IT STARTED WITH AN APRON by Monica Graz
Episode 3
When Betty brought in the coffee and biscuits she noticed that Jennifer
had lit up a cigarette, but Anita had not, so she surmised that she
herself would not be allowed to smoke whilst drinking her coffee with
them and she wasn't. But she did ask the big question in her mind, "Does
all this mean Ma'am that to us Bob Burns is no more?"
"Yes, that is absolutely right," replied Anita and continued, "All his
affairs will be transferred to my name and I will cancel his driving
licence and credit cards and anything of that nature we find; and
tomorrow the only job you will have to do, under Miss Armstrong's
supervision, apart from the regular chores, will be to sort out all his
personal items such as records, photographs, diaries and books and
certificates of any qualification for any kind of employment. His
Medical Card and National Health System number will be needed for
notification of his change of name, but everything else must go,
anything saleable to be sold and the rest to be destroyed."
Suddenly panic hit Betty. She was about to lose completely Bob's
identity. She wouldn't be able to prove in the future who Bob was and
what he accomplished so far. She addressed Anita in a voice sounded
slightly hysterical and more feminine than ever, "But Ma'am, could you
possibly keep Bob's records and certificates for possible future
reference, what if you require to produce some legal documents on Bob'
behalf. Should you consult with a lawyer before you destroy legal
documents?"
Anita looked at Betty slightly perplexed. Betty had a point here,
legally Anita was married to R.J.Burns and that couldn't change at once.
Legal steps were required. She had to act in a cautious way. She decided
quickly on that matter. "Yes Betty, I agree with you, we will not
destroy any legal documents concerning Bob's past, I will keep them
somewhere safely. When you sort those documents out tomorrow, Miss
Armstrong will keep them and pass them on to me."
By that stage Betty was desperately tired, but also trying to come to
grips with the realisation that she has being methodically separated
from everything that Bob possessed, first every stitch of clothing, then
the personal belongings, then his money and bank accounts and to be
completed tomorrow his other goods, books, qualifications etc and
finally as all her abilities, as Betty, were concentrated on her
situation as a maidservant, even his knowledge and interests. But she
realised once more that it was herself who had asked for the surname to
be replaced by her mother's maiden name and still wanted it to be legal
as soon as possible.
However a new and dreadful fear came to her after Jennifer's explanation
on the important clauses in the contract which she had accepted without
any reservation. She turned appealingly to Anita and asked, "You
wouldn't send me away to be a maidservant to a strange lady, would you
Ma'am?"
"I don't think so," was Anita's reply. "As I have told you already, I am
now making great progress in my business and if I continue in the way I
am going it is quite likely that I will be expected to go abroad in
about a year's time for at least a year or perhaps longer. I don't think
I could take you with me. So I may have to find another Mistress for
you."
She looked at Jennifer as she said that and Jennifer picked her train of
thought because she said, "Don't worry Betty, you might find that you
have been assigned to me. That would be a big wrench, would it?"
Betty didn't know how to answer that and was not conforted when Jennifer
went on, "And remember that if you turn out to be the super excellent
maid we expect you to be and go out for occasional work in other housed,
there may well be some ladies who would like so much to have you that
they would be prepared to buy the contract."
"Thank you Miss Jennifer," said Betty, "but I do hope I will not find
myself assigned to a strange lady."
Jennifer ignored Betty's last remark as she turned to Anita, "I'll be
coming tomorrow dear, as arranged, good night for now."
Betty collected all the coffee things and started washing up in order to
leave the kitchen tidy for the morning. Anita came in and said in a
rather sweet voice, "Good night Betty, get to bed and sleep well. You
needn't worry about what is happening to you. We are only fixing you
firmly in a situation you desire. Once you also realise you cannot have
that and have Bob as well, you will become more content. You are happy
already in the work given to you. And you have many delightful things to
learn yet. For example we cannot let you go out maiding in other houses
until you are able to look after babies, as far as may be expected of a
general housemaid. To learn that you may have to attend classes for
would be mothers!"
Betty was too tired to open a new conversation, but this proposal
excited her again in that sinister way, the way that made her stomach
flicker. Her excitement increased when Anita gave her a kiss in the
mouth and then left as quickly as she appeared. All that she could say
was, "Thank you Ma'am, good night Ma'am."
Tired as she was when she went upstairs, she cleansed her face with cold
cream, took off her pretty maid's dress and hung it up carefully. Then
after a quick rinse in the bathroom she finished undressing, slipped on
her nightie, set the alarm and eased herself into bed. For a moment she
wondered what Anita might be feeling now but did not dare to go to that
door, now closed to her and was asleep before many minutes have passed.
The second time the alarm called her at 6.30 in the morning it seemed
more demanding than the previous morning, but she slid out of bed
immediately, rousing herself as she began to move around, to such a good
effect that she was nearly five minutes ahead of time when she took
Anita's tea to her. When she was preparing the tea in the kitchen she
realized that it was Wednesday, her second day of work as a full time
maid and only four days from that Saturday morning that Anita and
Jennifer started Bob's transformation!
As soon as she offered the tea to Anita she prepared the clothes the
latter had chosen for the day. As she was carefully laying them ready
Anita asked her to come and kneel beside the bed, close her eyes, put
her hands behind her back and bend her head. She did as she was told and
Anita then slipped something over her head. "There, you can look now,"
she said and Betty saw that it was a gold locket and chain. "As I told
you last night," she went on, "everything belonging to Bob must go out
of this house today, but I am going to keep that photo on the dressing
table as a keepsake. That locket and chain I have just put on you
contains a photo of him which I put into it and you may wear as your
keepsake of him."
Betty opened the locket, looked at the photo for a while, closed it
again and fingered it at her chest. It seemed that she was more
interested in the locket and chain than in the photo, but she had no
idea then how many times in the future she would look at the photo again
and wonder if Bob's life had really been as carefree as it seemed in
retrospect.
"Thank you very much Ma'am," she said.
"Good," said Anita, and then rather sharply, as if to counter any
suggestion of softness, "you can get off your knees now and get my bath
running! I shall be taking a lot of time out of business today on my own
affairs, so I must not be late, so hurry!"
Betty did hurry and besides seeing to Anita's needs in the bathroom she
helped her dress this morning and still had her breakfast ready five
minutes early.
Before she went out, Anita told Betty to get on with the items on the
daily chores list as soon as she had her breakfast and washed up,
because Miss Jennifer would be in to see to the removal of Bob's things.
So it was not long before Betty was busy again, cleaning down in the
kitchen, tidying the living room etc., and then going upstairs to clear
up the bathroom and tidy Anita's room.
She was nearly finished when Jennifer arrived, so as she let her in she
asked if she could have another ten minutes to finish the daily chores
list.
"Of course," replied Jennifer, "while you finish up there I will look at
what you have done downstairs and then I will come to see the rest of
your work."
She made a thorough inspection of the kitchen and other downstairs rooms
and was surprised by the competence Betty had already developed. She was
a natural on housework, someone who regardless of sex should have been a
servant! She joined Betty in Anita's room and she was about to praise
her about the work, when she noticed the locket and chain on Betty.
"Have you had permission to wear that?" she asked rather sharply.
"Yes Miss Jennifer," Betty answered meekly, Mistress put it on me this
morning" and went on to explain how and why Anita had given it to her.
She showed Jennifer the photo in the locket and pointed to the photo on
the dressing table, Anita was keeping for herself.
Jennifer did not look pleased and said, "Well, no doubt she had a good
reason." She looked around the room and asked Betty if she knew of
anything else of Bob's in there.
Betty said she didn't know because she was not allowed in the room at
all other than in the course of her maid's duties.
"All right, now show me your room then," she said, closing the door
behind her as she followed Betty out.
"This only needs a quick dust over now" Betty said, "I make it tidy
every morning as soon as I am dressed."
As Betty dusted, Jennifer looked into the cupboard and drawers and
checked that all the cases were empty. She noticed how carefully Betty
had smoothed out and hung her dresses and how few clothes she had been
given so far.
Then she suddenly exclaimed, "Good Heavens! You can't keep these! Of all
things!" Her eyes were on Bob's hairbrush, comb, toothbrush and shaving
gear. Betty's eyes were wide too, but she didn't know what to say.
After a little pause Jennifer said, "I can find you a lady's razor. You
will find it light after that old thing, but you will have to make the
best of it. I can also find a toothbrush and comb, but unless the
Mistress can turn out an old one for you, you will have to wait for a
hairbrush."
She then looked around the room again and said to Betty, "Have you
anything else of Bob's in here?"
Hesitantly Betty started to bend down, but stopped when Jennifer called
out, "Not that way!" and went on, "If you want to pull something out
from under the bed, lower your body as you would to curtsey and go on
lowering, until you are sitting on your heels if necessary. Remember it
is not ladylike to bend from your hips!"
Betty tried again, got it right this time and shyly drew out from under
the bed a small cardboard carton. "I have only a few old things in
here," she said quietly. "Nothing of any value, but it would hurt me
very much to have to part with them."
Jennifer looked at the contents. An old teddy bear, well cuddled it
seemed and about a dozen photos.
"Who are the people in the photos?" she asked.
"Only family and children friends," Betty replied.
"Well, you know what Mistress said last night, don't you? Everything
must go, anything saleable to be sold and the rest destroyed. However,
if there is a photo of your mother in amongst them, Mistress might like
to keep it."
"There are two photos of my mother there," Betty said, picking them out
and showing them to Jennifer.
"Good!" said Jennifer, as she studied them. "I think the Mistress would
like to keep this one and I would like to keep the other, but the rest
must go!"
She then called for two cartons, one for the items to be sold and the
other for the items to be destroyed. Bob's shaving gear etc went in with
the items to be destroyed. Before leaving Betty's room, Jennifer looked
around again and then said softly, "It's absolutely amazing! To see what
you have done in here and to think how there must be so many housewives
with years of experience, who could miss several of the things you have
done this morning!" and then in a stricter tone, "Well, we must get on."
They went into the guest bedroom. Betty had tidied it and dusted it the
day before and it was still tidy. Jennifer asked if the cupboards and
drawers were empty and Betty told her that only the top drawer of the
dressing table and the wardrobe hanging space were kept clear for
visitors. Most of the remaining space was taken up with Bob's more
valuable possessions, including some electronic gear, photographic
equipment, a microscope, drawing instruments, some drawings, technical
reference books and data tables. Since Bob was made redundant he had
kept himself up to date on all new information published about his work
and had spent many hours in this room doing so. But Betty's delight in
being accepted in a feminine role overcame any doubts she might have had
about abandoning Bob's equipment. All of it was brought out and sorted
into cartons. She took the cartons downstairs into the hall.
There Jennifer paused and said to Betty, "I have put a razor and some
other things in your room for you whilst you were fetching the cartons.
Amongst them you will find some eyebrow tweezers. Before every shave
look carefully to see if you can find any hair long enough to grip and
when you do, pull them out. As you shave leave a little patch, so that a
few days later you will find some to pull and then start another little
patch alongside the first and so on. Also after every shave, look
carefully at your eyebrows and pull out the three strongest over each
eye. You will find that taking so few will not hurt and in a year or
even sooner, you will have only a few to pluck each day to keep your
eyebrows soft and tidy." She didn't bother to explain where the razor
and other things had come from.
By now, Betty was in need of a break, so she was relieved when Jennifer
said, "I would like a cup of tea now Betty and as I am working with you
this morning I'll have it in the kitchen with you. Put the kettle on and
fetch out some biscuits please. I hope it will give us enough energy to
finish the clearing out."
Jennifer had a cigarette with her tea and biscuits, but did not offer
one to Betty. This was just as well however, for had she done so, Betty
would have had to refuse because to have accepted it would have been
contrary to Anita's instructions.
They looked around the kitchen to see if there was anything there of
Bob's and found some small tools, screwdrivers, pliers etc. Jennifer
said she could use them herself and found a small box for them.
Next, they went out to the Garage. Betty was very nervous about that
because she was abandoning the safety of the house dressed as a maid for
the first time. But Jennifer made it clear that she shouldn't worry
about that. They found in the garage some heavy tools, including spade
and fork, shovel, crow-bar, bow saw and big hammer. They took these
directly to Jennifer's car and loaded them into the boot. One of the
neighbours watched them and then said, "Mr. Burns has gone away I
believe. Could it be that those tools are not needed here any more?"
Betty, thankful that it was not her appearance which had prompted the
enquiry, but still very anxious, went quietly back into the garage and
on onto the house playing nervously with the edge of her apron.
Jennifer started talking with the neighbour. Not long after she came in
as well, saying that the gentleman had come round, looked at the tools
and made an offer for the lot, which she thought was too good to refuse.
So they had been sold and taken away by the purchaser.
She put the money in her purse without saying how much. All they found
in the dining room was an unframed photo of Bob and colleagues at his
firm's last annual dinner, which went for destruction, of course.
Finally they came to the living room, where they knew Bob had kept all
his private papers. They were in a built-in furniture unit comprising a
bureau, a bookcase and several drawers. Jennifer put aside for Anita all
the legal documents. She also put aside some personal letters in case
Anita would like to see them. In the bookcase were many books relating
to his work and some to his hobbies, a few of them very expensive. All
of them were put with the items to be sold. On a last look around, in
case anything had been missed, Jennifer found his umbrella in the hall.
After a little thought, that too went with the items to be sold.
Then they packed all these things in Jennifer's car, as she had agreed
to sell them for Anita. Back in the house after that they looked at the
items for destruction. A few of them went into the dust bin. the rest
were all combustible, so Jennifer said to Betty, "Stir up the fire in
the boiler Betty, while I bring all these things into the kitchen, then,
as I hand them to you, put them in the fire and see that they burn."
This took quite some time and at one stage Betty had to riddle the fire
again. But eventually all had gone. Jennifer had watched Betty's face as
she had handled the pieces to her and the only time she saw real
distress on it was when the little teddy bear was burnt. She thought
about that but said nothing at the time.
Jennifer drove off and Betty wandered around the house, rather confused,
thinking how difficult it would be now to find anything to indicate that
Bob had ever been there. She felt vulnerable and more than ever
dependant on Anita. She realized, not without some bizarre satisfaction,
that her life from now on was going to be the life of a female servant
and that was becoming rapidly an irreversible fact! But soon she put
those thoughts aside; she had to prepare herself for the evening. She
made another pot of tea and had a very late tea and sandwiches lunch.
She went up to her tiny room for that longed for cigarette with a much
needed rest. She took off her dress and prepared to shave. On finding
the things Jennifer had put out for her she remembered her advice on the
purpose of the tweezers. As she expected, she could not find one facial
hair long enough to see, but left a little unshaven patch under her
chin. The eyebrow hairs came out without hurt, but she thought that it
would take a long time at that rate before she would have only soft
hairs in her brows. The lady's razor was very light but quite easy to
use.
As soon as she had changed into her pretty afternoon black frock and
white frilly apron Betty hurried down, removed her white apron and put
on her large red cooking apron and started to prepare the evening meal.
She knew Jennifer was coming in for dinner as well as Anita, so the
amounts to be made ready were enough for three. Anita had planned that
the meal should not take long to prepare, so she had chosen a packet
soup, tinned ham with tinned potato, salad and beans, fresh lettuce and
tomatoes and a fruit and cream sweet. So, although she started dinner
much later she was ready in time and had only to set the table when
Anita came in.
As she was settled comfortably in her chair, glass in hand, Betty gave
her the morning mail, which this day consisted of just three letters
addressed to Mr. R.J.Burns.
"Thank you Betty" said Anita as she took them. She opened them, read
them over quickly and then put them aside saying, "I will deal with
these later."
Betty had recognised one of the envelopes as a personal letter from
Bob's closest friend and had wondered if Anita would discuss it with
her, but by now, of course, Anita made all her decisions on Bob's
affairs without thought even of telling Betty.
Anita had then wanted to know how Jennifer and Betty had done as regards
disposal of Bob's things. "Are they all gone?" she asked.
"Yes Ma'am," answered Betty, "They all gone, except two photos of my
mother. Miss Jennifer thought you might like to keep one of them and she
would like to keep the other herself."
Jennifer arrived back shortly after, gave Anita the photo which had been
saved for her, showed her the other one and confirmed that she would
like to keep it herself. She then gave Anita all the legal documents and
the letters she had also held back, saying,, "I held these back in case
there is anything in them you ought to see before throwing them away."
Putting these aside also, with a rubber band around them, Anita asked,
"Have all of Bob's things gone, excluding of course the legal papers you
just have given me."
"Yes", answered Jennifer, "everything to be sold has gone from here. In
fact the tools in the garage have already been sold, a few items went to
the dustbin and the rest were fed by Betty into the boiler in the
kitchen and we watched them burned."
"Did this upset you?" Anita asked Betty.
"I wasn't very upset Ma'am," Betty replied. "I had already accepted that
on becoming just a maidservant I would have to give up everything of
Bob's. But I was very upset watching the little teddy bear burn."
Anita didn't comment on that but turned to Jennifer and said, "I have
spent most of my day in personal affairs instead of on boutique
business. I have been to the bank, to the building society, to the
insurance office and kept the appointment made for me to see your
solicitor friend's boss Mr. Arkwright, this afternoon. He is prepared to
see Betty at the same time, 3.30 tomorrow."
She stopped briefly to have a sip of a drink and continued, "Can we find
suitable clothing for her and could you be kind enough to escort her to
the office?" she asked turning to Jennifer.
"Of course, I will be delighted," replied Jennifer. "She can wear the
blue dress you gave her. She must convince Mr. Arkwright that the
changeover is genuine of course, so she must look like a proper
domestic, which she is now, not a lady of fashion. I'll see if I can
find some plain shoes for her and a lightweight coat, not too
fashionable, to wear over that dress."
Anita then turned to Betty and said, "You have already guessed of
course, that this is to do with your desire to take the name 'Elisabeth
Martin'. It's a much more involved procedure than I thought, but I think
that after tomorrow you will have given up the name 'Robert John
Burns'."
Then, maintaining a matter of fact tone, to steady Betty's nerves, she
asked her to serve the dinner.
It took Betty only a few minutes to lay the table, then replacing her
red cooking apron with her pretty white serving one; she waited on them
whilst they ate. They had their coffee in the dining room, instead of
the living room, so they could concentrate on their discussion of
Anita's money matters, making use of Jennifer's accountancy experience.
When she had served their coffee, Betty went back to the kitchen, put
her red apron on again, this time on top of her serving one, to have her
dinner and wash up. That done, she knocked on the dining room door and
asked Anita if there was anything else to do now.
"No, thank you Betty," said Anita, "but I suggest you go into the hall,
pick up a Mills and Boon romance I have put on the shelf there for you,
take it up to your room and try to relax with it."
And she continued in a matter of fact tone again, "Bob would have had no
time at all for such fiction, he probably would have founded it silly
also, but for Betty the maid should be prime reading!"
So Betty obediently took the book upstairs and started reading it. As
she was reading the desire for a cigarette came over her so strongly
that she toyed with the idea of going back down to Anita to ask if she
could bring forward tomorrow's smoke. But she was certain that Anita
would refuse, so she put it out of her mind. Suddenly she realized that
it was nearly ten o'clock. She ran down the stairs, smoothing out her
frock and tying back her white apron. She paused in front of the dining
room door to regain her breath and knocked.
Anita called, "Come in Betty, you have chosen exactly the right time to
come. We are just finishing. Bring in some more coffee for us, will you,
and put out the biscuits please. You can take out these used cups as you
go."
When she had served the coffee, Jennifer kicked off her shoes and said
to her, "Try these for size, Betty."
"Here Miss?"
"Yes, now please!" Jennifer spoke rather sharply this time, so Betty
took off her own shoes in front of them, bending down as modestly as she
could to undo the straps, and slipped on Jennifer's.
"They seem a little long for me," she said, "But I could wear them."
"Good," replied Jennifer, and went on, "I have a coat and some shoes
which have seen better days, but are quite respectable. I will bring
them over for you to wear at your interview with the Solicitor
tomorrow."
"I am scared," said Betty, "do I have to go?"
Anita spoke up then. "No, you certainly don't have to go! But Mr.
Arkwright is willing to help you change your name if he is satisfied
that you really want to do that. Do you?"
Betty paused a little and then said, "Yes Ma'am, I am not so much
frightened of the Solicitor as of going to any appointment as a maid."
She then turned to Jennifer and with a sudden determination in her voice
she said, "I am very grateful that you are so kind and willing to help
me Miss Jennifer, and I will do my best tomorrow."
"Good girl!" Jennifer said and continued, "It's settled then; I'll take
you and present you to Mr. Arkwright at 3.30p.m!"
She started preparing to go to the door, saying she would be in soon
after lunch to help Betty get ready.
Anita went with her to the door while Betty cleared away the coffee
things. She came to the kitchen the moment Betty was washing up the few
remaining cups and saucers. She watched her for a moment and then said
in a surprisingly soft tone, "You must wonder why I am so formal with
you the last few days. I think I owe you an explanation. You decided on
your own free will to abandon your male role and to become a female
servant. You have accepted very eagerly that role, something that suits
me also, because I have great prospects at my work and I love to have a
maid waiting on me at all times! In fact I was very excited when I came
in before watching you washing up with your black frock and the white
apron so neatly tied with the straps crossing in the back, the picture
of domesticity."
She paused, and lighted a cigarette then she continued, "But I don't
want you to see it as a game, it is the real thing and you must learn to
act and think exactly as any female servant. It seems that you have a
knack for it and you catch very fast, but we decided with Jennifer to
make things as real as possible for you. There is not going to be
unnecessary cruelty but we both are going to be firm and strict and
teach you everything that we consider as duties of a general housemaid."
She paused again and looked at Betty whose face was getting red from
embarrassment. "After a few weeks and when I am convinced that you
really feel your new role to the bone, with no traces left of Bob, I
might call you to my bed occasionally at night, but don't ever dream
that you can take any initiative of any kind!"
And she concluded in a firmer tone of voice, "You are the maid now and
the maid you will be in the future and it is totally to my discretion to
use you the way I see fit!"
Then she dismissed her in an indifferent tone of voice. "You can go to
bed now, good night."
Betty went upstairs with mixed feelings. But she felt that Anita was
fair to her and the option of going back to her bed, even on Anita's
terms was very promising. As she entered her room another surprise
awaited her. When she was undressed and took out her nightie, there,
tucked in the folds of it was an old rag doll, about the same size as
Bob's teddy bear. She was wearing a sewn on dress or nightie, not new
but, like the doll herself, clean and tidy. Attached to the garment was
a little streamer of ribbon on which Betty could just read the name
'Emily'.
"Oh, Emily!" she said. "I could love you though you are not my little
Teddy."
A few minutes later Betty went to sleep holding Emily gently. As she was
drifting away she remembered that next Wednesday 21 of September, that
is a week from today, she would celebrate her first birthday as
Elisabeth Martin, she was going to be 39 years old! Would Anita remember
it?
The following morning, when Betty made her bed, Emily was tucked in the
folds of her nightie exactly as she had been the night before. Apart
from that Betty's routine was as had been laid down by Anita and enabled
her to be up and ready for business, breakfasted and out in good time,
without any kind of hassle.
As before, Betty was very proud of her Mistress as she watched her drive
off to business. As before, Betty had her own breakfast and carried out
the work of the daily chores, but there was something 'different'. Her
stomach 'fluttered' every time she thought about her appointment at the
solicitor's office. It would be her first venture in public in her
feminine role and her first appointment with anyone as 'Elisabeth
Martin'.
Nevertheless, she had finished the daily chores, prepared some
vegetables and had her own lunch by half past one. She went to her room,
took off her light blue maid's frock, lit that cigarette, her stock of
them now going down, and while she smoked she wondered how she would
manage without them when they were all gone. But if she had none and
could not get any she would have no choice but to go without, she
thought philosophically.
Then she started getting ready and was in the bathroom when the door
bell rang. Probably it was Miss Jennifer, but she couldn't answer the
door in her undies anyway, so she dashed back in her room, slipped on
her blue frock again and ran downstairs doing up her buttons as she
went.
It was Jennifer, who said very sharply, "What's the matter with you
girl? You are not tidy. Why don't you have your apron on?"
Betty explained and Jennifer made a mental note that a house gown of
some sort would have to be provided for her.
She then said to Betty, "I have come in good time to see that you are
sensibly dressed and all prepared for your interview with Mr.
Arkwright."
She followed Betty back upstairs to the bathroom, saying, "First let me
look at your hands" and examined them carefully, then she added, "Not
bad, in fact considering that you are a domestic servant, not bad at
all! But you have some hair on your wrists which you will have to take
off with the razor now, but in future you must keep them clear with
pumice stone."
After that she showed Betty how to file her nails in a neat curve, quite
short and told her she would have to do without nail varnish today, but
in time she would be allowed to use clear varnish. "No talons and no
bright colours!" she said.
Then she proceeded to do a little trimming on Betty's eyebrows and to
put on her make up, explaining as she went what she was doing and why,
emphasizing that for an office appointment in the afternoon, the make up
must be applied extremely lightly, so as to be unnoticeable, just
enough to cover skin blemishes and make her face look soft and feminine.
A bright lipstick could be used, but not applied thickly.
Betty had only a few items of make up, so far, which had been given to
her by Anita, but she hoped she would eventually have some of her own.
Jennifer helped Betty get into the blue dress and since it had a
neckline high at the front, brought out the gold locket to lay on it,
where it looked very natural.
"Now, stand back and let me look at you" she said.
"Turn round, slowly..... yes, you'll do."
Before they went downstairs, however, Betty touched Jennifer's arm and
said, "Oh! Miss Jennifer! It was you who put little Emily in my bed last
night, wasn't it? It had hurt me a lot to watch little teddy bear burn
and I still feel sad, but Emily made me realise that he had belonged to
Bob, not to me, and I felt you had told her to come over and comfort me.
Emily is tucked up in my nightie again now, waiting for me just as she
waited last night."
She paused for a moment to catch her breath and continued, "I do hope
you will let her stay with me for a while."
Jennifer answered gently "Yes, it was me, and yes she can stay with you
for a while," and went on in a sharper tone, "I was sorry for you, but
no more than I would have been for any other maid required to do as she
was told, even if she didn't like it and don't ever assume that you are
any more deserving than any other maid!"
Downstairs, Betty put on the light coat and shoes Jennifer had brought
for her to wear. Then Jennifer produced a headscarf she had also brought
and showed her how to tie it on. Then she looked Betty over again and
said, "Now you look ordinary enough for people to take no notice of you.
But there is another thing you must have. Do you know what that is?"
Betty didn't know, so Jennifer went on, "Well, I know you don't have to
worry about what to carry your money in, because you haven't got any,
but what about your little personal things like powder and lipstick and
hankie and don't forget it, your house door key?"
Betty realised she needed a handbag, but could not think of anything
which might do, but Jennifer laughed and said, "Never mind, I have a
small handbag I can lend you. Bring your things out with you in a paper
bag and I will stop at my house and bring it out for you."
Betty's stomach fluttered again as she realised it was time to go. But
Jennifer had some more instructions for her. She said, "Before you ride
in a car in skirts you must learn how to get into it and how to get out
of it again with modesty. The rule is that your legs must stay firmly
together as you put them in and as you bring them out. Remember that!"
And she continued more excited, "The drill is as follows, first open the
door wide, do not try to creep through a small gap. Back yourself into
the seat before you lift a foot off the ground, hold your skirt, if
necessary, to prevent the wrinkling, then swing around with your legs
together, lifting your feet enough to clear the door sill. Then close
the door. To get out, go through the same drill in reverse."
She finished the sentence and started walking towards the car, motioning
to Betty to follow her.
"We will go to the car now and I will unlock the passenger door for you.
I want you to get in and out twice before you get in and close the door.
Remember I shall be watching you carefully. It does not matter if anyone
sees you. You might be looking for something accidentally dropped.
Ready?"
With her stomach fluttering again, Betty replied, "Yes, thank you Miss
Jennifer" and they went to the car, closing the house door behind them.
Jennifer watched Betty go through the drill laid down for her quite
successfully and when she had got in herself, commended her for her
ladylike performance.
She drove to her own house first and collected the handbag she had
promised to lend to Betty. Then, as she drove towards the town centre,
she noticed Betty's tension rising as she was being carried to her
destination. So she talked to her about facing people in the street.
"First," she said, "you must remember you are going somewhere on some
purpose of your own. Then remember that they, also are going somewhere
on purpose of their own. They are not particularly interested in you. So
don't call attention to yourself by acting strangely or showing
concern that they might be taking notice of you. If a woman suddenly
glares at you, don't jump to the conclusion that something about
yourself has caused it, she is probably suddenly cross with herself
about something. There is no harm in wondering yourself what that might
have been! Or why that smart, military looking man over the road is
limping, or why that lady walking towards you is wearing such a
monstrosity of a hat!"
With that she turned into the parking space outside the Solicitor's
office. Betty's stomach fluttered again and her heart beat faster!
Jennifer was out of the car and locking her door before Betty was ready,
of course, then she took Betty's elbow lightly to lead her into the
office.
"Hello Jean," she said to the girl at the reception desk. "Is Mrs.
Howells, the Assistant Solicitor, about please?"
"Yes, Miss Armstrong," the girl replied lifting her telephone. "I'll
give her a ring for you."
In a few moments a pleasant round faced woman of about Jennifer's age
appeared, saying, "Hello Jennifer, have you brought the new maid in to
see Mr. Arkwright, the senior Solicitor and Commissioner for Oaths?"
"Yes Madge," replied Jennifer, "this is Betty."
Then, turning to Betty, said, "Say hello to Mrs. Howells, Betty."
Betty, felt like a child introduced to her teacher, but dutifully turned
to Mrs. Howells and said in her soft, as feminine as possible voice,
"Good afternoon, Ma'am."
"Hello, Betty! You needn't be shy with me," replied Mrs Howells, "I hear
you are making an excellent maid!"
Then she went on, "I think Mr. Arkwright will be ready to see you now,
so I'll take you in," and as she led Betty away, turned and said, "I'll
be back in a moment Jennifer."
Betty found herself in a large room, well furnished, with a large desk,
a tremendous bookcase full of books, and leather chairs. On being
motioned to do so, she sat down gingerly in a chair facing the desk. As
she did so, Mrs. Howells said, "This is Betty, as she is now called, Mr.
Arkwright," and turned to Betty and said, "This is Mr. Arkwright." And
with those words she went out of the room, closing the door softly
behind her.
Betty sat nervously at the edge of the chair, wondering what would
happen next. Then Mr. Arkwright looked up and said casually, "I saw your
wife yesterday Mr. Burns!"
Betty was taken aback, speechless for a while, then replied, "I'm sorry
Sir, I no longer think of myself as 'Mr. Burns', I am only Betty a
maidservant and Mrs Burns is my Mistress!"
"Be that as it may" went on Mr. Arkwright, in law you are Robert John
Burns, husband of Mrs. Anita Burns, and you can't walk away from that!"
"I cannot walk away from anything Sir. For reasons of my own, I have
committed myself to the position of living in maidservant to Mrs. Burns
and have to obey the orders she gives me. When I made that decision of
giving up the rights and privileges of Bob and had to answer to the
name of Betty, I asked if I could be given my mother's maiden name of
Martin as a surname, and Mrs. Burns seemed pleased. Last night, when I
was told this appointment had been made for me I was frightened and
asked if I had to come. Mrs. Burns replied that I was certainly not
required to come, but would have to do so, if I wanted your legal help
for a change of name. Can you help me, Sir?"
Mr. Arkwright was silent for what seemed to Betty quite a long time.
Then he said, "In your present circumstances the change of name you want
cannot be made by Deed Poll. Such a Deed would not be acceptable for
enrolment to Courts. But, if you intend to use only the name of
Elisabeth Martin permanently, you can make what is called a Statutory
Declaration to that effect, if you want to do so. Are you quite sure
that you do?"
Without any hesitation Betty answered, "Yes Sir, I am."
Mr. Arkwright then continued, "Before I could apply my services to your
request, I had to be absolutely certain that it was made entirely of
your own volition without any coercion and also that it was made with
the consent of Mrs. Burns. Mrs. Burns not only gave me her consent
yesterday, but also signed an affidavit to that effect. Furthermore she
asked for this interview to be given to you, with my fees and any
expenses to be charged to her account. As I am now satisfied on both
those points, will proceed with the Statutory Declaration."
He lifted his telephone and said, "Bring in the form of Statutory
Declaration you have been preparing for Mrs. Burns file please."
A few moments later he had the papers on the desk in front of him. He
then said to Betty, "This is what you can sign, first, in the name you
intend to use from now on, 'Elisabeth Martin' and then in what now
becomes your former name 'Robert John Burns'."
Betty started reading, 'Statutory Declaration of change of Name made
this 15th day of September in the year 1983 by me, Elisabeth Martin of
31 Raleigh Gardens, High field, Essex. I do solemnly and sincerely
declare that,
1. I absolutely and entirely renounce, relinquish and abandon the use of
my former name of ROBERT JOHN BURNS and assume and adopt and determine
to take and use the name of ELISABETH MARTIN in substitution for my name
of Robert John Burns.
2. I shall at all times hereafter......(there followed several lines of
legal phrases, ending with).... be called, known or distinguished not by
the former name of Robert John Burns, but by the name of Elisabeth
Martin only.
3. I authorize.......(legal terms)... and address me by the adopted name
of Elisabeth Martin and I make this solemn declaration.....(legal
terms)... the provisions of the Statutory Declarations act, 1835.
When Mr. Arkwright was satisfied that Betty fully understood the
commitment she was making to herself, he let her sign it, first in the
new name and then in the former name, and then signed it himself as a
witness.
After that, Mr. Arkwright relaxed his official manner and said, "Well
Miss Martin, that's done then, are you happy now?"
"Yes Sir, I am happy about it and I am grateful to you, Sir!"
"But I must emphasise something to you Miss Martin" the Solicitor
continued, "though you adopted a female name, in the eyes of Law you are
still a male and also you are still married to Mrs. Burns. That we
cannot change, but in the other hand nobody can stop you use legally the
name you chose even if it is a feminine one."
Betty thought for a moment and then said, "I don't mind that Sir, for as
long as Mrs. Burns is aware of that. And I would like to add that I am
grateful for something else Sir. When you were questioning me you made
me think again about what happened in my changeover, and I now believe
it was not simply a weakness of character that caused my submission to
this life of a maid, but a subconscious decision to exchange my freedom
in return for my acceptance into a feminine role. This new understanding
makes me feel better, because it encourages me to believe that at some
time in the future perhaps I will achieve something worth while."
Mr. Arkwright looked at Betty for the first time with a more genuine
interest and said, "I must admit that your case is quite an experience
for me and proves once more what I strongly believe, which is that human
character has an immense depth and so many complexities that humans
themselves are sometimes unable to understand and analyse."
Then becoming again formal, he rose from his chair, showing that the
interview was over and said, "Well, I wish you the best of luck with
your new life Miss Martin. Good afternoon!"
"Good afternoon, Sir" replied Betty, then got up and walked to the door.
As she was opening it, Mrs. Howells came in.
"Oh!, so you have finished then?" she asked.
"Yes, thank you Ma'am" Betty replied politely, continuing her way out.
But before she was out of earshot she overheard '....keep the original
in the file... tell Mrs. Burns that Miss Martin has now legally
renounced the name of Robert John Burns....'
Then she met Jennifer awaiting her. She instantly asked, "Have you
finished here now?"
"Yes, thank you Miss Jennifer, And I am so glad that's over!" Betty
replied.
"Good. Tell me all about it on the way home. We had better hurry now or
Mistress will be in before the vegetables are cooked!" said Jennifer.
She called out, "Goodbye Jean," to the girl at the desk as they walked
back to the car. Jennifer unlocked it, saw that Betty remembered the
advice she had been given, about getting in modestly, then drove away.
The evening rush hour had started by now, so the journey home was slower
than the journey into town. On the way Jennifer asked Betty about her
interview with the Solicitor. Betty told her how Mr. Arkwright had
questioned herself, had said that a Deed Poll would not be acceptable in
the present circumstances, but had allowed her to sign a Statutory
Declaration in which, in legal terms, she renounced the name of
R.J.Burns and taken in its place permanently, the name of Elisabeth
Martin and asked to be addressed always by that name.
"And where is that Declaration now. Have you got it? asked Jennifer.
"Oh, no Miss! The Solicitor will hold it in his 'Mrs. Burns' file"
replied Betty.
Jennifer thought for a while and then said quietly, as if to herself,
"So, Elisabeth Martin, that's who you are now and that's how you will
stay, like it or not!"
With that, Jennifer pulled into the house drive and they were home
again. As she drove in, Jennifer noticed the next door neighbour, the
one who bought the tools, talking with a lady in her front garden. She
said to Betty, "Give me your front door key and don't get out of the
car, until I am at the front door. If they look straight at you as you
get out, give them a little smile, but don't speak if you can help it."
Then Jennifer got out, exchanged greetings with them, commenting on how
the roads were getting busy and walked to the door. Betty got out of the
car gracefully, giving the neighbours half a smile and followed Jennifer
in through the door.
As soon as she was indoors Betty gave a big sigh of relief, took of her
borrowed coat and headscarf, put on her large red apron and attended to
the vegetables. The dinner menu, like that of the day before, had to be
based on cold meat, because of the shortage of time for preparation.
Nevertheless, with Jennifer's advice and some help, Betty was ready to
lay the table and dish up by the time Anita arrived.
Anita looked at her, saw she was wearing the blue dress under her apron
and asked, "Did you keep the appointment then?"
"Yes, Ma'am," Betty answered.
"How did it go?"
"All right, thank you Ma'am."
"Hmm... that doesn't tell me much!" said Anita and then went on, "What's
your name now?"
"Elisabeth Martin, Ma'am," answered Betty.
"And what happened to the name of Robert John Burns?" Anita asked.
"Renounced, relinquished and abandoned, Ma'am," answered Betty with a
mischievous smile.
"Well, you must fully appreciate that you are only my maid now, and
understand that from now on I shall treat you as just that and nothing
more!" Anita said very firmly and then added, "And remember that my only
obligations to you now, are those I have accepted in the contract of
employment I gave you."
Betty, who had thought until then that she was the one who was giving
out news that day, realised that Anita had totally demolished any ideas
of self importance she might have had and had issued her final ruling on
the conditions under which she, Betty, would have to work permanently.
She managed to whisper, "Yes, Ma'am," as Anita was heading for the
living room.
Jennifer silent and even a bit stunned from Anita's demonstration of
absolute authority towards Betty, followed her and shut the door.
Betty stood for a while, holding her hands together to stop their
trembling, and then managed in a great effort to pull herself together.
It took her another minute or two to remember what she had to do next,
then prepared the drinks, usually taken at this time, by Anita and
Jennifer and put them on a tray. Then she collected the day's mail and
added that to the tray and took it to the living room door. It may have
been only a fraction of a minute, but it seemed a long time between her
knock and Jennifer's answering call to come in. As she did so she
noticed that Anita had already kicked off her day shoes and slipped on
the soft shoes which she, Betty, had remembered to put beside her chair,
before going out that afternoon. She handed Anita's drink to her and
also her mail and then handed Jennifer's drink to her. From each of them
she received a polite 'thank you Betty' but no further comment. So she
went back to the kitchen and the dining room, laid the table and knocked
again to tell them dinner was ready.
As she was wearing the blue dress that Anita had given her, which she
now regarded as her 'best', she kept her red apron on whilst serving
them. She was very relieved when Anita spoke in a kindly fashion,
saying, "You look nice in that dress Betty, so you may keep it for the
rest of this evening, but you had better keep the apron on as well,
until you go to bed."
They had their coffee in the living room and when Betty served it,
Anita told her that now she is settling down to a real working maid's
life, she must be fitted out with real working maid's clothes, instead
of the theatrical maid's uniforms, which seemed marvellous when the
changeover was only a matter of fun. The frilly afternoon uniform must
be carefully washed and pressed and put away wrapped in tissue, in the
hope that one day she might wear it serving guests at some special
party. The two morning frocks, the pink and the light blue might be
used for ordinary evening wear, say from the time dinner was ready for
serving onwards, provided they could be lengthened by at least five
inches with false hems or waist insets. She would look into that herself
and cut the material for them and have Betty sew them up as part of
sewing dressmaking lessons she was to have. In the meantime some simple
but hardwearing working dresses with calf length skirts would be bought,
together with proper overalls and matching aprons. She broke off then to
let Betty go and have her own dinner and wash up, then come back for
further talk.
When Betty came back she saw that Jennifer had a long list of items on a
piece of paper in front of her and was told it was an attempt to provide
her with everything she would need through the coming winter. Buying so
much at once would be very costly of course, so everything would have to
be the cheapest in style which be expected to wear well, although
consideration of winter warmth would have to come first. Most of the
items would be chosen on the decision of the Mistress as to what she
considered would be suitable, but Betty would be allowed some choice
within limits.
"For example," said Jennifer with a laugh, "I have an item here, 'warm
knickers or long johns or directoire'. Which would you like?"
"Directoire, please," said Betty, "I remember my mother used to wear
some very pretty ones."
Jennifer laughed again and said, "Well, yours won't be very pretty, but
they'll keep you warm, when you have to hang out the washing!"
She then read various other items on the list, allowing Betty to express
her preferences for basic colours as available, and noting any other
preferences which might possibly be met.
When they had talked over most of the items listed, Anita said to Betty,
"I am asking Miss Armstrong to shop tomorrow and Saturday for the
clothes and shoes. If the shoes don't fit we will have to change them
later, taking you if necessary to try them on. But I cannot let you
take part in the shopping for clothes. For one thing it would take up
too much of Miss Armstrong's time and for another thing there is too
much work here you must do, to allow you to be out so long. The other
things like the handbag, hairbrush and so on, I will get for you. You
will be able to sort them all out on Sunday and on Monday you will be
dressed in proper working clothes and work in the manner we now know you
can do, without expecting any special praise."
She paused for a moment lit a cigarette and continued, "Also, as of now,
I want you to address Miss Armstrong as ?Miss Armstrong' and not as
?Miss Jennifer'. Somehow or other you have managed to make that sound
familiar, so I must stop it. Also, whilst at first I liked the special
goodbye you have been giving me and the special welcome curtsey as I
return in the evenings, they now seem too effusive for an ordinary
Mistress and maid relationship."
Then she thought a bit and added, "But, I want you to learn to show your
respect to me and/or any other guests in the house by performing a
slight curtsey, almost unnoticeable, whenever you want to ask for
something. I don't think you need any more tuition to perform your
daily housemaid's duties. You quickly showed an extraordinary aptitude
or subconsciously acquired prior knowledge of that. If you come across a
job you don't know how to deal with, ask me about it and I will give you
advice. Apart from dealing with any special problems, I will expect you
to get on with your work without supervision, but I demand efficiency
and I will not tolerate any sloppy attitude. You do need tuition however
in two areas of normal women's activities. Miss Armstrong and I will
help you with these, in our spare time in the evenings. I will teach you
sewing and simple dressmaking and Miss Armstrong will teach you
knitting, darning, crocheting etc."
She stopped for a moment and added, "That became a long speech I am
afraid. Thank you for listening so quietly. Is there anything I have
said which you don't understand?"
Betty, as usually, was trying hard to get all this to her head and she
simply said, "No, thank you Ma'am," remembering to curtsey slightly, as
she was asked to do. And as Anita and Jennifer were exchanging looks of
satisfaction, she continued, "You have explained everything very clearly
and simply and I will do my best to serve you as your maid and try to
please you as I should. If I have shown any familiarity towards Miss
Armstrong, I apologise, to her and to you, and promise to be careful
about that in the future. I do want Miss Armstrong to know how much I
have appreciated some real kindness she has shown to me."
By now it was obviously time for the late coffee and biscuits, so Betty
went to the kitchen and prepared it without waiting to be told to do so.
She served Jennifer and Anita and returned to the kitchen for her
own. It was not long before Jennifer was saying 'good night' to Anita in
the hall and Betty washed up to have the kitchen clear in the morning.
Anita had gone back to the living room for something and Betty wondered
if she should go to her to say 'goodnight' or not. But Anita met her
coming into the hall and Betty asked her, "Anything more Ma'am?" to
which Anita replied, "No, thank you. Goodnight!"
So, with a 'Goodnight Ma'am' and a very slight curtsey Betty departed
for her room after her usual inspection of the house. She went to bed
holding Emily tightly. She did not go quickly to sleep this night
though. She realized that the discipline now being imposed by Anita
would make her feel the inferiority of her social status and leave her
with no one she could talk with freely. It would be lonely. She got
panicked all of a sudden. She was completely under Anita's absolute
authority, she renounced Bob's privileges and she was tied to a working
contract that was more like paid slavery. And she accepted that fate
without the slightest objection. In fact she fully cooperated with Anita
and Jennifer for her transformation. And yet again, she loved what was
happening to her, she loved getting up every morning, putting her maid's
clothes on and working in the house. That was offering her a peace of
mind she never had as Bob.
And then she thought of Anita. It was amazing how she adapted herself to
her new role of Mistress to her. Her authoritarian manner was exceeding
all expectations. Even Jennifer who was the one who initiated everything
was obviously surprised with Anita's behaviour towards her ex husband
turned maid! Apparently in both Anita and Betty, hidden parts of their
characters have been triggered by Jennifer's initiative and an innocent
experiment was turning to a serious affair, altering dramatically their
lives for ever!
Well, so be it! She is Elisabeth Martin now, a live in maidservant. Then
she remembered telling the Solicitor of her hope that some day she might
achieve something worth while. As a first step, perhaps, she might rise
out of the humiliation of always having to do as she was told, by
anticipating everything that was to be done and doing it before having
to be told. Was that possible? She was going to try.
As she was falling asleep, she remembered again her coming birthday.
Would anyone else remember the birthday of a lowly servant?
To be continued