Preface:
One of the all-time great, classic TV-stories is Miss High-
Heels. It was first published - as far as I can trace it - by
the famous Select Biblioth?que in Sceaux (France) about 1929 as
the translation of a work by a British author whose name was
given as "Sir O. T**". Actually it was not really a translation,
but a very freely adapted French version of the original English
text. Later two more works by the same author (but now his
initials were given as C. F.) were published titled "Miss
Buckles" and "The Feminised Page" again in French versions. If
anybody has these works in the original English version I would
love to hear from them.
Enjoy!
Rhonda Wagram
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Miss High-Heels
The story of a rich but girlish young gentleman under the
control of his pretty step-sister and her aunt: written by
himself at his step-sister's order, with an account of his
punishments, the dresses he was made to wear, his final
subjection and his curious fate.
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CHAPTER ONE
Dressed as a young lady for my step-sister's dinner-party.
Phoebe's glac?-kid long gloves. My parentage and boyhood. I am
left under the guardianship of a girl. How "Dennis" was
transformed into "Miss Denise."
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Phoebe the maid, though she was as big and strong as a
grenadier, had the deft, neat hands of a French woman. She
threaded a pink satin ribbon amongst the shining curls of my
coiffure, buttoned the last button of my very long glac?-kid
evening gloves, and dusted lightly with a powder-puff my white
bosom and shoulders. Then she tucked a tiny lace handkerchief in
my corsage and said:
"There, now you are ready, Miss Denise. Stand up!"
"Miss Denise indeed!" and "Stand up!" The insolence of it!
I remained seated.
"Ah!" said Phoebe with a malicious smile, 49 you don't like
being ordered about by poor servants, do you? You are the young
master of Beaumanoir, the wealthy aristocrat, the great
landlord, Dennis Evelyn Beryl," and she uttered my name with
amused contempt.
"Bah! - I do not trouble my head about your position-you are
in your own house-it is true, but you are under the control of
your beautiful step-sister who very properly stripped you of
your foolish trousers two years ago to punish you for your
impertinence. You are over eighteen years old - I admit it, but
for two years you have been mincing in petticoats in a girls'
school. You are a young gentleman, are you? Nobody would believe
it. You hair reaches down below your waist. You have the figure,
the face, the soft limbs, the hands and feet and the breasts of
a girl." I was dreadfully ashamed at Phoebe's outburst. I could
not deny a word of it.
"You are a very important person, I suppose," she went on
jeering at me, "with a great career in Parliament! Heavens how
you used to plague my ears with your boastfulness! It may all be
true. What I am concerned with is that you should he beautifully
dressed for the dinner-party which your step-sister Miss Deverel
is giving on her twenty-third birthday. Stand up at once, or I
will lace you into a corset one inch tighter than the one you
are wearing now."
"Oh Phoebe," I cried, "I can hardly breathe in this one."
I was alarmed. Her tone was so menacing. She was much
stronger than I was. She could carry out her threat if she
chose. I stood up. I had a special reason for being obedient
to-night.
"That's better, Miss Denise," she said.
I was dressed in an exquisite decollet? frock of white
transparent chiffon glittering with silver embroideries over an
underdress of soft white satin. The corsage was cut very low,
the sleeves being merely shoulder straps of flashing silver
bugles, and my tight unwrinkled white kid gloves reached up to
my shoulders. A sash of white satin encircled my small waist and
was tied in an enormous bow looped through a huge diamond buckle
on my left hip, whence the broad streamers fringed with silver
floated down to my feet. A bunch of pink roses was pinned on the
right of my corsage at the waist. The sheath skirt moulded my
legs in its gleaming satin and chiffon, outlining the girlish
curves of my figure and was caught tightly in at the ankles by
a scarf of tulle passed through a big sparkling diamond buckle
in front of the dress and tied in a great bow behind. My legs
were quite bound by these dainty fetters of satin and tulle. The
skirt was hemmed with tulle and was bordered with a festoon of
tiny pink roses, and on the left side a row of flat diamond
buttons sparkled up to the knee. The skirt had a long train of
white satin, lined with pleats of tulle which rustled
deliciously at each movement. Phoebe arranged the train in a
gleaming swirl about my feet, and stood up.
"Now Miss Denise, those smartly-gloved hands behind your
back!"
"Behind my back! Like a child!"
"Don't argue. Behind your back with them at once, palm to
palm, the fingers pointing down."
I obeyed. How humiliating it was!
"Now lift up this pretty face."
She took my chin and tilted back my head.
"I must say, Miss Denise, your governesses have done wonders
for you at your school. You always were a pretty girl of course,
but you are quite lovely now."
I blushed - was it altogether from shame, or was there not
some thrill of pleasure and of girlish vanity in the blush? Oh
my two years at a girls' school had left their influence upon my
disposition.
"Now put the high heels of your satin slippers together
under your frock."
She looked down to the billowy satin and tulle of my skirt.
"Have you done it? Are the toes daintily turned out?"
"Yes Phoebe."
"I'll make sure."
She stooped and thrusting her hand under my dress, felt my
feet. The blushes deepened on my face, and let me be frank - a
soft wave of voluptuous delight swept over me. I am to write the
truth here, at the order of my guardian and step-sister Helen
Deverel, and she knows me so well that I could not hope to
deceive her. Therefore I am frank about it. The thought that
here was I dressed with all the dainty luxury of a very
fashionable girl, standing obediently with my hands behind me at
the bidding of a maid, while she adjusted my satin-slippered
feet in the attitude of a school-girl troubled my passions.
There was something sensuously bizarre in the contrast which
fascinated me. Besides, apart from the queer mental impression
produced in me, the actual touch of Phoebe's hands on my insteps
and ankles gave me a delicious physical sensation. For she was
wearing long white glac?-kid gloves. I asked her why, and she
glanced at me shrewdly.
"Miss Priscilla's orders," she answered, "No one is to touch
you, or dress you without long glac?-kid gloves on their hands.
But why do you ask, Miss Denise?"
I was confused.
"Did the feel of the gloves on your silk stockings please
you? Answer at once."
"Yes Phoebe," I replied shyly.
Phoebe nodded her head.
"Miss Priscilla is a very wise lady. Now stand without
moving until she comes to inspect you."
Miss Priscilla, then, that old maid whom I had once been
fool enough to despise, had foreseen that the touch of the
kid-gloves would make its sensuous appeal to me. She had
deliberately intended that it should. Why? My old fear returned
to me - a fear that she and Helen Deverel her niece were in a
plot together to nullify me, to make me of no importance,
perhaps by some enervating system to reduce me to perpetual
subjection. If so I had reason to shiver; they were so clever,
they had shown such insight into my character and failings. On
the other hand there was the promise of Helen Deverel given to
me in the most emphatic way two years ago that the day after I
returned from the girls' school I should be allowed to resume
the dress of my sex, if the head schoolmistress sent me home
with a good report. Well I had returned this afternoon with an
excellent report. Tonight I was to be Miss Denise Beryl, a
cousin of Evelyn's. But tomorrow I was to resume my liberty. I
was to be once more the master of Beaumanoir.
I was turning over these doubts in my mind when Phoebe
interrupted my reflections.
"You have moved your feet, Miss Denise, she said sternly.
"In that tight pretty satin frock, every tremor of your limbs is
visible."
"I wasn't thinking Phoebe," I said humbly, "I am sorry."
Phoebe was appeased by the humility of my voice.
"I will forgive you this once," she said. "There's no doubt
Miss Denise that you ought to be kept in girls' clothes all your
life."
"All my life I" I exclaimed horrified.
"You are so much easier to manage," she replied. What a
selfish argument! All she thought of was her comfort, not one
consideration did she give to me, my position, the career which
awaited me. No! As a youth, I should give her orders. Under
discipline and dressed as a girl I received them from her. That
was all she cared about.
I was careful not to move again, and Phoebe busied herself
in putting away the school-girl's dress which I had laid aside
to appear as a grown up young lady in a decollet? gown with a
long train.
While I am waiting thus for Miss Priscilla, let me explain
briefly the circumstances which brought about my present
position.
My father, who was probably the wealthiest commoner in
England, had inherited the great estate of Beaumanoir in
Hampshire, a house in Park Lane and a large fortune in the
Funds, which by skilful business he had greatly increased. He
married late in fife and I, his only child, was born when he was
fifty-two. I was baptized Dennis Evelyn, and the second name,
which is given to girls as well as to boys, I always resented.
I resented it all the more, because in complexion, features,
limbs, and figure I was, alas! As the taunts of my school
friends assured me, more like a girl than a boy. My father lost
his wife when I was twelve and a year later married a second
time whence came all my troubles. He married a middle-aged widow
Mrs. Deverel, who bad a daughter Helen, a girl just four years
older than myself. She was a beautiful girl with dark hair, a
pale sweet face and a slim figure. She had the most winning
manners and at once set herself to charm everybody. She
succeeded with everybody except me.
I resented my father's marriage, and the intrusion of these
new people into our house. I would not call the new Mrs. Beryl,
"mother," nor Helen "sister." Mrs. Beryl was considerate and
Helen laid herself out to please me, but I distrusted them both.
I always had a fear that they meant to take my place in my
father's affections and oust me from my inheritance.
I remember particularly one day when I was home for the
holidays. I was thirteen at the time, Helen seventeen; she
stopped me as I went out of the drawing-room, and as she came
in, she laid her little hand upon my arm and said wistfully:
"Evelyn, can't we be good friends? I am so unhappy that you
dislike me."
The name Evelyn irritated me. I looked at her ironically and
replied
"I suppose that you really want to marry me, to get hold of
my fortune, don't you?"
It was a foolish answer. If it had not been uttered I might
not be standing now in the fashionable ball-dress of a wealthy
young lady, waiting the moment when I should take my place at
her birthday dinner party, a living tribute to her domination
from the Louis Quinze heels of my smart satin-slippers to the
pink ribbon in my curls. For to that foolish answer I attribute
the beginnings of her hatred and resentment. She turned away
deeply wounded and never made advances to me again.
That same year in the autumn my step-mother died and the
shock of her death prostrated my father. He was then sixty-five.
He had a great affection for Helen and a great faith in her
capacity; and at her suggestion, Miss Priscilla Deverel, an Aunt
of hers, was introduced into the household to act as companion
to Helen and to assist her in the management of the house. Miss
Priscilla was really a remarkable woman. She was a fully
qualified doctor and had amongst lady-doctors a great medical
reputation. She gave up her practice to join us. But to me at
this time she seemed merely a harmless, slightly ridiculous old
maid. She was forty-seven or so when she came to Beaumanoir, a
wrinkled thin ungainly woman, who dressed very badly, was very
patient and submissive, and whom I treated with the utmost
disregard. I did not resent her presence in the house, as I did
Helen's. For I looked upon her as of no importance whatever. The
first time I had any doubt about her was a year later when I was
ill with a cold: I was then between fourteen and fifteen, and
Helen brought her to my bedroom. At first I would not allow her
to examine my chest, but Helen threatened to tell my father of
my refusal and to send for a doctor from London. That for a
special reason I dreaded. I let Miss Priscilla open my
night-gown and I saw at once - for my pride was on the look-out
- a flash of wonder on her face. I flushed scarlet. I had a
secret which I had always tried to conceal. My bosom was much
too developed for a boy's and developing as I grew. I had not
merely the nipples of a boy, but the white globes of a girl's
breasts threatened to become prominent. Miss Priscilla examined
them carefully. Then she turned to Helen and exchanged with her
a significant look. When she looked again at me a slow smile of
triumph was spreading over her face. It seemed to say: "I have
got you," and when she went out of the room I thought with some
discomfort of the impertinences which I had showered upon her.
However, I soon took courage. She could do me no harm, I
thought. What a fool I was!
The next term an episode occurred of which it is difficult
for me to write. But I must refer to it, because it affected my
future tremendously. I was, as I have confessed, girlish to look
at although I took my part in the games of the school and my
appearance brought upon me a great deal of chaff and ridicule.
It also brought upon me the attentions of the bigger boys in the
Sixth Form. One of them, a youth of nineteen called Guy Repton,
pestered me. One afternoon I struck him, and gave him a black
eye. He attacked me, a master caught us struggling. Guy Repton
was expelled in disgrace, and my father was asked to take me
away. The head master wrote to my father as follows:
"Dennis is not to blame for the scandal at all, but he looks
so much like a pretty girl that I think him unsuited for a boys'
school."
Accordingly I returned home, and nobody knew what to do with
me. I could not go to another school. I was too young for the
University. I stayed at home for six months. My father was
already sickening with his last illness. There was no one to
control me; and no doubt I bullied the servants, was tyrannical
and threatening to the tenants, was rude to Helen and
contemptuous of Miss Priscilla. Miss Priscilla bad precise
old-maidish neatnesses which it was a pleasure to me to offend.
To stamp about the drawing-room in noisy muddy boots, to fling
myself on delicately upholstered sofas in dirty football clothes
- these things I delighted to do because I saw how much they
shocked her and offended Helen. Finally Helen made a suggestion
to my father that I should be sent round the world with a tutor
for a year. My father was delighted with the idea. He was very
ambitious for me.
"There is no reason, my boy, why you should make money. I
have done that. You must make a famous name. Marry and begin a
great family which shall be associated the history of the
country."
Oh, how well I remember him saying that! Helen and Miss
Priscilla were both at his bedside at the time, and both looking
at me with a quizzing enigmatical smile which I did not
understand.
"You must go into Parliament, become a Cabinet Minister,
perhaps Prime Minister. Therefore go round the world Dennis and
improve your mind."
I went, grateful to Helen, but after I had started I began
to wonder whether Helen had not some ulterior purpose. Whether
she had not removed me from my father's neighbourhood in order
to oust me by slanders from his affections and rob me of my
inheritance. I wrote to him therefore warning him against Helen
and Miss Priscilla.
"They are both of them designing women, I am sure. They wish
to intrigue me out of my proper position as your son."
It was an unfortunate letter, for it came into Helen's hands
ultimately. But at the same time it had its influence on my
father. For a couple of months later, I received a telegram
announcing my father's death and that he had bequeathed the
whole of his immense fortune to me, with a request that I should
make Helen such an allowance as I thought sufficient for her and
Miss Priscilla. There was however a thorn in that as in every
rose. I was not to come into my inheritance until I was
twenty-five, and until that time Helen was appointed my
guardian. I resented extremely the idea of being subject to
Helen who certainly disliked me and at this time was only twenty
years old herself. However I reflected that I had the whip hand
of her. For she would be absolutely dependant upon me and my
money for her meals. I returned to London where I found a letter
from Helen asking me to go and see Mr. Willowes the solicitor.
Now Mr. Willowes was a friend of Helen's and she had removed the
entire affairs of the family from our old solicitor, who had
looked after them for twenty years, into this new man's hands.
I went to see him in a haughty mood of displeasure.
"I don't approve of the change," I said foolishly, "and I
shall restore the business into the hands of our old solicitor
when I come of age."
Mr. Willowes, a young sardonic looking man, twirled his
moustache with an ironical smile.
"It is very kind of you to give me warning. Meanwhile here
is your first-class railway ticket to Beaumanoir. I have paid
off your tutor. Miss Deverel expects you this afternoon and if
you will take a word of advice, young gentleman, you will change
your tone with her. You are sixteen and a half. She has complete
control of you for the next eight years and I rather think that
she has had enough of your ill-manners. Good morning."
Wild with rage I was shown out of the office. I had hardly
any money. I had to go down to Beaumanoir, and at once Helen
threw off the mask. I arrived late, and I noticed that all the
footmen and men-servants had been dismissed. There were only the
women now and new women-servants in addition, all big and
handsome and strong.
"You have just time to dress for dinner," said Phoebe, "if
you will hurry."
"I shall be late," I replied. "How is it that there are no
valets?"
"You must ask Miss Helen."
I had my bath and coming back into my bedroom I found Phoebe
still there.
"What are you doing here? You can go," I said and I saw to
my surprise that she was holding up a dainty corset of white
satin.
"I must lace you into this first Master Evelyn," she said
impudently.
"How dare you? What impertinence!" I began and I saw her
move to the bell. "What are you going to do?" I cried.
"Ring the bell for some of the other servants if you are
going to be silly. I have definite orders from Miss Helen to
lace you into a corset and smarten you up."
I remembered with a sinking heart Mr. Willowes' advice. I
couldn't have a struggle with a lot of women-servants. It was a
question I must settle privately with Helen. A minute's
conversation would settle the matter and put a stop to the
repetition of any such nonsense. I allowed Phoebe to lace me up
in a woman's corset. What a strange luxurious sensation it was!
An enervating, captivating sensation against which I felt the
need to struggle. I had a feeling now of being really in a
woman's power. The delicate thing, all lace and satin outside,
but relentless as steel in its grip, seemed to me an epitome and
a symbol of women. The rest of this story will show that my
intuition was correct. My hair I had carelessly allowed to grow
long. Phoebe curled it. I noticed that my new dress trousers had
a line of little effeminate black satin buttons running for a
few inches from the hem upwards on the outside of each leg. They
were short too and exposed my ankles which were clad in very
fine black silk stockings fixed up to my corset instead of in
socks and my shoes were patent-leather girls' pumps with neat
flat bows and the straight American heels, higher of course than
those which men wear. But I thought I could easily hide these.
Helen was already at table when I went down with five or six of
her friends, Mr. and Mrs. Kivers, old General Carstairs, a
regular degenerate and some others.
"Ah here's the androgyne!" Helen cried as I entered the
room. "Come and sit down! How do you like your corset and your
bright little shoes?"
The company tried not to laugh. I was so confused that I
wished the floor would open and swallow me up. I ate my dinner
not knowing where to look.
"We have just been discussing your future, Evelyn dear,"
said Helen.
"I prefer not to discuss my future with acquaintances," I
replied haughtily.
"There's no reason why you should," said Helen, "for we have
settled it with a unanimous vote. You are too young still for
College. For reasons of which you are aware, you cannot be
safely sent to a boys' school".
I grew scarlet.
"And you are too overbearing and untidy and impossible to
remain at home with a tutor. There is only one thing left for
you, dear, and that's a girls' school."
I started up in a rage.
"This is really too much."
"Come with me," said Helen, with a look on her face which
frightened me. She had absolute control of me for eight years.
She took me up to my bedroom.
"I am quite serious about this Evelyn," she said in a gentle
voice. "It is the only thing to be done. I don't know whether
you are aware that I can, if I think you fit for your position,
let you come of age when you are twenty-one. If you behave very
obediently as a girl for two years at the girls' school to which
I am going to send you, I may perhaps shorten your minority."
It was a strong inducement. Besides, she need not have
offered any inducement. She had the right to do with me what she
liked. I saw no escape.
"Of course if I go as a girl to a girls' school for two
years, I shall be allowed to dress as a man at the end."
"If your school-mistress reports favourably. I don't want to
seem unkind."
I had to consent. During the next day, I was busy with
Helen's dressmakers, Helen's milliner, Helen's bootmakers,
Helen's corseti?re. In ten days I was fetched by a governess. I
went by train in the summer uniform of the school - a pretty
pink frock of ninon, ankle length, a big white straw hat, long
brown glac?-kid gloves, and patent leather button boots with
very high heels. At the school I had a bedroom to myself, no one
knew or found out that I was not a girl and I went through the
most rigid system imaginable all designed to make me completely
girlish in mind and body. Hair was removed from every part of my
body, except my head, by electric needles and depilatories.
Every morning and every evening I was massaged for an hour to
reduce my waist and develop my bust, and soften my limbs.
Exercises with the same object were carefully supervised. I wore
face-masks for my complexion, gloves at night to whiten my
hands. My skin was carefully tended, my hair treated with
lotions and so successfully that it grew extraordinarily thickly
and in two years hung down below my waist. I was never allowed
to see myself in a mirror, for fear, I suppose, lest I should
revolt against the system. But of course I was none the less
aware that curves were coming where before there had been
angles, that the muscles were all vanishing from my legs and
arms which were naturally round, that my breasts were developing
into the pretty white round delicately-veined apples of a girl.
I was now back at home, waiting for Miss Priscilla to inspect
the result. I was in a bedroom which had been altogether
refurnished in mauve. Over a thick carpet a covering of mauve
glac?-kid had been tightly stretched, delicious to feel under
one's feet. The room was a girl's bedroom, the dressing-table
covered with feminine bottles of perfume and lotion, jewelled
powder boxes, gold-backed brushes. Why I asked myself since I
was to be a youth again tomorrow? A beautiful little
marble-tiled bathroom led from it on one side, and a dainty
boudoir on the other. The bed was an exquisite thing in the
shape of a swan. It was altogether a lovely suite of rooms - for
a girl.
"I shall not sleep here tomorrow, "I said to myself, and
then the door opened and Miss Priscilla entered carrying a
number of leather jewel-cases in her hands.
CHAPTER TWO
Miss Priscilla inspects me. In silk stockings and slippers.
I am to be punished. Helen's delight at my changed appearance.
What two years at a girls' school can do. My bosom and Miss
Priscilla's theory. Helen tempts me to subjection in vain.
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I had despised her two years ago. I shivered with alarm now.
Yet she had not changed. She was the same neat, precise, thin,
elderly spinster with the patient air of submission. It was I
who had changed and at her bidding. At an age when even the
poorest of youths begin to gain their liberty, I probably the
very richest in the country, the head of one of the oldest
families in the country had been calmly stripped of mine by this
old maid and her niece; and they had been able to do it through
their insight into my character. That is what I suspected at the
time. What I was soon to know was the truth.
Miss Priscilla was dressed in a high-necked plain gown of
grey silk; she wore the flat square-toed ugly shoes which used
to excite my ridicule. The solitary touch of luxury about her
was a long pair of glac?-kid white gloves which she wore upon
her arms. She looked at me coldly, critically; there was no
expression upon her face and so much had my two years at the
girls' school done to effeminatize me that I became curious as
to what she thought of my looks and a little hurt - yes, let me
admit it - a little hurt that she was not betrayed into an
expression of admiration. She opened the leather-cases and a
rippling fire of jewels at once made the room glorious to my
girlish eyes. She advanced to me. They were for me then those
glittering streams of diamonds, those lustrous rows of pearls!
Oh I loved jewels! She fixed a high collar of diamonds round my
throat with a diamond bow and a tiny diamond tassel dangling
from it, just behind the left ear. She passed a double row of
magnificent pearls round my shoulder which hung down to my
waist. She fixed earrings of big pearls set with diamonds in my
ears which had been pierced. She fixed a diamond star amongst my
curls, a diamond brooch in the roses at my waist.
"Give me your hands, Denise," she said and on my wrists she
fastened lovely bracelets of gold flashing with diamonds and
pigeon-blood rubies. They were very tight, and then she fixed
another similar pair above my elbows smoothing up my long gloves
carefully before she clasped them on.
"They will keep your pretty gloves tidy and smooth," she
said. "Now you can join your hands again behind your back." With
each movement the soft fire of the flashing stones ran over me
like water. Oh now I wished to see myself in them! There were a
couple of big full-length mirrors with three panels each such as
one sees in a dressmaker's atelier. But the panels were closed.
"What is Miss Denise's waist-measure?" Miss Priscilla asked
of Phoebe.
"Nineteen inches, Miss," replied Phoebe.
"And the height of her heels?"
"Four inches."
Miss Priscilla nodded her approval; she turned to me
"Have you your big diamond buckles on your satin slippers?"
"Yes Miss Priscilla," I replied blushing.
"Lift your skirt and let me see!"
With a shy smile of pleasure - I could not help smiling - I
raised in my delicately-gloved fingers the exquisite satin
frock. There came into view a pair of small slender feet in
exquisitely-cut, new, glistening, white satin slippers with
wonderful arched narrow Louis Quinze heels, pointed toes
embroidered with pearls, butterfly bows of dainty white tulle
and mounted on the bows big blazing diamond buckles. The slim
little slippers were posed with the heels together and the toes
turned out as Phoebe had arranged them. The skirt rose higher,
a pair of round arched insteps and small finely moulded ankles
showed prettily pink through tightly-strained stockings of white
silk with lace insertions. I had never seen such stockings,
never even dreamed of things so beautiful. They were of the
finest gossamer, transparent as cobwebs, filmy delicious
ornaments rather than coverings with a soft sheen upon which was
lovely. Stockings and slippers were fit for some blushing
beautiful d?butante of high birth and enormous wealth, to make
her curtsey in before her Queen. No one else could have afforded
them.
Miss Priscilla stooped and held out her hands.
"Give me those pretty feet."
Coquettishly I hesitated, just like a pretty girl who
pretends modesty the better to display what she knows to be her
best points.
"Oh Miss Priscilla," I said.
"At once, Denise."
I extended a foot. She took it in her hands, tried the
buckle to make certain that it was secure, felt the slipper to
see that it was tight enough and measured the heel.
"They are very pretty," she said with cold content.
"Put them together again Denise. You disobeyed me."
"Miss Priscilla, I only hesitated."
"You were trying your little coquetries on me, Denise," she
said with a shrewd smile which brought the blushes to my face.
"But I punish coquetry. You were indulging your vanity by making
play with your dainty slippers and I punish vanity Denise. You
will go down to dinner and sit through dinner with your pretty
mouth gagged".
"A very good thing for Miss Denise," said Phoebe
delightedly.
I was startled.
"Oh Miss Priscilla! I am to sit amongst the guests at a
dinner-party - in this lovely frock - in these satin slippers
and stockings - with my mouth gagged!"
"Yes Denise!"
"Diamond shoe buckles and high heels for my feet and a gag
for my mouth. Oh, oh!" I gasped.
Poignant emotions stirred me, troubled me, provoked my
passions. I am to tell the whole truth. I was ashamed but I
anticipated the punishment with a strange secret thrill of
delight. Ever since I had been a boy, I had been from time to
time besieged with queer fancies which at first I had laughed
at, which afterwards at once fascinated me and frightened me. I
recognized in them a danger to my character, to my ambitions and
an obstacle to the great career which lay before me. I had
dreamed, in a word, of a world in which ladies to punish me,
dressed me as a girl in the most exquisite of frocks and
high-heeled shoes, gloves and corsets and, then laughing at my
pretensions to a career, kept me in bondage and subjection as a
toy for their amusement. I had fought against these fancies
because I felt them to be enervating, effeminatizing, and likely
to sap my will. I had ridiculed them as preposterous. Yet they
seemed part of my nature, they returned and now - they were
translated into fact, and being translated into fact fascinated
and obsessed me with a force a thousand times stronger than
ever. If it had thrilled me with strange delightful emotions to
imagine myself dressed in the luxurious gowns of a fashionable
girl, undergoing punishments and humiliations and dainty
tortures at the hands of a laughing beautiful woman deaf to my
prayers, how much more was I of necessity thrilled and excited
when the dream became true as it was true now!
I tried however to struggle against the strange sweet
pleasure which invaded me. For I knew that Helen hated me, that
she thought I had by inheriting my father's fortune, robbed her;
and I was afraid that she and Miss Priscilla were seeking by
mastering me completely to get it back. I was afraid that Miss
Priscilla, with her knowledge of psychopathia, had guessed my
secret fancies and by translating them into fact was seeking to
reduce me to a willing servitude. Was I right? Let the reader
read on. Meanwhile the pleasure mastered the fear as it had done
before. For it was the enervating pleasure of a dream fulfilled
which made me offer so miserable a resistance to my first corset
and my banishment to a girls' school. There! The truth is out.
Miss Priscilla had one more question to ask of me as I stood
there before the mirror with my ivory ankles together and the
big buckles flashing on my glistening slippers.
"There was a third, tight white kid-glove I arranged for you
to wear. Have you it on?" I went scarlet. But if I did not
answer I should be punished. I hung my head.
"Yes Phoebe buttoned it on," I replied in a whisper of
confusion. Miss Priscilla was content.
"It will teach you to be modest in the presence of women,
Denise, and to remember that you are under their authority. You
will wear it always."
She pulled down my skirt and arranged it so that the toes of
my slippers and an inch of silk-stockinged instep were exposed.
As she finished, Helen, looking beautiful in a sweeping
d?collet? gown of black velvet and shoulder length white
kid-gloves entered the room.
I had not to complain of any want of admiration on her part
at all events. A look of wonder and delight shone in her face.
She uttered a little rapturous cry. She ran to me, hugged me and
with passionate kisses bruised my lips.
"Denise! I am proud of you."
I hung my head, conscious for a moment to the full of my
humiliation. I was her victim.
"Oh Denise!" She laid her face against mine with a bubbling
laugh of delight. "Your cheek is as soft and fresh as a peach.
You are a lovely girl."
"I am not a girl," I protested.
"Aren't you darling? You shall decide for yourself."
One of the great mirrors was placed behind me. Oh, how excited
I became! At last after two years I was to see what they had
made of me. The second was placed in front of me unfolded and
the bulbs of electric light which surrounded the frame of the
mirrors and were so shaded as to throw the full light of their
rays upon the person standing in front of them, were turned on.
I stood in a blaze of light. I stared at myself. I uttered a cry
and covered my face with my hands.
"Oh I am! I am a girl!" I admitted with a sigh.
I saw a girl, fair face, mine but refined, softened,
improved out of knowledge. A wealth of fair glinting hair, done
up in the most fashionable style crowned it. A broad white
forehead and arched eyebrows darker than my curls, big wistful
eyes of dark blue with long dark eyelashes, a delicate nose,
cheeks in which the colour came and went. The colour of pale
rose-leaves, red lips in a Cupid's bow smiling (alas! they were
smiling now) and showing a perfect set of small white teeth, a
small rounded chin, little ears - such was Evelyn Beryl when he
came back from school. Thus Violet Hind described me in a
letter. Violet and Doris Hind were cousins of Helen. They had
come to live with Helen just before I had gone away with my
tutor. Violet was a very pretty auburn-haired girl six months
younger than myself. Doris was fifteen. I spare myself the
humiliation of describing myself by quoting from her letter
which Helen has given me to use. It goes on.
"The small dainty head is supported on a slender white
throat which rises from a dimpled lovely white girl's bosom and
shoulders. He has the round white breasts of a girl. The pretty
valley between them, the little rose-petals, everything. His
figure is slender, the legs long, the feet and hands delicious.
He is tall, in his high-heeled shoes taller than Helen and about
the same height as Miss Priscilla. He is a girl."
This is what I saw in the mirror - this girl sparkling with
jewels from her feet to her curls, and dressed for a ball in the
London season. Helen was in raptures. She might well be, since
this was her doing.
"You have exceeded all my expectations, darling," she said.
With little cries of delight, she ran her gloved hands over
me, feeling and pinching me behind until I was scarlet.
"Oh Helen, You mustn't," I protested.
"Nonsense, dear! I am your guardian, keep still, else I will
whip the big soft girlish thing."
"Oh, oh!"
An excruciating sensation made me blush more than ever.
"Whip it - in this lovely frock," I said shyly.
"Ah," cried Helen enthusiastically, "you love your exquisite
satin frock darling, don't you?" It rustled delightfully under
her hands. "And the tulle band here with the big sparkling
buckle in front and the big bow behind?"
"It ties my ankles delightfully," I stammered.
Oh was it I who was speaking ? "It is like a soft caress
upon my limbs."
Helen applauded me with a radiant face. She ran her daintily
gloved hands down the dress behind feeling through its thin
texture my legs and calves.
"They're charming," she cried. "They are as soft as butter.
And you love your stockings too, Denise, don't you, the
exquisite stockings I deck you out in?"
The feel of her hands pinching affectionately my calves, her
dainty air of mastery - as though she owned me - intoxicated me.
"They are deliciously cool," I said.
"And your white satin slippers with the high-heels and the
pretty bows and the sparkling buckles, you love them too? Lift
up her dress to the knees Phoebe. You love your little girl's
shoes, Denise?"
Phoebe raised my skirt until the knees, the white satin
garters with the big bows and buckles and the dainty frills of
my batiste pantalon were visible.
"Look in the mirror Denise and tell me gratefully that you
love them!"
"If I have got to wear girl's shoes," I replied blushing
deeply, "they may as well have high-heels and diamond buckles."
Something stronger than myself made me speak. In the midst of
her delight Helen exchanged a quick glance with Miss Priscilla.
It was a glance of triumph and it put me on my guard.
Phoebe let fall my dress and Helen took me round the waist.
You are delightful," Denise. You are quite a girl now with that
pretty white bosom."
"Yes, Ma'am," said Phoebe, "the breasts have come up
wonderful. I think Miss Denise ought to be grateful to Miss
Priscilla for the trouble she has taken in arranging the proper
exercises and massage and medicines".
"Oh there was no difficulty," said Miss Priscilla, "the
moment I discovered that Denise had the milk vessels of a woman,
I had no doubt that we could fit him with as pretty a pair of
girl's white breasts as any young lady could wish for."
"The milk vessels," cried Phoebe with a laugh, "then Miss
Denise is a freak?"
"Not at all," said Miss Priscilla calmly. "The men of the
primitive tribes used to have the milk-vessels. Miss Denise may
be a chance return to the primitive type. Or originally it might
have been that nature was going to give Evelyn a twin sister,
and that their embryos got mixed. That happens not
infrequently."
Helen laughed.
"In any case, Denise has a girl's bosom - for life." She
touched them with her gloved fingers and daintily caressed them
with little titillations of the nipples, sending waves of
delicious sensation through my veins. "They are a real
punishment, dear, for all the trouble you have given us. You
can't get rid of them as you could of your girl's shoes and
stockings if we were to let you. They are a permanent proof to
you of the wisdom of being gentle and obedient to women."
"But you are going to let me get rid of my girl's shoes and
stockings to-morrow. You promised faithfully, Helen," I said.
Helen held me firmly, caressed me, bruised my lips with
burning kisses.
"You don't want to get rid of them Denise. You love them!
You love your dainty frocks. You will be much happier as a
girl."
She pleaded with me, her voice, the perfume of her breath,
the feel of her limbs through my dress against mine tempted me.
I felt inclined to let myself go in her arms, to say, "Helen I
belong to you." But I remembered my ambitions.
"No, no I have your word," I cried. "I must be a man. I am
to marry and begin a great family."
The three women burst out laughing, confusing me dreadfully.
Helen cried:
"Oh Denise I would love to see your wife's face when she
first discovers your girl's bosom. No, no my dear, you shall
love your pretty frocks, your smart corsets, your long gloves
and your lovely little high-heeled slippers."
"No, no," I insisted obstinately, and Helen with an
exclamation of annoyance let me go. She had after all only
pretended to be affectionate, though she had very nearly
deceived me. Now her face became stern with anger. She looked at
me with threatening eyes. "Very well," she said, "but I warn you
Denise, you will come on your knees to me to ask me to put you
back into girl's clothes. Now go down to the drawing-room, and
take care how you walk. Point your toes, arch your feet. Here's
your fan!"
She gave me a lovely fan of ivory and gold. I turned from
her towards the door when Miss Priscilla called me back.
"You forget that you have to be punished, Denise," she said
calmly; and she told Helen of my coquetry and of the punishment
she meant to inflict.
CHAPTER THREE
A humiliating preliminary to punishment. Gagged at my
step-sister's dinner-party. Lady Hartley's views about young
ladies. "They should be dressed beautifully and treated as
dainty convicts." I am bound, fettered and caned in my evening
frock and high-heeled shoes. In the corner, like a child under
Miss Priscilla's observation.
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"Certainly she must be punished," said Helen. She pushed
towards me a gilt chair with a white satin seat.
"Lift your skirt carefully, Denise, and kneel on this
chair," she said sternly.
A little frightened, I obeyed at once this humiliating
order. Helen dipped a pen in the ink upon the writing-table.
"It is the rule in this house, Denise," she said, "that one
punishment always involves a second to be inflicted later on;
and so that we may not forget it we make a note of it upon the
sole of one of the culprit's smart shoes."
"Oh!" I protested. "I am to be punished twice for the same
fault."
"That is the rule. It teaches pretty young ladies to be
careful to avoid punishment altogether."
She took my instep in her hand and stooped over my feet. My
position was of course extraordinarily humiliating. But the feel
of her gloved hand on my round, warm, silk-stockinged instep,
and the sight of her in the mirror as she wrote down in a tiny
hand on the new white sole of my dainty satin-slipper the
punishment I was to endure, fixing upon me the evidence of my
disgrace, sent a voluptuous thrill through my blood.
"Now stay as you are, Denise, until the ink is dry," she
said, and, laying down the pen, she adjusted my feet, taking
care with her usual love of neatness, that my ankles were
pressed together, and my high-heels and pointed toes exactly
level.
Miss Priscilla meanwhile squeezed and rolled into a ball a
small lace handkerchief which she had been soaking in
Eau-de-Cologne. She came over to me with the ball in her hand.
"Open your mouth, Denise!"
I obeyed. She thrust the handkerchief into my mouth.
"Close your mouth now, dear!"
The Eau-de-Cologne burnt my tongue and the roof of my mouth
in the most painful way. Tears rifled my eyes.
"Oh! Oh!" I cried in a stifled voice, wringing my hands.
Miss Priscilla smiled at my sufferings.
"The Eau-de-Cologne will keep your mouth fresh and sweet,
darling," she said and she took up a bigger handkerchief of the
finest lawn and carefully folded it. This she adjusted over my
lips and tied the end very tightly behind at the back of my
hair, binding my mouth so that I could not utter a sound.
"Now stand up Denise!"
I stood up and Miss Priscilla carefully smoothed down my
shining skirt. What a bizarre spectacle met my eyes in the
mirror! I saw a grown-up girl in an exquisite evening gown of
white satin with her mouth gagged, her white throat and bosom
flashing with jewels, her white-gloved hands toying with a
pretty fan, the delicate bows and bright buckles of her
luxurious little slippers, peeping out from delicious billows of
white tulle.
But what made the spectacle so piquant and seductive to me
was the knowledge that the pretty girl was myself, an effeminate
youth in corsets with his kid-gloved hands quite free. He could
have torn the gag from his lips in a second. There were only two
ladies to prevent him. But he did not dare. He was undergoing
discipline in girls' frocks and pearl-embroidered satin slippers
at their hands. He was being punished by them. He was in
subjection.
"Now go downstairs into the drawing-room, Denise," said
Helen. "Our guests will be arriving in a minute."
I was to be seen by her guests in this ignominious
condition. The shame of it came home to me. I looked piteously
at Helen. But there was no sign of relenting in her face.
Luckily, I thought, the guests will not recognize me. It is only
Denise the girl whom they will see with the gag in her mouth and
Denise disappears for ever to-morrow. I picked up the train of
my frock and went sadly out of the room. As I turned to latch
the door, I heard Helen ask:
"Well, what do you think?"
And Miss Priscilla reply:
"... In a few weeks he will be the prettiest
fetichiste-du-pied in the world." And then they both laughed
heartlessly.
I was troubled by the words. What was a fetichiste-du-pied?
I must find out. I had an intuition that phrase was the secret
to the riddle, was the clue to the plot they had concocted to
nullify and ruin me. But I had no time to think about it now. My
heels were so high and thin, my skirt so tight, that I had to be
extremely careful in going downstairs. There were two big maids
like Phoebe waiting in the hall to receive the guests and they
both burst out laughing when they saw me. They knew who I was at
all events and my cheeks grew hot with shame.
There was no one as yet in the drawing-room, but my heart
sank at the ordeal in front of me.
I heard a light quick step outside and Doris Hind, now a
lovely girl of fifteen in a smart little short frock of pale
pink mousseline de sole with black silk stockings and patent
leather slippers ran into the room. A bright fire was burning in
the grate; I turned to it, to hide my gag as long as I could.
"Who are you, you pretty thing?" she asked.
I could not answer.
"What's the matter?"
She turned me round and saw the gag over my mouth. She
stared at me astonished for a moment. Then the truth broke in
upon her and she clapped her hands with pleasure.
"You are Denise. And Helen has gagged you. How delicious!
You are a perfect girl now, Denise."
I blushed to the roots of my hair, and unconsciously I
placed one foot upon the fender to warm it, lifting my skirt an
inch or two. Doris uttered a rapturous cry.
"What adorable feet! And, oh Denise, what divine little
satin slippers. Let me see!" I blushed again, but this time it
was with pleasure.
"What lovely buckles and what fairy-like bows! And those
dear little pearl-embroidered toes! And what jolly high-heels.
Show me your ankles!"
I raised the skirt higher, and the delicate cleanly rounded
ankle in its shimmering cobweb of silk and lace came into view.
Doris went into an ecstasy. "I should like to perch you on still
higher heels dear, and keep you in a glass case to show to my
friends. That's really all that you are fit for now. Walk across
the room you exquisite thing, and let me see how daintily you
can do it in your beautiful high-heeled shoes." I was delighted
with her admiration, but I shook my head at her request.
At once she stamped her foot peremptorily. "Quick, or I'll
punish you," she cried. "Pick up your train and let me see those
buckles flashing on your dainty butterfly bows this instant."
I submitted. I was beginning to learn that one of the
inevitable consequences of allowing myself to be dressed as a
girl was that everyone, even young girls like Doris, who knew
the secret, treated me as a little child in spite of my long
d?collet? gown and fine jewels. I walked daintily across the
room and back. Doris applauded me laughing.
"I don't know a girl, Denise, who wouldn't envy your figure
and your feet and ankles. Oh, but you must be kept in
high-heeled shoes all your life! It would be ridiculous now that
Helen has got you so smart and pretty to let you go back into
stupid trousers."
At that moment Helen and Miss Priscilla came into the room;
and the guests began to arrive. There was Mrs. Dawson the
clergyman's wife, Lady Hartley and her pretty daughter who was
just out; Mr. and Mrs. Charles Rivers, about twenty people
altogether, mostly young and all of them neighbours whom I had
known as a boy. I was introduced to them as Denise Beryl, a
cousin, and Helen explained how I came to be punished with a
gag. I had to stand and listen, but my cheeks burned with shame.
"Denise is unfortunately very vain," said Helen. "I had to
punish her because she would show off her feet in an unlady-like
way."
"She is very lucky to have got off so easily," said Lady
Hartley with severity looking down at my feet through her
glasses. "I should not only have gagged her, I should have taken
her pretty slippers away from her altogether," and then to my
amazement and my horror, "Mr. Guy Repton" was announced and my
old schoolfellow came into the room.
He had been expelled in disgrace because of me. How did
Helen come to know him ? Her first words explained.
"This is my new steward and agent," she said as she
introduced him. I was horrified. He was the new manager of my
estates. He was a young man of twenty two with a fair moustache.
Helen had given him a fine position, a good income. She must
have sought him out on purpose, because I had caused his
disgrace. She wished to surround me with my enemies, I felt
sure. A subtle stroke of hers was thus brought to my notice. Guy
Repton would be grateful to her and already he hated me. Helen
did not even pretend to conceal the reason for her choice of
him. She darted a triumphant look at me. I felt more and more
helpless in her hands.
We were waiting for dinner to be announced, when Lady
Hartley, a handsome matron of forty-five, came to me, took me by
the arm, and led me into a little drawing room which led off
from the big one. She pointed to a sofa.
"Lie down there on your face, young lady," and as I
hesitated, she pinched my ear painfully. "At once." Reluctantly
I stretched myself out on the sofa. Oh, what did she mean to do
with me ?
"I saw something written on the sole of your slipper, as you
walked across the room," she said. "A punishment of course." She
felt for my foot under my satin gown and lifted it up, read
Helen's note. She looked puzzled. "I wonder what it means," she
said. "You can get up."
We went back into the big room. Violet, Doris's elder sister
had just come down.
"I am very sorry for being late," she faltered breathlessly,
with a frightened appeal to Helen. She looked perfectly lovely
in a chiffon gown of nattier blue, which set off her white skin,
and her fair hair to perfection. Helen looked sternly at her,
but did not answer.
Dinner was announced.
"Mr. Repton, will you take in Denise," said Helen. "I am
sorry to have to give you so silent a companion."
I sat gagged at the dinner-table bright with flowers,
amongst those smartly dressed people, unable to eat, unable to
talk. I felt terribly humiliated. It was cruel to make me come
down to dinner at all. I found it difficult to breathe. I was
very hungry besides. It was all I could do not to burst into
tears. To make things worse the company began to talk about me
Evelyn Beryl. "It is such a pity that he is coming home
to-morrow," said Mrs. Dawson. "It has been so pleasant and
peaceful here while he has been at his girls' school." Everyone
agreed. It was a revelation to me how thoroughly unpopular I
was. I felt ashamed of my past behaviour.
"I think you will all find him greatly changed for the
better," said Helen with a smile. "His head-mistress's report
speaks most highly of his docility and his ladylike ways." How
I blushed. Luckily no one knew that I was present except Helen.
"I can quite believe it," said Guy Repton with a hateful
snigger. "I think that you are all a little unjust to poor
Evelyn. I don't think that his nature is really bad, but as a
boy he was not in his proper position. He must have known that
dressed in male clothes he looked silly and ridiculous, and no
doubt he felt uncomfortable, and that very probably made him
arrogant and intolerable. But dressed and treated as a girl he
would no longer have that feeling of discomfort. He would
probably be quite charming." I could have boxed Guy Repton's
ears for his impertinence. "Very likely you are right," said
Lady Hartley, "but then he ought to be kept a girl an his life."
"Oh yes," cried Mrs. Rivers turning enthusiastically to
Helen. I had thrown a stone through the drawing-room window of
her house, just after she and Charles Rivers had got married.
She had never forgiven me. Helen shook her head.
"I promised him that he should not have to wear girls'
clothes after the two years if he behaved himself." She made a
sign to Netta one of the parlour-maids. Netta took the
handkerchief from my mouth and the second one from between my
lips. My face was revealed, and Mrs. Rivers cried out
enthusiastically, "Oh what a pretty girl!"
I blushed with pleasure, and then the most unfortunate event
occurred. I had been sitting with my napkin on my lap, although
I had no dinner. I had been consumed with curiosity to know what
strange punishment it was which Helen had written down on the
sole of my foot. So, while the rest were talking I had slipped
off my left shoe. Then dropping my napkin I had stooped to pick
it up and at the same time I picked up in it the dainty high
heeled slipper. I held it carefully in my lap and read on the
white smartly shaped new sole the words "The glass-boxes."
I was wondering what strange punishment the punishment of
the "glass-boxes" could be with a thrill of awe, and believing
that no one bad seen my manouevre, when Mrs. Rivers uttered her
admiring cry; but Lady Hartley had been watching me and she said
at once severely: "Yes, a very pretty girl who has kicked one of
her dainty slippers off."
I hung my head in confusion.
"Is that true Denise ? Let me see!" said Helen.
"Yes Helen," I said humbly and lifted up the slipper.
Helen called to Netta.
"Take a shoe-horn, and put on Miss Denise's shoe."
Netta turned round my chair, and drew the slipper on my
foot and put me back at the table. Then she took the bracelets
from my wrists, unbuttoned my gloves there, slipped my hands out
and turned the gloves back.
"Yes, a very pretty girl," said Lady Hartley severely, "but
if you were my pretty girl, I should tie her gloved hands behind
her back, and stand her in the corner with her face to the wall,
and her dainty heels together." My cheeks grew red with shame.
But underneath the shame I was suddenly conscious of a
passionate longing to be punished in that childish and
humiliating way before all of these gaily dressed people. I
tried to shake the obsession off. It was dangerous, enervating,
effematizing. But the venom was in my veins. I tried to think of
my ambitions, my career. I could only think of the little new
shining satin slippers which so daintily imprisoned my feet
under the table, the fairly-like bows, the big blazing buckles,
the pointed pearl-embroidered toes. I felt the high Louis Quinze
heels sinking deliciously into the thick carpet. Oh to be made
to stand upon them publicly in a corner with my face to the
wall, and my gloved hands tied behind my back like a naughty
child. I a grown up young lady in a long satin frock with my
white shoulders and bejewelled throat rising from the lace and
ruffles of my gleaming corsage! I rubbed my legs together in a
spasm of desire. And then as Netta placed my dinner before me
and filled my glass with champagne, Helen cried out with a
laugh.
"But dear Lady Hartley, that is exactly what I am going to
do with Denise."
The men looked sympathetically at me, but all the ladies
were delighted. For myself I had to bend my head over my plate
to hide a smile of delight. Mr. Rivers actually pleaded for my
forgiveness, but Helen would not hear of it.
"And I think Helen is so right," said Lady Hartley. "I am
very interested in the punishment of young ladies. People allow
them such a ridiculous amount of liberty nowadays that it is
quite refreshing to find someone like Helen. To dress them
beautifully and treat them like dainty convicts. That is the
only way to keep the silly creatures in good order," she said
sternly.
I ate my dinner quickly, the longing to be punished tingled
through my veins. Already I felt Helen's quick little
daintily-gloved fingers binding my wrists behind me with satin
ribbons and adjusting my feet in exquisite finery. As soon as
dinner was over, cigarettes and coffee were handed round. I lit
a cigarette. It was two years since I had smoked one. Oh how I
enjoyed it now! I leaned back in my chair, a smile of delight
upon my face.
There was to be a dance for the people of the village after
dinner in the village hall. We were all to go in to it. Helen
rose.
"Mr. Repton," she said, "will you take the gentlemen down to
the hall when they are ready. There are two motor-cars. They can
come back for us. If you will start the people dancing we will
come in for a little while later. Then we can all come back
here, have a little dance ourselves and some supper."
"Certainly, Miss Deverel," said Guy Repton respectfully.
The other two ladies rose and Helen said to them: "Bring
your cigarettes, all of you except Denise. I can't have you
standing in the corner Denise, with a cigarette between your
lips."
Blushing I laid my cigarette on my plate and followed the
ladies from the room. As they crossed the hall, I heard Lady
Hartley say to Helen:
"I thought that I read on the sole of Denise's slipper that
you were thinking of a different punishment for her."
"Yes," replied Helen, "standing in the comer I look upon as
a preliminary. The real punishment will be inflicted later on
after supper."
"It sounds a curious one - 'The glass-boxes'."
"I think it is interesting and ingenious. You shall see it."
I was curious myself as to what the punishment was going to
be - curious and frightened.
We all went into the small dressing-room, a lovely little
room decorated in white and gold with a polished parquet floor
scattered with thick white rugs of Persian silk. It was brightly
illuminated with shaded electric lamps and a cheerful fire
burned upon the hearth. The ladies took their seats in
comfortable chairs about the fire with an air of eager
expectation, smoking their cigarettes. Helen placed me in the
middle and handed a little silver button-hook to her young
cousin in the smart short pink frock.
"Doris, put Denise's hands back into her gloves and button
them carefully," she said.
I gave my hands to Doris, who smoothed the tight white
kid-gloves on over my fingers and fixed the buttons while Helen
went over to a bureau. She opened a drawer and came back
carrying a large leather case and a number of strong white satin
gleaming straps with big oval diamond buckles sparkling upon
them. She placed the leather case on the mantel-shelf and the
straps on a chair. Her face was radiant, her eyes danced with
pleasure.
"Now Denise, we will truss you up tightly and prettily," she
said with a thrill of delight in her voice. She removed from my
arms the gold bracelets above the elbows which I wore to keep my
gloves stretched tight and round each arm just where the
bracelet had been she buckled a broad white satin strap very
tightly. Neither the diamond buckles nor the eye-holes were at
the ends of the straps so that after the ribbon had been
fastened two broad ends hung from each arm. These ends she tied
in big bows and passed them back through the oval buckles which
thus flashed daintily in the middle of the bows. The bows and
buckles were on the outside of my arms, and on the inside of
each strap a little steel ring was stoutly sewn. Helen then took
a tiny bar of polished steel with a spring-hook at each end of
it. She snapped the hooks on to the steel rings forcing my arms
together with a strength of which I should never have believed
her capable.
"There," she said, "I can now tie the wrists comfortably."
She sat down.
"Stand with your back to me Denise." My elbows almost
touched in the small of my back. My shoulders were drawn most
painfully back. An extraordinary sense of helplessness,
delightful and at the same time alarming overwhelmed me. Slowly
and with hesitation I obeyed my cruel little tyrant. I stood in
front of her chair with my back towards her, and I crossed my
daintily gloved wrists for her to bind. There were mirrors let
into the wall panels and I could see myself in my glistening
white frock, which delightfully reflected the lights, from the
buckles and pearls gleaming on my satin slippers to the curls of
my exquisitely coiffured head as I stood in this humiliating
position of subjection. Yet how the spectacle aroused my
passions! I felt dreadfully excited.
"Keep quite still now, Denise," said Helen, with a laugh.
"Have you ever had your hands tied together for bad behaviour
before?"
"Never Helen."
"It seems a pity that you should have to have them tied up
on an evening when you look so pretty and are so delightfully
dressed."
And my girlish vanity made me answer with a smile of
confusion.
"If I have got to have my hands tied behind me would rather
be prettily dressed than not for the ceremony." The ladies
laughed, I blushed, and Lady Hartley cried out:
"That is charming of you Denise."
I felt Helen's fingers and suddenly was it in a panic or was
it to prolong the delight I felt? I began to struggle. But my
arms were already bound, and the struggle was soon over. In the
mirror I saw four white gloved-hands suddenly interlaced and
fluttering like four doves. Two quick, little nervous strong
hands, Helen's and two slender helpless things, my own. The four
hands fell apart. Helen's were holding the ends of white satin
strap which encircled my wrists and drawing it tighter and ever
tighter. Mine were glued together with helpless twitching
fingers. "Oh, oh, you are hurting me Helen," I protested. "You
shouldn't make it necessary for me to hurt you, darling," she
answered, and she tied the bow and passed it through the oval
diamond buckle as she had done with the other straps.
"That will do," she said, rising briskly. My arms hung down
behind me in their delicate long kid-gloves, inert, useless. She
took me by the elbow.
"Take care how you walk on your high-heels now that your
hands are tied behind you Denise. Point your toes, arch your
pretty insteps!"
She led me to a corner by the fire and placed me in it with
my face to the wall. "Hold your head well up darling! That's
right! Put the high-heels together, and turn out the pointed
toes. Let me see!"
She stooped down and picking up the train of my dress wound
it tightly round my legs tying them in its folds and exposing to
view my ankles a