Being Barbi's Bitch
By Heathyr Diamond
After ten wasted years of foolishly trusting in love to 'cure' me of my
femininity, I had only just begun to re-embrace the sissy inside me
when something made me reach out to an old friend. What made me do it,
I really don't know. Although I was once again revelling in even the
smallest aspects of my femininity, treasuring and celebrating them in a
way that only someone who has truly missed them can appreciate, I had
made a conscious decision not to reach out to old friends.
It's not that I didn't miss them - I did miss them, and terribly - but
I was afraid that they wouldn't welcome the contact. Having been away
so long, and having left the community so abruptly, I was afraid they
would be angry with me for abandoning them.
I know I was angry with myself.
For some reason, though, something compelled me to reach out to Barbi.
Not only was she one of my oldest and dearest friends, but she was
always an erotic inspiration to me. No matter how life would bring me
down, or how unfeminine I might be feeling, she was always there as an
example of what all sissies and shemales might aspire to. She was my
shemale goddess of transformation.
As delighted as I was to discover that her Fetish Shemale site was
still around, I noticed right away that it hadn't been updated for a
while. I didn't really give the fact that much thought at the time, but
anxiously clicked on the email link, just to say hello.
To be honest, I was very much afraid that she wouldn't remember me.
Much to my delight, she not only responded that same night, but she did
remember me. We got to chatting, and she soon revealed to me that she
had taken a bit of a break from her career, for personal reasons, and
was planning to retire altogether.
That news left me heartbroken - for my goddess, for her fans, and for
my own missed opportunities. Years ago, we had made plans to get
together for some fun and maybe even a photo shoot, but something
always happened to get in the way. We never did get our chance to meet
up, and now that I had rediscovered her, I realised that chance would
never come again.
I knew, right then and there, that somehow I would make good on those
missed opportunities. If Barbi Satin was going to retire, then I was
going to find some way to ensure that she ended her career with a bang.
Literally.
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As it turned out, it was nearly six months later before I got my
chance. My ex and I had just finalized our divorce and, on a whim, I
decided to buy a scratch ticket to celebrate. Imagine my surprise when
I won! It wasn't anything life-changing, but it was more than enough
money to treat myself to a nice break, far away from the ex, the
mother-in-law, and the rest of their wretched family.
I knew, instantly, what I had to do. It scared the hell out of me, but
the very idea of it gave me such a thrill that I knew it was the right
thing to do.
Barbi and I were still chatting on a semi-regular basis, and I had an
open invitation to stop by any time I was in Pennsylvania. There were
no commitments or expectations, just an invitation from one friend to
another. Finally, after all this time, I planned to not only take her
up on the offer, but to offer her the chance to take full advantage of
the situation.
As much as I wanted to be with her, just once; as much as I desired the
touch, the taste, the feel of my shemale goddess; as much as I need to
place myself at her feet and have her validate my femininity; I was
doing this, first and foremost, for her. If it hadn't been for the fact
that she was retiring, and I wanted to say 'thanks' in the only way I
could, I never would have thought to impose.
Less than a week later, I found myself deep in the heart of
Pennsylvania. Even with the GPS I somehow managed to get lost, but I
eventually found myself parked in front of Barbi's quaint little home
just as the sun was going down.
My heart was racing. My throat was dry. My hands were shaking as I
stepped up to the door and knocked. I was actually taken aback for a
moment when she answered the door dressed like your average, ordinary
housewife - assuming, of course, that your average, ordinary housewife
came equipped with a 42 DD chest, 27 inch waist, 38 inch hips, and the
bulge of an 8 inch cock in her panties.
"Yes?" she asked.
I was trembling so hard, it took me six tries before I could get a
single word out. Instead of the practiced, rehearsed, perfect speech I
had prepared on the drive down, I dropped my jaw and uttered a single,
"Wow."
She looked at me strangely for a moment. Forewarned by her past
experiences dealing with Customs & Immigration, I'd had to be careful
about how I presented myself when crossing the border. I had fully
intended to stop somewhere on the US side to make myself properly
presentable, but I was just too excited to waste a single moment.
As a result, I was looking very androgynous in a pair of women's
sneakers (white with a few subtle pink accents), unisex shorts (black),
and a woman's t-shirt (white). Even without makeup, padding, a wig, or
jewellery to give me away, a woman would have noticed the fit of the
clothes. Fortunately, the college-aged kid who checked my passport
never looked twice.
"Heathyr?" Her eyes lit up in recognition. She reached out and crushed
me to her chest. It felt so good, after all this time. "What the hell
is your problem, girl? Why didn't you tell me you were coming?"
I smiled and returned the embrace. Her body felt incredible against me,
so perfectly shaped in absolutely every aspect. "I wanted it to be a
surprise."
"Well, it certainly is that." She stepped back, giving me another look
at her. Even though I had never seen her in anything other than leather
and latex, she looked just as stunning in a t-shirt and jeans. Her body
still had the kind of curves that any woman would die for, and her face
was still sexy as hell, even without makeup. Of course, it was that
telltale bulge between her legs that nudged her from gorgeous to
absolute perfection.
She ushered me inside, but I paused on the doorstep. If I was going to
do this, I had to do it right. I'd practiced this a hundred times on
the drive down but, unlike my greeting, this was something I couldn't
afford to blow. I had to do it, and I had to do it right, even if all
she did was laugh me off.
"Well?" she asked. "Are you coming in, or what?"
I dropped to my knees on her front porch, where any passing motorist or
nosy neighbour could see - as few, and as distant as they might be -
and leaned over to kiss the toes of her right foot. "Your humble slave
hereby presents herself for your pleasure and amusement." Up until that
point, I had been consumed by worry that she might reject me, but there
was no longer any doubt in my mind as I continued kissing her toes. "I
know you're planning to retire, Goddess, so I am offering myself, as
unworthy as I am, as your retirement present."
For the longest time, she just stared at me. What might have been
running through her head, I have no idea. All I could do was continue
worshipping her feet.
"Your sissy slave comes all expenses paid," I explained. "Whatever you
might desire this week, please consider it part of my humble gift to
you."
"You do understand what you're saying, don't you?" She shoved her foot
into my mouth and watched as I sucked her big toe like a tiny little
cock. "If you are serious about doing this, then you will be my bitch."
She began thrusting her foot in and out, fucking my mouth with her toe.
"You will obey my every command, without question, and you will do it
all knowing that the entire world will be watching." She pulled her
foot from my mouth and took another step forward. "Do you wish to be my
bitch?"
"I do." I kissed the calf to my left. "Make me your bitch." I kissed
the calf to my right. "I want to be Barbi's bitch."
She chuckled softly. "Oh, you fucking little slut... you shall."
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It was a long drive into the city, and Barbi wasn't one for idle
conversation. So, to fill the silence, she asked me questions and let
me embarrass myself with the answers. When I started telling her about
the sheriff who followed me through about 15 miles of empty roads, and
my fantasy of having to suck his cock to get out of a ticket, she
actually reached over and gave my sissy clit a squeeze.
"Don't fret," she laughed, "there's always the drive home."
That seemed to break the ice a bit. The rest of the drive was a bit
more casual, although Barbi still didn't give much away about herself.
She was very, very good and controlling a conversation to the point
where you had no idea just how well she had manipulated you until much
later. Of course, as I hoped to explore for myself soon, I knew that
conversations were not the only thing she was good at controlling.
A half hour later we found ourselves entering the city. Using my credit
card, she had already made reservations for the honeymoon suite in one
of the swankiest hotels for a hundred miles around. With her generous
offer to have me pay for the privilege, they were more than happy to
hold it for a late check-in.
"Turn here, bitch, and pull over behind that dumpster."
I had no idea where we were, but it looked sketchy. It looked like one
of those dirty, dimly lit alleys you see on a CSI or Law & Order type
show where some innocent civilian stumbles across a grossly disfigured
body. It actually scared me to be there. Hopefully, whatever she had in
mind wouldn't take long, or I was virtually certain we'd come back to
the car to find it on blocks, with no doors, no seats, no stereo, and a
body dumped in the back.
She popped the hatchback, took out my suitcase, and dumped my clothes
in the ground. With no comment other than, "Come," she led me deeper
into the alley. It was a good thing neither of us had slipped into
heels yet, as we had to carefully navigate two trash-strewn, rickety
flights of a well-used fire escape. "Let's hope they haven't changed
the locks," she told me, "or you're going to be squeezing through a
window."
As Barbi worked at it, she explained to me that the key was a quick
copy she'd made several years ago, just in case she ever had the
opportunity to use it again. One of her stripper friend of hers had
used the original to let her in after hours for a video shoot back in
the heydays of her site. I was pretty sure I knew which video she was
talking about, and I was looking forward to seeing where it was filmed.
The door opened into a noisy, dimly lit, somewhat sour-smelling slice
of heaven. There were dresses, gowns, skirts, corsets, stockings, bras,
panties, peignoirs, and babydolls everywhere you looked. Lace hung next
to leather, which hung next to PVC, which hung next to satin, which lay
draped over a mess of cotton and rubber. Barbi could have locked us in
that room for the week, and I would have been in heaven.
While I gazed around in wonder, Barbi had me hold open the empty
suitcase as she began rifling though the collection of stripper's
outfits hanging along the wall to her right. I wasn't sure what she was
looking for, but she seemed to pull out every fourth or fifth piece and
toss it my way.
As much as in awe of the potential for beauty around me, I was
extremely uncomfortable with the idea of stealing, especially from our
sisters in sex. As much as I tried to hide it - I had, after all,
promised to obey my Goddess' every command - she must have noticed my
hesitation. I was nervously glancing back over my shoulder, in case
somebody should come in the same way we did, when I felt her slap me
across the face.
Startled, I turned around to see the loosely-held red velvet glove make
a return slap across my other cheek. It smelled like cum and, judging
by the wet smack, it was likely still fresh.
"Stop being such a stupid bitch," she snarled, "These are the
stripper's castoffs - they won't be needed again tonight." She tossed
the glove into the suitcase, along with its partner. "And since club is
closed on Tuesdays, you will have two whole days to send them down to
the hotel laundry to be cleaned once we're done with them."
Perversely, that really did make me feel better. I knew I should have
been humiliated by the idea of asking the hotel to wash so much dirty,
kinky laundry for me - especially since she'd booked us in under the
male name on my credit card - but I was actually looking forward to it.
"Okay, that's it for here." Barbi had me zip up the suitcase before we
hurried back down to the car. "Now, I need you to watch out for an ATM
so we can withdraw a few cash advances off of your MasterCard." She
watched me for a reaction, but I was already fully committed to the
expense of being her present. "Trust me," she whispered, "you really
don't want a paper trail leading back to your male masquerade from some
of the people we'll be doing business with his week."
I swallowed loudly. "Thank you."
"After that, we need to make two more quick stops, and then you can
start earning your place as my bitch."
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Once we arrived at the hotel, Barbi handed me her bag of purchases from
the drug store and herded me into a bathroom that was larger than my
bedroom back home. "Start with the enema first. Once you're clean, get
your ass in the shower and shave."
"Yes, Goddess." I was trembling in anticipation. "Do you want me to
shave my sissy clit as well?"
She shook her head. With a mischievous smile, she told me, "Listen, you
silly cunt, when I tell you to shave, I intend for you to shave." She
backed me into the bathroom until I nearly fell into the two-person
tub. "If you come out of there with so much as a single hair anywhere
below the top of your head, I will be very disappointed."
I nodded meekly, even as I fingered my eyebrows. How the hell would I
explain them at work next week? I had no problem shaving the rest of me
- I'd done it enough times before, but the eyebrows scared me. At the
same time, I was excited by the thought of just how much properly
penciled-in eyebrows would transform me.
"While you're getting yourself ready, I need to make some long-distance
calls." She pulled the door shut on her way out.
I immediately stripped naked. I ripped open the box and began fumbling
with the enema kit. I'd never used one before but, like any good
submissive slut, I knew how to follow directions. The kit came with a
small bottle of lube, so I applied a generous amount to both my ass and
the end of the plastic tubing. I filled the bag with warm water from
the tap, added the 'cleansing' ingredient, and managed to hang
everything from the showerhead using a wire dry-cleaning hanger behind
the bathroom door.
If inserting the nozzle was uncomfortable, starting the enema itself
was absolute misery. It took every ounce of my sissy submission to keep
the solution inside myself for the prescribed twenty minutes. Of
course, having to lie on my side in the cold tub probably didn't make
it any easier.
While I laid there, I could hear Barbi talking on the phone, although I
couldn't make out what she was saying or who she was talking to. The
door to our suite opened and closed a half dozen times, but I too
distracted to notice whether it was Barbi coming and going, or somebody
else.
When it was time to release, I hobbled over the toilet and silently
sang out with relief as it all came pouring out. Too squeamish to look,
I blindly flushed the toilet, and then hopped into the tub.
Barbi had bought me a bottle of lavender scented shaving cream and a
twelve-pack of women's razors. I was determine to make the absolute
best impression that I could, so I used one razor on each leg, another
on my arms and chest, one on my eyebrows, and another on my pubes. The
experience was actually very relaxing, and certainly helped to put me
in a feminine frame of mind. By the time I was ready to shower away the
residue, I could feel my fingers skimming and slipping across my soapy,
naked, hairless body.
When I exited the bathroom, she was sitting on the edge of the bed,
dressed in the black PVC minidress, full-length gloves, and knee-high
boots I remembered so well from her photos. I could see the band of her
black silk stockings protruding from the tops of her boots, along with
the black lace ribbons running up her glorious legs to the garter
hidden beneath her dress. The dress itself was cut very low, putting
her incredible breasts on display.
My outfit, it turned out, was to be the precise opposite of hers. Where
she wore black, I wore white. Where she wore PVC, I wore satin. Where
she wore lace, I wore cotton. Where she wore a tight dress and little
more, I was bound into a corset beneath mine. Where her breasts and
cock featured prominently beneath her body-hugging outfit, mine were
flattened and hidden beneath my own ensemble.
By the time I was done dressing to her satisfaction, I looked like an
incredibly slutty angel just fallen from heaven, cast out for only god
knows what kind of sins against nature.
Barbi sat me down before the dressing table and began doing my makeup.
I, of course, couldn't see what she was doing, but it felt like she was
using a lot. Eyeliner, eye shadow, foundation, blush, lipstick, lip
liner, powder, and a few other cosmetics I couldn't see well enough to
identify were expertly painted across my eager visage. Before she would
let me see, however, she placed a long, blonde wig on my head and used
what smelt like glue to hold it in place.
She stepped back to take in the whole picture, but shook her head.
"Something's not quite right." I wanted to look for myself but, even
without being told, I knew better than to ruin her moment.
Suddenly, her entire face lit up with a smile. She opened the top
drawer of the dressing table and withdrew some pink lace ribbons. She
then proceeded to put my hair into pigtails, using the ribbons to tie
off each tail. With that done, she paced a pink bow into my hair.
"Nope. Too much." She quickly took the ribbon away and tossed it back
in the drawer. "Close your eyes."
I immediately did as I was told. I felt Barbi pull me to my feet and
lead me into the room's walk-in closet. That, in itself, was a sissy's
dream.
"You may open your eyes."
What I saw in the mirror was so startling, so unexpected, I had to look
back over my shoulder three times to convince myself it really was a
mirror, and that there was nobody else standing with us. The innocent,
white, virginal slut in the mirror was... me. She - or, rather, I - was
absolutely stunning. I couldn't pick out a single thing that did it,
but Barbi had truly created something new with me. That single glimpse
in the mirror was so amazing, the memory of that transformation would
be worth whatever this whole adventure ended up costing me.
"Thank you, Goddess." I twirled in front the mirror and posed like a
girl getting ready for her prom. "I never knew I could look like this."
"There's still something missing. Hold still." I heard her rummaging
around in another drawer, and then watched her return in the mirror.
She was the very epitome of shemale lust, a walking, talking, breathing
example of the kind of perfection that was only possible with a little
nudge to our natures.
"Bend over, bitch."
While bent over, I watched her draw a big pink heart on the small of my
back with a glitter pen. She coloured in the heart, and then switched
to a black Sharpie marker. With that, she wrote 'sissy slut' in very
elegant, feminine lettering inside the heart.
"There. That's better." Barbi led me back into the main room of our
suite, where she helped me into a pair of impossibly high heels. As
white as the rest of my outfit, they were dull, brushed leather,
designed to blend with my overall look. The heels on them were four
inch stilettos - far more daring than anything I'd ever tried on
before.
"Get walking," she told me. "You have precisely ten minutes to practice
before I send you on a little errand."
Errand? I froze in mid-step. She as going to send me out like this?
She laughed cruelly. "You're wasting valuable time, my slut." She made
a show of checking the clock on the bedside table. "You now have nine
minutes left to practice."
I don't know whether it was the pressure that did it, or whether I was
just a natural, but I was walking quite confidently - if not
comfortably - by the end of the ten minutes. I still felt like I was
going to topple at any moment, but I did like the way the heels forced
me to take smaller, mincing steps, wiggling my ass in the process.
'Very good." She handed me my credit card. "Now, take yourself down to
the bar and ask for a bottle of their finest red wine, and another of
their finest white. They'll probably offer to charge it to your room,
but I want you to use the credit card."
I started to protest, but she grabbed my cheeks and forced my mouth
shut.
"I want you to use your credit card," she whispered, "and sign the name
of your male masquerade. Understand?"
With a quick nod, I grabbed the credit card and wobbled out the door.
Much to my delight, I was so completely passable as Heathyr, the
bartender refused to accept my card. When he handed it back, he let his
hand gently slide along mine, sending an electric thrill up my arm. He
chatted me up and flirted with me while his partner retrieved the
bottles, telling me it was a shame my 'boyfriend' was too much of a
jerk to come down himself. He then took my hand once more and kissed it
before I left.
On impulse, before my senses could get the better of me, I leaned
across the bar and planted a quick kiss on his lips before sauntering
back to our room.
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Barbi, of course, expected no less - although she was a little shocked
that I'd had the nerve to steal that kiss. "Here I thought you'd need a
little booze to relax you, but apparently releasing your inner sissy
slut did that all on its own."
I was just about to say something completely inane when somebody else
stepped in from the lounge portion of the suite. He was a scrawny
looking boy, all sharp angles and protruding bones, with short black
hair and a small patch of stubble on his chin. His mouth was set in
what looked to be a perpetual scowl, judging by the frown lines on
either side, and he didn't seem the least bit interested to be there.
Before Barbi could introduce us, he came over and held up a series of
plastic cards against first my face, then my dress. "Let's clear up the
situation right now," he said in a scratchy voice. "My name is Alan.
I'm an FTM transsexual lesbian, and I'm only here because Barbi pays
well for my services." He grabbed my face and turned it to the left,
and then to the right, looking for my best side. "I have no interest in
you, in her, or in whatever it is you're planning to do together."
"Oh, lighten up, Al." Barbi laid herself down on the couch and lit up a
cigarette.
He ignored her completely. "While I'm sure Barbi won't be able to
resist offering her suggestions, I am the photographer, and this is my
shoot. You will do as I say, and nothing else." He spun me around,
measured my frame with his hands, and then pushed me away. "Got it?"
"Yes, sir."
The photographer almost smiled. "You're off to a good start."
While Alan set up, Barbi instructed me to pour the wine - red for the
two of them, white for myself. There were more lights, screens,
flashes, and mirrors involved than I had ever imagined. Our room
certainly looked like a professional photographer's studio by the time
he was done. I imagined it must have cost a pretty penny for all that
equipment, not to mention his time, but I found I didn't mind one bit.
For the next hour, they made me pose for a series of photos. Alan moved
me around the room, put me into awkward positions, chastised me for
being too rigid, and ridiculed me for being so loose. He made me hold
poses for what seemed an eternity as he captured my sissy curves from
every angle, or adjusted the lighting to be just right. The whole time,
he kept reminding me to keep my eyes wide and innocent, even as the
rest of me screamed the news of my sexual awakening.
Modelling was far more work than I ever guessed, only increasing my
already immense respect for my Goddess. She'd been doing shoots like
this for over fifteen years, and in far less forgiving surroundings
than we found ourselves in.
At the end of the hour, Barbi got up off the couch and disappeared into
the walk-in closet for a moment. When she came back out, she had a
black bullwhip in her hands and a pair of handcuffs. She approached the
bed with slow, deliberate, oh-so-sexy steps, her shapely legs almost
hypnotizing me with their gait.
"Beg for it, bitch."
Although self-conscious, at first, I soon got forgot about Alan and got
right into proper sissy begging. "Please, Goddess, use your sissy. Tie
me up, whip me, make me service your every desire." She continued to
stand beside the bed. "I need you, Goddess. I need to be your bitch. I
need to serve you, to love you, to lick and suck and caress every in of
your perfect form."
"How would you serve me?"
"Any way you please, Goddess. My mouth is yours to fuck. My throat is
yours to fuck. My sissy belly lives only to consume your magnificent
cum."
She handcuffed my right hand to the bed.
"My sissy cunt is yours to fuck. My anal virginity is yours to claim. I
have cleaned myself for you Goddess, so that you can shove that
magnificent cock deep inside me and fuck me raw, fuck me into oblivion,
fuck me until you've shot your cum so deep inside me, it will never
come out."
She handcuffed my left hand to the bed. The whole time, our
photographer kept snapping away.
As Barbi hovered over me, I stared right into the valley between her
breasts. The spiderwebbed heart tattoo on her left breast was larger
than life, almost demanding that I lick it off. "Oh, please, Goddess,
use me for your pleasure. I am nothing but a useless sex toy, an
elaborate doll with which to fulfill your desires before tossing me
away like another piece of worthless trash."
She began caressing me with the whip. "Would you let me hurt you?"
I hesitated, but only briefly. I loved bondage, but was terrified of
pain. I was a sissy in every sense of the word, but I was fully
committed to this. "Yes, Goddess." I swallowed my fear and let the
sincerity shine through my eyes. "If it pleases you, Goddess, I will
take the pain you offer and accept is as the utmost pleasure, because
it came from you."
SNAP! The bullwhip extended halfway across the room with one flick of
her wrist. It sounded painful, and all it had bitten was air. Barbi
began gently slapping it across my body in a big 'X', coming in from
the left, and then the right, and then the left again. Each kiss of the
whip was a little harder, until I was flinching as much from the
expectation of pain as the pain itself.
Alan came closer and zoomed in on the pink welts appearing across my
skin. I could tell that was turning him on.
Just then, there was a knock at the door.
"Hmm, a little early." Barbi quickly flipped the whip around and shoved
the handle in my mouth. "Suck it," she commanded, "while I see to the
door."
Unable to grasp the whip with my hands, which were still handcuffed to
the bed, I sucked the handle of the whip, tasting her sweat in the
well-used leather.
"Is this the bitch?"
I opened my eyes to find a huge, hulking, tattooed biker standing next
to the bed. He was easily six-foot-two, nearly three hundred pounds,
and looked like he could pick me up with one hand. At first glance, he
looked dirty, like somebody who would have been hanging around the
alley where we 'borrowed' the stripper's outfits, but a closer look
proved it was part of a carefully crafted image.
Beneath it all, he was actually extremely clean and very-well groomed.
Barbi climbed up onto the bed, crossed her legs, and settled down
between my legs. "I need you to prove yourself to me, Heathyr." She
reached up and began stroking my cock beneath the layers of white. "I
have a bit of a fetish for pierced nipples, and I want to be the first
to enjoy yours."
My eyes must have betrayed my terror, because she quickly set to work
calming me down. "It's not as bad as you think," she promised. My limp
sissy cock slipped free of its cotton panty prison and began growing in
her hand. "Between the wine, the cream, the ice, and the... distraction
-" she gave my cock a few hard strokes to emphasize, "- you'll barely
feel a thing." With my cock still in her hand, she leaned forward and
kissed me. It was a long, deep, hard kiss, full of love bites and lots
of tongue. "You did say you were my present," she reminded me, "and
this is what I want."
What could I say to that? "Please pierce me, Goddess." Much to my
surprise, I found that I meant it. "Put your mark on your bitch's
breasts and make them yours." The very idea of it had me harder than I
had ever been in my life. "I want to be your fetish."
"Can we begin, already?" The biker was standing beside the bed with
some frightening looking instruments in his hand.
"I'll be in the lounge. I don't need to see this." Alan walked away and
closed the adjoining door behind him.
"Are we ready, Heathyr?"
I nodded, too afraid to speak.
Now sitting on the far side of the bed, opposite our guest, Barbi
continued slowly stroking my cock, holding off every time she felt my
balls begin to swell, as the biker set to work. At first, I couldn't
help but watch as removed my top, washed my shaved chest with
disinfectant, and then began squeezing and pinching my nipples to make
them hard.
"Drink up, Heathyr, and watch only me." As the white wine filled my
mouth, I stared up into Barbi's eyes and found something there I had
never expected. It was party sympathy, part gratitude, and part...
well, not quite love, but affection. It told me how much she
appreciated this, and that was probably the most potent pain-killer of
all.
"Nggghhhh!" I nearly choked on the wine as the first piercing shot
through my nipple. "Aaaahhhaaiiee!" Sweat broke out over every inch of
my body as the second piercing stabbed through.
Barbi stopped stroking my cock. She leaned over, kissed the sweat from
my forehead, and smiled. "Absolutely beautiful - thank you."
I looked down and found a small gold hoop through each nipple. Careful
not to move them too much, Barbi lifted then to show me the tiny pink
heart decorating each ring.
"Magnificent work, as always, Carl." Barbi rolled off the bed and
walked around to the biker's side. "Will the usual do?"
He laughed. It was a deep manly laugh, the kind that struck terror into
a sissy's heart, even as it set that heart to fluttering. "You know it,
babe."
With that, Barbi dropped to her knees, unzipped his jeans, and took his
cock into her mouth. It was already hard - I could tell he enjoyed his
work - and it took her less than a minute to get make him cum in her
mouth. Entranced, I watched every moment of it, wishing that I was down
there with her, paying my fair share. When he came, I saw her cheeks
bulge with the volume of sperm, and drooled over the thin, white trails
running down either side of her mouth.
When she turned to the bed, I saw the glint in her eyes and hoped
desperately that she was going to do it. She sauntered over to the bed,
visibly swishing and gargling the cum inside her mouth. She leaned over
me, pulled her hair back, and let a long string of white begin to
stretch from between her dark red lips to mine. I could smell it,
almost taste it, and opened my mouth wide to accept it.
To my dismay, she slurped the string of sperm back into her mouth and
swallowed it all with a lip-smacking grin of contentment. "Sorry to get
your hopes up, bitch, but the only cum you're tasting tonight is your
own." She wiped the stray cum from her chin and licked the finger
clean. "And mine, of course, should you prove yourself to be worthy of
the honour."
???????
Between the pain, the wine, and the stress of it all, I must have dozed
off for a while. Next thing I knew, I was standing in the shower with a
naked Barbi standing before me. She was gently washing my nipples under
the hot spray. It still hurt - a lot - but it was the kind of pain you
could almost get used to. Then, of course, you moved and it exploded
fresh and fiery inside your chest.
After the shower, we dried each other off, and she applied more cream
to my nipples. It helped to numb the pain a bit, although it made me
want to keep touching them to confirm they were still there. Barbi
batted my hands away twice before I managed to control myself, warning
me that I'd get an infection if I didn't leave them alone.
By this point, Alan had returned and was taking photos again. He
circled around us, shooting up and down, close-up and from afar, as we
dressed. Barbi slipped back into the black PVC dominatrix outfit that
was her trademark, while she dolled me up as a slutty Catholic school
girl. The blouse was too small. It showed off the tender, swollen
mounds of my pierced sissy breasts, and revealed a good inch of naked
belly at the bottom. The skirt was too tight and too short, revealing a
glimpse of my bulging panties to any who cared to look.
Barbi pulled fishnet stockings up my legs, intentionally tearing them
in spots as she did so. The only thing she allowed to be perfect was
the seam running up the back of each leg. My shoes were small little
black numbers, scuffed and worn, with six-inch heels that made it hard
for me to stand.
As for my makeup, it felt slathered on, far more heavy and bold than my
earlier look. Whereas she had sent a virginal shemale slut down to the
wine earlier, it was a whorish sissy slut she'd be calling up for
whatever she had in mind now.
This photo shoot was much like the first - another hour of dancing and
prancing around to Alan's rapid commands, stretching and contorting my
body into positions never before imagined. Barbi sat on the couch,
enjoying her wine and cigarettes, speaking up only to ensure that Alan
emphasized my flat chest and swollen cock with the photos.
I was still somewhat weak from the pain (no doubt buzzed from the
wine), but I loved every moment of it. For some reason, the brazenness
of my outfit turned me on far more than the perfection of my earlier
look, making me want to fall to me knees and cry out for Barbi to use
me. By the time we were done, I was so horny that pre-cum was literally
running down my stockings.
The photo shoot ended with me lying on the floor, looking up at Barbi's
black panty-clad cock, while I sucked her heel and licked the sole of
her boot. "So, what do you think," she asked me. "Is my slut ready to
become my bitch?"
I knew better than to stop sucking, so I just nodded frantically.
Barbi pulled her heel from my mouth, stepped across the room, and laid
herself down on the bed. "If you don't mind, Al, I'd like you to stay
for this. I know you have your limits as to what you'll photograph, but
if Heathyr's deflowering is to be my retirement present, then I'd
really like a record of it to enjoy."
Much to my surprise - and Barbi's, judging by the look on her face -
Alan actually smiled. "I'd like to see where this goes. You've always
been a great client," he told Barbi, "and I've grown rather fond of
your little sissy here." Alan came over and nuzzled my cheek with his
stubbly chin. "If you ever decide to get rid of that piece of meat
between your legs and become a real woman, look me up."
With that, he turned away and began not only setting up his
photographic equipment, but checking and adjusting Barbi's video
recording equipment as well. I'd completely forgotten about the video
camera until that moment. Were we live? Was I being used and abused for
the titillation of an invisible audience? I was surprised to find that
the idea really didn't bother me. In fact, it turned me on. As shy as I
normally was, Barbi's bitch apparently was a brazen little slut.
Barbi ordered me to pour drinks for Alan and herself, although the
photographer had barely touched his last glass. With wine glass in
hand, Barbi stretched out on the bed and commanded, "Lick me, slut,
from head to toe and back again." She pointed a gloved finger my way.
"Allow your sissy tongue to so much as touch my breasts or my cock, and
I'll throw you out on the street, dressed as you are, and this will all
be over."
The street wasn't so much a threat, but the idea of having come so far
only to fail was devastating. Not that I needed a threat to obey my
Goddess, but a little extra motivation never hurt anybody.
I started with her left foot, the one I'd been sucking on the floor.
Carefully lifting it in my hands, I sucked her heel deep into my mouth,
then bathed the sole of her boot in kisses before licking those kisses
away. Next, I licked my way up one side of her boot, bringing my face
so close to the temple of her sex that I could smell it, and down the
other. I then licked my way up the front of the boot, tracing the
criss-crossed laces with my tongue.
With the taste of well-oiled leather still in my mouth, I let my tongue
travel up the strap of her garter, and then lovingly licked and kissed
the scant few inches of naked flesh between the top of her stocking and
the hem of her dress. Performing my act of oral worship on her dress
proved to be the most difficult step of the process. I crossed back and
forth across the front of it, leaving stripes of sissy saliva behind,
until I reached the top edge of her wide, black, PVC belt.
I literally had to force myself to stop, because I was so naturally
drawn to the magnificence of her breasts. I wanted to bathe them in
kisses, plunge my tongue into the deep valley between her mounds, and
suck on her giant brown nipples until I could no longer breathe.
Instead, I turned my head aside and licked my way up the side of her
dress, making sure to stay well below the swell of her breasts. Once I
reached her shoulder, I took her arm in my hands and kissed my way
across the naked flesh of her upper arm, and then across the leather of
her gloves. She allowed me to take each finger into my mouth, one by
one, and suck them like five little cocks. I then kissed my way back up
to her shoulder.
There, I paused, not sure what to do next. Barbi solved that dilemma
for me. "Kiss me, bitch, and let me taste that tongue."
We kissed for a good twenty minutes, sucking each other's tongues,
biting each other's lips, and generally just mashing our faces
together. She tasted of wine, cum, and cigarettes, but it was the sweet
taste of ambrosia to me. When she finally broke off the kiss, I kissed
the rest of her face, careful not to disturb her makeup, and buried my
face in the overflowing blonde tresses atop her head.
Naturally, I then kissed and licked and sucked my way back down the
other side of her body, doing everything I had the first time, but in
reverse.
"Oh, fuck the cock thing." Alan was laying on the bed beside me, taking
close-ups of my face against Barbi's flesh. "Keep it in your skirt, and
you can lick me any day."
Barbi just laughed. "Nice sentiment, but she's my sissy slut." She
turned her attention to me. "You've show remarkable passion and
patience." She downed the rest of her wine and handed me the glass.
"Bring me a glass of white this time."
When I returned with the glass, she snatched it from my hand, then
grabbed me and pulled me onto the bed. "Put your head between my
breasts and get ready to clean me with that talented tongue of yours."
The moment I laid my head between her breasts, Barbi began pouring
white wine down the cleft between her mounds. I lapped it up as quickly
as it fell, tasting the distinctive tang of her sweat mixed with the
sweetness of the wine. Even when she stopped, I kept kissing and
licking, luxuriating in the sensual overload. Next, she freed one
breast from her top and began pouring wine over it. The moment my lips
touched her nipples, and began suckling wine from her tits, I felt a
tiny spurt of sissy cum flood my panties.
It was that intense.
We continued that like that until long after the glass was empty, with
me searching out every inch of flesh to make sure that I had properly
worshiped it with my mouth.
"Another glass, slut." She physically threw me from the bed. "This
time, make it red, and make sure the glass is full to the very top." As
I began hobbling over the bar, she added, "Oh, and I'm sure I don't
need to tell you not to spill a drop."
Despite her reminder, I very nearly lost the entire glass when I turned
around. She had freed her magnificent cock from its panty prison, and
was slowly stroking it with her hand.
Unable to concentrate on what I was doing, I nearly tripped three times
in my heels, but somehow made it back to the bed with a full glass of
wine. She gently pressed the top of my head as I handed her the glass.
"Down," was all she had to say.
I scrambled down the bed faster than I had moved all night and pressed
my mouth against her hairless balls. Looking up at her from there,
seeing her beautiful face framed by those incredible breasts, with her
hard cock diving the vision in two, I knew what pure and absolute
surrender was. I had said it before, and meant it at the time, but now
I knew that I was not becoming Barbi's bitch... I already was her
bitch.
I watched, spellbound, as she brought the glass of red wine into my
line of sight. The moment the first drop of crimson hit her cock, I
darted forward and kissed it off. "Hmm, I liked that," Barbi moaned. We
repeated the drop-kiss again, before she told me, "Back off for a
moment and let the wine flow."
It seemed like an eternity of waiting, but she stopped with half a
glass remaining and commanded me to lick her cock clean. She didn't
need to tell me twice. I started at the base of her cock, licking and
sucking at the tight, smooth flesh. Next, I licked my way up her shaft
- and, with eight erect inches, that was a lot of licking - loving
every minute of it. When I reached the top, I pressed my lips against
her soft, spongy head and sucked as hard as I could. Still sucking, I
forced my head down, taking inch after inch of Barbi's cock into mouth.
I was nothing like I had ever imagined. It was so much better. Just the
feel of that hard cock filling my mouth, with the texture of the flesh
that was hers and hers alone was absolute heaven. It was my first real
cock - experimenting with the semi-flaccid clits of a few sissy friends
certainly didn't count - and I knew in that moment it would not be my
last.
My mouth made love to her cock long after the wine was gone, taking it
deep, and worshiping it all. When Barbi pulled my face away, I almost
wanted to cry at having being so cruelly denied. This time, as she
poured the rest of the wine over her cock, she told me, "Get ready,
bitch, because this time you're going to earn it."
Once again, I clamped my mouth around her cock the moment the wine
stopped flowing. This time, though, she threw the glass away, grabbed
my face in her hands, and thrust her cock into my mouth. I gagged and
wretched as her cockhead slipped into my throat, but she held me there
until I was able to relax and adjust. After that, she fucked my face
hard and fast, crushing my nose against her groin, and nearly bruising
my chin with the bouncing of her balls.
I reached up to play with her balls, but she slapped my hands away.
"You are not to touch until told."
Properly chastised, I dropped my hands to my side and just let her use
me. My face was her fuck-toy, and I existed only to ensure that the
seal was tight, the throat was deep, and the tongue never stopped
caressing that incredible shaft of flesh.
She suddenly let go of my head. "Quickly. Open your mouth."
I did as I was told, and was rewarded with a jet of hot cum. She
spurted so hard, so strong, that I felt a stinging sensation against
the top of my mouth. It was the most glorious thing I had ever tasted,
so completely different from my own cum. I was sweet and nutty, with a
bitter edge that was softened by another taste I couldn't place.
Barbi hand a tight grip on her cock, squeezing the head with her gloved
fingers. I could see her physically shaking as she aimed that
magnificent monster, then let go her fingers and branded my face with a
line of cum from my left eye to the right side of my chin. She squeezed
and aimed again, then completed the sloppy 'X' with a stream of shemale
semen stretching from the left side of my chin to my right eye.
Her control was incredible!
After the 'X' was done, she pulled back, leaving a good foot of space
between us, and released her cockhead for the last time. The spurt
wasn't quite as strong as the first one, but it still managed to cross
the distance and land against the back of my tongue. With that, she
shoved the cockhead just inside my mouth and let me nurse the rest of
the seed from her slit. At that moment, I never wanted to eat or drink
anything else for the rest of my life, because I knew even the finest
wines and pastries could never possibly compare to the hot, white,
nourishment still slowly tricking down my throat.
The taste was like nothing I had ever experienced before. I was
instantly addicted, and all I wanted was more.
"Good job, my sweet little bitch." Barbi pulled me up from her cock,
even as she sat up before me. Smelling strongly of sweat and perfume,
she slurped the cummy 'X' from my face and then kissed me hard. We
swapped her cum back and forth in a series of passionate kisses, until
there was finally nothing left but our saliva.
"I need a quick break," she told Alan, "but I'd like you to take
Heathyr out onto the balcony for some slutty, just got face-fucked,
photos with the city lights in the background."
We were only outside for a few minutes, but long enough to enjoy the
catcalls and jeers of the men on the rooftop patio across the street.
Feeling bold and daring, I actually leaned over the railing at one
point and flashed them a pierced nipple. Alan laughed like it was the
funniest thing in the world, then pulled me back inside when it was
time to swap out camera batteries.
Back inside I found Barbi waiting for me, her cock dangling semi-hard
between her legs. "Take this," she handed me a small plastic tube, "and
work it into your ass while you suck my cock." This was it. This was
the moment I was waiting for. I was terrified, but I was also extremely
aroused. I was more than a little drunk too, but as much as it helped
with the pain of my newly pierced breasts, I didn't think it had any
impact on my desire... my need to please her.
Barbi guided me over to the bed and had me lay down on my back. She
pressed the head of her cock against my ass and told me to beg for it.
"Please fuck your sissy bitch, Goddess. I want to feel you inside of
me. I need to have your cock fill me." I thrust my ass up and wiggled
it against your cock. "I am your bitch, and my ass is yours. I beg of
you, Goddess, destroy me with your tool and claim my worthless gift for
yourself."
It sounded corny, but it was also sincere.
"That's too bad." She pulled her cock away from my ass, leaving a cold
void where her hot, swollen, cockhead had been just a moment before.
"You don't sound convincing. You must not want it badly enough."
Before I could utter a single cry of sissy protest, she rammed her cock
into my ass. I cried out from the pain. If I hadn't already be
desensitized by the piercing of my nipples, the pain of her cock so
brutally piercing my ass would surely had rendered me unconscious.
At the same time, beneath the pain was a feeling of fullness. Knowing
what I had just taken inside me, seeing the look of blissful triumph on
her face, and knowing that my sissy ass had put it there, was just
heavenly.
With half her cock buried in my ass, Barbi began fucking me with short,
slow, shallow strokes. She was holding my legs in her hands, forcing me
wide, even as she leaned into me. I could feel every movement inside
me, but the pain was already giving way to a strange kind of numbness.
Regardless, with the shock of the moment passed, I remember why I was
there and began pleasuring my Goddess.
I moaned like a bitch in heat and forced myself to press back against
her cock. In response, she began to make her strokes longer and faster,
almost withdrawing her head from my hole. Despite the pain, I knew I
couldn't let her leave, so I pushed back again and squeezed my asshole
around the shaft.
"Very good, my bitch. You're learning."
By that point, the numbness had given way to a warm tingling sensation.
I was starting to enjoy not just the idea of what we were doing, but
the act itself.
"Please, Barbi, give it all to me. Drive that hard cock as deep into my
ass as you can and fuck me until I can't walk." I was wiggling and
squeezing and pressing my ass against her in time with her strokes.
"Take me, Goddess, break me, make me the best fuck toy you've ever
had."
Without breaking away, she used my legs to flip me over onto my
stomach. She pulled my ass into the air, pushed away my attempt to
support myself with my arms, and forced my face into the sweaty, wine-
and-cum stained sheets.
Only then did she begin to properly plough her sissy bitch. Even though
I'd already taken half of her cock, taking the rest was ten times more
painful, and a hundred times more rewarding. Her shemale tool was
deeper inside my body than anything had ever been before, and I was
loving it. The longer she fucked me, the more I wanted.
The room was filled with the smells and sounds of sex. I was moaning
like a good sissy, while Barbi was hissing and groaning against me.
Alan was still circling us with his camera, and even he looked a bit
flushed.
After a while, Barbi pulled me back so that I was actually standing on
the floor, but still had my head pressed into the mattress. That gave
her a whole new angle to fuck, and I could feel how much we were both
enjoying it. The pain and the fear were gone, leaving only pure,
unadulterated pleasure. I never knew having anything in my ass could
feel good, much less this good, and I never wanted her to stop.
A few minutes later, I was completely amazed myself by cumming all over
the bed. My cock was hard, but dangling and bobbing in the air above
the mattress. Nothing had touched it, but it was coming harder, and
feeling more indescribably pleasurable, than any orgasm I'd had before.
"Oh, yes." Barbi grabbed my hips and began fucking me even harder.
"That's my sissy, that's my bitch." She was riding me hard, and using
every ounce of leverage to get deeper inside me. "I can count the
number of sluts on one hand who have managed a successful sissy cunt
orgasm." My goddess leaned over and nibbled at my ear. "Barbi's proud
of her little bitch."
She pulled us further way from the bed, until my face was sliding in
the pool of hot cum I'd deposited moments before. Without having to be
told, I began cleaning up my mess, greedily slurping the cum from the
sheets.
I was just swallowing the last drop - it tasted soooo much better than
it ever had on those occasions when I'd tried forcing myself to taste
it at home - when she screamed and erupted inside my ass. Even though
she'd already cum once in my mouth, the torrent she unleashed inside my
ass was double what I'd swallowed earlier. She came so hard and for so
long, I could feel it dribbling out of my ass and running down my legs.
Then, just when I thought we were done, she ripped her softening cock
from my ass and clamped her mouth to the hole. She sucked out my anal
creampie, sticking her tongue deep inside me, until her mouth was full
of spent cum. She then, of course, snowballed me with it, once again
kissing and swapping sperm until we drained each other's mouths dry.
The moment she broke away from our kiss, I spun around, dropped to my
knees, and worshiped her cock clean with my tongue.
"Wow." I was startled by the voice, having forgotten that Alan was
still in the room with us. "I think this bitch is a keeper, Barbi." He
laughed. "I really think you need to get her a sissy tattoo that won't
wash off, though."
Barbi and I both looked back to see my glitter-pen tattoo smeared
across my back.
"Well, we do have all week," she reminded me. "In the meantime..."
Spent and confused, I could only watch as she walked unsteadily across
the room to snatch up the small canvas bag that my piercings had come
out of. Bringing it back to me, she reached inside and pulled out a
pink leather choker.
"Do you like?" She held it before my eyes, showing the words 'Barbi's
Bitch' branded into the leather. "Now, this is to be riveted on," she
showed me the gun, "and never to be removed." She placed it against my
throat for a moment, then took it away.
I don't remember the words, but I'm sure I made an absolute idiot of
myself begging her for the privilege of wearing her collar. I know
there were real tears in my eyes and butterflies in my stomach, but I
had never wanted something so badly in all my life. Fuck family. To
hell with work. Gawking strangers could kiss my ass. I wanted that
collar and all that it signified like the greediest gold-digger wanted
that diamond-studded engagement ring.
As she popped the three rivets through the back of the collar, she told
me I was such a good bitch and such a good present that she was almost
sorry about retiring. She told me she felt bad for taking advantage
and maxing out my credit card, but the sale of our photos and videos
should generate enough interest for her to sell my trademark to one the
high-end sissy porn sites I'd naively suggested she partner with
instead of retiring.
I experience a brief moment of panic at the news, even though I knew
she was probably kidding. That fear was absolutely undone by the
feeling of the collar being fastened about my neck. By the time she was
done, and let the warm pink leather find its natural place around my
throat, I found myself wondering and almost wishing she wasn't kidding.
As I found a few days later, she wasn't.
???????
At the end of the week, I reluctantly dropped Barbi off back at her
house. She left me with enough memories to last a lifetime, two
suitcases of sexy outfits we'd gone out and purchased after returning
the others to the strippers, and a third suitcase full of sex toys
(some of which I still didn't know the purpose of).
We'd switched hotels three times during the week, dragging along Alan
at every step. At one point, during an outdoor shoot in the park, we'd
been chased by a gang of homophobic thugs who quickly turned angry when
they realised the two hot chicks making out on the playground really
weren't chicks. Other than that, everything went remarkably well.
Once all was said and done, Barbi insisted I drive home looking my
sissy best, and even took me shopping at a high-end department store on
our last night in the city to pick up something sexy enough to be
worthy of her bitch, but still acceptable for daytime wear amid the
prudes of Pennsylvania.
Not only were we welcomed and accommodated, the salesgirl came along to
play for an evening. For somebody so cute and innocent looking, she
ended up suggesting things that even had Barbi blushing. Not that that
stopped us from trying out each and every one, of course.
Maybe it was the Canadian license plates, or maybe it was just the fact
that I was the only driver on the road, but I picked up another
sheriff's escort on my drive home. I was in far too good of a mood to
worry about it, and just took my time, giving him no reason in the
world to pull me over.
Until he flashed his sirens and did just that.
"Good afternoon, ma'am." He stared down at me from behind his
sunglasses. "Do you know why I pulled you over?"
In my best, soft sissy voice, I told him I didn't.
"You didn't slow for that caution light back there."
I looked behind me to confirm that there was, in fact, no caution light
to slow down for.
Before I could say it, he shrugged his shoulders in apology. "I'm
afraid the light blew down in last week's storm, but the traffic
violation is still in order." He began flipping through his ticket
book, which he held right next to the bulge in his pants. As worried as
I was about the situation, I couldn't help but notice.
"I'm afraid this is a 'failure to obey' citation, which carries a fine
that must be paid on the spot."
The idea of a 'failure to obey' citation sent a thrill through my newly
sexed body. Even though I'd already paid the same ticket back home last
year, the terminology was undeniably erotic to a submissive sissy slut
who'd just spend a week being her shemale Goddess' bitch.
The officer leaned in through my window, smelling of sweat, coffee, and
Old Spice deodorant. "Now," he said, "I, for one, think it's far too
fine day to waste on paperwork." He put the ticket book back in his
pocket and adjusted his package. "What do you say, Miss Heathyr? Can we
come to an alternate arrangement?"
It took me a moment to realise he called me Heathyr. When that fact
finally dawned upon me, I smiled and nervously licked my lips.
As I reach out for his zipper, I promised him that I would never 'fail
to obey' ever again.
END
This story is dedicated, with complete awe and utter fawning
submission, to Barbi Satin. She is, without a doubt, one of the most
amazingly sexual, deliciously erotic, and wonderfully perverse women in
the entire transgender community. While I have been fortunate to count
her among my t-friends over the years, this story is far more fantasy
than reality... although there's just enough truth contained within to
make my heart race every time I read it. I hope you enjoyed it and, as
always, I would love to hear from you all!