Marions Story Chapter Four free porn video

Thanks again to my friend Em Kay (Marina Kelly) for all her help, couldn't have done it without her... she helped with the story and kept me on the straight and narrow and of course did all the editing so thanks Marina.... The Lips were the new hot thing among the students, we were being air play on student radio which grew to local commercial stations in Lawrence and Kansas City and were even picked up on National radio, god damn we were getting noticed. Molly had gone mad as well; she took it upon herself to take control of our web page and Facebook page, set up a You tube channel and all together it was moving quickly, Moll's did an amazing job and she sure put some work into it, if she wasn't at work or school she was working on the Lips social media stuff. Thankfully Mel loved the spotlight and carried all the radio interviews and lately there had been a few. She loved the limelight, with all the publicity she was now right in her element. The huge crowds at our gigs meant the word spread around town quickly creating requests from not only local venues but all over the state as well. We played the Manhattan in Manhattan which I loved, then a show at the state university the biggest show we had played so far. McCain's auditorium was packed and it went off. With that no sooner out of the way and we were off to Junction City to play Coyotes salon before heading home. It was our little mini tour and it just about killed the band. Three days stuck together and I had to stay in drag the whole time. Jas thought it was funny but Mel was on a real power trip and made my life hell, even Cindy complained. I couldn't wait to get back home. The reviews we got were incredible and of course it grew into more requests and Mel wanted to play them all. It forced my hand and it was decision time. Work or music I couldn't do both. Molly was pushing me towards the music and the reality of it was I was now making more from the music than I was from work, but the extra money was eaten up buying a car and getting some furniture for the apartment. Of course, the more gigs we played the more time in costume I spent and it became harder and harder to go back to being plain boring old Marion. Mimi had this incredibly exciting life playing to hundreds of people and surrounded by adoring fans and beautiful women. It was becoming a much harder decision than I expected. "Duke why not just go with the flow babe, you love the band and you guys are going to be huge after the battle of the bands, just look how popular you've become already." "But Mel is driving me crazy she argues with me all the time, everything I do she finds fault with." "Yeah, she can be hard work, but babe when you are on stage its electric you guys rock and your voices are made for each other. You should do a love song... a duet sort of thing." "Love song..... Love to hate is what we do, I think she actually hates me." "She absolutely does not...in fact if you ask me, she has the hots for you." My baloney sandwich sprayed everywhere as I choked on her words. "Jesus Moll's you can be a bitch sometimes." "Babe I am serious she can't take her eyes off you when you are on stage, I think it's one of those love hate things, you know you have to hate to love." "I don't know what to do, if I throw in my job and the band breaks up we're all screwed." "Babe just trust the universe you are a good person, it will work out." We were deep in rehearsals for the battle of the bands and every day the tension built, Mel seemed on a mission to destroy everything we did. It was late, we had been rehearsing for hours and nothing I did was right and Mel was in the middle of cursing me out again when Cindy threw her drumsticks down and screamed. "That's it I have fucking had it with you two, I'm leaving!" And she did... she walked straight out the door and we heard her car scream away in a flurry of flying stones. Jas stared at us and nodded. "You know what... I love you both but this isn't working, Cindy is right... To hell with it I'm leaving as well and I'm not coming back until you sort your shit out." Mel and I were left staring at each other only the hum of the amps breaking the growing silence. She broke first and took off her guitar and walked over and fell back in a chair. I turned off my amp unslung my guitar and did the same, flopping down beside her. "What is it about me that makes you so angry? Is it just because I am a guy? Is it because I am a guy in a dress? What the fuck have I done wrong?" She put her head down in her hands staring at the floor. "It's everything, you are going out with my ex and you know what, I still have feelings for her. You waltz into the band and it's all her idea I think she did it just to piss me off. Then to top it off you are awesome and I can't compete with you." I slipped out of my chair at her knees, grabbed her hands making her look at me. "Compete... Jesus Mel it isn't a competition, I don't want to push you out or take your place. This band is nothing without you, this band is you. If you feel that strongly then I will leave, it is your band, and by the way Molly loves you, she thinks the world of you, why do you think she follows you around?" I felt her hand grip me tightly as she sniffled. "No, she only brought you in to rub it in my face." "Bull crap, she brought me along because she thinks you're the best, she thought I could learn from you. If you hate me that much I'll leave." "I don't want you to leave, we have climbed to this new height and I don't want to lose you, Jas was right the other day you are the reason we have all these new gigs, it's all you." "Then what do you want?" She fell forward in front of me and suddenly we were kissing our tongues locked into a duel to the death. My hands found her bouncing boobs and I mashed them as we kissed, her hands holding my head tightly. My mind spinning out of control, her moans filled my mouth and her passion filled my panties. My hand fell from her boobs down between her legs and her jeans were stretched tight across her pussy but I could feel it convulsing as I mashed my hand against it rubbing the denim into her beaver, her clit throbbed I could feel its little bulge against my hand. "Oh fuck." was the only word she spoke to that point. "Jesus fucking Christ." Her hips thrust against my hand as hard as I ground my hand against her she pushed back rhythmically in time fucking my hand. Using my other hand, I ripped open her jeans and slid my hand down inside until my finger disappeared into her already wet open creamy slit. In one deep thrust I had three fingers deep in her and my thumb rubbing her clit. It was fast and furious as she bit my tongue and my lips kissing my face. "Oh fuck I am going to cum, fuck me I'm going to cum you devious bitch, you dirty fucking whore you're going to make me cum." She had to grab my shoulders to hold herself up her body convulsed shaking and jerking like she was having an epileptic shock. We rolled back to the floor as she recovered breathing erratically. "Jesus you bitch, you fucking bitch." She burst into tears clutching wildly at me, her fist banging on my back. "Why did you have to be so good, I wanted you to be terrible so I could laugh in Molly's face." I just held her tight caressing her cheeks and tousling her hair. "It's going to be alright we can get through this Mel. I like you I don't want to fight." "What about Molly? What happens now are you going to tell her?" "Yes, I am going to tell her, I wouldn't be able to keep it secret I'm a terrible liar." "She will hate me more than ever and I don't even know why she left me." "She doesn't hate you dummy, she left you for the same reason she fucks around with my sister she is a callous bitch." Shaking her head she grimaced tightly. "Why do you let her do it? Why put up with that shit?" "To be honest I don't know, I love her she has me trapped in some sticky web, Jesus even April is besotted with her." I kissed her and stood up wiping her smeared lipstick off my lips, strapped on my guitar flicked on my amp and cranked it up loud and started to play, it was just a riff I had going round in my head, nothing we had played before. She rolled over on her back her arm draped across her face covering her eyes just listening until she couldn't control her urge she jumped up grabbed her guitar and danced right up to me, standing inches from my face and played, the moment she had the riff I ripped out a stinging solo and we played and played her eyes focused on mine and as we did I started to sing. 'I love you baby' With questioning eyes she repeated the line. I found another line. 'You're the best thing that ever happened to me' A growing smile lit up her face and she repeated it back. Then I found another. 'Don't walk away just let me be' She smiled as she sang. 'You're the best thing that ever happened to me.' I stared at her intensely. 'I love you baby, I love you baby.' She repeated it and I joined in with a harmony. After an hour we had a new song, a duet and what's more a love song and fucking Molly was right again. We walked up to each other as we ran out of steam and kissed. "What do we do?" she sobbed. "We trust the universe, we ride this god damned wave all the way to hell and back if we have to, but I promise I will never do anything to harm you, I will never put you down and I will love you, maybe not in the traditional sense but I will love you." Back home when I walked in Molly called from the bedroom. "Where the hell have you been, rehearsals never go this long." She walked out into the living area and she knew without me saying anything. "So, what happened? Did it come to blows or was it just yelling and screaming?" "It was more hugging and kissing actually." I whispered guiltily. She sucked in a deep breath reeling slightly. "Oh my god, did you do it?" "No not really we sort of made out but no we didn't do IT." She laughed. "Well that sucks now she will feel let down." "No actually I think we're good, we found a song and I think we are good, but I am giving up work so you better find us plenty of gigs." "Babe we have gigs coming out our ass, I've been turning them down because I didn't want to throw fuel on the fire. I have three guaranteed gigs in Kansas City, the students want you back at the university, and there are gigs everywhere. The following day I resigned from my job. I thought April would be pissed but in fact it was the opposite she was thrilled. At the next rehearsal both Mel and I apologized, which ended in a group hug, when we played the new song there were smiles and gasps, Cindy and Jas both loved it. Everyone was so excited about it I sorted out a recording studio at school and we recorded it in one take. If I do say so myself I did a pretty good job mixing and mastering it and we released it ourselves as a single. Talking to some of the arts students we found a couple pretty keen to produce a video for us. It took a couple of days but we had our first video and Molly released it on our YouTube channel and on Facebook and the likes kept clocking up. Two weeks later at our first gig back at the Bottleneck for a month and the fans were crying out for the new song. Mel and I stood face to face at one mic as we sang staring into each other's eyes. As they say in the movies the crowd went wild. It was a ferocious night and the fans were keener than ever after the show we got swamped by drunk fans, usually there would be a dozen or so and they were normally pretty polite crowds made up of predominantly gay women who aren't usually so over the top but tonight we were overrun and had to be saved by the security. On the drive home Moll's gave me a fair bit of stick about being so popular she was going to have to keep a closer eye on me. It was all good natured until we were almost home. "Well it certainly seems to have got cozy between you and Mel?" Uncomfortable with her tone I mumbled. "Yeah guess we found some common ground." She laughed. "Common ground my ass, come on no more bullshit, you did it didn't you?" "No we didn't we kissed we talked but that's all." "Like fuck.... She was staring into your eyes like a star struck lover.... Babes if something happened then tell me I won't be mad." Sighing deeply, and mumbled. "Yeah OK... when we were making out, I may have fingered her to an orgasm." 'Ooooh you dirty little bitch, Jeez babe you are making things hard for yourself, you know what she is like." Confused I winced. "What are you talking about.... What is she like?" "Idiot now she's in love, didn't ya see the way she was staring into your eyes, Christ she's in love." I was shocked by her challenging remark. "No.... that's ridiculous I didn't mean anything I was just being nice." She shook her head in disbelief. "You are so god damned na?ve; you will have to be careful if you aren't careful she will get hurt." After that I felt like I was walking on eggshells around Mel, but things seemed to be going fine I was polite and kind to her. Molly and her even appeared more comfortable with each other. At least Moll's was wrong about this one. Of course, the constant performing meant Mimi really took over within me. Not that I was fighting it I loved Mimi and I started to feel more comfortable even on days the band wasn't playing. If I didn't have classes I lounged around the apartment in something girly and casual or spent all day trying on different outfits and playing with makeup. Molly laughed at me for being such a girly girl but recently there seemed to be a little tension or distance growing between us. At first I put it down to the growing friendship Mel and I had developed but there were other things eating at me, like the amount of time she spent on the phone either talking or texting and if she was talking when I walked into the room she got up and walked out, something was going on and I didn't like it. I tried to talk to her but she fobbed me off making light of any attempts to actually talk. As the divide grew I became overwhelmed, wondering if it was what happened between Mel and me, or maybe she was annoyed with the increasing time I spent as Mimi? Regardless of her repeated declarations of love it was hard not to feel responsible and I fell into a guilt lined hole wondering what was going on and what I could do to fix it. With the Battle of the band's prelims upon us which were to be held at the Bottleneck. Jas pushed for us to wear costumes and she went to a lot of trouble buying separate outfits she decided that she was going to go with the shiny black leggings and a really bright pink top with sequins all over it. Mel was going to be the sexy nurse and her costume was like mine straight out of a stripper catalogue the shift style dress was so short it just about showed off her frilly knickers, white stockings and garters. Me... well I was going to be a sexy schoolgirl and again it was that short if I got a hard on everyone would know. Cindy wasn't saved either she got to be the sexy maid. As we tried them on Jas got all excited, Mel not so much, Cindy just laughed it all off but I was as nervous as all hell. It was hard enough to be on stage dressed as a woman but this was a whole new level of embarrassment. Molly came in as we were trying them on and like Jas she got all excited and started taking photo after photo and stuck them straight up on Instagram and Facebook, I realized it was to force my hand. With the very public announcement there was no way I could back out and it annoyed me that she totally ignored my reservations. There were six bands performing on the night and we were going to be the last band. I think that was the Bottlenecks idea we had such a good relationship with them. This was difficult for me because I knew so many of the musicians playing in the different bands from school, but nobody knew that Mimi was Marion. It was strange talking to a couple of them as they kept giving me inquiring stares. A couple of times I thought I had been busted. The first bands were pretty good without being exceptional, that sounds mean, but they were mostly playing covers and weren't that original with their compositions The band before us I had seen rehearsing at school and were pretty good, they had chosen a good mix of covers, chosen to suit the audience and they threw in a couple of originals and they weren't that bad, really good actually and the crowd got into their performance which made us nervous. Finally, our turn came and we had a group hug before taking the stage. We were starting with our signature song but we had changed it up starting with a long drawn out guitar strum leaving the note hanging in the air Mel hummed a harmony and Jas joined with a held harmonic note on the bass and as the note rang out Cindy and Mel came in together with the rhythm and I played the held note over the top. It was different to usual but the crowd cheered loudly and the bouncing started as we got into the song properly the mosh pit was alive and bursting as they danced and moved as one. As I stared down into the mosh pit, I swore angrily there front and center was April dancing arm in arm with Molly. The anger manifested itself in a vicious guitar solo that I rode out and Mel seeing my face screwed tightly in a twisted mask came up and danced in front of me our guitars touching as she encouraged me to keep going. Jas in her skin-tight glittery leggings came and joined the fun and they lifted me out of the dark angry hole. The short set was amazing and the crowd kept bouncing and dancing wildly as we drove them into a frenzy. As we came together after our final song the crowd shouted for an encore and started stomping their feet louder and louder clapping as one as they screamed. "More." The organizer took the stage and led us off but the crowd kept screaming and stomping then the empty can throwing started and the MC started to get nervous. All the bands were told there would be no encores but this was getting out of hand. The MC darted off the stage for a quick exchange with the other organizers and as the stage filled with empty cans the MC rushed back on stage and he called us back and the stomping got louder and the whistling cheering exploded until we flew into our most up-tempo numbers, we ended up playing another half a dozen songs before the crowd had their fill and we were allowed to get off stage. It wasn't really a contest if they hadn't announced us as the winners there would have been a lynching. After the noise died down and the announcements were made we crowded together in the green room and knocked back a few beers celebrating our triumph the other bands had all drifted away and April and Molly walked in hand in hand, the room went silent Moll's wasn't winning any friends with her blatant behavior. April let go her hand and said hi to the others before giving me a huge hug. "Little bro you were amazing." She turned to the others and repeated her statement. "Actually, you were all fantastic I can't believe how good you were." Molly went around hugging everyone. "Fuck guys c'mon show some joy you were god damned hot tonight. Jeez those costumes... holy shit they're sexy as hell." There was some muttering from the others... they saw it coming as well as me. I watched and it was like slow motion, the axe was falling and I couldn't stop it. Moll's leaned in close for a hug and whispered. "Babes April and I are going OK?" What could I say without making a fool of myself? I snapped caustically, "Yeah whatever." She didn't look happy with my offhand remark but she turned and walked out with April hand in hand. Jas jumped into my lap as the door shut behind them to give me a hug and Mel leaned over and did the same. "She is being a bitch, I am so sorry Mim's fuck I can't believe the audacity to walk in with somebody else on her arm like that, you need to kick her to touch." Jas growled. Cindy who never really got into this stuff agreed. "Mim's she is toxic and you need to let her go for your own good." We sank our beers and enjoyed our night, the manager came in and asked us to do two extra nights to celebrate. All in all, apart from Molly ripping my still pumping heart out it was a good night. As we were packing up Jas snuck over and asked if I needed company. I knew she had been seeing a new girlfriend so that wouldn't be fair so declined as much as I wanted nothing more. I was climbing into my car when Mel came and stuck her head in the window. "Mimi it ain't none of my business but I would love to come and keep you company tonight." I was about to say no when she stuck her head through the window and kissed me, a searing tongue tangling groin tightening kiss that made my head swim. My eyes were closed and I descended into heaven transported by her intensity. Her arms circled my neck and the embrace tightened as the kiss went on and on. It was too late to say no and as she walked away from the car, I watched her cute ass sway wickedly in that super short nurse's uniform and I had to do some quick adjustments to my overflowing panties as a growing erection made me uncomfortable. As I pulled up outside my apartment Mel pulled up alongside me and I waited as I got out. "Mel you don't have to do this, I don't want your sympathy." She walked strongly up to me and pushed me back against the car crushing her hot body against me, her heaving boobs crushing against my chest, her mouth closed over me in a powerful kiss her tongue ravaged my mouth and her pussy grabbed at my cock. As we separated, she reached for my hand and we walked hand in hand up the stairs. "Mi I want to do this for us, not just because of what that bitch has done to you. I have wanted this ever since that day. I want you." When we walked in she got us drinks from the fridge and we drank casually as she kissed me her fingers trailing in my hair her bouncy boobs massaging my nipples through the fabric of our dresses my short little school girls uniform had pushed up high and my stretched panties were exposed to her crushing thighs, her white nylon stockings rubbing sexily across my satin enclosed cock. By the time our drinks were finished she dragged me willingly to the bedroom where she pushed me back onto the bed and she fell on top of me her tongue sliding back into my mouth our lipstick smearing as our kiss built in intensity. I reached up my hands closing around her sumptuous bust caressing and massaging her heaving panting boobs. Her nipples were like ball bearings hard and pointy sticking out hard against her lacy bra. "Oh. fuck Mi you sexy thing, god that's nice." I tried to unbutton her dress but it was impossible while she was lying on top of me crushing me to the bed. I pushed hard and rolled her on her back and started to undo the dress, there were only a few buttons holding it together and her heaving tits only made it harder. Once the dress was open and her boobs exposed, I pushed down her tiny bra and exposed her nipples to the night air. Well until my mouth covered them in kisses and bites, my teeth pulling on her nipples. Her contented purrs proof that I was doing the right things to turn her on. She opened her legs and my knee pushed between her legs, I could feel her damp pussy clamping over my fishnet stockings as she writhed grinding hard leaving love bites with her pussy. I couldn't talk because my mouth was again full of her tongue as it swirled and slithered its way around invading every square inch testing my fillings and cavities as she ground herself against me. Molly loved this play and I knew what was expected I pushed my knee hard up against her letting her grind and ride my thigh her legs grasping tightly as she fucked my thigh. "Fuck babes.... Oh fuck." She moaned as her movements increased in speed and strength, she bucked and writhed, jerked and shuddered as she rode and I pushed harder and harder, her panties had long since disappeared between her open pussy lips and her clit was twisted and trapped by the tangled fabric. Her orgasm was like an earthquake, it didn't come slowly and build it crashed over both of us like a huge wave crashing on a deserted beach. "OH FUCK." She screamed loudly. I thought she had blacked out her eyes were clamped shut and her body went soft and supple, her breathing slowed as a deep mewing purr escaped her lips. I rolled over beside her my throbbing cock jumping in my panties. Slowly she came to life her head resting on my shoulder our bodies still tangled together. Her lips slid over my neck and exposed shoulder, her teeth catching on my ear as she nibbled and chewed lipstick stains were everywhere as her salivating mouth left trails of saliva as she went. As she got to my mouth her tongue slipped easily between my panting dancing and sliding around until she bit me playfully. Her hand had a life of its own and she let it wander round my body most women would take a direct route but she took her time exploring all that was on offer and she detoured to slowly unbutton the gym tunic exposing my upper body, her fingers trailing around my tummy button then back up to pinch and teak my nipples I yelped in mock pain as she twisted my nipple hard causing my body to lift up off the bed. She giggled sexily as her hand continued its journey south. My breathing was ragged and I tried not to get too carried away, but as her finger slip under the top of my panties, I could hold back no longer. "Oh fuck, Jesus Mel." She giggled. "You like that do you?" As her hand curled around my throbbing manhood. "You know I have only ever had a couple of these in my hand, do you like that?" She gave me a squeeze as her hand slid along the length. "I love it, your hand feels good." As she stroked me, I leaked a pool of precum and she smudged it all around my cock. "Is that cum?" She asked. I laughed. "No that's precum, its lubricant." "Well it certainly is slippery." She pushed my panties down as she worked up and down the shaft. "We can't fuck Mi I am not on the pill." "I don't care just don't stop, just do that its good." Faster and faster she stroked until I shot off a huge stream of cum squirting all the way up my chest. She jumped at the explosiveness. "Jesus I wasn't expecting that." I laughed. "It's only cum." She stopped and climbed out of bed to wash her hands and I took the opportunity to take off my dress, bra and panties off and when she was finished, I went in and washed up. When I got back to bed, she was under the blankets. I snuggled in beside her and we made out lightly but as we did it became more passionate and her desires escalated as my finger found its way into her open moist pussy. Her lips opened like a delicate flower accepting my finger like a bloom accepts a pollinating bee. I moved my finger slowly luxuriating in the slippery moist slit. Her body writhed slowly as I eased it in and out, around and around back and forth searching for the little spot to make her groan and as I maneuvered I felt her body tense up. There it was that little spot on the walls of her pussy that gave her joy. I massaged it as her panting mouth sucked greedily at my tongue. "Oh Jesus Mi, oh god that's it babe, that's fucking it... Ooooh right there, yes do it, do it!" I eased another finger in and as I slipped them in and out of her palpating gasping hole, I let my thumb ride up to the top of her crevice unsovereign her hooded clit. The moment I worked it I felt it her body got tense and rigid her breathing vanished and she trembled and shuddered wildly. "Nooooooooooo fuuuuuck Jesus Mi, oooh fuck yes do it fuck m, fuck me hard, do it, oh yes....." I did as she asked and her squelching juicy hole opened up her engorged pussy inviting more and more of my hand into her spasming hole. "Yes, yes, yes.... Oh fuck I am cumming." It was a hell of an orgasm and it took her ages before she had her breathing under control. I lay there her head cradled on my shoulder she was asleep almost immediately but I lay there thinking. 'What the fuck have you done you fucking dick.' I did eventually drop off to sleep so it was late when I woke up and I woke to find Mel riding my hip with her pussy, fucking herself on my hip bone, her wet clammy pussy sucking at my flesh as she rode me, but her hand was wrapped around my very hard cock as she stroked it and I realized I was close to cumming as she sighed and purred her orgasm wracking her body with a violent tremor. Unfortunately for me she let go of my cock and slowly climbed out of bed and into the shower. I was left with an erection that wasn't going down so the minute she finished in the shower I climbed in and beat off quickly taking only seconds to spray the steamy shower wall with a covering of spunk. Mel wasn't like Molly she didn't want to lie around in bed and snuggle and make out. She already had the coffee poured and we sat down together. "Mi babes I don't know what your expectations are." I interrupted her quickly. "Mel, I have no expectations, I enjoyed last night it was incredible and you were so generous and loving but I have no road map to offer." She smiled. "Thanks I don't know what this is, I do know that I have deep feelings for you but last night was weird, I didn't know what to do. Don't get me wrong you were amazing, I haven't had such a huge orgasm for a very long time but I was lost. I have never been with a man, when I'm with girls I am the aggressor and I like it that way, with you I feel weak... I am sorry but I can't do that." I leaned over and kissed her. "Its fine Mel I sensed it, but please don't let this get between us, I love you as a friend." She giggled. "I love you as well. I still can't believe how good it was... last night was amazing, I mean the show and that encore, Christ we will need something big for the next round." I agreed. "Yeah it's going to be hard to beat that, it was incredible, I just hope somebody videoed it." "Yeah well it won't be fucking Molly the bitch had her tongue down that other sluts throat all night. Fuck what do you see in the bitch?" "I am wondering that myself at the moment, I can't take much more of this." "Don't let her walk all over you, she is just a toxic bitch." Soon after that Mel disappeared leaving me waiting for Molly's return. I waited and waited but she never showed. My anger worked its way out in the form of a new song and I cranked the amp up loud as I played and played. My fingers weren't exactly bleeding but they sure as hell were sore. Sunday came and went and still no sign of Moll's, I wanted to call her but didn't want to give her the satisfaction. Monday morning, I went off to school and spent the day working as part of the tech team in the studio helping the school orchestra record some material and earning some extra credits. Monday night at home and still no sign of Moll's. It was when I arrived home from rehearsal Wednesday night, I noticed the lights were on. When I walked in, I was expecting her to rush up and kiss me the way she usually did spraying her apologies around like water but tonight it was different. She was sitting alone in the lounge propped up on the cushions waiting and as I walked in, she muttered guiltily. "Hi Duke." I sat down beside her. "Hi to you, so are you going to tell me what the fuck is going on?" I had planned out my speech and had promised myself to stay calm but her appearance just triggered all my anger and it came flooding out. She reached for my hand which I withdrew like she had electrocuted me. Tears welled up in her eyes. "Duke I am sorry. I do love you but......" She had to wipe away some errant tears. "Babes I told you not to love me, I can't do the monogamy thing, I told you that. April asked me to go and live with her. She has arranged a job for me and everything. I am sorry." I bit my lip as I tried to keep a lid on my anger. "Then I guess you better fuck off, I would like to say it's been a pleasure but right now I fucking hate you like I have never hated anybody in my life." She tried to hug me. "Please Duke, not like this, I love you and I don't want to end like this." "What were you expecting Moll's, did you think I'd be all happy about it, that you're running off with my sister." "Babes I know you must be hurting, and I am sorry but I have to do this, I love her as well." "I don't care Moll's, just get out, and don't expect me to be happy about it, you hurt me and now you have taken my sister away as well." We sat like that for a while before I growled. "Well don't just sit there fuck off... Get out!" "Babe April wants to come in and talk before we leave." "Don't bother, apart from you she is the last person I want to see, if she walks in here it's going to get nasty." "Babes she's your sister, don't spoil that because of this, she didn't intend to hurt you, she loves you and she is so proud of you." "Get out Molly, get out before I say or do something we will all regret." I got up so she wouldn't see me cry and as I walked into the bedroom, I noticed she had already packed, all her clothes were gone, all her personal bits and pieces were gone. When I walked back into the lounge she was gone as well and I was overcome with an overwhelming silence. The next morning Jas and Mel turned up early with coffee, no words were spoken for an age until Jas barked out commandingly. "Mim's you're better off without her, it probably doesn't feel like it at the moment but, she has behaved like a bitch. She did it to Mel, she did it with her previous lovers she is just a bitch. You need to move on." Mel added. "Yeah, you're too good for her, let her go." I nodded." Well one good thing came of it, I have a couple of new songs if you want to hear them?" They both nodded and I picked up my guitar and played them. The both sat there in awed silence as I ran through them. When I was finished, I was expecting them to say how much they liked them but Jas giggled. "Fuck you were definitely channeling Leonard Cohen with that. My god they are sad songs." Mel nodded. "Mi they are good but wow they are so blue, I don't think we could pull that off." I shrugged disappointed. "Guess I will save them for my solo album." They both looked shocked but said nothing. So, life sort of plodded along, it can be like that when you have no significant other. School was great and the band was killing it, the state finals for the battle of the bands were racing towards us and the only sticky bit was the application. They wanted more personal information about the band. We decided that we couldn't change the story, I was still going to have to remain Mimi. I was nervous about lying at this level, I mean what if we won? What happens then? The girls convinced me to keep my mouth shut I didn't have to lie, just not say too much. Mom was getting nervous about what I was up to. All the accommodation changes made her worry and we seemed to be on the phone a lot. She brought me up to speed on the family. Sue was going great guns and had taken up a post at a leading ad agency as a leading executive, Beverly and her family were doing Ok, Mark had been promoted and he was working hard as they saved for a new house, she was mostly worried about April and it was hard for me to hear her talk about her, but I laughed when she told me she had a new boyfriend. I so wanted to drop her in it, but that wouldn't be fair on Mom. Because I got such a negative response from Mel and Jas about my new songs, I started working on them at school and I was really pleased with the way they were progressing. I decided that I would record them myself and like my first attempts play all of the instruments. The songs dictated that keyboards were the main focus and it made me practice a lot. I had forgotten how much I loved playing the piano. So that was my first job and it took two weeks to lay down just the keyboard parts. The guitar was easy but I did have to stretch as I wanted a more classical sound, so it meant borrowing a nylon string classical guitar. Then of course the drums, that was hard. The bass again was hard painstaking work and during the recording I realized I didn't want just bass I wanted Cello so I had to teach myself cello. Nothing fancy just enough to keep the track grounded. With such a mournful sound I wanted the cello to provide that dark ethereal haunting sound that only the cello provides, but seeing as how I was barely competent I kept it simple with the bass singing softly underneath to provide shape and definition. It was a really productive period for me personally and the songs were flowing out of me like a cascading river I had never experienced such an outpouring of ideas the music seemed to be the language of my grief. All the songs were in that ballad style although I listened to them I believed they could easily become rock anthems much like some of the lips other songs, but because of their negative reaction I never floated the new ones to the band. This was going to be for my end of year finals and then maybe my solo career. Battle of the bands was rushing towards us like an out of control juggernaut and we had to travel to Kansas City where the event was being staged at the performing arts center. When we arrived in the building, I was shocked it was a huge place and it was going to be all seated, not really our scene, our fans like to dance and jump around. So immediately we were all on a bit of a bummer. It felt like a country music venue or somewhere you would go to watch the opera not battle of the bands. We got a chance to watch the other bands during sound check and that was an eye opener, shit they were really good, I mean really good. We were fucked and I wasn't the only one who felt that way. Mel especially was feeling down in the dumps. It was Cindy who dragged us out of our dark mood. "Hey suck it up bitches, we are here, who cares whether we win, let's just rock the place, lets blow the god damned roof off the place." We all laughed and Jas added. "No she's right, let's do it." Mel giggled. "OK well we have been sitting here getting psyched out by these other bands, when we do sound check let's rock!" We picked our hardest loudest punchiest song and when we were called for sound check that's exactly what we did we cranked it up and Mel went ballistic screaming her heart out with even Jas adding to the chorus. When we walked off stage it was now apparent the worried looks were on the other musos faces. Maybe we had a chance after all... Jas's costumes had become our thing and tonight was no different. We were going all out to be the sexiest band on the planet. Just before we were due to play, we all got together in the dressing room and we laughed our way through costume change. We were ready and we were pumped. This time we opted for a different approach for the first song we went with a song I wrote about the railway and it had a really crunchy guitar riff so that's what we opened with... Just me playing that riff and as the smoke machine blew smoke across the stage Jas came in with her driving bassline dancing her ass off and as we hit the first line Mel joined with her guitar cranked and we were away to a huge swell of applause and cheering. It didn't take long and the aisles were full of dancing fans who security couldn't keep in their seats. It was riotous and wild Mel swinging her hair wildly, Jas dancing her ass off in those shiny black leggings and Cindy holding it all together with the coolness of Charlie Watts. It rocked we were on fire and the crowd loved it getting the loudest cheer so far. We got nervous though as the next couple of bands were pretty good and we had to look at ourselves wondering if we had reached the end. All the bands were called out on stage for the final presentations. There were nervous looks all around as the third place contestants were called out and it wasn't us. Then second place and again it wasn't us, but it was from the group we thought would be our biggest rivals. We held hands, we were either leaving with first place or nothing. When they called out our names the place erupted, we all turned to each other and the look on their faces showed they were as amazed as I was. We took our five grand first prize cheque and danced around on stage waving and thanking the crowd who had been so supportive. At home things ramped up we were certainly the flavor of the month and we got lots of invites to interviews with local radio and newspapers. That was too scary for me I stayed out of the spotlight letting the others take the lead. In group photos I always managed to stay at the back out of the way. I did get a call from both April and Molly it was bright and cheerful message of congratulations which they left on my phone... They called but I purposely let it go to answerphone. It was the nights when we weren't playing that I felt alone and in those lonely night is where I learned to take Mimi to a new level. It was the makeup that I loved so much making Marion disappear and Mimi come charging out, I wanted more, I wanted Mimi to become prettier and I started investigating surgical procedures for facial feminization, a nose job and silicon for my lips. In the evenings I played with lipsticks that really plumped them up and I loved it, I wanted it but in the morning, I came back to earth realizing I couldn't do it and keep Marion around it was fast approaching decision time. It was a dark world that was sucking my spirit out little by little. Worrying about my future became the norm for me as I struggled with what to do. If I thought I was in a dark place, I was about to find that things can always get worse. It was a phone call from my mother that dragged me down to even lower depths of despair. Grandma had passed away and Mom was distraught, bawling her eyes out on the phone. She wanted me home and there was no arguing. I jumped in my old Nova and headed home, arriving late at night I found Mom was still up waiting and the moment I walked in she was in my arms embracing me tightly her tears flooding my shoulder where her tears pooled. As she held me out at arm's length, she grabbed my ponytail. "Oh my god.... Marion what have you done." I laughed. "Mom it's just a ponytail, lots of musos have long hair." She shook her head. "Well thank heavens you don't have any of those horrid tattoos." I pulled her back into our embrace and whispered. "What happened Mom?" "Well we didn't know anything was wrong... one minute we were having coffee and the next minute she was gone, it was a heart attack, thankfully she didn't suffer, at least it was quick." She broke into another crying fit and we hugged painfully tighter. When she pulled back separating to arms length she looked me up and down she scolded Look at you you're skinnier than a rabbit." She took that opportunity to rush into action. "I bet you haven't eaten, I will make you some supper." As I munched my way through a grilled cheese sandwich Mom started to ask questions about my studies and how I was going. It wasn't quite an inquisition but damn it was close. She said that she had spoken to April a few times and she kept her up to date with what I was doing because I was too damn lazy to call home. She wanted to know all about my life, again April had told her I had a girlfriend. I wanted to say that I used to until she stole her but I kept my mouth shut. Mom showed me into my old room and it was like walking back in time not one single thing had changed, my baseball glove and bat were still sitting on the dresser. We talked until long into the morning and we both went to bed tired but I could see she was pleased to see me. The morning brought me wide awake with a shock there was a kid climbing all over me. Beverly was visiting and her daughter had decided to wake me up by clambering up on my bed and bouncing all over me. "Come on lazy bones." She called from the hallway. "Ella get off uncle Marion and let him get changed." The little girl gave me a hug before scrambling down and running out. When I walked into the kitchen there was Beverly looking bright and happy. "Well, well, well looky here ain?t you the new age guy, look at that ponytail, my lord your hairs longer than mine." I gave her a kiss. "Hey sis, how?s things?" She rubbed her tummy. "Got another one on the way." Mom wasn?t watching so I snuck one in. "You should?ve practiced those blowjobs more and this wouldn?t happen." She punched me on the shoulder. "Sassy shit." As we did the washing up Bev and I had a chance to talk and reconnect. It was nice to know she was happy, we had all worried that because it was a shotgun wedding it would go sour, but defying the odds they seemed to be doing alright. Our happy chat was destroyed, well at least for me when, in waltzed April. "Hey mom." she whispered and mom opened her arms and they fell into a tear filled hug. "April sweetheart, oh I?m so pleased to see you." Bev opened her arms and they embraced before she turned to me and she whispered tearfully. "Hey Marion." She opened her arms but I turned away hissing, "Hi April." Mom was aghast, growling. "Marion.... What the hell are you doing? Give your sister a hug." I walked off ignoring mom and pushing roughly past April only to bump into Molly who was standing silently by the door. "Hi Duke." I frowned and walked past her headed for the door. I burst out into the fresh morning sun and headed for downtown. Fuck them making me feel like shit. I walked all over town and by the time I got home Sue was there as well and she broke into a big smile when she saw me. "Hey little bro, you look good, for a long haired hippy." She opened her arms and we hugged. Everyone was sitting around the table and mom scooted along to make room for me, although she did give me a scathing glare before settling into making the arrangements. "OK we need to get ready, the funeral is tomorrow so we all need to help out. April, I need you to help Beverly with the food. Sue if you could help the funeral directors and take over some nice clothes for her, Marion if you could collect together all the photos you can find of Grandma, find some with your dad that would be nice." Everybody started talking at once so I headed for the attic and boxes and boxes of photos. Seeing Molly and April really brought me down. It had been so nice seeing mom and even Bev but seeing the two of them together really hurt. I packed up the photos and snuck out to the treehouse where I went through the photos putting together a montage of suitable ones. As I was going through them Molly appeared popping her head hesitantly through the door. "Hi Duke, so this is the famous treehouse huh?" When I didn?t reply she asked. "how have you been?" "Been better." "I am sorry about your grandma, I know how much you loved her." "Yeah it?s sad she was really wonderful." "So how are you feeling have you cried yet?" I nodded. "I cried the whole way here, don?t think I have any left." She ignored my cold shoulder and sat down beside me, As much as I wanted to tell her to push off I was all out of hate, I was sick of fighting, I showed her the photos I had selected and I talked her through who was who and what events they were from, birthdays Christmas thanksgiving. "What about music?" "Well she was a real Hank Williams fan so I will hunt around and find some." She couldn?t help herself. "Duke I?m sorry for the way things turned out. You have to believe me, I never set out to hurt you. I have been hiding from being a lesbian my whole life and when I found you I thought I had it all, a girl and a boy wrapped in the same package but the moment I met April it was all over, it was love at first sight and I knew there was no more hiding." I hissed cynically. "So what... I was just an experiment?" "No babe I love you, I still do but April and I can?t explain it, I know it sounds cheesy but there?s chemistry. As much as I tried to hide from it, I am a lesbian. I am sorry I hurt you, but don?t take it out on April she loves you." "I don?t think you ever loved me... It was just all... a subterfuge?" "No Marion I loved you then and I love you now, I just can?t hide from this. There is electricity and sexual chemistry I can?t explain... When we are separated, I can?t breathe I have to ring her just to hear her voice." "Fuck you have it bad all right. Jeez that?s how I felt about you." She hugged me and we held each other tight until I started to cry again and she moaned. "I am sorry Duke I really am." "Argh it?s nothing I?ll get over it, you weren?t that good a fuck anyway." She laughed. "No, I suppose not, but if you had a pussy you wouldn?t say that." We both laughed and just at that moment April stuck her head in. "What the hell?s going on in here moms getting suspicious." Molly laughed. "Sorry lover we were just reminiscing." April glared at me but when she saw the tears she sighed. "I am sorry little bro." I shrugged. "Please stop saying that. It?s OK, I am over it." It was tense but we all hugged. "Look we have to focus on getting Mom through this so our stuff can wait, we will sort it later, Mom has to come first." April nodded. "Yeah you?re right, she seems strong but I think when I tell her about Molly and me it will all turn to shit." "Jesus April don?t be so selfish, this isn?t the time for that!" She looked contrite. "I was hoping to make the most of the fact we were all home I need your support to get through it." "Another day April not now, there will be other times." She slumped but nodded. "No you?re right as usual. It?ll just have to wait." "So what did you tell mom about Molly?" "I just said we work together and she came down to support me." She noticed the photos and started to rifle through them. "Congratulations on winning the battle of the bands heat by the way. She was so impressed when she heard about it, she wanted to know all about it." Horrified I yelped. "Mom, shit why did you tell her?" "Marion she was so proud, she was excited by it." "Fuck April what have you done.... Jesus Christ." She laughed. "She doesn?t know about Mimi only that the band you play in won." "Fuck, fuck, fuck now she is going to want to know all about it. Shit you know I can?t lie to mom, Jesus April." She apologized. "I?m sorry again, I didn?t think. She just got so excited I had to tell her." "You have to help me out here April tell her you got it wrong, that we finished third or something." She sighed. "Yeah OK but she is going to be so disappointed." "Not as disappointed as when she finds out her son is a fucking freak." Molly cut in. "You aren?t a freak babe, you?re a beautiful sexy person." "Yeah but not sexy enough to keep my girlfriend though huh?" The both turned away. "C?mon I need you guys to help, damn it you got me in this mess." My heart rate was racing thinking about mom and how upset she was going to be. When we went back inside, we found Mom, Bev and Sue all gathered around the computer and they were watching video clips of the finals on YouTube and the lips were on, thankfully this clip was focused on Jas as she danced around on stage like a wildcat. Mom looked confused. "April, I thought you said Marion?s band won?" Molly leapt in. "Sorry Mr.?s B, April got it wrong you finished third or something didn?t you Marion?" I sucked in a big breath. "Something like that, can we talk about something else." Mom looked disappointed, or bemused I couldn?t put my finger on her expression. "Oh honey I am sorry but third is pretty good, wow the whole state and you came third I am so impressed." "Thanks ma." April got everybody moving leaving mom and I alone. I showed her the photos I selected. "Music Marion find some nice songs." "I will get some Hank Williams she loved him." Mom nodded. "That would be nice son but I want you to sing two songs for me. The Circle will be unbroken and Good night Irene she loved listening to you play those when you were learning guitar oh and also silver wings." I nodded. "I?ll try mom but I?m not sure I will be able to hold it together." "Just for me sweetheart, for me and Grandma.... Do you know the girl who was singing in that video, the one who won?" "Yes, her name is Mel we are friends." "She has got a wonderful voice I loved that song where she was singing with that other girl." "Forever in my heart?" She smiled. "Yes, that is beautiful.... Do you know the song?" I nodded again taking a deep breath. "Yes mom I know it." Would you sing it I think it is real nice...beautiful?" As the day wound down, we all ended up eating dinner together telling Grandma Stories and there were tears and laughs at bed time I went in and lay there thinking about Grandma and how cruel life could be. She was still young by today?s standards. In the morning we all got to go in and say farewell to Grandma. She looked so peaceful lying in her coffin. She was an angel lost. At the service Sue, Bev, April and I helped Ma give the eulogy but ma broke down near the end and Sue finished for her. Then as the photos played on the overhead projector I played and sang the songs mom suggested. I started with good night Irene, then Forever in my heart and finished with will the circle be unbroken and everybody joined in. I was a pallbearer as we carried her out to the hearse Hank Williams serenaded her for the last time. At the grave mom asked me to sing Forever in your heart as she was lowered into the ground. Back home the girls got the food ready as the house was swamped with people friend?s family and the whole neighborhood turned up. It was a long day. The girls all except Bev got hammered and we sat around all night talking. Molly and mom seemed to hit it off and strangely mom made sure she spent a lot of time with her.... The next morning, I got up to find mom scrolling through you tube videos of the final heat for the battle of the bands. As soon as she saw me, she called me over. "Which band is yours sweetheart?" I spent some time scrolling through them, most were of the lips. "Sorry Ma looks like there is no footage of us. Throughout the day I found her in front of the computer staring at the lips. April caught her as well and every time she dragged mom away grimacing at me as she made up some bullshit story that needed immediate attention. By the next night mom spent less time crying and more time talking. I sat with her out on the balcony in the rocking chairs, April was off showing Molly around town. "Honey how long have April and Molly been a couple?" "What... how did you know?" "Well I made up two beds for them but they only slept in one, the other they mussed up, but it wasn?t slept in plus a mother knows these things." I scowled. "It?s been a while now mom, look I know it?s a bit unusual but they do love each other." She smiled as she patted my hand. "I know that son, I can see it in their eyes. I am happy that she found somebody she loves. I am not the old ditherer as you think I am young man." I laughed. "Sorry mom didn?t mean to slight you." She picked up my hand. "So this band you play in..... Is it fun?" I gripped her hand. "Yep its good fun and we make a bit of money." There was an extended silence as we sat enjoying the fresh night air. Then boom, my world exploded, my heart stopped, my tongue stopped working and I thought I was going to faint. "In the video they call you Mimi is that what you call yourself... or is that what they call a stage name?" It is so hard to talk with a tongue the size of Manhattan and your mouth so dry it?s like sandpaper. "Hmmmm I." She patted me again. "Shush honey it?s OK I know alright... I saw it straight away. You looked pretty, but it was the voice the moment I heard that song I just knew that was you." I started to cry humiliation washing over me like burning acid. "Hey sweetheart it?s fine I?m not upset.... Well maybe just that we won?t get a son to carry on the family name." Shocked I spluttered. "Mom I?m not gay, I like girls and I want a family." "You like girls..... Then why dress up?" "I can?t explain it mom, remember when the girls took over the treehouse... well up there they made me wear dresses and put on makeup or they wouldn?t let me up there." The shock on mom?s face was there for all to see. "The little devils, god damn it I should have paid more attention... I am sorry son, I let you down." I gave her a reassuring kiss. "Mom it?s OK at first they had to force me but eventually I loved it... I think I would have ended up there anyway they just gave me a nudge. I love dressing up but I love girls in fact Molly used to be my girlfriend." "What!... now I am confused... She was your girlfriend?" "Yeah that?s how she met April." "For heavens sake... What happened?" "I don?t know Ma we just wanted different things, then she met April." "Weren?t you upset?" I nodded. "Heartbroken actually, but I see it now they were meant for each other."