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Sarah slept a sound sleep with Cara's arm wrapped around her. Her sleep
was the deepest, most relaxing night's rest she ever had. Sarah was going
to wake up more recharged and alive than she ever had as James. The new
lady was going to need all the energy which came from her sleep of the
just. She has just started to be.
If a person was really alive, they are always changing and becoming who
they were. This was no different for Sarah. The past month was one of
personal growth for the lady. She went from being an average college
student to being an average college student. The difference was before
Sarah was a female, hiding behind a false male persona, now she was just
herself.
This paramount change in being had Sarah needing to learn to be. The new
lady was not sure of whom she was. She knew she was a female, but how much
of her life as James was Sarah shining through herself imposed prison; and
how much of it was Sarah protecting her secret from everyone, even
herself.
Sarah woke up and saw the lady who owned her heart right next to her.
Having her giggle twin to share her life, made Sarah feel the future had
as many possibilities as a dream. She got out of the bed and Cara open her
eyes and stirred some. When the lady, still lying down saw her girlfriend,
a smile came across her face. At that moment, it felt right to be with
Sarah.
"Cara, my love, I was going to get myself some coffee, would you like a
cup?"
Cara said, "I would love one," as she reach out to grab Sarah's chemise.
Then she pulls Sarah closer to her and greeted her love with a good
morning kiss. Cara liked how she was a little assertive; and Sarah liked
how open Cara was with showing affection
On her way to get coffee, Sarah thought about how those words, 'my love',
just came out naturally and without thinking. This was so new to Sarah,
before, when playing the role of James, the lady was very cautious about
using any pet terms with the girls she dated. Even when she thought she
was in love, Sarah would wait until she knew how the other felt. Her
carefulness was to protect the both of them. She did not want to put her
heart out to be rejected, and also, did not want to force the lady she was
seeing in saying something which was not true.
Was her casually using 'my love' from Sarah being more of a risk taker
than James, the special situation of those two building up a close bond
before a date or even a kiss, or a combination of both? Sarah would
contemplate that question while getting them coffee. The lady playing
waitress was pleasantly surprise when she knew the answer would not come
to her till later.
Before, as James, she would have needed to know, she would have needed to
be sure. The lady still had the strong desire to know herself, but she was
able to cope with the fact she needed to discover who she really was, what
it meant to be Sarah.
Cara was putting on her robes, as her Catholic guilt came back to visit
her. The pangs of conscience came from the teaching of Holy Mother
Church. Her desire to be with Sarah was a sin in a few different ways
according to her faith. It was sex before marriage, which came from caring
for another person, confused the lady of faith. There was no intention of
procreation. And lastly, it would have been sex with someone of the same
gender.
Cara did have true faith in the Church. The devoted lady's conviction was
her congregation in Christ; was an overall force of good in the world.
The ills which were associated with her church came from the shortcoming
of man. Man's desire for power and preventing losing was the cause. The
teaching of Christ, which Cara love and made her faith so strong; and how
her family involved itself with the church, were the factors which made
her not become a fallen Catholic.
Even with Cara faith in God being strong and true, she did not follow the
dogma of her church and the interpretation of the bible blindly. She
questioned every edict handed down from the pulpit before she accepted it.
To the ecclesiastical lady, blind faith was not faith at all. It was
people who had an authoritarian mindset, and found the idea which they
would follow without question. There was no way this strong willed lady
would ever follow anything just for people said to do so.
Her feeling towards Sarah James and the revelation of James actually being
transgender, and really being Sarah, made her revisit her thoughts on
homosexuality. Cara did not believe it was a sin, but never gave much
contemplation to Eros between two people of the same gender. Two people in
a consensual relationship does not hurt anyone, so why would she. Plus,
the reason why Cara loved the teaching of Christ was for they were
positive. The teachings were centered on love, not fear. They were about
what to do to live a good life, not what to do.
Now, Cara had to reexamine her belief on homosexuality. She would not be
judging others on it, but herself. Even if she found it to be a sin, she
knew it would only be a sin for herself, in her eyes. Homosexuality would
be a grievance of a sin to her as eating bacon was to a faithful Jew.
The soul-searching lady walked out into the living room and saw Sarah
coming towards her with two cups of coffee. How good, safe, strong Cara
felt at that moment was a gentle rain which washes the guilt and self
doubt away. There was no way feeling this good about oneself, just by
being in the presence of someone else, could be a sin in a loving God's
eye.
***********
Dillon was woken up by a tender kiss from Ronnie. The love and caring from
the kiss, and the love and passion from last night, made the man laying in
bed feel refreshed and ready to spend time with the wonderful man next to
him. Dillon smiled and thanked his love for the best part of waking up,
being greeted by that beautiful face.
Ronnie blushed from the complement from his man. Then, Ronnie suggested
that Dillon take his shower first for he would be quicker. Then, after the
shower, to go downstairs, and meet the housemates. They were Ronnie's boys
and Dillon's boyfriend knew they wanted to make sure his new man got their
seal of approval.
Dillon walked downstairs and saw Ronnie's roommates, Robbie, Bobby, Ricky
and Mike, all gathered around the television watching Sportscenter. They
all looked up at their guest, and in unison gave him a friendly 'hi'. He
did not expect such a welcoming greeting. Then, again, he did not know how
much him sticking around was going to make those guys life sweet.
When Ronnie was in a good relationship, he was the best roommate they
could have. Ronnie became more nurturing to everyone around him. He would
make cookies, cakes and cook nice meals. Those guys loved it. They also
loved their friend being with someone he found special. All the roommates
agreed that Ronnie deserved the best in life, and the guys knew how hard
it was for anyone, let alone someone as unique as Ronnie, to find love.
On paper, any person who wanted to be with someone with a heart of gold,
Ronnie would have been the perfect person. Most people look for way more
than personality when searching for their true companion. Personality and
compatibility are also down on the list. The prerequisites of gender and
physical attractiveness are above the traits for everyone. Even people who
would say personality, and how they mesh with the other person, were the
most important aspect of finding a mate, put gender and physical
attractiveness above them. People do not see it as so, for the
prerequisites were givens.
Being gay would had been hard enough for Ronnie to find someone special,
most men, and also women, see their sexuality as binary, and not on a
spectrum like gender. Most people had no need or desire to explore not
being in the norm of sexuality. With the vast majority of people having a
strong tendencies towards heterosexuality, they had not need to open to
the same gender in a sexual manner. It would always be easy for them to
fulfill their sexual drive without being open to people of the same sex.
People generally tend not to want to rock the boat, and be different in
any area which their community sees as taboo, so there would be no desire
to explore one's sexuality. Even with being more accepted in Western
culture, homosexuality is still seen as a taboo. This could be seen as how
people pat themselves on the back in being accepting to people who were
homosexuals. This could be seen by a large part of the population thinking
it was fine to pass 'religious freedom' laws, which were designed to deny
equal rights to homosexuals.
Ronnie's gender fluidity, also added to the difficulty of finding that
special someone. The more Ronnie was involved with a man, the more his
feminine side was front and center being around his lover. He knew that
even if he lived his public life as Ronnie, at home, with that someone
special, he would always be Veronica. That was why Ronnie had his sister's
dress on when his brother caught him. It just felt natural for him to be
in a dress while daydreaming about his first crush.
For Dillon, Ronnie's gender fluidity was a great fit. The farm boy
definitely was a top, and him wanting that role in a relationship, would
balance out Ronnie's being a bottom. He was also a little old fashion,
which he was why he loved to hold the door for his man, pay for the dates,
and loved to give flowers. Ronnie would love his new man treating him that
way. The man who wanted to be the husband, also knew that the stereotype
of a man not doing any household work, was either old and outdated, or
never true. He wanted to take after his father and help around the house.
Being a couple was teamwork to him, so both people had the
responsibilities to take care of the house.
Dillon returned the 'hi', and they all invited him to join them. Being a
huge football fan, Dillon was more than happy to see the highlights of
yesterday's game. He did not get to pay much attention to recaps, for as
soon as he sat down, Mike offer to get him a pop, and the others started
to pepper him with questions. How did he meet Ronnie, what was his major,
and what was his plans after college, were the questions which started the
interview they gave to Ronnie's new boyfriend?
At that moment, he knew how men felt when they meet the brothers of the
lady they were dating. Even with them being welcoming to him, they were
making sure he was good enough for Ronnie. Being a simple country boy, and
not wanting to beat around the bush after Dillon answered their questions,
he said, "Listen here guys, I will treat Ronnie great. I am a one-man man
and want nothing more in life than to settle down with someone as
wonderful as your friend."
Ronnie's proxy brothers were all relieved and happy to hear Dillon
reassure them of his intent with such strong words. Their collective minds
were made up, Dillon was worthy of Ronnie. The guys were confident they
would come to that conclusion because their friend had a great head on his
shoulders, and would pick a guy worthy enough for him. Even with having
faith in who Ronnie brought home, they wanted to make sure Ronnie's man
got their seal of approval.
Ronnie's boys were getting to know Dillon, and they finally found a flaw
with him. He was a Cleveland Browns' fan. Even that shortfall put him in a
good light. If he was loyal enough to stick with one of the worst ran
sports franchise of all time, then he would be at Ronnie's side no matter
what.
Then, from the dining room Ronnie came. The happy man was wearing black
skinny jeans, a loose fitting pale yellow shirt and a little foundation to
cover small blemishes on his face. His beauty transcended sex. All the
guys thought he looked like an angel, androgynous. Ronnie looked both and
neither male and female at the same time.
Ronnie walked over to Dillon and said, "I hope the guys were not too rough
on you."
Before his man could answer, Ricky said, "We weren't."
The glowing man walked over to Ricky and playfully slapped him on the arm.
"You all better not, now, I made you all some pancakes and sausage; enjoy
breakfast. Dillon and I are off to brunch at a friend's."
Now, it was Dillon's turn to be impressed by Ronnie's boys. They all
showed their disappointed than Dillon and Ronnie would not be joining them
by leaving out a collective 'oh'. Then as they went to the dining room to
eat, all thanked Ronnie. Mike did the sweetest thing and gave a brotherly
kiss to Ronnie's cheek. Mike was a foster child and never had a true
family, so he latched onto to Ronnie's nurturing nature.
********
Sarah came out of the bedroom wearing her brunch outfit of a silk red
blouse with ruffles covering the buttons, scarf, along with black skirt.
She had a majestic air to her which demanded the attention of the three
ladies. The three ladies were proud seeing how their friend was owning who
she was. Two of them, Audrey and Cara, because they gave support to help
Sarah to find her strength. The other, Lilith, because Sarah still saw her
worthy of being a friend.
The dignified lady was looking forward to brunch. It was going to be great
to have Lilith, Audrey and Lexi met Dillon's new love interest, Ronnie.
She knew that all of them wanted her roommate, Dillon, to have that
special someone in his life, and Ronnie was that special someone. Audrey
informed her that Lexi was bringing The Gord with her. That made the meal
even better; she shared James' belief, one of the best spices to a meal
was to have more people to share it with.
With three unaccounted guests, Sarah knew that they had to go to the store
get more food. She quickly volunteered to go solo. This lady wanted to go
out in public solo. She knew it would have to happen sooner or later, and
right now, was the best time. Sarah felt the strength from support of her
friends. Also, the new lady was in a good place because she finally got
the woman she pined over, and finally it was Sunday morning, not a busy
time in a college town.
While they were sleeping, a cold front started to pass through the area.
Even with the sky being dull and grey, and it was just plain dreary
outside. Sarah never enjoyed a walk as much as she did that morning. The
brisk cold wind kept everyone else's head down as Sarah walked, looking
forward to greet the day face to face. The trip itself was an eventful as
a Victorian Era English country village.
The three ladies did go out to the balcony, to watch the hatchling leave
the nest. They knew there was nothing they could do other than watch.
Sarah was ready to venture out on her own, and their friend having company
on this errand, would impede her personal growth. When the onlookers saw
the casualness in their friend's demeanor, they knew this would go fine.
To put their mind at more ease, Sarah turned back to look up, and waved to
them.
Sarah came back to the apartment, and without asking, the other three,
knew how the trip to the store went. They could tell by the delight in
Sarah voice's as she said 'hi'. Never before in her life has Sarah been so
happy about the ordinary being the ordinary.
*********
"Are you sure the girls will not mind?" the Gord asked Lexie once again.
The last thing he wanted to do was imped on his fianc?e's time with Sarah.
"Oh, trust me, they will all want to see you when they see my ring; and I
want you there to see how happy I am in telling them. I want to share that
moment with you.
Also, I talked with Audrey, and they will be expecting you."
How good Ryan the "Gord" Gordon felt by Lexie stating she wanted to share
that joy reaffirmed with to him, his asking for her hand, was the best
decision he ever made. The boy who was quickly becoming a man, wanted to
share each joy and sorrow with that beautiful lady in front of him. If he
did not go to the brunch, Ryan would have made Lexie tell him all about
it. Just a couple of days ago, he would had taken hearing about it for
granted.
"Cool, for I also want to see your wonderful smile light up your apartment
when you tell your friends."
************
Dillon and his new man, Ronnie showed up to brunch. They were greeted by
Audrey and when the walked in, Sarah's roommate tensed up at what he saw.
There was Lilith. Ronnie saw something got to Dillon, and rubbed his back
to help bring him to ease. The supportive man's touch did the trick to the
big farm boy.
Dillon's hackles might not have gone down, but he was still mad at Lilith.
That woman in his sight, was also in his sights. How she been treating
James got to him, and made his anger seethe. The bad will he had, made him
not even think if she was still on the outs with James, she would not be
there.
Then, Sarah called Lilith over in a gleeful voice, and Lilith hurried
over. Poor Dillon was confused and Audrey could tell. She also wanted to
put the protector at ease. "Dill, Lilith came to her senses, and those two
are starting to reconcile."
Dillon was a simple man, simple in the straightforward way. He also had a
long memory, once someone did him, or someone he cared about wrong, it
took the person a long time to get in his good graces again. "Fine, but I
have my eyes on her."
"I would not expect anything less from you. Just be civil towards her and
everything will be fine."
There was one thing the big momma's boy was, and that was respectful. He
might not like Lilith now, but if she was part of the group, he would be
cordial to her. Dillon said, "You know I will."
"Yes, I know. I am just stating it for I know you look out for Sarah."
Wanting to change the subject and also be the gentleman he was Dillon
said, "Audrey, I will like you to meet Ronnie, my boyfriend.
Ronnie this is Audrey."
Ronnie and Audrey exchanged pleasantries and hit it off right away. Them
sharing a strong maternal instinct, along with them both wanting to like
each other, helped the two strangers to start to form a bond.
Cara walked with more of a purpose as she went to greet Dillon. The doubt
and guilt about her relationship with Sarah were gone. In her mind there
was no way a good and just God would see how their love was a sin. It did
both of them good by making them better people; and she could tell it
would have a positive effect on others.
Dillon saw Cara and thought she looked different. The man was right; Cara
looked different for she had more strength. Not only did her love make
Sarah a strong woman, but Sarah's love did the same for Cara. They would
always be the Giggle Twins; Cara just had the added bonus she had solid
support to be more assertive. It was always in her and Cara wanted to let
it out and now could. Her assertiveness was the perfect foil to the
tenderness which was coming more to the forefront with Sarah.
Dillon thought Cara wanted to talk about something bad, until he saw the
smile on her face and gave him a big hug. Cara did have something
important to share with Dillon. She was going to state her intention about
Sarah. Dillon was like a big brother to Cara's girlfriend and it just felt
right to tell him how great she was going to treat the lady who owned her
heart. Plus Cara was acting like the man of the relationship, and wanted
the blessing of her girlfriend's male relatives. .
"Dillon, I know how protective you are of Sarah, and I just want to let
you know, I will be good to her."
With the talk being about the other budding couple at the brunch, Dillon
wanted the James' Project to be put on hold, "You mean good to him?"
Cara wanted to respect Dillon having the conversation be serious. Sarah's
girlfriend also wanted to respect that, and the fact she was dating a
woman. Lastly, she wanted to respect it was Sarah choice on when to tell
her roommate. Cara knew there was no if. "Yes I mean him, but will be
referring to James as Sarah. I need to keep it up for the project is not
over, and I do not want to slip up. I am supporting Sarah James by doing
so."
"I understand, but don't get cold feet again, and keep on stringing
Sarah's heart along; like not showing up on Friday. You looked very worn
out on Saturday, so you must of have had a great time doing whatever."
Now, Cara had to share one more fact, that Jason Harris drugged her to try
to date rape her.
"Dillon, I was in the hospital for that Jason Harris drugged me."
Dillon got angry at himself and the man who tried to take advantage of his
friend. Dillon knew he should have asked Cara what happened before he made
that accusation about her out gallivanting about on Friday night. That
Jason preys on people, and Dillon hated those who did so. Dillon's temper
made him forget his P's and Q's, and the normally polite man interrupted
Cara.
"I am sorry; I should not have said that. I should have asked you 'why',
first."
Telling her story to another, made Cara even stronger about the incident.
This would happen each time she repeated it. Cara wanted to stop Dillon
from apologizing about what that vile person did and was able to do. It
would feel like pity to her, and she wanted pity from no one.
"It is fine. I know why you did, the past between Sarah and I. I am happy
you said it for you are looking out for my Sarah James. I want her
surrounded with people who care about her as much as you do.
Dillon, I know you, and before you make it your life work to hunt that man
down for trying to harm your friend, just know, he is being taken care of.
He was arrested and Lilith is making sure that they throw the book at him,
and then, pick it up again, to throw it again!"
"Good. Also, Cara, I know you will be the best woman for James, I am
sorry, I mean Sarah."
Finally, as Cara and Dillon's conversation was winding down, Lexie and The
Gord showed up. Dillon was talking with Sarah when he saw those two, and
his voice went from baritone to bass. Sarah looked behind her to see what
caused Dillon's voice to give away the displeasure he denied when Sarah
asked what was wrong. It was seeing Gordon.
Before Sarah could recommend her roommate go talk with Gordon, he came
walking up to them. Lexie's fianc? was a little nervous for he knew
Dillon, not only held grudges, he collected them. It was going to be a
long road ahead for the Gord to climb back from that fall from grace from
using that homophobic slur in front of the proud gay man.
"Hey there Sarah, you look great. Do you mind if Dillon and I talk man to
man?"
Dillon still did not know about Sarah not being a man and took The Gord's
innocent remark as a put down to his friend. Dillon, in a dead tone voice
said, "Whatever you have to say to me, you can say in front of him."
Sarah wanted to stay to help keep the peace. Dillon would not make a
scene, but his straightforwardness might make Gordon feel uncomfortable.
No it will. "Dillon, it is fine. He just wants to talk with you about
Zeno's."
Sarah left and Dillon started to make Dillon feel as uncomfortable as a
comedian who found out he had to follow Jerry Seinfeld on open mike night
at the Catch a Rising Star. "Now Ryan, do not down talk James again. Do
you understand?"
"Hold on, I know I fuck up. That is why I wanted to talk with you one on
one."
"Then why did you just do it again."
"I did not."
Dillon never liked people trying to deny what they did. "You did so by
saying man to man. James might be experiencing life as a woman this
weekend, but he is still a man; more of a man than you!"
Dillon figure out why the hostility from Dillon was more than he expected.
"Dude, I am sorry. I did not mean anything bad towards James by saying man
to man. I was trying to show that I wanted to tell you I was wrong.
Dude I get why you took that the wrong way. No, I said it the wrong way.
Like I said, I fucked up. I really did man. My best friend in high school
is gay, and I let him down by joking that way to put others down. I let
you and James down also."
Before Dillon walked away he said, "Just don't let it happened again Ryan
and I will be keeping an eye on you."
The Gord was happy the exchange with Dillon was not as painful as he
thought it would be. The frat member knew the future farmer could make
Batman seem whimsical. It will take time, but those two will patch up the
damage The Gord did, by being inconsiderate. The Gord made huge progress
by admitting what he did was wrong.
The rest of the Brunch went great. Everyone was so happy finding out Lexie
and the Gord were planning to spend the rest of their life together. After
The Gord found out about what happened to Cara, he checked up on her, and
then went to Lilith. He wanted the crusader for Women's rights to give a
talk about sexual assaults and harassment at his Frat.
Ronnie made a great impression on everyone, and he and Sarah were fast
becoming close friends. The same could be said about Cara and Dillon. The
stoic man never expected that and was happy when Cara suggested that the
four of them go on a double date. Lastly, Audrey and Lilith made a great
brunch, and worked well together. The frost in their friendship had
quickly thawed.
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