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Chapter 1 James Young was walking into his last class of the day, Intro to Women's Studies and he was relieved that it would not be as intense as his core classes. James needed a class which did not dive deep into the subject matter as much as the higher level education courses he had earlier in the day did. The junior in college was talking a freshman weighted course for he needed a culturally diverse class to meet the criteria to graduate from Penn State University, so he signed up for it. He decided to take the class for the man figured he would like the like the class for the male to female ratio. That was true and what he will tell his friends. The real reason his was that classroom was James always felt in touch with his feminine side. His understanding of the fairer sex should help him earn an easy A in the class.. If he could relate to how a woman felt and thought then the concepts and ideology in the class should be easy for him to understand and articulate in papers and express on tests. He did not share his feeling of empathy with women with his friends for he did not care to explain to them those qualities were what made him who he was and made them befriend him. James was gentle and caring, when growing up he would always be bringing home a stray dog, a wounded bird and and even an orphaned raccoon. He was also kind, he volunteer and collect for charity, help people when he saw a chance and was always there for his friends. He was late for his first day at his first job for on his way there he changed a flat tire for a lady stranded on the side of the road. He was a great listener. He found that trait helpful when he was captain of his high school debate team, he could dissect the opposing team stance by finding the inconsistency in what they said. There was also more to James' empathy to women, he loved their style. He thought nothing of it for he thought all men did also. In a manner he was right, most men loved how women dress. It was just the reasoning behind the love was different. James knew that women clothing was not just functional. He loved how women would use their clothes to express how they feel, how they wanted to be seen and show who they are. He loved how soft women garments are, how careful a women would be in putting together an outfit so matched and had the right accessories. While most other men love women style for how they make the women look. His deep understanding of why women dressed the way they do was a part of his empathy he did not know he had. As usual he was early, he always gave himself plenty of time to make it where he needed to be just in case he got sidetracked by helping someone, and he sat in the back. He always picked a seat in the back so he could observe his fellow students. As the rest of his classmates wondered in, he smiled to himself thinking he was right about enjoying the ratio. Finally the professor came in. Once the professor got organized and went up to the podium the clatter in the class started to die down until the classroom went silent. Then he introduced himself as Dr Allagi. He gave the syllabus to a couple of the students in the front and asked them to pass them back. While they were being pass out Dr Allagi started to go over the material covered by the syllabus. It was a standard syllabus, stating time and place of the class, the objective of the class, university code of conduct, topic cover for each class session and grading. The grading system made James smile to himself, he was right about it being an easy A. No test, class participate, 5 papers and a project; all it was going to take is time and effort by James to get an A..The project was to do something to help you better understand how women are perceived, seen and their place in society today then write a report on it. The teacher explain it can be anything to helping out at a women's shelter to getting your grandmother to tell you her life story. James left the class wondering what he was going to do for the project. It did not help him that he heard his classmates coming up with great ideas as they walk out of the building with him. He did not want to do the same project as someone else. He wanted to do something fun and original. He walk back to his dorm thinking about what project to do. ********* James walked into room and greeted his dorm mate, Dillon, and got a greeting back. They have been living in the same room together for the last two years. They got along well, complement each other and were good friend, both of their social circles did a huge overlap. Them being good friends, not best friend was what made them perfect roommates for each other. They get enough time away from each other so they do not get on each other nerves. Dillon Roberts was an all around good guy. He was the type of person who would give you the shirt off of his back. In fact, James saw him do so. When one of James friends came to visit, Dillon had the Star Wars shirt which said who's your daddy withe Darth Vader on it. .His friend made such a big deal about how awesome the shirt was. In a matter of fact manner Dillon took it off, gave it to him and just went to his drawer to put on another shirt. James' friend told him he could not take it and Dillon insistent James' friend took it for he would enjoy the shirt more than Dillon would. James sat down and they started talking about their day. James enjoyed and looked forward this part of his day. He knew that he would get into a good conversation with Dilon. The question was not just a pleasantry, they both wanted to know how each other's day went. They both wanted to tell each other for if they had an issue which they need help resolving they knew they would get the perspective of someone else. It helped them in their personal and academic lives. The conversation got to James telling Dillon about his little dilemma about what to do for his class project. It is little for it is not important, but James want to have the planning down for this class. He knew when he will work on the papers and just want to put in his schedule when he will do this project. Dillon smiled and said, "It is simple dress as a women. I can escort you to a dance one of my clubs have.You will also get to know somewhat how it is to be treated like a women." If it was any other of his friends James would think it was a bad joke, but not with Dillon. Dillon was gay and had friends who were crossdressers.Dillon would never make a joke out of how his friends express who they were. He understood not fitting into the boxes society wanted you to.. James actually enjoyed having a gay roommate, not so he could show that he was a good liberal with a wide variety of friends. It is for when they do go out socializing together Dillon is a great wingman. Girls are more open around a gay man, and James never have to worry about Dillon wanting the same girl as he did. James thought, "Hey all guys wonder what it would be like to wear those soft pretty clothes." James really did believe that for he was in somewhat of denial of how intune he was to his feminine side. James responded, "Go on about the somewhat how it is to be treated like a women, I am intrigued." Dillon with a shocked look on his face, said, "Really, I was just joking, but if you are intrigued here it goes." He paused for he had to think it through for it was a joke. "You know how once a month the LGBT Student Society has a dance in the ballroom of the student union. While some of the guys dress up as women. The other guys and girls there treat them as women. If you really want to do this then I will be more than happy to take you and make sure that no guy try to treat you too much like a women. I say treat you too much like a women, for you will have to put up with guys hitting on you, and ogling you. I just want to stress you will be hit on but want you to know If it gets too much for you to handle or they are getting too fresh then I will come to save you." That ogling and being hit on by men made James rethink it for a second. Could he take being the pursued by a man? He then thought he will not have to worry about it for he will not be good looking as a woman. Also,if a man was drunk enough or had bad taste to hit on him, he knows that Dillon would be there for the save. That is what wingmen do,get each other out of trouble. Dillon went on and mention the he thought that the girls would love to help James with this project. The girls were four of their friends who rented a two bedroom apartment off campus. There was Audrey Salk, the de facto leader. She was a pre-med major. Her roommate, Lilith Rose, who was a sociology major. She was vocal and after graduation is going to be a great women's right activist. The two girls in the other bedroom were supportive Cara Ham, an education major. She had a way to bring out the best in others. And lastly Lexie Lucas, a double major, theater and marketing. She wanted to work in show business to express herself so if she could not make it as an actress she had a fall back plan of being in promotion. After James agreed with Dillon, the conversation changed topic. It went to the more mandaue one of Dillon running into his friend Paul and having to once again turn down his advances. Paul was the first man Dillon was with and wanted to have Dillon again. Dillon liked Paul but did not want a relationship with him for Paul did not want a serious relationship. Dillon wanted a serious relationship, to meet the man of his dreams and start a life with him. ********** James being the type of person who liked to get things done as soon as possible went to Dr Allagi's office the next day to talk to him about the project. Dr Allagi was a middle aged man who loved the subject of gender identification. He loved how gender is on a spectrum and being so made some traits which were masculine at one point in history are now feminine and vice versa. He also loved that his class helped his students to better understand the role of gender not only in society but in their personal life. The door was open when James got to Dr Allagi's office and knocked on the frame. Dr Allagi looked up from the book his was reading and told James to come on in. James introduced himself and told Dr Allagi he had a unique idea for the class project he had to do. Then the nerves got to James and he quit talking. Dr Allagi waited for a moment and then finally asked James what was the idea. James told him and the professor just studied James over. He was deciding if James was trying to be funny or was sincere in what he suggested. The doctor decided that James was sincere for how nervous he was about it. Dr Allagi asked James why he wanted to dress and be treated like a woman. James casually said for he wanted to not do a run of the mill project and this one was the best way he could think of having the female experience. He quickly added that he might not be able to do it for he still needed to ask his good friend to help him. Dr Allagi became a little sceptical and ask James why he thought that some college age guys could help him with the project. James quickly corrected him and said it was 4 ladies who were going to help him. That put Dr Allagi mind at ease. Dr Allagi approved the project on one condition. That James did the project for a weekend. The Professor added the time to the project to see how much resolved James had about it. He did not want James to think this would be playing dress up. He planned on shorting it back to the dance if James said yes in a convincing fashion. James jumped at the chance and said, "Yes that is a great idea, I wish I would have thought about it. Doing it just for a couple of hours would not really give me the experince of being a female at all. I know the entire weekend would not either, but it will be more in depth." Dr Allagi did not shorten the time of the project for James made some great point and seemed enthusiastic about it being longer. He told James that he could back out if he changed his mind, He also said that he was happy that James was taken this chance to really learn about the other gender. ******** When James got home from talking with Dr Allagi he called the girls' apartment and Audrey answered the phone. James asked her if they all were going to be home tonight for he wants to stop over. Audrey said you know you can come by anytime why are you asking. James hesitated for a second and blurted out for I want to ask you girls to do me a favor. Audrey knew it had to be something important for James by how he asked about the favor and she told him of course you can come by. She suggested that he brings a dessert and we will have a nice meal. You have to be sick of the dorm food. James got a nice chocolate cake and went over. They had roasted chicken with roasted carrots, potatoes and parsnips for dinner ate and caught up during supper. When he arrived James offer to serve dessert at the end of the meal, Lexie told him not to be silly, he is a guest so she will do it. Lilith was a little disappointed that Lexie said that for she enjoyed having a man serve her. They were eating dessert and Audrey brought up James' favor. James was a little surprise that he got nervous when she brought it up. Cara notice it and told James not to be that they will love to help him. James said that he needed help with his Women Studies project. Lilith liked that James was taking that course. She thinks that all men should have to take it so they better understand the plight of women in today's society. She said of course we will help with anything, I can tell you some great books to read to do research on feminism. She started to name books: The Feminine Mystique, The Bell Jar. Audrey interrupted her and said let James ask the favor. James said he had to write a paper on a project he has to do which deals with better understanding how women are perceived, and seen their place, and role in society today. Lilith interjected, "I have some great charities you can volunteer at." Audrey stop her again and told James to continue. James took a second to continue. He wanted to gather his words and pick them carefully. James wanted to make sure that the girls know that he is not doing this as a lark. He knew how hard it was to be a women in society. He also knew it will only be really for a weekend and done by. He did think it would be interesting to experince life as the other gender as much as he could . He wanted the to know he will take this serious. He said, "I talked to my professor about this and he likes the idea for my project. My project is that for a weekend I will live as a woman. I need your help with getting the right clothes, accessories, makeup and hair. I want to do this right and make sure it is not disrespectful to women. I am asking you girls for I know I can trust you to not tell everyone about it. You know most guys will not understand this project, hell I get grief from them for just taking the Women Studies class. So will you please help me. I know I will owe you all a huge favor." The girls all said yes for different reasons. Audrey figured that James is a crossdresser and found an excuse to do so, good for him. Lilith wanted James to see how hard it is a woman, oh he was going to wish he never thought of this idea. Cara wanted to be supportive to her friend, he should not have been nervous asking. Lexie thought it was a great idea to help James get in touch with his feminine side, it is going to help him grow. The girls started to talk about how they can better help James. Cara said if the others girls didn't mind he can stay here that weekend. Lexie always spend the weekend at her boyfriends so me and him could be roommates. Plus James will not be stuck in his dorm room and not wait until halloween. Cara asked Lexie it it was fine if James uses her bed. Lexie agreed to it, but said that she was not going to miss this. She will hang out with girls without her boyfriend on Friday night. She will meet up with him later. Lexie said that she could get some hair extension, breast forms, and silicone hip enhancers from the drama department. Lilith said Lexie let me help also, I could borrow breast forms from breast cancer survivor charity I volunteer at. Lilith thought that was the first way she was going to make James see how hard it is to be a woman. She was going to get him a nice big pair of breasts so men will stare at them. Plus then the men will see James was a man so they will just mock him. He was going to know how shallow men are and feel how much that hurts. Audrey said she could help you with the makeup and grooming. "If we were going to do this, we were going to do this right. James will wear casual makeup around the apartment, do it up more for when we go out as a group of girls then go the whole nine yards for when you are at the dance." James felt so relieved that the girls were happy to help. He was also very happy that Cara thought about the where he would stay when he is dressed. He is shocked that they are all taking the lead. He did notice that it was communal with none of them staying in the lead. They are working as a team and adding to each other idea. The really enjoyed that. Audrey looked at James and asked him where he was going to get his clothes. He said he was going to the thrift shops to do so, to save money. Audrey said no, that will not do. We needed to plan this weekend and I will buy one of the outfits. One I want you to look nice out in public, and two you need to really experince shopping for women clothes. You will not be buying what you are wearing to that dance at a second hand shop. Lilith smiled for she thinks that Audrey is on her side making to make James dread what he just signed up for. Lilith said she will pitch in to help with the shopping. Cara said she loved buying cute gifts for her girlfriends so she will help also. Lexie agreed with Cara and put a little emphasis on the word girlfriend in her reply. Lilith made eye contact with James and grinned. Those two are going to help also, this is going to be so great making him suffer. James got a little unsettle when Cara and Lexie said girlfriend. He showed it by tilting his head down and frowning a little. Lilith said don't get upset honey, put on your big girl panties. Cara told Lilith that is not nice. Then said James I was just ribbing you, sorry about that. Lexie and I meant nothing mean about it. Lexie apologized also. Lilith just agree half heartedly with Cara and Lexie. James turned red from being embarrassed from his over reaction. He said there was no need to be sorry, it was just he figured out that he is signing up for more than he thought. If he wanted to do this right that weekend those girls need to see him as a woman not a man. It just got too much. With it sounding like james is rethinking this project, Lilith could not resist to get at least one last taunt in on him. Lilith with a little condescending tone in her voice said, "If you are not women enough to do this we will understand." Audrey said enough joking around and said that some people, like Lilith just do not know when to stop. Lilith in a sweet voice did apologize. Audrey was right, she thought, do not harass James too much he might back out. And we might be able to talk him back into it if he tries to back out. James wanted to play back to show his is fine. He told Audrey it is fine. He looked at Lilith with a smirk on his face and said, "I might not be woman enough, but I am man enough to." Audrey decided that she was going to start viewing James as a woman and treating him like one. She will not verbalize it with him around, but will always think of him as her.while talking with. She thought it wais best if the other three did also. She waited to tell the girls her idea after he left. It was not that she was trying to be mean, far from it. It was so he can feel more comfortable when other people were doing so. It can be so the girls are more natural around him. Audrey asked James what were his plans were for the weekend as a woman. Lexie said yes let's hear what the plans. Cara joked we could have a slumber party. James laughed at her joke. Hearing him laugh made Cara feel so much better for she did not want to hurt his feeling earlier. Lilith did not want to stay so she excused herself saying she did not know that this was going to take so long. She needs to go to the women's student association and left. Everyone knew it was a lame excuse. After the door slammed from Lilith leaving Audrey said do not mind her she is just mad you got the last word James. James said while after getting ready on Friday afternoon he was thinking that he and the girls could go out for a nice meal and see a movie. He knew that they had a monthly ladies' night like that. He also knew that if he was with other girls he would get as many looks and people would not expect that he is not a girl. Then after the night out, they could come back to the apartment and just talk about the night. That he would want their input about how it went, what he did wrong and what he did right. Cara said she would love to hear how it made him feel. Then he went on to say with him having to live his life as normal as possible he was thinking of waking up early and going for a jog. Cara jumped in again and said I would love to go with you on that jog. Harboring back to her joke earlier, she said I would love to get you a cute workout outfit. James shaked his head and laughed again. He was happy that Cara was not beating herself up about that joke. She was not being mean about. Then after the jog just stay at home until he had to get ready for the dance. Just hang out and talk. Not talk about what I am experiencing but normal girl talk, the type you do without men around. I will need that to help understand being a woman. He knew he need to relax some that weekend and wanted to experience lounging around as woman. He did envy how they could just get so cozy. Lexie said she would buy the outfit for lounging around. Then get ready for the dance, have Dillon pick him up and go. Come back after the dance if it not too late talk about his day. Then on sunday morning have brunch with the girls. After brunch get changed and go back to being James. After hearing James out Audrey replied, "That sounds like good groundwork for a plan. I will buy your outfit for the girls night out. That leaves you to buy your dance outfit, your sleepwear, your undergarments and what you will wear for brunch on Sunday." Audrey paused for his response Agree, he said. Then she continued. "With it being a good groundwork You do need to work on it some issues. First what will be your name" James did not give that any consideration and blurtted out, "Jamie Lee." Audrey with a little disappointment in her voice said, "Dear, it cannot be Jamie Lee. Think of it your name is James and Jamie is a nickname for it. It might work for people who do not know you, but we will still see you as James if you go by Jamie Lee." James felt bad for she is right. He also did not notice she called him dear, Audrey only called girls dear. James replied, "Sorry Audrey, I am taking it serious. I really did not give much thought to a name for people are given names.I do know that if I was born a girl my mom would have named me Sarah Marie. So I am going to go with Sarah.I will be Sarah Marie Young" Audrey smiled. "It is fine James, I know you are being respectful, dear. It is just I wanted to let you know why I had an objection to that name. You do have final say in this for you are doing this. We are just going to support and guide you dear. You will be a great Sarah." Next question, what breast size will you want? Now I know you might not have thought about this, but we will need to know for the outfits and also so Lilith will get the right size." James thought about it. He felt like Goldilocks for did not want to go too big or too small, he wanted them to be just right. Then he thought he will really be like Goldilocks that weekend. Thinking back to his last girlfriend who was a little thick for a girl, he should go with her size. She was a B cup. James answered the question. "I think that B cups would be the right size for my body. So unless I am going too small I say B cups." Audrey smile hearing that answer. It is nice that he wants their input also, "You are right about the size being right for your body. Now bra, panties and sleepwear I suggest just getting a pack of cotton panties, a bra and use those for other everything other than the dance. The dance I suggest to get a matching set of bra and panties. Trust me you will just feel better about yourself there. Sleepwear you will just have to look up and see what you think is best, I would suggest something more feminine than female pajamas, they will feel like men pajamas on you. You will something without pants legs. Remember the less you wear of something a man can the more you will feel like a woman" James agreed again. He was a little taken back at how serious Audrey is taking this. He does appreciate it. She was really thinking about it and being so supportive. "Now onto the makeup and perfumes. One reason I said that I will help you in this area is that we have the same skin compLexieon. Other than the eyeliner, mascara and eye shadow, I will share mine with you. In fact we will go to the drugstore when the time is right and we will get it. My treat. I will just use it after that weekend. You will have free range on my perfumes, deodorants, and bath gels, dear." "Now the next area the accessories and shoes. You will need the right shoes for what you are doing. I already know the outfit I think you would like for Friday so we will need a pair of Mary Jane pumps for them. So if you like the outfit we will go with them. I also think that you will be able to use them for brunch on Sunday" James looked a little confused so Audrey went on to explain them. "A Mary Jane shoe is low cut with a strap across the instep. A pump is a heel in the back which is one an inch or two. The heel is also chunky, so they will be easier to walk in for you. You will need a pair of flats for around the house. The flats you will pick out after you decide on the outfit for lounging I think you can wear your normal running shoes for the jog, and after you pick your outfit for the dance we will pick the high heels. We will supply you with purses, unless we do not have one which goes with the outfit. Now Earings, You have both ears pierced. You can go to chain boutique, Claire's and buy some costume earrings and maybe even a necklace if any of the outfits needs one. You can also get some hairbands and clips for even without the extension you do have long hair." Cara jumped at the chance to go to Claire's. Lexie suggest that they all go to the mall this weekend to start the shopping. Audrey said she thinks everything is covered. James agreed, in a little bit of a daze. He felt a little overwhelmed from everything which needed to be done. He never realized how much work it takes to just have the right outfits. Everything has to not only match but be right for the occasion, even if it is just lounging around. The subject went back to catching up one what is new in everyone's life, and it is mostly their new course work. Audrey talked about she is enjoying her new classes. Cara brought up about how great it feels auditing a real classroom twice a week. Lexie is excited about winning the role of Sandy in musical Greece. She sang a little of Summer Loving. James never heard her sing and was amazed great her pitch is, she must be close to pitch perfect for how she just started to sing so well without warming up. After talking for a while longer James got up to leave. They all said goodbye and Audrey walked him to the door. She kissed him and the cheek and hug him well saying, "Now when you know which weekend it will be call us or if you think of anything else. Don't worry about anything, we are going to have a fun weekend and you will learn so much about yourself and the fairer sex.Have a good night dear. " He did not notice that she treated him more like a girl leaving than a boy. As he left he thought Audrey's farewell was a little strange. A hug, kiss on the cheek and calling me dear. She used dear a lot while referring to me, I never notice that before he thought also. It must be her way of showing her support he thought so he just shrugged it off. After he left Audrey told the other two how we are all going to be very supportive of Sarah. She said, "For this to be a good experience for Sarah we need to see James as her. So from now until the end of that weekend I think it is best if all of us see her as Sarah. We also need to be extra nice well doing so to build up her confidence. Agreed girls?" They agreed and will tell Lilith about it when she comes back. Chapter 2 James got back to his dorm and Dillon asked him how was hanging out with the girls. He said great, some changes were made about when it will happen. It will not be Halloween weekend, it will be sooner if that was fine with Dillon. Sarah's escort to the dance said of course. James found out from Dillon the next LGBT dance would be three weekends from then. James also informed Dillon he would be staying with the girls that weekend so Dillon would have the place to himself. James added the joke Dillon would not have to worry about James being home if he got lucky. Dillon took the joke for what it was, a compliment. James admire Dillon for he was holding out on finding Mr Right, not Mr Right Now. James was the same way about not wanting one night stands.. He did not want to cheapen being with someone special by just being with someone to feel special. Them both being open about how they viewed sex and relationships gave each of them the strength to hold true to their beliefs. After giving Dillon the update James saw it was, not too late so he called the girls to say which weekend it was. Audrey answered was that would it work out great. She then asked if there anything else on his mind. James mention that Lexie was right the shopping should be done this weekend.. Audrey mention that they might not be able to get everything in one shopping spree. Cara's ears perked up when she heard shopping and asked to speak with James. She got on the phone and said, "come over before the weekend and we can do some online window shopping and just hang out." James liked the idea of spending time with Cara and asked if Thursday was good. Cara said of course. Then, Cara started to chat about how she thought James was being strong doing this and not to worry she will make shopping fun. James liked the idea of hanging out with Cara but making shopping fun, yeah right. The subject changed to music, the upcoming election and of course their favorite hobby, finding cool you tube videos.. They must have talked for about an hour. James hung up and Dillon joked you have the talking on the phone like a girl down. ******** Lilith came home and Audrey was at the dining room table like an angry parent waiting to have a talking with their child. Lilith looked towards the table and Audrey greeted her with a stern stare. "Lilith, you need to get on board with what James is doing. He came to us for help and you kept on mocking what he is going to do." "Come on Audrey what he is doing is playing dress up. It puts down who we are all by thinking that a man can ever come close to understanding the plight of a woman just by wearing a skirt." "Just cut Sarah, I mean James some slack. He is one of the good guys." "Oh, I can't believe it. You are playing along with his dress up game. I expected Cara would and maybe even Lexie, but you. You are going into medicine so you know how hard it is to be a woman." "I am not playing along with anything, I just want to support my friend. He wants to do it and like I just said he is one of the good guys, no he is a good person. How many times has James been there for any of us? I called him Sarah for I am trying to get behind me. I want to treat him like one of the girls so James as Sarah will have at least that experience. I think you should cut him some slack and get on board." "You are right, I overreacted. I will get on board and support this project. I will even go along with seeing James as Sarah." Lilith paused and was going to thank her friend for making her see the errors of her way. Then she thought better of it. That would be out of character for her and she wanted to snowblind Audrey about how much she hated what James was doing. There was no way the righteous lady would ever see James as anything as a man who was mocking her gender. That even the good guys needed to get a taste of how most men treat ladies. Audrey was happy that she saw that Lilith was coming around. The lady who was wiser than her years knew it would take some more time until her passionate friend would put all her energy behind it. That did not matter, for Lilith being open minded to what Audrey said was a great starting point. With that being settled Audrey told Lilith Sarah has decided on B cups for the breast forms. Lilith said, "great I will get the breast forms." Lilith thought that James might have decided on B cups but she was going get the biggest cup size she could. Hopefully they still have those D cups, but if not C cups will do. A great idea came to the woman who believed she was going to teach her friend a lesson, degrade him about the breasts he could not pick. Yes, she was going to call him a balloon breasted bimbo when he tried them on. She was going to make him feel so bad he will cry and he did deserve it. Treating being a female like it was a project wass so disrespectful.. Audrey was happy that she believed they came to an agreement on Sarah. She knew that Lilith was passionate and sometimes took actions before thinking. She knew that it was from Lilith just being so sure of her convictions and opinions being right. Audrey also knew that once Lilith thought about something she was rational, so after thinking it over Lilith will be more than happy to help James become Sarah. ********* The next day James showed up to Dr Allagi's office hours and talked to his professor about the idea for his project. James was not his normal self, he felt a little meek when trying to bring up the idea so instead of saying it, he gave Dr Allagi the proposal and time schedule which he typed up on his project. Dr Allagi looked over the papers which were handed to him. As he read them, he nodded in agreement and then looked James over. James felt a little shy and started to fidget in his chair. It was strange for James to feel uncomfortable and he did not like it. He actually had to concentrate some to quit trying to burn off the nervous energy. After reading the project, the professor looked over James and subconsciously shook his head no. James was disappointed for he thought the professor was going to flat out reject the project. James did not blame Dr Allagi. The student knew he should had known for it was a cockamamie idea. Why did he he even think for a second that a professor which dedicated his life to the study of gender issues would think something as trivial as wearing a couple of skirts would give a man a better understanding of the female experience. "James, I love your idea, but I do not think you can do it. You can't even bring it up to me, so how are you going to actually live as a woman for a weekend?" Hearing that the professor liked the idea made James' meekness and shyness go away. With his confidence regained James said, "Sorry Dr Allagi, I was nervous bringing it up for I thought you might see what I am proposing as making a mockery of women and also your class." "Why would I see it that way?" ""Dr Allagi, You could see it as I think that the clothes makes a person and somehow I think I can duplicate the experince of a woman just by wearing clothes. I do not as you can see I will be going to a dance where people are treated as the gender which they are dressed as and ..." Before James could continue Dt Allagi politely interrupted him. "James you put a lot of time and effort into writing the proposal. You wrote a proposal instead of just trying to come here and ask. You also considered how I would look at it. That shows me right there you are serious. So if you want to do this project you have my approval." James thanked the professor and they talked a little more about the project. Dr Allagi wanted to know more of what James wanted to get out of it and James was eager to explain his reasoning. For a reason unknown to him, the man with a woman living inside him, was taking total ownership of this project. He knew that he was putting going to put more time and effort into it than needed, but did not care. He just instinctively knew it was going to be good to do it. If he knew that Sarah was emerging James would had know that instinct was really woman's intuition. After James left, Dr Allagi thought about how great it was that someone else like him, to have understanding of the other gender. ********** Thursday came and after dinner James went over to hang out with Cara. He knocked on the girl's door and she answered it. She gave him a hug when she greeted him. He walked in and notice all the other girls were not home. He asked if she was ready to shop and she said why not we just sit on the couch first and just chat. She sat down with her one leg on the couch so she could face him and he did the same. Cara wanted the conversation to be personal It was just a nice little casual conversation between two friends. Cara did steer the conversation to get James to talk about his emotions. It was not hard to do for James was the open type. He had no issue talking about how he felt if someone asked. Sometimes, the sensitive man even freely brought them up, if someone talked about the movie Rocky he will mention that the scene where Rocky said, "I did it Adrian" brought tears to his eyes. How could it not? It was so emotional, Rocky went the distance with the World Champ, he overcame the odds and lasted. He won without winning. When Cara went to get her laptop she asked James if he could be a doll and get them both a drink. James asked what she wanted and her reply was just some water. Cara used doll for she knew she call girls that, and James did not blink with his friend using it. James got two glasses of water. Cara returned with her computer and told James first she was going to show him the outfits the girls thought would be good on him. The first outfit Cara showed was the one Audrey picked out. It was a short sleeve satin pink blouse with a tie collar and simple blue straight line midi skirt. She showed James the Mary Jane shoes and told her it will be with dark blue tights. She explain that tights are like thicker pantyhose which are not as transparent. She asked James what he thought, he told her it was nice. She looked at him and said, "Dear that was an answer a man would give. We are picking out outfits for Sarah, so I need to hear what Sarah would think. You need to see them how a girl would, for you will be one for that weekend. Think of yourself as Sarah now. Describe why you like or dislike what I am showing you. If you don't mind I will be calling you Sarah while we window shop. I know it is silly,but it might help you get in the right mindset." James thought Cara made valid points. These clothes are for Sarah and he had to see them as a woman would and not as what he was, a man. James answered, "Yes you can call me Sarah. I have to get use to it. Plus it will be fun, we will be just like girlfriends tonight." Cara agreed it would be fun also. She always wanted to know more about James, even with being open he said what was on his mind in a reserved manner. Maybe getting in touch with his feminine side would allow more emotions to come through with his responses., "OK, Sarah what do you think of the outfit?" James thought for a second, his mindset changed to how he thought he would see the outfit if he was Sarah then replied "I really like the outfit. It is simple yet at the same time elegant. It is definitely feminine yet not too girly. It shows 'I am woman' but is not too sexy. It says treat me for who I am not for what I look like. I love it, it will help me express who I am. Audrey, did a great job picking it out I have to thank her for knowing my style before I did. I also have to make sure she knows how good her taste is." Cara thought that was a quick change in response, it seemed like James was embracing Sarah right then. She noticed that his voice changed. It was a little softer, and a little higher. Also, his diction changed, his speaking rhythm became smoother, almost like he was singing. His choice of words were more inclusive. It was not all about what he had to do. It was about others also. James looked a little stunned and thought, "did I really say that?" He did not realize it but he was becoming Sarah for the moment. He was letting those penned up feelings and emotions comes to the surface. He was embracing his strong feminine side and it was showing. He was in a safe place so he was living in the moment. This moment he was a girl to Cara so he became the girl he really was. Cara, while lightly touching Sarah's arm, said, "I know what you are saying about the outfit dear. It is great and I think it will go with your style plus looking at your legs in your shorts you can pull it off." Sarah thanked her. It was not the normal quick thanks that James would give. Sarah's thanks was more thought out and explained why she was thankful. She added how happy she was that Cara noticed, "his" legs. Even with James being Sarah at the moment, he did not know he was her so he referred to himself in the male pronoun. . Next was the workout outfit that Cara picked, pink training leggings with white stripes on the sides and black trimming, with a black workout bra with a pink and white geometric print. Cara explained it was nothing fancy but gets the job done and was cute. Sarah replied, "You are right it is cute and adorable. For some reason it looks like something I will enjoy working out in. It would get me in the right frame of mind." Cara notice that Sarah did not stop for a second after saying cute. "Good the girls are so far two for two in picking out the outfits. That says we know you good. Sarah would have the same taste as James so we just picked what we thought James would wear if he was a girl." Cara showed Sarah the lounging around outfit Lexie picked out. A purple tunic with batwing sleeves, black legging and black flats with a double bow front. It was simple but fit its purpose so well. Sarah smiled and like it., "It looks so comfy and cozy. It is cute also.It seems like I like cute, he he" Cara noticed the giggle at the end. That was no laugh. The girl who did not know she was really hanging out with another girl did was lost at know what to make of the giggle. Laughs are involuntary actions so that was just natural for Sarah. Even with the giggle confusing Cara a little, she liked it. It seemed to come out more than James' normal laugh. It was less reserved and more full of joy. After the girls became three for three, Cara suggested to look at sleepwear next. They looked at sleeping gowns, nightshirts, camis and chemises. Sarah liked most of what she saw. Then one jumped off of the computer screen screaming, this is so you Sarah, it was a white chemise with a floral print on it with a little pink bow on the cleavage. As soon as she saw it she got excited and exclaimed, "I love this one, it is so cute. The bow is such a nice touch." Sarah got quiet. The reaction Sarah gave seeing the chemise she liked startled her. She had a sad confused look on her face. Sarah was not comfortable at how much she liked that sleepwear. Cara knew the answer upsetted her friend some reason so she reached over and hugged Sarah. Cara wanted to support her friend. During their embrace, Cara tries to comfort Sarah and says with a reassuring voice. "It is alright dear to get excited about something you like. You are Sarah right now and have no need to be reserved. Girls share and express to each other how they feel. You are going to have to share and express with us during that weekend so it is good you are doing it now. It is alright to like that chemise, for it is cute and you are right the bow is a nice touch. It is feminine yet not revealing, so it fits your style. Don't be upset that you like something and it is going to make you feel good to wear it You would like it on a woman as James so why not like it on you as Sarah?" Sarah listened and what Cara's comment made sense. They comforted Sarah by seeing she did nothing wrong. Sarah believed she just got too much in character. It was really that her real self was surfacing. "You are right dear, not being able to have a strong opinion or say what I feel about clothes and now being able to is just weird. It didn't feel right to do it so at that moment I felt a little ashamed. I should not be for this is exactly what I want to experience, to have a better understand of what it is to be a woman. I will try to openly embrace it. I tell you one thing Cara, I could not embrace it right now without your support. Thank you so much." When Sarah said that she touched her confidant's leg. Cara enjoyed Sarah light touch on her leg. It felt warm and friendly. The feeling of closeness Cara had with Sarah from the touch and this time together she wanted even after the weekend was done. She hoped that some of Sarah will stay with James for the rest of his life. Sarah's style was coming together, her little wardrobe was going to have a mature young woman feel to it. Her everyday look was going to show the world she is a strong confident lady who has no need to show off too much of her body yet makes sure it was not hidden away. It was going to be smart, elegant, delightful in a whimsical way. When she went for something either intimate or sexy it would be a classic look which is enchanting. Cara was enjoying seeing this side of her friend, James. She knew he was kind and sensitive but never really could articulate it well. She did find that odd for he was so witty and could easily articulate ideas and concepts. That was why she knew he was going to make an awesome teacher. "Sarah, we are done with window shopping, so what do you want to do." Sarah was disappointed that Cara said they were done. How could they be, they needed to get at least two more outfits. The girl who was around another person for the first time wanted to shop. "Sweetie, we are not done. I need two more outfits for the weekend. Plus, I am having so much fun. It is nice to see how I am going to present myself as Sarah. It gives me insight on who I am and also how I see women." "Wow, you are really taking this serious? Sorry I did not mean the question how it sounded" Sarah's hand waved down as a sign the question was no big deal when she said, "I know you did not mean the question in a bad way. sweetie. Yes, I am taking it serious. I would not do this project if I was not going to be sincere. I have too much respect for women to make a joke about who they are. Now, some words I never thought I would say. Let's shop!!!" Cara was impressed at how quickly her friend made sure the potential miscommunication was no big deal and took Sarah went to some sites to look for a dress for the dance. Sarah was feeling a little overwhelmed again. So many different choices. The inundated lady had no idea where to start, like she was cleaning up after a wild party. Then she saw an apricot V neck floral sequin sheer bodycon dress. As she pointed to what she wanted to wear the curious lady inquired, "Cara, do you think I pull that dress off. I know right now I do not have the hips for it, but I will be wearing hip enhancers. With those I will fill out the bottom while and the breast forms will fill out the top. I just think I would look sexy in it. While as sexy as I could." "You want to look sexy?" "Yes, I am going to a dance and women want to look their best there. I think in that social setting I would be looking my best if I went with sexy look. Why did you ask?" "Oh you have been going with cute, so I thought you were a cute girl. I mean, oh you know what I mean." "I do know what you mean; don't worry about it anymore, sweetie. Yes,most of the time if I was a woman I would be going for the cute look. But not for a night out on the town. I am seeing the dance as my night out on the town. I do know enough about women that they have different looks for different occasions. I know it is for woman use their appearance to express who they are and how they feel more than men do. I need to cram enough of those looks and the reason behind them into a weekend to feel those different aspects of being a woman." Cara broke seeing James as Sarah, she wanted to make sure to her friend knew the next statement was coming from the heart. "James, you have a real understanding for women, I do not want to offend you by saying this, but you are in touch with your feminine side. I do not mean you want to be a woman. I am saying you have an empathy towards women that most men do not. I am so happy that you are showing me this side of you. I want to see it more often." "I understand what you are saying and please call me Sarah tonight. James is just a name. I know it represents who I am, but it is still not me. With your help, I am tapping into other parts of who I am. I think your support is why I am better able to say and express what I am feeling. I know you were trying to make sure I knew you were talking about the real me. I do not need to hear you say James for that. I could tell by your words and your voice. Now, please tell me if you think I can pull off wearing that dress." Cara laugh to herself at how James/Sarah, she was still shifting back into seeing her friend as only Sarah, was not raveled and actually took that comment for what it was, flattery and was more concerned about the dress. Cara loved the dress which Sarah picked out.. "Sarah you can so pull off that dress. Like I said you have the legs, plus you arms are slender enough to wear tight fitting long sleeves. Plus you have the confidence. That is one of the secret woman use to wear what they want. They own it, you will own that dress. It will not be what you picked to wear that night, but what you should be wearing " "Good, I am looking forward rto now unto my brunch outfit," "Sarah, I have an idea why don't we pick that out at a store. It will just be me, and you together then, Audrey will want to hit the bookstore and I will give a hint for Lexie to join her. Don't worry doll, no one will even notice you. Couples always shop together." "I love that idea, Cara, we get to spend more time together as girlfriends, ha-ha." Cara joined in the giggle and then they both started to giggle louder. Those two kept on chatting and there were so many giggles in that time spent together . Cara and James always got along great but the chemistry between them was even better when James was Sarah. Audrey came home first from her study session to the sound of high pitched laughter and went she opened the door saw Cara and Sarah with huge smiles on their faces saying quit it. be serious to each other. Audrey jokingly said, "Oh great it is the Giggle Twins, Cara and James." Those two quit laughing and try to put on a straight face. Sarah with a twinkle in her eyes and grin starting to form on her face. "Oh -o, Mom is home. We better be serious, and Mom tonight it is Sarah, not James." Those two looked at each other and started to giggle again. Audrey joined in. She knew she fell into the material role with her friends and liked it. She also like the good natured positive ribbing which came from it. Even with laughing along with those two silly girls, Audrey's motherly side was processing what Sarah said. So the friend who looks after all her friends was cautious with what she said next. Half jokingly she said, "Sorry, Sarah." Cara quit laughing, "Audrey, James was Sarah tonight. He, she, oh who cares about pronouns, really embraced the moment. We had so much fun shopping and here look at the dress Sarah picked out for the dance." Audrey said, "I love that dress and it is going to look great on you Sarah. Do not worry about picking out a purse. I have the perfect clutch handbag to go with it." Sarah got excited, "Oh let me see!" Audrey went to her bedroom and got the bag. It was a black leather handbag with an etched floral design on it. Seeing it Sarah's eyes widen, "Oh it goes so well with the floral sequin of the dress. I can now just get some plain black heels for the outfit." Cara and Audrey booth just looked at Sarah. "What? I pay attention to details and know enough about how women put together their outfit. With how I want to present myself, I do not want too much going on so the shoes should be plain." Cara said, "Sarah, I will say you are full of nice surprises tonight. I am so happy we did the shopping this way." Sarah replied, "I am also." Those three talked for a little bit. Sarah made it a point to thank Audrey for picking out the outfit and added how much she love it along with her friend's sense of fashion. The lady who loved the first female outfit she would wear out in public also made sure Audrey knew she was touched at how well her friend knew her. Audrey was really paying attention to Sarah's mannerism and word choice. She wanted to see how much of Sarah James was being. It was not that she doubted James was trying to be Sarah, she just did not know if he would be able to get intuned with his feminine side that night. She saw that he was. To the lady who was diagnosing her friend how easy James slipped into being Sarah was a good thing, the weekend was going to be a great experience for Sarah also. She was going to have fun, while learning more about who James was. Sarah looked at the time and got up to leave. On her way out she gave both of the girls a hug and told them she was looking forward to Saturday. Sarah agreed to jogging with Cara this Saturday before shopping and Audrey's invite to hang out at the apartment that night. After their friend left, the two ladies talked about the night. They both wanted to better understand what happened and also their friend. It was not normal how at eased James was being Sarah. They would have sworn that James knew about his feminine side but for how casual he was. Someone who knew they had that strong of a feminine side would had been excited to be able to share it with others. On her walk home Sarah reverted back to being James. The man, who had a great time just being the lady he really was, chalked up how he acted from just good role playing. He also added the support he had from those two great friends to help him be in the moment. Little did he know it was just another step on his journey to becoming Sarah. Chapter 3 It was Saturday and James woke up and got out of bed before the alarm went off. It was only a quarter of hour before it was scheduled to go off, but him beating the rooster was unusual. Plus when he did, he usually just stayed in bed. Not today, James did not do his normal routine of take his time getting ready to start his day. The man who was greeting the day head on was ready to go out the door before the alarm went off. James knew why he was not acting his normal self, he was a little excited looking forward to spending time with Cara and the other girls. James really enjoyed his time with Cara on Thursday. Their closeness grew from spending that time together. It was for those two both saw a side of the other which they never saw before,and liked what they seen. James wondered if their connection will keep on growing. Another reason James was excited was he got to go shopping. Hey if Cara could make it fun online just think of the good time they would together at brick and mortar stores. James liked the different attitude women had shopping compared to men. To him women gather and men hunted while they shopped. He enjoyed how women make shopping an experience while men treated it as a chore. James made a mental note to make sure he would better articulate the shopping point in the project's paper. Dillon was awoken by his friend scurrying around. He found it odd that James was not taking his time to get ready for his day. It was not odd enough for Dillon to bring it up. It was just odd enough for Dillon to know those two were not going to have their usual Saturday morning cup of coffee together. James arrived at the girl's apartment almost an hour early and rang did not notice the buzzer to be let in the complex. It was only then he found out he was so early when Lexie informed him as she let him in. Lexie stayed at her place last night for she wanted to make sure they stayed on schedule for James' day out shopping with the girls. As James waited for Cara to get ready for their morning jog, Lexie made sure that James brought everything he needed for the day. It was just easier for the group if James took a shower and changed over here instead of going back to his dorm room. James thought he was only going to change so he did not bring his shower supplies. Lexie told him not to worry he could use some of the girls' toiletries. Lexie was pleasantly surprised when she saw James' eye light up when she asked him about shopping.Before James brought up how much fun it was going to be, he first made it a point to tell her how great her taste was and thank her for picking such a nice outfit. He then went to his phone and pulled up the webpage of the dress he was wearing to the dance. Lexie did not know how to take how enthusiastic James was about the dress. The reason Lexie was unsure of how to take James' attitude was as soon as those two started to talk about shopping James began the metamorphosis into becoming Sarah. James did not even know it happened for it was on an unconscious level. Sarah was always a part of James' psyche but she was locked up deep in it. Her exile was from James being in denial about his true gender. Sarah being a princess locked away in a dungeon came from James' father, Marcus Young. James repressed the memory of his father catching him in a dress playing with dolls with his cousin Sally, at her place. From that day on Marcus would take every opportunity to beat into James' head that he was a boy. Once James was inline with his father the browbeating became more of a constant casual hounding, which James just found peculiar. Marcus also made it a point that his wife, Darla Young, never found out. The man, who knew what was best for his child, did not want to take the chance that his wife would insist that James explored who he really was. Lexie became at ease when James told her to call him Sarah. The girl who was talking to Lexie for the first time explain that she needed to embrace being Sarah for the project to work. That reason put Lexie at ease and saw it as her friend really getting into character. How convinced Lexie was that she was talking with a woman made her want to talk to Sarah about it when she was James again. The aspiring actress could use all the pointers she on method acting and it from James and not the character he was now. By the time Cara and James left for their jog, Audrey was up and about. She sat back and watch Sarah and Lexie interact before the Giggle Twins left. The mother of the group could tell by Sarah's mannerism that James was not there. How prominent Sarah's presence was did not concern her about shopping later. They were so subtle that only if someone was specifically looking for them would they notice. Plus being in a group of girls will mask how out of the norm they were for a man. As Lexie and Audrey sat at the dining table Lexie said, "It is amazing how well James is getting into his Sarah Character. If he wanted to he could be a great actor." "Lexie dear, I do not think that is an act. I mean I know James could so good because he loves to people watch and picks up on little idiosyncrasy of people from that. But still it is too subtle and also it switches off and on too quick." "What do you think it is?" Audrey did not want to reveal her thoughts on James being a crossdresser. It was not her place to speculate on that. If James being a crossdresser was true then it was his place to decide who knows and who does not. Even if it was her place to say her inkling, her saying it in the open would spread it around. There would be rumors and murmurs about James and most of them would be not be good. "Sorry I meant to say he is just too good at acting and I have no idea why.It just has to be his empathy and he has an innate understanding of people. You know James is highly emotionally intelligent " "Oh yeah you are right Audrey. James is just amazing at understanding people and putting himself in their shoes, so I should not had been so shocked that he could do it with heels also." *********** After the jog Cara then Sarah took a shower. When Sarah returned from her shower ready to go shopping she walked by Lilith. Lilith noticed Sarah's scent of mango with a slight hint of rose and vanilla. The female who was a male, in Lilith's eyes, use of feminine fragrance to try impersonated a woman put the feminist in a bad mood. How dare that male mock her and her gender so openly. It made Lilith move up part of her plan to irritate Sarah to now. Lilith sniped at her so called friend, "Hey James, smelling like a woman does not make you one." Sarah took the higher ground, "Lilith I know, I left my shower supplies at home and Lexie was nice enough to offer me the use of what was in the bathroom." Audrey, wanting to give her friend the benefit of the doubt, gently told Lilith that James was going by Sarah right now. Sarah said it was fine if Lilith did not want to help with the project. Lilith was happy to hear what Audrey and James said. They walked into another way that she was going to make James regret thinking that the clothes make the person. "Sorry Audrey. And Olga I will help with the project. I am doing so right now by naming you. You should not have picked your name, none of us did. So if you are serious about experiencing what is like to be a woman you will go with Olga instead of Sarah." Hearing Lilith deny Sarah her name brought out the warrioress in her. When James came up with Sarah, little did he know it was not random. It was his second choice for Sarah's subconscious guard came up with Jamie Lee as a way to keep her locked away. When James turned it down, Sarah saw a chance to escape and used it. Sarah with some fire in her voice said, "Lilith, for this project my name is Sarah. If I was born a girl my mom would had named me Sarah. So I did not pick my name, I am experiencing what it is like to have someone else name you. Lilith got more pissed that Sarah foiled her getting some sweet revenge on the gender which held her down. Her friends helping that man do so added to her anger. For a second she was going to call Sarah out on it, but thought better when she saw the room was against her. "I did not know, you should have told me, Sarah." Sarah wanted to engage Lilith more but thought better of it. Life was too short to make a small issue any larger than it had to be. The lady who wanted to move on said "Come on Lilith get your shoes on so we can get going." Lilith informed Sarah that she had better things to do than shop. The four ladies left and Lilith did one of those better things. She sat at home sulking in her angry chair. She did smile for at least her next surprise, which she was going to unveil when the shoppers got back, will not backfire on her. ********** All the ladies had a blast shopping. It did p