Deep Cover
Prologue
Harkness Holdings had just posted another astounding quarterly earnings
statement that left Wall Street analysts breathless with excitement.
The chattering financial commentators were agog. Forbes, Fortune, The
Wall Street Journal were all touting the quarter-by-quarter meteoric
rise of Beauregard "Beau" Chadsworth, Harkness' CEO, and his team who'd
taken the moribund company and pushed it to the heights of Wall Street
stardom. Harkness' share prices reflected the unbounded confidence of
investors big and small. From the get-rich-quick types to the most
cautious investors, Harness was what they all wanted.
Beau Chadsworth was the darling of the talk show hosts who outdid one
another in their fawning praise. In the post-Enron scandal era,
Harkness was basking in its squeaky clean image. And Chadsworth, for
his part was all becoming modesty. He was quick to point to the success
and support of his team, Jack Levin the COO and Bridget O'Leary the CFO
and their subordinates. Then there was the Chadsworth Foundation,
already being talked about in the same breath as Bill and Melinda Gates
Foundation, so recently bolstered by the largess of Warren Buffett.
All was golden in the second and third quarters of 2006. Or so it
seemed.
Chapter I
To the casual observer, the scene was ordinary, six friends enjoying a
wine and cheese picnic on the white sands of one of those idyllic
hamlets along North Carolina's Outer Banks. They were all dressed for
it, too. The women in bright, stylish cover-ups, the men either bare-
chested or like Bob Wynant pulling a seersucker hoodie on to ward off
the late summer evening's oncoming chill. The three couples looked to
all the world as if they were enjoying a well earned vacation respite
from their busy lives.
It was all a sham. Camouflage, really. Tony Jackson, that's Anthony
Hope-Jackson to be precise, was the reason for the charade. You see,
Tony was the one person who knew what really went on at Harkness
Holdings. He wasn't exactly a whistle blower, well, at least not yet.
Let's just say the slightly greying, but otherwise fit and trim forty-
year old had discovered, that Harkness' books weren't exactly "cooked,"
but, as he liked to say, "microwaved." On a doubly encrypted laptop, he
had documented schemes within schemes at Harkness to hide massive
losses, to shield assets from the prying eyes of Harkness' accountants,
the IRS and the SEC. In a word, a corporate shell game of such
breathtaking proportions, that third-world, and even first-world
economies would be shaken if it were to be revealed.
What to do? Enter the Fraud Units from the New York State Attorney
General's Office, their counterparts from the State of Delaware,
technically the "home" of Harkness and the otherwise somnolent
Washington bureaucracies of the FBI and the SEC. Tony Jackson's problem
was how to play the extraordinary hand he had been dealt. If too much
of what he knew were to be revealed, all fingers would point to him.
Who else knew so much? The various investigators knew that even though
Jackson had left Harkness only a few months before, and on the
friendliest of terms, the tangled web that was Harkness was becoming
more labyrinthine by the moment. The fine line between sharp business
practice and outright criminality had been crossed long ago. Tony
Jackson was one of the very few people outside Harkness' inner circle
who knew the full extent of the frauds that were being perpetrated.
Tony Jackson, himself beginning to feel the chill, buttoned his faded
Hawaiian shirt before leaning back on his elbows, his gaze fixed firmly
on the horizon. His "date," in reality attorney Barbara Morrison, Bob
Wynanat and his "wife," FBI agent Ruth Rabinowitz, were joined by Tara
and Bill McKay, of the Delaware AG's office. Six friends enjoying the
fading light of dusk to the accompaniment of the soft splash of the
outgoing tide. They faced the water for another reason as well:
microphones. Chadsworth had feted Tony on his "retirement" from
Harkness to be sure, but Harkness' high-stakes game made that inner
cohort so suspicious that they were not above sending teams to make sure
their "friends" were not straying from the fold.
"Tony," Wynant began, almost in a monotone, "it can work, it should
work, it must work. Your family and Chadsworth's go way back. You
yourself told me that at one time he dated your cousin, Amanda. He's
never allowed any woman in his life to get as close to him as she got,
not his former wife, not any of his girlfriends. It's also no secret
that you and she look more like twins than cousins. You've said so
yourself. She's fine with the idea. You're the last remaining hurdle."
As far as Tony was concerned, what Bob Wynant was suggesting was
patently absurd. The fact that everybody else on that beach blanket
wasn't contradicting Wynant made him that much more uneasy.
"What you're saying, Bob, is I should just throw on a dress and go
marching into Harkness' headquarters and demand a job?"
"Not really, Tony," Bob added, soothingly. "What we want you to do is
spend some time with Amanda. Up until a couple of years ago, you used to
vacation together, for heaven's sake. Nothing unusual in that. Take a
cruise. Rent a villa in Tuscany for a month. Whatever. And at the end
of it, you reemerge as Amanda and Tony - Amanda in male drag - goes
trekking in the Himalayas for a while,...something like that. You, as
Amanda, email - or better yet, write - Beau Chadsworth and accept his
standing offer of a job at Harkness. You know how he is about her."
What Bob Wynant left out, or perhaps was too considerate to mention, was
that Tony and his Cousin Amanda Littleton were not just similar but
uncannily alike. Their similarity had been the butt of jokes in the
family for years. There was that one incident when they were in high
school, he at Milton Academy and she at The Porter School. After the
Thanksgiving break each returned to the other's school - in drag. The
masquerade was good enough to fool the respective headmaster and
headmistress; good enough, that is, until a vindictive roommate spilled
the beans on the eve of the Christmas vacation. But that was more than
twenty years ago. There was a lot of water under the bridge.
There was something else. Tony couldn't believe that he was giving this
ridiculous idea even a moment's thought. The only reason was
Chadsworth. The charming Beau Chadsworth. The gentle, church-going
Beau Chadsworth. The philanthropic Beau Chadsworth. For all Tony knew,
the criminal mastermind Beau Chadsworth. His childhood chum and
sometime college roommate had been bilking Harkness' investors and the
Government out of millions. God only knew how much Chadsworth had
salted away in Swiss banks or Hong Kong and Bermuda holding companies.
Singapore's banking system was still shuddering from one of his earlier
escapades. In all of this Chadsworth was the current White Knight of
corporate America. Some in the Republican Party were already bruiting
his name about for public office, very high public office.
What Tony had uncovered about Chadsworth's dealings had appalled him.
Mutual Funds from all the big houses were deeply into Harkness and Tony
had felt a mounting ethical dilemma: could he stand idly by and let
this all happen? Were those ethics classes at Harvard Business School
nothing more than window dressing? The feeling had been growing for
more than a year that Tony's own conscience wouldn't let him continue
with Harkness. It was his greater sense of responsibility that gnawed
at him, that made him take Bob Wynant's idea seriously.
Beyond all this there was yet something else. Something that few people
outside the Harkness inner circle knew, but Tony knew it. Beau
Chadsworth was ruthless: he would stop at nothing to keep Harkness and
his nefarious schemes going. He had to be stopped. Tony knew that he
was the one to do it. Because Chadsworth was so unprincipled, he would
pay people to make sure that Tony didn't talk to the "wrong" people, he
would make sure that Tony would never talk to them, never reveal what
truly went on at Harkness. He would have Tony killed if he even thought
that the secrets might be betrayed.
The risk of exposure, even death was a constant, unwelcome guest in
Tony's thinking. Tony had even seen men he suspected were Chadsworth's
goons down here in North Carolina. The ill-fitting suits and dark
glasses were laughably out of place. But Tony also knew that Beau
Chadsworth was smarter than that. How about the guy sitting in his car
in front of the bait shop in the village. The faded t-shirt and cutoffs
were a pretty decent disguise; it's just that you don't sit in your car
down here for any longer than you have to when it's 98 degrees in the
shade.
It made him nervous this all too casual seaside picnic. Their three
cars, all rentals, had North Carolina plates and all of them had been
seen on the beach the last couple of days. Their cover seemed plausible
enough. He was nervous just the same.
There was a companionable silence that fell over the six people sipping
their pinot grigio and merlot. The camambert and the brie were long
finished before Tony spoke.
"Bob, I've been giving this a lot of thought. I won't lie to you; I'm
scared s***less. If for one moment I thought there was another way to
nail these guys, I'd grab for it in a heartbeat. As it is, the trade off
is a lot worse. With what I've shown you, we could scare them, really
scare them, but I know them. They would just come up with another bit
of brilliant chicanery and we'd be back at square one. If I'm exposed
then I'm deader than dead meat; I'd be fricasseed six ways to Sunday.
But if I can get in there, and I'm saying ?if,' then we might just be
able to put them away for good and blow Harkness and its frauds sky
high. God help me, I'll put on a dress and do what has to be done."
If Tony had thought that everybody would stand up and cheer, he was
wrong. His declaration was greeted by a few nods. Everybody was
waiting for Bob Wynant. In the fading light they could see the tension
manifest in the muscles of his jaw clenching and unclenching. Wynant
knew the risks were enormous. He'd been over this territory in his
mind, too: a thousand times. Was he sending Tony into the lion's den to
be ground up and spat back out? If Tony were exposed and worse, killed,
could he live with himself? There weren't any easy answers.
"O.K., Tony, you know that you'll have everybody's full support. There
will be no paper trail for them to follow, except of course for my eyes-
only memo to the Director for POTUS." It made even Wynant nervous to
realize how high the stakes were although he tried to maintain his
outward composure. Not for nothing Chadsworth had been one of the very
largest contributors to the current President's reelection campaign. He
had friends in high places; he made sure they remembered who their
friends were. Chadsworth made sure that he and Harkness Holdings were
well nigh invulnerable, well, almost.
It wasn't their invulnerability that Tony was determined to test no
matter what the cost to himself. Or to put it another way, it wasn't
knowing where the bodies were buried, but rather knowing who those
people had been and what caused Chadsworth and his cronies to bury them
in the first place. It was for them, the ones who'd already lost so
much in unscrupulous mergers, investors - and employees who'd seen their
hopes for a secure retirement melt away, the people who had helped
Chadsworth in his climb to the top. These were the ones Chadsworth had
systematically destroyed and in at least in two cases Tony suspected had
killed. It was for these people that Tony decided to do it. Oh, maybe
there were some thoughts of revenge, but he'd had to admit that he
wasn't the one who'd suffered. Oddly, on one level Tony still considered
Beau Chadsworth something of a friend. Tony knew any analyst worth his
or her salt would have a field day with that.
Another long silence fell over the six of them. Finally, Bob Wynant
spoke again.
"What I want you to do is take that vacation. The villa in Tuscany is
ideal. (He knew that Tony was a pushover for Italy and all things
Italian.) Take the rental for a month, six weeks. We'll have Vanessa
Richards of our staff and someone from the agency (Tony thought CIA or
one of the lesser known intelligence units.) Join you after a day or
two. You'll get in touch with Amanda and the four of you can spend some
time getting better acquainted." Wynant spoke with a kind of finality
in his voice that indicated to everybody that they'd accomplished
everything they'd set out to do.
They went back to one of the beachfront houses and grilled some kebabs
on the deck and returned to their respective cottages - all on hurricane
stilts, of course; the Outer Banks was battered by the big storms year
after year. The following morning they all went their separate ways.
Tony's e-ticket and passport and a single suitcase were his only
companions as he drove up to Dulles Airport for the flight to Italy
later that same evening.
Chapter II
The little villa was on a gentle hill a couple of kilometers from Siena,
practically within sight of the graceful spire of the Mangia Tower. In
the first few days of his settling in, Tony would bicycle into Siena
itself to wander through the Piazza del Campo, browse the art treasures
of the Buonsignori Palace or sip one of the magnificent local chiantis.
His Italian was rudimentary, but the Sienese were tolerant of him. As
much as Tony knew that this little idyll couldn't last forever, he was
determined to enjoy as much of it as he could. Siena may have been a
medieval city, but this was still the 21st Century. Cell phones and
laptops were everywhere.
Amanda Littleton was the next to arrive. If anyone had thought for a
moment that women age less gracefully than men, they clearly had never
seen Amanda. Yes, there were more than a few strands of silver among
those rich auburn tresses; they just added to the sheen. The tiny crows
feet and laugh lines only gentled her alabaster complexion. After their
initial embrace Amanda held him by the shoulders. They stood eye to
eye. Their adolescent masquerade had depended on it.
"Tony, you are a sight for sore eyes," she said. "It has been too long,
sweetheart. There's so much we have to talk about."
"Oh God, Amanda, I'm so happy to see you," Tony's eyes glistened as he
spoke. He took her hand in his and together they toured their little
vacation hideaway. Climbing the narrow stair to the second floor, Tony
blurted "Oh Amanda, the minute I see you I realize how much I've missed
you. It's like the times when it was just the three of us: you, Cathy
and I." His voice trailed off.
Amanda paused, "I know, Sweetie, I know." She impulsively took her
cousin in her arms and held him for a few moments wordlessly. She knew
he had not gotten over the death three years ago of his wife, his lover,
his best friend, his alter ego, Kathy. There was still no satisfactory
explanation of how an otherwise healthy woman, pregnant for the first
time at thirty three, could contract preeclampsia and then pass so
rapidly into eclampsia. Nor would Tony or Amanda understand how Cathy
and the baby would be dead within a matter of days.
The two stood there in Italy and wept, as they had so many times before.
Therapy helped, yes, medicines, too. Tony knew and Amanda did too that
there would be these times when the cold weight of grief would be too
impossible to bear. It just had to be let go. After a few minutes the
grief would subside and the tears would stop. Tissues all around. Then
the tour could continue. So many people each of them had met in their
lives who didn't understand their closeness, who thought it must be
sexual. Cathy's life first and then her death had made them even
closer. George, the remarkable George, Amanda's husband somehow,
miraculously understood. Whatever his reasons, Amanda and Tony were
grateful to him. It was George's great heart that made it possible for
Amanda to be with Tony in Italy. Tony's amazing "predicament," made it
necessary.
They ate their salads on the little patio sitting on the rickety iron
chairs that threatened to give way at any moment.
"So, Tony, do you want to get started?" Amanda offered as she refreshed
her lipstick, gazing into a tiny compact.
"Sure, why not," Tony answered playfully. Impulsively she reached over
and covered his lips with color. Instinctively he stiffened.
"Tony," she admonished. "I know it's been years, but you have done this
before and it is a great color on you." He relaxed. Blotted and sat
back.
"One small step,..." he quoted. Not satisfied, Amanda pulled off Tony's
shirt and exchanged it for her own.
"There. That's better, AMANDA," she said prolonging the name for
emphasis. Tony laughed good-naturedly.
They'd both had instructions to wait at the villa until Vanessa Richards
would join them at the weekend and so they decided to get the
transformation process going. The two cousins easily dressed in the
other's clothes and both pretended that this was something of a lark.
Just beneath the surface, however, lurked a reality with a far more
sinister cast. For a variety of reasons they decided to wait for
Vanessa's arrival before delving too deeply into their individual
relationships - one ostensibly romantic and the other strictly business
with Beau Chadsworth. Each of them bore more than a little resentment
towards Chadsworth, but they realized that the last thing each one
wanted to do was to influence their elaborate masquerade with too many
bits of old baggage. For now they were content to perform a little
"wardrobe realignment" as they called it.
That Friday night they bicycled into Siena each in the other's clothes
to see if they could pass their mutual first test. Tony remembered
something from his days studying American history. In the period after
World War II, just as the Cold War was beginning, a number of spies from
each country infiltrated the other's borders. The most successful of
these weren't the glamorous defectors who he'd read about on the front
page, but rather the quiet, unassuming people who blended in, blended in
sometimes to enormous effect. What Tony/Amanda and Amanda/Tony were
doing was something like that. Basically trying not to call attention
to themselves. They both knew that people saw what they wanted to see.
If Tony - the new Amanda - were quiet and unpretentious, and if Amanda -
the new Tony - were equally unremarkable, then they passed unnoticed.
The very unremarkable stroll that they took in the evening twilight in
the Piazza del Campo gave each of them a boost of confidence. Neither
of these two had realized just how much it was needed. If Amanda (that
is the old Tony) was a bit too direct or if Tony (the old Amanda) was a
little reticent, both were well within the bounds of customary behavior.
Besides, they obviously were tourists and the locals were long past
ignoring a little unusual behavior on the part of their visitors.
"Amanda, dear, (the old Amanda now Tony) said, with more than a touch of
amusement, "aren't you going to freshen your lipstick after that dish of
gelato?" Only someone at the next table would have noticed the fleeting
murderous glare this comment elicited.
"Why, thank you dear, for noticing. You are so observant - for a man!"
They both laughed easing any tension.
"I'm about ready if you are?" Amanda offered. They mounted their bikes
for the short ride back to their villa among the vineyards and olive
groves. The evening was turning chilly and Amanda shivered at the
unexpected chill on her legs beneath her fluttering skirt.
Upon returning they were too tired to do anything but kiss each other
good night. Tony - the old Tony, that is - was glad that their cross
dressing experiment was over for the evening. One part of him knew that
the full emersion technique was the best way to get into his new role,
but he thought it would be best to wait for Vanessa's arrival the
following morning to continue it. If this were to be his last night in
boxers and a t-shirt, so be it.
Tony was up early. Maybe it was the good country air, maybe his
unspoken anxiety. Puttering around the kitchen, he located the coffee
apparatus - more complicated than he was used to - and the aroma of the
brewing coffee filled the kitchen and drew his attention away from his
bare feet on the cold stone floor.
"Hey, sleepyhead," he greeted Amanda. "Night life too much for you?"
She smiled indulgently. "Where's my breakfast, Signor Buongiorno?" She
countered. They bantered back and forth a bit, finding eggs, fruit and
cheese to make a good country morning feast. They were just in the
clearing stages when they heard a car on the gravel of the driveway.
"Vanessa," they both said in unison.
If either one had a mental picture of Vanessa Richards, it surely did
not conform to the image of the person they saw getting out of her late
model Fiat Punto. Vanessa wasn't beautiful by any conventional
standard. But you could tell by looking at her that the way she carried
herself, her sense of personal style - flair, almost - very nearly made
you forget everything else. Simply, Vanessa was a force of nature and
there were no two ways about it. She swept into the house and it was
all Tony and Amanda could do to keep up with her. She found her way
into the kitchen and was pouring herself a cup of coffee before either
of her "hosts" had said a word.
"Tony, Amanda, it's good to meet you," she began with a smile that was
genuine enough, but one that left the clear impression that she was not
one to dwell on pleasantries. Her accent was not quite English, perhaps
from South Africa or New Zealand. Whatever it had been, its rough edges
had been smoothed by travel and god-knows-what-else.
"Tony and I wanted to welcome you here, but we're guests ourselves so
perhaps it's best if we dispense with the formalities," Amanda offered.
"Thanks for that, Amanda," Vanessa answered, "I think in the interests
of time we should get on with the business at hand." She smiled that
same "all-business" smile and turned her attention to Tony.
"What they told me was true, Tony, you and Amanda are quite alike. This
might not be so difficult as I thought. I've read through your
biographies that they sent me, but I'm left with a few questions, more
than a few questions, really."
Thus began a conversation that would be spread over the next three
weeks. Quite simply, Vanessa wanted to know everything. In those first
few minutes, Tony was not quite sure how she did it, but Vanessa dived
right into the middle of Amanda's life. Her utter frankness and brusque
kind of charm were a disarming combination. Initially, Amanda was taken
aback, but any reticence on her part was speedily dispensed with. This
was as clinical as a doctor taking a medical history. Implicit in all
Vanessa's questions was the notion that both Tony and Amanda would have
to memorize hundreds of details about each other's life. Everything
from Tony's first sexual experience in high school to the nature and
frequency of Amanda's periods. The time for squeamishness was long
passed. The conversations that first day were mentally exhausting, but
it was clear that in order to masquerade as the other, no detail was too
small to overlook.
The following Monday the quartet was complete. Tish Miller was a
colleague of Vanessa's from that unnamed Agency. Tish was almost
invisible. Perhaps it was the contrast with Vanessa, but Tish seemed to
be perpetually in the shadows, even when there weren't any. As Tony and
Amanda were to learn, that was Tish's particular skill. There was one
way in which she resembled Vanessa. For her part Tish was a demanding
taskmaster. She was part drill sergeant, part make-up expert and hair
stylist. But the thing that Tony came almost to dread was what she
anachronistically referred to as "deportment." It reminded Tony of
stories he'd heard as a child about the headmistress of the lower school
at Milton Academy: deportment had been her watchword.
What Tish Miller meant by the word was everything that Tony did: from
the way he walked to the way he sat. No detail was too small for Tish
to notice. Tony was also reminded of his piano teacher, Mrs. Levy. He
remembered coming to many a lesson with his piece of the moment not
quite mastered; his disobedient fingers would bobble a phrase and he
would pray that Mrs. Levy hadn't heard the tiny error. No such luck.
"Mr. Hope-Jackson," she would begin, all formalities observed, even
addressing a recalcitrant seven-year-old, , "please begin with the
second measure on page 3. I am not teaching you improvisation today."
It was just like that with Tish. If he got up from the table too
suddenly, she would have him sit down again; if his stride were too
loose-limbed, she would stop him with a sharply pronounced, "Amanda!"
The worst was her invocation of the "real" Amanda. "Now, dear," Tish
would say, "SHE would never do something like that!" More than once
Tony was nearly in tears at such reprimands, especially when he'd been
trying so hard.
Since he'd left Harkness almost nine months before, Tony hadn't had his
hair cut. Yes, yes, it had been something that he'd been meaning to do,
but Jimmy Chen, who used to cut his hair - had cut his hair for years,
actually - had gone back to Hong Kong. For once, it seemed, he'd done
something Tish liked.
"Amanda, dear, your hair is getting lovelier by the day." Tish trimmed
it a few times during their stay in the villa and brought out the
natural wave. It really was quite like the "real" Amanda's hair. For
her part Amanda was given a far more mannish cut. To Tony's surprise,
Tish and Vanessa had obtained CD's of him at various conferences and
meetings and had studied his repertoire of gestures and mannerisms.
Tony found it very disconcerting to see Amanda, looking more and more
like his image every day, walking, speaking and gesturing like him.
Then came the meltdown.
It was at the end of the second week, and it caught Tony totally
unawares. It was another beautiful day, the Indian Summer air was still
warm and he was enjoying a cup of coffee on the little piazza outside
the kitchen. Tish joined him after a few minutes, Tony turned to her.
Later he had forgotten what he was going to say, but she stopped him
with that "look" he'd come to dread. That was all it took. Tony put
his head in his hands and sobbed for all he was worth. Tish came over
to him and gently stroked his back, but that just made things worse and
he sobbed all the more. Amanda and Vanessa silently joined them, but
Tony was crying so hard that he got the hiccups and the next thing he
knew hands were gently guiding him inside and up to his room. They
eased him down on the bed and took off his shoes; loosening his clothes
they covered him with a comforter and quietly tip-toed out.
It must have been late in the afternoon that Amanda looked in on him.
The shutters were closed to soften the brilliance of the late afternoon
sunlight. Tony had lain there for sometime watching the bands of light
creeping up the flowered wallpaper.
"Sweetie? It's me," Amanda began. "How are you feeling?" She seemed
content to sit on the edge of the bed for a minute before he answered.
"Oh, Amanda, uh Tony, I don't know what happened out there."
"You don't have to say anything, Sweetie," she said, trying to calm him.
"No, no, it's o.k. now. Whatever it was, it has passed. It just caught
me off guard and I was about to argue with Tish and the next thing I
knew I was in tears and I couldn't stop. It's the strangest thing. I
just didn't se it coming, you know?"
"Oh, do I ever!" Amanda replied, ruefully. "This playing each other is
doing serious things with the inside of my head. You would not believe
the dreams I have been having. I just hope that you can get to Beau
Chadsworth and at the very least take him down a peg or two."
By this time Tony was sitting up in bed, his arms clasped around his
knees. "Tony," he said for emphasis, brushing a stray hair out of his
eyes, "we'll do a lot more than take him down a peg. Our old friend -
and I use that term loosely - has been raping a pillaging Harkess and
everything else he could get his hands on for years. That would be bad
enough, but he's been so sanctimonious about it. If I see his picture
at one more charity banquet, I think I'll go nuts."
Tony laughed relieving the tension that we both still felt from that
morning's outburst. "Now I know that all this practice is taking hold.
"George is constantly teasing me about the latest thing that will cause
me "to go nuts." Apparently, it's a favorite expression of mine. I
didn't think I said it that often." Now we both laughed.
"Well, Tony," he continued, "Beau does make me think that I will go
nuts, but it's even more than that. While you'll be having the trip of
a lifetime in the Himalayas, I'll be insinuating myself into his inner
circle. I may feel a little guilty about the masquerade, but I don't
feel the least bit guilty about trying to stop him before he steals
anything more."
The new Tony nodded in agreement, "You know, Amanda, I remember Beau
with a combination of affection and bitterness. There had been a time
when we almost got married, as you know. I was the one who got cold
feet. I wish I could tell you that it was because I sensed what a crook
he was or what a crook he would become, but it wasn't that. Any woman
would be attracted to his combination of powerful man and little-boy
vulnerability, to say nothing of those chiseled good looks. What soured
me on him - and I've only told George and you about this, you understand
- was that there was no ?there there,' to paraphrase good old Gertrude
Stein. There's this sense of inner emptiness about him. The center
isn't there. We could remain friends, but once I realized that, I
couldn't kid myself: it was the death of anything romantic between us."
"But it doesn't look like you ever regretted your decision," Tony
answered.
"Oh, no I didn't, even though I didn't meet George for more than two
years after I had stopped seeing Beau. He kept saying that he still
wanted us to be friends, but even that had become very difficult for me.
We stayed cordial because of our families, his and ours. There would be
too many times that we would have to see each other. I knew that Mama
and Beau's parents stayed close for years after that; an open rift
between us would have broken their hearts. In fact that it was when we
were back home one Christmas... I forget where you were, oh yes, one of
those years you worked in Hong Kong and couldn't get back until the New
Year. Well, it was that Christmas and Beau had come down with
Christine, that's right it was the year before they were married. You
know the marriage that lasted fifteen months: irreconcilable
differences, I think that's what they said.
Well, anyway, Mama and I were talking with Christine, you know, trying
to make her feel welcome and Beau came over to us - he was practically
bragging to Christine, no wonder she divorced him - "You know, Chrissie,
honey (God, he can turn on the southern charm when he wants to) Amanda
and I used to be very close, if you know what I mean. Well, I've told
her this before, but Amanda, anytime you want to bring that fine legal
mind of yours up to New York, you call me, I want you in my general
counsel's office. You say yes, and I'll have you there in a heartbeat."
"There were more than a few reasons why I turned Beau down about working
for him at Harkness. There's no question, however, that the big one was
Beau himself. I think it hurt him more than he said that I didn't want
to work there. And especially after the marriage went south and George
and I got together, Beau let it be known that as much as he brushed it
off in public there was still some lingering resentment there. Yes, it
was some of Beau's enormous ego - ?I couldn't imagine anyone not wanting
to work for me - but that was not all of it. Some part of him knew, or
had known, that when we broke up he lost something. All this business
of ?a girl in every port' and ?women are falling all over themselves to
be with me' just didn't wash. That's why he would want to have me work
for Harkness because I know him so well. I can anticipate the way he
thinks, finish his ideas for him, if you know what I mean." She
finished speaking, her voice almost in a whisper.
Hearing her talk this way was, in a funny way, terribly comforting for
the former Tony. Later, much later, he would look back at this
conversation and realize that this was something of a watershed. He
didn't know it at the time, but a subtle shift took place. In the
course of the conversation the old Tony became the new Amanda, and vice
versa. Neither one of them would be able to pinpoint the minute when
the change took place, but it was real nonetheless. It was as if the
memories of one person exchanged places with the memories of the other.
Those conversations that had taken place at family Christmases went from
being reported to being remembered. It was very much like the
sensation that adult children sometimes have: having heard stories told
so many times within a family, they are no longer sure whether they
remember the event itself or the reporting of it.
The remaining few days the four friends, for by now they were friends,
were able to enjoy their Tuscan holiday. The olive trees and the
vineyards were ripe with fruit and the crush of the summer tourists had
left the villages less choked with traffic. They all knew that their
little idyll was coming to an end. Amanda and Tony knew that their
paths would be crossing in the not too distant future, but the same
could not be said for Vanessa and Tish. Both of these women were
thoroughly professional and had been long accustomed to keep their
private and public lives in separate spheres. That being said, however,
the final hugs and goodbyes carried with them more than a tinge of
regret.
Chapter III
Amanda Littleton's Alitalia flight landed without event at Dulles
Airport one crisp autumn afternoon. The clarity of the air brought the
landscape of Northern Virginia into sharp focus. The haze that
frequently obscured the gentle serrations of the Blue Ridge Mountains
was nowhere in evidence. George Littleton met Amanda at the exit of the
International Arrivals. Maybe one of Amanda's closest friends might
have noticed that the embrace and kiss they exchanged was a tad
perfunctory, but it anyone else might have put it down to the natural
diffidence of a private moment in a public place.
Neither Amanda nor George was under any illusion that the long reach of
Beau Chadsworth and Harkness Holdings would have ensured an observer or
two at the airport and perhaps even a bug under the dashboard of their
Lexus. They kept the conversation general and this allowed George to
fill in a lot of details about what had transpired in their suburban
lives in her absence.
Their house in Great Falls was a bit of an anomaly. In a landscape
dominated by mansions of two sizes, large and enormous, their modest
converted farm house was spacious enough for them, but was dwarfed by
its neighbors. Amanda certainly did appreciate the newly planted
chrysanthemums that lined the drive and created splashes of russet,
yellow and cream across the green expanse of lawn. George helped her
with her things, Amanda having to remind herself to accept his help
rather than be the first to reach for her luggage. Such gestures were
more natural to her by the day. They kept their conversations brief and
as innocuous as possible. Both had been warned that their house was
probably filled with microphones that had been placed by Chadsworth and
his minions. George poured them both a glass of chianti classico. As
he handed Amanda her glass, he couldn't help noticing that she got quiet
and thoughtful at his little show of remembrance. George and Amanda had
spent a memorable holiday in Tuscany and the Abruzzi a few years ago and
had both fallen in love with the chiantis. Amanda was touched by his
thoughtfulness.
Within a few days their lives fell into a routine. Amanda returned to
"her" office at Williams Wesley; her portfolio of clients was in the
capable hands of another partner and a team of associates. The long
conversations over the past few weeks had proved invaluable in
identifying her coworkers and the firm's clients. This made Amanda's
"review conversations" with her colleagues immensely easier. Williams
Wesley had a generous policy of rewarding their partners with ample time
to pursue other interests, chiefly charitable work in the areas of debt
relief and environmental policy. It was no surprise when, therefore,
when Amanda announced her intention to take a longer leave of absence
from the firm. She was surprised how easily she fell into the routines
of her cousin's life, even as she knew that it was essential that she do
so. There were rafts of emails and phone calls to return and within a
week it seemed that the holiday in Tuscany was fading as a distant
memory.
Another month went by before Amanda put the next part of their elaborate
plan into place. It was only natural to worry that such a plan with so
many crucial parts stood little chance of success, but so much depended
on her seeing that the net that she and her law enforcement comrades was
poised and ready to ensnare a prey as elusive as Beau Chadsworth.
Anyone in the investment world knew how long it had taken to prosecute
the scoundrels at Enron. Amanda knew that it would take at least as
long to get Beau Chadsworth. Patience, that most difficult of virtues,
was to be their watchword.
She'd known her cousin's (the "real" Amanda) handwriting from countless
notes and Christmas cards: theirs was a family who still believed in the
sanctity of pen and ink on stationery. Their penmanship was yet another
mark of the cousins' remarkable similarity. "Dear Beau," her own short
letter began, "I've taken a little leave of absence from Williams
Wesley. I'm going to be in New York at the end of the month between
charitable odds and ends I'm working on. Let's get together for old
times' sake and you can tell me all about you and Harkness. It's been
too long. Love, Amanda."
She'd dropped the letter off at the McLean Post Office on a Monday.
Amanda wasn't too surprised to get a phone call the following Thursday.
"Amanda, darling," I was so pleased to get your letter." Beau Chadsworth
was simply oozing his famous charm. "Is there any possibility that you
could move up your New York visit? I've got a string of meetings in
London and Brussels at the end of October. I so very much want to see
you." Amanda knew that she had him
Of course, she would see what she could do.
"Will you be at the Pierre?" Beau, as suave and sophisticated as ever,
was still an eager little boy. His inflection betrayed him.
"Well, I suppose so, but it is a bit extravagant, don't you think,
Beau?"
"Nothing but the best for our Amanda, honey." Auntie Christine (Amanda's
mother) always said ?there's nothing but the best for our Amanda.' That,
too, had been a standing joke left over from Amanda's childhood. It had
become something of a taunt among Amanda's cousins. But now it served
Amanda's purpose admirably.
They arranged to meet at the Four Seasons. As usual, there was too much
activity that blustery autumn afternoon at 2:00, but regular Four
Seasons diners knew to expect it. As Amanda, in a role that was both
familiar - first cousins with remarkable physical similarities in a
large close-knit family - and yet new to her - having so completely
changed places with her cousin--, began her conversation with Beau, she
felt that only her old fashioned upbringing could be relied upon;
everything else was shape-shifting almost before her very eyes. Beau,
graciously rising to his feet to greet her, was the same person she had
known, but the attention he was paying to her was nothing she had
experienced before. She said a silent prayer of thanksgiving for all
her preparations in Tuscany. Those few weeks seemed somehow as if they
were part of a distant past; all the drilling of mannerisms and habits
was almost becoming second nature.
Beau was talking in his smooth, well-oiled way about all the latest
achievements of Harkness Holdings. He never spoke about it in the first
person; he didn't have to. Every listener was immediately drawn to the
inevitable conclusion that it was all Beau's doing. That was just what
he wanted them to think. Amanda was pleasantly attentive, but inside
that well-coifed head Tony's mind was going a mile a minute. Beau,
happily blathering about his favorite subject - himself - was paying
little attention to Amanda. To him she was what he always had to have:
an appreciative audience. That was just what Amanda wanted him to
think. The cups of espresso came and the two lingered as the dining
room of the Four Seasons finally began to clear. The wait staff were
used to power lunch couples and gave them no more than the perfunctory
attention that was required.
Amanda was listening for the other shoe to drop and drop it finally did.
"So Amanda," Beau finally paused for breath, "does what we're doing at
Harkness sound interesting to you?" He was certain that she would say
yes and she didn't disappoint. "Well, then, why don't we talk about
your taking a little position in our General Counsel's office. That way
I'd have you close by so that I could have the benefit of your legal
advice. It wouldn't bother me at all that you and I would finally be
working close together."
Amanda smiled and laughed good-naturedly. "Why Beau," she looked down
at the tablecloth and looked up at him through her eyelashes. She did
everything but bat them at Beau, "I never thought you'd ask. And, Beau,
dear, we do need to talk about money. And there's the little matter of
my giving notice at Williams Wesley. They've been very good to me.
What do you think about my giving them a month and I'll start with you
right after the first of the year?"
Beau made a small shrug as if to say that he supposed he could wait that
long. "Well, all right, Amanda, if you insist. I guess I can wait that
long. I've waited eight years, another month won't kill me." Amanda
patted his hand affectionately. "And you have someone get in touch with
Teddy Markowski, the General Counsel and work out the money. You can
pretty much name your price, but I guess you know that."
A few pleasantries were all that remained and they left the Four Seasons
with a chaste hug at the curb as Beau put Amanda in a cab. His car had
been waiting at the curb with his liveried driver. Amanda, for her
part, waited till the cab turned the corner and Beau was out of sight
before reaching for the special cell phone in a small compartment in her
purse. It took just seconds for her to send the text message. "It's
done," was all she wrote. She knew it was all that the prosecutors
needed.
Prior to getting his MBA, Tony Hope-Jackson had taken his JD. He'd
never practiced law. Somehow he'd lost the taste for it after passing
the New York Bar Exam. But now Amanda was glad that little credential
was tucked away in the resume. Nobody would be able to accuse her of
practicing law without a license. All this was flashing through
Amanda's mind as she rode in the cab back to the Pierre. Back in her
room she placed a call to George's cell phone. She knew that she
couldn't reach him at his office in the Federal Courthouse in
Alexandria, Virginia, but he would get his cell phone messages. She had
no doubts that her phone was tapped or at the very least her room was
bugged. Everything she told George in the voicemail message had been
prearranged between the two of them.
When George called a little after six, he was all solicitous concern.
He also sounded appropriately enthusiastic at the idea of her getting a
job at Harkness Holdings. She'd be back in McLean in a couple of days
before getting a place in Manhattan. It would be far from ideal, but
they would see each other on the weekends. If any of Beau Chadsworth's
goons noticed that her voice was a little shaky, they probably thought
it was a combination of excitement and fatigue. There would be no way
that they would realize that Tony Hope Johnson, now so completely
disguised as Amanda Littleton, was more than a little nervous. He was
going to return to Harkness Holdings and, with any luck, be part of its
inner councils. By keeping his eyes and ears open, he would be able to
gather enough information to put Beau Chadsworth and his cronies away
for a very long time. He had left Harkness earlier in the year
disgusted and revolted at the underhanded and no doubt criminal
activities that had contributed mightily to the success of the firm.
Now he was returning and the prospect of it made his stomach hurt.
Chapter IV
The shuttle flight back to DCA was boring, but brief. Bob Wynant,
Amanda's "minder" from the New York State Attorney General's office had
arranged it all. Clutching her purse, her laptop and a light coat
against the chill, Amanda waited at the curb for the ride she was
expecting from her ?neighbor.' That new neighbor had purchased the
house across from hers on the quiet cul-de-sac in McLean, Virginia.
She'd just dropped her husband at Regan National; it was only a
neighborly thing to do to pick up Amanda as a favor to Amanda's husband
George.
Amanda hadn't met the neighbor before, but George had vouched for her.
The advantage was that Chadsworth's goons wouldn't have had time to
plant a bug in the neighbor's car. This meant that Amanada - the deeply
disguised Anthony Hope-Jackson - would be able to brief the neighbor,
Bob Wynant's young assistant, Brenda Richards during the half hour
journey home.
"Hi, Amanda," I'm Brenda, she offered cheerily. "George has told us so
much about you, I've been dying to meet you. I'm so looking forward to
our becoming friends."
Amanda, was as genuinely gracious as her Southern upbringing permitted.
When they had passed the airport's outer perimeter, the real
conversation began.
"Well, Brenda," Amanda began, "Beau Chadsworth took the bait. Our lunch
at the Four Seasons was just what we thought it would be. I've got to
tell you, though, there's something about Beau that I find very creepy.
All those years I worked at Harkness, it was there at the back of my
mind, but now, dressed like this," she gestured at her crisply tailored
suit and Manolo Blahnik's, "it makes my skin crawl."
"Do you think that he suspects something," Brenda wondered. "Doesn't he
recognize Tony in all of this?"
"To be perfectly honest with you, for all his business acumen, Beau can
be incredibly dense. I'd never paid that much attention to it before,
but all I had to do was sit there and hang on every word that he said
and he wouldn't have noticed if I had been dancing on the table stark
naked."
The two chatted and laughed all the way to Amanda and George's house.
It was one of many "chance" conversations that they would have.
Sometimes in the nearby Tyson's Corner Mall's sprawling parking garages,
other times at the Great Falls Park. Two women strolling together,
window shopping or taking in the local sights. It was the mechanism of
choice for the passing of the data that Amanda systematically collected
over the next thirteen months. Over that time Amanda and Brenda's
friendship grew and that didn't become a problem exactly, but it sounded
a signal to Amanda that, though faint at first, grew to something that
she couldn't ignore. But that's for a later part of our story.
In the meantime the legal noose around the neck of Beau Chadsworth grew
tighter. By this time, dear reader, I am sure that you cannot have
escaped the story of the unraveling of Harkness Holdings and the
downfall of Beau Chadsworth. I won't bother to repeat this oft-told
story. There have been at least half a dozen books, a documentary film
and a fictionalized account that lay out the sordid details for all the
world to see. All the while Chadsworth and his accomplices proclaimed
their innocence and asserted brazenly that not only were their actions
perfectly legal, but that if they had been allowed to carry them to
their logical conclusion would have resulted in windfall profits for
their shareholders.
The legal teams would be spending the next two years assembling their
mountains of evidence which would result in the convictions of
Chadsworth and his most trusted inner circle. Conspicuously absent from
the indictments, however, were the names of Anthony Hope-Jackson and
Amanda Littleton. The teams of attorneys assembled by Chadsworth and
his people were initially perplexed at this. Weren't Tony Hope-Jackson
and later Amanda Littleton up to their ears in what the Government
called this conspiracy? Nobody was rushing forward with offers of plea
bargains and so the defendants' attorneys began to smell a rat or
perhaps more than one.
It was nearly a year after Beau Chadsworth's spectacular arrest and the
sight of him on the nightly news walking from the courthouse in his
three thousand dollar suit and seventy-five dollar handcuffs, that Tony
- the real Tony, that is - got a call from Bob Wynant's office.
"Tony," the voice began, "I've got Brenda here with me on conference
call. We need to talk about a few things."
"Yes, I know," Tony answered resignedly, "I've been expecting this
call."
"When we came up with this idea, , Wynant continued, "we never really
discussed the final outcome. I wanted to, well... both of us wanted to
prepare you for deposition and testimony. And especially there will
have to be some public statements. I think that we need to talk about
this at some length. Do you want us to come to Virginia or would you be
willing to come back up to the City?" To New Yorkers, "The City" meant
New York City; there clearly was no other urban entity that merited that
designation. Tony smiled to himself; he'd never become a Manhattan-ite
despite the years he'd spent there.
"No, that's fine," he answered, "I might as well come up there. Amanda
and George have been through a lot already. Let's give them a little
more of a breather."
"Fine, thanks, that's very good of you," Brenda said, the relief in her
voice was obvious.
The following week Tony Hope-Jackson was sitting in the paneled
conference room in the office of Robert Wynant, Attorney General of New
York State. Brenda Richards and several other of Wynant's staff were in
attendance as well as the U. S. Attorney for the Southern District of
New York and representatives of the FBI, SEC and a few others Tony
didn't remember. The issue, or rather THE ISSUE, was the fact that
Tony's masquerade as Amanda Littleton was about to be made public.
Apparently someone on the defense team had been putting two and two
together and Bob Wynant wanted to go before the Judge in the case with
this potentially explosive piece of information before the defense
started blanketing the media with their version of the story.
Tony was doing his best to keep it all together. What no one else in
the room knew, what only Tony and his therapist knew, was that the
masquerade had brought something to light that Tony had been unaware of
before all of this had begun. He had been wrestling with it for months,
accepting it, denying it, avoiding it, embracing it. The "it" was that
those thirteen months Tony had spent as Amanda had profoundly changed
him. The prospect of it was both exciting and terrifying. This was
most definitely something that Tony had not bargained for. For the time
being, at least, Tony thought that it would be a good idea to keep it
under wraps.
Wynant and his team, with the possible exception of Brenda Richards,
were so totally focused on getting Beau Chadsworth that Tony had become
to them something of an afterthought. Oh yes, he would be their star
witness, but his emotional state, or the impact that the masquerade had
were not their concern. Throughout the two hour meeting Tony sat there
trying to keep his feelings in check. They broke for a few minutes late
in the second hour so that Bob Wynant could take an important call.
Nearly everyone else reached for their cell phones, each person madly
dialing their offices, all except Brenda Richards. She made a beeline
for Tony. She linked his arm in hers and steered him into a side
office. She didn't close the door, that would have aroused suspicion.
She sat on the edge of the unused desk and looked steadily at Tony.
"Tony - Amanda, honey," she was no longer a high powered attorney, she
easily slid into the role of a friend, "what's the matter? You haven't
said a thing for the last hour and I can tell that you're in turmoil."
Tony started to blurt out something when she held up her hand.
"Sweetie, there's nothing you have to prove to me; remember it's me,
Brenda."
Tony looked at her for several silent moments; it may have been a year,
it may have been thirty seconds, it didn't matter. He didn't say
anything; he just began to cry silently. Tony's back was to the door to
the conference room and Brenda could see that noone was looking their
way. She took Tony in her arms and held him gently. He felt incredibly
safe being held that way. There was nothing but a few quiet tears;
perhaps none of the rest of the people even noticed them. In fact there
really wasn't very much to see. Brenda knew, however, that it wasn't
simply the tension, the inevitable tension that Tony had been under that
sparked even this little demonstration. Her sixth sense told her that
this was something else. She thought that she knew, but she knew better
than to offer her opinion.
"Brenda," Tony began, his voice barely above a whisper, "something's
happened and I can't explain it." Brenda waited. "When Bob Wynant
suggested that I pretend to be Amanda, I agreed because I was so angry
at Beau that I would do whatever it took to expose his crime. Even when
we were in Tuscany and I was learning to imitate Amanda, I was so intent
on making it all work that I didn't notice what was happening. Sometime
around Christmas of last year, as I was shuttling between McLean and New
York it began to dawn on me. It was like a bolt from the blue. It
totally floored me. I didn't know what to make of it; I still don't.
You know, the fact is that I was loving being Amanda. I liked her life,
the work was interesting, George has been amazing through all this, I
just adore him, the friendship that you and I have, that we still have,
these and a hundred other things. Not only do I like these things, but
there's something else, they feel, oh, I don't know...they feel right.
Since all this began to unravel I've been seeing a therapist and she and
I have been looking at all this and, well, ... oh, Brenda, I'm so
confused." His voice trailed off and the tears began again.
Brenda studied the face of the person she knew so well. Memories
flashed before her of the many hours they had spent together. Under the
"Amanda" costume, she had known there was a man, but she had noticed the
change herself. When she first was getting to know Amanda, after that
trip from Reagan National to McLean, the person she saw was woman
enough, but perhaps something of an tomboy - a bit rough around the
edges. She had known quite a few women like that. In many cases the
slightly coarser gestures, the directness and the lack of guile of any
sort were not so out of the ordinary. Over the next several months,
however, it was as if the rough spots were all being polished away. The
final "Amanda" wasn't prissy or anything as obvious as that, rather she
was more comfortable with herself. Somewhere along the way Brenda had
realized that Amanda was simply a woman. The matter of the elaborate
masquerade was something she didn't think about, perhaps because there
was nothing to remind herself of it.
She and Amanda had not seen all that much of each other. Amanda's
working in New York limited their contacts to the weekends. When they
did get together to shop or have lunch at some little bistro, they
easily relaxed into an ever deepening relationship. For her part, Amanda
- the now ?disappearing' Tony - had never had a friendship like the one
she had with Amanda. It wasn't that they discussed every minute detail
of each other's lives or dissected every tiny alteration in each other's
emotional life, but it was the knowledge that they could if they needed
to. So much open-ness, a powerful kind of intimacy: powerful and yet
not threatening at the same time. It was a heady wine and Amanda
savored every drop of it. It was the power of their friendship that
both challenged and supported Amanda; it did the same for Brenda, but
she had known such friendships before. As wonderful as it was, a
friendship like this was what she had come to expect. Amanda was
stunned by the novelty of it.
All of this was running through both of their minds as they stood in the
outer office of Bob Wynant's conference room.
"Brenda, Amanda is back with George; she's got her life back, but I
don't want to go back to the life I led before. I want to go forward,
yes, but I don't want to stop being a woman. It means too much to me.
I don't think I can let it go. Do you think I'm crazy? Do you think
I'm losing my mind?"
Brenda reached up and ran her fingers through Tony's hair, smoothing
back an imaginary curl. She smiled her gentlest smile, searching his
face for clues as to what she might say. "No, darling, you are not
losing your mind. You are not crazy. It sounds like the most logical
thing in the world for you to want to be a woman." She paused for a
moment, her breath was taken away as she realized just how vulnerable
Tony was just then. "Over the last several months I totally forgot that
you had ever been a man. You were my friend Amanda, a woman in every
way. I related to you as I related to any other woman. Oh, yes, I was
very conscious of the job that I had to do as an attorney. But I didn't
think that I was an attorney for ?a man in a dress.' I could never have
gotten as close to you as I did if you had been a man. Even with some
of the wonderful men I know, at that level of intimacy they tend to
close up. The fact is that you never did. But I wasn't coming on to
you and you weren't coming on to me. It wasn't like that."
She took one of Tony's hands in both of hers and held it silently for a
moment before she continued. "I can only imagine that being Amanda for
all these months has opened up something in you that has always been
there. It's a wonderful depth in you. Women know this depth. They see
it in each other, not always, but they come to expect it in another
woman. Frankly, women know that men are not like that. It's not their
fault; it's just the way they are. You aren't like those men. That
wonderful depth in you is what makes you so special." She lowered her
voice; now it was her turn to whisper. "It's what makes you a woman."
She paused again to see Tony's reaction.
He looked at her for a long minute, gathering his thoughts. Brenda
thought he was going to speak and then thought the better of it. All
this while he let Brenda hold his hand in hers. It was as if he was
taking his strength from her. At any moment Brenda half expected him to
stiffen and withdraw his hand from hers, but he didn't. Finally Tony
spoke. His voice was soft and came from a place deep inside. It was
the voice one might use in the confessional or with one's most trusted
confidant. She knew that at this time in their lives she was such for
Tony. What their relationship would be in six months or a year no one
could tell, but that was not the point. What was important was this
very moment.
Now it was Tony's turn to study his friend's face. "Brenda," he said
"after all this is over, the trial, the publicity, the whole thing, I'm
going to have to put my life together. It's not going to be Wall Street
and the high stakes poker of places like Harkness. I hope that I'll be
able to fade into the woodwork somewhere and live my life. Hearing you
say that at some level I am a woman makes me feel good, really good.
I'm happy about it and terrified at the same time. Exactly what I am
going to do and how I'm going to do it are great big unknowns for me;
I'll deal with them as they come. I've got to get over some huge
hurdles right now. There's no doubt that the media will have a field
day with ?the cross-dressing spy' at Harkness. And I know that Beau
would like to crucify me if he could. I'm going to try to keep as low a
profile as possible and take my direction from Bob Wynant. But after
this is all over, I've got to pick up the pieces and I hope that we can
be friends."
Tony looked expectantly at Brenda. If her gaze at him could have
softened any more than it was already, she would have let it. The tears
of love and gratitude shining in her eyes told Tony everything he needed
to know. There was one more hug before they returned to the conference
room and the conclusion of the meeting. It would not have been
appropriate for the two of them to hold hands for the rest of the
meeting, but each of them, for their individual reasons, felt like doing
so.
A subtle smile played over his features, but it was the relaxation of
his shoulders as the weight of the tension he had been feeling began to
lift that told Brenda what she needed to know. "I needed to tell you,
Brenda. I know that you are my best friend, but I couldn't help being
worried what you would think of me. I know that the defense and the
media will have a field day with my being Amanda for all those months; I
was expecting that, but I was terrified that you might hate me for what
I was feeling."
Impulsively, Attorney General's office or not, Brenda and Tony embraced
for a moment.
Chapter V
Unless you have been subjected to it, it's hard to imagine the glare of
publicity that surrounds a high-profile that took place in Manhattan
that Fall. Day after day the defense team filled the nightly news and
the Sunday talk shows with their version of events. Rarely did Beau
Chadsworth's attorneys pass up the opportunity to vilify Tony Hope-
Jackson a.k.a. Amanda Littleton. Every reference to Tony was tinged
with characterizations that bordered on the libelous. Even when the
Judge imposed her gag order on the defense and prosecution, these
attorneys or their surrogates were out there day after day. The nightly
comedy monologues and the comedy news shows all made reference to Tony
aka Amanda.
Throughout it all Tony Hope-Jackson gave no interviews, made no
statements, responded to no shouted questions. Amanda and George were
similarly mute. It took the better part of a year before the reporters
and camera people began to lose interest. So many cameras had been
outside Tony's Arlington, Virginia apartment and Amanda and George's
front door that television viewers counted the two residences as among
the most recognized in America.
The trial took an inordinate amount of time. In fact the pundits were
predicting that after all the pre-trail maneuvering the trial itself
might seem anti-climactic. Teams of consultants had been brought in by
both sides to prepare every facet. The millions of state and federal
dollars spent on the trial passed new records. Throughout it all
Chadsworth and his accomplices maintained their innocence. His
courtroom performance endeared Chadsworth to some, but infuriated
others. In the end the convictions were still stunning. The judge meted
out sentences that would leave Chadsworth in a minimum security prison
for nearly a quarter of a century; his accomplices fared no better. The
monumental fines imposed were earmar