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"Rebecca! Calm down okay. We'll figure this out alright," Jen tells me trying to get me to stop panicking. "How are we going to figure this out in ten minutes?" I ask, fear gripping me. "I don't know... Think we should just tell her the truth? I know it's earlier than you wanted, but maybe that would be best," she told me quietly. "I don't know Jen. I don't want to lie to her, but I don't want to hurt her either. I don't know what to do. I know I shouldn't but I really do care about her," I say softly. "She's your friend you should care about her... oh... Rebecca you really do like her don't you? I mean like like her?" she asked. "Yes I do. The very last thing I want to do is hurt her," I answered. "Look lets just get home and we will play it by ear okay?" she told me, I just not and stare out the window for the rest of the ride home. When Jen pulled into the driveway I was silent, just staring at my car sitting there in the driveway. I had resigned myself that whatever happens I'm not going to tell Alicia any lies. "Just let me handle this okay," Jen told me giving my hand a squeeze. "Is Robbie here?" Jen asked hopefully while Jen was unlocking the front door. "No he's not. It's just us three and my parents. He left it here after dropping me off from school," Jen told her, but was looking at me as she opened the door. Since it was late and the house was dark, we figured her parents were already in in bed so we all headed up to Jen's room. "Why'd he leave his car here? He loves that old thing for some reason," Alicia said laughing. "I'm not sure, he's been working on it a lot lately. Maybe something's wrong with it," Jen said shrugging her shoulders. Each fib she told to Alicia was making me feel worse and worse. "Well I wish he was here," Alicia said. She paused for a moment and continued, "Jen do you know what's going on with him? Rebecca, can you grab my zipper?" she asked as she backed up to me. "Umm sure," I said as I started to undo the back of her dress. "What do you mean Alicia? He's been dealing with a lot lately; you know how withdrawn he used to be. He's doing better than he was, but he still has a lot going on right now," Jen told her. I caught myself staring as Alicia stepped out of her dress, I felt my skin start tingling so I turned my back to her hoping it would help me stop the excitement. I started peeling off my costume, since Jen and Alicia had already taken theirs off. "Jen I wish he'd let me help him. I want to be there for him," Alicia told her. I started to turn around to put my super suit on a hanger when I noticed that Alicia and Jen were both down to just their panties and pulling out nightshirts. I quickly turned back around so they wouldn't catch me staring at Alicia. "I know you do, he told me that he told you some of what he's dealing with. I think he's scared and thinks you deserve someone better who can, umm, well you know," Jen said as I turned back around to find they were covered up now, and I noticed that Jen was blushing slightly. "I honestly don't think I'm worried about that Jen. I mean he treats me so nice, he's like the only guy that has ever treated me like a person. He talks to me, and actually listens to me. Oh, my God, if you could have felt how he kissed me. I know he likes me back, I could feel it," Alicia said, closing her eyes while she smiled. "Jen I think we could make it work somehow, at least I want the chance to try," At this point in the conversation I could feel tears starting to form, and I was doing all I could do to try to keep my emotions in check. Hearing her talk about how she felt about me made me hurt that much more. The longer I kept up the deception, the more I would hurt her. Finally, I couldn't take it anymore. "I can't do this anymore," I said, hanging my head down tears starting to form. "Can't do what?" Alicia asked me, turning while looking at me confused. "Rebecca no! You can't go back to..." she said, pausing when she looked at Alicia. Looking back and forth at Jen and I, Alicia says, "What the hell is going on? What can't she go back to?" I could tell she was getting upset at us. "Jen I'm not talking about going back..." I start to say, then the words catch in my throat. I carefully start unpinning the wig. "Alicia, the reason Robbie couldn't be more than friends with you... Is that... Is that he isn't going to be around much longer. I'm so, so sorry," I manage to get that last out before I start to cry in earnest. "Rebecca you aren't making any sense. Where is he going to go? What the hell are you two trying to say!" Alicia says, really angry by this point. Pulling off the wig and ruffling my hair up I just say, "Because I'm Robbie, or I was... Hell I don't know who I am anymore!" I sink down in the chair by Jen's vanity. Putting my face in my hands I manage to get out the words I'm sorry between sobs. Alicia's appeared to be in shock, looking at me in a mix of anger and fear. She looked back to Jen and Jen just nodded tears forming in her eyes as well. Finally, Alicia exclaimed, "That's impossible! You're both lying! There's no way that you're Robbie! You might look kind of like him, but you can't be!" she looked at both of us mostly in anger by now. "Alicia, what Robbie told you about his condition... He didn't lie. He just didn't tell you everything, about just how severe it actually is. Please try to calm down and listen please, and we'll try to explain everything," Jen begged. "FINE!! I'm listening, this better be good, especially after trying to pull something like this on me!" Alicia blurted out, still really angry but appeared to be ready to listen hopefully. Jen took one look at me and knew I wouldn't be able to say anything for a while. Looking at Alicia she started, "Alicia he told you that he was born without testicles, right?" Alicia nodded, still looking angry. "When he was twelve or thirteen they found out the reason... It turns out that Robbie never fully developed as a male when he was born..." Looking back at me I could see the tears running down her cheeks as she was trying to explain to Alicia. After taking a few breaths she continued, "They found out that when he didn't have testicles that internally that he was female, well mostly female." "Wait a minute? You're trying to say that Robbie has been a girl all this time? That's bullshit, he's a guy. He's always been a guy," Alicia then glared at me. "This isn't funny, there's no way you're Robbie. What kind of a sick joke are you trying to play on me?!?" "Alicia... It's not a joke..." I say before my crying causes me not to be able to speak anymore. "Alicia, Robbie grew up thinking he was a boy, when he found out... He fought against it. He wanted to be the guy that everyone expected from him. Even after having to have surgery... He still kept trying to be that boy," Jen told her while she walked over to me and put her arm around my shaking shoulders. "Surgery? What kind of surgery?" Alicia asked, with much less anger in her voice. "They had to do surgery due to, um, complications. His womb was finishing up forming and had started to open up... So, for his health and safety they had to... Finish making him a girl..." Jen said softly. "That's impossible! You actually expect me to believe this? It can't be... You're trying to tell me that I fell for a girl pretending to be a boy?!?!" Alicia said her anger returning. Standing up I look directly at Alicia and tell her, "Alicia... I never wanted to hurt you. I swear. I tried to tell you... I'm so sorry..." Walking up to me and looking at me standing there in my bra and panties, she looks at me directly in my tear reddened eyes for a moment. Glancing over at Jen and then back to me she says much more softly, "I still don't believe you... It's not possible... You kind of look like him, but I can tell you're not Robbie. I know you're not, and I know how I can prove it." Jen and I both look confused and then Jen says, "How can you prove it?" Alicia looks a bit smug at this point and simply says, "This way," Then she walks right up to me wrapped her arms around my neck and kisses me hard. It catches me off guard but it only takes me seconds before I return the kiss. I look briefly at her and see she's closed her eyes, so I do the same and just let myself feel her against me and feel her lips on mine. I have no clue how long that kiss lasted but it felt like it could have been hours, even if it had been it wasn't long enough. As she pulled away I felt my hands slide off of her waist where I had unconsciously placed them, and I looked into her face of realization. For a second I smiled at her, thinking that we might be okay. Then I saw that face of realization change to one of hurt and anger. I felt like my heart had stopped beating, and seeing how hurt she looked I wished that it had of stopped. "Oh my God!! You are Robbie..." Alicia started to say, then I noticed the tears forming in her eyes. "How could you?" Was all she got out before she started crying. "Oh God, Alicia... I'm sorry... I never meant for this to happen..." I pleaded. Looking up at me, anger etched in her face she all but shouted, "What did you not mean? To Lie to me? To make me fall in love with you?" she then buried her face in her hands and barely got out between her own sobbing, "How could I have fallen in love with a girl." I ease up to her and putting my hand on her shoulder to try to console her, "I can't tell you just how sorry I am, I'll do anything you need so you can forgive me." Snapping her head up to look at me, face still twisted in anger she shouted, "GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!!" I quickly backed up in tears. Noticing Jen standing where she was when the kiss happened she appeared to still be in shock at what she saw. "Fine I'll go..." I whimper and grab my top and jeans and start throwing them on. Jen comes up to me and whispers to me, "I'll talk to her. Are you going to be okay?" I just shrug to finish gathering up my things. As I make sure I have everything in my backpack, Alicia is still sitting on the bed looking dazed. As I sling my backpack over my shoulder and grab the door to open I feel Jen's hand on my shoulder turning me to face her. "Rebecca tell me you are going to be okay. Promise me that you're not going to do... You know," she tells me, her eyes red with her own tears. "I'm not going to do what you're asking about; I just need to get out of here... If she'll listen, try to let her know how much I didn't want to hurt her, please," I beg. "I'll try. Call me when you get home okay? Please," she said as she hugged me. I just nod to her and leave the room closing her door silently. I over hear Alicia saying, "I can't believe you're helping him...her... whatever it is!!" My heart totally breaks at hearing those words. "You're angry and don't you dare call her an it! Robbie or Rebecca is the same person who was our friend," Jen said starting to sound angry. "She is an incredible person, the same person that would drop anything to help a friend. Did you know that last month Robbie had plans to... take his own life..."? As she finished I could hear her voice start cracking. I heard Alicia utter a surprised "what?" before I headed down the stairs as quietly as possible to keep from disturbing her parents. When I got to the front door I heard footsteps so I turned around and saw Mrs. Cook standing there. "Sweetie we heard some of the commotion. Are you okay?" she asked walking up to me. I just shook my head tears flowing freely as she gently wrapped her arms around me and kissing me on my cheek. "Baby I know this hurts, but it will get better. Why don't you let me drive you home okay?" I just shook my head no. "It's okay Mrs. Cook I'll be alright. I promise," I tell her. I'm not sure who I'm trying to convince, her or myself. She just holds me a few more minutes gently rocking me side to side before she lets me go. "I'll call when I get home, Jen already made me promise to," I tell her wiping the tears from my eyes. "Okay. Sweetie if you need anything we're here for you," she tells me as she gives me one more kiss on the cheek. I just nod at her giving a sad smile then I turn and head out the door. Sitting in my car I put the key in the ignition and I stop and think about everything that had just happened. Feeling so frustrated I just screamed at the top of my lungs and started pounding on the steering wheel over and over with everything I had. A few moments later I noticed some lights had turned on at the neighbor's porch so I started the old Ghia and started to pull out when I looked up and saw both Jen and Alicia looking out the window at me. Feeling like a total ass for my outburst I put the old VW in gear and headed home. It was late, about 11:30 when I walked into the house, I was trying to be quiet because I knew my parents would be in bed and weren't expecting me home. I was a bit surprised to find my mom sitting in her chair waiting on me. "Mom, why are you up?" I ask her. "Anne called me and told me what happened. How are you holding up?" she asked, getting up and giving me a hug. Which only started my tears all over. "Mom I ended up hurting her so much... It's all my fault," I cried. "Shhh baby, it's not your fault. You did everything you could not to hurt her, right?" she asked. Wiping my tears, I nodded. She continued, "Sometimes it just happens, once she calms down maybe you can talk." "I don't know... I'd like to, I just don't know if I can face her again. All I can see when I close my eyes is how upset she was," I said as I sat down on the couch. "I know sweetie, this will pass okay. It will get better, I promise," she told me, then looking at my tear streaked face she smiled and continued, "Look at my poor girl, you've made such a mess of your makeup. Just sit right here and I'll be right back," I couldn't help but smile at that and nodded to her and told her I needed to call Jen real quick anyway... She ran to the back of the house while I called to let them know I was home, and came back a few minutes later and sat down next to me. Smiling at me as she started to wipe my tears and face, she asked how the party was. We spent the next hour sitting on the couch talking about anything and everything except what happened with Alicia. I knew she was trying to keep my mind off of what had happened, and I was thankful for that and for her. After the long talk and a long hug, I kissed her good night and went to bed, I was so emotionally exhausted I barely remember lying down before passing out. I woke up earlier than normal and tired, due to my emotional state I didn't sleep well at all, tossing and turning through the night with some horrible nightmares. Last night I had gone to bed upset and depressed, this morning it had turned into anger. I was angry at myself for hiding for so long, I was also angry for not hiding longer, I was angry at how Alicia responded, I was angry at everything. I ended up pacing in my room for a short while, trying to calm down but it was doing nothing to cool the fire inside of me. Knowing I was going to have to burn it off otherwise I was going to explode, I started getting ready to go run. Today I knew I was going to end up pushing myself harder than I have in a while. Headed out the door I didn't even bother to grab Mom's keys, I was still angry enough that I didn't care if anyone saw me in the Ghia. Parking in my normal lot on campus I ended up stretching a bit more than normal, I knew today was going to be rough on me. Once I was finished with my stretches I started my run, trying to reign myself back some until I warmed up. Even as upset as I was, I knew better than to seriously hurt myself, after about 10 minutes I increased my pace. My normal loop that took me part way around and partway through campus was close to six and a half miles, which one loop was what I normally ran lately. As I ran, my mind started running through everything that had happened, from the start of my changes and to what had happened as of just last night. I had just started my second lap around the loop, when I heard a voice distracting me from my thoughts. "Morning, are you in a hurry to get somewhere at this pace?" Paul joked. I turned and looked at him, the look on my face caused his brows to furrow just a bit. "Paul today might not be a good day to run with me okay," I told him, trying to keep my voice calm and steady. "Rebecca are you okay?" he asked, concern evident in his voice. "No Paul, I'm really not," I said, feeling some of the anger starting to fade but there was still plenty there. "I can't talk about it, so don't ask okay..," He just nodded. "Well I'll try not to bother you, but I'll try to keep up just in case..."he said. "Fine, whatever..." I said, not really happy he was tagging along. Even though I was angry I didn't want to take it out on him, he didn't deserve that. My pace stayed constant, my mind started drifting on to friendships I had formed and what may lie ahead in the months to come. Would those friendships last? Would I be able to forge new friendships? Those were the questions that were running through my head as we were finishing up my second lap of the campus. Obviously winded by now and the pace that I had set, Paul said, "Are you not stopping? Or are you going to keep going?" "I'm not done yet... Paul just head back; you don't need to keep up with me," I said panting hard. I wasn't done yet, I still had so much conflict in my head and heart and I could still feel that smoldering anger deep inside. Paul didn't respond at all but with a look of grim resolve he didn't break off. I just shook my head and returned back to my thoughts. We were about a third of the way around this time when my thoughts returned to Alicia. I thought about how I had met her and Jen when I first moved here in 2nd grade, we all instantly became friends, even when I had hit the start of my downward spiral we stayed friends. I could tell that she didn't know what to do or how to talk to me as I started sinking, but she remained nice to me. Then once Jen had started pulling me out of my depression, how Alicia and I almost instantly hit it off again with that easy conversation and similar sense of humor. I thought about how she had come on to me and how wonderful it had felt being in her arms. Then I thought about last night and the look of hurt and anger on her face, then how she called me an it. I immediately ran out of steam and stopped running and just stood there on the path feeling the tears that had started running down my cheeks several minutes ago. I heard Paul come up behind me huffing loudly as I completely broke down and just fell in a heap crying profusely. Paul was lost as far as what to do, he just stood there catching his breath with a concerned expression on his face. He sort of looked like a lost puppy at that moment. A few minutes later I moved to a sitting position with my legs in front of me bent and my head resting on my knees. While I was still crying, picturing her face in anger, the heaving cry was over. It was at this moment that Paul just came up and put his hand on my shoulder. I looked up at him and did my best to smile, strangely thankful that he was here still. Reaching up and clasping his hand I softly told him, "Thank you, and I'm sorry you had to witness this," I shook my head and wiped my tears with my other hand. "Rebecca I don't know what's wrong, but I'm here if you need a friend," he said giving me a comforting smile and softly squeezing my shoulder. Then he offered both his hands and helped me up. "I don't have too many of those and I think I just lost most of the ones I had," I told him, which only started the waterworks up again. Looking at me in the eyes, he gives me a serious look and says, "Rebecca I find that hard to believe. I mean we really haven't talked much, but you seem like a really good person. Why would you think that?" "Paul... I've just had to overcome... I mean..." I was trying to tell him, but the fear of another incident like last night had the words catching in my throat. "I guess what I'm trying to say, for years I had been trying to be who everyone expected me to be... I couldn't do it anymore, and last night a very close friend found out... and... and..." I couldn't continue due to the tears started back up. I just buried my face in my hands to try to hide and then Paul caught me completely off guard. Without saying a word, he just stepped up close, put his arms around me and pulled me into a hug. For a brief second I felt the Robbie part of me screaming to pull away, but honestly in my emotional state it felt good to be held in his strong arms, it felt safe. Pushing the old part of me back down, I just leaned into his shoulder and softly finished my cry. After I was able to compose myself once again I pulled back some, him pulling his arms from around me but gently resting his hands on my shoulders. Looking deep into my eyes he asked, "Look I don't know your friends or what exactly you've gone through and honestly you don't have to tell me until you're ready to. Just know I think you're a really cool girl and so far I like the person I've seen. Is this the real you, that you've been hiding? Or is this the person you've been projecting?" I smiled at that slightly and said, "This is the real me Paul, or at least as much of the real me that I've discovered so far. Thank you," He just nodded and smiled at that. Letting go and stepping back he said, "Ok if you're okay we need to get to walking to stretch out our legs. I have an idea. Since its almost 11 why don't you let me take the new and improved you to lunch." "I'd like that.", I told him. Then realizing something he might not know since he hadn't ever hit on me before, I hadn't felt the need to disclose. "Um, Paul I do need to let you know something. I don't go to school here, I'm still a sophomore in high school. I only just turned sixteen a few months ago," I said quietly and looking down. "Hey it's okay, I'd still like to treat you to lunch," he told me smirking. "Umm, don't you think it would be a bit awkward taking a sixteen-year-old to lunch?" I said just a bit concerned. I mean what would a college student want to hang out with a high school student. "Not really," he told me laughing, "I'm only a freshman here, but there is another reason. I only just turned 17 last month myself." "Wait a minute? How'd you manage that?" I said fairly unbelievingly. "Rebecca, I skipped a few grades when I was a kid. I actually should only be a junior in high school myself," he said grinning from ear to ear. "Why do I not believe you?" I asked skeptically. Still laughing he said, "Honest I can show you my license and everything. This is actually kind of cool. Just about every girl I've been around since the 5th grade has looked down at me like a kid. So still up for lunch?" I thought for a moment before I agreed, and we started walking back to his dorm to get his car and also to stretch our legs out. It took us about half an hour to get to his dorm and we spent the time just talking and joking around. Thankfully he didn't press me about what had caused my melt down earlier, so we had kept it to small talk. Once we got to his dorm, he asked me to wait in the common area downstairs while he went and grabbed his wallet. Immediately after he left I noticed several of the guys had started staring at me, and a few came over to start a conversation. I had just started feeling uncomfortable since I was the only girl around and was quickly becoming surrounded, thankfully Paul reappeared and "rescued" me. It was strange, I remember my first impression of him and how he annoyed me and now I was relieved at his presence. Heading back outside we walked up to a fairly early model Fox body Mustang. "Cool car, does it have the V-8?" I asked. Staring at me curiously, "Umm no... Do you know about cars?" he asked. Forgetting for a second that I was supposed to be a girl, I realized stereotypically I shouldn't have been interested in cars. Figuring it was too late now I just smiled and said, "Just a bit. Don't feel too bad my car is only a 4 cylinder too." He just laughed and unlocked my door holding it open for me to get in, that made me feel just a bit self-conscious. When he came around and climbed in the driver's seat he just smiled and turned the key and all we heard was a loud click and nothing happened. He tried it again and all we heard was a click and again nothing. I couldn't help but start giggling. "Umm I don't know what's wrong, it's never done this before. I'm sorry," he told me obviously embarrassed. "Would it help if I got out and pushed?" I asked him still giggling. "Don't tell me you're a Star Wars fan and a car guru too? "Guilty, at least of the first part. Honestly though, it sounds like it's just your starter, let me check something. Turn your lights on and when I say, try to start it," I tell him smirking as I got out and walked to the front of the car. "Try it now," I yelled, when it clicked and the lights didn't dim I knew what it was. Walking to the driver's side I just leaned on his car door smiling. "Okay, do you know what it is?" he asked, pretty dumbfounded that I appeared to know what I was doing. "Yeah your starter solenoid isn't engaging, so you need either a new starter or a new solenoid. If you can get just the solenoid its cheaper," I tell him, still smiling. Then I add, "C'mon we can take my car, follow me. It's only parked a few blocks away from here" He gets out of his car and giving me a sideways look and says, "You, Rebecca, are not like any girl I've ever met before." I laughed, but only slightly as I thought of exactly just how different I was. Quietly I just said, "You have no clue Paul. No clue at all." When we arrived at my old Ghia, Paul was dumbfounded I was driving this old relic. I don't think he had ever seen a Karman Ghia before honestly. As we got in and I coerced the old fella to start, he started quizzing me on how I knew so much about cars and why I was driving this thing. I started to tell him the history of it and how I used to help my Dad work on it when I was little. I also told him I had inherited my dad's love and gift of tinkering on things, so I tended to pick up car stuff very easily. We ended up going to this great little sandwich shop and ended up having a really nice lunch. He didn't pressure me for anything and we just talked like old friends. About school and our pastimes, I figured since he knew already about my car skills I told him about my step-dad's agreement, that as long as I did the work he would buy the parts for me to finish the restoration on the Ghia. As I dropped him back at his dorm he asked, "Could you show me where the starter is? That way when Dad sends me the money I know what I'm supposed to change," I couldn't help but grin and nod. Shaking his head, he popped the hood and I opened it the rest of the way. Looking around I spotted the starter and pointed it out to him. "Usually these are easy to change, just those wires and two bolts and it will slide out okay? Then just reverse that to put the new one in," I told him. Then I looked around and couldn't help but smile a bit, since we had gotten some attention from guys watching us and pointing. "Um Paul, it looks like we have an audience. Sorry but they're probably going to give you a hard time. Unless you just want to tell them you were explaining stuff to me to save face," I told him with a devilish grin. Looking around Paul started to look a bit embarrassed, he just said, "Great, that's all I need as if they didn't give me a hard time before for being a couple of years younger than them," Then he laughed a bit, "Actually I think I'll just make them jealous of having a hottie car mechanic for a girlfriend." Immediately he saw the look of surprise on my face at that comment, then realized what he had said. "No that's not what I meant, I meant umm, a friend that's a girl... Oh geez." His face turned bright red at that and set me off to laughing until I was about to cry. Lightly punching him in his arm, I just said, "Just remember that mister. You know that would probably make them a bit jealous," I gave him a big teasing grin. Then I started thinking essentially what had just happened might be construed as a date, but friends can go eat together right? Even if they are a boy and a girl, right? I didn't realize it but my smile had faded at those thoughts. "Rebecca are you okay? What's wrong?" he asked me. "Paul... I want to be straight with you okay. We're just friends, right? I just... with everything going on with me right now... That's all I can offer right now okay?" I said, trying not to let my mood wreck the fun that we had had. "Rebecca I'm okay with that, actually I really haven't made that many friends here. I would consider myself extremely lucky to have you as a friend," he told me, concern in his eyes. I just stared at him in his eyes for a quick moment, and the way he said that made my skin feel flushed all of a sudden. "Paul... As far as what you did for me today... for being there like you were... I just want to say thank you..." I said softly. I thought about shaking his hand but quickly dismissed it as lame, suddenly I caught myself leaning in and wrapping my arms around his neck and pulling him in for a nice tight hug. Feeling him wrap his arms around my waist and hugging me back made that flushed feeling all the more intense. It reminded me almost of how I felt when Alicia hugged me that night, but it was different and I wasn't sure how just yet. Finally breaking the hug, I turned and kissed his cheek real quick which made him blush even brighter. Putting his hand over his cheek where I kissed him, he looked at me curiously and asked, "What was that for?" "Just an additional thank you," I said smirking, then trying to figure out why I had kissed him myself I, just added, "Hey my friend Jennifer and I kiss each other on the cheek all the time. Besides you're the first boyfr.... I mean... friend who's a boy that I've had... So just deal with it," Realizing my slip up and almost calling him a boyfriend made me blush a bit, but did tickle me so I busted out laughing. Paul was amused at it as well and joined in the laughter. Once we had quit laughing we said our goodbyes and set a time on Monday to meet up for our next run, Paul also asked if I would mind helping him when he got his new starter. After kidding him for a minute I of course agreed. Driving home I realized I was still upset over Alicia, but it was tolerable. Maybe just having Paul there, as a friend, made the difference. Who knows, if he hadn't of shown up today I might still have been running. Getting home Mom of course checked up on me, she had been worried when she saw I was gone and hadn't taken her car today. I told her how I was angry and didn't care if I was seen or not. I also told her about my day with Paul and how he had helped me. I noticed a twinkle in her eye as she listened to me so I had to remind her he was just a friend. I don't see guys like that, or at least I never had before. To keep her from quizzing me to death, I headed to take a shower and gather my stuff for spending the night with Jen. All of us had agreed until my secret was out that I would continue going to church with them and sleeping over at her house the night before. When I arrived at Jen's a few hours later she immediately just grabbed me in a hug and asked, "How are you? I've been worried." "Actually I'm okay considering, well everything that happened. How is Alicia?" I asked, needing to know. "I honestly don't know, she calmed down a bit after you left and we heard your... umm... Outburst in your car last night. We talked for a while before we went to sleep, but she left early this morning shortly after waking up. She's hurt, but you already knew that. Rebecca, I don't think she will tell anyone, but I'm not positive at all," she told me putting her hand on my arm. I just nodded. "If she tells she tells, nothing we can do about it now. Guess we will find out tomorrow at church if she told Robin," I say. After thinking about it a for a minute I just sigh and ask, "Can we not talk about it and just have fun tonight, I'll just deal with it tomorrow if she did say anything to anyone." Jen just smiled at me and said, "You know? I think we can do that." We spent the rest of the night just hanging out. After eating supper, we spent the rest of the night in her room mostly just talking. I told her about my run, my meltdown and how Paul had been there to help me. While she didn't make any comments about Paul I could tell she was filing the conversation away to revisit it later, probably once this crisis was over with Alicia. I woke up to a repeat of the previous week, Jen had snuggled up to me and had her arm wrapped around my waist. Unlike last week I didn't have to urgently use the restroom, so I laid there snuggled up to her. Like before I didn't feel turned on in any way, but laying there with her holding me tightly just felt right. Finally, her alarm started buzzing and she just groaned for a minute before finally rolling over and turning it off. I rolled over to look at her and just gave her a big smile. "Morning girlfriend," I told her, I could tell she wasn't awake enough to appreciate my cheerfulness. "Ugh, let me guess you've been awake for a while. No one is that cheerful just waking up," she muttered, but did add a slight smile. "Maybe I was awake for a while, and maybe I just didn't want to disturb my snuggle buddy," I grinned. Laughing at that she smiled and said, "Well your snuggle buddy appreciates it, but go get your shower and let us non morning people wake up fully," I laughed at that, but obliged. Getting ready this morning Jen didn't have to do any touch ups to my makeup, of which I was pleased with. She still didn't approve my very simple style, today was just a nice skirt blouse combo that showed my figure quite well. I even argued that I thought that there was an elegance to its simplicity to which she just rolled her eyes at me. By the time we arrived at Sunday School my anxiety was high but not enough that I couldn't hide it. Greeting Robin before class started, it didn't appear that Alicia had told her anything about me, or anyone else. If she had of told anyone at all it would have been all over the town by now I was pretty sure. By the time class had ended I was fairly calm and thoroughly enjoyed class and even the service after. I kept looking around to see if there was anyone staring at me, while I was calm I was still a bit nervous. Other than a few guys were staring at me, no one was giving me any odd looks thankfully. Strangely I didn't find the stares the guys did give me really didn't bother me at all, I knew what was behind those stares and that kind of excited me. Which surprised and scared me at the same time. I spent most of the day with my guard up, just in case she did tell someone. The day actually was quite relaxing and calm. Knowing today was Monday, and I would be back in School in full Robbie mode with Alicia being there, my mind kept thinking that today was just the calm before the storm. That thought was what kept bouncing around in my head that night as I tried to fall asleep. Continued in part 13 Once again I would like to thank those that have been following my story, I greatly appreciate your comments and feedback. I hope you all enjoy this part even with the ups and downs. Rebecca Jane.