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OVER-EXPOSURE
By Lana B.
Ken read the book as he rested comfortably in bed with his head propped
up against the padded headboard. He'd already read this particular book
several times but he returned to it every now and then to browse some
of his favorite passages. It was, after all, no ordinary book. Ken had
written it himself.
He closed it and gazed at the title: "Confidential Scandal." And right
below the title he saw the byline: "by Kenneth Huff."
"Confidential Scandal" concerned the sport of professional boxing. More
specifically the book dealt with the disrepute, notoriety and damage
many boxers and their managers and promoters had inflicted on the
sport.
Ken had blown the lid off the entire boxing scene by uncovering the
prevalence of bribes, fixes, threats and other assorted immoral and
criminal activities extant in professional prizefighting. But most
significantly, his exposure of boxing's unseemly underbelly had had
far-reaching positive effects on the sport.
Ken was proud of the job he'd done. And he'd reaped material benefits
as well. The book had left him rich and famous.
He felt senses of pride and self-satisfaction wash over him. He
reflected on his successful career as an investigative journalist.
For as long as he could remember he'd wanted to be a reporter. When he
was younger he loved to read Superman comic books. But unlike the other
kids who'd idolized the super-hero Ken had read the comics to follow
the exploits of cub reporter Jimmy Olson. To Ken the mortal reporter
was the real star and central point of the comic book.
When Ken was in high school he became a reporter for the school
newspaper. He mainly covered varsity sporting events and social events
like the prom. But his crowning achievement had been his expos? of the
school lunch program. Ken had uncovered evidence that the school
cafeteria manager accepted lower-than-permissible quality foodstuffs in
exchange for bribes. He'd written a story about it in the school
newspaper and it'd caused quite a stir. The manager had been fired and
the supplier's contract terminated. And Ken had basked in the
limelight. He'd become as popular with the girls as most of the
school's jocks.
When Ken graduated from high school he skipped college and went
directly to work. He got a job as an apprentice reporter for the New
York Post. And three years later he was promoted to the position of
beat reporter in the newspaper's sports division where he was assigned
to cover ice hockey and boxing.
He'd never really cared much for hockey. But he wouldn't allow his
dislike for the sport to compromise his work ethic. He fully and fairly
reported on hockey as if it were his passion. He wouldn't permit his
personal preferences to disadvantage his readers.
But boxing was something else altogether. Ken had always loved the
sport. He'd grown up watching boxing matches on television with his
father. In fact his father had been an amateur boxer who'd sparred with
the likes of Sugar Ray Leonard and Roberto Duran.
In covering professional boxing for the paper Ken had heard all the
sordid rumors of graft and corruption in the sport. But nothing had
ever been proven. There was innuendo to spare but no one who ran in
boxing's inner circles had been willing to provide Ken with tangible
proof of improprieties.
Ken resolved to get to the bottom of the matter. He'd thoroughly
investigate the sport of professional boxing for illegal activities
and, if found, fully expose it for all to see.
He knew that he'd have difficulty prying information from the sport's
players. If corruption existed they'd conceal it to protect their own
skins and wallets. So Ken decided that he needed to be a player too.
He'd become a professional boxer.
Ken had a good background to build on. His father, who'd tragically
died of a heart attack 3 years ago, had taught him how to defend
himself as a young boy. Mr. Huff kept a speed bag and heavy bag in the
basement of the family home and Ken had frequently practiced on the
equipment. And he'd become quite good at pounding the bags. He'd also
become proficient at skipping rope and sparring with his father.
The boxing lessons his father gave him had come in quite handy as he
progressed through high school. Ken wasn't tall for his age or tough-
looking and school bullies periodically attempted to take advantage of
his perceived weakness. But Ken had surprised them all. He'd given the
larger boys severe beatings. It had been a classic case of size doesn't
matter.
Ken put his plan to investigate professional boxing in motion. He
joined Carney's Gym on the Lower East Side and trained there after work
every day and on weekends. And after three months he'd caught the eye
of Jonnie Gleason, a crusty 68-year-old semi-retired trainer. Gleason
liked what he'd seen and agreed to train Ken on the finer points of
pugilism.
Ken was 5'7" tall and weighed 151 pounds. Gleason believed he was a
classic welterweight. So Ken shed a few pounds to make the welterweight
division limit of 147 pounds.
Ken incrementally improved his skills and 4 months after he'd come
under Gleason's wing he had his first amateur fight. And he'd knocked
out his opponent in the first round with a sweet left hook that landed
squarely on the jaw.
Ken had 27 amateur fights in 13 months and amassed an undefeated
record. All but one of the fights had ended in either a knockout or
technical knockout.
Gleason decided it was time for Ken to turn professional and arranged a
fight with a lowly regarded welterweight. Ken knocked out his opponent
in the third round with a perfectly timed left hook-right cross
combination to the head.
Ken took a leave of absence from his job at the paper to pursue his
professional boxing career on a full-time basis. His co-workers wished
him well and urged him on.
Gleason became Ken's manager as well as his trainer and kept him busy.
He scheduled a fight for Ken every two months. He found opponents who
were more and more proficient. And Ken continued to excel. After two
years he had an undefeated record of 13-0.
And that's when something unusual happened. All three of professional
boxing's sanctioning bodies ranked him in the top ten of welterweight
contenders. Ken had been taken by surprise and questioned his trainer
over the development. "What the hell's going on Jonnie? I've only had
13 fights. How did I break into the top ten so fast?"
Gleason shook his head at his boxer's naivet?. "Welcome to the politics
of boxing kid. It's no big surprise."
"I don't understand Jonnie."
"Okay. It's like this. Most of the best fighters in the division are
Latino or African American. If you haven't noticed you're white."
"So? What does that have to do with anything?"
"You've been anointed the great white hope of the welterweight
division."
"I'm not sure I'm following you."
"You're a welterweight version of Jess Willard. He's the guy who beat
Jack Johnson, the first black heavyweight champion." Gleason could see
that Ken didn't fully comprehend the implications of what he'd just
been told. "Look kid, a lot of fans want to see a white welterweight
champion. And the promoters could make a bundle giving the people what
they want. And so could you and I for that matter. Am I getting through
to you?"
"You're saying I was given a high ranking just because I'm white?
That's not right Jonnie."
"For crying out loud kid, don't look a gift horse in the mouth!"
Ken shook his head in astonishment. He couldn't believe that race was a
factor in professional boxing's ranking system.
Over the next several months Ken discovered a number of other
unsettling practices in professional prizefighting. Boxers paid money
to sanctioning bodies for higher rankings. Promoters and mobsters paid
off or threatened boxers to lose fights in order to advance the careers
of other fighters. Boxers bribed promoters for a higher standing on the
fight bill. Referees and judges were pressured or bribed to give or
take away points from fighters. And promoters black-balled fighters,
managers and trainers who'd refused to cooperate with them.
Ken had even heard a story of a boxer who'd been killed for refusing to
throw a fight. His source had told him that the fighter had been shot
dead and buried in the marshlands of southern New Jersey.
As he came across instances of wrongdoing and transgressions Ken made
every effort to document his findings. He carried out a number of
black-bag jobs and photocopied records and ledgers kept by unscrupulous
promoters that chronicled the details of their shady undertakings. He
paid a secretary of a crooked manager for copies of confidential
letters setting forth illegal arrangements. And he secretly taped his
own conversations with other boxers and their trainers and managers.
Ken had one more fight in his short but illustrious boxing career. He
met Luther Johnson, the fifth-ranked welterweight contender, in a hard-
fought contest in Cleveland, Ohio. The fight went the distance and Ken
was awarded a split decision.
Ken earned $75,000 for fighting Luther Johnson, his biggest payday yet.
But he knew he'd never advance much further in the division on merit.
The top three contenders were much better fighters than Luther Johnson.
And the unified welterweight champion, Oscar "The Nightmare" Nunez, was
a 147 pound version of Muhammad Ali. Ken knew he wouldn't stand a
chance against Nunez.
Besides Ken had accumulated enough information to write his story. It
was time to return to his real job as a reporter.
So Ken abruptly retired from boxing. Jonnie Gleason was flabbergasted
at hearing the news and passionately implored him to reconsider. But
Ken stuck to his guns. He'd told his trainer, "My decision's final
Jonnie. It's time to move on. I'll never be champion while Nunez is
around and he's only 28 years old. What's the sense?"
"You can beat Nunez. This is professional boxing. Anything's possible
kid. Things can be arranged."
"I want no part of that crap Jonnie. I'm out."
So Ken retired from boxing and a month later he returned to the New
York Post to resume his career as a sports reporter. And shortly
thereafter he wrote a series of stories exposing professional boxing
for the hoax and fraud it had become.
Ken's series captured the attention of a wide audience. Casual readers
were captivated by his tales of deceit and corruption. Sports fans were
allured to his exposure of widespread fraud amidst a seemingly
legitimate sport. And politicians found a popular issue to hang their
hats on.
Ken's stories precipitated a whirlwind of activity. Congressional
hearings were held. Formal inquiries were made by numerous State
Athletic Commissions. Even the President, a life-long sports fan,
expressed his unhappiness with the situation when asked about it in a
nationally televised press conference.
And when the smoke had cleared remedial action was taken. The sport of
professional boxing was placed under the jurisdiction of a national
governing body.
Ken's popular boxing series yielded substantial material benefits for
him. He was nominated for a Pulitzer Prize. And although he didn't win
the award the nomination alone had garnered considerable publicity
which led several publishing houses to offer him a book deal.
Ken weighed the offers and accepted a deal from a publishing house that
specialized in sports books. He was given a six-figure advance and a
year later put the final touches on "Confidential Scandal."
The book was a smash hit. It stayed on the New York Times non-fiction
best seller list for over a year. The reading public was enthralled by
the experiences of someone who'd actually become a successful
prizefighter to surreptitiously uncover corruption in the sport.
Ken had become famous and wealthy from the success of his book. He'd
banked millions and hired an investment counselor to diversify his
portfolio.
He decided to resign from his job at the New York Post. Billy Myers,
the paper's sports editor, had begged him to stay but Ken expressed his
gratitude and gave Myers the customary two weeks' notice.
Ken placed the book back on the night-table. He considered that he'd
left his job at the paper six months ago and hadn't worked since. He'd
rested, relaxed and enjoyed his new-found fame and wealth by dining in
plush restaurants and taking week-long vacations in Bermuda, Puerto
Rico and Montreal.
But he'd become restless. He knew it was time to return to work.
Ken decided that he'd write another book. All he needed was a
controversial issue to examine.
He turned off the light and slipped under the covers. He thought hard
for 15 minutes but couldn't come up with a topic for his next book. But
he was confident he'd think of a suitable subject to investigate and
expose as the darkness of sleep fell over him.
***
Ken awoke and gazed at the clock-radio. It was 9:25. He got out of bed
and showered. He then dressed and left his Park Avenue apartment.
He made his way down to the street and headed for The Caffeine Jolt,
his favorite coffee shop. When he got to Lexington Avenue he noticed
the mass of people across the street on the sidewalk in front of the
Sinclair Hotel. Some carried placards. They appeared to be
demonstrating about something. He became curious.
He crossed the street and approached one of the demonstrators in the
rear of the mob. She was a middle-aged woman with grayish hair and she
carried a poster depicting a rather ill-looking rabbit. And in large
red letters the poster was inscribed: "STOP RUBY DANYON AND HER CRUELTY
TO ANIMALS."
Ken walked up to the woman. "Excuse me ma'am. I'm a newspaper reporter.
What's going on here?"
The woman looked him up and down. She appeared satisfied. "There's a
cosmetics convention in this hotel and some of the companies experiment
on animals."
"Experiment on animals?"
"That's right. They test their new products on animals. And some of the
cosmetics cause terrible side-effects. Animals are living beings. They
shouldn't be subjected to things like that. It isn't right. It ought to
stop."
Ken nodded in agreement. He looked at the poster again. "Who's Ruby
Danyon?"
"She's in charge of Savoy Cosmetics. That's the worst company. They
torture and maim innocent animals for profit. Animals are God's
creatures too Mister. This has to end!"
Ken noticed a commotion near the hotel's entrance. "Thank you for your
time ma'am."
"Write a story about this in your newspaper Mister. People have to
realize what's going on!"
"I'll do that." Ken turned away from the woman and inched his way
through the crowd. He saw a black limousine parked at the curbside in
front of the hotel. The chauffeur stepped out of the limo and opened
the rear door.
Ken watched as a tall redhead in a mink coat exited the vehicle. She
was stunning.
The crowd chanted and yelled at her. Someone loudly shouted, "Murderer!
Murderer!"
A contingent of four men in black suits quickly exited the hotel. They
ran to the redhead's side and encircled her. The men ushered her
through the menacing crowd and into the hotel.
Ken detected a vague notion of intrigue hatch in the back of his mind
as he slipped away from the crowd and continued on to the coffee shop.
***
Ken sat before his computer. He'd returned from breakfast two hours ago
and had spent the time on the Internet researching Savoy Cosmetics. The
fervor displayed by the demonstrators he'd witnessed this morning had
provoked his interest.
Ken discovered a number of interesting things about Savoy Cosmetics.
Ruby Danyon had started the company seven years ago by rolling her life
savings of $125,000 into it. She'd targeted young girls between the
ages of 13 and 19. And she'd advertised her cosmetics line exclusively
on MTV to reach her demographic audience.
The television advertisements worked. Young girls had been attracted to
the flashy ads and bought Savoy's products.
Ruby Danyon used her early profits to expand the company's cosmetics
line. And she'd also hired two young pop divas to endorse Savoy's
products and make a series of advertisements for broadcast on
commercial television.
Ruby Danyon's strategy worked like a charm. Seven years after its
inception Savoy Cosmetics had cornered a 76% share of the cosmetics
market for girls 13 to 19-years-old.
Danyon became rich selling cosmetics to young girls. But her wealth had
not come without controversy. Innuendo, criticism and gossip regarding
her business practices and personal life abounded.
Consistent with the demonstration he'd seen this morning Ken came
across accusations that Savoy Cosmetics experimented on animals.
Several animal cruelty websites charged the company with testing new
cosmetics on rabbits, ferrets and rhesus monkeys to evaluate the
products for adverse side-effects such as skin sensitivity and eye
irritation.
Savoy Cosmetics vehemently denied the charges. Ruby Danyon challenged
her detractors to substantiate their allegations. "Let them put up or
shut up," she'd told a reporter in a televised interview.
Ken saw that the European Union had recently banned the use of animals
to test cosmetic products. While the practice wasn't technically
illegal in this country evidence had never been found that American
cosmetics companies experimented on animals within the borders of the
50 states. They wouldn't dare expose themselves to the adverse
publicity which could put their profits at risk. The companies
universally denied the practice of experimenting on animals.
Some American cosmetics companies, however, were accused of secretly
practicing animal experimentation on foreign soil where it was
difficult, if not impossible, to substantiate. Savoy Cosmetics was one
such company.
Ken had also read that Ruby Danyon didn't seem to like men. She'd
surrounded herself with female advisors. All of the corporate officers
and board directors at Savoy Cosmetics were women. Even the attorneys
and accountants Danyon used were women.
Malicious gossip about Danyon's sexual preferences swirled around her.
Some claimed she was a man-hating lesbian. They'd even contemptuously
dubbed her inner circle as "Danyon's Dykeocracy."
Ken felt the eye strain from glaring at the monitor for two hours. He
turned away from the screen and considered.
A story began to take shape in his mind.
He went to the bathroom and splashed some cold water on his face and
eyes. He then returned to his computer and initiated a new search.
***
Ken brought the fork up to his mouth and tasted the eggplant parmesan.
It was delicious. "This is terrific Angie. It's the best you've ever
made."
"Yeah? Thanks Ken. It's a new recipe I got from one of the girls at
work."
Ken looked at his friend sitting across from him at the dining room
table. Angie Romero was as beautiful as she was a great cook. Her
father was Italian and her mother Spanish and Angie had inherited the
best features from both. She had a fine olive complexion and long
straight black hair. Her eyes were big and brown and her lips full and
supple. Her nose was rather long and linear and her contoured face came
to an end at a finely pointed chin. She was about 5'8" tall and 130
pounds and had a well-rounded figure. Angie was classically beautiful
in a Mediterranean sort of way.
Ken had met Angie while working at the New York Post. She was the
paper's fashion editor. They'd hit it off as soon as they met and had
become good friends. And a few months later they'd had sex after they
both consumed one-too-many margaritas to celebrate Angie's 27th
birthday. They'd realized they were a good sexual fit for each other
and had continued on with their intimate escapades. They weren't so
much boyfriend-girlfriend as they were fuck buddies.
But over the past several months they'd become closer to one another.
They'd even made an informal arrangement that if they hadn't married by
the time they were 35 then they'd marry each other.
Ken wanted Angie's opinion on his plan. "I'd like to run something by
you Angie."
"Sure. What?"
"I think I've found a topic for my next book."
Yeah? That's great Ken. What is it?"
"Well, it may sound a little bizarre at first but I want you to hear me
out. Okay?"
"Alright."
"I'm going to go after animal experimentation in the cosmetics
industry."
"That's great. I've heard about some of the atrocities inflicted on
those poor creatures." Angie looked a little puzzled. "But what's so
bizarre about that?"
"Well, there's one company I'm pursuing. Savoy Cosmetics. Maybe you've
heard of them?"
"Yeah. I have. They market themselves to teenagers I believe."
"That's right. The company's run by women." Ken paused.
"And?"
"Well, to have a chance of getting close to their inner circle I've got
to become a woman."
"Become a woman? What are you talking about Ken?"
"Well, I don't mean I'm going to become a woman." Ken paused again.
"Well, I will a little I suppose."
Angie had a perplexed expression. "You're not making sense Ken."
Ken gathered his thoughts. "Okay. Here's the gist of it. In order to
successfully investigate Savoy I need to get close to their main
players. Company officials and board members. Hopefully even Ruby
Danyon. She's the company's president and CEO."
"I've heard of her."
"Right. And to get close to them I've got to make them believe I'm a
woman. They apparently have little or no dealings with men."
"But how in the world are you going to do that?"
"Have you ever heard of transsexualism?"
"Isn't that where a man or woman believes they were meant to be the
opposite sex?"
"That's right. And a lot of transsexuals undergo hormonal and surgical
reassignment treatment to change their gender. I've researched the
whole thing on the Internet."
Angie nodded. She thought for a moment and the realization set in.
"You've got to be joking. You're going to have medical treatment to
change your gender to female?"
"Well, I'll have partial treatment."
"Partial treatment? What does that mean?"
"I'll pretend I'm a transsexual Angie. I'll see a doctor and go on
hormones. I'll go through the process until I convincingly look like a
woman. But I naturally won't go through with the last step."
"The last step?"
"Sexual reassignment surgery."
"Oh."
"And when I reach the point where I can pull off the charade I'll apply
for a job with Savoy. Then I'll be in a position to investigate the
whole animal experimentation question. And if it's true I'll blow the
cover off the whole thing."
Angie considered. "That's a pretty drastic way of going about it Ken."
"It's the only effective way Angie. I learned that from when I exposed
the boxing scandal. If you want to get the inside information then
you've got to get close to the main players."
"But what if you get a job at Savoy and discover there aren't any
improprieties? Maybe they don't experiment on animals. Then look what
you'll have gone through for nothing. Where's your story then?"
"I've thought about that Angie. I'll still have a story."
"What story?"
"I'll get a different job and write a book about what it's like to be a
woman in the work- place. You know, a lady working in a man's world,
but from a man's point of view. I'll explore the issue of sexual
discrimination and harassment of working women."
"Hmm. You may have something there."
"This has the potential to be as big as 'Confidential Scandal' Angie."
Angie nodded. As bizarre as Ken's plan sounded she couldn't disagree
with his conclusion.
***
"Are you really sure Ken? Do you have any reservations at all about
this?"
"I'm sure Dr. Norton. I have no reservations at all. For as long as I
can remember I've always wanted to be a girl. I've always felt that I
should have been born female."
This was his third appointment with Dr. Ralph Norton, a psychiatrist at
The Transgender Institute, a reputable sexual dysphoria facility in
midtown Manhattan. Ken hoped he'd finally convinced Dr. Norton to
commence the therapy.
"Okay Ken. Let's go over the protocols."
"Alright."
"In order to have sexual reassignment surgery you first have to undergo
at least 12 months of hormonal therapy. That means you'll be given
estrogen and progesterone. They're female hormones. And as a result of
taking these medications your skin will soften. Fatty tissue will
redistribute from your shoulders and elsewhere to your hips and rear
end. You'll grow breasts and develop curves. You'll experience female
emotions. The production of testosterone by your testicles will be
suppressed. And you may become unable to attain an erection. Do you
understand?"
"Yes Dr. Norton. That's what I want."
"And you'll also have to live and work as a woman for at least 12
continuous months."
"I understand."
"And before you can have surgical reassignment a qualified health
professional who's been acquainted with your case has to make a
recommendation for surgery. As your psychiatrist I can make the
recommendation when the time comes."
"Good Doc. That's what I'm shooting for."
Dr. Norton studied his patient. He'd been persuaded that Ken Huff was
an appropriate candidate for sexual reassignment treatment. He reached
into his desk drawer and came away with a pad. "I'm writing you a
prescription for female hormones Ken."
Ken watched as Dr. Norton finished writing and tore the paper from the
pad.
"Here." The doctor handed Ken the prescription. "You can get this
filled for a reasonable price at our pharmacy on the sixth floor."
"Thanks Doc."
"You're welcome."
Ken got up to leave.
"We're not finished yet. Pull down your pants."
"Pull down my pants?"
"Yes. I'm going to give you an estrogen shot. I've found that I get
much quicker results when I combine injections with oral medication
Ken."
***
Ken stepped out of the shower and toweled himself dry. He exited the
bathroom and headed for the bedroom. He felt his breasts gently bounce
as he took each step.
He stood before the bedroom wall mirror and studied his reflection. He
paid particular attention to his budding breasts. Three months had
elapsed since he'd gone on female hormones and he'd grown breasts. They
were an A-cup at best but they were clearly visible.
Ken wiggled a bit and watched as his small breasts bounced and swirled.
They felt so strange and foreign. And they tugged at his chest too.
He'd shown them to Angie last night and she'd said he was ready for a
training bra. She told him she'd buy a few pair for him.
Ken examined himself and noticed a few subtle changes. His face
appeared rounder and softer. His beard, which had always been very
light, had all but disappeared. His brown hair had grown to the point
where it fell an inch or more past his ears, obscuring them.
He also observed the emergence of slight curves. His waist had tapered
a bit and his hips had sprouted some. Even his legs looked a little
shapely. He'd gone on a low carb diet which undoubtedly contributed to
his slighter appearance but he knew that the hormones were the primary
cause of his newer and softer look.
He gazed between his legs and saw his old pals down there. His penis
and scrotum dangled freely as they always had. He could see no change
in his genitals and was thankful for that. He'd read on the Internet of
a case where a male-to-female transsexual's genitalia had withered and
atrophied from long-term exposure to female hormones. Ken wanted no
part of that.
He returned to the bathroom and stepped onto the scale. He saw that he
weighed 138 pounds. As an adult he'd never been this light before. But
then again, he thought, he'd never attempted to masquerade as a woman
before.
He dressed in jeans, a flannel shirt and sneakers. He needed a belt to
keep his pants up but other than that everything else was the same. And
then he felt his breasts wiggle as he took a step. 'Oh well. It's all
the same except for that I guess.'
Ken left his apartment and made his way to the subway station. He had
two classes in marketing and public relations at Pace College this
morning. He'd enrolled at the school a week after he'd commenced his
treatment. He hoped the courses would help him gain a position with
Savoy Cosmetics in their New York office on Madison Avenue.
He kept his fingers crossed for good luck as he stepped down into the
subway station.
Two months later...
"How's everything going Ken?"
"Pretty good so far Doc."
Dr. Norton studied his patient from behind his oak desk. He saw that he
wore jeans, a loosely fitting black sweat shirt and sneakers. "I see
you're still wearing your old clothes. How's the adjustment coming
along?"
"Uh... adjustment?"
"Yes. How are you adjusting to the changes in your body?"
Ken thought about the question. His breasts had continued to grow and
the training bra he'd worn for the past few weeks had become a little
tight. And the curves at his waist and hips had become more pronounced.
He'd also noticed that his rear end had taken on a rather padded and
full appearance. "I'm adjusting to the changes just fine."
"When do you plan on changing your wardrobe? To women's clothes I
mean?"
Ken had been putting that decision off. He knew the time was quickly
approaching where he'd be unable to stall it much further. "I don't
know Doc. It's only been four or five months. Maybe in another month or
two I figure?"
"Are you really sure you want to go through with this thing Ken? Most
male-to-female transsexuals I've treated can't wait to discard their
male clothes."
"Absolutely Dr. Norton. I really want this."
"Well, I'd like to see a few changes when I see you next month Ken."
"Changes?"
"Yes. I want you to appear more feminine. Wear women's clothes. And
maybe a little makeup too. I want to see the adjustment with my own
eyes. Alright?"
Ken swallowed. "Sure. No problem."
"Good. Now pull down your pants."
***
It was the night before Ken's next appointment with Dr. Norton and
Angie was helping him prepare. Ken had told her about the doctor's
expectations and she'd volunteered to help.
Angie held his hand and ran the emery board over his nails. She'd
instructed him to stop clipping his nails last month and she was
shaping them into oval points. Ken saw that they were only about a
quarter of an inch past his fingertips but they looked so strange
shaped like that.
Ken watched as Angie took the bottle of red nail polish out of her
purse. "Whoa! I'm not wearing that stuff!"
"What are you talking about? It'll make your hands look nice."
"I'm... I'm not ready for that yet Angie."
"Okay, okay." She went back to her purse and this time came away with a
bottle of clear polish.
"Angie, I said..."
She abruptly cut him off. "Look Ken. Dr. Norton said he wanted to see
some changes, right? Don't you want to show him you're serious about
this?"
Ken had a defeated expression. "Yeah. You're right. Go ahead."
He watched as she ran the small brush over his nails. He continued to
watch as the clear shiny polish dried. He was fascinated at how
feminine his hands looked now.
Angie saw the look of wonder on his face and smiled. "See. I told you.
Your hands look nice like that. Now I want to show you how to put
lipstick on."
"But..."
"Come on Ken. You told me Dr. Norton mentioned makeup. Stop resisting."
"Okay."
She handed him her compact and instructed him to watch in the small
mirror as she applied a light coat of red lipstick to his lips. And she
gave him handy tips as she worked. She finished and reminded him, "This
is what you have to do before you leave for your appointment tomorrow
morning Ken."
He sheepishly nodded his assent.
For the next twenty minutes Angie trimmed and styled his hair. She
parted it down the middle and brushed it out. His wavy brown hair had
grown to the point where it fell to the top of his shoulders and it
looked quite nice when she'd finished. She gave him a small hand-
mirror. "Here. Have a look."
Ken examined his reflection and felt his heart jump. The long and
stylish hair joined together with the red lips to make him look quite
feminine. He knew that he shouldn't be surprised because that had been
the whole point. But he was surprised anyway.
Angie broke his concentration. "You know, I was thinking Ken. Maybe I
can stay here tonight so I can help you get ready tomorrow morning. I
can sleep, you know, on the couch."
Ken knew that Angie had created an awkward moment for both of them but
she was obviously willing to force the issue. They hadn't spent the
night together for months. Ken hadn't made a move on her since he'd
grown breasts. He was afraid of how she'd react to his new growths in
bed.
"Uh... fine. Thanks Angie."
***
Ken climbed into his bed and slipped under the covers. He thought
fondly of Angie. She'd been so helpful and encouraging. And he was
happy to have her company. They'd ordered Chinese takeout and watched a
video afterwards as they worked off a bottle of chilled white wine.
He wanted to get a good night's sleep before his appointment with Dr.
Norton tomorrow. And the wine had made him drowsy. So he'd fetched a
blanket and pillow for Angie and excused himself.
Ken was on the verge of falling asleep. He could feel himself go under.
He sensed movement. He thought he was dreaming. He opened his eyes and
turned onto his other side where he touched and smelled her. "But
Angie..."
She put a finger to his mouth, silencing him. She slowly slipped her
finger away and replaced it with her mouth. He responded and their
tongues met.
They passionately kissed but Ken worried. He remained flaccid. And then
Angie took his breasts in her hands and fondled them. He felt himself
go hard and mounted her to strike while the iron was hot.
He entered her and they rocked back and forth. They knew each other
well and were practiced in the art of holding out for as long as they
could to prolong the rapture. And they finally came together just as
they always had. It had been as good as ever.
Ken rolled off her and softly kissed her. "Thanks Angie. I needed
that."
"It was my pleasure."
They giggled at the little joke and kissed once more.
***
Angie clasped his bra from behind and spun him around. "Hmm. This looks
a little snug. How does it feel Ken?"
"You're right. It's tight."
"I'll pick up some new bras for you today. It won't be long before you
match me Ken. Here. Put these on." She handed him a pair of white
cotton panties.
He slipped into the underwear and when he looked up he saw Angie
holding a pair of pantyhose. "Nylons Angie? Is that really necessary?"
"You want to impress Dr. Norton, don't you?"
"Well... yeah."
"Wearing nylons will help you do that. And besides Ken, women wear
these things. If you intend to successfully pose as a woman you've got
to get used to things like nylons. You've got to stop resisting."
Ken knew that Angie was right. If he was going to pull this thing off
he'd have to become accustomed to all of the changes in his body and
his new wardrobe. He knew that he had to establish the illusion of
appearing female in order to succeed in the project he'd undertaken.
After all that was the whole point of taking hormones.
But he hadn't anticipated that he'd find the whole process so
embarrassing. Every time he looked at himself in the mirror or felt how
soft he'd become he questioned his own masculinity. He'd always liked
the ladies and now he was slowly becoming one himself. It was as if he
was turning into an object of his own desire. The experience was
weirdly erotic and humiliating all at once.
Ken resolved to deal with it. He realized he had no choice. He wasn't
prepared to abandon the project. More than anything else he wanted to
write this book. He knew there was a good story here. 'Just go with the
flow for God's sake!'
He looked at Angie. She'd been so helpful and supportive. He thought
back to last night and smiled. "I want to thank you Angie. For helping
me through this whole thing. I'm not sure I could do it without your
help."
"Hey, what are friends for?" She leaned over and kissed him on the
cheek. "Here. Let's slip these on."
Angie helped him with the nylons and gave him handy tips as she pulled
them up his legs and over his waist. "Take a few steps Ken. You'll be
surprised."
He walked a few paces and impulsively smiled. The stockings produced an
erotic sensation on his thighs and calves that he found more to his
liking than he cared to admit.
"See. I told you Ken."
He felt a little embarrassed at his reaction to the nylons. 'Stop it!
You've got to get used to this!'
Angie pulled a pair of black cotton slacks and a white silk blouse from
her suitcase. "Okay. Time for some outerwear. These are mine Ken. We're
about the same size so they should fit you just fine."
Ken realized that Angie was being charitable. He was at least an inch
shorter than her. He knew that Angie thoughtfully wore flats in his
presence to avoid making their height difference more pronounced.
She helped him slip into the clothes and then retrieved a pair of black
leather shoes from the suitcase. Ken saw that they had high-heels. He
was about to object but restrained himself. 'It's part of the
masquerade. Deal with it, Goddammit!' He felt himself relax and was
proud he'd been able to calm himself down.
"These are 2 ?" heels Ken. They'll go nice with that outfit." Angie was
pleasantly surprised that he stepped into the shoes without protest.
For the next 15 minutes Ken practiced walking in the heels until he
became reasonably comfortable in them. And then Angie made him up by
applying a little foundation to his face and a light coat of red
lipstick to his lips. She brushed his hair and proclaimed, "There it
is. I'm done."
Ken stood before the full-length mirror and shook his head in
astonishment. He saw that he looked like someone else entirely.
Someone who was well on his way to becoming a woman in appearance.
***
Dr. Norton looked at his patient and smiled. "Now that's more like it
Ken. You've done a nice job on yourself." He studied Ken closely and
decided he appeared rather attractive. "Now remember, you've got to
keep moving forward. Build on this Ken. It's a good start. Okay?"
"Yeah Doc."
"Have you thought about getting a job? You'll have to work as a woman
for at least a year before you can have surgery Ken."
"Yeah. I remember. I'm going to start looking around for work in the
next few weeks Doc." He'd actually sent a resume to Savoy Cosmetics two
days ago.
"Well, do you want your employer to know you're a male-to-female
transsexual or do you wish to conceal that information Ken?"
He thought for a moment. For obvious reasons he certainly didn't want
Savoy Cosmetics to know his real identity. Even if his original plan
didn't pan out and he ended up working elsewhere he'd need to conceal
his true identity as well. A book about unequal treatment of women in
the workplace certainly wouldn't succeed if his co-workers knew he was
a biological male. He had to be perceived and treated as a real woman
if he hoped to write an authentic book.
"I think I'd like to conceal the information Doc."
"Then we're going to have to effectuate a name change now."
"Why?"
"If you don't want them to know you're a transsexual, Ken, then you'll
need new identity papers. A woman's identity papers."
"Oh. I see."
Dr. Norton telephoned the Documentation Department on the 7th Floor and
made an appointment for Ken.
He got up to leave. "See you next month Doc."
"There is one more thing Ken."
"What?"
"If you don't want your employer to know you're transgendered then you
may want to consider a little facial cosmetic surgery. It'll help you
pass as a woman better."
Ken was puzzled. "What type of surgery are you talking about?"
"For starters you should have your Adam's apple shaved off. It's not
that large but it is noticeable. And maybe a nose job to remove the
small bump and make it a bit smaller. And a little procedure to round
off your chin a bit. It's a little too square now. And you should also
see one of our speech therapists to learn how to modulate your voice so
you sound like a woman Ken."
"Oh." Ken considered. "I'll think about it Doc."
***
Ken looked at his face in the mirror. Dr. Norton was right. All the
things he'd mentioned might prevent him from passing as a woman.
He'd discussed it with Angie last night and she'd agreed with the
doctor. "I think he's raised a good point Ken. Those things will make
you look and sound more feminine. They'll definitely help you pass as a
woman," she'd said.
"But when this whole thing's over I want to look like a man again
Angie," he'd stressed.
"Once you stop taking hormones, Ken, you'll look male again. Maybe a
little androgynous at worst. But you can always have cosmetic surgery
to harden your features if necessary," she'd stated.
Ken gazed at his reflection and considered. He knew that if his plan
had any chance of working he'd have to pass as a woman with no
questions asked. And he desperately wanted his plan to work. He was
obsessed with recapturing the fame and glory he'd experienced when
"Confidential Scandal" was released.
He decided to have the cosmetic surgery.
***
Ken carefully studied his face in the bathroom mirror and decided he no
longer looked like himself. He'd had the recommended facial cosmetic
surgery a month ago and it had changed his appearance more than he'd
imagined. He wondered whether he'd ever look like a man again.
He saw that his nose was smaller now. It almost looked pert. His
rounded face terminated in a soft point at the chin. His neck now
appeared long and smooth, like a swan's neck. And the skin on his face
looked so soft and smooth too. When he'd checked into the facility to
have the cosmetic surgery he made a last-minute decision to also have
laser electrolysis to remove a few isolated facial follicles.
He studied himself further and saw that his hair had grown to the point
where it fell past his shoulders and onto the top of his back. It
framed his pretty face like a crown. He softly shook his head in
disbelief and watched and felt his long hair swirl.
He realized that even without makeup he no longer looked like a man.
There was no question about it. "I look like a girl now." He suddenly
felt his face redden.
He rationalized that he wouldn't have to worry anymore about passing as
a woman. "That's why I went through all of this." He immediately
noticed that his voice sounded higher pitched and feminine. All those
sessions with the speech therapist had really helped.
He heard the mailman at the front door. He tightened the belt on his
robe and exited the bathroom.
Ken saw two pieces of mail on the floor beneath the door's mail slot.
He retrieved them. He saw that one was a large manila envelope from The
Transgender Institute and the other was a business envelope from Savoy
Cosmetics.
His heart raced. He didn't know which one to open first.
On impulse he opened the manila envelope and set his sight on his new
identification papers. He saw a Social Security card, driver's license
and birth certificate. And they were all in the name of Karen Huff.
He slowly said "Karen." It sounded so strange. He didn't think he'd
ever get used to it.
He opened the other envelope and unfolded the single piece of paper. He
read the short letter: "Dear Ms. Huff- Thank you for your submission. I
liked your ideas. Please present yourself at our office at 10:00am on
Monday, March 9th for a job interview. Sincerely, Sherry Lane,
Personnel Director."
His heart raced again. In just four short days he'd be taking a job
interview at Savoy Cosmetics.
As if out of nowhere the pieces of the puzzle had begun to come
together.
***
The alarm clock on the night-table went off awakening Ken. He pressed
the small round button to shut it off. He'd set the clock for 6:30am to
give himself plenty of time to prepare for the interview.
He went into the bathroom and relieved himself. He then took a relaxing
shower. He enjoyed the feel of the warm water's fine spray on his
breasts. He'd previously tried to ignore the delightful sensations that
now came with showering but discovered that that was impossible. So
he'd simply succumbed to this guilty pleasure.
He toweled himself dry and slipped into a pair of white cotton panties.
He then retrieved a matching bra from the dresser drawer and stepped
over to the full-length mirror where he scrutinized his breasts. He saw
that they were substantial now. They'd progressively grown over the
past several months and were now as large as Angie's. Like her he was a
B-cup.
Ken shook his body a bit and watched and felt his breasts jiggle and
bounce. They came to a stop and he could feel them tug at his chest.
Although he'd had them for months he still couldn't get used to their
look and feel.
He slipped into the bra and struggled to fasten the rear clasp. In
itself it was no easy task and his long nails had made it all the more
difficult.
He gazed at himself and saw how curvy he'd become. His waist had
continued to thin and his hips had sprouted like yeast. And he looked
and felt smaller now too. He recalled that he'd weighed only 128 pounds
when he stepped onto the scale last night.
He pulled himself away from the mirror and opened a new package of
flesh tone pantyhose. He carefully pulled the nylons up his legs and
over his waist. He exercised great care to avoid snagging the stockings
with his nails.
Ken spent the next half-hour putting on his makeup at the vanity he'd
bought several weeks ago. Following all the tips and instructions Angie
had given him he applied foundation, mascara and eyeliner. He ran the
brown pencil over his brows which Angie had painfully plucked and
shaped into two tapered arcs. And then he coated his lips with red
lipstick.
He looked at his reflection as he brushed his long and wavy dark brown
hair. He was simply amazed at his appearance. It was unbelievable. 'Is
that really me? I can't believe it. I look like an attractive woman
now.' He shook his head.
Ken placed the brush onto the vanity and glimpsed his hands. They
looked so delicate and soft. And the long nails made them look so
feminine.
He retrieved the emery board and did some filing and shaping. He
contoured his long nails into soft points. He held out his hands before
him and examined their improbable appearance.
He picked up the small bottle of red nail polish and considered. He'd
never worn colored polish before but last night Angie had made a big
fuss about it. "It'll help you pass Ken. And it'll show that you take
pride in your appearance," she'd said.
He unscrewed the cap and ran the small brush over his nails. He waited
for the polish to dry and then applied a second coat.
Ken extended his arms and saw how attractive his hands now looked with
the long red nails capping his fingers. He begrudgingly conceded that
Angie had been right.
He arose and stepped over to the closet. He viewed several dresses
which Angie had delivered yesterday afternoon before she flew off to
Chicago to cover a fashion show. He looked down and saw the shoes she'd
brought over too.
He grasped the dark red floral print silk dress and looked at it. He
carefully considered. It appealed to him since it matched his lips and
nails. And he'd always liked the way Angie looked in that dress. He
decided to wear it.
Ken slipped the dress over his head and pulled it down onto himself. He
reached around to his back and slowly hoisted the zipper. He felt the
dress hug his body as if it were attaching itself to him.
He looked down and scanned the shoes. He spotted the 3" black leather
pumps and recalled that Angie had worn them with this dress. And he
thought they'd match the black leather purse Angie had bought him for
his birthday last month.
He stepped into the high-heels and felt himself elevate. He then
carefully walked back to the wall mirror and soaked it all in.
Ken's first thought was that he needn't worry about passing as a woman.
No one could conceivably believe that he was a man. Not looking like
this.
He shook his head in amazement. 'Can that really be me?' It was as if
he were looking at someone else. Someone who, Ken decided, was a girl.
And all at once realization set in that the attractive girl staring
into his eyes was him. 'This is unbelievable.'
He pulled himself away from the mirror and looked at the wall clock. He
saw that it was 9:15. He decided it was time to go. He couldn't risk
being late for the interview.
Ken grabbed his purse and left the apartment.
***
"Hello Ms. Huff. It's nice to meet you." Sherry Lane extended her arm
and they shook hands. "Please sit down and make yourself comfortable."
Ken sat on the chair in front of the desk. "Thank you. Please call me
Karen?"
"I was wondering about your first name. You signed your letter 'K.
Huff.'"
"Oh. Sorry about that."
"No problem at all. Karen's such a pretty name. It fits you well."
"Thank you Ms. Lane."
"I'll return the favor. Why don't you call me Sherry?"
"Okay."
"I was really impressed by some of your ideas and recommendations
Karen."
"Really?"
"Yes. I liked your suggestion to advertise our products in the media
that young girls are attracted to. Television shows, radio programs and
magazines that they like. It's all about the demographics you know.
That's the way you've got to think to survive in this industry."
"Yes. I know."
"Of course we're already doing that. It's fairly fundamental. But do
you know what really caught my eye Karen?"
"My proposal for a Savoy backpack line?"
"Exactly. What you've argued is true. Lots of high school girls lug
their books and possessions around in backpacks. If we manufactured a
line of backpacks we could put our name right on the item in big bold
letters. Girls would see 'Savoy Cosmetics' every time they looked at
their own or another girl's backpack. They'd see our name on other
students' backs as they walked down the hall between classes. It's
quite a good idea."
"That's what I thought too Sherry. I figured why limit yourself to
producing cosmetics? Why not make another product that could make money
and at the same time advertise your brand name too?"
"Exactly."
Ken nervously watched as she read the paperwork he'd submitted.
"I see that you don't have a college degree but you've taken a few
courses at Pace in marketing and public relations."
"Yes. I really liked those courses."
"Are you married Karen?
"No. I'm single."
Sherry smiled. "Me too. You know we don't usually hire anyone without a
college degree Karen. But I have a good feeling about you. Would you be
willing to come on as an apprentice? It doesn't pay too much, about
$30,000, but it's a start."
"I'd love a position like that Sherry."
"Could you report to work two weeks from today?"
"Absolutely."
"Good. It's a deal then. Go see Marge in Personnel. She'll set you up
with all the necessary employment forms."
***
Ken sat on his apartment couch and sipped white wine in celebration of
his good fortune. The job interview had ended three hours ago but he
still felt jubilant. He knew he'd fulfilled the most important
condition of moving forward with his plan.
He heard the door bell ring and opened the door. He set his gaze on
Angie. "What are you doing here? I thought you were supposed to be in
Chicago?"
Angie looked at him and smirked. "The show was cancelled. Half the
models came down with the flu. I just got back. Hey, get a load of you!
You look absolutely gorgeous! I can't believe it!"
Ken blushed. "Uh... thanks. Come on in."
They settled into the living room and Ken poured her a glass of wine.
He handed it to her and broadly smiled.
"Don't you look like the cat who ate the canary? Okay Ken, what gives?
"A few hours ago I was hired as a marketing apprentice at Savoy
Cosmetics. I start in two weeks Angie."
"That's great Ken! Congratulations!"
"I just want to tell you that I appreciate all the help you've given me
Angie. Thanks."
"You're welcome. Hey! What are your plans for today?"
Ken considered. "I suppose I don't have any. Why?"
"Then let's go shopping!"
"Shopping? For what?"
"For clothes silly. You're working in an office now. You need a
wardrobe."
"I suppose you're right Angie. Okay."
That afternoon Ken extravagantly spent thousands of dollars building a
wardrobe. He bought an abundance of dresses, skirts, blouses, shoes,
coats, underwear, makeup and accessories.
And while shopping for jewelry at Macy's Angie had convinced him to get
his ears pierced.
***
Ken walked into his apartment and immediately kicked off his heels. His
feet were killing him. He contemptuously glared at the 4" pumps. 'Why
do I wear those things?' But he already knew the answer. He liked the
way his legs looked in them.
He changed into a comfortable denim skirt and cotton blouse and poured
himself a glass of white wine. He retrieved an emery board and went to
the living room where he sank into the sofa.
Ken alternately sipped at the wine and filed his left thumbnail. He'd
chipped it at work this afternoon and had been dismayed to discover he
didn't have an emery board in his purse. The chipped nail had bothered
him all day.
He held out his thumb and inspected it. The flaw was gone. He smiled.
Ken put his feet up on the coffee table and took a healthy gulp of
wine. He reflected on the events of the past year.
He'd been working at Savoy Cosmetics for almost 13 months now and had
done quite well in establishing himself there. Three months after he'd
arrived the company decided to proceed with his backpack proposal and
in a rather bold and innovative move had placed him in charge of the
project. He had to report directly to Sherry Lane but he'd been given
the authority to make major decisions on design, marketing and
advertising.
And the move paid off handily. The Savoy backpack became an overnight
success story. The new item had turned a tidy profit and Savoy saw a
spike in the sale of its cosmetic products that marketing research had
shown was directly connected to the success of the backpack.
Ken had been given a bonus of $30,000 for his efforts. And three months
ago he was promoted to the position of research and development
analyst. He saw his salary more than double.
Ken discovered that he really liked the work. It was challenging. He
was responsible for supervising the ongoing backpack venture. And he
was working up some other interesting development proposals too. He
headed his own small division and supervised five girls who reported
directly to him. Just like the backpack undertaking Ken had become
somewhat of an overnight success too.
But in contrast to his accomplishments in advancing his position in the
company Ken had had no luck at all in uncovering any evidence that
Savoy practiced animal experimentation. During the past year he'd
scoured over a wealth of physical documents and computer files and had
seen no reference to the matter.
Ken decided that Savoy either didn't experiment on animals or it stored
its records somewhere other than in its New York office.
He really didn't know what to do next. He wondered whether he should
abandon the investigation and move on to a different job. If he stayed
here and failed to uncover evidence of animal experimentation he'd
waste valuable time he could otherwise spend concentrating on his back-
up project. He certainly wouldn't experience or uncover any evidence of
sexual discrimination or harassment against women at Savoy simply
because the company didn't have any men on its payroll. This outfit
favored women.
In that precise vein when Ken had come to work at Savoy it didn't take
him long to verify the rumors about its hiring practices. He hadn't
seen any men at all. He'd questioned Sherry Lane about it and she'd
basically brushed him off. "Ruby Danyon simply wants to give women
employment opportunities," she'd claimed.
But Ken knew that there was more to it than that. A number of women at
the company had asked him to lunch and dinner. They'd wanted to
socialize and become friends. Ken had politely declined. He'd built a
reputation as a loner.
Ken knew that some of these women had been interested in more than
simply exchanging chit-chat. He could tell by the way they'd acted and
looked at him. Some of the bolder women had even openly flirted with
him.
He'd considered his experiences at Savoy Cosmetics and tried to settle
on a course of action. He couldn't make a decision. So he discussed the
roadblock he'd hit with Angie and asked for her advice. "I think it may
be time to move on," he'd said. But she'd urged him to stay with the
company a while longer. She'd reminded Ken that it had taken him more
than two years as a professional boxer to accumulate the information
he'd needed to write "Confidential Scandal."
Ken had decided that Angie was right. He realized he shouldn't rush
things. He resolved that he'd stay at Savoy for another year.
Ken refilled his glass and took a sip of wine. He gazed at his hands
and studied his long red nails. He'd grown accustomed to them over the
past year. He rubbed the rim of his left thumbnail over the pad of his
forefinger. He involuntarily smiled. He wouldn't admit it to anyone but
he liked the way his nails looked and felt.
He reflected that he'd been masquerading as a woman for over a year
now. He was proud of his accomplishment in fooling everyone at Savoy
into thinking he was female. He knew that it hadn't been easy. The hard
work had really paid off.
Dressing as a woman and wearing makeup had by now come to be rather
second nature to Ken. He really didn't even think about it that much.
He basically just did it out of habit.
He was more than a little reluctant to admit that he'd come to enjoy it
somewhat. It had become fun to make himself look attractive. And there
were so many options he could use to change his looks. There were all
the different hairstyles, makeup combinations and ensembles.
On the down side he'd lost the ability to attain an erection three
months ago. But Dr. Norton had assured him that that was normal. "It's
from taking female hormones for an extended period of time. The
hormones suppress the testicles from producing testosterone. The
phenomenon's called 'chemical castration' Ken," he'd explained.
Ken was nonetheless concerned and researched the matter on the
Internet. And he was greatly relieved to discover that men who'd
experienced chemical castration from taking female hormones had usually
regained the ability to have an erection a month or so after they'd
discontinued the medication.
Ken also worried he'd be unable to sexually satisfy Angie now that he
couldn't achieve an erection. He'd questioned Dr. Norton about taking
Viagra. "I'm against prescribing Viagra or similar medications to any
of my patients who are taking female hormones Ken. It may not be safe.
Research on this issue needs to be done," Dr. Norton had emphatically
stated.
It had turned out that Ken's concerns over his erectile incapacity had
been unnecessary. Angie had assured him that he didn't need an erection
to satisfy her. "You make wonderful use of your hands and mouth Ken,"
she'd told him. He was relieved and loved her all the more for it.
But he knew that it would be preferable if he could have an erection.
Especially for him. He couldn't remember the last time he'd gone this
long without experiencing an orgasm.
Ken toyed with the idea of discontinuing the hormones. But he worried
that his body might masculinize if he did that. He decided he couldn't
take that chance. 'It's the price I have to pay,' he rationalized.
He thought of last month's session with Dr. Norton. He'd congratulated
Ken on successfully living and working as a woman for over a year.
"You've done a great job adjusting to it Karen. Would you like me to
certify your readiness for sexual reassignment surgery?" he'd asked.
Ken had told Dr. Norton that he'd like to prolong making that decision.
Dr. Norton had been a bit surprised by Ken's reaction but he'd
understood. "It's the final step Karen. It's irreversible. You
shouldn't make that decision until you're absolutely sure. And only you
can know when that is," he'd said.
Ken took another sip of wine. He felt a slight comforting buzz develop.
He felt oddly content and at peace with himself.
He was glad it was Friday. As much as he'd enjoyed his work he was
looking forward to a few days off. Angie was in Boston covering a
fashion show and he really didn't have any firm plans. He considered
what he'd do over the weekend.
Ken decided that he'd rest and relax over the next two days. He'd sleep
late. He'd rent a few videos. He'd make a lasagna. Maybe he'd go
shopping for clothes.
And he also decided to treat himself by having his hair and nails done
at the beauty salon tomorrow.
***
Ken walked into his office and closed the door. He sat behind his desk
and booted up his computer. While he waited he looked down at himself
and admired the new outfit he'd bought just yesterday. It was an off-
white matching linen skirt and jacket sprinkled with a light green and
yellow leaf pattern. The skirt ended an inch above his knees and the
matching jacket fell two or three inches below his waist. He wore a
lime silk blouse under the jacket.
He gazed down at his feet and smiled at the white open toed strap-on
sandals with three-inch heels. He saw his red toenails peek out from
the front of the shoes.
The knock on his door broke his concentration. "Come in." He saw Sherry
Lane as the door swung open. "Morning Sherry."
"Hi Karen. Hey, nice outfit. Is it new?"
"Yeah. I bought it yesterday."
"You're not going to believe this. Guess who's just arrived in the
office?"
"I have no idea Sherry. Who?"
"Ruby Danyon. We weren't even expecting her. And guess what? She wants
to meet you."
Ken reflected that he'd worked at Savoy Cosmetics for over a year and
had never met Ruby Danyon. To his knowledge this was Danyon's first
visit to the New York office since his arrival here. "When?"
"Now silly. Come on. I'll bring you to her office."
***
Sherry ushered Ken into the spacious office and introduced him to the
president and CEO of Savoy Cosmetics. Ruby Danyon politely smiled.
"Thanks Sherry. Can you get me some coffee and a buttered bagel?"
"Sure thing Ms. Danyon." Sherry left and closed the door behind her.
Danyon stood up from behind her desk and extended her hand. "I'm
pleased to meet you Karen. I'm sorry I haven't been able to meet you
before now."
"The pleasure is mine Ms. Danyon." Ken shook her hand and noticed her
impossibly long red fingernails. And her hand engulfed his. But Ken
wasn't surprised at that because Danyon was one tall lady. She towered
over him. He figured she was probably at least 6'2" tall in stocking
feet. And she was wearing what appeared to be 4" heels.
"Take a load off Karen. Make yourself comfortable."
Ken sank into the plush black leather chair and watched Danyon sit down
behind the big mahogany desk. He saw that she looked striking in the
green silk dress. It contrasted brilliantly with her red hair, lips and
nails. And he couldn't help but notice her huge bust. She was possibly
a D-cup.
"This is a lovely office Ms. Danyon."
"Thanks. I don't get up to New York as much as I'd like. So you're
Karen Huff, the brains behind the Savoy backpack. That was a brilliant
idea Karen. The company is proud of you."
"Thank you Ms. Danyon."
"Next month Savoy Cosmetics is holding its annual week-long executive
conference at my estate in Bermuda Karen. We expect to do some serious
brainstorming there. Maybe introduce a few new product lines. I'd love
to have you attend."
"I'd be honored Ms. Danyon."
"Good. Then it's all settled. See Sherry about the travel
arrangements."
It was clear to Ken that she was finished with him. He stood up.
"Thanks again Ms. Danyon."
"See you in Bermuda Karen."
***
Ken finished packing the suitcase and went into the kitchen where he
poured a glass of chilled Chardonnay. He walked into the living room
and sank into the sofa.
He took a