Adventures of Me and Martha JaneChapter 10C
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I lay on my side with Martha spooned behind me. Gazing out the small window that overlooked East 87th Street, I gradually returned to earth. I was startled at how quickly and completely I had fucked and climaxed. In trying to recall each detail of the past few moments, I felt I'd lost all control and all awareness; the whole event seemed blurred.
Martha slid a hand down my arm and up again, as if learning anew the textures her fingers found there.
She said softly, "I missed cumming like that."
"I'm surprised I remembered what to do," I whispered. I wiped sweat from my brow, beginning to notice how humid her apartment was. I said apologetically, "I, uh... I got a little carried away."
She said, smiling to herself, "I did too." She sighed, tired but content, and smoothed back her short, nearly blonde hair. "I hate to say this, but... there's no rest for the weary..."
"Oh, no. What next?"
"We have to grab a little snack. Some of that weird tea we bought at the store should perk us up. Then I'll show you where to put your clothes and things, and we'll dress and meet Ronnie at the Stage Deli when she gets off work. We'd better shower -- Ronnie has radar in her nose and can smell sex a mile away."
Martha sat up beside me, and then suddenly uttered a surprised "Oh." Quickly she yanked a tissue from the box on the little table beside her. She held the kleenex between her legs and whispered, "Hon, you're... getting very healthy." With one hand pressing the tissue to her pussy she headed for the bathroom. I lay in bed and heard water running and Martha working furiously behind the closed door.
After she completed her toilet in the tiny bathroom, I joined her in the cramped shower stall in the kitchen. Under the thin warm spray we stood toe to toe, nipple to nipple, with no room to spare. As if studying a lab specimen, she quickly scanned the face and body she had not seen in two years. She ran her fingers through my hair. "You have yellow highlights," she mused. "It looks very good on you. But while you're here I'll have to teach you how to get the right kind of haircut. Whoever cuts your hair in Memphis has no idea what they're doing." She scowled at a mark on my lower cheek. "What's this scar?"
I told her it was a boil that had been lanced a few months ago.
"Wonderful," she muttered dryly. "Any doctor who lances a facial boil that way would be better off in a butcher shop. Don't ever let anyone do that to you again."
She held my face and kissed my nose. "You've been having a hard time down there, haven't you? But you're still you..." She draped her arms around my shoulders. "If only everyone in New York were so easy to get along with." She kissed my nose again. She looked at me. I looked at her. Again, she kissed my nose. Her hands cradled my face. With water splashing and gurgling around us, she simply looked at my face for a moment, her eyes searching mine.
Abruptly she closed her eyes, leaning against me with her forehead pressed to my chin and her hands loosely atop my shoulders. She took a deep breath. She swallowed hard and said, "Steven... I'm not used to this."
"I'm not either," I said, and I stroked her temple and kissed her ear.
She went on hesitantly, "I'm not used to... having people around like this."
"I'm not either."
"I mean, you'll find out things... about me--" She stopped and took another impatient breath and said, "Remember--you promised to be my friend."
"Sure I did."
"All right," she said quietly. She leaned more closely into me, her forehead moving down to my chest, and she looked down my torso. I brushed away water that cascaded from my wet hair. The next thing I knew, she placed her palms against my hips, her fingers pointing down, and while water splashed onto her back she slid her palms down my thighs and up again. "I mean... I didn't expect this. We have to be careful."
I put my hands on her shoulders. "Careful?"
She raised her head and stepped back and grabbed the bar of soap from the little holder on the shower wall. She said mysteriously, watching her hands lather the soap, "Never mind. We have a lot to talk about. There's no time right now."
More water ran down my face and I wiped it away, saying behind my hands, "I hope this isn't going to be as complicated as it sounds."
"It is very complicated," she said, her eyes level with mine for a few seconds. "Needless to say, I'm very impressed by--" She stopped, and she put the soap onto its little dish. She began briskly swabbing my chest. "We *must* control ourselves, now. We have a lot to do and I want us bright-eyed and bushy-tailed so you can meet Ronnie."
She looked at me again and seemed ready to say something. Instead, she planted a loud smack on my forehead and continued bathing. We finished our shower, and while we dried and dressed Martha grew quiet and subdued, as if preoccupied.
We speedily finished our chores, with Martha going over the schedule for the weekend and the week ahead. She could not get the entire week off; she had meetings Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. But she would leave the office early, by four o'clock. I'd be on my own those three days until she returned. She told me about her neighbors in the four story building so that I'd know who they were and so they wouldn't think I'd broken into the building if they saw me in the stairway. Then there was a mind boggling series of details about her part of town and how to get around the city. She gave me subway and bus maps, a tourist guide, and a couple of magazines about New York. She had tickets for "West Side Story" on Monday night, reservations for Ronnie and us on another night, tickets for an off-Broadway play, tickets for a lecture at Columbia, and there was a staff cocktail party coming up...
"And I want to show you places where you can shop for clothes," she told me as she cleaned the teacups in the little sink. "And I want to take you to the United Nations, and to Columbia to meet some people I work with, and the Museum of Modern Art, and Fire Island. The Museum's a favorite hangout. And Fire Island... well, that'll be very special, that's a full day's trip. And then there's a beatnik joint in the East Village..."
Just before five, we left for midtown Manhattan to meet Ronnie at the Stage Deli.
The food at the restaurant was a revelation. I chomped into the corn beef sandwich as if my life depended on that one dish.
"Good?" she asked, amused.
"Delicious!" I growled, my mouth stuffed.
She flicked her cigarette's tip on the corner of her ash tray. "Bet you never had corned beef like that in Memphis."
"Memphis?" I asked. "They serve corned beef out of a can."
"Don't eat yourself into a coma. We still haven't ordered the cheesecake, and Ronnie will be here any minute."
Overcome with gustatory delight, I pushed my plate away so I could pause and catch my breath. Unconsciously, I reached into my shirt pocket and withdrew a cigarette, which I lit without even thinking about it.
"What are you doing?" Martha asked, taken aback. "Steven. I don't believe it. When did you start that?"
"I dunno. Long time ago."
She frowned reprovingly, then she smirked. "Well, I'm not going to sit here with a cigarette in my hand and preach, but I see you're still full of surprises. I hope you don't chain smoke. Ronnie chain smokes now and then, and I can't stand it."
"I have it under control," I lied.
"Do something for me."
"What?"
"See that sign, the big blue menu sign they have posted on that big mirror over there? By the restroom door on the other side of the room?"
"Yeah."
"Tell me what it says."
I squinted at the sign. I could tell from my side of the room that the hand lettered writing was oversized, but I couldn't decipher the first item in the list. "I think it says, uh... stew. Oyster stew."
"Why aren't you wearing your glasses?" she asked, her face hardening with mild impatience.
"How'd you know I wore glasses? Did my mother tell on me?"
"In your suitcase you had a case with your glasses in it. Why aren't you wearing them?"
"Well... they're just reading glasses."
She took a fast puff off her cigarette and exhaled quickly, leveling her eyes at me. "The lenses are too thick to be reading glasses. And you squint at everything, even when we're just walking down the street. Why don't you wear your glasses?"
"Oh..." I started casually. Her insistence was unsettling. I wished she hadn't seen them in my luggage. Absently, I groped at a pimple on the side of my face.
"Steven, don't do that. Leave your face alone." She flicked her ashes again. Then she gave an exasperated little laugh and shook her head. "Oh, listen to me nag. I'm sorry, Steven, don't let me nag at you like that. But this is so unlike you."
"I know," I said, shifting uneasily in my seat.
"Are you lying to me about those glasses? Was that one of those tiny, itsy-bitsy, teeny white lies?"
"Yes."
"Please don't do that." Her eyes looked past me and she straightned in her seat and smiled. "Hold onto your hat. Here comes Ronnie."
Ronnie, entering hurriedly in a gray business suit and carrying a purse and a pharmacy shopping bag on one arm, appeared with a loud clicking of high heels and headed for the chair between Martha and me. "Oh, good!" she said breathlessly, "A chair! Oh, god. Feet, just a few more steps, you can make it. Hello, people, hellohello. Oh, please, please let me sit!" She hastily flung her suit jacket over the back of the chair and sat slowly, with a prolonged wince. "Aaaaah! Oh, god. Don't look under the table, Martha. It's just me, slipping my shoes off." She was a young brunette, about Martha's size and age, her medium-length, black hair combed back in loose, fluffy waves. "And this -- this must be Steven."
"Ronnie," Martha said, "meet Steven."
"Steven. Yes." She smiled broadly and shyly. "Yesyesyes." She bent toward me earnestly and placed her hand on my arm. Small mouthed and with a slender, somewhat pointed nose, she had dark, sapphire blue eyes. "Not to worry, Steven, I'm recovering from a week at work that I would like to forget for the rest of my life. Ignore. Do what you were doing."
Martha said, "Steven, if you haven't guessed, this is Ronnie."
"Hi, Steven. Ronnie." She grinned and extended her slender hand across the table. I gave her a brief handshake that she returned with a quick, warm clasp, and she turned to glance around. "Oh, Where's that waiter I always get in here, what's his name? Marco? Is he around? I am desperate for coffee. Desperate."
Ronnie waved a waiter to our table. She ordered coffee. "Black," she said. "And that white wine and vermouth thing you guys make here, know what I mean, Marco? Just fill the glass with ice cold wine, and then *lean* near the glass, you know? With your lips just a few inches away? And whisper 'Vermouth'. Whisper, now."
The hefty, bull necked waiter rolled his eyes and nodded and said wryly, "Yeah, yeah. I'm hangin' on every word. What else?"
"A hot pastrami with cole slaw. And coffee. Black."
The waiter scribbled on his order pad. "Right."
"If the coffee's left over from this morning, even better."
The waiter shrugged. He said sarcastically, "We might not be able to locate the one cup we were savin' just for Madame."
Ronnie smiled at him familiarly. "Whatever's on hand."
"Anything else?"
"That'll do for a start."
The guy said dryly, "Whatever madam wishes." He left quickly to take an order at another table as Ronnie said dryly, "Oh, Marco. You're such a doll."
We chatted. Ronnie chain-smoked and did most of the talking. Martha asked Ronnie about Ronnie's date with a guy named Harvey, whom Ronnie met at a party recently. "Harvey? Right. I need Harvey like I need breast cancer. What a jerk. He takes me to this AWFUL movie with Pat Boone, something called 'Bernadine' or whatever. Steven, can you imagine Pat Boone and a bunch of forty year old phonies playing people your age? Oh, Steven, please, don't get upset, I'm not talking years, I'm talking a case of arrested mental development. And this silly plot about a sugar-sweet telephone operator? Come on. And Harvey RAVES about it -- 'Better than Gone With the Wind!' he says. Then he gets the idea I'm having such a great time, and he's such an attractive moose, he wants to go someplace where we can be alo-o-one. Hey, won't he even let me finish my popcorn? Come on, he says, we're two adults. I said, no, Harrv, we're NOT two adults. We're one adult named Ronnie, and one JERK!"
At dessert time, Ronnie warned me that it was illegal to remain in New York without having a huge slice of the deli's homemade cheesecake. The three of us indulged in servings of the cloying stuff, thick with sour cream and cream cheese on a bed of crunchy vanilla wafer crust. Martha ate sparingly, finishing only half her slice, while Ronnie and I groaned with each bite. I finished Martha's helping after my own.
By that time, Ronnie's fourth wine had begun its work. "Get Steven an egg cream, Martha!", Ronnie playfully demanded. "Steven, you'll love this. Egg creams. I can't even LOOK at them, I get one after another until I burp foam."
Ronnie lay with her head resting on the pillow and cradled my head on her breast, cautioning me, "Careful. I'm a little sensitive, too, right now." She closed her eyes peacefully while I kept my mouth easy on her nipples. In the dark, quiet room I spent many long, long minutes fingerfucking her and then licking until she was wet and ready enough for my finger to slip effortlessly inside. Martha watched, lying on her tummy on Ronnie's other side and stroking my back and rump, kissing my...
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It was a little after eleven Friday night. Martha lay atop me, her hips over my face, her head over my cock. She ran her tongue around my glans, slowly, around and around, and I licked her tush and licked downward along the round muscles and onto the back of her thighs and then toward her pussy and along the rim of her slit, up and down, and she moaned, "Ahh. Steven." Her mouth enclosed my tip, and then slid down, down. I sighed hotly, "God. Martha." Her mouth moved up and then off me,...
Martha and I undressed in the bedroom while Ronnie went into the bathroom for a minute. Outside, the sun had descended just below the height of the West Side buildings. Martha watched me with a little smile while she stepped out of her panties and I pushed down my jocks. Naked, she walked to the window and drew the thin Woolworth's curtains closed, blocking out the pink glow of dusk, dimming the room. Martha moved to her dresser, and I watched her hazel eyes and her nipples and her auburn...
In the candlelight Martha's teeth and eyes glinted as she lay naked under me, knees drawn back, grinning up at me. She held my cock at the root with one hand and she watched my eyes while I entered her. I groaned as her creamy pussy closed around me. Her grin widened when I started screwing. She whispered, "Fuck. Fuck." Her cunt gripped, tight. I groaned again, my head arching back. Martha whispered, "Fuck." I looked at her eyes. They sparkled with lust. I knew by the look in them...
When Martha saw I'd stopped she rose upright and put a hand on Ronnie's shoulder, and Ronnie let her head fall back and closed her eyes and sighed. I watched her rest for a moment, and then I withdrew my wet finger and put my palm on Ronnie's tummy. She opened her eyes and looked at me, her eyes intense and edgy. I smiled and asked, "Okay with you if we stop?" She didn't say anything, didn't blink her eyes. She smirked, but her eyes didn't change. She laid one hand on the back of my...
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Wednesday. The nude beach at Fire Island, again. A breezy, slightly cloudy day. Martha grumbled, "Out here in broad daylight." She glanced quickly up and down the beach. "So who's around?", Ronnie said. "There's nobody for miles." She sat Indian style on our big towel in front of me. I sat upright, my knees under me, while Ronnie's left hand cradled my balls. Her right hand, lathered with suntan lotion, rhythmically squeezed my cock in a well controlled milking motion. Martha...
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I massaged lotion into Martha's arms and shoulders, my strokes growing slower and more sensuous to test Martha's state of mind -whatever the hell that might be at this point -- and moved tentatively to the swell of her breasts and then between them for a while, and then to her tummy, and down the tops of her thighs. Martha closed her eyes and I asked, "Okay?" and she said, "Hm. Take your time, hon." I got more lotion and massaged along the tops of her thighs and calves, and then lightly...
Thursday I was on my own all day. After Martha left for work I went back to sleep. I woke up so late that I knew I could never make it to Fiore's on time, so I called the health club and cancelled for the day, playing sick. I managed to meet Ronnie for lunch, but I sat feeling like a truant. My guilt piled up as I listened to Ronnie talk about how hard she had worked to get through college. I could hardly speak, and soon I was almost too ashamed to look her in the eye. For the rest of the...
Thursday morning her alarm beeped away and she shut it off roughly and flopped onto me naked, her arms sleepy and hot and her lips on my neck. After a couple of minutes I said, "You have to go to work." She groaned. She hugged me. She lay still. I kissed her shoulder. "Hey." She sighed and raised her head and looked at me, her eyes thinking, thinking, and she swept her hair back on both sides. Then her eyes looked at mine and she whispered, "All right." I started the coffee. I had...
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We strolled down East 86th Street. It was getting late, yet I was amazed that the traffic and the people on Lexington Avenue were as frenzied as they were during the day. Martha led me to a newsstand so besieged with customers that we had to push our way through to get a copy of the Sunday Times. "This is not the way you get it in Memphis," she said, offering me the hefty newspaper with both hands as if it were a precious gift. She saw my eyes bulge: the complete New York Times, including...
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Saturday. Rain. Saturday morning Martha and I took a shower together. When she shut off the water I put my arms around her and we stood hugging in the shower stall. She said, "We can't start anything right now. I have to see my gynecologist at ten." "I'm not starting anything. Just hugging." She snuggled closer. "What are you going to do today?" "Pack some. I guess." "Sounds depressing. Why don't you wait, and let me help you?" "I have to get used to the idea." She...
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Candy met Martha at a friend's party. She had noticed Martha moving around the room. Everyone else seemed to notice Martha too. It was, she mused, not only because of Martha's generous proportions -- but also because of her easy laugh, booming voice and the animated way she flung her arms and head when chatting. You could see Martha was accustomed to being noticed and she did nothing to make herself any less the centre of attention by her style of dress, which was a loud floral clingy number...
Sunday. I woke at seven. I left Martha sleeping and donned my new-made cutoff shorts and my new running shoes and I jogged to the newsstand on 86th Street. But I was too rested and energized to stop for the Times. Something got into me; I kept jogging, picking up the pace and heading for Central Park. I zoomed into the park and across the small meadow beside the Metropolitan Museum. The few people who were about ignored me, and I chided myself for worrying in the first place that people in...
It was very early Thursday morning and a woman on the airplane who sat next to me and looked like my mother was smiling at me and asking, "You're going back?" I smiled at her politely and said "Yes." She said, "Oh, you'll love it in Memphis," and I smiled politely and shook my head and said, "No, New York." She said "But we're going to Memphis." I said "No. New York." I rested my head against the padded headrest. I closed my eyes, and it was just as it was when I was on the...
I had a bad cold. It was just before Thanksgiving. Wearing a heavy brown flannel robe, I sat up against the headboard as Martha Jane settled near me on the bed and sat Indian-style. In her hand she had a bottle of green cough syrup, a bottle of cod liver oil, and a bottle of ear drops. "Okay, hon, time for dessert." "That's not dessert," I complained. "This is dessert for sick folks." She shimmied her hips into the mattress to get comfy. "Now, let's see, what does this say... ?"...
Any predictions, premonitions or expectations I might have had about New York were quickly and unexpectedly undone and/or displaced at every turn. Life in Memphis, like its population, was fairly uniform and predictable. Not so in New York. Martha turned out to be a pretty decent companion during the week, despite an occasionally cranky outburst. If Ronnie was in the throes of her period, she showed little sign of it; she was as eventempered as ever at our two lunch dates during the week....
Sunday. I had been in New York six weeks and two days. Sunday morning Martha and I went to an Appalachian Arts exhibit at the Metropolitan, and late Sunday afternoon we went with Ronnie to see an old Greta Garbo movie at the Museum of Modern Art. Then we went to a diner. For the first time, as we ate, Martha asked me about the party. She said, "It must have been great. He was out until two o'clock." Ronnie said, "Two o'clock? Hey, hey. And how did Anita hold up?" I said flatly,...
The week preceding Martha Jane's last weekend of packing before she left her charming apartment near Memphis State was a long, numbing one. As far as I knew, it would be my last chance to spend time with her before she moved to East Memphis under her new stepdad's watchful eye. Although we spoke by telephone briefly during the week and set the schedule for my Saturday visit, there was no mention of what might or might not happen after that weekend. I was too fearful of bringing it up. When...
Her eyes and her words left me speechless. I cleared my throat and concealed my state of shock, nodding firmly to signal my acceptance of what she had said. I shuffled nervously. She waited, staring at me almost apprehensively. She seemed at once both resolute and vulnerable. She said softly, "I hope... I didn't blow your fuses." I said with a brittle smile, "They're not fuses. They're circuit breakers. They reset after a few minutes." She smiled sweetly. "Have I... burst all your...
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I sat dumbfounded while viewing my first foreign language film, so amazed, that at first I didn't feel Martha nudge me with her elbow in the dark theater until she did so insistently. I turned to her. She wiggled her fingers near my face. Understanding, I took her hand in mine. She smiled contentedly and hugged our clasped hands against her thigh over her skirt. She rubbed my arm cozily, and turned back to the movie. I had never seen such a film. The movie was "Bicycle Thief," which had...
I blinked. The room was black. The candle was out. Vaguely, I heard distant sparrows. Vaguely, I felt a warm, small, still hand resting on my cheek, barely touching my skin. I saw lips near my face, and a face so close to mine that my sleepy eyes couldn't focus on it. Before I saw any features or sensed any other signals, I knew the face and hand were Martha's. I was on my back but leaning slightly to my right, my right arm slung across the bed toward the night table at the right of the...
Ronnie said to me as I sat nude on a three-legged stool and she started drawing, "Martha won't let me draw her, you know." I asked "Why not?" "She sat for me about the time we first met. When we were roommates. And she had such a classic, gorgeous figure, I told her she just had to pose nude for me, just *had* to. Or in a swim suit or something." "She wouldn't?" Ronnie sighed, erasing something. "No." I said, trying to balance myself with one foot on the floor and my other...
Monday morning, Martha went back to the same old grind. After she left for work I went back to my same old grind, jogging to Central Park and hanging a few chin-ups from a tree limb. I was closer to Memphis, no closer to staying in New York or finding ways to get back more often, no nearer to a conclusion about my feelings for Martha or Ronnie. I did have cash in my pocket and a bundle of traveler's checks I'd earned from posing. While I was cleaning up at Martha's, Ronnie called on the...
Saturday, August 24, 1957. I woke up at six. Martha slept like a log beside me. Even after a good night's sleep, I was grumpy; I was ready for life to ease up. Nothing was turning out the way I wanted it to. Two weeks left in New York. I had a hard run through Central Park, trying to run past unease and frustration but feeling it keeping pace with me. When I arrived at Martha's I was covered with sweat. Martha was in the kitchen shower. She swept aside the shower curtain and peered out...
One day in early October when I came home very late from school, Mom said as I entered the kitchen, "Oh, there you are. You missed Martha Jane's call. I told her I didn't know where you were. I said tonelessly, "Okay." I opened the refrigerator, looking for something to eat. Mom stood with her hands in the dishwater. "That reminds me, she called a couple of weeks ago, and you weren't here then, either. I guess I forgot all about it." I took a milk carton out of the refrigerator....
Saturday. In my mind, it was Anita Day. Anita didn't attend the Saturday class. I called her on the telephone the day before. She said she had a busy schedule and wouldn't be at Fiore's, but I was to meet her for the party with her friends at her godparents' home. My exhausting Friday night with Martha and Ronnie had me in a calm mood for handling myself in a sexually civilized manner with Anita. In fact, I found myself hiding out again when I met Anita and we strolled to the expensive...
I had a few disastrous flirtations. The Brothers held a sophomore class prom. Those who couldn't find a date could get one through Brother Lawrence's contacts with the Catholic girls' schools in town. At first, my sister was going to fix me up with a blind date. After meeting several of her girlfriends I decided I'd be better off with pot luck through Brother Lawrence. How bad could it be, I told myself, after some of my dates in New York? But trying it was. Being driven to and from the...
During the week, Ronnie set me up with two posing assignments. They went well, although I found myself very restless while trying to hold a single pose for more than fifteen minutes. I posed twice for the same artist, a middle-aged woman in Greenwich Village whose apartment walls were literally flooded with drawings, paintings, and photographs by herself and others. She seemed quite pleased with me, and she gave me some pointers on how to promote myself and register with various services. I...
When I opened my eyes Saturday morning the sun was shining with a brightness that told me it had been daylight for hours. The little fan on the window whirred steadily, streaming air toward the bed. I glanced at the clock. Eight twenty. Martha was half on me, using my chest for a pillow. I stroked her hair. She didn't stir. I kissed her hair and caressed her shoulder. On my other side, Ronnie had turned away and slept curled on her side, her tush against my hip, my arm still cradling her...
Martha Jane and my mother helped me walk into our apartment, where they settled me face up on the sofa and placed a wet rag over my face. Mom called the relative who lived closest to us in town, my Grandma Rose Ricci, to hurry over in their car and get me to nearby St. Joseph's Hospital. But Grandma Rose was too distraught to drive and she called my Aunt Frances, who in turn was so distraught she called my Aunt Josephine, who in turn was also so distraught she called her niece, my cousin...
Friday. Martha woke with a start at a quarter to seven. "Damn! The alarm didn't go off!" She ran into the bathroom. I shook my head and rubbed my eyes. It occurred to me that I had not changed Martha's alarm back to its regular wake-up time after setting the alarm for Fiore's appointment the day before. Crap! As if I hadn't already disrupted Martha's existence! I ran into the kitchen and got the coffee started and made toast. In the bathroom, Martha was on the rampage, dropping...
Wednesday morning. My last Wednesday in New York. While Martha showered that morning in the kitchen I finished making coffee and toast and I put on my running clothes. Then I remembered that I was supposed to take a day off from working-out. Martha hurried into the living room to gulp down her coffee and toast. She saw me lounging at the table. "You didn't run yet?" "Takin' a day off." "Good!" She bent down to me, then she sat on my lap with an arm around my shoulder. "Good. You...
At the time, most of this went right past my very young level of awareness--but I clearly understood that she was troubled. I knew that I somehow had to stay with her and believe in her and help her in some way. I wanted to bring indescribable pleasure and comfort to her. She was making me feel loved and tickly now, and I wanted desperately to do the same for her. I found the folds of her skirt and tried to gather them up, but had a hard time; my hands were too small. She stepped back, not...
Mom convulsed into a tight ball on her side and retched feebly, making a small sticky red stain in the kleenex she held to her mouth. Then she relaxed with a pitiful moan. "What's wrong?" I asked, going swiftly to her side of the bed. She licked her lips clean and tried to catch her breath. Not getting an answer, I raised my voice fearfully. "What's wrong? What happened?" "I'm sick, Speedy. It came on... all of a sudden." "What's wrong? When did it start?" "Called your...
She led me to the bedroom and I jumped onto the mattress, as I usually did, and waited for her to turn out the light and fluff up the pillows, as she usually did. But this time she stood very quietly in the dark near the edge of the bed. She took off her bra and panties. I had seen her bra-less often enough, but now she was totally nude. I remember how she looked, her smoky green eyes and frizzy auburn hair reflecting the moonlight. She was slim but not skinny, slightly curvy in the upper...
Twenty teens gathered in the small theater in Anita's building. They were a very mixed group from all over the metropolitan area, some of them rich kids that had attended Anita's earlier party, others were apparently not so rich. A very democratic crowd. I was surprised to see a couple of black couples, an unlikely presence in Memphis. Both couples appeared to be from overseas. Maury sat down front with his coterie of seven or eight admirers, all of them in suits. Chris sat in the farthest...
I whispered, "Let's do this for a while. Just this. Okay?" She swallowed again. "Yes." For a while we silently enjoyed touching and stroking each other with no particular goal in mind other than pleasing ourselves and discovering all the things about us that had changed. As we touched and played we talked. I told her about the plays I'd done, how movies and photography and history had captured so much of my life. She told of her classes, her work, what she had learned. I didn't...
We reached the top of the stairs. She stood in the middle of the living room and looked about. She sighed downheartedly, "I'm so tired of this." Suddenly she started crying; she frowned and then squinted hard, and her eyes closed and squeezed out small pearly tears that tumbled quickly down her cheeks. "I'm so tired of this," she wept, and covered her face quickly with her hands. I went to her and held her shoulders, letting her lean against me with her face in my chest. For a minute...
During the night I awoke twice, finding it dark and still outside. Each time, I felt creepy and giddy and unable to define the vexing nervousness in my legs and chest. When I awoke the third time, it was daylight. Martha was walking into the bedroom in her heels. Dressed and ready for work, she came to my side of the bed. She asked, "What on earth were you dreaming about all night?" I turned onto my back, rubbing my bleary eyes. "I was dreaming?" She sat on the bed and rested a hand on...
The birthday party went on and on, with no surprises disturbing the world of my dead father's family, nothing changing, nothing learned, nothing decided. Soon everyone was hugging and kissing and saying goodbye. During the party I longed to be anywhere but there. I spent the whole time waiting for next Saturday to arrive. This world was a far cry from the world of Martha Jane, an eternity away from our secrets in the dark, of naked flesh reveling in affection and pleasure, of whispered...
Near the end of the summer of 1956, just before I started classes at Christian Brothers High School, I wrote Martha Jane and told her that the main reason I worked all summer was to earn money for a one-week visit to New York. I had saved enough for train fare, and if she didn't have room for me in her apartment I had money for a hotel. Three weeks passed. I'd hoped for a quick reply. I wanted to get to New York before the summer ended. But as the days passed I started losing hope. August...