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Please before you start reading you make sure that you understand this
message and accept the truth, this "story" is not made up, it has happened
this week. It started on Saturday 16th and now when I am typing this the
date is Friday 22nd so it has almost been a full week. If it takes me more
than tonight to type this up then I will put in at the end when I finish.
Please take note that this is not just about my "situatuion", I will add
in a few of the events that got entwined up in it this week. A simple
brief, I am 14, live in uk, the time is now 5,18pm. This is all true dear
reader, and I am telling so someone knows what I am going through apart
from me and a friend. In some bits I will also say what is on my mind at
the moment of typing up in bold or what I was thinking at the time I am
typing about.
SATURDAY 16TH
I find it hard to control my anger, well being a lad most others know what
I mean at my age. But mine is an unusual case, whereas other boys can keep
their tempers under control mine can reach a limit, then break through it
like a bull which ahs sighted red. I don't mean for this to happen, and I
try to stop it but whenever I do try I always end up hurting myself,
either a headache or walking into a wall or tripping over, it's all the
same.
So I applied at my hospital for some anger reduction tablets, what do you
know, they havent been invented, or they are in production, or the famous
saying, SOLD OUT. All of this was told to me by 3 separate nurses, while
begging another one to please check her computer data banks to see if
there was anything close a passing doctor heard my plea. The doctor was a
5'4 chinese woman in her middle ages with browny/black hair and a very
nice british accent. Taking me aside she asked me my problem.
Good afternoon sir, can I help you?
Well I don't know if you can miss but I am looking for some anger
reduction tablets
She looked at me with a kint of surprise, her face all aglow and it was
cocked on one side looking at me as if I was her saviour or something like
that
My name is doctor Kawasaki...
Funny bloody name, I thought, well she is chinese, kinda explains it, said
the other half of my brain that was thinking properly.
... I am working on a test drug, it is meant to calm down the patient and
make their anger harder to prevoke the more the patient takes the drug. So
far I only have three boys who are willing to help me, as I need one more
and heard you bothering the nurses would you like to be the fourth patient
for my experimental drug?
Well, she sounded nice enough but there was that extra empthasis on
experimental that I didn't like, but as the inquisitive moron I am i
decided it wouldn't hurt to try, and this could be my only way of chillin
me out.
I would like to remind the reader that this is all true and happened to
me, the author, so no matter how different it sounds it is happening or
has happened to me.
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-Walking with her back to her office my mind was in a rush, could I
possibly have found a cure, and what did experimental mean? My teenage
brain was on overdrive and just as we arrived at her office I had a slight
migraine. Declining the offer of coffee and asking for a paracetamol I
asked the good doctor to tell me more. She said the pill took a week for
full effect, in that week it killed/destroyed or flushed out the male
holmones and replaced them with female holmones, also it altered the
holmone producers so that they only produced female holmones then the week
was complete, the good doctor also said that the last bit happened on the
final night of the week and was the most painful.
"Having been up nearly every night to go to the toilet I know what painful
means now, but tonight is the last one so im getting prepared."
Being a scout, a free runner and also like to wield a sword I am no enemy
to danger and pain, but I was assured this would be the worst pain ever
experienced.
She said that contained in the pill was estrogen, but modified, it didn't
work to strongly and it only mainly worked on the holmones and emotions.
She said a bit of it would work on my body, mainly weight loss, hair
growth and height differential, I laughed at the last bit making a joke,
she said it was no joke and that I could get taller or shorter. I felt a
cold chill at this last bit as I was proud of my height, being taller than
most of my friends and a bit smaller than some, I would hate to get
smaller. But I suppose girls put up with it all the time being a bit
short.
Being a good scientist and believer of the unknown I have always wondered
what being a girl was like, so when the doctor offered me a box of the
pills and a prescription for 4 months I felt a bit overwhelmed.when I did
say yes she almost leapt on me in happiness, she assured me that as long
as I took 2 pills ni the morning before school and 2 before I go to bed
everyday I would soon be cured, but the process would take two years. And
the first week would be the worst, also I would have to come back the next
Saturday to check on my progress and see if anything had happened.
God did she know nothing.
TUESDAY 19TH
when the good doctor told me on Saturday about the gland replacing and
stuff she never said I would bleed, also that I couldn't tell ppl, so the
first person who found out was my best friend kristy. I explained
everything to her over msn perfectly clear, at first she said it was
funny, then she said it was a way for me to know what her and my ex gf amy
feel like when I am angry at them ro they get upset, the diea sounded
plausible at the time and it still kind of does now but im not that sure
anymore.
I WAS used to only being one emotion for about 4 hours, the mani one was
depressed but I wasn't prepared for what hit me the next few days, I was
happy, sad, upset, depressed and angry, and that was in the space of about
2 minutes. Kristy helped a lot and explained most stuff, and showed me how
to do things.
The thing I wasn't prepared for was when I was busting for the toilet that
evening. Whipping down my zip I tried to make it as clean as possible but
it just seemed to spray everywhere, so holding the end I sat down and just
let it run. That wasn't the most embarrasing bit, it was kind of though,
having to sit down to go for a wee.
Later I was more needy for the toilet than earleir that evening, so taking
care to sit down I just let it flow then as I went to zip up I pulled my
hands away and they where...
Is that blood? I thought, OH MY GOD IT IS BLOOD, MY COCK IS BLEEDING, I
thought.
Well it wasn't bleeding exactly, as like a scratch or anything, the blood
had coem from inside, this was when I seriously freaked and spent half an
hour with a mirror checking myself out.
Ok, so there is no damage, I thought, bad news though, im having my
period. Im, a boy, and im, havign a period. When I had this thought I fell
over onto my bed and just cried. I don't usually cry, but this lasted for
ages, it had to be the pills, I never cried like this, or this long.
FRIDAY 22ND
Ok, so this is today, my girlfriend broke up with me, I was chased by
about 7 year 11's and found out that everyone is going out except me oevr
the weekend, even kristy is going to a wedding so I hane no1 to go out
with. It just feels like im wasing my life sitting here on my bodge while
everyone else does stuff that doesn't involve me, I would do something but
I would look like a loser on my own.
Not much happened today, apart from typing this up, getting another call
from the good doctor about anything else happening, and finding out that I
am starting to lose hair on my arms and legs. Plus I think my hair has
grown an inch since Saturday. ( my hair is about shoulder length, kidna
browny black, and my eye colour was blue) but over this week soemtime they
have gone green, I don't know how but I have a photo of me last Monday and
my eyes where blue, a this moment I am looking in the mirror and they r
green.
Now, at this moment, I am finishing up this, I don't really know whether
to contine with this at another time or just to leave it here and do
another one at xmas or sumt. That last one sounds better. So im having a
quick word with kristy before she leaves to get ready for the wedding
tomorrow.
Yesterday I went round her house, she only lives round the corner, and we
talked for ages and just sat there enjoying it, she said before she would
neevr go out with me because that would harm our friendship and I respect
that but we just enjoy each others company and stuff, so we sat their
upstais ni her back room together talking and sitting. Once she put he
wedding gear on in the bathroom while I looked at the window singing so
she knew I wasn't perving, then she came out and iwas completely blown
away, I mean I might be turning into a girl but she is soo good when she
is dressed just right. She is like the cherry on top of the cake, you just
enjoy it and lap it all up.
When I got round her house ti was about 20 past 8 and her little sister
was just going to bed, but she needed to get changed and decided to do it
in the back room. So I looked out the window and kept looking out while
her little sister changed behind me, she tried to hdie behind the bookcase
but that's not clever when its in the open on the opposite wall.
I didn't bother perving or anything, im nto that type of person, so once
she was done I cud turn aronud again, then she tried to hug me, so she put
her arms aroudn my neck, then I straightened up and she lifted off the
floor, then wrapped her legs aronud me like a little monkey. Then me and
kristy carried her to her room and put her on her bed. She got on then
kissed and hugged kristy and wanetd one off me, last time I came at xmas
she was shy, now she is all loveable, it was so cute, m heart just melted,
I was like, oh my god she is so adorable.
I knew instabntly that it was the pills working there but I am glad for
that because if not for those pills I never would have had that special
moment and enjoyed it. I would like to think as kristy and hr lilttle
sister maya as the 2 younegr sisters I never had. Btu between me and
kristy it's just, I like her, and I don't know if it's the other way
round, she just enjoyes beign a good friend.
Once maya was in bed me and krsty started playing about, not major stuff,
she just showed me her wedding dress and stuff, then she got her hair
brush out and did my hair, it is a right mess even when combed and ti is a
hell to comb, but her paddle brush was really good.
Tonight we talked about it on msn and where to get one, she said it was in
boots and stuff, I wanted her to get me one and she said y not I get one,
I said ti wud be embarrassing, kristy said it wasn't as embarrassing as
the time she made her dad buy sanitary towels for her. I said he should
buy a few for me aswell.
I think about 7 ppl know what si happening to me, slowly turning female,
but kristy's mum knows aswell, I ddint mean for her to know but she is a
therapist and could help sometime, she hasn't already but I am thinking
she cud in th future. Kristy just broke down on the night I told her and
she cried it all out to her mum. I think its better that way because she
has someone who will understand her problem, she said her prblem is her
best friend is turning intoa girl, in someways she is enjoyign it because
it is sort of revenge but in someways it is painful because fo the things
I will expereicne and need help with.
I am glad she si there fro me, and hopefuly her mum aswell, if I ave
problems I can just tell her over msn or try to go round her's, these
pills r better for me aswell, last time I got really angry I slit my
wrists out of frustration, I still have the scar marks, nothing major
happened, I just passed out on the roof of the clinic.
So once she had done my hair we sat there and talked. Then after a while I
had to go, I enjoeyd ti round hers, it just felt nice because it was al
femininy, im not being gay or sissy or nething, it just felt nice because
ti was friendly if u get me. Before I ahd to go we where lookig for a
colour that suited me, she claimed it was red in boy colours and baby pink
in girl colours.
I had a nigthmare last night, it was about her picing the colours, I
dreamed she got a load of clothes that where baby pink and make me wear
them. I don't know why this is a nigthmare it just scared me, but if what
the estrogen says will happen actually does then probably we cud do it in
the future, cos between the weightloss, hair growth and eprsonality being
chanegd It could persuade me to do it. I don't know at the moment.
So now the time is 19;27, I don't erally have anymroe to say, not at the
moment, I just wrote this so ppl could underastand a bit fo what I am
going through, sorry fro the rubbish typing, I am going fast, and crying
as I do it. That seems to be the only emotion I do at the moment. One more
thing to say
Kristy make sme smile sometmies, not just some halfassed boy smile I used
to to but proper big grin that makes me happy, its jst a comment or a look
she gives me, but she is someone special, exspecially if she makes me
smile, no1 can do that, even when I was a whole boy whp was a depressed
emo all the time. Now im just a girly/boy hippy, that don't seem right
saying that, but I suppose the truth is better than some half assed shit,
I suppose girly/boy is better than being gay, no offence to gays, it just
seems wrong.
The one thing I need to remmeber is this si an experiment and I can back
out at netime, but I don't want to, I want to complete the 2 years, find
out what it was like to be a girl and come out like I always do, big grin,
hair flying back in the wind and everyone just looking at you like, jeez
he's having a great day, I sooo wanna be him.
So, that's al it is, an experiment I am seeing through because I want to
explore opposite gender, become a better person, contorl my anger and
(idon't know if this 1 is true) but win the girl aswell, I cud always try
to get kristy, if not, then I can get sum1 else, im nto that bad, its just
my type of boy have to work harder to get a girl, but that cant be helped,
I wasn't born beautiful or great. I was born free and my own person,
that's what I will remain, my own person and continue doing this until I
don't want to ro I finish because that's what being your own person is and
ppl don't understand that, you can do what you like even if ppl object
because it's you doing it and you are great, your wonderful, and excellent
person and you can do what you like with no1 to tell you what to do or be
because you are your own person.
I suppose I better get used to some stuff, sitting down fro the toilet, my
period every 20th day to whenever, and my friends being right ther for me.
The best bit? I did it off my own back, and I want ppl to know what it is
like for me and how I did it just for it to be an expereience in itself.
One last thing, kristy asked me when we where at her place if anything
would grow...
The boy leaned back against the sofa with the girl on the other side with
her feet on his lap like a stool, she had asked him a question and he was
thinking, looking between his legs he stated. Im not taking viagra you
know and the girl said whoever said anything about that. It took the boy a
few seconds to work it out then he looked down at his torso. Then at
her,then at her breasts, then back at his torso. You bitch he winked.
The time is now 19;39pm on Friday 22nd june.
More to come? I don't know... it's all true, and its my life so it will
take time to work out and understand, then maybe one day I will write it
up. Just for you dear reader. Just for you.
This is all true, never forget that. It is happening to me, never forget
that, never forget...
Hester
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