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I spent most of the day thinking about what had happened on my run that morning. I had gotten used to the lame come on lines and weak attempts to hit on me while I was on my runs. Paul hadn't attempted once to do or say anything like that, why did that bother me so? What was going on with me? I would never even think of going out with a guy so why did I enjoy and even look forward to the flirting. All this had started out as a game to me and I had fun playing the game. I was starting to realize that it no longer felt like the same game I had started though, maybe Jennifer could help me figure this out tonight during our sleepover. Throwing caution to the wind, even though it was still light outside when I headed over to her house, I left Robbie at home. Hell, I had taken off my Robbie persona when I got home from school yesterday and had no intention of putting "him" back on until Monday. While I was afraid that someone might see "me" driving "his" car, it felt like I was just daring someone to see me. It was like I wanted someone to see. When Jennifer opened the door to let me in she was definitely surprised to see me standing there in a skirt and blouse, which actually made me giggle. "Umm are you going to let me in? Or are you just gonna stare at me?" I said in between giggles. Still stunned, she just moved out of the way and let me in. "Sorry you caught me off guard just a bit," she told me. Looking me over once again she continued, "Were you not worried that someone might see you driving the Ghia?" "Yeah about that... Jen... I was... and I also wasn't... It was almost like I wanted someone to see me. I'm having so many conflicting thoughts and emotions right now," I told her. "I'm just ready for all this to be over. No matter what happens, I'm so sick of living this double life. I'm so ready to just have one life, bouncing back and forth between the two I'm not able to live either of them. You know?" "I don't know, I can only imagine though. You do know it's going to be rough at school at first, possibly for a long time. More than likely it won't just be at school either. No matter what though, you have all of us behind and with you Rebecca," she told me, then as she leaned in for a hug she then whispered in my ear, "This is the bravery I was talking about." "I don't really see it that way Jen," I started, but paused to collect my thoughts some. "Before, well anyone knew, I felt that I had been carrying this weight on my shoulders. Over the past few years that weight has gotten heavier and heavier, till I was close to being crushed by it." I had to stop for a minute to try to compose myself. Thinking about how I had felt just a few short weeks ago had caused me to start to get emotionally overwhelmed and I had started to cry softly. Jen just sat there silently as she held my hands until I could regain my composure enough to talk. I softly started, "Jen you don't know how bad it was." "Yeah I think I do, you don't have to say it. It's okay," she told me squeezing my hands. "No you're wrong, I do have to say it. You had commented a few times about how I had starting to let my hair finally grow out," she nodded at that. "It wasn't so I could grow out my hair, spending that money had started to feel like such a waste." "Why a waste?" She said obviously confused. "It was a waste because..." I had to take a deep breath to steady myself for what I was about to tell her. "Because I didn't see any reason to keep spending $8 every two weeks when I wasn't expecting to be here much longer... That overwhelming weight... and hopelessness... I didn't see any other way to escape it..." "Oh God Rebecca!! You're not still..." She couldn't say the rest due to her crying and holding me fiercely. "No Jen I'm not thinking about it. At least not much," I said as she pulled back and was about to go off on me. "Wait! Let me finish okay! Jen when I told you the truth about me... I felt that huge weight start lifting. As weird as it sounds, I felt that I wasn't carrying it alone anymore. Each time I've told someone, you, your parents, my parents, it's almost like every one of you are helping me hold up that weight. It's still there, but it's not oppressive anymore... Each time I go back and forth between Robbie and Rebecca though I feel like it gets a bit heavier each time. I can't keep doing this Jen. I honestly don't think Robbie has much of a future if he has one at all. I want a future Jen. I don't want to die, at least not anymore." After several minutes of us just sitting there in a hug, she finally pulled back to look at me. "Rebecca promise me that you won't let it get that bad again. If it does, let me know... Please... I'll do anything I can to help you through it okay." I just nodded okay. After we got ourselves straightened up from our crying session we started the sleepover officially. Her mom had made sure she had the stuff and had requested another of my pizza's, so Jen and I made two, one for us and one for her parents. I think Mrs. Cook enjoyed not having to cook but she promised she would clean up afterwards. Since I enjoyed cooking and not necessarily the cleaning afterwards I was happy to make that deal. Once dinner was done we crashed on the couch, pizzas and popcorn in hand while Jen stuck a movie in the VCR. I hadn't been much of a movie person the past few years but I found I really enjoyed Mannequin. I had never watched a romantic type movie and allowed myself to enjoy it, but this time was different. Towards the end when Emma is saved, both me and Jen were both having a girly aww moment, it was weird and awesome for me at the same time. More awesome though as I started letting go of the perceptions I had forced on myself over the years. As the night progressed, we moved upstairs and Jen started using me as her personal Barbie doll. Trying different looks with makeup and clothes and she also introduced me to my costume for next Friday. Yeah, it was a Supergirl costume as I had feared, and it didn't hide a single one of my curves. Staring at my reflection wearing the outfit, I thought with my running and exercise regime I totally fit the part. I was muscular without it being too much. I found I was just a bit excited about going to the party, but I wasn't about to let Jen know that just yet. Towards the end of the night as we were getting ready for bed I asked Jen where was I going to sleep. "Um I have a queen-sized bed dummy; you can sleep right here." She laughed hitting me with a pillow. "Are your parents okay with this? I mean since, well... umm," I stutter, not knowing how to phrase my concerns. "Rebecca just stop worrying okay, Mom and Dad know that you're a girl, it's okay. Well Dad is still dealing with it just a bit, but he's okay with this," she told me and reached out to squeeze my hand. "You're not like going to try to jump me in my sleep, are you?" She laughed. "Umm no... Honestly that would be like really weird. You're my friend and I don't really see you in that way," I managed to get out. It made me start questioning just what am I attracted to. I love Jen, I know I do. I used to think she would be the one I was going to marry back when we were younger but that all has changed. I think of her more like a sister, actually much more than a sister now. "See then were fine," she giggled and smacked me with a pillow. Grabbing one of my own we spent the next 10 minutes beating the snot out of each other with pillows before we collapsed on the bed laughing so hard we had tears running down our cheeks. Lying there next to her after turning off the lights Jen gently grabbed my hand and just said, "I'm so glad you're my best friend Rebecca, and that you're still here," With that we both drifted off to sleep, still clutching each other's hands. Waking up the next morning I realized that we weren't still clutching hands, I had rolled over on my side and Jen must have gotten cold considering how she was snuggled up next to me. It was an odd mixture of feelings for me, while it felt good for her to be cuddled up next to me with her arm wrapped around my waist, it wasn't like a turn on or anything. It was just the closeness to someone I cared about, even if it wasn't in that way, that left a warm feeling through me. I hated to get up, I just wanted to stay cuddled up in the warmth that was my best friend but my bladder had a much bigger say in the matter. Gently I eased out of bed without disturbing her and went to tend to my morning routine. Returning to Jen's room after my shower I found her still asleep wrapped up in the covers so I sat down next to her. Gently brushing her hair out of her face, I say as cheerily as possible, "Morning sleepy head!" She mumbled incoherently for a moment before she opens her eyes. "You are too happy this early in the morning..." she says just clear enough I can understand it. "Hey its 7:30 this is late for me normally; I'm still used to getting up at 5AM most mornings," I tell her smiling. "Besides if we're going to church don't we need to start getting ready? Especially if you're going to have to help me?" Sitting up finally she slides next to me and leans up next to me. As I put my arm around her in a sideways hug she says smiling, "At least someone smells good. I was kinda mad you got up, you were so nice and warm." "Trust me I didn't want to; I was way too comfortable," I tell her right before leaning over and giving her a kiss on the top of her head. Grinning she hugged me a bit harder and said, "Fine I guess you're forgiven." Finally, she got up and headed to get her shower and that left me alone with my thoughts once again. The cuddling we did and hugging just felt right, but at the same time the thought of going further just seemed too weird for me. After several moments, I quit trying to figure it out, and just let our friendship be whatever it is going to be. If that includes nothing more than the closeness we've had, that's perfectly fine with me. After applying the lotion that Jen had gotten me started using I started to pick out an outfit for church. I had brought several, finally deciding on a light blue dress that we had picked out on our trip to Birmingham. It was very plain, but fit me really well. Honestly I think the simplicity of the dress made it more appealing to me than some of the really fancy ones everyone tried to get me to buy. I guess it was supposed to be a knee length dress but on my 5'11 frame it came to a few inches above my knee, so it was short but not too short. I had just gotten on the appropriate underwear when Jen came in from her shower. "Oh you're wearing that one?" she asked, she didn't really approve as her tastes usually went for something with a bit more pizazz. "Yes ma'am I am, I know you don't care for it but I really like it," I said sticking my tongue out at her then giggling. She sat me down and helped me with my makeup. She had gotten to where she was having me put it on now, but giving me help when I needed. After a few attempts she approved and then gave it a few slight finishing touches. "Alright get dressed and let me do my makeup, once we're both dressed I'll pin on your wig," she told me. Checking out how I looked one last moment she added, "You know it won't be too much longer and we can get your hair styled and you really shouldn't need the wig." Smiling at that I say softly, "I can't wait," then proceed to get dressed including the shoes we bought to go with the dress. I had been practicing with heels for the past week and had gotten decent, but these were by far the highest I owned at 4". I was worried that I might fall on my face, but had gotten vain about how they made my legs look so I was willing to risk it. Once we were both ready Jen put on her heels and we were ready to go, so we headed downstairs to see her parents. As we entered the kitchen where her parents were finishing up breakfast her Dad just looked at me stunned and her Mom was laughing at his reaction. "Dear it's not polite to stare," she scolded him and came up to give me a hug. "Rebecca you look amazing, and that dress suits you so well. God those shoes make you so tall though" "Yes Ma'am I know, I just... umm... really like the way they go with the dress. Well and the way they make my legs look," I say softly, just a bit embarrassed. "Honey you look great, don't be ashamed that you're so tall. You look like a model. Now you two sit and eat so we can get to Sunday School before church," she told both of us. Getting in the car to leave the house is when my anxieties started up. I have always had a strong faith, after all before he passed my Dad was a minister and Mom was a choir director. I literally grew up in the church, with all the hymns, and scripture. Mom had even commented on so many different occasions that she always saw me ending up as a preacher just like Dad and her Dad had been. Even though my body was physically female, I still had enough of Robbie floating around inside of me to question if I belonged in church. If I would be accepted or if I would or should be cast out was foremost in my thoughts. Jen could see my worry so I quietly told her my fears on the ride. She just gripped my hand tightly and told me that I had every right to be there no matter what. Normally my parents and I never attended Sunday School, so I honestly didn't know what to expect. As we entered the young adult class I noticed Robin and a few others from school I sort of knew but not well. Robin moved over so Jen and I could sit next to her, and Jen introduced us. It is such a strange feeling being introduced to someone you already knew, and the way Robin had been with me at first I was expecting the same. She was extremely friendly though, which caught me a bit off guard. We only talked for a few minutes before the class started. I had never really believed much in signs or visions or at least that they hadn't happened in a very long time. While I was sitting in that class though, the lesson overwhelmed me. I had been trying to hide my apprehension and fear about being struck down for entering the church, the more I listened to the lesson the more those fears left me. Without going too much into detail the lesson was about when God called Abraham to follow him, I knew the story quite well with my upbringing but it was the way the teacher phrased the lesson though. He had said that Abraham had been told to cease being the person that everyone expected him to be and for him to become the person God had intended him to be. His name wasn't even Abraham at first, but becoming who he was meant to be God changed his name. The parallels to my own life felt like they had slapped me in my face. I had fought so hard to be who I thought everyone expected me to be, no matter how much I ignored how my body had changed I couldn't accept it. I didn't cause my body to change, maybe, just maybe Rebecca was who I was supposed to be all along. I felt this overwhelming peace just fill me with that realization, and I started trembling. Jen noticed and looked worried and confused until she thought how the lesson applied to me. She reached in her purse and handed me a Kleenex and just clasped my hand firmly as the teacher continued while I gently blotted the tears that had formed in the corners of my eyes. After class Jen asked, "Wow are you okay? That was amazing!" "Yeah I am okay, really okay," I said smiling to her. We spent the next few minutes talking with Robin before we headed to the sanctuary. As we were walking through the hall I noticed my parents coming out of the minister's office with both the head and associate minister. Confused, I was staring at them when I noticed Mom saw me, she immediately smiled and just put her hand over her heart and winked at me. Not having a clue what they were doing Jen and I went and joined her parents in their pew. After what had happened in class the rest of the service was almost a letdown after that high I felt. When the service was over, my parents came over and spoke to Mr. and Mrs. Cook then came over and gave Jen and I both hugs. "Oh my God baby you look amazing! You look so happy right now it makes my heart so happy for you," Mom whispered to me as she hugged me for all she was worth. "Thank you. Mom I love you," I whispered back, then asked, "So what were you doing in the minister's office?" "You have nothing to worry about sweetie, but you'll see. Everything is wonderful okay," she said as she let me go. Confused I followed Jen as we headed out of the sanctuary, as we passed Rev. Webster he reached out and took my hand and told me, "Rebecca my dear it is such a pleasure to meet you." "Huh? How'd you know my name?" I asked getting really worried. He just smiled and glanced to my parents and then back to me, as he winked he then told me, "I just want you to know that you're always welcome here, so we will see you next Sunday I hope?" "Yes sir you will," I replied, just then realizing what Mom and Pop had been doing in their office. I was a bit upset, even though I understood why they did it. This was the man that just 3 years ago had done my confirmation as Robbie and as a boy accepting me as a full member of the church. I wasn't prepared for this and was in a daze as we left the church and headed home. The rest of the afternoon was spent just hanging out with Jen, talking about the past few weeks and things to prepare for in the upcoming months. She also had been trying to convince me that I was actually enjoying the attention guys showed me, I started to concede a bit but was not about to let her know that just yet. Another thing was preparing for the Halloween party and the best way to deal with the people from school. We were both concerned about creating a back story for myself, because at the first of the year everyone is going to know who I really am. We had decided to be very vague would be for the best, it would be much better to be vague and lie as little as possible. We ended the day with a long hug and a kiss on the cheek. Driving home I kept thinking about our friendship, I mean were girls normally this physical in their friendships or was there something more? Lately I seem to be having more and more questions with not too many answers. That night my parents explained to me that talking to the ministers was to make sure that the church leaders would stand by me. They had explained my situation and how it was out of my control, my parents said both the head and associate minister told them that God works in mysterious ways and that I had a purpose. I hoped that was true, that if I did then everything I have endured might be worth it one day. The rest of the week flew by, of course I was kept busy with school work, Jen and Rebecca time, trying to balance time with my friends, and my runs. Alicia had kept giving me those million watt smiles and always sat close enough that she could keep physical contact with me even if it was just touching elbows. I kept trying not to lead her on and to reinforce that we were just good friends, even though I wished we could be more. I just wished that she would end up not hating me when she finds out the truth. I had managed to squeeze in three runs that week and the first afternoon I found I kept looking around for Paul. Even if he irritated the crap out of me on that one day, he was different than all the other guys that had tried to accompany me on my run. Those guys were easy to figure out, but Paul though was a mystery, and that mystery was bugging me. At least that was what I kept telling myself as I kept looking around hoping I'd see him. I had been getting tired of trying to analyze every single one of my thoughts and actions, at least when I was running. Analyzing everything was meant for when I was trying to go to sleep, or at least that was always what happened, I thought to myself. Tuesday evening, I was half way through my loop around campus when I did run into him, he was on a different route it appeared so I just smiled and waved and kept on my current route. A minute later I felt someone behind me and turned quickly and saw Paul catching up to me. "So who's the stalker now?" I said as I smirked at him. He actually looked like that hurt at least for a second until he broke out in a wide grin. "Hey like I said, it's better to run with company," he said grinning from ear to ear. We ended up doing that useless banter for the rest of the run, or at least till I broke off to head to the car. He just waved and told me he'd see me next time. I yelled out I'll be out here on Thursday, which confused me why I told him that. Then I realized I was actually looking forward to it. I quickly found that I enjoyed the back and forth jabs we were giving each other, he had yet tried to ask me out or try to do anything else with me. While part of me wished he did, because I understood that behavior, the other part really did just enjoy the company. On Thursday, he seemed to find me less than five minutes after I had left the car on my run. For a second that worried me, but I quickly let it slide as we started our back and forth jabs. It turned out to be a really good run and we actually made excellent time. As I peeled off I said hopefully I'd see him Saturday morning, he smiled and said he'd see me then. Friday during lunch Holly had started to give me a hard time because I had declined multiple times to come to her party. She wasn't being mean or anything but I could tell they really did want me to come. Finally, I just told her that it is a costume party that she would probably see me there, even if she didn't know it was me. I thought Jen was going to choke on her drink when I said that. She just glared at me and how daring I seemed to be becoming. After school, we went straight to Jen's house to get ready. It actually took us two hours to get ready between us both getting a shower and Jen attacking my eyebrows once again. She got pretty bold this time around making them super thin with a high arch. Once we were both ready we just stood there looking at ourselves in the mirror we both made very striking images, I as Supergirl and Jen as Tinkerbell. After posing for a few minutes we both broke into giggles, I hadn't remembered ever being this content with my life as I did at that moment. Sitting there making silly poses in the mirror alongside my best friend in the world I felt whole. "You know I'm actually looking forward to this," I told Jen. "I know you are, you can see it all over your face. I just want to let you know if at any time though if you feel uncomfortable we can leave okay," she said gently clasping my hand in hers. "Thanks, but I'll be okay," I replied giving her hand a gentle squeeze. With that, and about 20 minutes of having her parents take pictures, we were off to the party. Giving Jen a hand putting on her wings after we parked her Mom's car on the street, I looked at Holly's house and took a deep breath. I was all excited and full of laughs on the ride over but this is the moment of truth. There is probably going to be about forty people that I knew here, well I knew as Robbie. Jen giving my hand a squeeze, leaned over and said, "If you need it I'll hit you with some fairy dust," I couldn't help but giggle just a bit. "Thanks, I needed that," I told her still smiling. With another squeeze of her hand we headed up to the door. "You ready?" Jen asked, she actually looked a bit nervous as well. "No, not at all," I said, noticing the concern on her face I braved a smile and said, "But it's never stopped me before." Then I turned and rang the doorbell. We sat there for almost a minute before the door opened and we got a glimpse of a house full of people all in different costumes. Some were scary, some were funny, some were sexy, and well some were just stupid. After walking around for a minute, we found our host Holly, who was drop dead sexy as Elvira. "Wow you look amazing," I told her. "Oh my God you two look adorable!" Holly told Jen and I, looking over our costumes. Taking a closer look at me and my skin tight Supergirl outfit she exclaimed, "Holy shit Rebecca you look fantastic! I would kill for your body! Damn I'm jealous!" as she finished she was grinning at me. "Girl trust me you don't have anything to be jealous about," I told her, trying not too hard to stare at her, well her low-cut top. I doubt I would ever be brave enough to show that much cleavage. After catching up for a few minutes she ended up dragging Jen and I over to the rest of the girls. Robin made an excellent Wednesday Addams, Michelle a sexy vampire, Karen a witch and Alicia was a princess. I had only met Robin and Holly as Rebecca so meeting the rest was really awkward for me, especially Alicia. For a moment, I felt sad that I was deceiving everyone, Alicia most of all though. I forced that back down, and tried to have a good time. The party was actually really fun once I adjusted to being around so many people, guys I knew started hitting on me which bothered me. It wasn't like my game I played, these guys I knew as Robbie, and that's the way I still saw them. Their attention made me feel very uncomfortable not knowing how they would react in a few months when they find out the truth. I will hand it to Holly, she is one of those people that is friends with many different social groups. There were jocks, preppies, rednecks, and even the group I would have previously been stuck in, the nerds. I ran into one guy I knew and he was the only one that hadn't made a pass at me or given me that once over stare that I was finding so creepy. It was my friend Brent, fellow smart guy and, as I am, a nerd. "Buddy Holly I presume? I'm Rebecca," I said to him grinning and holding my hand out. I felt sorry for him he was so nervous. "Yeah, nobody really has figured out my costume. Thanks," he said with a slight grin, but he was trying hard to not make eye contact. Finally, he did look me in the eyes and with a sheepish grin said, "Umm Rebecca I thought you were Supergirl?" "Oh yeah you're right!" I told him giggling, "I am, just promise not to tell anyone else my identity okay?" "Yes Ma'am your secret is safe with me," he told me, making the motions like he was locking his mouth and throwing away the key. As cheesy as it was I couldn't help but laugh, after all this was a friend and a good guy. The last thing I would ever do is hurt his feelings. We ended up talking for a bit, more so when he realized I was smart as well and not just a pretty face. As the night progressed on, I had gotten more and more comfortable as Rebecca/Supergirl and enjoyed myself immensely. Towards the end of the night I had started hanging out with my lunch group, we all seemed to get along well. Of course, we were already friends, they all just didn't know it yet. As Jen and I were getting ready to go Alicia did come up and ask Jen, "Can I ask you for a huge favor?" "Sure Alicia what's up?" Jen replied. "Can I come spend the night with you? My parents had to go out of town and said I could stay home by myself which I had planned. I'm just really kinda scared to go home to that house with no one there, especially on Halloween weekend," Alicia all but begged. She did look really worried. "Alicia of course! You're more than welcome to come and crash at my house," Jen told her, which made Alicia instantly relax. "Jen you're awesome, I've got a change of clothes in the car. I'm sorry I waited till this late, but I was hoping I could stay with someone. I'm such a chicken," she told us, just a bit embarrassed. "Hey safety in numbers right?" I joked with her. I hadn't thought this out very well, I only saw a friend who was scared and I was relieved that Jen helped her. "Damn straight Rebecca!" She laughed and came up to give me a hug, feeling her body pressed up next to mine instantly reminded me of the kisses she had given me and made my body all tingly and I trembled for a second. "Are you okay?" Alicia asked me, looking at me kinda funny all of a sudden. "Umm yeah I'm fine just got a chill is all, this costume isn't great for warmth," I lied. Hoping the bra would hide the excitement I felt. Still looking at me oddly she just nodded okay. We all said our goodbyes to the party and the three of us left to get in our cars. As Jen pulled out Alicia got right behind her. "Thanks for all of this Jen, tonight was really fun. I mean I was scared shitless at first, but overall it was a kick ass night," I said grinning at her. "Girlfriend it was my pleasure," she smiled at me, "You really did good tonight, well right up until Alicia hugged you," she finished off giggling. "Oh God was it that obvious?" I asked her slightly panicking. She could barely contain her laughter as she told me, "No not really, unless you knew to look for it." Slightly relieved I said, "Thank God, oh and it was really cool of you to let her stay the night. She really did look scared and.... Oh, shit!!" "What?" she asked, picking up on my worry. "Jen, she's right behind us and I just remembered something... My car... It's parked in your driveway!!" I blurted out. ***********Continued in part 12*************