Chapter 53
The hot hiss of the shower sounded off the walls and steam rose from
the cascading water running down Kelly's body. She dropped her head
getting her hair wet and just relaxing in the soothing warmth, while
water ran down her back in tickling warm rivets. Lifting her head,
keeping her eyes closed she let the water spray refreshing heat into
her face, opening her pours. Standing up let it redirect down her neck
and over her breasts. She ran her hands firmly over them in the water,
getting under them and spreading them out as she played, tweaking her
nipples at the thought of how Deanna's mouth had explored them last
night. A smile snuck up on her face as she inspected her breasts for
bite marks, especially around the nipples.
She grabbed the luffa, lathering it up with the liquid soap. Then
running it lazily over her arms as she thought how wonderful the last
week had been. She was in love with two people and the relationship
wasn't as complicated as it could have been. Sure it was sticky with
Brian, no Bridget she thought, yes Bridget deciding to live full time
as a girl. But what could she expect really, he had been chasing that
dream in his mind for a long time she knew. Well she had been chasing
rather, Kelly corrected herself. That was going to take some getting
used to she thought. It was one thing to refer to Bridget as a she
when Kelly seen her, but Kelly fell back to referring to her, as a him
in thinking about Brian. Rubbing the luffa over her breasts and under
her arms she thought it would come with time like many things.
Moving down to her stomach reminded her of the gentle kisses Deanna had
placed there. Deanna was different in more ways than just being
female. Sex with her was a playful affair, like two lovers exploring
what each other liked for the first times. It helped that Deanna had a
dirty mind and a great imagination, her fantastic body and beautiful
face didn't hurt at all either. Things could so easily be suggested
and dismissed or explored without any guilt or judgment. Kelly hadn't
realized how much she enjoyed a good spanking until Deanna had teased
her the other night. That's when they had decided they would tease
Bridget with it. Of course Deanna was right about how much fun it was
to have Bridget watch them play. Such a rush knowing she was loving
her girlfriend and Bridget was getting turned on by it. It was clear
by how hard her penis had gotten standing next to the dresser. Kelly
thought she felt so comfortable around Deanna, that she could talk her
into trying lots of things. It's as if once she let go of her fear of
having a relationship with Deanna, a lot of silly little fears went
with it.
She felt so much more confident in who she was, perhaps that was the
draw that pushed Bridget onward. An undeniable comfort with ones self
that anything less seemed so foreign. Kelly thought what it would be
like to have to ignore Deanna completely, only getting her when no one
was around, or only once a month. She didn't know if she could live
like that, it would be so hard to see her and only be able to touch her
once in a great while. That she thought, is what it must feel like to
want to cross dress and see it everyday in our society. How painful
that must be she considered. She was so glad for having the
relationship with Deanna that she did have. It also made her love
Bridget all the more for struggling with that desire everyday even
while she was around Kelly. She bent over washing her legs with the
luffa ignoring the aches and pains from playtime, smiling to herself
for how lucky she was to have two true lovers.
A soft hand ran slowly over her ass, causing her to peek back. A
beautifully naked Deanna followed that hand into the shower with her,
still caressing her ass. Kelly wordless stood up, pulling Deanna
toward her for a long tender kiss. She guided Deanna around her under
the water, letting it splash over her wonderful body. Deanna closed
her eyes as she leaned back to wet her hair, as Kelly softly ran the
luffa over Deanna's deliciously perky breasts. Deanna pulled back up,
opening her eyes to wrap her arms around Kelly's neck, as they
exchanged another loving embrace, their tongues playing lightly.
"Good morning, dearest," Deanna said soothingly.
"Good morning, baby," Kelly replied with a warm heart.
Kelly pressed her soap covered breasts up against Deanna's as she ran
her hands around Deanna's waist, to finish cupping her tight bottom.
Kelly gave Deanna a firm confident kiss.
"I love you, baby," Kelly announced with a large smile.
"I love you to, honey," Deanna replied with an equal smile.
"There is only one person missing from this shower," Deanna said with a
loving look.
"Then we will have to remedy that next time, wont we?" Kelly answered
her with an approving grin.
Chapter 54
I turned the shower off dripping water from my hairless body, well
mostly hairless anyways. My mind drifted again to wonder what it would
be like to have a smooth toned body, perky breasts and maybe more. I
tried to push those thoughts out of my mind as I patted my sleek legs
dry. Moving on to my hair, while not long was beginning to grow out
some. I could tell because it was starting to just overlap the tops of
my ears. I started thinking how long it had been, three weeks or four,
I couldn't recall. Probably four, I always went longer than I thought
between haircuts. Now it would be a long time, then again maybe not.
I wondered who cut hair for the girls, and if I could get her to just
give mine a trim, just drop off the dead ends. It would grow healthier
if I did it that way while growing it out and I wanted long healthy
hair. So it was another in a long list of things as a girl, I would
have to remain aware of. I finished drying off and put on my nude bra,
nestling in my silicone breasts. I cupped them and rubbed them against
myself, enjoying the feel of their weight.
"Someday ladies you will be real, someday," I whispered to myself.
Sighing with longing I moved to put my nude panties on, tucking myself
and retrieving my robe to wrap around myself. I opened the door to a
waiting Lidia, who handed me the rest of my stuff and we left for my
room. I was playing with my wet hair length as I wasn't ashamed
anymore of my short hair.
"Is there someone here who cuts hair? Maybe someone who could trim it
so it will grow faster?" I asked.
"Yes there is," Lidia said with a giant smile.
I got a quizzical look at her sudden smile. "Should I ask?" I inquired
with a chuckle.
All I got for a response was a long drawn out. "You'll see," she
answered still with her smile.
I let it go as we had reached my room again and I needed to get ready,
I was sure to have another day full of homework. I came in the door
setting my stuff down and going over to the closet. Only two dresses
left, the yellow one or the cr?me one. I pondered the choice for a
moment and decided on yellow, I wanted to have a cheerful day so I
wanted my dress to reflect that. I also decided on the black peep
toes, they seemed to indicate fun, more so than the black strappy
heels, which were the only two pairs of heels I had yet to wear. As
long I was going to be here, well I wanted to wear them all. Our
attire decided for the day Lidia made off to her room to change.
Taking off my robe and returning it to the back of the closet door, I
opened the dresser drawer to retrieve some pantyhose, noticing I only
had two pairs left. Thinking I better make sure to get that laundry
today so I have something to wear after tomorrow. Sitting down I
carefully eased them up my legs smoothing out any lines and making sure
they were not crooked. A bit of joy escaped me at the thought I was
allowed, no expected to wear these now. How long ago had I dreamed of
this very thing, God I loved being a girl. The yellow of the dress
seemed to stand out so much as I put it over my head. I had never been
a big fan of yellow, but I was becoming more open to the idea. Perhaps
it was my male perceptions that didn't like yellow and now they no
longer had any good arguments as to why I couldn't like it. I adjusted
the fit around my breasts, straightening my sheer sleeves and smoothing
the skirt around the back to make sure it was down. I slipped my peep
toes on and sat down in the makeup chair.
Again I had smoothed my skirt under me and crossed my legs with out
thinking. I guess doing it all day in every class or anywhere I sat
will develop the habit for you. It was then I began to understand the
subtle subconscious affect the semi-formal attire had on you. You
didn't actively think you needed to be careful, or conduct yourself in
a lady like way, your brain just thought that's how you were supposed
to act when dressed this way. I wondered if it was reinforced every
time I saw myself or thought of how I was dressed, I bet it did. Like
some small voice whispering a reminder in your head, don't forget to
sit properly.
"Ms Sherrim, you sly devil you," I said aloud, thinking that was what
she had in mind all along.
I started digging out my makeup, setting it all out on the top in order
of use. I spread the foundation evenly over my face as I thought about
what eye shadow would look good with the yellow. I dabbed a couple
tiny drops of concealer under my eyes, tapping them gently around to
fully cover any dark areas. A good dose of powder all over set it,
blending in the edges. I looked in the mirror inspecting my eyes, I
picked out some gold mixed in with the brown and green. So I thought I
would find a light tan, maybe something with a soft gold tint to it,
then couple that with a brown. Sure enough I found something called
khaki and caramel. I put the darker caramel above the lid and used the
khaki on the lid with a dash underneath at the corner. I ended up
liking it as it really made my eyes stand out, so I ran some eyeliner
over and under, then finished carefully with some mascara. In all I
thought it matched my outfit rather well, cheery but not loud or cheap.
I added some soft blush just under my cheeks. Then outlined my lips
with a rose nude lip liner, which was like a pinkish brown and went
with a light brown lipstick. That looked like lighter copper with pink
undertones, it went very well with the eye shadow and was just
different enough. I all I thought it a fun flirty make up job, just
this side of ok for the office, that and it made me smile.
I dug out the wig and brush, tenderly giving it a once over before
setting it on my head. The usual rebrushing slash detangling happened,
with me letting it hang in its normal gentle waves on each side of my
face. I added the gold hoops, the apparent theme for today. Then I
went over to inspect my work in the mirror and I had to say the over
all look was great. The yellow of the dress and the gold brought out
the same highlights in the auburn wig. The look was different form my
normal, but I thought I looked good in yellow after all. I went back
to the desk to drop the lip liner and lipstick in the black clutch
along with some powder. Cleaning up my make up as Lidia arrived, she
was getting good at that, timing it so I was just getting done as she
showed up.
"Oh wow, I love your makeup!" she gushed.
"Why thank you Lidia, did I mention how awesome you are today?" I
teased her with a big smile.
She just shook her head. "No I do not think you did today," she
returned my teasing, in her own yellow dress.
"Oh well then, Lidia, You are awesome!" I announced with a bright
smile, laughing in the end.
She just laughed with me, thanking me. We gathered our books and
purses before heading out for another day of classes.
Chapter 55
The girls whisked around the office loading the catalogs onto the book
carts. Taking a couple at a time and separating them on the cart by
classroom. It wouldn't take them much longer and the first couple
would be done. They would have to make a few trips but it was better
than the alternative of carrying them all over there by hand. Kelly
thought it was a pretty ingenious solution to the problem. The book
carts were sitting in the library anyway, why not use them for now and
return them once the girls were done. Coupling that with a strategic
order in which the books would be delivered and placed on the cart to
maximize each trip had been another triumph she could add to her
resume. In all an excellent solution to a problem even if she did say
so herself.
She left the girls to finish their work and delivery to the classrooms.
She sat back down at her desk in her standard blue skirt suit. Her
cr?me colored blouse hid the white wonder bra she wore at the urging of
Deanna. Of course Deanna had also talked her into the white panties
with the pink heart on the front that nestled under her tan pantyhose.
Her blue two inch pumps snuggled her feet and were pretty comfy for
heels.
Her focus returned to sorting some papers that had to be sent to
certain professors. One in particular was the starting of the
psychiatric evaluation of one Bridget Honeysett. Which Ann was to
carry out tomorrow after classes in Ann's personnel office, which was
on the second floor. Ann kept one up there as well as Ms. Sherrim, for
whenever they were in town. The second floor offered more spacious
offices while these down here were for daily interaction. Ms Sherrim
had been in and out today, but mostly she spent her time assisting
other professors in classes. Like providing in depth examples of how
to make business deals for the business graduates Deanna had told her.
Ann on the other hand had been out all day at the other school, the one
for boys, over seeing matters there. Deanna told her it was always
like this around summer formal, which was another reason why they
really did need Kelly in the office.
Kelly felt like she was beginning to become one of the team members,
learning as she went. The other girls acted like they followed her
instructions just as if they would Deanna's or Ann's. She was feeling
more confident with her job each day she thought, and comfortable as
well. It helped that her sweet heart worked with her, but she still
wanted to make it on her own efforts. She felt like she had done a
fair job of just that so far, today begin just another example.
Kelly set the Honeysett file aside as she had a few other forms to put
in it yet. Moving on to the other problems of professors and updating
student files. She lost herself in her work as the first pair of carts
left for the classrooms. It wasn't long and Deanna came out of her
office to look over two more files of students who had arrived last
week. Kelly thought she looked great today in her skirt suit, its
overall light brown color had coral undertones. Her ivory blouse fit
right in with both colors just like Kelly had suggested. As did the
light browns of her alluring eyes and the neutral lipstick still made
Kelly want to kiss her. Her hair was down on both sides and the suits
color didn't clash with her long auburn locks. Her brass hoop
earrings, necklace and bangle on her right arm matched with ease, right
along with her four inch brown pumps. The only thing that stood out as
odd upon inspection was the line up the backs of her legs in her tan
stockings. Of course Kelly knew exactly why there was a line in her
stockings. She knew the black garter belt that held them up also
matched the black thong and matching wonder bra that Deanna was
wearing. Why? Because she had taken her lusting time putting them on
Deanna this morning. Each article was an exercise in kissing delight
as they were individually applied to Deanna's body. Kelly smiled to
herself at the memory of that game. Her smile grew as she decided to
play that game with Bridget as well some day. Deanna came over to
stand very close to her chair touching her leg to Kelly's as she spoke.
"I need you to look over these two files and make sure everything is in
order, then file them among the new arrivals," Deanna said giving her a
hidden wink, and brushing her leg up against Kelly's.
"Yes de- Deanna I will make sure they are in order and filed," she
replied, just catching herself from saying dear.
Kelly dropped her hand trailing it up Deanna's leg before taking the
files. Deanna just smiled, turned and swayed her way back into her
office, Kelly watching her go the whole time. Finally turning back to
her desk and opening the first of the two files.
Chapter 56
We had another trying day in English and I left with more homework to
keep me busy. Yet I still felt happy during the entire class even
while writing down the homework. I had to admit I might get to like
yellow, the makeup helped add to my joy as I was proud of finding a
different look I liked. Quite a few girls commented on how they liked
it as well and how pretty I was. They would be some of the more
attractive girls in the class as well, which I never really understood.
Like the attractive girls looked in broken mirrors in their own rooms,
never seeing the beauty queen staring back at them. Maybe the other
girls who hadn't found success with makeup yet were intimidated by me,
which was an absurdity all on its own. I did remind myself that it was
possible, I was presenting the girl image I imagined myself as and
those other girls saw what they wanted to see. When I had asked Lidia
about it, she commented that it could have more to do with their own
negative image of themselves, than me being pretty. Which I thought
made sense, considering I could see a lot of those girls being pretty
in their own right. Either way I did appreciate the compliments like
any girl would.
Etiquette class saw me dancing about. Not because I was happy, but
because I was still practicing. I was becoming better Ms Locksby
informed me, which brought a big smile to my face. Much less like a
boy she added, which deflated my smile just as quickly. Lidia gave me
a comforting shoulder hug, to which I gave her a joking pouty lip,
causing us both to giggle at my lack of dancing prowess. Some other
girls had some success and I thought they were really getting it,
better than me. One poor girl fell flat on her butt, which caused some
giggles until she started to tear up. Which brought on a group of
sympathetic Awww's, a round of hugs and encouraging words.
Class was cut short with the arrival of our dress catalogs. Each one
had our names on a sheet of paper sticking out the top, like a large
book marker. So of course we all had to put our heads together with
our mentors and ogle the books right away. On the front was this thin
little thing with perfect skin, wearing a spaghetti strapped dress,
showing a good portion of leg and a tad of cleavage. I instantly
thought they better have something that covers more or I am in serious
trouble. Thinking to myself, I could pull off the leg, but there was no
way I was going to be able to fake showing cleavage. I showed Lidia
and indicated to my chest with a questioning eyebrow. She just laughed
at me.
"They have other tops, you don't have to show so much if you don't want
to," Lidia replied with a goods grin.
"Wait, what do you mean tops, aren't they dresses?" I asked.
She gave me the wave off hand gesture, like I was getting it all wrong.
"Let me explain how it works. Each dress starts with a simple sheath
dress base, which they have a ton made ahead of time with varying sizes
for the girls. Then each girl picks how she wants the top and bottom
to look. The orders are gathered up and sent to a workshop, where
tailors spend a week making everyone's dresses. It's easier to do
since the dresses are really just being altered instead of being made
from scratch. The tops and bottoms are sewn onto the sheath dress,
making a unique dress without a large investment of time," she
explained.
"Ok I can see how that would work, but even so how in the world are a
few tailors going to get all these girls dresses done in a week?" I
inquired.
"Easy, it's not just a few, its fifty tailors. Ms Sherrim explained
how it worked in one of my business classes a few years back. See she
owns a line of tailoring shops, which is one of her businesses that
makes her money. So in order to address this tailoring need, every
formal she keeps just a skeleton crew on at her shops, to handle any
rush orders and sends the rest to work in this large warehouse altering
the dresses. In all it's around fifty tailors and they only have to
finish two, maybe three dresses in a week. Now take into account that
they are really only altering them which makes it easier on them, not
to mention they do this kind of work everyday. It's like having fifty
experts handling alterations," Lidia elaborated.
"Cool, how long do we have to decide?" I asked curious as to what I
could pick.
"Only two days, then you need to have the order form filled out and
returned. This gives them a little over a week to finish them. Once
you get sized, they have all your measurements to make the alterations
from. Which reminds me, there will be someone here today in the
cafeteria after classes to get our sizes, it shouldn't take that long,"
Lidia answered.
"Oh I guess I will get sized twice in two days then," I added without
thinking.
Lidia chuckled and gave me big eyes hiding a grin. "And just who took
your measurements?"
I realized my slip and looked embarrassed I know. "I um, Ms Dunterbaum
did. It was for some blue skirt suits, I need them for when I go over
to Kellies on the weekend to help her clean up around the house, so I
don't get my normal clothes dirty," I confessed, because well, the
truth was far less embarrassing then any of the other reasons that ran
through my head.
Lidia's smile only grew. "I see, are you going to be the new office
girl when you graduate?"
I had barely caught what she had said as I was just coming to terms
with what had rolled out of my mouth. Not from embarrassment, but from
the realization that I had decided to speak the truth and what had been
in that truth. Lidia caught my confusion and dropped her smile as she
became concerned.
"What is it?" she whispered, resting her hand on my shoulder, to
comfort me.
"I just realized two things, one I called the apartment Kellies, as if
it wasn't mine anymore. It's silly but it hurts even though I know
it's not really true," I replied with a sad smile.
She rubbed her hand on my shoulder to sooth me. "Sometimes it hurts to
let parts of our past go, but you are a different person now and
hopefully a happier one. It doesn't mean you have to lose the people
in your past, you have just changed and situations might have to be
rearranged to accommodate those changes," she said with a reassuring
smile.
Her words cracked my smile into a brighter one, because she was right
for one. "That's, pretty sound advice there Dr. Reynolds," I half
teased her.
"I know, who would have thought the psychology classes would pay off,
right? What was the second thing you realized?" she added with her own
cheery smile.
My smile grew as I got a giddy feeling in my stomach. "I referred to
these dresses as my normal clothes. I didn't think about it, it just
seemed so natural, so right. In that one sentence I confirmed that
subconsciously I feel normal. I have rarely ever felt normal in my
whole life Lidia, even as a child."
She wrapped me in a large hug, class be damned. "Congratulations and
welcome to the normal side. I haven't been here all that long myself,
but the water doesn't feel bad after all, does it fishy?"
"No, it feels wonderful," I said returning her hug.
We both hadn't noticed the class had grown very quiet during our
conversation. Only when Lidia and I parted our hug did we both realize
that most everyone was watching us with endearing smiles, all the
mentors were anyway. Ms Locksby was standing in front of us just
beaming.
"I'm glad you feel normal for once, Bridget. You look like your
learning to swim pretty well, now if you keep trying, we might even be
able to teach that fish to dance," she added, with a wink at the end.
Her last comment brought a laugh from us all, as she smiled and left us
to our own. I was still a little concerned about how much of the
conversation they had caught. It couldn't have been too much because
no one asked who Kelly was, so I thought my secret was safe for the
moment. In our conversation Lidia and I had forgot about our catalogs.
I opened mine to where the paper with my name on it was. Down the page
on the paper were two smiley faces with ponytails sitting right next to
one another. I knew who had put them on the paper, just not which of
them had done it. It also let me know they were thinking about me. I
leaned over to show Lidia, who just smiled and showed me her paper. It
also had a smiley face, but it was winking and had a large hand giving
the thumbs up gesture. I knew they approved of the job Lidia was doing
as my mentor, I had to agree with them.
Lidia and I spent a few minutes going over the catalog pointing out
different looks to each other. She helped me find the tops that
covered my breasts completely, only showing my arms and a small patch
of my neck. There were actually a lot of choices, so I would have some
options. The dresses also had a variety of options for the bottoms.
They even went into small detail showing how they pinched the top, or
cut a line in it for lower necklines. How several different bottoms
could be added or altered with a tightening of the hem or cutting a
line up the side, all sorts of things. The bell chimed about this time
and we packed up our things to make our way to the next class.
Beauty class was a short one as everyone was excited to get a look at
the catalog. We did manage to have an actual class with some teaching
and just enough time for me to get another bit of homework added to my
every growing pile. I got comments on my makeup today from the
professor and a few of the other mentors as well, which I thanked them
all for. That didn't last as soon enough we were all digging back
through the catalog looking for what we wanted to wear. Mathematics
class ended up being the same way, half the time teaching, a dash of
more homework for Bridget. Finally succumbing into an exchange of
catalog ideas for each other, as we ran into something new with each
page.
Fashion class just became all about the catalog, as I guess it really
did fit in. Each girl spent time throwing up her initial ideas about
what she wanted to pair together. Then we would review how the combo
worked or what rules it broke according to fashion law. Most I agreed
with and some I just didn't understand. Never the less, I still wasn't
able to escape the class without an assignment to make up. I sighed,
as I was going to be a busy girl tonight.
Chapter 57
Once class ended we grabbed our books, my pile of homework and our
purses. Lidia wrapped her arm leisurely in mine as we headed down the
all. I was always amazed at how easily she could balance her books and
purse on one arm and still keep it in place. Mine always wanted to
slide off my shoulder, and I had to fight to keep it there, Lidia
thought it might be force of habit or maybe my shoulder muscles were
differently shaped than hers. Either way I loved having a purse, but
it could sometimes be a real pain. I had to laugh after a few seconds
of thought. Lidia just gave me a giddy questioning eyebrow.
"Just thinking of how to keep my purse on my shoulder, how long ago I
would have dreamed of having that problem," I let her in on my personal
joke.
"I am sure you will have lots more of those little problems so solve
now, Ms Normalcy," Lidia commented with a warm smile.
I returned her smile, laying my head on her shoulder. "I love swimming
Lidia."
She laid her head against mine as we carefully walked down the hall.
"I know you do and I am glad I could be here swimming with you when you
learned how."
"Me too," I added, truly appreciative of having Lidia as my mentor.
We straightened up as we were about to reach the cafeteria and the line
for registering your measurements was already visible. So Lidia and I
got in line behind a bunch of other girls, when Teresa turned out to be
right in front of us. She turned around giving us a big hi and girly
hugs for each of us. She was wearing the standard uniform of the black
skirt, white shirt, ankle hose and Mary Janes. However even in her
uniform she looked anything but standard. Her hair was back in a
single bouncy ponytail, wearing no foundation on her clean complexion.
Only a touch of turquoise eye shadow, brown eyeliner and mascara,
adorned her large blue eyes. Her pouty lips still carried their touch
of pink lipstick. I had to admit they did look kissable, I was
slightly envious that mine didn't have that quality, oh well you can't
have everything you want. Her breasts seemed just a tad too large for
her body and her wide hips stood out even if she wasn't leaning to one
side. She looked almost like some videogame character that many an
adolescent male had dreamed of, yet she was real.
"Wow look at you guys, don't you both look so pretty. I love your
makeup Bridget, you might have been rockin that dress before, now you
are the one outshining it," she added showing me her great smile.
"Thank you, but I just try to look good. I think your clothes get
jealous of how good you look before you even have to try," I said in
return with a teasing smile.
"There you go again, winning a girls heart, with a few simple words.
If only you were a boy," Teresa fired back with her own teasing smile.
"Hello, mentor needs some love here," Lidia interrupted with a fake
pouty lip.
Teresa and I oohed and awed over Lidia, both of us hugging her on
separate sides.
"Oh Lidia please, the day you wear a bikini to a pool you better bring
a gun," I reassured her.
That brought a chuckle from both of them as Lidia asked. "And why is
that?"
I got a roguish smile on my face as I answered. "Because a stick won't
be efficient enough to beat all the boys off of you. You will have to
shoot them as they come running. Maybe you could just graze the cute
ones, give them a better chance without letting them know you did it on
purpose," I ended with a wicked little grin.
That caused them to bust out laughing, I had to join them in the end,
it was a pretty funny picture. We quickly quieted down though as
everyone in line was wondering about the source of our amusement.
Teresa just shook her head at me, leaning into whisper to Lidia.
"If any of the cute boys manage to get to you before they talk to
Bridget you might get to keep one or two," Teresa said with a teasing
smile for me.
Lidia just giggled back. "I know, right?" she said confirming my
supposed sly tongue.
"Whatever, any boy couldn't be any safer with me than if he was with
his own mother," I tried to counter their teasing.
Lidia and Teresa laughed a little with both their eyes getting big.
Teresa added with a smile. "So are you saying you don't like boys?"
Her smile never left her face as she waited for me to answer.
I got this half look of over confidence on my face as I was about to
confirm just that. When I realized what I was saying. My eyes about
popped out of my head as I covered my mouth with my hand, trying not to
laugh at my own slip. Lidia the little stinker never stopped me.
Teresa leaned into me to whisper. "Your secret is safe with me, you're
not the first lesbian to walk these halls."
I was flooded with relief at her words, I had escaped with only begin
thought of as a lesbian, instead of something with far greater
consequences. I mentally vowed to guard my mouth better in the future.
"Thank you," I told her with genuine appreciation.
She told me I was welcome before a devilish smile crept across her face
as she shifted her hip to the side, resting her hand on it and tilting
her head.
"Have you met Megan yet?" she asked with the biggest smile.
"Oh yes!" I replied fanning myself.
This had them both giggling at my antics. Causing more girls in line
to look our way again, starting their own giggling at our repeated
silliness.
"If I ever see boys burst into flame around her, it wouldn't surprise
me in the least, that girl is seriously hot," I added with emphasis on
hot.
This had the affect of another round of giggles coming from all of us
and a few other girls who caught my comment. That was before we had to
abruptly be quiet as down the line came Deanna dressed very nicely in a
brown and coral skirt suit. She stopped in front of us, confident she
had found the source of the giggling.
"Lidia, Bridget, Teresa, should I ask what we are talking about?" She
asked sternly but slightly amused.
"Just girl talk, Ms Dunterbaum, I didn't mean to disturb anyone," I
replied, I figured since I was the one causing the problem I would
answer for it.
"Oh you know something about that do you?" she asked me with a slight
smile and a questioning look.
The others might have thought it was and odd question, but I knew what
she meant. "I am working on socializing with others like myself, so I
hope to learn," I answered sweetly, thinking that should cover anyone's
curiosity.
"Be that as it may, your socializing is causing a disturbance, no
matter how amusing it is," she said in a friendly tone.
"I apologize, Ms Dunterbaum," I answered with a small smile.
"Accepted, now why don't you come up front, so we can get you through
the line as I am sure you have more than enough homework to finish
yet," Deanna suggested, with a lazy hand indicating farther up the
line.
"Yes I do, Ms Dunterbaum, thank you," I agreed making my way past her
to head up the line.
She gently swatted me on the bottom as I passed her while saying.
"Don't thank me, this isn't a prize girl, its punishment for not
conducting yourself properly while waiting in line. Now scoot."
Chapter 58
My eyes opened with surprise at the swat on my behind, which all the
girls took for correction I am sure. I didn't expect it, but it
actually turned me on a little, knowing it happened in front of
everyone else. I did scoot faster either way and I decided to wear my
gaff more often as I was worried about my true feelings showing in my
panties. I bit my tongue to take my mind off what had just happened.
It worked as the stirring in my panties calmed with the pain.
I made it to the front of the line and waited for the current girls to
finish, with my hands demurely folded in front of me, a posture I had
automatically adopted once she spanked my bottom. Deanna and Lidia
came up to stand next to me with Deanna only smiling at my hands. I
seen her smile at them and had to bite my tongue again at the memory of
our game. If this continued I would be known as wounded tongue girl
before long.
Three tailors were taking measurements of three different girls as
three others wrote down their information. After the first girl
finished Deanna had me take her place standing up on a stool and the
process I had went through last night started all over again. My sheer
sleeved arms were once again held out to my sides as she measured them,
then I had to hold up my hair as she made her way around to different
parts of my body. Tickling me in various places with her hands, even
though I knew she didn't mean too. In all it didn't take all that
long, ending with me once more taking off my heel to size my foot up.
Somewhere in sitting down on the small stool, a small feeling of joy
crept through me as I had to carefully take off my heel and still
retain my modesty. It was the mental reinforcement that arranging my
dress was causing me to remember, that and I loved the look of my feet
and painted toenails in my hose. A refreshing sigh escaped me as I put
my heel back on, because it was clearly a girls shoe, it was mine and
finally I felt pretty when I put it back on.
Lidia was next as I stood next to Deanna awaiting her to finish with my
hands again folded in front of me. Deanna didn't say a word to me or
act like I was any different than any of the other students. I tried
not to fidget, but my attire was in my thoughts and bothering me for
some reason. I just couldn't get the little burst of joy out of my
mind at the realization of how prettily I was dressed and standing here
in the midst of all these girls. I think their acceptance of me as
just one of the girls helped to fuel that joy. Lidia was finished and
Deanna audibly excused us to the study hall, with an emphasis on me
getting on that homework. I confirmed my compliance as Lidia and I
quickly left. I couldn't help having a spring in my step as we made
our way down the hall. The inner joy was still taking too much delight
in being one of the girls. Lidia just shook her head at me.
"You need to be careful about what Teresa called you," Lidia reminded
me with an easy smile.
My joy dimmed a bit at the thought of Teresa calling me a lesbian and
what problems that could cause if it got around.
"Yeah I got carried away and wasn't watching my mouth," I replied in
agreement.
"Well it is a good thing for you Teresa can be trusted, someone less
honorable might try to use that knowledge against you," Lidia warned
me.
"I don't know what I was thinking really, it felt so wonderful to be
accepted as a girl. I just relaxed and let my real personality out. I
want to really be taken for me so badly I forgot to guard myself. Hey
why aren't you yelling at me for almost blowing my cover or try to you
stop me?" I asked in the end somewhat confused.
Lidia smiled warmly. "What cover? You are the living as the girl you
see yourself as now. There is no cover anymore, be that girl all the
time. Just remember like any girl who likes woman too, while you're
here that knowledge must be guarded. Once you are out in the real
world you can express yourself anyway you want. You aren't the only
lesbian here even now, but all those girls know they need to keep that
to themselves, so as not to create problems. But while they are here,
it is also a way for us to prepare them for the less than accepting
world they currently live in. So be careful who you let know that, as
rumors and jealousy still happen in these walls and it can quickly make
life tough," she advised me.
"Your right, I am falling back into hiding who I am, thinking that you
should have stopped me. I need to be more aware of the girl I am
presenting to the world and how my sexual desires might create
problems. I will try to take your advice to heart Lidia," I confirmed,
my thoughts focused on how I wanted to be seen.
We had arrived at the study hall once more and I sat my homework and
purse down on one of the many tables. Pulling out one of the chairs, I
smoothed my skirt under me as I sat down, digging a pen out of my purse
as I crossed my legs. Lidia took a seat next to me and was earnestly
looking over the dress catalog as I dived right into my homework,
starting with English.
Chapter 59
Kelly moved about Deanna's kitchen making sure everything was cooking
correctly. She had removed her blue jacket and had only the Cr?me
colored blouse on with the blue skirt. Her hose she had discarded as
well in favor of just her plain legs as it left her feeling cooler and
more relaxed. She had popped the blue two inch heels back on as they
were relatively comfortable and so as not to be walking around barefoot
in the kitchen. Stirring a pot with a wooden spoon during her
inspection, she was satisfied it was close enough too done. So she
turned down the heat to simmer, to keep it warm enough, until Deanna
came back from her errands. A quick check of the oven confirmed the
contents were equally done and so a reduced temperature followed there
as well. Her meal on hold and still waiting, she washed her hands in
the sink, wiping them on the towel hanging on the stove and decided to
freshen up a bit before Deanna got there.
Walking into the bathroom she examined her face, noting her makeup held
up pretty well through out the day. She touched up her eye shadow and
mascara, moving on to retrace her lipstick. A dab of perfume on her
wrists and another on her neck, each rubbed into place. Running a
brush through her hair and playing with how it sat, before returning to
the kitchen.
Kelly had just finished checking on the simmering food for a second
time when she came in the door. Deanna still looked great in her brown
and coral skirt suit, especially the way it hugged her athletic body.
She swayed over in her brown heels to plant a seductive kiss on Kelly's
lips while her hand gently cupped Kelly's face.
"Hi honey, I'm home," Deanna said with a sly little smile.
"Yes you are baby," Kelly said returning her kiss and smile.
"I'm starving, is it ready?" Deanna asked, breathing in the aroma.
"Just waiting for the final scrumptious dish to walk in the door,"
Kelly replied with a wink.
That earned her another kiss from Deanna, before Kelly opened the oven
to pull out the roast, setting on top of the burners. She sliced it up
as Deanna went about getting them both drinks. Plates followed and
were filled, leading to both being seated at the dining room table with
drinks and silverware accompanying. They each took their time enjoying
the first few bites of the meal in silence before they broke into
discussion around the food.
"I had to discipline your sweetie today," Deanna commented with a sly
smile before taking a bite.
Kelly chortled, setting down her glass from her drink. "Oh really?
What did she get herself into this time?" she asked.
Deanna finished chewing and swallowed her bite. "She was causing a
giggling disturbance with Lidia and some other girls, while standing in
line. I think they were talking about, of all things boys," she
replied amusingly.
Kelly smiled to herself. "Sounds like she is making some friends.
Maybe they were talking about her date, Sebastian?" She posed before
taking another bite.
Deanna thought. "Perhaps, but Sebastian or just making friends, I took
the opportunity to swat her on the behind, as if I was truly punishing
her, which of course I wasn't," Deanna elaborated before taking a sip
of her own drink.
Kelly giggled with her mouth still full before swallowing. "And how
did she take that?" She asked still amused.
A devious look passed between them as Deanna replied. "I would say she
liked it very much. She adopted her proper posture with her hands in
front of her, folded together, while she waited to be measured. If I
didn't know any better I would say she was biting her tongue too,"
Deanna replied brightly.
They both laughed together, enjoying the affect they each had on
Bridget, returning to their food as they further contemplated Bridget's
reception to their game. A few bites lost in thought, brought a
comment from Deanna.
"Perhaps we should play the game once more, when she comes over again?"
Deanna inquired.
"That might be fun, but I don't think that would be a good idea. I
don't want her to think we are taking advantage of her, or we are being
sadistic. I couldn't bear her thinking of me as cruel, flaunting my
beautiful girlfriend in her face," Kelly said suddenly somber.
Deanna smiled warmly at Kelly. "You wouldn't let it happen and she
knows you better than that, dearest. It is one of the reasons I love
you. Is their some other game your beautiful girlfriend could help you
play?" she asked taking another bite.
Kelly only returned Deanna's smile before a twinkle in her eye caused
her smile to curve into deviousness. Deanna arched an amused eyebrow
at her actions.
"There is a game I can think of, if you are willing to play it?" Kelly
asked still retaining her frisky mood.
Swallowing her food, Deanna answered, "For you dearest, I would be
willing to do a lot."
"Then how about we play a new game, we can call it, promises," Kelly
suggested with a sultry grin, before explaining the details to Deanna.
Chapter 60
I flipped though page after page of tops for the dress, as I wondered
what I should try to pull off. Oh how I never thought I would be doing
just this so many days ago, but here I was in earnest trying to find
the dress that would allow me to appear my best in. A wonderfully
girly thing to have to do, and I didn't miss the significance of it.
Nope, I flipped the page, nope again I told myself, flip, flip,
followed by a maybe and an earmarked page. Lidia's flipping and silent
nopes echoed my own as she enjoyed the same process.
This was how it had been the last hour for the both of us, as we sat in
the study hall. My home work had been my focus for the three previous
hours, with Lidia's only lasting a little more than an hour. In the
time difference she had been casually flipping through her dress
catalog, earmarking pages for the both of us. I joined her after the
aforementioned homework had been conquered. She had showed me several
suggestions, most I didn't like, as they weren't the style I really saw
myself in, which was fine with her as she had just earmarked almost
anything that would work for me. Each idea we went over, with reasons
for what I did like or why I didn't like something. Some I just
earmarked in my book as maybes, so far nothing had struck me as "ooh
must have."
Lidia had earmarked some very conservative ideas for herself. Which I
immediately made her forget as I had seen her body in most of its glory
and there was no way I was going to allow her to cover it up. She
deserved to be able to show it off some and enjoy the attentive rewards
that would bring. She was an attractive girl, with a great body, I
thought she had a chance to share those great curves with everyone
else. She didn't have to be overly revealing, but she could at least
wear something that accentuated those curves. We had a couple of good
ideas for her, but I hadn't really found an outstanding winner for
myself and we had run out of time tonight for further pursuit. So we
packed up our things and headed out of the study hall.
Again we walked with our books cradled in our arms, purses over our
shoulders, in time down the halls.
"I guess I knew that the dance was coming, I just never imagined I
would be picking out a dress to wear on a date with a guy." I shook my
head in amusement.
Lidia laughed at my discomfort. "If you look as good that night as you
do today, I don't think Sebastian will be looking at much else," she
lightly teased me.
I playfully swatted her shoulder. "Thanks, but I would rather he just
had a good time, and nothing more. He really seems like a nice guy, he
just has very different problems to deal with than we do," I replied.
"That might be, him being a good guy and all. But despite what you may
feel you are still going to attract guys, even if your interests lay
elsewhere. You are starting to embrace who you are and I think you are
only going to get prettier from here on out. Like most girls once you
are happy with who you are, it is going to show in how you act and that
is only going to add to your attraction," she added with a sympathetic
smile.
"Lidia thanks, that's really sweet of you. I think I will just be me,
but I can see where guys might be attracted to me. I mean I do dress
and do my makeup with some decidedly male input," I replied.
"You are welcome girl. Your makeup and dressing will improve even
more, but that's not what I mean. You are already beginning to put
your personal stamp on how you look, but more importantly your
personality is also starting to shine through. You had almost that
whole line of girls laughing today and you were talking about boys,
which I know isn't one of your favorite subjects. When a girl finally
gets comfortable with herself and lets her true personality out, one
that is fun and friendly like yours is, she attracts attention from
everyone, as people want happiness and warmth in their lives," Lidia
informed me.
"Oh shit, you mean I am going to be popular? Lidia I don't know how to
be popular," I asked in true worry.
Lidia just laughed at me. "Silly girl, you are already popular, you
just don't know it. Be true to yourself and you will be fine, just
don't forget to keep your preference for the female form a secret,"
Lidia smiled brightly at me.
I just sighed, not really knowing what to think about her revelation to
me. We had reached my door by then and after a girly hug, Lidia wished
me a good night. I went in setting my books and purse on the desk. I
took a moment to look at myself in the full length mirror. It wasn't
some strange girl who looked great in the yellow dress with her makeup
done in shades of copper, it was me. I sighed as I thought of how I
was going to handle being a popular girl, I just wanted to be a girl.
The truth was I loved the way that girl in the mirror looked, even more
so when I forced myself to acknowledge I was that girl.
"I am still going to be me, the girl, Ms popular or not," I assured the
mirror.
I took out my hoop earrings, removing the wig afterwards, breaking the
image of the auburn haired girl in the mirror. I messed up my hair as
I wondered what I would look like as a short brown haired girl. I
didn't spare it much time though, returning to my undressing task. The
wig hung gingerly in the closet, I removed my heels placing them down
below. The dress followed in the correct mesh hamper bag and with the
tan pantyhose next. I grabbed one of the two remaining nightgowns left
from the dresser drawer, easily slipping into it. I had been leaving
my breasts and bra on lately as I wanted to get used to having breasts.
Girls didn't take theirs off at night why should I?
I returned to the desk to remove the makeup from my face. It wasn't
long and the plain face stared back at me. Somehow I looked different,
perhaps I just was finally seeing the girl without the makeup. Either
way it didn't matter to me, I was confident in who and what I was. I
set my alarm before crawling under the pink comforter, to sigh with
delight in my comfy bed.
Chapter 61
A loud noise awoke me from my sleep. I could here soft cursing coming
from the other side of my door. We didn't have a night watch walking
the halls, none that I knew anyway, so I was curious as to who could be
outside my door. I stealthily rolled out of bed to lightly creep
across the floor. Guy skills every girl should be trained in, a lot
more of them would survive the scary movies then. I silently listened
with my ear against the door. I could hear muffled cursing and some
sniffling crying.
I slowly turned the handle to not make any sound and ever so carefully
cracked open the door once the handle stopped turning. Light peeled
into my room hurting my eyes, but soon I was able to make out a
kneeling girl, dressed in the standard uniform of black skirt, white
shirt, no ankle hose and wearing the Mary Janes. Her sandy blond hair
was cut short and her build was gangly, she was plain faced and mostly
flat chested, like she hadn't eaten well in awhile. She was picking up
clothes off of the floor, cursing with tears still leaking from her
eyes. I opened the door more so I wouldn't be talking though a crack.
I knelt down so I wouldn't be standing over her. "You ok?" I asked.
The girl promptly jumped out of her skin, spinning around to fall on
her butt and scattering all her clothes. It was an amazing all in one
move, but I didn't think she could repeat it again if she tried. I
realized then I was sitting in the doorway of my room still half in the
dark, very boogieman like.
I moved out into the hallway light asking her again. "Are you ok?"
She just started crying more, looking at all her dropped clothing.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck," was all she said trying to pick it up again, crying
all the while.
"Here let me help you," I said as I crab crawled around picking up some
of her clothes as I was still bent down trying to cover myself with my
nightgown as much as I could.
"You don't have to help me man, ok, just don't tell anyone you seen me,
ok man, and I wont tell them nothing about you, I swear ok?" she said
between sobs, picking her clothes up in a wadded pile.
"Its ok, I will help you and I won't tell anyone I saw you. Just tell
me what are you doing out her with all your clothes?" As soon as the
question left my mouth I felt like an idiot, as it was pretty clear
what she was doing, running.
She stopped picking up her clothes and gave me a look with her brown
eyes, that the stupid question deserved. I just held up my hands,
indicating I didn't need an answer. She returned to picking up her
clothes still sniffling as I tried to help her.
"In my stupidities defense, you did just wake me up," I stated giving
her a friendly smile.
That got a sad laugh from her, but not much else. She finished picking
up her clothes into a wad, I had a nice folded stack that I was going
to hand to her. Seeing my stack she just started crying again.
"Just tell me what's wrong, I am not stupid all the time, I swear," I
tried with an easy smile.
A half sob, half laugh escaped her, as she looked at me with her red
tear streaked face.
"What's wrong? I don't belong here man, that's what's wrong. I don't
fit in with the rest of the girly girls ok? I don't even know why I
agreed to come here. This place, so isn't me man," she said sighing
heavily.
"Well let's at least fold up the rest of your clothes, so you don't
drop them. You sure you don't want some socks? I mean you are looking
at a very long walk and in those shoes without socks, your feet are
going to hate you," I tried to reason with her.
She just half smiled at me, and I thought she looked familiar. "I
don't want to wear the socks, they are too girly, attract too much
attention. I appreciate you being cool to me and all, but you don't
have to help me. I am sorry I woke you up, k. I just need to split
man."
She stood up stacking both sets of clothing together and clutching them
in one arm. I stood up with her, extending my hand to offer her a
goodbye, she didn't seem like the hugging type.
"I am sorry I never got to really know you, uh." It occurred to me
then I didn't know her name.
"My friends call me Liz, my real names Elizabeth, but that's too heavy
for me," she said taking my hand and smiling weakly.
It clicked where I knew her from. "It's nice to meet you again Liz,
I'm Bridget, Lidia introduced us at the recreation room, last Friday,"
I said in a friendly tone.
She just looked at me like I was crazy. I also recognized her as the
girl who fell down in etiquette class today, but I didn't think she
really wanted to be reminded of that right now.
"You can't be Lidia's Bridget, she has long auburn hair and no offense
chicky, but she's much prettier," she replied letting go of my hand.
I had to laugh at the prettier comment, I just smiled really big.
"Well again in my defense you did just wake a girl from her bed. The
auburn hair is a wig, this short boy looking stuff is really mine," I
stated scrunching up my short hair.
She still looked at me like she didn't believe me. "No shit?" she asked
in disbelief.
"You can come in and look at the wig if you want? That is unless you
got somewhere real important to be in the next two minutes?" I asked
with an easy smile.
She looked down at her pile of clothes in her arms taking a deep
breath. "No I guess I got a minute, but then I gotta bolt."
"Fair enough, come on in," I said turning on my light and inviting her
in.
She came in looking around the room, like it looked odd. I didn't ask,
as I was digging out the yellow dress and putting the wig on my head.
I turned around with the wig thrown into place and held the yellow
dress up to me.
"See, you will have to imagine the face as it takes me awhile to do
it," I replied batting my eyes at her in silliness.
She plopped down on my bed with her mouth open as the recognition
showed on her face.
"Well shit, it is you man. I am totally blown away," she stated with
genuine surprise.
"And you thought I was just some boy looking thing hiding in her
nightgown," I added putting the wig and dress back in the closet.
"I wouldn't say that, I mean you still look girly, but you are just so
pretty when you're all dressed up and stuff, I just thought that was
how you looked all the time," she replied looking down.
"Would you like to look girly?" I asked taking a seat next to her.
"Oh that aient me man. I'm too boyish, ya know? I mean I aient got
the goods. Even if I did, I don't think I could take all that time to
learn that stuff and then messing it up everyday. It just takes to
long to figure out, right, you already been here awhile and all," she
explained getting up to leave.
"Wait, it really isn't that hard, I mean I have only been here about a
week and you wouldn't believe how far I have come," I assured her,
thinking how true my comment really was.
"No way man, that shit just can't be," Liz doubted me.
"I'm serious Liz, its been about a week since Ms Sherrim caught me
working in the flowerbed with my panties hanging out, then she put me
in those dresses and changed all my classes," I stated truthfully.
Which was pretty much the truth, expect I didn't have any classes
before she caught me, but hey who's splitting hairs, right? Liz
chuckled at my panties hanging out and sat back down.
"Oh man that had to suck," she said.
"At the time I was balling my eyes out to tell you the truth, I felt so
stupid. I thought I would never be good at being a girl. I mean
before she got a hold of me, I was the closest thing you could get to a
boy in panties. Even before that I dressed like a guy, I hung out with
guys and I practically was one of the guys. Now look at me, I love
being a girl," I carried on.
There I was again skating along the edge of truth so close, sparks
should be flying off my tongue. It was technically, well mostly the
truth. Liz just watched me in partial disbelief, like you can't
believe what you're seeing, but you know it's true.
"How did you learn it all so fast?" Liz asked, almost captivated.
"Well when Ms Sherrim found me, she had Cheryl do my nails that very
same day. I had the wig and dresses the next day and I have been
dressing that way since. You learn pretty quickly to smooth your skirt
under you and sit down in those dresses, you just naturally feel pretty
and you can't help it. I have been in beauty classes every day, which
really helps with the makeup. I also have a great mentor in Lidia who
is like a best friend," I stated matter of factly.
I saw the sadness in her eyes. "Sounds great man, but I cant do that,
I aient pretty enough like you. I gotta bolt man. This place aient
for me," she stated standing up again.
I stood up too. "What do you mean you aren't pretty enough? Didn't
you just accuse me of not really being me in the hallway? I don't look
that much different than you do," I asked in earnest.
"Well yeah but-" Liz tired, but I never let her finish.
"So I wonder what would happen if we put you in those dresses and found
you a wig of long hair and did your makeup? Think you might look a lot
different?" I fired away.
She paused at the thought, I could tell she liked the sound of it. The
desire was open on her face.
"Have you ever owned any clothes like these?" I asked gently.
A few tears fled from her eyes as she answered just as softly. "No."
"If I could get you dresses and a wig and makeup of your own, would you
be willing to stay for awhile? Just to try it out?" I asked quietly,
taking her hand in mine.
She half smiled. "You got connections and you only been here a week?"
She asked in return.
I slyly replied in jest. "I know some peeps, I might be able to hook a
sister up."
She laughed at me. "And what will it cost me?" Her eyes were guarded
again but she never let go of my hand.
"Nothing more than staying here and putting forth an earnest effort to
become the best girl you can be," I insisted, sitting down on the bed
and making her sit down with me.
"I don't know man," she replied looking down.
I squeezed here hand gently. "And what's waiting down the road?
Anything? You have a chance at something you have never had here. You
can always leave if you don't like it," I urged her.
She just looked up at me, her eyes said everything, she wanted it, that
chance, but somewhere in her life chances had never worked out and she
was scared of this one too.
"I'm going to ask you the same question a beautiful woman asked me
sitting in this very spot about a week ago," I said with a warm smile.
She sighed heavily. "What's that?" she asked in a small voice and weak
smile.
"So Elizabeth, are you game?" I asked with the biggest smile.