A person dropped into the rectangular room at the end of Hadbury Hall's
west corridor would need little time to recognise the room as one
intended for a very young boy, one certainly no older than infant
school age. The walls alone, with their baby blue paper intermittently
obscured by childish pictures drawn in messy crayons and held in place
by small green tacks, would confirm it, as would the deep plush shag of
the slightly darker blue carpet, which was there to feel comfortable
under the bare feet that little ones often ran around their bedroom in,
and was like nothing a grown up, or even an older child, would have in
their room.
Further confirmation was given by the grand old oak toy chest which sat
against one of the baby blue walls like a mountain against the sky. The
lid of the chest was secured by a large brown buckle, the kind of
fastening little children have difficulty with on account of their
small hands, and if the person also had the ability to see through the
light and dark toned panels of the chest itself they'd have seen a vast
collection of boy's toys - wooden trains, balls, guns, and of course,
an army of tin soldiers. To the right of the chest, and dwarfed by it,
sat a small wooden table and chair set with blue seats and three books
neatly stacked on the table, as well as one soldier, dressed in a
resplendent red uniform, who'd somehow escaped the confines of the toy
chest.
On the opposite wall was the door that led into the bedroom's private
bathroom, and that was accompanied by a wooden bookcase, overflowing
with colourful, childish books. To pick up a book at random would
return a title like "Alfred and Tommy go to the Zoo" or "My Big Book of
Animals," and many of the books bore the unmistakable marks of
excitable crayon scribbles left by previous readers or pages well
tattered and torn from being loved and read often. Most of the books
were blue, white or green, with almost none of any of the pastel
colours that might indicate a girl's bookcase, no pinks, purples,
yellows or lavenders, offering even further proof, if needed, of being
in a boy's bedroom.
In fact, the only thing that might give us visitor pause, and a rather
large pause at that, was the room's bed, which ran parallel away from
the large window of the back wall, a window that looked out onto
Hadbury House's well manicured gardens. It wasn't the bed itself, which
like the rest of the room was clearly meant for a small boy, its length
and width not even nearly sufficient for an adult and the cream bedding
with frilled blue piping far too childish, nor was it the large plush
blue headboard that separated the bed from the window and wall behind
it which sported a needlework of three white teddies at its heart.
Rather, the pause would be created by the size of the bed's occupant,
who was laying still under the bedding in the hope, the ridiculous
hope, that he might just be left alone for the whole day, and who
filled the bed more fully than the occupant of such a room should, his
bare feet poking out of the decorative metallic guard that sat at the
bed's end.
The bed's occupant was Daniel Hadbury, and he'd turned 16 on his last
birthday, a birthday that despite only being six weeks previous now
felt like a lifetime ago as he tossed and turned in the too small bed
in the forlorn hope of making himself more comfortable. How'd he come
to be sleeping in the small room of the west corridor, also known as
the boy's nursery, was something he himself hadn't quite worked out,
especially as he'd been in the hallway's grand bedroom, the one that
ran parallel to the corridor itself and was so big it had two
entrances, right up until that day he'd turned 16.
"Come along master Daniel, it's time to get up." The woman sweeping
into the room was Mrs Potts, and she threw open the embroidered
curtains, allowing a bolt of sunshine to illuminate the stillness of
the bedroom. "I know you're already awake, so let's not have that game
again. Your Mother wants everyone at the table by 7.30."
Daniel had been assigned Mrs Potts as his "Nanny" only a few days
before, a new low in his quick descent from his big comfortable four
poster bed to the too small bed of the nursery. It had been deemed
necessary after he'd gotten down to breakfast late for four days in a
row, as well as being dressed in a manner that Anna found unacceptable.
That they were his clothes, his favourite clothes, seemed not to
matter.
"I don't want to go," Daniel said, his voice muffled by the pillow he'd
hidden his face with, "I just want to stay here."
"Well I want to be on Newquay beach with a gin and tonic, but we don't
always get what we want, do we?" Mrs Potts was a large woman, closer to
the "old" end of the middle age spectrum and certainly nowhere near the
young, with greying black hair and a bosom that pushed fiercely against
the flowery tea dress that the Nannies of Hadbury Hall wore as uniform.
She'd been at the house for long enough to have been one of Daniel's
Nannies the first time around, so the situation was equally as strange
for her. "Come on Daniel. There's no point making a scene again. You
know what'll happen if you do."
Daniel's climbing out of bed, his pyjamas also baby blue, and with
their frilled edges and little pockets on the shirt, would do little
ease the confusion of any visitor to the room. For while Daniel was
clearly too tall to be the very small boy the room was intended for, he
was certainly not tall or big enough to look like a boy who'd
celebrated his 16th birthday. In fact, standing at just four foot eight
in his bare feet and with an unruly mop of light blond hair that
surrounded his small face, it was hard not to see a 9 or 10 year old
boy pull his bedsheets up neatly behind him and straighten his pillows.
"All done in there?" Mrs Potts asked, a trifle redundantly, as Daniel
returned from the adjoining bathroom. "You brushed your teeth?"
"Yes," Daniel replied, rolling his eyes in a way that brought a slither
of hair into his vision.
"Your clothes are on the bed, I'll go and tidy up the bathroom
while...."
"What are these?" Daniel asked, holding up the small pair of white
underpants sitting on top of his clothes.
"Don't make a fuss now," Mrs Potts said. She'd known he would though,
from the very moment she'd collected the underpants from Edward's old
underwear draw.
"These aren't mine. Where are my boxer shorts?"
Mrs Potts took a deep breath. Like many of the domestic staff she
wasn't all that pleased about Daniel's treatment, and like ALL of the
domestic staff she knew it'd never have been allowed if Lord Hadbury
was still alive, but when the choice came down to doing what Anna asked
and not doing what Anna asked, well, there wasn't a choice at all.
Daniel had problems, but they were nothing compared to the ones she
would face if she didn't have a job.
"Your Mother thought those boxer shorts are too tatty now. She also
thinks underpants are better under your day shorts." It was hard to
argue with the last point. Considering the high leg of the shorts
Daniel had been wearing, it didn't make sense to wear long, open boxer
shorts underneath. This was especially true when sitting cross legged
on the floor, often affording someone sitting at the wrong angle a
fuller view than was really necessary, including Mrs Potts herself, or
worse still, little Alice.
Daniel stared at the underpants for a few moments while Mrs Potts
disappeared into the bathroom. He knew his choices were limited.
Refusal to put them on would only lead to his Stepmother coming up the
nursery and then almost certainly having him over her knee again, after
which she'd make him put on the pants anyway. They didn't feel too bad
once slipped in place, a tad tight perhaps, and although he knew they
were the type of pants smaller boys wore, they didn't look overtly
childish, just plain white with a thin waistband. His outer clothes
were actually worse, but he'd been dressed in that fashion for quite a
few days now and so the teasing had started to abate. Today it was a
pair of lime green shorts and a plain white tee-shirt, teemed with a
pair of knee high white socks with matching lime green edging and his
usual pair of white buckle up shoes in a size 2, his feet just as small
as the rest of him, if not smaller. It was, in anyone's parlance, the
outfit of a little boy, and when Daniel looked at himself in the mirror
he was disgusted to see how well it suited him.
"Do you think Anna might give me back my chess board today?" Daniel
asked, as Mrs Potts brushed his hair, trying to tame at least some of
his curls.
"Well she certainly won't if you call her Anna. She's your Mother."
"Stepmother," Daniel spat. "Ouch! Be careful with that brush! Anyway,
even Anna is too nice. I should call her the Demon, or maybe even
Lucifer. She looked a bit like Lucifer yesterday in that horrible red
dress she was wearing. Owh! You did it again!"
"I wish she'd let you have this hair cut. It's getting harder and
harder to manage."
"I'm banned from haircuts," Daniel said, "just like I seem to be banned
from his chess board. So, what do you think? If I ask her nicely, do
you think she'll give it back?"
"I think she'll tell you exactly what she told you yesterday. It's at
the back of your old cupboard, and too much trouble to fish it out now
with all of Harry's stuff on top of it."
"What a load of rubbish! I could get it, if she just allowed me in
there." Daniel thought it bad enough to be removed from one's own
bedroom, but even worse to be banned from going in there!
The chess board had played a part in his troubles for sure, although
the stupid part was that he hadn't even wanted to play Harry, knowing
as he did that he'd beat the boy convincingly.
It was Harry himself, as arrogant and full of taunting as ever, who had
pestered, "C'mon Daniel. You're just scared that I'll beat you at the
one thing in the world you actually think you're good at, apart from
building those stupid planes. I just know I'll beat a baby like you at
chess."
They'd played in the centre of the room on Daniel's old study desk,
with all of the other children, including the girls, crowding around
the table and cheering for Harry. It lasted all of ten moves, and even
then Daniel had gone easy.
"You cheated!" Harry said, throwing the board across the road and
sending the remaining pieces crashing against the wall. "Edward, you
saw him cheat, didn't you?"
Edward nodded as quickly as he could in the face of pressure from his
older brother. "Yes, definitely."
"Me too," Olivia said, "why do you always cheat Daniel? Is it because
you're too much of a little baby to win?"
That the children disliked him so was no surprised, as poisoned against
him as they'd been over the years by Anna. When Daniel's Father had
been alive, this poisoning had taken the form of moaning about how
Daniel got special treatment, the bigger room despite being smaller
than Harry, and more spent on clothes and books. Now, it was simply how
useless he was, or how naughty and disobedient, and what a little baby
he acted like most of the time.
When word got back to his Stepmother about the game, probably via
Olivia, she became livid that Daniel had had the nerve to beat her
Harry at anything, cheating or not. She didn't say as much, but actions
speak louder than words, and the next day she stormed into Daniel's
bedroom as he was reading.
"I've decided it's ridiculous that you have this bedroom. It's too big
for you and Harry's room is too small for him. You're going to swap."
He argued of course, argued until he was blue in the face, but it was
no good. While he stood protesting, pulling angrily at the sleeve of
her floral print white dress, she had Junior and Frank begin the
process of moving Harry's numerous possessions across the hallway and
into their new home.
"You're just being selfish," she said, while pointing at where each
item should go, including the leather recliner seat which had somehow
moved from Daniel's Father's lounge to Harry's bedroom.
With no fair words left to fight the unfair argument, Daniel resorted
to insult. "You're just being a bitch."
He'd never seen Anna's face go so red, or her eyes so narrow. "What did
you call me?"
"A bitch," he repeated sourly, "this is my room, and...."
"How dare you!" She grabbed him by the hand with great fury, pulling
him across to the newly installed recliner which had been placed under
the balcony window, and then forcing his tiny frame over her lap so
that his head dangled over one side and his legs the other. For all his
squirming and kicking, especially as it dawned on him that he was about
to be spanked, her hand pressed strongly against his back was enough to
hold him in place.
"Boys don't talk to their Mothers that way," she said loudly, as she
brought her spare hand down a number of times onto the back of his
trousers, reddening his bottom with every smack, after which she stood
him in front of her. "Next time, I'll have your trousers down too.
Understand?"
"Yes," he replied bitterly, rubbing his sore bottom.
"Yes what?"
"Yes Mother," he said.
"And you can forget about playing with this for a while," she said,
taking his chess board from the table and throwing it to the back of
the cupboard, "perhaps when you stop acting like a spoilt little brat,
I might THINK about giving it back."
From there things had only gotten worse, to the point where Daniel
found himself going down to the breakfast table directly from the
nursery in his little boy shorts and t-shirt set, where he found
everyone already sat and already starting to eat. This included Anna's
friend Josephine, a tall humourless woman who seemed to most of her
time at the house. Josephine had been a schoolgirl friend of
Stepmother's, or so Daniel had heard. Aside from her, Harry and Edward,
already dressed in their crisp white shirts and linen trousers, had
taken their customary positions on the right of the table, while Olivia
and little Alice were sat at the left, with Anna at the head of the
table.
"You're late," Anna snapped.
"Sorry Mother," Daniel said, not sure he really was. He'd only had a
few short months getting to sit at the head of the table, in between
Father dying and Anna deciding she couldn't stand the thought of it any
longer, although he'd never felt that comfortable there anyway, the
seat seeming too big and grand and too warm from Father still. Since
then he'd commenced a slide down the table, from sitting to the right
of Anna, to sitting between Harry and Edward, to sitting at the end of
the table, in what had always been the youngest boy's seat.
"Oh no Daniel," Anna said, as he went to take his place, "you're to sit
on the other side of the table today. You see, Olivia had the wonderful
suggestion that maybe the nursery children should sit side by side.
That way the Nannies won't have to walk around the table."
"But that's the girl's side of the table," Daniel whimpered.
"I wouldn't annoy me this morning Daniel," Anna said, "just sit down
there, next to Alice. Good boy."
He shot a glare in the direction of Olivia as he sidled around. The
girl was only 9, but as well as inheriting Daniel's Father's large
frame and Anna's dark brown hair, she'd also taken on some of her
Mother's deviousness and spitefulness. It was hard to believe that
someone dressed so prettily could be so ugly in nature.
"Hello!" Little Alice said happily, as Daniel sat down. Like little
children tended to be, especially those still a few weeks shy of their
fifth birthday, she was simply excited by this change in the norm,
although even she understood that Daniel was really 16, and therefore
far too old to be in the nursery like she was. "Do you like how I've
dressed Sarah? She's wearing yellow, like me." The girl pressed the
blonde ragdoll in Daniel's face.
"Leave me alone," he muttered, letting out a sigh.
Alice shrugged off the miserable reply and went quickly back to fussing
with her ragdoll's dress, which was indeed yellow like the short frock
Alice herself was wearing, complimented by a yellow bow atop her
shoulder length blonde hair and a pair of white socks with yellow and
white frilled edging. It was of general consensus to anyone visiting
Hadbury House that Alice was a "little cutie," especially when she
fluttered those big blue eyes of hers and lisped her S sounds.
Naturally though the little girl idolised her big sister, and so Daniel
had been the subject of taunting from even Alice as she copied Olivia.
"Daniel, eat your toast now," Anna said, from her far away position at
the head of the table.
"No," he replied, his appetite diminished completely by this latest
humiliation. He only had two saving graces on the horizon. The first
and furthest away, by also the biggest, was that he'd become Lord of
Hadbury House on his 18th birthday, a fact that even Anna could do
little about, ensconced as it was by the law of Father's will. He'd
kick Anna out of the house straight away, naturally, closely followed
by her bratty children and all of the maids, servants and garden boys
who'd laughed at him. Then he'd set about finding himself a wife, one
who could past his small frame and feeble strength, and see instead the
parts of him that really mattered.
His second saving grace was that the children were due to be shipped
off to boarding school shortly, even little Alice, and he was sure that
Anna would bore of him without the children around to humiliate him in
front of. Meanwhile he was finished with boarding school forever - its
horrible teachers, bullying students and draughty hallways a thing of
the past - and although he hated being in the nursery room, it was 100%
better than any St. Christopher's dorm room.
"Alice, concentrate on your breakfast please," Anna said, "your dolly
can wait until after."
"No!" Alice said, replicating how Daniel had said it only moments
earlier.
"Oh really?" Anna looked over at Mrs Potts and Miss Greaves, Alice's
young Nanny. "Yes, I thought this might become a problem. We can't have
Daniel being a bad influence on Alice now, can we? Mrs Potts, please
make sure your charge knows to answer any question I ask by saying 'Yes
Mummy,' like a nursery child should."
The other children laughed at this. "How funny!" Olivia said. "I don't
even call you Mummy anymore."
"Yeah, but Daniel's a baby," Harry added, before Edward parroted much
the same sentiment.
"Baby Daniel!" Olivia giggled. "He should have a bottle. And a dummy!"
"And wear nappies," Harry said, making all the children laugh again,
even Alice.
"Alright, alright, that's enough teasing," Anna said, smiling herself,
tapping her well-manicured red fingernails against the table.
As summer start to wind down and the temperature drop, Daniel found
himself counting down the days to the children leaving with even more
fervour. It would be quiet and peaceful and far less stressful.
It would also mean he wouldn't have to sit with Alice, which is all he
seemed to do anymore. The girl's nursery sat in the east corridor, and
because the hallways were mirrors of each other, it shared the same
location and size as the boy's nursery. The difference was in the d?cor
and toys. Instead of baby blue wallpaper and a royal blue carpet, there
was pink wallpaper and a plush purple carpet, and instead of the toy
soldiers and trains there were dolls and miniature horses in the toy
chest, as well as a large doll house and a rocking horse just outside
the chest. And although the bed was the same size and the bedding
mainly white, the girl's bed was a four poster, with soft pink drapes
surrounding it from all sides. Until being sent there by Anna, Daniel
had never seen inside it, and it had felt somehow illicit.
The order had found its way to Mrs Potts after Daniel had repeatedly
forgotten to call Anna "Mummy," with the feeling being that maybe
Daniel spending more time with Alice would be a good influence on HIM!
"Well Alice is far better behaved," Anna said, "and you do keep saying
how bored you are Daniel, without your chess board and your little
planes to build. I'm just certain that Alice will keep you occupied."
At first Mrs Potts had been told to bring a number of Daniel's toys
over to the east corridor, and while Alice excitedly played with her
doll-house or coloured in with her pastel-coloured crayons, Daniel sat
in the corner of the room staring at the collection of boy's toys in
front of him with arms crossed, completely refusing to play with the
childish items. He was 16 after all, as he liked to remind the Nannies,
and he really should be allowed his chess board and books back.
Naturally, word of this soon got back to Anna, who thought the solution
quite simple.
"Well don't you see Mrs Potts, Miss Greaves? Daniel here just doesn't
like BOY'S toys, obviously. Get someone to take them back to the west
corridor." She kneeled down in front of the still pouting Daniel. "You
want to play with Alice's pretty toys, don't you?"
"Of course not!"
But Anna had already brought Alice over to Daniel's side of the room,
the little girl holding a plastic horse with a large mane in her hand
and her lilac frock covered in purple fluff from the carpet, "Alice
darling, Daniel really wants to play with all your GIRL toys. I want
you to involve him in all your games from now on, and if he says no,
you tell a grown up, understood?"
"Yes Mummy!" she squeaked excitedly. "Oh, he can play horses with me.
I've just started!"
Daniel didn't say anything, instead simply deciding that such a thing
would never happen, and that no punished doled out could change his
mind. Instead, he told Alice to stop being stupid whenever she tried to
involve him in one of her silly little girl games, often making her
cry. He didn't even care when Anna, with Josephine standing by her
side, gave Daniel a smack in the centre of the girl's nursery with his
grey shorts pulled down to his ankles and his white underpants on clear
view to all watching. Nor did he care the second time when she pulled
down his blue shorts to leave his blue underpants in the air and his
bottom red, or the third time when his yellow pants were shown.
"You just like trouble, don't you?" Mrs Potts said, as she put him to
bed one night. "You're stubborn, just like your Father was."
"Oh yes, I just love trouble," Daniel replied, "I love being stuck in
the boy's nursery while my younger half-brothers are sleeping in the
big bedrooms. I love being stuck in the girl's nursery all day with a
four year girl blithering on all day about her dollies. I love having
to wear little boy shorts and t-shirts, and having a Nanny again. How
did you get to be so insightful Mrs Potts? It must have been the three
weeks of school you went to. And I'd really prefer it if you didn't
mention my Father. You might have picked up his dirty clothes, but you
didn't know him."
Mrs Potts was used to this kind of rudeness and arrogance from her
charges. While looking after Edward he'd called her a "fat old tramp,"
but she surprised to hear it come from Daniel's mouth, who had more
reason than most to be humble. Normally she'd have administered a
smack, but it didn't feel right to do that to Daniel. Besides, he had
done enough to his poor little bottom.
"I'm sorry," he said, as she pulled his bedding up to his neck, "I'm
just so annoyed at everything. It's not fair, it's really not. It's not
fair that I'm so small, and it's not fair that I've been stuck with
that Demon. Just you wait though! She'll see."
"I'm sure she will," Mrs Potts said.
"Wait, before you go. I wanted to ask you - Harry was teasing me
earlier, and he said that Josephine had moved into my Father's old
room. It's not true, is it?"
"I wouldn't know," Mrs Potts lied. She'd seen the woman in there
herself that very morning, having Junior and Frank take a load of Lord
Hadbury's things down to the cellar. She'd never really understood why
Lord and Lady Hadbury had separate bedrooms anyway, and judging by the
four children they'd produced together it was clear they'd spent quite
a bit of time in the same bed.
"She better not have! That's my Father's room, and it's to be my room
when I turn 18. I'll have to try and find out."
"I really wouldn't. You know you're not allowed to roam around the
castle on your own."
"That's a stupid rule. Even Olivia can go where she pleases, and she's
a 9 year old girl. I'll find a way."
"You'll get me in trouble, and I'll probably lose my job," Mrs Potts
said, "is that what you want?"
"Why should I care? You don't care about making me live in a little
boy's nursery, do you? You're like one of Satan's minions. Don't think
I don't see you laughing behind my back."
"Think what you like. I've had quite enough of this conversation.
Lights out now," Mrs Potts said, "but if you do try to sneak away, I
will have you over my knee. That's a promise to you."
"Fine," Daniel spat.
"Yes, fine indeed."
Daniel began planning his "break-away" from the next morning onwards,
trying to find a moment or two in the day when one of the Nannies left
him alone for just long enough. He was starting to find himself a
little enamoured with Miss Greaves, who at 19 was a world away from the
gruesome middle agedness of Mrs Potts, and on whose body the flowery
tea dress of the Nannies sat a lot more appealingly, showing off her
thin waist and long legs. She looked more uncomfortable around Daniel
than most, perhaps because she wasn't all that much older than he was,
and he often found her staring nervously in his direction while
twiddling her long brown hair and chewing her lip nervously, as though
not sure whether to say something or not. She hadn't yet though,
instead hovering around Alice and tending to the girl's tantrums and
mishaps with elegance and patience.
Miss Greaves, or Peggy to her friends, was indeed confused and bemused
in equal measure by Daniel. She had a younger brother of about his age,
and she couldn't for one second believe he'd let himself be subjecting
to sitting in a girl's nursery and having dollies put in front of him,
even if Daniel didn't play with them. Not that her big, lumbering
brother was anything like Daniel of course, in fact he could probably
have picked Daniel up with one arm and swung around the room. Why
Daniel just didn't run away was beyond her - surely he'd be able to
find money from somewhere to live somewhere else? Hell, he could move
into one of the shelters if need be, which must have been preferable
for a 16 year old boy than living in an infant's room.
"He's scared," Mary had told her. Mary was a laundry maid at Hadbury
House, and the two of them around the same age and with the same taste
in boys, with Lenny, the young muscled-bound garden boy, a firm
favourite, "God, wouldn't you be? He's tiny, and Lady Anna is friggin'
scary. Does he actually play with the girly toys?"
"No, but he does have his shorts pulled down in front of everyone."
It was Mary who shared the rumour about Josephine, about how she'd
spent time in prison, "you know Ethel in the kitchens? Well her brother
works at the big women's prison up on Tuttler's Hill, and apparently
that Josephine was in there for three years."
"That's just a rumour," Peggy had laughed, "Ethel's a terrible liar.
She told me she was related to Charlie Chaplin, for God's sake. And
think about it. How did that conversation with her brother go? Oh,
we've had this woman arrive at the house called Josephine. She's really
tall and has red hair, oh, and her brother says, "oh, I know her." What
rubbish."
"You're just cranky because Lenny snogged Lydia."
"Well I am cranky about that, yes. But I'm still right." And yet Peggy
could feel there was something wrong about Josephine, in the way that
she moved and in the way she looked around, almost like a cat burglar
casing a museum. And she was rude too, calling Peggy "you there" and
clicking her fingers at the maids and servants. All in all, Hadbury
House was just plain strange, and if it weren't for the fact it paid
better than any other job a girl could get in the town, she'd have left
some time ago.
"Alice, don't break that, there's a good girl," Peggy said, taking the
already half broken toy fork out of Alice's small hands and putting it
in the pocket of her dress.
"We're going to have to do something about this soon," Mrs Potts said,
ambling over and then nodding her head in Daniel's direction. As
always, he was sitting in the corner of the room with his arms folded,
staring straight ahead.
"What do you mean?" Peggy whispered.
"It's not what Lady Anna wants. She'll fire us both, mark my words.
Especially with that Josephine in her ear."
"But that's not fair! My job is to look after Alice, and I do that. She
can't fire me because Daniel won't bloody play with a doll!"
"Life's not fair my girl. I've been thinking about asking if I can just
go back to being a maid. The pay's less, but I don't this sodding
hassle at my time of life. It's giving me a headache."
"Well...." Peggy started, "we could make him play."
"He seems pretty against it."
"We'll have to go the last resort then. Bribery. When I was looking
after my little brothers, I always used to bribe them with clementines
or say I'd knit them a new soldier if they did what I asked. Doesn't
Daniel want anything?"
"His chess board," Mrs Potts replied, "oh, and those planes he builds.
And probably his books. I don't think we could get any of them though,
Lady Anna is quite...."
"It doesn't have to be that chess board, does it?" Peggy said, "for
crying out loud, you can pick up an old chess set for a few pennies in
a second-hand shop. And we can get some books for him from the
library."
"But if Lady Anna finds out, we'll definitely be sacked."
"And if we don't try it, we'll probably be sacked anyway. You said so
yourself."
As the days continued to pass, the children ever close to going back to
boarding school and Daniel becoming more and more obsessed with finding
an opportunity to see whether Josephine had taken his Father's bedroom,
Peggy became more and more convinced that striking a deal with Daniel
was best for all concerned, and continued to tell Mrs Potts so.
"I found a very cheap chess board," Peggy told the older woman as she
dressed Alice for bed, the little girl looking adorable in a short pink
nightie with a large bow on the back. "I think we should talk to him
tonight. Where is he now, actually?"
"In bed," Mrs Potts replied, "Lady Anna made me put him to bed at 6.30
for being naughty. It was still light outside. Don't worry, the door of
the nursery gets locked, he can't get out."
"Then maybe we should talk to him in the morning," Peggy said, "early,
before anyone else is about."
The women found a dishevelled and slightly confused Daniel sitting up
in his bed very early the next day, the calls of the birds outside the
only thing punctuating the pre-dawn air. "I've slept for 9 hours and
it's still 4am," he croaked, his blond hair falling messily around his
face and the collar of his pyjamas half up and down. "What's she doing
here?" he asked, looking at Peggy.
"We've come to talk to you," Mrs Potts said, "but let us talk before
you say anything." It was Mrs Potts who pitched the idea, and Daniel
did say silent as she spoke, only rubbing the sleep out of his eyes and
yawning.
"No way," he said eventually, "I'm not going to play like some little
girl. Did you silly women really think the promise of a chess board
would make me?"
"Well," Mrs Potts stammered, "we thought..."
"Then you're both more stupid than you look. Please, don't worry your
silly little heads in future. I know what I'm doing and...."
"Oh yes, you really know what you're doing," Peggy said, her
interruption startling both Mrs Potts and Daniel. "You listen to me
now, Daniel. We're not going to lose our jobs over some spoilt brat
like you."
"Spoilt brat?" Daniel said.
"Yes, spoilt brat. We've tried being nice and we've tried making a
deal, but nothing works. So we'll go to plan C."
"What's that?" Daniel asked.
"Yes, what's that?" Mrs Potts asked.
Peggy looked at them both and then shrugged her shoulders. "We'll make
you do it. And with this plan, I'm going to make sure Alice plays all
of her most girly, frilly little games with you. There's going to be
tea-parties and pushing your prams around the garden where all the boys
can see you, and you're going to colour in so many fairy pictures it's
going to make your head spin."
"You can't make me do anything."
"I can."
"And how do you think...."
"Because if you don't do exactly what I ask, I'll tell Lady Anna and
Josephine that you'll be more likely to play with Alice if you were a
little nursery GIRL rather than a nursery boy, and that maybe if we put
you in some pretty little frocks and make your hair all nice you won't
be so embarrassed about playing with dollies."
Daniel stared at the young Nanny for quite a few seconds, his face
reddening at the mere thought of what had just been suggested. "You
wouldn't dare do such a thing."
"Why not? If you don't care what happens to us, why should we care what
happens to you?" Looking at the small boy staring out at them, his blue
eyes trying to convey confidence but showing the tell-tale signs of
worry, Peggy considered how much the world was a matter of pot luck.
Daniel could have been born with the body of Lenny, the gardener boy,
and then it was likely none of this would have been happening, at least
because he'd never have allowed himself to be taken over the knee by a
bunch of women. Like everyone she knew, she prayed to God. But it
seemed that God did have an awfully strange sense of humour.
"OK, we can make a deal," Daniel said, his voice sounding smaller now,
and dripping with the uncertainty of a little boy, "but I want more
than the chessboard. I want you to take me to the grand corridor so I
can see if Josephine has taken my Father's room."
Peggy already knew this to be true, but didn't let on. "We can do that.
But we'll want something extra from you. You have to call your
Stepmother Mummy like you've been told to do, and Josephine 'Aunt
Josie,' like Alice does."
"But Anna didn't even ask for that!"
"Who's Anna? Try it again Daniel. You need the practice," Peggy said,
sitting herself down next to Daniel on the bed. She was feeling more
confident now.
Daniel felt stupidly aroused as the young Nanny sat herself close
enough that he could smell her faint perfume. He could see through a
gap in the buttons of her dress too, all the way into a flash of lace
on her white bra. "Fine. 'Mummy' didn't ask me to call Josephine that,
so why should I?"
"Because we'll get extra credit," Peggy replied. "Do we have a deal?"
Daniel gave himself a moment to think once more. Father had taught him
to do that. It was a pity, he thought, that Father didn't teach him how
to deal with these demented women. Eventually, it was thinking about
his two saving graces, that he'd be 18 soon enough and the children
were about to bugger off to school, that made his mind up. "But when do
you take me to Josephine's...."
"Ah ah," Peggy said.
Daniel shook his head. "Yes, yes. When do you take me to Aunt Josie's
room?"
"When you've made us happy enough," Peggy replied, not disliking her
new found feeling of power and wondering, as Daniel pulled his sad
little body out of bed, if this was how it felt to be the Lady of the
house.
The move from Harry's room to the nursery had been via Edward's
bedroom, and had been quick. Of all the children, Edward had always
been Daniel's favourite, and when they were alone together, free of
Anna's poison, they got on quite well together, with the two of them
often joining forces to glue together one of Daniel's new model planes.
Edward wasn't a big or imposing as Harry had been at 10 or 11, but he
was still a few inches taller than Daniel already, meaning Daniel
looked like the younger brother as they sat together, with Daniel using
his smaller hands to glue together the fiddly bits while Edward talked
about his new favourite toys, or the goal he had scored at school.
Never one to miss an opportunity, Daniel had awoken one morning to find
a pair of Edward's belted shorts and check shirts sitting at the bottom
of his bed to wear. Thinking it a mistake, he had taken them to the
grand hall, where he'd found Anna having her hair brushed by Josephine,
the women talking quickly amongst themselves.
"I've been given the wrong clothes by the maids," Daniel said. He'd
pulled a dressing gown over his white silk pyjamas before heading
across the hall, but he still felt underdressed as he stood in front of
the women.
"No, it's not a mistake little Daniel," Anna laughed. "Josie and I
thought it'd be cute if you boys were dressed alike. You've been
playing together, after all." Josephine leant down and whispered
something into Anna's ear. "Oh yes, we're going to be going to the
beach after church today, so wear your swim shorts under your trousers
and we'll get changed there."
Daniel hated the beach even more than he hated going to church. "You
don't normally want me to come to the beach. You say I just mope
around."
"Yes, well. I'm going to making some changes around here. You've been
getting too much special treatment."
Daniel did indeed mope for the rest of the morning, sitting through
church with his feet pressed against the pew in front and stewing over
being dressed much the same as Edward, a fact not unnoticed by the
other children, especially Harry, who started to call them "my little
brothers." Even little Alice, dressed in her white church frock with a
pink fold down collar and white tights, asked why Daniel and Edward
were dressed the same.
"Because those clothes fit Daniel better," Anna whispered to a fidgety
Alice. "Now stop fussing!"
But what really annoyed Daniel happened after the service, when Harry
proudly announced that he was driving home with Frank, as he was "too
old for the beach now." Daniel was momentarily speechless, which turned
to anger when he looked over at Anna and Josephine smirking under their
large hats, clearly both pleased with themselves.
The car they'd take to the beach would be driven by Junior, who guided
Olivia into the back seat by taking hold of one the girl's white glove
covered hands as she made the steep step up. Edward clambered in next,
needing less help than his little sister, followed by Miss Greaves, who
was carrying Alice.
Daniel knew he had little choice but to climb into the car too, but
shot an angry glance at Anna as he walked over to it, hoping to convey
that he wouldn't forget such an embarrassment. Olivia giggled as Daniel
struggled with the step up, eventually having Junior push him up by the
backside before falling onto the backseat next to the still giggling
Olivia, the layered skirt of her lilac frock draping over his linen
trousers.
His embarrassments continued throughout the day. While Olivia and Alice
headed into the girl's beach-hut with Miss Greaves, the two of them
emerging in knee length one piece swim suits, Olivia's pink with light
frills on the arms and Alice's yellow but with a frilled cover up
around the waist that made the one-piece look like a little dress,
Daniel found himself shunted into the boy's beach-hut with Edward,
where he looked on nervously as Edward stripped down to just his grey
knee length swim shorts.
"Hurry up Daniel," Edward said. "we could go swimming."
What Edward didn't know, and what Daniel wasn't about to tell him, was
that Daniel couldn't swim. Worse than that, he was scared of water full
stop, a fact he was sure Anna knew. And while he had good reason to be
as scared of the water as he was, he knew how shameful it would look.
"I don't want to get changed," Daniel said. "I'll stay as I am. I'm not
feeling too well, actually." He followed Edward out of the beach hut
but it was only a few steps before his little brother ran off toward
the browny-gold beach, which was full and bustling on the warm summer's
afternoon.
"Why haven't you changed?" Anna asked, as Daniel reached the area of
the beach where the women had set up a wind breaker and their loungers,
two glasses of gin nestled on the beach table beside them and Alice
sitting at the end of Anna's lounger with a full dressed Miss Greaves,
building a sand-castle. Like Edward, Olivia had headed straight for the
sea.
"I don't want to," Daniel said, sitting down on the rope mat to the
right of Josephine's chair. "I didn't even want to come here! And why
did I have to, when Harry got to go home!"
"You don't know how to swim, do you?" Josephine said suddenly, not
lifting her head as she sunned herself, large sunglasses hiding her
dark eyes.
"Of course I do!"
"Josie here could teach you," Anna said. "She was the girls under 16
Norfolk champion at breaststroke, you know."
"I know how to swim!"
"Nonsense," Anna said, "if you knew how to swim you'd have run in to
the sea with all the other children. Why don't you go and play football
with those boys over there instead?" She pointed at the gathering of
noisy little boys a few hundred feet away, who had organised a
disorganised game of football.
"No thanks."
"Well I don't know Daniel. You don't want to go for a swim and you
don't want to play football." She sat up and reached into her bag,
producing a thin, bright book. "Here, you can read this then. Olivia
bought it to read in-case she got bored."
"This is a girl's book!" he said, looking at the picture of the young
blonde girl on the front in a pair of blue dungarees.
"Of course it's a girl's book silly. It's Olivia's book, and she's a
girl."
Still stewing, but with little else to do, Daniel began to read under
duress. The book was called Thimble Summer, and was the story of a nine
year old girl called Garnet, who lived on a farm in the USA, and who
finds a thimble on a riverbed that she thinks turns the families bad
fortune around. Soon he'd read a good chunk of the book, losing himself
in the world of words as he found he always could, as he lay on his
front, knees digging into the sand. He was at the point where Garnet
got stuck in a Ferris Wheel, something which seemed quite terrifying to
Daniel himself with his dislike for high places, when Anna decreed it
was time to go.
"Hey, who said you could read my book?" Olivia said, looming large over
him very suddenly with water dripping down onto his shirt from her long
hair. "That's mine. Give it back."
"But I've nearly finished it!" Daniel moaned, as Olivia grabbed the
book clean from his hands.
"Tough, it's mine," Olivia said.
"That's so ridiculous, just give...."
"I thought it was a girl's book?" Anna said.
"Well, it is, but...."
"Ha ha, Daniel's likes girl's books!" Olivia said, repeating it two or
three times before Anna told her to hush.
Daniel didn't push the request any harder, as keen as he was to find
out the book's ending. He did however notice the embarrassed look in
Edward's eyes, after the boy had caught Olivia's taunting. Edward would
never have been caught dead reading a "girls" book, that was for sure.
This seemed to manifest itself the following day when Daniel said
hello, to which they boy ignored him completely, as he headed out to
play football with Harry.
It really came to a head a few days later though. Daniel had asked
Edward if he wanted to build some planes together, at which point the
younger boy had launched into a tirade the like of which Daniel had
never seen from the normally placed Edward.
"Building planes is for little children," he shouted. "And I don't want
to play with you anyway. You're a little baby, and you read girl's
books."
For some reason, perhaps because it was delivered in Edward's otherwise
placid voice, Daniel found himself more annoyed than ever. "Stop being
stupid," he stormed. "It was just there to read. You're the one being a
baby, not me."
"I'm not a baby! I'm taller and more grown up than you, even Harry says
so. And he says I should have the bigger bedroom, and you should have
my room because you're the little boy of the family, not me."
"I'm 16 and you're 10!" Daniel said. "You should remember that! You're
still the littlest boy of the family."
"No, you're the little boy!" Then Edward did something quite shocking.
With his normally docile eyes now a pit of anger, he flew across the
room and hauled Daniel out of the chair, using all his strength to pin
a shellshocked Daniel to the ground. "Admit it," he said, pulling
Daniel's arm behind his back. "Admit that you're the little baby boy of
the family."
"I won't!" Daniel shouted, as he desperately tried to free himself from
Edward's grasp, kicking and thrashing as wildly as he could.
Edward pulled Daniel's arm more tightly. "Say it!" He was out of breath
himself, and clearly struggling to contain his older brother.
Daniel, summoning very ounce of strength in his little body, kicked out
heavily against Edward's shins, causing him to flail backwards in pain,
before Daniel landed a punch squarely in Edward's midriff. This winded
the boy for a brief second, before he came back again with a punch and
a kick of his own, until the two of them were rolling around the floor,
sending furniture scattering as they went.
The noise brought Harry into the room, just as Daniel landed a
perfectly time kick on Edward's shins, sending the boy falling to the
ground in tears. With a speed and strength that eluded either of them,
he pulled Daniel away from the crying Edward and then pinned Daniel the
ground himself, so that his large frame was looming over him. "What the
hell were you doing?"
"He was teasing me," Edward sobbed. "He was calling me a little boy,
and he kicked me!"
"He started it," Daniel yelled, squirming under Harry's grasp.
"You took a cheap shot," Harry said. "I saw it myself, kicking Eddie
like that. You need to learn a lesson. Eddie, give him a shot in the
ribs."
"No!" Daniel shouted, before crying out as Eddie landed a firm punch
right into his side, leaving him in tears.
"Say you're the little boy," Edward shouted.
"You better Daniel, or I'll let him punch you again."
"Fine, fine," Daniel shouted. "I'm the little boy, OK?"
"And Edward is your big brother, right?"
"Yes," Daniel said, angrily and still in tears.
"And you like reading girl's books don't you?" Edward said, more
bullish now. "The same stupid girly books Olivia reads."
"Yes, fine," Daniel said. He'd come to learn to recognise when he was
beaten. "I like reading girl's books. Just get off me."
Naturally, Anna heard about the fight in no time at all, and even more
unsurprisingly drew all the wrong conclusions from it, shouting at
Daniel for picking on Edward and saying how shameful it was that he'd
bully such a sweet and caring 10 year old boy, and that it showed just
how immature he really was. She made him stand with her, holding his
hand, as Junior and Frank started the process of moving Daniel into
Edward's small bedroom, and vice-versa.
"Leave the planes in there for Edward to play with," Anna told Junior.
"Daniel will have to make do with Edward's old toys." She kneeled down
to Daniel's eye level as she prepared to leave him in his new bedroom,
which was half the size of his old room at best. "Make no mistake
Daniel, Harry was right. In my eyes now, you are the little boy of the
family. You've been acting like it for months, so it's really much
farer this way. And if Edward's older than you now and he's 10, that
must be you're 9, like Olivia in fact. Actually no, Olivia is far more
mature than you as well. Let's say you're 8."
"8?" Daniel whimpered.
"Yes. From now, you can expect to be treated like any normal 8 year old
boy. You'll go to bed at the same time as Olivia and you'll wear
Edward's old clothes. Olivia and Edward will be pleased when I tell
them they have a new little brother."
"I don't know what I ever did to you to deserve this," Daniel said, as
he looked around his new room, a room clearly decorated for a pre-
teenage boy. Olivia's teasing upon finding out the news was b, but was
bad enough, but worse still was how she started to act as though she
really was Daniel's big sister, grabbing him by the hand as they
crossed the road towards church and telling him off when she thought he
was being naughty. This was the same Olivia that Daniel remembered
being brought home in Anna's arms and wrapped in a tiny pink knitted
shawl, the same Olivia who used to run around the corridors in her
fairy costumes waving her sparkly wand, the same Olivia who'd still
been in the nursery when Daniel started upper school. But now, somehow,
that little girl was now his "older" sibling, and she revelled in it.
Daniel fought back in the only way he could - to remind Olivia that she
was only a girl, and that despite his own regressions and
embarrassments he was still a boy, and that it made him more important
than her. "Yes, but I'm the heir of the estate," he told her one
afternoon, as Olivia chirped on for the hundredth time about how she
was now "older" than Daniel. "And when I become Lord in two years,
you'll still just be a silly, stupid insignificant little girl who no-
one cares about. And then you'll become a silly, stupid insignificant
wife who no-one cares about."
"No," Olivia said. "I'm going to be a vet. And my house is going to
have the biggest stables around, and we'll have winning racehorses."
"Yes, of course," Daniel laughed. "As if a girl could be a good vet.
And you better marry someone rich if you want those big stables,
because once I turn 18 you're all out of here and I won't be paying a
penny to help any of you."
The final west corridor descent was a prosaic one, taking place without
any significant misbehaviour from Daniel or run-in with any of the
other children. What did happen on the day of the move is that Daniel
woke to find Josephine standing at the end the bed in the half light of
the morning, with her arms behind her back and an indecipherable look
upon her face.
Josephine was unlike any woman Daniel had met before, both in her
mannerisms and appearance. At the breakfast table she took a copy of
the Times and read it while drinking a black coffee, and dinner was
accompanied by a small glass of ale rather than the sparkling wines
Anna drank. Rather than dresses she wore dark polyester trousers and
plain blouses, even to church when all women wore frocks, and her black
hair was cut short and unfussily, and she rarely wore any jewellery.
And while Daniel couldn't be sure how tall she was, he guessed her to
be at least six foot, if only because when she stood next to the
fireplace in the main hall the top of her head just about reached the
bottom of the family portrait hanging above the fire, just like
Father's head had always done.
Yet despite these masculine traits, and her despite her economy of
words and sharp, pointed nose and uncoloured nails, she was still quite
obviously a woman, and didn't seem to hide the fact. Her bosom was more
than apparent under her blouses, and she did things a man would never
do, like buy Olivia a set of sparkly necklaces and bracelets for her
birthday, or go dress shopping with Anna, or read the low-brow romance
novels that women went mad for, the type with a muscle-bound soldier or
farm-boy on the front, with his arm around a sultry, fluttering damsel.
Not that Daniel was thinking about any of this as he woke to find her
staring at him. "Josephine?" he croaked, his blood running cold.
A crooked half-smile appeared at the corner of her small, round mouth.
"You're just as cute as a little button," she said, her voice low and
cool. "God really got it wrong with you, didn't he?"
"What are doing in here?"
"You remind me quite a lot of my little brother," she continued, arms
still behind her back. "He was a wimp like you. Not as incredibly short
or childish though, but just as soft and scared. I used to challenge
him to wrestling matches when we were younger, before I was banned from
doing it, and I would always win. He'd cry and moan like a little
infant as I sat on top of him. He used to tease me for being a girl,
just like you teased Olivia the other day."
"How do you know about that?" Daniel said, desperately trying to wake
himself up more fully.
"I'd reply by calling him 'Little William.' God, he hated that.
Sometimes 'Little Willie' too, which he hated even more. His face used
to go all red and blotchy, just like yours does."
"You shouldn't be in here. I don't like it."
"We're going to talk more 'Little Daniel.' I'll be back to see you
again."
That afternoon Anna appeared in the doorway, with Olivia, in her blue
denim dungarees, on one side, and a Nanny Daniel recognised on the
other. To escape his boredom, Daniel had taken to reading one of
Edward's books, a terribly childish story about a young boy who becomes
the village spy to solve a load of silly mysteries, and he barely
noticed their appearance at first, until Anna coughed.
"You're to move in to the nursery," Anna said, with a chilling matter
of fact-ness.
"Wait, what?"
"We're not going to discuss it, save to say that your behaviour has not
been of the standard I'd expect from an 8 year old boy, and that I
don't trust you to be alone in the house anymore. From now on, Mrs
Potts here will be your Nanny."
"This is ridiculous! I absolutely won't go to the nursery! Only infants
sleep in the nursery! Alice sleeps in the nursery, for crying out
loud."
"Yes, and Olivia quite maturely pointed out to me yesterday, you're far
close to Alice's level of maturity than you are to hers. I mean, look
at how you spilt that drink everywhere at breakfast yesterday."
"That wasn't my fault! Edward kept nudging me as I tried to drink!"
Daniel shouted. "This isn't fair. I'm 16 years old!"
"And what about last Sunday when you tried to go to church with your
hair in a state, and I had to brush it for you?"
"Well maybe if you let me get it cut," Daniel spat.
"Or when you fell over in the garden and cut your knee?"
"I was running away from Harry, he was...."
"No, no, this is much better. Mrs Potts will look after you. She'll
make sure your hair is always washed and brushed, and that you don't
get yourself in trouble."
Daniel found himself crying as he was led to the end room of the
hallway, with Anna holding one hand and a beaming Olivia holding the
other. He'd slept in the nursery room before of course, but that had
been over 10 years ago, back when everyone had assumed his shortness
was a phase, and that he'd grow to be as tall as his Father. Back when
the smell of his Mother, his real Mother, could still be detected in
the hallways and bedrooms. Before Edward, Olivia and Alice were even
thought of, never mind born. The room was soft and still as they
entered, with the faintness whiff of bleach wafting through from the
adjoining bathroom.
"He's even crying like Alice does," Olivia said. "You're such a baby,
Daniel."
Peggy's room was in the downstairs hallway of the house, reached via a
door at the back of the kitchens, and far from the sight of the
sensitive eyes of her social betters above. It was a room she shared
with Mary, their beds on either side of the small, boxy space, only a
few personal effects brightening the dank walls that had once been
white but which now looked a tired shade of yellow. A remnant of
previous occupants who had smoked, along with the small burns in the
carpets.
"You have to tell me more about it," Mary said. She was sitting on the
edge of her bed, rifling through her make-up bag. "I can't believe you
didn't say anything yesterday."
"I fell asleep before you got back," Peggy replied. "Anyway, that's not
a whole lot to tell. Josephine appeared in the morning..."
"Oh, she's been really creepy recently."
"...yeah, well she appeared at about 9ish just as we were about to take
Alice and Daniel out to the gardens, and says that there's been a
change of plans. She says that we're going to in to Oakley, and to that
sports centre, you know the one by the roundabout?"
"Yeah, I know it. My Father used to drink in the pub next door."
"She says that she's taking the children for a swimming lesson there."
"Children? Including Daniel?"
"Yes."
"Daniel can't swim already?"
"Apparently not."
"Jesus, what's wrong with that boy?"
"You haven't heard the half of it Mary."
The house had been a hive of activity over the last few days, with
final preparations being made for the children to go back to school.
For the first time this had meant work for Peggy too, giving that Alice
was starting her first year. This meant fitting her for her uniform, an
impossibly small little red pinafore dress, the same as Olivia wore to
school, as well as preparing all the sundries that came with sending a
child off to school - making sure she had the right books in the right
bags, and that her personal clothes and belongings were packed. Sending
a little girl off to boarding school a few weeks before her 5th
birthday seemed terribly cruel to Peggy, and she really didn't think
Alice was ready, but she kept her mouth shut, knowing her place.
Amongst all this she now had Daniel to worry about. Incredibly he had
kept his end of the deal and really had started to play with Alice, a
sight that never failed to amuse and confuse Peggy in equal measure.
He'd walk around the large dollhouse with her, him in his little
brightly coloured shorts and her in her day dress, playing out a game
with Alice's endless dolls. Daniel would normally play the part of the
"boy" dolls, the Dad, the Brother, the Boyfriend, something he did
quite sweetly, only occasionally drawing Alice's ire for not playing
properly. And it didn't stop there. He took control of two of the
stuffed toys when Alice wanted to arrange a tea party, and sat quietly
next to the little girl while Alice read them a fairy tale.
Often Daniel would try to steer the games to something less mortifying,
like hide and seek or snap. Sometimes this worked, not that it made
Daniel looked any more grown up to be playing "you're it" while running
around the nursery, dodging the rocking horse, and sometimes Alice
would screw her tiny nose up. "Those are BOY'S games. I want to play
girl's games."
The others teased Daniel something terribly of course, especially Harry
and Edward, while Olivia often joined in the "girl" games and then made
sure Daniel had the most girly role, like pretending to be the princess
in their little role-plays or the little girl doll at the tea party.
Most of the time she chastised Daniel for doing something wrong by
calling him a "silly boy," but sometimes, in the midst of a game when
Daniel was playing the role of a female character, she'd call him a
"silly girl," just like she did Alice.
It hadn't been easy to get Daniel playing, even after the deal had been
made. For the first couple of mornings he joined in with Alice but in a
half-hearted way, sighing often and making Alice cry by pretending a
doll or stuffed toy had died in a terrible accident. She'd remedied
this by reminding Daniel that the deal was a luxury as far as she was
concerned, and that she was quite happy to suggest to Anna that he'd
play much better in a pretty little frock, like the ones Alice wore.
This threat was backed by tutorials for Daniel before bed on how to
play "properly," when Mrs Potts and her would make him host his very
own tea party with stuffed animals smuggled over from the girl's
nursery, correcting him every time he didn't play like Alice might have
done.
Anna and Josephine were delighted with these developments, as they were
with Daniel calling them "Mummy" and "Aunt Josie" respectively, which
always brought giggles from the other children. Even Peggy thought he
sounded so terribly sweet and cute when he did so, certainly more cute
and sweet than Peggy remembered any of her younger brother's being.
"So what happened next?" Mary asked, becoming impatient.
"Well Daniel didn't want to go, naturally. He stomped around and
shouted about it not being fair for about ten minutes while I changed
Alice in to her swimsuit, he really does pout like a little boy
sometimes."
"Incredible," Mary said, looking in the vanity mirror as she applied
her lipstick.
"Yes, well listen to this then. Josephine has been standing very still
the whole time, but suddenly she turns and leaves. Well Agnes and me
don't know what's happening. We've got Alice running around excitedly,
wanting to go swimming, and Daniel shouting bloody murder about how he
won't go. Then Josephine comes back, and not saying a word, just picks
Daniel up and starts to undress him. All the way. And then, she starts
rolling something up his legs. Daniel's screaming and shouting, but she
doesn't care. It's only when she lifts him upright that all of us can
see why he's so upset. He's wearing a girl's swimsuit..."
"Wait, what?"
"Probably one of Olivia's. I think I've seen her in it. It's pink, with
all these pretty little frills on the arms and bows on the legs."
"Wow. I bet he was having a fit!"
"Of course. But the funny thing was, it suited and fitted him so
perfectly. You couldn't even see his little thing, because the suit is
padded there I suppose, and his hair is so long now that he just looked
like a little girl with curly blonde hair in a pink swimsuit."
"You went with them? To the pool?"
"I did. Junior drove, and Josephine kept Daniel on her lap the whole
way, wrapped in a towel. He was kicking and yelling at her, but he just
looked like a small child arguing with his Mother. So anyway, we didn't
realise that Josephine had rented the pool out, so there was no one
else around which must have Daniel a bit happier, although he probably
wasn't too happy about being brought into the women's changing rooms
with us. I tell you Mary, when she put those pink armbands on him, just
like the ones Alice was wearing, I could have died."
"What did Alice think about all this? About Daniel wearing Olivia's
swimsuit?"
"Oh, I'd nearly forgotten about that. Yes, she kept asking why Daniel
was dressed like a girl until Josephine told her that this swimming
pool was for women and girls only, so Daniel was going to have to
pretend to be a girl for the day. She made Alice promise not to tell
anyone he was a boy. She even gave him a name."
"No!"
"Yes. Dani. She called him it from the moment we stepped out of the
changing rooms. Dani and Alice, can you believe it? But "Dani" wouldn't
get in the water no matter what. I felt a bit sorry for him actually,
especially when Josephine just lifted him in and then held him by the
waist in the water. He cried non-stop the whole time. She managed to
get Alice to lay flat in the water and kick her legs out, but Daniel
just wouldn't. She gave up in the end, said we've have to try again. He
only stopped crying once Josephine finally let him out of the water."
"I feel sorry for the poor thing," Mary said. "I don't understand why
Anna needs to be so cruel to him. OK, I know he's not her child, but I
don't think that's a good enough reason. She could just ignore him. She
doesn't have to humiliate him."
"I don't know either," Peggy replied. "That did seem particularly nasty
yesterday, especially making him wear that little girl swimsuit. I
mean, he's almost a grown man. And he really did look terrified of the
water, the poor thing."
"What happened when you got back?"
"He was just very quiet. The other children found out about it of
course, so they gave him a hard time. They're all calling him Dani now
and calling him a baby for being frightened of water. I'm glad for his
sake that they're all going back to school tomorrow."
"I'm not looking forward to today though," Mary said," there's going to
be so much laundry to deal with and..."
They were interrupted by a very red faced and worried looking Mrs
Potts, who burst into the room without knocking. "you have to come,"
she panted. "Quickly. It's Daniel. He's gone!"
Peggy and Mary exchanged a quick glance before both springing to their
feet. "What do you mean? Gone?" Peggy said.
"I went to get him up and the bed was empty," she cried. "I've been
looking all over. The east corridor, the west corridor, the gardens,
even the stables...."
"Alright calm down," Peggy said, worried the old woman might bring on a
heart attack. "He can't have gone far."
Mrs Potts put a hand over her eyes. "I knew they pushed him too far
yesterday. That wasn't right! Oh God Peggy, I'm going to be in so much
trouble."
"Where could he have gone? He can't have left the grounds, the
gatekeepers would never have let him. He could have gone over the back
fence I suppose..."
"Oh no!" Mrs Potts wailed.
"He's not tall enough," Mary said. "He might just be hiding in one of
the rooms."
"You looked in around Josephine's room, didn't you?" Peggy asked. "He
has been talking more and more about that."
"I got as close as I could, but what excuse would I have had if anyone
had seen me?"
"Alright, alright. He's got to be here somewhere. I'll search the east
corridor again and you take the west," Peggy said. "I've only got half
an hour before I have to get Alice up though."
"Oh thank you," Mrs Potts said.
"I'll search the gardens," Mary said. "I don't need to be in the
laundry for a while yet."
The women searched frantically for the next half an hour, Peggy going
in to every room she could while trying to avoid Anna or any of Anna's
maids, who would have surely asked what she was doing there. She
couldn't shrug the nagging feeling that maybe Daniel really had run
away, and found herself worrying for his wellbeing more than the
security of Mrs Potts, or her own job.
Eventually they all met again in the maid's quarters, all out of breath
and all having drawn a blank. "There's not much else to do," Mrs Potts
said. "I'm going to have to go to Anna's room and tell her the truth.
She'll be able to get Junior and Frank to drive in to town, or some of
the garden boys to search the grounds more thoroughly."
"He hasn't left the grounds," Peggy opined once more. "He's in his
pyjamas, and I don't think he's brave enough to go running around the
village on his own. He's here somewhere."
Peggy was right, Daniel was in the house. And there was a good reason
why Mrs Potts knock on Anna's door a few moments later, the old woman
as nervous and terrified as she'd ever been, went unanswered. It was
because Anna wasn't in her room, and hadn't been for an hour. In fact,
she was in Josephine's room. With Daniel.
Daniel had been less surprised to wake up and find Josephine at the
foot of his bed again, but he was surprised to find Anna with her, the
two women standing perfectly still in the dark, their outlines only
just visible and almost ghostlike. Both were already dressed, and they
were whispering to each other.
"What are you doing now?" Daniel said, sleepily. It felt like he'd only
gone to sleep moments before - it had been hard to drift off after such
an embarrassing day - and he still felt groggy as Josephine pulled back
his bedsheet and pulled him clean into the air, cradling him in front
of her body with one arm under his legs and one his chest. To muffle
the yells they knew he'd make, Anna tied a piece of cloth around his
mouth and tied it tightly around the back, in a way that was impossible
for Daniel to reach.
"Don't worry, you're not in trouble," Josephine said. "And I'm not
going to hurt you." She carried him all the way to her room, or what
had been Daniel's Father's room, and placed him on an old leather
chair, tying his arms and legs to the chair legs with two lengths of
rope.
"What are you doing!" Daniel yelled, as Josephine removed the cloth
from around his mouth. "Let me up this minute!"
"Just be quiet, or I'll put the gag back in," Josephine said. "We want
to talk to you, that's all. Well, give you a choice, actually."
Pulling up a chair so that she was sitting directly in front of him,
Anna, already dressed for the day in a green dress and with her hair in
a high bun, began. "Daniel, Daniel, Daniel. I just don't know what to
do with you. None of us do."
"What do you mean?" he said. "What are you talking about?"
She let out a dramatic sigh. "Josephine and I have been talking about
it a lot over the last few weeks. What, with the children going back to
school tomorrow it's just going to be the three of us here. And as much
fun as I've had with you recently, it's clear there's no point keeping
you in that nursery once the children have left. And like you say,
you're 16 now, so you really aren't a child at all."
"Yeah," Daniel said slowly, his mind whirring desperately as he tried
to guess where the conversation was going.
"So, both Josephine and I think the answer is quite obvious. You need a
trade. Something to occupy your time and make you useful. Luckily for
you, Josephine knows Mr. Abicare, an accountant in the village. He's
agreed to take you on as an apprentice, starting tomorrow."
"What's this really all about?" Daniel asked, still no surer about what
was happening.
"It's about exactly that. You're going to work with Mr. Abicare in his
office. He's going to teach you to be an accountant. Then, when you're
trained, you'll start your own business perhaps. Or maybe come back
here and help with the estate's books."
"No, I'm still confused. How can I become an apprentice? I'm going to
take over the estate when I'm 18. And I don't want to be some dogsbody
of an apprentice! I know Mr. Abicare's office in the village. It's
tiny! And I've seen him around too - he looks like an old miser. No.
That doesn't sound like a good idea at all."
"You looked so cute in that swimsuit yesterday," Josephine said
suddenly, from her position standing by the fireplace. "You really
should have seen him Anna, floundering around in the water in his pink
frilly swimming costume. He looked about as far from being the Lord of
a house as anyone could ever be. Little Alice looked a more likely
bet."
"And who asked you?" Daniel spat. "What are you even doing here? Who
are you? And what the hell are you doing in my Father's bedroom!" He
could feel himself getting angrier. "You've got no right to be in here!
I can see how you moved all his stuff around. You should move it back,
right now."
"Oh really?" Josephine smirked.
"Yes really," Daniel replied. "And you can both hear this right now.
You're not pushing me off to some miserable old accountant's office in
the village."
"Calm down," Anna said. "I hadn't even finished yet." She picked up a
pile of papers from the table next to her. "Not only are you going to
take that apprenticeship Daniel, you're also going to sign these. Mr
Treyhorn Lineker has drawn them up. They're a statement of abdication,
confirming that you wish to relinquish your right to take over Hadbury
House on your 18th birthday."
"You've gone mad," Daniel said, both angry and amused. "I would never
sign that. Never in a million years! What made you even think I would!"
Anna continued. "They pass the inheritance on to Harry. He'll take on
the title of Lord on his 18th birthday, as well as control of the
estate's finances." She shook her head. "You surely didn't think I was
going to let you take control of this house, did you? I mean, quite
aside from the fact that you're a selfish, rude little boy, a boy so
unlikeable that even his own Father wasn't that fond of him, you must
know that you're not capable of running an estate this large? I mean,
how could someone of your limited intellectual and physical stature
ever possible manage all that needs to be managed? It was difficult for
your Father, and he was a brilliant man. Imagine how impossible it
would be for a sickly little cry baby like you."
"You don't even deserve to talk about Father," Daniel said, tearing up.
"And he did like me. He loved me. He was never embarrassed by me. What
did he, or I, ever do that made you hate us all so much?"
"Oh boo hoo," she laughed. "Now, there's four copies to sign. One for
my records, one for Mr Treyhorn Lineker, one for the estate records and
one for the registry. Here's the thing we haven't said, sign them now
and you don't have to go back to the nursery today. In fact, Frank will
drive you to Mr. Abicare's office straight away, he has all of your
belongings in the boot of the car, including your chess set and all
your planes. You'll be staying in the flat above Mr. Abicare's office,
which I'll be kind enough to rent for you until your apprenticeship is
over." She leaned in close still. "Surely that's better than going back
to play dollies with Alice and Olivia?"
"I will never sign that," Daniel said. "And I really can't believe you
thought I would. Is that what yesterday, at the swimming pool, was all
about? Did you really think that humiliating me like that would be some
kind of tipping point? You really don't know me too well at all. I've
been humiliated and made fun of all my life. You can both go to hell."
Anna turned to look at Josephine and they both smiled. "Very well,"
Anna said. "So let's talk about the alternative. If you won't sign it,
that means you'll be staying here with Josephine and I. In that case,
things are going to be very different. And if you think you're going to
get to go back to your nice big room and your chess set and your planes
and books, you're sadly mistaken. Josephine has come up with something
far better."
"So you're going to keep me in the bloody nursery?" Daniel said. "What
a surprise. I knew you'd probab....'"
"In the nursery yes," Anna said. "We both think that refusing the
apprenticeship merely confirms what we've always suspected - that
you're far better suited to being in the nursery than anywhere else. So
if you haven't signed these papers by the time the children leave for
school in oh," she looked at the grandfather clock on the wall, "four
hours, then you're going to become our very cute and VERY obedient
three year old, and we're going to treat you exactly like all the other
children were treated when they were three. Oh, and I almost forgot.
Seeing as you've failed so miserably at being a man, or even a boy,
you're going to become our three year old GIRL."
"What?" Daniel said, his head spinning.
"That's right. Alice is off to school, so you'll take her place in the
east nursery. Make no mistake about this Daniel, if you don't sign
these papers you really are going to become the new little girl of
Hadbury House. Josephine and I have every worked out. You're going to
be Dani, my youngest daughter. You're going to wear pretty dresses and
play with your dollies and everything else that comes with being an
adorable little toddler girl, all while your big brothers and sisters
are off at boarding school. And when you refuse, Josephine here will
simply make you comply. No deals. No trades. What we want to happen
will happen."
"You can't...." Daniel murmured. "I mean, you wouldn't....."
"I think he needs proof," Anna said, turning to Josephine. "Shall we
try to persuade him?"
"Gladly," Josephine replied. With a deft touch and overwhelming
strength combined, she lifted Daniel out of the chair and onto the bed,
where she pinned him down and began to take off his clothes again, just
like she'd done the previous day. Then with Daniel's desperate
struggling in vain, she took the pair of pink ruffled knickers from
Anna and snapped them firmly in place around his middle, before taking
a pair of white tights and sliding those into place too.
"Enough proof yet?" Anna asked.
"Please stop this," Daniel sobbed. "It's not fair!"
"Look at you, already crying like the cute little toddler you are. Want
to sign the papers yet?"
"No, I'll never sign those," he shouted.
"I'm quite pleased actually," Anna said, "because I'm dying to see how
you'll look in this." She handed the dress to Josephine who slipped it
over Daniel's head and then stood him down on the ground so that the
women could pull it in to place. Anna was delighted with the result.
The dress was pink tulle, with a floppy bow at the back and a bed of
netting under the skirt that made it point outwards ever so adorably.
It was just the right length too, barely long enough to hide the top of
his tights and the frilled knickers below, just like the comfortable
play dresses they put Alice in. She could barely believe how small his
arms and legs looked, or how the dress made his childish face look even
more infantile.
"Look at you," Anna said, tying the bow at the back of the dress as
Josephine buttoned up the back. "You look so very pretty. What a big
girl you're getting to be Dani. Want to see?"
Daniel tried not look in the mirror but in end found it impossible not
to. The reflection, of a little blonde girl dressed in a pink frock,
tears falling down her face so hard that the top of the dress was
starting to dampen, made his stomach turn. Obviously he don't look
three, more like an older girl dressed up to look like a younger girl,
but he definitely didn't look like any kind of boy. At all.
"Shall we give Dani her birthday present?" Josephine asked, as they
twirled Daniel around.
"Good idea!" She produced a small present from under the bed, wrapped
in fairy print paper. "Here you Dani. It is your third birthday today,
after all. Well, aren't you going to open it?"
Daniel took the box from her and then threw it across the room, where
it bounced against one of Father's portraits, one of him standing with
Daniel beside him, with a deep thud.
"Silly girl," Anna said. "You know something? I know I said there'd be
no deals or threats, but maybe we should make one. You see Daniel, I
have all of your Mother's jewellery in my room. Her lockets, her
necklaces, her bracelets. I also have the letter she wrote to you. Did
you even know that existed?"
"What? No. Where is it?" Daniel felt his stomach twist violently. "You
better give me it."
"No no. It says you can't open it until you're 18. Your Father kept it
hidden from you. Seems your Mother always had this sense that she
wouldn't see you grow up, and so the letter was her way of talking to
you on your 18th birthday."
"You're lying! What a thing to lie about?" And yet somehow he knew she
wasn't. From what he knew of his Mother it sounded like exactly the
kind of thing she might do. She believed in fate and spirits and the
after-life and all that nonsense, and he'd heard from some of the maids
that she didn't believe she was going to live very long.
"The letter's safe, don't worry. And if you sign the papers it's yours.
You can open it today if you want. But if you don't the sign the papers
before you're 18, and if you don't behave in a manner becoming of the
three year old you're choosing to be instead, I will burn it. And not
only will I burn it," she patted down the front of the dress, "I'll
read it first and then I'll burn it. So, let's try it again," she said,
as Josephine handed him the box. "Are you going to open your present
Dani?"
He simply didn't know how to react. If the letter was real, there was
nothing in the world he wanted more than to read it. But he couldn't
sign those papers, he just couldn't. To do so would make the letter
completely worthless, because he couldn't face reading it being the boy
who'd given away Hadbury House. The only solution he could come up with
was one of time. One that let him consider another option - an option
that would beat them all.
"Good girl!" Anna said, as he began to unwrap the present. "See, it's
your very own ragdoll, just like the one Alice owns. Now, you're to
keep this with you at all times, understood? You're going to love it
just like Alice loves hers, or Olivia loved hers. And I've already
picked out a name for it. How does Florence sound?"
"That's my Mother's name," Daniel hissed.
"What a coincidence. Maybe it'll help you remember to keep it with you.
Florence is a bit of a tricky name for a toddler to say though, so you
can call it Flo. Now, one final time. Are you absolutely sure you won't
sign these papers?"
"Never," Daniel said, the ragdoll pressed against his chest.
"Very well," Anna said. "The children will be gone soon, so we'll bring
you down to the nursery. In the meantime, Josephine and I'll do some
more work on you to make you look exactly like the toddler girl you
really are."