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I feel I lost this years ago somehow. Or maybe I was just always this way. I remember my first time masterbating. It took forever and I never came. A lot like how I am now. Only thoughts of being the woman seem to turn me on. And one other taboo: i****t, but that's another story.
I just don't know what it is. I feel like it might be an issue of respect or something. I grew up very polite and also with my mom and sisters. Maybe deep down I am a woman. I feel the act of "fucking" a woman is such a crude and vulgar thing. Even though I find such crudeness to man fucking women, I enjoy being the one that gets fucked. My tools don't work when I think about sticking my cock inside a girl. It's more like I just want to be that girl. I want that smooth body. I want that cock in my mouth. I want to be the one taking it, relaxing my muscles as it thrusts inside of me.
And it's hard because that's my sexuality. But my personality, me, who I am, falls in love with girls constantly, and it makes me a lot more nervous thinking about where a simple friendship might lead to in my daily life. Should things escalate to where me and a girl friend of mine were in a bedroom setting I would be sexually impedent, as a man that's really embarassing. And as a person, to not be able to make love... it's a depressing thought.
I've never been able to cum while having sex. And the last couple times it was hard to become erect and stay erect. But those times were with girls I didn't really love. The first time I had sex was amazing. But I didn't finish because I didn't want to hurt her. But I knew I could cum. It was many years after that, until I had sex again. And it just wasn't like it was when I first had sex, when I had sex with someone I cared about. Though I thought I could really care about this person.
The sad thing is that this outlook on love and sex is feminine in itself. The masculine sexuality is objectifying in itself. And the paradox to this is equal in my alternative view of my gender. Isn't fetishizing wearing womans clothes materialistic?
I feel like our view point on how a woman should dress is a fetish itself. A woman wears no hair on her body, bright colorful clothing and underwear to feel sexy. It is tight fitting to shape her body. And her face is painted to cover up flaws and accentuate her natural beauty. She grows up to know the clothing and the make up as being the fit for a woman. But idk how necessary it all is. As a man I like to wear loose fitting clothing, clothing I can move around in. I like to wear pants and shirts that are kind of plain and of sturdy not so soft materials. And Idk why everyone doesn't see their clothing this way. The fact is that society has brought up the genders into some gender specific materialism, that seems to be some underlying fetish. I think trans men feel this way too. But I wouldn't know.
I feel like I should wrap this up somehow. But I will save that for another day. I also wanted to add that the past few times I've had sex with a male or another crossdresser, when it came to climax. I wasn't able to. Though I really enjoyed being fucked, he stopped because he wanted his turn. I just wasn't able to return the favor. I suppose more experimentation is to come...no pun intended, haha that was a bad joke, I know. I am not sure if I'll ever have a clear answer. Huge part of me just wishes I was just a straight man. Yet another part of meimagines myself with breasts, wearing what I want, with my long hair, thin eyebrows and shaved legs. I think few people can empathize with someone transgendered, they see it as some sort of perversion. Not self exploration, another thing a lot of us are scared of. I'm not sure how happy I would be, being a straight man, and maybe that uncertainty is why I am who I am. I wish I could just be happy one way or the other. I just don't know at the moment...
Sorry for any typos, but I really need to start working on some homework. Hope this is legible at the least.
I just don't know what it is. I feel like it might be an issue of respect or something. I grew up very polite and also with my mom and sisters. Maybe deep down I am a woman. I feel the act of "fucking" a woman is such a crude and vulgar thing. Even though I find such crudeness to man fucking women, I enjoy being the one that gets fucked. My tools don't work when I think about sticking my cock inside a girl. It's more like I just want to be that girl. I want that smooth body. I want that cock in my mouth. I want to be the one taking it, relaxing my muscles as it thrusts inside of me.
And it's hard because that's my sexuality. But my personality, me, who I am, falls in love with girls constantly, and it makes me a lot more nervous thinking about where a simple friendship might lead to in my daily life. Should things escalate to where me and a girl friend of mine were in a bedroom setting I would be sexually impedent, as a man that's really embarassing. And as a person, to not be able to make love... it's a depressing thought.
I've never been able to cum while having sex. And the last couple times it was hard to become erect and stay erect. But those times were with girls I didn't really love. The first time I had sex was amazing. But I didn't finish because I didn't want to hurt her. But I knew I could cum. It was many years after that, until I had sex again. And it just wasn't like it was when I first had sex, when I had sex with someone I cared about. Though I thought I could really care about this person.
The sad thing is that this outlook on love and sex is feminine in itself. The masculine sexuality is objectifying in itself. And the paradox to this is equal in my alternative view of my gender. Isn't fetishizing wearing womans clothes materialistic?
I feel like our view point on how a woman should dress is a fetish itself. A woman wears no hair on her body, bright colorful clothing and underwear to feel sexy. It is tight fitting to shape her body. And her face is painted to cover up flaws and accentuate her natural beauty. She grows up to know the clothing and the make up as being the fit for a woman. But idk how necessary it all is. As a man I like to wear loose fitting clothing, clothing I can move around in. I like to wear pants and shirts that are kind of plain and of sturdy not so soft materials. And Idk why everyone doesn't see their clothing this way. The fact is that society has brought up the genders into some gender specific materialism, that seems to be some underlying fetish. I think trans men feel this way too. But I wouldn't know.
I feel like I should wrap this up somehow. But I will save that for another day. I also wanted to add that the past few times I've had sex with a male or another crossdresser, when it came to climax. I wasn't able to. Though I really enjoyed being fucked, he stopped because he wanted his turn. I just wasn't able to return the favor. I suppose more experimentation is to come...no pun intended, haha that was a bad joke, I know. I am not sure if I'll ever have a clear answer. Huge part of me just wishes I was just a straight man. Yet another part of meimagines myself with breasts, wearing what I want, with my long hair, thin eyebrows and shaved legs. I think few people can empathize with someone transgendered, they see it as some sort of perversion. Not self exploration, another thing a lot of us are scared of. I'm not sure how happy I would be, being a straight man, and maybe that uncertainty is why I am who I am. I wish I could just be happy one way or the other. I just don't know at the moment...
Sorry for any typos, but I really need to start working on some homework. Hope this is legible at the least.
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