyright property of the author. Please don't repost it without permission. But most importantly, I hope you enjoy reading it. Chapter 1 Kaylee impatiently bided time while sitting in the middle seat in coach on the long trans-pacific flight. She was excited about her trip to Bangkok that would complete her journey and provide her the gender affirmation surgery she desperately...
Promises and Secrets: A Teenage Transsexual By Maria Ski Things changed for me after I was discovered trying on my sisters clothes. My mother had caught me. But there was no anger, no disgust, just a warm understanding smile and the love of a mother. From that day of being discovered, and after telling my sisters things seemed to change. Every weekend I became Maria. With a wardrobe of girls clothes of my own which I either bought myself or had bought for me. One thing led to...
Author's Note; This story is a dedication to Tom Petty. Song meaning to me are very subjective. I can take someone different out of song than someone else. I can even take something different out of a song depending on my mood. So with saying that this story is how I filled in the blanks of this great song. Debra Webster was an American girl who was raised on her mom and dad's promises.These promises were being able to be whatever she wanted to be in life, and their daughter would...
Alright, I can finally admit it to myself. I am a Muslim. I used to be one of those people who felt a strong dislike of Muslims, until I fell in love with one. It’s funny how these things happen, huh? My name is Solomon Kingsley Henderson, although many of my friends have taken to calling me ‘King Suleiman’ in recent times. It’s my Muslim name, though it’s not on my passport or anything. My wife Khadija Abdullah certainly likes it. She’s a lovely lady of Somali descent who saved my life back in...