The air was stale in the car, stifling really. Loosening my tie helped a
little. I went to roll the window down and immediately heard "Don't roll
that down, you'll mess up my hair," as my wife starred at me with a
perturbed scowl on her face. This was going to be a fun trip back to our
home.
What was it that the doctor said? Oh yah, "Unresponsive Crohn's," hence
my wife's abominable mood. She has been suffering from chronic diarrhea
for the better part of three years now. It doesn't matter what she eats
or what meds she takes, the results are, shall we say, uncomfortable.
And the latest doctor is about as helpful as, well he was not helpful.
We have spent a small fortune on alternative procedures again and again.
This is quite tiring.
Even the crack pot chiropractors, with all of their claims, are not
helpful. Each and every healthcare "professional" is so optimistic on
the front end. They perform a little show for you. You render payment
for their treatment and in return you receive that stony uncaring
practiced look. They must practice this look in their bathroom mirrors
as part of their daily morning ritual. Then they either admit they are
not able to help or the more popular response of letting you know that
they think it's all in your mind. Fu**, this is so frustrating. They all
claim that you are the one patient that seems to be beyond their
knowledge, as they have "helped," so many others. I need someone with a
little actual knowledge that can help my beautiful wife, not what passes
for medical care in this carnival show that is our current system.
The very worst, as someone suffers through their own personal nightmare,
is all the unsolicited advice from, well meaning, acquaintances. The
preverbal wisdom from a pleather of people that don't have a clue as to
what they are talking about. Somehow society expects you to listen
politely to all their misplaced wisdom and not tell them to go Fu**
themselves. So, you smile and nod and go about your day after thanking
them and letting them know that you will let Monica know so that she can
try it. What a bunch of horseshit. Just how much of my day was wasted on
polite platitudes?
In all actuality the day is quite pleasant outside and the car is
comfortable, but Monica's mood sucks the air out of you. The attitude,
not that I can blame her, is palpable and seeps into our whole
existence. The silence is killing me, I have to do something to make
this better. So, I verbalize those hated words, "I wish there was
something that I could do."
Wrong move jackass, the look of contempt and maybe a little hatred is
immediate and striking. She doesn't actually say anything, however the
stale air in the car was taking over again to the point I was reaching
for the window opener again before her look brought me up short. I wish
I hadn't said it, but I'm a man, and I need to make things better. It's
what we are expected to do. We provide for and protect those that we
love and have committed too.
"Go, are you going to sit at this light all day, it's green." Monica
having seen no response started snapping her fingers to get my
attention. I hated this maneuver as it is awfully disrespectful and
somewhat demeaning. Also, I believe this response is beneath what Monica
should consider appropriate behavior. So, I zoned out. I heard her in a
faraway disengaged sort of way, but nothing registered. We were enroute
again as I glance over to my wife, she is shaking her head.
We pulled into the garage and Monica runs for the bathroom. She has no
choice, now I feel bad for copping an attitude. I went into the kitchen
and started an herbal tea and set out graham crackers. They don't
actually help her but they settle her stomach. When she exited the bath
room she headed straight for the master bedroom and closed the door. She
didn't lock it but when it was closed, she preferred to be left alone
I went back to the kitchen and put away the items that I set out for her
benefit. I settled into the living room and turned the tv on low. You
never know if a migraine or some other host of ailments are accompanying
her present condition. You learn to live with someone that has a life
altering condition. It would be so much easier if Monica would just let
me know what is happening. It would take a lot of guess work out of the
equation. Her pride is not all that helpful.
The first five years of marriage were a dream. Monica is a very
vivacious woman. Sexy, animated and a social Pyrrha. All seemed drawn to
her. She makes friends easily. She isn't judgmental. Gossip is not her
thing. All that put guest list together, assume to invite her in order
to make the party rememberable. Monica is always at the top of
everyone's list. If she can get some rest or even a full night's sleep,
then like most people she will recover enough to again partake in a semi
normal existence once again.
This time it was not going to follow the normal pattern that has been
the new norm. She would have a flareup, rest while figuring out which
foods consumed added to her discomfort. And as she felt a little better
join in our shared existence once again. When she would rejoin me things
would slowly, quietly return to a regular state and we would resume life
as if nothing had transpired. I don't know how but these patterns just
develop as things happen. Nothing is discussed we just fit ourselves
into groves that still work within the cogs that drive our lives. What
other choice did we have? We can only work with what we have or can
afford to consume from what's available. This is what we are, in a nut
shell, victims of our existence.
She stormed into the living room grabbed the remote and hit mute. She
seemed to be angry or mad. That is not an accurate description. She is
stoic. She has made up her mind. There has been no forewarning; no
conversation; no hint; no possible clue as to what is about to
transpire. This is serious.
My mind is racing trying to get ahead of the imminent onslaught. Did I
do something aggreges? Does she know I ate the rest of the lasagna? What
is so terrible? Again, I find myself at a complete loss, about to hear
the next rule for living with a person that you love. One that, due to
her condition, has at times had unreasonable demands. Most marriages
iron out all these little idiosyncrasies in the first year. When one of
the spouses gets sick it is ongoing and quite frankly stressful.
"I want a divorce."
I sat their dumbfounded. I was just staring at her. So, she repeated her
statement. Then she repeated it again and again. It was a strange
mantra. Monica seemed to be trying to convince herself that she wanted
this divorce. We have been married 8 years now and out of the blue she
wants to end our marriage. The sigh that escaped me was that of a tired
spouse. I wasn't going anywhere, but I really didn't want to have this
conversation. The scene was punctuated by the silent flickering of the
tv that continued spilling forth a silent movie of sorts.
"No" was all I said. I got up and placed her in a gentle but solid hug.
I just stood there holding on to her until her resolve withered and her
face softened. It was tense for a couple of hours and then things
started to feel semi normal. At bedtime I just hoped that she felt
better in the morning.
The next morning, she explained that she didn't want to bring me down.
She was the one that was sick. That I should not have to deal with all
this. I shook my head at the stupidity of her thought process. Then
visibly she noticed that I was angry. She reached out and placed her
hand over mine in an attempt to ease the tension, but the look upon her
face showed that she now was worried. I was mad and really who knows
what she is now thinking. Someone that just a few hours ago was stating
that she wanted a divorce and now looked at the person that loved her
and the anger on my face was something that I could not disguise. Maybe
she thought that she was about to get what she asked for.
I would have liked to calm down and alleviated her fears, but F***, I
was angry. I have been along for the ride for three years now and I'm
feeling very underappreciated. I steeled myself, took my hand back and
asked "what kind of person do you think I am?"
Monica was taken aback. Confusion written all over her face. Relief was
there but it was majorly secondary. Then she said the only thing she
really could have, "what do you mean?" Then on her face I could see the
logic once again reeling through her mind, she was taking the altruistic
high road. This was her problem and she was going to deal with it. Since
it seemed insurmountable, she would weather that storm alone. She was a
control freak. Someone that could handle everything on her own. It has
always been this way, it's just her personality. She always takes
control and now she finds that she can't even control her bowels. She
waited through my silence as I collected my thoughts.
"I am your husband do you think I would abandon you because you have an
unpleasant condition? I married the woman that I love. There is
absolutely nothing that could make me betray my wedding vows. Whatever
either of us goes through we will be there for each other. To suggest
that I should pick up and leave because you are sick is an absolute
afront to everything that I consider myself to be. You really make me
angry with the approach to our problem that you have taken. How dare you
shut me out. And when I say our problem that is what it is. Not only
that, but as more people have this condition the Pharma industry will be
trying to capitalize on this condition for major profits. Right now, the
doctors have nothing to offer, but at any time in the near future
someone will profit big on a cure or at least, and more probably, a
protocol to control the situation. I am and have always been there for
you, do not treat me this way again."
I was on a roll. We tended not to discuss our issues. We pretty much
just worked through them. It would probably be better to have more
discussions as the matters at hand were very serious, but I pretty much
followed Monica's lead. It was her affliction; shouldn't she be the one
that decides how to deal with it? After months, well maybe years of
dealing the air need to be cleared. I believe I just accomplished that.
There was nothing for her to say. She understood how wrong she had been.
Now we sat there with this weird tension as she had been put in her
place and this doesn't sit well with a control freak. Monica never liked
to be wrong and it was near impossible for her to admit it. This
occasion was no exception, she really hated to admit she was wrong.
Then, to the casual observer, a strange thing happened. Monica became
very amorous. Maybe she will not apologize in the normal sense but it is
an unspoken admission of reconciliation on her part. I believe that most
people call it make up sex. I now found myself divested of all my
clothes and being pushed back on our California king bed. She is a
beautiful woman who just now removed her panties and climbed on top of
me. Oh GOD it has been so long. I want to enjoy this. And I did.
You see, three months ago Monica and I were enjoying our marital bed
when the Crohn's disease kicked in and ruined our expensive Egyptian
cotton sheets. Egyptian cotton my ass, it's just a come on to charge too
much. Well that is a pretty hard event to overcome. Monica's
embarrassment was such that, for the last three months I've taken
matters into my own hands, sort of speak. Another three thousand dollars
to replace the pillow top mattress and I thought it would be forgotten,
but again I was wrong.
So now we are back to square one. The air has been cleared and again we
move forward but, with no answers about what to do with the condition at
hand. Our relationship is again comfortable, that is something but not
where we want to be. It's so easy to ask why, but it doesn't help.
Monica and I will be alright. We will wait for some medical miracle on
pins and needles. The wait is not fun.
CHAPTER TWO
Did I mention that I liked NOVA? Monica and I were watching the miracle
of creating a person. The precise nature of creating a little person was
amazing. There seems to be a genetic time clock that follows such a
ridged flow chart, it's a wonder that anyone can actually give birth.
But we do and the planet contrives to move forward in such a mundane way
that it's hard to believe that anything miraculous happens. As it turns
out, everything is miraculous.
And then it happened, a simple statement of fact that would change my
life forever. As it turns out the newly created person gets bio material
as it passes through the birth canal. This, as it turns out, is
supplemented by breast feeding. So, the baby's intestine actually
achieves its health from basically feeding from the mother. Nothing
happened right away, but I could see there was something on my wife's
mind.
Monica asked for my undistracted attention. Here we go again, would this
be something else that bothered her and needed my adjustment to make
things agreeable? No, she brought up the subject of the NOVA program
that we watched together. "Eddie, I want to try something that could
possibly help my condition. You are the healthiest person that I have
ever known. And to that end I want you to repopulate my intestinal
bacteria. As I've told you in the past, my mother did not breast feed
me. She was worried about her shape and size. So, her vanity negating
what her child needed.
"You think you will benefit from a fecal transfer from me. I've said
before, that this may help." "It is also nice that you do actually do
blame your mother." My sarcastic personality does bubble up from time to
time. It's not that I didn't get along with my mother-in-law, so long as
she didn't, well in general speak or voice her opinion about any and
everything. So as Monica rolled her eyes at my feeble attempt to make
light of this conversation, she said. "No Eddie, I've had three fecal
transfers with absolutely no success. What I want is you to visit Renee
and get a few hormones that would enable you to produce breast milk." To
say that I was shocked, would be an understatement. Was she pulling my
leg or, more importantly was she serious? It is excepted knowledge that
this is possible but it fringes on jokes at the water cooler. People
just don?t do certain things.
Renee was a friend of Monica. She is a MD, and a very sexy woman. Sexy
in the serious student with a knockout body and an astute mind sort of
way. God, I love intelligent women. The only thing missing were the
glasses. She was professionally dressed, no lab coat as this was just an
office visit, a smart skirt suit affair with hose ending in high heels
that her too small feet resided in. Her straight black hair held in a
bun with what looks to be chop sticks skewered through it. This left a
perfect line sight to the only "unprofessional touch," a set of silver
or white gold dangly earrings that brought attention to the fact that,
although she is a professional, she still, under everything is a woman.
Apparently, Monica has already talked to Renee about what she wanted to
try. Renee was dubious but was willing to try as Monica, her lifelong
friend was apparently at the end of her tether. Renee did tell Monica
that at best this was a very long shot.
I met Renee at her office. She greeted me and expressed her concerns. I
countered with I can?t tell you how many times I?ve offered to do
anything that I can to help. So here we are. What do I need to do to
possibly make this actually helpful? She let me know that I may have
some swelling in my chest area. I obviously asked if this was reversable
and Renee believed that yes this really was no big deal. So, on my end
what was the problem. I could make my wife happy and best case actually
help her condition.
My prescription was at hand and I took it dutifully. It?s a strange
feeling to take something foreign and to swallow. That was my first pill
of many and Monica seemed so proud. It?s not many things nowadays that
Monica enjoys, but this was one of them. I don?t know if it was the
comradery or the fact that I was willing to try such a left field long
shot, but she seemed to enjoy this little exchange. Maybe it was the
fact that she was standing over me watching me swallow what, felt like
my impending doom and to be unequivocally in charge of something again
that touched her happy zone. Either way I was now on trac for something
foreign to myself.
Well, I was being melodramatic, as basically nothing happened. I guess I
was expecting something radical to change instantly. That is not how
this works. As the months wore on and our relationship renewed itself,
we both felt better as we were actually doing something towards making
our existence better. For better or worse we were doing something. Which
is way better than anything that passes for modern medicine in the
United States.
At about 3 months and a few days my chest did indeed start to swell.
This was very disconcerting for me. Monica thought it was miraculous, as
it really did show my commitment for her and us. All those times I said
"I wish there was something that I could do," now actually meant
something. And there was physical evidence to prove what I had
verbalized so many times. She actually became much closer to me in a way
that I never knew was possible. We truly are in love.
Now that we were certain that things were proceeding, we needed to
purchase an adequate breast pump. Being that Monica made much more
financially than I did, she not only insisted that it would be a double
pump but one of the highest calibers. I could not argue but I really
didn?t see the need for buying the best for something that quite frankly
will probably not produce results. Monica however, was adamant and I
soon found myself attached to a double pump sucking at my nipples. Now I
can?t complain as the feeling was exquisite. I?ve never felt something
like that. Monica has on occasion taken my nipple into her mouth while
we made love, but this felt very different. Was it the mechanical devise
or were the hormones adding to the feelings that I now experienced?
Nothing really came from the pump. A real small amount of clear liquid.
Monica seemed delighted. I wonder if she knew something that I didn?t.
Anyhow our love seemed deeper and more genuine than ever before. There
were no more empty words, no epitaph and no false platitudes. Everything
was now proven and very real. And I had a side effect of sensitive
breasts that I never expected to bring such a feeling of joy really. I
don?t actually know how to describe it but joy seems to fit.
So, as we continued down this seeming forlorn path, I started to get a
bad feeling as to the near future. It is great to prove my dedication
and love to my wife but the grabbing at proverbial straws was starting
to get to me. What will happen after this distraction folds in upon
itself and Monica sees that it is just another dead end. Nothing on the
horizon medically to hope for? She had me pumping every evening to
stimulate and see what will happen. Afterall, we really didn?t know the
simple biological outcome of our little experiment. Renee had warned us
that this might not even bear fruit to the point of producing real milk.
It was a real surprise when not only did the pump start producing milk,
it looked of quality and substance. So, at almost five months in, I
started to produce what could only be considered mother?s milk. My now
almost b cup breasts were more than a source of embarrassment, they were
seemingly producing exactly what we were after.
CHAPTER 3
False hopes and disappointments were to follow. We pumped my breasts.
Monica actually always helped for some reason, if she was around. We
ended up with three, what seemed to be high quality jars of mother?s
milk in the fridge. Now after all this time Monica poured herself a
small glass of, if I may say so, prime mother?s milk straight out of the
great Eddie?s B+ breasts. I know it seems strange to find pride in this
but I never thought I would be able to do such a thing. Now after all
this effort and time Monica didn?t seem capable to actually drink this
blessed concoction. The site or texture or what, was off putting. I love
my wife but after all I?ve been through this is not acceptable.
"What the F***, Monic drink the damn shit."
And she did. The face that followed, well that was something of a
mixture of disgust and horror. A fit of giggles followed from both of
us, as her screwed up face made the situation laughable. Afterwards, she
admitted that it wasn?t all that bad, but a merlot was much more to her
liking. She hugged me and thanked me and actually apologized to me, I
believe for the first time in our 8-year marriage. Now we have made the
elixir and delivered it, all we have to do is wait.
More pumping, which for me was enjoyable, more drinking that Monica
seemed to be able to tolerate. But as I learned, it is not nice to say
something smartass while she is trying to ingest her "medicine." We had
no idea how long before we could possibly get some results, but we were
actually hopeful. This strange experiment seemed to be bearing fruit.
After another three months and now C cup breasts, nothing had changed.
So far, I?ve been able to compress my new appendages so that while I was
at work no one seemed to notice. I actually like my breasts minus the
obvious embarrassment that their size and occasional leaking if my pads
are not in the right place. Monica came into the living room where I was
watching NOVA again and switched off the volume. This is a habit that I
really do not appreciate but have learned to live with. She wasn?t mad
or stoic this time. She actually seemed defeated. There was something
else there though. Now she completely understood that I am in her
corner. She proceeded to turn the TV off.
"Eddie, I want you to know that what you tried to do for me is amazing.
I love you so much. You don?t need to take those hormones anymore as
this is clearly not doing anything for the Crohn?s." She then grabbed
both of my hands and led me to the master bedroom. She stripped my
clothes off and pushed me onto our bed. She started to shed her sweats
in dramatic fashion revealing that underneath she was all decked out in
female finery. As they came off her she revealed the most amazing female
form that I have ever remembered. Monica was after all a complete
knockout. As I started to move, she warned me to behave or she would tie
me up.
I decided to cooperate. Disappointment was not in my immediate future.
There were seductive kisses, nibbling at my newly acquired appendages
and stroking at my inner thighs. She was an animal. When she felt that I
was hard enough she climbed on top and unceremoniously impaled herself
on my neglected man meat. Up and down she started to ride to the music
that she put on, Luther Vandross. I didn?t care what music was playing,
I flipped us over and landed on top of my beautiful wife. I started
slowly pumping in and out when all of a sudden, she latched onto my
protruding breast. Momentarily I paused having lost my bearings. She
began to suckle which was an amazing turn on. I?ve never felt anything
like it. We continued to make love as she emptied both of my breasts.
The orgasm that followed was earth shattering. We were spent. I rolled
off of her and laid on my side of the bed. "Wow," was all I said. She
looked at me with a knowing smile. And with typical male gratitude, I
feel into an immediate deep sleep.
CHAPTER 4
I haven?t taken the hormones now for three weeks. I don?t know when my
breasts will subside but Renee seems to think that it is eminent.
Honestly, I?m torn, I?ve come to love my breasts. That is contributed
mostly to the fact that our love life has returned and Monica is fond of
sucking all the milk directly from my breasts. I really like it. The
feeling is like nothing that I have ever felt. It?s almost like having
additional orgasms before the quintennial male orgasm quite frankly
ruins everything. I don?t really understand the plethora of love making
as before it has been rare and not too often. I know that returning to
my original male chest would be the easiest route. Living in societies
norms and not having to hide things that fall outside of excepted
pathways is simply the easiest existence. What I would be giving up to
have an easier existence though I?ve learned is substantial.
I came home from work today, surprised to see Monica basically waiting
for me with my meds in her hands. A glass of cool water on the counter
and my wife with an overjoyed expression on her face. Take this she
demanded. Handing me my foregone pills as they didn?t actually help her.
I took the proffered pill and was dragged to the shower and washed and
led to our bed. I can?t complain, but I wondered what was happening.
Sex, sucking and my very vivacious wife of five years ago held me
spellbound.
"Want to tell me what that is all about?" Yes, she did, it seems that
mother?s milk from the bottle does nothing, but somehow straight from
the source works miracles. Well I was speechless. What we did, she
believes is working. I never held out much hope for this endeavor, but
here we are?
"Are you sure it?s not just a coincidence." Her answer basically was
that either way she was not looking a gift horse in the mouth. At the
very least she said that I enjoyed having my beautiful tits emptied
while I Fuc*** her. This is true and there is no arguing that. The fact
that she was able to continue performing in the bedroom was all the
proof she needed. I was not so sure. I did however like my breasts and I
have decided that I didn?t want to see them go. Now I have a reason to
keep my breasts and get bouts of lovemaking like when we were first
married. How could this be a bad thing?
CHAPTER 5
Monica hadn?t been going to her Crohn?s disease support group for some
time. Wednesday was the regular night. She had fostered many friends
there, not a surprise, as her personality almost dictated this
occurrence. Tonight, she was going to attend. Everyone had missed her
and wanted to support her upon her arrival. She relayed the bad news by
her latest doctor and the platitudes were forthcoming. She felt all
alone that night as her fellow sufferers really didn?t know how to
support her. They each had have some success with treatments offered.
Although not enough, but to have no advancement towards a healthy
existence they could not fathom. When she came home, we opened a nice
merlot. Afterwards, she took me, emptied my breasts and screwed me raw.
Monica?s health seemed to be returning. Just maybe this silly experiment
was working. Monica sure thought so. I searched you tube that night on
Crohn?s disease and spontaneous cures. Nothing came up, maybe she was
right.
Every day Monica was getting healthy and becoming her old self. I was
actually getting my wife back. This is all I wanted; she is actually
getting better. I don?t care that I am sporting small D size breasts
now. I can still sort of hide them. Even if not all the way, most people
don?t look so close to actually care. I?ve only had a few commits at
work that maybe I needed to hit the gym. Life goes on, my wife is now
"cured" and our lives and sex life, although slightly changed is so much
better.
Upon Monica?s trip to her support group today, everyone noticed a change
in her domineer. Staci wanted to know what is up. Monica hemmed and
hawed. This was not well received. Staci was an A type personality that
doesn?t let the sleeping dog lay. "I?ve noticed that you haven?t run to
the bathroom all night, what gives?" Staci had a way of cutting to the
chase.
"I?ve stumbled upon a cure, I think. But it?s embarrassing." Staci
raised her eyebrows and dug in to what Monica had just said. "You may
have a cure and you are not willing to share with the rest of us?" Staci
was not happy. "I know you know how bad this condition is and yet you
hold back possible relief from this terrible condition?" Monica was the
most, affected member in this group, or maybe John, however now she
seemed symptom free. Staci left no room for her contempt that she now
freely showed. "I want to know what you have discovered and what is
making you feel better which I can clearly see." All the members of this
group were well endowed and have spent a small fortune trying to fix
themselves.
Monica was now sitting on a "cure" with a wealthy group of people that
would try just about everything and probably already had. "Ok Staci but
I must insist on privacy." She went on to inform her friend of three
years what has transpired with her condition and her husband. "OK" Staci
said I?m in. "I?ll give Eddie Ten Thousand to let me suck off his tits 5
times." Monica sat there in stunned silence. So many questions, with
really no answers. So, the simple answer was to say that she would try
to convince Eddie to play ball.
Eddie, we need to talk. Staci in my support group is willing to pay ten
thousand cash for the privilege of sucking your mother?s milk from you
for five times. The amount of money she has spent trying to beat this
thing is upwards of $78,000.00. I want you to help others with this
cure.
"I can?t believe you told others about this." What am I supposed to do
now? Do I really even believe that this is what has helped my wife? Can
I really open this up to help others? God, I really don?t know about
this. Two weeks later Staci was knocking on our door when Monica went to
greet her. I really wasn?t nervous anymore after 3 scotch and sodas.
Staci handed me an envelope of cash, I led her to the spare bedroom.
Thirty minutes later and the very good-looking Staci was leaving our
home with a full belly. I could not hide the erection that was still
tenting my sweat pants. Monica thought this was funny, but I felt like I
had just cheated on her. From my end this was a problem but Monica just
shrugged and led me through to our bedroom and took advantage of the
hard object.
Is this a problem or a God send? I really don?t know. Every three days
Staci came back for her booster feeding. I had the same results every
time. When someone is sucking your milk from you, it just feels really
good. There is a feeling of a strong vibration that fills my whole chest
area that becomes more intense and falls away with each heartbeat, but
without an actual vibration, I do not know how else to describe it. So
basically in 3 hours I?ve earned ten thousand dollars. I wasn?t sure but
it seemed that I started to lose weight. Apparently, when breastfeeding
fat is taken from your body at a rate you simply cannot replace it. What
a great side effect. You get a whole lot of money, a really pleasant
experience and top of all that you lose weight. There doesn?t seem to be
a down side to this.
Monica said we needed to talk again. I really don?t like that interlude.
Nothing good usually comes after such a statement. She informed me that
Staci was indeed feeling much better after receiving her treatment from
me. I told her that I felt that it was great that we helped her. Then
the bomb went off. Eddie, she said, "Most of the group is interested in
having the same treatment." I think we should help them.
What happened to privacy, as you told me that Staci understood? Was this
not to be a one off? Now everyone knew what I may have under my shirt
and wanted access. This is not supposed to happen this way. What to do?
Could I be selfish and deny everything? Just go about my business and
deny access to all these people that clearly needed help? Unfortunately,
I could not. This is not whom I am. Damn this experiment. Why do I need
to be several peoples? health messiah? How could this have transpired?
Now money started flowing in. I helped all the women in her group.
Fifteen in all. And then with the success with the women the men in the
group wanted a go. This was problematic for me. Women seeing my
condition was one thing but a guy sucking my milk from me is quite
another thing. I know it?s a double standard, but some things are just
what they are. The therapeutic effect for some reason was only effective
from the source. With all these people that I helped my weight loss was
almost extreme. Now I was one hundred and twenty-five pounds to be
generous. I swallowed my pride and sucked it up sort of in a distended
way and took payment from several men to come five times and suck my
milk from my now beautiful breasts.
We had bought a gun safe and started storing my earnings in it. This is
the first time in our marriage that financially I was out performing
Monica. In a jovial way she started to refer to me as her cash cow. This
is not a joke that I could get fully on board with. Although I certainly
could see the efficient ties to reality, it stunk of a mean streak that
didn?t sit well with me. I did all this to help her and being relegated
to the level of a farm animal just didn?t seem right. I let this slide
as she didn?t bring up that all my clients left here leaving me with a
boner that was indecent at best. Sometimes Monica can be very
unappreciative and condescending. You really have no say in whom you
love. And boy oh boy I really did love Monica.
CHAPTER 6
Bob Emmerson enters our home handing me the standard fee. It is actually
in a used envelope from some bill he had received and repurposed said
envelope to hold the ten-thousand-dollar fee. I bring him back to our
spare bedroom to administer his treatment. When I unbuttoned my shirt,
he got very quiet. Then as he was leaning in to take my nipple in his
mouth he abruptly got up and hurried for our door. Trying to cover
myself, I pursued after him saying "take your fee with you." He didn?t
listen and just basically fled our home.
It was two days later that I received a note from Bob apologizing for
what had happened and an offer that I found strange yet profitable. Long
and short of it, Bob could not get past that I was a guy with tits.
Well? no duh. But the fact that I?ve already helped most of his group
really makes him want to try it. The note informs me that he has already
spent north of eight hundred and fifty thousand dollars trying all sorts
of remedies. And his proposal is simple. For the sum of an additional
twenty thousand dollars he wants me to go to a service that makes men
look like woman. He will pay for everything the service suggests and
would appreciate if I would consider this.
Monica asks to see the note. She peruses it then lets out a low whistle.
She looks up at me and gives me a quizzical look. "What?s there to think
about that is three times the money for a little dress up?" She really
didn?t get the big picture here.
Basically, with the appointments made all that remained was to confirm
the appointments. Monica was only too happy to call and confirm, per the
directions contained in Bob?s letter. This she did with flourish, to my
dismay. Looking at me she basically thought I was being foolish for not
jumping at this opportunity. But at any rate the wheels were now in
motion. I would show up at the appointed time and do what was necessary.
Friday, I found myself entering a beautiful brownstone building that had
been converted to a beauty shop of sorts. I was a little surprised to
see various lasers at several stations at the ground floor. Ashley, was
what her name tag said, led me upstairs to a shower room where I was
asked to disrobe. She handed me a Merlot and said that this particular
moniker is simply so wonderful that you will have a feeling of euphoria
and relaxation like never before. Tasting this, I could only agree. I
was sent to the showers and asked to soap up. To my surprise Ashley
joined me in the shower. She produced a razor and started shaving almost
everything off my body. I asked her why they didn?t use a dilapidator
cream she informed me that the lasers worked better with a cleanly cut
hair follicle. Now with the smallest panties that I have ever seen I was
led to a hair removal laser. Beverly now took my hand in the most
feminine of greetings and I actually giggled. I was asked to reach for a
bar that hung from the ceiling while she spread a cream all over my
body. This was not going to be a quick dress up session.
As it turns out, the Merlot was most definitely spiked. When I asked
what the cream was for, my speech was slurred. Beverly answered as if
nothing was out of the ordinary. "It?s to make you comfortable through
the laser treatments." Well that makes sense, I thought and proceeded to
lie down on her table. Sometime later, I was coming too with someone
rubbing my whole body with another cream. Not asking this time what it
was I noticed another woman coming at me with a tray of unrecognizable
items on it. She started handling my testicles and penis. Well that is a
wakeup call no matter what they have administered to you.
"What are you doing?" Bob has apparently paid to have my man parts glued
back out of the way, was my answer. Well no Fuc**** way will I allow
this to happen. I get up to leave and am informed that if I don?t want
any service that I only need to inform them of my decision. Ok then, now
I?m in charge again. I?ve only had Permanente hair removal while
unbeknownst to me I had ingested some harsh tranquilizers. I would like
to see what has already transpired since I?ve been drugged for a
procedure that I may have already declined if I understood it was
"optional." And, when I say permanent, this treatment was everywhere.
Well, as I understand it, one treatment doesn?t do all that much but boy
was my skin red. And it was red everywhere.
An hour and a half later Ashley, was taking me back to the showers. Of
course, I wanted to know why. She said, "We need to remove the self-
tanner to stop its development." Now I?ve had another procedure that I
wasn?t aware of and now felt out of control once more. I was starting to
get aggravated once more. As I came out of the shower, I started to
notice the beginnings of a very nice tan across the spectrum of my
hairless body.
Off to wardrobe, Rita was already pulling things together to make me
into what everyone would assume was a "natural" female. As I entered,
she noticed that I negated the gluing of my penis back and out of the
way. She became flush as she realized that I was not only above average
in this department but was probably in the top 20% as to size. It?s
understandable that most whom find their selves here are probably on the
small side. She disappeared into one of the wardrobes and came back with
a gaff. Taking the pro-offered item, I donned it quickly to regain some
modesty.
This is much better, being covered in front of strangers until Rita
started adjusting the gaff for proper effect. Well her administrations
did not have the desired effect. Suddenly the gaff was rendered useless.
Her intentions were purely professional, but the flushness of her face
upon seeing the unintended results made me so uncomfortable that I
nearly bolted from this facility. It was not as ridged as after a client
takes their "medicine" from my body, but that has been taken care of by
Monica each and every time. Now Monica is not here to take advantage of
my situation.
Monica was gaining back her health and with it a renewed desire for
contact, love and a newfound lust for the sex that has been missing from
our relationship. I?m a little off put that each and every time someone
latches on to my newly formed sensitive breasts, I get a raging hardon.
Monica has been scheduling my appointments and after discovering the
extra benefit to my rendering help to these unfortunate souls, she has
made sure that it is convenient for her to take advantage. I?ve started
to feel that I?m being conditioned, not intentionally but, as every time
I render service to a client, I am also rewarded with my beautiful wife
pushing me backwards on our bed, mounting my ridged member and sucking
any remnants of mother?s milk from my body. I have to be careful not to
let my clients see my condition. But the end result is Monica basically
schedules my "fluffers" at a high price and then takes a ride on the
resulting physical response. It?s nice and clean and straight to the
main event. I always thought women wanted all of the precursors to love
making, but in Monica?s case this did not hold true. I guess it was
quantity over most people?s definition of quality.
I?ve already been here for five hours; I was thinking three tops. I
think Rita was envisioning going home at some point today as she
suddenly had a blue gel pack shoved against my predicament. Well that
was efficient. Now with things clearly in hand, my gaff was now
fulfilling the intended purpose. Moving on to a bra fitting, I
discovered that I?m actually just a large C cup breast. When you have
breasts suddenly on your former male chest and spend much of your time
concealing them, your impression is that they are larger than you
thought they were. It is shocking how much more pronounced and now
comfortable my chest was with a proper fitting bra.
Now having some modesty with robe and properly fitting underthings, I?m
asked to follow Rita to a nail and hair station. Melisa grabbed my hands
and started putting these strange black u-shaped stickers under my
nails. Someone from behind started grabbing my hair and putting silver
alligator clips dividing everything into sections. Jessica tapped my leg
prompting me to lift it onto a stool that was now in front of me. My
sensory over load was apparent to me, but no one was paying any
attention to my state of mind. Or even my willingness to follow along
their prescribed path. The fascination of what was occurring
simultaneously preempted any complaint or control that I should have put
forth. This was not a relaxing day spa treatment; these ladies were
turning out a product. Some sort of gel was being rolled off a brush
across my natural nails and onto the strange little stickers that
adorned my fingers. My toes were held one by one while an emery board
was slid back and forth across them. Weight seemed to be being added to
my scalp.
Color now adorned my toes. My hands were free of the little black
stickers. My hair was now a foot and a half longer. That part I could
only feel. My finger nails were treated to the emery board the same as
my toenails, but with a much-extended white material that looked a
little like Japanese rice paper. Some smelly chemical was added to my
hair and I would assume extensions that have just been added.
All of a sudden Rita appeared with some shinny delicate material and
started rolling them into little doughnut shapes. She did the tap at my
foot. Then licked her finger and seemed to be checking the dryness of my
toe lacquer. Satisfied she manipulated my foot and started installing
the most sensual material that was soon to encase my legs.
Suddenly time stood still. As Rita worked whatever brand hose these were
up my legs, all of my anxiety dissolved. Having so many technicians
reworking my personage to present as something I?m not. And the
efficiency that they developed with time practicing their craft, made
for an overwhelming attack into my personal space. Never even having
gone for a massage, this was not only totally new to me, it was an
extreme affront to my personal boundaries. But now, as this wonderful
material was glided first over my glistening toe nails then rounding
over my heals past my ankles and onward being shimmied front to back as
this silky material sent new sensations over my freshly denuded legs.
Rita was undoubtably "Fu***** with me," She understood how to get the
most dramatic affect with this procedure and she was incorporating her
developed methods. Her slow ministrations seemed to be an attempt to
test the quality of their company?s supply of gaffs.
"Bliss, simply bliss," was all that remained in my now addled mind. How
could this possibly feel this good? As she placed my first leg back to
the floor and started the next, I was going into overload. I don?t know
what causes some people?s eyes to roll back into their heads, but this
must be a contender. She looked into my eyes to see if the desired
affect was transpiring, my expression must have confirmed that she had
achieved her intended goal. Now as she started to proceed, she slowed
down and really seemed to readjust the fit a bit too much. She might be
a little evil but, she certainly added to the enjoyment of my time here.
How could women complain about this? If my manhood wasn?t already
trapped my boner would have outdone the previous hormone induced
sensations caused by suckling at my breast. A guarder belt was added to
the ensemble with a flourish of an awkward dance that actually got the
job done. After she connected the eight suspenders of my newly acquired
guarder belt she stood back with a knowing smirk on her face. I was
taken to a sink to wash the die from my hair. I really didn?t know what
to think anymore. All these sensations were adding up to an experience I
never thought was possible.
A little paint on my finger nails. Now I matched. The hair dresser now
started trimming and shaping the new volume that I possessed. A small
thin boy with a zest for sculpting hair to a new category of perfection.
Johnathan, I believe the others called him. The hair, well it was
perfect, if you were a beautiful woman. And I guess that was the point
of this exercise. Johnathan was a talented little shit.
The appearance of Elizabeth was the start of the first major sour note.
Here she was and she was going to sculpt my eyebrows. It might be silly
at this point but with everything else that was semi-permanent, the
eyebrows would not be able to be concealed at my place of employment. I
took semi total control at this point leaving Elizabeth with
disappointment written all over her face. She was able to get me down to
a Brook Shields look and that was it. A far cry from where she wanted to
end up.
Back to wardrobe. Oh no, a stop at makeup first. A half hour later I
left that chair with an exurbanite amount of powders and creams.
Surprisingly, with all that had been applied, it was a lot, it didn?t
seem much at all. It looked very natural. I honestly do not know how
this is possible.
As I entered the presence of Rita, I was noticing a little black dress,
heels and a small clutch. Oh God we are at the finish line. So,
decorated with the final items of feminine finery, the transformation
was finally complete. To say so myself, with my natural occurring
beautiful tits, the weight loss by suckling clients, hair make-up and
beautiful yet simple clothes, I looked a natural woman. Good looking and
vivacious myself, a term that I have used to describe my soulmate many
times. Rita then used an atomizer to liberally add some favorite
perfume.
CHAPTER 7
Bob collects me from the transformation service. He is very pleased.
"Edith, he said, please do me the honor of accompany me to Rothchild?s."
I actually have heard of Rothchild?s but never dared enter the premises
due to the astronomical cost of dinning there. Three hours later Bob and
I are at his luxury apartment taking in the view. He sits on his
favorite Lazy-boy of all things and pats his lap. I join him and he lets
my dress unfold in such a way he can access my breasts. Slowly, as if to
enjoy himself, Bob leans forward and takes my nutrient rich nipple in
his mouth. He starts suckling gently and is rewarded with what he has
sought out. This time there is no hesitation or awkwardness, just Bob
attaining what he wants. Bob is on his way to receiving the help that he
desperately needs. If to create such an illusion is what it takes to
gain the end result, then the end justifies the means. He informs me to
meet him at Nathan?s three days from now. He will send the required
outfit.
I walk into our home to hear Monica asking me to join her for dinner. I
answer back that I just need to go get changed. No, she said come
through as dinner is already on the table. I walk through, she knows
that my boner is probably painful at this point. She insists that I sit
down and have the fellowship of this fine meal together. I?m decked out
as a beautiful woman, sexually frustrated at this point, and a very sexy
wife that seems intent on changing the nature of our game. Monica
doesn?t say anything, but I see she is sexually charged by what the
transformation business has achieved. It was a weird meal, in that
nothing was said. We sat in silence eating a wonderful meal. She stole
glances at me throughout and would look down and, I don?t know if she
was blushing or turning flush. She had at one point removed her shoe and
used the instep of her foot to rub my hose covered leg. The overpriced
meal that I consumed with Bob was virtually nonexistent. Monica was
obviously enjoying my predicament and thinking how to take this to her
full advantage. It seems that she had a few ideas that she would like to
try.
In the bedroom, Monica asked that I go down on her. We are now in new
territory. For some reason this has never come up prior to this evening.
I gave it a good effort. Slowly I started to lap at her nether region.
All I needed was her response to know if this is what she needed and how
good it felt. In the next half hour, I believe I was an accomplished
pussy licker. Monica could no longer hang back, her pointed feet started
to involuntarily shake. Her nipples were as extended as I?ve ever seen
them. And then she screamed. Oh God did she scream. "Damn I?m good" was
the egocentric thought that prevailed in this moment. Then she removed
anything that impeded her access to my boner and impaled herself on me.
Looking straight into my eyes she started her ministrations that would
yield an orgasm from each of us that was life changing. Apparently,
Monica liked what she had just experienced and wanted much more.
Then, after she was sated in a very carnal way, she started exploring
the soft fabrics that adorned my body. Her foot started a slow rubbing
sequence up and down my chins exploring and feeling causing an explosion
of sensations within me. She noticed the affect, smiled and while
continuing to stimulate my hose encased leg placed her hand just to the
inside of my crotch rubbing the soft skin that surrounded my tool
without ever actually touching me directly there. She kissed me softly
making our lips part and our lipsticks to mix and pull slightly away as
she disengaged the kiss. She nestled down on my breast and started
suckling while still maneuvering her other ministrations. I?m pretty
sure that I never did it twice until that night.
This time she didn?t climb on top of me though, she was tired from her
earlier exertions. She rolled onto her back and invited me to penetrate
her. I obliged. Having entered her, she had this almost relaxed on the
beach expression on her face. I started noticing my hair cascading down
my back and falling in front of my view of a very contented Monica. I
pushed up to give space for all this hair and noticed my glistening
finger nails digging into the pillow on each side of her beautiful face.
I smelled my perfume, sensed the makeup that still adorned my face minus
the lipstick and foundation that was around my mouth but had since been
mostly rubbed off. Looking down my breasts that have come into their
own, were just so beautiful, I started to pump softly up and down and
Monica bent forward and took my right nipple into her mouth. "Oh my
GOD." I hate this expression especially coming from very young girls?
mouths as it is so overused and annoying, but "OH MY GOD," was all that
I could think of at this moment.
?I believe you will need to call into work and ask for your vacation
time." I don?t see how you can disguise what has been done for the
immediate future. Monica was right of course. Press on nails and a wig
should have sav-iced. Not that I opted for such semi-permanent changes
but here I was all decked out with a repeat performance just three days
away. I called into work and made arrangements. Even with an
explanation, eluding to a family emergency, work relented but seemed
unhappy. Now I was Monica?s free and clear. She delved in and didn?t
come up for air until I needed to meet Bob at the appointed time.
I don?t know why I did what I did, but I did not inform Monica that Bob
had given me an additional $5,000.00 not to undo what was done by the
institution. This would save him a serious sawbuck. It also had the
effect of sowing a serious amount of guilt that I had hidden this small
addition to our deal. I?ve never kept anything from Monica until now.
Not sure why I hid this information from my wife I departed to meet Bob
at Nathan?s, having donned a very beautiful sequined number that had
arrive just the day before. It was a soft rose color and probably out of
today?s current style, but it made me the center of attention. I?m not
sure how an antiquated out of place dress looked so good on my frame but
compliments galore poured from the mouths of many complete strangers.
Bob was cordial and nice. He simply needed to create an environment that
would allow him to partake of an unusual treatment. Many of the
treatments were self-debasing or at least extremely humiliating.
Recognizing that what I had in my now perfect looking breasts could be
an actual God send, Bob seemed eager to please and continue the
relationship. He admitted there was a certain attraction when I was
dressed this way which allowed him to partake of the treatment. Can you
imagine swallowing someone else?s shit, literally? Most of the support
group has done that two or three times and other treatments that they
considered worse.
Bob wanted to know why I refused the corset. Although it was beautiful,
I just felt that somethings were just going too far. I did let him know
that I appreciated his willingness to spend an exuberant amount of money
for the illusion to be perfect. He let me know that he expected me to go
back to the institute before the third treatment for a refresher course.
This seemed out of place as Bob although willing to spend huge amounts
of money also seemed to be a cheapskate on so many other levels. In the
back of his limo, I administered Bob?s treatment. This dress was not
entirely thought through as it was so cumbersome to the task at hand, it
basically needed to be removed. Bob had himself delivered to his place
of business and instructed the driver to take me home or wherever I
wished to go.
By the time I arrived home, my dress was back in place and I looked
impressive exiting the stretch limo all decked out in feminine finery.
Monica was appreciative of my coy look and beckoned me forth to our
master bedroom. "I?ve never made it with a celebrity before." What was
it that Bob called her, oh yes "Edith."
"Yah, I don?t think that name really goes. It?s just something Bob does
for his own justification at the weirdness of this situation." Monica
didn?t really registrar what I was laying down, she just took my purse
from me and indicated for me to assume the newly found position of head
pussy licker. And boy did I deliver. Slow drawn out exaggerated tongue
lashings that would make a nun consider giving up her vows. Three
screaming orgasms latter, I was flipped over and taken advantage of from
my preferred joint venture. The changes in our life are becoming
extreme, but I really don?t think I can complain. Life, as strange as it
has become, really has never been this delightful. I?m so lucky to have
such a partner as Monica.
CHAPTER 8
I arrived back at the still beautiful but somewhat untrusted brownstone,
for my refresher course. Ashley came out front and grabbed me by the
hand and brought me back to the shower rooms. A quick interpretation of
my raised eyebrow brought a small giggle out of Ashley. "Bob doesn?t
want all that razor stubble destroying the illusion he has spent so much
to create." Disrobed and back in the shower again Ashley joined me with
a safety razor and proceeded to denude all of my body again. I must say
I liked the feeling. Soaped up and someone drawing a razor across all of
your flesh leaving hair free trails of suppleness was a very new and
appreciated feeling. As we exited the shower, I noticed the glass of
Merlot. This was something that I did not intend to fall for the second
time.
"You know what Ashley, why don?t you enjoy that beautiful merlot." And
she did. She drank it like a mermaid sucking back the biggest slug you
have ever seen. Now I felt a little more relaxed. No one was trying to
gain an undo advantage over me any longer. I liked to be in a position
of control. In my marriage I pretty much allowed Monica that luxury, as
she succumbed to the ravages of her condition, it only seemed right.
Then I noticed a large platter of catered chicken salad sandwiches. "Do
you mind," I inferred. Ashley only answered that no-one was going to eat
those as the high calorie intake was beyond anyone?s waistline. It?s so
nice to be able to eat whatever and not worry about gaining weight. I
ate five triangles of half sandwiches. And these were not the gas
station chicken salad sandwiches with all the filling at the front with
nothing but bread towards the non-display side on white bread. These
were 7 grain with cranberry bread piled with an even layer of diced
chicken salad with plenty of whatever that white cream sauce was layered
all the way across this delicious convection at least ?" thick.
Suddenly, I found myself on the laser hair removal table with an exact
repeat performance as the first time. Who drugs chicken salad
sandwiches? Ashley let me know that the institute just wants me to be
comfortable when they perform the hair removal treatment as it could be
somewhat painful. Well thank you Ashley. Remind me to never play poker
with Ashley.
I left the institute with a darker tan, eyebrows that didn?t escape as
they did last time and a second complete hair removal. A new outfit had
been installed and even if I didn?t feel like a million bucks, I looked
it. I actually felt vulnerable as I hailed a taxi to bring me to my home
and safety. Up to this point, I really hadn?t considered that now I?m
moving through my day as a female. At first this is just something that
is part of an agreement, basically a work requirement. Now I realize
that I?ve definitely crossed into new unfamiliar territories. Now
presenting in a very short bone colored linen skirt 4" above my hose
covered knees with 4" black stilettos and a simple black angora with
rabbit hair turtleneck sweater and a matching head band with globe
shaped little fur covered black ball earrings, dangling from newly
pierced ears. I wonder if Elizabeth is happy with herself. The corset
that now adorned my skinny frame was not overtightened and I was more
like a swaddled baby hugged in a blanket to keep calm. In a few hours,
Bob?s limo will pick me up. What have I gotten myself into?
There was a ring at our door. It was too early to be Bob?s driver (no
one says chauffer anymore). Monica and I exchange looks seeking
knowledge if the other had been expecting someone. Shrugging her
shoulders Monica went to answer the door, she realized that I was still
new to all this feminine paraphernalia and saved me the awkward shuffle
to the door. "Special delivery," Monica announced as she signed for the
package. A note in a separate envelope, I opened it as she handed it to
me.
The note proclaimed that something was missing from the outfits thus-far
and Bob had intended to rectify this oversite. Monica looked at me with
childlike enthusiasm filled with curiosity and excitement. I don?t get
why women get so excited over little packages, especially ones that are
delivered to the door. A little nod from me while looking in the
direction of the package and Monica attacked the packaging to reveal its
contents. Inside were several velvet covered boxes and strangely a
piercing gun. Monica gasped; I was confused.
Opening the little boxes revealed many high-quality costume jewelry
trinkets. The kind that women just swoon over. Starting with the
smallest, for some reason, was what looked to be an engagement ring.
Monica quickly donned this, held it up to the light with her fingers
stretched out in a dramatic flourish seeing it bounce light in multiple
directions. She then disengaged the ring and took my finger looking
directly into my eyes slipped it into place on my ring finger. There was
some unknown to me, meaning behind her look but this was beyond my
grasp. Next, she moved onto the largest, women have their reasons,
inside was a large diamond sculpted neckless. This didn?t compute in
that the turtle neck would completely cover this item and was too big
for it to be worn over my turtleneck. Moving on there were matching fake
diamond 1 ?" wide bracelet and anklet. The last box contained three
quarter diamond earrings with a note asking for a second ear piercing on
each side just behind the dangling earrings.
I don?t know if this is a good idea. I already have one hole in each ear
that will take a while to heal. Monica smiled and disappeared into the
kitchen. Coming back into view she had a bowl with ice in it and a
Sharpe marker. "Oh, please let me do this," she gushed. She argued that
two holes will heal the same as one hole and Bob had paid an awful lot
of money for this endeavor. Soon, not wanting to disappoint Monica, I
was sporting two very beautiful cubic zirconia earrings. They were the
smaller earrings residing behind the dangly fur covered balls that
hinted at some secret meaning hanging off of a silver chain three inches
below their place of attachment through the ear lobes.
Now I am as complete of an image that I think is possible. The only
thing that might give me away as people glance in my direction is my
narrow hips and ass. The clothes that Bob has chosen do seem to
camouflage this aspect of my vulnerability. I wonder how he has the
knowledge to pick the correct clothes. He obviously had the option to
have me padded out at the institution but had not chosen to do so. Did
he choose to negate that aspect due to cost or for some other reason, I
wondered.
Bob brought me to another bright spot. A very expensive and sought-after
location, a place where celebrities who need exposure can be assured,
they will have it. As we exited his limo flashes started going off.
Paparazzi were everywhere. Bob set me up, tomorrow our picture will be
in some paper exclaiming the new girlfriend of Bob Emerson. I should
have been mad, but curiosity got the better of me. "what gives Bob?" He
informed me that a business deal was hinging on if he was in a committed
relationship or not.
Then a bombshell went off, as Bob explained that the jewelry was real
but would be a great tax shelter for tax planning purposes. The deal
pending his relationship could not be preserved with anything but the
best. I now had the best and I quite frankly don?t know if I can share
this new information with Monica. Knowing that I was wearing a large sum
of money somehow made my penis twitch. I have absolutely no idea why.
Looking down at my crossed legs sheathed in stockings sporting now what
I understood to be a very expensive anklet sitting above my stiletto
heels pointing my feminized toes, I squeezed my thighs together
producing a response from my trapped penis. This reminded me of Katie
Couric squeezing her lower set of lips as she gives an interview. I can
not be the only one to have noticed this.
So, a beautiful evening being dotted on and treated as a beautiful lady,
maybe is having an effect on me. I gave Bob his treatment, the whole 30
minutes that Bob suckled at my developed breasts, I couldn?t help but to
look at the various diamond enhancements that now adorned my dark tanned
skin. I was dropped back home. He stayed in the limo this time to see me
home. There was something that he wasn?t saying but this was his third
treatment and six more days from now he should be into recovery. Monica
was there to welcome me home.
Chapter 9
Now that I have finished with Bob, I disassemble much of what has been
levied against my personage. The clothes and makeup. The hair extensions
cut away. The fake nails removed. High heels traded for men?s loafers.
Simply, just a more relaxed existence. I can?t believe that I am missing
the complicated clothes. As restrictive and cumbersome that the female
clothes are, they are also very soft and sensual to the touch. But now
I?m back in my environment, work does define the man. Having bound my
substantial breasts and put forth the manliest facade possible, I
endeavor to take on the backlog created by my absence.
As I was about to enter my office, I?m flabbergasted, how could there be
such a pile on my desk and the credenza right behind it. Before I enter,
hand on the frame and the other still clutching the door knob, my head
swivels in the direction of my PA. "Jennifer, what the Fu**?" Mobile
again the lights come on with the motion detected and the site is worse
than it seemed upon first glance. I?ve made it to the far side of my
desk leaving my attach? case in one of the guest chairs. Two things
happen in one cofounded moment in time, it is an obscene happenstance I
now find myself in. Jennifer enters looking downcast and a pile of files
shifts, almost in slow motion, onto the floor. This is just Fuc****
GREAT!
Jennifer retreats and brings in some, much needed coffee. No sugar with
a splash of cream, this is probably the only real benefit to this job.
This company never skimped on the quality of the supplied coffee. She
steps in carefully so as not to disturb any more files and suggests that
I call maintenance and have a folding table brought in. I exit my office
and procure a table myself. Why would I wait for some stooge to bring me
what I need? And we dive in. Prioritizing, organizing copulating and
lastly assembling the fallen files back to their original jackets. Now
it?s gone just past noon and we haven?t even started any actual work on
the load in front of us. I thank Jennifer and tell her we will start
just after lunch, but I want to know who has dumped their load on my
office, as this can?t possibly be only due to my three-week absence.
Johnathan Kendal Prince summons me to his office. This is not my
immediate boss and I find this unorthodox move somewhat disconcerting.
As I enter his office, he seems indifferent to my existence. He didn?t
acknowledge my presence but seemed to know that I occupied the same
space that he did. "Starting with your lack of performance over the last
two weeks, I must say that I am disappointed."
In the middle of his much practiced, montage, Johnathan loses his train
of thought and leans in with his eyes studying my face in an utmost
uncomfortable manner. His eyes shift down to my bound breasts and a
quick nod as to his justification of sorts and his course of action is
fool proof. A little shake of his head and he was back on trac for the
great impressive act of managerial importance of the day. Johnathan had
obviously come to some conclusion that reaffirmed his superiority to the
masses.
Is this guy a moron? "Sir I?ve been on vacation for the last three
weeks." I don?t understand what you think my office would have to
contribute in that time frame. As it turns out, this guy is retarded.
I?m sacked. Ten years with this company and I?m let go for using
vacation time that I?ve built up for years. Reasoning with a swing set
would have been easier. How do people with no mental capacity get
management positions?
I emptied my desk, taking only what belonged to me, minus a stapler. My
personal affects being carried in a liquor box, I stop at the men?s room
and take a careful look in the mirror. My breasts are not as hidden as I
thought they were. On my face, even with all my efforts to remove all
traces of makeup, there is still remnants of the applied substance. I
guess that I?m not as clever as I thought. I must say in my defense that
this is all new to me and given time I would have been more proficient.
I would have liked to know what devilish plot had been levied against me
in my absence. The pile in my office was on the scale of a practical
joke, but Jennifer wasn?t laughing. We were giving it the old college
heave ho, but then I found myself unemployed. The only thing that I
could think of is that it may have had something to do with my new
appendages and that I hadn?t concealed them all that well.
Devastated I head home and wait for the inevitable onslaught. What
husband wants to inform his wife that he is no longer gainfully
employed? When Monica comes home it?s to a wonderfully executed home
cooked meal, but the look on her face even before the bad news, is
extreme disappointment. "What?s wrong Eddie?" I?ve been sacked, I inform
her. The reaction is not what I expected, raucous laughter. "I don?t
think that I was as successful at hiding my breasts as I thought I was."
More laughter, then a serious note, "did they fire you over becoming
more feminine?" I believe so but they put it in a light of work
performance.
Monica didn?t see the problem. "Eddie, she said, you are making so much
money without even trying, that it doesn?t make sense for you to keep
that dead-end job." The problem as she saw it was that all of Eddie?s
clients felt more comfortable "receiving their medicine," from someone
that looks the part.
I want you to go back to the institute and redo what you removed. Our
love life has never been stronger and our love never deeper. "Just so
that you know, some of the Chron?s group may want a second helping to
maintain their results." All of them have been more comfortable with
your new choice of dress.
"This is not my choice of dress, Monica." "You know that."
"Ok, but I must say that I have enjoyed everything that has transpired
over the last couple of months. Was Monica?s retort. She softened it by
adding "Eddie, you are my world, what you have done for me has saved my
very existence. The fact that you were willing to help my whole group is
just amazing. I never knew that someone, although very well compensated,
could be so unselfish." She just gushed over the fact that she was so
happy to have ended up with me. "If I was a Godfearing person, I would
have to believe GOD personally delivered you to me." Then she went
through to the kitchen phone and made an appointment for me at the
institute. In two weeks, time I will again be subjected to that place
that I have such mixed emotions about. She seemed very happy to contrive
this existence for me.
I really enjoyed the simple life of dressing as casual male in the role
I was born. It is so much less labor intensive than the ritual of
presenting as female. As I reflect on my current situation that
"presenting as female," really does sum up what I feel I?ve been doing.
Two clients later and yes there is again the uncomfortable hesitation
from each associated with receiving their medicine from a male with
albeit beautiful breasts.
I returned home with another complete body hair removal and an upkept
tan. I didn?t let them trick me with the tranquilizers, I requested
them. There is more than one way to be in control. My hair was back in
place as if I never cut it off and my fingernails were immaculate. My
skin for some reason seemed smoother than before. My eyebrows were
definitely thinner. All in all, I looked to be a very attractive if not
average woman. Monica was overjoyed at my return to the softer side.
Shouldn?t this bother me?
Later that month my former PA Jennifer and I did have a conversation
somewhat explaining the catastrophic mountain of paperwork assembled in
my former office. The other managers did not know what was different but
had perceived a weakness in my demeanor and were doing their best to
take advantage of it. Those Bastards, well with Kendal sacking me, not
only did their work which was woefully behind their allotted schedules
descend back upon their shoulders but in addition all of my workload
which was substantial. I?m going to miss that coffee.
CHAPTER 10
Staci has another treatment course started. Happy to pay her suggested
rate when all this started. While in the middle of her treatment I
inquire if Monica?s statement is true. This was actually not good
timing. The awkward repositioning, swallowing and trying to talk while
some milk dripped off my engorged breast, reminded me of an overly
talkative hygienist. She reached forward with her tongue and licked my
milk not wanting to waste anything. She pulled back and had a
questioning expression on her face.
I needed a small pause, as that tongue lick set me back on my heels.
Monica said that everyone was more comfortable taking mother?s milk from
someone that looks the part. What I need to know is if this is true.
Staci shrugged her shoulders and said that she really hadn?t thought
about it. She didn?t know if the fact that she has gotten to know me
better or the fact that she could not argue with results, had made the
difference. Knowing that something helps sure lets you look past a whole
lot of preconceived notions. But now that you mention it, "it does put
me more at ease during these sessions." And then as she was going in for
more she asked "does it bother you to dress up?"
I didn?t realize before, but I do not have an answer to Staci?s
question. "Does this bother me?" I looked into the mirror that showed
two attractive women performing a taboo. The site along with the hormone
induced sensations was a turn on to say the least. My head tilted back
sending my new masses of hair to dangle free off of my back and slightly
my chest pushed ever so subtly forward with this movement. My toes
pointed and things in general became more ridged. Goosebumps appeared
and Staci kept ingesting. Closing my eyes seemed to help, but this was a
sexually charged interlude. Yes, this bothers me and God it feels so
good. I guess I will have to quote Cher. When asked why if she was
bothered by people having nasty comets about the things she does. "Why
don?t you stop doing these things, if their comments bother you?" The
unequivocal response by Cher was simply, "It didn?t bother her that
much."
Upon entering our home after another hard day at the office, I say in
jest, Monica had invited a small clutch of friends from her single days.
She introduced me as Ashley. Being blindsided and needing the special
attention that Monica normally provided, I saw red. I went to storm off
to the master bedroom when she grabbed me by the wrist. She pulled me
close and hugged me. "someone, bring Ashley a Merlot, my girl really
needs one. These five women are now working on their 3rd bottle and have
obviously been discussing our relationship and the new dynamic with all
of the changes and the in-depth reasons for everything. In other words,
we have no secrets on any level. No saving faces. No pretenses that
things are different than they appear. No doubt as to motive or need or
desire. Our relationship has been laid bare. I do not know why our
business is now everyone?s business. Still, now that there are no
secrets, a lot of pressure has strangely been removed. In front of all
Monica?s friends and associates and at this point presumably family, we
have no need to hide anything. I wonder how much they know about our
newfound sex life.
We all sat and I listened to stories about their times together. I
answered questions about being cross dressed. I saw the pride on
Monica?s face as she relayed the real reason that I now had taken on
this form. Seeing jealousy in her friends? eyes and the ego boost it
brought to my wife?s status, made my initial anger calm to a quite lump
in the back of my throat. We will need to have a rational discussion
about this later. As this small curious group plied me with Merlot, the
questions became much more personal. Not totally willing to take things
at face value, even with the proof of me standing there all decked out
making an attractive figure in the dim light, they started probing the
truth that Monica had put forth. Things started going down yet another
strange road.
Sandra, fu** she is hot, gets this alcohol induced faraway look in her
eye. "I want to taste it" The three other friends in unison chorus
"WHAT?" A fit of school girl giggles ensue and I?m feeling very
uncomfortable. Monica hands me a scotch and water, which I take and as I
look at her, I have the surreal understanding that she is ok with this.
This particular group of women remind me of the time my former company
sent me to of all places, the God forsaken spot on the map known as
Tucson Arizona. While there by my hotel, I didn?t see a better fare than
the hooters that was essentially in the connected parking lot. This was
not your average hooters with politically correct hires. This was a
small group of extremely good-looking college girls taking advantage of
poor sops willing to fork over big tips for bad food with a nice view.
I?ve even gone a few times to local Hooters and was left to wonder why
this chain has not "fixed" the food if the hiring standards were shifted
to avoid being sued. Even Jennifer, the least shining diamond among them
overcomes her lack of extreme good looks with her personality. This is
an attractive fivesome, I?ve never felt this uneasy in my life.
This is not a wholesome endeavor to help those that are in great need.
This is Monica showing off and offering me up. A silver platter for her
sexy drunk friends to satisfy their curiosity and show the sway she
enjoys over me. I?m so torn I don?t know, what to do. My sexy wife, is
coming at me with unwholesome objectives. She had obviously been
drinking and now it seemed that I was being offered up as some play
thing for their entertainment. Actually, it would seem that most red-
blooded American boys could only dream of being offered up to such a
group. I downed the proffered scotch, excused myself and headed for the
master bedroom.
Monica followed; it seems that I have embarrassed her in front of her
friends. Tit for tat, accusations, bribery and Monica not seeing much
different than me making it my job to let people suck at my breasts.
Just to get her to shut up, or was the scotch kicking in, I found myself
prone on the living room couch waiting for a bizarre procession of my
wife?s sexy friends licking, sucking and trying to out due each other. I
was mad but holy crap I?ve never been treated to multiple orgasms
without shooting my load, ever. Looking over at Monica, I saw that she
was totally engrossed at the image developing in front of her. I might
as well be tied up as my helplessness at allowing this outrageous
occurrence to unfold with my cooperation. My toes were curling, my back
arching, at one point my whole torso involuntarily started shaking. At
that point I looked up to see Monica latched on. I could not possibly
take this much longer. They went back for drinks as they waited for
their turn at tonight?s entertainment. Having sated themselves of this
weird little game of debauchery and fact-finding expedition, they pulled
me up to a sitting position.
This all reminded me of Monica relaying the history that occurred when
this group was very young. Yolanda had pilfered her mother?s cigarettes.
All including Monica wanted to show each other that they were worldly,
experienced and had the flair for smoking in an attractive manor, the
little brown sticks that occupied the little carton. Each, in turn
lighting up and sucking in the most tantalizing way. Monica and Sandra
both went into a coughing fit, with Monica actually losing her twinkie
she had consumed only minutes ago. Nine and ten-year-old girls acting
all grown up, sucking for their preverbal status as women of the world.
Only now, I was the cigarette in question. The lipstick mark that was
missing from the paper cigarettes, was stamped all over my milk offering
breasts. Who would be the one that looked best while sucking and
manipulating this situation?
Someone handed me another scotch. The air was palpable with sexual
tension. Jennifer broke the tension as only someone with her keen sense
of humor could. "Monica can we now test out his other tool?" Sitting
there with breasts exposed holding a scotch that would soon be gone in
one gulp, the look on my face must have netted her desired result. The
laughter that ensued was contagious. Monica reached and gave me some
modesty by pulling my clothes into a more unrevealing position.
Everyone admittedly had too much to drink, so we popped a movie into our
(some people still remember these) VCR and made sleeping arrangements
for everyone. Later, in bed Monica thanked me so much for being so
understanding. I can?t imagine what she needed to prove to these ladies
but I guess friends from younger times have different influences on your
psyche. In the morning, I made bacon and eggs, sausage and greasy hash
browns. All of our alcohol effected systems liked the greasy
confectionary delivered to our suffering bodies. Everyone thanked me
profusely as the breakfast was just what the doctor ordered. Jennifer
could not help but comment that I was making a habit of helping people
with their aliments.
Sandra was the last to leave. Her and Monica were saying their goodbyes
at the front door. I thought I heard Sandra whisper Fiction-something-a
and then tell Monica that she was jealous of her new found potent sex
life. A couple of air kisses and she was gone.
CHAPTER 11
Monica said that she has never wanted me so bad as of right this second.
"It?s too bad that my hangover will not allow my need to be fulfilled."
So instead we started tiding up together. The house was ship shape in no
time, just taking out the garbage and cleaning up a few breakfast dishes
didn?t take very long. I went to grab the vacuum and finish but Monica
asked if that could be done after her hangover cleared up some more. It
seems my breakfast helped but it was still going to be a long day for
her. She grabbed her work iPad and started getting comfortable.
Today she was very interested in whatever she was reading. She was
taking notes and clearly having ah-ha moments. She must seriously be
making headway with whatever work-related task she must have been
assigned. At noon she sought me out and we enjoyed a steamy shower
together. Laying panting in bed after my wife basically has become such
an aggressor, I?m moved to a new level of appreciation for this woman
whom has overcome so much. Not only have I gotten my wife back, I
believe I now am in possession of the new improved model.
Several weeks went by and Monica was spending an exuberant amount of
time on her iPad. I would usually leave her to her own devises, but I
was starting to feel neglected. Twice now, returning to our home after
administering "medicine" to my clients, I did not receive proper care
from my beautiful wife. I?ve come to expect the use of my condition
after what she knows is basically a conditioned response to what I?ve
been paid for. Now I don?t know any longer what I can expect to
transpire. It is nice knowing the pattern of everyday life. What to
expect, rewards for this, punishment for that. Now I do not have a clue
what to expect or do. I do not like being put in the passenger seat.
I found it strange that work people showed up to remodel the spare
bedroom. We always told each other what was up or happening. Except
that, I had an additional payment from Bob Emerson that I didn?t
registrar with Monica. Now I saw an extremely feminine room being
created without my knowledge or consent. I think that my new found
relationship that I assumed to have recovered has been changed somewhat
dramatically. I?m so glad that Monica seems to be recovering, but I
don?t understand what has changed from the original formula. I was not
impressed with what was done. Not only that, but my sacred belongings
started to be assembled in this grotesque homage to femininity. My
indestructible drone was placed on a landing pad just to the left of the
window. My computer was now front and center of a small work station and
all of my makeup appeared at this little cute vanity. What was going on?
Monica informed me that she has had this unquenchable desire/fantasy to
have a French maid at her beck and call. This was news to me, where was
all this inspiration coming from. With all that has transpired over the
last year did she really want me to subject myself to further
subjectivations of my manhood? I already have basically assumed the new
found roll of domesticated female in our relationship. I now cook and
clean while she is at work. And when I go to work, she is usually there
to take advantage of my prone condition. I?m at a loss. Where she is
going with this, I don?t understand.
"What have you done to the guest bedroom? I can?t believe you changed
our home without consulting me." She then informed me that this was part
of the fantasy. That I found myself with, as her friends called
amazingly beautiful natural looking breasts, decked out as a woman, was
Monica?s will that was forced upon me. That in essence is the fantasy.
So, the room was changed on her orders. She knew that I did everything
for her benefit, out of love, but this fantasy was that she forced these
changes.
The kinky evening with her childhood friends, was a clue that my mostly
healed wife has a sexual deviation from the strict normal, is now
revealed. Now I didn?t have a ridged job, nor any ties to cultural norms
as is dictated to most of the population. My real purpose in life now
revolved around keeping my wife healthy and helping rich people overcome
Crohn?s disease. Also, having basically had my original wife returned to
myself, continuing Monica?s happiness for the new found zest she has
discovered with regaining her health, how could I possibly deny the
aspect of life that after basically three years, Monica was starting to
live again. My whole goal in life was to see her happy again, and now
she was. Apparently, she had already started down this road she called a
fantasy without my consent. I could play ball for a while.
I asked her if she wanted me to get a maid?s uniform. "Oh no, was her
response. When that time comes, I will reveal your uniform to you".
Always the control freak is my automatic thought. What she wanted was a
long drawn out conversion of docile hubby into compliant maid. So full
of sexual energy, she ordered me to our master bedroom to service her
and then to be rode hard and put up wet, as the saying goes. I really
don?t quite get that saying. Again, this was a pleasant experience for
both of us. Something just changed, but I had no idea what had changed.
CHAPTER 12
Bob, as it turns out, belongs to additional support groups. And Bob is
not tight lipped about the glorious cure that he has found. His
description of the most perfectly formed breasts residing on a man that
all but the skinny ass and hips could be a woman?s fashion model, had
cured him of a most unpleasant condition at a fraction of the cost he
would have been willing to pay. This got the attention of his other
group, they all understood that Bob was tight and cheaper than a free
night stay. Bob at some point had taken snapshots of me all decked out,
these he used to show what his prized cure?s external package looked
like. Three members of his other group contacted and immediately
contracted me to perform a five-session curing regimen. This is great we
are on the way to easy street if this continues. As with Bob, all of
this group basically "needed" to set the stage with dinner and now added
dancing or other appropriate activity before consuming, well me. Each
had a preferred feminine name they referred to me by. It started to feel
like they were trying to out due each other as each sent fabulous
outfits now combined with, I assume very high quality, costume jewelry.
Roses and candy started appearing before our "dates." When two of my
clients sent custom perfumes, Monica for the first time, inquired if I
was doing more than administering medicine. Wow, that line of
questioning really hurt. I was taken aback.
"Monica, you know that this is all because of you. All of it." Out of an
altruistic sense of duty to mankind or alleviation of guilt for being
"cured," while so many other people remain sick, Monica had opened up my
solution to pretty much anyone. "You pushed this on me and no I am not
doing anything but administering help to those that need it." "Unless of
course you consider what you and your friends did to me." Now Monica was
wishing she could take back what she had inferred. She knew that I would
never break our marriage vows. That simply was who I am. When it comes
to it things that swarm around in my head, they are very black and
white. All these new colors of existence are very new to me.
I resolved that Monica and I needed to spend more time together. It was
a whole lot quicker to have a client show up do the deed and leave. Now
there was an evening out at the finest establishments with a play or
opera to follow. A limo ride and a treatment given in some extravagant
apartment the likes of which I never knew existed. All of it seemed to
have the romantic atmosphere of being courted. I found myself decked out
as the ideal mate of whichever client was creating his own stage and
found that I felt like an actor about to give a winning performance.
Monica was being left behind. Only in her own mind, but that doesn?t
make it any less real. I was given outfits that if Bob Mackey actually
designed truly beautiful outfits for Carol Burnet (as she truly thought)
todays designers would be hard pressed to beat. Wined and dined and then
taken to the best events that today?s society had to offer. Then brought
to the finest residences where I was taken in a most sensual way. God
I?m good with this acting stuff. Most of these clients believed they had
had me after I administered their treatment. I probably needed to spend
more quality time with Monica to alleviate the extra mile I?ve gone with
some of these new clients.
Monica started to develop a certain disdain for what was starting to
occur. Her husband was being wined and dined in the best establishments
with gifts the like of which I never understood transpired in certain
circles. Jealousy is an ugly companion. She watched as I was transformed
into a fine specimen of female something or another, the idea escapes
me, but here we are. I?m collected, doted on and no expense will be
spared to ensure my happiness. These are things that I could never
afford when I dated Monica and now are an expected part of my clients?
offerings. We do not even venture out anymore as our lives seem to be
all consumed with sex. This is not what it used to be.
With these new clients, I noticed that I was not the only one leaving
the session with a raging boner. I was somewhat disturbed by this but it
would be a double standard if I held that against them. They may be rich
but they were kind of geeks. Having access to a "beautiful woman?s
breasts" must be a new occurrence for them. Spending a half hour
consuming Mother?s milk for someone that must have a hard time kissing
their date good night, really must be a turn on.
There was much in common with these three from Bob?s support group. The
only major deviation was with Ramone. When he sent me to the
institution, the treatments were pretty much the same, however when I
left under his guidelines for procedures, my backside was increased
twofold. I guess Ramone liked his ideal woman to have plenty of
backside. Also higher heals, my walk with these new apparatuses was
extremely feminine. How could they not be? Two more earrings were added
to my ears. With each of this group wanting certain looks, the institute
was their preferred method. They could be assured that their time with
me was as they expected, look wise. Now I don?t even know how many laser
treatments I?ve had but body hair certainly will not be destroying the
illusion ever again. These geeks certainly know how to set the stage,
even if their performance was Ill fitting when the time arrived. Still
they had paid a lot for their experience and any failures during their
evening was not due to their lack of putting forth the best effort
available to themselves.
Ramone?s requirement for the rear end to be padded was the first time
that things for me felt fake. It might seem strange after everything
else that was visited upon my personage, but this was the first time
that silicone enhancements had been deployed. For whatever reason
everything else had a natural feel to it. Now I had lumps added that
were just stuck to my sides and rear. When I returned home to Monica, I
had the unpleasant experience of removing the girdle that held the
padding and the enhancements fell to the floor. This almost destroyed
the mood. Monica however was forthcoming with enticements to solve this
dilemma.
I can appreciate that the enhanced lower half seemed to complete my
look, but nothing felt natural anymore. This simply translated into
something else being somewhat off. Some things probably needed to be
left alone. At some point good enough needs to be accepted.
On the fifth treatment of the last new client things got a little
strange. Norman, when it came time for his treatment removed most of his
clothes leaving on only his underwear. And topping that off his
underwear seemed padded to some extent. Explaining several of his very
expensive clothes ended up having breast milk stains, when I gave him a
quizzical look. He climbed on my lap and grabbed on to my breast way too
hard. Well this hurt and my response was to slap him across his face
hard enough to leave a hand print. Red outline of my palm and fingers
now decorated his cheek. In all the treatments that I have rendered only
a little discomfort has ever been part of this. Now Norman has been
slapped the crap out of seemed actually more energized. What was going
on? After this interlude was over, I will reserve the right to refuse
treatment to anyone that I see fit.
When I went home, Monica was there to greet me as usual but there was
nothing for her to take advantage of. "What?s up Ashley?" Monica
inquired. My response was that I didn?t know, but I felt that something
was wrong with what happened tonight. Later, after some searching,
Monica informed me that Norman didn?t have Crohn?s Disease.
"What was he paying me for then," as soon as I uttered those words, I
realized what he was paying me for. Holy shit, without knowing it, I had
just prostituted myself. I?m going to need a psychologist to get my head
wrapped around this one. Monica couldn?t help but let a giggle escape.
"He sucked your milk; he didn?t screw you." Still I felt dirty. Moving
forward I will demand that everyone wanting my services produce a
doctor?s proof of diagnosis. What was Bob?s other group? Were the other
two also getting their jollies sucking at my pump. I don?t know but I
think that I will just look forward as anyone who doesn?t really want
the answers says. It is a cop out but much easier to deal with.
CHAPTER 13
Monica announced that we needed a vacation. Oh GOD yes that would help.
Things have gone off the rails and we need a reset. Bahamas here we
come. The question in my mind is do I go as male or female? Monica
simply then stated we need to get you identification as Ashley. The look
on my face prompted her response. "Tits like those need to be displayed
on a beautiful woman, whom I love." It?s hard to argue with the
sentiment Monica created.
I was standing before a judge in a very sensible sweater dress being
asked why I wanted a name change. Looking at my personage the judge
simply granted the motion and I was no longer Eddie. Now I was legally
Ashley. This felt really permanent. I don?t know why but I lost it and
started to cry like I haven?t since my childhood dog died, "Butter." The
name might be strange but it fit him. Now I was crying at a similar
loss, only I really could not identify it.
I?ve got a new identity and we head out on a beach filled vacation. Just
me and my wife on a second honeymoon of sorts. No clients, nothing
demanding from my wife?s work, just quality time together. Strangely not
much was going on sexually. Most of our time was spent shopping,
swimming and site seeing. We renewed our friendship and took a break
from the demands of constant sex. Strangely I was relieved. Monica also
seemed just comfortable to hang together and enjoy the comforts of life
without the added pressure that sex can bring.
Now that the pressure was off, we did enjoy an amazing interlude of
spontaneous sex. I collapsed on Monica?s nether region and brought her
several orgasms. After she emptied my sculpted breasts, she flipped me
over and enjoyed her previous ministrations on my standing at attention
penis. Slowly at first, she started to ride up and down. God she was
beautiful. While she rode me and entertained my senses she started to
speak. "Eddie," she hadn?t called me that in at least two weeks, "when
we go back, I want to roll play and have you as my bondage slave." I
didn?t know what that entailed but right now reality didn?t matter to
me, this was bliss. "whatever you want my love."
The two weeks were coming to an end, it?s funny, unless you have a job
the calendar doesn?t mean much. Soon we would head back to our lives
such as they were. My mindset was much better after our break. Monica
was headed back to her old grindstone, nothing for her has changed much.
Except her husband now presents effectively as a beautiful woman and
there are no home chores for Monica any longer. I will see who wants an
appointment with me and make sure that there is a medical reason for it.
All have a purpose in life and mine would not be wasted. I will help
those that need it and prevent myself from being subjectified all that I
could. It?s not a perfect existence but I will be happy to know that I
have helped many people.
CHAPTER 14
One evening I came home after servicing one of the men in Monica?s
group. To find objects laid out on our bed that I really didn?t
understand their purpose. In short order, I would find out. Monica,
stripped me down to the basics, leaving the hose and shoes. And I soon
found myself in a bevy of bondage devises that severely limited my
movements. My now perfect looking breasts were on full display and the
overall look was at least erotic. She led me over to a strange device
that looked like it might be painful if administered wrong. An
adjustable pole on top of a circular platform with a realistic looking
phallus attached to the end. "Up," she demanded, I didn?t see a choice
and found myself being strapped in and things inserted in an inescapable
position that I didn?t know how to react to. This is all very foreign to
me. Now, I basically can?t move and am attached to a pole that has been
set against my nether regions. A push of a remote control as Monica
looks into my soul and then grabs onto my left nipple with intentions to
receive whatever still resides there. In and out the fake phallus starts
pumping and stimulating my back passage. She is sucking for all that she
is worth, but having breasts of her own, she understood the gentle
nature that this activity requires. At first this is not only
disconcerting but painful, suddenly there is a phase shift and I enter a
delirious catatonic state that only produces extreme pleasure. This
can?t be bad can it?
I have no idea where she is getting all of this, quite frankly, strange
inspiration. Or for that matter, where does someone obtain these strange
devises? We have been on a strange journey together that started with an
altruistic purpose, now things are developing in a primal carnage sexual
way that is coming out of left field. I never would have thought that,
not only that I would present as a woman let alone be relegated to the
role of pseudo sex slave or maybe a better description would be sexual
artwork. Looking into the mirror that was hung across from my platform,
sexual artwork is a fitting description.
After an undetermined amount of time, I?m released from the platform. My
hands are still immobile being attached to some strange collar that is
locked around my neck. My legs are hobbled by a pole attached to some
sort of leg cuffs as I try to move around. My breasts that I am informed
have caused a few of Monica?s friends to be quite honestly envois to
their shape and size, are still on complete display. Access to these
beautiful appendages is unimpeded at this very moment. Where this goes
from here is totally out of my control. I believe that this is the
intended result of this new experiment. I love Monica but I will admit
that at this moment I?m completely at a loss in my life and my purpose
for it. I do not know where this will lead.
Monica leads me to a niche in the wall that we used to have a life-sized
traveler sculpture installed. It?s no longer there and I seem to be its
replacement. From somewhere a but plug has been inserted and a random
vibrator comes and goes at various intensities. Monica comes back and
starts applying more layers of makeup and adds several squirts of
perfume. She changes my shoes adding two inches to my standing angle.
What a site I must make.
Standing back and rubbing her chin, Monica seems to be divesting the
best way to improve the esthetics and sexual atmosphere of my display.
She removes the but plug and brings over the machine that she had me
attached too just previously. She indicates that I need to move to the
side and she places it in the niche. "Up," she demands again and I find
myself impaled once more. Only this time I?m now three feet off the
ground being impaled on my own little private stage. So now I feel,
besides the insistent phallus sliding back and forth in my back passage,
that I am a sculptor?s piece of art on display. She produces her I pad
and presses a few places on the screen. This first turns on a fog
machine then the lights go off leaving us in darkness. All of a sudden,
a strobe light starts a slow pulse while simultaneously the machine
starts the slow in and out motion once more. Monica starts clapping and
jumping up and down then starts rubbing her clit in a most unwholesome
way. After she has contained her excitement, she released me and still
hobbled she slowly leads me to "our" master bedroom. Pushing me back on
"our" bed she lowers herself onto my lips and later impales herself on
my member. I don?t know if it should feel this good being used.
I?m not sure what has come over us but our whole relationship seems to
have changed. Now, I?m not a farm animal or a show pony or a glorified
cigarette waiting to be inhaled, now I?m an object, there for Monica?s
entertainment. I?ll let her have her day but this is not what I signed
up for. For God?s sake, I?m now a sculpture being fu**** in the ass for
my wife?s entertainment. I really don?t like where this is heading.
Demands are forthcoming. Monica informs me what to expect. All my
efforts have had serious shortcomings. Therefore, she has hired a
professional to teach me the correct ways to perform my required duties.
From now on she will expect a certain level of performance.
Petra, as she was introduced to me, takes me by the hand and brings me
to our kitchen. "This is the most demanding room for cleaning." She
informed me then proceeded to teach me how to do it admirably. The
prosses was repeated for every room in our house. Now I have been taught
how to perform cleaning in the most proficient manner. "Great, I feel so
much better." This the great wisdom passed down to me. I have come to
the realization that my purpose in life is to grant a "cure" to those in
need. And I can make my wife extra happy by playing a role-playing game
that puts her in the driving seat.
On Tuesday Monica brings me a wrapped present. She is all kinds of
excited. This brings a new energy to what is happening. Inside the
tissue paper is the most beautiful French maid?s outfit that ever
existed. Not what I expected, however the quality and artful existence
of said object, brings a new found excitement to what our relationship
has become. The skirt portion of the dress is not the petticoated look
that you would expect. It?s more like black satin leaves cascading down
and around the bodice almost in a classical ballerina style. It?s
completely full yet so very classical. I go forth to don the exquisite
dress. When I return, I?m immediately removed from the new garments and
taken in a new manor that instills fear for the future for myself. Never
had anything made me feel so vulnerable as that "love making" session
that we shared.
Now I?m a French maid. My duties don?t seem to bother any of my
customers with the way I "choose to dress." It?s not my choice but no
one seems to care. Monica installs me into the new maid?s quarters. All
my male clothes have been boxed up, by me, and placed into the garage.
I?m truly living as a female domestic now all at my wife?s bidding.
Monica decided to invite her little clutch of friends back to see the
new developments in our relationship. As I answered the door, three of
her friends entered, but as they passed all of them rubbed my chest as
they entered. Embarrassment aside, I announced their arrival to my wife.
"Yevette, go and bring refreshments to my guests." Without missing a
beat, I produced beautiful trays of ordure?s and a decanter of their
favorite wine. I am well on my way to being the perfect domestic. One of
her friends doesn?t show up, and this seems to bother Monica more than
Trump being called out for being a liar.
Sandra as it turns out has a more pressing engagement. As sexy as she
presents herself, there are times that it is necessary to focus on
things that don?t involve Monica. Although she was impressed with the
latitude that Eddie showed in reverence to Monica, she really thought
that with some training Eddie could go the distance. That boy shows real
potential for being the ideal mate. According to Sandra, Monica should
be astatic to be in a relationship with the former Eddie.
As her friends consume a plethora of fermented beverages Monica claims
that she has something she wants to show this reduced ensemble. I now am
installed in the niche. Some changes have occurred. Instead of a collar
holding my arms cuffs have been attached to the sidewalls of the niche.
A neck collar is strapped around my neck and fastened. All of this is
happening behind a tapestry that is hanging from a very stout rod that
now hides the fact that there is even a niche behind it. I am completely
immobile as Monica starts tapping at her I Pad. The tapestry starts to
roll up on the new rod above and now, I?m on complete display about to
feel the machine start to penetrate and slide backwards for everyone to
see. The fog machine kicks in the strobe light starts and then the
machine starts adulating in a most revealing manor. Her little group has
a small pause and as things registrar they clap with excitement as they
realize what tonight was all about.
Now being on full display in the best light possible, I find myself
offered up to Monica?s friends once more. I am immobile and I find that
with a set of stairs on wheels my wife?s friends have basically
uninterrupted access to anything they deem pleasurable. If I could
communicate I would, I?m not happy. Suddenly Yolanda is on the ladder
and inserting some gag in my mouth and strapping it to my head. These
women, having consumed a pleather of alcoholic beverages proceed to take
full advantage of me. I don?t understand but I?m now having my breasts
emptied and my cock used at their discretion. No one actually directed
my cock into their pussy although two of them seemed inclined to take
advantage of what they considered a wasted anomaly. Ressie sets the
ladder on a course to the uppermost level and proceeds to impale herself
on the protruding end of my gag. Grabbing onto the stout rod holding the
curled-up tapestry for balance, she takes advantage of the sexual
artwork that Monica has offered up. This girl must not be afraid of
heights. I wonder if Monica is recording this.
Thanks, are offered up all around from Monica?s friends, as they make
their exit towards a proffered cab that Monica had called. At some point
in this activity, Monica happened to notice that I was extremely
perturbed by what was transpiring. She let me down and undid all of the
constraints that impeded me. I set off to the "maid?s quarters" with no
concern towards Monica?s need for affirmation that she did not cross a
line unacceptable to me. When I entered, I locked the door. I had no
intention of letting Monica off the hook as it were. I do not deserve
this treatment.
I did not exit the new bedroom that I had been relegated towards, until
Monica had to leave for work. I did not answer any phone that day. I, in
short was not happy. The unappreciation for all that I have done for my
wife was weighing very heavy on my thought process. I do get that for
three years plus, Monica lived a shell of an existence, but I also
suffered through those years. I wanted an adulation for all of my
efforts but received none. Why do I always put forth such an effort only
to be relegated to the back of the bus each and every time. I left for
the day and let Monica stew in her own juices as it were.
They say that if you want to fix a relationship, you need to be able to
abandon it. I was now at this point. Furthermore, Monica absolutely
received the message. When she returned home, it was with gifts and a
catered dinner. Chines food, and not the sweet Americanized crap. This
was eggrolls and cashew chicken. General Tasso beef and shrimp and
scallop with green onion entries. Yah I know this sounds like the
Americanized version, maybe it is, but at the next level.
We didn?t converse about the events from last night, Monica didn?t
apologize. She rarely did. Actually, I believe that only once did she
lower herself to apologize to me in our now proceeding marriage of nine
years. I don?t believe that she will be placing me in that niche ever
again. I hope that we are starting to reach an understanding of limits
in this newly defined relationship.
The niche remained unchanged residing behind the now rolled down
tapestry. Upon inspection as I held the corner away from the wall, I
noted that ever thing still remained. The stand and bondage devises were
still there waiting silently for their next occupant. This does not
instill trust on my end.
We reached an equilibrium. I went back to performing miraculous healing
procedures and cleaning and cooking for myself and Monica. Monica
received a promotion at work and that affirmation did wonders for her
ego. She was a new person once again. She seemed to forget all about her
debacle with her friends and putting me on display. Now her attitude
shifted once again to the dominant role. She started bossing me around
again and finding the limits of my cooperation. I do find that I have a
natural submissive streak and obviously Monica has control issues.
So now I?m a maid that outperforms most people in the money-making area.
I service people that need help with the affliction of Crohn?s Disease.
And I find myself lately denied sex and only a participant in cunnings
for my dominant wife.
My French maid outfit is simply divine. So soft and body hugging that it
is almost enough to rediscovered myself unto myself, under the guise of
a healed wife. My meal preparation has improved tenfold with the
supplemental classes that I have had time to undertake. I now know the
absolute best way to approach cleaning a room. Whichever description
that it calls for. Nothing but the best results can be expected from the
newly formed French maid that is me.
Monica informs me that she needs me to cook for two on Friday night and
serve same. I don?t know what to expect, but this really isn?t sitting
well with me. I clean Monica?s house, for that is what it is, a prenup
declares all assets belong to those in position before entering this,
our marriage. Also, any earnings of each individual shall remain in the
possession of the individual that earned such asset. The house was
Monica?s when we married and remains in her possession. I?ve made
several payments on her behalf when things were not at their best light.
With the house clean and the table set I make a meal that would make ex-
presidents envious.
There is a ring at our door bell. I cross the room to welcome our
guests. Monica and a gentleman are standing outside. I welcome them into
Monica?s home. She introduces me to a Mr. Woody. I curtsy as taught and
my face lights up knowing that this is a put on (Mr. Woody indeed). No
one is named Mr. Woody. Still this is somewhat uncomfortable with my
wife entertaining some man at our table while I serve them. The meal is
perfect and the couple enjoys what has been served. Many drinks by this
time has been consumed by this couple.
I serve and supply all that is demanded. A curtsy with every
commandment. Except for looks of sexual appreciation for the image I
bring to this evening, I?m largely ignored. This is becoming a strange
game with my wife rubbing her hose covered foot up and down Mr. Woody?s
pant leg. My feathers are beginning to ruffle and my mind is sliding
into a dark place. Monica had better be careful where she brings this
new game.
Monica now announces that they will be retiring to the master bedroom
for a much needed Rodgering by a real man. It has been so long since she
enjoyed what a real man could bring, since her husband had left her. The
servant should bring refreshments as they conclude their interlude and
be ready for additional clean up services that may be required. The
place was a wreck due to the cooking and preparations. The couple left
the clean-up for the in-house servant.
Ashley, now Yevette, entered the maid?s quarters and turned on her
computer. There she chose the English French program and quickly typed
out in English turned French a note informing the reader that we need to
talk before things are too late. With this article printed out Yevette
entered the master bedroom to witness Monica heavily petting and kissing
Mr. Woody. A silver tray with a note on it waited for acknowledgment.
Monica in a perturbed voice asked what she wanted. The tray set fourth
so as not to break character as was warned by Monica the preceding day
with a promise to discuss everything in a fortnight.
"Yes girl, go ahead say what?s on your mind. My new lover here is not
someone that I keep secrets from." "Well go on girl say what?s on your
mind we have urgent business to address." "No, then keep your tongue and
clean the house and prepare to serve us our desired drinks as set forth
in your directions." Well, I stamped my foot in anger and started off
with an exaggerated pace, then I remembered to stay in character. I
stopped and with my back turned to this unnatural couple I slumped my
shoulders forward and resumed my exaggerated feminine walk. Monica,
first filled with concern watched and as my shoulder slumped assumed
that this was my breaking point and all that she read about on Fiction
mania was about to transpire.
Now I was on auto pilot, all the colors that I had experienced were now
very black and white. Totally and utterly betrayed, I proceeded to my
room and turned on the computer once more. Unbeknownst to me Monica
being somewhat worried came from the master bedroom to check on me. I
was hoovering the maid?s room carpet, with my back turned to the door.
She returned to the master bedroom proclaiming that they had a whole lot
of time as the maid seemed intent on cleaning the whole place top to
bottom. This has been a long time coming, all of the feelings of neglect
and humiliation that my wife?s actions have descended upon me were no
longer bottled up. My anger now came to full fruition. I booted up my
drone and sent it out the window. Monica and Mr. Woody were starting to
get busy. The drone easily captures Monica climbing on top of Mr. Woody
and taking advantage of his somewhat acceptable manhood. Monica was
actually cheating on me with someone who had a penis smaller than
myself. This didn?t make any sense but now I really don?t care.
The computer was up and going so I uploaded the proof of infidelity to
the prenup that Monica had me sign all those years ago. A click of the
mouse and the prenup was filed with the county. Now I had a fully
executed prenup with full proof evidence that was indisputable in court.
This vision was now public knowledge if someone cared to investigate.
Monica?s insistence that our money be kept separate really made this
exchange extremely easy. A quick trip to our safe and my earnings were
on their way to my car. Monica and her new lover were very busy. I shed
the maid?s uniform and placed it very neatly across the maid?s bed.
Grabbing my clothes, I reached the garage door. Out in the garage I had
a disturbing thought that Monica?s way might be ok. A shake of my head
and that thought passed very quickly.
I loaded all my clothes from the upstairs maid?s bedroom into my GTO. A
classic muscle car that I have hung onto all these years. My male
clothes are already boxed up in the garage. What I forgot was to stay in
character. I went back upstairs and utilized the French program to type
out an in-character letter of resignation. I left that in the mess in
the kitchen. Back in the garage after standing close to the master
bedroom and hearing what was transpiring, I opened the garage door
marveling at the quite of the new garage door that I purchased for
Monica. Pressing the brake and shifting into neutral I felt my freedom
start to bloom. The incline of the garage having been set at more of an
incline due to the natural setting and the winter months sending more
snow than usual into the garage, made for a natural movement down and
out of the garage. The car fully loaded with my earnings and belongings
and a whole lot of jewelry started a quiet escape from the
unappreciative souls that didn?t matter to me any longer. Seeing my wife
sliding up and down another man?s pole whatever size it was threw cold
water on the back of my neck. I now felt no feelings for Monica. It is
strange that you could love someone so completely, but with the
understanding that the commitment is one sided, love can turn off almost
like a light switch. I never knew love was so fragile.
When at the bottom of our driveway, I turned over my key bringing the
beast to life. The noise created as only a true American muscle car can
create, hearing this, Monica thought that someone else had a GTO or
Injun in our neighborhood. God how she loved that car. The vibrations
that it created were an aphrodisiac unto themselves. She might have to
learn to drive stick to fully enjoy her new found existence, totally in
control of every aspect of her life.
Looking out through the windshield of my GTO, I couldn?t help but think
that maybe this was my fault. My freedom was at hand but I didn?t know
where all these problems were coming from. Did the slow decent into
accepting her conditions under her sickness bring forth me being
susceptible to strange and unreasonable demands. Did her attitude
mandate these responses? With everything that I did for her health and
future, why did she pursue a secondary relationship. Did my slow consent
take me to a place that allowed my wife to think that fu***** someone
else would be acceptable to me? All the time Monica was really sick, was
this a slow permission of sorts to allow her any discrepancy, while I
and she gave me no latitude? Why did I go along with this game of hers,
that other than a physical response and curiosity satisfied, that I
derived no satisfaction from? My only goal was to see Monica happy, well
what about my happiness?
Now that this decision was made for me, I really started to ponder this
conundrum. Being dressed as a beautiful woman and having my substantial
member being drawn into Monica?s mouth as she proceeded to insert a butt
plug in my rectum, seemed to confirm some preconceived notion, that she
was going the right direction. Things just kept going towards some
fantasy that she had contrived. Maybe as things spiraled into directions
that I didn?t fully enjoy; I should have put my foot down. Maybe I could
have put a stop to this ill-conceived direction. Did Monica ever
actually love me? If you listen to David Emerson Thorough, "Your actions
speak so loudly that I cannot hear what you are saying." The answer is
no, she never did love me. My course is total clear and I will not feel
any guilt whatsoever over what has been forced upon me.
Diving my GTO decked out as a sexy woman, I could appreciate the
vibrations that Monica eluded too. My car from my high school years now
contained a driver slipping back and forth on a short skirt with
pantyhose clad legs shifting 455 horses at my sole command. Not only was
I hot, after years of making everyone else happy, I was now in total
control. What a vision I must make. Stiletto heels and what turned out
to be my favorite sweater, the black angora rabbit hair turtle neck with
diamond jewelry in a white GTO convertible cruising to God knows where.
What a beautiful sight.
Bringing to the forefront, where was I going? Now divorced, dressed to
kill and a plethora of my earned cash, what should I do next? I never
wanted a divorce, but those were the cards I was dealt. No choice given,
freedom thrown upon myself and no guilt for anything that had transpired
to date and a whole lot of cash while not needing to answer to anyone.
What to do? What to do? This is a strange accommodation to find myself
in. Years, perhaps all my life, I have taken on the mantel of caring for
someone, now all this has been removed. I?m not sure what to do with
myself. I feel the sumptuous clothes that adorn my body, every movement
sends familiar if not new, sensations to my enhanced existence. What I
came up with is to find some racing fuel for my beloved beast. I can?t
tell you why but I seem to have reverted to my earlier days, only just
decked out in an entirely new fashion. Only now, I was not going to
apologize to anyone or anything. I was a beautiful person in an
engineered time capsule finding its lifeblood to live life to its
fullest. All of my time wasted on others would not see another daybreak
of the same equation.
Finding a gas station that caters to such needs, I stick my card in the
slot and push the appropriate buttons. Soon racing fuel will enter the
hole that I just penetrated the gas nozzle into, to purchase what I came
for. Looking up I realize that, not only am I on display with my Gto but
there is a pleather of interest into my female persona. The gas station
is lit up like day break and I?m on full display with many onlookers
that seem to have forgotten their task at hand. Every male has stepped
around their respective gas pumps and are now just standing mesmerized
at the display in front of them. I must look incredible with the added
backdrop of the Gto and the purchase that could only be for racing this
stock beast. Slick car and slick legs with breasts that were seemingly
manufactured for impressing the masses. I, at this moment in time did
represent many wet dreams that even I had entertained. The original
paint job on the Gto and a new paint job on the driver and things are
just as they are meant to be, sort of.
I ended up driving all night. Dolled up to the max, with every truck
driver ogling either my car or the sexy little driver or both. The
overhead street lights making my pantyhose covered legs shine at just
the right times. A pot hole in the street making my angora covered chest
bounce provocatively. A legend in the making of clean lines, power and a
certain sexiness of a time gone past. Many witnesses would undoubtably
use these memories to create explosive interludes as necessary to
achieve relief in the near future and for years to come. I was lost in
thoughts as to what had gone wrong. How had I contributed to the failure
of my relationship? In the end it didn?t matter, Monica had performed an
act that I simply could never forgive. Nothing now could change that; I
wish she would have talked to me.
I actually don?t know how much money that I have on hand but tomorrow I
will declare said money and pay the tax. I will not give Monica the
upper hand.
When Monica and Woody were done taking satisfaction from each other
Monica rang the bell that should bring Yevette running. (Yevette, had
grown to really hate that disrespectful bell.) She should bring our
drinks then perform cleaning services as we feel necessary. Yevette was
about to learn how to serve a couple with her mouth. Providing the last
vestige of service to those that are superior to her. At last she would
have what she truly needs and even if she didn?t realize it, what she
desires. Monica was such a good and decent superior. Always thinking of
what the help needs.
Monica intended to use Ashley?s tongue to bring forth an orgasm that
Woody was not able to deliver. When no one materialize Monica went to
investigate. The house was dark but the light to the servant courters
was on. Looking around, the house was in shambles. Nothing was cleaned
up and the house actually seemed deserted. Entering the maid?s quarters,
Monica was amazed at how clean and organized it was. The computer was on
but the screensaver had just transpired the drone was gone and so seemed
the contents of the open closet. The only thing that remained was the
computer and the maids uniform placed with extreme care on the bed.
Monica screamed at Woody to bring the crop as her maid needed negative
attention. This was too much and Monica was going to install complete
control. She had been nice thus far but her sissy has just gone too far.
Yevette was nowhere to be found. Monica didn?t know what to do. She went
down to the garage to find the prized GTO and all the boxes belonging to
Eddie gone. Racing up the stairs she opened their safe. Everything was
gone. "Oh my God what have I done," was Monica?s comet as she collapsed
on the living room floor. Woody was at a loss.
Woody held up a piece of paper that he found amongst the mess in the
kitchen. Quickly Monica closed the distance between them and took the
letter of resignation from her "new lover," as she had called him.
Yevette had composed a letter stating that she could not work for
unappreciative white trash that would treat her loving husband so
terribly. It went on to say that she did not care for a letter of
reference as she would never again be anyone?s maid. Furthermore, she
was glade that Monica?s condition had improved but it was no excuse for
treating people so badly. Signed "Yevette."
There was also a p.s. asking if this was staying in character in a good
enough fashion for Monica.
Monica went to Eddie?s computer. The only remnant of Eddie that was
still in her house. The screen had expired but hitting the space bar
brought it back to life. There was a new screen saver. It danced across
the screen as a photo bouncing everywhere in a scheduled pattern.
Actually, it was a video in a photo sized outline showing Monica
screwing Mr. Woody. If this was not enough, it suddenly changed to an
executed prenup. Monica was officially divorced. Her prenup had been
used against her. A legal separation and Eddie was gone presumably
forever.
Immediately she dialed Eddie?s phone, nothing. Again, and again,
nothing, what would she do? How could she fix things? So many questions
and no answers. To always be in control and all of a sudden have none is
a very vulnerable place to find one?s self. Monica sat at Eddie?s
workstation clasping her head in her hands. She seemed very distraught.
He didn?t understand why the loss of a domestic should be so
traumatizing. Surely, Monica could hire a new maid. What was the big
deal, they had each other? They could make each other forget their
sorted pasts. He, for his part was willing to try.
CHAPTER 15
Monica now found herself cut off from every avenue that could help her.
Ashley wanted nothing to do with her. Monica had told Yevette that they
could talk tomorrow. And that is what she intended. Finally, that is
what she thought was fair. But, the next day still no answer. She tried
to text message. She texts that Eddie said he would never give up on
their marriage vows. This brought a response. Eddie wrote that he didn?t
abandon his wedding vows but Monica had.
"We need to talk Eddie." This is what Monica wrote to his response. "you
want to talk when there is nothing to talk about. Go back to your lover.
I have nothing left for you. "I do not want to see you ever again. I
hope you are happy with your new found lover, "a real man." Monica
responded with; she didn?t understand what he meant. There was simply no
more communication from Eddie. Monica was now truly on her own.
Upon reading Fiction mania stories, Monica had the impression that she
was doing what Eddie needed. People like him needed someone to take
control and guide them in their endeavors. After all that Eddie had done
for Monica, she felt compelled to give him the environment that every
natural sissy would need. Her logic dictated that no one would so easily
do the things that Eddie did, unless truly they were a sissy. And she
loved her sissy. For God?s sake she was screwing a boar of a man with a
smaller penis than her sissy, what more could she possibly have done for
Eddie? Now she has lost her husband, her treatment and a huge cash cow.
Nothing left to do Monica called Sandra. Monica filled in Sandra with
all of the gory details. She informed Monica that, "holy shit girl,
there is a big difference between fantasy and reality." Eddie wasn?t a
sissy he did everything to help you. And you betrayed him utterly. When
you play these games, you need to discuss everything and develop safe
words so that certain unacceptable lines do not get crossed. I hope that
your Crohn?s disease is at a point that you are cured or at least the
current meds will now be effective. "I don?t think Ashley will be there
for you anymore." Upon hearing this Monica broke down knowing that she
ruined everything. How could she have been so clueless. Then Sandra
dropped a bomb asking," since Ashley no longer wants anything to do with
you, would you mind if I pursued her?"
Sandra wanted to take Eddie away from her. Monica was hart broken.
Sandra went on to say that although she "cherished" their friendship a
superior find like Ashley was very rare. And to say that her qualities
were valued was an understatement. With an appropriate time for Ashley
to grieve over the loss of his beloved Monica, Sandra was sure that she
could ensnare the beautiful Ashley. And that is what she intended to do.
So, in one small time frame Monica lost her husband and one of her best
friends.
Sandra was a little late. Ashley had made quite the contact in the park.
A regular jogger had seen Eddie basically transition right before her
eyes. A regular pattern of both Eddie and this jogger visiting the park
finally caused Micha to stop during her run and inquire about Eddie?s
situation. Micha was intrigued to the story of Eddie willing to help
first his wife then a plethora of Crohn?s sufferers. She didn?t
understand her attraction to Eddie/Ashley as no one ever really
interested her on a romantic level before. When Micha found out of the
troubles Eddie?s and Monica?s relationship were having, she didn?t mix
words. She swooped in and took possession of Ashley and protected her
and coddled her. She built up all that she had done and marveled at her
accomplishments. When Micha finally came up for air, she was in the
possession of what she never realized she needed. A soulmate to share
the rest of her life with. She didn?t understand the attraction but she
accepted it. She was the one person that Ashley was meant to be with,
everything else notwithstanding.
It is strange circumstance that brings this story to an end. Everyone is
content and happy, except Monica and Mr. Woody. When Ashley first
learned of the betrayal of their marriage vows, she sought to remove all
vestiges of her feminine appendages. She had actually scheduled a
bilateral breast removal. Monica?s Crohn disease group caught wind of
Ashley?s intended course of action and put together an appreciative
dinner to honor Ashley.
The night this dinner was to go down all of the group showed up at an
extremely upscale venue. They found Eddie in attendance. He actually did
become much more efficient at binding his breasts. All other vestiges of
womanhood had been removed. His clothes however smelled of exhaust. All
of his male clothes had been boxed up and placed into the trunk of the
Gto. Even after several washes the exhaust smell remained. Hopefully
this would abate with additional washes and time. Maybe the American car
companies had improved over the years. There before Eddie was a group of
people that had benefited from his willingness to help. All of their
efforts to obtain help from the American medical establishment went
unheeded. Now all of them started sharing stories as to the extent of
help that Eddie had provided.
One customer, Jane informed the group that another individual having
heard of Eddie?s financial gain, had tried to repeat the formula that
brought such riches to Eddie. His price was reduced, but yielded no
benefit. It seems that tomorrow Eddie will remove our cure permanently.
The only thing that ever helped us will be gone due to Monica?s
selfishness. "Please Eddie for our sake, do not make a rash decision and
remove those most perfect looking breasts." "I?m sorry to put this all
on you but none of us have an alternative."
The whole room, except Monica who came stag hopping to reconcile with
her former husband, began to implore Eddie to continue to make available
their desperately needed treatment. Having heard all of these
testimonials and seen the actual appreciation for all that had
transpired, Eddie was moved. He looked to Micha for a response. She
already had tears in her eyes as to the wonder that Eddie had provided
to a very desperate group.
Monica had not expected Micha to be in attendance and her hopes were
utterly dashed when she approached Eddie and only received a look of
disdain. How could someone that loved me so completely have no feeling
for me any longer? This was a quandary that Eddie himself could not
understand, but actions do have consequences. Eddie was now in a new
relationship and Monica no longer was a consideration. In fact, Eddie?s
new squeeze did not feel comfortable if Monica was to ask for treatment,
paid for or not. She felt that this might make her a smaller person, but
she could not help the way she felt.
It was a lovely night. To be given such accolades for services rendered
was such an affirmation that Eddie was on cloud nine. It really is nice
to receive credit for what you have accomplished. Micha informed Eddie
that she didn?t care how he presented himself, that it was his soul that
she was attracted to. This left Eddie with a lot of decisions to make.
First off, he canceled his breast removal, he could simply not let so
many people down. The confusion created from this decision brought Eddie
to an impasse for several weeks. Finally, Eddie made an appointment at
the institution. The image that was created for Eddie made everyone,
including Ashley, very happy and content. Ashley was still his legal
name.
The beautiful female version of Ashley continued to make appointments to
help those that needed it. No jealousy was ever displayed from Micha.
The only exception to this is when Monica sought out help from Ashley.
True to his promise, Ashley did not render service to Monica. When
he/she had kept information from Monica it caused a lot of guilt. Ashley
did not want to go down that road again. She simply informed her past
wife that if she wanted a treatment that she would need to obtain
permission from Micha. Monica was too proud to seek Micha?s permission,
so she went without.
Monica, well Monica probably should have communicated with Ashley. She
had everything and now she does not know what her future will bring.
Whatever it is she will have to face it alone. Her first response to
face things alone has now come to fruition. A true love is very hard to
come by. She never realized that her control with her prenup would ever
be used against her. How could things have gone so very wrong. The loss
of someone that you truly love, is something that you can never
overcome. But to have someone that you truly love, no longer believe you
is devastating. Ashley has truly moved on and wants nothing to do with
Monica. The only road left for Monica, as it were, is the "high Road,"
for now she truly is on her own.