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The time for Kaylie's assessment was getting close, and her training was
becoming more intense. Madeline continued to provide opportunities for
girl experiences. This weekend included another sleepover night at
Hillary Lee's house.
The three girls headed for Hillary's room. Hillary immediately suggested
starting with a makeover party. Soon Kaylie was the focus of the beauty
treatments administered by the other two girls. Eventually Kaylie was
admiring her face in the mirror when Hillary made a unexpected request.
"Now Kaylie, it's your turn to make Stacy into a dramatic beauty.
Everything you need is on my table. Taking the lead is how you learn,
girl."
Kaylie looked over the array of products Hillary had set out. On one hand
it looked awesome. There were so many different products, different
colors, subtle differences in shade between similar colors, different
applicators. But, how to choose, and even where to begin seemed
overwhelming.
Stacy grinned. "This will be new for both of us. I have never had my
makeup done by someone who used to be a boy. Do you think you are
capable?"
Hillary shot back. "Kaylie is a girl and we need to remember that. It is
not her fault that she was forced to act like a boy in school for all
these years. And, it is really, really important that we help her build
her feminine confidence."
"I'm sorry. Everything just seems weird right now."
"A good way to learn is to watch some video tutorials and then imitate the
look. Lets go through a few and select some ideas that might look good on
Stacy. You can then follow the sequence while I watch you and help when
needed."
After nearly an hour Kaylie had managed to succeed in applying foundation,
eye liner, mascara, eye shadow, blush, lipstick, and finishing powder.
Stacy was admiring her self in the mirror and Hillary was bouncing with
excitement.
"It's my turn now, and I have two experts to work on me."
After getting her makeover Hillary picked up a book that Madeline had
given her earlier. "My mother said we should read from this one together.
Stacy and I have already seen this stuff in the girls-only health class."
Hillary smiled knowingly, "but it will be something new and different for
you, Kaylie.
Stacy looked at the book cover. "This looks like one of those books on
adolescent girl development that mothers can give their daughters to read
when they are too embarrassed to talk about personal things face to face.
I was never given one like this to read. My mother has always been
comfortable talking about female bodies."
Hillary gave Kaylie a serious look. "Learning all about girls' bodies is
important for you. My mother keeps telling me that you need go into the
assessment with the mind you would have developed if you had spent the
last four or more years reassigned as a girl. That would have meant using
the girls bathroom and girls locker room at school, taking health and
human development class with the other girls, and participating girl clubs
and extracurricular activities.
"You might find some of this book to be really embarrassing at first.
Especially when saying the words in front of us girls. But that is the
practice you need. In the assessment you need to know about female
bodies, be able to talk about why you want to develop as a girl, and
never, never snicker or laugh about girl parts like a stupid boy would.
Understand?"
Kaylie started turning the pages, looking at pictures, and being prompted
to read key parts aloud. Hillary told her to start with the first part
of the 'Where Babies Come From' chapter. This was written on a pre-teen
level with vague, clinical line drawings and indirect language. It was not
too hard to recite from the text because most of the information was not
all that different from what boys were taught. The big difference was in
the social advice. This chapter emphasized the joys of motherhood and the
importance of picking a good sperm donor for the insemination. Kaylie
reluctantly recalled that in boys' health classes she had been subjected
to endless warnings that boys were severely punished if they tried to
mess around 'the old fashioned way' with unwilling girls.
"OK, good start, Kaylie. Now let's go to the 'Your Changing Body'
chapter. It will be fun."
Turning the pages Kaylie came to a section with front and side profile
drawings showing the changes in the breasts, hips, and body hair that
girls experience in puberty. In health class she had seen the equivalent
male pictures, but had never seen such explicit pictures of girls. The
information was fascinating, but Kaylie did not fully understand her
emotions as she read the captions to Hillary and Stacy. The one thing she
was sure of was that she could not allow pictures like this to arouse her
unfixed boy parts during the assessment.
Hillary could not resist. "Before long you will start looking like that
yourself. Are you excited?"
Hillary took something out of her drawer. "This is a fully padded bra
that my mother had me buy for you. Take off your bralett and put this on.
It will give you even more shape that I have, and it will make you feel
like a big girl."
As Kaylie changed she was subjected to Stacey's mild teasing. "Do you
always turn around when you change in front of other girls? There is
nothing to be ashamed of. Are you looking forward to filling out the cups
for real?"
After admiring her profile in the mirror and getting complements for
Hillary and Stacy it was time to go back to the book.
Kaylie sighed as she turned to the next chapter and saw that it was about
menstruation. This was getting difficult to read aloud. She was aware
that Stacy seemed to be delighted to watch her squirm.
Finally Kaylie finished that section. He noticed that Hillary was holding
something in her had.
"I bet you have never seen a sanitary pad. This is what the book said
girls use during their periods. Here take it." She handed the small
object in a pink wrapper to Kaylie. "You unwrap it and apply the sticky
side to your panties then pull them on tightly."
Kaylie nervously took the pad and turned it around in her hands. Stacy
was on the verge of laughing. "Well, Kaylie, do you want me to show you
how to wear it, or are you big girl enough to do it yourself? Smart girls
practice using one before the first time they actually need it."
Kaylie knew she was trapped. She hesitated then stood up and headed to the
bathroom. "I can manage."
When she came back she saw that Stacy was holding what looked like a thin
white tube. "While you were taking your time in the bathroom I went and
asked Mother for one of these. It is called a tampon. You just read about
them in the book, and Hillary decided you needed to know what a tampon
applicator actually looks like and I agreed."
Hillary decided to reassure Kaylie. "Don't worry, we will not ask you to
try using it. Generally girls are discouraged from using tampons until
they are older, like sometime in High School. Besides you do not have the
right place to put it." She paused, "yet!"
Finally the girls had enough fun making Kaylie read aloud from the book.
"Now you know a little about what you have been missing by not going to
health class with the girls," Hillary said with a grin.
Stacy got up from the bed and put her arms around Kaylie's neck. "I am
impressed. A normal boy would never be able to control himself while
reading all that. Maybe you really are a girl already."
"Let's get some bedtime snacks," Hillary announced.
Madeline and Valerie were already in their nightgowns and bathrobes when
the girls bounced into the kitchen. There were lots of admiring remarks
about the girls faces, along with a few 'don't try wearing anything like
that makeup to school' comments.
Madeline redirected the conversation as the girls loaded up on cookies and
milk. "Valerie, one thing I have always taught Hillary is the necessity
of doing something controversial when there is sufficient justification.
I refer to this a getting into 'good trouble.' Helping Kaylie recover
from the omissions of years ago has involved a few situations like that."
She ended by looking at Hillary with a knowing look. "And there may need
to be more."
The girls headed back to Hillary's room, closed the door, and chatted
while each in turn went into the bathroom to clean up and change. Kaylie
had a floor length floral print cotton gown that hid the fact that she had
no curves. Stacy changed into a frilly but modest pale blue gown that
hinted that she was just starting to develop. Hillary emerged from the
bathroom in a very sheer pink nylon gown with lacy trim that left little
to the imagination. Hillary had definitely filled out more than Stacy.
"Wow, my mother would never let me buy something like that," declared
Stacy.
Hillary spun around right in front of Kaylie. "Do you like it?"
"I ... I think you look ... beautifully feminine."
"Are you saying this as a former boy or as a girl who admires other
girls," Stacy said with a coy look.
"I'm a girl," Kaylie replied emphatically.
Hillary posed like a fashion model. "That was a perfect answer, Kaylie.
Now, are you ready to see what a girl looks like? Not drawings, not
pictures, the real thing?"
Stacy was shocked. "You aren't going to take it off are you?"
"Of course. If Kaylie had been going to school as a girl she would have
seen naked girls many times by now in the gym and dance studio changing
rooms, on sleepovers, and maybe when 'experimenting' with her friends. If
she was on the normal schedule for reassigned boys she would also be able
to look in the mirror and see how the doctors temporarily fixed her down
there."
"How do you know all that?"
"My mother explained a lot about what Kaylie has missed, and what she
needs to experience to be ready for the assessment. It could be awkward
for her if the first time she sees a naked girl's body is when the
psychologists start showing her pictures to evaluate identity and
orientation."
"Do you want to see, Kaylie."
"Yes," she replied barely above a whisper.
Hillary unfastened the gown at the neckline, slowly pulled it off one
shoulder, then with a wiggle let it drop to the floor. She turned slowly
twice so that Kaylie could see her from every angle. Their eyes met at
she stood giving her a final full frontal view.
"Look, but don't you dare touch. We're too young for that."
Hillary pulled the gown back on and the special moment was over. Soon the
girls were under the covers pretending to be asleep while each considered
everything that had happened that evening.
The next afternoon Stacy had gone home, but Kaylie was still at the Lees'
house because her mother said should would be late picking her up. This
was fine with Kaylie. Madeline and Hillary created a supportive teaching
environment, and Kaylie knew she needed as much girl socialization time as
possible.
Madeline sat down in front of Kaylie with a serious demeanor. "We need to
talk about some sensitive topics. Please pay attention." Kaylie nodded.
"I know what happened in Hillary's room last night. But I want you to
tell me about it.
Kaylie turned pale. "Did we do something wrong?," she cried.
"No, what happened is something young people have been doing since the
beginning of time. Everyone has curiosity about other people's developing
bodies. Parents have endlessly tried to prevent such things from
happening, but never really succeeded. I as far as I am concerned one girl
saw another girl's body, not a big deal. What is important is for me to
hear it from your perspective. How did you feel, and how did your body
respond?
Kaylie nervously related the events and her feelings. Talking about it
with an adult was not easy, especially when she asked highly personal
questions. Finally Madeline leaned back and smiled
"I am very pleased and encouraged. First, you have shown an outstanding
ability to talk about sexual topics without embarrassment . You will need
that skill when the psychologists interview you. You have told me that
you found Hillary's body to be very attractive, you wanted to be
physically close to her, and most importantly you did not get an erection.
My efforts on your behalf seem to be having the desired effect."
"What do you mean?"
"I have been giving you lesbian-oriented reading and having you and
Hillary watch lesbian romance movies. The estrogen in those acne pills
has also have helped with both feminizing your mental state and
suppressing the male physiological response."
"Why are you doing. What are you trying to make me become?"
"It is time for you to know more about what is coming. As you know the
gender reassignment treatments are given only to boys who have exceptional
intellectual merit, which you have shown, and who are also rated as
politically reliable. Reassigned boys are evaluated by the psychologists
each year. To be approved for continued feminization requires being
fully socialized as a girl who totally supports the norms of our feminist
society.
"During your assessment the psychologists will be scoring you on what is
called the 'Identity and Orientation Matrix.' This provides
multidimensional measures of how you personally identify yourself on a
male-female scale, and how your romantic orientation is focused on a scale
from loving men to loving women. For someone like you who wants to be
reassigned as female the best possible outcome of the Identity and
Orientation scoring is for you to be high in the lesbian quadrant. By
modern standards a male-born person who identifies as female and who is
attracted to females is considered to be someone who deserves to be
offered the gift of transgender transformation, and the opportunity to
become a productive citizen of the Feminist Republic. Do you understand
what I am saying?"
Kaylie nodded and looked off into the distance. "This is a lot to think
about."
"I know. I warned you that becoming a girl is hard at your age. If only
you had been reassigned earlier you would be so much better off now. But
we will work together on this. OK?
"You need to get some fresh air. Why don't you and Hillary go in the back
yard and enjoy the early spring weather until your Mother gets here?"
Day by day Madeline continued to provide Kaylie with opportunities to do
normal girl activities. For the next weekend Madeline invited Kaylie to
join Hillary and Stacy on a shopping trip to a teen fashion shop on the
far side of town.
"Kaylie, you need to get some experience being out in public. I know you
are nervous about being recognized, but the socialization is worth the
risk."
"Will I get in trouble if someone figures out I am still a boy?"
"First, there is no law against a boy being dressed as a girl anymore.
Before the Time of Trouble people could be harassed under vague laws that
amounted to a ban on 'Walking While Trans,' but not anymore.
The experience of being outed might be embarrassing at first, but if you
respond confidently you will strengthen your feminine identity."
"How I should respond?"
"Tell the truth. Just say, 'Yes I was born a boy, but I am going to
become a girl.' That is all they need to know. Don't worry."
Madeline made sure that Hillary and Stacy kept a lively conversation going
on the ride to the store. Kaylie was bombarded with unfamiliar questions
about her fashion preferences, but learned to make up believable answers
on the spot. When they arrived Hillary and Stacy dragged Kaylie into the
store and started browsing. Kaylie decided that the best way not to be
read was to act like a normal girl and show genuine interest in shopping.
After the initial excitement subsided Madeline made it clear that she had
an objective. "Kaylie, up to now you have been wearing things that
Hillary has given you. This is your first chance to buy a pretty dress
that you have picked out for yourself. Don't worry about paying, it will
be my treat."
Hillary and Stacy eagerly assisted Kaylie in going through the racks and
provided endless comments about styles and colors. This was followed by a
cycle of picking something, heading to the changing room, doing a careful
inspection in front of the mirrors, and trying on next dress. Kaylie was
amazed to see how much her attitude changed depending on how each dress
looked on her. Eventually she selected a party dress that would be fun to
wear with her girlfriends.
Everyone agreed that the dress was fancy, frilly, and feminine and totally
appropriate for the fun, fearless, female that Kaylie hoped to become.
Madeline was delighted, paid at the counter, and they all headed home.
What they did not notice was the car that arrived just as they walked out
of the store and who was in it.
Soon, the school year was almost over and Kaylie was looking forward to
never having to present a Kyle ever again. A daily gender change was
nerve wracking, and Kyle never really felt safe at school after the
incident where Jimmy shouted out his observations from peeping.
Since Ms. Lee intervened to arrange for more self-study time Kyle normally
left school after morning classes. But, today there was a special all-
student lyceum he had been told to attend. Kyle was sitting alone in the
lunchroom waiting for the bell. There was no real alternative. He did not
want to hang out with the few boys in the lower grades, and he had been
endlessly reminded that middle school boys do not hang out with girls at
school. Suddenly he saw several of the most popular girls in his class
approaching his table. Stacy's sometimes friend, Pamela, who always played
the queen bee role with the girls in their class, sat down directly across
from Kyle. Meanwhile the other girls gathered around. Nervously Kyle
looked up.
"So, Kyle Clark, are the rumors we have been hearing true?"
"What, are you talking about?"
"You know, we all heard the things Jimmy was shouting at you before he got
expelled. Something about you and Hillary dancing in her bedroom."
"And the way you sometimes walk with a wiggle down the hall," added Becca.
Carol cut in, "And the other day I saw someone who looked a lot like you
come out of a dress shop carrying something really cute on a coat hanger."
Kyle knew he was cornered. The snickering and giggling was getting more
and more intense. Neither Hillary or Stacy were nearby. He saw Ms. Jayne
Wood and Ms. Lee in the hallway outside the lunchroom, but there was no
way to ask them for their help. Besides, any teacher intervention would
likely make matters worse. He remembered the advice Ms. Lee had given to
Kaylie.
Pamela started up again. "So, pretty boy, are you trying to become a
girl?
Kyle straightened up and looked her in the eye. "As a matter of fact,
yes!"
The giggles were replaced by gasps from the girls.
Kyle continued. "I have made a formal request to the counseling staff to
be considered for gender reassignment. Outside of school I am receiving
feminization training to prepare me for the official psychological
assessment. Any other questions?"
Kyle sighed. The truth had been spoken. The reactions were swift.
"Eeeek - he's a freak."
"Weird"
"Gross"
As he held his ground Kyle noticed that the girls attitude slowly started
to change. Then Pamela came to his rescue.
"This sounds awesome. I think you'll become an awesome girl," Pamela
suddenly declared changing the mood.
The teasing at his expense was being replaced by curiosity and the even a
few sympathetic comments.
Just then Hillary marched up. "Why are you bothering my friend?"
"What's this 'your friend' stuff," someone started before being cut off.
"We just wanted to know if what we heard about Kyle was true," Becca said
apologetically.
"The name is Kaylie, and yes she is hoping to become a girl and attend
High School next year. My mother and I am helping her get ready." Hillary
pulled Kyle up from the bench. "Let's go before the teachers notice."
Hillary and Kyle headed into the hall where they were stopped by Ms. Lee.
"You both did an outstanding job. The truth gives you power. I am proud
of what each of you did. We were watching and listening, but were
confident that you could handle the situation.
"Now go to the auditorium." She paused. "Kyle, it will be OK if you sit
in the same row as Hillary for the lecture, just have an empty seat
between you two."
The lunchroom confrontation with the popular girls made the last week of
school exceptionally stressful. Now everyone in the school had heard about
Kyle's situation. Most of the popular girls were tolerant or accepting,
but there is an incredible amount of disapproval as well. Madeline
continued in her role as champion, and intensified Kaylie's girl training
as the scheduled assessment approached.
Ann continued to be a passive bystander in contrast with Madeline's
enthusiastic efforts. Kaylie remained confused by her attitude. Mother
always seemed to avoid participating in the feminization experiences that
Ms. Lee provided. She would claim to be busy or have errands to run.
Mother changed the topic very time Kaylie tried to talk about her goal to
become a official girl legally, socially, and most importantly,
physically. Discussion of medical interventions seemed really upsetting
to mother.
Kaylie had just arrived at Hillary's house when Ms. Lee, who was still
wearing her school counselor dress clothes, indicated she wanted a
serious talk.
"Hillary, get some refreshments and bring them to the living room. Kaylie
will appreciate having something to drink."
Kaylie wondered what this was going to be about and looked to Hillary for
support. That opening did not sound good.
"Kaylie, I need to talk to you about some of the tests that will take
place when you go to the Regional Center for your assessment. As you know
one of the objectives is to screen for political reliability and assess
your gender identity and sexual orientation. We have talked about this in
general, but I have not gotten into specifics.
"One of the examinations will involve the modern version of a test
developed over a century ago called the Freudian Thematic Apperception
Test. You have heard about Freud in the readings I gave you. He was an
early psychologist who developed a complex theory of childhood
psychosexual development. Many of his ideas have been discredited, but
others are the foundation of our modern understanding. His major
contribution was pointing out the importance of childhood experiences and
that sexual identity is already formed long before puberty.
"The Thematic Apperception Test developed from his theories. In this test
the subject was shown ambiguous pictures and then asked to tell a story
about what they thought the picture represented. There would be pictures
of men and women, of couples, and pictures where the sex of the
individuals was ambiguous. In the modern version the person being
examined is shown pictures in a closed room while being monitored by
instruments that measure involuntary responses that relate to the
emotional state.
"These instruments are based on old 'lie detector'technology. Although
you will be asked to tell stories about some pictures the instruments will
give the assessment team a measure of you hidden thoughts."
Kaylie was becoming more and more agitated as the conversation went on.
"Kaylie, be confident going into the test. Your school reports state that
you have shown strong feminine traits since you started kindergarten. Ever
since you aced the aptitude test I have been giving you both reading and
real-life experiences to help you develop the mind of a girl your age.
During the test keep refocusing your mind on positive feminine
experiences. You will be able to convince them. Believe me."
The day after the intense discussion about the upcoming Thematic
Apperception Test Madeline wanted to defuse the tension with lighter
topics.
"Kaylie, have you considered what you are going to wear to the Regional
Assessment Center on your big day? We really have not talked about this."
"Not really. You told me that I need to make a good first impression
presenting as a girl, but I do not have a lot to clothes chose from."
"You need to arrive presenting yourself as a beautiful and confident girl.
How could anyone expect you to express your girl identity if you are
wearing Hillary's second hand clothes? I think we are going to have to
take you shopping again and get you something that fits well and looks
very serious and professional. The only new dress you have is way too
frilly to wear for interviews with the psychologists. You will also need
matching shoes and accessories to complete the look. We will also get you
some makeup in your colors, not Hillary's extras. We need to do this
right away. You need to practice applying very light makeup that looks
feminine and businesslike, but that will still be age-appropriate for the
occasion."
A couple evenings later Madeline took Kaylie and Hillary on the promised
shopping trip. Madeline assured everyone that there was no longer any need
to be secretive. Kaylie was gaining confidence, but still not totally
comfortable presenting as a girl in situations where she might be
recognized. Her mother's continued reluctance probably affected the mood.
Ann had declined to accompany them shopping and just loaned Kaylie a
charge card to pay for her new outfit.
Madeline directed the girls to a store specializing in business and
professional attire, but that had younger clothes as well. At first
Kaylie was overwhelmed by the choices, but Madeline and Hillary were full
of advice.
"Saturated primary colors make a bold statement. You want a classic look;
nothing too trendy. How about this one? It looks very feminine without
being at all flirtatious. Here hold this one up. Yes, it is one you should
try on."
Eventually Kaylie had selected a striking yellow dress with contrasting
red scarf, a belt, a shoulder bag, and a pair of kitten heel shoes.
"Mother, will it be OK if I loan Kaylie a nice necklace and lucky charm
bracelet?"
"Yes, that will remind her of your support. But keep the bracelet subtle,
don't go overboard."
Kaylie thought they were through, but Madeline next lead the way to a hair
salon.
"You have been letting your hair grow out for a while now and making do
with my occasionally trimming it in my kitchen. It is time for your first
professional feminine style."
Kaylie smiled. She had worried about how the androgynous hair style she
needed for school would detract from her appearance at the assessment.
Madeline walked up to the receptionist desk at the salon. "I am Ms. Lee,
I called earlier for an appointment. This girl needs a styling
appropriate for a important interview. Her hair is a bit short, but I am
sure you can give her a totally feminine look."
As the stylist put the apron around Kaylie's neck she whispered. "Aren't
you Kyle Clark? The boy everyone is talking about?"
"My name is Kaylie, but I am not going to deny any rumors," she replied
confidently.
"You are really brave, dear. Let me see what I can do for you."
Kaylie was getting more and more stressed as the big day approached.
Madeline tried to balance the urgency of preparation with fun activities
to help Kaylie keep up her spirit. Hours of feminist reading were broken
up by getting into a leotard and tights for a movement and dance session
with Hillary. Madeline, Hillary, and sometimes Stacy led Kaylie through
numerous role-playing exercises to reinforce her feminine personality,
then switched to informal feminine chatting.
Finally the preparation time was over. Tomorrow would be Kaylie's crucial
day.
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