The Feminization of Michelle
By Aleisha James
Author's note: Despite the dark aspects of some of my stories, I do not in
any way endorse the use of force or pain to compel anyone to do anything.
This story, as with all my stories on this site, deals with issues of an
adult, sexual nature. No-one under the age of eighteen and no-one who finds
forced feminization stories to be offensive should read any further.
If you are still reading, then you are an adult with an interest in stories
of this nature, and I hope you will find my offering to be enjoyable.
Regardless, constructive comments (and, of course, lavish praise) are always
welcomed. I appreciated, for instance, the very constructive comments of
Cerayn on my last story: I hope that this time the whole meal is tasty!
Writing stories of this length takes more work than I had expected, and while
the process is to some extent its own reward, hearing from satisfied readers
goes a long way to encouraging me (and, I am sure, others) to keep writing.
This is all the more true now that we can no longer gauge audience response
by the number of times a story is read. I understand that this rating was
abandoned for two good reasons: it could be manipulated by an author or fan
(why anyone would bother. it's like cheating at solitaire. is beyond me) and,
more importantly, the site was not intended to create competition but to
encourage all authors, regardless of ability to write 'popular' works. I do
ask the webmistresses to reconsider, since like all writers I desire feedback
if only to help me judge how best to alter my style/content to reach the most
people and bring them the most pleasure.
Forgive my rantings, and on to the story.
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Michelle paused to examine her handiwork in the mirror, looking closely for
any flaw or failure. Perhaps her right eyebrow was just slightly too bushy,
she thought. She picked up the pair of tweezers which lay on the cluttered
counter top and carefully plucked one hair, concentrating hard on not
wincing. Any negative expression, such as frowning or wincing, might help
create ugly lines in her smooth facial skin, which in turn would merit
punishment.
She lowered the tweezers and looked again at her reflection. Yes, that had
done it!
She sensed someone approaching from behind. She quickly sat up straight and,
keeping her head high, she lowered her eyes, so as not to be caught looking
in the mirror to see who was behind her. Discipline was lax these days, but
only because the girls now behaved appropriately from instinct. She put down
the tweezers and laid both hands in her lap.
She felt the warmth emanating from the visitor. The room where Michelle sat
along with the other seven trainees was deliberately kept a couple of degrees
below comfort level, especially for the way that the trainees were dressed.
Michelle held her breath and focused on appearing calm and peaceful.
She felt a hand caress the back of her neck, lightly rubbing the skin beneath
her long hair.
"You're ready, Michelle. I'll see you tonight!" came the words she had been
hoping to hear.
The hand was removed and Michelle sensed the Master, for it had been a male
voice and a male touch this time, move away. She breathed deeply, tempted to
sneak a peek towards her room-mate, Julie. But this pleasure was a special
treasure, something to savor for a while before sharing
Instead she consciously smiled, appreciative of the compliment paid to her by
the Master. She knew that every move, every expression was closely monitored,
and any trainee receiving any praise, or what passed for praise in this
upside-down world, was expected to react appropriately, or pay a penalty.
Any indiscretion carried a price. All choices bore consequences. When she had
first arrived here, the lessons were crude, lacking finesse. The trainees
soon learned the basic rules, but with every lesson learned, the next lesson
was more subtle, while the penalties were incurred less and less frequently.
Michelle found her mind going back to those early days. She knew that no good
could come of such memories, so she mentally shook himself and applied
herself diligently to finishing her makeup.
She picked up a soft brush, the strands made of the finest fibers, hairs from
some unknown animal, perhaps even a mink, she thought. She stroked the ends
of the fibers gently against the rouge she had decided to use on her cheeks
today. The Masters and Mistresses seemed to like her using dramatic colors.
She brushed the rouge below her cheekbones, feeling the soft bristles against
her skin while concentrating on making sure that the color blended smoothly.
Eyeshadow was always the most difficult for her. She had not paid enough
attention to the earliest lessons they had had in cosmetics, and somehow she
never quite seemed to catch up. As a result, she spent far more time on her
eyes than any of the other trainees. Fortunately, she thought, she had
developed physically faster than any of them, and those attributes, combined
with her obvious devotion to her lessons, now at least, had brought her favor
amongst the Masters and Mistresses.
Ten minutes later she leaned back on her chair. The motion brought the usual,
now enjoyable, sensation from the plug in her rectum. She had worn this plug
for four days now. It was the fifth plug she had been given, each slightly
wider than the previous. She doubted that she would ever be asked to wear any
bigger than this; it was certainly far bigger than any of the penises
exhibited by the trainees, even before the effects of the hormones and other
drugs had taken hold.
None of the trainees had liked the butt plugs at first, although she
suspected that all of them would find their absence upsetting by now.
Michelle's mind flitted back to her first sight of a butt plug.
Julie had been the first to be told to insert hers. The trainees had all been
assembled in the classroom, naked and uncomfortable in the chill air. Sitting
on hard wooden chairs had not made the ordeal any better.
None of them had known any of the others. None of them had any idea where
they were nor why they were there. Michelle later found that her story was
much the same as the others. She had run away from home, hoping that life,
even on the street, would be better than at home, with her drunken mother and
abusive stepfather. She knew all the stories that adults circulated about the
dangers of street life, about the predators who preyed on young people such
as she was. So she had been careful at first, but she had been caught by a
woman of all people. She would have never been trapped by a man, but a woman!
None of the stories had told her that women could be as evil as men.
Drugged into unconsciousness, she never knew how far she had been taken to
this place, where she awoke cold and hungry, with a fierce headache. She had
been given water and aspirin, which had dulled the headache by the time she
was led, weakly protesting, to the classroom. She had been almost the last
led into the room and told, firmly but not cruelly, to sit and be quiet. She
had been very weak, feeling tired as well as unfed and cold.
After the eight trainees, not that they knew of their role then, were seated,
their escorts moved to the back of the room and two others entered, to stand
at the front.
The newcomers were a man and a woman. They were both tall, she easily six
feet and he another four inches over her, even though she was wearing three
inch heels on her leather boots. They looked sufficiently alike that they
could have been brother and sister. Both were in their mid thirties, as best
as Michelle, whose name then was Michael and who thought of himself as a boy,
could tell. They wore black leather tunics, the man in matching trousers and
the woman in a long sheath skirt made of the same material. They were slim to
the point of thinness and their dark eyes gazed out of sharp featured faces.
Black hair cut short added to their sinister appearance.
The two adults surveyed the shivering group with expressionless faces. Then
the woman stepped forward and smiled. Michael noted even then that the smile
did not seem to reach her eyes.
Her voice was sultry, an unexpected contrast to her appearance. But her words
were as black as her attire.
"You are all wondering where you are, how you got here, and what's in store
for you. I will answer one of those questions, but first I am going to tell
you about the rules."
"The first rule: none of you will ever speak to any of your superiors unless
you are spoken to first"
The boy to Michael's left chose that moment to speak.
"What the fuck are you talking ab."
The words were cut off by the sound of a scream. Michael had barely noticed
an escort sidle quickly past his chair. The escort had reached out and barely
touched the boy's shoulder. The scream which resulted seemed far out of
proportion to any pain which such a trivial touch could have caused.
"The second rule is that any, and I mean any, violation of any of the rules
will be punished immediately"
"The third rule is the most important, and the most difficult to understand,
so pay close attention. Every choice carries consequences. If you stand on
the edge of a cliff, you have a choice. You may walk away, back to safety. Or
you may choose to walk off the edge, falling to your death. In this facility
we offer choices. None of you will be compelled to do anything. We want you
to change. We want you to learn a new role, one which will ultimately afford
you great pleasure. But it will always be your choice. You may choose to
comply. At first compliance will result only in the absence of consequence.
Later, compliance will result in pleasure. But you are always free to refuse
our wishes. Just remember the cliff. All choices have consequences"
The boy next to Michael was rocking back and forth, hunched over with tears
rolling down his cheeks. Michael could see two small red marks, close
together, on his shoulder, but thought that it couldn't hurt as much as the
boy was acting. Maybe it was the shock he thought.
His attention was drawn back to the front of the room.
"I mentioned your superiors. Everyone you meet here, other than each other,
will be your superior. Males will be addressed as Master and females as
Mistress. You will include these terms of respect in every phrase you are
permitted to speak to any of us. Any failure to obey the rules, or any choice
we deem inappropriate will result in the offender paying the consequences."
"You will find that the consequences of poor choices may be difficult to
take. You will also find that choices that we believe to be appropriate will
generate rewards, which will become more apparent and more enjoyable as your
commitment to your intended role deepens. Ultimately, should you make the
right choices, you will be free to leave"
The woman stepped back and the man moved forward.
"You heard Mistress. You will find that your Masters and Mistresses will be
fair, but firm. We will make suggestions to you from time to time. You need
not accept our suggestions, but be careful when making your choice. Every
choice has a consequence!"
Michael moved restlessly on his seat, the urge to protest quelled only by the
continued sobbing from the boy beside him, and the fear that any word would
fetch a similar treatment.
The others must have felt the same way, their instinctive reactions cowed by
fear and the sense of vulnerability engendered by their nakedness in a cold
room confronted by tall, dominant leather-clad strangers.
The Master paused before continuing. When he did so, it was apparent that he
held something in one of his hands, but Michael could not make out what it
was.
The Master looked towards the back of the room, presumably making eye contact
with one of the escorts. He nodded and Michael sensed an escort coming
forward on his right. It may have been the one who had struck the boy next to
him, since the escort tapped that unfortunate on the shoulder.
"Stand up!" the escort commanded.
The boy stood, his face blotched with red,
The man at the front of the room spoke.
"Come forward"
The boy moved forward hesitantly, one hand before his groin, covering his
nakedness.
"What is your name?"
The question contained no hint of curiosity.
"Steve" the boy replied.
"Aaarrggghhhhh!"
The Master held out the hand with which he had just touched the boy, who was
now curled in a fetal position on the floor. Michael and the others could see
a small egg- shaped device. Whatever it was seemed too small to have caused
the agony inflicted upon the boy.
"You are speaking to a Master" the tall man said, his tone hard.
"What is your name?" the man in black asked again.
"Steve, Master" the boy sobbed, still lying on the floor.
The Master grimaced.
"I don't think so. Steve doesn't suit you at all. No."
He placed a hand beneath his chin, striking a pose as if deep in thought. The
answer came to him and he smiled.
"I think we will call you Julie! That's it. You are Julie, do you
understand?"
Michael held his breath. What was going on here, he wondered, as he waited to
see how Steve would react.
Michael could not tell whether he was relieved or disappointed when the boy
responded.
"Yes, Master. My name is Julie"
"Stand up, Julie!"
The boy obeyed, his legs trembling. Every inch of his body proclaimed that he
was thoroughly cowed, all resistance at least temporarily vanquished by the
egg-shaped objects.
"Good girl" The Master spoke.
"Now take this and insert it in your rectum"
He held out his hand. Michael's view was partially obstructed, but he could
tell that whatever it was, it was in a plastic bag.
Julie hesitated and in that instant the escort, who was still standing close
to him, made a tiny motion with his hand. Julie must have seen the motion,
subtle though it was. In any event he reached out and took the bag.
"Show the other girls the gift we have given you, Julie"
Julie turned to face the group, his head held low. In trembling hands he
displayed a plastic bag containing something pink and slick. He opened the
bag and withdrew an object which looked like a plastic penis, with a circular
base. It seemed to have been coated in a lubricant of some kind.
"Bend over and insert it in your rectum, Julie"
The escort moved beside the hapless lad, showing his whip all too clearly.
Tears were running down the boy's face. Michael's stomach was knotted. He
fought back the momentary urge to leap to Judy's aid. Sitting cold and naked
in a room full of larger, clothed tormentors made the thought of resistance
difficult to entertain for more than a moment. A quick glance at the others
revealed that they were all acting the same way, perched forward on their
chairs, hands over their genitals, sorry for Julie but glad that it was not
them up there.
Julie bent over, still facing the group.
"No, Julie. Turn around. Let your classmate see how you do it"
Julie shuffled his feet until his rear faced the group. He bent over until
his face was visible between his legs. He reached back and tentatively
pressed the tip of the phallic object into his asshole. His whole body was
shaking and his sobs were now clearly audible.
"Good girl" The Master's voice delivered the praise, if praise it was, with a
tone of utter indifference.
Julie pressed harder and the butt plug became to slide into his rectum, until
the flat circular flange around the base was snug against his buttocks.
"You may return to your seat, Julie"
The boy walked back to sit beside Michael. He was walking awkwardly, his legs
further apart than was normal. He avoided looking at any of the other
trainees, and sat with his head down, staring at the floor. His cheeks were
now fiery red, and tears continued to roll down his face.
"Julie has learned the first lesson well, although at a cost. Each of you
should learn from her example. You will be dismissed to your rooms. You will
be sharing rooms with another girl. You and she will become friends. You will
be given breakfast in one hour. By then each of you will have inserted your
plugs and chosen an appropriate name. You will have your choice of clothing.
Chose well! Any girl who refuses to chose a proper name or appropriate
clothing for herself will be punished, until she does. Julie was lucky. we
chose her name for her. I suggest that you try hard to come up with several
names so that if we find your first choice unacceptable, you can offer us an
alternative before the punishment becomes severe. You are dismissed"
The Master and Mistress left without a backward glance. The escorts moved
forward and the boys stood. They were led in groups of two to new rooms.
Michael found himself walking in silence with Julie, who was still walking
oddly. The two boys, still naked and cold, were led down a long hallway,
which ended where it met another hallway running at ninety degrees. They were
told to turn right and then were brought to a halt in front of the second
door along.
The elder of the two escorts, a woman dressed in the same manner as the two
instructors, used a plastic passkey to unlock the door. The two boys filed
inside.
"You heard your instructions. Assume that everything you do and say is known
to us, and maybe you will stay out of trouble"
Michael walked in ahead of Julie. The door clicked closed behind them. A
quick turn of the handle revealed that they had been locked inside.
The room was furnished as if it were a hotel room, with two double beds and,
on the opposite wall, a long, low bureau. A door set into the wall
immediately inside the entrance revealed a small bathroom, with toilet, sink
and shower. A second doorway gave onto a closet, which was full of female
clothing, although neither boy ventured an inspection just then. Floor to
ceiling windows on the far wall let in light filtered through long sheers.
Thin steel bars made it clear that no escape lay through those windows. The
walls were painted in a faint pink, while the beds were covered in snow-white
duvets. Framed prints of still-life's and landscapes hung on the walls. Clock
radios sat on the night stands beside each bed, while in one corner stood a
circular table accompanied by two chairs. A vase of fresh cut flowers,
sitting on the table, added color to the room.
A twenty inch television with a built-in VCR sat on top of the bureau.
Michael saw that there were no telephones anywhere to be seen.
Michael moved quickly to the thermostat, hoping to dispel the chill in the
room. The thermostat was locked, the temperature set at 64 degrees.
"Shit! It's too fucking cold in here!"
Michael turned to Julie as he swore, but Julie refused to meet his eyes or to
even acknowledge his presence. Instead the boy was standing beside one of the
beds examining the clothing laid out on the cover.
Michael's eyes followed Julie's gaze. Hope burgeoned for a moment.
Each bed bore an assortment of clothing, both male and female. Michael moved
to stand beside Julie, who was holding a pair of satin panties.
Julie noticed him as if for the first time.
'I think this is my bed" he said.
"The other bed has one of those."
The boy faltered, tears coming again to his eyes. A glance in the direction
of Julie's outstretched arm revealed that the boy was pointing to an all too
familiar plastic bag which lay beside the piles of clothes on the other bed.
It was a butt plug, and evidently meant that that bed was Michael's, since
the one they were standing beside bore no similar bag.
"What are you going to choose?" Michael was afraid to ask, yet felt that by
making Julie choose first, he could avoid making the inevitable choice
himself. If Julie chose to wear the girl's clothing, then he could pretend,
to himself if to no other, that it was Julie's decision, not his.
Julie seemed not to hear him. The boy was still holding the panties, staring
at them with a blank expression. Michael waited for a response. None was
forthcoming so he walked over to his bed, fear rising like a tide within him.
He picked up the plastic bag. The plug lay inside, it's pink hideousness
waiting for him. He could feel the slipperiness of the lubricant, as the plug
slide beneath his hands.
Taking a deep breath, he opened the bag. The plug felt cold and greasy. He
cast a look towards Julie, but Julie had not moved at all, still staring
mesmerized by the panties he held in his hands.
Michael almost ran to the bathroom. There was no way he was inserting this
device in front of anyone else. Julie's humiliation was too raw an
experience!
He paused to look at his reflection in the bathroom mirror. His face was
pale, and he could see goosebumps on his flesh from the cold. He felt as if
he were in a dream,, some awful nightmare. He prayed silently to himself,
desperate to awaken. Nothing happened. The plastic plug was still in his
hand, warming slightly from his body heat.
He bent over, as he had seen Julie do. Gingerly he inserted the plug into his
anus. It felt weird. It was not painful, but he definitely felt stretched. He
straightened up, feeling violated. The plug made him walk with his legs
slightly separated. It was the strangest feeling he had ever had, and he was
acutely aware that he had crossed some hidden divide.
When he returned to the room Julie was wearing the panties and was wrestling
with a cotton bra. So Julie had made his choice.
Michael tried to ignore Julie, as the latter was ignoring him. He looked
through the assortment of clothing.
The male clothing consisted of gray short, gray socks, a woolen plaid shirt
and blue jeans. There was no belt. A pair of Nike shoes lay on the floor next
to a pair of girl's sandals, open-toed with thin straps for the ankles and
maybe a two inch heel.
The girl's clothing comprised panties similar to the ones which Julie had
chosen, white satin, and a white cotton bra. A pale lemon skirt lay next to
what Michael thought at first was a white shirt. Picking it up he noted that
the collar was softer than any shirt he had worn and bore embroidery in the
shape of flowers. Looking closer, he realized that the buttons were on the
wrong side: he was holding a blouse, not a shirt.
He wavered. He did not want to give in without a fight, yet he knew that his
options were limited. Their captors had not hesitated for a second in meting
out punishment to Julie. He suspected that the physical pain had not been as
great as Julie's reaction might indicate. Probably much of the boy's response
had been due to disorientation, surprise and shame. The tactic of keeping
them naked and cold while dealing with dressed adults had certainly weakened
his own resolve.
He turned to see that Julie had finished putting on the bra. It was padded,
making Julie seem as if he had small, pointed breasts. The boy was now trying
on the blouse, which seemed identical to the one before Michael.
Michael came to a decision. He pulled on the male shorts and then picked up
the bra. He realized that it would be immediately apparent if he was not
wearing the padded garment: his chest would be too flat. He felt better about
giving in this much. Unlike 'Julie', he was still claiming his male identity
by wearing shorts rather than panties.
He had trouble with the bra strap, his fingers fumbling with the tiny hooks,
unable to grasp them with sufficient dexterity to close them.
He felt fingers touching him.
"Here, let me help"
It was Julie. He turned his head to look over his shoulder at his room-mate.
"Thanks" he muttered.
'How did you get yours on?"
"I remembered seeing my sister once; she was putting it on in front of her,
where she could see the hooks. It was only a glimpse, but the memory stuck"
"Okay, thanks" Michael mumbled again.
"You're taking a chance, wearing those" Julie gestured towards Michael's
shorts.
"I know. But I can't just give up!"
"You mean, like me?" Julie was still close to tears.
Michael felt embarrassed. In fact he had contrasted his decision with Julie's
apparent surrender, thus fortifying his own sense of bravery. But he did not
want to criticize this poor boy, who had been singled out for punishment and
humiliation. Would he have withstood the assault any better?
"No. it's just that."
Words trailed off. The two boys looked at each other for a moment and then,
shame- faced, turned their attentions towards their clothes.
Michael pulled on the blouse, having little difficulty with the buttons. The
skirt was a tight fit, even with the zipper along the side completely undone.
He had to hold his breath in order to do it up.
Then he put on the sandals. By then Julie had been walking up and down the
room, getting accustomed to the height of the heels.
"Put your weight in the balls of your feet" Julie suggested, as Michelle
staggered for the first few steps.
Sure enough, Julie's advice made walking easier, although each step reminded
Michael of the presence of his butt plug.
"Have you thought of a name?" Julie's voice interrupted his concentration and
he almost fell as he was making a turn.
"No, I haven't" he replied.
'You don't have a lot of time. I think they are serious"
"I know. This is so bizarre! They're making us act like girls! They must be a
bunch of fucking perverts!"
Julie looked away, his voice low.
"Maybe you're right. But what can we do? We're trapped here. I don't even
know where we are"
"Nor do I, but we can't give up. There's got to be a way out of here. If we
can just find a telephone or a door that leads to the outside.. we have to
try."
"Okay.." Julie did not sound eager, but Michael thought to himself that Julie
would no doubt regain confidence later.
The two boys continued to walk until they felt that they had gained the
ability not to fall over on their heels. Then they sat in silence, having
tried the television and finding that it did not turn on.
They sat wrapped in their own thoughts until Michael, tired and fearful of
the silence, asked Julie where he was from. They soon exchanged brief
life-stories, finding out that they had much in common. Each came from an
unhappy home and each had tried to improve their life by running away, only
to fall into the same trap. But they came from different States and had been
kidnapped in different cities.
The observers watching the picture from the hidden video camera smiled to
themselves. All was going according to plan. The two boys wearing their
blouses and skirt still looked more like boys than girls. They had yet to
learn the art of looking pretty, and their hair was cut and worn like a
boy's. Even their legs were hairy. But they were beginning to bond. The
establishment of a bond between room-mates was a key component in the
conditioning which lay ahead for the trainees. Each would look to the other
for support, but each would find instead a reinforcement of the conditioning.
Ultimately they would willingly follow each other into femininity, reassured
by the knowledge that they were not alone.
An hour had passed before a click from the direction of the door announced
that they were free to leave the room. A chime sounded from hidden speakers
and a voice, of neutral gender, told them to leave.
They walked towards the door, Julie leading the way. An escort awaited, and
led them back the way they had come. Michael saw that the other trainees were
also in the hall, all dressed in the same manner as he and Julie, except for
one pair who were defiantly wearing the boys' clothing which he had elected
to ignore, other than the shorts he wore as his form of protest. Seeing the
two boys who still looked like boys made him wish he had been as brave. He
looked towards the escort to see whether she was reacting to the two defiant
ones, but her expressionless face betrayed none of her inner thoughts.
The eight boys, six in skirts, blouses and sandals, were led into a new room,
larger than the classroom where the initial indoctrination had taken place.
Windows unshielded by any blinds or drapes allowed the morning sunlight into
the room. Michael saw that the windows did not appear to open, but neither
were they barred. Perhaps an escape lay that way; it would take only a moment
to smash one of the windows with the plastic and steel chairs which were
clustered in groups of six around the two large circular tables.
The boys were sat at the tables, in groups of four. Michael and Julie were
seated with the two boys in male clothing, while their escorts sat between
the two couples. A bowl containing a small serving of dry cereal stood in
front of each youth. Each setting had one spoon and an empty glass. In the
center of each table was a jug of what looked like skim milk and another jug
containing orange juice.
Michael realized suddenly that he was ravenous, and he was bitterly
disappointed that the promised breakfast was so modest. Nevertheless he was
eyeing his food with hunger when the Mistress from this morning entered the
room. Michael's attention was drawn to her presence by the motion of the
escort to his left, who sat up even straighter than she had been.
"Trainees. You are about to have your first meal here. But before you start,
we have to dispose of some business left over from this morning."
She nodded to the escort sitting across from Michael. He in turn touched the
boy sitting beside him.
"Stand" was the sole word that escaped the escort's lips.
The boy stood, his trembling betraying the fear which must have filled him.
He had to have known, Michael thought, that refusing to dress as a girl would
cost him.
"What is your name?" the Mistress asked.
"Jim" came the answer, the tone of defiance at odds with the stress visible
in every line of his body.
The escort reached out casually, his right hand seeming to graze the boy's
hand.
"AAARRGGGHHHH!!"
The boy dropped to the floor, holding his left hand in his right, curling
into a fetal position, exactly as Julie had done yesterday.
Nobody moved. The Mistress had not changed expression at all, and the escort
was seated as if nothing had happened.
Jim was weeping, even more copiously than Judy had.
The Mistress nodded again to the escort, who commanded the other boyishly
clad youth to rise.
Michael watched in horror as the boy stood. The Mistress stared at the boy
for several seconds, without a sound. The sound of liquid splashing on the
floor prompted Michael to look down. He averted his eyes in embarrassment.
The boy had peed himself from fear.
The Mistress asked the boy for his name.
"Carol" the boy quavered, then hastily added: "Carol, Mistress"
She looked back at him, as if weighing a difficult decision.
"No, that won't do, I'm afraid. Pick a prettier name for yourself, girl"
"Denise, Mistress"
There was a note of desperation in the boy's voice.
"All right, dear. You are Denise"
The voice was soft, but then hardened.
"What do you think you are doing in those repulsive, hideous clothes, girl?"
Her rage seemed genuine. Denise cowered under the glare.
The nod, when it came, seemed almost anti-climatic, but the scream torn from
Denise's throat was as disconcerting as that which his room-mate had uttered
when he was punished.
"Get those two girls out of here"
The Mistress's words were full of disdain. Two adults, clad in the ubiquitous
black leather, materialized and half carried the two distraught youths from
the room, the escort who had inflicted their punishment trailing behind.
Michael noted through his growing fear that the escort had taken two glasses
of juice with him, but none of the cereal.
Michael prayed beneath his breath that the Mistress did not know that he was
not wearing the panties. His hopes were dashed as his escort told him to
stand.
"What is your name?"
"Michelle, Mistress" he replied, trying to convey his obedience by the tone
of his voice.
"Well, Michelle, that's a pretty name and it suits you. You may keep your
name. And you chose well in selecting that pretty blouse and skirt. Do you
like your bra?"
"Yes, Mistress. I love my bra"
He felt humiliated, but it seemed that he might be getting away with it. He
vowed to put on the panties as soon as he got back to the room.
"Remain standing, Michelle" the Mistress commanded as she nodded to the
escort.
Julie was next. He identified himself as Julie and was complimented on his
quick learning.
"Julie, be a good girl and tell me whether your friend Michelle has done
anything wrong"
Michael felt as if he were going to vomit. Julie did not even look at him,
although the tone of his voice revealed that speaking was not easy.
"Michelle is not wearing panties, Mistress" Julie said, in a voice so quiet
that even Michelle was not sure he had heard him correctly.
"Speak up, girl!"
"Michelle is not wearing her panties, Mistress" Julie spoke loudly.
The other trainees were staring at him now, some showing horror while others
looked numb.
"Well, Michelle. Is this true?"
"Yes, Mistress. I'm sorry Mistress. please let me wear my panties.."
He felt a tickle on his hand and then agony filled his senses. He heard the
scream almost as if it had come from outside his body. He lurched, almost
knocking Julie over, but was able to remain standing.
Moments passed as he dealt with the pain which filled his universe. It
diminished slowly, but soon he became aware that he was still standing, his
left hand cradled in his right, tears rolling down his face. Julie was
standing to his right, motionless.
Mistress appeared to swim within his vision, growing larger and then
receding, all without making a move.
"Michelle, that was a minor consequence. You escaped the full penalty because
you did wear most of your clothes. You may remain here for breakfast,
although you may not eat. Sit"
Michelle sat, unable to do more than dimly follow the sounds of the remaining
four trainees introduce themselves with their new, feminine names. He found
that his appetite was gone, so the deprivation of the breakfast meant little
to him. He was permitted to drink the juice. He noted that none of the
escorts either ate or drank anything. Once the pain subsided to a sharp ache
in his arm, he looked to see what damage had been done. He was surprised to
see that other than two tiny marks, already fading, there was no sign of the
assault. He supposed that that made sense; that his captors had no desire to
inflict visible injury.
Despite the small servings and the terror-filled atmosphere, breakfast lasted
longer than Michelle would have expected. Finally the escorts stood and led
their charges out of the room.
The six boys walked amidst their escorts to the classroom where they had
first encountered each other that morning. Michelle, bringing up the rear,
noticed how each of the boys ahead of him swayed on their heels. He imagined
that he and Julie must look the same, due in part to the heels and in part to
the still disturbing presence of the butt plug.
Just before they turned down the hallway that led to the classroom, Michelle
and Julie were guided aside. They returned to their room, where, without any
instruction being required, Michelle hurriedly removed the offending
underwear and pulled on the panties. He shivered as he pulled the silky
material up his legs and adjusted the garment around his waist.
Then it was back to the classroom.
The boys sat in the two rows of chairs, with Julie and Michelle seated in the
second row. The remaining chairs in that row were vacant, obviously intended
for Denise and Jim, or whatever name he would be sporting on his return.
The escorts retired to the back of the room, the three of them seated
patiently in chairs much the same as those occupied by the trainees.
Ten minutes passed, during which the first whisper from one of them to his
neighbor was met by a single hissed command: "Silence".
The trainees remained still and silent. Then Michelle saw that the two
recalcitrants from the breakfast session walked in. They were holding hands,
and both were now wearing the skirt-blouse combination that the others wore.
As the two newcomers sat themselves beside him, Michelle noted with a queasy
feeling that the two boys wore traces of makeup. Each appeared to have had
blush applied to their cheeks and each had bright red lips, shaped to appear
fuller than nature had intended.
Neither of the boys made any sound as they sat. They had released each
other's hand and now theirs lay folded in their laps, their attention turned
to the front of the room as if waiting for further instruction.
Which came soon.
Another tall woman clad in black entered. Michelle thought for a moment that
this was the same woman who had tormented them before, but as soon as the
instructor opened her mouth, Michelle realized that this was someone new. He
wondered how many Masters and Mistresses there were, all for just the eight
of them from what he knew.
"Good morning, girls" the woman announced cheerfully.
"Good morning, Mistress" came the response, the voices slightly out of sync
as some were slow to react.
"Before we begin, there is some business left over from breakfast, I
believe?"
Denise stood and spoke to the room.
Thank you Mistress. My name is Denise and I would like to thank you for
allowing me to wear these pretty clothes"
He ended by bobbing his head. Michelle could see that his cheeks were much
redder than would be accounted for by the makeup, and he could only imagine
the inner torment behind the obsequious words.
Denise's room-mate stood next and in a high falsetto announced that his name
was Suzanne and he promised never to embarrass the other girls again.
Mistress beamed at the two feminized boys. They sat quietly, focused on being
as obedient as they could. Michelle knew that what he had experienced in the
breakfast room had been less than had been meted out to them, and he felt
very sorry for them. A niggling voice within him felt glad that it was they
who had suffered, and not him.
The escorts now came forward and handed out notebooks, pencils and what
turned out to be a catalog from a woman's clothing store. The next hour was
spent going through the catalog and learning the correct way to describe
various items of female attire.
"It's important that you become familiar with fashion, and with fabrics. You
will be tested on a regular basis. If you do well, you will be rewarded. You
already know what will happen should we conclude that you are doing less than
your best"
Michelle detected Denise's body momentarily spasming as the Mistress spoke
the last words. Clearly Denise had been deeply affected by his punishment.
The terror of the morning became dulled by the tedious routine of reading the
catalog and making notes. The continuous presence of the escorts coupled with
attention paid by the instructor kept the trainees engrossed in the material
but nothing could diminish the sense of unreality which Michelle felt as the
morning dragged on.
After looking at scores of dresses, skirts, blouses and sweaters, the
trainees turned to hosiery section. Most of the contents consisted of various
kinds of pantyhose, but the instructor commanded them to focus on the
stockings.
She called upon Karen, a thin pale boy with dirty blond hair.
"Karen, what would you have to do in order to be able to wear a pair of the
stockings shown on page 56 as item g?"
Karen stood, looking perplexed.
'I'm not sure, Mistress"
"Well, girl, how do you think those stockings would stay up?"
"Oh" the boy said, relief that his answer had not brought down instant
retribution evident on his face.
"I would need to wear a garter belt, Mistress"
"If you were given a garter belt, Karen, would you put on a pair of stockings
immediately?"
"Yes, Mistress. I would love to wear a pair of stockings"
"Come here, girl"
Karen walked forward, his uncertainty plain.
"Turn around and bend over, touching your toes"
Karen complied, her arse sticking out prominently due to the elevation of her
heels. Mistress lifted her skirt and, reaching onto the desk beside which she
stood, retrieved a wooden yardstick and struck Karen repeatedly on his
panties.
Karen let out a yelp, but managed to control himself.
Mistress relented after only three hard swipes.
"Stand up and return to your seat"
Karen did so, sitting gingerly.
"You may wonder why Karen was punished. That was the lightest form of
punishment, because she was trying to please and made a mistake out of
ignorance. As you will have seen while she was up here, and as you are all
aware, Karen and the rest of you have ugly, unfeminine hair growing on your
legs. Had Karen been permitted the pleasure of wearing a pair of nylons, she
would probably have ruined them. At the least, her legs would have looked
ugly. The correct response to my question would have been a request for
permission to shave her legs, before receiving the gift of being allowed to
wear stockings"
"Now Michelle. Would you like to wear a pair of nylons?"
Michelle stood. He swallowed, knowing that with every surrender to these
people, his ability to resist was diminished by a tiny but ever accumulating
amount. He also knew, without anything being said, that a mistake by him
would not be treated as innocent. The punishment would not be a caning but
another, possibly worse, brush with whatever device had been used on him at
breakfast. The outcome was inevitable.
"Please, Mistress. I would like to shave my legs and have a garter belt. Then
I would love to wear nylons, Mistress"
Mistress smiled at him, and relief welled in his stomach. He was surprised at
how important her smile was.
"Come forward, girl"
He minced forward, acutely aware of the gaze of his fellows, of the swish of
his skirt, the feel of his butt plug and the effect of his heels.
Mistress motioned beyond him and one of the escorts came forward, carrying a
small opaque plastic bag, of the kind in which lady's stores sold small
items.
"Michelle, take these and go to your room. You should return as soon as you
are properly dressed"
Michelle took the package and followed the escort who led him wordlessly to
the room he shared with Julie. The escort allowed him in.
He went into the bathroom. Sure enough a pink-handled razor was on the edge
of the sink along with a container of shaving gel.
Michelle stepped out of his sandals and skirt, removing the blouse for good
measure. He looked around, and realized that he would have to climb into the
shower, so he removed his panties and bra as well. He took advantage of the
opportunity to take a leak, standing before the toilet and watching his urine
stream into the bowl.
Once in the shower he wet his legs with warm water and applied the gel. It
was difficult work, since he could not see the backs of his thighs very
clearly. He even cut himself a couple of times, but fortunately the bleeding
was minimal.
He toweled himself off before opening the bag. Within, as expected, were a
garter belt and a pair of nylons.
The garter belt was white, which he noted matched his panties and bra, which
he hastily put back on.
He did up the garter belt, which fit him well. He sat on the toilet to draw
the nylons up first one leg and then the other. The coolness against his
smooth skin was unnerving. He fumbled with the plastic tabs on the garter
belt, and then had to spend a full minute learning how to adjust the straps
so that they were taut.
He became worried that he was taking too long. The prospect of more
punishment compelled him to put his bra and panties on quickly. He found that
his urgency was slowing him down as in his haste he made a mess of fastening
the bra. He took a deep breath and consciously tried to calm down.
'They won't hurt me if I'm obedient' he said to his reflection.
He had no problem with his skirt of blouse. However he found that the
experience of walking in a skirt while wearing nylons was completely
different than when he had had bare, hairy legs. The swish of his skirt
against his legs was louder, yet felt softer. A delicious coolness tingled
along the full length of his legs. He felt guilty about experiencing this
momentary pleasure and resolved not to admit it even to himself.
He knocked on the door, which opened quickly. The escort eyed him up and
down, before nodding and pointing down the hallway.
Michelle obediently led the way back to the classroom where he found the
other trainees having their notebooks reviewed by Mistress.
Mistress looked up on Michelle's entry.
"Welcome back Michelle. We'd thought that you had lost yourself in the
pleasures of being a pretty girl. Do you like your nylons, girl?"
Michelle looked straight at his tormentor, paying no attention to the others,
even though he knew that they were watching him. He sensed that they were
torn between a hope that he would resist and a fear that he would be severely
punished if he did.
"Yes, Mistress. I love my nylons. Thank you Mistress"
Mistress smiled.
"That's a good girl!"
Michelle felt relief and moved towards his seat.
"Stop right there Michelle!"
He froze at the barked command, wondering what had gone wrong.
"Come here, girl"
He walked in front of the class, wary but lacking any choice.
"Lift up your skirt so that everyone can see your pretty garter belt and
nylons"
He did so, avoiding looking at anyone.
Mistress stood beside him. She bent over ostentatiously looking at his groin.
He knew that his penis was making a bulge in his panties. She reached in and
stroked the soft satin where it bulged, and despite himself he felt a
response. He heard a suppressed snicker from one of the trainees, but he
could not tell who.
"Very nice, Michelle. although we will have to train you how to hide that
ugly remnant of your earlier self"
Mistress straightened and Michelle began to lower his skirt. A quick word
from Mistress made him stop.
"Michelle, how do you plan to use the lady's room wearing your panties under
your garter belt?"
He looked at her, feeling trapped. How was he supposed to answer?
"Sitting down, Mistress?"
"But how can you lower those pretty panties without a fuss, when the garter
belt lies on top of them?"
"I'm sorry Mistress. I will wear my garter belt under my panties from now on"
"That's right, girl. Unless you are being asked to pose for a photo shoot,
you should be practical. Now you know that you made an error. Do you deserve
to be punished?"
He wanted to scream at her. "No, you cruel, evil bitch! None of us deserve
your sick, twisted punishment! Your crap about choices is just that: crap!!"
But he couldn't bring himself to it. Instead he lowered his head and
muttered.
"Yes, Mistress, I deserve to be punished"
"Louder, Michelle"
"Yes, Mistress. I deserve to be punished!"
Mistress leered at him.
"You do indeed, girl. And not just for wearing your clothes the wrong way.
How do girls use the toilet when they need to pass water?"
Oh god! They must see everything, he thought.
'I'm sorry, Mistress. I forgot what I was doing. I stood when I should have
sat, Mistress"
"Because you acknowledged your mistakes, Michelle, you will get off lightly
today. Bend over."
Michelle bent over, emulating the position he had seen Karen assume earlier.
He hoped for just three strokes, but Mistress administered six. Michelle was
crying by the fifth stroke and was barely able to hobble to his seat when he
was released.
He saw Julie smile sympathetically and despite his anguish that gesture made
him feel marginally better.
The rest of the morning was spent watching a slide show, demonstrating more
varieties of feminine fashion. The trainees made notes, spurred on by the
promise of rigorous testing.
Then came a break for lunch. Michelle was ravenous by now despite the pains
he had suffered so far. He was disappointed by the meager meal. Each trainee
had a small green salad, without any dressing, and an apple. The only
beverage was more of the orange juice which had been served at breakfast.
Each trainee, other than Michelle, was led of to a bathroom, whether they
needed to go or not.
Then it was off to a new room. This room had eight cubicles set up around the
perimeter of the room. Before each cubicle sat a padded armless chair. A
counter top was backed by a mirror surrounded by as many as a dozen low
wattage bulbs. The counter tops were busy with jars, tubes, spray bottles,
compacts, combs, a bewildering array of brushes and other paraphernalia.
The center of the room held an even more elaborate display of cosmetics and
cosmetic applicants. The trainees were told to choose a cubicle and to turn
their chairs so as to face the center.
What followed next was their first lesson in the proper use of cosmetics. It
was this lesson to which Michelle paid little attention. He maintained an
appropriate outer appearance, as if riveted by the lesson, but inside he was
bewailing his fate, and in particular the cruel twist which had seen him
singled out for two punishments that morning.. This self-pity combined with
fruitless musings on the possibility of escape or revenge, distracted him
from much of the lesson, including the half hour spent on the importance of
blending shades of eyeshadow to obtain the most sensuous effect.
None of the trainees seemed to have much of a beard. However, none of them
was permitted, or compelled, to actually use any makeup that afternoon.
"Not until you have properly smooth skin, girls" was the instruction.
Michelle was amazed at the apparent size and complexity of the place when he
and the others were led to yet another room. Here eight desks, arrayed in two
rows of four each, as with the chairs in the classroom, sat in the middle of
the room. Atop each chair was a complicated device which resembled a cross
between a computer and a tape machine and a pair of heavily padded
headphones, attached to which was a small microphone.
The trainees were instructed to don the headphones. Michelle adjusted the arm
carrying the microphone so that it was before his lips.
The set up reminded Michelle of a language laboratory from high school, from
the time he had studied French. It turned out to be much the same idea, but
instead of teaching a second language, the purpose was to teach the boys to
speak as girls.
Michelle found himself being told to speak a phrase. He then listened to his
voice played back to him. The machine voice told him whether his next attempt
was an improvement.
This class was run by a male. The Master sat at a larger desk at the front of
the room. It seemed that his monitor and headphones were connected to all of
the trainees' machines. Thus Michelle heard his voice interrupt early in the
lesson, to warn that improvement was advisable.
"I want to be pretty. I want to be feminine"
Time after time, Michelle spoke those words and heard his own voice repeat
them to his ears. Each time his voice was modulated a little differently.
Each time his voice became a little softer, its pitch slightly higher, and he
learned to raise his voice a trifle as he neared the end of the sentence.
The class took a break after about an hour. Michelle's throat was dry and he
eagerly joined his classmates in yet another glass of orange juice.
Their thirst slaked, the class resumed the voice lessons.
"I choose to be a girl. Obedience is important. Being pretty is important"
The new words became almost a mantra, repeated endlessly.
The long class was interrupted only once more, when Mary, a youth who had to
this time avoided punishment, was deemed by the Master to be faking his
compliance. Mary's shrill protests were cut short by a shock administered by
his escort. The sobbing victim was helped to his room by his room-mate,
Karen, and the escort. Neither returned until the class was wrapping up.
Michelle saw that both Karen and Mary were now wearing nylons. He shuddered
at the inexorable nature of the treatment. Each punishment seemed not merely
to inflict pain but also to move the victim a step further along the path
laid out for them.
Speech class was followed by dinner, the most substantial meal they had been
given yet. The trainees were served a soup, consisting of vegetables in a
clear broth, followed by pasta with a rich creamy sauce. There was even
dessert in the form of cheesecake. Each trainee was encouraged to drink two
glasses of milk with the meal. Michelle felt full for the first time since he
had awoken.
A Master announced that the evening was free. They were to remain in their
rooms, but would be provided with reading material and there would be
programming available on their televisions.
"As always, you will have choices to make. The reading material will be
useful should you choose to co-operate in moving towards your new future. So
too will the television programs. We do not insist that you make use of the
opportunities afforded you, but we will be testing you to see whether you
have. And you understand the implications of choice. I want you to tell me
now: choices come with?"
The boys responded, in higher, softer tones than they had used earlier in the
day:
"Consequences, Master"
"Good girls! You may go"
Michelle and Julie found themselves in their room. The bureau now displayed,
in piles next to the television, an assortment of magazines and thin binders.
Michelle sorted through the pile.
The magazines were all women's or girls' titles, including several copies of
Cosmo, Young & Modern, Sassy and Sweet Sixteen. The binders turned out to
contain what seemed at first glance to be reprints of romance novels.
Meanwhile Julie had turned on the television. Two channels offered
selections. One seemed to be a video on makeup while the other offered a
fashion show.
Michelle felt exhausted and emotionally spent. He was in no frame of mind to
watch either of the channel selections, since they reminded him of the
lessons they had endured that day.
"I'd rather read" he said.
He coughed to clear his throat. His voice had been too girlish, too
influenced by the speech lessons. He determined that within this room, at
least, he would try to sound like a boy.
"Okay, let me look" Julie rifled through the selection. Michelle looked at
his room- mate, bent over the pile of magazines. He did look surprisingly
feminine. His hair was unkempt, long enough to cover his ears and touch the
collar of his blouse. He was small- framed, but then, Michelle realized, all
of the trainees shared that basic characteristic. Julie was probably no more
than five to ten pounds lighter than he was. They were much the same height,
less than five foot seven. Of course, he thought, they wouldn't have chosen
any of us unless they thought that physically we could be made to look like
girls.
Julie picked up a Cosmo and looked at him, raising his eyebrows as he asked,
still in a girlish voice:
"You're staring at me. What's going on?"
Michelle turned away.
"It's nothing, nothing at all"
He felt Julie's hand on his sleeve.
"Don't be like that, Michelle. We're in this together. We all are. We have to
hold together if we are to have any chance"
"It's just that we've been here only one day and already we look as much like
girls as we do boys!"
Despite his decision to maintain a male tone, he found with dismay that
midway through his protest his voice took on a higher modulation.
Frustrated, he snatched up a binder at random and turned away. He laid on the
bed, his back against the pillows, ignoring Julie who was still standing by
the bureau, a look of consternation on his face.
Julie gazed at him for a few seconds more and then, shaking his head, sat in
a chair and began flipping through the pages of his magazine.
The two boys spent the next hour quietly. Michelle noticed that Julie had
browsed through several magazines while he read the first half of the novel.
He had wondered why the novel was printed in a binder, on regular paper,
rather than being provided, like the magazines, in the format in which it
might have been sold in a store.
The mystery was solved early in the book.
The story was quite basic. The heroine was a beautiful young woman, who had
little appreciation of how pretty she was. She had a sad history, looking
after her invalid, widowed mother. There was a suggestion of an unhappy love
affair in her past. She encountered a tall, dark and handsome young man, who
despite obvious shyness, was attracted to her. She too felt a similar
attraction, but obstacles were cast in the path of the two lovers-to-be. Dire
peril threatened.
Michelle could tell that in some as yet undisclosed manner those perils would
be overcome and true love would triumph. What caused him to gasp out loud was
not the transparency of the plot or the overblown stereotypical description
of the characters but the discovery of why the book was printed as it was.
'Lucy wore her prettiest nightgown to bed that evening. She rarely wore this
delight of silk and lace since it evoked feelings and possibilities which she
feared might never come true for her. Feelings and possibilities of romance,
of passion and fulfillment , to be found in the arms of some man. But tonight
she succumbed to the temptation to wear her gown. Tonight she had hope that
her dreams might some day come true. For this evening she had met young Dirk
Graham. His tall, dark features had come to life when they had been
introduced. Her pulse quickened as she recalled how his hand had lingered on
hers, how his eyes had smiled at her. She felt a stirring in her groin as her
penis rose, pressing against the delicate silk. She allowed her hand to stray
to her groin, to softly stroke her engorged organ as she fantasized. Perhaps
one day she might wear this gown to his bed. It might be his hand, or even,
madly daring, his lips which brought pleasure to her, as she longed to bring
pleasure to him! Her breath grew ragged and her eyes lost focus as she
imagined his holding her in his strong arms, his firm lips pressing against
hers and the delight in his expression as he became aware of the visible
proof of her desire.'
The heroine was a boy! The book was designed to reinforce an acceptance that
a boy could feel and act as a girl! There was even a sketch of the heroine,
lying on top of her bed, in much the same pose as Michelle now found himself
in. 'She' was clad in a flowing negligee, her breasts clearly visible, as was
a conspicuous bulge in the area of her groin. Michelle could not help but
recall the arousal he had involuntarily exhibited when the Mistress had
caressed his genitals when he had been forced to display his nylons.
He threw the book down in disgust.
Julie looked up from his magazine.
'What's up, Michelle?"
Michelle stood up.
"This is getting too weird! I've got to get out of these clothes. I'm taking
a shower"
He strode into the bathroom where he proceeded to undress, throwing his
clothes on the floor. A pang of guilt struck him as he was about to climb
into the shower, but he refused to pick up any of the discarded garments.
He pulled out the butt plug, wincing as his sphincter muscles closed behind
it. He refused to look at it, throwing it into the waste basket beside the
toilet.
He turned the water on as hot as he could bear, standing beneath the
cascading water trying to forget where he was, trying to immerse himself
mentally as well as physically in the reality of the hot water streaming over
his body.
The hot water seemed inexhaustible, and it was still running at full heat by
the time that he staggered out into the steam-filled room. A fan had come on
automatically, but the mirror was still clouded such that he could see none
of his reflection. His skin was pink all over, and pools of moisture had
accumulated on the bare tile beneath his feet. His clothes were where he had
left them. Fear of retribution overcame his reluctance and he picked them up,
sorting and folding them, concerned that he might have damaged the delicate
weave of the nylons.
He wrapped a towel around his waist and, carrying his clothes, returned to
the bedroom.
Julie was now lying on his bed, as Michelle had been doing. He had picked up
the binder which Michelle had thrown down. He looked up at Michelle's return.
"This is weird stuff, isn't it? They are trying everything! Even writing sick
stuff like this"
Michelle nodded.
"I can't handle it. Look, they told us we don't have to go along; we have
choices. Let's choose to stop"
"But you know they don't mean it. The choices are illusions, unless you like
pain!"
"They wouldn't dare really harm us. This is abuse! They'll go to jail when
they get caught"
Julie looked silently at Michelle before speaking again.
"That's just it, isn't it? What they've already done would get them in big
trouble. They've kidnapped us, drugged us, beaten and tortured us. And look
at this place! How many people do you think are involved? What's it all cost?
I don't think they expect to get caught. I think they believe that they can
get away with anything!"
Michelle considered this statement. Try as he might, he could find no flaw in
the argument. Maybe resistance really was futile.
"So what are you going to do?" he asked.
Julie looked sad.
"One of the reasons I left home was that my dad was so mean to me. He accused
me of being a weakling, of being a no-good faggot! Just because I was small!
He's a big man; it's my mom who's tiny. I take after her. I got beat up at
school and I could never make any team. He was a jock and he hates me! Last
time he spoke to me he called me a girly- boy"
Julie's pain was evident in his tone. His eyes were damp with incipient
tears.
"Maybe he was right. Maybe I'm supposed to be a girl. Maybe this is the best
solution"
"Don't say that! It's not true! My step-dad was an asshole too. But I'm not
letting these bastards change the way I am!"
Julie looked at him. Michelle suddenly realized that he was holding an entire
set of girl's clothing, which he had been wearing all day. His legs were
smooth and hairless, and even his voice had changed!
He threw the clothes blindly atop the bureau and drew back the covers. He was
part way under the satin sheets when Julie's voice intruded on his escape.
"I think we're supposed to get dressed before going to sleep"
He rolled over to look at his room-mate, who was holding up a peach colored
babydoll nightgown.
"I found mine in the top drawer on my side of the bureau, along with some
other things I think we are supposed to wear."
"I don't care. I'm on strike from now on. I am making my choice!"
Julie looked concerned, but after a few seconds, walked to the bathroom,
carrying his nightgown.
"It's your choice" was all he said.
Michelle spent a restless night, unable to get to sleep until long after the
red numerals on the alarm clock read three am. He awoke to the abrupt sound
of the alarm, knowing that he had had bad dreams but unable to recall any
details.
He was blessed with a few seconds of disorientation before memory returned,
and with it his resolve not to cooperate. His compliance yesterday had, he
thought, been caused by hunger, fear and surprise. Now he knew what was going
on. He would be tougher today! Maybe, surely, others would join him in his
protest.
A soft voice over the speakers, which he still had not located, announced
that all girls were expected in the breakfast room in forty minutes, showered
and appropriately dressed.
He heard Julie getting out of bed. He saw that he had worn his nightgown to
bed. Julie grimaced at him as he padded past. Michelle stayed in bed. He had
seen that all the male clothing set out yesterday had been removed before
they had returned to their room, so that he had no male clothing to wear and
he would be damned if he would wear any more female clothing.
Julie showered, taking longer than Michelle had expected, until he realized
from the tiny smear of blood he saw on the back of Julie's thigh when he
returned, that Julie must have decided to shave his legs.
He watched with a morbid fascination the process by which Julie got dressed.
It seemed that Julie had given up, and was now actively co-operating. The