Annie and her Granny
By Susannah Donim
Chapter 3 - A Few More Little Jobs for Mother
Transformations has developed some new, even more interesting
technology, and of course a test subject is needed.
I didn't have to endure any more testing after my last day as Jennifer.
My mother was satisfied with the quality of the new prosthetics and the
3D printing process that produced them. I had thoroughly enjoyed
helping Fred with the software for the photographic processing, and the
experience has proved invaluable. In fact, I've worked with him
through most of my summer holidays ever since (fortunately without
having to be a test subject again).
Two years later I did well enough in my A levels to get a place at
Cambridge to read Computer Science, and Fred's patient teaching made my
university course easy. So now, at the end of my second year, I had
come home as soon as I could get away, expecting to work with him for
most of the long vacation. This would count as 'work experience' for
my degree course.
* * *
Very early on my mother had converted one of the first-floor rooms into
a staff common room and instituted the tradition of morning coffee and
afternoon tea. She found this was a great way of getting the various
specialists to exchange ideas. It seemed to work well.
After finishing unpacking, I made my way downstairs. When I got there,
Dolly was just wheeling the trolley in, immaculate as ever in her
maroon polyester uniform and apron. She still worked in the kitchens
and was a key member of the cleaning staff, although she mostly stuck
to vacuuming and dusting now, as she had difficulty bending down low.
She was our oldest and longest-serving staff member and was well past
normal retirement age. She was tall with only a slight stoop, but she
moved slowly due to her age and considerable girth. Everyone liked her
and as far as I knew she had very little else in her life beyond her
grand-daughter and her work with us. My mother said there would be a
job for her here for as long as she wanted one. She had been
especially supportive when my father left us, though I could barely
remember those dark days.
"Oh hello, dear," she said when she saw me. "Ingrid didn't mention she
was expecting you today."
She started unloading side plates and cakes onto the long table against
the wall.
"No, I decided to leave early. There was nothing to keep me there
after exams. I'm not a rower and I wasn't going to a May Ball."
"Oh, what happened to that girl you liked? What was her name?"
"Rachel. It didn't work out."
My so-called girlfriend had started seeing a graduate rugby player
behind my back. He was solid muscle and about a foot taller than me,
so I suppose I shouldn't have been surprised. He was doing Land
Economy or something; one of those strange courses that seem to be
reserved for postgraduates on mysterious scholarships, purely to
strengthen a sports team for the annual varsity match against Oxford.
Not everyone at Cambridge is a genius.
"I never promised we were exclusive, you know," Rachel had said.
Well I had wanted it to be exclusive, and I thought she did too.
"That's a shame," Dolly said. A bright idea seemed to occur to her.
"You should meet my grand-daughter, Annie. You'll like her. She's
just started working with your mother. She's moved in with me until
she finds her own place in the area."
"That would be nice," I said, with a totally bogus smile. The last
thing I needed just at the moment was a blind date arranged by Dolly.
I was sure her Annie would feel the same way.
I took a cup of tea and a Chelsea bun and sat down in an armchair with
that morning's Times. A couple of other people I knew wandered in and
came over to say hello.
"Hey, stranger!" said Sharon. She gave me a hug and kissed my cheek.
"How did your exams go?"
"Not too bad. I'm probably OK for a 2:1."
"That means he's walked a First," said Vera through a mouthful of fruit
scone, "like last year. But why are you back already? Shouldn't you
be boozing and womanising till the end of term?"
Overhearing that, Dolly caught my eye from over by the tea trolley and
tutted sadly. I explained about Rachel.
"Aww, never mind, love," said Sharon. "There are plenty more fish in
the sea. Hey, you should meet Dolly's grand-daughter. She's working
for your Mum now, and she's lovely."
At that moment, right on cue, my mother walked in. She was talking
animatedly to the prettiest girl I had seen for quite a while. Mum saw
me and waved.
"Steven! How lovely!" she said. "I didn't expect you for a couple of
weeks." A cloud came over her face. "You haven't been thrown out,
have you?"
"Of course, he hasn't!" said Vera. "He just couldn't wait to come home
and start working for you and Fred again."
I reassured her and explained about Rachel for the third time in ten
minutes. She commiserated.
"So I thought I might as well come home. My tutor waived the residency
requirement, saying I could make it up next term. She knew I had a
summer job to go to, one which was related to my course." I grinned.
"I didn't mention that I would be working for my mother, and that the
job would have waited."
At that point the girl she came in with made her way over to us
carrying two cups of tea.
"Here you are, Ingrid," she said, giving one to my mother.
"Thank you, dear. Annie, I've told you about my son, Steven, haven't
I? Steven, this is Annie. She's just joined us. She'll be working
with me on some exciting new projects. Her speciality is stage make-up
and facial prosthetics. We're hoping that you and Fred will sort out
the programs for 3D printing..."
"You're breaking your own rule, Ingrid," said Fred, who had just come
up behind her. "No shop talk at tea break. I'll tell Steve all about
it when he actually starts work." He turned to me. "How are you,
kiddo? Great to see you. You're looking fit. College life obviously
agrees with you. How's that girl of yours? Rachel, wasn't it?"
He sensed everyone looking daggers at him.
"What? What did I say?"
Without me noticing, Vera and Sharon had slipped away quietly, and Fred
and my mother went over to get some cake and talk to Dolly, so somehow
I found myself alone with Annie. We soon found we had a lot in common.
She had just finished her degree course in Theatrical Arts at London,
and was also waiting for her results. So she was a year ahead of me,
but we were the same age because I had taken a gap year and she hadn't.
Despite the 'no shop talk' rule we soon found ourselves talking about
the business. I explained that I had helped write the software for our
unique 3D imaging and printing.
"Fred's the creative genius, of course," I admitted, "I just helped
with the coding, but I'm hoping I can be more useful now."
"Fred's great," she said. "I really like him..." She paused. "If I'm
not being too nosey... What is he to you and Ingrid?"
"Well, it's complicated..." I began.
"Oh, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have intruded."
"No, no, it's OK," I hastened to reassure her. "You should know, if
you're going to work here. There's quite enough secrecy as it is, and
you're Dolly's grand-daughter, so you're practically family, aren't
you?" She smiled. "It's like this. The house and grounds belong to
my father. It's one of those 'entailed' estates, passed down strictly
through the male line."
"What - like in Pride and Prejudice? I thought that would be illegal
by now."
"I don't think so... it's still exactly like in Jane Austen's time.
So, when my father dies it will all come to me, as the eldest, actually
only son. Not that I expect to change anything. The business makes
good money, according to my mother, and these old houses are expensive
to run. Anyway there's not much of the original estate left. Most of
the land has been sold off to pay taxes and so on. I don't know if
I'll work here after I graduate, but I'll keep it just as it is for as
long as my mother still wants to run her business from here."
"But where's your father?"
"He left us when I was little. I hardly remember him. At first, after
he moved out, he would come and visit at weekends, but gradually his
visits became less and less frequent until they stopped altogether. As
far as I know, he's still alive - well, he must be or I would have been
contacted by the solicitors or whoever when I turned eighteen. I think
my mother knows where he is and how to reach him, but she's kept it
from me. I've asked her many times but she won't budge."
"She's quite a strong character, your mother," she said with a twinkle
in her eye.
"Oh, you've noticed?" I smiled. "When Dad moved out, he took nothing
with him, she says, and he gave her exclusive use of the estate, with
Power of Attorney and everything." I took a breath. "Fred was his
best friend, and Dad asked him to look after Mum and me. And he did,
in every way but one. He's been a substitute father to me, but he's
gay, so of course..."
She caught her breath. "Oh I didn't realise..."
"No, he doesn't advertise, or practise much, as far as I know. He
keeps a couple of rooms upstairs for when he's working late, but he
doesn't actually live here, and he never brings anyone back. So, I
have no idea what he gets up to in the evenings and weekends, or
holidays."
"What about the business? How did that start?"
"Mum set it up. She had some experience in disguises, make-up, and so
on. Come to think of it, she's never told me what she did to learn all
that. I think being secretive comes naturally to her. It can be quite
annoying. Later Fred had the idea of using 3D imaging and printing to
make much more convincing prosthetics. We started doing that four
years ago."
No need for her to know the role - roles - I played in getting that
going.
"Well, thanks for telling me all that."
"That's OK. You're easy to talk to."
I swore I was off the fair sex for the summer after Rachel, but...
"If you want to talk some more, I'm free on Saturday night...?"
She was, and we did - that Saturday and every chance we had that
summer.
* * *
The following Monday morning I was pleased to have been invited to sit
in on the regular weekly meeting of the Transformations senior staff.
Annie saved me a place next to her. Fred was there of course. The
other attendees included Vera, Sharon and Alice Parr, the only member
of staff apart from my mother who used her surname with customers. She
maintained that having to call her 'Miss Parr' ensured her students
treated her with respect. Mind you, I had no idea whether it was her
real name.
My mother used her maiden name, McLaughlin, at work. No client ever
knew our family name, 'Jones', which she used everywhere else. She
strode in at ten o'clock on the dot.
"Morning, everyone," she called above the chatter.
A respectful silence fell. It was like being back at school and my
mother was the headmistress.
"As you all know, we're very good at body prosthetics," she began, "and
that's fine for clients who aren't too concerned about being
recognised. So far, the majority of our business has been concerned
with helping men disguise themselves and live as women. Often they
have no need to change their features - either they don't care if
they're recognised, or they will be living in an environment where they
won't encounter their family or old friends at all. So giving them a
new female physique, plus hair and make-up, is often sufficient.
"But the face is obviously a very important part of any
transformation," my mother continued. "Many clients have features
which are too obviously masculine to make convincing women."
She was looking pointedly in my direction as she said this, presumably
because it wasn't a problem with me, Mr Blanditty Bland.
"Also, many have begun to ask whether we can disguise them so that they
are unrecognisable in their new lives," she continued. "We believe we
can address both requirements by providing facial prosthetics which
completely change the features. It should also be possible to make a
client look like somebody else, which would be very exciting."
"To make them look like another person, you mean?" I said. "Someone...
real?"
"Yes," she said, annoyed at being interrupted. "I intend to offer such
a service as soon as possible, and that is why I am delighted that
Annie has joined us."
Smiles all round, and a smattering of applause. Everyone had met Annie
by now, and her obvious enthusiasm and sunny disposition were already
proving popular.
"You all know her qualifications, and as she develops her designs, she
will be working closely with all of us. Fred, where are we with the
new equipment for capturing details of the head and face? Did you talk
to the chap that Daisy mentioned?"
"Yes, that was Josh at MoCap Studios in Bath. We need images of the
shape of the head, the contours of the face, and the texture of the
skin, in very fine detail. Josh reckoned the best way to capture what
we need for 3D printing would be to use the same system they use for
motion capture. Each tiny sensor transmits a signal to a receiver on a
nearby computer, which can register its position relative to a
reference plane to a thousandth of a millimetre. With all of those
readings our software could construct a very accurate wireframe 3D
image of the model's head and face."
Some of his audience looked confused.
"But why do we need motion capture sensors?" asked Vera, voicing all
our thoughts. "Our subjects will keep still while we record them,
won't they? We're not going to start making films, are we?"
Fred hurried to explain.
"MoCap use CGI for rejuvenating or aging an actor's face, or for
turning him into an alien or a monstrous version of himself. In this
way, when he smiles, say, all the laugh lines, wrinkles and dimples
move on the movie creature's face precisely as they do on the actor's
real face. We need the same, but for a real-life model, as we can't
correct our errors in post-production. The sensors Josh recommends are
a bit more expensive than any alternatives but they're by far the most
accurate. They will send continuous real-time signals to the receiver,
so we can see how the disguised version of the face on the computer
screen moves and changes as the model's expression changes. That will
give us the information we need to make the necessary prostheses using
our usual 3D printing techniques. We can also use the sensors for
other purposes, like animating the images for advertising purposes, and
so on."
Not that we actually advertised as such, but we did put out an online
newsletter to our regular clients, and encouraged them to forward it to
any of their friends and contacts who they thought might be interested.
"What about the software?" I asked.
"The sensor manufacturers bundle data capture software with the
product," Fred said. "We just have to customise the interface to the
3D printer."
"Which we've done before," I said.
"Indeed. It will be a little different, but much of the basic
processing will use the same modules as the torso imaging. They work
out the differences between the client's head and the proposed
disguise." He turned to my mother. "I'm going to ask Steve to work
with Annie for the last part. That will be to build the 3D model of
the client's head, and print the prosthetic pieces needed to change the
face to the desired new features."
That would be great! I would be working closely with Annie all summer.
"Do you have any concerns from what you've heard, Annie?" my mother
asked.
"Only that when it comes to making facial prosthetics to make you look
like another real person, there are limits," she said. "We can make
prosthetics to duplicate another person's features. We can stretch
thin layers of imitation skin over wrinkles to hide them and make you
look younger - up to a point, anyway - and we can add latex wrinkles to
make you look older; but there's not much you can do if the shapes of
the two people's skulls are too different. Also, you can't disguise
big differences in their facial architectures; for example, if your
eyes are closer together than theirs, or if the distances between the
brow and nose, or the nose and mouth, are too different. If you have a
small nose we can make it bigger, but not vice versa; or we can
elongate a short chin to match someone else with a long one, but we
can't do the reverse, not without major surgery."
My mother was nodding.
"Yes, all good points. There will always be limitations of that
nature; I see that. Thank you, Annie."
"And of course, the MoCap technology can't always be used for making
you look like another person, can it?" I said. Some of the group
looked blank. "Well, sometimes we won't be able to get our target in
here to attach our little sensors to them, will we? We need to be able
to work from photos, or even just a description."
"Yes, I think we all understand that, Steven," my mother said, a little
tetchily, I thought.
"Perhaps we could hire a police sketch artist, part-time," I said, not
altogether seriously.
"The plan is to gradually build up a database of skull types and facial
architectures," said Fred. "Then when we only have a photograph to
work from, we can try superimposing the features on the three or four
best fits from the database, until we get as close as we can."
"But first we have to get as many complete images online as possible,"
Mum added. "That means everyone here will be subjected to the process;
also any of our clients who are willing to help; and anyone else we can
think of, short of pulling people in off the street. We still have to
maintain our privacy."
"You first though, kiddo," said Fred amiably. "We only have you for a
few weeks before you go back to college. Besides, you're used to being
our primary test subject, aren't you?"
I shushed him as surreptitiously as I could. I'd rather Annie not find
out about Milly and Jennifer and how I spent that summer four years
ago.
* * *
At our first planning session Annie and I agreed that we would each
spend a few days researching. She already knew a lot about theatrical
make-up, masks, wigs and so on from her course, but she would
investigate further, especially regarding the materials required. Fred
would need to know whether the fluid plastic he used in the 3D printer
for prosthetics would work for face pieces, or whether he would have to
go back to his German supplier for something new.
Meanwhile I would investigate facial recognition techniques, which we
agreed would be the basis of the photographic processing. The
principles would be the same as for 3D modelling of the torso, except
that many more reference points would be needed, each corresponding to
one of the little motion capture sensors. The 3D model of the face and
skull would then be constructed by 'joining the dots' again. The
requirement for more 'dots' meant processing much greater volumes of
data, faster. The computers would have to be upgraded for that, which
Fred was understandably excited about.
My mother also invited Annie and me to sit in on some of her client
interviews, so that we could begin to get a feel for what she had to
deal with. The most common problem was that most male customers were
bigger and broader than women of the same height, but it was hard to
get them to accept that they would only make convincing women if they
let us pad them out - a lot, in some cases. Sometimes it took all her
diplomatic skills to persuade them that they were never going to be
Angelina Jolie. The fair ship, HMS Petite, had sailed for them long
ago. If they wanted to be convincing, Hattie Jacques was more likely
to be their future.
I didn't get to see many of these client interviews in the end anyway.
For some reason, most of the clients didn't mind Annie sitting in with
my Mother, but they didn't feel comfortable with a man watching them
spill their innermost desires. My mother offered to help me resurrect
Milly or Jennifer, but I passed.
* * *
Outside work Annie and I were inseparable. We spent our evenings - and
nights - together whenever we could. My mother was quite relaxed about
her pottering around the flat at all hours and in various states of
undress. I was a little surprised by this, but I suppose I shouldn't
have been. Mum was many things - most of them disagreeable - but she
certainly wasn't a prude. My bedroom door had a lock on it, but we
were never disturbed anyway.
Annie gradually took over my second wardrobe and chest of drawers. I
moved the clothes I wore least often into what I still thought of as
'Milly and Jennifer's Room'. Annie asked me how it came to be known
as that. Before I could scrape up an answer that was neither
embarrassing nor a lie, my mother said they were lodgers we once had,
which I suppose was sort of true. It was another fine example of her
ability to find shades of grey. I told Annie the truth later on. She
begged to see what I looked like transformed, but I told her -
truthfully - that I didn't have any photos.
Annie rarely invited me back to her grandmother's house, although Dolly
must have known we were sleeping together. In fact, I'm pretty sure
she was pleased, and keen to take the credit for matchmaking. She
certainly continued to greet us both at tea and coffee breaks with a
smile and a laugh.
I was definitely falling in love with Annie, but I didn't say so. I
don't know if she felt the same way; I didn't dare ask in my
insecurity. Rachel must have hurt me more than I thought. Or maybe I
was just being stupidly male.
At work Fred was now delegating more sophisticated tasks to me as my
knowledge and confidence grew. I also lightened his load by taking
over managing the network, which was always a chore. But progress on
the new prosthetic systems was slow. Annie would soon need access to
the computer models Fred and I were developing, but we were finding the
motion capture sensors a pig to calibrate. The problem was with the
reference plane which refused to settle and stabilise if the subject
moved. In the end it was easiest to provide a set of clamps to hold
the head still. After that we started to make progress.
* * *
One day, mindful that my mother was not the most sensitive parent on
the planet (to say the least) Fred asked me how I was doing,
personally.
"It's great to see you and Annie together," he said kindly. "Are you
over that Rachel girl?"
"Rachel who?"
He laughed.
"By the way, Fred," I began, "how do you feel about this new venture -
providing impersonation as well as transformation?"
"How do you mean?"
"Well, the more I think about it, the less I like it. If it works, a
client could impersonate anyone whose photograph he could produce for
us to work from. How many legitimate uses could there be for that? I
can think of maybe two: the personal security business and the 'look-
alikes' trade."
Fred said nothing. I took his silence as encouragement to continue.
"A professional bodyguard could disguise himself as the client and act
as a decoy for kidnappers or assassins. I suppose the look-alike
business is OK, as long as it's done for entertainment only, not for
deception; but the whole point of the technology is that it should
genuinely be good enough to deceive. It will be too expensive and
laborious for just a party or a prank."
Fred was nodding.
"Meanwhile the applications of truly convincing impersonation
technology for the purposes of fraud - or worse - are too many to
count."
"Have you talked to your mother about this?"
"I tried to, but she wasn't interested. She just repeated that she
never lets her clients reveal their motives for using our services, and
what we don't know can't hurt us. She's like an arms manufacturer.
She only makes the bombs; she doesn't drop them on anybody."
He winced at my metaphor but didn't argue.
"To be honest, it's been bothering me too," he said, "but I'm not sure
what to do about it."
Neither of us had anything further to say. Having shared my concerns,
I stopped worrying. I would be spending the whole summer with Annie...
* * *
"That's not too tight, is it?"
Annie was screwing in the clamps which would hold my head still.
"No, it's fine... owww!"
"Sorry," she said, unscrewing the left clamp slightly.
She and Fred had spent half an hour sticking little micro-sensors to my
skin. They were all over my head, face and neck. I looked like I had
the worst case of acne in history.
"Just try moving your head a little," called Fred from the workstation
on the other side of the room.
I did, without success.
"OK," he continued, "I think we're all set. The reference plane is
fixed and nothing happened when you tried to move. When I say 'go',
you can begin."
Annie had found something for me to read which she hoped would exercise
all the muscles in my face. As my movements were now severely
restricted, she had rigged up a sort of lectern and put one of my
favourite books on it, opening it at an especially good bit.
"Just relax, Steve. Read out loud and try to make all the appropriate
expressions to reflect the story," she said. "Laugh and smile at the
funny parts; frown where it's sad; and so on. We need it to be natural
- don't pull funny faces - but we want you to use all your facial
muscles, if possible. Then, when we stick prosthetic pieces on you to
make you look like someone else, they'll fit the contours of your face
perfectly and move naturally with all the lines and creases."
"I get it," I said and began reading.
It was an extract from Terry Pratchett's Witches Abroad. I tried to
react as much as possible to Terry's fabulous prose. It wasn't
difficult. Granny Weatherwax always made me laugh - and cry. Annie
turned the pages for me as if the book was a musical score and I was a
concert pianist. After about fifteen minutes my face was starting to
ache. If I didn't have any wrinkles before, I was pretty sure I would
now. Eventually Fred told me I could stop.
"Processing the raw data will take about an hour," he said. "I need a
break."
So we went upstairs to the lounge and sat with cups of coffee and
chocolate digestives.
"Fred said you've been a test subject before?" Annie asked.
Fred had discreetly picked up a copy of the day's paper and taken a
seat over by the window. He was having a go at the crossword.
"Yes," I admitted. "My mother says I have a nondescript face. Perfect
for experimenting on."
"That's a bit unkind!"
"Par for the course for her, but she meant that I should be easy to
transform. Most people can't remember what I look like when I'm me, so
how would they see through a disguise?"
"That's not fair," she said loyally. "You have a very handsome face."
"You're too kind, and may be biased," I said. "The point is, you
should be able to make me look like just about anyone, with the right
prosthetic additions."
"Well, up to a point yes, but we still couldn't make you look like
someone with extreme features."
"Do you and Mum have someone in mind then?"
"Well, yes we do, actually."
She looked a little embarrassed. When she told me, I didn't know
whether to laugh or cry.
* * *
The test on my data went well. It was spooky to watch the wireframe,
skeletal 3D model of my head slowly revolving on Fred's monitor.
"That's the basic frame," he said. "Now I'll fill in the flesh."
He clicked his mouse. The figure stopped revolving and gradually the
software filled in the spaces between the lines with curved skin-
coloured panels. Fred smoothed any remaining sharp edges.
Annie squealed with delight. "That's amazing!"
"It is quite impressive, isn't it?" Fred said. "But I haven't finished
yet."
The figure was easily recognisable as me, but it was a little... off.
I struggled to work out quite why.
"This module fills in the spaces using generic colours and textures,"
Fred explained. "Now I'll download detail from the stored photographs
we have of you. The program will then paint over the image with your
actual skin colours. It will add all your blemishes too, Spotty!"
Annie laughed. I protested.
"That must be an old photo you're using," I said. "My adolescent acne
cleared up two years ago!"
Fred had been teasing. He brought up a recent high-resolution
photograph, taken the previous September after our summer holiday. He
put it side by side with the computer model. Now I saw what had been
wrong with the latter. It looked like me all right, but the skin tones
were uniform and too pale. He clicked his mouse again. The figure's
skin gradually changed colour to match the photograph. Now it was more
tanned, and both skin colour and texture varied realistically, darker
on the nose and forehead, paler round the eyes. It also developed my
freckles and added the birthmark I had on my upper lip. There was now
no discernible difference between the photo and the computer model,
which started revolving again.
Annie gasped. We looked at each other. I turned back to the figure.
It was incredibly lifelike, in 3D and Ultra HD. Did the back of my
head really look like that? I was relieved to see there was no sign of
a bald patch yet.
Suddenly and without warning, the figure on the monitor opened its
mouth and started reading about Magrat, Granny Weatherwax and Nanny Ogg
flying to Genua. I nearly jumped out of my skin, even though I knew it
was coming. Without flesh, it had looked like me but had been unreal.
Now it was fleshed out and animated, and it was like watching a high-
resolution 3D movie of myself. Did my voice really sound like that? I
knew I was no James Earl Jones, but I hadn't realised how high-pitched
and reedy I sounded.
* * *
Over the next week everyone on the staff went through the same
recording process - even Angie, the receptionist, and Dolly, the tea
lady. Annie, Fred and I took it in turns to run the sessions.
Meanwhile we worked on adapting our processes for making body
prosthetics to do the same for the features. Eventually we were ready
for the test and, inevitably, I drew the short straw. I sat in
Sharon's make-up chair. She was dressing a suitable wig while Vera
prepared the face pieces Fred and I had printed. With a fine black
marker pen, and using a template produced by our 3D printer, she
carefully drew guidelines on my face to help her stick the prosthetic
pieces in the right places.
"It was the obvious choice," Vera said.
"I know that," I sighed, "but you can understand why I'm less than
enthusiastic about it."
"Oh yes," she sympathised. "I hope she promised you a nice bonus
again, like she did when you were Milly and Jennifer."
That was a point! A bit more money wouldn't go amiss. I thought back
to that summer. It had been four years since I had said goodbye to
Milly and Jennifer. I had been just Steve ever since, with no regrets,
but that didn't mean I didn't think about the two females I had been.
The experience hadn't been all bad. I grinned inwardly at the thought
of Alf's gallant invitation to Jennifer, who he found attractive
because she was as fat as his late wife had been.
Vera was now applying adhesive to the first piece. I returned to the
present.
"How long will I be stuck with this lot?"
"The usual - about two weeks, unless we remove it with the solvent
first. But Ingrid needs to know how long these prosthetics will last.
Feel free to treat them roughly - I mean, with a rigorous make-up
regime, not shaving, obviously! You won't be the only guinea pig, by
the way. We think the adhesive will break down more quickly for some
people than for others - we all have different amounts of natural oils
in our skin - so we need to test it quite widely. I think your mother
has invited some of her regular clients to try it out, free of charge."
"She'll probably get a queue of guys wanting to be Marilyn Monroe."
It took her twenty minutes to glue all the prosthetic pieces on. A
familiar face was starting to appear over my own. My nose and mouth
were now shaped differently and my cheekbones seemed to have moved. By
the time she'd finished, the prostheses had covered virtually all my
face and neck. It was like wearing a thin, flexible mask, although
there were areas where no face pieces had been applied and parts of me
still showed through. As my own skin was tanned, and the prostheses
were paler, my face looked like a patchwork quilt.
"The prosthetics are the right colour of course," said Vera. "I just
need to paint all the areas where your own skin is showing."
She dabbed away with a paintbrush. When she finished, she signalled
to Sharon who had been watching the process, fascinated.
"OK, Shaz, you ready with her wig?"
So I was a her again now, was I? Can't say I'd missed that.
First, Sharon tucked all my hair under another wig cap, reminding me of
the discomfort of wearing a hairpiece all day. Then out came a short
brunette wig, already styled in the familiar severe bun. She pulled it
down over my head. I felt its Velcro lining gripping the mesh of the
cap. She adjusted it carefully and reached for a comb and a brush for
a final primping. When she was satisfied, she sprayed my new coiffure
all over to hold it in place. Then she set about applying an
understated daytime make-up.
"The finishing touch," said Vera, passing me a pair of ladies'
spectacles. "Plain glass, of course."
The face in the mirror staring back at me sullenly was all too
familiar. Shit! What will Annie say when she sees me? She was out
this morning on some errand. I hadn't seen her since breakfast.
But she'd probably say, "Hello, Ingrid!" Because I was now the
spitting image of my mother.
* * *
There was still work to do, of course. Sharon gave me a manicure,
painting my nails an understated pink. My mother was never flamboyant.
After that Vera and I went back to her room where she gave me an all-
over waxing, which was just as bad as I remembered. Then she stuck
breast forms in my mother's size - 42C - on my chest. Finally I had to
wriggle into an abdominal prosthesis to complete my plump, middle-aged
figure.
I noted, ironically, that she may not have had much cellulite on her
thighs and buttocks four years ago but she certainly did now, and so of
course did I. At least I'm a hundred pounds lighter than Jennifer had
been.
"There's something really wrong about this," I said to Vera as she
helped me to get dressed. "A man shouldn't see his mother naked."
"Try not to think about it," she said. "You're Ingrid now, so you're
only looking at yourself."
She helped me put on a plain black bra and matching granny panties. "I
can't believe I'm wearing my mother's underwear," I said.
"You're not," Vera replied. "She made sure you have the same styles
and sizes she usually buys, but all your undies are brand new. You saw
me taking them out of the packet."
"Small mercies," I said.
She handed me a pair of tights.
"You remember how to put these on without laddering them?"
I nodded and sat down at her desk chair to do so. Then I slipped my
feet into a pair of black ladies' shoes. They were in my size and had
only one-inch heels. My mother usually wore at least two-inch, so
these shoes would minimise the height difference between us.
The rest of my outfit was not new. She helped me put on a plain white
blouse and a smart grey suit of my mother's. The skirt was quite snug
around my new hips. When I sat down on the office couch it forced me
to keep my knees together.
"Engagement ring, wedding ring, ladies' watch, bracelet," said Vera,
"all cheap fake copies of your Mum's."
I took the proffered jewellery and slipped the pieces onto my newly
manicured hands. She fastened a pearl necklace - also fake - around my
neck. I supposed I should be glad my mother never used perfume. She
reckoned a couple of swipes of underarm deodorant was good enough for
anyone.
"You'll need earrings," Vera said. "I assume you don't want your ears
pierced?" I shook my head firmly. "Then it's these, I'm afraid. I
hope you don't find them too uncomfortable."
She attached a pair of discreet clip-on earrings to my lobes.
At which point the door opened. Fred and Steve came in, with Sharon
following behind.
I gaped. Vera snickered.
"Surprise!" the new me said to me.
The new Steve's voice was much higher than mine. Surely they wouldn't
have...? She wouldn't have...?
"Annie...?" I stuttered.
She looked concerned when she saw how shocked I was. She turned to
Fred, her hands on her hips in a very unmasculine, but very Annie,
fashion.
"I told you we should have warned him!" she said crossly. "We could
have given the poor boy a heart attack!"
"Yes, sorry, kiddo," Fred said apologetically. "It just seemed too
good an opportunity to miss."
"I did say there would be other test subjects," said Vera. "Annie's
been here all morning. It's been quite a challenge to keep the two of
you apart."
Most of her disguise was superb. She'd obviously tucked her long
blonde hair into a tight wig cap. The medium-length mousy brown wig on
top of that looked just like my untidy mop. Her facial prosthetics
were as perfect a reproduction of my features as mine were of my
mother's. She was wearing one of my bulky winter sweaters, which was a
little incongruous for June, and a pair of plain jeans.
"But what happened to your boobs?" I spluttered.
"My breasts are tightly bandaged under my hairy chest piece," she said,
"and it's quite uncomfortable too."
"And what about your... you know, down below...?"
"It's another abdominal prosthetic; only mine is supposed to flatten my
bum and broaden my waist," she said. "It's very tight as well."
She twirled to give me a good view. I think her bottom stuck out a
little more than mine - that is, Steve's - did, but I might have been
fooling myself. My Ingrid bottom stuck out a mile, of course (or felt
like it did).
"She's supposed to be straight up and down, like a man," said Vera,
"but the prosthesis can't completely conceal her feminine behind.
Overall she's quite buff though, isn't she?"
Indeed she was. In fact, she looked more... muscly than I normally was
- am.
"And the prosthesis doesn't have a... boy bit, if that's what you're
wondering," Annie continued blithely. "It's just padding. I still
have to sit down to pee. But let me have a proper look at you."
Sighing, I stood up and did a similar twirl for everyone. She reached
out - up - to feel my cheek.
"That's amazing!" she said.
"Yes, even if you and the real Ingrid were standing side by side, I'm
not sure we'd be able to tell which of you was which," said Vera.
Fred was looking at Annie and me, appraising us professionally.
"I think the real clincher is that your faces don't look like masks,"
he said. "Because our prosthetics follow the lines and creases of your
faces - that is, Ingrid's and Steve's faces - they look completely
natural. That's the problem with even the best masks; they don't move
right and they look false. I think we?ve achieved something truly
different here.?
?I agree,? said the real Ingrid, from the doorway. ?Congratulations to
all of you. This is a superb achievement.?
?And quite a sight!? said Fred. ?Two Ingrids!? He suddenly realised
that my mother might not have taken his remark as a compliment. ?I
mean, a sight for sore eyes, of course,? he hastened to add.
My mother gave him her patented stony look, which she normally reserved
for me.
?Now we must devise some appropriate tests,? she said. ?I have some
chores to do in town. The two of you can do them now.?
* * *
Annie was three inches shorter than me; that is, than Steve. So in
addition to having her breasts tightly bandaged, and the uncomfortable
abdominal prosthesis, she was wearing elevator shoes which affected how
she walked. These were only two inches, so they didn?t completely
close the gap. As I was now wearing high heels, she was still two
inches shorter than me.
All in all, her disguise was less successful than mine. She also
hadn?t had any ?boy training?, so with her high voice and her feminine
movement and body language, I desperately hoped we wouldn?t meet anyone
I knew in town.
?You can pick up a few things from the supermarket, then I need you to
go to the bank,? my mother said. We were sitting in her office while
she briefed us for our trip. ?By the way, your nail polish and rings
look good, but you should wear a pair of ladies? gloves. The Manager
might want to shake hands. Yours aren?t too big for a woman, but
they?re probably a little rough. It?s quite normal for a woman to wear
gloves when shaking hands with a man she doesn?t know well.?
?I?ll fetch you a large pair from the wardrobe room,? said Vera, and
set off.
?Now there are cash and cheques to pay in,? my mother continued, ?and
some documents to put in our safety deposit box. That will be a good
test actually. They know me there, and will only get the box out of
their vault for me personally. You?ll have to show my ID and sign a
form, so you?ll need to practise my signature.?
?Hold on! Isn?t this fraud??
?No, actually. I never mentioned it before, but you?re a signatory for
all our accounts, and for the safety deposit too, so it?s all
completely legal. If they realise you?re not me, we?ll have to own up
obviously, but there can?t be any criminal intent because you are the
joint owner of all the assets. I?ll explain to the Manager if it
becomes necessary.?
?But I don?t know anyone there. It?ll be a complete giveaway if I
don?t recognise people you?re supposed to know.?
?It will be alright. The only member of staff I know personally is the
Manager, Mr Nuttall. He says we?re an important account, with the
business and the estate, so he always helps me himself when I need to
get into our safety deposit box. I?ve arranged an appointment for
three o?clock this afternoon.?
* * *
I managed to persuade my mother to let me drive us into town in her old
Range Rover. I argued that Annie wasn?t insured to drive my little
Toyota Yaris disguised as me, and it would look odd to anyone we knew
if I drove it disguised as my mum. Meanwhile I was insured to drive
her car but not the company van. She turned over the keys with bad
grace.
?Couldn?t you get any higher lifts for your shoes?? I asked Annie on
the way to the car. ?Everyone who knows us both knows that I?m taller
than my mother.?
?I tried four inches but I could hardly even stand in them. It was
like trying to learn to walk on stilts. Also anything over two inches
is really big and clunky ? like clown shoes. Hey, you could have worn
flats.?
?These were the lowest heels available in my size from our wardrobe
department. It seems our cross-dressing clients don?t want to wear
flats.?
?Understandable, I suppose, if they?re desperate for femininity, poor
dears.?
?You do realise I?m not a cross-dresser, don?t you??
?You could have fooled me,? she said, with a twinkle. ?Anyway, you?ve
done it before, haven?t you? I can tell by the way you move and speak,
and your gestures and mannerisms are totally womanly.?
?Well... yes... she?s bribed me to be a ?test subject? before,? I
admitted.
?Oh, you must tell me all about that!?
?No chance,? I said, opening the car door.
I put my handbag down in the passenger footwell.
?Are you sure you?re going to be able to drive in heels?? she said as
she sat down.
?I?ll manage... and that?s not a question a twenty-year-old man would
ever ask his mother when she?s driving them to the shops.?
?I suppose that?s true,? she conceded. ?Don?t forget you have to call
me ?Steve?,? she said.
??Steven?, actually. My mother never calls me ?Steve?.? I sighed.
?And you have to call me ?Mum?.?
She giggled. ?This is going to be fun!?
?Oh yeah? Who for??
I fastened my seat belt, which was perfectly adjusted for me; that is,
for Ingrid Jones.
* * *
When we arrived at the shopping centre we were nearly an hour too early
for our appointment at the bank, so we decided to do the supermarket
run first.
As we went up the escalator from the car park, Annie dropped behind. I
looked round. She seemed to be staring at my back... or more
precisely, my backside, in my tight grey skirt.
?What are you doing?? I hissed, waving at her to catch up.
?Just enjoying the sight of your bum wiggling its way up the stairs,?
she grinned. ?Steve has a pert, sexy little butt, but yours is big and
round... Mum. Even sexier, in my opinion.?
?You shouldn?t be talking like that,? I scolded. ?If you?re Steven,
I?m your mother, and that?s quite inappropriate; and if you?re Annie,
I?m your employer, Ingrid McLaughlin, and I?ll sack you for
impertinence.?
?Spoilsport,? she grinned, but she joined me on my step of the
escalator and we linked arms, like a mother and her son.
?And why are you scratching your...? I lowered my voice. ?...crotch
padding so vigorously?? I asked. ?Is it itchy??
?I?m just trying to get into character. That?s what boys do all the
time, isn?t it??
?No, they don?t! Which boys have you been watching? I don?t do that!?
?Well, you kind of do, actually, when you think no one?s watching.?
?Well, stop it! It?s disgusting.?
She chuckled. ?I?m quite enjoying this.? She winced. ?If only it
didn?t hurt my breasts so much.?
?Welcome to the world of us test dummies.?
* * *
With each of us taking half the list, the shopping didn?t take long,
even with me taking little steps and clip-clopping around the store in
my tight skirt and unfamiliar high heels. We were also under
instructions to watch each other and the shoppers around us, to see if
anyone saw through our disguises. I noted that Annie was doing her
best to take long strides, swing her arms, and generally act ?butch?.
It looked very false to me, but I suppose I knew what I was looking
for. Anyway she didn?t seem to attract any undue attention.
She said much the same of me when we caught up at the till. The check-
out girl called me ?madam?, which caused Annie to giggle to herself.
There was a young man standing by the cashier, and he asked if I needed
any help getting my groceries to the car. I declined of course, saying
I had my son with me and pointing to Annie. The assistant looked at
her dubiously, probably not believing that she could carry the heavy
bags full of tins and bottles, and he was right. But we kept our
purchases in the shopping trolley as far as the car park, Annie
wheeling it for me gallantly, if a little inexpertly.
When we had finished unloading the groceries into the car boot, it was
time to keep our appointment at the bank. We reported to the enquiries
desk and I gave our names, saying we had an appointment with the
Manager. I spoke in my highest register, which I hoped would
approximate my mother?s rich contralto. I heard Annie gasp; she hadn?t
heard my Ingrid voice properly yet.
?Ah yes, Mrs Jones,? said the receptionist, a charming little Indian
girl. ?If you?d like to follow me...??
She led the way through a door marked Private into a back room. There
was a big conference table with three chairs. Down the far end were
flasks of hot drinks and a plate of biscuits.
?Please help yourselves to refreshments,? said the receptionist. ?I?ll
let Mr Nuttall know you?re here. I?m sure he won?t keep you waiting
long.?
The coffee and cookies were excellent, obviously reserved for their
most favoured clients. At the last minute I remembered to sweep my
skirt under me as I sat down, to stop it getting wrinkled. Remembering
to keep my knees together and deny the world a view of my black lace
panties came back to me naturally. Annie chuckled and ostentatiously
slumped in her chair with her legs wide apart, to show that she didn?t
have to worry about decorum now that she was a boy.
?Sit up straight, Steven,? I said. ?Don?t slouch.?
?Sorry, Mum,? she grinned.
I smiled back. I tried to get into the spirit of our transformations.
It didn?t have to be all bad, I supposed. I sipped my coffee, holding
my cup up primly in a parody of ?the Duchess taking tea?. I noticed
the red streaks around the lip. I hadn?t seen that around a cup I?d
used since being Jennifer, four summers ago.
?Don?t forget to repair your lipstick before we leave, Mum,? said Annie
with a smile.
?Thank you, dear,? I said heavily. ?But again... not the sort of thing
a boy says to his mother. And I hadn?t forgotten. I shall ask to use
the Ladies before we leave.?
At that moment the Manager came in, carrying a ring binder. He was
exactly as my mother had described him: very tall, about six-two, bald,
wire-rimmed glasses.
?Morning, Mrs Jones,? the Manager said with a smile. ?Lovely to see
you again.?
?Good morning, Mr Nuttall,? I said.
I put my coffee cup down and stood up. I hoped he wouldn?t remember my
mother?s voice too clearly. If I pitched mine as high as I could, we
sounded alike to my ears, and we had the same accent, but someone else
might detect a difference, especially if they had met my mother
frequently.
He didn?t seem to notice anything amiss. He thrust out his hand for me
to shake. I remembered to keep mine limp. I was glad I was wearing my
gloves. Mum had been right; my coarse male hands might have given me
away, even with my nail polish and ladies? rings.
He looked enquiringly at Annie.
?Oh, I don?t think you?ve met my son, Steven, have you?? I said. Well,
I knew he hadn?t.
?No, I haven?t had the pleasure,? he said. ?Very nice to meet you,
Steven. It?s about time Ingrid brought you in to see us, given that
you?re a signatory to all the accounts and boxes.?
He smiled. They shook hands. I hoped Annie remembered to use a firm
male grip.
At that moment the receptionist came in with two metal containers about
the size of laptops, but about twelve inches tall. Nuttall turned and
watched the girl putting them down on the table.
?Oh, I don?t think Mrs Jones will want the old box, Sunita,? he said.
She picked it up again.
?It?s all right,? I said, ?you can leave it. I don?t think Steven has
ever seen what?s in it.? Well I knew he hadn?t. ?This will be a good
opportunity for him to acquaint himself with its contents.?
?Fair enough. Thank you, Sunita.? The girl smiled and left. ?Now, if
I could just ask for your IDs ? a formality in your case of course,
Ingrid, but we must do things by the book, mustn?t we??
I opened my handbag and rummaged inside for my purse. I took out my
mother?s ID and handed it over. I had reluctantly given Annie my
wallet and she was fishing in it for my driving licence. Eventually
she found it and handed it over. The Manager gave both documents a
cursory glance and quickly handed them back.
?Good, good,? he said.
He reached for the first metal box. For the first time I noticed that
each box had two locks. He took out a key and unfastened the left-hand
lock on each of the boxes.
?I won?t ask you if you?ve brought your own keys, Ingrid,? he smiled.
?I know you?re much too efficient to have forgotten. Now I understand
you have some cash and cheques to deposit in your business account??
?Oh yes,? I said and reopened my handbag.
I gave him the smaller of two bulky brown envelopes my mother had given
me. This one came with stern instructions not to lose it. While the
bag was open, I took out a little key ring with two small keys.
Nuttall opened the binder and passed me a printed form.
?If you could just fill in the next line and sign it as usual? I?ll go
and deposit this lot.?
We shook hands again and he left.
?Your Ingrid voice is really good!? Annie said admiringly.
I thanked her and studied the form the Manager had given me. It had
several lines. My mother had completed the first dozen or so on
previous visits. Now I just had to fill in my name (INGRID K JONES,
Mrs) and the date, and sign it on the next available line. Even if I
hadn?t been practising my mother?s signature, there were several
previous examples there for me to copy. I wondered if Nuttall realised
how insecure that was. But then he had already checked our identities.
My mind drifted back to my earlier conversation with Fred and the ?many
applications of impersonation technology for fraud?.
I picked up the key ring to open the boxes.
?Which box are you supposed to put Ingrid?s documents in?? Annie asked.
?I didn?t even know there were two,? I replied.
I unlocked both boxes. Then I took out the second brown envelope and
tore it open. Hopefully the contents would make it clear which box
they belonged in.
?Should you be doing that?? Annie asked.
?Why not? You heard Mum ? I own everything in here just as much as she
does. More so, as it all comes to me when my father dies...?
Actually that only applied to the estate, not the business, but I
assumed I was her main beneficiary. Maybe Fred owned half? Maybe the
mysterious second box contained my mother?s will?
?...probably,? I added.
There were several smaller envelopes inside. I leafed through them.
The only writing on each one was a name. Most were just forenames; a
few included an initial as well, presumably for the surname to
distinguish between two customers with the same first name. I saw
Daisy, Maria, and a few others. I flipped open the lid of the first
box, which was nearly full. There were many similar envelopes, again
with just a name on them. The top two were marked Nancy and Rosie. I
didn?t see any men?s names.
?I think one of our clients was called Daisy,? I said. ?She
recommended the MoCap studios guy we got the sensors from.?
I tore open the Daisy envelope; photographs fell out. Annie was
horrified, but her curiosity quickly overcame her caution. On top was
a picture of a pretty woman in her underwear. She was very obviously
pregnant.
?What do you think it means?? Annie asked.
?I think Daisy must be a client ? I assume all the others are too.?
?So some of them might be men??
?I think they might all be men,? I said.
?Surely not Daisy!? she said. ?Look at her!?
We skimmed quickly through the other photos in the Daisy envelope.
They seemed to be in chronological order, starting with a young man
being waxed, then fitted with breast forms. Then there were some
pictures of him stepping into a pregnancy prosthesis, which looked like
the kind of thing we made using our 3D printing process. Then he was
being made up and his hair dressed to become the woman in the first
picture. In the following photos, she grew ever bigger as her
pregnancy proceeded. Then suddenly she wasn?t pregnant anymore, just a
little dumpy, still needing to lose her baby weight, as it were. That
was the last picture. There was a handwritten record at the bottom of
the pile with a few notes about the process and the client, none of
which were any use in identifying him.
?But why would a man want to disguise himself as a pregnant woman??
Annie asked, baffled.
?No idea ? and we have a policy of not asking, remember?? I put the
pictures back in the envelope. ?A more pertinent question is, why is
Mum keeping all these photographs, and in a safety deposit box? I
would?ve thought she?d have the originals online somewhere.?
?Security, I suppose,? suggested Annie. ?Backup, in case of a data
loss.?
?Maybe,? I said.
My mother couldn?t intend to blackmail her clients, could she? I?ve
never pretended to understand her ? and I wasn?t sure I fully shared
her code of ethics (or lack thereof) ? but I couldn?t imagine her doing
anything quite so downright criminal. Perhaps the business wasn?t the
money-spinner I had always imagined it to be. Then another thought
struck me.
?I don?t think these photos are a necessary part of the process. We
wouldn?t need them for 3D printing of prosthetics. These are a record
of everything that was done ? including hair and make-up. And I don?t
think the clients knew they were being taken!?
?But why? How?? she gasped. ?You mean there might be hidden cameras
in Vera?s and Sharon?s rooms??
I nodded. I rummaged down to the bottom of the box and found the two
envelopes I expected to find: Jennifer and Milly. I took them out and
put them in my handbag. Annie raised an eyebrow in enquiry. I didn?t
explain. I didn?t particularly want my girlfriend to see pictures of
me as a boy, naked, then as a girl, also naked.
I put all the other envelopes back in the safety deposit box they had
come from and reached for the second box. Unlike the first, which had
been nearly full, this one was nearly empty. I lay all its contents on
the table: a birth certificate; a marriage certificate; a passport;
some photographs; various examination and degree certificates; some
handwritten references from schoolteachers, university tutors and
employers; a Last Will and Testament. All the documents of a life ? my
father?s life. No death certificate. I opened the Will and skimmed
it.
Neither of us said anything. Annie realised that what I had found had
affected me deeply. She looked concerned.
There was a knock at the door. The Manager came in.
?Sorry to interrupt...? he said.
Then he realised I was upset, but of course he didn?t know why. He
apologised, in case it was something he had done. I reassured him that
everything was fine.
?There?s absolutely no rush, Mrs Jones, I just wanted to give you your
receipt for the cash and cheques.?
I took the slip. I noticed that the total was a little over five
thousand pounds.
?Only I have a meeting shortly, so I may not be available when you are
ready to leave. Just press the green button on the wall when you?ve
finished. There?s no hurry. This room is free now until we close.?
?Thank you, Mr Nuttall,? I managed to say, remembering to use my Ingrid
voice.
He turned and made for the door.
?One other thing...?? I said. He paused. ?Are you sure that no one
else has been in here and accessed these boxes??
He looked concerned.
?That?s quite impossible, I assure you.?
I didn?t say anything. He seemed to think I wanted further
reassurance.
?Apart from myself and my staff, the only person who has ever even seen
those boxes is your good self....? He paused. ?Oh, and that other
lady you had with you that one time ? Mrs Johnson, was it??
?Er, yes,? I said. ?Thank you, Mr Nuttall.?
I couldn?t ask him any more without raising his suspicions. As Ingrid
I obviously should know who Mrs Johnson was, and on which occasion she
was with me when I came here.
He smiled and left. I began putting my father?s documents back. I
turned my keys in the right-hand locks on each box, and went to press
the green button. Sunita soon appeared to let us out. She completed
the locking process for the boxes and dropped them down a chute in the
wall which presumably led to the vault. We followed her out.
Outside the bank, Annie turned to me.
?OK, I?ll ask it,? she said. ?Who the hell is Mrs Johnson??
?No idea,? I said. ?Come on, let?s get back to the car. I?m dying to
get these stupid earrings off.?
* * *
When we got back we unloaded the shopping and gave my mother a report
of our mission. She was pleased that no one had caught us out. She
quizzed us in detail about our meeting with Mr Nuttall, the Bank
Manager. She had been concerned that he would have suspected
something.
?Either your performance was exceptional,? she said, ?or it?s true what
they say ? people see what they expect to see.?
?A little of both, I expect,? I said modestly.
?But he was brilliant,? Annie said, to my great satisfaction. ?You
would have thought he?d been a woman all his life,? she added, which I
found considerably less gratifying. She grinned at me.
?By the way,? I said, ?they brought us two boxes.?
?Stupid man!? she grunted. ?He knows I haven?t looked at the old box
for years.?
I didn?t bother mentioning that it was the receptionist?s mistake.
?We put the envelopes you gave us in with the others, but why does the
second box have all my father?s documents??
?Oh, he left them behind when he moved out,? she said. ?I put them
there for safekeeping when we remodelled the main house for the
business. I didn?t want them to be mislaid in all the confusion. You
remember what it was like back then.?
I did. The builders were in for six months. They cleared out and
renovated the basement for the computers; they fitted out most of the
ground and middle floors for offices; and they created four self-
contained apartments on the top floors. They also installed a lift.
Everything we owned had to be moved several times during the building
works. It would have been easy to lose one envelope full of documents.
Indeed we never found my primary school workbooks which my mother
claimed to have been keeping for sentimental reasons. I wasn?t
convinced that was actually her motive, as she was the least
sentimental person I knew. She was probably keeping them to show my
future wife and embarrass me with my childish efforts at writing and
drawing. I hoped we?d lost my baby pictures too, but they showed up
eventually.
* * *
Annie went straight to see Vera when we got back to ask for help in
removing her ?Steve? disguise. My mother tried to object, but Annie
said the breast bandages and the chest prosthesis were just too
uncomfortable. They agreed the design needed work. Fortunately it
seemed we had far fewer female customers who wanted to be male. I had
no such excuse of course, so I resigned myself to being my own mother
for at least another two weeks.
Still feeling a little tender in her more sensitive parts, Annie
decided not to ?sleep over? that night and went home to her
grandmother?s house straight from work. Mum and Fred were playing
Bridge that evening, so the three of us had an early dinner. Fred
annoyed us both by chuckling to himself about dining with two Ingrids,
and how that might be too much of a good thing. Strangely I found
myself reacting to his childish humour in pretty much the same way as
my mother did. I?d heard that all daughters eventually turn into their
mothers, but I hadn?t realised it could apply to sons too. By the time
the two of them left for the Bridge Club, Fred was looking confused as
to which Ingrid he would actually be spending the evening with.
I decided on an early night. I went along to the Girls? Room; the one
that was originally Milly?s, then Jennifer?s, and would now be ?Ingrid
the Second?s?.
My mother had generously covered the bed with ladies? wear for me: two
clean nightdresses, several unopened boxes of new lingerie and tights,
and some of her own suits and dresses. She obviously intended I stay
in my new role as long as possible. It was reasonable, I suppose. By
now we knew that our custom-made breast forms and abdominal prostheses
would last indefinitely, and would fall off before they broke up, but
the face pieces still needed to be tested to destruction. We couldn?t
have a client?s face dropping off at an inopportune moment.
I threw my grey suit jacket on the bed and sat down at the dressing
table to take off my jewellery, the stupid clip-on earrings first.
Then I unzipped and wriggled out of the tight skirt. I hung the suit
up in the wardrobe. The blouse buttoned at the back. What was that
about? Vera had helped me into it but how was I supposed to get it
off? Eventually I managed to undo the cuffs and the top two buttons at
the back of my neck, and could then take it off over my head. Why do
women deliberately give themselves such a hard time over their clothes?
I knew I could get myself into trouble there. Someone would say ?we
only wear tight dresses, uncomfortable underwear, and high heels
because men make us.?
Down to my bra, knickers and tights I stood up and inspected my image
in the mirror on the wardrobe door. Even though I looked every one of
my mother?s forty-eight years, she was still a handsome woman, and
undeniably sexy in just her lingerie, and so of course was I now...
I suddenly became uncomfortable staring at myself in lingerie and
stockings. I plumped back down at the dressing table. My mother had
thoughtfully provided cosmetics and feminine lotions exactly like the
ones she used, so that I could remove my make-up.
I applied cleanser to break down and take off my foundation and blush,
and an oil-based product to remove my lipstick. That might not have
been necessary, as it wasn?t particularly long-wearing, but it was all
part of the test. I was supposed to treat the prosthetic face pieces
just as I would my own skin, under the harshest make-up regime a woman
would use. In accordance with my instructions, I finished by covering
my face with cold cream.
My feminine ablutions completed, I put on a pink nightie and a
negligee, and slipped my feet into a pair of fluffy mules. I realised
I wasn?t tired and looked around for something to do. I wandered along
to the sitting room and switched the television on. By nine o?clock
I?d exhausted my interest in that and I still wasn?t sleepy. I made
myself a cup of tea.
Then one more idea occurred to me. I took the brown envelopes from my
handbag and went down the back stairs to the offices. Everywhere was
quiet and dark. I put the lights on. Fred and my mother wouldn?t be
back till after eleven, and so what if they found me here anyway?
I looked closely at the photographs of myself as Milly and Jennifer. I
sat where I reckoned I must have been when they were taken. That would
mean the cameras were... over there. I got Vera?s chair from her desk
and moved it to the corner of the room. Standing up on it and
stretching my neck I could just see a small black dot, high up on the
wall. You?d never notice it if you weren?t looking for it. I got
right up close. Something in the middle of it was reflecting the
light. A camera lens? So that was where the pictures in the safety
deposit box had come from.