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How I Came to Be (Part 2)
By
Melissa Nicole
I was nervous sitting in the reception room waiting to talk to the
therapist. When they called my name, my heart was beating pretty fast.
I went into a room where Ms. Wilcox was waiting. She was in her 50's
and very business-like in appearance. She asked me to sit and I
introduced myself. I told her a brief history of my life up until this
point. She asked me what brought me here. I told her that I had been
questioning myself about who I really am? She asked me to elaborate and
I told her about the party and how I felt wearing women's clothing. I
told her about how it made me feel good about myself on one hand, while
I still had a nagging negative feeling in the back of my mind. I
continued on:
"I can't understand how I feel? Why do I have conflicting feelings on
this?"
"That is something we will have to figure out," Ms. Wilcox told me.
"Let me ask you this point black: Do you feel like you are a woman on
the inside? Do you think you should have been born a girl?"
"I have thought a lot about that question," I answered. "The more I
think about it, yes, I do think I should have been a female. I am
definitely happier than I've ever been before since I started wearing
that dress. I feel more, how should I say it, normal dressed as a
woman."
"I see. Well Tom, let us go back to your childhood now. You say you
didn't have a good relationship with your father. Do you think that
maybe these feelings you have stem more from that bad relationship with
a male figure than from truly desiring to be a woman?"
"I had never thought of it that way," I answered. "Maybe, not really
sure. Something in the back of my mind is telling me maybe. I just
can't really pinpoint it down, though. I'm not really sure."
Ms. Wilcox asked me to think on it as we would discuss it more next
week. I left the appointment even more confused than before. A week
went by uneventful and I was back in the office for my next visit. I
told her that I just couldn't come up with an answer. She asked me if I
would be willing to try hypno-therapy. She told me that I sound like I
have something major buried away in my mind and I need to unblock it. I
agreed and she told me that she would set it up with a professor that
deals in that therapy.
Two days later I was in a Dr. Jacobson's office laying on a couch. He
was an elderly man and very friendly. I was put at ease that none of
this would be made public. I was put under and this is what happened,
according to the transcripts. (Note to the reader: I am putting the
doctor's words in capital letters to you know who is talking).
HELLO TOM, HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
"I'm good."
HOW OLD ARE YOU?
"Six."
ARE YOU ALONE RIGHT NOW?
"No, my friend Sally is here with me."
WHAT ARE YOU TWO DOING?
'Playing house."
THAT'S GOOD. ARE YOU THE DADDY?
'No. I'm the Mommy. Sally likes being the daddy and I like being the
mommy."
WHY IS THAT?
"I want to be a mommy when I grow up."
REALLY?
"Yes. I have always wanted to be a mommy."
I SEE. DO YOU WANT TO BE A MOMMY BECAUSE DADDY IS MEAN TO YOU?
"No. I just want to be a mommy."
The doctor then went to another memory.
HELLO, TOM. HOW OLD ARE YOU NOW?
"Ten."
WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
"Don't tell anyone. I'm in my mom and dad's room."
WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN THAT ROOM?
"I'm playing."
PLAYING WHAT?
"Dress-up."
REALLY? WHY?
"I like dressing up in mom's clothes. I feel pretty. I like feeling
pretty."
OK. IS ANYTHING GOING ON?
"Yes, dad just came home! I need to get undressed now!!! No, dad. I'm
sorry!"
I started to cry and they woke me out of the hypnosis. I continued to
cry as I could remember everything. My dad beat me! He broke my arm
throwing me into the wall! He called me a little faggot and told me if
he caught me again that he would kill me! I had to go to the hospital
and my dad said I fell down outside playing. I just nodded when they
asked me if that was right. I was in shock and fear of him! I buried
all of my feelings deep inside of my after that. I didn't act out on
them until the party. It now made sense. I always wanted to be a
female. It felt good to get all that out. Ms. Wilcox was happy that I
was able to get that repressed emotion out. She said I was on the right
steps.
The next meeting I had we discussed what happened at the last session.
She asked me if I still felt that way. I did. I thought about it the
whole week and I do feel that I should have been a woman. Ms. Wilcox
said that I needed to see a gender specialist and she set me up with
one. Her name was Katherine Monroe. I had sessions with her for a
couple of months. She really wanted me to be sure that I really wanted
this. After three months, Katherine told me it was time to take the
next step. I had to start living as a woman. I was so happy to hear
that! Finally, my dream was going to become reality.
The first step was to tell my friends and family. Family was going to
be harder, so I decided to tell my friends first. That evening, I got
Meghan, Collette, and Jessica over to my apartment and sat them all
down.
"I have something that I need to tell you all," I said as my heart was
pumping fast. "I don't know the best way, so I am going to be blunt. I
have been seeing a therapist for some issues...gender issues. I am a
woman trapped in a man's body," I let it out like that and waited for a
response. They sat there with stunned looks on their faces. The
anticipation was unbearable! No one said anything, so I asked them to
please say something.
"Are you serious?" Jessica asked. "I hope you don't get offended, but I
always thought you were gay. But this? Really?"
"Yeah," Collette added. "I never really saw this? Are you sure?
That's a huge decision."
"Yes, I'm sure," I answered. "I've given it a lot of thought. My
therapy helped me open up some feelings that I had buried. I have
always wanted to be a girl. Ever since I was little. I have never been
comfortable as a man. I am not masculine in any way. Actually, the
party helped me come to my realization. I have to do this. I can't
think of living as anything but a woman for now on. I am hoping you
will be there for me. I need all the friends I can get," I started to
sob after saying that. Meghan came over and gave me a big hug and
really started to break down. Collette and Jessica both came over to me
and we were all hugging and crying.
"Oh course we will be here for you. We love you," Meghan said as the
others all agreed. After a good crying session, we all sat back.
"You mean this whole time you could have gone on our shopping trips with
us and said nothing?" Collette said with mock severity. I had to
laugh.
"So what's next?" asked Jessica. "How do you proceed?"
"I'm going to have to tell my mom sooner or later," I said. "But I
think the next thing is that I have to start living full-time as a
woman. I'm going to need your help."
"Anything you need, sweetie," Meghan said.
"Well..." I said. "I do have quite a large inheritance. So maybe I
should take Collette's advice," I held out a credit card.
"Shopping!" Collette answered and we all laughed. I started to get
excited thinking about it.
"Tomorrow morning then?" Jessica said and we all agreed. The girls were
just about to leave when I spoke up.
"One more thing. I hope you don't laugh, but for now on...my name is
Melissa. Melissa Nicole. That is the name my mom was going to name me
if I had been born a girl. I like it."
"I think it fits you, girl," Jessica said and gave me a hug. The others
agreed and we all hugged goodbye. I had trouble sleeping thinking about
what the day would bring tomorrow.
Trisha
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