Hi, this is a long one but I was aiming for something very realistic and
realism means you have to think about everything. This is homage to the
classic coming of age stories I love very much on this site, like The
Professor's 'The Question' or O2Bxx's 'For a Girl'. If you haven't read
both of those, do so as they're ace.
These as the first 9 chapters of the story, the next 9 will be put up
soon followed shortly by the remaining chapters.
This is set in Australia and thus a very small portion of the slang
might be a shade confusing to a lot of you but I'm sure you non-Aussies
will pick it up. Also, like a lot of Australians the characters have a
relaxed relationship with swearing. So, it may seem a shade gratuitous
but I assure you it's fairly realistic. If you have any questions or
comments please send me an email at
[email protected]
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KATE DRAFFEN
By Swishy
Everyone in Australia knows about Kate Draffen. Everybody had at least
talked about Mrs. Draffen at least once: Did it hurt? What about her
kids? What about her husband? I had asked those questions. Essentially,
Kate Draffen wasn't special enough to warrant everyone talking about
her, unless we all are. She was just a simple stay-at-home mum; 41,
three kids, married, liked arts and crafts. But it wasn't her we were
all talking about- it was what happened to her. Her photo was on the
front pages of all the newspapers. For a while she was the most famous
person in the country.
Who knew I would soon be as famous as Kate Draffen?
CHAPTER 1
I was unremarkable. If you asked me to describe myself in one word I
would have said 'unremarkable'. My name, Michael Taylor, was an
indication of how truly unremarkable I was. Such a boring name.
Although, I always reassured myself that I had plenty of time to become
remarkable. I was only 17, plenty of time to figure out how to change
the world for the better. There are 21 million people in this country,
and when it came to importance I would have probably ranked myself
towards the bottom. I was just a young kid, average in all ways, living
in a small town. It's not that I wasn't worth anything, it's just that
there was nothing super interesting about me. And I was perfectly fine
with that.
I didn't mean a lot to many people either. Sure, I had a mum who loved
me and my own group of friends but outside of this little town no one
knew me. I was just another blank faced teenager in a long line of
teenagers. In fact this story begins in a line of teenagers.
We were having a yearly medical check at school. As far as everyone else
was concerned it was a great excuse to lose two classes while we waited
in line, for me it was a hellish torment, a terrifying wait to get a
needle. To say I was scared of needles is like saying The Pacific Ocean
is a puddle. Sure, I hated Rubella too, so I knew why I needed the
needle but the reassurance of knowledge didn't make the needle any less
sharp or painful. The injection wasn't the only part of today's yearly
medical examination; they were going to check for head lice, give us the
standard sight and hearing test and quick swab of saliva to see if there
was anything massively wrong with us. All those other things were fine
with me; anything that withheld the jabbing of the needle into my arm
even for a second was great in my books.
Dot gave me a massage that made it apparent that she had never given a
massage before or that she had no clue that pinching my shoulders hard
would not have a calming effect. "It'll be OK," reasoned Dot cheerfully,
"Immunisation is like losing your virginity, mate!"
"And how is that?" I bemoaned, not really wanting to listen but deciding
to placate her so she didn't attempt another massage. "Well, just one
little prick and it's all gone!" She laughed at her own joke. I glared
at her, unimpressed.
"That doesn't really work for us," Glen chimed in, "As we are the
'pricker' not the 'prickee'." Glen made a good but completely useless
point.
"Just don't talk about it!" I grunted, as the line moved and I got a
step closer. Dot peered at the line snaking its way into the Study Room,
which for that day was a makeshift medical centre. She did her best to
hide from the burning sun, pressing up against a wall, "Michael, I don't
know why you made us go last in the line. You should have gotten it out
of the way ASAP, like ripping off a band-aid. I'm seriously melting out
here!"
Dot's fear of burning was well placed. Dot was pale. She was also tiny
like her name suggested. She was colourless, short and very slight with
thick black hair and piercing eyes. Despite being quite a striking
looking creature, the boys pretty much left her alone. Not that she
cared, however, as her heart belonged to only one boy. She, like many
teenage girls, was in love with the unobtainable. Not to say that he was
out of her league, I'd like to think they would have gotten along
famously. But he was married. And dead. For over one hundred years.
Let's just say I never could foresee Dot becoming Mrs. Herman Melville
anytime soon.
"You're the only one melting because you haven't seen the sun in 11
years, you hermit!" I told Dot. She stuck her tongue out at me and mimed
poking me with a needle. The light bounced off my watch and I carefully
aimed it at Dot's eyes. The line lurched a step forward, as some of the
casualties leaked out of the building. They talked, giggled and planned
their lunchtimes. They didn't seemed like victims of a horrible stabbing
to me, that just meant that the statistics were stacked against me, if
they hadn't made a mistake so far it meant they were more likely to
screw up on me. One of the prettier wounded walked over to us, clutching
a cotton wool ball to her arm.
"Hey spunk," she called to me.
"Did it hurt?" I skipped the small talk with Holly and went straight to
the matter at hand. "No, not really," Holly looked at me looking at the
bloody cotton ball. "I'm a bit of a bleeder," she confessed, "Michael,
you're not actually scared, are you?"
"Shitting himself," Glenn chimed in again to another conversation where
his participation was not required. Glen was quite quiet, except when he
knew it would annoy me. So basically, he's your average best friend.
"Just be glad you're not a girl, because we have to get two needles,"
Holly said.
"That's not fair," whined Glen, assuredly adding nothing to the
conversation, "I don't want to get cervical cancer either!" I wonder if
it was too late to change friends.
"Look, just make sure you don't faint. I don't think I could handle
having a Deb partner who faints," Holly called over her shoulder as she
left for the canteen, "See you in English later on, I want to talk about
our Deb speech!"
Now, I'm sure some of you reading this might not know what the 'Deb' is.
I'll tell you: 'Deb' is short Debutante and in Australia a lot of High
Schools have these things called Debutante Balls. It's a way of
introducing young women in Year 11 at school, to society. The girls get
dressed up in white dresses, like wedding dresses, and dance with boys
in tuxedos. We all learn how to do different ballroom dances, like
waltzes and The Pride of Erin and perform them in front of local
dignitaries and our family and friends. Then Debutantes dance with their
fathers and the boys dance with their mothers. Some people cut a cake,
two students (Holly and I) make a speech and then a band plays and we
all dance. That's about it, I guess it's a little like a prom, but not
really, it's a lot more formal, with protocol and all. There are more
rules than just playing Stairway to Heaven at the end.
And Holly was my partner, which was great. I wasn't going to do it at
all until Holly asked me. I couldn't turn her down because I had a huge
thing for her. She was pretty and sweet and has a lovely singing voice.
We were in the school play together a few times and once even played
lovers, which was awesome. Unfortunately our school never does any of
the kissing scenes so the closest I got to her was a tender hug. Her
friend, Alison told me that Holly only chose me because I was a great
dancer and looked good in a suit and that was good enough for me. Any
chance I had to get close to Holly was good- performing in school plays,
tutoring her in Japanese, being her Deb partner. Yes, I know she had a
boyfriend who was at university and I know that she only liked me as a
friend but there was no reason I couldn't enjoy holding her close and
dancing.
My Deb partner was above me in rank. Although our school isn't like a
school in teen movies with the jocks, nerds and cheerleader all in there
defined cliques, there was a little bit of a class system. Basically
there are three groups. Group A is the 'cool' group: Usually self
defined, the prettiest and stylish girls belong to this group, as do the
toughest and most obnoxious boys. This is the group that has parties
where not everyone is invited, they only date within the group and they
staked out and reserved all the best spots to hang out around school.
Group C is the deviants, psychos, nut-jobs and misanthropes who shun
company. They are weird and will probably grow up to be people you avoid
on the street because of the religious ranting they are doing through a
megaphone. Group B was everyone else. We were the drama nerds, the music
lovers, the smart kids, the movie buffs, the math nerds, the
wallflowers, the everything elses.
Holly could be a Group A if she was snobby enough. A lot of her friends
were Group Aers. She had long blonde hair and large blue eyes. I have
seen her in her underpants while she changed costumes and can attest to
the fact she has a totally smoking body. But she is too sweet to belong
to Group A all the time, quite content to be friends with whoever she
likes. That's what attracted me to her in the first place, the ability
to befriend everyone she meets. She was going to look amazing in a
couple months time at the Deb Ball, and I was going to be dancing with
her.
I was the only one in our little friendship circle who was doing the
Deb. Dot opposed the whole thing as the pseudo-feminist she pretended to
be. "I am not being put on display as a potential wife!" she would often
preach, in the child-like voice she couldn't shake off because of her
stature "Next after that is setting up a dowry for catching a worthy
gentleman," she would scoff. The right girl had just simply not asked
Glen. I think he was hoping for Alison or another one of the A Squad to
come to their senses and ask him, but nothing materialized. So he would
often jumped on the feminist bandwagon too.
"Hey mate, guess who got pulled for having lice?" asked an acquaintance,
giving us no time to guess. "Candice Ellwood!" he named an unfortunate
Group C girl, laughed and left, probably to spread the rumour further.
Even though our school was big (about 1,000 students) you would be
surprised how fast rumours would travel. Rumours would travel through
the school faster than... well, head lice. But I guess that was the same
in every school. I knew I had no lice, as I carefully washed my hair
everyday, nothing would survive on my hair. My hair was my pride and
joy, I even wore it unfashionably long, down to my shoulders. It wasn't
very fashionable or masculine, bit I simply didn't care. As if the
building was trying to inhale the students surrounding it the line moved
on and I entered the belly of the beast.
The first thing I noticed was how disinterested the medical
professionals appeared to be. It was Monday morning and these people
looked like they had been working 12 years without a day off. Now I
understand swabbing saliva and checking for lice aren't seat-of-your-
pants exciting jobs but at least you could smile. I would be worried if
the needle people had the same lackadaisical attitude, if they were so
indifferent they might stab me accidentally in the wrong place or
something. Unfortunately, the needlers were hiding behind a partition,
so I couldn't appraise their job satisfaction levels.
"If you would come this way, miss, we'll start your hearing test,"
parroted the nurse as if she had said the same thing a thousand times a
day for a thousand days. "What?" asked Dot craning her ear forward in an
attempt of vaudeville type humour. The nurse manufactured a smile as if
she had heard that same joke five hundred times a day for the last
thousand days. I was led to seeing test, which I past quite well. I
liked being tested as it gave me a chance to show off. And if I had
anything to show off it was that my eyes could see a lot rather well. Me
and Dot swapped over and I showed off my impressive hearing too. I
winked at Glen as he entered the tests after us, knowing that he was as
blind as a bat and as deaf as a doorpost. My record was safe.
Dot and I went to the next pair of tests, head lice and saliva swabbing.
A woman with rough hands, went through my hair searching for the tell
tale signs on an infestation but to no avail. I tried to make some chit-
chat, but she looked at me with confusion. Some adults seemed to forget
that people aged 17 are quite able to carry out a conversation. Just
because I was wearing a blue and white school uniform, doesn't mean I am
unable to talk about the weather. I was pushed along to the saliva swab,
but before I left I warned the lady about Dot's arrival and the rat's
nest she called hair. Dot just glared at me, if had she an once of
weight behind her she might have tried to punch me but she tended to
avoid physical tussles.
I scurried to the saliva swab and promptly opened my mouth, "I'm the
second last of the day. That must feel good," I gurgled as the man in
the gloves took a scrapping off the inside of my cheek. He ignored me
and handed the swab to another man to dropped in into some liquid. "You
can go," he mumbled. I didn't want to, that meant going to the last
part. The jabby, stabby, needle part. "So, what are you checking for?" I
asked the man.
"Just predispositions to various diseases," he mumbled looking deeper at
one of the solutions. His curtness was a sign that conversation would
not be tolerated for any longer, I took that is an obvious clue to leave
and left.
It would be quite accurate to point out that I was walking very slowly
to the last section of the medical obstacle course. Words that would
better describe the walk toward the needle: creeping, tiptoeing,
meandering, ambling and strolling. These are all more precise words to
use. Soon Dot left her head lice check and pushed me, "C'mon, loser! Get
it done and we can enjoy the rest of our extended lunch break!" I huffed
loudly, mostly in frustration. "Do you want me to hold your hand?" and I
huffed again. As we walked past the final partition I caught sight of
the needles. One of them was going into Will Hodson's arms AND he was
wincing slightly in discomfort! I wasn't so sure I could do this. It
could break off in my arm, and get infected. I grew greener thinking
about it. The medical lady, now finished butchering poor Will beckoned
me to her chair. I obeyed, only to get it done with. Dot went to another
chair to be dealt with. I wanted her nurse, she looked so caring and a
lot less threatening. Meanwhile I was stuck with Nurse Death over here.
I closed my eyes and awaited the pain.
"Mister Taylor?" asked a voice, saving me from the sharp, painful
inevitability. Despite never being called Mister Taylor I dutifully
answered, "Yes?" I opened my eyes, it was the saliva guy.
"Can you come with us?" he asked in a way that didn't sound like a
question at all. It was then I realized that saliva guy wasn't alone,
with him was another man, holding the handle of a stretcher. "OK," I
agreed to join saliva guy and medical stretcher guy. I would have
followed Satan himself if it meant a reprieve from the needle lady.
They lifted me onto the stretcher and wheeled me out of the building. I
playfully waved to Glen who grimaced back from his position underneath
the rough hands of the head lice inspector. It was weird. I was so
relieved about the no-needle situation that I didn't even contemplate
something must be wrong with me until I was being slid into the
ambulance. "Uh fellas?" I called out as the men began to drive, "I don't
actually feel sick. What's wrong with me?"
"We're not sure. We're going to have another doctor have a look at you.
What's your parents' phone number we'll make sure they can meet us down
at the hospital." I told them nicely my mother's phone number as I read
it off my phone. It was then I received a message myself. It was from
Dot, "WHERE R U?"
"Im going 2 da hospital 4 sum reason not sure y they wont tell me!!!!"
"SUM PPL WILL DO ANYTHING TO GET OUT OF A NEEDLE"
They didn't put on the sirens and they didn't race through town, which
seemed like the perfect course of action for a patient who didn't feel
ill in the slightest. They even allowed me to walk to the doctor,
instead to wheeling on the bed, which was nice. I didn't want to offend
the real sick people by being pushed around in a bed feeling fine while
they lay motionless in their beds, actually sick. The men weren't very
talkative, so I didn't push my luck. I followed them through the stark,
barren halls of the hospital, winding through a veritable maze. It
didn't feel like cancer, or a stroke, I told myself. Sure, I was a
little unfit, but nothing that required a speedy trip to the hospital.
The deeper we descended into the bowels of the hospital, the more
worried I got. We passed the old people waiting for death or a visit
from their grandchildren, passed the mothers and their babies, passed
the eerily silent Critical Care ward and into the centre offices. I was
placed into an examination room like any other and told to wait. There
was no mobile phone reception in the hospital so I couldn't call Dot,
Glen, Holly or anyone else. So I just sat.
I thought through a list of diseases that I didn't have to calm myself
down. I was pretty sure I didn't have the Bubonic plague, Small pox,
Monkey pox, Bird flu, SARS, Malaria, Mexican death breath, the dreaded
Rusty eyeballs or Nun's armpit. I ran out of diseases after Malaria and
made up some of my own. I wasn't very good at waiting, usually I had my
Nintendo DS or iPod to play with until excitement broke out but I was
forced to wait like they did in the olden days. That way to wait was
almost unbearable, especially when you don't know what you are waiting
for.
Finally, after what seemed like hours but was probably closer to
seconds, a man walked in. He had a beard, that's the first thing you can
say about him because it was a very prominent beard. "Hello Michael," he
said in a condescending tone that meant that he had no idea how to talk
to me. "Why am I here?" I asked, avoiding pleasantries.
"Well," he said about to unveil something, "Let's just find out." The
Doctor then revealed what he was holding in his hand. It was long, and
it was pointy and I supposed he wanted to jab me with it. Fuck! I can't
escape needles today! Out of nowhere a nurse appeared and dabbed my arms
with something. "You might feel a slight discomfort," The Doctor recited
as he put a metal stick into my arm and drew blood. Slight discomfort?
No, I didn't feel any of that. Maybe the slight discomfort was hiding
underneath the blinding pain! "Ow!" I hollered.
"Oh hush!" said the nurse, unaware of the immense amount of pain I was
in. The Doctor or should I say my torturer handed the needle to the
nurse and told her that he needed the results stat. She scurried away.
I was about to question the ethics of someone locking me up (sorta) and
taking my blood without permission, when I said something a little more
realistic, "When's my mum getting here?"
"I'm sure she's not far away," the Doctor said, dealing with my question
as quickly as possible so he could get his own questions, "Michael, have
you been overseas recently? Like to Japan or the U.S.A."
"No," I admitted, "Never left the country at all."
"Have you interacted with anyone suspicious in the last couple of
months?"
"Umm... I don't think so."
"Received any strange packaging?"
"No." Where was this going? I couldn't figure it out. The questions
weren't helping me narrow down the purpose of them. He mumbled some
about staying put and left me alone again.
I looked at my phone and it told me it was almost 2 o'clock. I hoped all
this cloak and dagger stuff would be finished soon, I really wanted to
catch up with Holly in English class. She showed me a picture of the
dress she wanted. Now, not every Deb dress was sexy, in fact a lot of
girls end up looking more like decorated toilet seat covers than a
burgeoning woman, but if Holly wore the dress in the picture a lot of
people who were dragged to the event will sit up and pay attention. I
think my uncles will all be very proud of me. Hurry up, Dr. Mysterious!
I wanted to get back to school.
I waited another 45 minutes before I was escorted to, of all things, a
waiting room. At least there were other things to do in this room other
than make up fake diseases. I could read out-dated magazines or look out
of any one of three windows, or I could talk to my mum. "Michael!" she
said, with a mixture of concern and puzzlement.
"Hi," was my response and I did my duty as a son and lovingly hugged
her.
"What's wrong with you? They haven't told me anything. I've been waiting
here for ages. There better be something wrong with you, otherwise my
boss is going to be pissed." Now I'm sure my own mother wasn't wishing I
wasn't sick, but according to that sentence it sounded like she'd be mad
if I wasn't dying. "I don't know," I told my mum, "They've just taken my
blood and left me in a room all alone. It's been lousy."
"Well, I'd like some answers." I liked Mum a whole lot. My Dad I didn't
care about so much, but since I hadn't heard from him for like 11 years
that was OK. Mum worked very hard to support me and my older sister,
Nicole. She wasn't the type that took to motherhood well. She forgot
things, she wasn't much of a cook or cleaner, she was spontaneous and
didn't always think of her kids first. But she was honest and she loved
us, and that is all you need for a good childhood.
Mum worked as a waitress at a pub, so sometimes she was away at nights
and sometimes she did the lunch shift, today she must have been doing
the lunch shift. She twirled her finger through her dyed blonde hair
nervously while reading an old magazine. "Oh, that's sad," she mumbled,
"Graham Kennedy died." That was typical of my mum, catching up with news
through a waiting room magazine, Graham Kennedy died in 2005. I sat,
spoilt by the many options to entertain myself and did nothing.
"If you would like to come this way," said the bearded Doctor who had
stolen my blood. We followed him deep into the bowels of the hospital
again into an office. I looked at the name on the door, according to the
door he was Dr. Judy Zimmer and he was an OB/GYN. I think the door was
lying, I think maybe he was just borrowing the office for the afternoon.
"I'm Dr. Samuel Chisholm," he said shattering the door's lies, "Michael,
Mrs. Taylor, please take a seat." We did so.
"What is this all about, Doctor?" asked my mother. Dr. Chisholm looked
down at his papers and studied them for a moment, seemingly ignoring my
mum's question. His eyes raced over the papers, scanning for something.
"Michael," he said, looking my deep in the eyes, "Have you by chance
been eating any metals? Like tin foil or other things?"
"Certainly not," answered my Mum, "Are you insinuating that I don't feed
my kids? He may be almost 18 but I still look after my little boy." I
sat still, embarrassed of my Mum and what I was about to say, "Yeah, for
some reason I can't stop swallowing coins." The noise my mother was
making dribbled to a halt as she listening to my odd confession.
"Coins? Why, that could work." Dr. Chisholm scribbled furiously on a
piece of paper. Mum just looked at me strangely, "You eat coins?"
"I don't know why! The last couple of weeks I've just popped a 10-cent
coin in my mouth every now and again. But I haven't done it for the last
couple of days!"
"You don't know where those things have been! Especially 10-cent
pieces!" Mum spouted the usual Mum rhetoric, although I don't think
other mum's have an aversion to 10-cent pieces. I guess my Mum just
hated Lyre Birds. "You've stopped ingesting them?" asked the Doctor,
more concerned about me ceasing my awful habit than starting it.
"Yeah," I said, "I just haven't felt the urge for awhile."
"We caught you just in time!" heralded the Doctor like a madman.
OK, this day was getting a little weird. But it was only the beginning.
"I read that everyone eats spiders when they are asleep and it never
does anyone any damage. Why is my son swallowing coins cause for so much
alarm, Dr. Zimmer?" Mum asked Dr. Chisholm, reading the name off of the
plaque on the desk. My Mum never did have a head for names. "Well, it's
not the coins I'm worrying about, Mrs. Taylor. I'm worried about the
reason young Michael was eating those coins," said the Doctor leaning
forward staring at my skin. It made me feel uneasy like he was mentally
undressing me, for medical reasons! "I was just eating them cause I
guess I felt it. I sorta craved them," I said trying to disprove any
ridiculous theories the mad Doctor might have. "There was another person
who ate a lot of metal," explained the Doctor, "Do you remember a person
named Kate Draffen?"
Kate Draffen was all over the papers about a year ago. She was a simple
housewife in Sydney who had three young children and a husband. Her life
was fairly un-newsworthy, until one day when she went shopping with her
kids. Not only was it the first case of it in Australia, it was the
first time people had captured it on camera. The security camera caught
the whole thing in blurry, grainy, history-making footage. Also some
shopper had her camera-phone with her and took a picture that would stun
a nation and the world.
Everyone saw the picture. Her two children stood, terrified watching
their mother, another kid looking over his shoulder stuck in the
toddler's seat on the trolley. They all looked like they were too scared
to cry and had no one to comfort them. Kate had dropped a can of some
sort and it lay beside her body. The photo was taken mid-scream her face
contorted in fear, her arms out-stretched as if to plea to the gods for
help. A harrowing picture made all the more harrowing because, despite
the body and clothes being very feminine the screaming face was a man's.
The subsequent photos showed the body also transforming, becoming that
of a man's. The final photo is one of a new man, lying unconscious, in a
summer dress in the toiletries aisle on a supermarket floor, the
children scared.
Kate Draffen was the first and so far only Australian to go through a
Spontaneous Gender Reconfiguration. The first reports of it happening
came out of Asia. They were only reported in the tabloid newspapers and
even they didn't take it very seriously. It wasn't until it started
happening in Europe and North America that it received credible
reporting here. It would happen the same way, a person of one gender
would for no reason would, through no choice of their own, spontaneously
change into the other gender. Men would become women and women would
become men. It wouldn't happen very often though, maybe 1 or 2 a month
for the last 2 and half years.
Scientists figured out it was the work of Nanobots. Nanobots are tiny,
tiny robots that would get into your system and re-build you. It always
terrified me that I could breath in and a swarm of minuscule robots
could enter your mouth and transform you as they see fit. But I guess
real viruses act the same way, so I didn't panic as much. No one knew
who built them and why it made people change gender. Some people thought
it was the work of terrorists, others thought it was a U.S Government
secret plan gone haywire, others thought aliens were to blame. Despite
knowing about the nanobots, no country admitted to knowing how to stop
them. The technology was decades away what anyone professed to knowing.
Nothing could stop it. No one knew who it would strike or why them. It
didn't seem to matter what age, gender, race or religion you are it
could get you. I read it happened to a 3 month old boy in South Africa
and a 78 year old grandmother in Poland. There was neither rhyme nor
reason to figure out who was next. And since it had only affected about
80 or so people to date there was no international push to solve this
problem. There was more likelihood of being struck by lighting three
times and winning a Grammy Award for Best Rap album then being
transformed. It just seemed to be a sensational distraction from the War
in Iraq or Global Warming or whatever else was really important that
day. It was a freak show. Mum would always look at the pictures and
wonder out loud why the 'after' pictures were so much better looking
than their 'before' pictures. "Perhaps," she would always muse, "They
were always meant to be the other gender and this is God's way of fixing
that." I would explain that God would probably use some sort of miracle
to 'fix' them instead of sending swarms of tiny robots to do his
bidding. She would each time reply that the Lord works in mysterious
ways and go back to eating her Coco-Pops. She was never religious unless
discussing those tiny robots.
Kate Draffen was Australia's only victim of P.E. Although the real term
was Spontaneous Gender Reconfiguration, the tabloids called it P.E. A
crude term meaning either 'Penis Envy' for a woman who became a man or
'Pussy Envy' for a man who became a woman. The term seemed unfair as it
seemed nobody who went through the changes particularly wanted the
change and all said it was tremendously painful. Some people had such a
hard time adjusting that they would have severe mental problems or even
kill themselves. So calling it P.E. seemed cruel. Kate Draffen, who
called herself John Draffen after the change, was lucky, she had her
loving family to look after her. Although I read John and her husband
separated soon after.
"Yes, I remember of Kate Draffen," I replied, hoping Dr. Chisholm was
going on a completely different tangent. "You mean the mother who had
P.E?" asked my Mum. The Doctor cringed slightly at my Mum's uncouth use
of the term P.E., "Well, we found out before her 'transformation' she
ate a lot on tin foil." Hmmm.. I didn't like where this was going. I
decided to stay silent. Maybe I could stop this conversation from going
where I didn't want it to go if I kept quiet. "So what does Kate Draffen
have to do with my son eating coins?" Damn my Mum moving the
conversation forward!
"Well, we believe that before the Spontaneous Gender Reconfiguration
occurs the initial army of nanobots need to build many more robots to
aid with the change. So in order to get the materials they need, the
nanobots convince the victim to eat metal. Coins, tin foil, even spoons.
That gives the robots enough material to create an army large enough to
complete the transformation in a matter of minutes. Since you've stopped
desiring metal it probably means they have amassed enough help to carry
out the transformation. It's lucky we found you. You could have
transformed any day now."
"Are you saying Michael has P.E.?" No I don't, Mum! I certainly liked
pussies, at least I like looking at pictures of them. If I ever got
close enough to one I'm sure I'd like feeling it, smelling it and
tasting it but I would never be envious of it. I like being a guy a
whole lot. Even though I sometime neglect my manhood- I have foppish
hair, I like singing and dancing and I'm still a virgin- I still love
the gender bestowed on me.
"Yes," said the bastard Doctor, "In a matter of words, Michael has
contracted P.E. But..." Yes! There was a 'but...'! I dreamed about the
things that would come after that 'but...'
"But there is a cure, Mrs. Taylor!"
"But there is a painless cure, Mrs. Taylor!"
"But there is a painless cure, not involving any needles whatsoever,
Mrs. Taylor!" Any one of those would be good, especially the last one.
But beggars cannot be choosers.
"But..." said Dr. Chisholm, "luckily there is something we can do to
ease him into the transformation." This was not the 'good news' I was
expecting and I wore an expression on my face that said exactly that.
There was no way my picture was going to be in the paper alongside a
picture of a girl, with my Mum saying, "I guess you were meant to be a
girl." This was not my future. My future involved Holly breaking up with
her stupid boyfriend, me snapping her up and both of us becoming stars
on 'Neighbours'! Maybe that was aiming a little high, but all of my
potential futures did include me still having external genitals.
I sat in a stupor, letting Dr. Chisholm's words roll over the top of me,
wafting though my ears and echoing into my brain, "A few months ago in
Chicago they used electric pulses to set some of the nanobots off early.
Not all of them you see, just a few of them. And through a period of one
week they slowly activated more and more of the nanobots until the job
was done. The man said he hardly felt any pain."
"Was he a man at the start or did he become a man?" was the pointless
question my Mum asked. Dr. Chisholm leafed through his notes, "Ah... he
was a man, and became a woman." I spoke up,
"Are you sure there's nothing you can do to stop this? I don't want to
be a girl." I hoped my voice conveyed how much I didn't want to become a
girl. Maybe if the good Doctor realized how little I wanted a vagina he
would double his efforts to find a cure. "Whoever has done this to you
is far more technologically advanced than we are, Michael. We are only
just beginning to figure out what is happening, at the moment the best I
can offer you is a smooth transition."
"You're talking like I'm going to a new school or something! I'm not!
I'm going to grow a pussy! I don't want to be a girl!" Sure I was losing
my cool, but I don't think anyone else could have been as cool for as
long as me. I was proud of my efforts so far but now I was travelling to
crazy town.
"Michael, there are a lot of things worse than being a woman," Mum said
surprisingly sternly. I had inadvertently offended her, although I
didn't really care. There were bigger things to worry about, such as my
'smooth transition' into a nice pair of tits! "I realize that, Mum," I
said calmly, "But I'm quite happy being a guy."
"The truth of the matter is you are going to be a girl soon, like it or
not. The Nanobots have been in your system and settled in. This will
happen, Michael. Just be glad we found out because we can help. The way
I'm proposing to do it will be relatively painless and slow. You'll have
up to a week getting used to all the changes. We'll do this together."
The Doctor leaned forward, studying my face.
I mulled over his offer. I would rather do anything without pain, the
fool who said no pain, no gain was an idiot as far as I was concerned.
If I had to do it, I'd rather do it with a bit of help on my side. And
despite not knowing a thing about how to stop it, Dr. Chisholm certainly
knew a lot of ways to make it easier for me. There was no way I was
letting anyone call me Michelle though, I knew a girl called Michelle
Taylor and she was an absolute slut. There was no way I was sharing a
name with her. What were my friends going to say? Was I going to be a
lesbian? The press is going to go crazy! How big are my boobs going to
be? I'm going to be the next Kate Draffen. Oh no! I couldn't do the Deb
with Holly! I slowly reeled in my thoughts and prepared my response to
Dr. Chisholm.
"As long as you limit the needles to the absolute minium, Doc. Go
ahead." I looked at Mum for comfort and she draped her arm around me in
solidarity. She gently rubbed my back, the way only a Mum could. "Good
boy," she gently murmured, probably unaware of her use of the word
'boy'. "Good to hear, Michael," smiled Dr. Chisholm, "If you want to
follow me, we can get started."
"What? Now?"
"No time like the present!"
CHAPTER 2
I walked alongside the Doctor through the maze of identical hallways
until we reached the examination room I was in before. At least I think
it was the same room, it could have been any other room as far as I
could tell. The doctor made me strip and took all sorts of measurements.
Height, weight, hair colour, eye colour, even the length of my member,
which I informed him was incorrect due to the coldness of the room. It
was a base result, to measure my changes against.
Don't be under the misapprehension that I was looking forward to this. I
wasn't one bit. I cried like, coincidently, a little girl when I had to
say goodbye to Mum, even though it was only for an hour or so. She told
me to buck up and smile. I couldn't do either. I spent the whole
physical begging Dr. Chisholm not to do a thing to me. I told him that
my body would fight the nanobots and win. I told him to 'shut the fuck
up' when he told me that was impossible. I thought the typical teenager
thought, 'Why is life so cruel to me and only me?' and for the first
time in my life that was almost valid. I was honestly 1 in over
75,000,000. That was certainly life ganging up on me. I cried all
through the measuring. Hard.
"Now, relax Michael. I was the former Kate Draffen's doctor and I looked
after him after the transformation," said Dr. Chisholm as we walked down
the hall towards another room.
"Really? What was she like?" I asked using the pro-noun I wanted to use.
"He," he said, stressing the word, "was very fragile. He isn't as
strong as you are." I actually chuckled at that, through my sobbing,
"Yeah, because I'm a regular hero."
"No Michael, you are being very strong. We got there too late to ease
John Draffen into his new gender, we didn't even know how to back then.
But John kept working hard at it and he's a good father and healthy
human now. He can live life now. But it took a lot of work."
"When was the last time you saw Kate...I mean John?"
"This morning," said Dr. Chisholm, "I see John few time a month. Then I
got the call to come down and investigate you. So, I flew down here and
here I am. I'm glad we got to you on time."
"Me too," I shrugged.
We arrived at the room and the Doctor warned me, "There's going to be my
entire team in here, Michael. They are all here to see you, so please
answer all their questions. After that I'll begin the process, OK?" I
nodded and we entered the room.
Three people were awaiting my arrival with an almost kiddie sense of
excitement, although they hid it well under their lab coats and glasses.
But I knew they were all giddy at the chance to look at the boy with
Pussy Envy. They all shook my hand and asked me questions. They asked
about the number of coins I ingested, about my travel habits, my comfort
levels, my medical history, my personal life, pretty much everything.
All the while, Dr. Chisholm fiddled with some equipment in the corner. I
caught glimpses of the mad scientist hiding inside him a few times while
answering questions about my birth weight and study habits. "Thank you
everyone, you will have a chance to know Michael a lot better as the
weeks continue. If everyone could leave, except Anupam and you,
Michael."
Everyone did as they were told, some people left and Dr. Anupam Nagra
and I remained. I already like Dr. Nagra because he asked me the least
amount of questions. He mainly helped Dr. Chisholm fiddle with the
contraptions. "Now, what were going to do is awaken SOME of the
nanobots. Not all of them, around 10% of them," Dr. Nagra said in his
cold, somewhat peaceful voice.
"Not the ones in my penis, please," I asked, "I want to keep that as
long as possible." The Indian Doctor sighed, trying to break to me the
bad news,
"We can't do that, Michael. It's all over your body. You'll be 10% along
the way of your transformation. So, I'm sure we wont see that much of a
decrease in penis size." I gingerly looked down at my penis, even giving
10% of it up seemed like a massive sacrifice.
"While we are on the subject," chatted Dr. Chisholm stroking his beard,
"I heard you tell Dr. Fischer that you are a virgin. Is that right?"
Great, I didn't want to answer that damn question the first time, I
certainly didn't want a reprise. "Yes."
"Well now, this is only a suggestion and you don't have to follow
through if you don't want to," for the first time since I met him, Dr.
Chisholm was getting flustered, "Perhaps sometime soon before the
changes are too great you should secure a girl and enjoy some physical
activity with her."
"Huh?" I said, only to stir Dr. Chisholm up a little more.
"What Dr. Chisholm is trying to say," interrupted Dr. Nagra, "Is you
should find some one who cares for you, probably tonight or tomorrow,
and experience sexual intercourse with her before your transformation
makes that an impossibility."
"Oh, OK."
Wow! I thought I was under pressure to get laid before, now I have a 2-
day limit! I ran my mind over all the girls I know. But there was only
one girl I really wanted to ask- Holly. I would always dream that she
would be my first and now I had an excuse to ask her. She was caring and
sweet enough to let us have one special night before Michael disappears
and some girl replaces him. Depends really on how angry she will be
about losing her Deb partner. I'd love one magical night with Holly. But
it would mean cheating on her boyfriend and asking for a huge favour and
potentially ruining a friendship. It was risky, but when is sex not
risky?
Dr. Nagra handed me a small metal bar, about the size of a 30cm ruler.
It was connected to a machine that looked like it controlled the amount
of electricity. "Sorry we are taking so long but we have never tried
this procedure before."
"Never?"
"Well, since you are second person in the country to have contracted
these Nanobots and the first to be diagnosed before your transformation
you are somewhat of a special case," said Dr. Nagra. Gee, I was a
special case. Hear that? Me. I was special. I didn't hear that a lot. It
was nice to hear, even if it involved me getting a strange virus. "So,
what's going to happen?" I queried the men.
"You are about to receive a small surge of electricity, not a lot. This
will activate a small amount of the nanobots who will begin their jobs.
These little guys do everything, right down to re-coding your DNA. As
the little robots do their work we should see some very minor cosmetic
changes. You might get taller or shorter, we might see some changes in
the face, some shifting in weight. Very minor. You wont suddenly grow
breasts or anything like that." I was relieved to hear that.
"How long will it take?"
"Oh, we should see the changes within a few seconds. If you take off
your clothes we should be able to watch some of the changes," said Dr.
Chisholm. I stripped down to my briefs, just as curious about the
changes as the men of science. With my permission they turned on a
camera, so future generations could watch this historic footage.
"Hold tight," instructed Dr. Nagra, and I did so. "Ready for charge in
3, 2, 1." He must have pushed a button and a shock rushed through my
body, awakening the tiny little robots. It didn't hurt a lot, more of a
shock than getting a shock from touching a car door and less of a shock
than that time I grabbed the electric fence at my Uncle's farm. I did
say 'ouch', but mainly to get sympathy. I felt the peculiar feeling of
my skin crawling and looked at my body. The doctors were right I didn't
grow huge breasts, however my nipples both grew puffy, like little
soldiers ready at attention. I watched one of my hands slim down a
little bit and the fingers grow a little bit more slender. By the time I
had finished watching that, the tingling had finished. I was 10% more
female than when I woke this morning.
I consulted the mirror, as the Doctors consulted me. They also took
measurements. I had got shorter, a whole 2cm. I had lost a few
centimetres from my waist and had gained a few in the length of my legs.
You could see I looked different, I was more... girly, I guess. But not
a lot. Most people wouldn't be able to pick what was wrong with me I'm
sure. It would be one of those 'Have you had a haircut?' moments. No, in
fact nothing at all had happened to my hair.
However, when Dr. Chisholm talked me into losing the briefs we
discovered I had lost a fair bit of penis. I was flaccid (nothing
exciting about two old men poking me around down there) and a sizeable
chunk was missing. "But you said!" I whined.
"We only guessed. It's going to happen anyway!" Dr. Chisholm was a good
doctor with a bad bedside manner. "If it's any consolation, you're still
a lot bigger than me." OK, maybe his bedside manner isn't that bad.
Every teenager boy is happys to hear that he is well endowed, even if it
is by a man in his fifties who has a beard.
"So, if you want, you could do more than 10%?" I asked.
"Why? Would you like to go through this process faster?" asked Dr. Nagra
as he took some blood from me. I had asked the question in an attempt to
ignore the needle, "Fuck no!" I shouldn't have swore in front of the
doctors but they didn't seem to take offence, "I was just wondering."
"Well, I guess we could. I, myself, wouldn't do more than 40% at a time
otherwise you might accidentally trigger a chain reaction. I mean we
aimed for 10% today but I think it's closer to 15%. It's not an exact
science," Dr. Nagra enjoyed talking about the science behind it all, and
it seemed to calm me, "If you wanted we could knock you out and do 100%
the transformation with you unconscious but Dr. Fischer thinks it's
still too much of a shock for the mind."
"So, will any electric shock activate the Nanobots?"
"Pretty much, so unless you want an early birthday present stay away
from any power points."
"What do you think being a girl is like?"
"You're asking the wrong man," Dr. Nagra joked, "But I think you'll be
fine, Mike. Girls can wear the same clothes as guys. Do the same jobs as
guys. Aside from the bra, you'll be exactly the same."
I'm not sure if Dr. Nagra has enough tact to be dishonest so it was nice
hearing that. And he was right. In this day and age women can do
anything a man can, except perhaps write her name in the snow. All this
was, was a change in costume. I could still wear my jeans and shirts, I
could still be an actor if I wanted to. Even my back-up job of Drama
Teacher was safe. I wouldn't have to become a stripper and wear 'boob
tubes' and sundresses and bikinis. I could still be who I wanted to be.
And if Holly was willing to become a lesbian I could still keep that
dream alive.
"So, we'll see you back here tomorrow for another dose," Dr. Chisholm
told me as he escorted me towards the exit. Considering he was from
Sydney, he certainly learnt his way around our hospital fast. I still
didn't know where we were. "How many more shocks do you think it will
take?"
"Not sure, Michael. We'll give you another one tomorrow and the day
after. That will probably bring you up to 30%-50% complete. From then on
we might admit you to the hospital, just so we can keep an eye on you."
It all got very real, in 2 days I could be half female. I'm not sure
what some one who is half female looks like but probably nothing like I
do now. By next week I would be a woman. That was a scary thought. I was
not looking forward to this at all. But maybe Dr. Nagra was right, maybe
being a girl wouldn't be all that different.
"Becoming a woman will be a very different experience for you," said Dr.
Fischer, the team's psychologist. She was the only woman and was
probably in her early thirties. She was slender and tall; 'willowy' is a
good word for her. She wore a pair of frameless glasses very low on her
nose and would peer down through them to look at me. Her and my mum had
been discussing options for me. Maybe moving town to start school
somewhere else. Maybe being home schooled for the rest of the year. I'm
sure boarding school was probably on the table as well. I didn't want
any of that I needed my friends to help me. Dot, Glen, Holly and
everyone else would be good for me. I didn't want to make new friends,
even in a body that was good for making friends in.
But they didn't talk about that with me, at least not much. Dr. Fischer
or Annette as she wanted me to call her, was slowly and painfully
explaining how the female body worked. On how I would grow a vagina and
how to take care of that. She told me that I would grow breasts and
looking at my mother's they probably would be large. I looked at my
mum's tits with interest for the first time since I stopped
breastfeeding. They were big, standing proud and high on her chest. Mum
had Nicole when she was only 17, so Mum was only 35. Because of her
young age and large breasts, my friends often called my Mum a MILF, a
title I'm sure she would be proud of. Nicole also was stacked. Maybe I
would inherit my chest from Dad's side, because people often thought I
took after my Dad. I hoped the females on my Dad's side weren't as
gifted when it came to their mammaries.
I knew I was going to grow breasts, but I didn't think they would be
big. When Dr. Nagra was talking about wearing the same clothes, I
pictured myself wearing the EXACT same clothes, only with a slight bump
in the chest region. Who knows? I could end up with nothing more than a
'slight bump'. I had something to pray for tonight.
Annette was quite graphic in her descriptions. I think it was her way of
making me realize how serious this was. She used words like 'vaginal
openings' and 'ovum'. She told me that once it was finished trained
doctors would not be able to tell the difference. I stood there, glum
and amazed at the same time. I looked at my phone, I had service again
and about 10 messages to wade through. It was already 6pm! I had spent
all day in this hellish hospital. Deb practise started at 7.30 and I was
definitely going. It may be my last chance to dance with a girl and I
wasn't passing it up. After that, I'd invite my friends and tell them
all the news. After that, I would beg the precious Holly to help me
enjoy being male one last time and we would do it, in my room and hold
each other. So, suffice to say, I didn't want to be here listening to
Annette talk about birth control.
"Dr. Fischer," I butted in.
"Annette," she advised.
"...Annette. I want to tell some friends tonight what is happening. Is
that ok?"
"Well, if you want to, Michael. That's a choice you have to make
yourself. Friends and family are very important. They can help you
through many situations. But you have to understand that you are very
special. This has rarely happens to people and you are the first male in
Australia to be 'changing'. Some people will not be able to understand.
So, I think it's a good idea to tell some friends but choose your
friends wisely."
It was a silent trip in the car on the way home. Well, as silent it
could be with our old car rattling loudly, and the Beach Boys (Mum's
'happy' music) blaring through the one good speaker. Love for The Beach
Boys must be hereditary because listening to them could often cheer me
up too. Unfortunately, The Beach Boys were singing about what life would
be like "When I grow up to be a man," which only helped me sink into a
foul mood. Unlike the Beach Boys (except the one who drowned under his
house boat) I wont find out what it will be like to be a man. "Cheer up,
Mikey," attempted Mum.
"Don't start," I warned her.
"At least you're not dying," she said blowing her cigarette smoke out
the window. She didn't smoke much around us kids, only when she was
carefree or frustrated, I'd like to think she was frustrated but I
wasn't sure. "No, I'm not dying but my life is going to change
completely."
"It doesn't have to."
"You heard 'Annette', Mum. I'm getting a 'vaginal opening'."
"Don't be gross, Mikey!" She is the only person I let call me 'Mikey,' I
hated it. I never told her I hated though. I think she really enjoyed
calling me 'Mikey' it was the same thing calling Nicole 'Nicky,' a name
I know she hates.
"Look, I'm going to be here for you. Kate Draffen's mum was dead when it
happened to her, so you're lucky. And you're getting girly slower,
that's good!" I knew what she meant, but calling it 'getting girly' made
me want to vomit. "And I bet you'll even be better looking than Nic.
Since you've got your Dad's genes, you'll end up looking like your Aunt
Sharon and she was a model!" That was true, Dad's sister was a Chiko
Roll Chick in the 90's. I saw a poster of her when I was young,
straddling a motorbike, wearing a leather jacket and bikini, holding a
Chiko Roll. I was too young to take notice of how sexy she was. But I
bet she was quite sexy. Damn it!
Mum's 'consoling' continued, "Mikey, I'm here for you. I'll be there for
you every step of the way. I've had 35 years experience being a woman,
so if there is anything I can answer just ask." I was often embarrassed
by my Mum, most teenagers are. She was a bit of a dag but I guess she
meant what she said. I looked at her, smoking the cigarette as close to
the window as possible as not to infect me. "Thanks Mum."
Nicole was at her boyfriend's house for the night so it was just Mum and
me for tea. Nicole was a hairdresser, or at least learning to be one.
She had a new boyfriend, so many nights a week were spent in his house.
I gulped down tea, not bothering to savour it or even taste it. I wanted
to hurry up and go to Deb Practice. I had organized my friends to come
meet me back at the house at 9 o'clock, where I would reveal what was
going on.
"You know, everyone knows Kate Draffen's name," said my Mum between
spoonfuls of her ravioli.
"Huh?"
"I mean EVERYONE knows her name. I don't even know the state Premier's
name and I know her name."
"So?"
"Even if you are half as famous as her, a lot of people are going to be
interested in you." Mum was right. There were stories on Mrs. Draffen
for weeks after her change. They would report on everything- her family
life, how she was coping, where get bought her new man clothes. My story
might not be as interesting, but a boy slowly turning into a girl would
attract some people. Might there even be paparazzi on our front lawn?
"Mrs. Draffen never did an interview, did she Mum?"
"No, I don't think so."
"Well, if they ask me, I might do one."
"OK."
I enjoyed the walk to school for Deb Practice. I imagined there were
photographers all along the way. I would sheepishly smile and keep my
head down. I imagined having burly security guards who would ward off
any member of the press who got a little close. "I'm just trying to live
my life," I would mumble to the non-existent journalists, "You guys are
vultures!" Oddly enough, this was not my first ever game of 'invisible
paparazzi'. When the urge a struck me before I had run to my Mum's car,
hood over my head, fending off the ghostly cameras. This time however,
it felt less like pretending and more like practising.
Holly was waiting for me outside the school gym when I showed up. Well,
she might have been talking to her friends too so don't get the
impression that she was desperate to see me. In fact, I stood by her for
a few minutes before she said anything more than 'hi' to me. This
Debutante Ball meant a lot to the girls. Although there was only 4
months of actual rehearsals and preparation, most of the girls involved
had been planning this since Year 7. Jessica had even asked Tall-Jason
on the first week of high school. Getting a decent partner was half the
challenge, Holly had asked me half way through last year, when we were
rehearsing together for 'West Side Story' the school's musical that
year. She was of course, Maria (Despite having blonde hair and blue
eyes) and I was her brother Bernado (Despite looking very Angelo Saxon
too). In regional Australia there aren't a lot of people who look Puerto
Rican.
"Hello sicko!" she said after winding up her conversations with her
friends, "I heard they took you to the hospital today. You going to
die?"
"No, not quite." Man, I so didn't want to tell her.
"Tall-Jason said he heard that you fainted from getting your needle. Is
that true?"
"No," I defended my honour, "I actually got two needles at the hospital
and didn't flinch once!" OK, that may be stretching the truth wafer thin
as I flinched during both of them, but I would do anything to sound like
a man. Something that was going to be harder and harder to do as the
days went by. "Aren't you the big man?" she teased pulling me into the
hall.
Now the dance teachers had their work cut out for them. The funniest
about the Deb Ball was watching the farm boys try and dance. Boys who
would mock me every other day of the year for dancing were now trying to
unravel the waltz. There was always plenty of stomped toes and squeals
of pain from their partners. Because of them dance lessons were a little
slow moving for Holly and me. So, naturally like any fast learners we
just spent our time talking. "Man, we're kicking arse tonight!" quietly
cheered Holly as we performed a perfect waltz. I lead her around the
circle his ease, I didn't let myself think about the next couple of
days. It was time to enjoy Holly and nothing else mattered.
The song finished and I spun Holly around, adding a flourish to the end
of the dance. I guess this would be one of my last times leading the
dance so I wanted to enjoy it. We were the best dancers in the room. I
wasn't cocky, I knew we wouldn't have stood a chance with against
professional dancers but being the best in the Deb practise at Marrang
College was good enough for me. "Well done everyone," said Mr. Coleman
our school's woodcraft teacher who always doubled as the Debutante Ball
dance teacher, alongside his wife. "Remember to take your eyes off your
feet. You can't build up confidence with your head down," said Mrs
Coleman.
"Thanks Kristen. Also you need to get over this fear of boy/girl germs.
Men, you need to hold your girls tighter. Really get chest-to-chest with
each other. Holly and what's-your-name do a really good job. Maddi and
Greg aren't too bad either. How about we do a Mars Bar challenge?"
The Mars Bar Challenge was an ill-conceived idea that Mr. Coleman
believed to be genius. Each week, he would challenge two couples to go
face-to-face in a competition. The couple that won would each get a Mars
Bar. Although that seems like a fine premise, most of the Debutantes
were acting like mini-brides, starving themselves to look perfect on
their special day. So, an offer of a chocolate bar wasn't much
encouragement. However, it didn't stop the naturally competitive Holly
eyeing the aforementioned chocolate with determination. "Greg and Maddi
don't stand a chance," she whispered in my ear. I wanted to win as well,
not for the chocolate but to give Holly one last thrill before I
disappoint her, genetically.
"OK challengers!" Mr. Coleman must have dreams that he is a boxing
announcer, "Waltz positions!" He grandly whipped out two oranges, so
grand was his gesture nobody would have been surprised if he started a
magic trick right then and there. I held Holly's hand tightly assumed
the waltz position. "I will place the oranges between each couple's
bodies, the first one to let the fruit drop is the loser." He went to
place an orange between Maddi and Greg's stomachs when Mr. Coleman
realized this was the type of thing teachers shouldn't do. Instead he
handed it a red-faced Maddi, "You can to it, sweetheart." He brought us
our orange and Holly jammed it between our stomachs. The orange was just
below her bust and it felt like a third, not-as-soft breast. She pressed
up against me so hard that it was simultaneously exhilarating and
painful.
Dear old Mrs. Coleman pressed play and the cassette began whirring away.
For the 20 years the Colemans have organized the Deb Ball, the music
stayed the same, in fact I think it was the exact same cassette. The
stereo droned out the same crickety old tune it had played many times
before and the two couples danced. I was very focussed on keeping in
time, leading Holly and not letting the orange drop. My eyes closed deep
in concentration. My feet annoyingly rattled around in my shoes, smaller
than they were when I put them on this morning. All my clothes were
looser than they this morning and it was going to get worse. While my
shoes would always get looser, my T-shirts might start getting tight
again, at least in certain areas. In fact, if I concentrated hard
enough, I could feel my nipples reacting differently to all this
rubbing. It was only a tiny feeling, but I knew what it meant. I read
somewhere that some women can orgasm just by having their boobs rubbed
alone, I hope that I wasn't going to be that type of women. Hell! I
didn't want to be ANY type of woman. If ever caught the people
responsible for those penis-stealing robots I'd make them regret it.
I heard an orange drop and laughed victoriously.
But it was short lived. I felt our orange roll past my leg. "Sorry
Holly. I wasn't concentrating."
"That's OK." Mr. Coleman declared the other couple the winners and
dismissed everyone. Mrs. Coleman reminded us that the boys were being
measured for their suits next week. Everyone fell out into the warm
late-Summer air, laughing, talking and making fun of the whole thing.
"Is it OK if you come around to my house for a little while now?" I
wasn't able to summon the courage to ask her earlier, "I've got
something important to tell you." The way I said it told her she knew
this was something that needed to be said in the comfortable surrounds
of my house and not the school car park. "Let me go check with my Dad,"
she said scampering over to her Dad's car. While she talked Holly's Dad
eyed me suspiciously, almost as if he knew I was going to ask her about
having sex with her tonight. Maybe he could sense the box of condoms in
my bag that I bought on the way to practice. He gave a tiny begrudging
nod and asked Holly a question. "What time should Dad come and pick me
up?" Holly shouted from over by the car.
"My Mum will give you a lift home."
The walk back to my house was uneasily quiet. "So... this has something
to do with what happened at the Hospital, yeah?" I kicked a stone in
front of my foot, not aggressively but very moodily, "I'll tell you when
we get there. A few people are going to be there, I want to do it all at
once." She didn't ask any more questions but instead wrapped an arm
around me and gave me a little 'buck-up' squeeze. My penis twitched a
little bit but I informed it that it was a false alarm.
CHAPTER 3
Everyone was already there and waiting for me in the lounge room when
Holly and I returned. The room fell silent as I walked through and for a
second I thought my Mum had already told them. I felt like the corpse at
a funeral, everyone was paying their respects to me and they didn't even
known what, if anything, was wrong with me. I surveyed the room-
Dot had been chatting to Kev on the couch. Kevin Madsen was a year old
than me and we hung out together a lot outside of school. Kev and his
brother, Darcy (who was a year younger than me) lived around the corner
from us and we'd always go swimming at the beach together. Both Kev and
Darcy (Who everyone called 'Mads') were really good friends of mine and
were usually the first I'd turn to for advice. I think Kev had a tiny
bit of a crush on Dot but Dot thought he was far too arrogant for her.
Glen was there, talking to Mads and I gestured for Holly to sit down.
It was only then, when I was surrounded by my best friends, on the cusp
of revealing my secret did I realize I didn't have a clue how to tell
them. "Umm... hi! Thanks for coming, everyone." That was all I could
come up with. Usually Glen or Kev would have chipped in with a joke to
embarrass me but they both knew what I was about to say was serious. I
could really use a joke right about now. "I'm about to tell you
something. But I only invited my best friends because it's a bit of a
secret. So I'd really like it to be kept quiet. But you wont have to
keep it quiet for too long I'm sure everyone will know soon."
"Is it good news?" foolishly asked Mads.
"No, not really. It's pretty horrible news," I swallowed hard and
prepared to do it q