NIGHT OF ONE HUNDRED BULLETS
By Diana Kimberly Heche
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Part 1: The Corvettis
When asked describe it, after not much thought nearly all will say Leona
Jade moves like a snake. It is in part admiration of a liquid grace that
is serpentine in its fluidity. Where others skitter about unbalanced,
teetering in their clubbing heels; Leona was economy of movement, gliding
across spaces silently, lighty. Where others stumbled toward their goal
of quenching their carnal desires through small talk full of
conversational ticks and manic waving of hands; Jade had a stillness
about her, a gaze that unwavering met one's eyes. She spoke coolly and
evenly. Her choice of words, the rhythm of her voice, while having no
true properties of hypnotic suggestion, oft had an effect nearly as
strong.
It was these qualities that allowed her to draw in men effortlessly, even
when they had to shut down the parts of their minds screaming loudly to
the contrary. For no one is compared snake - even if snakes are the most
graceful, the most intriguing of all the reptiles - without reason. It
is a creature which spends it life slithering along the ground, causing
havoc, creating fear. The comparison is meant as a warning. A warning men
often recognize even as they choose to ignore it.
So it was tonight.
Leona walked over and sat on the bed. Jonas looked around the modest pool
house taking in his surroundings, his nervousness deadened by alcohol and
by the confidence exuded by the woman before him. "You know the people
who own this pool house?" He was a handsome boy, but a simple boy. She
let him park in the driveway in front of the main house this structure
sat behind. She had opened the door of the pool house with a key on her
key ring. Of course she knew the people whose property they were on.
Leona's smile didn't betray her amusement. Instead she poured Jonas
another drink he certainly didn't need. She then filled her glass next,
no one likes to drink alone. Leona's glass would see out the night
untouched however. She enjoyed a drink as much as the next girl, but she
was quickly approaching the point of the night that these boys
occasionally got dangerous.
"You're a very pretty boy Jonas," she all but purred, "I can't believe
you are still dressed." He smiled back at the woman. Over the course of
the night he had grown accustomed to her straightforward manner. It was
one of the reasons he suggested they leave the bar together. She was not
the type who would hint at something and not deliver. And she had been
hinting all night. "Handsome," he responded correcting her, "men are
handsome. Men aren't pretty." Jonas was standing facing her. She reached
out her legs and locking her black strappy heels behind his back, pulled
him into her crotch. It was at this moment getting a glimpse of the
inside of her thighs, Jonas realized with some excitement, that she was
actually wearing stockings and a garter.
"Oh, I don't know about that Jonas. I think you'll find some boys can be
quite pretty. Beautiful in fact." Leona had him in between her legs
tightly, and moved her hips up and down to let her crotch rubbed against
his. A look of puzzlement flickered across his face for a brief moment.
Was that a ...? His body began to stiffen even as his cock did. Where his
cock stiffened from desire, his body tensed from doubt. Leona knew what
that meant. She had been too bold, too soon with her crotch rub. She
needed to move to business quickly. Unbuckling his belt she slid his
pants and underwear around his ankles. Pressing her chest against his,
she plunged her mouth onto his, kissing him passionately, letting her
tongue run freely around the inside of his mouth. It was a wet, sloppy,
lusty kiss. She let one hand run through the back of his hair, while the
other found his penis straining with desire. She slowly worked it up and
down until it reached its full hardness. Letting her tongue slide from
his mouth, Leona licked her way down his body, kissing the tip of his
shaft upon arrival.
She pushed back her raven black hair so he could see every bit of what
she was about to do. Licking around the outside of his dick lightly, she
suddenly plunged his shaft into her warm, wet, waiting mouth. He
shuddered with desire, rearing his head back in silent joy. Leona was
working his dick with fervor now; his moaning was in time with each full
throated swallowing of his engorged manhood. "Oh, you are so fucking
good!" he cried out, his voice hoarse from the intensity of the pleasure
happening between his legs, "so fucking good."
"I'm about to get better." Leona Jade stood up and slipped out of her
panties. "I'm a special girl. A very special girl. Would you like to fuck
a special girl in the ass?" He needed to say nothing, his stiff penis
spoke for him. She took his hand and guided it slowly across her taut
stomach down the front until she slid it onto her penis. His body
registered the shock and he tried to jerk it away, but she held it there
firmly, rubbing it onto her now growing member. "In the ass Jonas," she
whispered again, falling back onto the bed, pulling him on top of her.
His eyes were still wide, but his body relaxed into the sensation. She
wrapped her legs around his back locking him firmly into place, the dick
he was unsure he felt during the crotch rub was now smashed firmly
against his. Reaching into her purse, with the expertness of having done
this countless times, she uncorked the lubricant she carried and stroked
his dick until it glistened with the gel. Grabbing it with her hand, she
lifted her hips off the bed, and guided it into her hole.
"You boys always act so surprised, but deep down you know." She slid down
the bed so his cock entered her completely. He groaned with such
pleasure, Leona was certain he would blow his load right then, "Not so
quick you pretty thing," she admonished, "we want you to fuck me good."
Jonas lost all reservation, guided by pleasures he was feeling alone. He
reared back and slammed into the woman's ass, not caring, even enjoying,
the feeling of her rock hard dick pushing against his abdomen. With every
last thrust Leona Jade cried out in loud womanly moans. Jonas stuck his
head into her hair as he pushed deep inside her and began sucking on her
neck. He rolled his hips which each thrust now, he was truly in a place
of bliss.
From the top of the street Daniel Corvetti saw a car he didn't recognize
parked in his driveway. He turned off the lights of his own car and
putting it into neutral let it roll silently the rest of the way down the
hill. He stepped out, signalling his daughter Karissa to stay in the
car. Doing a quick calculation, he immediately ruled out the worst case
scenario. The car was a small Japanese model at least seven years old.
Dan could tell from how it had been lowered and the wide custom tires, it
had been modified for street racing. So it was a very loud car. Not
something used for stealth. Peering in the car window, Dan let the
homicide detective portion of his brain take over. He noted a woman's
sweater in the front seat, and an adult size baseball glove, hardball
from the looks of it, in the back next to an empty bottle of beer and a
pair of size 12 cleats. The tiny back seat had assorted items and boxes
scattered across them. No passengers could have fit back there. Dan
decided he was dealing with a male, at least somewhat athletic, likely
tall, between the ages of twenty-one and thirty-five; old enough to drink
beer and within the age range of players in the hardball leagues around
the city. Based on the sweater he is with a female, no more than five
seven, age unknown.
With that partially sorted out, he allowed himself to relax. When he
first saw the car, Dan feared, the uneasy truce that had cost him so much
had ended. He still wasn't sure who the owner of this car was, but he was
certain who it wasn't. Now it was time to find out exactly who is stupid
enough to trespass on a cop's property.
Dan immediately ruled out the intruders having entered the house. For the
past two years, it had every manner of security built in. They were
probably around back; maybe even a couple of people having a skinny dip
in a pool where they thought the people were on vacation.
Dan worked his way through the side yard fence around the bicycles and
wagons years since outgrown and abandoned. He made note that the gate had
not been forced open. He edged around to the backyard. He opened the
catch on his holster, but did not drawn his gun. No sounds of splashing
or swimming. Peering around the corner, he noted the pool was empty.
Faintly, however, he heard the unmistakable sounds of sex. The pool
house.
He worked his way to the pool house and crept up to one of the windows
peering in. He saw a young man in between two stockinged legs tightly
wrapped around his waist, engaged in vigorous sex. Except for her legs
and the long manicured nails scratching his back, he couldn't get a good
look at the black haired woman. She moaned pleasurably and loudly, not
particularly caring to be quiet. She was either lost in the throes of
passion or didn't expect to have anyone come home. The boy was pumping
away, completely unaware of his surroundings, but from the curved angle
of her pelvis against him, they were definitely engaged in anal
intercourse.
Before entering Dan looked to determine if there were any weapons close
by the couple, when he caught a glimpse of the woman's face. "Cynthia
...?" he stumbled back from the window a half a step, and caught himself.
For the briefest moment that face reminded him of his wife when she was
30 years younger. Impossible. He shook the thought from his head. It was
not Cynthia. He steeled himself, steadied his mind. He was not going to
allow himself another nervous breakdown.
He must have made a noise, because stepping up again, the woman had moved
her head to the side so she could see him clearly. She locked her eyes on
his, not flinching, not looking away, but narrowing her eyes with
sadistic pleasure. Having caught Dan's eyes with hers, the woman cried
out even louder with each thrust of the boy's penis inside of her ass,
but the expression on her face, did not match the sounds of orgasmic
pleasure leaving her lips. She simply stared at Dan with angry
satisfaction.
It was clear now. The jet black hair woman, with a face that so resembled
his wife in her youth, was not some sign of the post traumatic stress he
suffered over the past couple of years. This black haired woman was ...
his son Lee.
The spell was broken. Dan opened the door. And if by the luck of timing,
or as Dan suspected by the tightening of Lee's legs around the boy and
the clenching of Lee's ass cheeks - a more guided effort on his son's
part to make it happen right then; they both managed to climax at that
very moment. The boy, consumed by the joyful tightness of this woman's
hole, had no idea of what transpired behind him. He groaned with immense
pleasure as he slammed into her one more time, his body shaking
spastically as the sperm flooded endlessly from his shaft into her hole.
She too came, more loudly, more theatrically, her eyes never leaving her
father's, never lessening in hate. Her penis too ejaculated, spraying
warm, sticky sperm over the young man's stomach.
She slid back allowing his limp cock to fall out of her ass. "You may
want to clean up," Leona, a variation on the male name "Lee" given to her
by her parents, told Jonas. "My father's a cop. He very well may shoot
you for fucking his daughter in the ass. Although he may not have known I
was his daughter until right now."
"Why would you do this? You're hateful. You're a hateful, spiteful, angry
..." It was the voice of his sister Karissa. She stood in the doorway
behind her father, tears of anger streaking down her face. Dan spun on
her surprised she was there. Karissa had disobeyed her dad and left the
car when she had determined that he would have come back if their were
true danger. When she peered in the front seat of the Japanese racer and
recognized the sweater as her own, she feared the worst.
Leona smiled wickedly at her sister and wondered cynically what kind of
cop Dan was to let someone sneak up on them as she had. While this played
about before him, Jonas was frozen in a comic pose as if he didn't dare
move. His pants were still around his ankles as he looked around at the
scene. A man, with his daughter stood in the doorway. He could clearly
see the older man's gun. A beautiful, sexy woman, with the
counterintuitive sight of her sperm dripping from her soft, limp penis
even as Jonas's sperm began to slowly seep from her ass. "His" ass, Jonas
thought. I had just been fucking this man's son. This girl's brother. And
they were as surprised he dressed up like women as he was.
The situation was so frighteningly surreal he wanted to throw up.
**********
Dan Corvetti leaned against the stove, arms crossed, his children seated
silently around the table. Karissa's tears had stopped but the way she
glared at her brother it was clear that she was not in a forgiving mood.
Dan held his fury just underneath the surface, not wanting to act hastily
on the anger he felt.
As he had during countless crime scene investigations over the years, Dan
cleared his mind of emotion and looked at the facts in front of him. He
began with his son. Prior to his stint as a homicide detective Dan cut
his teeth in vice. He had seen any number of transgendered in his day,
although mostly the sort that fell on the unfortunate side of the
spectrum; prostitutes, drug addicts, the abused. The fact that many could
be convincing women was no longer a shock. The fact that his son made a
convincing woman, however, still was. Dan may have been unaware that his
son crossdressed ? no this was far more accomplished than simple
crossdressing ? but he was now certainly aware Lee had been at it for a
number of years. He wondered how just many?
The ease Lee moved in the black caged heels that were at least five
inches, was the ease of someone who spent a great deal of time in them.
As was the careful attention paid to the pedicure, a polished high gloss
black to go with the outfit he wore. His fingers also looked manicured in
the medium length french tip style, although Dan imagined those would
have to be false - it would be impossible to maintain those in any male
personae day to day. A second look told him they may be false, but
absolutely not cheap. Dan noted Lee?s make up was impeccable, heavy in
the nighttime club style certainly, but not gaudy, clumsy or ?drag
queeny.? His shaved, hairless chest was pushed and padded to produce what
looked like well convincing rounded breasts in his tight black blouse.
Lee had accented this with a simple silver chain with a small tasteful
pendant, which naturally drew eyes to his cleavage. The skirt was black
with sequins, shining in concert with a pair jeweled earrings that
dangled from his pierced ears. This was a well put together outfit with
great attention paid to detail. This was the look Dan recognized from the
TGs who moved as comfortably in broad daylight as they did in the night.
The ones you didn?t know were boys unless you were really paying
attention, and maybe not even then.
The most disconcerting aspect to Dan was how much Lee in this womanly
garb, with the black wig styled so much like his mother?s hair so many
years ago, reminded him of Cynthia. Dan wondered if this was something
Lee had done on purpose. It wasn?t out of the question considering the
twisted anger and bile this young man carried around with him these past
couple of years; in the way he clearly did not care he was caught having
sex tonight ? hell, maybe even wanted to be caught.
?You realize,? Dan said speaking at last, ?I?m not going to let you back
in my home.? Lee looked up at Dan. ?Don?t you mean our home?? Whether
from habit, or to taunt the elder Corvetti, Lee was speaking in a girl?s
voice. Dan corrected his son, ?No my house. Karissa?s house. No longer
yours. You left for college and made it very clear, very loudly, this was
not your home. A college, I may add, where you?ve been barely scraping by
in the few instances you aren?t outright failing. Perhaps because ?? He
gestured broadly at his son wardrobe, ?you are spending time drinking,
having sex with strangers tarted up like some ... some perverted female
whore.? Dan bit his tongue. He had not meant to use that word in front of
his daughter. He was letting the anger take over.
?You look awful,? Karissa spat out, even knowing in her heart Lee didn?t.
?I probably do look like a whore,? Lee responded, ?since these are your
clothes Karissa.? Lee turned his attention back to Dan. ?Are you upset
that your boy turned out to be hot little girl who sleeps with all the
hot little boys? Is that going to cause the big macho cop trouble back at
the station??
Dan fought to keep his explosion in check but it was difficult, ?I do not
care if you are gay. If that?s even it at all. Or a crossdresser,
although I would caution you on some of the dangers of going out to
straight bars enticing straight men like you seem to favor doing. I?ve
seen that happen too many times before. It ends badly. Always badly.? He
took a deep breath, ?But you broke the rules of the house. You brought a
stranger here. There were to be absolutely no strangers after ?? he let
that painful thought drop and continued, ?...and you wantonly waved your
sexual habits in my, and your sister?s, face without care of being caught
or discretion. If it would have been a girl you were with, I would feel
the same way. Your mother used to say -?
At this Lee sprang to his feet. ?Mother? The woman you got killed?? Dan
leapt forward raised his hands to strike Lee, stopping mid swing. That
didn?t prevent Karissa from finishing the job slapping Lee hard across
the face. ?How dare you! How dare you!? she screamed out. She was crying
openly. ?Criminals killed mom! That, that, terrible man and his criminal
family. Dad is hero. If it weren?t for him, more would have died - would
be dying now.? She snatched her keys from the farmhouse themed key ring
holder by the refrigerator, one of the many touches of her mother that
lived heavily in this house. With so much of Mom living in every crevice,
Karissa sometimes wondered why they didn?t move away from the pain, but
her father was having none of it. She turned to her dad, half asking,
half telling, ?I?m going to Sabrina?s apartment tonight. I can?t be here
right now. Not with him.? Dan nodded. Karissa made sure to mark her exit
with a slam of the door.
Dan stared at the floor not looking at his son when he spoke. ?Tonight
you sleep here. I don?t want you going back out like that. By 6am I want
to never see you again. Go find a job, whore around, whatever. I don?t
care anymore. I will give you some money to get started, but am not going
to pay for you to go back to school and fail any longer. Your college
career is over until you can pay for it.? He finally looked his son in
the eye, ?Losing your mother was tough on this entire family. You don?t
think my heart aches for her every moment? You don?t think I feel
responsible? But your hate is too much. It?s destroying us. It just
destroyed what was left of this family. I?ll be upstairs. Don?t be here
when I come out of my room in the morning. I mean it Lee.?
?Leona? the younger Corvetti said to the empty kitchen when her father
left, no one around any longer to hear. ?I?m Leona when like this.? Leona
open the refrigerator and found a beer in the back. There was no telling
how old it was. Her father was a cop with a tragic life, but he wasn?t an
alcoholic clich?. Further, Karissa and Leona may have been twins sharing
their mother?s womb, but it was Leona who took all the drinking genes.
Leona sat down, crossed her stocking legs, and pushed the hair from her
face, drinking from the bottle deeply. Doubt bubbled forth in her mind.
What was she doing exactly, Leona wondered? She understood hurting her
father. Dan Corvetti, whether he can face it or not, whether it was
directly or not, that man killed her mother. But still. Why did she bring
Jonas here? There were a hundred ways to get back at her father. Failing
her way through school had been one. But why did she bring this down on
his sister as well? And poor simple Jonas who thought he had taken home a
woman until the last minute, had been caught banging a t-girl by that
girl?s father. ?I wouldn?t want to be the one responsible for those
therapy bills.? Leona said again, speaking to the lifeless kitchen.
Self pity was not something Leona did. She walked up the stairs, heading
for bed, thinking of what needed to be done. She walked into her
childhood bedroom, quite at odds with the figure she cut now. Soccer
players from big European clubs covered the wall, as did youth league
ribbons from track. An envelope sat in the middle of the bed, stuffed
with money. As promised, Dan had left his payoff, with the expectation
she would be gone in the morning. She rifled through it. A few thousand
dollars. Nice. But it would not last long in the real world.
She was now on her own quite literally with nothing to fall back on but
an envelope full of cash. She would have to go back to the college at
some point soon and retrieve the handful of her things there, sell what
she could. She would need to find a place to live, probably in the city.
And a job. If she were to continue clubbing, she would also need clothes.
For now, she would simply empty Karissa?s closet before she got home
taking everything that would fit. The twins were close in size, so that
would mean nearly everything she could carry..
?Right. Time to start a new life.?
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Part 2: Sandra Pazzini
Leona knew she cut a lonely figure seated in a corner booth alone in this
near deserted cafe. The large storefront window with the words ?BAGELS,
COFFEE?, written in cheerful script at odds with the dingy interior,
looked onto the sparsely populated dimly lit street. Weekend night or
not, most didn?t venture off the trendier streets two blocks north to
frequent sad places like this. The only other patron, a man Leona was
certain was given the coffee out of kindness by the waitress as he didn?t
look to have two nickels to rub together, paid her no attention staring
out of the window watching the occasional passerby.
It was the first night since being ejected from her father?s home and she
had anticipated it being a night of glorious partying. She had several
thousand dollars to spend and no short term responsibilities. But it was
the long term responsibilities which hung heavy, and drained that desire.
She had made it all the way to the west side, but not really feeling it,
stopped just a few streets short of her favorite spots. Instead, she
found herself here, a place with a plastic menu with pictures of food on
it, and free warm drinks for the homeless.
The waitress stood in the corner eyeing her. Leona, in her tight silver
spandex top and sparkly silver skirt, silver platform pumps adorned with
sparkling baubles, and gray shiny hose, looked a combination of red
carpet meets dance club; a beacon of reflective light and surfaces. She
was the very definition of all dressed up and no place to go. The
waitress noted fact that she wasn?t constantly checking her watch, or her
phone, meant she wasn?t expecting to meet anyone.
The woman walked over and sat down across from her. She put her cup of
coffee on the table, indicating this was not just a quick visit to see if
Leona needed a refill on hers. ?The reason it taste so terrible,? the
waitress began pointing at the coffee they both drank, ?is because we
overbrew it and use twice the amount of grounds on purpose. The only
people who come here are at night are oldsters who are clearly lost,
people getting out of the weather,? she tilted her head indicating the
undoubtedly homeless man, ?and drunks who realize two blocks into their
drive from the clubs that they?d better sit in here and sober up. The
strong coffee thing is a myth, by the way, drunk is drunk. Only time
makes that go away. But still, it makes them feel they?re making
progress. But the thing all these different type of people have in common
is they like their coffee shitty strong. Shitty coffee made shitty strong
means shitty taste.?
She leaned back in the metal chair, the splits and cracks in the red
vinyl cushion scratching against her back. ?You?re none of those things,
though, are you?. Prettiest girl I?ve seen in here, and dressed like a
star just gone supernova. Sober. And not waiting for anyone either.
What?s your story?? The waitress sipped from her coffee, cupping the mug
with both hands.
Leona Jade smiled at the waitress. Leona was a straightforward woman,
some would even call her blunt, and she greatly appreciated others who
communicated in the same way. ?Leona. Leona Jade.? She introduced herself
to the waitress. The waitress took her hand, and shook it lightly, but
firmly. Leona realized her own handshake was weak in comparison, but that
was very much by design. ?Sandra Pazzini, pleased to meet you.?
Leona?s eyebrow raised. Leona Jade born under the name ?Lee Vincent
Corvetti? had grandparents who still live in Campobasso, Italy. She had
visited many times and had been up and down the countryside and was
familiar with every type and shape of Italian. This woman was not a
?Pazzini? by blood. Sandra was extremely attractive, but in a very
specific manner. She had streaked thin blond hair sitting atop a
triangular face coming to a point at her chin. Her narrow, spaced apart
eyes, peered from beneath full, but artfully shaped, eyebrows; all
accenting a nose which was very distinctive in shape, if not a bit
small. Her very thick lips combined with a smallish mouth, giving it
permanently puckered look. It was a genetic line Jade readily recognized.
She decided Miss Pazzini was most certainly a very undiluted strain of
Eastern European. But as Leona?s grandparents? disdainfully noted on
their visits to the States, ?Ah, America. Such a mixed up place a last
name means nothing here. No tradition. Even the Germans can have Italian
names!?
But that was not the only thing off about this woman. She had a broad,
flat, accent, the type lesser skilled English actors use when playing
generic American roles. There?s nothing quite wrong with it, no slips, no
mistakes, but the brain subtly picks up on the difference. Now Leona was
very intrigued.
Leona answered the question in her forthright manner, ?My story? Thought
I was going clubbing, but now I don?t feel like it. A little too much on
my mind. See ? I was kicked out of my house this morning. In truth I
probably deserved it. I was a bit of a bitch. More than a bit. But I had
to get away from my father. My whole family, really. It?s complicated.?
Leona paused, as the scenes from last night ran through her head, ?My dad
gave me a handful of dollars, I only have a few suitcases of clothes. I
need to find a place to live and a job. Spending my money on nine dollar
drinks tonight just didn?t seem to be on.?
Sandra face melded into thought. She was not absorbing Leona?s words as a
conversational nicety, she looked like she was problem solving, ?I
understand having to get away from your father and your family. You
wouldn?t believe how much I understand.? Sandra Pazzini smiled wistfully,
?What kind of work do you do??
Leona thought about it. What kind of work did she do? She was a
psychology major in college, but with no degree and poor grades. That
didn?t lend itself to employment. The only other thing she had done was
waited tables. Leona voiced her thoughts, ?I?ve waited some. But if you
are rolling through the employment pages in your head, the most important
factor for any job is that it is off the books.?
Now Leona had really caught Sandra?s attention. She took in the black
haired in with her eyes watchfully, silently for a long while before
speaking. ?And why would that be? You?re not in this country without a
visa are you?? It was a very pointed, very odd, specific question. One
that caused a cautious stillness in the Italian who wasn?t Italian. It
was a question that Leona understood to be very important to Sandra, even
if she had no idea why. She decided to tackle it honestly.
?It?s my penis, you see.? Leona smiled at the surprise on Sandra face.
?When you look like this and have one, you need a job that doesn?t ask a
lot of questions or wants ID or such. I guess I could find a job that was
cool with it. Over in ?Boys Town? further on the westside, I?ve seen
girls like me tend bar and cut hair and such, but I?d rather not hassle
with it.?
She laughed out loud in surprise at both Leona?s revelation and
frankness. More so, she seemed even thrilled by it. She was definitely
inspecting the tgirl more carefully. ?Why not just take a job as a boy
then? Are you halfway to being a woman or something? Drugs and tits and
such?? Leona smiled broadly. She really liked this woman?s no nonsense,
fearless approach. There was no tip toeing or dancing around issues for
her.
?No, nothing like that. No drugs and tits and such. Although many do that
and power to them. We boys in skirts are a complicated lot, to say the
least. It?s a case by case thing, and I could go into this whole thing on
why I do what I do. But the bottom line is, it is less important now why
I do it, than I can do it. And that means I can completely get away from
the person I was. That boy. That guy with that family. The guy with that
dad. I can figuratively shed my skin.?
?Running from yourself. That I understand too. Okay Leona Jade, I?ll tell
you what. I like you. And every romantic comedy I?ve ever seen says
having a gay friend is nothing but a barrel of laughs,? Leona was going
to stop her and explain how Lee had always liked girls, how Leona only
slept with men when she was Leona, but decided that any deep
psychological explanation at this point would simply be splitting hairs.
After all, Leona Jade had a penis and had repeated allowed men to put
their penis in her. Sandra continued, ?and you sound like you have at
least enough money to pay for some groceries for a while. I will let you
stay with me on a trial basis. Turn out to be freaky drug addict, or this
whole boy being a girl thing comes with more drama than I can deal with,
you?re out fast as you like. But enough negative stuff, that won?t
happen,? It wasn?t a statement. It was a warning. There was some steel in
Sandra Pazzini. ?I may even be able to work on that waitress thing.?
Sandra rose to work and finish off her shift. Leona ordered the
occasional cup of terrible coffee and received it free like the homeless
man who remained staring out of the window. A little before two, Sandra
shut down the restaurant, saying good by the workers who had until that
point been invisible in the back, and shooed free her coffee drinking
patron back onto the streets for another night.
Leona and Sandra walked from the dingy cafe, which turned out bore
appropriately awful name ?Abe?s?, down the street several blocks toward
where Sandra said her apartment was. She had changed out of her black
stained pants and waitress polo, and now wore stylish jeans hip hugger
jeans, an electric blue light sweater, and black pumps. Leona was glad
she had changed, particularly into the heels. It dressed up her outfit
and and it turn made Leona?s look less flashy.
Leona made note of the direction they were heading. Due east. Almost
condo by condo, apartment by apartment, the rent of each structure rose
in value as they walked. A couple more blocks and they would be in a
quite tony part of town. ?When you said a few blocks, did you mean a few
blocks to the bus? Because I did drive. It?s just back at the cafe.?
?Nope.? Sandra said, ?It?s not far. And without a street parking permit,
you?d be hard pressed to find a spot any closer than where you are. We?ll
get you a temp permit later and you can bring your stuff up then.?
The pair stopped at a massive fifty-six floor complex with a doorman out
front. Sandra walked past him and he greeted her with a nod and ?Ms.
Pazzini.? The lobby was large and spacious, well lit and expensively
decorated right down to the obligatory chandelier. They rode the elevator
just shy of the penthouse and Sandra led Leona to her apartment. When she
swung the door open, Leona wasn?t sure whether to gasp or giggle, and may
have done a little of both.
It was absolutely palatial. A bright, modernly decorated space with an
open large kitchen, bar seating, and eating area, split living
room/dining room and a large balcony overlooking a spectacular view of
the city. Everything was white and chrome and would have been at home in
a Stanley Kubrick film. There appeared to be at least three rooms off
the main area, one of which Leona could make out was an office. ?You?ll
be on the bedroom to the right.?
?How?? Sandra understood the question not fully asked. ?I too ran from my
family. But I was only partly successful as they wouldn?t let me run from
their money. I allow them to lavish this on me, and they stay out of
sight. It?s the price of being left alone. When I said I understood your
situation, I understood your situation. It is not something we?re going
to talk about though.? Leona understood, and respected, privacy.
?You know I can never afford ?? Sandra understood this question as well,
cutting Leona off. ?I don?t think you grasped what I meant. Apartment
rent is not an issue. For me or you. There is no rent. You will pay for
your food. Which will be fine, because from the looks of you, you don?t
eat. If you start making enough money, I?ll let you pay for other things.
But this apartment won?t be one of them.?
?Now.? Sandra said, ?A few more rules. No eating the last of my stuff.
Particularly the ice cream. And no boys. No girls. No friends. No
enemies. No frenemies. No one comes here unless I expressly tell you so.
No one. It?s the most ironclad of my rules.? Leona nodded
understandingly. It was very much like the ?no strangers? rule in her
father?s house. The one put in place because of what happened to his
mother, the rule that got her kicked out of his house. ?Okay,? Sandra
went on, ?let?s get that temporary parking permit and go back and get
your stuff. Because there is one more rule. Also a very important one to
remember. I share an apartment with Leona Jade. No one else. That
includes whoever you are when you are not Leona Jade. I?ve never met him,
and I don?t know that I?d like him. If you have to be him for a short
time for whatever reason, I don?t want to see him. Is that possible??
?The shower ???
?Your room has a separate shower.?
?Then, yes, absolutely,? Leona confirmed. ?No one here but us girls.?
******************
Part 3: Leona Jade
Leona Jade threw the suitcases she had recovered from her car and began
systematically unpacking, putting everything away making mental note of
each item. She had hurriedly stolen things haphazardly from her sister,
and needed to get a good inventory of what she had. Rent or no rent, even
cheap women?s clothes were more expensive than men?s, and Sandra Pazzini
made it clear there were to be no men?s clothes here. Luckily for Leona
she had stolen a fairly broad range of things.
Leona considered her situation. She could clean Sandra out, there were
some incalculably expensive items in this apartment, and she would turn
quite the little profit. Leona even knew a fence who unload the goods for
her. The down side was Leona would be no better off than she was now,
homeless, still jobless, just many thousands better off. And she was
fairly confident she would never get to live in digs this good with just
those handful of thousands more in her pocket.
But there was more. Her instincts told her, as pleasant extraordinarily
welcoming as she was, Sandra Pazzini was not someone to be trifled with.
As good as she was at playing the game, Leona readily recognized someone
who had the ability to play it just as well. There was something hard,
something distinctly dangerous about Sandra that seeped through the silky
inviting personality, something Leona saw when Sandra was laying down the
rules earlier. Add to the equation the blonde woman worked a minimum wage
waitress job, at terrible hours, yet lived in palace of an apartment due
to unknown forces that Leona did not yet fully understand. Leona?s new
roommate was a woman of complex, unseen, motivations. That lack of
understanding and inability to see the whole picture, meant Leona felt
she should probably move with caution. Sandra seemed to respond to
candidness and transparency. It put her at ease. Leona?s best bet, she
decided, was to play it as straight as was reasonable with this girl to
see how things shake out. With trust gained, she may be able to get some
answers, and the upper hand if needed.
The other issue that confronted Leona was a simple question of logistics.
Lee didn?t, and couldn?t exist here. She had spent extended periods of
time as Leona, but usually only hours at a time, spread over days at a
time. Lee had been a soft faced, slight, vaguely feminine boy, but a boy
all the same. Over a period of time, facial hair grows, makeup wears
thin, and the boy behind the mask tries to peek through. Leona also
realized, even with her faintly brown Italian hue, her near flawless skin
would not remain flawless if she were wearing the heavier makeup required
to hide such things around the clock. She was going to have to move onto
to chemical hair removers and leg waxings. Maybe something even more
drastic.
The hair on Lee?s head was a bit to the longish side - a push against his
father and his clean cut cop look - but was not near the length of
Leona?s and had the light brown coloring of his father. That would need
to change as well. Leona needed her own hair. This meant extensions and
coloring to avoid hiding underneath around the clock wigs. A manicure was
also in order, something slightly more practical than the long false
nails she wore now. if Sandra talk of a job opening was true, this would
all have to happen in the next couple of days.
?Goodbye Lee.? It was unexpected sense of relief. Leona was no longer
Lee, nor did she want to be.
Lee was the one, upon the death of his mother, who spent months seeing
the whispers, the eyes that wouldn?t meet his, the newspaper headlines,
the journalist trucks parked around the clock in front of the house. Lee
was the one who feared dating because, sooner or later, they all asked
about that night. Lee was the one who struggled in college and suffered
the disappointing stares of his father. Lee was the one whose name when
searched on the internet would be forever linked with the words ?slain
mother?. Lee was the one who cried himself to sleep over all that had
been ripped away from him. Lee was the one with a hole in his very being
that he knew would never be healed.
Leona, though, was someone created; a ?Jade?, someone who didn?t carry
the weight of being a Corvetti. The life steeped in a fear of what
happened to his mother - could happen to any of them was a Corvetti
concern, not one for Leona Jade. Leona was a creature of bright lights
and fun nights. She was a party girl. Leona wore sexy fun clothes and had
a great time. Boys bought her drinks, which in turn often bought them
unknown, very unexpected sexual pleasures. She was someone who
understood how to make people do the things she wanted them to.
Where Lee was broken with immeasurable baggage, Leona was spectacular.
Leona sat on the edge of the bed, crossing her legs looking down at her
shapely legs thoughtfully. She was going to exist around the clock, and
it was those legs which had started it all.
********
Young Lee Vincent Corvetti was not much different than other boys. He
played youth soccer, did reasonably well in school and had a growing
understanding, and liking of girls as he became aware of their unique
qualities. But there were differences. Lee fixated on things boys did
not, in ways other boys did not.
Lee?s fifth grade teacher Jerri Capwell was the woman boyhood student-
teacher crushes are made of. At twenty-five years of age, she was
younger, and leagues more stylish than the her dowdy graying
counterparts. She wore skirts every day causing a growing and pleasurably
uncomfortable realization of her shapely legs perched in her wondrous
high heels. There was something magnetic about these articles of clothing
women like Miss Capwell wore, made more so by being off limits to men.
The way the young teacher sat on her desk, crossing her nylon clad legs,
made Lee understand he would spend his life admiring beautiful legs. But
there was something else working at the back of his mind, something he
couldn?t quite bring into focus.
But it was in eighth grade sitting behind Megan Flannery, a girl he long
had a crush on but dared not approach, that things changed for good. Lee
would spend his class time blissfully watching the short skirted, long
lean legs of Megan, cross and uncross. He was hypnotized and aroused by
the cork bottom platform sandals she wore; high and scandalous for
someone that age, but somehow not violating any school rules. She would
wile away the hours of the class, dangling her heel until it nearly, but
never quite fell off her brightly polished toes, making her arches look
so curved, so well formed. Lee was mesmerized.
At the midpoint during that year, Karissa, Lee?s sister, talked her
mother into buying her a pair of these colorful high platform wedges.
There was a winking agreement between the two women not to tell Karissa?s
conservative father. But Megan, someone who was as imitated by girls as
she was coveted by boys, had blazed the trail. And Cynthia Corvetti, a
popular girl in her own time, understood what these small gestures of
being trendy meant to girls, even if her husband would not approve.
Finding himself alone in the house one morning, Lee went into the trunk
of his mom?s car in the garage. Hidden in a box there so Karissa could
change in and out of them out of sight of her disapproving father when
dropped off by his mother at school, were the shoes which were identical
to Megan?s. He pulled the shoebox out and ran with them to his room. At
first he wasn?t sure what his aim was. They were his sister?s shoes, yes,
but they still held that magic, he could picture Megan?s wonderful legs
clearly in his mind as he ran his fingers across the arching footpad. At
this point he was certain he was going to masturbate by sliding his penis
into the arch of the shoe, like he imagined doing so many times while
watching Megan dangling shoe; shoving his cock between her nylon foot and
the heel, pushing it in and out until his penis exploded everywhere. But
a different idea took hold. Rifling through her drawers, he found and
slid into pair of his sister?s pantyhose. The nylon sliding up his near
hairless legs, surrounding his legs, gave him a sensation like no other.
He could feel the blood flowing to his young penis.
Digging around in her closet he slipped on his sister?s school skirt. One
foot at a time he slipped his feet into the high arching shoes, hardly
believing the result. His feet looked feminine, very good, as good as
Megan?s. Only the nail polish was missing. He sat crossing and uncrossing
his leg, dangling the shoe. It was different feeling than watching the
eighth grade girl do it, but no less satisfying. He didn?t need to wait
for 4th period, or be disappointed when Megan wore jeans, or different
shoes. He could recreate the effect just as enticingly himself.
He stood in the heels moving forward. They were somewhat difficult to
walk in, but not nearly as hard as it looked when guys did it for laughs
on television. Standing before the mirror he looked at himself. His
entire bottom half looked completely like that of a young school girl. He
was compelled to see how far the illusion could be carried.
Shedding his shirt quickly, he went back to his sister?s drawer, trying
on her bra. This, unlike the heels, was a very difficult task. After
several failed attempts to clasp it on his back, he realized he could
wear it backward, clasp in on his chest and simply spin it around. Taking
a pair of socks he stuffed them into the cups, as it was whispered in
school that ninth grader Susan Park did. He then slid into a pink t-shirt
from her drawer with the words ?You Go Girl!? written is glitter on the
chest. The effect with the t-shirt was a little lumpy until he added more
socks, and arranged them more carefully. Without being too overdone, he
was now quite the developed little girl.
The look was intoxicating, revelatory, and life changing. Not all boys
could do this, he realized, some would just look wrong. But for someone
like Lee, there was no huge difference, save lack of a bit of makeup and
his short shaggy hair, between his look and a girl?s. He had known such a
thing was possible, during his spins around the internet and television
he had run across many a convincing transgendered, but he had no idea he
could be one.
Lee strolled around looking in the mirror, each step becoming more
confident, slightly less clumsy. ?I?m a natural,? he said, and deciding
that was wrong, tried a higher, more girlish voice, ?I?m a natural. I?m a
natural. I?m a natural,? Saying it over and over. Each time straining to
get it right. He turned back to the mirror, struck his best sexy pose and
grabbed his fake boobs in his hands. It was at that moment, with some
embarrassment, he began to unrestrainedly ejaculate repeatedly into the
nylon of his sister pantyhose. Panicked he slid out of his twin?s
garments and rushed for the washing machine. He would have enough time to
wash these clothes and get them back into the right drawers. He just
needed to be calm and do it right, not destroying the clothes,
particularly the flimsy pantyhose.
It was important Lee got this right. This was a newly opened door he
didn?t wish to close through stupidity.
****************
On Sandra?s recommendation, Leona made back to back appointments on the
west side of the city known as, derogatorily, ?Boys Town?, although the
largely gay residents long had taken to and embraced the name with an
amused pride. Sandra reasoned, probably correctly, a wigless, makeupless,
boyish looking, Leona, decked out in women?s clothes may find herself the
recipient of less than warm welcoming stares in some of the salons about
town. Better to have the experience be as pleasant as possible, as it was
to become an integral part of Leona?s existence.
Leona took some time to get dressed. She knew clubwear, she knew how to
make an impression, but she very rarely did casual. Going through the
clothes she nicked, Leona settled on a short jean skirt, low heeled
canvas wedge sandals, and a plain high collared red t-shirt. Knowing her
makeup would be scrubbed, clean, she went with simple pink lipstick and
hid her eyes behind large frame sunglasses. Looking at herself in the
mirror she found the outfit to be acceptable, if not a bit plain.
?Studio Philippe Barrineau? was the place Leona landed. It was a full
service makeup and hair salon, with a loosely associated nail salon next
store. The two young Japanese girls who took care of her, Namiko and
Yukiko, were an explosion of colorful up to the moment J Pop fashion, and
had no issues with her true gender. They cooed and petted and made
promises to transform Leona from someone who just looked the part to a
woman who lived the part.
?You?re good,? explained Yukiko teasing out and closing examining
Leona?s short brown hair once Leona had taken off her wig, ?but there?s
so much you could do better. Your brows are all wrong. We can make them
thin and arching to better frame your eyes. They will look completely
fabulous. And your lashes are fine with good mascara, but we have
discreet, false lashes, that will make your eyes so much more dramatic.?
?And your make up,? Namiko chimed in, ?we?ll show you a couple of tricks
that I think you?ll really love.?
The women went to town as they wove the extensions into her hair,
talking, explaining the mechanics of what Leona needed to do to make
improvements to appearance. Her brows were plucked, her legs were waxed,
a gel which burned ever so slightly was applied in the areas hair would
want to grow, followed by a small needle like appliance which burned out
the hair?s roots.
The entire process took hours and she had not even stepped into the nail
salon. The two girls finished combing and drying her hair, finally
spinning Leona around in her chair to examine the results. The effect was
every bit as spectacular as they had promised. The fine touches to her
eyebrows and eye makeup, increased Leona femininity in ways she hadn?t
imagined. Her eyes were no longer just there, but beautiful and
captivating with their hazel color seeming sharper and enhanced. But it
was her hair that was most dramatically improved. It kept is jet black
base, but was now highlighted with subtle streaks of red giving it a life
no wig had before. Cut and styled in layers with swooping bangs parted on
the left, causing her long hair to cover nearly half of her face, Leona
was given a mysterious, hipper look. When she swung her head from side to
side, the hair moved with a softness and bounce her wigs could never
replicate.
The girls had performed the wonders they had promised.
?Now,? explained Yukiko, ?hair extensions are just hair. Your hair. You
can wash them, color them, cut them. But I would suggest putting your
hair up when you sleep, because if you accidentally pull very hard, they
will come out.? ?That?s the big thing,? agreed Namiko, ?if you have a
boyfriend who likes to pull your hair during sex, well, you?re going to
have to get a new boyfriend.? They all laughed joyfully.
The trip to adjacent nail salon was uneventful, but highly relaxing. The
women working there treated Leona as just another of the many customers,
and looking as good as she did, to her she was. As they massaged her feet
and filed away at her fingernails, they made small talk occasionally
asking Leona if she went to school or had any boys in her life. She
realized, sitting there in her vibrating pedicure chair, having the loofa
gently remove the old skin from her heels, that this was the first time
in her life that she had a relaxing experience being treated as a woman.
Being a creature of the night, Leona found herself constantly in clubs
with drinks and men, with sexual energy charging the air. It was electric
and exciting, but there was always a slight edge to it, brought on by the
fear of discovery. Boys groped, boys rubbed, boys grabbed. One hand in
the wrong place, be it too aggressively between the legs, or too
enthusiastically down her shirt, and the night could go sideways fast.
Women were equally dangerous. Those who were catty and jealous, meant one
faulty lock on bathroom stall door, or one peep through the stall?s
crack, and Leona's secret would spread around like wildfire.
But here, she was just as much woman as she was in the clubs, but without
any of those fears, and none of the jealous stares. Soothed and relaxed
Leona closed her eyes.
Leaving the salon, before returning to the apartment Leona took detour to
the mall. There was nothing she needed to buy, but it was a beautiful
warm day and she wanted to engage in a social experiment. Walking around
the outdoor mall, pretending to window shop, Leona observed how others
took to her. It was a different experience she had known before. Women
walking with their children smiled politely but disinterestedly. None of
their smiles hid an agenda or threat of a figurative backstab. One or two
women looked at her modest sandals, but always in a passing fashion,
likely wondering where she had purchased them, or admiring her pedicure.
In the competitive environment of the club, many women looked at Leona?s
sky high heels jealous they couldn?t wear heels so high, or judgemental
that they were slut shoes, while others still wondered if her heels made
her look sexier than theirs. The men at this mall were different too.
Many looked, and often looked appreciatively, but it lack the naked
carnivorous lust it did at the nighttime establishments. Many smiled, but
smiled without motive. And only a very few stared.
Leona grabbed a coffee and sat down on a bench, sipping it thoughtfully.
Leona Jade did not grow up wanting a pony at 7 years old, wearing Disney
princess dresses, or having posters of boy bands on her wall during her
teens. Leona Jade had not passed notes about boys in school, or had never
had close girlfriend to confide in. The Leona Jade that existed as she
did now was born fully formed in the competitive environment nightclub,
learning how to manipulate people as a matter of pleasure and survival.
The nail salon and this simple stroll through normal life told Leona that
perhaps she didn?t fully understand life as a woman as well as she
thought she did. The few years she had been Leona, there were entire
ranges of experiences Leona?s never had. Passing convincingly as a woman
in one part of life didn?t necessarily mean passing convincingly in all.
A job. A roommate. A new life. These were potentially long term
commitments with long term relationships. If she were to not only survive
them, but to thrive in them, Leona understood that she may need to accept
that it may be time to begin learning again. To accept women were
something other than competition to be ?one upped? by the tgirl.
*******************
It wasn?t until 11th grade that young Lee Corvetti finally considered
asking Megan Flannery out. ?Sure. I know her,? Karissa answered, smiling
at her brother teasingly as they sat at the kitchen table doing homework.
Cynthia Corvetti cooked in the background studiously pretending not to
hear. Her children seemed to have bought it, because they spoke as if she
were not there.
?Megan Flannery. Pretty. Popular. The girl you?ve spent every day of the
past 4 years gawking at? Yeah, I talk to her enough. Nice girl. Mostly of
our conversations have to do with how you?re actually okay and not the
love sick puppy you appear to be.?
?Karissa!? Dan shouted not certain if she was in fact teasing. Upon
hearing his mother laugh as well, he shouted her name as well ?Mom!?
Cynthia turned down the fire under the meat sauce, came and sat down next
to her son. ?No one wants to hear their mother tell them anything about
girls,? Cynthia began, ?It?s uncomfortably and more than a bit icky. I
get that. But before we were moms, we were girls your age. So humor me. I
have feeling you?re thinking of asking this girl out??
?Maybe? Lee responded. ?Most definitely.? Karissa added. His mother
ruffled the boy?s hair lovingly with her hand. ?Here?s the one thing to
understand. When you ask a girl out, she may actually say ?no?. And I?m
telling you as a girl, that there can be one hundred reasons for that
?no?, and maybe none of them have anything to do with who you are. Since
you can?t know, you shrug it off and ask the next girl.? She smiled at
her son, ?But its not a balanced equation. If she says ?yes? on the other
hand, then you can be sure it has everything to do with you. That?s why
it?s worth asking.?
Karissa laughed at the truthfulness of the statement. ?That doesn?t make
any sense Mom.? Lee responded, but was now laughing too. ?It makes
perfect sense, doesn?t it Karissa? It?s just we women are too complicated
to understand in your tiny man brain.?
His mom had that way, of seeing all that was good; showing the upside in
everything. He made up his mind, he would ask Megan out tomorrow.
The following morning Megan Flannery let Lee down with the practiced
grace of a well raised girl who hears a variation of the ?do you want to
see a movie, or something, with me, maybe, if you want to? question
repeatedly. She tried to remove any potential embarrassment, flatter Lee,
but definitively dismiss him as a potential suitor as kindly as possible.
But Lee recognized it for what it was, and felt hurt and humiliated, even
with Megan?s expert touch in trying to try to eliminate both of those
feelings.
Detecting this, almost as an afterthought Megan added, ?I would just love
if you could join some of us Friday. There?s a bar a bunch of us go to,
Creations, that new bar. They?re super strict on carding boys, but a lot
of the girls walk straight in without an ID. I think the bouncer?s a bit
of a ped, but that?s okay he leaves us alone. So if you can get a fake ID
in a couple of days, I?ll see you there. It?ll be awesome spending time
with you. I?d really like to get to know you better.?
It was brilliantly crafted work of art. She let Lee down, then invited
him to spend some time with her doing something extremely cool in the
eyes of an eleventh grader: hit a fashionable bar with the ?in crowd? at
school. The built in catch was he wouldn?t be able to join her at all.
And she likely knew it. The barrier of entry was nigh on impossible.
Obtaining a good fake ID for this suburban boy in two days just couldn?t
be done. And even if it were possible, it carried a high risk; the
features that, with help, could make him look like a convincing young
woman, were the same features that made him look like an exceptionally
young man. Any ID he carried was certain to get the full infrared
inspection. All of this was compounded by the fact he was a cop?s son.
There was another way for Lee to get in, but it would certainly preclude
him from spending time with Megan and her friends. It also required
planning and more nerve than he knew he had in him. But, in spite of
himself, he was still thinking about it. More than thinking about it,
actually.
In the three years since Lee had first tried on those wonderful platform
shoes of his sister?s, he donned female garb every moment he had the
chance. As a police detective, his father was out of the house for very
long stretches, and his mother had a life of her own, including not
infrequent trips to see her parents in Italy.
In addition to frequency, a great deal of skill had been added to Lee?s
forays into femininity. User uploaded video sites had taught Lee things
he had not thought remotely possible when he began. Simply typing in the
words ?male to female transformation? pulled up countless videos of boys
and men taping, tugging, pulling and padding their bodies into formidable
female shapes. Men with not a ounce of fat on their chests could create
cleavage which peeked out low cut tops. Hips and waist were created with
even more ease. Add more than a bit of skilled make up, each step
painstakingly laid out in these endless tutorials, Lee witnessed average
looking boys turned into reasonably attractive girls.
Lee had been ordering an untold number of items over the internet to move
him along in his new found ?hobby? as he laughingly referred to it
internally. Each day he rushed home from school in a panic that someone
in his family would reach the delivered package first, leaving him to
explain the need for silicone breast pads, pantyhose, waist cinchers or
increasingly higher heels in his size.
At this point Lee no longer needed the tutorials running on the laptop as
he sat in front of his mother?s makeup mirror. The mirror was enough. He
knew his face, his strengths and weaknesses, what to emphasize and de-
emphasize. He learned which clothes were most functional with which
padding to prevent slipping or something far worse that would give
himself away. He learned to accessorized.
Lee didn?t just know how to look like a woman, he felt he could act the
part as well. The key, the instruction and subsequent practice told him
over and over, was in the small details, not the broad strokes. Make the
strokes too broad and it becomes caricature - over the top drag queen
camp - forgo the female mimicry too much, then it looks to the world
like a boy wearing a dress.
The real question was, having never gone beyond the confines of his
bedroom, was Lee ready to present himself to the world as a girl in an
environment as tricky as a club? An environment which would make him
highly nervous as an underage kid even without being in women?s clothes.
As illogical as it was, as much as babysteps into his ?hobby? was the
prudent form of action, Lee made up his mind. He was going to Creations.
He just needed to work out the logistics.
From the moment he woke up Friday and throughout the day, Lee?s stomach
was churning with butterflies. It was a nervousness not unknown to him,
he got them anytime he knew he was going to have to speak publicly. But
the duration and intensity of this spell was new. Unlike the former type
of nervousness, however, there was an excitement blended in giving it an
entirely different feel.
Making the entire process more nerve wracking, Lee would have to somehow
get dressed in his house, sneak out and get to the club. Sneaking out of
the window would be easy enough, he was on the first floor and had done
it before. But at some point, a fully female version of Lee would need to
be created with nothing standing between him and discovery by anyone in
his family but an unlocked bedroom door. And, he would need to sneak
back into the window, scrub every trace of woman from him, by breakfast.
All very tall hurdles, and ones unsolved by Lee even as the school day
ended.
Lee arrived home greeted by his mother. His excitement and nervousness of
earlier in the day subsided as he came to the growing realization his
plan was not to be. As much as he felt he could make it work earlier,
realistically thinking it through there were far too many things which
only needed to go slightly wrong for everything to go completely wrong.
It wasn?t a plan so much as wish which was full of holes.
Giving up. He threw his backpack on the kitchen table eating the cheese
on salami snacks Cynthia provided. ?Not that it is any of my business,?
his mother said, ?but from that long look on your face, I take it you had
a tough day at school? Is it that girl. Megan Flanagan?? ?Flannery, Mom.
Megan Flannery. Yeah, it sort of is.? Cynthia sat down next to her son.
She could see he was crestfallen. ?So asking her out didn?t go the way
you wanted it to? As I said, you?re a lovely boy. I?m sure it had nothing
to do with who you are.?
?Oh. Yeah. Megan was really nice,? Lee said honestly. Looking at his
mother?s open caring face, a spark of an idea formed in his mind. As much
as he hated to, he lied to his mother, ?She said she wanted to get to
know me better first. Invited me to a party.? Cynthia smiled radiantly,
?Well that?s wonderful.? Lee looked up at her, his expression still
downcast. ?Not wonderful Mom. Not this party. You and dad - especially
dad - would never let me go. It?s not in the neighborhood, it?s down near
the convention center. And ...? Lee took a mental deep breath he hoped
didn?t show, ?It?s a costume party of sorts. Less costume party than all
the guys show up in drag, actually. Megan called a ?She and Shes? party
or something silly,? Lee threw in that last made up detail about the
name, hoping it gave it a legitimacy to his fiction. He continued, ?Dad
would never let me go. Not out there. Not dressed like that.?
Cynthia looked at her son, but not in the way he?d expected. ?How much do
you like this girl?? She asked after a long contemplative pause. ?A lot.
She?s great.? Cynthia seemed to make up her mind, ?leave your dad to me.?
?And Karissa??
?Leave her to me as well. In fact, thinking about ?. your father hasn?t
visited his mother in quite some weeks and she?s been calling me every
day trying to get him up there. Since he has some rare time off, I think
with nothing planned it is the perfect time. In fact, I think I?ll insist
on it. But you and I will have to catch up to them tomorrow morning if I
am to help you with your science project tonight.?
?.... Science project ?? Lee repeated slowly. He had seen this side of
his mother before. He got several inklings that his mother good naturedly
subverted their dad?s iron clad rules. In fact, the platform wedges shoes
which set Lee down this very path, sat in the trunk of her car for two
years to keep their father from knowing his daught