Sixteen, and just a girl
Janet L. Stickney
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I slipped the dress over my head and zipped it up, then looked in the
mirror. No makeup, my hair a mess, no shoes, and I was flat chested.
But I saw her, and I was captivated by her. Not the travesty staring
back at me, but the cute girl that she could become, if only I knew
how, and tried a little harder. As I took the dress off I just knew
that my parents wouldn't understand if they saw me all dressed up as a
girl. Hell, I didn't understand it! All I knew was that I always knew
how I felt. I was allowed to dress as a girl twice. Once when I was
little, maybe 12. I went to a costume party at school dressed as Snow
White, and later, when I was 14, I went out on Halloween as Cinderella.
Since then I have secretly trying on my mom's clothes, using her makeup
and so on, all in an effort to look as good as possible when I am
dressed up. I could, if I tried, almost make myself passable, but it
took a long time, which I rarely had. As I put everything away I did so
with a sigh, since it would be a while before I could try it again.
For me to dress as a girl, I was just the right size. I'm on the short
side at 5'6" tall, and I weigh about 125. about average for most boys
if a bit small, but just right for the average girl, plus, as was the
current style, I had let my hair grow out until it reached my
shoulders. All I needed was some way to figure out how to be a girl
without making my folks really mad at me. After I had put everything
away, I went out to wash my car, which is where I was when my buddy
Bill walked up.
"Hey!"
"Hey yourself Bill. What's up?"
"I need a girl."
"Yeah. You always need a girl" I said with a smirk.
"Yeah, but this time I need a special kind of girl."
"Those kinds of girls cost money, and you don't have any money" I said.
"You got that right! But, well, the kind of girl I need has to be a
guy, like us."
"Let me get this straight. You need a girl, but she has to be a guy?"
"Yeah. There's this big deal kind of party at my folks country club,
and this year, those little old ladies that run all the party stuff
decided to have what they call a mixed up wedding party. They drew
names from the list of guys that are the sons of members, and they were
selected to be the brides, and on top of that, they also said the
brides would need an escort, a groom they said. My name was drawn, but
just look at me, then tell me I could become some cute young bride!"
Bill had that right. 6'2" tall, and at least 235 pounds, with a short
haircut and muscles out to there. He could never do it, unless he had a
wedding dress made by a very talented tent maker, and a cement mason to
do his makeup.
"So? You get to be a bride. Why do you need a girl if you're going to
be the bride?"
"They drew 12 names, but there are three of us that obviously couldn't
do it, never in a million years, so they made exceptions for us. We get
to be the grooms, but we have to have someone that is willing to be the
bride."
I just knew that he was going to ask me, and my heart began to beat
faster with anticipation, because I knew it would be the perfect way
for me to dress as a girl, and have the perfect alibi. But I put on a
stupid face, trying not to give away my willingness to do it.
"You interested?" he asked.
"You want me to be your bride? What makes you think that I would even
be interested?"
"Because you're half the size I am, and I just thought that you could
do it, that's all! Don't get yourself in an uproar!"
"Me as your bride? That's getting out there a bit isn't it Bill? I
mean, it's not like I'm used to wearing a dress or anything like that,
but just for kicks, say I did agree. What's in it for me? Besides
having the chance to make a fool out of myself I mean."
"A nice dinner, music, dancing, your own wedding cake, and me as a date
of course."
"Don't sound like much, especially a date with an ugly like you. It
sounds crazy as a matter of fact, but I'll think about it, and even
then I'd have to ask my folks of course. I'll let you know, but don't
count on it."
Bill walked away, but I was panting inside. A bride! The very top of
the pile when it comes to being feminine, which was my greatest wish,
and he had just asked me to do it! Now all I had to do was talk my
parents into letting me do it without sounding over eager. I finished
washing the car and broke out the vacuum. I was under the dash cleaning
the carpets when I felt a finger poking me. Turning, I saw that it was
my mom.
"Hi mom. I was just cleaning the car."
"I see that. It looks very nice dear." Mom paused for a moment, and got
a strange look on her face. "Did Bill stop by and talk to you this
morning?"
"Yeah, and he sounded crazy."
"Did he ask you to be his bride for that party?"
"Yeah! That's the crazy part. I said I would have to talk to you, and
even then I would have to think about it. How did you know?"
"Oh, Fay and I talked about it yesterday." Mom got that look on her
face. "I didn't say anything, but given the number of times you have
been into my clothes, I can't see you saying no to an opportunity like
this, do you?" I started to say something, but mom held up her hand.
"Lets just skip over your denials for a moment. That party is going to
be in the fall, which is almost four months away, and that's plenty of
time for you to become used to wearing skirts, and learn how to make
yourself pretty, don't you agree? If you're going to be a beautiful
bride that is."
Mom knew! I was struck dumb, but rather than say something really
stupid, I kept my mouth shut. Mom however, asked me to come inside when
I was done with the car. She said she wanted to talk. Well, knowing
what she wanted to talk about, I was done in record time, put
everything away, and went in the house. Mom was in the familyroom,
waiting for me. The minute I sat down she started in on me, telling me
that while she did not understand why I liked to dress up as a girl
once in a while, she was willing to help me, since becoming a bride
would be a very big responsibility. On top of that, she said that since
I seemed to want to be a girl so much, she was going to make sure that
I met that responsibility, and I would meet it by becoming a girl, from
the next morning, and continue until the party was over! The way mom
put it, it wasn't a question of would I do it? She said I would, and
that was the end of it! I was stunned, but did my best to keep a
straight face.
"I want you to go to your room and strip to your briefs. I'll get a few
measurements, then you and I will get you enough clothes to get by on
until we can get out and do some proper shopping. Bill's mother is
going to pay for the wedding ensemble, but the rest is on us, and if we
are going to spend that kind of money, I want you to have clothes that
fit, and look nice on you. Now go get undressed."
I went to my room, undressed, and waited for mom to show up. When she
did, and before she did anything else, she sat on the bed and for the
first time, asked me if I was willing to become a girl for the next
four months.
"I know that you have been into my clothes, but after I thought about
it, and to be fair to you, I want you to answer me truthfully. Are you
willing to do this? Are you willing to become a girl for the four
months between now and then? Remember, if you say no, your days of
rummaging in my clothes will be over young man. If you say yes, well,
we will see to it that you not only learn how to be a girl, I'll see to
it that you are the best dressed teenage girl around."
It was no contest. As far back as I could remember, I had wanted to be
a girl. To dress like one, to smell like one, to act like one. I wanted
to wear a bra and pantyhose, perfume, and flowers in my hair. I didn't
hesitate.
"Yes mother, I would like to be Bill's bride" I said, and mom, without
a word, went about measuring me all over.
As mom worked she told me that the first thing in the morning she was
going out and get me the bare basics, just enough so that I could look
like a girl my age, then she was going to help me get ready, and as
soon as we were done, she said that the two of us were going shopping,
right after I had my hair and nails done at her salon! I had never been
in a salon before, and had no idea what to expect, but actually leaving
the house dressed as a girl, while a long time dream of mine, gave me
the shivers. When mom was ready, she handed me a bottle of hair remover
and some bubblebath, and told me that by the next morning, she wanted
me hairless, clean shaven and with my hair washed.
The minute mom left the room, I headed for my bath. After reading the
instructions on the bottle, I stripped and began to cover myself with
that foul gunk. After half and hour or so, I showered it off, and was
rewarded by seeing lots of hair piling up on the drain. After that, I
waited while I filled the tub with bubblebath and hot water, then sank
into the hot water. By the time I stepped out of the tub I had shaved
every inch of my skin that I could reach, and my skin felt smooth and
silky to me. Since I only shaved once a week anyway, I finished that
ritual and washed my hair. I had no idea what would happen after I
rubbed in the skin lotion, so you can imagine my surprise when I
discovered that my skin got even softer! With nothing but a towel
wrapped around me. I put my jeans back on, the denim, although soft
from washing, felt really odd against my now smooth legs. Socks and
tee, then my gym shoes, and I went outside.
I walked over to Bill's house, and found him under his own car.
"I'll do it" I said, which made him come out from under the car.
"You will?"
"Yeah. I can't see myself as a girl, but when I told mom about it, she
got all excited. She has some really strange ideas about all this Bill.
Sounded strange to me anyway, but I don't want to say what they are
right now, since I'm still not sure. I'll see tomorrow and fill you
in." Then I added..."If you laugh when you see me dressed as a girl,
the deal is off Bill, and I mean it!"
"Okay! I'll let mom know that you said yes!" When he stood up, he
towered over me.
"Just keep this between us for now Bill...okay?"
"You got it! Say! When will I see you? Dressed as a girl I mean?"
"I don't know Bill. When I know, you'll know."
I went back home, hoping that how I turned out looking as a girl, was
at least close to my mental image. I mean, if I turned out looking like
an awkward guy in a dress, I would end it right then and there, no
matter what mom said. I positively would not make a fool out of myself
that way. If I looked real good, then I would merely be practicing for
doing this bride thing, and hopefully, the other friends of mine would
understand. I mean, I'm not going to be the only guy in town wearing a
dress, there would be at least eleven other guys doing it. As I went in
then back door, I saw dad standing there.
"I hear that you're going to be Bill's bride."
"Yeah dad. It'll be a kick."
"Well, I'm proud of you son. It takes a big man to wear a dress. I know
that you'll do your best for Bill, and us. I mean, isn't that what I
always say? Do your best, that way nobody can fault you for giving it
your all."
"I will dad, I promise. I'll give it my best."
Apparently dad did not know what mom had planned! But, no matter how I
looked, I could always say that I was doing exactly what he told me to
do, and that, "was my best", even if, as mom told me, I would be
dressing as a girl every day from tomorrow onward. How could he then
tell me not to? If doing my best required me to dress all the time,
just to get better, all he could do was go along with it! Oh, he could
make me stop I suppose, but somehow, I had a hunch that mom was going
to take that option away from him when she and I visited her salon. But
she would also take it away from me. From long experience I knew that I
better have a hair style in mind, or she might just pick one that I
wouldn't like! In my room, I went on the Internet, and did a quick
search on hairstyles, picked several that I liked, and printed them
out. At least I would have something to go by when we were at the
salon.
I heard mom come in, but stayed in my room. I didn't want to seem
anxious, even though I'm sure that mom knew I was. It was dad I was
worried about. A few minutes later mom came into my room and put a
number of packages on the bed.
"I picked up a cheap bra, a pair of panties, some pantyhose, a skirt
and blouse, plus a pair of flats. Based on your shoe size, the man said
they would fit. We'll get you ready for your debut tomorrow morning,
right after breakfast."
After mom left the room I quickly opened the packages to see what mom
had bought. The skirt was dark green, the blouse white. The bra, also
white, had a narrow band of lace on it, while the panties were plain
white cotton. The shoes were black. Holding the skirt to my waist I saw
that it would be just above my knees. The blouse had short sleeves with
a normal collar. Nothing special about them, but they signaled my
impending foray into the world of girls. I could hardly wait. That
night at dinner, everything seemed peaceful, the only comment came from
dad when he told me that he would be gone most of the day, but asked me
to stay dressed so that he could see me! If mom did what she said she
was going to do, he would see a lot of me dressed as a girl, and there
was no doubt in my mind that I would be dressed as a girl when he got
home!
I had a somewhat tense night as I anticipated the coming day. Every
dream, every wish, I ever had about being a girl was about to come
true, but somehow, I knew that no matter how I felt, I would have to be
real careful not to be seen as a guy that was eager to be a girl,
because that it would cause my friends to think that this is what I
really wanted. I would have to sort of grow into the role, slowly, so
they would get used to seeing me trying to get along, as a girl. What
mom did not know was that I had a name all picked out. Diane Elizabeth.
I had picked that name a long time ago. When mom asked, or maybe even
if she didn't, I would tell her. Probably before we even started. I
looked over at the door to my closet and in the dim light of the moon I
saw the clothes hanging there. My clothes. A skirt and blouse! It gave
me a chill just thinking about it, and I fell asleep eventually, but I
had all sorts of dreams that night, all of them pleasantly feminine.
Dad left for work at seven, and a half an hour later mom was in my room
with me. I had already put the panties on, so she merely watched as I
struggled with the bra, which was my size, but fastened in the back.
After a few moments she told me to fasten it in the front then spin it
around and pull it on. Unlike hers, this one was tight on my chest.
"I also got these for you. They'll work a little better than rolled up
socks." Mom handed me a pair of soft, flesh colored blobs. "Just put
one into each bra cup and lets see how they work."
The minute I had them in place I loved it! The breast forms filled the
cups and while I didn't have any cleavage at all, it certainly looked
as if I had breasts!
"Before we go any further, lets see what we can do about your hair,
then I'll show you how to put on makeup."
Mom took me to her room where I sat at her vanity. She used a small
spray bottle to wet my hair, then she began to brush it out. Using her
brush, she pulled my hair back real tight with a part done the middle
of my head. Then she brushed out the front, leaving me with bangs that
hung in my eyes. Mom quickly braided my hair so that I had twin
pigtails, which she pulled together in the back, then added a white bow
to hold them in place. I was left with a very girlish hairdo. Then came
the makeup. I wanted to just say I knew how, but I knowing how bad I
was at it, I let mom tell me what to do. I usually put the foundation
on like mortar, but mom told me to use two fingers and use it
sparingly. Then came powder, which I had never used, but after I
brushed away the excess, my face was smooth, all one color, and better
yet, my face didn't look like it was ready to fall off. I was ready to
add lipstick since foundation and lipstick was all I ever used, but mom
said no.
"At your age I think you can wear a little eyeshadow. Not much though,
we'll accent your eyes with eyeliner and mascara. They might do
something different at the salon, but for now it'll be fine."
Carefully using the applicator, I managed to get two colors of
eyeshadow on, a very soft green and a very light plum, blending the
color with my finger, like she showed me, then I had to draw a thin
brown line over each eye with a liquid eyeliner brush. Under each eye I
used a soft green pencil. The mascara was easier to use once I got up
close to the mirror. The black made my eyelashes look a lot fuller, and
with the eyeliner, the mascara did seem to make my eyes look wide open.
The girl, yes girl, that I saw staring back at me from the mirror was
so unlike the girl I had ever managed to create in the past that I was
stunned. That with so little effort, mom could make me look like a
girl, after I spent so many hours trying, made me realize just how
inept, and foolish, I had been!
I put the blouse on, then sat on the bed to pull on the pantyhose
before I stepped into the skirt, making sure the zipper was in the
back, which mom noticed. The shoes fit perfectly, just like mom said
they would.
"Now you can do your lipstick honey, but use the pinkish red one."
While I did my lips, mom set a purse on the bed.
"You're quite pretty you know" mom said, "better than you expected I'm
willing to bet. What do we call you now? I'm sure you have decided on
that."
"Diane" I said with a smile that just refused to go away.
Mom walked out of the room with me following close behind her, and
after she grabbed her purse, I went outside dressed as a girl, for the
first time ever. Without a word she waited for me to get buckled in,
then we drove off. I saw Bill mowing the lawn. He didn't even look up.
The salon was very quiet when we went in. Some lady, the owner I think,
met mom, and after she introduced me, I was taken to a chair. The
stylist was an older lady, maybe 40, but nice looking.
"Just a trim and cut honey?"
"I...I have these."
I showed her the pictures I had printed out, and pointed to the one I
liked best.
"Sure! We can do that, but I'll have to soften the look a little,
that's a little old for you." She set the chair back, and washed my
hair, then set me up. "Just relax honey, I know what I'm doing."
Mom was in another chair, the owner working on her. They didn't even
look over at me. The woman working on me began to wind rollers wrapped
in foil into my hair, making them tight enough to hurt a little, but I
didn't say anything because I didn't know if I should. Chemicals were
washed over my head,, then she pushed over a dryer. As my head was
surrounded by the warm air and a drone from the fan, she took my hands
and began to work on them. I could see her, and watched as she washed
each fingernail, then began to push, cut and file each nail. Then a
white glob that looked like wet sand was put on each nail, patted flat
and shaped with some sort of template. I knew what she was doing, she
was making my nails longer! By the time she was done with my nails I
felt like my head was well done, like a roast! My nails were now a soft
rose color that glinted in the light, and just a little longer than my
finger tips, and tapered to a rounded end, just like the girls at
school wore theirs.
Once I was out from under the dryer, all of the rollers were taken out,
my hair brushed out a little, and another chemical that smelled really
awful was rubbed in, then I underwent another dousing in the wash sink
and ten minutes under the dryer. When I looked in the mirror, I knew
why it had taken so long. My once brown hair was now a soft auburn
color, just like in the picture! As she brushed out my hair she began
to trim and shape my hair until it was almost dry, then she began to
set it. That part did not take long, and before I knew it, she was
done, and I had the most feminine hairstyle I could imagine. Every time
I moved my hands I saw streaks of pink, my new polish, and I knew that
I never wanted to give up being a girl. Every sensation, each smell,
all the tightness of the rollers, the way my hair flicked at my face
and ears all, the new, longer nails, all combined to draw me into the
web of femininity that I had sought for so long.
"All you have to do is wash it and let it dry honey. Maybe a few
strokes with a brush, but it'll pop right into place, good as new!"
"That color looks wonderful on you Diane" mom said, "Was that your
idea?" Mom had not said a word to the woman that did my hair, so she
didn't tell her, and I didn't ask for it, so...
"Oh that! Diane showed me a picture, and I matched it as close as I
could. It does look cute on her though. I like it! Don't you?"
"Goodness yes!" mom said, "with her coloring it's a wonderful color!
And I like the way you did her hair! It's a perm isn't it?"
"Oh yes. To get that style, and with her straight hair, I had to use a
body perm. She's good for about six months with that style!"
I had gotten myself a perm! I had no idea that was what she was doing,
and less idea that I needed one to get that hairstyle! All I wanted was
to look nice! The only thing that stopped me from saying anything was
that I did not want to sound like a dummy, and besides, I really liked
the way it made me look, and of course, the fact that it would last six
months. I didn't say a word. Mom paid our bill and we left, but I felt
entirely different. After seeing myself in the mirror at the salon a
wave of excitement washed over me as I experienced a new sense of
femininity, and I was certain that there wasn't any way someone would
figure me to be a boy! Mom drove straight to the mall, then right into
the lingerie section of a huge department store. With her list in one
hand and me trailing behind her, she started handing me things,
starting with panties. I had no idea I would need so much stuff! Three
more bras, but mom let me pick them out, then two gel filled padded
pantybrief's, slips, nightgowns, a white waist nipper and a robe. When
we left the shop I was wearing one of the padded pantybriefs. From
there we hit the dress department where I was allowed to pick out four
skirts and three dresses, jeans, some blouses and tops, and a coat. In
shoes I got three pair of heels, black, white, and taupe, plus pink and
white gym shoes.
I was dragging a lot of packages by that point, so mom and I took
everything to the car and went back in. As we passed one of those
costume jewelry places, mom went in, taking me by the arm.
"You need to have your ears pierced Diane. Everything is post now, and
your earrings will be cheaper. Sit here."
Well, I had each ear pierced, then, because everything was on sale, we
bought 12 sets of earrings plus assorted bracelets, hair clips, bows
and barrettes, then necklaces and two rings. As we strolled through the
mall, I saw one of those makeup places, and mentioned to mom that maybe
the makeup she had used on me, which was hers, wasn't right for me, and
asked if we could go in. With a nod of her head I turned into the store
and was assaulted by the aroma of so many different kinds of makeup and
perfume that it shook me for a moment! But, I went in, with mom right
behind me, and looked around until a woman asked me if I would like her
to "do me". With mom standing there, I said yes, and the woman handed
me a towelette to wash of my makeup with. If the woman suspected
anything she never showed any sign of it, and simply began to redo my
face. It took her about twenty minutes, but when she was done the
difference was dramatic! As good as I looked earlier, it was ten times
better, and begged mom to buy everything that she had used on me, which
she did. Then we went home so that I could put all of my clothes away.
Mom left me to put the new clothes where I wanted them, and didn't even
say a word about how I looked, but she had seen me all day, so I didn't
expect her to say anything. Besides, I think she already knew how I
look. It took me an hour to get everything settled, then I decided to
change into one of the new skirts and change tops. I picked out the red
skirt. I liked the pleats, and it was short, almost mid thigh on me,
then a white pullover top that only had a pair of straps at the
shoulder. The first thing I did was quickly change, put on my new gym
shoes then went down to tell mom that I was going to walk over to
Bill's. After all, I told her, he was entitled to see what he was
getting, and besides, I wanted to shock him. Mom waved her hand at me
and I left the house. For only my my second time out, I was alone, but
I felt just great about how I looked, and I could hardly wait to get a
reaction from Bill. With every step I took, my skirt swayed back and
forth, and I could feel my breasts bouncing, like in the mall, but
also, the addition to my hips gave me a rounder shape, and made me feel
even more complete. There was no doubt in my mind that this was exactly
what I wanted. I could only hope that Bill felt the same, but I wasn't
sure why. I mean, he was my buddy, a neighbor. He and I had done a lot
of stupid things together over the years, the usual things that boys
do, and I had never once thought of him in any way but a guy friend.
But dressed this way, and I know that I looked just as good as any
other girl we knew, and I wanted him to be pleased. I wanted him to
want me I guess. It felt strange to think that way, but just how much
stranger was that than having my hair set in a perm, getting my makeup
done, then showing up in a skirt and top?
He wasn't anywhere I could see him, but they have a pool, so I went
around the house, and saw him laying out in the sun, wearing nothing
but his swim trunks. Quietly, I went up the short stairway, went over
to him, and tickled his ear. He swatted, then his nose caught the scent
of my perfume, and his eyes popped opened. He looked right at me, the
question of who I was forming on his lips before he sat straight up and
looked directly at me.
"Holy Shi...! Is that you?"
I nodded my head yes, then sat on the chair closest to him, my hands
folded in my lap. My skirt had ridden up, and he could see a lot of
leg, but I didn't move. I smiled instead. "You can call me Diane from
now on."
He stood up, his eyes locked on me, but he had an obvious problem, and
quickly sat down to hide it. His was excited! About me!
"Well?" I asked, "What do you think?"
"Hell! You look better than my sister does! How did you...no! Don't
tell me. I don't think I want to know!"
"I'll tell you this much" I said, This is a perm, and my nails are
acrylic, and that means that I'll have to dress this way every day or
look like a total geek, and since you are the one that asked me to do
this...for you, you are going to help me when the other kids in the
neighborhood see me!"
"Um...no problem...Diane?" He stood up again, and I could see that his
problem had not quite gone away. His eyes never left me, then..."Why
don't we, you and I," he asked, "head over to Sandy's tonight? You can
get all fixed up, and that way, everyone can meet you at one time!"
"I'll say yes, but I have to ask my mom. Call me in a little bit,
okay?"
"Sure...Diane. You bet."
I had his undivided attention, that much was for sure! The minute he
saw me he had become...excited. I twirled around and left this house to
go home and ask mom about going out that night with Bill. Sandy's is
one of those teen hangouts. Sort of a disco for kids that can't drink.
They have music, usually a band on Saturday night, and plenty of kids
go there.
"Okay" mom said when I asked her, "but you have to be in by midnight."
"Midnight?! My curfew has been one for a long time now!"
"Yes, I know that, but nice girls are in by midnight, and you will be
too, or you can stay home if you like."
Grudgingly, I agreed and went to my room to change. Dad would be home
within an hour or so, and remembering what he told me, I decided to
just change for the date right then rather than wait until later. Dad
would get an eyeful, that's for sure, because I would see to it. I had
just the outfit.
I took a shower, careful not to get my hair or face wet. In the
excitement of the day, I had built up a little aroma but didn't want to
ruin my hair or face. Especially my makeup, since I wasn't sure that I
could duplicate it, not yet anyway. I put clean panties on, then the
padded pantybrief. It was tight enough that with careful tucking, I
would have no trouble presenting a smooth front. I just picked up the
same bra I wore that day just as mom came in. She suggested that I
"dust" myself with the powder that came with my makeup. Unfamiliar with
what she was talking about, she had me undress again, then used a
powder puff the size of her hand to pat the powder all over my body. It
smelled just like my perfume. I put my clothes back on, noticing that
everything slid on easier. The bra was rather plain, without any
padding, but I was eager to try something I had read on line, so I went
in the bath, grabbed the tape, and as mom watched me, I pulled each
side of my chest in to the middle and up a little before I set the
tape.
Very small mounds had formed, so that when I put the bra on, which was
easier for me to hook up since the hook was in the front, and added
those breast forms, I filled out the bra a lot better, and I had the
appearance of a modest cleavage, just like so many girls I had seen as
Sandy's. Mom gifted me with a smile as I sat on the bed and pulled on
the pantyhose. Then I went to my closet to get my favorite dress. It
was the very first one I had picked out. It was a powder blue sheath
dress that flared a little at the hips and had a hemline that was at
mid thigh. But the best part was that it has two straps over the
shoulders and a square cut neckline that would expose just the tops of
my breasts, if I bent over that is. I slipped it on and mom zipped it
up, then I went to the pile of new jewelry and picked out a pair of
silver chandelier earrings that had a small blue stone set in them. The
necklace didn't match, but it was silver, and mom said it looked nice.
With my spritzer, I added some perfume, then touched up my lipstick
before I stepped into the white heels.
"As much as I never thought it possible, you really are quite lovely
Diane, and based on the way you handled yourself today, you really do
like dressing as a girl. Tell me, are you scared?"
"I was, at first, but now I don't have to be. It's perfect mom.
Everyone knows about this party, and since I'm going to be a bride,
what can they say? I mean, all I'm doing is getting used to the
clothes! On top of that, dad told me to do my best, which is exactly
what I'm doing! Why? Is there something wrong?"
"No...but you and I, we know the truth, don't we?"
"What?" It was a stupid question, and I knew it as soon as I said it,
but all I could do was stand there.
"That you have always wanted to be a girl, and when Bill offered you
have this chance, you jumped on it as a way for you to dress like a
girl, and yet, you have managed to have everyone thinking that it's
just for Bill. I know that you know your dad well enough to know
exactly what he would say, because he says it all the time, and he did.
You have managed to fool everyone so far Diane, except me of course,
but what are you going to do when Bill, or maybe some other boys wants
to do more than just hold your hand? Face it. You're pretty, and pretty
girls don't sit on the sidelines for long, and you know it. Sooner or
later, one of the boys is going to want more. Have you thought of that?
And if you did, what are you going to do?"
"Since everyone will know, why would some guy, say Bill, try and get me
to...do something? They'll know that I can't, so why bother? Nah, I'm
not worried about that mom. I'm safe, and they'll know it."
"We'll see, but somehow, I doubt that. I think that it won't be long
before someone sticks his tongue in your ear, and you'll do something
you shouldn't. Just be careful Diane. Everyone might not know about
that party, and some of them can get violent."
"I'll stick to Bill like glue mom, promise."
Mom gave me a hug then left the room. Mom knew everything. She had
discovered my plan, almost without trying it sounded like. I hate it
when she does that. As far as being with guys went, I had no intention
of doing what she had hinted at, no way. Maybe a hug, or possibly a
kiss, on the cheek, but that was all! I made sure that I looked okay,
then took my new wallet out of the dresser and moved all of the stuff
from my old wallet to my new one. I used the white purse, and once I
had everything I would need in it, I went down the stairs to await
dad's arrival.
When dad came in I stood up, waiting for him to see me. I could hear
him in the kitchen talking to mom, then his footsteps. He walked in and
saw me, and his eyes went wider than I had every seen them, his jaw
tightened, and his mouth became a straight line.
"Your mother tells me the name you are using is Diane."
"Yes sir."
He looked at me for a moment, them, "What did you do to your hair? And
those nails? Are they real?"
Before I could answer him mom answered for me.
"Just what did you think was going to happen? Diane and I went to the
salon this morning, just like I told you, to get her hair done, and she
had some pictures of styles she liked, which was very smart by the way,
and the stylist did her hair just like the picture. You cannot fault
Diane because she didn't know that her hair would be colored, or set in
a perm! She didn't know, and the stylist simply did what she was told!
As far as her nails, they are the acrylic ones. Once I saw that she was
getting a perm, I let her get her nails done because there isn't any
way to hide a perm, especially that one! Now settle down! Diane is very
pretty, which you can see, and she did exactly what you told her to do.
She did her best!"
"But she has pierced ears on top of that!"
"All girls, and most of the boys as well, have pierced ears dear.
Besides, pierced earrings are cheaper and will hurt her less."
"But...I never...I mean..."
"What you mean is that you never expected her to turn out to be so
pretty. Well she has, and Diane will be with us for a very long time,
so you'll just have to get used to the idea that we have a daughter
now! Besides, she has a date tonight."
"A date?! With who? Where is she going? What the hell is going on
here?!"
"Bill is taking her to the teen club on Madison, and since she is going
to be his bride, they are just getting acquainted."
"Those two have known each other almost from birth! What's to get
acquainted?"
"Honey, that was when they were both boys! As you can see, Diane is now
a girl!"
"Midnight! You be home by midnight, and no foolishness!"
Dad had not reacted like I expected, but mom had jumped to my aid, and
boxed dad into a corner. Dinner was really quiet, with dad peeking at
me a lot, especially when my napkin fell on the floor and I bent over
to pick it up. He had a clear view right down my dress, and I just know
he looked, and saw what appeared to be a pair of small but definite
breasts. After dinner I touched up my lipstick again, then waited for
Bill to arrive. At the stroke of seven, the doorbell rang and I went to
get it, but dad beat me to the door. He let Bill in while I stood
waiting. The reaction when Bill saw me was much like earlier that day.
He broke out into a smile, reached out, and took my hand in his. Dad
fumed a little, but said nothing as we left the house.
Bill was so polite that I was beginning to think he was another person!
He did not, as I expected, just drive to Sandy's. He stopped at his
house, telling me that his parents wanted to see me. What could I do?
They would see me sooner or later anyway, so I joined him as soon as
the car stopped. His dad saw me first and stood up. His mom smiled when
she saw me, then, after she got a closer look, smiled wider.
"So!" his mom said, "You're Diane! You're very pretty Diane, and now I
know why Bill has been so edgy all afternoon. He doesn't usually go out
with girls that are as pretty as you are!"
"Thank you" I said, careful to stand just like mom told me to.
After a few minutes, we left his house, headed for the club. He kept
looking over at me, but I ignored him, and simply looked straight
ahead. As soon as he parked the car he ran around, opened my door for
me, took my hand, and helped me out. I waited as he locked his car,
then I felt his arm around my waist as we walked to the door. Once
inside, he saw some friends of ours at a table, waving at us. They had
two open seats, so we joined them. Bill introduced me as Diane, but
never mentioned my role as his bride to be, and everyone accepted me
for what I seemed to be. Bill asked me to dance, and while I was unsure
about dancing, he removed my options when he took my hand and pulled me
to my feet. As he held me and moved around the floor, he whispered in
my ear.
"You're the best looking girl here Diane! Everyone thinks so, even the
other girls. Just look at them."
Bill was deluded. The other girls were just as pretty, and they could
have cared less how I looked. They were only interested in the boys,
not another girl.
Since Bill was so much taller than me, I was always looking up just to
see him. During a slow dance, he and I were in one of the darker
recesses of the dance floor which is when he called my name. When I
looked up, He smiled at me, and I thought he was going to kiss me. I
think he did too. Just thinking about it was as if a shot of
electricity ran through me, and I shivered. Bill merely smiled at me,
then pulled me closer to him. I was at a loss as to why he looked at me
like that, he certainly knows that I'm a boy, just like him! I did not
say anything because I didn't know what to say! Bill, my best friend,
had the urge to kiss me! As he held me closer and closer, I knew that
he wasn't simply being polite or protective. Everyone gave us the eye
when we returned to the table, but I saw the other guys winking at
Bill. I knew the signs, they were hoping that if Bill got lucky, he
would share the details with them. The other girls patted my hand and
smiled at me. They were glad that it was Bill that had fallen for me
instead of one of their guys. I was no longer a threat, if I ever was,
since they assumed that I was "taken".
At first I was shaken, but before the night was out I knew that
everything I had felt about myself was true. I was a girl, and always
had been. All I needed was the chance to become that girl, and nature
would take over. Apparently, Bill had accepted me as a girl, and
somehow ignored what he knew. Every time he looked at me he smiled, and
that made me feel giddy inside. On the way home I expected him to stop
somewhere, like the park, but he didn't. He stopped about three houses
from mine. I looked over at him, only to see him undo his seatbelt,
then lean over to me. I did not move as his lips touched mine, once,
then twice, and a third time.
"Bill..." I said, breaking away. "You better take me home."
"Are you afraid?" he asked, and I nodded my head yes.
"Good! You should be afraid! You're only the best looking girl I know,
and my best friend on top of that!"
"Bill."
"Okay. Home."
Right at the front door, my front door, he held me tightly and kissed
me again, but this time his tongue slid into my mouth, then he broke
away before I could. I went in, shut the door, and slumped into the
chair in the foyer. Bill had elevated my opinion of him, and myself at
the same time. He was more than I imagined he would be like. He had
traits about him that I never saw when we were just two guys. He was
gentle yet strong, handsome without being rugged, polite to a fault
with manners to match, and he was very protective around me. I did not
expect that. He also, I realized, never mentioned my part in all this,
or why I was dressing as a girl! I went my bedroom and undressed,
washed my face, and headed for the bed. On the pillow was a note.
"Honey. It's okay to dream about the boy that gave you your first kiss.
Sleep tight. Mom."
What I always wanted to know was how mom always seemed to do that! Dad
was not immune either. Mom always knew what we were doing, and usually
why. Nothing got by her, but just how did she know that Bill would kiss
me? I slipped into my nightgown and went to bed, and did just what she
told me. I dreamed of Bill. Every thing about him seemed new. How tall
he was, how he smelled, how he tasted when he kissed me, how hairy he
was. I had no reference for any of those things, yet they pervaded my
mind and I could do nothing but think about him. Eventually I fell
asleep, but in the morning I could still taste him on my lips. With a
small smile, I put on my new jeans, my gym shoes, then my bra and a
tee. My hair only need a few flicks with a brush to return to its
shape. I bounced down the stairs and went in the kitchen. Mom was there
making bacon and eggs.
"Have a nice time dear?"
"It was wonderful mom!"
"I'm glad. Have you made any plans for today?"
"Nope! I'm free as a bird!"
"Good. You can help me with the housework then."
It wasn't what I had in mind, but then, mom was treating me like a
girl, just like I wanted, plus, she had saved my butt when dad seemed
to be falling off the edge yesterday. Without a word I nodded my head
yes. I didn't mind, I had helped do housework all my life. The only
difference that day was that I was wearing a bra, had longer nails and
auburn hair. Dad came down and ate breakfast, looked at me, but didn't
say anything, and right after breakfast, mom and I started cleaning in
the kitchen. By the time noon rolled around we had finished all the
downstairs and had all the beds stripped when we took a break. After
about twenty minutes, I started the vacuuming while mom did the
laundry, and by the time it was four in the afternoon, we were done,
and the house sparkled. Bill did not come over, which surprised me a
little, but, hot and sweaty, I went to my bath and took a quick shower,
this time, washing my hair.
As I dried off, I wondered, once again, what it would be like to have
my own breasts, real ones that is, but since I don't, I slipped my bra
back on, added the breast forms, and pulled on clean panties and my
padded pantybrief. Since it was warm, I pulled on a pair of my own
shorts, then one of the new tops. Like a regular tee, it was quite
thin, and you could see my bra right through it. After drying my hair
but not brushing it out, I slipped my shoes on and went down the stairs
to get a soft drink and sit on the patio. Mom was there, also sipping
on a drink.
"We work good together. The house is clean, and it only took one day.
Thanks for the help."
"No problem mom. I owed you a big one for stepping in with dad."
"Oh, your dad is okay. He was just shocked at the way you looked, even
though I had warned him that you would look very pretty. He just didn't
think it was possible." Mom sat back, and got the grin on her face, the
one she uses when she wants something, or knows something special. "I
read some of those stories that you have on your computer. Some of them
are very well written, even though a few are completely off the wall.
In one of them, a procedure to make you look like a girl by turning
your outee into an innie was pretty well detailed, and the breast forms
you're using at the moment were quite cheap, and don't look the
slightest bit real. Since there is no doubt in my mind that you love
being a girl, and you'll have all summer as a girl, which will include
swimming I would guess, I was wondering if you would like me to try and
make you look more like a girl? By that I mean getting you some really
good breast forms, plus making it look as if you have a vagina. If it
works, well, it can be our secret. Your father would not have to know,
but if he does find out, we can explain it then. Are you game?"
I knew exactly which story mom meant, and she was right. If it did
work, well, I would no longer have a bulge in my panties that I would
have to hide. I said yes without even thinking about it. Mom told me
that we would do it that night, after dinner, because she would have to
go to the drugstore and get a few things. While she was gone I set the
table and started dinner. After dinner dad retreated to the den to
watch television, while mom and I went to my room. I noticed that she
carefully locked the door after she shut it. Then, with the correct
portion of the story highlighted and in front of her, I undressed and
lay on my back, my feet up in the air.
"I raided your fathers medical cabinet Diane. Don't say anything. It's
the spray he uses to numb up his patients when he works on their
teeth."
Well, mom sprayed it on my groin, and within a few minutes, I was numb
from my belly button to my thighs. I didn't feel a thing as she worked
on me. I couldn't even raise my head to see what she was doing, but so
far, she had not let me down, and I knew that she wouldn't hurt me. It
was highly embarrassing though, especially with my feet up in the air
like that. Mom worked on me for maybe half an hour. I did see her
smile, and knew that she had managed to do it.
"Okay, you can stand up and take a look now, then I want you to walk
around the room, sit, bend and jump. We have to know if you hurt in any
way."
One look was all it took for me to realize that mom had done it! I
walked around, bent over, jumped, sat, touched my toes, all without the
slightest bit of pain! Forgetting things, my hand went to my new groin,
and I touched myself. My finger went in, just a little, but enough to
satisfy me. I grinned at mom, who told me that in the morning she and I
would go out and see about some new breast forms. I was very happy. Mom
left the room, and I quickly pulled on a pair of my panties, reveling
in the way they fit. Then I slipped into a nightgown and went to bed.
In the morning, when I went to the bath, I wondered if everything would
work okay, then, all at once, I heard the splash of water, and was,
literally, relieved. I slipped on my bra, then went in the bathroom to
try my hand at doing my own makeup, alone for the first time. As I put
on the foundation, I saw my face become all one color, and decided not
to use any eye shadow. I pulled on my new shorts, then a top and my gym
shoes before I brushed out my hair. Just like the woman told me, and my
hair almost popped into place on its own, so with just a few strokes of
the brush, I was done. I put on pink lipstick, then went to get
breakfast. For the first time since this all began, dad called me
Diane.
"Good morning Diane."
"Morning dad."
"Your mother tells me that you two are going shopping again today. Just
go easy on the wallet, okay?"
"Sure dad. I only need a few more things."
Dad went to work, mom and I ate, then cleaned up the dishes before we
left the house. I had no idea where to go, but apparently mom did. It
was kind of a long drive, but eventually we ended up in a small plaza
that had about ten stores. I followed mom inside one of them, where a
woman greeted us. Mom flat out told her I was a boy, but needed to look
like a very convincing girl for the next four months, and the next
thing I knew, I was naked to the waist, being fitted with breast forms!
After three tries, she found the right color and size, then attached
them to my chest using what she called a long term adhesive. When I
looked in the mirror, I had a pair of perfect size A breasts sticking
out of my chest! While I had never actually touched a real breast, they
sure felt real to me, but when I put my bra on, the difference was
immediate, and very satisfying. I now filled the bra perfectly, and
pushing hard against the thin material were two small nipples. My
transformation was now complete, and I never wanted to change
back...never.
Once we were out of there, mom and I hit the mall again, but this time
I picked up a swimsuit, more shorts, and a few more tops. By the time I
got home I wanted to race over and see Bill, to show him the changes,
but mom said no. "Girls do not chase boys dear, let Bill come to see
you." I went to my room to try on the swimsuit. The blue spandex hugged
me like a second skin, yet there was no sign that I was anything but a
girl! Then I tried on the shorts, and they were tight, just like I
thought they would be. I left the pink shorts on and slipped back into
my bra and top, then went down to the kitchen for a snack. As I stepped
into the kitchen I saw Bill, and his sister Angel standing there. They
look nothing alike, Bill and Angel. He has blonde wavy hair cut short
and blue eyes, while Angel has long dark hair and brown eyes that would
melt ice. Angel is a girl, there is no doubting that. She has always
had guys hanging around her. She favored light pastel colors and bright
red lipstick.
"Bill said you were what he called "a stone fox", Angel said, "and I
told him there wasn't a guy around that could look that good as a girl.
I guess I was wrong!"
"Thanks Angel. Hi Bill."
"Hi Diane. Angel said she wanted to meet you, so I brought her over."
"That's okay, I don't mind."
Angel could see my nipples through the thin bra and top, and my shorts
were so tight that the center seam looked as if it were cutting me up
the middle, and we all knew that no guy could stand that. She looked a
little confused at first, but quickly recovered.
"We were going to have a few kids come over for a pool party this
afternoon." Angel said, "and we were wondering if you wanted to come
over."
Angel had that quirky smile of hers on her face, and Bill and I both
knew that she had something in mind, which, since she was staring at
me, probably meant that she was going to try and embarrass me. Since I
could now get naked and still look like a girl, I glanced at mom, saw
her head nod a bit, and decided to take the bait.
"Sure. I'd like that. What time?"
"Oh" she said, "as soon as you get there will be fine."
She and Bill went home while I went to my room to get a towel and my
swimsuit. If I carried it with me, I would have to change at their
house, and Angel wouldn't be able to resist being in the room with me,
and the minute she saw me naked, all of her plans would fall apart. She
would have no choice but to accept me as a girl. Yet she knew, with
absolute certainty, that I wasn't a girl, and that would drive her
crazy trying to figure out just how I managed to become a girl. With a
grin, I grabbed what I would need, put my lipstick in my purse, picked
up the towel and swimsuit, and told mom where I would be. I did not
tell her what Angel was planning, since I'm sure that she already knew.
If I was ever going to succeed, I had to learn to handle things on my
own, and this was as good a place to start as any.
As I walked up to the house, I could hear some kids in the back, and
walked around the side of the house, then up on the patio where I saw
Bill standing there with a friend of ours, Stan. Angel walked over, saw
that I needed to change, and took me to her bedroom where she sat on
the bed. Seemingly without thought, I took my top off, then unfastened
my bra and set it aside. I slipped my shorts and panties down with a
single motion, turned to face her as I reached for my suit, and was
rewarded with her eyes going wide. I slipped on the suit, played with
the straps a bit, then grabbed the towel, smiled at Angel, and walked
out of the room. In my heart I knew that I had just sent her into a
spin. She had seen me naked, and there was no way she could deny that I
was now a girl. By the time I reached the patio I was grinning.
Stan saw me first, poked Bill, and he turned. I grinned at him, then
set my things down and slipped into the pool.
"Hi! I'm Betty."
"Diane" I said. I had known Betty since first grade, but she didn't
recognize me.
"Angel says that Bill likes you."
"We just met the other day" I said, "so I'm not sure if he likes me or
my body."
Betty giggled. "They're all like that, right? All we are to the guys
are sex objects."
I looked her right in the eye. "Betty dear, we are sex objects! How
else can we get them to do what we want?"
"Right!"
Just then Stan came rushing out of the water, right in front of me, his
eyes wide open, water pouring from his body, a grin plastered on his
face. I felt his arm around my waist, then I was dragged under the
water. Of course I struggled to get free, but Stan was strong, and he
held me pretty tight. Then his grip loosened, and I rose to the surface
to get some air. As I went by him, he grabbed my breast and gave me a
squeeze. Since they were fake I did not expect to feel it, but I did,
so when he popped out of the water, I slapped him, then climbed out of
the pool.
"Trouble honey?"
"Nothing I can't handle Angel, thanks anyway."
I grabbed my towel and wiped off just as Bill walked up.
"What's with Stan and you?"
"He grabbed me, that's all, nothing serious."
"Want a soft drink?"
"Sure" I said, and Bill left to get one for me.
Watching everyone, I saw Angel talking to Betty, who glanced over at
me, and I knew she had told Betty who she thought I really was, but
with my suit all wet and sticking to me so tightly, even the crack in
my groin was outlined by the thin suit. I saw Betty shake her head no
and walk away. Angel lost that round too. So far, I was batting a
thousand. I hoped that Angel would ease off a little. She was making me
nervous. But, she had always protected Bill, and around him she was
like a hawk if another girl showed the slightest interest in him. He
had been her little brother a long time, and she wasn't ready to let go
just yet.
Bill and I spent most of the afternoon together, either in the pool or
at the table, and he always held my hand. I'm not sure, but I think it
was a signal to the other guys that I was his. It was his way of
showing "ownership".
"I'm going up to change Diane, want to join me?" It was Betty.
"Sure. Why not." I turned to Bill, and told him to wait.
Betty and I both stripped down almost at the same time, and I saw her
naked for the first time ever. I was also naked as I used the towel to
dry off a little more. Then I got dressed as quickly as I could,
wrapped my suit in the towel, and went back to the patio where I saw
that Bill had changed as well. Betty had not said a word, but I know
that she checked me out. Bill once again stayed close to me, then asked
me if he could come over later. I said yes, then went home. Inside I
was smiling almost to the point that I was ready to laugh. Angel had it
set up so that she could discredit me in front of everyone if I looked
the least bit unfeminine, but when she tried it, her little plan had
fallen apart. Mom had once again saved me.
At home I took a shower and changed into a skirt and blouse, panties
and a bra, No pantyhose or padded pantybrief. I redid my makeup and
dried off my hair, then I went to help mom make dinner, but she was
gone, so I made a sandwich and watched television for a while. Bill
showed up about two hours later, and when he saw me, his eyes lit up
and he was grinning. I didn't even think about it when I let him take
my hand, but I did think about it when he kissed me. Every time he did
that it was like I was set on fire, and I didn't know why! He and I sat
out on the patio just talking for a bit, about Angel and Stan, then, he
simply stood up, yanked me to my feet and swept me into his arms. I did
not resist as his lips touched mine, nor when his tongue slipped into
my mouth. When his hand touched my breast I flinched, but he held me
tight, and I relaxed. His hand moved South, then he was holding me by
the bottom, pulling me closer. I could feel his hardness against me,
and while I was excited that I had done that to him, I was in new
territory, and did not want to get to far over the line.
Bill's hair was almost white from the summer sun, yet his chest hair
was dark, matted, and curly. I found my hand on his chest, my fingers
entangled in his chest hair, my nails making him shiver every time they
touched his skin. With my hands busy, he adroitly slipped one arm
around me while the other moved lower, and all at once his hand was on
my crotch! I felt him squeeze before I was able to break away, panting,
afraid that we might do something we shouldn't. Especially me.
"Come on Diane...I didn't mean it!"
"Yes you did!...you're a brute!"
"Yes, your right. I am a brute, but you're a maiden, and maidens are
supposed to give in to their saviors."
"And just what did you save me from?"
"Stan of course! He told me that he thinks your hot hot hot!"
"I'll bet Angel liked that!"
"Angel can be a bitch, but whatever you did to yourself, you have her
thoroughly confused right now. She thought that no boy could ever
become a girl and get away with it, so when you showed up, then
changed, right in front of her, she went ballistic. Stan will calm her
down, don't worry about that."
"I'm not worried about Angel, I'm worried about you!"
"Me?! Why me?"
"Well, to start with, you've been busy trying to get into my pants, and
that isn't going to happen big guy!"
"Do you" he asked, "know why I asked you to do this for me?"
"Tell me."
"Because you're just like a toasted marshmallow, and always have been.
Crusty on the outside, but a real softy on the inside. We all know it
Diane. I just figured that with your build, and being such a softy,
that you could be my bride easy. I just never expected you to be
so...cute, and dammit, you are cute! Everyone at the club thought so
the other night, even the girls! What can I say? You turn me on, which
is good if you're going to be my bride!"
"I might be your bride Bill, but we're both guys! Remember? You're my
best friend, and here you are, hitting on me!"
"And I intend to continue to hit on you Diane. Stan was right. You are
hot, and well, I want you to be my girl. We belong together Diane. Like
you said, we're best friends. We have an edge on everyone else Diane!
Don't you see it?"
That was the problem. I did see it. I also saw that Bill no longer
thought of me as his life long friend, his best buddy, but his
girlfriend! I had been a fool not to see it before! Bill somehow knew,
or guessed, that I would accept his proposal, but I had surprised him
by being as much a girl as his own sister! Then he had fallen for me.
Our mutual like for each other had become more than that, much more,
and I was shaken that he had told me, right out, that he wanted me to
be his girl!
"Take this Diane." Bill pressed his class ring into my hand, and as my
hand closed around the ring, he said, "Say that you'll keep it Diane.
Tell me that you'll be my girl."
I didn't know what to do! I smiled at him, stalling for time, then it
hit me. I had always wanted to be a girl in every way, and here was a
guy that also wanted me to be a girl in every way. He ignored what he
knew was the truth, and gave me his ring anyway. That ring burned in my
hand as I turned, then grabbed his head, pulled him to my level, and
kissed him. He had my answer, and it was yes. We moved to the backyard,
walking in the fading light towards the bench that lay against the
fence. As we sat down I put his ring in my pocket, and let him kiss me,
caress me, and stroke my hair. I knew that he wanted relief, but I just
couldn't do it. Oh, I thought about it, but I didn't do it. I was
scared of what that would make me, beyond what I had already done to
myself that is. Sooner or later, I would have to return to being a
male, and then what? How could I look at myself in the mirror without
cringing at the thought that I had helped Bill gain relief, even if I
did it as a girl? I went in the house about an hour later, leaving Bill
to limp home, excited, with a new girlfriend, and no relief.
That night I put his ring on a gold chain, put it on the dresser, and
went to bed. Like Bill, I was excited, but there wasn't any way for me
to find satisfaction. As I lay there in bed, my hand fell to my groin,
and I let my finger go in as far as possible. It felt good to me,
because it was something that I had dared to dream about so many times,
yet, I began to work to see what would happen. Well, you can guess my
surprise when something did happen, and I had to clean myself up. Why
that happened I'm not sure, but it did, and I realized that like Bill,
satisfaction just took a little effort. I slept like a log that night,
smiling of course. In the morning, as I got dressed, I pondered wearing
the ring, but decided not to until I talked to mom. She knew that I had
kissed Bill, which is why she bought the better breast forms for me.
But dad had no idea what was happening to me, or our family. If I
showed up with Bill's ring on a chain around my neck, the shock to dad
would reverberate through the family, starting with me, then going all
the way to mom. All I had on were panties, shorts, and a top with my
shoes when I saw mom.
She knew something was up, simply based on the way I was acting. When
she asked me about it, I hesitated at first, then it all came out,
starting with Bill of course. I told her how he made me feel, and how
ashamed I was about feeling like that towards another boy, especially
my best friend, yet I also told her how much I liked it. The shivers he
caused, that tingly feeling I got when he held me, the excitement I
felt when I realized how turned on he was. I told mom that I didn't
know why, after such a short time, that I knew that I could never be a
boy again. Then I told her what Bill had done the night before, where
he touched me, and what happened once I was in bed alone. Every nerve
ending was on edge as my feelings poured out on the table between us.
Fear and love, loathing and lust, shame and elation, they all lay there
where mom could hammer on them. Then I told her about the ring.
Mom listened without saying a word, not smiling, not frowning, just
listening. Then she put her hands over mine.
"I have known almost from the beginning, after our first trip to the
mall, that you had found out something about yourself. You only knew
that you liked to dress up once in a while, until you got a taste of
the real world. Then you blossomed and actually became the girl you
always had inside of you. It didn't take me long to realize just how
easily you adopted the role of a teenage girl, and while I cannot say
that I have the faintest clue why you feel this way, I do know that you
will never give up being a girl. I knew that early on, which is why I
bought you those special breast forms and altered you to look like a
girl." Mom squeezed my hand and smiled at me. "Diane is such a pretty
name, and it suits you. Those feelings you have for Bill are the same
ones that every girl feels about her first love. The fact that you are
actually a boy doesn't seem to matter...does it? I mean, you look like
a girl in every way now, and I am, quite frankly, amazed at how quickly
you have begun to use feminine mannerisms." Mom paused and pulled my
chin up so I was looking right at her. "Diane, how you feel about
someone is not determined by what sex they are. It's determined by how
you feel, and if you feel strongly about Bill, as a girl would, I can't
see a problem, can you?"
I shook my head no, but the unanswered question that lay unspoken was
all centered on my dad. He has always been flexible, and doesn't hold
grudges. Plus, he does not judge people unless they prove to him they
need judging, but this was me, and here I was, turning my back on him,
and every masculine thing he believed in. As an only child, he assumed
that someday I would get married and provide them with grandchildren to
spoil. As a male turned female, I could never bear, or father children,
which would dash his dreams completely. I love my father, and didn't
want to hurt him, but...
"Your father and I had a long talk last night Diane. That's why we were
gone. I told him just how I saw this...change, and also, what I thought
was going to happen. I told him that he might as well get used to the
idea that our son was gone. But that boy had been replaced by a cute
little girl named Diane, and it was our duty to protect you, love you,
and support you. He surprised me Diane. He told me that he figured out
just how you felt when he saw Bill take your hand that first time you
went to the club, and you let him, just like it was the most normal
thing in the world. Did he like it? No. Then he saw you the night you
had the breast forms attached. That thin nightgown didn't hide much,
and while he didn't say anything to you, he asked me about it, and I
told him everything, including how we managed to make you look like a
girl. He had to swallow a lot Diane, but he did, because he loves you.
Now, lets talk about what a girl your age should, and should not let a
boy do."
It was disgusting. Mom started at the beginning, and followed right on
through, all the way to how to clean myself! Mom cut me no slack as she
detailed the inner workings of a female, and why it was so important to
stay clean. When I tried to stop her, she reminded me that I had
already discovered how to find joy as a girl, and went on as if I said
nothing. Then she told me never to appear without a bra, and also told
me to go change into a dress and heels.
I had no idea what she had in mind, but I did what she told me. Makeup
and hair, bra, padded pantybrief, pantyhose, the blue dress, jewelry,
perfume, the works. She had me drive. As she directed me, I realized
that we were headed for dad's office! That was the one place I feared
most since it was dad's sanctum. He was the doctor, and his word was
law there. Mom led the way into his office, then we waited for a few
minutes before he was free. He took us into his office and closed the
door.
"We have spent a lot of money on you Diane, and while I don't mind,
because you need it, we think it's time that you started paying your
own way. As you know, Alice quit last week, and that leaves me with an
opening for a receptionist, and guess what? You're it! Starting
tomorrow morning you will report to work at 8:30. You must wear
business attire, although heels are not mandatory, and no slacks or
jeans are permitted." Dad shoved some papers at me. "I have filled them
out, all you have to do is sign them."
I looked at the name. "Diane Elizabeth" it said at the top of the page.
All the rest was correct except where he had marked the sex female. I
signed the papers and shoved them back at him. Then he told me how much
he was paying, and also, if I did well, and liked the work, he would
train me to be a Dental Hygienist, which paid three times as much! I
got up and hugged him tightly, then mom and I left.
I went to work every day, and quickly learned the system that Alice had
developed. I found out that I liked the work, and didn't mind going in
at all. I saw less of Bill, but more of dad, which seemed to work out.
At first he seemed a little distant, but after a few days we both just
accepted things, and dad and I actually grew closer. He and I would eat
together each day, talk about work of course, but also, about my social
life. My relationship with Bill cooled a bit, but that was because we
weren't seeing each other all day every day. Mom said that was a good
thing. After six whole weeks as a girl, dad and I were having lunch,
when right out of the blue he asked me if I thought I was ready to get
rid of all my padding and become a real girl! I was stunned, but said
yes, not knowing what he had in mind. But, he is a doctor, and true, a
dentist, but he knew a lot of people, and was well known in medical
circles as well as the police department because he was their forensic
dentist.
I was excited by the question, but had no idea what he had in mind. All
I knew was that dad had asked me if I wanted to be a real girl! That
would mean my own breasts, hips, smooth skin, and a narrow waist, all
of which I was faking at the time. Dad did not expand on his question,
and I was smart enough not to ask. My first effort to find a wedding
dress came on Thursday night, and Bill's mom Fay was going to join us.
She was paying for it, and she had a right to be there. I didn't mind
at all. Fay had not seen me in a few weeks, and she seemed to be very
surprised at how I looked and acted, but she didn't say anything. At
the bridal salon I must have tried on ten dresses before we settled on
one. White satin and Irish lace, it had a low cut top with a sheer
netting of lace over my breasts, sleeveless, with a fitted bodice and a
matching veil. We all agreed, then they started to pin the dress for
the first alterations. I thought they would do it all at once, but both
Fay and mom said no. I would have to return wearing the proper
undergarments, so the bust and waist could be fitted exactly. Silly me.
I had no idea.
On Saturday morning I found out what "proper undergarments" meant. At a
very expensive lingerie shop I was fitted with a white satin and lace
corselet. After mom got done tightening the laces, my waist was down to
24 inches, and my bust had swelled up due to the compression of my
tender little body! According to mom, I was a perfect 36-24-35. Then
the white hose, and a garterbelt followed by the almost obscene white
satin panties. More like a thong, they hid almost nothing and left my
cheeks almost bare. I might as well have not worn them.. Standing there
looking at myself, I was struck by the difference just a few weeks had
made. I had gone from a skinny boy to this ravishing girl, complete
with a bustline, narrow hips and a waistline. Mom smiled at me, and I
prepared to take everything off, but she told me that I might as well
leave it on. We could stop by and get the final fit for the wedding
dress.
The dress was altered to fit, then we went home. Dad was there,
grinning, holding a stack of papers.
"I need you to sign these Diane. It's a name change, an application for
a new drivers license, and permission for the attorneys to change you
school records."
I signed them all, handing them back to dad. Then he pulled out a
syringe, and gave me a shot in the arm.
"This is a shot of very potent female hormones Diane. It will help your
body develop as a girl normally would. I would guess that by the time
the wedding comes, you won't need all that padding."
I hugged dad, then mom, and was about to get a soft drink when I saw
Bill at the back door. I joined him on the patio.
"Hi Diane. I've missed you."
"I know, but dad has me working in his office, you know that!"
"Yeah, but still..."
"We always have every weekend, and every night Bill! I can't just quit
my job!"
"I know. I'm just...lonely I guess."
"Lonely? Why don't you get a job?" He ignored that question.
"Mom says that you look just beautiful in the wedding dress. I can't
wait to see it."
"Not until the day of the party Bill, and you know it! Its
traditional."
"Can I see more of you then?"
"How much more?" I asked, almost certain I knew the answer.
"A lot more! After all, we're going to be married, and a guy should
know what he's getting...."
"Bill, you are still a brute, you know that? Handsome, but still a
brute, and no, you cannot see what you're "getting", because until we
have a real live minister standing there, complete with a bridal party,
you aren't "getting" anything! If you want to get into someone's
panties, then go buy some of your own!"
He and I started to giggle, then laugh. Every time we saw each other we
edged closer to stepping over the line, yet we managed to stay away
from that. But last Saturday night he had me on fire again, and I had
touched him, through his pants of course, but still, I had gone farther
than I ever thought I would. Now, he was pushing me again, and I was
resisting the best I could. Those words mom said rang in my mind. "I
think that it won't be long before someone sticks his tongue in your
ear, and you'll do something you shouldn't." How right she was. Bill
had to be part iguana, and the way he used that tongue of his on me
always worked. He never failed to turn me on, and he knew it.
That Saturday night, he did it again, and I touched him again, this
time without the pants in the way, and he responded by giving me a
sticky hand. I did not feel the slightest bit ashamed at what I had
done, but I wasn't going to go any further. School was going to start
soon, about a month or so, and I would be returning as a girl. My new
documents arrived on Tuesday, which made me "legal" according to dad.
Mom and I went on a back to school shopping spree, and I bought new
dresses, skirts, blouses, a new winter coat, and so on. Bill and I had
reached the limit of my willingness to "help him", although he was
shocked the first time I let him put his hand in my panties. He said he
knew what Angel had told him, yet I knew there was an element within
him that was still unsure. When his hand reached my most private place,
and his finger traced the thin slit that now defined me, I saw his eyes
open wide. That's when I had touched him, helped him. Now, with school
ready to begin, I wondered how he would react. So many kids would never
know, or even figure out my deception, that I wasn't worried about
them. I was worried that Bill might not want to be as close to me,
especially if some of the kids did know, or find out, although I
couldn't see how they would.
The day school started I wore a dress commonly called a Skimmer, which
is form fitting except that it has a flared skirt. Over that I wore a
plain white sweater fastened at the neck and my low heels. Nobody even
bothered to notice me! I was just another high school girl as far as
they were concerned. But the biggest change was not in my attitude, it
was under my clothes. The drugs dad had been giving me had caused me to
develop just a bit faster than the average girl, and I no longer wore
the breast forms or padded pantybrief, although I still padded my bra a
little, since I had not developed enough to fill it on my own. Dad and
had resolved our tensions, and he now treated me as if I had been born
his daughter rather than being a "created daughter".
Bill stayed close to me in school, sort of like he was telling the
other guys that I was his, even though I wore his ring on that chain
all the time now. The wedding was supposed to take place on Saturday,
and Fay, mom, and I went to the bridal salon so that I could try on the
dress one last time, then take it home. When mom laced me into that
corselet, I was surprised that it didn't hurt quite so much, but
thankfully, I had enough breast of my own that swelling cleavage was
once again possible. The dress was an absolute dream, and I loved it.
Fay was in the changing room with mom and I when I undressed, and for
the first time, she saw me wearing nothing but my panties. When she
smiled, I felt as if I had conquered something, I just didn't know
what. After I was all suited up in the corselet, but before I had the
dress on, she made only one comment.
"I see why Bill loves you so much Diane, you are a truly beautiful
girl."
On Saturday morning mom and I went back to her salon where I had my
nails, makeup, and hair done again. This time my hair was done with
sausage curls down the back, sort of like you would see in Gone with
the wind. At home, I took a bubblebath and carefully shaved the few
places left that still had hair, then mom helped me get ready. I had
just put on those skimpy panties when we heard a knock at the door.
Cracking it open, mom opened the door a little, and in walked Angel.
Her eyes locked on mine, and she grinned at me, then she sat at the
vanity.
"Mom said that you were beautiful Diane, and I have to agree!"
"Thanks Angel" I said, even as I wrapped the corselet around my waist.
"I have a surprise for you" Angel said,, "and I hope that you're not
angry, but we all got together, and sort of put together a bridal party
for tonight."
I looked at mom, and she smiled.
"A complete wedding? Just like the real thing?"
"Yeah" Angel said, "A lot of the boys that were supposed to be the
brides resisted doing it, and the rest turned out to look like boys in
dresses, so the committee decided, after mom suggested it, that we hold
one wedding, with you as the bride."
Mom spoke up. "When Angel called me and suggested it, I was put off at
first, then I decided why not, and we all set it up. Angel is going to
be your Maid of Honor, Betty and Jill the bridesmaids. That's why Angel
is here. As your Maid of Honor, it's her responsibility to help us get
you ready, then she will go home and change herself."
There was nothing to say, nothing to do, except agree. I sat on the bed
and pulled up the white hose, fastened them to the garters and adjusted
the tension, then pulled up the garter to mid thigh. In a way, I was
glad that Angel was there, since the dress was absolutely huge, and it
took all three of us to get it over my head without mussing my hair.
Once it was zipped up I stepped into the white satin heels, then added
the pear shaped pearl earrings and the pearl choker necklace. My
perfume filled the air, then I touched up my lipstick. I was ready.
Angel took some pictures of me, then mom and I, and finally, Angel and
I. When she left to go home, mom told me to stay in my room while she
and dad got ready. As I sat there I realized that this wedding was
going to be as close to the real thing as you could get. Other than the
fact that I'm still a guy under all this stuff, and we will not have a
real Minister, I could be rehearsing for my own wedding, the real one!
When the knock came, I opened the door and saw dad standing there,
resplendent in his gray tuxedo, a smile on his face, his hand out to
me. I took it, and he swept me into his arms.
"You are, without a doubt, the most beautiful bride I have ever seen!"
"Thank you daddy!" I squealed, then hugged him again.
Dad had rented a limousine, which was waiting out front. I held his arm
as we walked out, then we were driven to the country club and let out
right at the front door. I saw Angel and Jill walking towards me. They
wore long pale lilac colored dresses with puffy sleeves. Those Empire
waisted monstrosities did nothing for either of them, and I hoped I
would never have to wear a dress that looked like that! Then I heard
music starting, and all at once Jill was on the arm of Ken, walking
down the aisle! Betty and Stephen were next, then Angel and Stan.
Finally it was my turn. Dad took my arm, and I entered the ball room,
slowly looking around at all the people, most of whom I knew. The aisle
looked enormously long, yet the walk took only seconds it seemed like.
I saw Bill standing there, grinning like he just won the lottery, tall
and proud, handsome, and yes, mine.
Dad let my arm go as Bill took my hand, and we walked up the small
steps. A man in a gray suit began.
"We are gathered together here to join this man, and this woman..."
After that it was a blur. I remember Bill raising my veil and kissing
me, his hand in the middle of my back pulling me closer, then we walked
back down the aisle, only to stand in the foyer to greet the guests. In
every respect this was a real wedding, except it wasn't. Dinner was the
usual, bad chicken and a lot of spoons ringing against the glasses.
Bill removed my garter, threw it, and Stan caught it. Betty caught the
bouquet, then Bill and I were whisked to the limo waiting at the front
door. Once we were alone, He kissed me again, harder, yet I didn't mind
one bit.
"Our children are going to be beautiful Diane. Our girls will be
Goddesses, our sons tall and handsome."
I wasn't in the mood to remind him that was impossible, so I didn't.
The limo stopped at the poshest hotel in town, which threw me for a
moment, but Bill was out of the car, his hand extended to me, so I took
it. People applauded as we walked through the lobby, then we went up
the elevator, down the hall, and finally, the room. Bill opened the
door, and I walked in. It was the bridal suite! All of our desires, all
of our groping without satisfaction was about to end, and for some
reason, I didn't mind at all. I stood there as Bill unzipped my dress,
then watched as he helped me get out of it. Wearing that corselet and
white panties, white hose and heels, I knew that I had his undivided
attention, which is when I went to him, and began to undress him. When
he was wearing nothing but his briefs, I untied the knot, and released
the hooks holding the corselet on. My hose were next, then we stood
facing each other in nothing but out briefs and panties, our
inhibitions gone.
It was with wild abandon that I explored his body, every inch of it.
Smelling, tasting, kissing, and it was wonderful. I lay there as he did
the same for me, finding my special spot was a wonderful way to explore
the new me, and it was driving both of us to heights of pleasure
unheard of. I have no idea when we finally collapsed, but I woke first,
and had the pleasure of waking him in that special way that I
discovered he liked so much. I went in the bath to take a shower, and
was surprised when Bill got in with me, but it turned out just fine. In
every way I was a woman, and standing there with the soap in one hand,
Bill in the other, I realized that I didn't want it to stop. I wanted
this to go on day after day for years. Once I was out of the bath, I
found a complete change of clothes on the bed, right down to clean
panties. I quickly changed, packed up the wedding dress and other
things, then Bill and I carried everything down to his car.
Over breakfast I realized that my parents had to know what was going to
happen to me! I mean, Bill and I left together and didn't come back!
Then there was that complete change of clothes, including a small
makeup kit. Only mom could have done that. Looking up at Bill, he
grinned, and took my hand. Then he drove me home, and we went in. Dad
wasn't exactly beaming, but he wasn't angry either. Mom was beaming,
and took me into her arms while Bill shook dad's hand. I dragged my bag
to my bedroom, then hung up the dress and so on. Mom came in shortly
after.
"You're wondering why we let you do that."
"It crossed my mind, yes. Don't get me wrong mom, it was wonderful, but
why?"
"Because you and Bill would have done it anyway honey. The way both of
you have overcome the natural obstacles has been nothing short of
amazing. Bill loves you, but you knew that a long time ago, which is
why you two have been doing what teenagers always do, except that in
your case, you can't get pregnant. By letting you two spend the night
together, you have also conquered all of the physical obstacles, and
now you can just get on with planning for the future."
"Dad didn't seem real happy this morning mom."
"That's because he knows that you have treated Bill to your body. He
understands, but he just can't, or doesn't want to, let his little girl
go."
"His little girl?"
"Yes, his little girl, which is how he thinks of you now honey, as his
daughter. But his little girl became a woman last night, and he knows
that too. Go talk to him. Let him know that you are still his little
girl."
"Thanks mom." I hugged her, and went to find dad. Bill was gone.
I snuggled up next to him, put my hand over his, and just sat there
like that, until he put his arm around me.
"Daddy, I'll always be your daughter, nothing will change that."
"I know honey, it's just that you have become a woman in every way now,
and I'm sort of partial to having a daughter now."
"That's good daddy, because that's just how I want it."
Time passed, and we graduated from high school. Bill had been in NROTC,
and had a two year obligation in order to qualify for a scholarship.
Watching him leave was hard, but I had a plan, and he would not find
out what it was for a while. I would miss him, but also, I would be
very busy. Because I had been living as a girl since I was 16, the
minute I turned 18, I became a woman, and spent six weeks recovering
from the surgery. Because of his connections within the medical
community, dad found out about a procedure, still experimental, that
would allow women like me to get pregnant and carry a baby to full
term. I researched everything I could find about this procedure until I
knew it all by heart. When Bill came home on leave, he had no idea that
I had changed, and I didn't tell him anything, except that we had the
bridal suite again.
As we repeated undressing each other, he saw nothing different as he
dragged me to the bed. He was ready, and I was hot when I rolled him on
his back, and helped him find the right place. As he slid into me his
eyes opened wide, then nature took over. He and I became one that day,
and rather than wait, we were married the next day by a Justice of the
Peace. I had my big wedding, now I had my husband. As I cleaned up I
told him all about my being able to get pregnant, then, exactly how we
had to collect what we needed. Using my hand and the jar I had been
given, I collected enough to make thousands of babies, then we went
home.
Mom supplied the egg, it was fertilized, then implanted into my body.
Within six weeks I knew it had happened. My parents would soon be
Grandparents. My only wish is that we have healthy children, and not
have to suffer the pangs of a less than perfect child. My pregnancy
went well, and thankfully, Bill was with me when I delivered a healthy
baby girl. Life is good.