Mistress of Gor
Dedicated to the genius of Olga Turlovna with sincere admiration.
Chapter 6: I speak my mind to Kurgus, which it transpires is a mistake
"I have a distinct fondness for sleen," said Kurgus as he lifted a large
chunk of raw meat on the end of a spiked pole and placed it before the
great beast's jaws. The broad, triangular head tapered to a whiskered
snout with beady eyes and a mouth set with two rows of fangs that
quickly jerked forward and snapped at the chunk of meat. It was taken
whole within its jaws and pulled away from the pole arm in a single
motion. Kurgus smiled as the great beast tore and snapped at the meat,
quickly swallowing it in great bloody chunks. "I have named this one
Minsk. I knew him when he was but a puppy."
"Oh God..." I cowered as far away from the sleen pen as I could. The
sickening crunch of the fangs snapping the bones within the meat to get
to the juicy marrow was making me feel sick. The creature was enormous,
over nine feet long, with six powerful legs and a thick coat of fur, all
grey in colour. As I watched, I saw its ears lie back against the side
of its head as it ate, watching me with suspicion. Kurgus, it knew. But
the smaller, weaker figure in the flowing blue gown was a stranger.
"You have nothing to fear while I am here, Felice. The sleen knows me as
its Master." Kurgus was amused to see my reaction to the beast, though
it was hardly unexpected. I had of course never been close to a sleen
before. "See how it sniffs the air. It is interested in your scent, my
dear."
"I'm sorry, Kurgus, but can we move away from here? That thing scares
me." I stood now in a large courtyard surrounded by high walls, part of
the villa and farm lands that Kurgus had occupied outside the walls of
the city of Vonda. On one side were the sleen pens - sunken pits with
barred sides and a steel roof, and a sloped ramp that descended down
from a portcullis like gate to the pen below. To my growing horror the
portcullis gate was currently wide open where Kurgus stood, speaking
kind words to his beast. I on the other hand stood as far away as
possible, with my back pressed close to the outer wall. I was quite
plainly trembling with fear.
"So it should. This creature is the finest hunter on Gor. It has no
equal." Kurgus hooked another chunk of meat, but this time barked a
command to the sleen that seemed to have the effect of stopping it from
immediately reaching out for the food. "Wait, Minsk," he warned it as he
raised the bloody hind leg of a tabuk. The sleen scratched impatiently
with its front paws on the surface of the ramp as it hissed and growled.
It was hungry. It wanted food. If Kurgus was scared by this, he didn't
show it. Only when the hissing subsided and the sleen lowered its head
acknowledging its master, did Kurgus lower the meat and bark a second
command that food could be taken. Once again the great jaws snapped open
and shut as the sleen tore the meat from the pole.
"Oh God, I really am going to be sick." I turned my eyes away but I
could still hear the slobbering and cracking of the tabuk leg.
"I bred this sleen myself. It is never wise to tame wild ones. The
mating of sleen is quite interesting, Felice."
"I'm sure it is." The tone of my voice probably suggested otherwise as I
pressed my right cheek against the white washed stone of the wall and
closed my eyes. The distance between the open cage mouth and where I now
cringed was a barely adequate ten ah-ils. I felt sure that at any moment
the beast could leap that distance in a single bound from the top of the
ramp if it wished to.
"I can see you're interested," continued Kurgus as he gazed with
affection at his favourite sleen. "A female sleen who has never mated
before will always try to resist the male. But, as male sleen are larger
and stronger than females, the male will ultimately win by grabbing hold
of the female's throat with his fangs, and holding on tightly. He will
then throw the female sleen onto her back so that they are facing belly
to belly. With the grip on her throat, the female will become docile and
allow the male sleen to do what he desires. He will then penetrate her
and they will soon be locked together, by legs and teeth, rolling around
in a mating frenzy. After that initial experience, the female will never
need to be forced again. Interesting, don't you think?"
"Please can you close the portcullis. Please!" The courtyard was also
home to a series of five small punishment cages lining the far side,
away from the sleen pens. Two of the cages were currently occupied by a
pair of slave girls belonging to Kurgus. The height of each cage was
such that a girl kneeling inside would not be able to sit up straight,
but rather she would have to keep her head bowed against the ceiling
bars. In addition, the length of the cage, just under 46 horts, meant
that it was impossible for most girls to fully stretch out whilst lying
inside. They would be forced to curl their bodies whilst sleeping. The
cages were exposed to the elements, save for a single sheet of dark
tarpaulin that was stretched on poles, and by the courtyard wall against
which the cages stood. The floor of the cage was a sheet of hard wood
laid over the surface of the bars. Each cage was bolted securely to the
cement floor of the courtyard and immovable without tools.
"As you wish." Kurgus pulled the heavy portcullis gate down over the
opening with a loud crash of iron and steel. He slid bolts into place
and twisted them shut. Later, at night, his men would securely lock the
cage with padlocks. "I can see Minsk has an effect on you."
"It's a powerful nine foot long carnivore that looked at me as if I was
lunch. What do you expect?"
"Hmm." Kurgus scratched his chin in thought. "Now, you were saying? You
said something about your studies as a Free Woman of Gor. Forgive me,
but some of your words were drowned out by the hissing and growling of
the sleen and the sharp scratching of its claws against the reinforced
ramp as it demanded food. Repeat what you said just now, but without the
annoying Earth slang that you have a habit of using on occasion."
I stepped away from the wall and gazed at the portcullis cage door. The
lizard like, thickly furred creature had descended back down into the
pit from where the crunching and cracking of bones could be heard. "The
lessons have become repetitive, petty and of no discernible practical
use. I am being trained in a variety of customs and pedantic rituals
that serve no purpose. And I am offended by the constant implication of
the lessons that I should be constantly deferring to men. Furthermore, I
grow tired of the disrespectful manner in which Tallia speaks to me. I
also do not appreciate the inference of the whip clipped to her belt. On
more than one occasion she has implied she may have whip rights over me!
I would like her dismissed today if possible. Send her back to the
Northern Forests or collar her if you like. I care not."
"Excellent. I commend you on your forthright opinions. It is refreshing
to speak to an agent who is not afraid of the consequences of thinking
she knows better than I do."
"The thing is..." I felt sure that Kurgus had clearly heard me the first
time, but I elaborated anyway. "I find the lessons boring and in certain
cases demeaning or even humiliating. You forget that despite this body
I'm actually a man. I don't wish to be trained by a Panther Girl in the
correct forms of curtseying to men."
Kurgus said nothing for a moment. "Felice. Perhaps I haven't made myself
totally clear. You are my agent. I require you to carry out various
duties for me within the Tahari. These duties will require you to pass
as a Gorean Free Woman in all respects. What you consider to be trivial
details may well be things which prevent your identity from being
exposed."
"It's too much! Your stupid Panther Girl even tried to teach me how a
Free Woman submits in the unlikely event of being captured! As if I was
actually going to entertain her by rehearsing some demeaning submission
posture, kneeling and crossing my wrists before her, with my head bowed.
It's humiliating. I've had enough of this. Let me attend to this mission
and then I can get on with my life. I just want to get this over with.
I'm sorry if you don't like to hear me say this."
"You're sorry? Well, that's some consolation, isn't it?"
"Kurgus?"
"I mean, I may have expended considerable expense and effort to bring
you to Gor, to train you in the customs and language, and prepare you to
travel to the Tahari to perform vital tasks in support of an
uncompromising timetable, but if you're sorry, well I suppose that's all
right then."
"Be reasonable, Kurgus, despite this body, I still think like a man. I'm
uncomfortable with the lessons I'm being given. What can I say? Your
slave's attitude borders on patronising. She treats me like some clumsy
young girl sent to a finishing school to learn how to walk and cook and
sew. It's inconvenient at best."
"Inconvenient? Well, you certainly have thought this through, haven't
you, Felice?"
"I know you're angry, Kurgus, but it can't be helped. Anyway, I've
decided I've had enough lessons. I don't need any more."
"You have, have you?" Kurgus rolled the words around his tongue. "Do you
think this is a game, Felice? Do you believe that the matter of success
or failure is largely irrelevant?" Kurgus suddenly took my right arm by
the elbow and walked me slowly across the courtyard. "You, who has been
an agent in training for, oh, a matter of a few months now? In your
professional experience you think you know better than I?"
"I didn't mean any disrespect..."
"I am Gorean, Felice. That means I am not especially interested in what
you meant. I am only interested in results and for you to do exactly
what I tell you to do."
"And I will get you results. I will. I just don't need to sit there as a
scowling Panther Girl teaches me how to sew and embroider. I don't have
the interest or the time."
"Why then, I'll give you some time if that's all you need. Spend the
night in contemplation and who knows you may develop an interest.
Surprise me with the extent of your enthusiasm for your lessons in the
morning." Kurgus brought me to a halt beside the row of punishment
cages. Letting go of my elbow he opened the door of the vacant third
cage. "Inside."
"What?" I took a step back.
"Am I not clear? This is where you can sleep tonight, Felice. I am
displeased. And when I am displeased, there are always consequences. The
experience will sharpen your brain. It will perhaps encourage you to
embrace your lessons as a Free Woman instead of whining and
complaining." He took me again by the elbow and pushed me down and
through the barred opening.
"Kurgus. This is insane. You can't make me sleep outside in a cage in
your courtyard!"
"Oh, but I think I can. To quote your ugly Earth slang: 'deal with it'.
That is the expression I believe? I will speak to you in the morning. Be
prepared to amaze me with what you think of your lessons by then."
I crouched low in the cage, facing the barred gate that remained open.
The top of my head brushed the ceiling bars, even with my head lowered.
"Kurgus, please don't do this."
"Hush. Do not disturb the sleen. They like to sleep for an ahn after
eating." Kurgus closed and locked the cage gate with a heavy padlock.
I lay shivering, curled into a foetal position by necessity of the cage
size, sometime before the second ahn. Having been born to a temperate
climate on Earth with all the luxuries of central heating and modern
housing, I felt the chill of the night air more than a hardy woman of
Gor might. My leg muscles ached from being pressed against the bars of
the cage, unable to stretch out, and I found myself turning repeatedly
on the rough wooden floor, the muscles of my body not being accustomed
to sleeping on a hard surface. To make matters worse, the nocturnal
snuffling and hissing of the sleen in the nearby pens was keeping me
awake. If they weren't hissing and growling at each random scent blown
their way by the wind, they were scratching and digging at the floor of
the pits. Making up my mind, I reached through the bars into the
adjoining cage and prodded the slave girl awake. "What's your name,
girl?" I asked quietly. In the furthest cage the other slave girl slept
on. "Lana, Mistress," came the girl's soft reply as she rubbed sleep
from her eyes.
"Give me your blanket," I said. It wasn't a particularly cold night as
far as nights went this time of the year, but lying still in the cage
made the night air feel colder than if I had been moving around. I
needed the girl's blanket.
"But Mistress, you are clothed, and I am not..." The girl roused herself
and turned, resting the weight of her body on one elbow.
"Do I need to repeat a command?" I said. "You're a slave. Things like
this happen to you. Get used to it. It comes with the collar." Lana
hastily complied, unwrapping her precious blanket and passing it through
between the bars of the cage for of course she recognised that I was
free. As I wrapped myself tightly in its folds and I tried to make
herself as comfortable as I could on the hard floor of the cage, Lana
curled miserably in her own cage, no longer enjoying the benefit or
warmth of a covering.
I lay awake for a long time, simply gazing up at the stars, lost in my
thoughts, most of which were to do with Gor. I had lived on Gor now for,
I think, just over 4 months in Earth terms, though it is difficult to be
sure as the rotation of the planet differs slightly and therefore the
passage of a day is not quite the same as on Earth. In that time I had
begun to understand more about my adopted home and the differences
between its people and my own people on Earth. I shall take the
opportunity to give you the benefit now of some of my observations on
the nature of the society.
Firstly, Goreans place great importance on the concept of a Homestone.
'Homestone' simply refers to the city that you swear allegiance to and
call home. Unlike our modern 21st century, where patriotism is often
considered to be outdated, and where many of us are 'global citizens'
able to relocate at will, sometimes from country to country, let alone
city to city, Goreans prize their identity as belonging to a particular
homestone. They show immense pride and loyalty to the place they call
home and will defend it at all costs. Protection is given to other men
and women of their homestone. It is unlikely for example that a Man of
Corcyrus would enslave a woman of Corcyrus, unless she really provoked
the collar. Women of other cities however would be fair game.
Free Women of Gor (in the cities at least) probably enjoyed greater
freedoms and rights than women did in the equivalent periods of
primitive technology era Earth history (and indeed in some regions of
the Earth to this day) - periods in which women were traditionally
relegated to submissive, inferior roles due to the prevalence of
physical strength and size being paramount in determining who is
dominant in the food chain. Only with the advent of technology replacing
muscle on Earth did women begin to attain comparative rights and
freedoms. Gor is still technologically primitive, kept so by the edicts
of Priest Kings who do not wish to see Goreans invent powerful weapons
or engines.
Free Women are by and large protected by both their castes and their
homestones. They are subject to the law, like anyone else, but they are
not in fear of being collared if they don't please a man. The law in
Corcyrus protects a Free Woman provided she doesn't do anything illegal.
She may practise a profession, travel about the city as she wishes and,
yes, even argue with and criticise men, though there may be social
consequences outside of strict legal ones if she did so.
Out in the wildernesses of Gor of course there is no law, and a woman
would be at great risk, but since women on the whole are sensible enough
not to go roaming the highways alone, that isn't really a concern. The
risks in Corcyrus are the same as in any modern city though. Walk
through the wrong district late at night when it's dark, or take a short
cut through some cut throat alley, and of course you could be attacked,
but the same thing applies to London, Paris or New York at night.
Where Gorean Free Women differ from Earth ones is in their sense of
propriety and dignity. Gorean culture prescribes a double standard for
women that is sometimes referred to (though not in the books themselves)
as the Madonna/Whore complex. They can either be the virginal Lady of
Arthurian myths, resplendent in her flowing gowns and noble chastity, or
they can be abject sluts, relishing their sexuality to the full. Men,
who are the dominant gender on Gor, permit very little middle ground
between the two contrasts. They insist that a woman can be but one or
the other in their eyes. A Free Woman is raised from an early age to
believe she must always keep herself covered up in public. Typical
Gorean fashion requires multiple layers of full-body gowns - usually
loose and billowing as opposed to belted tightly and figure hugging -
accompanied by up to five layers of face veils, and something to loosely
cover the hair. Women are taught not to express any element of sexuality
in their lifestyle and consequently they are typically repressed when it
comes to such 'forbidden' feelings.
A Gorean woman IS permitted to have sex, but it requires a complex and
faintly ridiculous courtship protocol where she somehow has to interest
a man without actually flirting with a man. No wonder so many of them
seem unhappy! The accepted method of courtship (an overly polite form of
dating) should then lead to a period of Free Companionship - effectively
a finite marriage that ends after a year or so unless it is renewed. But
even then the Gorean Free Woman is expected to indulge in sex as a
polite and modest affair, no doubt lying back and thinking of the city
of Ar while her Free Companion Man enters her gently, being considerate
enough to not disturb her too much during the intercourse. Most Men
would be frankly shocked and dismayed if their Free Companion began to
exhibit signs of actually enjoying sex, let alone asking for it. Such
responses would suggest she might actually have slave feelings. Free
Women are terrified that anyone might think that of them. Being
interested in sex or being sexually responsive is one of the gravest
taboos as far as Free Women are concerned. To be a Free Woman is to be
frigid, or else be publicly shamed.
Although they aren't slaves, most Free Women are taught at an early age
how to submit to the collar, along with a few basic slave positions. The
reason for this is that if their city is ever stormed by a foreign army,
they will have a chance to save their lives by submitting to the
conquerors. It's effectively an action of last resort when there are no
men of your homestone left to protect you.
Many Free Women are highly competitive amongst themselves and merely
tolerate slaves at best. Men rarely intervene when a Free Woman has
reason to punish a slave, which is bad news for the slave, because on
the whole she probably has done little to deserve the punishment!
What of Gorean men then? Men, more so than women, are obsessed with
Honour. This to them is what dignity, decency and propriety are to
women. Gorean men would be appalled at the 21st century Earth attitude
that states 'the individual is all'. Gorean society is very ordered and
formal. Everyone knows his place, and there are many implied standards
of decent behaviour which do not even require laws. The typical rudeness
and social disrespect for one another that occurs in our society
(especially on the social network sites of the Internet) would be
anathema to Goreans.
Most Gorean men put their duty to their homestone and caste before their
own social and economic advancement. There are criminals and outlaws of
course, but such people would be despised within a city. There is little
evidence in what I have seen in Corcyrus that Goreans have any respect
for such people. On Earth we are used to a 'pop' culture growing up
around notorious criminals with films and books being written about
them. Goreans would find such an attitude puzzling. Why glamorise
dishonourable outlaws and criminals? They would instead be driven from
the city or impaled on spikes.
It is easy to misunderstand or forget what the concept of honour means
to a Gorean. It goes beyond fighting fairly in a spar tournament. In a
sense it can be summed up as 'treating other people the way you would
want them to treat you'. A Gorean would not for example randomly
vandalise someone else's property. It would not make sense to him to do
so. The action would not enrich his wealth or standing in any way, and
the other person would not have done anything to warrant it, so why do
it? Don't mistake this as some sort of utopian society where no one
tries to better themselves at the expense of others. Goreans are as
competitive as Earth people - of course they will try to make a profit
where they can, and they will covet the most beautiful slaves for
themselves, but they will not indulge in nihilistic practices for no
reason. If one Gorean challenges another Gorean (and this would usually
only happen in the wilderness) he knows it is a very serious matter -
probably of life or death - so it would not be over a trivial matter.
The Gorean man must really, really want that naked slave girl on a leash
if he challenges another man for her on the road to Ar. Because one of
those men will inevitably die in the process.
On the whole men show respect (of sorts - this does not imply they think
of women as anything close to their equals) to Free Women. They are
prepared to put up with quite a lot from a woman before they show any
anger. A parallel would be the way an adult tolerates the behaviour of a
child because, "Well, it's only a child..." However when a woman steps
too far out of line, a man will correct her abruptly, and there will be
little or no come back from anyone nearby. In return men expect Free
Women to observe strict standards of decency. Men would be genuinely
ashamed of a Free Woman of their homestone if she, for example,
routinely disgraced her city by exposing her face or indecent amounts of
flesh (sadly for women on Gor, indecent amounts of flesh could refer to
as little as a pretty ankle...). Sometimes when men have collared a
woman it is (in their mind) for her own good, if she has acted as a
slave might. A desire to have her in their chains doesn't necessarily
enter into the equation - in fact they might have no intention of
keeping her. They might even think they were doing her a favour - that
she'd ultimately be happier in a collar where she belonged.
Men are of course very keen on slaves. They spend a lot of time with
their slaves, over and above the time they actually fur them. Gorean men
are interested in every aspect of their slave. They like to know what
the slave thinks for example. Even a man who has drunk the wine of Free
Companionship with a Free Woman will still use slaves as and when he
wishes. He does not consider this as being unfaithful, as slaves
obviously do not count! Men do however understand that Free Women are
uncomfortable around slaves, and they therefore are usually careful to
ensure that
a Free Woman isn't too scandalised. Slaves in the presence of a Free
Woman for example might be instructed to wear tunics that are not quite
so revealing. They might be told to kneel in Tower rather than in Nadu,
and they would probably not dance. Nevertheless, a man's effort to
mitigate the sexuality of their slaves only goes so far, and Free Women
are generally expected to put up with what they don't like.
On Gor, women are not warriors. They may be born to the caste of
warriors, because their father is a warrior, but they did not learn to
fight with weapons. There is a reason for this - the same reason why
women did not form armies during the equivalent historical periods on
Earth. Contrary to the picture painted in modern fantasy novels, where
women dodge nimbly about, sweeping aside the clumsy blows swung at them,
parrying, riposting and offering highly skilled thrusts with their own
blades, primitive sword and shield warfare was never like that. Battles
were won by muscle and lots of it.
Throughout history battles resembled rugby scrums. Two lines of very big
hairy men would form up, locking their shields together, with spears or
swords sticking out, facing forward. After a certain amount of shouting
abuse to drum up courage, these two lines would then collide into one
another in a thunderous crash, and it would be a case of pushing and
shoving until one line broke apart. The line that had the heavier,
stronger men, would generally break the weaker line. Once your line was
broken, your enemy would begin to hack you to pieces. No army unit ever
survived once its line broke. Combat was like a tug of war in reverse -
muscle and body weight was the key to winning. See the film '300' for an
example of the pushing and shoving.
It should be obvious then that having women in your shield wall would be
like putting a weak link in a chain. Plus, even before you got to the
battle, the soldiers would be expected to fast march twenty miles with
full packs, shield and weapons to get there. If you weren't physically
very strong you'd collapse before you reached the battlefield. A Gorean
woman is nowhere near as strong as a Gorean man. The Gorean woman may be
stronger than her Earth counterpart, as the Gorean woman lives in a pre-
technological age, and therefore life is harder and more physical, but
she can't even begin to approach the level of Gorean male strength.
Another common misconception on Earth is that if women can't match men
with swords and shields, they can fight them with a bow. Panther girl
clans in particular claim amazing prowess with the bow, despite having
been Free Women or slaves two months earlier. Somehow in the intervening
time we are told in the writings of the (probably mythical) Tarl Cabot
that they have mastered a powerful hunting bow and are able to shoot
down men from long range. The truth is that to use a bow well (which I
define as hitting a fast moving target while your hands are shaking with
adrenaline, because he's going to kill you if your first shot misses)
takes a lifetime of practice. During the Hundred Years War, England was
able to field the most powerful army in existence at that time. It
effectively had access to a 'weapon of mass destruction' that no other
nation could field in battle - the longbow. And the reason why England
was the only Western nation able to use the longbow was because it was
the only nation that trained peasants in its use from childhood. If you
weren't trained from an early age, then you couldn't use it effectively
enough to make a difference in battle. England lost its dominance in war
at the same time its peasants stopped learning to use the bow.
In all likelihood the bows that Panther Girls use are probably light
short bows that require less muscle. In a forest setting of course range
is not so important as there will usually be trees in the way, so a
short bow will suffice. The accuracy of such weapons will depend very
much on how long the Panther Girl has practised or, rather, survived to
practise. Many Panther Girls fall to male hunters early on in their
lives, and so I suspect the truly skilled archers in the forests are few
and far between. Tallia may well have counted herself as one of them.
The bitch.
It should be stressed too that not all men on Gor are trained to fight.
In fact, common sense dictates that most of them aren't. The caste of
warriors and the caste of guardsmen would be able to fight, but it's
very unlikely that a baker or a candle maker would be able to defend
himself very well. Again, some of the mythical Tarl's writings sometimes
gives the impression that Gor is a warrior society where every man is
Conan the Barbarian. Wagon camps and the like probably did provide basic
martial training to most of its men, but in the civilised cities (which
resemble a cross between classical era Athens and Rome and various late
Mediaeval/early Renaissance cities) most people are not versed in the
art of war. As soon as you build stone walls around a population, the
need to defend against raids reduces dramatically, so you need a smaller
proportion of warriors. This enables people to pursue other professions
instead, thereby enriching your society. Since the books tend to
concentrate on the adventures of warriors such as Tarl, many people
assume all Gorean men are like that. The ratio of fighting men to non-
fighting men on Gor probably doesn't differ much from the Roman Empire
in 30AD.
The cities in Northern Gor are a marvel in themselves, offering a
strange mix of classical architecture and technology, alongside
strangely alien constructions. Corcyrus is a city that bears
similarities to the cities of ancient Rome through to the European
Renaissance. What are you likely to find? A city is an organic creation.
Usually established on a valuable piece of ground that is close to fresh
water and transport routes (this usually means a river or main road or
on the coast) and which boasts natural geographical features that help
to defend it from attack. The city begins life as a settlement,
eventually builds walls around itself and then spills out beyond the
walls as an expansion of the population uses up all available land
within its confines. Inside the walls you would find various quarters (a
general term - it doesn't actually mean there are only four of them) -
some rich, some poor, and some in between. Like will be attracted to
like, so tradesmen will tend to group together forming artisan quarters,
merchant quarters and similar areas. There will be a serious divide
between the better parts of the city (where you are likely to see some
attempt to keep the streets reasonably clean and where guardsmen will
patrol on a regular basis) to the poorer quarters where the streets will
resemble open sewers and you essentially make your own law.
An ancient city will stink in all but the finest areas. With a mass of
humanity packed in together in a confined area, and poor sanitation
(think of the condition of toilets at modern music festivals on the
second day and you'll have some idea what this is like...), cities can
be breeding grounds for disease. Some streets may have a series of
raised stepping-stones lining the way so that people can walk along them
without wading through streams of urine. At night time a city will be
pitch black. Richer areas may have street lighting, but the poorer areas
won't. With narrow roads (before the advent of the motor car, and with a
population that mostly walks, there is no need for wide lanes except for
a few main thoroughfares) and tall buildings, a city is far darker at
night than in open countryside. If you don't carry a lantern or torch of
some kind, you really won't see where you're going. At best you'll be
feeling your way around by touch. And even if you do carry a light, you
would still have to be careful. Thieves, and worse will be hiding in the
pitch black of alleyways. Carrying a lit lantern means you'll stand out
like a very tempting target. They can see you, but you won't necessarily
see them. Not such a good idea now that you think about it.
Getting around a city will be difficult unless you know it well. Most
streets probably won't have names displayed. The locals will know the
next street is Shackle Street, but there may not be any signs
identifying it as that. If you're new to the city and you stray from the
main thoroughfares you stand a good chance of getting lost. Looking like
you're lost will of course mark you out as a potential victim.
We can extrapolate from this that escorts and guardsmen for hire would
be in abundance. If you were wealthy enough you could hire armed guides
to get you around the city, especially once the sun had set. A Free
Woman in particular wouldn't walk the streets after dark on her own. One
or perhaps two armed men with torches would be a wise investment. Even
better would be a palanquin to carry her. It's not easy to avoid piles
of excrement on a street when you can't see them.
As a new arrival to the city you won't necessarily be greeted with a
warm welcome. The last thing a city wants is more penniless vagabonds
who will turn to crime. You had better have money and some means of
supporting yourself. Admittance to a city isn't a right, but rather a
privilege. And even if you have a trade to your name, the local caste
members may not necessarily welcome you with open arms. The perceived
threat of 'foreigners coming here and stealing our jobs' was as real in
the ancient age as it is now. A metal worker from Cos seeking to set up
shop in Corcyrus would be viewed with resentment by the existing metal
workers, especially if the newcomer set about undercutting existing
prices.
Shopping in an ancient city will be a time consuming affair. You won't
find a Gorean version of Wal-Mart where you can buy everything from
hacksaws to potatoes in one go. Instead there will be a multitude of
small stalls and shops selling specialised things. One stall will sell
olives. Another will sell candles. Another will sell fish. Shopping will
entail visiting many different merchants and haggling with them. Goods
are unlikely to have price tags. If you want something, the merchant
will set a price on the spot, and that price is likely to vary depending
on whether he knows you, whether you look wealthy or poor and whether he
has much in the way of competition. You in turn have the opportunity to
try and persuade him to accept a slightly lower price.
A lot of what is on sale (with the exception obviously of food) will be
second hand. The disposable nature of our society wouldn't exist on Gor.
Lacking industrialised mass production of goods on a large scale, many
items will be hand crafted. Even common items like bowls and goblets
will have a value on the second hand market since they are time
consuming to make. A Gorean would be astonished at the amount of things
we discard on a regular basis. We have that luxury because obtaining
replacements is both cheap and easy. A pre-technological society
wouldn't enjoy the same abundance of goods.
Sometime before the fourth ahn, I was able to drop off to sleep, but not
before I suffered the humiliation of having to pee where I lay in the
cage. The pressure had been building in me all night and I desperately
tried to control my bladder, but in the end it was no use. The cage was
too small to be able to do anything more than pee where I lay, fully
dressed, and so eventually I did. I felt wet and ashamed. I knew my
gowns would be soiled and I knew Kurgus would notice in the morning. It
seemed to be another sign of weakness on my part as neither of the two
slave-girls seemed to have suffered the way I did. When I drifted off to
sleep it was I suppose a mercy.
Unfortunately sometime before the fifth ahn I was rudely awakened by the
sound of a stick being rattled along the line of cage bars. I blinked,
feeling like death warmed up as the figure of a man came into focus.
Next door, Lana and the other girl, who I discovered was called Sally,
had immediately risen and were already kneeling in the position of
pleasure slaves before the Gorean man. For myself, I remained where I
lay, feeling cold, stiff and miserable within the cruel confinement of
my punishment cage, but I regarded him with curiosity. Had Kurgus sent
him? He looked like an overseer on the estate. But no, apparently not.
The man was just doing his normal rounds of the estate. As I watched,
the man began to ladle a sort of greasy porridge into a set of wooden
bowls. I noticed now narrow slits set into the bottom of each cage gate
through which the man began to push bowls of this filthy smelling food,
beginning with the slave furthest in line. As the man approached me, I
spoke out, "you don't need to give me anything."
My presence in the third punishment cage obviously surprised the man. I
was after all still fully clothed and veiled, though the veils had come
slightly loose during the night. He watched in amusement as I quickly
secured them in place. I had been a woman on Gor long enough to know the
risks of letting my veils slip in front of a man. "Everyone in the cages
eats," said the man as I fumbled with a securing pin. He pushed a bowl
of the gruel through the slot towards me.
"That doesn't apply to me," I said. "Kurgus will release me in an ahn or
two. It isn't his intention that I'm fed in here. You can take that slop
away." Obviously the man hadn't been told that I had been placed in the
cage by Kurgus last night. If he had been told, he would now be making
an effort to be courteous and to assure me that Kurgus would be on his
way very soon to unlock the cage. I glanced at the girls in the
neighbouring cages. They were already lifting fingerfuls of the gooey
paste into their mouths as if they hadn't eaten in days. I observed the
metal collars locked around their necks, and the brands burned into
their thighs. Gor was such a barbaric and savage planet, I thought to
myself - a world that still clung to outmoded concepts such as slavery.
"Everyone in the cages eats," said the man again. He apparently had no
idea who I was, and he didn't really care. I was simply a woman locked
in a punishment cage. And it was his duty to feed the women who were
locked in punishment cages. The fact that I was in a punishment cage was
all he needed to know.
"Listen, I understand how this looks, but if you would just go and check
with Kurgus, I'm sure..." I paused as I saw the man reach for the whip
hanging from a hook on his belt. He unclipped it and let the whip uncoil
towards the ground. "Everyone in the cages eats," he said again. "Must
you be whipped first?"
"Okay. You've made your point!" I slid back a couple of horts to the
extent that I was able to within the cage. "I'm eating. Look, I'm
eating." I quickly dipped my right hand into the mush and, lifting my
veil slightly with the left, placed several fingers full of the gruel
into my mouth. As the man watched I swallowed and dipped my hand back
into the bowl. It was a deeply unpleasant taste but better than the
consequences of not eating. Kurgus would be furious when he learnt of
this outrage. The man would be lucky to escape with his neck intact. He
would certainly lose his job and be cast out. I consoled myself by
imagining the look on his face when he discovered exactly what kind of
serious mistake he had just made.
"Why aren't you stripped?" asked the man with a puzzled expression. He
examined the cage door and routinely checked the security of the padlock
to ensure it hadn't been tampered with during the night. It was heavy
iron and unbreakable without tools. Nevertheless he examined the surface
for any signs of scratches or markings or abrasions that might suggest
an escape attempt had been made. Goreans are thorough like that when it
comes to the chaining or confinement of women.
"Look, you obviously haven't been told. Kurgus was..." I suddenly
flinched back as the man slapped the cage bars with the handle of his
whip. "Eat." The man said as he pointed with the whip at the bowl. I
quickly addressed my attention to the slave gruel again. Satisfied now,
the man turned his back and slid bowls of water from a rain cistern into
each cage, after which he headed towards the sleen pens on the other
side of the courtyard.
After finishing most of the contents of the food bowl, I pushed the
smeared remains away to the corner of the cage. In just an ahn or two
Kurgus would be awake and he would release me. I felt sore and tired and
desperately looked forward to stretching my aching, cramped legs.
"Mistress." The girl, Lana, spoke softly from the other cage. I turned
to regard her. "We are expected to clean the bowls completely." She
pointed now at the wooden bowl in the corner of the cage. Quantities of
the greasy paste remained smeared around its inner surface. "The Master
will not be pleased when he returns."
I gazed at the powerful back and shoulders of the overseer as he emptied
cuts of meat from a heavy bucket into the sleen pens through a grille in
the ceiling. He was a man who had laboured hard since his youth,
building muscle layers on top of muscle layers. I then gazed down at the
bowl. Kurgus would be awake soon. He had promised to release me in the
morning. I kicked the bowl angrily with my left foot. Damn Kurgus's
hired thugs. Why the hell didn't they know who I was?
"The Master has a whip, Mistress," whispered Lana. "We are expected to
clean the bowls completely with our tongues." I could of course still
see the whip, coiled now in loops, hanging from the man's belt and I
knew whips were routinely used on Gorean slaves but of course I myself
was not a slave. This had got seriously out of hand. Kurgus would be
livid when he finally awoke. I watched as the man emptied the last of
the cuts of meat into the pits and wiped his hands clean on his rough
brown tunic. There was the distinct sound of ripping and the tearing of
flesh and the crunching of bones from inside the sleen pits. I shivered
at the thought of the sleen for I knew they were bred for hunting on
Gor. Pity the poor man or woman who turned out to be their prey. Kurgus
would be awake soon. But what if he did not rise for a few ahn yet? Very
soon the heavy set, broad shouldered man would return to inspect the
girl pens, quite possibly before Kurgus arrived. And yet, the threat of
the whip was surely just that - a threat. The Lady Felicia Fonseca
Gebara Torres was obviously not a slave. The man would not truly raise a
finger against her without first checking why she was in a cage. He
simply wouldn't dare. As I watched, the man turned slowly round and
began to walk back towards the row of girl cages in which I sat.
I quickly reached for the wooden bowl and, before the man could return,
began to wipe my fingers around the inside of the bowl, licking the
gruel paste from them as Lana watched. "Very good, Mistress," said Lana
softly as she clutched the adjoining bars with her small hands. A trace
of a smile haunted her rouged lips. "Be sure to clean it completely,
Mistress."
"Shut up!" I hissed as I finished the last of the gruel. In my haste I
had stained my veils with the paste, for the man with the whip had
almost returned to the row of five cages before I had breathlessly
finished. He stopped beside my cage first. "Show me the bowl, girl," he
said, gazing down at the woman in the robes and veils. I lifted the
wooden bowl in cupped hands and turned it so that the inside was open to
inspection. A moment passed before the man nodded and moved on to the
next cage to inspect Lana's bowl too.
Then, with a set of keys that hung from his belt, the vile man began to
unlock our cage doors. He motioned for us to crawl out, and we gladly
did so. Oh, but the cramp in my legs and back was horrible as the three
of us groaned and stretched our stiff calf muscles.
The overseer gave us five ehn before he barked orders at us. "Wash
yourselves at the trough." he pointed to a stone water trough large
enough to lie in that was filled with cold rain water. As he spoke, he
sniffed in my direction and realised what had happened during the night.
"Strip. Give me your clothes. Wash yourself completely."
"I will not." There was no way I was going to strip naked in a courtyard
overlooked by many of the outbuildings and bathe myself in a water
trough. "Please escort me to my chambers and I will..."
He shook loose his whip with a sudden movement that was too quick for me
to follow. "Girls in the punishment cages eat. Then girls in the
punishment cages wash."
"He will whip you, Mistress," whispered Lana. "He does not care who you
are or why you were in the cage, only that you were in the cage. He is a
harsh Master. He will hurt you."
I chewed my lower lip and nodded. "I am not used to disrobing myself," I
explained. "Ordinarily I have a personal slave to help me. The clasps,
and fastenings are sometimes difficult to reach."
"You and you." The overseer pointed his whip at Lana and Sally. "Undress
her.Then see she washes herself."
Lana and Sally gazed at one another in amazement. Of course the girls
were only too happy to oblige for they wrongly sensed an impending
change in my status. It is worth mentioning that slave-girls greatly
fear Free Women and try their best to avoid them for fear of being
displeasing in some trivial, usually contrived way which might lead to
vicious punishments. Free Women are often cruel to slave-girls, and this
is due to various issues that I have touched upon previously. The fact
is, many Free Women are secretly jealous of certain aspects of a slave's
life, purely because they themselves are subject to so many cultural
restrictions regarding dress, behaviour, sex and relating to men in
general. Slave-girls should I suppose hate Free Women in return, but
often they simply pity them. They see (or know from past experience) how
unhappy and frustrated the Free Women of Gor can be. A slave-girl will
always be polite and deferential to a Free Woman of course, but it is
generally a fa?ade born out of fear, for a Free Woman's mood swings can
be unpredictable when it comes to girls in collars, and it is usually
the poor girl in a collar who the Free Woman takes out her frustrations
on.
There is an exception to the rule that slave-girls fear Free Women of
course and it is on the rare occasion that a Free Woman is about to be
reduced to slavery. Then the true emotions show when the slave-girls
sense the tables are about to be turned and they realise with growing
delight that they no longer need to fear the haughty veiled Lady who in
the past could have had them whipped for no reason at all. Now they no
longer need to guard themselves carefully to avoid arousing her jealousy
each time a man looks upon them. Now the slave-girl recognises that the
Free Woman is about to become a slave herself and the moment for payback
draws near.
Slave-girls can be very cruel when the tables are finally turned on a
Free Woman they may know, and even some they don't know, when she is
stripped, forced to her knees and collared by a man. Now she stands in
for all the pent up frustrations and anger that slave-girls have put up
with and it is suddenly her turn to be very frightened. Her first few
weeks as a slave will often be harsh if the other girls in her pen used
to know her and had to serve her when she was Free. It must be dreadful
indeed to be penned with girls who were once at your beck and call -
girls who you may have been petty and vindictive to - girls who of
course are far more experienced and in favour with your new Master than
you yourself are. Girls who can, if they wish, make you look very bad
indeed. Girls who will quickly establish your place in the cage's
pecking order with you at the very bottom.
Lana's hands were on the clasps and hooks of my outer brocade robes. She
smiled at me sweetly, still deferentially, as she began to loosen the
garments. It was the pleasing smile she always offered to mask perhaps
her true emotions at having to serve a woman prone to unexpected mood
swings and emotional demands. But I could sense from the look in Lana's
eyes and the eyes of Sally that the girls secretly hoped that my caging
and current treatment was but a precursor to me being enslaved. They
didn't understand that Kurgus would free me very soon. He had said so,
and if there was one thing I could be certain of, it was that Kurgus
would see no point in lying about such a thing. I would be freed in due
course, after I had learnt my lesson. I just needed to hold out until he
returned. It was unlikely that any of this had been ordered by Kurgus;
rather I was the victim of unseen consequences of being caged on a whim.
Kurgus of course would hardly be upset by my treatment so far - he might
indeed find it amusing that I had been made to eat gruel - but I do not
believe he had ordered it. The girls however didn't know that. Their
fear of me was not so great now. It was possible, they thought, that by
tonight I might perhaps be branded and snivelling in their kennel pens.
In time there would be other Free Women in the house, guests again of
Kurgus, and then I too would have to serve and learn to fear their wrath
as these girls had once feared me.
Of course Lana and Sally did not know how valuable I was to Kurgus in
other ways. Kurgus needed me to be free to work for him in Patashqar.
That was a fact. It would take far too long to train a replacement
agent, and besides, my offence yesterday had not been severe enough to
warrant a collar. Too, I think, Kurgus had grown to like me in his own
way, as far as he liked anyone but himself.
"You have pretty legs, Mistress," said Sally as she drew away my outer
and inner gowns. It was a rather a bold thing for a slave-girl to say to
her Mistress, but it was further evidence that her fear of me was a
fragile thing now. She assumed signs of my downfall that she would
perhaps regret the next morning. I stood there, still veiled, in just my
under slip, a brief silken thing that fell to an inch or two above my
knees. It was a soft peach colour and sleeveless. Lana meanwhile began
to unpin my veils and brush my hair loose with her fingers. They could
see what was plainly obvious - I had a beautiful body and a beautiful
face to match.
The slip was drawn from my body, and Lana in particular delighted in the
shock that was evident in my face as she pulled it over my head. I could
feel the cool morning air on my bare skin for the first time since I had
come to Gor.
"If Mistress will come this way," said Lana happily. She preceded me
towards the cold water trough, while Sally walked gracefully behind me.
I had the feeling I was being herded like a new slave-girl, and I didn't
like it.
I refused to look up at any of the windows in the outbuildings that
surrounded the courtyard as Lana instructed me to sit in the cold water.
Men would be up by now, and some of them may have been in the habit of
watching the morning ritual of errant slave-girls washing in the nude.
If men were watching me now from the high windows, I would rather not
know. I sat shivering in the cold water that went up to my waist as Lana
and Sally scrubbed me with a hard cake of plain soap and a brush. This
was not how Louise washed me in the mornings in warm scented water with
a tray of peeled grapes to hand. My head was gently but firmly held
under the water as Lana scrubbed my hair with the hard cake of soap. I
was allowed to rinse myself, and when I finally rose, shivering in the
cold shadows of the morning, I was rubbed roughly dry with rep cloth
before being given the same brief white slave tunic as Lana and Sally
were given. Obviously my robes were stained and unwearable, and the
slave tunics were the only female garments to hand, but even so, it was
a further indignity I had to endure.
Surely Kurgus would be here soon.
I could of course have refused to wear the degrading garment, but the
alternative would have been to be naked. Given the choice I pulled the
tight, clingy rep-cloth over my body and tried to smooth it down as far
as it would go, which wasn't far.
"Mistress looks no different from us," said Lana with a smile.
"I have no brand," I reminded the girl.
"Yes, but the tunic conceals the brand, Mistress. Anyone looking at you
now might assume you were branded."
And so, having scrubbed the urine stains from between my inner thighs,
and having been given a scandalously brief slave tunic to wear, I knelt
with Lana and Sally beside the brick wall, close to the stables. A
horizontal bar was bolted to the wall and we were in turn secured with
leash chains to it. In the case of Lana and Sally the chains were simply
locked to their collar rings, but as I didn't have a collar, a simple
display collar was fitted around my neck and locked shut. Such collars
are generally not personalised except to perhaps bear the identifying
mark of a coffle chain and are used primarily for securing large numbers
of freshly captured women, for example when the walls of a city are
breached during a siege and the inevitable looting and pillaging takes
place.
Nothing I could say would prevent the man from locking me in place. It
was embarrassing beyond measure to be chained before the two girls like
this. They knew me of course as the Mistress of the House, and so my
temporary fall from grace was excruciatingly humiliating. I wore an
identical white slave tunic to theirs - cut high on my legs, barely
covering where I would have been branded had I been a slave-girl. With
the collar on my throat, albeit a plain coffle one, and the brief slave
garment concealing the fact I wasn't branded, it might be easy to
mistake me for one of Kurgus's girls. I certainly didn't look free. I
placed my hands on the length of chain that hung from the display bar
and felt the cold of the steel. It would hold me here perfectly until
Kurgus appeared to collect his pitiful agent.
I watched as the Pen Handler collected his buckets and left the
courtyard. We were alone now, alone until who knows when. I felt
incredibly angry with Kurgus, and even more angry with the ignorant man
who had just assumed he could make me eat gruel, make me strip and wash
and make me kneel on punishment display with Lana and Sally.
The girls were uncharacteristically silent, not sure what to make of the
House Mistress being punished in this way. They bore no love for me of
course, for slave- girls learn quickly to fear Free Women, and so you
might think they would tease me for my predicament. However there was no
way of knowing just how permanent my fall form grace might be, and no
slave-girl would care to risk the possibility that later today I would
be unchained, wearing my fine clothes once again. Any remembered slights
would then quickly be punished.
"You will never, ever speak of this to anyone, Lana, Sally," I said
coldly, without looking at the girls.
"Of course not, Mistress," said Sally in a whisper.
"It is terrible what men have done to you, Mistress," said Lana quietly.
Neither girl felt that way of course. I suspected with good reason that
both Lana and Sally might be only too pleased if I remained this way
permanently. Indeed, they probably relished my current humiliating
predicament and would giggle about it together in days to come. I could
not however add to my humiliation by allowing them to know that I knew
that to be the case.
"I will be freed soon," I said with certainty.
"Of course you will, Mistress. This is all a terrible misunderstanding
on the part of Crassius."
"That is his name?" I asked. "He has the manners of a pig."
"It is Mistress."
"I shall remember it well. No doubt Kurgus will dismiss him from the
Household."
"I do not think that is very likely Mistress," said Sally before a
warning glance from Lana shut her up. "But Mistress is probably right.
His time here will no doubt be over soon."
"Kurgus did not mean for things to go this far," I said as I tugged on
my neck chain. It felt very secure.
"We feel for you, Mistress," said Lana. "This should not have happened
to you. It is a horrible thing that has been done to you."
There was a choking sound from Sally which almost but not quite sounded
like a slave-girl trying to choke back a series of uncontrollable
giggles.
I flushed red. Inside they were each laughing at me, enjoying what had
happened. But my dignity meant I could not acknowledge it.
"Thank you, Lana." I had to force myself back from the edge of tears. I
couldn't let the girls see me cry. I had to remain resilient for
appearances sake, or else their joy would be even greater.
"It will be over soon," I said again.
The sound of footsteps on the flagstones made me look up, as did the
other girls. It was a male slave, dressed in a woollen work tunic. He
had entered the courtyard through the main archway and he stood maybe
fifteen feet away gazing at us. We were arrayed in a line in a sequence
of height. Both Lana and Sally were an inch or two taller than me and so
I was at the left hand side of the line. Sally was at the right, with
pretty Lana in the middle.
I stared at the slave and suddenly my composure and self control
evaporated. I lowered my head quickly, now terrified. I couldn't believe
this was happening. I heard the footsteps again as the slave approached
closer. My heartbeat pounded in my chest, and I knew the girls could
sense something was suddenly wrong with me.
No. Please don't let him come closer, I thought to myself. Please do not
let him see me like this.
"Lift your head, girl," said a male voice that I recognised only too
well. "You're in display position, so display yourself."
I sobbed. Now the humiliating situation had turned into a nightmare. I
couldn't look up. Tears rolled down my cheeks freely. I tried to appear
small, fearful of the slave recognising me.
"Mistress," whispered Lana quickly. "You are in a display collar. It
would be wise to do as he says."
"Must I repeat a command?" said the slave. I felt his hand grip my hair
and force my head up. My eyes met his.
Brinn smiled as he gazed down at me. "Tal, Lady Felicia." He did not
call me Mistress, but then I suppose it was difficult to remember I was
the Mistress the way I appeared to him now.
"Tal, Brinn." My quivering voice betrayed my miserable condition, much
to the seeming delight of Lana and Sally, both of whom remained
perfectly still, eagerly awaiting new developments in my shame.
"It seems I was wrong when I speculated, many days ago in the market
place, how enticing you might look kneeling, in a slave tunic, collared,
chained to a display bar, awaiting the retun of your Master."
"Brinn?" I felt so small, so vulnerable, kneeling before this powerful
man.
"You are in fact even more beautiful that I dared give you credit for. I
had no idea that you could truly be this desirable in a simple chain and
collar arrangement. You are magnificent."
"This is not what it looks like, Brinn," I moaned.
"Oh? And how do you think it looks?"
"I am free. I am not a slave. I am not branded."
"Yet." He smiled." Say, 'I am not branded yet', Lady Felicia."
"I will not play your games Brinn. You are a slave here. I will soon be
free again. You have no authority over me in the meantime."
"Is that so?" Brinn seemed to be enjoying this far more than he had any
reason to be. "Lana, is your Mistress perhaps unaware of where she is
right now?"
"I think so, Master," said Lana, as she lowered her eyes respectfully.
This confused me. Why was Lana calling Brinn 'Master'? He was just a
work slave. He had no authority over her. I knew for a fact that female
slaves had little respect for male slaves. I didn't understand this.
"Do you know where you are right now, Lady Felicia?" asked Brinn
pleasantly.
"Chained to a display bar in a private courtyard where the punishment
cages are kept." I stared at him in anger. "I think that is obvious
enough. I see no point in asking me."
"Correct. But do you know why you are being displayed?"
"It is a punishment of sorts. Girls are caged in punishment cages during
the night and then displayed here in the morning before being sent back
to the kennels. Again, you are asking me the obvious."
I was not afraid of him. Not really. He was a work slave. I was free. It
was however embarrassing to be seen by him like this. Humiliating beyond
words, but now that the damage was done, my humiliation turned to anger.
How dare he. How dare he! I was a free Woman. He was a slave. Soon, in a
few ahn Kurgus would return to release me. As I looked up at Brinn I
resolved firmly to have him whipped tonight. I had never ordered a slave
whipped before, but tonight I would do so. Too, the whip would be
wielded by a Gorean man. I would see Brinn's back torn bloody under the
weight of the lash. Then let him look at me with his mocking expression.
I would have him whipped until he was incapable of rising from the
floor, and then I would stand before him, turning a foot so that he
could kiss and lick my sequinned slipper, reminding him of his true
place.
"To what purpose?" he asked.
"I don't understand, Brinn." His inane questioning made my temper rise
even more. Oh, hurry back Kurgus, unlock this collar from my throat,
give me clothes to wear and then I will have my revenge.
"Do you know why I happen to be here this morning?" asked Brinn.
"No, I do not. But since you ask, you should in fact be at work in the
fields by now, or perhaps cleaning my palanquin. Why are you not
working?"
"My overseer has given me the morning off. One slave receives the
benefit each month in recognition of exceptional hard work. It has been
a tradition here for many years. Today was my turn."
"Oh." I shook my head. "Well, congratulations, Brinn." My voice sounded
icy. "I shall perhaps review that custom in future." I gripped my
display chain with both hands. I was acutely aware how brief the slave
tunic was. I hardly dared move for it to reveal even more of my thighs.
"It seems she truly does not understand," said Brinn to Sally with
another laugh.
"No, Master," said Sally, looking fearful. She knelt now with her thighs
apart as if presenting to a Free man. So too now did Lana. I was even
more confused. "I truly think the Mistress does not know." Sally's lower
lip curled into a slightly intriguing smile as she momentarily made eye
contact with Brinn. They both laughed as if at some private joke. "I do
not think it is a case of her being stupid, Master. I merely think she
has never been told."
"What is going on with you two?" I snapped at Sally in particular. "You
despise male slaves. I know that for a fact. You think them weak for
being in collars. What is wrong with you?"
Neither girl would look at me.
I began to feel uneasy.
"Your legs are very beautiful, Lady Felicia," said Brinn. "As are your
lips." He seemed far too confident. He wasn't a stupid man. He must know
what I could do to him later today.
"Call me Mistress," I snapped.
"I think not. Not this morning."
"You will regret this later today," I hissed.
"Maybe. We shall see. Tell her, Lana."
"Tell me? Tell me what?" I stared at the girl to my left, who sat to the
right of me from Brinn's perspective.
"As well as having a morning free, the slave has the right to use any
one of the girls chained to the display bar," said Lana, happy now for
she was beginning to suspect neither her or Sally might be chosen that
day. "It is traditional in the pens. The chosen girl must serve him as
she might serve a Free man in all respects."
"No!"
"But, yes, Lady Felicia," said Brinn, as he stood over me. "Perhaps the
overseer felt sorry for me. After all, I have not been permitted a woman
for two months now." With a flourish he produced the key that he had
been given by his overseer. It was, I guessed, a key that could unlock
the linking chain to any one of our collars. "I may choose any girl who
Crassius has chained to the display bar in the morning. Any girl."
"No!" I drew back until I was pressed against the hard brick wall. I
clutched again futilely at the neck chain. "I'm not a slave! I'm not
supposed to have been put out there!"
"And yet here you are," said Brinn. "Here you are."
"Choose Sally!"
"But she does not have the prettiest legs."
"Choose Lana!"
"But she does not have the prettiest lips."
"You can't choose me! This is a mistake! Kurgus would not allow this!
Kurgus will be here in an ahn or two to release me. You can't choose
me!" I was screaming in pure panic now, for all the good it was doing.
"Brinn! Think rationally! I know you're angry because you've been denied
a woman for a while now..."
"For two months," he noted with a determined gaze on my body.
"I'm sorry. It was petty of me. I'll rescind the order. Just don't do
this! You can have any girl you like. I'll have her sent to your pen
tonight. You can have two of them..."
"The Lady Felicia is incredibly generous. But I think I can save