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Author's Note: In this story, I have used section dividers to indicate achange in either place, time or both. I have also used section dividersto separate the same event from the perspective of a different character.

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What happened that night was never far from Julie's mind. Julie closed hereyes for a moment. Instantly her memories of fourteen years earlier came vividlyto mind. She was just completing her sophomore year in college. She had justhad her 20 th birthday. Julie was invincible, orso she thought, and had no fear the consequences of taking all sorts of chances.When the end of school year party finally broke up at 3am, Julie left to walkback to her dorm by herself.

Forty-Ninth Street is not a good neighborhood in the middle of the day. Atnight it's just not someplace you want to be.

Julie wasn't drunk, but she had a few beers and at 3am, she was dead tired.Straight down Forty-Ninth Street was the fastest way home, rather then walkingeast and then south through the campus and then back west to the dorm. WhenJulie got off the bus, she looked east to the college campus as well as southon Forty-Ninth. There was no one around in either direction at this time ofnight. There was nothing moving, there was no sound other than the bus , nowdisappearing down the street.

At 10pm, with the streets filled with cars and pedestrians, there was noquestion that Julie would walk the extra ten minutes to avoid walking downForty-Ninth. In retrospect, Forty-Ninth is probably safer at 10pm then it isat 3am, but Julie didn't think of that until much later. Now, however, Juliewas tired, she was a little drunk and she just didn't feel the need to go outof her way.

As Julie came to the corner of Forty-Ninth and Spring Garden Streets, shewas not paying much attention to her surround ings. She never heard or sawthe person coming toward her from behind.

She jumped and let out a startled yell when the man came up suddenly behindher. Her mind cleared instantly as he grabbed her hair from behind and pulledcausing her to arch her head, neck and back. With his other hand, he held theknife where she could see it. Her eyes grew wide with fear her heart beat quickened.Julie put up her hands and offered no resistance.

"Don't yell bitch. Don't do nothing 'cept what I say and you'll live."

Julie offered him her purse, but he pushed it away. "Shut the fuck up bitch." Hepushed Julie down a narrow alleyway between the streets. About thirty yardsinto the alley Julie realized they were behind a church that faced the mainstreet. He pushed her into the churchyard.

"Don't make no noise bitch. Take off your fucking clothes." As he said this,he put the tip of the knife to Julie's throat. Julie knew what he wanted. Juliewas determined that she was not going to cry but it was hard not to let outa small whimper now and then. Her hands trembled as she unbuckled her beltand dropped her jeans to her knees. She stood there for a moment, in her pastelcotton blue panties, hoping that he would stop and go no further. For a momenttime did stop. Neither of them moved or said anything. Finally, he waived theknife at her again.

"Every fucking thing bitch or I cut you. Take off all your clothes – everything." Julieknew he was getting agitated and she was fearful of resisting further. Sheunbuttoned her blouse and let it drop to the ground and then she removed herbra. Julie covered her nipples with her left arm. "Fuck that shit. Move thatarm bitch, I want to see your tits." Julie lowered her arm. The man put theknife in his left hand and reached out toward her left breast with his righthand. Julie pulled back.

The man stepped forward and put the knife to her throat. "Don't mess withme bitch!" Julie froze. The man reached out with his right hand again and grabbedJulie's left breast. Julie somehow thought he would just massage her breastthe way her boy friend always did, but it wasn't to be that way. The man grabbedit very tightly, to the point of pain. Julie opened her mouth. "No noise bitch." Theman pulled Julie forward and down to the ground solely by his grip on her breast.Julie was sitting on the ground when he finally let go of her breast. She wasgrateful that he was no longer squeezing her breast. Then he slapped her hardacross the face. "Don't never mess with me bitch. Now get out of those britches,shoes too bitch."

Julie untied her sneakers and took them off. Then she slid her jeans offthe rest of the way. When she stood up she was wearing only her panties. "Themtoo bitch, don't keep me waiting now." Somehow in that moment, Julie had movedfrom fr ight mode into survival mode. She amazed herself at how calm she hadsuddenly become. Her senses were still on high alert, but her fingers wereno longer trembling. While she hadn't conscientiously thought it through, shehad nevertheless decided that removing her clothes for this thug was no bigdeal, and neither was being raped by him; the only important matter was survivingthis night.

Julie hooked her thumbs into the waistband of her panties and dropped themto the ground. Julie made no effort to cover her pussy with her hands. In factshe stood with her legs somewhat apart, completely unconcerned with his lustfor her.

The man instructed Julie to turn around for him several times so that hecould see everything. He had her spread her legs and bend over while he puthis finger into her asshole.

When he had seen enough he gave a new order. "On your knees bitch, kneel." Julieknelt before him; certain of what would come next, and amazingly calm aboutit. The man lightly placed the blade of his knife against her left cheek, justfor emphasis and to confirm that he was totally in charge.

He switched the knife back to his left hand and then with his right he openedhis fly. His cock was incredibly long. Julie was startled by its size. Shewas not a virgin and she had given head to her boyfriend before. Her expectationswere that this guy would be about the same size. Her boyfriend was about sixinches in length; this guy was at least ten inches and thicker! His cock wasnot hard yet. Julie placed the tip and as much as she could take into her mouth.She used her tongue to stimulate the underside of his cock. She also used herhands to stimulate him.

As Julie worked on him, the man reached down with his right hand and pinchedher left nipple very hard. At first it startled her and then it hurt. Her breastwas still sore from his earlier manhandling of her. She started working hiscock more vigorously, thinking the faster he cums, the sooner this will allbe over. It was then that Julie realized that the pain in her nipple was stimulatingher. This is the last thing she thought would happen and the last thing shewanted to happen but it was happening and she couldn't think of anything todo about it.

His cock was getting stiff and straight now. She kept working it hoping hewould cum any moment and it would be over. The man pulled out of her mouthwithout any warning to her. She sat back and looked at him for a moment. Hisenormous cock was hard, straight and stiff. "Lie back bitch, I gonna fuck younow." He said it in such a matter of fact tone like he was ordering a hot dogat a lunch counter (i.e. no emotion at all).

While Julie changed her position to lying on her back on the grass, the mantook off his pants and shorts. As Julie lay back on the grass, she felt somethingunder her buttocks. She moved slightly to the side, off the object. She thenreached down with her hand and touched the object. It was the grating on asmall storm drain in the grass.

When he looked at her again, he said, "you one fine looking white bitch." Juliewould later remember thinking how odd that was. She was Latina with dark oliveskin. Julie couldn't remember anyone ever referring to her as white before.

He got on top of her. He guided her left knee up and out with his right hand.Julie moved her right knee in the same manner. He reached down and found herpussy with his left hand, and smiled at her. "You wet bitch, you gettin offon me ain't you."

He guided his cock into her and began pushing. It seemed like it just wentin and kept going. Julie was sure that the head was somewhere well up in herabdomen. As long and thick as he was, that first thrust into her was somewhatpainful, but in her survival mode, Julie was able to suppress her discomfort.

When he finally was into her as far as he could go, he moved his right handwith the knife in front of her again. He placed the tip of the knife at thecorner of her mouth. Julie was once again on high alert; her earlier calm evaporated. "Don'thurt me, please."

The man began humping in and out of her. She was acutely aware of him, notonly because of the size of his cock moving in and out of her, but becauseof the knife in his hand and the fear she felt from it.

Julie's body was betraying her mind. She was mortified by the realizationthat she had been on the verge of an orgasm for several minutes. With all herwillpower, Julie stifled the impulses racing through her groin.

The man slowed for a moment. He moved his right hand, with the knife, awayfrom Julie's mouth, and placed the blade against her left breast just to theleft of her nipple. Julie let out an audible gasp. The man moved the bladeslowly across Julie's breast, occasionally brushing against her nipple. Juliewas scared.

The man slowly ran the tip of the knife blade down the side of her breastleaving a one inch line on her skin. A moment later, a small trickle of bloodappeared on the line. The man began humping her faster as he placed his mouthon her tit. He sucked and licked off the small trickle of blood.

The small cut on her tit really didn't hurt, but the implied threat was toomuch for Julie to handle. She completely lost her self-control at that moment.

It was her self-control that had been stifling her orgasm. The longer Juliewas able to stifle her orgasm, the more pressure built for an orgasm and themore effort Julie exerted to stifle the orgasm. This escalating cycle had beengoing on for almost ten minutes when he cut her breast.

With her defenses down, it was like a dam breaking. Julie's body convulsedin one enormous orgasm. She shook like a rag doll. Muscles tensed and releasedand then tensed again. She was totally out of control for at least ten seconds.

The man stopped humping her. "You okay, lady?" It took a few moments forthe orgasm to subside. Julie opened her eyes to see what she perceived as genuineconcern on the man's face. It was then that she first really looked at hisface. The man was no more than a boy.

Julie's breathing was still quite rapid, but she managed to get out "I'mfine." Julie then wrapped her legs tightly around his waist and her arms aroundhis shoulders. "Don't stop." She gasped between breaths. He began humping herfaster than ever. It took another few minutes for him to reach his climax.During that time Julie held him very tightly with her arms and legs and madeno effort at all to stifle her reactions. She came again while he humped her.

Julie watched his face contort as his orgasm began. She felt the twitchingof his large cock inside her. Julie realized she was cuming a third time whilehe came. Julie held him very tightly with both her arms and her legs. His humpingstopped. He pushed into her as far as he could. She could feel every movementof his huge cock as he came.

When at last he had delivered everything, he collapsed on top of her. Hisbreathing was fast, but eventually became steady. Julie unwrapped her legsand arms.

For a few moments, he was just motionless on top of her. She studied hisface and she began to realize that he could be no more than sixteen or seventeenyears old at the most. He was probably even younger. She wondered if he couldbe as young as thirteen or fourteen and the thought of having sex with someoneas young as that repulsed her. She immediately rejected that thought though;after all she wasn't having sex with him, she was being raped by him. Juliealso realized that she had committed his face to her memory. She would recognizehim if she ever saw him again. She never did.

Without any warning, he got up and began putting his shorts and pants backon. He gathered up Julie's clothes and tossed them over the wall into the nextyard by a row house. Without another word, he was gone down the alleyway.

Julie waited without moving for several minutes. She looked at her watch,the only thing she was still wearing. It was two minutes before 4am. She climbedover the wall and retrieved her clothes. He had even left her purse with hercash and credit cards. Julie crossed back into the churchyard and started tomake her way to the street. As Julie passed the spot where it had all happened,she tripped on something. She reached down and discovered the knife. He hadleft his knife behind. Julie placed the knife in her purse and left.

Julie had survived.

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Julie was now far from being the same woman she had been fourteen years ago.She had never called the police nor had she told anyone in her family whathad happened to her. She knew she could identify the kid, but she didn't wantto tell anyone how her body had betrayed her. For the longest time she wasmortified by the fact that she had "enjoyed" it. It took her several yearsto realize that having an orgasm when physically stimulated and enjoying sexis not the same thing.

As the years passed, she had come to terms with what had happened and herown reactions to it. But no matter how she rationalized her reactions, no matterhow she dealt with the memories, no matter what else happened afterwards, herrape remained the central defining event of her life, even though she was theonly person who knew it had happened.

Slightly more than a year ago, she had been diagnosed with cancer. She wasundergoing chemo therapy when she met Alan. Alan was also a chemo patient andshe would see him everyday when she went to the cancer center.

Julie had received her first chemo therapy as a patient in the hospital.For the next month and a half, she had to come to the hospital each day forchemo. Once the doctors were sure that she was tolerating the chemo therapywell, she was allowed to go to the cancer center closer to her house for treatments.

The routine was the same each time Julie was at the cancer center. Therewas a chemo chair for each patient, sort of like a well padded lounge chair.Each area had a curtain to pull around it for privacy, but most of the patientswanted the curtains left open. Julie's chair was directly opposite Alan's.They would face each other across the room while they received their chemoas well as the other drugs to control nausea and other side effects. Afterwards,each patient would be given a snack before going home. Julie and Alan becamefriendly while eating their snacks.

Alan seemed to connect to Julie in a way that no one else did. She couldtalk to him. She could discuss things with him. Other people didn't understandher the way Alan did. Even her husband did not understand her the way Alandid.

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Alan was fifty-three. He was divorced and lived alone. Alan was lonely.

He had been coming to the cancer center three times a week for several monthswhen she appeared across from him one day. Alan's cancer was under control.Alan's treatment was termed maintenance chemo. He would stay on chemo as longas he lived.

There had been many patients across from Alan over the course of his timethere. Some men, but for some reason most of the patients were women. Evenat 53, Alan was one of the younger patients at the cancer center. Some of thepatients were on walkers or were pushed in wheelchairs.

So it was, until Julie came to the cancer center. Alan immediately noticedthe 30 something girl amongst all of the elderly patients. The second thinghe noticed was her smile. She had a great smile; what a wonderful thing ina place like this, a smile.

Alan watched closely as the young woman opposite him came in and took herseat. The nurse closed the curtain for a moment while the woman removed herblouse and bra and put on the hospital smock. When the curtain opened again,the young woman was removing her jet black wig and placing it on the wig standnext to her seat. Alan looked at her and smiled. For a moment, he thought,she looks better with just a bald head then with that wig on.

Alan had seen the routine several times. The women always wear a wig or somesort of large hat and/or scarf to cover their bald heads. The men, for themost part, don't care. Alan was one of the rare patients who did not loosehis hair. The doctor said it happens in less than one-tenth of one-percentof the cases. It wouldn't have made that much difference to Alan if he hadlost his hair. The women are more devastated by the loss of their hair thenare the men. It's too bad, he had thought many times before, that one of thewomen didn't get to keep their hair instead of me. He watched the young girlopposite him as she finished straightening her wig on the wig stand and tookher seat. If I could give it away, I would give it to her, Alan thought, whatan angel!

Alan's day at the cancer center had just taken a dramatic turn for the better.Alan would later discover that her name is Julie. Julie was about 5'6" talland quite thin. He guessed that she was perhaps 105 lbs. Chemo therapy cancause a weight loss as can the cancer itself, so it is not unusual to see thinpeople at the cancer center. Alan was mesmerized by the girl sitting oppositehim. I'm going to make a point of meeting her, he thought.

Alan did meet Julie. He positioned himself, very carefully, to be seatednext to her for their snack after therapy. Alan sat with Julie from then on,each day. Over the next several weeks and months, Alan had gotten to know Julie.He learned that Julie was married and had two kids. Julie chatted with Alanmostly about her family and her husband, but Alan sensed that there was a negativeundercurrent in her marriage. Julie said that she lo ved her husband, but shenever said she was happy. In fact, many times she gave strong hints that shewas very unhappy. The other clue is that most of the patients come to the cancercenter with a relative or close friend. Alan had no one, but he knew from theirconversations that Julie had a family. Yet the only person who ever accompaniedJulie to the cancer center was her sister, Jennifer, who worked full time andcould not make it there very often.

When Alan felt, after several weeks, that he and Julie had become good friends,he decided to mention this to Julie. The first time Alan asked Julie if shewas happy, she simply smiled at him and continued eating.

It took several more sessions before Alan could get a meaningful responsefrom Julie. In the meantime, Alan assured Julie that he was only there to listento her and nothing she said would ever go any further.

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Julie liked having the company of this older man after her chemo therapy.He was nice, kind and very attentive. Julie enjoyed having someone to talkwith, someone who understood what she was going through.

Julie and John had been married for the past eight years and had two children,a boy thirteen, and a girl seven. Julie's son was not actually John's child,but John had taken to him just as if he was his own.

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Julie had missed her period two and a half weeks after the rape. Her immediatethought was that she had gotten pregnant that night. Her decision not to tellanyone that she had been raped now seemed pointless until she remembered thattwo days before the rape she and her boy friend had sex and had a condom malfunction.There were two possible candidates for the father and she had no way of knowing,at this point, which one.

Julie took a semester off from college, once she started to show. She movedhome and was under the constant care of her parents and her sister. Julie'sdad was particularly upset at first. He had been thinking that his little girlwas still a virgin. Her mother and sister seemed to take a more practical approachto the situation.

All three, however, were terribly frustrated that Julie refused to disclosethe identity of the baby's father. For her part, of course, Julie didn't reallyknow the identity of the father and was determined not to offer any explanationsuntil the last possible moment.

On the day that William was born, Julie had her answer. William had palewhite skin, blond hair and blue eyes. He was the image of her boy friend. Therelease of tension in Julie was remarkable. For the first time in almost ayear, her rape was finally over.

Julie and her boyfriend never married, but he provided her with child support.

Early in their marriage, John and Julie had a very healthy sex life thatwas mildly adventuresome. Julie had gone back to school and graduated. Theymet while in graduate school. Julie was in law school while John was workingon his PhD in engineering. Their daughter was born shortly after Julie's lawschool graduation. Only she and John would ever know that Sally was conceivedon a park bench in the nature preserve behind the law school parking lot.

For the longest time, Julie had been happy being married to John. Then shehad gotten sick. At first, neither of them knew what was wrong except tha tJulie didn't feel well. As a result, their sex life suffered. Once the doctorsmade their diagnosis, John seemed more shocked than his wife.

John stopped asking Julie for sex. When Julie asked John for sex, his firstreaction was always "are you sure that you're up to it?" Julie always saidthat she was, but John was still hesitant. What had been a very active sexlife deteriorated to a very occasional episode of missionary sex in bed. Johnoften stopped when Julie moved even slightly, and asked if she were still okay.

Julie was becoming very frustrated. "Despite what you may think, John, I'mnot that fragile and you won't break me."

Despite her frustrations, Julie never told her sister or anyone else abouther marital problems, so it was a shock when Alan asked her if she was happy.After all, she had only known him a short time and only for an hour each day.

Julie smiled at Alan and tried to ignore his question. Was it a lucky guessor is this man really that tuned into my feelings she wondered. Alan kept askingJulie each day about her marriage and her happiness and each day Julie puthim off without answering. Finally, on the way to the cancer center, she decidedthat she was going to answer Alan and put an end to him prying into her affairs.

"Alan I don't know where you got that impression, I am ….." Juliestopped in mid sentence. Her facial expression turned from strong resolve toabout to cry. Alan gave Julie a hug and Julie did start to cry. Alan held hertight. Julie sobbed and shook in Alan's arms. Alan held Julie for several minutesuntil she regained her composure.

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It took a while for Julie to open up completely, but this was the start.Over the next few visits to the cancer center, Alan learned that Julie's sexlife had dried up since she was diagnosed with cancer fourteen months ago. "It'sas if he thinks I'm too delicate to have sex with him anymore. He thinks ifwe do something, I might break. I've tried to talk to him about it Alan, Ireally have, but he just has the idea that I'm no longer capable of it. I amcapable of it and I'm getting very frustrated."

It was that day that Alan asked Julie to meet him for dinner one night. Juliehesitated for just a moment and then said yes. She set it for a night thatshe knew John would be out of town and arranged for her kids to stay at hersister's house that night.

Alan took Julie to a Thai restaurant at Fortieth and Chestnut Streets. Hisfavorite, he said. They talked all during dinner. Of course, they had beentalking for months at this point over their snacks at the cancer center, butthis was different, Julie was opening up, she wasn't holding anything back.

By the end of dinner, Alan had learned that Julie's husband is not the fatherof her thirteen year old son. They had been married for eight years and theyhave a daughter together. Alan had also found out that Julie was quite adventuresomein bed. She had had a number of lovers before she was married, including oneepisode with several men. Julie had experimented with BDSM on several occasionswhile in college. It seemed that Julie likes to be tied up, and she likes tobe spanked among other things.

Julie admitted to Alan all of her sexual frustrations since she had becomesick. "I'm getting the impression that I'll never be ready for it again inhis mind." Julie sat back with a look of frustration on her face.

"Well maybe he's just concerned for you, Julie."

"Or maybe he's found someone else. Either way, Alan, I'm as horny as I canbe right now." Alan smiled at Julie and then leaned over and kissed her. Shekissed him back, very passionately.

"Would you like to come over to my place?" She nodded yes and reached forher purse. Alan paid the bill quickly and led her outside.

Julie was ama zing in bed. First she undressed herself in front of him, sovery slowly, just the way he liked. Alan had always thought that Julie hada great tan. As she took off more and more clothes, he realized that she hada dark complexion. When the last item came off, her panties, Alan knew he wantedher.

Alan had always been partial to the shaved pussy look on women, so he wasdelighted to see that Julie was hairless. It quickly dawned on him that wasbecause of chemo, she didn't have any hair anyplace. Whatever the reason, heliked it.

Alan's apartment faced a small park and then another apartment building onthe other side of the park. As Julie stripped for Alan, he had moved to closethe curtains. Julie said nothing, but moved over next to him and gent ly stoppedhim from closing the blinds. She was totally unconcerned if any wandering eyessaw her nude. Alan was even more turned on by this amazing creature.

Once Julie was nude, she danced for him. Alan sat in a chair, while Juliedanced around, swaying her hips to the music from his radio, twirling, showingherself off for him. Alan loved it. At one point she even danced out onto thesmall balcony at which point Alan said, as calmly as he could "I don't wantto get thrown out of the building. Come on inside."

When Julie came close to him, Alan reached out and touched her ass. Julieturned around in mock surprise, but then she came over, leaned down and kissedhim. Then she straddled his lap without sitting down. She gently and gracefullyran her tits across his face. He kissed each of them, and sucked on her nipples.Julie let out a sigh.

"Alan, put your finger in my cunt." Alan was a little shocked at how Juliehad become. He was also a little taken aback by the language she used. He supposedthat he might be showing his age. He put his finger in her pussy. He pushedit into her and out twice. She was already quite wet. He found her clit andbegan to stimulate her further. Julie moved and groaned very erotically ashe stimulated her.

Alan was sure that Julie had cum twice already when she reached down andbegan unbuckling his belt. Julie said nothing, but had an amazing "I want younow" look on her face. Alan pushed her back, gently, stood and removed hisclothing himself. Julie was all over Alan before he even had a chance to react.As soon as she saw his cock, she pushed him backwards against a wall. She kneltdown in front of him and took his cock in her mouth. She began sucking, lickingand stroking him. Alan couldn't remember the last time a woman had done thisfor him. He was sure that whenever it was it was never this good.

Alan was delighted and didn't think he could hold out much longer when Juliestopped. Julie took his hand and led him back to the chair he had been sittingon. Alan sat down. Julie mounted Alan and guided his cock into her pussy. Sherocked gently but firmly up and down on his cock, while passionately kissingAlan on the lips. Alan kissed back and began kneading Julie's tits with hishands.

Alan knew that he was horny. He hadn't had a good piece of ass in quite sometime. He was no match for Julie, however. He had never seen a woman this hungryfor sex before. Alan loved it.

Alan came. Julie came again at the same time. Before Alan had even caughthis breath, Julie had gotten off and was licking his cock clean of their combinedjuices.

Julie fell asleep on Alan's bed. Alan couldn't sleep. He had the lights outin the apartment, but he could still see by the moonlight and the city lights.All night he sat in his chair watching the wonderful nude girl sleeping onhis bed. All night he thought how lucky he was to have found this angel.

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Julie had hesitated for only a moment whe n Alan asked her out. It took heronly a moment to conclude that she and John might never have normal sex again.This was her chance to start over with someone who was not afraid of her condition.

Dinner at the Thai restaurant was great. Julie held nothing back. She toldAlan everything that had happened to her that was significant. Everything,that is, except the rape. She wasn't quite ready for that yet.

The date was going wonderfully. Julie did not have to be home at all tonightso anything else that happened would be great. When Alan asked her to cometo his apartment for coffee, she jumped at the chance. She knew there wouldn'tbe any coffee; in fact she was counting on it.

Once Julie was certain that Alan wanted her as much as she wanted him, shebecame almost obsessed with pleasing him sexually. For the first time in overa year, she had the opportunity to have wonderful sex and she made the mostof it.

Afterwards, Julie fell asleep on top of Alan's bed, still totally nude. Whenshe awoke, it was just before sunup. Alan was already awake, just sitting inhis chair and watching her sleep. She smiled at Alan. Alan smiled back at Julie.

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Alan got Julie a cab, kissed her passionately and sent her home. He smiled,not only because of the wonderful night, but because he would see her againin just a few hours.

Julie's affair with Alan was always subject to the travel schedule of Julie'shusband. Whenever John had an out of town trip, Julie would let Alan know thatshe would be available that night.

It didn't seem possible, but the ir affair became even more passionate astime went on. Julie and Alan still had their regular snack after chemo butnow the discussions were even more open then before.

The day after the first date, Julie admitted to Alan that she was somethingof an exhibitionist. She liked to have sex outdoors and she was turned on bythe danger of being caught. Alan became only the third person to learn thatSally had been conceived on a park bench.

Four days after the first date, on the eve of their second date, Julie toldAlan about her rape. At first, Alan was speechless. Then he held Julie andgave her a kiss. Julie kissed Alan back and told him she was okay, that itwas behind her and she had made peace with her past. Alan wasn't totally convincedthat she was past it.

Alan also opened up more. Julie learned that Alan loved knives. "I'm notcertain when I first became interested in knives as it relates to sex, butI'm pretty sure it was as a teenager, maybe 14 or 15 years old. I seem to remembera movie scene where a guy gets in real close to a woman, she puts her armsaround him and he stabs her low and deep in the belly (back then, I'm surethey had clothes on). It made an impression on me though, and I couldn't getthe scene out of my head." Alan explained to Julie that he would never usea knife on anyone. What Alan loved was the power and the implied threat ofthe knife.

"Alan, I understand. You are like me; you want to have high adventure aspart of your sex life. I do too." Julie smiled at Alan in a way that was differentthen her previous smile. It was more of a foxy smile. "Are you up for someadventure tomorrow?" Alan looked at her for a moment and then shook his headyes. "I'll set it up, just pick me up at seven."

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Alan was at Julie's house at seven sharp. She had just gotten off the phonewith her husband who was a thousand miles away on a trip. The kids were alreadyat her sister's house.

Julie wore a yellow and white dress that had several layers of white laceacross the bodice and the skirt portions. She also wore white ankle strap shoeswith about a three inch heel, making her somewhat taller than Alan. The dresswas pretty, but a little too involved, for Alan's taste. Alan preferred simplerstyles.

"How do you like my dress?" Alan smiled and told her that it was very pretty. "Mydress is somewhat unusual, why don't you come closer and take another look?" Alandid not know what she was getting at, but he was ready to play her game.

Julie bent down so that Alan could kiss her. "I know that the heels makeme a little too tall, but they also make me stick my ass out when I walk andI thought you might like that." Alan laughed. "Now Alan, I want you to takea close look at the layers of lace on my dress. Touch it if you like. It isvery special lace."

Alan reached for the top layer of lace that was just below Julie's neck.It was heavier than he expected. He realized that there was something sowninto it to give it some weight. Other than that, it seemed like ordinary laceto Alan. Julie indicated that he should look at the next layer of lace thatwent across Julie's breasts. This layer too had extra weight to it. Alan liftedthe layer of lace to see what it looked like underneath. As he did so, he sawJulie's tits totally exposed under the lace. Julie's dress came up to justunder her breasts and then there were two oval cutouts for her breasts beforethe dress became whole again above to the collar. The only thing covering herbreasts was the lace.

Alan laughed and he gently massaged her nipples with his fingers. Julie laughedand then sighed. Finally, she moved his hands away from her tits and replacedthe lace covering. "There'll be time for that later and there is more dressto explore." Alan found two more such cutouts in the back of the dress. Therewas one each for Julie's ass cheeks. In the front, Alan found the fifth andlast cutout, a neat round circle that revealed Julie's hairless cunt. Thatwasn't Alan's word, but that's what Julie said.

Julie and Alan had had a talk at one point about language. Julie's languagewas quite colorful (as Alan called it) at times. Alan didn't tell Julie notto talk that way, but he did say that he had never met a woman who talked theway Julie talked. Julie smiled at Alan. "Sweetie, four-letter words are someof the most powerful words we have. I like them. I like the power they have."

"Now Alan, how do you like my dress?"

"It is the most extraordinary dress I've ever seen. It's gorgeous!"

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Dinner was a blur for Alan. All he could think of was her goodies coveredonly by a layer of lace. After they left Julie's house, Alan realized thathe could actually see some shadows through the lace. At least he though hecould.

By the time the y reached Alan' s apartment, both of them were hot. Sex thatnight was intense and passionate. Alan told Julie that her dress was very naughtyand that she would have to be punished. Once she had taken off all of her clothes,Alan led her out onto the balcony. While Alan was trying to be adventuresome,he still had his limitations. Alan turned out all of the lights in the apartmentbefore taking Julie out on the balcony. On the balcony, Alan took Julie overhis knee and spanked her very hard.

From their conversations, Alan knew that Julie enjoyed a good spanking andthat she liked it rough. Alan didn't let her up until he could see actual rednesson her cheeks. The

added spice of being spanked outside on the balcony, for anyone to see, wastoo much for Julie. Alan knew that she orgasmed during the spanking.

Julie and Alan made passionate love that night. Alan was amazed, at his age,that he was actually able to make love to Julie twice during the evening.

--- o --

Alan and Julie continued to see each other at the cancer center. The oftentalked over ideas for future dates. The next date, however, was slow in comingsince John didn't have any trips planned for a while.

It had been six weeks since their last date when Julie told Alan that Johnwas going to Africa to supervise some project and would be gone for two weeks.Alan was overjoyed.

"We have to plan out something really fun while he's away."

"Yes, I agree. I won't be able to get rid of the kids every night, but Ican tell my sister that I'm having lack of energy problems to get her to takethem several times while John is gone."

--- o --

Their next date was the night after John left town.

Julie wore a white chiffon blouse with a matching scarf. Alan could tellthat she did not have a bra underneath it. She also had on a dark brown cottonskirt that was so wonderfully skin tight around her hips and stomach. Unlikethe peek-a-boo dress from their last date, this outfit did not have any hiddenholes in it. Also unlike the last outfit, this was very stylish to look at.This was the type of outfit that Alan really liked on a beautiful woman.

For the first time since they had been going out, Julie left her wig at home.Alan found her bald head to be a turn on. He was delighted. "J ulie, I've thoughtthis from the beginning, you look better without the wig." She smiled.

They went to a small Italian restaurant that night. The meal was delicious.Alan enjoyed the meal, but, even more, enjoyed the company. They had discussedseveral different ideas for this date, but had never agreed on anything. Finally,Julie had kissed him and just said, "I'll take care of it, don't worry, itwill be spectacular." Alan wondered what she had in mind, but Julie gave himno clues.

When they had finished dinner and coffee, Alan paid the waitress with a creditcard. Julie stood up and said that she was going to the rest room. Then sheleaned down, kissed him and whispered in his ear. "Alan, wait one minute afterthe credit card slip comes back, then get up from the table and go into themen's room. If someone else goes into the men's room, wait for him to leave." Shehad Alan's attention.

Julie disappeared behind Alan walking to the rest rooms. Alan waited. Twominutes passed before the waitress returned with the slip and Alan's card.Alan signed the slip and gave the woman a generous tip. He then waited anotherminute as she had instructed him.

When the time was finally up, Alan turned toward the men's room at the backof the restaurant. Two men in business suits were just going in, so Alan waited.About three minutes later, one man came out. Two more minutes passed beforethe second man came out. Alan got up from the table and walked to the men'sroom.

The men's room had a sink on one wall and two urinals on the other. The backwall was covered by three stalls. Alan looked around, a little puzzled. Themen's room was empty. He even leaned down and checked under the stalls, buthe saw no one's feet. Alan went to the urinal and relieved himself. As he turnedto walk to the sink, he saw the door of the center stall, which had been closed,swing open slightly. A hand reached out from inside and motioned him to comeover. It was a woman's hand.

With a big smile on his face, Alan approached the slightly open stall door.When he peaked inside, he saw Julie standing, in a crouched position, on thetoilet seat. Julie was wearing her chiffon blouse, but was otherwise nude. "Closethe door sailor." She said. Alan stepped inside and closed the door. As Alanwatched, Julie took a knife she was holding in her hand and one by one cutthe buttons off her blouse until it was hanging open displaying her perfecttits.

--- o --

Julie had come up with the idea for this adventure. She knew that the dangerof being nude and having sex in the men's room would be a huge turn on forher. She hoped it would be for Alan as well. When he told her of his passionfor knives, she decided to add the knife to the scene for his benefit.

By the time Julie had finished cutting open her own blouse, she was incrediblyexcited. She would have liked to have Alan fuck her in the men's room, butshe didn't want to take it so far that they got caught. I'll just give hima blow job, she thought, and he can fuck me later when we get home.

--- o --

Julie stepped down from the toilet seat and pushed him against the stalldoor. Alan realized that he was leaning against the rest of Julie's clotheshanging on the hook on the back of the door.

Julie kissed Alan, hard, and put her tongue in his mouth. Alan was alreadybreathing hard when she got down on the tile floor, opened his fly and beganto suck his cock. Alan was both surprised and excited. It did not take longfor Julie to bring him to climax. Alan had a large ejaculation, but Julie swallowedevery drop of it.

It took a moment for Alan to catch his breath. The men's room door openedand two men came inside. Julie quickly jumped back up to her squatting positionon the seat. Alan stood where he was, leaning against the closed door. Juliemotioned for him to come closer to her so that, for the benefit of anyone whomight look, it would appear that Alan was standing in position in front ofthe toilet. Julie leaned down and gently placed Alan's now limp cock in hermouth. Alan was amazed and startled. It felt oh so good. Then he heard thesound of someone urinating and realized that Julie was urinating into the toilet.He wasn't sure if this was more of the illusion for the people outside thestall, or a turn on for him. Alan didn't care which; he decided it was probablyboth.

The men were joking with each other. Alan watched Julie as one man told theother a particularly vulgar joke. Both men laughed. Julie took her mouth awayfrom Alan's cock and put her hand to her mouth as if pretending to laugh aswell.

When the men left, Julie got down. She kissed Alan and told him to wait justoutside the men's room door. "When I'm dressed, I'll call you on your cellphone to let you know I'm ready to come out. You let me know if the coast isclear." Alan agreed.

Once outside the men's room, Alan took out his cell phone and waited. Julie'scall came about five minutes later. Just as she called to say she was ready,Alan spotted a man and a little boy coming his way. He told Julie. Julie toldhim to just wait there and she would call again after the man and boy leftthe men's room. Alan imagined Julie in the stall, squatting on the toilet seat.The man and boy left four minutes later. Julie's call followed. Alan told herit was clear and she was standing by his side before he could hang up. Shewas dressed just as she had been before except for the missing buttons on herblouse. Julie made no particular effort to keep the blouse closed. Alan foundthat incredibly sexy.

Alan kissed Julie very passionately and then they left the restaurant. Alanhailed a cab, and directed the driver to take them to his apartment. Alan andJulie necked in the backseat like a couple of teenagers.

--- o --

Julie was incredibly charged up by the adventure in the men's room. Julieloved the danger of being caught and the thrill of getting away with it. Juliehadn't thought of everything. She did not consider that her blouse would nolonger close when she came out of the men's room. Oh well, she thought to herself,I really don't care if someone gets a little erotic peek at my tits.

The cab ride back to Alan's apartment was also fun. She knew that Alan wasexcited, so when he leaned over to kiss her in the backseat of the cab, shereciprocated enthusiastically.

At first she had her eyes closed, but after a moment, she opened her eyes.Over Alan's shoulder, Julie could see the cab driver's eyes in the rear viewmirror. At first, she wondered what he was looking at. Surely, couples hadmade out in his backseat before. It was then that Julie realized that her blousewas hanging open and he was staring at her tits. Julie moved quickly to coverup. After all, we don't want to have an accident.

When they reached Alan's apartment, Julie asked Alan for a glass of orangejuice. She would have liked alcohol, but that was a no-no for chemo patients.

--- o --

Alan got two orange juice glasses and when he returned from the kitchen,he found Julie sitting in a chair on the balcony with her feet up on the safetyrailing. She was also totally naked. Alan thought it was interesting that shewas relaxing nude on the balcony. All the other times, she had been nude onthe balcony, were in the heat of passion. As turned on as he was by the sightof her, Alan could not help himself as he turned off the lights in the apartment.Someone might be watching her, he thought, but I'm not going to help them doit.

Alan kissed her bald head and handed her a glass. They talked about whathad happened at the restaurant. Both of them were still glowing in the memory.Alan told Julie that she was the most wonderful person he had ever met. Juliesmiled, kissed him and told him that he was the knight in shining armor thathad saved her life.

Alan and Julie sat and watched the city at night from the balcony for sometime before they came inside and went to bed without further sexual activity.About 3am, Alan woke up to find Julie snuggled around him. To have such a wonderfulsexy nude young woman like this seemed to him to be heaven. Julie did not wake.

At 6am, Julie woke Alan and started foreplay. They made love in the morning,and then Alan drove Julie home.

--- o --

Alan and Julie had a very exciting discussion at snack time the next day.Both of them were still glowing in the after affects of last night.

John had only been gone for two days. He would be away for another twelvedays. They still had plenty of time to be together. Alan thought, however,there was no way that they could ever match the passion of last night. Still,Alan wanted to spend as much time with Julie as he could. He was delightedwhen she asked him to go with her after they left the cancer center that afternoon.

--- o --

Julie had decided that her relationship with Alan had reached the point whereshe could discuss anything with him. She trusted Alan more than she had evertrusted anyone else in her life. She had already told him her deepest secret,the secret that no one else knew.

Julie asked Alan to come with her after they left the cancer center. Theyhad never left the center together before. She didn't tell Alan what she hadin mind and he didn't ask.

It was one o'clock in the afternoon when Alan and Julie left in Alan's car.Ala n was driving and asked Julie where she wanted to go. "Forty-Ninth andSpring Garden Streets, the northeast corner." Julie offered no further information.

--- o --

Alan did not know the area well, and could not imagine what could be of interestat that location. Julie didn't seem to be in a mood to talk right now, so hejust let it go.

Some of the neighborhoods they went through on the way were definitely badareas. Alan became more alert as he surveyed the area and the people. He waseven more confused about why she wanted to come here.

As the car approached Forty-Ninth Street, Alan noticed a definite changein the surroundings. They must be getting close to one of the college campusesaround town. The dilapidated neighborhood and people hanging out on the sidewalkshad given way to several large modern school buildings. This being late summer,the campus was mostly deserted.

Alan turned the car onto Forty-Ninth. Spring Garden was only a few streetsup. They were still mostly among campus buildings as the car stopped at thecorner of Spring Garden and Forty-Ninth.

For a moment, they just sat quietly in the car until Julie finally spoke. "Thesebuildings weren't here fourteen years ago. The campus didn't come out thisfar then. Forty-Ninth, back then, was just like some of the neighborhoods wedrove through on the way here."

--- o --

Julie had thought many times about revisiting the place where she had beenraped. It was both a morbid curiosity and an irrational fear. It would be normal if she was afraid of the rapist coming back. Somehow she never was. She expectedthat she would never see him again and she never did. Her irrational fear wasof the churchyard. She was afraid of the place. It made no sense, but for fourteenyears, she had intentionally stayed well clear of the area.

Julie had never asked John to take her to this place. She would not havefelt safe with John. She would not have felt safe in this place with a squadof riot police by her side. Somehow though, she felt safe with Alan. Julierealized that she wasn't making a lot of sense even just in her thoughts, soshe didn't say much.

--- o --

Alan froze. He realized that this was the place where Julie had been raped.Alan had no idea what to say, so he said nothing. He reached over and tookJulie's hand in his. The two sat in silence in Alan's car for another fiveminutes.

--- o --

When Alan took her hand, Julie knew that he was her soul-mate. No one elseunderstood her the way that he understood her. Julie knew, at that moment,that she wanted to spend forever with Alan. She didn't know how she would arrangethat. She really didn't want to think about it now. She would figure it out,eventually.

--- o --

Eventually, Julie spoke again. "I haven't been back here in all those years.I'm amazed at how it has changed."

"Do you want to get out and look around or just sit here some more," Alanasked. Julie didn't answer at first, but just sat silently in the car.

"Let's get out," she finally said. Alan quickly got out of the car and camearound to Julie's side. She was already out and standing on the sidewalk beforehe got to her.

Alan watched as Julie's eyes darted around, taking in everything around her. "Itall looks different now," she finally said, "even the sidewalk is new. Theold one was kind of broken up as I remember." Alan stood at Julie's side andput his arm around her shoulders. Alan quite expected Julie to cry, but shedidn't.

"I want to see the church." Julie moved away from Alan, but took his handin hers and led him toward an alleyway between two very tall classroom buildings.The alleyway was narrow, and the sunlight was cut off between the two buildings.There was some bright sunshine up ahead. When they reached the other side ofthe building, they saw the back of the old stone church, neatly nestled betweenseveral high rise buildings that now surrounded it. "It's still the same."

Julie led Alan over the low stone wall into the churchyard. She came to aspot about fifteen feet in from the wall and stopped. "This is it Alan," shesaid in an amazingly clear and determined voice, "This is the spot where Iwas raped."

When they reached the church, it looked exactly as Julie remembered. Surroundednow by the high rise buildings that didn't exist a decade and a half ago, itappeared as if the church had been magically transported to a different neighborhood.Everything else was different, but the church was unchanged.

Julie led Alan over the stone wall and quickly found her landmark, the smallstorm drain. It was right where she thought it would be. Julie took a deepbreath and then told Alan. "This is it Alan, this is the spot where I was raped." Shewas sure that Alan already knew, but she wanted to tell him anyway.

Alan took a step towards her and held her in his embrace. She wasn't afraidof this place any longer. Alan was here and he would protect her. In fact,Julie felt joy. Joy that she had conquered yet another fear, the fear of thechurchyard.

--- o --

Alan looked down at the spot where Julie stood. She was directly on top ofthe graves of a husband and wife who had died in the 1870's. Julie told Alanthat she knew the exact location because there was a small storm drain in theground that she remembered touching with her hand at one point that night.Alan saw the small storm drain just beneath her feet. Alan took a step towardJulie and held her in his arms. He was sure that she would cry now, but shedidn't. He could feel how tense he r body was as he held her close to him.Several minutes passed till Alan felt Julie's tension subside. Alan stood withJulie for several minutes, just holding her, perhaps rocking her a little bit.He was truly wondering what was going through her mind right now.

--- o --

Finally, Julie released from his embrace. "Come over here Alan." Alan followedher to the other side of the churchyard. The stone wall on that side was nextto a walkway just outside the next high-rise building. Julie peered over thewall to the walkway. "This used to be a row house over here. This is the wallover which he threw my clothes and I had to climb over and get them back."

Julie chuckled. Alan asked her what is so funny. Julie pointed to a largeglass window on the first floor of the next building. Inside the window, Alancould see what looked like a well appointed waiting room outside two privateoffices. "Alan, you see where that really nice looking coffee table is overthere?" Alan nodded. "Right there is where a naked twenty year old girl satand put her clothes on. It's funny how it has all changed so much." Alan gaveher another hug.

Julie led him back to the spot near the storm drain. She stood and lookeddown, as if she were remembering more details from that night. Alan stood behindher and held her.

Finally, Julie told Alan that it was time to leave. They walked back outof the alleyway and back to Alan's car.

Julie was still quite silent on the ride back. Alan took her to his apartmentand fixed them each a glass of orange juice. "Are you glad that we did that?"

Julie smiled at him. "Yes Alan, I'm glad that we did." She paused for a momentand took a sip of her juice. "When can we go back again?"

Alan looked at Julie with surprise. "Why do you want to go back again? Wasthere something that we missed?"

Julie looked into Alan's eyes trying to make a connection with him. "I wouldlike to go back to the church at three in the morning. Can we do that?"

Alan's jaw dropped open. Julie looked at him for a moment and started tolaugh. Finally Alan laughed too. When the laughter stopped, Alan spoke. "Julie,are you serious? Do you want to go back to the church at 3am?"

Julie looked straight at Alan, silently at first. Then in a quiet, but firmvoice she said "yes Alan, I want to go back at 3am."

Now it was Alan's turn to be silent for several minutes. He could see theimplication of what she had said, but he was struggling for how to handle it.Finally he asked her straight on.

"You want to reenact the rape, is that it?" Julie didn't answer, but shenodded her head in the positive.

At first, Alan tried to consider why she would want to do this, but finallydecided that it was a much too complicated question for him to consider. Hedecided that Julie knew best what she wanted and that he should go along withher.

"I'll need some time to get ready for this. There are some things that Iwant to do first." Julie said that was okay and didn't ask what Alan wantedto do.

They agreed on two days from then. It would be a Wednesday, school wouldstill be out and the area should be deserted, especially at 3am.

--- o --

During the next few days, Alan made his preparations.

Later that day, Alan called the church. He spoke to an elderly woman. "SaintJames Episcopal" was the way that she answered the phone.

Alan told the woman that he was interested in genealogy and wanted to visitsome old relatives who were buried in the churchyard. He gave the names ofthe couple from the 1870's. The woman told Alan that his relatives were indeedburied in the churchyard and gave a general description of how to find thegrave markers. Alan told the woman that he couldn't come over right away andasked how late the church was open on Wednesday. The woman told him that thechurch closes at 5pm on Wednesday. Alan asked if there would be anyone aroundafter that time to let him into the churchyard. He was told that no one wouldbe there, but the churchyard isn't really locked, so he could come by after5pm if he liked. Alan thanked the woman and hung up.

--- o --

Alan had several pistols. This was something that he had never told Julie.Until now it didn't make any difference. He hadn't had his pistols out in quitesome time because of everything else going on in his life. Now he surveyedhis collection. He selected one that he knew had plenty of kick, but was alsosmall enough to easily conceal. Alan didn't own an ankle holster, but he purchasedone, as well as new ammunition, later that day at a sporting goods store.

That afternoon, Alan thoroughly cleaned the gun and made sure it was in goodworking order. Alan put the gun in a lock box.

In that day's mail, Alan received a note. There was no return address onit. He opened the note and read: "Please always know, my love, that I was adamsel in distress. You are my knight is shining armor who came to my rescue.You are the one true love of my life. I will love you and be with you always,Julie"

Alan knew he was in love with Julie. The thing he found incredible was thatshe was in love with him. He wondered which of them had really rescued theother.

--- o --

The next day, Tuesday, Alan skipped chemo therapy. That morning, Alan tookthe lock box with the gun inside and placed it in the trunk of his car. Thenhe drove to a firing range where he used to be a regular. They still rememberedhim when he walked in with the box under his arm.

Alan paid for an hour on the range. Alan went to his assigned spot and spentthe next hour firing his gun at paper targets down the range. The feel of thegun came back to Alan rather quickly. At first, his aim was somewhat off, butafter a while, that came back as well. By the forty-five minute mark, Alanwas able to fire five shots in rapid succession at the paper target and groupthem fairly tightly. Alan was satisfied that he could handle this gun. He spentthe remaining fifteen minutes shooting at the targets, each time achievinghis desired grouping.

When Alan arrived home, he cleaned the gun again. Alan was ready for Wednesday.

--- o --

On Wednesday, Alan went to chemo therapy. The nurse led Alan to his usualspot and got him ready for his treatment. Right on schedule, Julie came inand took the spot opposite him. Her nurse closed the curtain while Julie removedher blouse and bra and put on the hospital smock. Julie no longer botheredwearing her wig.

Julie was seated in the chair when the nurse opened the curtain. Julie smiledat Alan when she saw him. Alan smiled at Julie.

Alan sat with Julie for their snacks, just as he always did. For a long timeneither of them said anything. Finally Alan asked Julie if she was ready fortonight. Julie said that she was. Alan asked her if she still wanted to doit and Julie assured him that she wanted to do this.

After they left the cancer center, each of them went home. When Alan arrivedhome by taxi, he got into his car and drove over to Saint James Church. Thechurch faced onto Spring Garden Street, one building east of Forty-Ninth Street.Alan was looking at the front of the church for the first time. Alan parkedacross the street and waited. Alan was watching carefully, for anyone in theneighborhood that looked like trouble. Just before Alan left, he saw a manin clerical garb come out of a side entrance of the church and walk back tothe alleyway. A moment later, he saw the same man driving a car that passedhim where he was parked. That must be the Pastor, he thought.

Alan arrived home at about 5pm.

--- o --

Julie arrived at Alan's apartment at around 10pm. She had taken a nap thatafternoon so that she would have plenty of energy reserves for the evening.She had gotten up from her nap at 6:30pm and took her kids over to their aunt'shouse. Then she came home and napped for another two hours before calling acab and going to Alan's house.

Alan had fixed a late supper for them which they ate at about 11pm. Aftersupper, Julie and Alan sat and talked over a glass of orange juice.

Julie reached into her purse and took out the knife that she had used tocut the buttons off her blouse. She handed it to Alan. "This is for you touse tonight."

--- o --

Alan loved knives. He found their power to be an aphrodisiac. Alan was wellaware that the rapist had threatened Julie with a knife, so he had two of hisknives packed for tonight. He told Julie that.

"I want you to use this one," she said.

Alan looked at the knife. It was a spring loaded switchblade about five incheslong. It had no practical purpose other than to attack another person. Theswitchblade was sharp, but it still was not suited to cutting most things.The long tapered thin blade was only meant for stabbing.

Why this one, Alan thought. His knives were more elegant weapons; this pieceof trash is meant for thugs. "Why this one?"

Julie waited a moment before answering. "That's his knife." She pointed atthe switchblade still in Alan's hand. "It's his knife; it's the one he usedthat night; it's the one he used to cut my tit."

Alan folded the knife and put it in his pocket. He could see that Julie hadbecome emotional again. Alan went to her and held her tight. After a few moments,Julie calmed down again.

"We don't have to do this, Julie, if it's too much for you."

"Alan, we are doing this. Please don't ask me again. I have the safe word.If I can't do it, I'll use the safe word. If I don't say the safe word, thenplease don't ask again." Alan agreed.

A few minutes after 2am, Alan went into his bedroom for his final preparations.He took out the gun he had been practicing with and put it on his left anklewith the ankle holster. Alan had decided not to tell Julie that he had a gunwith him.

Otherwise, Alan wore jeans and a dark tee shirt. He had loafers on his feetso they wo uld come off and go on easily. He was ready.

Julie was wearing jeans and a blouse when she arrived at Alan's apartment.

--- o --

Alan and Julie arrived in the area of Saint James Church about fifteen minutesbefore 3am. Alan drove slowly past the churchyard. It didn't look as if anyonewas around. Over the next several minutes, Alan drove around the neighborhoodand up and down nearby streets. There was no activity anywhere. Alan arrivedback at Saint James at about two minutes past 3am. Alan drove around to theback alleyway and parked behind the church in a spot marked "Father Girard."

Julie said nothing. The y got out of the car in silence. Alan checked onelast time to make sure he had the knife and the gun. Both were where they weresupposed to be.

"Ready?" Julie nodded yes.

They walked down the alleyway toward Forty-Ninth Street. Julie stood on thecorner while Alan walked halfway up the block.

--- o --

Julie was standing on the corner of Forty-Ninth and Spring Garden Streetswhen Alan came up behind her. Julie was acutely aware that Alan was approachingher, but she pretended that she never heard him coming.

She jumped and let out a startled yell when Alan came up suddenly behindher. The story that Julie had told Alan was that the rapist grabbed Julie'shair at this point. Now, however, Julie had no hair, so Alan put his arm aroundthe side of her head and his hand on her forehead, causing her to arch herhead, neck and back. With his other hand, he held the knife where she couldsee it. Julie's heart beat quickened. Julie put up her hands and offered noresistance.

"Don't yell bitch. Don't do anything and you'll live." Alan didn't quitehave the street lingo down, but he was doing fine, Julie thought.

Julie offered him her purse, but he pushed it away. "Shut the fuck up bitch." Okay,Alan, that's much better, Julie thought.

Alan pushed Julie down a narrow alleyway between the streets. About thirtyyards into the alley they came to the back of Saint James Church, near whereAlan had parked the car. He pushed Julie into the churchyard.

--- o --

Julie had given Alan very specific instructions on what to say. He hopedthat it sounded right. "Don't make noise bitch. Take off your fucking clothes." Ashe said this, he put the tip of the knife to Julie's throat.

Julie let out a small whimper now and then. She unbuckled her belt and droppedher jeans to her knees. She stood there for a moment, in her pastel cottonblue panties. Alan couldn't help thinking how beautiful Julie was and how cuteshe was with her pants down. Alan caught himself just in time and got backinto character.

Alan waived the knife at her again. "Every fucking thing bitch or I'll cutyou. Take off all your clothes – everything." Julie unbuttoned her blouseand let it drop to the ground and then she removed her bra. Julie covered hernipples with her left arm, just as she had fourteen years ago.

"None of that shit. Move your arm bitch; I want to see your tits." Juliesmiled inwardly, knowing that Alan was getting more into it now. She loweredher arm. Alan put the knife in his left hand and reached out toward her leftbreast with his right hand. Julie pulled back.

Alan stepped forward and put the knife to her throat. "Don't mess with mebitch!" Julie froze. Alan reached out with his right hand again and grabbedJulie's left breast.

Julie had told Alan how rough the man had been on her breast and that sheexpected Alan to do no less. Alan loved Julie's tits and didn't think he hadit in him to be that rough with her.

Alan folded the knife and put it in his pants pocket. Now with both handsfree, Alan took each of Julie's nipples and squeezed them between his thumband forefinger. Julie was surprised that Alan was improvising, but she approvedof this move.

"No noise bitch." Alan pulled Julie forward and down to the ground by hisgrip on her nipples. Julie was sitting on the ground when he finally let goof her. Then Alan slapped her hard across the face. The slap was harder thanAlan had intended and he started to apologize when he saw in Julie's eyes thathe should not.

Alan continued with his part. "Never mess with me. Now get out of those jeans,shoes too bitch."

Julie untied her sneakers and took them off. Then she slid her jeans offthe rest of the way. When she stood up she was wearing only her panties. Atthis point, Alan was anxious to see Julie nude, so his next line was easy tosay. "Panties too bitch, don't keep me waiting." A devilish grin came overAlan's face.

Julie hooked her thumbs into the waistband of her panties and dropped themto the ground. Julie made no effort to cover her pussy with her hands. In factshe stood with her legs quite far apart, inviting Alan's lust for her.

Alan no ticed that Julie was thinner than she had been when they first startedto date six weeks ago. Alan knew that Julie was not on maintenance chemo, butwas actually fighting an active cancer. Alan was worried about what would happenif she got much thinner. "Julie if you lose much more weight, the doctors aregoing to throw your ass back in the hospital."

Julie looked at Alan. "We can talk about that tomorrow. Now Alan, get backinto character."

Alan told Julie to dance for him. He sat down on the grass to watch. He lovedto see Julie nude from this angle, looking up at her.

She began to hum a tune as she danced in front of him. Her dance was sensuousand erotic. She gyrated her hips and several times ran her index finger throughher pussy and then smiled at him as she put her finger in her mouth. Afterseveral minutes, Julie ran her finger through her pussy and then put her fingerin Alan's mouth. She is as sweet as can be, thought Alan as he sucked on Julie'sfinger.

Alan knew he was already as hard as a rock. He couldn't believe that thestupid kid those many years ago could look at Julie nude and not be erect immediately.

Alan's thoughts were interrupted by a noise in the street. Alan pulled Juliedown behind one of the grave markers and then crouched behind another. Thesound he heard was a car and a radio. Alan reached for his left ankle and hisgun. He had his hand on the grip, but did not draw the weapon.

Moments later, a police cruiser drove slowly past the church. A spot lightswept across the churchyard. For a moment, Alan thought they had been spotted,but then the cruiser moved on down the road.

They remained behind the grave markers for several minutes. He looked overat Julie and motioned for her to stay where she was and keep quiet. It almostseemed to Alan that Julie was asleep; her eyes were closed and she didn't move.

Alan remained on alert until he was sure that the police had moved away andthat they weren't going to drive down the alleyway next.

When he was sure the police had gone, he gave Julie a new order. "On yourknees bitch, kneel." He had to say it three times before Julie started to move.Alan expected the safe word at any moment, but it didn't come.

Julie knelt before him as Alan lightly placed the blade of his knife againsther left cheek, just for emphasis and to confirm that he was totally in charge.

Alan folded the knife again and put it in his pocket. Then he opened hisfly.

--- o --

Julie reached into Alan's pants and felt his cock. Alan was already rockhard. Julie pulled Alan's cock out of his pants and put it into her mouth.She used her tongue to stimulate the underside of his cock. She also used herhands to stimulate him.

Julie continued to work on Alan's cock while he reached down and pinchedher nipples very hard. At first it hurt. She started working his cock morevigorously. The pain in her nipples was stimulating her. Julie could feel herselfgetting more wet.

Alan pulled his cock out of her mouth. She sat back and looked at him fora moment. He was hard, straight and stiff. "Lie back Julie, I'm going to fuckyou now."

Julie changed her position to lying on her back on the grass. Alan decidedto just push his pants and shorts down to his ankles, rather than undress,since he didn't want Julie to spot the pistol.

As Julie lay back on the grass, she pulled her knees up and out. Julie movedher hand around until she found the storm drain. It was still there.

Alan looked down at Julie, lying on the grass waiting for him. "You are onefine looking woman. You are amazing. "

He got on top of her. He reached down and found her pussy with his left hand,and smiled at her. "You are wet, you bitch. You are getting off on this, Iknow it." Alan chuckled and Julie did as well.

Alan guided his cock into her and began pushing. When he was into her asfar as he could go, Alan retrieved the knife again, sprung the blade and placedthe tip of the knife at the corner of her mouth. Julie was showing fear onher face, but Alan assumed it was just play acting on her part. "Don't hurtme, please," she said.

Alan began humping in and out of her.

--- o --

Everything, except for the cops, was going as she had planned it. It washer intension to show mock fear when Alan put the knife next to her mouth.When the moment actually came, Julie truly felt fear, not from Alan, but fromher memories of her first visit to this place.

Julie was also aware that her body was once again behaving as it had manyyears earlier. She was on the verge of an orgasm. With all her willpower, Juliestifled the impulses racing through her groin. Alan stopped humping her.

Alan moved his right hand, with the knife, away from Julie's mouth, and placedthe blade against her left breast just to the left of her nipple. Julie letout an audible gasp. They had discussed this scene several times. Alan hadsuggested that they modify the knife to the tit part or drop it altogether.Julie had insisted that they leave it in, even the part about drawing blood.Julie had told Alan, "I have every faith in you; you'll do it just right."

--- o --

Alan could see a line on Julie's breast. The skin was justslightly paler than the surrounding skin. Alan knew that was the mark frombefore. He placed the knife very

close to the old mark and slowly ran the tip of the knife down the side ofher breast leaving a one inch line on her skin. A moment later, a small trickleof blood appeared on the line. Alan put his mouth on her tit and began suckingher blood. When Alan was sure that the cut was no longer bleeding, he beganhumping Julie again.

--- o --

The small cut on her tit really didn't hurt, but it had the same effect onher as before. Two minutes later, Julie's body convulsed in one enormous orgasm.She shook like a rag doll. Muscles tensed and released and then tensed again.She was totally out of control for at least ten seconds.

--- o --

Alan was somewhat worried. He had brought Julie to orgasm before, but ithad never been like this. In fact, he had never seen any woman shake like thisbefore. It was the most colossal orgasm that Alan had ever witnessed. Alanunderstood now, why the rapist was worried about Julie; Alan was also worried.He stopped humping her.

"Are you okay, Julie?" It took a few moments for the orgasm to subside. Julie'sbreathing was still quite rapid, but she managed to get out "I'm fine, Alan." Juliethen wrapped her legs tightly around his waist and her arms around his shoulders. "Don'tstop Alan, please don't stop." She gasped between breaths.

Alan began humping her faster than ever. It took another few minutes forhim to reach his climax. He could feel Julie's abdominal muscles contract andrelease around his cock. All that time, Julie's legs were tight around hiswaist. It felt wonderful.

--- o --

Julie watched Alan's face contort as his orgasm began. She felt the twitchingof his cock inside her. Julie realized she was cuming again at the same time.Julie held him very tightly with both her arms and her legs. His humping stopped.He pushed into her as far as he could. She could feel every movement of hiscock as he came. When at last he had delivered everything, he collapsed ontop of her. His breathing was fast, but eventually became steady. Julie unwrappedher legs and arms.

For a few moments, he was just motionless on top of her. She studied hisface. Even though she knew Alan so very well, it seemed like she was seeinghim for the first time right now. She studied the line of his hair, the shapeof his ear. She listened quietly to the sound of his breathing. Julie knewthat she had never been as happy as she was at that very moment. I will spendthe rest of my life with Alan she thought.

Julie remembered how she thought that her rapist had gotten her pregnant.If it wasn't for her chemo therapy, she would wish that to happen tonight.

Alan got up and began pulling up his shorts and pants. He gathered up Julie'sclothes and tossed them near the wall but not over. Julie was still lying onthe grass. In the dim light, he could just make out the swell of her tits andthe arch of her pussy. Alan leaned down and kissed Julie. Julie kissed himback, very passionately. Alan gently ran his hand over her body. He touchedher breasts, he touched her pussy, he touched her legs, but mostly he touchedher face.

Without another word, Alan was gone into the alleyway. Alan went to his carbut did not get in. He stood next to the wall and waited for Julie. When severalminutes had passed and there was no sign of her, he went back to look for her.She was still in the same spot, still nude and evidently fast asleep. Alankissed her and she awoke.

"Come on sleepy head. You can't stay here all night."

Julie smiled at him as he helped her to sit up. "I'm just so tired Alan,just let me rest another minute, please." Alan retrieved Julie's clothes. Whenhe returned, she was lying down again and asleep. Alan sat her up once moreand began to dress her as best he could. Alan had some experience in gettingwomen out of their clothes. He hadn't realized how much more difficult it wasto get a woman into her clothes.

In the end, he had her panties on her, but he couldn't get the tight jeanson. Her blouse was on, but he didn't even try for the bra.

Alan grabbed the rest of Julie's clothes and her purse, ran back to the carand put them in the back seat. When he returned, he pulled Julie to her feetand carried her to the car.

Alan wanted to take Julie to the hospital, but Julie insisted that they goback to his apartment.

Alan carried Julie over his shoulder, into the lobby of his building andinto the elevator. He wasn't worried about meeting any of his neighbors atthis time of night, but he had no idea what he would say if one of them camealong and saw him carrying a girl in just her panties and shirt.

Alan placed Julie down on his bed. Several nights before, he sat up the wholenight and watched Julie sleep because she was nude and oh so beautiful. Thisnight he did the same, but for a totally different reason. Every half hour,Alan checked Julie's pulse. Nothing happened. Julie slept soundly and seemedto be fine the next morning.

--- o --

Julie awoke at 9:30am. Evidently Alan had gotten up before her and was sittingin his chair watching her. Julie smiled when she saw him.

Alan fixed breakfast for them and then they dressed and went to the cancercenter in the same cab.

After chemo, Alan and Julie sat together and ate their snack. For the firstfew minutes, they were both silent. "Alan, thank you for last night, it wasthe most wonderful night of my life." Julie smiled.

"It was my pleasure, Julie. It was exciting, it was fun, it was romantic,it was erotic and I was with the most exciting woman I've ever known. Julieand Alan both smiled. "I was a little worried though when you seemed to runout of gas at the end."

"I've been a little run down lately. I have an appointment with my doctorlater this afternoon." Alan nodded.

For the remainder of their meal, they said very little, but they each lookedinto the other's eyes, held hands and smiled at each other.

At the end of the meal, Julie told Alan to go home and she would come byand see him after her appointment. Julie had been somewhat concerned herselfabout her weight loss and lack of energy, but she didn't want to burden Alanwith any of this.

--- o --

Alan waited patiently if not nervously until 5pm. At that point, Julie cameto Alan's apartment.

Julie seemed more like her old self. "He gave me a new prescription. It seemsthat I was anemic." She smiled as she said this.

Alan gave her a big hug. "Can you stay long?" Julie smiled when she toldhim that she could stay as long as she likes.

"Let's not go out tonight though, can we order something in?" Alan noddedin agreement.

Alan went out an hour later to get Chinese foodand a DVD. He was back twenty minutes later.

To his surprise, he found Julie nude, sitting on the balcony, and sippingan orange juice. Alan had to smile thinking how this woman is so wonderfullyuninhibited.

Alan and Julie ate Chinese food on the balcony. Alan was in his boxer shortswhile Julie wore nothing at all. After supper, Julie curled up with Alan onthe couch while the y watched the movie Alan had rented. It was starting toget a little chilly, so Alan got a blanket to put over them.

Several times Alan was sure that Julie had fallen asleep. It didn't appearto him that she was even facing the television. Then each time he was sureshe was asleep, she would do something to show him that she was not asleep.One time, she started playing with Alan's nipple with her tongue. Another time,she put her hand in Alan's shorts and started stroking him.

Alan thought he was the luckiest man alive.

They went to bed that night without making love. Alan was so relieved thatJulie was back to her old self that he didn't mind falling asleep. In his exhaustedstate, Alan really needed the sleep.

Alan had taken off his boxers and so they both slept in the nude. Julie wrappedherself around Alan. Alan had his hand on Julie's ass. He was delighted tofeel how firm and round she was. Young people are amazing he thought. His lastthought before he fell asleep was that he was the world's luckiest dirty oldman. They both slept soundly.

It was still dark when Alan awoke. He saw the clock across the room said3:40am. He still had cobwebs in his head when he realized what had awoken him.Julie was no longer wrapped around him. In fact, he couldn't even see her atfirst, but he could feel her. Somewhere down under the covers, she was lickinghis cock.

Alan was turned on immediately. He could feel his cock grow. This broughta giggle from the unseen person under the covers. Alan started to move hishand to push the covers back when he realized that his wrists had been lashedto his headboard.

"What is this?" Alan demanded as he feigned rage.

Julie sat up and pushed the covers off. "Last night you got to rape me inthe churchyard Alan. Now turn about is fair play. Tonight I'm going to rapeyou, so prepare to suffer." Julie giggled.

Alan chuckled. This should be good he thought to himself.

"Well, I'd make you strip for me, but you're already naked so we'll skipthat part. Now the second part last night was that I had to suck your cock.So tonight I'm going to make you eat my pussy. No complaining now Alan."

Alan laughed again. "No complaining here maam."

Julie moved to a position of kneeling over Alan's head. Slowly she loweredherself until her hairless cunt was within reach of Alan's tongue. Alan raisedhis head slightly and shot out his tongue. He got his target, the space betweenJulies cunt lips about two thirds of the way to the front. Her lips partedeasily for him and he could taste her sweet wetness.

Julie pulled up away from Alan. "Oh you naughty boy."
A moment later, she was once again moving herself into position. This timeJulie's cunt
came down tightly to Alan's mouth. His tongue was inside her again. This timehe was

close enough to run his tongue the full length of her cunt. He waseven able to get his
tongue partially inside her. She was amazingly sweet.
Julie put Alan through this "torture" several more times until she decidedthat it was time

to move on to other activities.
Julie untied Alan's hands and then climbed into bed next to him. They snuggledand
kissed for quite a while before Alan rolled over on top of Julie. Alan foundJulie's cunt

and quickly got his cock into her. "I hope you're ready Alan becausenow I'm going to
rape you."
Alan laughed as he began humping Julie. Ten minutes later, both Alan and Juliecame. It

was glorious as they held each other.

--- o ---

"Alan, I've decided that I want to spendthe rest of my life with you." "That's sweet Julie." Alan smiled at her. "I'mnot kidding, I don't intend to go home, I want to stay here with you forever." Alanrealized that she was serious. He held her tight and kissed her. "What areyou

going to tell your husband, your kids, your sister?"

"I don't know what I'll tell them, but I will. I don't ever want to leaveyou. I want us to be together forever. I was a damsel in distress and you aremy knight in shining armor." Shortly after this, Julie fell asleep. Alan couldnot sleep and so he sat once again in his

chair and watched Julie sleep.At 8am, Julie woke up. Alan was still sitting, watching over her. Julie madebreakfast for them. Then they took a shower together, dressed and left forthe cancer center. --- o --

Julie had another doctor's appointment after chemo, so Alan came homealone and
waited for her.
It has been a magical two weeks, but Julie's husband is due back in three days.Alan

wondered what would really happen then.

Julie arrived at 6:30 together with several suitcases of her clothes andmakeup. Alan realized that she had gone home and collected the things she wouldneed to stay with him. Well at least he knew for certain that she was serious.

Alan and Julie went out to eat that night. Julie wore a dark purple knitdress that she called a jumper. In the cab ride to the restaurant, Julie showedAlan that there were no panties under her dress. Alan assumed that she wasn'twearing a bra either. Alan kissed her in the back of the cab.

The food at the restaurant was good. Alan made a move to put his hand upJulie's dress at one point, but she blocked him. "Not yet sweetie," she saidwith a grin, "wait till we get home."

After dinner, Alan and Julie took a cab back to Alan's apartment. Alan noticedthat Julie was looking tired again.

At the apartment, Julie was out of her dress very quickly and offered herselfto her lover. Alan took her and made passionate love, but was still concernedwith her health.

--- o --

The following morning was one of those days that Julie was scheduled forchemo but Alan was not. Julie kissed Alan goodbye and left in the morning.This morning Julie seemed fine again. It was two days until John returned.

Julie called Alan in the afternoon. "The doctor wants to see me again, soI will be late." Alan told Julie that it was important to take care of herself.

Julie called in the early evening. "Alan I have to do something with my kidstonight, I hope you understand. I guess the simplest thing is to stay at myown house tonight and I'll see you tomorrow at the cancer center." Alan wasdisappointed, but agreed.

--- o --

The following morning, Alan left at the usual time for his chemo. He hada fitful sleep that night. He wasn't sure if it was from worrying about Julieor just missing her.

By ten, Alan was in his chemo chair. Across from him he could see Julie'susual nurse getting everything ready for the patient. Julie would be here ina moment.

The nurse left and returned a minute later, pushing an elderly woman in awheelchair. The y stopped by Julie's chair and the nurse helped the old womaninto Julie's chair.

Alan became upset. He asked his nurse "where is Julie?" The nurse said shedidn't know, but that she would find out.

It took half an hour before Alan had an answer. Julie's sister brought herto the hospital last night at midnight. Julie was admitted with severe anemia. "Afteryour treatment, you can go visit her," said Alan's nurse, "I know that youand she are friends."

--- o --

Alan skipped the snack after chemo. He wasn't in the mood to eat. It wasa twenty minute cab ride from the cancer center to the hospital. Alan askedat the desk for Julie's room.

Just outside Julie's room, Alan found her sister, Jennifer, whom he had seena few times when Julie first started coming in for treatments. Also there wasa thirteen year old boy and an eight year old girl. Alan knew these were Julie'schildren, William and Sally. Alan introduced himself as a friend from the cancercenter.

Jennifer invited Alan to come into the room and see Julie. When Alan enteredthe room, Julie was lying in the bed with IV's running into her. She lookedvery tired. "Her blood counts are way down," explained Jennifer.

Alan smiled at Julie and tried not to cry. Julie smiled back at Alan andmotioned for him to come closer. Alan leaned down toward Julie's head and heardher whisper "I love you Alan."

Julie fell back asleep. Alan and Jennifer stepped outside again. "Alan, I'mglad that you came here, I know that you and my sister have been having anaffair." Alan jumped when he heard this.

"Don't panic, no one else knows and I'm not going to say anything. I havenever liked my brother-in-law anyway. You are the one who made my sister happythese past few weeks. I'm grateful to you for that." Jennifer gave Alan a kisson the cheek.

"How did you find out?"

"It doesn't take a genius. Every time John is out of town, I'm asked to takeher kids. I knew what she was doing and I knew that she was happy for the firsttime in a long time. I just didn't know who you were. I figured that Julie'slover would be whoever came to the hospital to see her. Alan, it's nice tomeet you."

"Well, when you put it like that, I guess we weren't as discreet as we thoughtwe were." Jennifer and Alan exchanged phone numbers and agreed to keep eachother informed.

The nurse came by and told them that visiting hours are now over.

Alan skipped chemo the following day and went straight to the hospital. Johnwould return tomorrow, so he probably shouldn't come by too much after that.

Julie was asleep for most of the time that Alan was there. She woke brieflyat one point and spoke to Alan. "You're my knight in shinning armor, Alan.Never forget that. You're my knight."

"I love you Julie." Alan hoped that Julie heard him. He could see a smileon Julie's face. She was right back to sleep. No one else was in the room.Alan gave her a kiss on the forehead. "You are the love of my life, Julie."

At 3pm Jennifer arrived with Julie's kids. They exchanged some pleasantriesand then Alan left them alone with their mother/sister.

Alan drove by Saint James Church after he left the hospital. The church wasopen and so he went inside and sat in a pew at the back of the church. Alanwas not a church person, but it seemed appropriate, now, to be here. Alan didthe best he could to say a prayer for Julie.

Alan arrived home at 5:30 and fixed himself a small snack. By 6:30 he waswatching the news on TV, but he wasn't really listening to it. At 8:00 Alanbegan reading a book, but he wasn't really paying attention to that either.At 8:45, Alan fell asleep in his chair from exhaustion.

--- o --

The telephone rang. Alan came awake and looked at the clock. It was 1:00am.Alan reached for the phone. "Hello?"

"Alan, this is Jennifer, Julie's sister." Alan's heart skipped a beat.

"Yes, Jennifer. What's the matter?"

"Alan, Julie passed away about an hour ago. I'm sorry." Jennifer began tosob on the phone. Alan was in shock at first, and then he also began to cry.Alan and Jennifer stayed on the phone for several minutes crying to each other.

Finally, they each regained control of themselves. "Thanks for letting meknow. I'm sorry Jennifer, I'm really sorry."

"I know, Alan. I'll call you tomorrow and let you know about arrangements." Alanthanked her again and then hung up the phone.

Alan did not sleep that night. Despite the restrictions of chemo therapy,Alan had several drinks.

Alan cried for Julie several times that night. At 10am, Alan's phone rang.Alan answered. It was Jennifer. Alan listened intently to everything Jennifersaid. He noticed right away that she sounded just like Julie on the phone.

"Alan, are you okay."
"No, Jennifer, I'm not, but I will just get through it myself."
"John is due back today. " Alan said that he knew that. "John already knows that Julie is

dead. He's asked me to take care of the arrangements."
"What's going to happen?"
"Julie and John were never much for going to church, but I found in her check book that

she had been making donations to a church near her college. So I called overthere and the woman told me that Julie had been sending them a donation everymonth for more than ten years, but they had never met her. It's so strange."

"It's Saint James Episcopal Church on Spring Garden and Forty-NinthStreets."
"Yes it is, Alan, how did you know?"
"Julie talked about that church many times. She first went there when she was a

sophomore in college. We even went over there and walked through thechurchyard last

week." Alan decided that he wouldn't tell her what else happened inthe churchyard.
"Then it sounds as if this was her church. The church has long ago run out of burial
plots, but they have a columbarium."

"Jennifer, I have no idea what you just said."

"Alan it's a place to store ashes, or there is a memorial garden wherethe ashes can be
spread."
"Jennifer, that's perfect. I know that she would want her ashes spread in the garden."
Alan and Jennifer discussed the matter for several more minutes. The servicewould be

held next Wednesday at 3pm in the churchyard of Saint James Episcopal Churchand Julie's ashes would be spread in the garden.

--- o --

Alan did not leave his apartment until Wednesday.

He wore the same jacket and tie that he had wornto the Italian restaurant with Julie. Julie had said that she liked the wayhe looked in that jacket.

The memorial service was very nice, although Alan couldn't remember whatwas said five minutes later. The rector, Rev. Girard said a few kind words.Then Julie's children and her husband spread her ashes in the garden.

After the service, Alan introduced himself to John as a "friend" from thecancer center and shook hands. John thanked Alan for coming. Alan tried tomake small talk with John, without much success. He did find out that Johnwas selling the family home and moving he and the kids to another state.

John had ignored Julie while she was alive, Alan thought, so why wouldn'the ignore her now tha t she was dead.

John and the children left. Jennifer came over and gave Alan a kiss on thecheek. "I know that was difficult for you." Alan nodded in agreement. "I knewthat John would want only the children and himself to spread her ashes." Alannodded again. "So I held some ashes back. I wanted to spread some of her ashesand I thought that maybe you did too."

Alan started to cry, but quickly got himself under control. Jennifer gota second container of ashes from her car. She and Alan walked in the gardenand gently spread Julie's ashes.

"Will you be alright, Alan?"

"I'll be fine. Thank you so much. Your sister was the most wonderful personI have ever met and you're just like her."

Jennifer kissed Alan on the cheek again and they each left.

--- o --

Alan had dinner that night at their Italian restaurant. It was of coursenot the same.

Alan slept that night, mainly because he was exhausted.

It had been almost a week since Alan had gone to the cancer center for histreatments. His message machine was filling up with messages from the centerasking where he was and was he alright.

On Thursday morning, Alan called Rev Girard at Saint James Church and madean appointment to see him later that day. Rev. Girard asked Alan to meet himat 1pm.

Alan put on the same jacket and tie he had worn the day before and went toSaint James Church that afternoon.

"Good afternoon Alan, I'm Father Girard." Father Girard held out his handto shake Alan's

"Thank you for seeing me on such short notice, Father." Alan wasn't completelycomfortable with calling another man "Father," but he got through it.

"Didn't I see you yesterday at the memorial service?" Alan said that FatherGirard had indeed seen him yesterday. "What can we do for you Alan?"

"Father, the person who was buried here yesterday (Alan knew that "buried" wasthe wrong term, but he figured Girard would get his meaning), she was veryspecial to me. I want you to know that Saint James was very special to her." Girardsmiled at that.

"Father, when my time comes, I want my ashes to be spread in the same gardenas Julie's ashes were spread yesterday."

Father Girard told Alan that could be arranged, and suggested a prepaid plansince Alan had no close relatives. Girard's elderly secretary drew up the papersand Alan wrote the church a check that afternoon.

--- o --

Alan had dinner that night at the Thai restaurant where he and Julie hadtheir first date. After dinner, at around 10pm, Alan drove to Saint James Church.By the light of the moon, Alan found the memorial garden. Alan smiled. "I broughtyou a present, Julie." Alan reached into his jacket pocket and produced Julie'sswitchblade. He was able to dig easily in the soft garden soil. Alan dug downsix inches. He placed her switchblade in the hole and covered it up. Alan hadchosen a spot near an irrigation sprinkler. He figured it would rust away longbefore anyone discovered it.

Alan would come to the garden and visit Julie often. Usually he was theretwo or three times a week. Over a couple of months, Alan became friends withFather Girard.

--- o --

Alan knew that he would be with Julie again. He remembered Julie's wordsthat she wanted to be with him forever.

On the day following Julie's funeral, Alan phoned his doctor. Alan told thedoctor that he was no longer going to be taking chemo therapy. "But Alan, " saidthe doctor, "you could live another twenty years with the right treatment.Without the treatment, you will most likely die before Christmas. It seemsa clear choice to me."

"It's a clear choice to me also. I won't be back."

--- o --

Epilog: On a chilly afternoon in late fall, threepeople in overcoats stood in the memorial garden of Saint James Episcopal Church.Father Girard said some prayers, and then handed his prayer book to the elderlychurch secretary standing to his left. Father Girard then nodded in the directionof the third person, standing to his right.

Jennifer removed a card from her pocket and read. "Please always know, mylove, that I was a damsel in distress. You are my knight in shining armor whocame to my rescue. You are the one true love of my life. I will love you andbe with you always, Julie"

The secretary was holding an urn of ashes. All three spread the ashes aroundthe garden and then silently left.

--- o --

Endnote: The story and characters described hereinare a work of fiction. The author is a thirty-three year old Latina woman currentlyundergoing treatment at a cancer center in greater Miami.

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