Harry Potter and the Spellbook of Desires Chapter 14 Test Subjects
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December 29, 1988, Chicago, Illinois
“Hi, Steve!” Kimmy squealed, giving me a tight hug and a quick kiss before pulling me into her apartment. “I missed you!”
“I missed you, too!” I said.
“I heard through the grapevine that you finally saw Jessica and that she’s getting some kind of treatment for stress.”
“You heard right.”
“So what does that mean?” she asked.
I knew she meant between us, and was very glad that I’d had the conversation with Kara.
“Right now, you and I continue on. We have lunch when we can, and I spend Saturdays here while Kara is with her study group.”
“Every Saturday?” she asked with a huge smile.
“Yes, unless something else interferes. But when Jess comes home, I have to talk to her about this. I can’t hide it from her. Kara knows.”
“And Kara’s OK with you and me?”
“Yes. She got on my case for not telling her about it, and rightly so.”
“I’m just glad I can see you that often! Now, shall we make love or eat first?”
“Your choice!” I said with a smile.
“As if there’s really a choice!” she said, grabbing my hand and dragging me down the hall.
Ten minutes later she was riding me gently as she liked to do, and when she’d had two orgasms, she concentrated on bringing me off, which she did a few minutes later. She lay on top of me, and I held her while we talked.
“What did you do for Christmas,” I asked.
“I went to my cousin’s house in Columbus, Ohio. They hosted the family Christmas this year. It must be crazy in your house with all those kids!”
“Totally,” I chuckled. “And it’s only going to get worse with two more by next Christmas.”
“You sure like to make babies!” she giggled.
“I do. I also like NOT making babies,” I chuckled. “Especially with you.”
“I like how you always cuddle me afterwards, and that you like to hug and cuddle even without sex. Most guys don’t seem to like that, or seem to do it only to get sex.”
“It’s something I’ve always liked to do,” I said. “And with you it’s just so comforting.”
She lifted her head and looked me in the eyes and smiled, “Cuddling naked on the couch is just perfect. Could we do that again?”
“Anything you want,” I said. “So long as I can hold you in my arms.”
“I’d like that. Now, let’s have some lunch so you can get back to the office before anyone gets suspicious!”
We kissed a bit, showered, dressed, and then ate lunch. When we finished, I headed back to the office to finish out the work day. When I arrived home, Kara was waving a letter.
“Jess wrote us!” she said. “Can I open it?”
“Yes, of course!”
Kara hastily tore open the envelope and extracted a light yellow sheet of paper that was covered with Jess’ not-so-neat handwriting.
“She writes like a doctor,” Kara giggled. “Not like a girl.”
“She IS a doctor!” I chuckled. “No perfect ‘Palmer Method’ for her! What does she have to say?”
“Not a lot, really. Just that she’s doing OK, she misses us, and that she’ll try to call on Sunday afternoons each week. She’s gained three pounds which she says the OB she’s going to see every two weeks thinks is good, given where she was. She says she’s getting lots of sleep and eating better. And that’s about it.”
She handed me the letter and I quickly read it. It was almost exactly as Kara had said, though at the bottom of the page was a heart with an arrow through it, and ‘Jessica + Steve + Kara’ inscribed in it.
“Let’s write her back,” I said. “I can put the letter in the mail tomorrow.”
“What can we write?”
“I’d say we keep it like she did - tell her that we’re all fine, that work is going well, when school starts for you, and that we love her. Simple is probably best. And YOU should write it. My handwriting sucks.”
“Yes, it does. Yours is worse than hers! At least she has the ‘doctor’ excuse! What’s yours?”
“I type all day. Other than the letters I exchange with Tatyana, Tina Hoff, and occasionally a few other Swedish and Russian friends, and the odd Christmas and Birthday card, I barely do anything except sign my name!”
We wrote the letter to Jessica and both of us signed it. We sealed it in an envelope which Kara added several hand-drawn hearts to it. I put it in the basket on the counter with the other mail that I’d take to the post office on Friday.
“How was lunch with Jacquelyn today?” I asked.
“She is a WONDERFUL girl,” Kara said. “Smart, funny, and self-confident. You worked your magic on her, for sure!”
I nodded, “And a very healthy sex-drive!”
“She was a bit freaked out by the toys.”
“Uh-oh,” I said.
“Oh no, Snuggle Bear. Don’t worry. She said she was glad she did all those things, but she’s not sure it’s for her. She said what she likes best is the way you start slow and go for a long time, then finish really hard and fast.”
“Me too,” I chuckled. “So no toys in her future, then?”
“No, it doesn’t seem so. And it doesn’t seem like she’ll go crazy. We talked about birth control and STDs. You do have to get tested before Jessica comes home, because you’ve apparently been neglecting that rule, too.”
I nodded, “The only REAL risk was Kimmy, and I just don’t think it’s a concern. That said, yes, I’ll do that right away. And have Kimmy get tested as well. She won’t object.”
“That was a big risk, Snuggle Bear. For all of us. You can’t do that again. They HAVE to be tested.”
“I know,” I said. “I’ll take care of it.”
“Did Elyse tell you about the RSVPs for the New Year’s Eve party?”
“No. A few people told me that they’d be here, like Al. What did I miss?”
“Josh and Mary will be here.”
“Excellent! We haven’t seen Josh and Mary in AGES.”
“And so will Lyudmila and Curtis. And her parents.”
“Oh man, that’s awesome! I asked Elyse to invite Tracey and Marty the other day. Did she find them?”
“She said she wanted to talk to you about that. Didn’t she see you at the office today?”
“No. I was busy all morning and afternoon with Jeri. Let’s go find her.”
We found Elyse in the sunroom with Veronica, Matthew, and Birgit.
“Kara said you wanted to tell me something about Marty and Tracey,” I said.
“Privately,” Elyse replied, taking my hand and leading me to my study.
“What’s going on?” I asked.
“They can’t come because Marty is sick.”
“Sick?”
“Tracey said he was diagnosed with Kaposi’s sarcoma. If Jessica were here, she’d know immediately what that means. I had to ask.”
“Which is?”
“It’s one of the primary AIDS-defining illnesses.”
“Oh, shit,” I sighed.
“I’m not supposed to share that with anyone except you,” Elyse said.
“What about Tracey?”
“She’s HIV positive, but she has no symptoms of AIDS and is taking a brand new drug called AZT that supposedly suppresses the virus. The FDA only approved it last year.”
“What about Marty?” I asked.
“He’s being treated for the sarcoma, and getting other drugs as well, including some experimental ones. They’re lucky he has really good insurance through the Battelle Institute in Columbus where he works.”
“I don’t even know what to say,” I said.
“Call Tracey when you have a chance. I’ll give you her number.”
“Thanks,” I said, shaking my head, and understanding exactly what Jess had been trying to tell me for years.
We went back to the sunroom and I gently deflected Kara’s question, just saying that they couldn’t make the party and that I’d give Tracey a call over the weekend. One thing was certain - I was going to stop by the clinic to get tested. And I was going to take Kimmy with me.
December 30, 1988, Chicago, Illinois
“Thank you,” Jacquelyn said as we showered after what we agreed was our final coupling.
“I’m the one who should thank you,” I said. “It’s been a pretty amazing month! And we’re going to keep running and keep working on karate. You should have at least a brown belt before you leave for college!”
“You think so?” she asked.
“Absolutely! I’m guessing that you’ll be promoted in the next couple of weeks. And we have more than a year before you leave.”
“I noticed Angelique follows you around like a puppy dog,” Jacquelyn teased.
“Yes, she does. But she’s underage, too. We were lucky you’d turned 17!”
“I would have figured a way around that,” she grinned. “I didn’t want you to get arrested!”
I pulled her to me under the warm spray.
“I was privileged to be your first, and I’ll never, ever forget what it was like! And I will ALWAYS be your friend.”
“So I can come to you and Kara for advice?”
“Always,” I said.
We finished our shower, dried off, hugged each other one final time, then dressed. I gave her a soft kiss on the lips, and then she walked me to the door. This time, at the door, we shared a brief hug and I kissed her on her forehead. She was my friend. And that was a very good thing.
After breakfast, rather than go straight to the office, I walked by Kimmy’s apartment.
“Hi!” she exclaimed with a huge smile, happy to see me this early. “What’s up? Do you need a morning pick-me-up?”
“At lunchtime, you and I are going to the clinic to get HIV tests.”
“What? Why?”
“An abundance of caution. Two friends of mine from High School contracted HIV recently, and that sort of brought it home. I was tested about six months ago and you and I haven’t been using condoms, and to be honest, I’ve been with some other girls in the past few months. I don’t suspect any of them, but we’re going to get tested to be safe.”
“OK. I’ve never been tested. How does it work?”
“We show up, answer a questionnaire, and then have blood drawn. They call with the results in a week. And trust me, this is one test you do NOT want to fail.”
“I haven’t been with a lot of guys,” she said.
“I know. But you can get it from a blood transfusion, too. And maybe other ways. We’ll get tested to be sure.”
“OK. Will you come here to meet me?”
“Yes, see you at lunch!”
I kissed her and headed to the office. At lunchtime, I was back at her apartment and we walked to the clinic. We filled out the questionnaires and handed them in. As usual, I was questioned about the accuracy of my answers, and then a few minutes later, our blood was drawn and we left the clinic.
“Why did that nurse question your form?” Kimmy asked.
“Because of the number of sex partners I wrote down. She didn’t believe it. Most people don’t.”
“Will you tell me?” she asked.
“Are you sure you want to know?”
“It’s that bad?”
“It depends on what you mean. It’s not a small number.”
“What, like fifteen? Twenty?”
“Try more than four times that number,” I said.
“You’re joking!” she gasped.
I shook my head, “No, I’m not.”
“How many girls like me do you have?” she asked softly.
“Like you? None. You know I’m married to Kara and Jessica, and you know Elyse and I agreed to have kids. Yes, I’ve been something of a tomcat the last couple of months since Jessica first left me, but none of it has been anything more than sex, and only well, temporary, I guess. Right now, as of this moment, there are my two wives, though with Jess in Maine I’m obviously not with her, and Elyse, the mother to one of my sons, and soon to be two, if she’s right about the sex of the baby.”
“So I’m different from 80-odd women? How?”
“If I could explain that, I’d have answers to quite a few of my questions about my life. I don’t know. I just know that you are. To be frank, there was only one girl like you ever in my history. She was back home in Milford, Ohio, near Cincinnati. We used to get together regularly, like you and I do. There was no plan for a long-term relationship, but we cared deeply for each other.”
“So what happened? Why did you break it off?”
“She wanted to date seriously and didn’t feel it was right to be having sex with me while she was going with another guy.”
“So if I wanted to date, that would end it?”
“I guess it depends on you, on the guy, and where we both are. Is there someone you’ve been seeing?”
She shook her head, “No. And honestly, right now, at age twenty, I’m fine with exactly what I have. It’s just the way I said. I have all the things I need plus a wonderful lover who treats me well and makes me feel loved. And can give me all the orgasms I can handle!”
“Those are important,” I chuckled. “But so is actually being loved.”
“Is that what this is?” she asked, taking my hand.
“That’s a difficult subject,” I said. “Not because I’m afraid of it, but because I make a serious distinction between being ‘in love’ with someone and ‘loving’ someone. And there are levels, too. It’s kind of complicated to explain in just a few minutes. We can talk tomorrow, if you want. I’ll come see you right after lunch.”
“Will you stay for dinner?”
“I think that will be OK, yes. Our New Year’s Eve Party doesn’t start until 8:00pm, so as long as I’m home by 7:00pm there won’t be any issues. You could come to the party, if you wanted. But we’d have to be VERY casual around each other.”
“I’d like that! Lots of people from work will be there, right?”
“Yes, because quite a few of them were friends before they started working there - Elyse, Dave, Julia, Tasha, Charlie, Penny, and Cindi. And of course, that means that Zeke and Terry will be there. Our lawyer Jamie is coming as well, with his wife.”
“How many people are going to be at this party?”
“Oh, at least seventy,” I chuckled. “The house is plenty big enough. You’ve been there.”
We kissed at the door of her apartment, and then I headed back to the office.
December 31, 1988, Chicago, Illinois
On Saturday morning, before we left for karate, I called the number Elyse had given me for Tracey and Marty. Tracey answered on the second ring.
“It’s been WAY too long,” I said. “Three years ago at the wedding.”
“A lot has happened since then,” she said.
“So Elyse tells me. Where are you working?”
“I work for the State of Ohio. I’m a health inspector. Marty is a researcher at Battelle. How are things with you?”
“The business is going gangbusters and I have a bunch of kids, just as I always wanted. And two more on the way.”
“By how many women now?” she laughed.
“Four. One by Jennifer, one by Kara, one by Elyse with one on the way, and one on the way with Jessica.”
“Still up to your old antics?”
“Yes and no. Jessica and Kara give me some freedom and I do use it, but not like in the past. Well, except for the last two months when I’ve been a bit out of control because Jess had a nervous breakdown and we were estranged for a couple of months.”
“Is she OK?”
“Getting there. She’s getting counseling.”
“You can ask the question, you know,” Tracey said.
“It’s none of my business,” I said. “You’ll share what you want to.”
“Same old Steve,” she laughed. “Have you created any other sex-crazed maniacs?”
I chuckled, “One or two, but, and please don’t take this the wrong way, I’ve counseled against taking the path you and Marty did.”
“The world is a different place than it was in 1981,” she sighed. “We didn’t change with it. I’m guessing that being married to a doctor forced you to change, at least somewhat.”
“Between Jessica and Bethany, yes, they made it clear. Getting tested regularly and ensuring my partners are tested and using condoms. I’ve goofed a few times, but you know my MO.”
She laughed, “You like the younger, virginal ones. They are safer, but not completely safe.”
“I know. Do you have any idea where you contracted it?”
“Not for certain, but I have a good idea. You know the scene we were into, so it won’t surprise you that at a couple of parties there were guys who were bi, and at least one intravenous drug user, and probably more. Who knows at this point? But somewhere around February of ‘86 one of us contracted HIV and gave it to the other, or maybe we both got it at the same party. And there were some wild ones, Steve. Stuff even you wouldn’t believe.”
“Oh, I’d believe a lot, but I don’t need the details.”
“If you don’t mind my asking, and you can refuse to answer, but what’s your count?”
“I wrote down 89 on the form yesterday.”
Tracey laughed, “Amateur! Though given what happened to us and where you are, maybe that’s not such a bad thing. I THINK Marty’s number is north of 150. Mine is well north of that - 207. As I said, some seriously wild stuff. Orgies, you name it. I had sex with eleven different guys at one party, in every way imaginable.”
“Jesus!” I gasped.
“It’s not your fault, Steve. I was in complete control the whole way. Nobody coerced me or forced me or tricked me or drugged me. Hell, I’ve never used any drugs in my entire life. The AZT I’m taking is the first prescription I’ve ever had except the one you helped me get from Doctor Gustafson back in High School. And even where we are today, I am SURE I did the right thing being with you when I was.”
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May 11, 1992, Chicago, Illinois Monday was turning out to be a LONG day. After my run and talk with Gina, and my talk with Elyse, I had a full day at the office scheduled. First was our leadership meeting in the morning, and then I had status meetings with each team. At lunch I’d gone to see Siobhán and explained that I was going to break off the sexual relationship, but that I wanted to remain friends. She was disappointed, but admitted that Thursday would have been the last time, since she...
September 1982, Chicago, Illinois The weekend was quiet and besides homework, I worked on the program changes for Frank, called Karin, Tatyana, and Kara, and hung out with my usual study group. Monday was refreshingly normal. On Tuesday morning, I handed Katy my completed intake form. She put it in an envelope and stuck it in her bag. She said she’d let me know soon about the interview. On Tuesday afternoon, after having lunch with Stephie, I made my rounds and then I headed over to Sigma...
February 23, 1986, Chicago, Illinois “We’ll talk about it next weekend,” I said. “Not now?” Jessica asked. “Are you sure that you’re OK?” “Yes and no. It really was the only thing that could happen with Bethany. I told you that about a month ago.” “So you were prepared?” Kara asked. “As much as I could be,” I sighed. “I think everyone pretty much expected this to happen. But that doesn’t make it any easier.” “Where will she go?” Kara asked. “I’m hoping she’ll move in with Kathy and...
October 1982, Chicago, Illinois The drive back to Chicago was as uneventful as usual, and I arrived at the apartment just before 6:00pm. When I arrived, Elyse and Stephie were sitting on the couch and Jackie was sitting on the loveseat. Stephie hopped up as I opened the door and greeted me with a hug and a kiss. “Hi, Peaches!” I said. “Glad you’re home, Yankee!” “Hi, Steve,” Elyse and Jackie both said. “Hey,” I replied. “How was the weekend?” “Well, it was just Kurt with me, Stephie,...
July 3, 1996, Chicago, Illinois I blinked several times and took a breath before responding. It didn’t help. The best I could do was contain my visceral reaction at her completely out-of-line request and her wrong-headed assumptions when she had NO idea what had happened in my life the previous eight months. “What makes you think you can make that request after refusing to talk to me for nearly eight months? And equally importantly, without explaining Alexi? And without giving me the first...
June 11, 1989, Chicago, Illinois It was just after 3:00am when I kissed Trish goodbye. She’d been an enthusiastic, energetic, and adventurous lover. We’d done just about anything either of us could think of, though her breasts weren’t large enough for a tit-fuck. The last time had been in the shower where we’d ostensibly gone to clean up afterwards, but instead I ended up taking her from behind as she leaned against the wall of the shower. “I think I’ll have you again, Steve Adams,” she...
May 1978 The first couple of weeks in May were busy with school, work, and friends. Except for Becky, I didn’t even have any dates. But I was OK with that. Well, almost OK. I wanted to see Anna, but it likely wasn’t going to happen until school was out. I had tutoring sessions with Melanie, but she still wouldn’t talk to me about anything other than Spanish. Barely a hello. I was grateful for the tutoring, but it was maddening seeing my friend this way. I hoped someday she could understand...
March, 1982, Milford, Ohio As I drove along I-65, I thought about what Stephanie had asked for and what Bethany had said without even knowing about the request. Of course, because Bethany and I were so in tune, she might have actually had an idea that I was struggling with getting involved with my sister again. I kept turning it over and over in my mind and I kept coming to the same conclusion — that I shouldn’t do it. I was torn between doing what Stephanie wanted and doing what Kara and...
September 7, 1992, Chicago, Illinois “That went reasonably well,” Michelle said when her parents drove off. “There were a few times I thought my expression would give away something I shouldn’t. You were messing with me, weren’t you?” She grabbed both my hands and smiled, “I was telling the truth, in my own way. Thank you!” She leaned forward and kissed my cheek. “So, what’s left?” I asked. “To visit UofC tomorrow and formally withdraw from classes. To spend some time with you and your...
October 1981, Chicago, Illinois I arrived back at the apartment just before 10:00pm and saw the address for the party. I decided I wasn’t particularly interested in going so I put on some music, poured myself a glass of wine, and started reading more about Russia. I was alternating between the history and culture book and the Communist Party book, decided on the history and culture book for this time. I didn’t get much reading done because I was thinking about Tatyana, which led me to...
January 23, 1996, Chicago, Illinois “Father, bless!” I said, greeting Father Basil with upturned palms. “Bless you, Stephen,” he said as I kissed his hand. The waiter showed us to a quiet table along the wall of Roditys in Greektown. He took our drink orders and was back quickly. We placed our food orders right away and he left to put them in with the kitchen. “I’m not quite sure how to address this, so I’m just going to ask you bluntly. Are you the father of Michelle’s baby?” I shook my...
June 29, 1995, Chicago, Illinois On Thursday, I finally had lunch with Melissa again, something I hadn’t been looking forward to. Much like with Cèlia, Melissa and I had passed an inflection point and I was left with sub-optimal paths forward. I’d been struggling with the possible solutions, and all of them had pitfalls. When I walked into Takumi, I had something of a plan. Whether it was good or not would only be known once everything played out. “I spoke to my wives,” I said after we’d...
December 5, 2000, Mayo Clinic, Rochester, Minnesota “I had a good time last night,” I said. “I was surprised you invited a friend!” Mary laughed as we walked into the exam room, “Naomi had a good time as well. You know what a Resident’s life is like.” I nodded, “No social life.” “Exactly. You guys seemed to hit it off pretty well.” “Yes, but I’m not here for that!” “You’re everywhere for that, and you know it!” I couldn’t help but laugh. “Let’s just say that you hit the sweet spot -...
March 1980, Hovås/Göteborg, Sweden I woke early as usual, but just enjoyed being in bed with Katt. When she woke, she hopped out of bed and pulled a robe out of her closet and handed it to me. “There’s a spare toothbrush in the bathroom. Go have your shower, then we’ll have breakfast after I have my shower.” I quickly showered and brushed my teeth, and went back to Katt’s room. She went to shower and came back a few minutes later. She dressed, and I got a very good look at her sexy body...
September 3, 1989, Chicago, Illinois “Good morning, Sensei,” I said, bowing to Sensei Jim. “Good morning!” he said waving me to a chair in his office. “How was your trip?” I asked. “Enlightening. I spent most of my time acting as a manservant to Sensei Robert and Sensei Hiro.” “He who will lead, must first serve,” I said. “Someday, I’m going to send you to Sensei Hiro, should he live long enough. You understand.” “Does that mean you are now 6th Dan?” I...
August, 1983, Chicago, Illinois I walked in the near 90°F heat to Carla’s place. I was grateful that the humidity of the morning had dropped significantly; otherwise the heat would have been unbearable. By the time I walked up the steps to the apartment over the photography studio and knocked on her door, I had broken into a light sweat. Carla answered almost immediately and invited me inside her studio apartment. The air was moderately cool, and the window air conditioner was running full...
July 1982, Milford, Ohio On Tuesday morning, I kissed Kara goodbye and headed to my parents’ house for my usual morning routine with my little sister. She was happy that I could spend the morning with her and asked to take a walk, so we weren’t in the house with my mom. “Let me guess — this walk will end in the clearing,” I said with a smile. “Yes,” she said, taking my hand as we walked down Overlook towards Klondyke. As usual, we turned around and walked back, taking the path to the...
March 13, 1994, Chicago, Illinois “Hi, Steve!” Ailea said when she opened the door. “Hi,” I replied, accepting the offered hug. There was no touching of lips, just of cheeks, and I wondered if I’d misread her intentions at her birthday lunch, or if, perhaps, she detected my reluctance to return the offered affection. “Lunch is ready, so go ahead and sit. I’ll bring it in from the kitchen.” I went to the low table, sat down, and a minute later, Ailea brought miso soup and sushi, our usual...
April 3, 1997, Dallas, Texas “Remember what I said about drinking too much,” I said, as I poured bourbon into three cups. We’d stopped at a liquor store, bought a bottle of Blanton’s, and then returned to the small suite I’d reserved at the Westin. Deborah’s room was down the hall, and Krissy’s was two floors below. Krissy’s comment had caught me a bit off guard, but I hadn’t reacted visibly. I didn’t know her quite well enough to know if she’d been teasing with Deborah, so I was being...
March 28, 1991, Chicago, Illinois “This day belongs to you, Kara!” I said when the three of us woke on Thursday morning. “Happy birthday!” Jessica said. “Thanks,” Kara replied happily. “I think I’d like an amazing birthday fuck from our husband, and then a nice loving shower with my wife!” Kara said. “Do we have enough time?” I asked. Jessica giggled, “I set the alarm for thirty minutes earlier!” “Then let’s not waste any of it!” I said pulling Kara to me. Kara’s squeals as I plunged...
September 4, 2000, Chicago, Illinois On Monday morning I went to my study to make a surreptitious call to ensure that the surprise I’d planned for Kara was still going to happen, and after confirming that it was, Jesse, Matthew, Michael, and I began preparing for the Labor Day party by getting beer and soda into coolers, getting the grill ready, setting up tables and chairs in the backyard, and ensuring the liquor cabinets were stocked while my wives and daughters worked on food prep in the...
September 1, 1987, Chicago, Illinois “I heard that you have some kind of plan to help Ed,” I said to Connie. “There’s no plan,” she replied. “A witness who saw the shopkeeper alive after Ed left came forward.” That sounded convenient, and I wondered if the witness was real or someone that Anthony had put forward to solve the problem. Certainly, the videotape was real, because I couldn’t imagine how Anthony could have faked that, but the witness? Who knew? “So is he being released? Or is...
August 17, 1997, Chicago, Illinois We finished lunch and Marissa and the younger kids went to play, but Natalie sat with the adults to talk, with coffee, tea, or soft drinks. The Sarcus were very comfortable, but the Heaths were still struggling. But, vitally, they hadn’t left and hadn’t insisted Natalie leave the group. “Can you explain how you developed this attitude and approach?” Chris asked. I nodded, “It started when I was just a bit younger than Natalie. My mom was a total control...
With the abundance of people and the equipment, Rachel hired a jet to fly them to Paris. Only Trevor didn’t join them, pointing out he didn’t have a European driver’s license. Eddie protested, and Trevor would miss him, but Trevor pointed out the drummer they hired turned out to be bisexual. Even better for Rachel and Eddie. The drummer being distracted by Rachel and Eddie was a blessing for Joe. He couldn’t help noticing the man’s interest in the others. The worst being Charlie. But the...
July 1979 — Falkenberg, Sweden On Friday, when I got back from my run, Pam was in her bra and panties again. I whistled at her, she giggled, then finished dressing. I showered, and we went to breakfast and finished up our last day. Once class was done, we were pretty much free. On Saturday, we’d have several optional activities and then on Sunday we’d head back to our host families. After dinner on Friday, I took Pam’s hand and we walked towards the river. It was quiet and peaceful, and...
July 1980, Over the North Atlantic We reached cruising altitude, and I settled back to read my book. Pam raised the armrest between us, snuggled close to me and read as well. The cabin crew offered drinks, and I had my first Coke in a year! Meal service began about an hour and a half into the flight. After the cabin crew picked up the trays and offered drinks again, they passed once more, offering headsets for the movie. Trevor and Maria took them, but Pam and I didn’t, instead we turned on...
"Trip?" Malcolm asked from behind the pillar that the small battle group used as cover. "All clear, Malcolm. You better take a look at this." Carefully Malcolm crawled into the access tube and with a horrified "urk!" he quickly covered his nose and mouth with the collar of his uniform. "You better stay out, T'Pol," he called back, knowing that she would probably drop down unconscious immediately if confronted with the horrible stench. After indicating Trip to activate the...
July 8, 1997, Chicago, Illinois “Is it really that surprising?” Leah asked. “I suppose not,” I replied. “I just didn’t read too much into the kiss on the cheek.” “I didn’t think it was a good idea to kiss you on the lips with all those people around, because I had no idea who they were or what they would think. You were VERY careful with our dance, so I kind of followed your lead.” Which showed very mature thinking on her part. Both of these girls were exactly the kind of students I...
November 8, 1993, Chicago, Illinois A dark fog swirled before my eyes as I tried to take stock. My head hurt, badly. I felt something on my face and realized, dimly, it was an oxygen mask. My right hand was uncomfortable and I recognized the feeling of an IV and pulse-oximeter. My left arm ached fiercely. On my chest I felt the pads and wires of an EKG. I didn’t feel anything else wrong as I continued taking inventory. I tried to open my eyes, but the fog didn’t clear. I tried to speak, but...
August, 1983, Chicago, Illinois In the morning Anala and I ran as we had the previous time, then showered together, carefully washing each other’s bodies in an intimate but non-sexual way. After our shower we went to the kitchen and I made breakfast and we sat down to eat. “Steve, may I make a suggestion?” she asked. “Sure.” “Broaden your circle of friends. Other than me, all of you are white, nominally Christian, 20-year-old Americans. And you don’t invite me to your Sunday...
In the morning, Anna made everyone eggs and sausage. Only Jonny looked worse for wear from the night before, the rest crested on a night of satiation. “A bit of the dog that bit you, Jonny?” Anna asked. “Yes please,” Jonny murmured. She put together a bloody mary for him that seemed to hit the spot, even though Joe noticed she put very little liquor in. A psychosomatic cure. She winked at Joe. After the recovery, Jonny remembered a part of the conversation from the night before. “You said...
June 23, 2000, Chicago, Illinois “Steve,” Kimmy said over the intercom, “I have a Suzanne Aavik for you.” “Thanks,” I replied. “Put her through, please.” A few seconds later, Suzanne was on the line. “Hi!” she exclaimed when I greeted her. “I’m in Chicago for three weeks. Can I still run away and join the circus?” I chuckled, “You might want to find out what the circus is actually like before you join! If you’re free, you’re welcome to come to the house tomorrow or Sunday and meet the...