Copyright 2008 tgwriter7
My father was a bridge builder, an engineer. I grew up in five towns
and three countries, I grew up wherever my father's work took us. He
had passion for it, said there was something about an idea that came
from his mind being built on a massive scale, his thoughts becoming
part of the landscape. But then our family would move on leaving
nothing but monuments.
As families go we got along, we didn't have time to make close friends
so we ended up making close friends with each other. My parents are
still married and I have two sisters. Dianne who is 27, just out of law
school and Joan who is 18, my twin. My name is John and since we were
twins the joke was that we were more or less male and female versions
of one another. We're not identical since I'm a boy and she's a girl,
but we look a lot alike.
It was embarrassing for Joan as she's a bit tall for a girl, and a bit
of a Tomboy, so people tended to think she was a boy, but when people
would occasionally call me Joan my face would turn red. Over the last
year she'd gotten a lot more conscious of it and started dressing more
feminine, she dyed her hair a deeper auburn you never see on men and
started wearing things besides jeans and a tee shirt. She still
wouldn't wear skirts more than she had too.
That same year my father started working on a bridge in England and my
parents moved over there. Joan and I started living with Dianne at our
family's last house just outside of Boston. She had just gotten a job
at an advertising firm and was willing to look after us for our last
year of high school.
Joan and I both went to the same private school, we were both seniors
and were poised to graduate in a few weeks, in fact we had already gone
through the graduation ceremony. Mom and Dad had flown back for that
and then back to England the next day. The first day of summer vacation
Joan came into the house looking ghost white.
"You okay?" I said.
She glanced over at me and stiffly sat down on the sofa clenching her
body, shaking and biting her lip.
"Sorry," I replied to nothing.
Joan groaned and pulled the blank expression on her face into one of
extreme annoyance. "I can't believe it, I got an incomplete in
chemistry, I fucking hate that guy"
She almost never says "fuck" she has an annoying habit of saying
"bleep" or "bleeping" she actually has a lot of annoying habits which
is probably why she didn't get along with Mr. Davidson, our chemistry
teacher. She was if nothing else a smart ass. It didn't bother me
because she was usually on my side, I was rarely on the receiving end.
"Really?" I said because I was surprised.
"Yeah he said that between me being absent and refusing to do the
dissection lab I hadn't done enough of the course."
"I thought you were doing really well, the marks said you should have
gotten an A minus?"
"I aced everything I did, and he grades on a curve, but he said I still
missed over a quarter of the class so he can't give me credit.
Technically I didn't even graduate, They don't even offer that class
this summer, I'm supposed to fly out next week and spend the summer
with Mom and Dad. God this is so embarrassing."
That sucks, I thought. "That sucks," I said. We had taken the class
together and helped each other get the two highest grades. Joan had cut
class a lot this year, she got Dianne to call her in sick. She's not
much of a delinquent but she's awkward and gets picked on a lot. I get
picked on too, but I weather it better, go home and just play computer
games . She'd gets depressed and gets Dianne to call her in sick. Also
she wouldn't dissect a frog, and just cut class that day.
When Dianne got home we told her. At first she was pissed at Joan, she
had only let Joan skip school because she thought Joan's grades were
perfect. Then we explained that with the curve she should be getting a
good grade and she concluded Davidson was a dick, that he was
technically correct and there wasn't much she could do about it, but
that he was a dick.
We stewed on that for a day, Joan called the school and tried to work
something out, but nothing did. The next day at the dinner table Dianne
had some news
"I know this doesn't help get you to see Mom and Dad but a guy I work
with has a sister that teaches Chemistry at Windytop this summer, that
school is in the same system you could get credit and you wouldn't need
to take it from Davidson next year."
"That's a girl's school?" Joan asked
"Yeah, that a problem?"
"No that's just how I've heard of it."
"Well my co-worker explained the situation to his sister and she said
she could push to get you in if you like, thing is I don't know how
we'd explain you not showing up in England to Mom and Dad, then they'd
probably get pissed off at me for letting you cut class."
The next I said was the stupidest thing I've ever said, I meant it as
a joke. "We should just find someone who looks like her and send her to
Windytop."
Joan turned to me. "Now where would we find someone who looks just like
me?" She looked me up and down. Joan and Dianne laughed a little, I my
flushed bright red, but then Joan let it go and went back to being
depressed. We finished eating and each of us went off to be by
ourselves.
Mom and Dad had been pretty apprehensive about letting us all live
together. They said we could give it a try as long as nothing went
wrong. Joan couldn't just go to England because she needed to graduate
and she'd basically be in high school another semester just to take one
class. Which sucked. I thought to myself, "I wish she was a boy then
I'd just take her place."
The next day at breakfast she remarked, "I wish you were a girl then
you could just take my place." There a pause before she looked up at me
sheepishly. "You know I hate to admit it, but for a while I had to
explain that I was a girl, if you really wanted to you could probably
pass for me. It's not like you'd really have to crossdress or anything,
just go by Joan. I'd even trade you computers."
Last Christmas Joan had 'won' the new computer for having better
grades, I got Dad's hand me down. It was supposed to be more of a
motivation to me rather than her, but it didn't work out that way. She
wasn't much of a computer person and couldn't tell the difference
between the two. I was a computer person and wanted hers.
The wave of pure terror, passed into extreme discomfort, and settled
into thoughtful consideration mixed with greed. "Your computer?... A
girl's school though?"
"It might work away from our school. We look a lot a like, but not
identical, anyone who knows us could tell, but I bet you could use my
ID."
"Sounds like crossdressing to me," I quipped back.
"Just have to get your hair dyed and styled a bit, it is getting long,
then just wear my glasses, I doubt my glasses will turn you gay. You
can wear my clothes if you want, none of them are that girlie, I don't
know if it'd work in yours." She stopped as I was starring at her like
she was suggesting I set myself on fire. "At least think about it,
okay?" she said meekly.
"Okay."
She smiled.
That night Joan told Dianne the 'idea'. She was excited until I
interjected that I was just thinking about it. Dianne said we had to
decide by tomorrow if she wanted a spot. Joan told her take the spot
either way. Seemed like an odd thing for her to decide given that she
needed to be in England next week.
Joan spent half an hour on the phone before entering my room.
"I hope you don't mind but I made an appointment for you tomorrow
morning."
"An appointment?"
"Yeah I kinda called Suzi, the lady that does my hair, and told her the
situation."
I just stared at her blankly. "The situation?"
"I'll pay for it, I just want to see if your hair is dyed and styled if
you could pass for me. If you don't like it I'll pay to have it dyed
back and cut," she pleaded very hopefully. "Come on, just give it a
try"
"Aaaa... what if we run into someone we know?"
"Oh, got that covered, we'll do it in the back, okay?"
I sighed, "Okay."
Not just being purely motivated by greed I'd been thinking about this.
It was curious just how much we looked a like. Examining my face in the
mirror, I wondering if I could really pass for a girl, I hadn't started
growing a beard yet and I was a little scrawny for a guy. In one way it
dented my pride, on the other I was curious if it would work. I started
thinking about what my life would have been had been born a girl. The
first thing that struck me was peeing sitting down. It's such a minor
thing that can make such a huge difference, one chromosome different
and I be dating boys. I didn't like that, maybe I would have been a
lesbian.
* * *
The next morning was Thursday and the salon was empty except for Suzi
who had gotten to work early.
"Heya Joan and Joan, err umm John."
Her tone was flippish and playful, but the suggestion made me
uncomfortable. My face flushed red and I looked back at the door. Joan
grabbed my hand and pulled me forward, but she kept looking at Suzi.
"Ha ha, very funny, be nice he's helping me out."
"Sorry, I guess this has to be embarrassing for you." Suzi's sly grin
softened into a warm smile. "Joan's very lucky to have a brother that
would even consider doing this... and one that is sooo pretty" She
stuck out her tongue.
There wasn't a back room as had been promised, there were a few
stattions behind a partition where no one who didn't come looking
couldn't see us. Suzi ran her fingers through me hair.
"You do look a like Joan, at least Joan from a year ago, or maybe she
looks like you. When she started seeing me she complained that everyone
thought she was you, so to keep that from happening we worked on making
her more feminine. Nothing over the top, just giving people visual cues
so they wouln't get confused.Guess I just need to do the same to you."
She started by dying my hair the same unnaturally deep auburn as
Joan's. I caught Joan staring once or twice. She seemed captivated,
almost hypnotized. Joan went through magazines looking at hair styles,
she pointed one out to me, a short bob. "Here this is what my hair
looked like after I first came here, hey Suzi can you give him this?"
Suzi finished unwrapping the highlights and then started snipping out
the bob. Even that simple style was a lot more intricate then my old
plan of getting it cut a couple times a year. It was weird to see how
much shape it gave my face, framing my features in a girlish way and
as I watched this being done to me in the mirror it dawned on me that
my face worked just fine for a girl. The same features looked awkwardly
delicate as a boy came across boldly and sharp as a girl.
Suzi turned to Joan "That's really cool, you two look so much alike."
An excited look came across he. "You know what? if you want I could cut
your hair too? You know to match."
Joan smiled and plopped down in the chair next to me. We both stayed
silent glancing back and forth at each others images in the mirror as
they slowly started to match.
A few other customers came in as well as another stylist. He looked
like a gay man, he had the voice and demeanor anyway. He came back to
check on what Suzi was doing. "Twins, that's fun!"
Suzi looked back and forth between us and grabbed some tweezers.
"This'll hurt, but you'll live." I didn't have thick eyebrow to begin
with, Suzi plucked a few out and examined Joan's. She stopped plucking
just when she thought mine where slightly thinner than Joan's, then she
shaped Joan's to match.
The other stylist's name was Dan. He kept looking in on us. Once or
twice he asked if we wanted our makeup done. Joan said, "We really
don't wear much make up."
"Oh I can teach you, we'll just use a little."
He came back two more times and made the same offer. Joan kept trying
to brush him off, but her efforts were like telling a hungry dog to
stay away from a hamburger you left in his dish.
"You don't need to wear very much, but with how shaped you hair is and
how pretty you both look, it'd be a shame not to."
"Well, it's okay with me if it's okay with her." Joan looked at me and
I realized I was "her".
They both just looked at me, waiting. "Just a little?" I meant as a
question.
Dan took it as an acceptance and got started.
"You both look really young, so you want to avoid anything heavy or
dark."
"You know we're eighteen." Joan seemed insulted by the 'really young'
comment.
"Oh in that case we'll just have to hussy you two up. Honey I meant it
as a compliment. But we'll go a little dramatic today, just to cover
all the bases."
God this was embarrassing. Still even as Dan showed me how to apply
foundation, blush ,eye-liner, mascara, lip liner and lipstick he never
realized I was a guy. We covered all the bases although we didn't apply
anything very thickly, Dan thought it was important that we should be
able to see our natural skin from underneath the makeup. When he
finished he wiped it all off and he had us do it again ourselves.
I had more fun than I would admit. It was halfway between art class and
first aid. My face was an art project and I wanted to see how pretty it
could get without poking my eye out. I didn't say this or admit it to
Joan but I was pleased by the results even if the experience was
entirely embarrassing. When it was time to leave I got really self
conscious about going out that way. I looked nervous and scared.
"You okay?" Joan asked
"Umm it's just that I don't know about going out like this, I don't
know if I can stay like this."
"I thought you were having fun? You should at least show Dianne."
"Well if it was just you and me or people I know won't make fun of me
that's okay, I don't know about going out on the street."
"You look fine no one will know," Joan said without looking me in the
eye. The butterflies in my stomach felt like they were trying to
migrate.
"Hold on."
Joan got up and found Suzi, she then paid at the register and Suzi
left. Joan came back.
"It's okay, we're going out the back, Suzi will give us a ride home."
* * *
When we got back we started looking at ourselves in the mirror.
"You know your clothes don't match your face."
"I'm not wearing a dress," I said bluntly.
"Hold on you. Girl's clothes just are fitted a little better. Besides
what's the fun in doing this if we don't try and match as much as
possible?"
Joan rummaged through her drawers and pulled out two matching black and
white baby doll tees and two pairs of jeans. I was surprised how well
they fit and it wasn't really that girlie given how basic all the
clothes were, Joan was a bit of a tomboy after all. We wore the same
prescription glasses and Joan handed me the second pair she had gotten
in a two for one deal.
"That's freaky."
"Now you know how I felt when everyone said I looked like you. I really
never minded looking like a boy, I don't like girl stuff that much,
just I don't want people thinking I have a penis."
"I think I can relate to that. This is so weird it's like I have your
body or something. I don't think I can take going out like this, it's
humiliating."
"I never told you this but before once in the girl's locker room
someone thought I was you, she slapped me. That was the most
humiliating day of my life. That's why I got my hair dyed. Anyway I
understand if you don't want to spend your summer like this but let's
at least have some fun with Dianne."
"Fun?"
We decided to test Dianne. When she got home around six Joan told her
it hadn't worked out, that I had chickened out and gone to the mall.
They talked a while and Joan said while she was at the salon she at
least got her own hair cut. Dianne complimented her but asked what the
deal was with the makeup. Joan just said they did that at the salon and
it wasn't her usual thing.
We usually just had an informal dinner on Thursdays, leftovers or
frozen meals or whatever we could find. When Dianne was in the kitchen
I came down and started foraging for food.
"Hey Joan, sorry if I gave you a hard time about the makeup."
I found myself very self conscious again and just looked back at her
without saying anything.
"I mean it looks good, makes you look more sophisticated, I'm just not
used to seeing you in it. I makes you look different, more like a
woman."
She was examining my face when Joan came in nonchalantly and stood next
to me. Dianne stopped, her mouth opened and her eyes looked back and
forth between us.
"That's freaky. That's very freaky."
"You know which is which?"
"Not until I saw both of you. John you look really pretty." She looked
at me and got it right. My face turned red again.
"Thanks I guess. We just wanted to show you how it worked out."
"I can tell by your voice too. I mean not that you're a guy, just that
you two sound different. Not that you don't not sound like a guy. Sorry
I didn't mean that either. That's freaky though. If you got her voice
down we could probably send you to England and she could stay here and
take that class."
I thought about that, going to England as Joan. If I didn't have to go
to school as a girl that would have been great, but if there's anyone I
didn't want seeing me like this it was my parents. They were judgmental
enough as it is, and I don't think I could have fooled them.
I went to my room and tried not to think about it . My sisters were
talking downstairs, they were wondering if I was going to go through
with it. It worried me when Dianne starting asking if there was anyway
they could force me to do it, but Joan didn't like that she said it
"Wasn't even funny." I could hear Joan's desperation, but she was
defending me from what she wanted me to do. If I didn't it meant she'd
end up with another year of school and Mom and Dad would kick her ass.
She could also stay here but then Mom and Dad would know right away and
kick all our asses.
I posed for my mirror. It was kinda fun looking pretty and I didn't
look like a sissy or anything just like a tomboy. The few friends I had
here were going to a summer camp this month and the class was only and
month and a half so it's not like they'd miss me.
I very reluctantly walked downstairs, both of them still talking about
me. "I'm not saying I will but let's just assume I'll go through with
it. First thing is you two can't ever tell anyone, ever."
Dianne started to nod. Joan's face lit up like someone had just taken a
huge weight off her shoulders, she smiled and joined in the nodding.
They next day I didn't want to get up and stayed in bed until about 11.
While I was in the shower Joan laid out some of her clothes on my bed.
Dark green Capris and a fitted brick red tee with black trim. I starred
at them for a while before putting them on. I skipped the makeup that
morning. Joan was downstairs reading the paper. Her head snapped up to
look at me.
"Glad you liked those clothes, those are my favorites actually."
"Thanks. God am I really going to do this?"
"Oh when we were talking last night Dianna said she'd kick in five
hundred bucks. If you are going to do it, make sure she agrees to that
before you say so."
"Wow, I was thinking I wouldn't be able to get a job if I do this,
guess I don't have to. Look I really want to help. I'm trying, you just
have no idea how incredibly gay this is. I get teased enough it is."
Joan smiled "The only way Dianne knew was when she saw us together. As
long as no one sees us together no one will figure it out."
"She knew our voices. I can't talk to anyone that knows us both".
"Good point watch out for that one." Joan shrugged. "Thing is you'll
be at a different school. No one knows us at Windytop. You should be
okay... hopefully"
The weekend worked out pretty much like I had feared. I agreed to the
whole thing, at least Joan got Dianne to chip in the five hundred
bucks. Joan left me her driver's license and bunch of clothes. She had
to split her wardrobe between us so she left most of her pants and tees
with me which meant she had to take all of the girlier stuff: skirts,
blouses, etc... She thought she could deal with it considering what I
had to deal with. None of my shoes matched her clothes and none of hers
fit me. She said they might give me away and I borrowed a few of
Dianne's sneakers which seemed to fit me. The makeup we bought at the
salon was left on my dresser.
The last really embarrassing point was that I have no boobs. Joan was
small chested but noticeable. She left me a plan white bra just in case
I got self conscious and wanted to fill out the tees a little. At first
I was embarrassed by the thought of a bra. Then I got to looking at
myself in the mirror and thought my flat chest made me look like a boy.
Joan laughed at this and I put on the bra and we stuffed it with
pantyhose, which turned my face red but made her clothes fit better.
Joan went through her bags and left me another one. She told me they
were mine now and she didn't want them back and that if I wanted
panties I should handle that myself.
The whole situation was weird, I'm glad I didn't have any brothers. The
day before Joan left we all drove a few towns over and just walked down
the street together, Dianne thought it would be good to get out any
jitters before I tried attending class. I felt like I was going to
shatter whenever anyone looked at me and hid behind my sisters. We
took a break and tried again at the next town. They had me go into a
few stores that time. Things got better but my head was still swimming
caught in a flurry of thoughts between being caught and pulling it off.
It got easier as no one noticed. I stopped hiding behind my sisters and
we went to a fast food place where I ordered my own food. The girl at
the counter called me "miss."
They dragged me along into clothing stores and after browsing we
talked about all the things I didn't have. Dianne got me a purse that
looked a lot like a school bag, Joan pointed out she could tell I was
wearing men's underwear and she threw in a couple of packs of panties,
the only plain ones they had were in multi-packs and a few of those
were pink but I just ignored that. I changed into a pair in the store
just to make sure they fit. I had to sort of pull my penis back between
my legs to make it look right but it worked. By the end of the day I
was 'okay' walking around in girl's clothes. The bra and panties
freaked me out more than anything, but at least I wasn't wearing
makeup.
When I got home I tried wearing my guy clothes as I was. It looked odd,
like a girl's head on top of a guy's body.
We saw Joan off at the airport late Sunday night. On the way home
Dianne started calling me Joan, so I could get used to it.
Next morning was the first day of class. The school was on the way to
Dianne's job so she dropped me off at 8:30. The class then ran from
9:00 to 11:00 five times a week so that the whole course could be
finished in six weeks. Dianne said she could take me home over lunch
break but not until 12:00, so I had an hour I had to kill but I could
do that in the library. The school was almost like college, I wasn't
watched at all times. Many girls boarded there over the summer but
during the school year most kids had their parents or butlers drop them
off, it was a wealthy school.
I followed a map to class and got there early. Three girls were already
there and chatting. They looked at me funny at first but then went back
to chatting. Why'd they give me such a funny look? I realized they were
all wearing uniforms. Blue hound's tooth skirts with white tops, two of
the girls with a darker blue vest that buttoned up the front and one
without. They all wore black leather Maryjane shoes two with socks and
one with tights.
Another dozen or so girls filtered into the class room. All of them
wearing uniforms. I sat near the back and no one sat next to me. I felt
out of place, they all had their cliches, their circles, and their
uniforms, and I was a guy in his sister's clothes at an all girl's
school. I wanted to bolt.
A few minutes before the bell the teacher walked in. In her late
thirties, she was slightly heavyset and very relaxed. She stopped at my
desk on her way to the front.
"Joan Hollander?"
I nodded.
"Pleased to met you. Just stay a bit after class, there are a few
things I need to help you with."
Her name was "Mrs. Oliver". I knew this because she wrote it on the
board with great zeal. During role she introduced me.
"Girls, this is Joan Hollander, she's visiting us for the summer and
normally attends Scottsdale. Please make her feel welcome, and no we're
not relaxing the dress code over the summer, she just gets a day's
exception."
At the end of role Mrs. Oliver called "Maxine Thompson", no one
responded. A girl rushed through the door and slid into the desk next
to me. "Here, present, attending, very sorry to be late."
"Any reason why?"
"Um, ah... female problems?"
"You know the policy, first tardy and you have to do afters."
Maxine looked disappointed. "Yes Ma'am."
Maxine looked to be the oldest girl there, she was certainly the
tallest, must have been 5'11". Her dark hair fell haphazardly upon her
shoulders and her face with a dark complexion, possibly Italian, looked
like she had just woken up, except she was wearing makeup. She wasn't
wearing "too much" makeup, but any more and she would have been.
She collected herself then she noticed me. As Mrs. Oliver was passing
out the books slipped me a note. "How'd you get out of wearing a
uniform? I'm Max."
I quickly wrote back, "New from Scottsdale, I'm Joan," and passed it
back. Mrs. Oliver saw the note but ignored it.
Class was boring, I'd already taken the exact same material out of the
exact same book and gotten the highest grade at my school. I tried to
pay attention as best as I could, figuring with all I had been through
that I didn't want to mess this up. She gave us a brief course outline
and started going over the first chapter.
After class I stayed in my seat as did Max. Mrs. Oliver attended to me
first.
"I hope class doesn't bore you too much Joan. I heard about your little
situation and that you've already had this material. I've also met Mr.
Davidson and I don't like him very much." She made a crabby face.
"Normally I grade on a curve but I don't think that would be very fair
given your advantage so I just won't use your score for computing it.
Sound fair?"
"Yes Ma'am." I was just happy she hadn't brought up the dress code.
"Now as for the dress code. Usually when we have girls visit for a
semester it's during the regular year, for a full class load, so it's
reasonable to ask them to buy uniforms. I'd rather not make you do
that," (yay!), "but the school is pretty strict about it, maybe we can
work out a compromise, do you have any uniforms from your old school?"
"No ma'am, we don't have uniforms."
"I'm not surprised, well you need to at least make an attempt. Do you
have any clothes that match our colors?"
"I've got some blue pants."
"Pants? No skirts?"
"No Ma'am."
"I see." Mrs. Oliver paused. She seemed like a reasonable person, and I
got the impression that she liked me. She was softly shaking her head
and biting her lip. I was hoping to get out of this some how.
Max half raised her hand and cautiously interjected, "I have some old
uniforms from last year. Those might fit her."
This revelation caught Mrs. Oliver's attention. "Great, could you get
her setup and show her around a little?"
"Sure, do I have to do anything for the tardy?"
"What tardy? Now get out of here. I need to do some work." She smiled
and turned to her desk.
Max lived on Campus, while we walked back to the dorms she asked me how
I had ended up taking a summer class here. I told her some of the story
leaving out myself and Joan's trip to England. I tried to make Mr.
Davidson seem foul but to be honest I got along with him just fine, it
was my sister who didn't. When I had finished she remarked that she was
glad I wasn't going to be on the curve.
I hadn't though about the whole academic dishonesty aspect of all this.
Was this cheating? I felt very guilty for a few moments and stayed
silent. But hadn't Joan been cheated? It didn't seem like what I was
doing was right, but it didn't seem right not to do it either. Max
broke the silence.
"So you get along with your sister?"
About to answer thinking of Joan I realized she meant Dianne whom I had
mentioned in the story. I thought this was a good time to bring myself
up.
"She's alright, tries to act like a Mom sometimes, but I like my
brother a lot."
"Oh is he cute? How old is he?" Suddenly she sounded like a valley
girl. I wondered if this was a joke.
I chuckled and responded, "He's soo cute and handsome and smart and
cool."
"Really?"
"No he just gives me a dollar every time I tell that to a girl. Sort of
like how Pepsi pays celebrities to say their names on TV."
Max looked like she could have done a spit take. "You're funny and here
I thought you were all shy."
"I'm just overwhelmed by all this, it feels strange, I mean I never
thought I'd be at a girl's school it's really different."
"Yeah it sucks, everything is sanitized for your protection, and I hate
the uniform. I feel like I'm in the fifties."
"I'm not looking forward to it." My face flushed red again and Max
looked away and pretended not to notice. "It's just that I don't like
wearing skirts, I'm a bit of a tomboy, I guess."
"Really? I never would have thought, I mean you seem pretty enough to
me. Your hair is nice. If it helps nobody really likes the uniform.
Except maybe Sandra but she's a stuck up bitch. Believe me being
slightly awkward will help you fit right in. So do you really have a
brother or was that a joke?"
"Oh yeah, we're twins. But before you ask not identical twins."
She gave me a funny look shaking her head "A boy and girl can't be
identical twins, I know that"
"Oh yeah just sometimes people think we are because we look a lot like,
not so much anymore though." The irony of that being a lie missed me
until it was out of my mouth, then it backed up and rolled over my
head. Sure my sister didn't look like me anymore, but neither did I.
"That was when I was more of a tomboy, I guess."
We reached her dorm and went up. She lived on the third floor, not on
the side overlooking the quad, the trees, and some beauitful
architexture but the other side, the side overlooking the supply sheds,
the teacher's parking lot, and some dumpsters. Max shared a room with
three other girls none of whom were there. Clothes were stuffed under
her unmade bed. She pulled out a trunk and rummaged around in it before
producing two each of a white top, blue hound's tooth skirt, and a dark
blue vest that buttoned up the front.
"These should fit, I grew a lot last year. You gonna try them on?"
"I really need to leave soon, my sister will be here soon and she needs
to get me home and back to work before her lunch break is over."
"Come on, we gotta see if it fits."
I blushed again.
"You are shy. Here I'll look away." She handed me the clothes and
turned around.
I really didn't have much time to think about it. I pulled off my t-
shirt and rushed to get the blouse on before she could see my bra was
stuffed with Kleenex. The vest was easy. I stopped when I got to the
skirt. I'd never put one on before. I thought about putting it on over
my pants but I didn't know if that would work so I turned around and
carefully let down my pants. Then I lifted that skirt up and pulled the
side zipper up to my waist. It was loose, staying in place but I was
sure if it would fall down any second.
"You done yet?"
"Yeah it's a little large. I don't think it wants to stay up."
Max turned around. "Hey you look cute. Just a sec..." She went to
another girl's dresser and took a safety pin from on top and started
adjusting the skirt. "It's no problem, it just needs to be pinned."
Her grip loosened and the skirt fell down to my knees, exposing my
panties with my penis clearly visible underneath. She looked at it for
a second, then pulled the skirt up and pinned it, this time correctly.
My cell phone rang and I answered it, shaking as Max silently watched
me during the conversation.
"Hi sis."
"Sorry about that I had to go get a uniform."
"Yes a uniform."
"Sorry I'll be right there."
I closed the phone.
"I really need to go, my sister is here."
Max just looked at me with her head tilted off to one side. "Was that a
penis?" she said almost swallowing her words as she spoke them.
"I really need to go." I started out the door. Max tried to walk with
me but I was rushing and stayed in front of her.
When I got to the quad Max yelled, "Hey Joan, see you tomorrow." She
waved and tried to smile.
My sister was parked just down the road . I jumped into her SUV.
"Hey John you look really cute. Err Joan."
I was still shaking and didn't say anything.
"Looks like you've had a really hard day, you okay?"
I just shook for a while before responding, "I hope so."
That night I told Dianne about how Max had seen me. She asked me if I
was sure and I told her, "Yes." She asked me if Max had told anyone and
I told her, "I don't know." She asked if I thought Max would tell
anyone and I said, "I don't know, maybe not."
In bed that night I couldn't sleep. Dianne gave me one of her sleeping
pills, it was prescription and I passed right out. The next morning I
woke up groggy, the muscles in my arms and legs wear sore like I'd been
running all night.
Putting on the uniform reminded me of what had happened yesterday and
made me uncomfortable, like a pervert. Dianne asked me if I wanted to
call the whole thing off. I said I wasn't sure. She said to call if I
needed her to pick me up. Then she said, "Fuck it, I'll hang around
until nine thirty," and not to let anyone look up my skirt. She thought
about it for a minute and gave me some black panties that might keep
people from seeing anything if they did happen to look up my skirt.
I got to class fifteen minutes early. Max was already there, no one
else was. She sat in the same seat as yesterday, the one next to mine,
she was starring at me. Not a glare, not suspicious, a pleasant stare
that said, "I have something to talk to you about." I sat a few seats
away from that, away from her and tried to ignore it. She moved to the
seat next to me, and tapped my shoulder.
"Hey Joan, good morning."
I turned to her, not smoothly, not calmly, but in a sort of controlled
spasm. "Good morning," forced a smile and then turned to face the
board. Three girls walked in and took their seats.
She placed a note on my desk.
": ) it's okay."
That helped, like my straight jacket had been cut off. I cried. I
didn't sob, I didn't make a scene, but a tear ran down my check. No one
else seemed to notice, but Max. Class went on as normal and we started
going over material I'd already studied before. For the second half
Mrs. Oliver had us do a short lab. Mixing chemicals and observing
changes. When we had to find partners, Max strode up to me. "You're
mine, my partner."
After class she followed me outside, grabbed me by the hand and led me
over to a secluded bench. She was thrilled.
"I'm glad you came back, I was worried you might not, I thought about
you all last night."
"Yeah I couldn't sleep, I had to take a pill."
"I mean I'm shocked, but you seem like a nice person. I just couldn't
stop thinking about how you're well you know. Umm can I ask you a real
personal question?"
"Yeah okay."
"Why do you have a penis? Oh sorry if that offended you. I mean are you
a boy or hermaphrodite? Or what? God sorry I didn't mean it like that."
I recounted the story, this time the real one. Max seemed interested
and didn't freak out. I was still a nervous wreck, just not as badly as
I had been yesterday.
I asked, "Do you think it's dishonest? I hadn't even thought about that
until yesterday."
"You said she should have had an A right?"
"Well an A-, second highest score in the class."
"Who had the first?"
"Me."
"I dunno, it's not that bad. If you were on the curve I'd hate you."
"It is dishonest. But I don't agree with Mr. Davidson giving her an
incomplete. Just it would have messed so many things up. Maybe she
deserved that though?"
"It doesn't sound like it to me. It sounds like Mr. Davidson is an
asshole, and just likes playing god to make himself feel better. One
thing, you must really like your sister."
"Well she's giving me her computer, and Dianne is chipping in five
hundred dollars."
"So you're just doing this for money?"
I had to think about it for a while. "It makes it easier."
"Like you need an excuse?"
"I dunno, maybe. It does make it easier to explain."
"Well you're overlooking one thing."
"Yeah?"
"Since you're getting paid, what are you gonna give me?" I almost did a
spit take at this. "I mean I'd help you out anyways, but maybe I need
an excuse."
I looked stunned, shocked even. Stunned and shocked, and taken a back.
"What do you want?"
"Just help me pass the class okay? Chemistry isn't my thing, I just
need a science credit so I can graduate. I flunked it the first time,
different teacher though."
"Yeah sure, okay."
"You look really cute too you know. Also you have to carry my books.
I'm serious, I mean as long as I'm blackmailing you I ought to have a
little fun."
"You're blackmailing me?"
"Not really, but come on try and be a little but of fun."
We walked back to her dorm. I carried her book (there was only one).
Then we exchanged numbers and email, right before my sister called to
pick me up.
That night I told Dianne about how Max had taken the whole thing,
leaving out the part about carrying her books. She was relieved as I
was. It was nice to have someone there that knew, it took a lot of the
weight off my shoulders. It's a lot harder to lie to everyone than it
is to lie to everyone but one person. Dianne pointed out that it's a
lot easier to keep a secret from everyone than it is to keep a secret
from everyone but one person.
* * *
The next morning traffic was light and we got there earlier than usual,
8:20. I walked around the quad for a few minutes. It was a warm day
which was nice skirt weather, something I'd never experienced. The way
the skirt kept warm air curling around my legs was very pleasant. My
phone buzzed and I got a text from Max. "Come on ovr :)"
She was in her room with two other girls that were getting ready for
school, they were in a rush but Max introduced us. One of them was
Sandra and I forgot the other one's name.
"Heya Joan, I saw you wandering around. You're always welcome to come
over if you want."
"Thanks, it's a nice day though."
"Oh, hey come here for a second." Max motioned me towards her dresser
and pulled out the stool. "I want to try something."
I sat down. "Yeah what?"
Max touched my face, then pulled at the skin around my eyes. She
started putting eyeliner on me.
"What are you doing?"
"Leaving my mark. Your face just looks too plan without some makeup.
Makes you look like you have no personality or like a boy."
She applied lightly but the shades themselves were dark. My now dark
lips punctuated my face, drawing my eyes to them. I played in the
mirror puckering, smiling, pouting, drawing them up exposing my teeth.
Max just smiled and handed me her book, I carried it to class for her.
After class Max and I walked the quad and found a place to sit. We
started going over our homework, then she starting asking questions.
They were kind of embarrassing and I thought through a few responses
before answering.
"Have you ever dressed as a girl before?"
A) "No I'm just doing this to help out my sister."
B) "Nope never, though people thought I was my sister a few times."
C) "Just since I started going to girl's school"
"Did you act any different when you were a boy?"
A) "Umm... I still am a boy"
B) "Just like anyone else.. I guess"
C) "I dunno I'm probably less paranoid."
"Does anyone else know?"
A) "Just you and my sisters."
B) "Wait... Did you tell Anyone?"
"Is that a wig?"
A) "I wish I had thought of that."
B) "Nope it's my own hair"
"So do you like girls?"
A) "I like you."
B) "What do you mean by 'like'"
C) Nod and a try not to blush.
B,C,A,B,C
Dianne picked me up before we were able to get any more studying done.
On my way to the car Max asked if I wanted to stay late tomorrow and
help her study. Dianne thought this was a great idea because, "Frankly
driving you home everyday over lunch is exhausting, not that I'm
complaining given what you're doing but any break is welcome."
The next day I stayed late and surprisingly enough we managed to get a
lot of work done. Max, though bad at chemistry, was very smart and
driven. We even went over the next chapter and did the next day's
homework.
When we finished she asked me what I'd like to do. I said I didn't know
and there was pause, followed by an uncomfortable silence, then Max
looked at me and I asked her about her family.
Max was reluctant to talk at first but as she softly spoke the words
came more easily. She was the only child of a single mother, a business
woman who thought she could raise a child without a man. She had just
gone to the sperm bank and selected the best stock. Nine months of
being pregnant followed by one year of diaper changes, followed by
three years of balancing her child and her career and then said career
was in the toilet. She hired a nanny, that worked for a few years but
Max was usually alone, and the nanny started stealing. After they fired
the nanny Max was put in boarding school. "Just for a semester," and
she liked it so the semester became a year and the year became forever.
She stayed with her mother every weekend, but they were more like
friends than family.
Dianne picked me up and asked if Max wanted to have dinner with us. Max
called her mom who called the resident adviser then she changed into
street clothes (she said she never got to wear street clothes anymore)
and we went to a nearby outdoor mall.
The three of us looked entirely mismatched. Max was wearing fashionably
torn jeans and fashionably lacy black top, Diane was wearing power
clothes, a nicely cut pants suit for meetings, and I was wearing a
school girl outfit that was slightly too large. I felt like I was ten.
Dianne decided to take us out for Chinese food at a nice place with a
forty five minute wait. I was self conscious about my clothes, and
occasionally people would look.
About five minutes into the wait we heard an older woman ask her
friend, "I wonder where that little girl goes to school?" Dianne looked
at me, at first thinking it was funny, then see saw my look of horror
mixed with humiliation.
She counted out three twenties, then paused and added a fourth and told
Max and me, "There's a clothing store across from us, I'll hold our
spot. You have thirty minutes, bring me the change."
Max's eyes got wide, she grabbed my hand and practically dragged me.
Not that I needed dragging just that it was hard to keep up with her. I
didn't know where to start or what to do, which turned out to be very
effective, because Max started just handing me stuff. She handed me
about four pairs of jeans until we found my size, then she did the the
same thing with tops. I hadn't noticed they were all black. When we got
back to the Chinese restaurant with 10 minutes to spare Max and I more
or less matched. She handed Dianne $4.85 in change, which was left over
from the extra twenty that she had to kick in without mentioning it.
Dianne took the bills and said, "Aww now I want to match too."
The dinner went slow and awkwardly at first, until Dianne broke the
topic of me being a guy. Worried I looked around to see if anyone had
overheard, but no one did, they all seemed wrapped up in their own
conversations. Dianne said she was happy I had a friend and asked if
she was okay with everything. Max said yes and that she more or less
just thought of me as a girl and that the whole thing was pretty
interesting. Dianne hushed her voice and asked if Max thought what we
were doing was dishonest.
"Two wrongs don't make a right, but than again neither does one wrong.
Systems like schools can be cold and uncaring, believe me I know, so
it's up to people to do what they think is right. Don't ever be ashamed
to help someone just because it's you." Max's voice was clear and
unwaivering like she had rehearsed this.
* * *
The next week went by fast. The class work got harder, after all we
were trying to finish it in six weeks. Max and I did well. I was top of
the class and she settled into number four.
Friday however did not go by so fast. Around 10:45, when Mrs. Oliver
was going over our weekend homework assignments, she collapsed, fell
over right in the middle of the aisle and cracked her head open on a
desk. There was blood everywhere and we thought she was dead. I don't
know who had called the school nurse, but she rushed in a few minutes
later. One of the other girls was trying to the stop the bleeding using
her vest, another girl told us not to move her in case she had a spinal
injury. I tried to help, but stayed by the wings. I didn't want to get
blood on myself, for fear I'd have to take something off that would
expose me, later I was ashamed of that. Max just turned ghost white and
stayed in her chair.
A teacher arrived with the nurse, this one a man and we were all told
to stand out in the hallway. The girl with blood on her clothes told us
that it was Mr. Oliver, Mrs. Oliver's husband. A few minutes after that
the paramedics arrived and they carried her to an ambulance downstairs,
Mr Oliver went with her. We all stayed as the bloody girl explained to
the school nurse what had happened. Then we were all excused.
Max was pale and she was shaking. I lead her outside, carrying her
books for her and sat her down on a bench. She said she just can't
stand the sight of blood, and that Mrs. Oliver was one of the best
teachers there. She repeated herself a few times, the part about the
blood stayed the same, but Mrs. Oliver became her favorite teacher
ever.
We sat silently, then Max spoke again. "Heya Joan."
"What is it?"
"I have to go stay with my Mom this weekend."
"Is that okay?"
"Yeah, but I really need someone to talk to, you think, you think you
could come over?"
"What about your Mom? Can't you..." I could see worry swelling in her
eyes. Her face tensed and sullened all at once. "I didn't mean it like
that, I'd really like to, I'll ask."
I called Dianne and told her everything that had happened while Max
watched. I hadn't been so calm that I can remember, it was like someone
was speaking for me, someone who know exactly what she was saying.
Maxine looked away when I starting talking about her. "She looks really
shaken up, white as a ghost. She said she doesn't want to be alone, can
I go stay with her at her Mom's tonight?"
I closed the phone. "Yeah, it's okay"
Her mother picked us up around 3:00. She was a well composed woman and
insisted I sit in the front seat next to her, after all I was a guest.
The SUV she drove was clad in leather and wood, covering any bit that
might not be luxurious. She was herself was clad in designer suits and
superficial conversation.
"So Joan, Maxie tells me that you came from Scottsdale, she says you
are top of your class."
"Oh no, my brother is top of the class, but I'm a close second."
"Really, what's he like?"
"Oh he's ever so smart and handsome and cool and a snappy dresser."
She turned and looked at me funny.
"He pays me a dollar every time I tell a girl that. Kinda like how
Pepsi pays celebrities to mention them on television."
She chuckled politely.
"He's in England right now visiting Mom and Dad." I could tell she was
impressed as soon as I uttered 'England'. The conversation went back
and forth like that a while, as long as I dropped some sort of name be
it foreign country or elite school she was happy.
She asked Max about what had happened with Mrs. Oliver. Max wasn't
feeling very talkative and I intercepted most of the questions. She
argued that Mrs. Oliver would be alright, these things happen to older
ladies, but it was a shame none the less, and wasn't Mrs. Oliver Max's
favorite teacher, and everything would be alright. I thought the "older
ladies" comment odd as she looked about the same age. I might have
argued, but she was more or less talking to herself anyway.
Max's mother lived in a large town home in Cambridge. One of those
places where you go up an elevator and then down some anonymous hallway
and the whole thing feels vaguely like a hotel. Max's mother stayed in
her office most of the night except to tell us when the pizza she had
ordered arrived.
Max and I went back to her room. She just started just listing her
stuff, like she was showing items in a catalog, explaining why this or
that was the best this or that money can buy, then she started crying.
She sat on the bed and started talking about how pathetic she was but
that she couldn't stand the sight of blood, and she didn't understand
how something like that could just happen and does that sort of thing
happen all the time?
I sat next to her with my arm around her for an hour. She went to bed
early and I slept in a sleeping bag next to her. I hadn't brought any
clothes, so I just borrowed a pair of her old sweats. We both laid in
bed for a while, staring at the ceiling, and talking as the odd thought
crossed our minds.
"I wonder why she fell over, I guess she just fainted."
"She ever fainted before?"
"Not that I can remember."
"You think I'm a wuss for freaking out like that?"
"No, besides I'm not really one to talk."
"You seem pretty brave to me."
"Well I wouldn't be without you."
"You been keeping up with your sister in England, telling her what's
going on?"
"Yeah, I write her every couple of days."
"What are you going to say about this?"
"I dunno. I hadn't thought about it, anything you want me to leave
out?"
"...no that's okay I think it's probably better. I just thought of
something should I call her Joan when I meet her?"
"What else would you call her?"
"You're already Joan."
"When you meet her I don't think I still be doing this."
"Why do you think blood is so red?"
"Same reason the sky is blue."
"It's like it defines red, I bet we couldn't see red if we didn't
bleed."
"And we couldn't see blue if there was no sky."
"They say bulls can only see red, that's why bull fighters have red
capes. I wonder if bulls ever look at the sky."
"I wonder if they can look back at their body, I bet they never see
themselves bleed."
The next morning Dianne called my cell and woke me up. See said the
school had called and that Mrs. Oliver was alright, had fainted because
of low blood pressure, and had a moderate concussion, but she'd be
alright in a week or two. I asked about class Dianne said she didn't
know, but that we'd find out on Monday. Dianne asked if we wanted to go
visit her in hospital that afternoon. I woke up Max and she nodded
quickly. Dianne picked us both up around 11 and we got in to see Mrs.
Oliver around noon.
She was happy to see us, but groggy. Her eyes were bloodshot, they woke
her up due to the concussion and kept her on stimulants most of the
night. She said she had just gotten off them and was going to pass out
any minute, then she passed out. Mr. Oliver was a in a good mood, which
seemed to put Max in a good mood. He said it could have been a lot
worse and that Mrs. Oliver was just standing too long because the class
was two hours instead of one. He said he was going to get her a stool
and some orthopedic socks.
I asked him if there was going to be class on Monday, he said they were
both taking at least a week off and that hopefully there would be a
sub, but that he didn't know. The whole visit relaxed Max and I felt
better too. A few other girls from class came in and Mr. Oliver started
explaining the situation to them. We went home and dropped Max off
along the way, it turns out we only live about seven miles from one
another.
* * *
That night Dianne went on a date. She was fairly hush about the whole
thing, but said I shouldn't expect her back that night and would I be
okay by myself. I said sure, planning to play on the computer the whole
night. Around eight o'clock I got an IM asking if I would like to be
SlyDemon91's friend along with the message, "It's me Max."
SlyDemon91: "Whatcha up to"
"Just playing games"
SlyDemon91: "Oh you busy? I can go"
"Sort of but it's boring what's up"
SlyDemon91: "Nothing my Mom left on a trip, been watching youtube but
nothing's on"
"Lol, yeah Dianne's out on a date till tomorrow"
SlyDemon91: "Really? Want to come over? :)"
"Yes, but I can't"
SlyDemon91: "Why not?"
"No ride"
SlyDemon91: "I can drive"
"Really?"
SlyDemon91: "Yeah I have a car"
"Really?"
SlyDemon91: "Mom got it for my 16th birthday. I can't park it at
school, so it's just here. She drives it more than I do"
"What if we get in trouble?"
SlyDemon91: "By who?, they're both gone"
"Thinking..."
SlyDemon91: "I'm on my way. Pack a bag"
SlyDemon91 has logged out.
I had taken the evening off of being a girl and was dressed in my
actual clothes. I had a cap on so my head looked more or less normal.
15 minutes later Max pulled up in a blue 1997 Mazda Miata. She gave me
a funny look and asked if I was gonna do guy tonight and then she asked
if we were on a date then. I said no, and then she said she could wait
so I went back to my room and got changed. We went out a saw a movie
about people getting killed by the Internet, it was PG-13 and it wasn't
very good.
We went back to her Mom's townhouse and she said we could get away with
pretty much anything we felt like that night and pulled out a bottle of
vodka.
"Just one shot. I'm not planning on getting wasted. Just one shoot and
I'll put the bottle away. Consider it chemistry homework about alcohol
or something."
We both took a shot. I got drunk immediately. Next we went up and
jumped on her bed until we heard something snap and the bed shifted
slightly. Then we had a pillow fight, not a nice pillow fight. The
first thing she did was to throw a heavy couch pillow into my balls. I
fell over and groaned as she pointed and laughed, then she continued to
pummel me in the head with the same pillow. She was taller than I was,
and had a longer reach and about the only thing I could come up with
was holding a pillow up like a shield and just running into her.
Her mother had an immaculate black piano. I don't know if she still
played or if Max played. There wasn't any sheet music nearby. We sat
down on the bench and just pounded on the keyboard playing notes at
random. Max suggested we only do that for a minute so the neighbors
wouldn't call the cops.
We crashed on the couch.
"When is your Mom getting home?"
"I dunno, late on Sunday. But don't worry about that. Last year the
school talked her into getting a family phone. She rations my talk
time. Yeah I know it's embarrassing. But there's also GPS on the
phones, Lo-Jack for kids. She doesn't even know how to check it, a few
months ago I turned in on on her phone as well. See she's in Chicago."
Max held up the phone and showed me that her mother was indeed in
Chicago.
"She ever check yours?"
"No, a few months ago I expressed mailed it to myself through Las Vegas
just to mess with her. She never noticed."
"You like messing with people don't you?"
"Yes, yes I do... Truth or Dare?"
"Okay, truth?" I hated this game, because people always me what I've
done, and I hadn't really done anything.
"Who's the first boy you kissed?"
"I'm not gay."
"Okay who's the first girl?"
"Technically my Mom, I guess."
Max rolled her eyes and gave me a funny look, "Okay your turn."
"Truth or Dare?"
"Dare."
"Go have another drink."
I picked truth a few times after that, wanting to avoid Max making me
drink in return, but she kept asking me embarrassing questions, like
"Who was your first girlfriend?" and "Have you ever stolen anything?"
My answers were just, "No," and I felt like a total loser.
She kept saying "Dare." I'd give her something to do involving eating
or drinking something odd, like ice cream with pepper on it. Nothing
seemed to phase her though.
Eventually I got sick of "Truth" and asked for "Dare." She was really
drunk as I had dared her into two more shots. She made a production out
of thinking about it, talking to herself and dismissing her own ideas
without naming anything specifically. Eventually she settled onto
something.
"You know what would be fun? Come on." She lead me upstairs were she
handed me a satin burgundy bundle. It was her bridesmaid dress from a
few years ago, which she thought might fit me. I'd never worn a full
length dress before. The fabric was smooth and cool and the way it
sweep across my body as I moved was different from men's clothing or
even my school clothes. The dress was wearing me as much as I was
wearing it. We continued and I called "Dare" a few more times. Max
ended up doing my makeup and my nails, and I ended up doing hers and
getting her into one of her mom's evening dresses.
"So are we done with truth or dare now? Anything else you want to do?"
"I could go one more round but it's your turn. The maid comes in
tomorrow before my Mom, so we don't really need to worry about cleaning
up."
"Shouldn't we put the vodka away?"
"The maid does not care. She gets paid by the hour, plus she likes me
way more than my mom."
"Okay dare I guess, we haven't done truth in a while, but dare is more
fun."
"Hmm there is one thing I'd like to do, but we don't have to go too
far. I just want to try it out."
She lead my up to her Mom's room and over to her dresser. "I saw the
maid cleaning this stuff once." She opened the draw. At first I wasn't
sure what I was seeing, black leather straps mostly. "My Mom's into
some interesting stuff." She accented the word 'interesting'. "The maid
won't know it wasn't her using it, maybe we could just play around a
little?"
"What do you do with it?"
"Tie each other up I think. We don't have to do anything, I just wanted
to see what it's like." Max accented the word 'have'.
"You want me to tie you up?"
"I'm daring you to tie me up."
I had no idea what I was doing. I found a few pairs of padded cuffs.
They were made of leather, not like the cops use. I cuffed Max's hands
behind her back and her ankles together. She rolled around on the bed a
little and jested at moaning. My penis started to press against my
underwear. I tried to ignore it and asked Max, "So how is it?"
She rolled her eyes and smiled. "Fun actually. I wish you knew how to
use some of those other things."
"Yeah, I don't know how they work."
"Can I try some of it?"
"I don't know how they work."
"No, I mean on you."
"Oh." I stopped, this all seemed so weird. I was getting turned on but
I didn't know if Max was, or if she just wanted to try things out as
she had said. There was an awkward pause when all I heard was my heart
beating, and all I could feel was my penis wriggling on its own.
"Please? Just to see how they work, that's all I swear."
"Okay, but just to see how it works."
Max's eyes gleamed as I uncuffed her. She put her hands on my shoulders
and guided me onto the bed. She sat behind me and pulled my hands
behind my back, not in any hurry she clasped the cuffs around my
wrists. The cuffs I had used on her ankles went round my arms just
above the elbows.
"I don't think these are for your legs, I saw something else for
those." Max came back with a two foot long bar with cuffs on either
end. "Get a load of this thing." She spread my legs and cuffed each
ankle.
With my legs spread my penis popped out and pressed up through the
panties tenting the satin dress, now hiked up to my thighs.
"Everything okay? You enjoying yourself"
"Yes." I was so excited I felt like my eyes were going to pop out of
head.
"So you don't want me to stop?" Max looked at me quite seriously.
I just shook my head.
"Good, I don't want to stop either."
Her fingers ran across my back and down to my butt then pushed me to
the center of her bed.
"Oh my gawd."
"What is it?"
"You ever see that movie Pulp Fiction?"
"You found the gimp?"
"Hmm... I wonder what the maid would do with him?"
She ran her fingers through my hair and pulled it back, then gently
pulled a finger down my bottom lip opening my mouth, inserted a rubber
ball and fastened its straps behind my head.
I was reeling, everything felt so erotic. Max touched her nose to mine
"You'll have to do this to me sometime." Then she slid her mouth down
and gave me the single most enjoyable moment of my life.
Max's attitude was a little different the next morning. I slept on the
couch until about 10 but I knew my sister was going to be home around
noon so I had to wake Max up. Her door was open but she was passed out
hard, drool sliding out the corner of her mouth and she was still in
the dress from last night. I took a shower in the hall bathroom hoping
that would wake her up. It did and she knocked on the door to ask for
some aspirin.
When I finally got out she was just sitting on her bed with her head
down her palms propping up her forehead.
"You ever have a hang over? Anything happen after I passed out?"
"Ahh I went to bed. On the couch."
"Yeah how was it?"
"Good, I think I slept alright. I hate to bug you but I need to get
home, Diana's gonna be back in an hour."
"Oh shit."
She tossed some clothes on, but skipped the shower and drove me home.
The conversation was a little awkward.
"I'm not usually like that, and don't say anything, you're the one who
got me drunk."
"Hey you did a lot more to me."
"Oh yeah, was that your first time?"
"...Yep."
"Was it... you know... good? Sorry I was so drunk."
I blushed red again. I tried to be careful with my words but I couldn't
think of any careful words to say, "It was great."
"So does that make me a lesbian?"
"I don't know. I mean I am a guy."
"Yeah, but I think of you as a girl. How old are you?"
"Eighteen."
"Good for a while there I thought I might be in trouble. You look
younger."
"Sorry."
"Was it really great?"
"Yes." I nodded my satisfaction.
Max dropped me off at home and I heard Dianne start to open the garage
door about two minutes later. I just rushed into bed and pretended I'd
been sleeping the whole time. When I got up from that I decided to take
another shower just to be consistent, during which it occurred to me
that the two might have passed on the street, and Dianne might have
seen Max and I might be in a lot of trouble. Fortunately it turned out
not to be the case and Dianne just asked if I wanted to go see a movie
with her.
* * *
My mind had been so wrapped around what had happened with Max I hadn't
given much thought to Mrs. Oliver and class. So on Monday morning when
Dianne said they had arranged a substitute I hadn't thought anything of
it.
Walking into the classroom my mind was only thinking about whether or
not things would be the same with Max, and also of course how much I
wanted to do that thing again, and again, and again. I hadn't time to
go by her dorm before class, but she was sitting in her usual seat and
I sat next to her.
"Heya Joan, sorry if I acted a bit weird yesterday when I dropped you
off."
"That's okay, it was a strange night. Let's just try to get back to
class."
"Sounds good to me, you hear anything about the substitute?"
It was then that I started to look around for the teacher, it was then
that I noticed his name written on the board, it was 'Mr. Davidson'.
"Shit," I stated under my breath.
I got along fine with Mr. Davidson, but my sister did not. It's just
that she likes pushing everyone's buttons and Mr. Davidson had so many
to push. He was a nerd. So was I, and so was my sister for that matter.
It's better to say he was a nerd that took everything just a little too
seriously. I'd imagine you wouldn't want to start any sort of
conversation in which any sort of imaginary charac