Constructive communications may be sent to either Vanya or Jane at
[email protected] - I'll leave the reader to take
out the 'removethis' portion.
Monday
I awoke to see the sun fighting its way through the heavy curtains and
realised that it must be way past our usual time to get up. I had
drifted up from sleep with a smile on my face and, although I couldn't
remember any dreams, I was filled with a feeling of exhilaration. The
events of the last two days did not filter back; I awoke with each and
every detail firmly in my mind as though they were just a normal part
of day to day life. What a wonderful life! Perhaps that was the cause
of the happy feeling.
My hands had been freed from the headboard during the night and for
that I was thankful, but as I went to move them I found they were
shackled in front of me by handcuffs. I discovered then that a thin
chain led from them to the bedpost. I was lying on my side, Vanya's arm
curled over my shoulder and her sleep-limp hand resting on my breast. I
longed to turn over and look at her beautiful face, but I didn't want
to wake her - for the wondrous feelings she had given me last night she
deserved her sleep and I also wanted time to review all she had done to
me.
I lay there thinking of the incredible heights she lifted me to in the
last couple of days and especially last night, still amazed at how long
the intense excitement had lasted, knowing also that those wonders only
she could give me. I'm sure the love-bag could make me orgasm anytime
but only Vanya could turn it into such a total orgy of pleasure. Her
final words last night had been extremely accurate: I did belong to her
completely, but I had since I'd fallen in love with her many years ago.
Whilst I had doubts about the unknown, there was no denying that I was
already looking forward to this new day as a woman with Vanya. Being
her `slave-girl' was mostly pleasure, though with plenty of frustration
thrown in, but I knew she wouldn't hurt me.
That thought made me think of my pierced nipples and I carefully
brought my cuffed hands up to feel my breast and its erect nipple.
There was no doubt that the breast I touched was fuller than it had
been yesterday - so the hormones were still causing changes in me!
There was hardly any soreness in my nipple and I could easily explore
its firmness and feel the penetrating stretcher tube through the thin
latex of my nightie. Now that the pain had gone I looked forward to
wearing nipple-jewels again and watching them sway and bounce from my
very own breasts as Vanya's did. There was no denying, even from the
brief touch through the latex, that I was far more sensitive with
pierced nipples.
My movements, slight as they had been, must have been enough to get
through to Vanya, for her fingers moved slowly on my other breast
before her sleepy voice quietly said "Good morning, Darling. Are you
awake yet?"
I hugged her hand to me with my arm, then said "Of course I'm awake, my
wonderful wife. I'm lying here wondering what lovely things we will do
today and what other fantastic experiences you will teach me." I
struggled to turn over so that I could look at Vanya, finding with the
movement that the love-bag was still in place. Despite the restrictive
handcuffs and the confining chain I managed to press my fingers to
Vanya's breast and my leg between Vanya's thighs and found the tell-
tale bulge of the bag there also. "Why don't we start the day the same
as we finished yesterday?" I suggested with a smile.
Vanya chuckled warmly, suddenly becoming fully awake. "You are a greedy
little slut!" she said, smiling. "I told you I would make you into a
nymphomaniac, but I didn't think it would be this quick or easy! Give
me a kiss and I'll think about it." I needed no further telling and
kissed her, softly at first but growing deeper while I moved my hands
to caress both her breasts and nipples. Through the soft thin latex
they felt even better than they usually did, her nipples becoming rigid
beneath my teasing fingers in moments. Vanya sighed against my mouth
then brought her own hands up to caress me in the same way. Once more I
was surprised at how nice it felt to have my new breasts stroked as she
was now doing and how much more sensitive my nipples had become.
After a few minutes Vanya rolled onto her other side, reached over the
side of the bed and rolled back with two wires in her hand. "Perhaps
this might be a good way to start the day, but not for too long - I
don't want either of us to be too tired for anything else." She pushed
back the duvet and pulled up my nightie to plug in the wire then pulled
the rubber hem back down to my ankles. Once the other wire was
connected to her love-bag and her own nightie straightened, she reached
down to the floor. Vanya retrieved the key to my handcuffs and I
watched happily as she removed them from my wrists and dropped them
onto the floor.
"I'm not going to have you passing out on me like you did last night -
it was a shame for me to experience such climaxes with you lying fast
asleep beside me. After all, Jane, you're my slave and I wanted you to
hold and caress me. Now you're not in bondage you can. Let me start up
the box of tricks and we'll see how things go." Vanya leaned over
towards her bedside table, switched on the black box and twiddled a few
knobs while I waited in anticipation for the vibrations to start. She
pressed two buttons and lay back beside me, a twinkle in her eyes.
"I've set up a little programme for both bags, Darling, so we'll just
have to lay here and wait for them to end all by themselves. I don't
really understand computers, but I know how to work this one! Now, come
here and hold me."
I needed no further encouragement and we entwined our arms around each
other, pulling our bodies tightly together and kissed deeply. In the
middle of the kiss I felt the first faint tingle from the bag, whilst
at the same time Vanya's hips suddenly jerked hard against me and she
gasped against my mouth. The tingle from my bag grew slowly whilst
Vanya's hips began to twitch, then drive steadily against me and I
realised that the two programmes she had set were not the same! Hers
was definitely doing far more than mine! However, I decided to make
things as good as I could for her, so I brought my right hand to her
breast and began to caress it gently while pulling her harder against
me with the other hand. As we moved together the rustle of our rubber
nighties was music to both our ears and the exciting smell of pure
latex from the sheets and our clothes filled our nostrils.
Vanya groaned against my mouth, her hips circling hard against mine and
I wondered what the love-bag was doing to her body. I broke the kiss
and moved my head down to her other breast and began sucking on it
through the thin soft latex. Her groan of delight and Vanya thrusting
her breast up at my mouth were signs of how rapidly her excitement was
growing. I began nibbling at one nipple with my teeth and firmly
squeezing and pulling on the other with my fingers, the effects on her
showing as she sucked in air noisily through her teeth.
Suddenly the soft bag between my legs began to pulsate, the vibrations
penetrating deep into my body, and it was my turn to gasp. Vanya
realised what was happening, tried to laugh at my reactions but
couldn't because of her own arousal. The pulsations became ripples back
and forth then changed back again and I had enormous difficulty
concentrating on what I was doing to Vanya's breasts. She groaned again
and again, each time getting louder and I knew her orgasm was about to
explode, whilst my own was growing fast. Vanya's legs entwined with
mine, her hips bucking hard at me, and she brought both hands quickly
up to grasp my breasts. Her fingers squeezed me firmly, almost hurting,
then she went rigid. Her classic silent scream grew from the bottom of
her stomach and burst from her lovely lips with an audible blast of
breath as every bit of air left her lungs. Slowly she collapsed limply
back on the bed, a slight movement of her hips showing that the bag was
still doing its work on her.
After a few moments she smiled lovingly at me, then reached out a hand
to stab at a button on the box. She sighed happily and I guessed she
had turned off her own bag for mine was still pulsating and rippling
delightfully. She changed the controls again and the love-bag doubled
its efforts. With a sensuous laugh Vanya pushed me down onto my back
and rolled her beautiful body on top of me, her mouth searching for
mine to kiss me deep and wetly.
As we kissed she pushed her legs between mine, lifting my feet so that
they hung over the backs of her thighs. She resumed her attention to my
breasts, with gentler, sensuous movements which were incredibly
arousing. The lovebag changed its action to pulsate hard between my
legs and I found my hips driving upwards at Vanya's in time with the
pulses. Suddenly my orgasm was upon me and, although it was far less
devastating than last night's, I was held rigid as the incredible waves
of pleasure washed though my body. As each pulse drew a new whimper
from me I gazed up into the eyes of the woman I loved, hers sparkling
and brimming over with the love we had for each other.
Once the climax had faded, Vanya reached over to the box and the
vibrations stopped. We lay in each others arms for many minutes before
Vanya reached under both our nighties to unplug the wires. "Come on,
Slave. You've had your pleasure for now so I think you can get up at
long last," said Vanya with a smile, and I wrapped my arms around her
once more and thanked her for the wonderful feelings she had created.
She chuckled happily, adding that the love-bag would soon teach me how
to have multiple orgasms. "Then I'll be able to drive you mad with lust
and tease you until you go completely out of your mind." I could hardly
wait and said so to Vanya's happy laughter.
We went into the bathroom to do our teeth then showered together. With
each other's help we stripped the rubber clothes from our bodies under
the shower, Vanya confirming with a delighted squeal that my breasts
had, indeed, grown bigger and were much rounder. There was no doubt
that they looked even more natural now, approaching the breasts of a
late-teenage woman. Still under the water, Vanya scrubbed the remainder
of make-up from her face then did mine. I felt my face tingling
pleasantly when she had finished and wondered if my skin was glowing as
healthily as hers was.
Back in the bedroom Vanya slid a cool rubber negligee up my arms then
tied the belt snugly around my waist, the pink rubber rustling down to
my ankles. She put on a matching one, looking divinely sexy, satisfied
and fresh all at the same time. Vanya sat me down and did my hair and
make-up for me, re-fixing the false eyelashes that had begun to come
loose with the steam. In the mirror I saw, low on the side of my neck,
a large love-bite as a reminder of our wild lovemaking last night.
Vanya laughed brightly when I mentioned it, saying "I'm sure I'll be
adding plenty more, Jane, but we can disguise them with make-up if we
need to."
Once she was satisfied with her handiwork on me she began her own,
telling me to make the bed and tidy up the bedroom. After I had slid my
feet into the medium-heeled furry slippers from my wardrobe, I
dutifully put away the clothes and toys where she directed, then took
our dripping wet rubberwear from the bathroom, into the yard and hung
them on the line to dry.
We breakfasted with no rush, chattering and enjoying each other's
company. It seemed so natural now to be dressed and look as feminine as
I did with Vanya, and there was no doubt in my mind that I wanted
things to remain as they were. The rustle of rubber as we moved around
the kitchen was as welcome as the cool slither of the smooth, pink
latex against our skins. The material seemed to keep us aware of each
other's and our own sexuality all the time.
Once we were finished Vanya led me back to the bedroom where she undid
the belt around my waist and slipped the negligee from my shoulders. I
sat on the edge of the bed while she took the breast developer from her
wardrobe and applied suction to each breast in turn with the clear
plastic dome. She, like me, was more than happy with the feel and shape
of them, and more than a little amazed at how quickly they had grown.
That reminded her to get two more of the huge hormone booster pills
which I duly swallowed as ordered.
Vanya carefully studied my body as I turned around in front of her
then, with a slight frown on her face, she went across to open her
wardrobe. She returned with a pair of thick rubber bondage mittens,
glaring sternly at me when I complained at the thought of wearing them.
I was enjoying the relaxed attitude of the morning, but Vanya firmly
rammed my left hand deep into the black rubber bag and buckled the wide
strap tightly about my wrist. Without a word she similarly encased my
other hand, leaving me with my hands trapped inside the thick rubber of
the mittens, which ended in big steel rings beyond the tips of my
fingers. She reached towards the dressing table, turning back with a
pair of red-stoned jewelled clusters which she threaded through the
stretcher tubes in my nipples.
"You seem to forget very easily that you are still my slave. I think a
spell in bondage is needed to remind you that you are totally in my
control. Come down to the playroom - or would you prefer that I made
you do what you are told?" Vanya asked, her serious eyes letting me
know that she wasn't joking. Surprised and worried by her sudden
sternness I followed her lovely body through the hall and down the
steps. Apart from the high-heeled slippers and the confining mittens I
was completely naked and the cool air was pleasant on my skin. Each
step made my breasts bounce gently and I totally enjoyed the delightful
reminder of their presence. From the tips the heavy red jewels danced
and swayed, tugging gently on each nipple.
Once inside the playroom Vanya stood me inside a chrome frame and
stretched my arms towards the upper corners and locked them there with
the steel rings at the end of the mittens. In moments I was completely
helpless and busy wondering what she had in mind but her walking
straight out of the room provided no clues.
Vanya returned fairly soon with a pair of black patent boots in her
hand. Squatting down in front of me she told me to lift my right foot,
at which she took off the mule and pushed my foot inside the tight
leather of the boot. As I stood on that foot for Vanya to put the other
one on me I found that the slender heels were much higher than my white
boots and, feeling more than helpless as I struggled for balance, I
watched Vanya tightly lace up the front of the boots which stretched
right up my thighs almost to my groin. When she had finished I couldn't
move my ankles and only flex my knees a tiny bit. "There you are, Jane.
Totally in my power as you should be," said Vanya as, hands on hips,
she happily surveyed my helplessness.
"Although your breasts have grown faster than I thought they would, I'm
a bit disappointed that your waist doesn't look as though it's slimming
down yet. I'm going to phone Mme. Domina in Brussels to see what she
suggests. She designed and made your corsets, as well as telling me how
to train your figure, so we'll see what she recommends." As Vanya
turned and strode out of the room I wondered how many other people in
the world knew that she was turning me into a woman and a slave!
After about ten minutes frustration at my helpless bondage inside the
rigid frame and the discomfort of the ultra-high heels of the thigh
boots, Vanya returned carrying a tape measure and a black rubber
corset. "I've talked to her and she recommends measuring you before and
after wearing your next corset for a while, so let me get some sizes,"
said Vanya wrapping the tape around my bust, lower chest, waist and
hips. She jotted down the measurements then continued to get other
sizes, telling me "Once I've got all the measurements she wants I'll
call her back and get her advice."
The tape was tossed onto the bed behind me then Vanya picked up the
long black corset and began to slacken off the thick back lacing. She
passed one of the panels around my back and began doing up the strong-
looking clips up the front. While she was doing so I had chance to see
what she was putting around me and I wasn't sure I liked it. The
stiffly boned and reinforced rubber reached from just above my genitals
to almost my armpits, with the sides cut a little higher on the hips.
The front of the corset finished in quarter-cups of softer rubber which
supported my breasts and thrust them upwards and outwards without
covering them. The whole thing looked considerably stiffer than the
first corset she had put me in and much worse than the pretty little
waspy I had happily worn yesterday.
Vanya wriggled the corset to ensure it was straight and lined up with
my body then went behind me to begin lacing it up. As she did so I felt
the first squeeze on my hips as she worked her way upwards, then the
breath was forced out of my lungs as she rigorously tightened the top
section. I complained that she was doing it up far too tight, but Vanya
merely said "Mme. Domina said to do it up good and tight and let you
wear it for a while. She said even if it was too tight for you, wearing
it for a short while wouldn't do you any harm, although she did say you
would be pretty uncomfortable. I told her that didn't really matter.
She laughed and said I might get a bit annoyed at you complaining. She
suggested a gag, but I think you will be a brave girl and bear it for a
while. Now, let's tighten the waist."
Where Vanya had tightened the lacing so much around my hips and chest
she had developed two long loops at my waist. Taking one of these in
each hand, she placed a knee on my bottom and began to pull hard, the
lacing gradually sliding through the eyelets as the corset clamped
harder on my waist. Several times she took a new hold on the laces to
pull the corset even tighter, each time me begging her to stop, for it
was already far too much of a strain on my body. Vanya completely
ignored my plea's and quickly tied the loops into a knot to prevent
them slipping.
She came into view again, stood on tip-toe to kiss me wetly on the
mouth, then went over to the chair where she had first put the corset.
On it was a wire hook fitted with a wooden handle which she grasped and
went behind me again. "I can't tighten it any more without this corset-
hook, Jane, so hold still while I do the job properly," Vanya said,
triumphantly, and began to tug her way down the lacing with the tool.
Its effectiveness in her hands was evidenced by the rapid tightening
around my chest, and my breathing was further restricted to shallow
little gasps. It was so tight that I could only talk in whispered words
interspersed with frantic attempts to gasp in enough air. She undid the
knot in the laces, pulled the slack up and retied it. Now she began to
pull on the bottom lacing with the hook and my hips began to tingle
under their intense compression.
In considerable discomfort, I felt Vanya again undo the bow and,
pulling the slack she had gained from the bottom lacing, begin to pull
even harder on the loops. My waist was squeezed in more and more until
I felt I was going to be cut in half. Desperately using precious
breath, I pleaded again and again for Vanya to loosen the lacing, but
without success. As she finally tied off the lacing behind my waist she
told me "I knew you would complain, Darling, but I'm not going to leave
you like this all day. It's only for a short while, so stop protesting
and get used to how a real corset feels. The other one was just to
introduce you to corsets; this is the one I want you to wear all the
time to trim down your waist, so you might as well start getting used
to it. There is still well over an inch to go on the lacing, so you can
see I'm serious about improving your figure."
She came to stand in front of me again, smiling into my pleading eyes.
She kissed me lightly on the lips and took hold of my nipples between
fingers and thumbs. As she teasingly rolled my nipples back and forth,
making the jewels jump and flash in the light, she added "Just think,
Jane my slave. If you hadn't insisted on making me wear corsets in the
past, perhaps I'd never have known how helpless you would feel in them
or what they could do for your figure. Maybe I wouldn't have thought of
making you wear them from now on. Perhaps, Darling, it's all your fault
after all! Whatever, from now on you will be wearing them and you might
as well accept it and get used to this one. You can see how good you
look in it in the wall mirror, so understand how all the discomfort
will be worth it in the end. I've got other things to do, so I'll see
you later." With a last squeeze on my nipples Vanya turned and went up
stairs, shutting the door to the playroom behind her.
I struggled to breathe enough air, trying all sorts of movements to
alleviate the pressure of the rigid corset on my chest but found very
little improvement. Then I tried tensing different muscles to push
against the corset and, while I gained a little benefit on my chest,
the pressure increased accordingly on my waist. At least I could get
enough air to groan at the enormous pressure the corset was exerting on
me. I looked briefly in the mirror and, whilst I felt I was being cut
in half, my reflection showed a very slim waist which emphasised my
lovely breasts. The figure inside the corset was extremely seductive,
with the chest beneath the jewel-tipped breasts tapering down into a
tiny little waist, then flaring out to sensuously-rounded hips. Vanya
could be right: in the end it might be worth it, but right then I would
have done anything to relieve the incredible ache that was starting to
pervade my whole body.
Although the ultra-high heels of the tight thigh boots had relieved the
stretch on my arms, I could hardly move in them and they were causing
my calves to cramp slightly. Tug as I did there was no way I could free
my arms from the mittens or the bonds to the steel frame. I struggled
fitfully and uselessly, all the time the corset's grip on my body
seeming to get tighter and tighter. I was a total bundle of misery and
found myself moaning in agony as my body complained at what was being
done to it.
I had taken heart with Vanya's words that I would only have to wear the
corset for a short while, but minutes dragged into hours as I almost
hung there. I finally lost all track of time, becoming only aware of
the pain that now wracked my whole body, mentally begging Vanya to come
and release me. I would have done anything for relief, but she didn't
give me the chance.
How long I was left there I do not know but it must have been several
hours before Vanya reappeared in front of me, and I hadn't heard the
door open. "Please, Vanya. Take it off me now," were the words out of
my lips before I had even thought them. "I'll do anything you want,
just loosen the corset, please," I continued to beg in short gasps.
"Alright, Jane, I'll undo it now. Just tell me first that you're my
rubber slave-girl and you promise to do everything I tell you," Vanya
taunted and my begging, pleading and promising poured out in a jumble
of words. I was kissed lightly on the cheek then Vanya went behind me
and I felt the lacing being unknotted. "Just remember all those
promises and I won't have to treat you like this again, Darling," said
Vanya interrupting my flow as she finally began to loosen the laces.
It seemed ages before she had slackened it enough to be able to undo
the clips down the front of the corset, but at last she peeled the
rubber from my body. As I sobbed softly in sheer relief, Vanya picked
up the tape and repeated all the measurements she had taken down
earlier. I looked at my body in the mirror as she did so and my torso
was red and marked where the heavy boning had bitten into my skin.
Vanya rubbed her hands briskly all over where the corset had marked me,
kissed me again on the cheek, and said "I'll go and phone Mme. Domina
with both sets of measurements now while you recover. I'm sure you will
feel better quite soon." With that she strode from the room again as I
continued to rapidly fill my lungs with beautiful, plentiful air.
The relief from the corset was like heaven yet, as the hurt faded from
my body, I became much more aware of the aches in my calves from the
high-heeled boots. The muscles were cramping slightly inside the tight
leather, but it was mere discomfort compared with the pain I had just
endured. In fact, despite the restrictions on my movement, I did manage
to twist and turn to admire how sexy my legs looked in their shiny,
patent black skin atop the incredibly high heels.
"It seems I owe you an apology, Jane," said Vanya sheepishly as she
stepped through the doorway. "Domina says I'm expecting too much too
soon, but she also said I was not to worry because a little bit of
suffering would teach you to accept my domination a bit quicker. She's
very bossy like that and full of advice on how you should be trained. I
have explained that I love you very much and don't like hurting you but
I don't think she really understands.
"She's European president of the Order of Athena and she has been
asking me to join for ages," Vanya continued. "It's a world-wide club
of women who dominate their men or women partners, with get-togethers
to show off their handiwork and exchange ideas. They also send out
regular news letters with lots of articles and methods of improving
their domination. I've got a few past copies - you must read them
sometime and see how severe some of these women are. I'm a soft-hearted
pussycat compared with most of them, but maybe I'll change with time."
Vanya smiled at the horror which must have shown on my face at her
words, then she slid her arms around my waist, pulled my body hard
against hers and kissed me. It was a soft, warm loving kiss that told
me of all the love she had for me and the warmth of her lovely body
through her rubber negligee reinforced that knowledge. I knew, deep
inside, that Vanya wouldn't really hurt me but the pain I had
experienced trapped inside the corset had made me a little more wary of
what I could be in for. The thought of being the subject of controlled
domination, planned carefully by a world-wide club of women, did not
bear thinking about!
When Vanya pulled back from my lips her eyes were shining with the love
I had felt from her. "Don't worry, my Darling slave, I won't damage our
love. That will always be the limit on everything I do to you, but I
will often be going right up and pushing that limit.
"Now, Domina says you can wear this corset but I mustn't tighten it too
much at once. You have to wear it 24 hours a day and, although it will
be loose to start with, I will be tightening it a little bit at a time
as your body begins to change. She said to tighten it to 3 inches gap
to start with, so I'm going to put it on you again now and we can see
how you manage. First I'll put some cream on you so that your skin
remains soft. Hold still, Jane."
Taking the lid off a big pot, Vanya scooped out a large splodge of the
white cream, spread it onto both of her hands and applied it to my
chest, waist and hips. The cream felt almost cold initially and was
like a balm after the pain of the corset. I dreaded having it put back
on me and, as Vanya added more cream to the skin of my body, I tried
desperately to talk her out of it. "Be quiet, you silly girl," was her
reply. "I don't care whether you want it on you or not; you are going
to wear it and that's final. I've already told you it won't be as tight
this time - at least, not yet - so please stop complaining."
She finished creaming my body and rubbed the last traces into her hands
then turned around to retrieve the corset from where she had dropped
it. There was no way I could prevent her wrapping the rubber panels
around me, or from doing up the clips on the front of it. With each
clip my heart sunk further at the thought of being trapped inside it;
perhaps, though, I would be able to loosen it whenever I got a chance.
Finished with the front, Vanya went behind me and began to pull the
slack out of the lacing, whilst I waited for the dreadful pressure to
start on my body. Instead, I felt a slight constriction on my chest,
and the corset was pulled in to just a snug fit on my hips. Vanya began
to tug on the laces, applying a bit of pressure to my waist, but, to my
surprise, she stopped just before the squeeze became unbearable. As she
tied off the laces I found that my body was rigidly encased in the
stiff, black rubber which was definitely reducing my figure, but it was
more of a restrictive discomfort than pain. As Vanya zipped up the
panel to hide the lacing, I viewed my figure in the mirror, noticing
the way the corset was shaping my body into the ideal female form. This
corset was obviously designed for figure-training, because it was
relentlessly restricting my lower chest and squeezing in my waist, yet
was only a firm hug on my hips. The boning was so rigid, however, that
it would be impossible to bend properly at the waist.
Vanya faced me again, smiled and elaborated how my figure would benefit
from the corset, and adjusted the soft rubber platforms thrusting up my
breasts. She finished by tapping and swinging the jewels dangling from
my nipples, the feelings being strange and arousing as she had intended
them to be. She smiled up into my eyes, the delight of my helplessness
to do anything about what she had done to me shone in her eyes in
contrast to her words. "Sorry that I was a bit too greedy and made you
suffer, Jane. I wonder if there's anything that I can do to make it up
to you?"
Her smile and the impish shine in her eyes told me she could think of
many ways! She kissed me, her hot, wet tongue forcing its way into my
mouth and almost burning me with sudden desire as she kissed with an
incredible passion. Her hands moved onto my breasts to knead and
squeeze them, then I felt Vanya's delicate fingers begin to rub and
stroke my nipples. I groaned with the feeling she caused inside me,
amazed at how quickly she could stoke the fire, especially so soon
after the hurt she had caused. I longed to wrap my arms about her, to
kiss and caress her also, but the restraining mittens held me
frustratingly from doing so.
Suddenly she dropped to her knees in front of me, her hands still
working their magic on my nipples and breasts, and I looked down on the
top of her head at my groin as she used her tongue and lips where I
needed it most. I groaned again, this time in satisfaction, and she
urgently sucked me into her mouth. She knew everything I liked and
seemed to play tunes on my passion for she built me up to climax in
only a few moments. Almost without warning my orgasm was upon me and,
my hips driving forwards at her eager mouth, I felt the joy of her
draining every drop of the passion from me. Whilst I collapsed in my
bonds Vanya continued to suck and tease until she was sure I had
nothing left to give.
She stood up before me, smiled and kissed me lightly on the lips then
said "I hope that makes up for hurting you, Darling, but don't think
that I will always be so generous. Sometimes I'll need to make you
suffer so that you learn how I want my slave-girl to behave. Learn
quickly and you'll get plenty of rewards and not so much suffering. I'm
going to fetch some jewellery I had made for you, so be patient for a
few minutes," I was told.
I wondered what she had in mind this time as I watched her lovely body,
rustling in the negligee of pure rubber, wiggle out of the room. It was
obvious now that dominating me was keeping her constantly aroused and
that she loved having me as her plaything whenever she wanted. The
frustration was that I had no say in how or when I was played with, or
for how long! I was beginning to doubt if the future would be quite as
acceptable as it had first appeared, despite all the incredible
excitement Vanya was generating.
I didn't have long to wait for she was soon back holding a silver
concoction in her hand. As Vanya placed the wide necklace around my
neck from behind I saw it was made of a mesh of fine links of stainless
steel. She did up the tight-fitting, inch-wide collar at the back of my
neck, seeming to have difficulty, for she took quite some time to do it
up. I looked down and saw that the chain mesh collar flowed into a
strip which hung down the top of my chest and was about the same width.
Level with the first swell of my bust, the strip ended in a large, flat
ring and from this two more strips tapered down to clips at the ends.
Vanya placed one of the mesh strips down my left breast and, removing
the jewelled pendant from my nipple, positioned the U-shaped clip that
terminated the strip astride the nipple. She carefully replaced the
pendant through the stretcher-tube to hold the mesh strip in place. She
did the same to my right breast and, as she stood to one side, I saw in
the mirror that the collar, with a green jewel sparkling in the middle
of my throat, flowed down my chest to meet my nipples.
"I had your slave collar specially made for you in France, Jane. I hope
you like it, because you're going to be wearing it for a long, long
time. It will be another reminder to both of us of your new status in
life. Don't even bother to try taking it off, my Darling, because it
was made only to be done up. Apart from undoing it with a special tool,
it can't be removed. It won't look unusual under your clothes when we
go out, but we'll both know it's there and what it means. I've also got
a couple of rings for you, so let me free your hands," I was told as
Vanya reached up to unlock my right hand.
I pondered her words while she unbuckled the mitten around my wrist,
not really minding the `slave-collar' but wondering if there was more
to it than merely a reminder of what she had done to me. The extent of
Vanya's domination had escalated again without me being able to do
anything about it. At last my right hand was free from the mitten, the
skin bathed in perspiration from its close confinement inside the thick
rubber bag. Vanya took my still-moist hand and easily slid a tight-
fitting ring of stainless steel onto my middle finger. The ring was
quite wide with patterns worked into the surface and, at the front
there was a small cylinder with a tiny ring swinging loosely through
it. I had little chance at that time to study it closely, for Vanya
slipped a tiny padlock through the loop in the ring and, lifting my
hand to my chest, locked my finger to the bigger ring joining the three
strips of my collar.
As I studied at how my finger was trapped, my other hand was released
from its bondage, another ring placed on that middle finger and locked
to the other side of the collar-ring. I realised that, apart from no
longer being trapped inside the big chrome frame, I was still as
helpless to prevent Vanya doing anything she wanted to do with me. The
simple, yet extremely effective new bondage was, in some ways, even
more frustrating: my body wasn't constrained yet my hands were useless
to me. The wide collar comfortably supported the weight of my arms, but
if I moved them upwards or outwards more than a little bit I pulled
uncomfortably on my nipples. Vanya had obviously put a great deal of
thought into her plans to change me into her slave-girl and I was
beginning to realise that, even at the outset, I'd had very little
choice about the matter. I had walked like a fly into Vanya's web and
now there was no way out, even if I wanted it.
"You cannot remove your slave-collar and please don't ever try to take
the rings off your fingers, Darling," said Vanya, her voice and face
now very serious. "If ever I find you not wearing them I really will
make sure you never do it again. It would be a very painful mistake for
you to make so I'm warning you at this stage not to make it." The look
in her eyes warned me just how sincere she was and I inwardly shivered
at what she might have in mind as a punishment; I knew then that I
would never try to take the rings off without her permission!
Unnecessarily, Vanya continued to reinforce her threat. "If you don't
accept having to wear those rings on your fingers, then I will place a
large ring through the septum of your nose - and use it for your
bondage. Is that what you would prefer?"
I shook my head vigorously and told Vanya "I like these rings, Vanya,
and I'll never take them off so you don't have to worry. I certainly
don't want you to pierce my nose." The thought alone was horrific,
conjuring up visions of animals being led around and chained up and,
after she had pierced my nipples without me being able to prevent her,
I had little doubt that Vanya would do it.
"I'm so glad you agree, Darling," Vanya smiled happily at my
acceptance. "Now come up to the bedroom and I'll dress you for dinner.
It's getting quite late, you know." She turned and made for the door as
I suddenly realised a major problem: the stiletto heels on the tight
thigh boots were so high that I didn't think I could walk in them. I
struggled to take tiny steps, being very scared of falling over at any
moment, whilst Vanya watched my difficulty from the doorway with a
knowing smile on her face. "You have to learn to behave like a lady,
Jane, and that includes walking elegantly in high-heels. I know those
boots are extremely high but I think they will teach you very quickly
how to swing your hips. Try it, Darling, it will help you walk properly
- that's why those training boots are so stiff - and you can spend the
whole evening in them to practice."
I had no choice but to follow her advice, finding that as I couldn't
bend my knees more than a tiny bit, the only way to walk was to swing
each leg from the hip. Even this solution had its difficulties because
the tight, stiff corset prevented much body movement and I struggled
for quite some time before I could manage to walk at all. Eventually I
learnt to move but the fear of falling was ever present. I was very
glad of Vanya's supporting arm around my corseted waist as we made our
way slowly up the stairs, the stiff leather just allowing me enough
movement to climb one step at a time.
Monday 2
When we finally entered the bedroom I was led over to my wardrobe.
Vanya took out the double-skinned rubber panties I had worn previously
and, very carefully, managed to thread them over my booted feet as I
tried to lift them in turn whilst leaning against the other wardrobe.
As she wriggled the tight black rubber up my leather-clad thighs my
fear of falling returned with a rush, my frustration at the simple
bonds on my hands increasing rapidly as my flailing hands tugged
painfully on my nipple-piercings. At last Vanya had my hips encased in
the rubber panties and, to my relief, undid the tiny locks to release
my hands from the collar. "I think you've learnt how helpless I can
make you any time I want, so you can treasure your freedom for a while.
I've got just the dress for you for this evening, so let's try it on
for size, Jane," said Vanya reaching into my wardrobe once again.
What she brought out was a black, shiny rubber dress with a miniscule
flared skirt which, after undoing the back zip, she held it low to the
floor for me to step into. With my hands on her shoulders I did so, and
she pulled the dress up my body. I slid my arms into the short puff-
sleeves and Vanya pulled up the zip. The dress was tight around my
waist and chest but apart from a frill of white latex just below my
nipples, it left my breasts completely exposed. The tiny little skirt
shivered over my hips, barely reaching the tops of my thigh-boots.
Reaching into the wardrobe again, Vanya took a small bundle of white
latex from one of the shelves. She unfolded it to reveal a tiny apron
of frilly rubber then reached around my waist to tie the ribbons into a
bow. "Now you're starting to look how I want you tonight, Jane. Just a
couple more things are needed," she said, smiling happily at what she
was doing to me. She took another scrap of white rubber from the
wardrobe and stretched up to place the little curl of latex on top of
my head, pinning it into my blonde hair. Next came a bow of white
rubber which she tied around my neck, just above the stainless steel
collar, then she turned me around to let me see my reflection in the
wardrobe mirror. Gazing back at me was the caricature of a maid in the
totally ridiculous impression of a uniform, yet the femininity and
curves of my corseted body totally undermined the cartoon-effect.
I started to laugh at the silly, yet very erotic result, but a hard
slap on my bottom stopped it, along with Vanya's words "Just so you
remember that you're my rubber slave-girl you will look the part this
evening. I'll be dining alone and you can serve me. I thought about
leaving your hands attached to your collar all night but it'll be more
fun to have you wait on your mistress. I do feel like eating without
interruptions, so you're going to wear this also." I turned around to
see the inflatable gag in Vanya's hands and started to protest, but she
ignored the attempt. I was having enough difficulty standing in the
boots and while I was trying to keep my balance she forced the bladder
into my mouth and did up the strap behind my head, pulling my hair over
the top to hide it. Realising how useless it was to try preventing her,
I stood meekly as Vanya connected the pump and inflated the gag to
block up my mouth. With a triumphant smile she removed the pump, tossed
it onto the bed and ordered me down to the dining room.
She stood by her chair, waiting for me to pull it out for her and, once
she was seated, told me to get busy in the kitchen. I was thankful to
find that Vanya had already prepared the meal, a three-course affair
and all I had to do was serve it. For the next hour or so I struggled
back and forth in the training boots, serving wine, soup, main dish and
desert to a thoroughly delighted Vanya, who took every opportunity to
tell me how completely I was now in her control and relish in detail
every change she had made to my appearance. Each time I stood next to
her she would caress my legs, breasts, nipples, or just slide her hand
back and forth beneath my skirt. She made sure she drove home what I
now was, her slave-girl and plaything, and made it abundantly clear
that this was how she was going to keep me. I became slowly aware that,
although she had turned me into the male caricature of a sexy maid, she
wasn't laughing at me: instead the message slowly seeped into my mind.
I belonged to Vanya and she could make me into anything she wanted. She
could play with me however she wanted and I had to accept it - there
was no choice, no going backward. Full Stop!
As she had done so many times - I presumed it was a female gift which
comes with pure and total love for me - she seemed to know exactly each
thought going through my mind as it happened. She fixed me with a
steady gaze but so much love was evident in her eyes.
"You know I've been in love with you for many years, Darling," she said
at long last, a soft, loving smile forming on her exquisite lips. "But
I've never been so aroused, happy or as in love as I am with you as my
woman. Even while I'm eating, the excitement won't go away and my pussy
stays wet. Having you completely in my control is so fantastic and
knowing there is nothing that you can do without me letting you is
keeping me turned on more than I ever thought possible. Reality is much
better than the fantasies I've had about dominating you like this. I
want you to clear the table now, then you can serve your own dinner in
the kitchen. I think you will be more comfortable sitting on a high
stool in those boots." Vanya ran her hands over the patent black
leather yet again to emphasise her words. She was right; for there was
no way that the tight boots would let me bend my legs enough to sit on
an ordinary chair.
I began the clearing up, tottering back and forth with just the tiny
steps that the boots would allow, the ridiculously high-heels now
causing a continual ache in my calves from their cramped position.
Vanya continued to sit at the table, watching and enjoying my
difficulty, until at last I was finished. She followed me into the
kitchen, told me to sit at the breakfast bar where the food was still
on the hot-plate and, as I struggled to lower myself onto the stool,
came up beside me.
"You did well as my maid tonight, Jane. You look beautifully helpless
in those clothes and your rings and collar make me think of lots of new
ways I can fetter you whenever I feel like it. Let me take your gag off
and you can have your meal, but not too much - I want you to loose
weight not put it on." She duly undid the valve to deflate the gag then
undid the strap and I thankfully wiped the moisture from my lips. I
served myself soup and tucked in while Vanya took the gag back to the
bedroom.
This was my first opportunity alone and I carefully felt the back of
the slave-collar, but my fingers could find no clip or even a join in
the fine steel mesh. The rings on my finger were a tight fit and,
whilst I could probably get them off with some soap, I knew the risk
wasn't worthwhile. By the time Vanya had returned I had finished a
small helping of succulent roast beef, finding the tight-fitting corset
did not allow room for anything else. She laughed at my tiny appetite,
telling me that it would help my figure to improve that much faster.
The shelf was of great help as I struggled atop the ultra-high heels
once more to begin clearing up the remaining dishes. Vanya helped me,
particularly with the things for the lower cupboards and I was grateful
for that. At last we were finished with the meal and, flicking off the
kitchen light as we left the room, Vanya took my hand and led me to the
bedroom. "You've behaved admirably as my maid, Jane. Perhaps you're
really starting to accept being the woman I've created just for me."
Once we were inside the bedroom Vanya removed my apron, bow and cap,
pushed me suddenly backwards onto the bed and sat down beside my
sprawled body. She reached under my tiny skirt and began tugging the
tight latex panties down my thighs, saying "As you've been so good a
little reward is in order, Darling." She lowered her head to my groin,
flipping the hem of the skirt out of her way and flicking her tongue
back and forth between my legs. I voiced agreement to her views to the
accompanying delight of her tongue, then she moved to kneel between my
outspread legs. Vanya lifted my booted ankles onto her shoulders then,
grasping my hips, pulled my body up to her waiting face, leaving only
my shoulders and head on the bed. As my rigidly-booted legs dangled
over her shoulders she slid both her hands down my rubber-clad body to
caress my breasts as they spilled out of the corset and dress. Her eyes
triumphantly held mine as she lowered her head between my legs once
more to kiss, lick, suck and chew, making me squirm and moan with the
delight she was causing.
In no time at all I felt my orgasm building and Vanya, accurately
sensing my condition, bit quite hard on everything in her mouth, making
me squeal with the sudden pain. My climax faded rapidly with the pain
and as soon as it had, she began the soft, exciting movements again.
Twice more she bit me, each time long enough for me to remember the
pain, but the following joy made it all worthwhile. I realised that she
was firmly intent on making me associate pain with pleasure, to make me
as masochistic as she could, but the delight of her gentle caresses
made sure I couldn't do anything to stop her for, by now, I urgently
wanted more excitement. As my arousal grew yet again I found myself
waiting for her painful bite, but it did not come. I did, however, deep
into her greedy mouth as she sucked even harder on me and doubled her
caresses on my naked breasts. Although not as intense as previous ones,
it was a very drawn-out and extremely satisfying orgasm and, as the
feelings faded, waves of sheer peace washed through my body.
Vanya lowered my body to the bed and slid my legs from her shoulders to
let me fully enjoy the satisfied relaxation that only orgasm can bring.
She remained kneeling between my outstretched legs, smiling
triumphantly down at me, knowing how totally under her control I was at
that moment. It was several minutes before she spoke and she began
unlacing the training boots as she did so.
"You've worn these long enough for today, Darling, but I will want you
to wear them again until you look and feel natural in any size of high
heels I make you wear. I have to teach you many years of practice in a
few weeks so you must be prepared to persevere with them but, like
tonight, I will probably reward you if you do well. If you don't then
you will wear them for much longer periods at a time."
Vanya pulled the remaining boot from my leg and rolled me onto my
stomach so that she could pull down the zip on my dress while I
wriggled my ankles to rid my calves of the cramps. Once it was off my
shoulders I was rolled again and the dress slid from my arms and down
my body. "Tonight I'm going to treat your face to a special cream-pack,
so lay still while I take off your make-up, Jane." Still enjoying the
post-orgasmic lethargy I was more than happy to be pampered by Vanya,
idly laying there as she worked on my face. She pushed two of the
hormone booster pills into my mouth between removing my make-up and
applying the pack, her fingers delicately teasing my captive nipples as
an encouragement to swallow the giant discs.
Once she had thickly coated my face and neck with the pink gel Vanya
stepped into the bathroom to rinse her hands. I tried to watch her but
even my eyelashes were so heavily creamed that I had difficulty seeing
through the film. She sat beside me again a few minutes later saying
"I'm going to put a mask on you to keep the face-pack from getting onto
everything. Sit up, Darling," and her hands gripped my shoulders to
help me.
A wide rubber strap was buckled around my neck and then Vanya pulled
the front of the mask up and over my face. Instead of a mouth-hole in
the mask there was a bladder which Vanya pushed between my lips and I
realised that it was similar to the inflatable gag she loved to use on
me. Once that was deep in my mouth two shaped rubber tubes that
penetrated through the latex mask were pushed into my nostrils and the
top of the thick rubber mask was pulled up to my hairline.
There were no eye-holes in the shaped mask so I was forced to sit there
in total blackness, feeling Vanya doing up one strap after another
behind my head to ensure my face was totally enclosed by the mask,
whilst learning to breath through the rubber tubes. A few minutes later
I felt Vanya working on the connector to the gag then the bladder began
to fill my mouth to make me completely dumb. Only my ears remained
uncovered and I felt Vanya kiss and gently bite the right one before
whispering "Now there's no chance of the cream rubbing off! Let me get
your nightie."
A few moments later I heard the loud rustle of rubber and felt the
smooth latex garment being slid over my head. Once my arms were through
the long, voluminous sleeves Vanya guided me to stand by the bed and
she put the bondage mittens onto my hands once again. She crossed my
arms and threaded a strap through the rings at the ends of the mittens
then tightened the strap across my back so that my arms were trapped
across my stomach as though in a straight-jacket. I was totally
helpless again and being unable to see made it even worse. Nor could I
protest when I followed awkwardly as Vanya pulled me forward with
gentle tugs on my nipple jewels through the thin latex of the nightie,
telling me "Come on, Darling. It's time for the toilet before bed."
Once I had finished, Vanya insisted on giving me an enema from the
bidet before she guided me back again in the same way and laid me down
on the bed. My nightie was pulled up around my waist and something was
buckled around each ankle. As she pulled my legs apart to fetter my
other one, I realised it was a leg-stretcher. That was confirmed as
Vanya expanded the telescopic bar joining the fetters until my legs
were stretched as far apart as they would go. Again she whispered into
my ear. "What I'm going to do now, my helpless Darling slave, is going
to be quite uncomfortable, but don't worry because it's for a very good
reason." My thoughts went into immediate turmoil at what she might have
in mind, but there was nothing I could do to stop her.
A moment later I felt her warm fingers feeling tentatively between my
legs midway between my anus and now-tiny penis. Once she had located
the spot she wanted she began to press her finger firmly into the soft
flesh and begin to massage and rotate her finger. She kept pushing and
massaging while I struggled for all I was worth to escape the extreme
discomfort she was causing but to no avail. After quite a long time she
must have achieved what she wanted, for she stopped pushing so hard and
through the discomfort I realised that, without breaking the skin, her
finger was penetrating up to her knuckle into the soft flesh!
Presumably satisfied with her progress, Vanya used a second finger to
increase the size of the hollow she had created in my body, pressing
and massaging hard between my legs for quite a while longer.
The pain eased gradually to a tolerable level although she kept
massaging in circles then, at last, she withdrew her fingers. What she
did next was much more painful; for she moved my right testicle down
over the channel she had created and pressed it up into my body! Had
the gag and mask not prevented it I would have been heard for miles
around as I screamed at the sharp and sudden pain, then suddenly it was
gone and I realised she had pushed the testicle right inside me. The
pain was just as intense as she persuaded the left one to follow the
right but, at last, that also disappeared inside me and very slowly the
pain died down to a strong, dull ache.
I was still moaning several minutes later at the intense pain she had
caused when I felt Vanya's weight on the bed beside me. I jumped as a
bag of ice was pressed between my legs and, although it was intensely
cold, it was like heaven at the site of the ache. Vanya held the ice
there for several minutes then dried between my legs and the rubber
sheet beneath my bottom. I felt numb between my widely-stretched thighs
but the ache was fading fast now. I longed to see and feel what Vanya
had done to me this time but there was no escape from my bonds.
A while later I heard Vanya moving around and the rustle of rubber
before, mercifully, she collapsed the telescopic pole of the leg-
stretcher. Both ankles were released and I thankfully brought my legs
together. A pair of rubber panties were slid over my ankles and pulled
up over my knees, before Vanya gently rolled me onto my side then onto
my chest and knees. With my bottom sticking up in the air I felt Vanya
rub cream around the entrance to my bottom. A moment later she began to
gently push something into me, the large shape entering fairly easily
with the lubricant. Whatever it was, it suddenly slipped inside and I
found my bottom clenching a much smaller diameter. I guessed it was
similar to the dummy built into the pants she had made me wear earlier
in the weekend.
Whilst I was still in the same position Vanya pulled and stretched the
very tight rubber panties up my thighs and over my hips. They were
pulled up tightly between my legs to trap the shape inside me before
Vanya rolled me down onto my side again. Although the thing was filling
me, it was quite comfortable and I clenched my cheeks a few times to
make it even more so. I felt my nightie being pulled down around my
ankles then I was rolled onto my back. A few moments later I heard
Vanya return from the bathroom then felt her get into bed beside me and
the rubber-covered duvet pulled up over both of us. After a rustle of
latex as she got comfortable beside me, slipped her arm under my head
and her hand onto my breast I felt her warm breath against my ear.
Vanya kissed and licked around the shell of my ear softly then began
whispering quietly. "I really am sorry that I had to hurt you, Darling,
but being a woman isn't without its pain. What I had to do was
temporarily enlarge the cavity in your body through which your
testicles descended at puberty. It's the vestige of a vagina which all
men have but it closes up after a certain age. It'll close up again
quickly now, trapping your testicles inside you like the ovaries they
should be. They can be persuaded out again if ever I want by enlarging
the cavity again and sucking them out - and that's another thing you
can't do without me." Her tongue stroked gently around the inside of my
ear while I took in what she had said. I was realising just how intent
she was on making me female and how, yet again, I was now even more
under her control.
She continued to whisper, her voice overlaid with her strength of
purpose. "The tight panties will stop your ovaries slipping out during
the night and, by morning; the passage will have closed up again to
keep them inside you. The loose skin between your legs will now have
nothing to stretch it and will shrink back to look like pretty vaginal
lips. As what's left continues to shrink, especially with the help of
all the female hormones, all you will have is a pretty little clitoris
that I am going to make so sensitive I will be able to control you with
passion alone.
"I learned about the things I've done to you from articles in `Women In
Control' or WIC as it's called. That's the magazine of the Order of
Athena I was telling you about. The articles were written by a lady
gynaecologist who is a member and had experimented on her husband. Lots
of her friends who are members had also tried it so her advice was
quite easy to follow, although I really was quite worried in case I
hurt you seriously. I knew it would be painful for you and I hoped I
was doing the job properly so that I didn't prolong the hurt. When I
felt your balls finally disappear inside you I knew I was right"
She hugged me lovingly against her soft, warm body for a few moments
before whispering further whilst her fingers gently fondled my nipple
through the thin rubber nightie. "I'm sure you'll be relieved to know
that I've finished all I planned to make you into my slave-girl - and
much sooner than I ever expected possible! I've given you real breasts,
removed your beard forever, pierced your ears and nipples, and started
training your figure to the shape I want it. Even the tiniest of
panties won't show what you used to be only a few days ago. All the
hormones I have given you will complete the changes in time so that
your shape will improve, your skin will soften and even your voice is
becoming feminine. I've pushed a comforter inside you for tonight and
I'll often keep you penetrated so that you learn to like it more and
more. I hope you've realised by now that there is no chance of turning
back: you are my slave-girl and you will stay that way. We will
continue our lives as two women and I will be in control of you
forever. The physical changes are over but I will be accelerating the
mental ones from now on."
Vanya's other hand stroked up my body to caress my right breast, the
delightful feelings she was creating in sharp contrast to the enormity
of her words. I knew I was totally trapped inside my new feminine body,
yet part of me somehow was elated, although consciously I was horrified
by how far she had gone. There was nothing I could do in the state of
bondage she had me in but, somehow, the helplessness was no longer
quite as frightening as it had been.
Her soft whisper broke through my thoughts. "I have some arrangements
to make tomorrow and I must do some things at the office, but I'll be
back as soon as I can - I won't be able to stay away from you for too
long. I know my weekend in charge should be up now but I've already
told you it's going to last forever. Go to sleep now, my darling Jane.
You will need plenty of rest because tomorrow we stop playing a weekend
game and begin our new lives. You've so much to learn about being a
woman as well as being my slave and tomorrow I'll begin to teach you in
earnest. I know you're going to learn to love it so relax and look
forward to all the excitement it will bring. Don't worry about the
frustrations, the hurts or the domination: I will make absolutely
certain that your latent masochism learns how to enjoy those as well.
Goodnight sweet slave."
Blind and dumb because of the tight-fitting mask and unable to move my
arms at all I could only lay there, aware of the light pressure of
Vanya's hands resting on my breasts and the fullness caused by the
dildo inside me. I tentatively squeezed my thighs together to find the
ache had almost gone completely, the space between my legs feeling
unaccustomedly empty. The thought of no longer having visible testicles
seemed frighteningly final in my conversion to what Vanya had made me.
The only consolation was that she had told me it was physically
complete, although I wondered what else was in store in other ways.
Pondering those thoughts I seemed to be floating and lost all physical
sensations from my body. From that state I must have eventually drifted
off to another completely dreamless sleep.