The Lure Of Cock From The Closet free porn video

It's true. We desire cock. Our wives have no idea what goes on inside of us with this desire to submit...to cock. We hide it from everyone but in our minds it's a runaway train. To touch, feel, pull on, sniff, rub our faces in it, lick it, taste it, suck cock. We've done it before, maybe a short time or a long time ago. The specter of guilt and shame dampens but does not extinguish the flame of our desire for cock. To be unabated in our drive for cock, to be able to freely indulge with a cock these are our secret longings. Denial is twofold; we deny to ourselves that we are Crossdressing homosexual and often we are denied the ability to freely have cock we so deeply desire.

Speaking for myself & perhaps many other married men I would love to be flitting around dressed as a woman for a handsome manly man with a big hard cock, to be his 'lover'' to bring pleasure to his manhood. Everyone is different in their kink towards wanting cock, mine is to be submissive and feminine. Some guys focus on only cock in their latent homosexuality, not me. I know I'm gay CD because kissing a man turns me on, makes me feel feminine and gay. Alpha males are very turned on by femme submissive betas like me, turned on by this desire to express our gayness through feminine mannerisms. Panties? You bet! Stockings and high heels? OMG yes! Silky dresses, wigs and lipstick, yes please. Did I mention PINK nylon panties? Guys that wear panties and suck cock are intoxicated by the color pink and the feel of nylon the deeper shade of hot pink the deeper the desire to be gay and suck cock.

With my alter ego sissy mindset I know I would love to have a boyfriend. Someone I could secretly meet just to be dressed with, to kiss him hungrily and most importantly suck his cock. I could easily be a sissy wife to a man. The thought of being able to paint my nails and dress in feminine attire all day stirs a smoldering longing. To be walking around the house in my nylon panties & camisoles & nighties & stockings & high heels & dresses for my 'hubby' is a stimulating thought beyond belief. To be adored for being feminine and to please him sexually all the time, that is the secret longing, to be free to express our gayness.


"Walking around in the kitchen the sound of my high heels clicking on the floor. I twirl around showing off my silky short dress and long legs encased in RH&T nylon stockings, my toes painted pink & lavender showing through & looking sexy. Under my dress I have on a silky pair of Vanity Fair nylon full cut pink panties tightly hugging my ass, my aching cock barely contained in front. You love it! You love what you see! Taking me in your arms we slowly look into each others eyes. We kiss. Softly. Your hands roam under my dress. My panty clad ass feels so good to the touch, for both of us. Then the storm breaks loose and our kissing is passionate madness as I fondle your hardness through your pants. Gasping for breath our hands grope each other's hardness. You are amazed how good it feels to touch a cock in panties under my dress, you run your fingers over my garter straps and gently pull on the top of my stockings.

Your cock is aching for release as I grab at it. I want it. I have to have it. You play with my flat titties and erect nipples through my dress and my bra as I unbuckle your belt and zip you down. I reach in. Its so hard! Fuck, there it is! I finally have it! The flesh of my hands on the flesh of your cock makes you shudder. Soon we are kissing again as we play with each other's cocks. In a whim you slip the straps of my dress off my shoulders & the dress slides down my body. I stand back and let it fall in a pile on the floor. Stepping out of it I stand back some more lifting my arms over my head letting you admire the sight - Me in silver strappy high heel sandals, painted toes, beige RH&T nylon stockings and shimmering pink nylon panty over my garter belt, you love my beige sheer soft cup bra.

Twirling around you admire my panty clad butt. Around again my hard cock strains against the silky panties. You are so hard as I come up to you and we kiss again like hungry a****ls. Again we play with each other's cocks but it is time, I want yours first. Sliding to my knees I press my face into it, it smells divine so musky and manly. Its so big and so hard, the spongy, tacky flesh that encases the rigid beauty. Without further delay I sink my mouth over it, swooning in my panties over finally having your cock in my mouth. I love it! It tastes so good! I so love sucking cock, I love sucking your cock!

You moan as my mouth works wonders on your cock, your shirt falling to the floor, me pulling down your pants as I suck lovingly on your cock. Soon you are completely naked as I helped you out of your pants, shoes & socks your cock in my mouth the whole time.

Finally you pull me up and we kiss again madly as you press our bodies together my panty clad cock onto your hard naked cock. Our wives really have no idea about our homosexual carrying on, how much I love dressing femme and sucking cock, how much you enjoy the company of such an effeminate crossdressing male kissing and fondling him all the way to fucking his tight sissy ass."

And this too:

yes I'm gay...very very gay and married to a real female.

I so love the excitement of dressed for another man...kissing him, kissing him hungrily...as we pull on each other's cocks..and hump cock on cock with each other...then it happens; I get to taste his cock, so luscious and hard, so tasty, such an erotic feeling makes my own cock harder than ever, harder than for my wife, so hot being dressed in bed with a man, makes me feel submissive & feminine, that tingly erotic feeling of homosexual contact...yes feeling submissive & femme, spreading my legs as he enters me, the initial pain & discomfort giving way to feeling his cock inside me the feeling of being fucked, pleasuring a man's cock with my ass pussy, my stocking legs around his back.

...I love having my ass admired & being played with through my dress, standing there as he fondles it, before I sit in his lap my arms around him as we kiss...truly I am very femme in my homosexual psyche, so much so very very gay so much so I love being 'en femme' for a guy - high heels, stockings, nylon panties, garters and stockings a dress ( I love wearing a dress & high heels), wig, make up, pink lipstick mmmmmm love being that femme lingerie woman for a man having him feel me up under my dress, fondling my ass in the panties, playing with my gurl cock as we french kiss mmmmmmm

...Oh my how I love to dress femme, love wearing silky panties, stockings, high heels (silver rhinestone strappy sandals with 5" heels) with my toes painted bubblegum pink, in a silky short dress with spaghetti straps hanging loosely feeling fabulous as it brushes my panty clad bottom as I walk smitten with excitement of the incredible feminine feeling of walking in high heels relishing feeling so very, very gay, such a sissy CD showing off for men in a gay bar walking on clouds it's such an intoxicating feeling being so very gay & loving it & flaunting it...yes so very, very gay & yes so very, very married to a beautiful woman who has no idea how gay I really am...mmmmmm

I have been fucked a few times in my life but these two were both very satisfying affairs:

The 1st time was while visiting my friend. He had just seen my panty top under my jeans, we talked and he said he also loves to CD. He is also very married. We went to the couch (wifes out shopping) and we started kissing and feeling each others panty encased cocks, Just then my girlfriend called (a hottie blond) and I was on the phone with her 20 minutes while the guy waited for me. I then looked him in the eyes and said screw me. Panty crotch aside i sat on his cock and we made love - it was fantastic kissing him while i was on his cock. I sucked his nipples as he moaned and said i'm better than his wife. I took my lips to his and said yes and your better than mine.then we kissed & nuzzled for the longest time then he pulled my ass cheeks and he he fucked me again, his cock slid in easily as I mounted him from on top, a very natural feeling that I loved

The second time was after posting a craigslist ad. Real men love a femme crossdressing male, don't know why but they do. Long ago my posting a 'bi married male seeking same' & it drew about 2 dozen responses. Posting many years later with pics of me in dresses & panties & heels with my pantied ass & luscious hard cock over 300 eager men wanted me. I was selective. We had connected a few times online then got lost in the shuffle. A few months later we re-connected. He was a bit older, a handsome 'silver fox' so to speak. We were going to make a connection first before moving on to other things, so lunch in the middle of a summer day was set at a neutral site. It was at a public golf course, a casual place off to the side, no one there had any idea of our intentions. We talked during lunch and got to know each other a little. After the waitress had cleared our plates we talked some more. As the conversation continued I put my foot up on the chair so he could see up my shorts. He liked what he saw. I had on a pair of beige high waist VanityFair nylon panties I had given my wife. Smiling he kept shifting for a better view, which I obliged flashing him many extended views of my beige panties. He did not know it at the time but I also had on one of my wife's silky half camisoles on under my polo shirt. As things heated up he asked if I would like to go out to his vehicle.

I was parked close and retrieved a knapsack out of my vehicle. In the knapsack I had brought along a wig, some stockings and some high heels. Once inside his vehicle (a very nice Mercedes SUV with dark tinted windows) I took off my shirt & shorts and put on the stockings, heels & wig. Needless to say I was tremendously excited to be there in panties, a cami, stockings, heels & a wig for him. When he reached over and felt my cock through the panties we melted into a hungry kiss, it was so fucking exhilarating. He took off his shirt and pulled his shorts down as I reached for his cock. It was not a real big cock but nice still and very hard, pleasantly hard for a guy his age.

It was a very hot day on not a very busy Tuesday at the golf course. His engine was running with the air conditioning on and we were parked in the back of the lot by the maintenance building with a clear view of everything in front of us. It was so fucking exciting having him play with my cock through the panties but I wanted his and leaned over & took it in my mouth. His cock tasted so good and I took it all the way in my mouth then just relishing sucking and licking it. I told him "your cock tastes so fucking good" and it really did. He sucked on mine too and we kissed some more and generally got ourselves very worked up kissing and taking turns sucking each others' cock.

This went on for quite some time us kissing playing with each others cocks & sucking each other. Finally he asked if there was somewhere we could go. My wife was at work so he followed me home. I put him in the guest bedroom while I got changed back into some lingerie. I had on black RH&T stockings hooked to my black venus garter belt a pair of white nylon panties so he could see the black garter belt thru the white nylon of my panty. I put on a beige sheer cup bra and over everything a very sheer white gown. Walking in there with the lingerie & wig on it was scintillating as I helped him out of his clothes. We were both so hard as we kissed I soon dropped to my knees and took him in my mouth, I just loved that his cock stayed so hard, mine certainly was. We climbed onto the bed and continued kissing and playing with each other. It was not long that we ended up in a 69. His cock screwing my mouth as he licked my gurl cock through my panties.

He really wanted to fuck me, I wanted it too. I turned onto my back and lifted my stocking legs and said make love to me missionary, i'm your woman. There i was in the bed that my wife has slept in making love to a man He had my legs up on his shoulders for better access, it was so sexy being a woman getting fucked by a man. Then it happened. He had worked his cock all the way up inside me and to feel so full with cock was amazing. It was what I had always wanted, to get fucked and be a femme CD sissy for a man, I felt so gay. I knew it was true, I was a willing femme bottom for a man. With his cock deep inside me my own cock was so hard. He continued to fuck me with my legs still up on his shoulders the feeling of a hard cock deep inside you is all consuming, it's like the whole world is centered on the fullness pleasuring your ass pussy. He was close to cumming and leaned forward to kiss me, he moaned and filled me with sperm. Condom? No i wanted his sperm in me.

Some of my recent encounters...:

Had an experience with a guy back in early June his wife was out hiking & I came over & dressed for him. I had on a floral black dress knee length, garters and stocking, nylon panty and black bra. My heels were 5" open back mules which showed off my RH&T of the stockings. Long sandy blonde wig, lipstick and full makeup It was so intoxicating being like that for him, kissing him, feeling his cock through his pants, undressing him, taking his cock in my mouth. He was really into having a CD guy deep throat him, which I obliged, loved taking his cock all the way.He sucked on me too but was really more of a dom and I was glad to attend to his cock.

Then he had me change outfits. My next one was so hot. Hot pink stockings & pink rhinestone high heels, hot pink stretch lace boy short panties, hot pink & black bra and a hot pink 'page boy' wig...pretty fucking gay to be dressed like that for a man. Finally on my knees I sucked him off & he then jacked off all over my mouth & face (I love the taste of cum). Then I laid out and jacked off for him. Really thought I had a steady cock to suck, but alas I think I was a little too gay for him and never heard back from him. After all at the end of the day I'm still a dude dressed up like a chick and perhaps the over the top gayness of hot pink was too much for him.

November I was at hotel & wife did not come along I played golf then luxuriated bathing & shaving, painting my toes and doing my make up for a date. He was a short stocky Italian guy - I was in a black dress, heels, beige stockings, Vanity Fair black nylon full cut panties (my wife's that I 'borrowed') Black bra with perfect make up and toes painted. He was quite a bit shorter than me and was worried about that - till we kissed. He was an awesome kisser and we soon spent hours in the luxurious hotel bed. I changed outfits and sashayed back to bed in the floral Victoria's Secret number. After he came on me I jacked off with him fingering me telling me what a hottie bitch I was. I kissed him goodbye, loved kissing him.

Also back in March of I went to a guy's condo, he was gay and not into crossdressers but said I was too hot to pass up. He was older and as soon as I walked in he kissed me very passionately, I think just to see if I was going to be OK with all of this. My hungry kiss back let him know I would be. As I went in the bedroom to get dressed it was kind of how do I say 'different' as he was playing the piano as I got dressed and made up. When I came out in high heels, white nylon stockings, pink nylon panties, a white very short slip dress, wig & make up it was exhilarating and we walked upstairs. Sitting on the couch we talked, I wanted to be certain he was safe as I rarely see gay men, only married men.

We talked for a while then in a flash we were kissing and I stood up, let my dress fall to the floor and he was after what was in my panties. Soon I was only in heels, stockings and a wig. I actually think I could be naked in heels and hose and wig for a guy all day, actually fantasize about it a lot. Another thing I know I would enjoy would being in panties and heels servicing many guys at once like a cock drunk bitch at a poker party ...mmmmm...anyway we walked back down to his bedroom and kissed and played for several hours, it was so liberating being gay like this, kept my heels on the whole time. I wanted him to fuck me but he said he does not fuck on 1st dates. Finally I jacked off as I was sucking him off; after I came he licked up my cum and fed it to me as we kissed then he was sweet and got a warm washcloth and cleaned me up. He said I was hot and would like to see me in guy mode too. Wanted to hook up with him again but he went travelling with his boyfriend in an RV and never saw him again.

So there you have it...the lure of cock for a closeted gay married man... So I placed an ad...

"mwm looking for a boyfriend... Perhaps CL is not place to look but here goes.

Me = older, trim, tall, healthy, very highly sexed. Like you I love my wife and have good life together but also like you sex is not important to your wife and have a bi side that desires a closet relationship with another man. Not looking for quick, anonymous sex with a stranger. Looking for someone decent to connect with and enjoy this side of ourselves from time to time when opportunity presents itself. Have to admit I'm looking for someone with a nice, big cock that stays hard and not ashamed to let a guy who loves cock suck on yours. I'm more of a beta type bottom looking for an alpha type top. Have cross dressed enough to know its exciting for me to pleasure a guy when all femme but also can just be a regular guy who loves playing with your cock. Hit me up & lets see where it goes..."

Got the usual one line "come over here and suck my cock" responses but also quite a few well written sincere replies.

I met Jim for coffee one morning. He was tall, burly and from what I could tell probably very hairy at about 6'3" and 210 lb. Always a little awkward meeting a stranger with the intention of hooking up for sex but we hit it off pretty good and after several cups of coffee Jim let out a comment:

"I think you would really like my cock" he said as I nodded bashfully that I would. "I'd like to see yours too" he went on. "The wife's at her bridge club about now for a few hours if you want to come over".

I followed him to his place and we went to the living room after both relieving ourselves in the bathroom from all the coffee. There was the tentativeness of getting started but I reached for his cock through his pants and felt it getting hard. He reached for mine as we stood there rubbing each other through our pants. Hoping it wouldn't freak him out I leaned into him for a kiss. I was not to be disappointed as we melted into a hungry man on man kiss. I've always been the feminine one in my gay encounters and this confirmed it as it totally sent me, kissing this very masculine man. When we finally broke the kiss and were gasping excitedly he whispered in my ear "you're so hot" to which I replied "I want your cock" as I got down on my knees and started undoing his pants as he sunk onto the coach. He was taking his shirt off by the time I had his cock out. It was such a lovely b**st; big and hard with a nice helmet head and much thicker than my hard 7" cock. In pure cocksucking lust I took him in my mouth and tasted the wonderfulness of hard penis. Jim had shed his shirt as I pulled down his pants, took off his shoes. Nuzzling my face back into his cock Jim moaned:

"Oh! Fuck! Yes!" he said as my mouth hungrily went after his throbbing 8" cock.

It smelled manly and musky and was a hard timber in a forest of hair. Licking his balls I jacked on it, it felt so tacky and warm in my hand. I stopped for a moment to take off my shirt. Standing topless next to him I lifted my arms over my head to show him my naked chest and shaved under arms. Doing what I hoped he would Jim started feeling up my ass through my jeans. My cock was so hard as he unbuckled my belt and undid my pants. I had a surprise waiting for him. As he pulled down my pants he saw the silky black nylon of my panties I was wearing. His hand firmly grabbed my hard cock as he looked in amazement at the discovery. His other hand fondled my pantie clad ass as my hard cock slipped out into the warm flesh of his adoring hand. Leaning forward Jim slipped my aching cock into his mouth as we both shuddered in sexual excitement.

As his mouth lovingly sucked my cock my knees turned to rubber and I started falling into him. My cock slipped out of his mouth as I pushed him by the shoulders back onto the couch falling on top of him. Like rabid dogs we kissed as my lithe smooth body slithered on top of his hairy masculine frame. I was humping my hard cock onto his cock as the silky panties hugged my balls. Jim had my ass in both hands squeezing firmly as our kissing continued at a torrid pace. Like the horny little bitch I was I slid down his body to continue my quest and slipped his cock back into my mouth as I knelt on the floor before him. Jim did not seem to mind all the loving attention I was bestowing onto his rigid manhood. With deft tongue and deep thrusts onto his cock I sucked, licked, sniffed, nuzzled and jacked on his excited cock. It felt good to be gay, it felt good to be pleasuring Jim's cock. I felt so sexy being just in silky nylon panties sucking cock.

"You suck good cock" Jim moaned. "Its been so long"

I went to town on his cock trying to get as much as I could in my mouth. Taking my mouth off a second Jim furiously jacked on his cock as I tongued his balls. When his breathing quickened and I could tell he was close I clamped my mouth back over his cock and went in and out as deep and fast as I could. In a huff Jim moaned and came in many thick warm spurts in my mouth. I love the taste of cum and was going crazy with cock lust finally sucking off another guy again. It was stunning , my own cock ached in my panties. Keeping him in my mouth as long as possible (cock tastes so good but it always tastes best right after it has cum in your mouth or on your face) I bathed his cock lovingly with my tongue as he lay back in ecstasy. Finally I stood up. My own cock was sticking out of the panties as I stood there for him trying to look sexy. Jim reached for my cock and I humped it into his hand. His other hand slipped into my panties and he slid his big middle finger between my soft cheeks and fingered my tight hole, I was getting close.

"I'd love to fuck that ass" Jim remarked.

"I'd love that too" I whispered in as feminine voice as I could muster. "This is so hot being your gay CD woman" I told him. "I love being gay with you".

"Me too, honey. Me too" Jim replied as I was nearly there from him jacking me off and fingering my ass pussy.

Almost as if in slow motion cum started spurting out of my cock all over his hand and onto his furry chest. Nothing felt sexier than being there in only panties as he played with my cock and my ass. It was intoxicating how gay I felt. This has always been my favorite type of homosexual encounter; me being feminine in panties or a dress for a masculine guy.

We got cleaned up and dressed. As I was leaving we stood by the door. We kissed passionately again. "Can I see you again?" Jim asked as he nuzzled his face into my neck.

" Yes, of course!" I whispered back. "I'll wear a dress and heels and lipstick and a wig" I went on. We were both hard again and I was floating as we parted. Yes! I thought, I have a boyfriend!

My Wife was not home when I got there so I stripped and lay on the bed in the panties and jacked off thinking about how hot the gay encounter I just had was. I was so hard it was silly. I could only think how hot it would be to be dressed 'en femme' while I got to be with such a hung naked man and suck his cock or get fucked by him, cum shot out of my cock as I fingered my ass pussy literally soaking me in cum as I furiously pounded my acing cock.

Got together with Jim the next week on the same day but his wife was hosting cards so we just went for a drive. Parking in a seclude spot in the woods we were just like two teenagers eager for each other. We kissed hungrily as we felt for each other's cock. Soon I had his cock in my mouth with my shirt off and pants down. Jim played with my nipples through my bra and fondled my cock in my panties as I sucked him off. Maybe not the best place to have sex but we didn't care, it was just so exciting being together again. I was so horny and worked up that I came all over his hand before he came in my mouth. It was very exciting, we kissed a long time again before we left.

The next week when his wife was gone we were both very much looking forward to it. Our email contact had been smoldering with us both telling the other how hot we were for each other, especially when I told him I was going to dress up and be his 'gurl'. I had perfected dressing 'en femme' fairly well by this point in my life and decided to go all out classy 1950s style for Jim. I brought my 'drag bag' over and went to the bath room to get dressed. I had painted my toes red and showered and shaved everywhere before coming over and did a quick make up job before getting dressed. With my "long dirty blonde" wig, simple but stunning make up and lipstick, shear tan RH&T stockings, white garter belt, silver strappy 5" high heel sandals, beige high waist nylon panties & bra i got from Secrets In Lace and knee length black dress I looked hot! Even had a little clutch purse on a gold chain. Walking in heels make me feel oh so gay and I love how sexy and femme it makes me feel. I also brought my sheer red long gown and matching panty to wear if he so desired.

As I slithered out walking as sexy as I could Jim was floored:

"Wow!" he said. "Wow, wow, wow, wow, wow, wow WOW!

"You must like it" I cooed.

"Like it! I Love it!" Jim gushed. He put his hand on my ass. I brushed it away.

"Jim!" I chided. "I'm not that kind of girl" I played, walking away. He chased after me.
"What kind of girl are you?" he asked as he caught me and pinned me against the wall, nuzzling his face into my neck.

"A girl who loves cock" Your 1950s woman I whispered back as I felt for his cock through his pants.

We looked in each other's eyes as he started feeling me up through my dress. Soon we were locked in a passionate embrace, kissing madly, kissing hungrily as we felt for each other's cocks. Sliding to the floor on my knees with both hands I played with his cock through his pants. Looking up with puppy dog eyes I undid his pants and pulled down the zipper. With his wonderfully hard cock in my hands Jim removed his shirt as I played with his manhood, OMG it felt so good. Not being able to resist, his cock was soon in my mouth as I hungrily sucked his cock. With his shirt off I pulled down his pants and he kicked them off along with his sandals. My lustful cock sucking resumed as Jim moaned, pleased with my attentive homosexual ministrations. Being the 3rd time with it I had grown fond of his cock, thinking about it a lot in between encounters, totally in love with it when I get to have it in my mouth again. The thought of my wife was soon out of my head as i sucked his cock better than his wife.

Surely I could have slobbered all over that fine cock till it gave me its cummy reward but Jim pulled me up to look at me and relish my 50s style femininity. He rubbed his hands all over me, admiring my dress, my fine stocking-ed legs and lifting up to view my lovely panties and rigid she cock encased in my panty. Dropping my purse to the floor Jim kissed me. Our kissing was as always a passionate hunger for the sexual intimacy missing in our lives. He kissed my shoulder and the strap to my dress slid down. Pulling the other strap down we let the dress slip off my shoulders and down my body into a soft pile around my high heels and red painted toes. Stepping away I raised my arms over my head to let Jim admire his 1950s woman subtle perfect make up with super sexy long false eyelashes, with hard nipples under my bra and smooth shaved underarms, my garter belt holding up silky shear tan stockings in the nice embroidered Italian style my panties worn over the garter belt my hard gay cock pressing the front of my silky nylon panty framed by my garter belt, trying to stand womanly like in my 5" mules. I was any alpha male's dream femme CD.

I sure felt like a dreamy dish for an alpha male, to be nearly naked in sexy lingerie and being taken by a masculine man with a big hard cock, this is what every femme gay CD male longs for. Jim moved in for another kiss we pulled on each other's cocks. His hands were all over me as we broke the kiss and he turned me around to admire my panty clad ass. Jim clutched it in both hands as he nuzzled my neck. We were both so hard it was crazy! Reaching around with one hand he stroked my cock while the other hand slipped inside my panties to finger my ass pussy. He pulled the panties down and pressed the whole length of his cock between my ass cheeks and started humping along the crack. I reached back and put the head against my tight hole. The pre-cum on the tip made it tingle against my ass pussy. I reached down for my purse on the floor and pulled out a small bottle of lube (a girl can never be too ready) and gave it to Jim. Slathering it all over his massive cock and fingering my aching hole with it I heard the bottle drop to the floor as his cock pressed against my tight opening. He kept stabbing his penis at my hole to loosen it up and then I felt it! OMG it was working its way inside my gay ass pussy. It hurt a little at first be he was persistent and humped deeper and harder. I let out a low moan as his wonderful cock stabbed up into me. One last plunge and I could feel the front of his body against my sweet ass cheeks and I was filled with cock. There I was with my panties around one ankle (so I could spread my legs better for my lover) in my wig, high heels, garter belt and stockings, my masculine lover's big hard cock up my ass with his hand pulling on my cock as he kissed my neck from behind. Really could not be more gay than I was at the time, and I loved it! Of all my sexual longing and desires, this was the most fulfilling being the sexy femme bottom to a hung masculine top.

"You're so hot" Jim whispered in my ear as he humped his cock into me and I gasped with the pleasure of being so full of cock getting my ass pussy fucked.

"Talk dirty to me Jim" I managed to utter back. "I love your cock! Tell me how much you love me.

"You horny little bitch!" Jim accommodated. "Never seen a girl like cock as much as you. Take...My...Cock...You.. he swore in staccato thrusts of his cock deep up into me.

"Oh Jim! Don't stop! I'm such a horny gay sissy. I'm...So...Fucking...Gay...this feels so good" I gasped. My own hard cock danced in his warm rough hand as my ass rode his cock.
"Little sissy loves cock? Doesn't she?" Jim chided me. "Take my cock as he repeatedly humped my, horny ass.

Holding on to me he nuzzled into my neck and bit my ear from behind. His powerful manly grasp on me made me feel so feminine as his cock thrust up into me. His breathing quickened as did his humping my ass.

"Holy Fuck!" Jim pistoned up into me. "Ahhhhhhrrrrrrrrr" as he came. He repeatedly stabbed his cock up into me in a series of even and slow but forceful thrusts. And then he stopped. With one last push that he held pushing into me as his body shuddered. Jim held me tight in a bear hug and whispered "You're so hot" followed by kissing and nuzzling my neck as we were still joined from him ass fucking me from behind. His hand was till stroking my cock, how I had not cum by this point is a mystery. Eventually (after quite a while) his cock slid from my ass. I turned around, put my arms around his neck and kissed my fantastic alpha male lover. Jim pulled on my cock as we kissed and rubbed his half hard cum coated cock on my very hard cock. As we broke our kiss I put my hands over my head and let him jack me off. His manly hand on my cock made me feel so gay especially with cum dripping from my ass and standing there in high heels and stockings exposed to him as he played with my cock.

Leaning down he took one then the other of my nipples through my bra in his mouth tonguing and sucking forcefully making me shudder as he played with my cock. My cock was so hard as he played with it in his hands and teased my little flat titties. Jim then knelt before me and took my cock in both hands.

"You have a beautiful cock for a girl" he grinned. "I like cock too" as he knelt down and sunk his mouth over my hardness. My knees nearly buckled as he began to suck my cock. I know I'm a femme sissy but feeling of when a guy sucks your cock is amazing, so determined and lusting for it, so erotic and taboo, unlike a female mouth. Guys sucking cock like the burly bear now sucking on mine is a delicious, decadent feeling, you know your cock is being adored by the cock hungry attentiveness like the head Jim was giving me. You could tell he relished the taste and feel of my cock by how eager he sucked on it, how he moaned in pleasure at its taste, how he pulled it out, licked at my shaved balls, tongued the shaft before hungrily sucking in and out. OMG my cock felt so good in his mouth it tingled and made me squirm a bit and made me feel gayer than ever getting my cock sucked so intently by such a masculine man. It was almost too much it felt so good. I fell forward and put my hands on his shoulders as our naughty little sex act played out. In a haze as Jim devoured my cock I came; my cum streamed into his mouth as I barely uttered a sound. As he could tell I was coming in his mouth that made him all the more cock hungry as he really went after my cock as I shuddered and nearly collapsed onto him. Jim sucked away at me bathing my cock, balls and shaft with his forceful tongue before finally coming off and pulling me up.

We were still so infatuated with our sexing that Jim ran his hands all over me and then kissed me every bit as passionately as before we orgasm-ed. I pulled my panties up and put my dress back on. Leading me over to the couch still naked Jim sat down as I fell onto his lap. He pawed at me through my dress as I ran my hands through his hairy chest. Can't tell you how sexy I felt all dressed and freshly fucked. With Jim it was so cool; unlike a quick anonymous romp with a stranger with him it was like I was his girlfriend and he was a very sweet boyfriend; sensuous and very appreciative that he just got laid (plus the other sweet benefits!). I felt that nice connection like a girl feels after sex with her boyfriend. We kissed and nuzzled some more, it was heaven.

We only had a half an hour so I knew I needed to get changed, freshened up an leave. That night rather late, Jim sent a message to see if I wanted to chat online:

Me: Hi Hon! Have fun today?

Jim: Did I ever! You are best I've ever had.

Me: Really! You can't be serious.

Jim: No, serious. My wife dont even come close.

Me: Really! You can't be serious.

Jim: No, serious.

Me: All the women you've had in your life and guy dressed up as a woman is the best?

Jim: You turn me on.

Me: I'm flattered.

Jim: A guy or not U R very sexy.

Me: Thank you. Doesn't bother you that I'm so gay? A guy in panties, high heels, a dress, wig and lipstick is pretty gay.

Jim: You drive me crazy.

Me: Our wives would freak out if they knew. Mine would.

Jim: Mine would too, though I think she knows I have bi leanings.

Me:????

Jim: She's seen some of the things I look at online.

Me: Only people that have seen me dressed know. I can't help it. I've been a closet CD homosexual since I was 18.

Jim: And your wife has no idea?

Me: She knows how much I love panties. On the rare occasions we have sex sometimes she'll rub me with her panties after I've taken them off and licked her. They are always full cut brief style nylon I've bought her dozens. The best is when she is rubbing me with them and I lift my feet up off the bed and kinda of 'indicate' for her to put them on me.

Jim: And?

Me: She'll pull them up on me. It turns me on so much to be hard in panties and have her rub me. Really gets me excited, I'm so hard by the time we screw. Then right after I cum I take them off fast so she won't think I'm gay or that I like wearing them too much, which is true on both counts.

Jim: My wife has very little even close to sexy undergarments. You are way sexier than most women.

Me: But I'm not too gay for you?

Jim: You keep asking that. I don't worry about how "gay" it is, I just know it turns me on to be with you. Sex with you is as hot as I've ever had with anyone male or female.

Me: Just so you know I love sex with you too. Can't help it but I love feeling gay. It just turns me on so much to feel and dress feminine, intoxicating really. I love naked women, their bodies, hair, femininity, their clothing. It really turns me on to be with a man with me dressing up like that. Plus I love sucking cock, can't get more gay than that... oh wait it can get more gay, you can get fucked in the ass by a handsome guy with a big cock...wink, wink.

Jim: Best ever.

Me: T Y

Jim: No I mean it.

Me: It was for me too, best ever getting fucked by you today. I love being gay for you. Getting to dress up and flit around for a man is so exciting. Can't help it really, guess its just who I am inside.

Jim: You want to be a woman?

Me: No, no gender issues, I don't view myself as trans, not at all. For me its purely homosexual. I just love being femme for a guy. I mean if I could be alone with you just in blue jeans and a white tee shirt, no make up or wig or anything I would still feel very gay and still feel very fem, knowing, hoping you would find me desirable in guy mode...

Jim: I would.

Me: I would too knowing that you could have me, take my shirt off and be topless for you, knowing you would want to touch me, want to kiss, want to open my pants and feel me.

Jim: Wow you are making me hard. Are you hard right now?

Me: Of course I'm hard, always hard around you, always hard just thinking about you.

Jim: Never been so hard in my life since I met you. Every time we hook up it keeps getting better and better. And for you?

Me: Yes, its very nice. So even if I wasn't all dressed up you'd still be turned on by me in guy mode?

Jim: Oh fuck yes!

Me: Like if we had a weekend together or went on a trip together and you were on the couch and I sat next to you and leaned my head on your shoulder and you put my arm around me as I gently started rubbing you? Would that still turn you on?

Jim: We'd be making out so hard. Of course it would not take long to get naked.

Me: The thought of being naked for you really turns me on.

Jim: Me too.

Me: Of course the thought of me flitting around for you in high heels, panties, lipstick and a wig really turns me on too.

Jim: Please stop...

Me: Sorry, cant help it.

Jim: Don't stop, I love it!

Me: You know you'll never find another person with a more erotic thoughts than me?

Jim: I hope not!

Me: I have such a voracious sexual appetite and so many things I'd love to do, sexually that is.

Jim: Such as?

Me: Sure you want to know?

Jim: Come on honey, I love playing around with you when you are dressed like a woman, tell me more. If I don't like it, I'll tell you.

Me: OK, here goes.

Jim: Shoot.

Me: You know how much I love cock?

Jim: Its pretty obvious when you are with me.

Me: I'd love to play with more than one cock at the same time. Two, three, even more. Would love to be the woman at a party with a room full of horny men wanting me to pleasure their cocks. Having them cum all over me, being a bukakae bitch, so to speak.

Jim: I can see that.

Me: Of course everyone would know I'm your girlfriend, but to be dressed and have more than one cock at the same time, that's a noble fantasy, right?

Jim: As long as one of the cocks is mine.

Me: You'd make it better and safer for me, but to get fucked while sucking a cock, I really, really would love that.

Jim: Might have to see what we can do. Obviously there's more?

Me: Oh fuck yes. Let me just say this, I really love having you as a boyfriend, never thought it would happen, but with you it feels fantastic. I tingle thinking about getting together with you, its like being a teenager again.

Jim: Me too.

Me: Anyway the way I love feeling all dressed up and femme I'd love to show off in public how gay I am, at a gay bar of course.

Jim: That sounds hot, hopefully with me as your date.

Me: Of course silly, with you it would not be as scary. Everyone would; a. know I'm your girl and know how gay I was dressed like that. Its intoxicating just thinking about it, to be in a dress and heels and all dolled up in front of a bar full of gay men. Let them lift my dress to see my panties or feel me up under my dress in front of you. Maybe even kiss a few guys too. Not sure what goes on in gay bars but the thought of being dressed and sucking off a guy while people watched is very exciting. Of course we'd both be so worked up by the time we left the sex would be out of this world. Also would be hot to be around women too dressed up in a bar like that. That's another fantasy.

Jim: To have women see you dressed up?

Me: A super fantasy of mine. Of course neither of our wives would accept it but the thought of having a woman watch us together kissing and having sex really sends me. Would love to put on a 'fashion show' for you and some women, changing sexy outfits till you couldn't stand it and we have sex in front of them.

Jim: I like, very creative.

Me: Probably my favorite porn. Where a gal is forcing a guy to suck cock, the guys aren't dressed up or anything but suck pussy juice off each others cocks.

Jim: I like it.

Me: Something about being dressed femme around a woman who knows Im gay and watches/forces me to have sex with a man is a huge turn on.

Jim: As long as I'm the man...

Me: As you can tell anything to make me feel gay...doesn't take much as you can tell. Well enough about me, what about you, why do you like feminine guys?

Jim: Well...it was quite a number of years ago, we had a summer house by the lake. My wife's brother was there too with his family and I had my nephew and his friend help me with some work on the boat house. My wife and her brother and family went into the city for a few days for an event in the city. The friend of my nephew who was at a cabin nearby stayed on to help me. We had pizza for dinner and then started watching some movies. Probably shouldn't have but we had a few beers and a little whiskey.

Me: Go on...

Jim: With a pretty good buzz going on the guy, Al was his name, asked if there were any movies that were 'more exciting' to watch. I did have a few old pornos stashed so I put one in and we started watching. We both had pretty good wood going. This guy who had been very friendly the whole time, maybe even coming on to me though I may have missed the signs excused himself. I did not think much of it but when he returned wearing a string bikini swim suit, some of my wife's high heels and lipstick I was pretty floored. He looked hot and went straight for straight for my cock. Can't tell you how exciting it was getting head from this guy, so taboo but so hot.

Me: Sounds like a dream come true.

Me: I'd make a good wife.

Jim: I know you would.

Me: Really I would. The thought of being able to be gay and feminine around the house for a man drives me crazy. That's the difference between gay and straight couples. With a woman sex is nice but devolves to almost nothing; the 'not now' 'don't feel like it' 'not in the mood' 'behave yourself' 'is that all you think about is sex?' 'maybe later'... Can't say for certain but I'm pretty sure with gay guys sex anytime all the time is a given. Could you imagine rolling over in bed and having me all over your cock anytime day or night? Having me dress sexy around the house with the thought of making you hard, making you want me, knowing I want your cock worse than you want to give it to me.

Jim: I think I'm gay. I want you so bad.

Me: I know I'm gay. If I could, I know that it would be be so hot being homosexual with you all the time, little fem gay wifey. Really, even during the day around the the house, I'd wear high heels, stockings, panties, be all shaved and smooth and fem, just to make you hard so I could pleasure your cock.

Jim: If only...

We both jacked off thinking about our tryst that day and signed off after our conversation that night. Both of us were married. Both of us were closet homosexuals living a straight life to family and the friends and the world who knew us. People would question us "why don't you just come out and live the gay life?". Its not that easy. Married men know this. It might be said that we want our cake and eat it too. There is a lot of guilt and self doubt. Shame and anxiety too. But when it comes down to it the lure of cock is powerful. Lured in by the delicious, exciting, tantalizing exhilaration of sucking cock, of acting gay, even if it is only for a short while. When we are in the middle of it, this is who we are, men who are possessed by homosexual desire finally being able to act upon our primal sexual urges.

I was fortunate to befriend Jim and become his lover, we both know this is a life we could live together...if things were different and the lure takes over.