Mr. And Mrs. Claus at the Children's Ward
By Lorraine B.
I had just moved back to the Windy City Chicago from New York
City. I was previously the Assistant Director of Nursing at Beth
Israel Hospital. Now I am the Director of Nursing at a Class I
Trauma Center linked to a Major Teaching Hospital.
I departed New York primarily due to a disastrous relationship
breakup with my live-in boyfriend. He is an attending physician
at Beth I. We have been together ever since I started at the
hospital in the Emergency Room.
Yes I am a Registered Nurse in my early thirties 5'7' at 125 lbs.
With a Masters in Nursing Administration.
During the month of December at my new hospital it is required of
the D.O.N. to portray the likeness of Mrs. Santa Claus. It is a
hospital tradition that has been around since the Dawn of Man.
The thing, which I didn't state before, is I am also biologically
a male that has never been married. I consider myself to be
Transgendered as a TS and I love men. What a dream come true!
Although I am technically in the Medical Profession, I am
extremely careful as to not show any female characteristics.
Believe me in hospital politics it could be the kiss of death to
your career as well as your sanity.
That was how I wound up in the Big Apple.
I have always known that I was a TS since the age of 3. I grew up
in Chicago on the South Side Near 35th Street and Halsted Avenue
an area called Bridgeport. Until I started school I was always
dressed as a girl. Things changed, as I progressed in higher
school grades. I had to limit my dressing activities to summers,
holidays and after school. My name is Alexander Paderevski, so
everyone called me Alex or Alexis.
Since my sisters and I associated with the same group of children
(both male and female) no one ever ostracized me. Their parents
also accepted me as a girl. I really never realized how fortunate
I was.
My mother was quite open-minded. She never criticized me but
encouraged me to be the best person I could be, whether it be
male or female. She never said so, but I believe now, mother
enjoyed having three girls around the house.
My father was never home enough, being too busy making a living
for us. When he was home all of us were careful that he would
never find out. Until the day he died of a fatal heart attack, he
never knew.
Although all the neighbors and both sides of our relations did
know of my secret. Not once did they ever tell him or slip it in
a conversation about me.
I also have two sisters older than I am that have always
protected their baby sibling. We always did everything together
including going to dances and to Nursing School. I eventually
wanted to be a M.D. but I could not afford it then.
As a prank the beginning of our final semester before receiving
our BSN's and pins, I was dared by them and other classmates to
attend classes as a female student. It was the best kept secret
of the Senior Class. (At the time we had only four male students
and I was one of them. Three were in the "closet" gay and one TS.
God what a combination!) I was caught during the Final week of
the Semester.
I had always used my initials in registering for classes and the
student roster did not reflect our gender. One of my instructors
had called me "She" to the Dean of Nursing Students in a
conversation. The instructor had recommended I give the
Graduation Address for our class. Sister Mary Laurence (Yes! the
school was run By a Roman Catholic Hospital) didn't give the
instructor any indication of my true gender. All she told the
instructor is she would take her recommendation under advisement.
Not five minutes passed when I was summoned to the DragonLadies
Den of Inequity. Sister made me wait in her outer office for two
hours before calling me in. As I stood before her desk all I
could think about was the Catholic Church's participation of the
Spanish Inquisition.
The perspiration was flowing quite profusely from my 5'7" frame.
My white uniform dress was starting to lose its starched
crispness. My bra, panties, garter belt and white stockings were
saturated. What felt like an hour was only a few minutes of
measured time. Sister finally looked up from the file she was
reading.
"I cannot believe you, of all people have done this. This is Not
Halloween! What in God's name ever possessed you to be attired as
you are? Are you trying to mock women? Your grade point average
is one of the highest that has ever been achieved. Academically
you have been an asset to this school." Sister said.
I then proceeded to tell her of the dare I had received from the
Senior Class and especially my own sisters. I explained that on
the contrary I in reality had always respected women and finally
told her I wished that I was female. I have prayed to God that he
would work a miracle to make me female. Although God never did I
still retained my faith. I confessed to her about my childhood
and my desires to be female. As I spoke her face was a mask
carved in stone. Not once did she give any indication as to what
she was thinking or feeling until she spoke.
"Miss. Paderevski, I will have to contemplate what your
punishment will be. Up until that time you are to remain dressed
as you are for the duration until graduation. You will also be
required to be attired as a female for any graduation festivities
on or off hospital property. This is to prevent any foreseeable
problems with your instructors that might occur since you have
been attending classes as a female. Am I understood!" Sister Mary
L. said.
I could not believe I heard what Sister DragonLady had said to
me. This was a lifelong dream. So I asked her to repeat what she
had said.
"Alexis! You heard perfectly well what I said. I will not repeat
it! Now go back to your class." She said with finality.
After reentering the classroom I received a great deal of pitying
glances from my fellow students. My oldest sister Irene, had
tears in the corners of her eyes.
When the class finally ended I was suddenly surrounded. Everyone
wanted to know what had happened. After I told them, they all
suddenly approved of what had transpired by a thunderous
applause. The joyous moment did not last long as I was called
Back to Sister Mary L's office.
This time she met me at her office door.
The DragonLady in her usual stone face and manner said, "Alexis,
Please be seated. After careful consideration and advisement from
the Chief of Staff you will be placed on rotational duties in the
hospital from 3:00pm to 11:00pm. Starting in the Children's Ward
today. You will also be paid as a R.N. for your shift hours.
Nurse Paderevski, we also received the results of the State
Nursing Exam. Everyone has passed in your graduating class,
congratulations."
The smile across my red painted lips must have been infectious. I
had never seen the DragonLady smile but she did. She even came to
me, giving me a hug and a kiss on the cheek. I was in shock due
to the Sister's show of emotion. I had finally seen her human
side, which no one else had.
As I left Sister's office I could see my two sisters and my
classmates waiting for me. They were told of Sister's decision.
Many thought I had received unfair treatment until I told them
that I was to be paid as an R.N. and was to be treated as such by
the hospital staff and not a student nurse. There was a great
deal of disbelievement until I told them they were no longer
student nurses but Registered Nurses. They had all passed the
Boards.
I finished my punishment by receiving the praise of the Staff for
my work. I thought that perhaps I might have a chance at a
nursing position at that same hospital after graduation. My
spirits were soaring!
At the Graduation Ceremony I complied with the DragonLady. My
sisters and myself came in newly purchased white uniform dresses,
white stockings and new white floor shoes. All of the females
were dressed the same way. The male students wore white pants, a
white button down coat (similar to the old "Ben Casey" coats),
white shoes and socks. The Ceremonies were boring as usual with
the multitude of droning speakers. Then the commotion started!
I was called by my male name to give the Commencement Address. As
I stood up I could hear the whispers from both the Stage and the
Audience. Some saying loudly is that a girl or a boy! As I
climbed up the stairs and reached the podium to give my speech I
could see many of the guests still whispering to each other. I
ignored everyone! I gave the speech getting congratulations from
everyone on the stage. Sister DragonLady even placed and pinned a
traditional nurses cap on my head.
The Chief of Staff pinned my school pins on, giving me a kiss on
the cheek. That's when the hoots and howls started from my
classmates. The Chief turned red; he forgot that I was a male in
female clothing.
After graduation for six months I tried to get a nursing position
at every hospital both in the city and suburbs. Even though there
was a nursing shortage I was receiving letters declining my
services. Although my sisters went to work less then a week after
graduation. The word about me was out in the medical community!
Mother finally made the suggestion to try other hospitals in
other cities. I really didn't want to relocate or change my
profession. Logic told me I had no other recourse.
Every letter I sent out to the Nurse Recruiters was answered.
Just about every hospital I wrote to wanted me.
It really felt good to be wanted.
After speaking to many hospital representatives I was New York
bound. The Die had been Cast!
The Staff at my new hospital was great! I had been working every
department on a rotational basis. This was to get me acclimated
quickly to it. Finally I was sent to the Children's Wing. For
some unknown reason the Supervisor requested to the Scheduling
Supervisor that I be assigned to her on a permanent basis and the
Memo was sent to me.
I had just gotten off the elevator and reported to Audrey the
Floor Supervisor. The first words out of her mouth were:
"Your Ass is mine now! These kids really missed you and so did
the Floor Staff. Now get to work, Bed Pan Commando!"
All I could say was, "Gee it's nice to be wanted!" and left
Audrey to her dementia.
Time really went by fast. It was the beginning of October. We
were decorating the Floor for Halloween. This was an important
time for many of the children. Audrey and many of the nurses
including myself were making costumes for the kids on our days
off. The girls couldn't believe that I could cut and design a
pattern, sew or operate a sewing machine. They kidded me that I
would make someone a good wife. All I could think of at that time
was, I wish.
Late one night at Audrey's house in Queens (How appropriate that
name is). We had just finished making all the costumes. As we sat
and relaxed Audrey told me she shared the house with her 10 year
old daughter. Audrey was a widow raising her daughter alone. Her
daughter was out for the evening with her sister and her
children. They took in a movie at a local theatre complex.
As we talked I started to relax even more. It seemed Audrey was
asking more about me then disclosing more about herself. Suddenly
she dropped the inevitable bomb.
She asked, "Honey, is it true what I heard you did at school?"
"What did you hear and from whom?" I said
"Well Alexis, I heard that you impersonated a female during your
last semester before graduation on a dare from your class. I
really can't say who told me." Audrey said.
The minute I heard her call me Alexis I knew I couldn't fabricate
a story. I told Audrey the truth saying, "Yes I did, but the dare
was from my sisters then the class got involved."
"Honey, you're one of the best nurses I have. The children love
you and the female staff treats you as they would another female.
I can tell your love for everyone on that Floor. In case you
don't know it, you display a maternal instinct. You should
consider yourself very lucky to have that instinct." Audrey said.
"Audrey all I want to do is to see people get over their
sickness. I take pride in our profession. I feel it is our
responsibility to also show compassion in a place that frightens
most human beings." I said with pride in my voice.
"Dear, what costume are you going to wear for the children?"
Audrey asked.
"I really don't know yet." I said in all honesty.
"Well, Nurse Alexis Paderevski, you will be the real you. You
will be the perfect 1940's wartime U.S. Navy female nurse. I
still have my mother's old uniforms that should fit you well. How
about it?"
"Audrey I really don't know if I should do it. I was really
blackballed because of that stunt in school. It seemed like it
took forever to find a hospital that would hire me." I said.
"I'm going to level with you. Sister 'DragonLady'is my cousin,
she told me what happened and what you did. I said that person is
either crazy or the type of person I want on my floor staff.
Camilla also told me about your punishment and the progress
reports she received about you. We were praying that you would
relocate here and work for me." Audrey said with a twinkle in her
eye.
I was totally speechless when she made this revelation. My mouth
was moving but nothing came out of it. I decided when I went Back
to Chicago I would go back to the school and kiss that nun. The
next thing I started to do was grab Audrey and cry. Not in
sadness, but for joy. Someone actually thought I could and would
succeed in the nursing profession.
Audrey pulled a lace handkerchief from her pocket and dried my
tears of happiness saying, "I promise you that no one will think
the worse of you dressing as a girl again. Will you do it for me
and the children? All I ask is that you don't kiss the Chief of
Staff."
When Audrey said Chief of Staff I knew immediately who
blackballed me. I made a vow that I would avenge myself for my
exile from Chicago. I nodded yes to Audrey that I would do as she
asked.
"Good. Well come on girl. Let's go try on those uniforms right
now." Audrey said with enthusiasm.
I followed her up to her attic. There must have been at least
twenty trunks stored up there. Audrey found the right trunk on
the first try. We brought the whole trunk downstairs to her
living room. She closed her blinds and drapes making sure no one
could see into the room from outside.
Audrey looked at me saying, "Okay girl, strip! No backtalk
everything comes off right now."
AS she opened the trunk I removed my outer garments and loafers.
Her eyes grew extremely wide when she noticed the white lace bra
and panties set along with the white tights I was wearing. It
wasn't so much the tights or panties, but the overflowing B+ cups
of my bra.
"My God! Are those really yours?" pointing to my breasts.
"I guess so. All the girls in my family have them including me."
I said with a smile.
"Smart Ass! No wonder you've been wearing oversized clothing
until you receive your 'Scrubs'. I ordered you women's scrub
suits and nurses floor shoes. I still can't believe those babies
are bigger then mine! How long have you been on Hormones?" Audrey
asked in a motherly tone.
"Since I turned 12 or 13 and these are homegrown. No implants for
me! Before you ask I had them removed about the same time. My
penis is about 1 inch with no erections, at least that I can
remember. When I go to work I usually bind them, but my babies
are an awful lot to bind. By the end of the shift they really
hurt." I said.
"Alexis they are magnificent! Don't bind them anymore! No one at
the hospital will say anything."
"Are you out of your mind! Five minutes after walking in the door
the Pipeline Rumor Machine will going full steam ahead. Every
person in the hospital will know about my breasts. I'll be known
by some derogatory name given to me by some bigot." I said.
"How in the world did you ever pass the physicals we're required
to take? Nevermind I know how. As long as you have two hands,
arms, and are ambulatory they'll pass you on the condition all
clinical work ups are alright. Camilla was right when she said
there was something special about you. Wow! Can I ever testify to
that." She said.
Audrey began pulling clothes from the trunk. A white uniform
dress, panty girdle, full lace slip, nurse's hat, white 2" pumps,
and a navy blue cape. Audrey laid everything out on the couch.
When she finished she said, "Alright sister, everything goes on
except the girdle. Also please put your hair in a bun."
As I was getting dressed I noticed that Audrey was watching me
quite closely. Mom used to do the same thing when I and my
sisters were small. The difference was that Audrey about the same
age as my oldest sister. I love her as if she was my sister. My
respect for her was continually growing.
I finally finished dressing saying, "Okay Sis, how do I look?"
"Does everything fit alright?"
I told her the uniform dress was a little loose.
"It's supposed to be that way. I don't know, there's something
missing. Oh! I know what it is. Come with me." Audrey said.
I followed her into her bedroom.
Pointing to a vanity saying, "Get your makeup on girl. I need the
full effect. While you're here fix your hair properly, young
lady."
As I was applying my makeup I glanced into the mirror, noticing
that Audrey was not watching me anymore. It only took me about
twenty minutes to apply my warpaint and do my nails in the same
color as my red lipstick. I next put my long Auburn hair into a
bun. My hair was always body permed. My hair at work was always
in a ponytail reaching down to my shoulder blades in length.
I checked myself in the mirror finally seeing a very familiar
woman that was me. I was happy with my results.
As I came into the living room Audrey put her magazine into her
lap and did a wolf whistle.
"My God Alexis, I look like a boy next to you. Honey you're
gorgeous. Do men fall at you feet in reverence?" Audrey said.
I countered by saying, "Only when they fall over a rock. I really
haven't had a relationship for awhile."
As we were speaking I could tell I was being watched very closely
by Audrey. It was as if I was being tested but for what I just
didn't know.
Since I was standing I decided to sit down in a close by very
comfortable living room chair. I could feel Audrey watching every
move I made all the way from straightening my dress to crossing
my legs while I sat.
We were still talking when the back door suddenly opened. The
house was filled with the sounds of children.
Two young girls that could have passed for twins entered the room
going directly to Audrey. Both of them gave Audrey a hug and
kiss. The difference was that one of the girls called Audrey
mommy and the other girl called her Auntie. Another woman entered
the room she too had a striking resemblance to Audrey. She also
looked very familiar to me.
"Alexis, may I introduce my twin sister Abigail, her daughter
Charlene and my daughter Gail." Audrey said proudly.
"I don't believe it! Do you mean to say I am finally meeting the
famous Alexis from Chicago. Girl, it's glorious to meet you at
last. Camille was right, she is strikingly beautiful. By the way,
if you call me Abigail there is going to be trouble. The name is
Abbi." Abbi said.
"It's my pleasure to meet all of you. Abbi, don't tell me you
talked to Camille too? I said to her.
"Of course Darling. Audrey and I share everything." Abbi said
with a large smile.
"In case you didn't know. Abbi is the O.R. Supervisor at BI"
Audrey said.
"Yeah c'mon down I'll get one of the Reco Docs to give you a boob
job sometime." Abbi said smiling.
"Believe me Sis, she doesn't need it." Audrey said emphatically.
All I could do is smile at Abbi. I could see the look of shock on
her face and her eyes begging for more information to be
disclosed.
Apparently Audrey did too saying, "Girls why don't you go to
Gail's room and play for awhile until Auntie Abbi is ready to
leave. We have to talk about the hospital. Okay."
The two girls took off like rockets to Gail's room on the second
floor. They knew it was safe to talk after hearing the door slam
shut.
"You're kidding aren't you Sis. I think I need a very tall
alcoholic drink!" Abbi said still dumbfounded.
We all went to the kitchen each having a glass of Chablis wine. I
decided to take the heat away from Audrey. I explained everything
to Abbi that I told to Audrey.
"No implants Huh! Those melons are yours? Huh! Well I think that
Audrey is right about binding them. I guess we're just going to
have to adopt a new baby sister into our family. My God! Three
nurses in the family and all girls. If Dad were alive he'd have a
stroke after what we put him through." Abbi said.
"I Guess so Sis. Well Alexis, welcome to the family." Audrey
stated.
We all got up, then hugged and kissed each other, with tears
streaming from our eyes.
As I recomposed my self I said, "If you adopt me it comes with my
two sisters and mother. Boy! Will she go into shock getting two
more daughters and two grandchildren." We all started laughing
and crying at the same time. It was a real emotional mess for all
of us.
We finally managed to calm down. Audrey was the first to speak
saying, "How much are you paying for that shithole efficiency
you're living in Alexis?
"$1200.00 a month. Why?" I asked.
"Well, I have a mother-in-law apartment downstairs that's not
being used. It has two large bedrooms with walk-in closets, full
luxury bath, living room, dining room, and Kitchen. There is also
a separate entrance. It's completely furnished and very feminine.
I could use some help around here as well as the company. I'm
sure Gail would love another Aunt to bother and love. We could
split the costs of upkeep. How about it Sis?"
I thought a few minutes and said, "Damn! I was just starting to
like my shithole. I even started naming my pet roaches."
"Sorry no more pets allowed. Two Siamese cats, a malamute, six
ferrets and all the kids in the neighborhood. I should think it's
more than enough."
"Wait as minute! I didn't see any animals when I came inside." I
said.
"The malamute, she's downstairs. Her names Klondike and she is a
big baby. All the others are in Gail's room."
"Since you told her about the dog. Don't forget my brat!" Abbi
said.
"I already included our niece. She's also in Gail's room. When
Abbi has to work Charlene stays here or vice a versa. By the way
they live next door." Audrey said.
"Everything sounds fine but what about my alter ego?" I asked.
"The only male clothing allowed in this house is what your
boyfriends wear or leave behind after a night in the throes of
passion." Audrey said smiling.
"Audrey are you sure about this? You hardly know me other then at
work." I said.
"I'm going to be honest and very truthful. Camille asked that
both of us watch and take care of you in the Big Apple. Your mom
and sisters even asked we do the same. The baby of the family is
very special to a great deal of people. You have touched and
brought a ray of sunshine into a lot of lives." Abbi disclosed
My B.P. was high as was my anger when this information was
disclosed to me. I was an adult woman not a little girl, Damnit!
After calming down I said, "What the Hell! So you spoke to the
whole family, Huh! Well I guess Auntie Alexis better move in and
take care of her new family."
The anger in me had dissipated the only thing I had was love in
my heart. Love for both my blood family and my extended family.
That also included the DragonLady!
"Mommy will you send Auntie Alexis upstairs to tuck us in
please." The sweet voice of Gail said over the intercom.
"Well Auntie Alexis, your nieces await your presence. Don't let
them con you into reading them a story. It's why too late." Abbi
said with a smile.
"Yeah Sis you better get them sweet cheeks moving. Those two can
be real hellions." Audrey said.
As I left the kitchen I pondered my faith. I left the city of my
birth. My blood family and friends. My life as such back then was
not perfect but worthwhile.
Now I'm looking toward a new life. I now have an extended family
of two more sisters and two nieces. One Alaskan malamute, two
Siamese cats, and six ferrets.
I have many more friends at work. Life seems to be getting
better. All I need now is to complete SRS, find a husband and
have our own children by adoption. Life is good like I said maybe
the DragonLady is psychotic. Whoops! I mean psychic.
As I entered Gail's bedroom I couldn't help but notice the
immense size of it. You could fit four of my efficiency apartment
into her room. I was a little apprehensive at first until I saw
their smiling faces and the cats lying by each of the girls.
I guess Audrey was right I do have Maternal Instincts, my heart
melted seeing them. Gail was the first to speak, "Auntie Alexis
are you really going to live with us? Gee! We hope so. Do you
have a boyfriend? Are you going to live in the apartment or up
here?"
It was one question after another from both girls in rapid
succession. I really didn't have anytime to think about my
answers. The only thing after tucking them in I gave each a kiss
and left the room.
Abbi and Audrey were waiting for me at the foot of the stairs.
Both had smiles on their faces. I told them everything that the
kids asked and my answers. They seemed satisfied with my answers.
I was told that I would be staying with them that night. Tomorrow
would be my moving day. They had arranged for several maintenance
men from the hospital and a vehicle to move me last week. These
two sure take a great deal for granted. I think they would have
worn me down if I had said no at the beginning.
As Audrey and Abbi led me to the room I was to use. I explained
that I wasn't prepared to spend the night or be ready for
tomorrow.
As I entered the room that Audrey said was mine I noticed there
was a nightgown and robe on the bed and slippers on the floor. On
the extremely large dresser was a complete set of clothing for
tomorrow including shoes.
Damn, those two think of everything. It was scary! I looked
around making sure that the DragonLady wasn't around.
After cleaning up in the attached Bathroom I crawled into bed. It
was wonderful! I fell asleep almost immediately.
I awoke at 6:00am and just laid in bed thing about all that has
happened since moving to New York. I decided to thank the Creator
for all my blessings.
There had been many times I had thought of my Transexualism as a
Curse. I had even contemplated suicide many, many times. My own
family does not know this. I went to a Shrink one time and was
diagnosed as Gender Dysphoric. That is a term I absolutely abhor,
it sounds like an incurable disease.
When I dated earlier in life there were times I never mentioned I
was a TS. When they were told or found out about my secret it was
a distinct turn on to them.
On the other hand men that I have dated were intimidated when I
told them I was TS. Some I have dated came extremely close to
violence or committed violence to my person. These are the ones I
consider Gender Confused. To be quite frank honesty does Not Pay
if Violence is the end.
I know who I am and what I am! I don't need a Shrink or Quasi
Medico such as a Psychologist to tell me what I am! I am a Human
Being so fuck everyone and the World!
I am a Female with added parts if you wish to share my Love or
have sex with me then let's do it. If you don't want sex with me
don't try to Bully, Beat me or Verbally Abuse me.
I have a tremendous amount of Love in my heart for the human
race. All I need now is to share it! That is one reason why I
became a Nurse. The tradition of Florence Nightingale lives on in
every Nurse. She lives in me.
As I contemplated I heard my door open ever so slowly and
quietly. Two heads popped in looking at me in bed. One head was
Charlene's and the other was Gail's.
They started to whisper to each other "Do you think she's awake?"
I heard Charlene say.
"I don't think so." Gail said.
"Come in girls." I said.
That was the worst mistake I ever made. They both came running
in, jumping into the bed with me. My sisters and I always shared
a bed. It was a time to talk about anything and everything. It
was also used to console each other or to show our sisterly love
for one another.
My bed became the same for Gail and Charlene. They both gave me a
hug and kiss. They both hung on to me for dear life. I felt love
for them and for everyone at that moment. We all cuddled until
the door opened again.
Audrey stuck her head into the room followed by Abbi. The next
thing I knew we had a sandwich going and I was in the center. I
enjoyed every minute of our communal bed. The only ones missing
were the two cats and the dog. My God!
I felt the pressure building on my bladder telling me to relieve
myself. I resigned myself to the fact that it was time to get up.
I tried not to disturb anyone as I managed to disentangle myself
from the various appendages crisscrossing my body. To quote a
most Famous, Great, and Loving man; Martin Luther King "Free at
last! Free at last! Thank God Almighty Free at Last!" Although I
put a different meaning to what his meaning was intended.
I put on my robe and slippers, grabbed the clothing from the
dresser and ran like the wind to the Bathroom.
I didn't even take notice of the Bath last night. I surely did
this morning. As I lifted my nightgown and sat I noticed it was
huge.
It was mostly done in pink and a bluish/gray colors. It was ultra
feminine. A large four person Jacuzzi style Tub, separate shower
stall, double sinks, a sit down vanity, plenty of mirrors and
lights and a walk in closet that was lined in Cedar wood. I
thought I had died and went to heaven. The bathroom in my
apartment that I shared with my pets was a very small closet in
comparison.
I ran the water for a very hot bath adding a violet scented
foaming oil to the water. I took off my nightgown and climbed
into the tub. It was luxurious! I was totally relaxed.
As I relaxed in the perfumed water there was a knocking at the
door. It opened slightly; I guess I forgot to lock it.
"Alexis may I come in?" It was Audrey.
"Sure Sis." I said.
"Sorry but nature calls." As she sat on the commode to relieve
herself.
Out of curiosity I asked her about the house.
Audrey said, "Originally there were seven bedrooms up here and
two for servants downstairs. All the bedrooms were suitable but
the baths were atrocious. Originally the basement was a
recreation room. When my mother and husband passed on I decided
it was time to remodel. That was just before I found out I was
pregnant with Gail. The house was totally gutted. The house was
completed one year after Gail was born. What you see is the end
result. A true labor of love."
Abbi purchased her house from the previous owner. That lived in
it for thirty years. Their children didn't want it but Abbi did.
At the time she was married to a man that could afford it.
It is basically the same inside as this house. When her husband
was caught with another woman by us in her bed. Abbi took him to
the cleaners. She took and received everything from him. If she
could have taken his manhood she would have taken that also and
fed it to the fish."
"Hey Sis, you two can have what's left of mine if you want!" I
said with a smile.
"I don't think you want that removed with a rusty knife." Audrey
said.
"Holy Christ! What kind of family did I get into? Are you both
into sadism?" I said with a smile.
"Sis, when you see me in my leather Cat Suit, 5 inch heels, and a
whip in my hand you better run for you life. I'm the meanest,
nastiest Mistress Bitch in the Big Apple." An evil grin spread
across Audrey's face as she left the Bathroom.
After seeing that grin I had no doubt that Audrey could be as she
said if push came to shove. She was a lady to be respected and
loved by all.
The bath was refreshing and so was the talk with Audrey. I dried
off and got dressed in the clothes she loaned me. A new pink lace
bra with matching panties, a pink low cut v-neck sweater, pink
colored jeans, black belt, pink knee-highs, black patent Mary
Jane's with a 2" heel, and a black patent nurses shoulder bag. I
looked like a Pink Factory offset by black.
I felt really good and after I put on makeup at the vanity I felt
and looked even better. I brushed my hair out and touched it up
with a curling iron. I felt even more feminine.
I felt like my old self. It was just like years ago when my
sisters; Irene and Katherine and I would go to dances together.
We would attract the attention of every single male there. We
would also attract the envy of every female there.
It took Charlene, Gail, Audrey and myself 2 hours to pack my
worldly possessions at the Roach Motel. Thank Goodness I had very
few.
The five Hospital Maintenance men arrived with the truck. As they
loaded they opened each box dropping in something to kill any of
my Pets that might have got packed in.
Three hours later I was totally moved in at Audrey's.
I considered my self very lucky. The Mother-in-Law Apartment was
huge. Since it was the first time I had seen it. It was
everything and more that Audrey had said. I was in Heaven!
The only thing that concerned me was tomorrow was a workday.
Audrey had left all my male attire including my work uniforms at
my old apartment.
Audrey, Charlene, Gail and myself had just finished a late lunch.
Gail and Charlene went upstairs while Audrey and I did the
dishes. I told Audrey about my work clothing and of my concerns.
I told her point blank I was terrified.
We sat at the kitchen table with fresh steaming coffee. In no
uncertain terms I was told not to worry. That more people know
about me then I thought. The support of the hospital staff was
overwhelming. Administration also gave me their full support. The
Bigots were already warned that their jobs were in jeopardy if
there was any trouble of any kind so were their Unions.
"Alexis, to be quite honest Admin. is scared shitless for
anything to happen to you. Being a TS you are protected by City
Ordinances. If something were to happen they could be taken to
Court in a massive lawsuit. That lawsuit would entail the
hospital, Administration and other areas. The Feds might even get
involved. The Union Stewards are even supporting you and that's a
miracle by itself. They don't usually support anyone."
"One other point is that the higher ups may know about you but
there are many that don't who you are or what you are. Honey,
it's none of their damn business either!"
All I could do was to start crying. When I started Audrey stated.
Klondike came over to me putting her front paws on my lap and
started to lick my face. Audrey and I couldn't help but start
laughing. Who says dogs can't sense emotion in humans? I guess I
have another friend!
All went well the following day. When I woke up at 4:00am, I had
two nieces, one sister, two cats, and one monster of a dog in bed
with me. Thank Goodness, I had a King Size Bed!
For some reason Klondike had bonded herself to me everywhere I
went she followed. That also included my bed.
Somehow I managed to extricate myself from all those partaking in
my bed. I went to the Bathroom and used the commode as usual. As
I started the water in the shower there were notes put all over
the Bathroom.
The Kids had placed notes saying:
"We Love You Auntie your nieces: Charlene, Gail; Your Sisters:
Audrey, and Abbi"
I lost it again! I really started to cry. My extended family was
exactly as my Blood Family, Loving and Crazy. I felt really good.
I finished my shower after throwing Klondike out of it several
times. I dried off and put on my robe very careful to put on
unscented deodorant and powder. I went upstairs to make coffee
and fed the Moose known as Klondike.
I was again entering a maudlin mood. As I waited for the coffee
to finish brewing I decided this could not happen again. I have
very young patients that are relying on me to help them get well.
They come first! The Hell with anyone that wants to start any
Shit at the hospital. Those children are my main priority!
I went back downstairs and woke Audrey. I asked her if she had a
spare uniform or I would wear a uniform dress to work.
"Didn't I tell you! Go into your living room. You're uniforms
arrived yesterday while we were unpacking. I naturally assumed
you had unpacked those also. I'm really sorry."
I went to the living room and saw a mountain of packages and
boxes. I heard Audrey and the children enter the room
"We got up to see if you wanted any help, Sis"
"Audrey, what the Hell did you order. It looks to me like whole
uniform supply house. Who's going to pay for all of it?"
"Well we didn't know what you had in the way of clothes. So the
DON, Admin. and Purchasing bought these for you. The DON has
relatives in the "Rag Trade" so it was given outright to you.
Look, Christmas came early. So stop your bitchin'!"
As we tunneled through the mountain. I could not believe that
people were actually would or could actually do something like
this.
I finally managed to put a complete uniform together. The scrubs
and jacket had Minnie Mouse with a Stethoscope all over them. The
shoes were 2" wedge heeled Clogs made for comfort.
The girls found several Sprauge-Rappaport style stethoscopes done
in Hot pink and pink. I gave two of each to Audrey for herself
and Abbi.
I grabbed everything I was to wear and went to my bedroom to get
ready, time was getting short for the debut of Alexis. I already
had on my makeup, bra and panties. I added a Hot Pink Scrunchie
to my Pony Tail. I was ready in less then 5 minutes. Alexis was
ready to meet the world head on or was it the Children's Ward.
Nothing could or would dampen my spirits.
Audrey and I went together in her car. (Thank Goodness her
parking space was assigned. New York City is Hell on trying to
park a car.) As we got closer to the hospital the butterflies
returned to my stomach. Audrey saw this and took my hand in hers.
We entered the hospital as usual showing our Identification cards
to Security at the employee entrance. No problems there! The man
at the Security desk just said Good morning ladies. If there was
a problem I would have been stopped immediately. We went onto the
elevator pushing the Children's floor button and getting off when
it stopped.
As soon as we arrived at the main nurses station the oncoming and
offgoing staff smiled and said in unison "Good Morning Nurse
Alexis."
I was accepted by my peers! All my fears dispersed. I felt
ambrosial. There are no other words to describe the multitude of
emotions I was feeling. There was still one more hurdle to go,
the children! My consternation again increased.
As things began to quiet down around the desk. I logged onto the
computer network by using my password. When it was accepted the
message was, "Good Morning Alexis, We Love You!" This time I had
to maintain an air of professionalism. I had to hold back my
tears of joy.
I checked my internal mail. I had close to 150 messages. I
normally had 10 a day at the most. I had two messages marked
urgent. Those messages I opened immediately.
One was from the DON; the other was from the Chief Administrator
of the Hospital. They both wanted to see me at specified times
which were in 10 minutes for the DON. My Stomach did a roll-over!
I told Audrey I had to leave the floor to go to the DON for an
appointment and again at 10:00 to see the Chief Administrator.
She and the other floor staff must have seen the worried look on
my face. It was time for a group hug and I was the recipient.
I didn't even have time to make my rounds to great my patients.
Audrey said she would cover for me until I came back. I flew to
the elevator not wanting to be late for the DON. The only time I
had met her was when I was interviewed.
Ruth Rosen the DON seemed like a no nonsense person, very cold in
her personality. I hoped my first impression of the lady was
incorrect. As I entered the sacred territory of the most high I
was greeted by Ruth's secretary. Ruth came out of her office and
motioned me in. I felt as if I was in Nursing School again
entering Sister Mary DragonLady's office. The feeling was not a
good feeling as the door was closed behind us. Panic was
beginning to set in until Ruth spoke.
"Relax Hon, you look like a scared deer ready to bolt. You're not
in any trouble. This just an informal talk that I have been
putting off since you arrived."
"The reports I have received from all the staff that have come in
contact with you are first rate. I must admit I had reservations
when I was contacted by Sister Laurence. She was right you are
the epitome of our profession. I am very proud of you and the job
you are doing on the Children's Floor."
"I have a memo from Dr. Fishbein stating that you single handedly
saved a child from possible death. Audrey stated you followed
your instincts. You followed the procedures by the book which is
unusual for a new nurse."
I remember that day well. The patient was 5 years old and was
diagnosed with a Cardiac defect. I had just made my rounds
checking the children and noticed Jessica's skin coloring was not
right after I took her Vitals.
I made a mental note to maintain vigilance on her. For some
unknown reason I decided to go back to Jessica's room after
handing my Vitals Sheet to the Floor Secretary.
As I entered I noticed a blue pallor to Jessica's skin and lips.
I started CPR immediately! I also pressed the call button to
alert more staff while giving Mouth-to-Mouth Resuscitation. When
the intercom came on all I could say was I needed help.
Audrey was the first to arrive. Seeing what I was doing she
called in a "Code Blue" or Cardiac Arrest.
Everything was a blur to me from that point on. Audrey and I did
two man CPR and continued until the full "Peds Crash Team"
arrived.
Jessica was finally stabilized and taken to Surgery to correct
her Heart problem. She survived! She was later discharged from
the hospital cured of her Heart Defect after recuperation.
"It's a pleasure to have you on staff. By the way could you
please sign these papers." Ruth said.
I looked at the paperwork. One was a Registration Certificate
made out to Alexis Michael Paderevski. The rest of the paperwork
was made out the same way. I was a bit astounded.
"By the way, did everything fit alright. Audrey was the one that
told me your sizes. So if there was a mistake blame her." Ruth
said as she organized the paperwork.
I told her all the clothes had not been removed from the
packages. I was exhausted after the events of the day. I did
thank her and everyone concerned.
"Dear, we always take care of one of our own. I already spoke to
Audrey this morning. She told me everything, asking that I keep
this meeting short. I get no respect I'm telling you, from my
uppity staff. Here is your new license and a copy of all the
rest. Let's get you to Security for your new badge." Ruth said.
As we walked to Security Ruth was very cordial. Never once did
she ask a personal question. I had the feeling that she already
knew everything there was to know about me.
After I received my new identification badge pinning it on as I
went back to Children's Floor Nurses Station.
Audrey was waiting for me on my return. Mr. Steinman the Chief
Administrator called to say he would see me now instead of the
appointed time. There went my Stomach again, it was a Zantac
moment.
The elevator trip was uneventful. As I walked down the corridor I
thought to myself this was going to be another repetitious
meeting.
I finally entered Hospital Admin. You could always tell by the
lavishness of the offices and the surrounding area. Mr. Steinman
was waiting for me. The jungle communication drums must have been
beating.
I was offered a seat. Mr. Steinman was the type of man didn't
show his age (good Genes I guess.) and very soft spoken. I was
correct in my assumption that the meeting was a rehash of what
Ruth and I spoke about. I also had the feeling he knew everything
there was to know about me also. I surmised that he had some
thing else on his mind. (Boy! Was I right.)
"Alexis, I know you just had a meeting with Ruth. I told her I
wished to break the news to you in person. I would like you and
Audrey to attend the Pediatric Advanced Cardiac Life Support
classes starting next week. Also upon the recommendation of Dr.
Fishbein and Ruth the hospital would like Abigail, Audrey and
yourself to get a Masters Degree in Nursing and Administration.
All classes are offered here in the hospital in conjunction with
NYC Colleges." He said.
I was speechless! Something like this is just not handed to you.
I have heard stories about nurses that begged to get their
Master's Degree. To get the recommendations necessary they were
prepared to do anything and I do mean anything.
There is an old joke that is told: How do you tell the Head Nurse
in a hospital? Answer: She's the one with the dirty knees. Well
that is damn near the truth to get the recommendations necessary.
I told him I would take the ACLS course but would have to talk to
Abbi and Audrey.
"I have two further items. The hospital needs an additional
member to the Pediatric/Neonatal Emergency Transfer and Trauma
Team. I would like you to fill that vacancy. Audrey is currently
on the team."
This guy was just full of surprises. This team was on call 24/7
available to transfer any Pediatric or Neonatal Trauma Case to
this hospital or any other hospital either by ambulance or
helicopter. The people selected were all specialists that know
their healing skills well. It was difficult to believe I was
selected for this assignment being so new to my profession.
I jumped at this opportunity I was not afraid to learn or use my
nursing skills.
"The last item. Because of your unique status in this hospital I
would like you to see Dr. Ira Goldstein. He is expecting you
today at 1:00pm for a Psych. Eval." He said.
The bomb detonated! Great a Shrink! Now to probe my inner Id. I
had no choice but to see him if I wanted to succeed as a nurse. I
would be there.
The meeting concluded, I went back to work on my floor. I told
Audrey what was discussed. She was ecstatic to say the least. She
also handed me a pager and Cell Phone that was to be with me at
all times. I was so happy I could have just Shit.
The rest of the day went well I kept my appointment with the
Shrink. I spent a total of 15 minutes with him.
His diagnosis was that I was Gender Dysphoric (I really do Hate
that Term). A duh! No Shit Doc. He gave me a letter that stated
the diagnosis and that I was under his care. He said it was to
protect me until I had my SRS. I never had one before but this
was New York City.
Audrey and I finished the day with no more problems.
***
We finished the Peds ACLS Course with flying colors. We also
decided to get our Master's Degree as per Admin. request.
Everyday was basically the same until Halloween. We had just
arrived at the hospital when my pager went off. It scared the
living shit out of me. I called the ER to get the information and
was told to get to the ambulance bay Stat. When the term Stat is
used it means life or possible death. I grabbed my Trauma and
Surgical Kits and ran.
That morning Audrey and I had put on the World War II U.S. Navy
Nurse Corps uniforms as we had planned. Now I was running down
the halls wearing a white uniform dress with rank insignia of a
Lieutenant Junior Grade, White 2" heels and Stockings, Blue Cape,
and Nurses Duty Hat with rank piping. I could imagine what was
going through the minds of people that saw me.
I arrived at the ambulance and got in. The physician was already
onboard. What a hunk! He was absolutely gorgeous! I was ready to
drop my panties right then and there! I had seen him around the
hospital many times but didn't really pay much attention to him.
He motioned me to take the Jump Seat and helped me to strap in.
My heart and pulse just kept on racing. I was close to orgasm.
He finally spoke. "Hi, I'm Isadore Stein just call me Izzy. We're
heading to about 10 blocks from here. We have 5 year old child
hit by a car. Injuries are unknown."
We arrived in less then 10 minutes. It was a land speed record
considering New York City traffic.
We stopped and the loading doors were opened by a Fire Fighter.
They had just extricated the boy from Beneath the vehicle that
hit him. The Paramedic on scene could not find any Vitals. The
injuries were very extensive including a crushed cranium.
Izzy had no choice but to call the Time of Death. The Coroner's
office was notified. We had to remain until they arrived. I
totally lost control of my emotions.
I ran back to the "Rig" with tears flowing. I could not for the
life of me understand why that child had died. I knew that the
injuries were extensive. But why couldn't God or that higher
entity let him live. He was innocent! His life was just
beginning. Where was the justice? Where in the Hell were the
parents to protect him?
As I cried Izzy came through the doors. He came to me without
saying a word, enveloping me in his arms. I buried my head into
his shoulder continuing to cry.
Izzy released his hold of me lifting my head to look him in the
eyes say, "Alexis, I don't think that boy know what hit him. At
least he didn't have to suffer or be a vegetable for his entire
life."
I hadn't thought of the other consequences that the young child
might have had. Izzy was right I apologized to him for my
actions.
He put his finger to my lips to silence me saying, "Just because
we are in a healing profession it does not mean we are not human.
When death comes to a patient many of us show our emotions. Some
of us cry, some of us show anger and some of us bottle it in
ourselves until we explode emotionally. Honey, just let it flow
out."
I felt better after he talked with me. In nursing school we had
courses in Death and Dying. I guess we or shall I say I thought I
would never come into contact with death. My mortality was
awakened, I was not invulnerable. I as well as all human beings
would eventually face the Grim Reaper.
I began to feel emotionally better. I gave him a kiss on the
cheek and thanked him for his concern. He smiled at me also.
When the coroner arrived we were released to go back to the
hospital. The EMT and Paramedic said they would do and file the
necessary reports for us. We thanked them by stopping for coffee
and breakfast on the way back to the hospital.
I called Audrey on my Cell Phone to let her know what happened
and where we were. She understood and told me to take my time
getting back. I decided not to tell her about Izzy until I got
back to the floor.
The Restaurant/Deli reminded me of the many neighborhood
restaurants found in the city. Some may be dark and have a
slightly worn appearance but these were the ones that had the
best food. That was definitely this place.
Our EMT and Paramedic must have lived in this place. The owner a
man in his mid seventies came from the kitchen calling them both
by their first names. He took our orders and left to prepare
them.
I must have been partially in shock, as I didn't realize that
Izzy was holding my hand. I don't even recall him taking it. The
one thing that I do know is the Ambulance Crew saw and smiled at
us without comment.
I couldn't help but wonder if Isadore felt an attraction to me as
I felt for him. I surely hope so.
We finished eating and left the restaurant arriving at the
hospital. All the way Isadore held my hand. I kissed him again on
the cheek. I thanked him for his kindness and understanding.
Damn, he didn't ask for my phone number and I forgot to give it
to him.
I turned in the Trauma And Surgical Kits floating all the way to
my assigned floor.
Audrey at first thought I might be still suffering the effects of
the boy's death. Then she realized I had a different type of look
in my eye. I think it was more predatory, maybe even lustful.
"Alexis, snap out of it! Are you okay? Do you want to talk about
it before the party for the kids." Audrey said.
The complete floor staff was at the nurse's station, all stopped
what they were doing to stare at me.
I just shook my head saying, "No, I'll be alright. I just have to
sort some things out. I'll tell you later."
Audrey looked at me and kept staring so did everyone else.
"Audrey, I swear I'll tell you later."
"When later! In six months!" she said.
"I promise on the way home. Okay!" I said.
"Okay." She said.
We had the party for the kids. We tried to make sure that they
forgot they were in a hospital.
All of the ambulatory kids were taken to other floors and
departments by the CNA's and Candy Stripers for Trick or
Treating. They loved it! It was the next best thing to being at
home.
Many of the parents and Docs got involved in the games we set up.
Prizes were donated by many businesses and organizations for the
kids, they were all winners. Even hospital Administration
participated in the festivities!
No matter what medical problem those children had, there was a
smile on their face and a joy in their little hearts.
The day finally ended for our shift. It had started out sad but
at the end the kids lifted my spirits.
We arrived home at our usual time. Audrey and I couldn't wait to
get out of those nurses uniforms. As soon as we opened the door
the moose, Klondike ran out. Thank God we stepped to the side of
the door in time. I had learned the hard way about the daily
rituals, after being knocked on my ass a few times.
Audrey saw the blinking message light on the answering machine
and played back the messages. I had three one from Mom, one from
Irene and one from Isadore.
Audrey then gave me the info on him as we prepared supper. He was
a widower with two little girls ages 5 and 7 years old. His wife
died from Cervical Cancer three years ago. The girls are taken
care of by a nanny and housekeeper.
I had told Audrey earlier in the car what had happened to me. I
also told her about Isadore. She said that every female in the
hospital had tried to land him and didn't succeed.
Audrey thought that that he was genuinely interested in me; I
would be the envy of all the females at the hospital.
I told Audrey that Mom, Irene and Katherine wanted all of us to
come to Chicago for Thanksgiving. That was what they were calling
about.
I grabbed a cold Pepsi from the refrigerator and kicked off my
heels. I still haven't decided if I was going to call Izzy.
I asked Audrey, "Sis, what do you think I should do?"
"With what? Izzy or the rest of the family!" She said.
"All of the above." I said
"Well first of all you and I will be working on Thanksgiving and
Easter. That's so we are off Christmas and New Years Day. So
going to Mom's is out. But, we can all go to Chicago for
Christmas the kids would love it. We could even surprise
everyone.
I telephoned Mom after I took a shower and put on my Bra and
Panties, long comfy lounger with 2" black mules. Now I could face
the world.
Katherine answered the telephone, "Hey Lil' Sis, you received the
message I guess. We're helping Mom with the candy tonight. How's
everything in New York?"
I told her about everything that happened during the day. I was
glad to hear from her and I missed everyone. I also told her to
tell Mom and Irene we had to work for Thanksgiving and up until
Sunday. I didn't say anything about Christmas and New Years. I
was going to ask Abbi and Audrey to take a few vacation days off
in between the two holidays.
"Sis, Moms going to be disappointed. Irene and I will explain.
Isadore sounds like a dream if you don't want him send him to me
or Irene. Is our other Sis there? If she is put her on. We Love
you and call more often. Moms really getting angry about not
hearing from her baby girl." Katherine said.
I handed the telephone receiver to Audrey telling her that it was
our other sister Katherine. She stated speaking to Katherine
while I started making dinner.
Audrey's voice was almost a whisper talking to Katherine. I
couldn't hear any of the conversation. What ever they were
speaking about I had a bad feeling they threw me into the center
of it.
Growing up I guess I was considered the quiet child of the
family. Katherine and Irene were the practical jokers. They did
everything from greasing the toilet seat to Saran wrapping the
commode. I was the one who got the greased toilet seat but Mom
got the Saran Wrap. I never saw her so literally pissed. Irene
and Katherine were grounded for a month for that stunt.
Audrey hung up the telephone.
"What were you two scheming about?" I asked.
"Oh nothing that concerns you Sis. Kathy asked questions about
Izzy. I told her what I knew." Audrey said smiling.
I knew she wasn't quite telling the truth. When she tells a fib
you can see the wrinkles deepen in the corners of her eyes. Wow!
Were they deep, I better go get the hip boots out.
"Honey, let me finish dinner while you call Izzy. He's probably
waiting for your call. Do it before Gail gets home or you won't
be able to use the telephone at all." Audrey said.
I forgot all about Gail and Charlene. That phone is in constant
use with them. We've threatened to attach a Fire Extinguisher to
the phone. Those phone lines are always burning with their
gossip.
I dialed the number that Izzy had left. He answered immediately.
"Hello Isadore, I'm returning your call." I said.
"Hi Alexis, I'm so glad you called. I had a great time with the
kids on the floor. I wanted to thank Audrey and yourself for
inviting me and the rest of the Docs." He said.
Two and two fell into place and it total Audrey!
"You're welcome and were happy you had a good time."
"I don't know how to say this it's been a long time. Would you
like to go to Dinner and the Symphony Saturday night with me."
"Izzy, I would love to go with you."
"Good I'll pick you up at 6:00pm. Thank you and I will see you
tomorrow."
"Wait a minute don't hang up, please."
I laid the telephone down and told Audrey. You'd of thought she
won the lottery. She was so excited. I asked if she would mind if
his daughters could stay the night with Gail and Charlene. I
would pay the girls to baby-sit. It was Okay with her.
"Izzy, I know you have two daughters. Why don't you give your
hired help the evening off. My adopted nieces would love to baby-
sit them over here."
"I don't know they can be a handful. I'm sure they'll be alright.
Audrey will be right here in the house."
"In that case they'll be there."
"Iz, instead of 6:00, be here at 5:30 with them and please pack a
overnight case for them."
"I'll have nanny do it now. I'll see you tomorrow. "He said.
Audrey was all smiles as I set the table. She didn't say a word.
When I was on the telephone, Abbi and the girls had returned.
Audrey told the girls about baby-sitting. The girls couldn't
wait.
Myself on the other hand had so much to do I felt overwhelmed. I
decided to go to bed early, of course Klondike joined me. She
doesn't take a small section of the King Size bed she takes the
whole bed. Klondike is so possessive she growls if you move on
the bed. I think Audrey lost Klondike the Moose to me.
Thank you Lord, for Audrey, Abbi, Charlene and Gail. If it wasn't
for them my day would have been disastrous. I put them through so
much crap. I felt sorry for them buying them lunch at our
favorite Deli.
I had my hair, nails and a pedicure done. We went looking for and
found a black formal evening dress with black and silver bugle
beading. It had a high mandarin collar with a cleavage cut out;
long wide flowing sleeves, and was knee length. The shoes were
strappy silver sandals with a 3" stiletto heel. I couldn't find
the right clutch purse. Audrey had one and loaned it to me.
The next stop was Lingerie. I was talked into a Black Satin Laced
Corset with matching Hi-Cut Panties and Sheer Black Opera Hose.
We also found a pair satin gloves and wrap.
By the time I had bathed and was dressed for my date. I think I
called my adopted sisters every swear name in the book of foul
language. I asked them if they participated in the Spanish
Inquisition. They really seemed like they loved to see me
tortured with that Corset. I could see the smiles on their faces.
When I was fully ready I looked great! I was ready to take on the
world or least New York City.
Izzy finally came with his daughters. They were so cute! Mariah
was 7 and Rebecca was 5. They were immediately at home.
As we were leaving they both started crying. Since I was off the
next day I promised to take them shopping and do lunch. Of course
everyone else wanted to go also. I was trapped again by family!
The evening was grand! Izzy had hired a limousine for the
evening. The Dinner and Symphony was tremendous. We took a ride
in a Handsome Cab around and through Central Park. Overall the
evening was a blur of happiness.
Izzy was a gentleman! He was attentive, tender, and loving. He is
a devoted father and was a devoted husband to his deceased wife.
We both seemed to have a great deal in common. Was this the man
of my dreams? Maybe he is.
All I can say is we returned back to my apartment. Originally the
plan was to retrieve the kids. Things got a little carried away.
The show of mutual affection that started in the Limo, carried
further in my living room and later into my bed.
While lying in my bed, Izzy confessed to me he fell in love with
me the moment he saw me on the Children's Floor. He was too
bashful to ask me out.
His opportunity came when we were on the ambulance together. He
saw I was a real person and conscientious to the feelings and
needs of other people. He saw I really did love children. He
didn't care about my not having SRS yet!
It was a done deal. He was in love! Emotion won over logic. His
logic told him it was definitely LOVE.
I didn't know what to say. So I passionately kissed him because I
loved him also.
As the weeks rolled by Izzy and the Children became more of my
life. Abbi, Audrey, Charlene and Gail thought it was great. We
were just like one big happy family, all the animals included.
As the first of the seasonal holidays, Thanksgiving approached.
There was something in the air and it wasn't Klondike's gas
(Thank Goodness!).
I happened to mention this in passing to Audrey, the week before
on the way home. I was told I was imagining it. I just couldn't
put my finger on it. Izzy told me the same thing.
There were conversations taking place when suddenly everyone
would stop talking whenever I entered a room. This had gone on
since Halloween.
The week before Thanksgiving on Thursday, Audrey and I were off
duty. I had spent the night alone except for my bed companion as
usual Klondike. I awoke at 8:00am and let Klondike outside in the
backyard.
The house was quiet. The kids were still in school. I thought
Audrey was still in bed. Was I wrong!
The coffee was prepared and I found a note from Audrey saying she
went shopping at the grocery store. I grabbed a cup of coffee and
started reading the newspaper.
Klondike started howling in the backyard. (Alaskan malamute's as
a breed are normally mistaken for a wolf by their looks and
howl.) She was going crazy!
I stuck my head outside to quiet her. I saw my Mother, Irene, and
K