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The rest of the way home I kept thinking about that one question that
Alicia had asked me. Are you gay? I had never thought about that, or let
myself think about that. I had truly believed that I would be alone the
rest of my life since I thought that I was a guy, even if my body wasn't.
I had fully never intended to let anyone get close enough to me, figure
it was better to be alone than rejected. I was still deep in thought
about that question when I walked in the house and found Mom sitting in
her easy chair watching TV.
"Hey, how was the study session?" she asked.
I shrugged, because I still didn't know if I was happy or upset to think
about the evenings events. "I don't know Mom." I proceeded to tell her
about some of tonight, but couldn't manage to tell her about the kissing
and how it made me feel, I also left out the worry I was having about
being gay, straight, or whatever I was.
"Do you regret telling her what you did?" Mom asked.
"No I'm not, I mean... I needed to let her down, but without hurting her
feelings. I wanted to tell her everything, but I couldn't... I was too
afraid..." I replied, trailing off lost in my thoughts.
"Baby, while you were trying so hard not to hurt her, you were also
afraid of her hurting you if I'm not mistaken. You like her, don't you?"
she asked softly. I wasn't sure how to answer that at first. Thinking
about it for a few moments I finally responded.
"I know I shouldn't, but I think I really do. I'm just so confused right
now. I'm a girl, who still thinks of herself as a guy, who likes another
girl. Does that make me straight, gay, or something completely
different?" I tell her.
"Baby, aside from the whole boy girl thing, you like someone who likes
you back. That sweetie simply makes you human, forget about the other
stuff right now okay." She says softly while smiling gently at me.
I couldn't help but smile at her for that, and got up and firmly hugged
her while she sat in her chair. "Thanks Mom, I needed that. I love you."
"I love you too sweetie," she said while hugging me back.
Lying in bed later that night it felt like my mind was running a marathon
trying to decide just what my orientation was. I was trying to figure out
the whole are you gay question. I knew I was attracted to Alicia, but I
didn't know why. She was beautiful I knew that, but thinking of other
girls who were just as pretty didn't really do anything for me. It
appeared I wasn't attracted to girls physically, so I started trying to
imagine guys who I thought would be considered attractive. I ran through
several in my head with nothing sparking my interest. I am attracted to
Alicia but not to other girls I know, and definitely not any guys I could
think of. Realizing I was making no headway on this, I started thinking
about Alicia and the way she had kissed me. Immediately I started getting
that warm feeling, and a tingly sensation started in several different
areas of my body. I had fought against my body for so long, I had never
let myself feel this way. For the first time in my life while I was lost
in the moment, I let my hands explore. At first I was scared, but before
too long it just felt too damn good, after a while I was rewarded with my
very first, well I'll just OH MY GOD!!! Lying there relishing the after
effects of the experience I finally drifted off to sleep thinking why
have I fought this for so long.
Waking up the next morning I was strangely refreshed and calm, which was
a very new feeling compared to the anxiety I normally felt every day.
Maybe last night's release was beneficial for more than just the feelings
I had experienced in the moment. Thinking about what had happened, left
me feeling both excited and embarrassed.
Walking to my first class I kept trying to evaluate people as I passed
them to see if I thought they were attractive or not, or if I felt
anything for each person I looked at. Walking into Biology I was just as
confused as ever, nobody I had passed, even though if I could say they
were attractive or not, had done anything for me.
"Morning Casanova," I heard Jen say to me as I sat down.
"Huh? What?" I say confused by the new nickname.
"I thought I told you to be careful last night, Alicia called me after
you left." She told me, looking concerned.
I immediately started blushing at finding out she knew what happened.
"Look I didn't try to do anything but help her study, everything sort of
just happened."
"She likes you Robbie, a lot. I just don't want to see either of you get
hurt," she said.
"Neither do I, I tried to tell her we couldn't be more than friends. I
even told her some of why I can't. Did she not tell you that?" I asked.
"No she didn't, she just told me that you two were going to take it slow.
What all did you tell her? Wait lets just talk about this when you drive
me home okay?" she all but whispered to me.
"Great... Ok we'll talk then," I said worried about what Alicia was
thinking. I couldn't imagine why she would still be interested in me, I
figured that if she knew that we could never be physical with each other
that she wouldn't want to be more than friends. I just hope I can
convince her somehow that we can't be a couple, and not hurt her any more
than I have to.
Classes went by as normal as possible, which meant they were boring at
least until lunchtime. I found myself at our normal table sandwiched in
between Jen and Alicia.
"How'd the test go?" I asked her.
"Think I'm the only one in the class who aced it. Thanks to my study
partner." She grinned and leaned over and kissed me on the cheek. "Thanks
so much."
Even that nothing of a kiss on the cheek was enough to make my skin
tingle again and I got chill bumps all over. "Alicia you really didn't
need my help, you were rocking those problems all on your own." I tell
her trying to keep from blushing. The other girls were looking at us and
smirking, I have a feeling that this is going to get much worse before it
gets better. Since she told Jen about last night I was wondering who else
in the group knew as well.
The rest of lunch was more mundane, other than Alicia sitting just a bit
closer to me than normal and that she kept flashing me that smile that
made my insides start doing somersaults. As we get up to leave the table
she gives me a hug and another light kiss on the cheek and tells me,
"Just remember what I said, when you're ready okay. Thank you again for
your help."
Noticing Jen still standing there just staring at me with that I told you
so look on her face I just say, "Not now okay. We'll talk this
afternoon." She nods and gives me a sideways hug and then leaves me just
standing there on her way to class. Feeling defeated I gather up my stuff
to finish up the last half of my school day.
On the ride home, I tell Jen exactly what happened last night and what I
told Alicia. Finishing up the story by the time we got into her living
room she all of a sudden starts giggling.
"What is so funny?" I ask her.
"I just realized something, I think that a lot of the things that Alicia
likes about you are the things that are definitely not masculine about
you. How you talk to her, and treat her," she finally tells me.
"Do you have any idea how she is going to react when... well everything
does come out?" I ask.
"I honestly don't know, but if she does care about you we can at least
hope that she won't be ugly about it. It all depends on how hurt she gets
though," Jen tells me.
"Jen the last thing I want to do is hurt anyone by doing this, I just
can't keep living the way I've been. Just surviving was getting harder
and harder," I say drifting off, trying not to think about how dark my
life had truly gotten right before I told Jen the truth.
"I know Rebecca," she tells me smiling at using that name, which I can't
help but smile back at her. "To change the subject, I've talked to my mom
and we have a few ideas about how to start being out and about around
here as Rebecca. We've come up with a few ideas, and even picked up
something that would help."
"Am I going to regret this in any way?" I ask just slightly nervous.
While her plans usually work, they still terrify me most of the time.
"Maybe just a bit, but I think you'll enjoy it in the long run," she
tells me smirking.
"Oh God, fine go ahead and lay it on me." I sigh.
"Okay first off I want you to spend the night this Saturday night, even
if its just us two I want you to have a sleepover." She says smiling
softly. I can't help but give her a hug when she continues. "You might
want to hear the rest before you hug me, Sunday you, and I mean you
Rebecca, will go to church with us."
"Wait a minute, we go to the same church!" I start to say before she
interrupts my outburst.
"Right and that's why you're going with us and not your parents. You will
sit with me and we're only like two pews from your mom and step dad. No
one will know that you belong to them."
"Jen it won't work, my hair is still short enough someone will figure it
out! Or do you have a plan for that too?" I blurt out. Smiling she gets
up and motions for me to follow her, when we get to her room she reaches
into her closet and pulls out a box and hands it to me. My curiosity is
in full force now so I slowly open it and find a long haired blonde wig,
a bit lighter color than my hair at least.
"It's a decent quality wig, while synthetic it still shouldn't be noticed
as a wig. No one will recognize you. I can introduce you as my friend
Rebecca and no one will ever know unless you tell them. If you don't
believe me try it on and let's see." She tells me gently.
I'm torn, I'm excited to see if this will work but also frightened of
getting my hopes up in case it doesn't. I've come this far though so I
just simply nod okay. She starts pulling out some clothes that would fit
me and I start stripping off my Robbie fa?ade. This is beginning to get
way too comfortable for me, sitting here in Jen's room in nothing but my
panties while she throws clothes at me to wear. After putting on the bra,
skirt, and top she throws at me, she has me sit down so she can do my
makeup. Once that is finished she then starts combing my hair down and
pins on the wig, having me face away from the mirror as usual I'm about
to die to see the finished project. Finally, once she's done she has me
turn around and even though I know what I normally look like as Rebecca
I'm blown away by the girl with the long hair in the mirror.
"Oh wow Jen!" is all I can say, as stunned as I was. I immediately
started thinking this could really work. She just sits there smiling with
that same old I told you so look she is getting used to making lately.
Handing me some shoes to go with my outfit, she tells me lets go
downstairs and wait for Mom. She has to almost drag me from the mirror, I
was so transfixed.
Getting downstairs we find no one is home yet so she fixes us some drinks
and we sit talking in the kitchen as she tells me more of her plan. It
makes me just a bit nervous but from what I just saw, I start thinking
her plan might just work, unless I chicken out. I know Jen won't let me
though, I'm mostly thankful that she won't.
After about twenty minutes of talking her Mom walks in and does a double
take with me once she realizes it's just me.
"Oh wow, Rebecca! That wig looks so much better than I thought it would,"
she says as she comes and gives me a hug. "So what are you two ladies
doing this evening?"
Jen just grins as she says, "I was hoping you'd let us borrow your car
this evening. I was wanting to take Rebecca out some and, umm show her
off. You know how her car sorta stands out"
"Huh? Tonight wasn't any part of the plan!" I immediately start
complaining.
"Shush! Why not? I would hate to waste all this hard work for nothing.",
She giggles. I just sit there flabbergasted, I mean she wants to go show
me to people I already know. How in the hell is that going to work out?
"I think that would be a wonderful idea, just you know it's a school
night so you're back no later than 10PM," her mom tells us. "Rebecca do
you have a curfew?"
"Not really, Pop told me when I got my driver's license that he figured I
was old enough to know when I should be in, no matter how late I stayed
out I would still be getting up for school. Of course until recently the
only time I left the house was for our study sessions here or to go on my
runs, so I've never really tried to push it," I tell her.
"Well its only 5:30 why don't we go hit the mall and then go grab
something to eat?" Jen suggests. I know she means the mall in Columbus
since Starkville doesn't have anything other than a strip mall and almost
all its stores are closing up as we speak...
"Fine, it's not like you'll let me back out of it anyway," I mutter.
"Hah, that's the spirit!" Jen exclaims laughing. She gets the keys and
hands me a jean purse to put my stuff in and we're off to the mall. I
started wishing Columbus was more than 25 minutes away so we wouldn't
have that much time to spend there. No such luck for me though. We made
it there by no later than 6:15 so we had plenty of time to kill, lucky
me.
We had parked by the JC Penny end of the mall so we started off there. I
was so nervous for the first half hour I kept feeling that everyone that
would glance at me could easily see me for a fake. I knew that was not
the case, I was and looked every bit a sixteen-year-old girl. After a
while of Jen pulling out clothes and holding them up for me I started to
relax and actually started having fun. We had made it through about three
stores when we finally bumped into someone we knew. It was Holly, the
same Holly that we sat with every day at lunch. I tried to not look as
surprised as I know I felt, or as nervous as I knew I was. Holly saw Jen
and smiled and then looked confused as she looked at me, like she was
trying to place me.
Jen said, "Holly this is my friend Rebecca, Rebecca this is my friend
Holly. Rebecca is a friend from church and we were just hanging out a bit
tonight."
Holly, still looking at me said, "Nice to meet you Rebecca. You look
really familiar, have we met before?" She was shaking my hand as she said
this and I was too terrified to speak.
Jen came to my rescue. "She lives near Starkville but has lived outside
the city limits but you've probably seen her around town." Realizing the
reason that she said out of the city limits would be to explain why she
hasn't seen me in school, you had to live in town to go to the public
High school.
I was nodding, thanks to Jen starting my cover story I was able to
finally say something though, although I was having to consciously use my
natural voice. Being around Holly, my subconscious was trying to make me
drop it to my lower register... "Yeah I've probably seen you around town,
you look familiar too." I smiled at her, starting to feel less nervous as
I realize that she can't place me as Robbie.
"Oh cool! So, what are y'all doing over here tonight?" Holly asked,
seemingly appeased by our answers.
"Just getting out of the house a bit and well of course the mall Duh!!"
Jen said laughing, which I joined in giggling.
"Yeah I don't get out much and Jen was nice enough to come pick me up to
get me out and about," I said.
We all then just sort of hit it off, once I had relaxed enough to be
around Holly. The next hour had us running through 4 more stores and we
ended the night having some frozen yogurt for dinner at the TCBY in the
mall. It had been a really fun night, well once I had gotten over my
initial anxieties and relaxed at least. As we were leaving the yogurt
place, Holly gave me a hug and invited me to her Halloween party at the
end of the month. Jen had already been planning to go and I, as Robbie,
had already declined. I had been living a disguise for so long and just
wasn't in the Halloween spirit... I was planning to decline as Rebecca as
well, but Jen beat me to the punch and accepted for me, just telling her
we both will be there. I was too surprised to say anything, but just
nodded and waved goodnight to her. The ride back home was in silence; I
was trying to absorb just what Jen had gotten me into and Jen just let me
sit there in my thoughts. Everyone at Holly's party I would know from
school, I was really afraid Jen was getting me in way too deep way too
soon.
We got back to Jen's around 9 that night, getting up to her room I was
still in shock at what she had gotten me into.
"Jen how could you do this? There will be no way I can pull this off in
less than two weeks," I say as I sit down on her bed frustrated.
"Rebecca, you'll do fine. Just look at tonight okay. Yeah you were
nervous at first, but after a while you relaxed and it was just us three
girls out shopping and having fun," she told me as she sat down next to
me putting her arm around my shoulders. "Look, Holly knows Robbie and she
didn't have a clue that you were him. Because you're not him anymore, you
know that, don't you? This is the real you, at least when you quit being
afraid and just be her. I've always loved my best friend Robbie, but you
know I love my best friend Rebecca just as much. Maybe even more so when
she's brave enough to be herself."
Sighing, I softly say to her, "I don't feel brave though, I'm scared
almost all the time now. When I'm trying to be Robbie I'm afraid someone
will see Rebecca and vice versa when I'm trying to be Rebecca." I lean in
and put my head on her shoulders.
"Rebecca but don't you see? Being afraid and still going through with
what you're doing is what bravery is all about. Doing things that you're
not afraid of isn't brave. You're like the bravest and strongest person I
know," she says as she kisses my cheek.
I slightly laugh. "Hey this person you're talking about sounds pretty
amazing, maybe you can introduce me to her sometime."
She glares at me for a second before she realized I was just teasing her,
then she grabs a pillow and tries to smack me with it laughing.
Jumping back, I blurt out, while waving my hands frantically, "No don't
mess up the do!!" Which makes us both break up in a giggling fit from the
sheer silliness of the moment. A little bit later as I was donning on my
Robbie costume to go home it hit me, I don't have anything to wear for a
Halloween party.
"Jen what am I going to wear to her party? I have no clue what I'm going
to get for a costume," I say slightly panicked.
"Rebecca don't worry we've got you covered, You're gonna be like super-
hot!" She smirks.
"Oh shit!! What else have you gotten me into now, what am I going as?" I
ask her as I'm about to throw my glasses in my backpack. I just didn't
feel like taking my contacts out just to drive home wearing the glasses.
Taking my glasses, she said, "Oh I don't know. I was maybe thinking
something along the lines of..." She pauses as she starts giggling
softly. "Umm remember when we were talking about you wearing the glasses
to disguise you from being..." She stops talking, but she is grinning
like the Cheshire cat.
Trying to remember the conversation it all of a sudden hits me, the
glasses were for me to be like Clark Kent disguising him from being
recognized as Superman, except in my case they are to hide me from...
She can't be serious, can she? I blurt out, "Oh crap you have GOT to be
kidding me!!"
Turns out she was very serious, her, her mom and even my own mom had been
in on this. I felt like my life was spinning out of control, as if I ever
had any control in my life to begin with. I ended up wrestling with that
thought for the rest of the week. The week continued and I did my best to
handle each situation that I got thrust into. I'm pretty sure that
everyone knew something was bothering me, I wasn't as bad withdrawn as I
had been before but I was definitely distracted. Jen didn't push me quite
as hard, but we still had a few evenings around town with her and her new
bestie Rebecca. Alicia kept being super friendly, but realized I was
dealing with some issues and had backed off a bit. Strangely of all the
girls in the group it was Robin, who had been the hardest for me to win
over, that had stopped me in the hall on Thursday and told me that no
matter what was bothering me that her and the rest of the girls were
there for me. It was that small act from her that started me working
myself out of my funk that I had worked myself into. They all had
organized another study night and sleepover on Friday at Michelle's
house, which I was able to get out of. I just couldn't bear being forced
to leave early again because of the no boys allowed rule. About the only
time during the week I could escape my thoughts were on my runs, even
though I wasn't pushing myself as hard I found I was running longer than
usual. I even found the interruptions from would be dates amusing, I was
finding quickly that the "game" was becoming oddly comforting. Yes, I
found the guys annoying, but the fact that they would work so hard to try
to talk to me was kinda satisfying in a new and odd way.
Saturday morning was no exception, at first at least. Early in my run I
had already outpaced two would be suitors. I was lost in my amusement
when I noticed I was slowly gaining on another person, a male runner, and
one that seemed to be in a pretty good shape with the pace he was
keeping. For a quick second I was worried, but brushed it off quickly at
least this guy wasn't chasing me, he was just on a morning run. Hopefully
he would only be interested in his run so I didn't change my course, this
after all was one of my favorite paths through campus.
Coming up on his left I simply said as I slowly passed him was,
"Morning." I kept my pace mostly hoping he wouldn't speed up.
"Hey there, it's a great morning, isn't it?" he said as he did match my
pace. Oh, great that's the last thing I need, but oddly was a bit excited
at this new challenge in my "Game".
"Yup sure is," I said flashing my best smile unconsciously. I kept
waiting for him to use some lame come on line but he didn't say anything,
just kept running beside me matching my pace. After several minutes the
silence was beginning to bother me, I couldn't figure out what this guy
was up to and it was bugging me something fierce. Finally, just to break
the silence I said, "I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you speed up your
pace, you don't have to keep up with me."
Smiling back, he told me, "I don't mind the pace, I was mostly getting
loosened up when you met me. I'm good like this. It's nicer to have
company on a run anyway." Then it was back to silence. What gives with
this guy? I'm getting really confused trying to figure out just what his
angle is.
"Well my name is Rebecca, what's yours?" I ask, the silence really
getting to me.
"Paul, it's nice to meet you," he responds giving me a quick nod of his
head. It's back to the silence that is beginning to infuriate me, his
little sideways smile he's giving me isn't helping in the least either...
After another few minutes I finally just give up trying to figure out
this weirdo so I tell him, "Well it's been fun running with you, but I
really like to turn it up the last two miles. See you around." With that
I turn up to almost my old pace just to get some distance from this guy.
A few seconds later I notice he's matched up my pace yet again.
"That's really cool, I love a good challenge anyway, it's nice to see
someone of your caliber out here by the way," he says.
"Thanks," I tell him, starting to get extremely weirded out. After
another minute or two of silence I finally say, "You know you could quit
following me, it's getting a bit creepy."
"I'm glad you realized that, I was getting a bit creeped out too." He
smirks.
"Why are you creeped out?" I exclaim, very confused now.
"Well technically I was on this path first, so you've been following me,"
he said almost laughing, but the pace had started getting to both of us
and we were starting to pant just a bit.
"I have not!" I retorted. I mean the nerve of this guy!
"Ok if you say so," was all he said smiling and then back to silence.
A few minutes later we were passing the dorms and he just said as he
pulled off, "Nice to run with you Rebecca, I've never had a stalker
before." Grinning like an idiot he waved as he disappeared into the
parking lot. I slowed down just a bit for my cool down period as I head
back to Mom's car. That was the weirdest guy I have ever met, the nerve
of him calling me a stalker! Driving back home the whole incident had
confused the shit out of me. I kept thinking maybe I won't run into him
again, it's a big campus. For some reason, I didn't think that was going
to be my luck though. I didn't notice that the whole time I was thinking
about the weird conversation that I was slightly smiling.
Continued in Part 11.
Sorry for the slight delay on this chapter, turns out my child shared a
nasty cold/sinus crud with me she brought home from school, while I tried
to write I was on some heavy cold meds. I think I deleted about 3 pages
of cold med induced rambling to keep the story someone on track, anyway
before I start rambling again I hope you enjoy Chapter 10.
Also to many who have commented about their hopes where the story will
go, you will have to remember the setting of this story. It will dictate
how many people will act, even if they don't want to act that way. After
all it is in the late 80's in a semi-rural town in Mississippi.
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