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A Whole New World for Gemma This is my fourth story on Fiction Mania. The first two were autobiographical and described my meetings with my first man friend Richard, who has only recently come into my life. The third was a four part story "Me and My Big Mouth" which was based on a long held fantasy featuring enforced crossdressing, being dressed as a bride and BBC. I really enjoying putting my experiences and fantasies into words and hope all who read them enjoy them too. I like getting reviews and comments both good and bad. This story is once again autobiographical. I hadn't seen Richard for a number of weeks as he'd had to dash down to London to care for his sick mother. I was sitting at my computer, going through my emails when his message came through. I immediately recognised Richard's email address in my inbox and clicked it with my mouse to open it. It read: Dear Gemma I'm delighted to say that I'm back at home this weekend. Mum's condition has got no worse and my sister has volunteered to look after her for a few days. I t goes without saying that I want to see you, I need to see you. The last time I saw you I told you I had another proposition for you, so here it is. There's a private TV's and admirers group based in town which holds a party once a month. It just so happens that the next party is this weekend. I'd love to take you there, all dressed up in your best party frock. Are you up for that? Let me know and I can book us a place. Love Richard xx The thought of going out in public as Gemma was quite daunting. On the other hand I knew Richard would look after me and that we'd be with likeminded people. It had always been a fantasy of mine to be escorted to a party, dolled up to the nines, by a nice gentleman and it seemed that a chance had arisen to make this dream come true. I replied to Richard's email, accepting his offer and asking him to get back to me with more details. Richard emailed me again the next day. It was now Wednesday and the party I'd been invited to was on Saturday, just three days away. I read his message: Dear Gemma So glad you've accepted my invitation. I've been in touch with the people organising the party and booked our places. It seems they've decided to make the evening more like a ball with strictly black tie for the men and posh frocks for the ladies. So it's a great chance for you to look really fabulous. I'll pick you up at about 8 o'clock. Let me know if you have any problems with these arrangements. Love Richard xxx I really loved the idea of going to a ball. I was lucky enough to own a couple of ball gowns and I already knew which one I'd be wearing on Saturday night. I replied to Richard's email, telling him I was happy with the arrangements he'd made and how much I was looking forward to seeing him. I didn't mention it in my message but I knew, after the party, I'd be inviting Richard back to my place. Saturday soon arrived and at around six o'clock I started my preparations for the ball. I knew exactly what I was going to wear and the look I was aiming for. As per usual I would put my lingerie on first, then do my make up and hair, before I looked in the mirror. To start with I picked up the red satin lacy panties trimmed with white lace. Holding them in front of me I stepped into them and slowly pulled them up my legs to my waist. I'd spent a fortune on this La Perla lingerie, dreaming of a day when I could it wear it for more than my own pleasure. With my panties nicely in place and my bits tucked away, I fetched the matching basque from the bottom drawer of my dressing table. The basque was lightly boned and also made of a red satin with white lace trim on the cups and bottom edge. I placed the basque around my body, back to front. Starting at the bottom I did up each hook and eye fastening, and as I got to the top I could already feel the boning push my body into a more feminine shape. I did up the last hook and eye and eased the basque the right way around. I pulled the straps over my shoulders and lightly gripping the bottom of this oh so sexy garment, made sure it encased my body correctly. I placed a silicon breast form into each cup, happy to see the moulded nipples poking against the gorgeous fabric of my basque. Now sitting on the edge of my bed, I gathered up the first of my stockings and carefully placed it over my right foot. Not wanting to put a run into my best hosiery I very slowly pulled the stocking up my smooth leg, finally letting it sit prettily around my upper thigh. The black stockings were ultra sheer and topped with lace. I put the other one on and stood up. I attached the four satin suspenders, two at the front and two at the back, to each stocking top and then made my way to the bathroom. An increasing anticipation and excitement was coursing through me now. I wanted to look as beautiful as possible for the party and hoped I'd stand comparison with the other girls there. The underwear however, was for Richard and I fervently hoped he would be seeing it much later that night. The truth was I'd find it difficult to keep my hands off him when he came to pick me up. I now faced the bathroom mirror and set to thoroughly moisturising my face. Next I applied the Dermablend foundation, setting it with powder to produce a flawless cover. I wanted to look as glamorous as possible so applied eye shadow, eye liner and lashings of mascara to achieve an appropriately smouldering look. I traced the outline of my lips with a red pencil and then applied a bright red lipstick. I pursed my lips on a tissue and then applied a liberal amount of lip gloss. Finally I brushed a pretty red blusher across the line of my cheekbones. I wouldn't judge my make up until I'd got my wig on. As with every other time I'd met Richard, I chose the long dark sleek bob. With the wig in place, I carefully brushed it into place, softening the look with a cute fringe. "I think that's the best you've ever looked" I said to myself and strutted back to the bedroom. I was all Gemma now and ready to wow my audience. Standing in front of my full length mirror I turned left and right, checking my suspenders were straight and generally taking in my gorgeous appearance. "Don't go getting to big for your pretty heels, young lady" I reminded myself. "There's bound to be some stunning girls there who have got far more experience of going out dressed, than you have" I sat down on the corner of my bed and applied a lovely red varnish to each of my nails. While waiting for them to dry I let my mind wonder to what the evening may hold. I was very much Richard's date and would stick close to him all night, however I couldn't help but wonder how the other girls would judge me and if I'd get any compliments from other men. With my nails dry, it was time to put on my gorgeous gown. I'd tried it on many times for my own pleasure, dreaming of a day when I could wear it to a real ball. Meeting Richard had opened up this wonderful opportunity for me and I felt so glad I'd finally taken the plunge to get involved with a man for real. He'd helped me find my role in life; to be the transvestite lover of a man who admired such beings. The dress was bright red taffeta with short puffy sleeves, a close fitting bodice and a very full skirt. Therefore, before putting the dress on, I needed to don a voluminous set of net petticoats. The petticoats were made of five layers of black net, each trimmed with rows of black lace down to the hem. I picked up the extremely feminine undergarment and stepped into it, easing it carefully up my body and then doing up the one button yoke at the back. Standing in front of the mirror I fussed with each layer of net to make sure the petticoats hung properly. I decided it would be easier to put my shoes on before the ball gown. I once again sat on the bed with the pretty shoes on the floor next to my feet. The shoes were also red in a strappy sandal style with a three inch narrow heel and they complemented the dress perfectly. I placed my fight foot into the first shoe and did up each strap; the first over the top of my foot, the second around my ankle. The other shoe was soon in place and I rose from the bed to fetch the gown. Having carefully eased the back zip down, I held the beautiful dress in front of me. I gently gathered it up so I could put it on over my head. As I placed the dress over my head, careful to avoid any contact with my make up or wig, I pushed my arms through the pretty sleeves and worked the dress over my feminised chest, before letting the huge skirt cascade down my body to the floor. Once again I went to the mirror and primped and fluffed my skirts until they hung perfectly. Whenever I wore this dress I felt incredibly feminine. "You gorgeous sissy" I said to my reflection. I couldn't help take a little walk around the house, loving how every step was accompanied by a satisfyingly sexy rustle. Checking the clock I noticed it was already 7.40 and so returned to my bedroom to apply the finishing touches to my look. I put on some gorgeous dangly gold earrings, a five layer pearl choker and matching bracelet and had just finished spraying myself with a little Chanel when there was a knock at the door. It was only 7.45 so Richard must be early I thought. I went towards the front door, heart pounding with the anticipation of seeing him again. I stopped for a moment. What if this wasn't Richard? I might be about to give my next door neighbour the shock of his life. Getting closer to the door I was glad to see the unmistakeable outline of a man wearing a dinner jacket through the frosted glass. I went to the door as quickly as my frock would allow and opened it. "Oh my goodness, you look truly lovely Gemma" Richard said, obviously loving the way I looked. "You look gorgeous too" I replied. I immediately fell into his embrace, his arms around my waist, mine around his neck. "Oh Richard I've missed you so much" I sighed. He kissed me passionately on the lips and I responded in kind. "I've missed you too, sweetheart". As he held me close, I could feel his growing erection pressed against me. I responded but rubbing my taffeta clad body against him "Yes I can tell you've missed me" I said, laughing. "I'm a little early, so perhaps you can think of something we can do to pass the time" Richard said mischievously. I needed no second asking and so with one hand holding my skirt and petticoats, I led him to the centre of the room. I let go of my skirts and sank to my knees, a profusion of taffeta and net billowing around me. I carefully arranged my dress and without any bidding reached for the zip of his trousers. With his zip down I pushed my hand into the gap and freed his fully erect penis from the restraints of his boxer shorts. His cock now stood stiff and proud through the flies of his trousers, with his cockhole winking at me lasciviously. There was no time or need for foreplay so after kissing the end of his knob I slid my lips down over the shaft of his cock as far as I could go. I briefly held him in this position, looking up into his eyes and smiling as much as a girl can with a face full of erect penis. We both needed this and so I went quickly to work, working my lips up and down his cock, running my tongue over his knob each time he entered my mouth. "Oh Gemma, you're so gorgeous, sexy, beautiful, Oh Gemma I want you so badly, Oh Aah". Richard was getting lost in the moment. I continued to suck him with increasing passion, savouring the pleasure I was giving my man. "I'm going to cum" he cried. I didn't want any of his gorgeous seed to escape my mouth and drop on to my best frock, so I firmly clamped my lips around his shaft and let the end of his cock nestle against the back of my throat. "Aah aah aah" he shouted and then pumped wave after wave of hot semen into my mouth, his body buckling slightly with each spurt. As he kept coming, I kept swallowing, determined not to let any of his spunk escape. He finally subsided and carefully withdrew his lovely cock from my mouth. "You didn't miss a drop" he said rather incredulously. "I'm not sure I've ever cum so much before". Smiling sweetly at him I simply said "I was thirsty". I tucked his now flaccid cock back into his boxer shorts and zipped up his trousers. "Shall we go?" I suggested It was dark outside and so I was able to get into Richard's car without being seen by anybody else. It was quite an effort to arrange the very full skirts of my dress but I eventually managed to get them as I wanted. While I did so, Richard held the passenger door of his car open to ensure my outfit didn't get snagged. A feeling of utter elation flooded my entire being. I was being escorted by a lovely man to a big party, wearing the dress of my dreams. The pool of semen lying in my belly told me how much I wanted this lifestyle. We soon arrived at the venue for the party. It was a large, reasonably secluded detached house on the outskirts of a village near town and I guessed that tonight's event could take place without nosy neighbours causing a problem. Richard held the passenger door open for me as I got out of the car. I had to gather the skirt and petticoats up in one hand while Richard took my other hand to help me up. Richard waited patiently while I arranged my dress to my satisfaction. "You need to realise, Gemma, that there will be several unattached admirers at this party and they will almost certainly find you very attractive" Richard warned, as we walked to the front door. "And what about the unattached girls?" I countered. As far as I was concerned we were attending the party as a couple and it hadn't occurred to me that it would be any other way. "All I'm saying, Gemma is that you need to be on your guard. You're very new to this scene". Richard continued. Of course he was right so I just said "Ok, sorry" Richard rang the doorbell. A very tall and distinguished looking man in a dinner jacket opened the door. Richard introduced us to the man who I found out was called Edward. "What a lovely couple you make" Edward beamed "And Gemma what an absolutely enchanting young lady you are" "Thank you" I replied quietly. It was quite obvious he fancied me and I now realised what Richard had been trying to warn me about earlier. The truth was my naturally slight build and soft features meant I was able to transform myself into an attractive female appearance. Edward led us into a large room where a number of guests were already gathered. I clung close to Richard. Light classical music was playing softly in the background and the conversation was flowing. A French maid was walking round with a tray of wine glasses and as we entered she approached us. "Dominique, this is Richard and Gemma, please make sure that all their needs are catered for" ordered Edward. Dominique was very pretty, probably just in her twenties and a man. She curtseyed and offered us a glass of wine. As I took my glass she said "Merci mademoiselle". She then turned back towards the crowd with the short black satin skirt of her maids dress swishing against her short net petticoats. Richard and Edward were both ogling her "A beautiful little thing, Richard, don't you think?" Edward commented "Mind you I'm sure Gemma would look equally sweet in such an outfit" he added diplomatically. Before Richard could answer I grabbed his arm and steered him into the centre of the room. "Richard, old man, I haven't seen you for ages" A man about Richard's age approached us. Like Richard, he was quite tall and debonair. Were all admirers like that I wondered to myself. "Robert, how good to see you." Richard responded. He then introduced me to Robert and I was delighted to find he was with a girl about my age called Tina. "Hi Tina" I said warmly "Hi Gemma, fancy a girly chat while the men catch up?" I immediately felt that in Tina I'd met a kindred spirit. She was about the same level of convincingness as me and I could tell by her dress that she shared my passion for very feminine clothes. Her ball gown was quite similar in style to mine, except that it was in a beautiful powder blue and had spaghetti straps. "So how long have you known Richard?" Tina asked. I explained that Richard was a fairly new presence in my life and that he was my first boyfriend. "Same here, babes, I've only known Robert a few weeks although I've dabbled with a couple of other guys before. Has he introduced you to his cock yet?" In any other situation I'd have found such a question very direct, but with Tina it all seemed quite natural "Well, before tonight I hadn't seen Richard for a few weeks because he had to look after his sick mother in London" I explained "so when he called for me I gave him a passionate blowjob. Didn't spill a drop on my frock either" I continued. Tina's eyes widened with delight as I recounted this story and when I'd finished she burst out laughing. "I've made Robert wait till we get home. If he behaves himself at the ball he'll be giving me a good seeing to later". Dominique, the French maid, passed in front of us on her way to welcome more guests. "Is that what you mean by behaving himself?" I said, now laughing myself. "You girls seem to be getting on very well together" Robert interrupted us. "I can hear a lot of giggling going on" "We're already friends, darling" Tina confirmed. "Do you mind if Robert and I mingle a bit, Gemma? There's a number of old friends here that we haven't seen for a while" asked Richard "I'll look after her, Richard" Tina said, before I could answer. With that the men disappeared into the now crowded room. "I must apologise ladies" It was Edward the host. "It's been most remiss of me not to show you where the bathroom is; I know you ladies like to freshen up from time to time. It would normally be Dominique's duty to show you, but she seems to be rather busy at the moment so I'll take you myself. I looked at Tina but she seemed happy with the invitation "I could do with touching up my make up, so show us the way, Edward" As we followed him out of the room, Tina whispered into my ear "Apparently he's got a huge cock" I was quite shocked by Tina's comment and started to wonder if she had some plan up her sleeve that I may not want to be part of. "This is the bathroom, ladies" Edward gestured "I'll leave you to it" I was just breathing a sigh of relief that nothing untoward had happened when Tina said suggestively "So Edward is it true what they say about you?" Edward seemed to know what she was referring to and replied "Why yes it is young lady, perhaps you'd like to take a closer look" With that he closed the bathroom door behind him, giving us no means of escape. It was clear that Tina didn't want to escape. Edward was now unzipping his trousers, and soon produced his huge penis. Tina was straight down on her knees and allowed Edward to beat his ever increasing length against her face. "Come on Gemma, join in" exclaimed Tina. "I'd be most grateful young lady" added Edward, maintaining his formal way of speaking. "We could play Russian Roulette" suggested Tina. "What's that" I asked. "We take it in turns to slide our lips down Edward's cock until he shoots his load and the winner is the one sucking him at the time and gets to swallow all his semen." Tina explained. I wavered slightly as I considered sucking my second cock in less than an hour. Tina lent forward and slid her lips over the top of Edward's helmet and then looking up at him eased as far down the length of his shaft as she could manage. She then slowly withdrew her mouth from his length, ensuring her lips stayed in contact with it until it was completely free of her. "Your turn Gemma" ordered Tina. There was no point in denying it, watching Tina had turned me on, and so I carefully arranged my skirts around me and knelt next to her. Edward's cock stood rampantly stiff and so with open mouth I lent forward and repeated Tina's actions. Edward's girth stretched my lips wider than Richard's cock was able to do and I was only able to take a few inches of his huge penis into my mouth. I slowly withdrew and immediately Tina took over. We'd each had about ten goes each, and it was quite obvious from Edward's increasingly shorter breaths that the end of the game was in sight. Once again Tina slid her lips over the long, thick penis before us. Tina held his cock for as long as she could without breaking the rules of the game but slowly withdrew without Edward coming. The look of disappointment on Tina's face forewarned me of what was about to happen and surely enough as Edward's knob touched the back of my throat he cried "Yes, yes oh yes Gemma" and spurted jet after jet of hot salty spunk down my throat. As with Richard earlier, I kept my mouth firmly clamped around Edward's cock until he'd finished. The last thing I wanted was to return to the party with semen stains on my beautiful dress. "You win" Tina said, sounding a little fed up. "Richard's a very lucky man" added Edward. Tina and I made our way back to the main party. As I considered how much semen was already lying in my stomach Tina said "That's our little secret, of course, Gemma" "Thanks Tina, I don't really want Richard to know I've sucked the first cock that was offered to me" I replied. "You could get as much cock as you wanted tonight" Tina advised "Although Dominique will get the most because maids have to do whatever is asked of them and every guy in the room will fancy her" she added. "Even Richard?" I asked, although after what I had just done it would be hard to get upset with him. "Of course" Tina replied "you'll need to get used to the idea that TV's and their admirers are hardly ever exclusively faithful to each other" she added. We made it back to the main room. Richard and Robert were nowhere to be seen and for that matter nor was Dominique. "They're probably double teaming her right now" Tina said. Not fully understanding why, I desperately hoped that if Tina was right, Richard was occupying her mouth while Robert penetrated her. I couldn't object to Richard getting a blowjob from another girl but I wanted to be the only one he went all the way with. With Tina in tow, I made my way out into the garden and across to a well lit outbuilding. We crept up to the window and looked in. As one, we turned to each other open mouthed at what we saw. The room contained a snooker table and in the centre of it lay Dominique. Robert had hold of her legs and had pushed them back over her head. He was vigorously thrusting his cock in and out of her willing arse. However any sound she might be making was muffled by Richard's cock. He was kneeling on the table next to Dominique's head and pushed his erection in and out of her willing mouth. Robert and Richard appeared to climax simultaneously. Robert let out a loud cry, almost convulsing as he deposited his load deep inside Dominique. Richard didn't make a noise but instead of coming in her mouth, spurted the contents of his balls all over the pretty maid's face. Both men got up from the table, but Dominique didn't move. "The bastard" screeched Tina "blowjob's I can accept, but Robert fucks only me" She then stomped off back to the house muttering something about finding a new boyfriend. I couldn't tear myself away from the window and as I once again looked at what was going on inside, I realised to my horror that Robert and Richard were preparing to swap positions with Dominique. At that moment I realised Richard was not the gentleman I'd believed him to be. Due to my lack of experience I'd been incredibly na?ve about the main purpose of tonight. In my own mind I would be escorted to a glamorous ball, all dolled up in my best frock, where I would meet similar couples. However the reality was the whole night revolved around sex with the admirers trying to pull as many girls as possible. Even I'd succumbed to this atmosphere, having been persuaded by Tina to share Edward's cock. The fact that my belly was full of two different men's semen made any objection to Richard's actions seem rather hypocritical. The difference was that Richard had come to the party knowing full well what was going to happen. I turned away from the window, not wanting to watch Richard take Dominique, and picking up my skirts and petticoats ran back to the main house as fast as my high heels would allow. As I reached the French windows I saw Tina was sitting on a bench on the patio. "I guess Richard is having his turn now" she said "Yes, I couldn't watch" I replied "Let's go inside and explore the house" Tina suggested "I've had enough of men tonight" she continued. "What do you mean by explore?" I asked. "I could do with finding somewhere quiet so we can have a good girly chat" she explained "Okay I'm up for that" I replied. We managed to drift through the main room unmolested and once again I found myself going upstairs. We both had to hold our big dresses to avoid tripping over them and eventually found what appeared to be an empty spare bedroom. I sat down on the bed carefully arranging the skirts of my dress and Tina place herself beside me. "I thought you were really into all this sex stuff, Tina" I said. "You seemed really experienced compared to me" I continued. "I don't know about that Gemma, I saw the expert way you dealt with Edward's orgasm; you didn't spill a drop you greedy girl" replied Tina with a giggle. Her comment broke the ice and I laughed with her "I didn't want to get my dress stained, babe" I continued. "The clothes are really important to me, Tina. I've been a TV for as long as I can remember but it's only recently I've got involved with a man. Richard is the first man I've had sex with and I naively thought he'd become my boyfriend and be faithful to me like in any boy/girl relationship". I explained. "I suppose deep down I'm very similar. I love dressing up as a pretty girl and I like the idea of having a regular boyfriend just for me, although I know that's almost impossible in this world. I guess my reaction to seeing Robert with Dominique makes me just as na?ve as you" Tina replied. "So why did we suck Edward's cock?" I asked "Well we're submissive aren't we, babe" Tina replied "I find it very difficult to resist a man who finds me attractive as a woman" she continued "Well we're girls aren't we, we're allowed to be a mass of contradictions" I chuckled. Tina joined in with the laughter. Changing the subject, I said to Tina "I really love your dress, the colour is so pretty" "Thanks, yours is amazing too, fancy swapping?" she replied. Almost immediately Tina was unzipping my gown and helping me out of it. She unbuttoned the black net petticoats and let them fall to the floor where I gently stepped out of them. "Wow, what fabulous lingerie, the colours just darling" Tina cooed. "Thanks, It's La Perla, cost me a fortune. I was wearing it for Richard" I replied. It was now my turn to unzip Tina and I did so, helping her out of her beautiful powder blue gown. Her net petticoats were white and I unbuttoned them and let them fall to the ground. Tina's undergarments were equally gorgeous. She wore a very lacy black basque with matching panties and her legs were clad in sheer black seemed stockings. "You look fabulous too, darling" I said. We stood facing each other, taking in each other's beautiful and feminine undies. Tina took each of my hands gently in hers and moving a little closer planted a delicate kiss on my lips. The effect of her kiss sent an electric shock of desire through my body. It seemed to have the same effect on her and we were soon in a deep embrace kissing each other passionately. Tina edged me towards the bed and I got onto it and laid flat on my back. Tina immediately lay right on top of me and we continued to kiss passionately. I loved the way her nylon clad legs entangled with mine and the way our false breasts pushed against each others. The greatest sensation however, came from rubbing our lace encased crotches against each other Tina stopped her passionate kisses and eased her position so that she astride me. She looked down me with a wicked smile on her face "Who needs men" she said and turned herself round so that although she still sat astride me all I could see was her back. She then placed a stocking clad leg either side of my body and eased herself back so that her pantied crotch hovered above my face. I felt Tina ease my panties down and free my now rampant erection. Realising what the game was, I reached up to Tina's panties and pulled her cock free. As I guided her lovely smooth girly cock between my lips I felt Tina's tongue and lips start to pleasure mine. Pretty soon we were both moaning with pleasure. Neither of us were particularly well endowed so we both able to take each other's entire lengths into our mouths. Tina's gorgeously smooth balls rested on my chin as I passionately sucked her lovely girlcock. Tina attended to me equally enthusiastically and as I knew I wouldn't last much longer I redoubled my efforts on Tina, hoping we could climax together. I couldn't cry out with ecstasy, but I surely felt it as I reached a shattering orgasm. Almost immediately my mouth was flooded with Tina's girly seed. I tried hard to swallow it all, but she produced so much semen that some of it escaped my mouth and dribbled down my chin on to my chest and the right cup of my lacy basque. I realised I'd also climaxed heavily and when Tina raised her head and twisted round to face me, my spunk was dripping off her chin onto her black lacy lingerie. Tina turned herself round properly to face me and lent forward and gently licked up the semen that had escaped my mouth. She lowered her face to mine and I did the same, picking up my own ejaculate with the tip of my tongue. We held each other's gaze for some time until we both collapsed into a fit of giggles. "That's the third different load of spunk you've swallowed tonight, you cum slut" laughed Tina "Yours was the best" I said, quite truthfully. "I have to agree; that really was the most fantastic experience of my whole life" Tina confirmed. We never did try each other's dresses on and instead put our own frocks back on and after a quick visit to the bathroom to repair our make up, made our way back downstairs. By now Richard and Robert were now back in the main room. Dominique was nowhere to be seen and I guessed she was still on the snooker table servicing another pair of men. The men approached as if nothing untoward had happened "Just been powdering your noses, ladies?" Robert asked "Kind of" replied Tina rather coldly. "You okay Gemma?" Richard asked a little sheepishly "Yes, I suppose so" I answered "Can we go home now please?" I wasn't going to make a scene now but intended to have things out with Richard on the drive back to my house. I hugged Tina and made a point of exchanging phone numbers with her. On the drive back I questioned Richard about his session with Dominique. I found out he hadn't used any protection and I told him that I wasn't prepared to be his lover in those circumstances. The truth was the night had left me in a state of mental confusion. I'd approached the whole occasion with rose-coloured spectacles, believing Richard to be my knight in shining armour. On the other hand I'd given him a blowjob the moment he'd turned up, so was I sending him a signal that I knew sex was the main purpose of the night. And what about the episodes with Edward and Tina? I decided that the best way forward was to learn from the experience. I'd see Tina again for some lovely girly times and be more careful about my choice of men. My next story will detail how I take Gemma's life forward. As I close this story I'm still waiting to see how things pan out.