Adventures of Me and Martha JaneChapter 10C
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Ronnie set me up for my first modeling session on Wednesday afternoon. I was going to be paid seventy-five bucks for an afternoon of work with a photographer that Ronnie knew. That was a pretty hefty sum in those days for a nonprofessional my age, although a pro would have been paid more. The session went well and was similar to posing for an artist, but with many more pose changes and a constant stream of instructions from the photographer. He was a handsome, shipshape man in his late thirties or early forties. There were many boring lighting adjustments between shots, then his motorized cameras would start rolling like crazy for several dozen frames.
I started with clothing, and the clothing got more scarce as the session went on. A couple of assistants were around until the last half hour of poses, when the photographer requested to be alone to "concentrate on the personal stuff." Another half hour of posing nude with only a minor lighting change followed.
It ended with the photographer turning off all the lights in the place except a dim fill on the background. He approached me without a word, and I anticipated another adjustment of the dim background flood, which was the only light on. But the man stood right in front of me and looked down at my cock, which was not aroused, and ran a finger along my thigh toward my crotch. I recoiled, not from recognition of what was happening, but because his touch ignited an instant itch along my leg.
I reached down to scratch the itch, saying, "Oh. excuse me," but his hand grabbed mine, gently, and held it. I thought he was adjusting my pose. But when he didn't move I looked up. He was staring intently into my face.
I asked, "Am I doing it wrong?"
Without stirring, he said, unsmiling, "Oh, no. You're right. You're just right." He gave my eyes a steady stare and I felt his palm sliding up my thigh again.
I stepped back and held up my hands, growing immediately shaky. I said, "Hey, uh, I don't know what I did, but... I'm women only."
He smiled curiously, squinting, and eyed me with a tilt of his head. "You're what?"
I could feel my breath mounting. I was scared as hell. Were those other assistants in the next room? I took another step back, holding my hands up again.
He took a step toward me and said, amused, "Did you say 'women only'? Is that what you said?" He stopped a few inches away from me.
I nodded yes.
His smile faded, and he looked me up and down, and gazing at my cock he said temptingly, "I could make it worth your while. Very much worth it."
I said, gulping, "Uh, seventy-five for today will be just fine."
He gave me a scornful smile and a small chuckle and reached down to pick up a lighting cable and said, walking casually away, "Get dressed."
I picked up my clothes from the chair we used for posing and the guy threw a switch to bring the lights back up. I put on my shirt and pants in the room while he ignored me, and then I left the room, my shirt unbuttoned and my shoes and socks off. I finished dressing in the outer office while the secretary typed up a check and handed it to me. I looked at it. $100 instead of seventy-five. That wouldn't be enough to get me back in there again.
As I left I wondered if the check was good. I jogged to the bank whose address was on the check. I got a single Ben Franklin bill right away.
By the time I left the bank I was no longer shaky. Instead, I was pissed at having felt so terrorized and powerless in that studio.
This being Wednesday, Ronnie would be working at home in the late afternoon. At a phone booth I called Ronnie's apartment and told her I was paid a hundred bucks. She said, "Hey, good work! You got a bonus! I guess he'll ask you back."
I told her I wouldn't have time for another session before I left town, and not to bother setting him up again. That's all I told her.
"So," she asked over the phone, "How'd you feel posing?"
"I'll get used to it."
"No, really. Were you on edge, comfy, or what?"
I lied, "Comfy." I wasn't going to let Ronnie's concern keep me from getting more work. Maybe I could even start a side thing going and extend my stay in New York -- if I could find a way to keep the Memphis school system from starting the Fall semester on time!
Ronnie said, "Hey, call Martha at work. I just got off the phone with her. Remember, we promised we'd call as soon as you finished. Do you have her number?"
"Yeah." A guy passed me on the street, and he seemed to give me the once-over. Or maybe he didn't. Then again, maybe he did.
I called Martha at work. She was miffed at my calling so late and said she had stayed at the office after four because she was worried that I hadn't called. I told her the story about cashing the check, withholding all the other details, and I apologized.
She said crankily, "Get yourself home so we can have dinner. And, Steven, please don't do this to me again. When I thought something went wrong, I was at a complete loss. You had me scared to death."
I apologized again, profusely.
And for the rest of the week I behaved as well as I could. After all, something had indeed gone wrong, proving that Martha was right about my not knowing my way around New York. I was a real sweet kid when she came home from work looking tired and flustered. I got the bed ready for her, started making coffee and breakfast for her again in the mornings, and pampered her every night to the point of getting the bed ready and sweet talking her into getting more rest.
I couldn't blame Ronnie. As far as she knew the photographer was on the up-and-up. When I had lunch with Ronnie on Thursday I still made no mention of the photographer.
Ronnie said, "You know, since he paid you extra, he must have been satisfied with you. Maybe we could wrangle a couple of prints from him. That's really the way to set it up, with some photographs of you."
I said quickly, "No, he said he was going out of town. I don't have enough time left in New York to keep track of him."
Ronnie said, "Well, I guess you're right." She chewed her shrimp salad and swallowed and said, "We having dinner with Martha tomorrow night? As usual?"
"Yeah," I said. "The usual Friday night dinner, I guess."
She said, mischievously, "And extended dessert afterwards?"
I grinned and said, "Yeah. The usual Friday night dessert."
But it wasn't the "usual" Friday night.
It started out that way, with dinner at the same inexpensive joint on 86th Street, and a lazy stroll home. We went to Ronnie's apartment instead of Martha's, and I was surprised to see what her bedroom looked like in its normal state, with that weird bed of hers pulled out of the wall and properly set up.
While the three of us we were getting undressed in her darkened bedroom I asked Ronnie, "Isn't it a pain in the neck to move all your stuff around this room and set up the bed?"
Ronnie said, unhooking her bra, "I haven't had anybody pose for me in a while. It doesn't happen that often."
I said, pulling off my jeans, "Next time I pose, why don't you just let me move all that stuff for you?"
She smiled at me as she pulled her panties off. "Aw, that's sweet. For that, you get a reward tonight."
I feigned a fearful grimace and kidded her, 'Uh-oh. A reward. This one won't make me go blind, will it?"
"Well," she said, teasing, "like the joke goes, you might need new glasses."
Martha stood naked in the bedroom doorway and looked around. She said, "Ronnie, you want candles?"
Ronnie said, "Oh, Martha, yes. We need candles."
"Where are they?"
"Come on, I'll show you," Ronnie said, and as they disappeared into the bathroom Ronnie said, "Anyway, I wanna talk to you again for a minute."
Martha argued, "Again?"
Ronnie said, "I just want you to show me one more time."
Martha said, "Oh, Ronnie..."
I lay naked in Ronnie's bed, wondering what the two women were up to. I could hear them talking in the bathroom but couldn't make out the words, and in a moment they came into the bedroom and Martha had a big green candle. Martha said, "Oh, this is one of those nice ones that we can't find any more," and Ronnie said, "I know, I've looked everywhere for them. We got them for Christmas, you know." Martha set the candle on a small table beside the bed and said as she struck a match and lit it, "These smell so good. Not like those overdone, sugary things."
Ronnie turned out the light, leaving us in the warm glow of the slow flame from the fat green candle beside the bed.
"That looks nice," Martha said, sitting up on her legs beside me on the bed. "Like it, Steven?"
I said, "I like it near the bed like that. The flame glows in your eyes."
"Yes," she said, looking at my eyes. "Yours too. That'll make it very sensuous."
Ronnie reached under the bed and pulled out a drawing tablet and said, getting into the bed with me and Martha, "I was working on these this week. Steven inspired me. Steven, I hope they don't embarrass you." Ronnie sat up on the side of the bed nearest the candle, her legs folded under her, with me between the two of them, and she held the big tablet on her lap and opened it.
Martha whispered, "Oh," and I saw a pencil drawing of a young man that looked a lot like me. The figure reclined and was shown in a side view, from the head to just below the hips. He was dressed in what appeared to be shirt and jeans, though this was suggested rather than drawn in great detail. It was a figure in profile, details suggested by variations in shape and line. The young man's head was thrown back a bit, chin up, eyes closed, mouth slightly open, and at the belt line the jeans were undone and a slender feminine hand reached into the picture from the left and enclosed the figure's long, erect cock.
I blushed profusely, and Martha grinned at me. "I guess it was too much to expect Steven not to blush."
"I know," Ronnie said, and she smiled at me, "He'll probably never pose for me again."
I said, "I wouldn't say that." Not only was I embarrassed, but the drawings were very arousing.
Ronnie turned the page, and Martha said, "That's a nice one, too."
The second picture was like the first, except that the figures were more sillouhetted, and coming into view at the left side was a young woman's head and neck, hovering over the erect penis as the female fist seemed to be rubbing the tip of the male's erection. I began to see a pattern of certain lines forming in the picture. A loose end of the undone belt on the young man's jeans hung loosely in the air, curled upward. It was matched by the curves of the upturned face and nose, and the slight curl of the thumb of the woman's hand on the cock; and echoed again in the curls of the woman's wavy, curly hair and her slightly parted lips, and her eyelashes had another form of the same curly lines.
Ronnie said jokingly, "Martha, Steven's wondering what the hell's going on here, with these two nekkid broads and the dirty pictures."
Martha said, "Dirty pictures is a poor description, Ron. They're done so well. Just because they happen to be very erotic."
I pointed at the curled end of the belt and said, "This," and I pointed at the curled thumb and the eyelashes, and said, "And these."
Ronnie said, "Yes. Very observant."
Martha said, "What's he pointing to?"
"These shapes," Ronnie said, pointing to the same ones.
Martha said, "Yes, I noticed that, too."
Ronnie said, "No fair, Martha, Steven saw 'em first."
She turned the page. The third drawing was similar, except that the woman's hand was farther down on the guy's dick and the girl's silhouetted face was looking slightly down, the eyelashes more curled and obvious now, and her eyes seemed to be watching the first, curling spurt of cum that slurped from the cock's tip into the air. And I noticed in the picture that most of the broadly curled lines were more exaggerated and active.
In the fourth drawing, the woman's silhouette extended into the picture, her head looking down. Her breasts and clearly delineated nipples, which were larger than Ronnie's, hovering directly over the penis as ejaculate zoomed upward, a long curl of fluid caught in midair, and another on its way up. And again, every curled line in the picture from the woman's wavy hair to the arching ejaculate was more alive, The picture seemed to bristle with a frenzy of excited curves.
Martha breathed. "Oh. Ronnie. This one's very powerful."
Ronnie said, "You think so?"
"Just right," Martha said.
The fifth picture had a similar activity, but now the woman's nipples dripped a slurp of cum, and the woman's mouth seemed to be opened more as the face looked down, as if the woman were saying "Ah" as she watched a new, thick, very long curl of sperm splash upward toward her breasts, and two smaller slurps dripped from the woman's nipple. This series of drawings was seriously turning me on. I felt an uncomfortable tightening in my crotch.
In the last picture the emotionalism of the curls and curves had settled. The woman's hand still held the cock, but now only a single, thin slurp hung suspended from the nipple, and the woman had lowered her head to give the erect tip a light kiss, and the male's silhouetted, undetailed face seemed more at ease.
Ronnie said, "That's all. So far."
Martha said, "Ron, they're beautiful. Really. If only someone would publish these."
Ronnie said, her voice distant and quiet as she gazed at her own drawings, "Oh, there are people who would. But not the way they're supposed to be published. Anyway... they're private right now. Between you and me. And him. Very private. Just for here and just for tonight."
Martha said, "Let me see the one before it again."
Ronnie turned the page back, to the most emotionally charged of the pictures, the one showing the height of the orgasm and the cum spurting and dripping.
"Yes," Martha said, "that one." Martha looked at the picture for a moment, her eyes seeming to reach out to it. I glanced at Ronnie and saw her staring at her drawing, her eyes growing intense.
Martha asked, "Is that what it was like for you. When it actually happened?"
Ronnie whispered, the hint of a smile on her lips, "Yes."
Martha said, "It's a very exciting picture."
Ronnie whispered, "I *was* excited. And Steven had his head thrown back like that. I tried to capture all of it."
I said to Ronnie, my throat a little dry, "If I remember, you didn't seem all that excited."
Ronnie said, her eyes on the picture, "Oh, I was," and she put her hand on my knee and squeezed and said, "I was very excited." Then Ronnie pointed to the squirting sperm and asked quietly, "What does that feel like? When it spouts up like that?"
I started to laugh at that one, but I sighed, seeing that she was serious and intent, and I answered lightly, "I really don't know how to explain it."
Martha said to Ronnie, "You do ask tough questions, Ron."
Ronnie said, unfazed but acknowledging Martha and me with a fleeting, apologetic little shrug, "Well, but... I mean, just this coming out of you like that. Can you physically feel it?"
I rubbed my forehead, searching for words, and said, "I don't know if there are words for that. It... well, I do feel it kind of boiling up from under my testicles, that's where it starts, but--"
Ronnie murmured, "Testicles, I hate that word."
I went on, "Well, boiling up from down under, and then... I don't really feel it going through me, but I do feel it in the slit, the little slit in my tip, because the skin around the slit has nerves." I shrugged. "That's the only way I can describe it, I guess."
Martha said to Ronnie, "This is my argument for the value of sex education in schools."
Ronnie said, "Oh, they only talk about hormones and cells in sex ed, they don't talk about orgasmic pleasure and emotions."
Martha said, "They would if I taught sex education."
Ronnie touched Martha's shoulder and said gently, "That, Martha, is why they don't let you teach it." Martha nodded, conceding the point, and Ronnie looked back at the drawing. She said absently, "I know about the pulses, it's very exciting to feel that, but..." Ronnie sighed resignedly and said, "Oh, I'm making this too complicated, I guess."
Martha interrupted to help me out, telling Ronnie, "The guy feels a lot of internal movement in his scrotum, that results from the muscle action down there where ejaculate is collected, and it forces the fluid out. It's very pleasurable. A lot like water going down your throat when you're really thirsty, only it's in reverse." As Martha spoke I recalled telling her the same thing, years ago, in the Lauderdale Courts.
Ronnie glanced at her, "You learn this in sex ed class?"
Martha said, "A guy told me. He also told me guys don't really care to talk about it, or they don't know how."
Ronnie sighed again. "Well, the sight of a strong male orgasm is so... so much more stimulating than I thought it would be."
Martha asked Ronnie, "And what were your feelings? What did you feel seeing this, and drawing it?"
Ronnie said, looking up and pondering. "Oh, I felt... when the cum flew up and landed on me, you know, these heavy drops jumping up and striking me, so softly but so, mm, so strong, it was... it was exciting, but at the same time it was soothing, it was... comforting, and very dark, very... primitive..." Ronnie smiled weakly. She closed the book, saying, "I guess Steven's right. I don't think there are words for it."
Martha said, prompting her, "There was a sense of power? Remember? You said the guy always seemed to be in control, and you wanted to experience that yourself."
Ronnie admitted quietly, "Yes. There was that. There was so much more, though. Steven gets so involved in his orgasm..." She sighed and she rose to her knees on the mattress and said, "It was feeling, all feeling. I don't have words. I just draw it." She gently pitched the big paper tablet away from her, and it floated lightly away and landed flat on the floor near the bed.
We relaxed on the bed, Martha telling Ronnie that the pictures were wonderful, and Ronnie lay on her side facing me, her head resting on a pillow and one arm crooked behind her head, and I lay on my side facing Ronnie, propped up on one elbow, and Martha sat on her folded legs on Ronnie's other side.
Ronnie looked up at me. She said calmly, "I read that during orgasm there's a vibration in the sex organs. It's like a note on a tuning fork that plays at a frequency of eight cycles per second. And terror is a feeling very similar to it."
I murmured, "Yes. That's below the threshold of audibility.
Martha said, gazing at the candle near her side of the bed, "When I have an orgasm, it's a series of events. There's a tension that builds for a long time, and it's very pleasing, which is why I like to hold onto it as long as I can. It increases the pleasure. And I feel this great... this great need to be filled with something, this need to open up and be filled with... with something. Then there's a... a softness, I guess. It's like a heavenly softness that caresses and fills my whole body, and it builds inside me and it just seems to fill me."
Ronnie said quietly, "Yes. I feel something like that. It really is difficult to describe, isn't it?"
Martha said quietly, looking at the candle, "Yes."
Ronnie looked up at me, her eyes finding mine. "What's it like for you, Steven?"
I said, I don't know."
She smiled. "Come on. Try. Let me know what it's like for you, so I can make it better."
I sighed deeply, thinking. I let my eyes glance around, Ronnie's eyes being too distracting while she looked at me. I said, "Well, there are so many external sensations. Too many, I can't get even get into all that --"
Ronnie said softly, "No, not the externals, I can guess about that. I mean, inside. Tell me."
I smiled and said, "Well, no, I'd have to sort all that out. We could be here for days."
She said, "That's all right," and she reached out and laid her palm on my thigh, which was near her hip. She said, "We'll listen."
I said, "That's a large order. I was thinking more in terms of the overall sensation, the main feeling."
"All right," Ronnie said, her nails casually stroking my thigh and her eyes watching me, her eyes increasingly attentive.
Martha prodded me, "Tell her, Steven. Try."
As I thought about it, Martha rose from her spot on Ronnie's other side, and she walked around the end of the bed while I spoke, and she got onto her knees just behind me on the mattress and touched my shoulder and back while I said, "There's a pressure that builds, as you say. And then I feel that vibration you talk about. It's funny, the pleasure of that vibration is so strong and yet I can't... can't say exactly where it happens. It's not exactly in my penis, it's... it just seems to be spread all through the organs, not in any one place. But that feeling leads to the release. And the release is... the best part is the pouring out, the... the spurting."
"Yes," Ronnie said. Her finger kept stroking a little spot on my thigh, and Martha leaned closer into my back, her nipples against me, and Ronnie's eyes tracked mine as if her eyes were trying to feel what my words were saying.
Martha said to Ronnie, "The spasm, Ronnie, the squirt, it's like the cervix clamping. You know? Only shorter and faster."
"Right," Ronnie said, her eyes still watching me.
I went on, frowning with the difficulty of the thought, "But it's the ejaculating, it's the..."
Ronnie winced, shaking her head and muttering ruefully, "God, the words they thought up for this. Ejaculate. Scrotum. And they say that words like squirt and balls are ugly. Can you believe it?" She opened her eyes. "Sorry, baby, go ahead."
I said, "If I had the pleasure sensation, but the emptying was missing, the spurting, then I guess the orgasm wouldn't feel complete. Although that vibration really does feel good."
Martha said, her face on my shoulder, "So it's the emptying, the release of pressure. Mmm. That explains a lot about the first time I saw you cum. That's why it's so different when I would hold you back from finishing."
I nodded yes, and Ronnie surprised me when she asked Martha, "You gave Steven an orgasm before? In Memphis?"
Martha tensed a little, averting Ronnie's eyes, and said, "Well. A while ago."
Ronnie smiled. "I thought so. And it must have been very exciting, both of you so young and innocent."
Martha blushed, "Not very innocent. And it was a long time ago."
Ronnie said, "But it's still exciting." Her eyes lit up and she gave a tight, girlish grin. "Steven, Martha showed you how to cum? Way back then, she gave you an orgasm?" And Martha and I blushed, Martha conceding, "Well, yes." And Ronnie opened her mouth wide in amazed delight and gaped at us, and then her mouth closed into a soft smile. "Oh, that's so exciting! And very dark. Oh, so very dark." Ronnie looked at me again and said, her voice growing lazy and sensual, "And so that's why you and Martha let the pressure keep building... Stronger pressure, stronger release."
"Yes," I said. I saw Ronnie watching me, and she seemed almost enraptured by the images in her own head, and she whispered, "So that's why you and Martha like it so slow. Very clever."
I shrugged. "Well, that's as close as I can get to a description. Give me a couple of months and a thesaurus, and I'll write you a nice, long report."
Martha chuckled. "Mister Kinsey beat you to it."
I looked down at Ronnie, who didn't laugh with Martha, and who still studied me with her eyes and stroked my thigh with her nails. She said, as if she meditated on each word, "The guy feels complete being emptied, and... and gals enjoy being filled."
"Yes, " I said. "Convenient little design, isn't it?"
"Very," Ronnie said. Her hand stroked higher on my thigh. I was sitting with my legs under me, my knees against Ronnie's hip, and I let my palm caress her thigh while her fingernails inched up my leg toward my lap. And Martha's lips and nails on my back weren't making my dick any smaller. It was sticking up and lying back, to just below my navel.
Ronnie said, "I'm disappointed. I thought my pictures would have you after me like gangbusters."
I nudged my lips forward, considering it. "That could still happen."
She glanced at my cock and back at me and her smile widened a little. She said, "I want you bigger. You're not there yet."
I said, "That could happen, too."
Ronnie's humid but calmly waiting eyes told me she meant it. Or maybe it was our nearness to the candle, only a few feet away this time instead of across the room. The steady flame of the candle seemed to be reflected in her pupils.
Martha slid her nails around to my tummy and said, "Ronnie, I think you set up your pictures just to get Steven revved up."
"Me?" Ronnie said innocently. Then she admitted to Martha, "Of course I did. What do you think? My drawings always get me turned up. I figured they'd have Steven in a dead heat by now."
I said "I'm heated, all right. But I like the pressure to build up. Not always, but most of the time." I bent down and gave Ronnie's neck a couple of light kisses.
She put her arms around my shoulders and said, "Mmm. I like those," and then I started kissing downward toward her nipples. But she lifted my head and placed her palms at each side of my face, and she began to cover my face and neck with wet, warm little kisses and tongue strokes. And they seemed hungry, those kisses, small but hungry, and coaxing, and then she sucked a love-bite onto my shoulder, and then she held my face in her hands again. She looked at me, her face calm and half smiling as it almost always was, but there was something hot in her eyes, something torrid and determined. She asked in that curiously unruffled, steady voice of hers, the voice she used while her eyes blazed with a different story, "It's my turn to do what Martha did last time." I frowned, not knowing what she meant, and she said, "Sit on the edge of the bed. It's my turn this time."
I got onto the edge of the bed, feet on the floor, and Ronnie knelt between my knees, and Martha knelt beside me on the bed. Ronnie held my cock with one hand, and with the other she cradled my balls. She looked up at me and said, "Just a little work on the pressure, okay?" I smiled down at her and she squeezed my dick, pulling up, and she saw the bead of cum ooze out and she said, "Mmm. Already." Martha leaned against me and stroked my arm and watched Ronnie put her tongue on my tip and licked off the precum and swallowed it, and then she put her mouth around my tip for second, and then Ronnie's head went down very slowly.
Martha said, "Good, Ronnie. Good, do it slow."
Ronnie's head came up, and I closed my eyes, and then Ronnie's mouth went down again, and her tongue caressed my underside as her head pulled up and then let me go, and I opened my eyes and sighed inward for a little air, and I saw Ronnie looking up at me. Her eyes were getting smoky the way Martha's did sometimes, and I wondered if all women had that same look, if their chemistry actually affected a change in their eyes when they got hot.
Ronnie said in a hushed voice, her blue eyes lusty and shadowy, "Now, don't cum. Don't cum in my mouth, okay? I'm gonna suck it and get you really hard, and then I want you inside me. Is that okay? Can we do it like that?"
I nodded yes, not finding much to argue with; and figuring that if I had to use a condom with Ronnie, maybe getting me all fired up would afford me a better chance at cumming inside the pesky thing. And so it was just a matter of enjoying Ronnie's turn with her mouth at the steering stick, as it were, while Martha's lips and fingernails did a number on my body. And then I'd finally get inside Ronnie and cum.
Ronnie's mouth took its next trip down my cock my starting at my tip and sliding her thin, petal-like inner lips around the corona and around and around and around and around until my cock throbbed. Then she parted her mouth slightly as it went down and down and down, and the farther down she went the slower she moved, until my cock was almost in there, almost, almost, and it began to twitch and in my head I shouted Take it in your mouth and suck, and when I finally panted brokenly, "Mm. Oh!", her mouth sucked, loosened, and sucked without moving, and the technique actually soothed me in a crazy way, for at least I didn't get more delirious. Then she paused, and then I gave a deep sigh as Ronnie fell into slow, leisurely up and down suck, a little slower than the sucking Martha usually did on me. It was a unique sensation, the way she did it; for somehow her mouth seemed to be saying, this won't make you climax, this just makes you feel good, and I let my eyes open and I was getting my breath back while Martha kissed my neck and ears and ran her nails over my chest and tummy, and then Martha kissed downward and her lips found my nipple and sucked it. I looked down at Ronnie, at her pretty face framed with wavy black hair, her eyelids closed as her mouth nursed my erection into a new, pleasant, lewdly itching hardness. I found the pleasure of the feel of her mouth and motion making me grin devilishly, and a thought flashed through my head that kept saying this lady really knows how I like to be sucked, she really knows.
Ronnie lay with her head resting on the pillow and cradled my head on her breast, cautioning me, "Careful. I'm a little sensitive, too, right now." She closed her eyes peacefully while I kept my mouth easy on her nipples. In the dark, quiet room I spent many long, long minutes fingerfucking her and then licking until she was wet and ready enough for my finger to slip effortlessly inside. Martha watched, lying on her tummy on Ronnie's other side and stroking my back and rump, kissing my...
During that same week, more complications ensued. As usual in New York, it was best to expect the unexpected, while expecting the expected to involve unexpected hassles. On Monday I got a little financial relief when Fiore announced that I was in good enough shape to get transferred to a less expensive class, out of the more costly, personalized sessions. The change lowered the overall price of Fiore's training to one-half the former cost -- a good move for me because I was beginning to see...
It was a little after eleven Friday night. Martha lay atop me, her hips over my face, her head over my cock. She ran her tongue around my glans, slowly, around and around, and I licked her tush and licked downward along the round muscles and onto the back of her thighs and then toward her pussy and along the rim of her slit, up and down, and she moaned, "Ahh. Steven." Her mouth enclosed my tip, and then slid down, down. I sighed hotly, "God. Martha." Her mouth moved up and then off me,...
Martha and I undressed in the bedroom while Ronnie went into the bathroom for a minute. Outside, the sun had descended just below the height of the West Side buildings. Martha watched me with a little smile while she stepped out of her panties and I pushed down my jocks. Naked, she walked to the window and drew the thin Woolworth's curtains closed, blocking out the pink glow of dusk, dimming the room. Martha moved to her dresser, and I watched her hazel eyes and her nipples and her auburn...
In the candlelight Martha's teeth and eyes glinted as she lay naked under me, knees drawn back, grinning up at me. She held my cock at the root with one hand and she watched my eyes while I entered her. I groaned as her creamy pussy closed around me. Her grin widened when I started screwing. She whispered, "Fuck. Fuck." Her cunt gripped, tight. I groaned again, my head arching back. Martha whispered, "Fuck." I looked at her eyes. They sparkled with lust. I knew by the look in them...
When Martha saw I'd stopped she rose upright and put a hand on Ronnie's shoulder, and Ronnie let her head fall back and closed her eyes and sighed. I watched her rest for a moment, and then I withdrew my wet finger and put my palm on Ronnie's tummy. She opened her eyes and looked at me, her eyes intense and edgy. I smiled and asked, "Okay with you if we stop?" She didn't say anything, didn't blink her eyes. She smirked, but her eyes didn't change. She laid one hand on the back of my...
Sunday night after dinner we went to Ronnie's apartment again. The previous Friday's coupling had left the three of us less needful. Sunday night began as a languid body massage session, without lotion. We caressed and teased, and lay for some time doing little more than running a finger along an arm or leg while we talked. A long time after we lit a candle and undressed, I was lying on my back with Ronnie sitting up on my right and Martha lying alongside me on the left, and while Ronnie...
Some events are like dreams. Their cause, their meaning, their place in one's history remain forever unexplained. They occur once in time, surprising us sometimes, but always making a mockery of our expectations. In memory they are recurring, timeless, with vague borders and an always jumbled, inexact sequence. In the aftermath all one can say is that they occurred, and defiant memory recalls only the pieces, never their source or their reason. In the yellow-white sun Martha and Ronnie...
Our Friday night dinner with Ronnie had a late start because Martha had to stay at Columbia late for a staff lecture. By nine o'clock the three of us were in a diner, with Martha tiredly picking at her food. Ronnie announced, "Martha, Steven has consented to letting me draw his perfectly proportioned body. So don't make plans for late Sunday afternoon. He's mine for the day." Martha said dully, "Oh. That's nice, Steven. Wait until you see her work. She's good." Ronnie said,...
Everything I did in New York had me thinking of Memphis. My Saturday night date with Becky was a lot of fun. Innocent fun, despite the fact that Becky was such a lively, sweet tempered turn-on. I took her to see 'Bridge Over the River Kwai', which I'd seen before but wanted to see again. It was an exercise in socializing. Merely sitting next to cute Becky in a movie house was sexually arousing. I couldn't help but feel affection for her, she was so likeable and bright. But my emotions...
The small, candlelit room seemed untouched by time. The earth stopped turning. As if in a dense, humid fog of sexuality, I let Ronnie relax onto her back and gave each of her nipples a gentle suck for a moment while she lay with her eyes closed, her breath easing. Then I rose and enfolded Martha in my arms, my sweet, beautiful, sexy Martha, and we held each other longingly and she lay back on the floor and opened her legs and smiled, her eyes simmering, and she whispered, "Lick me, hon....
On Friday night Ronnie had a date that precluded our usual threeway dinner and "extended dessert," as Ronnie called it. Martha met me for a quick dinner at a diner in the West 70's and prepped me for my meeting with yet another of her teenage girlfriends, Jessica. She said while we ate, "The man in charge of the summer drama program at Jessica's high school is a friend of mine. His name is Howard. I told him about you several times, and he's looking forward to meeting you. I haven't...
Wednesday. The nude beach at Fire Island, again. A breezy, slightly cloudy day. Martha grumbled, "Out here in broad daylight." She glanced quickly up and down the beach. "So who's around?", Ronnie said. "There's nobody for miles." She sat Indian style on our big towel in front of me. I sat upright, my knees under me, while Ronnie's left hand cradled my balls. Her right hand, lathered with suntan lotion, rhythmically squeezed my cock in a well controlled milking motion. Martha...
Each day in New York introduced me to a different and fascinating experience that I hadn't imagined in Memphis. Wednesday was no exception. The Long Island Railroad was a world of its own. We rose at five thirty and Martha and Ronnie and I had a quick, greasy breakfast in Pennsylvania Station before boarding a commuter train bound for eastern Long Island. We shuttled through Jamaica Station just as the westbound rush hour mounted; for miles and miles as we headed east toward Bay Shore, we...
I massaged lotion into Martha's arms and shoulders, my strokes growing slower and more sensuous to test Martha's state of mind -whatever the hell that might be at this point -- and moved tentatively to the swell of her breasts and then between them for a while, and then to her tummy, and down the tops of her thighs. Martha closed her eyes and I asked, "Okay?" and she said, "Hm. Take your time, hon." I got more lotion and massaged along the tops of her thighs and calves, and then lightly...
Thursday I was on my own all day. After Martha left for work I went back to sleep. I woke up so late that I knew I could never make it to Fiore's on time, so I called the health club and cancelled for the day, playing sick. I managed to meet Ronnie for lunch, but I sat feeling like a truant. My guilt piled up as I listened to Ronnie talk about how hard she had worked to get through college. I could hardly speak, and soon I was almost too ashamed to look her in the eye. For the rest of the...
Thursday morning her alarm beeped away and she shut it off roughly and flopped onto me naked, her arms sleepy and hot and her lips on my neck. After a couple of minutes I said, "You have to go to work." She groaned. She hugged me. She lay still. I kissed her shoulder. "Hey." She sighed and raised her head and looked at me, her eyes thinking, thinking, and she swept her hair back on both sides. Then her eyes looked at mine and she whispered, "All right." I started the coffee. I had...
For several weeks I saw Martha Jane only now and then as she walked across the grounds on her way in or out of the project. She caught sight of me once from a couple of blocks away and smiled and waved and yelled Hi. Meanwhile, it seems my Mom and future step-dad had gone through a brief spat. They started dating again a few weeks later. But my sitter was not Martha Jane. In fact, I had two different sitters at first. The first must not have been very interesting, as I have absolutely no...
Wednesday, Ronnie's half-day off, Ronnie met me at her apartment. I gave her Anita's birthday for a chart. Ronnie told me that she couldn't borrow the calculator from the office, so I'd have to help her work out the numbers using manual tables that came with her books. It was a pain in the neck. I spent more than half an hour calculating the figures, and another half hour checking them. Ronnie lounged on her sofa, watching me as I bent forward over her coffee table, working. She said,...
Monday. Monday of my last week in New York. I awoke with Martha and her alarm. While she was in the bathroom I was in the kitchen with a big towel wrapped around my waist, getting the coffee started and filling a sink with soapy water to clean up last night's coffee and cake dishes. While I stood waiting for the sink to fill, I thought: What the hell should I do today, find something interesting or just go crazy waiting for the week to pass? While I had my forearms sunk into the soapsuds,...
We strolled down East 86th Street. It was getting late, yet I was amazed that the traffic and the people on Lexington Avenue were as frenzied as they were during the day. Martha led me to a newsstand so besieged with customers that we had to push our way through to get a copy of the Sunday Times. "This is not the way you get it in Memphis," she said, offering me the hefty newspaper with both hands as if it were a precious gift. She saw my eyes bulge: the complete New York Times, including...
We dropped by Martha's place, changed clothes, and then spent the rest of the afternoon on the Staten Island Ferry. Martha showed me what she called the "expected tourist attractions" -- the Statue of Liberty, Wall Street, City Hall. As dusk was underway we walked uptown toward Greenwich Village, where she took me to a hairdresser for a very expensive haircut. Gradually, Martha cheered up. Gradually, I became more sullen. The city was dark. We strolled through New York University and...
Saturday. Rain. Saturday morning Martha and I took a shower together. When she shut off the water I put my arms around her and we stood hugging in the shower stall. She said, "We can't start anything right now. I have to see my gynecologist at ten." "I'm not starting anything. Just hugging." She snuggled closer. "What are you going to do today?" "Pack some. I guess." "Sounds depressing. Why don't you wait, and let me help you?" "I have to get used to the idea." She...
I lay on my side with Martha spooned behind me. Gazing out the small window that overlooked East 87th Street, I gradually returned to earth. I was startled at how quickly and completely I had fucked and climaxed. In trying to recall each detail of the past few moments, I felt I'd lost all control and all awareness; the whole event seemed blurred. Martha slid a hand down my arm and up again, as if learning anew the textures her fingers found there. She said softly, "I missed cumming like...
That was a sensuous summer. Mom's relationship apparently ran smoothly for a while and my stepdad-to-be took her out infrequently but regularly. Often it was on weekends when I was with my grandparents or godparents. But now and then they went out on a Friday, and I could be with Martha Jane. Each time, Martha Jane would show up on time and we'd fix dinner for each other, clean up, do a little homework, and then undress each other in the tiny bedroom. Soon the room echoed with our sighs and...
Perhaps, when I awoke groggily at my Mama Rose's house that Saturday morning, July 2, 1955, I had been dreaming of my father while asleep in that room. I had little else to hold before me as a model of what I might do and how I might behave when I went to Union Station later that day to say goodbye to Martha. I wondered how Steven Senior might handle it: he was a hero, a winner of the Air Medal, two Purple Hearts and the Silver Star. He had faced the terror of war with the Nazis twenty-two...
In December 1953 my Mom married and my stepfather moved into the apartment temporarily while they searched for a new house. The ceremony was little more than a small tea party in a room in the reception house at St. Mary's Church. This being my mother's second marriage, she didn't think a large wedding would be appropriate, and my conservative step-dad agreed. They took over the old bedroom, and I slept on the pullout sofa in the living room. Business problems at my stepdad's supermarket...
Candy met Martha at a friend's party. She had noticed Martha moving around the room. Everyone else seemed to notice Martha too. It was, she mused, not only because of Martha's generous proportions -- but also because of her easy laugh, booming voice and the animated way she flung her arms and head when chatting. You could see Martha was accustomed to being noticed and she did nothing to make herself any less the centre of attention by her style of dress, which was a loud floral clingy number...
Sunday. I woke at seven. I left Martha sleeping and donned my new-made cutoff shorts and my new running shoes and I jogged to the newsstand on 86th Street. But I was too rested and energized to stop for the Times. Something got into me; I kept jogging, picking up the pace and heading for Central Park. I zoomed into the park and across the small meadow beside the Metropolitan Museum. The few people who were about ignored me, and I chided myself for worrying in the first place that people in...
It was very early Thursday morning and a woman on the airplane who sat next to me and looked like my mother was smiling at me and asking, "You're going back?" I smiled at her politely and said "Yes." She said, "Oh, you'll love it in Memphis," and I smiled politely and shook my head and said, "No, New York." She said "But we're going to Memphis." I said "No. New York." I rested my head against the padded headrest. I closed my eyes, and it was just as it was when I was on the...
I had a bad cold. It was just before Thanksgiving. Wearing a heavy brown flannel robe, I sat up against the headboard as Martha Jane settled near me on the bed and sat Indian-style. In her hand she had a bottle of green cough syrup, a bottle of cod liver oil, and a bottle of ear drops. "Okay, hon, time for dessert." "That's not dessert," I complained. "This is dessert for sick folks." She shimmied her hips into the mattress to get comfy. "Now, let's see, what does this say... ?"...
Any predictions, premonitions or expectations I might have had about New York were quickly and unexpectedly undone and/or displaced at every turn. Life in Memphis, like its population, was fairly uniform and predictable. Not so in New York. Martha turned out to be a pretty decent companion during the week, despite an occasionally cranky outburst. If Ronnie was in the throes of her period, she showed little sign of it; she was as eventempered as ever at our two lunch dates during the week....
Sunday. I had been in New York six weeks and two days. Sunday morning Martha and I went to an Appalachian Arts exhibit at the Metropolitan, and late Sunday afternoon we went with Ronnie to see an old Greta Garbo movie at the Museum of Modern Art. Then we went to a diner. For the first time, as we ate, Martha asked me about the party. She said, "It must have been great. He was out until two o'clock." Ronnie said, "Two o'clock? Hey, hey. And how did Anita hold up?" I said flatly,...
The week preceding Martha Jane's last weekend of packing before she left her charming apartment near Memphis State was a long, numbing one. As far as I knew, it would be my last chance to spend time with her before she moved to East Memphis under her new stepdad's watchful eye. Although we spoke by telephone briefly during the week and set the schedule for my Saturday visit, there was no mention of what might or might not happen after that weekend. I was too fearful of bringing it up. When...
Her eyes and her words left me speechless. I cleared my throat and concealed my state of shock, nodding firmly to signal my acceptance of what she had said. I shuffled nervously. She waited, staring at me almost apprehensively. She seemed at once both resolute and vulnerable. She said softly, "I hope... I didn't blow your fuses." I said with a brittle smile, "They're not fuses. They're circuit breakers. They reset after a few minutes." She smiled sweetly. "Have I... burst all your...
Neither my parents nor Martha Jane's mother were home that week. For the first time, Martha Jane slept overnight with me. When I woke, earlier than usual, the morning sun was just peeking over the rooftops of the project buildings beyond mine. Two radiant shafts of sunlight poured through the bedroom's double window and across the middle of the bed. Martha Jane was not with me, but I knew where she was by the muffled sound of running water behind the closed bathroom door. I could not have...
I sat dumbfounded while viewing my first foreign language film, so amazed, that at first I didn't feel Martha nudge me with her elbow in the dark theater until she did so insistently. I turned to her. She wiggled her fingers near my face. Understanding, I took her hand in mine. She smiled contentedly and hugged our clasped hands against her thigh over her skirt. She rubbed my arm cozily, and turned back to the movie. I had never seen such a film. The movie was "Bicycle Thief," which had...
I blinked. The room was black. The candle was out. Vaguely, I heard distant sparrows. Vaguely, I felt a warm, small, still hand resting on my cheek, barely touching my skin. I saw lips near my face, and a face so close to mine that my sleepy eyes couldn't focus on it. Before I saw any features or sensed any other signals, I knew the face and hand were Martha's. I was on my back but leaning slightly to my right, my right arm slung across the bed toward the night table at the right of the...
Ronnie said to me as I sat nude on a three-legged stool and she started drawing, "Martha won't let me draw her, you know." I asked "Why not?" "She sat for me about the time we first met. When we were roommates. And she had such a classic, gorgeous figure, I told her she just had to pose nude for me, just *had* to. Or in a swim suit or something." "She wouldn't?" Ronnie sighed, erasing something. "No." I said, trying to balance myself with one foot on the floor and my other...
Monday morning, Martha went back to the same old grind. After she left for work I went back to my same old grind, jogging to Central Park and hanging a few chin-ups from a tree limb. I was closer to Memphis, no closer to staying in New York or finding ways to get back more often, no nearer to a conclusion about my feelings for Martha or Ronnie. I did have cash in my pocket and a bundle of traveler's checks I'd earned from posing. While I was cleaning up at Martha's, Ronnie called on the...
Saturday, August 24, 1957. I woke up at six. Martha slept like a log beside me. Even after a good night's sleep, I was grumpy; I was ready for life to ease up. Nothing was turning out the way I wanted it to. Two weeks left in New York. I had a hard run through Central Park, trying to run past unease and frustration but feeling it keeping pace with me. When I arrived at Martha's I was covered with sweat. Martha was in the kitchen shower. She swept aside the shower curtain and peered out...
One day in early October when I came home very late from school, Mom said as I entered the kitchen, "Oh, there you are. You missed Martha Jane's call. I told her I didn't know where you were. I said tonelessly, "Okay." I opened the refrigerator, looking for something to eat. Mom stood with her hands in the dishwater. "That reminds me, she called a couple of weeks ago, and you weren't here then, either. I guess I forgot all about it." I took a milk carton out of the refrigerator....
Saturday. In my mind, it was Anita Day. Anita didn't attend the Saturday class. I called her on the telephone the day before. She said she had a busy schedule and wouldn't be at Fiore's, but I was to meet her for the party with her friends at her godparents' home. My exhausting Friday night with Martha and Ronnie had me in a calm mood for handling myself in a sexually civilized manner with Anita. In fact, I found myself hiding out again when I met Anita and we strolled to the expensive...
I had a few disastrous flirtations. The Brothers held a sophomore class prom. Those who couldn't find a date could get one through Brother Lawrence's contacts with the Catholic girls' schools in town. At first, my sister was going to fix me up with a blind date. After meeting several of her girlfriends I decided I'd be better off with pot luck through Brother Lawrence. How bad could it be, I told myself, after some of my dates in New York? But trying it was. Being driven to and from the...
During the week, Ronnie set me up with two posing assignments. They went well, although I found myself very restless while trying to hold a single pose for more than fifteen minutes. I posed twice for the same artist, a middle-aged woman in Greenwich Village whose apartment walls were literally flooded with drawings, paintings, and photographs by herself and others. She seemed quite pleased with me, and she gave me some pointers on how to promote myself and register with various services. I...
When I opened my eyes Saturday morning the sun was shining with a brightness that told me it had been daylight for hours. The little fan on the window whirred steadily, streaming air toward the bed. I glanced at the clock. Eight twenty. Martha was half on me, using my chest for a pillow. I stroked her hair. She didn't stir. I kissed her hair and caressed her shoulder. On my other side, Ronnie had turned away and slept curled on her side, her tush against my hip, my arm still cradling her...
Martha Jane and my mother helped me walk into our apartment, where they settled me face up on the sofa and placed a wet rag over my face. Mom called the relative who lived closest to us in town, my Grandma Rose Ricci, to hurry over in their car and get me to nearby St. Joseph's Hospital. But Grandma Rose was too distraught to drive and she called my Aunt Frances, who in turn was so distraught she called my Aunt Josephine, who in turn was also so distraught she called her niece, my cousin...
Friday. Martha woke with a start at a quarter to seven. "Damn! The alarm didn't go off!" She ran into the bathroom. I shook my head and rubbed my eyes. It occurred to me that I had not changed Martha's alarm back to its regular wake-up time after setting the alarm for Fiore's appointment the day before. Crap! As if I hadn't already disrupted Martha's existence! I ran into the kitchen and got the coffee started and made toast. In the bathroom, Martha was on the rampage, dropping...
Wednesday morning. My last Wednesday in New York. While Martha showered that morning in the kitchen I finished making coffee and toast and I put on my running clothes. Then I remembered that I was supposed to take a day off from working-out. Martha hurried into the living room to gulp down her coffee and toast. She saw me lounging at the table. "You didn't run yet?" "Takin' a day off." "Good!" She bent down to me, then she sat on my lap with an arm around my shoulder. "Good. You...
Mom convulsed into a tight ball on her side and retched feebly, making a small sticky red stain in the kleenex she held to her mouth. Then she relaxed with a pitiful moan. "What's wrong?" I asked, going swiftly to her side of the bed. She licked her lips clean and tried to catch her breath. Not getting an answer, I raised my voice fearfully. "What's wrong? What happened?" "I'm sick, Speedy. It came on... all of a sudden." "What's wrong? When did it start?" "Called your...
At the time, most of this went right past my very young level of awareness--but I clearly understood that she was troubled. I knew that I somehow had to stay with her and believe in her and help her in some way. I wanted to bring indescribable pleasure and comfort to her. She was making me feel loved and tickly now, and I wanted desperately to do the same for her. I found the folds of her skirt and tried to gather them up, but had a hard time; my hands were too small. She stepped back, not...
She led me to the bedroom and I jumped onto the mattress, as I usually did, and waited for her to turn out the light and fluff up the pillows, as she usually did. But this time she stood very quietly in the dark near the edge of the bed. She took off her bra and panties. I had seen her bra-less often enough, but now she was totally nude. I remember how she looked, her smoky green eyes and frizzy auburn hair reflecting the moonlight. She was slim but not skinny, slightly curvy in the upper...
Twenty teens gathered in the small theater in Anita's building. They were a very mixed group from all over the metropolitan area, some of them rich kids that had attended Anita's earlier party, others were apparently not so rich. A very democratic crowd. I was surprised to see a couple of black couples, an unlikely presence in Memphis. Both couples appeared to be from overseas. Maury sat down front with his coterie of seven or eight admirers, all of them in suits. Chris sat in the farthest...
I whispered, "Let's do this for a while. Just this. Okay?" She swallowed again. "Yes." For a while we silently enjoyed touching and stroking each other with no particular goal in mind other than pleasing ourselves and discovering all the things about us that had changed. As we touched and played we talked. I told her about the plays I'd done, how movies and photography and history had captured so much of my life. She told of her classes, her work, what she had learned. I didn't...
We reached the top of the stairs. She stood in the middle of the living room and looked about. She sighed downheartedly, "I'm so tired of this." Suddenly she started crying; she frowned and then squinted hard, and her eyes closed and squeezed out small pearly tears that tumbled quickly down her cheeks. "I'm so tired of this," she wept, and covered her face quickly with her hands. I went to her and held her shoulders, letting her lean against me with her face in my chest. For a minute...
During the night I awoke twice, finding it dark and still outside. Each time, I felt creepy and giddy and unable to define the vexing nervousness in my legs and chest. When I awoke the third time, it was daylight. Martha was walking into the bedroom in her heels. Dressed and ready for work, she came to my side of the bed. She asked, "What on earth were you dreaming about all night?" I turned onto my back, rubbing my bleary eyes. "I was dreaming?" She sat on the bed and rested a hand on...
The birthday party went on and on, with no surprises disturbing the world of my dead father's family, nothing changing, nothing learned, nothing decided. Soon everyone was hugging and kissing and saying goodbye. During the party I longed to be anywhere but there. I spent the whole time waiting for next Saturday to arrive. This world was a far cry from the world of Martha Jane, an eternity away from our secrets in the dark, of naked flesh reveling in affection and pleasure, of whispered...
Near the end of the summer of 1956, just before I started classes at Christian Brothers High School, I wrote Martha Jane and told her that the main reason I worked all summer was to earn money for a one-week visit to New York. I had saved enough for train fare, and if she didn't have room for me in her apartment I had money for a hotel. Three weeks passed. I'd hoped for a quick reply. I wanted to get to New York before the summer ended. But as the days passed I started losing hope. August...