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Julie Banner's feet were in pain so she left the nightclub early that
night. With it being 1 AM, her prospects of getting what she wanted were
quickly diminishing. The lady who wanted action knew no one new was
going to show up, and none of the men at that meat market were worth her
feet throbbing. Now if there was some grade-A prime stud she could get,
then she would not even notice the pain those 6" fuck-me heels gave her.
She would be working her magic to get him in bed.
The lady who wanted a man's touch did feel kind of shallow for not
giving any of the men at the club a chance at enjoying her skills. It
was not that she had anything against them, in fact she knew a couple of
them were real keepers. If one of those keepers were her man she would
not even notice how tight those heels which made her ass look great
were.
Julie just wanted meaningless sex. She could not get revved up for a
wild session of passion without being sexually aroused by her partner.
These men at the club, she would have to form an emotional connection
with them to want them.
Having that momentary emotional connection was not good enough for her.
It just reminded her that she felt a disconnect with being human. The
lady who needed more than she wanted could not stand the thought that if
she made another connection with someone it would just end.
As she was walking back to her hotel room, Julie knew she was going to
have to settle down one day soon. Her body just could not take the wear
and tear she put on it to go out. More and more of her sexy shoes hurt
her feet if she was in them too long. Those late nights at the club made
the party girl lose the next day to sleep. She felt like she had the
corset on for days afterwards. Also, she was just so uncomfortable
tucking in her manhood.
Another reason was the price, in money and time, to be out and about as
Julie. With living in a small town she had to take the train to London,
stay in a hotel, and then the price for a drink at a nightclub was
outrageous compared to her local pub. It cost her well over 200? and an
entire weekend just for a couple of hours of social interaction as the
fabulous Julie.
The main reason, the one she thought of the least, was she was getting
older. That one was the cause of all the complaints she had about the
other reasons it was not as fun to go out. Plus, she had different needs
in her life now. It was not about late nights and being seen. The lady
who was maturing found that life was about the little everyday events.
It was about sharing your morning cup of coffee with that someone
special. It was about feeling alive by just being alive.
Before turning the corner, Julie stopped in the take away shop to grab
some food. It was her usual order of three pieces of chicken with hot
wings, fries, and one Pepsi. The worker made his regular comment of it
was amazing how she kept a great figure while eating so much. Julie gave
her regular comment of she was picking up an order for a special friend.
**********
It was a little after 1 AM, and AJ was sitting under the overpass
fighting off his body shutting down for the night. He was tired and
should have retreated back into the shadows of the world to go to sleep.
The troubled man only truly found peace when in the land of Hypnos. He
so wanted the sweet release of not being conscious. That was the only
time he was not sentient of what his life has become.
Finding peace was not important to AJ's troubled soul at that moment. It
was a little after 1 AM, and Julie should be turning the corner soon. He
could put up with the uneasy feelings he had from the pressure of just
being gave him, for she was special. She treated him like he was a
human. It was the only true interaction he had with anyone and was
becoming less frequent.
Even if he wasn't the most social person in the world, he would still
want to talk with Julie tonight. For once, he had something of
importance to tell her. Even just knowing, for once, he had something of
significance to share, was making him feel human. It was worth fighting
off the sweet embrace of evanescent nothingness to feel human.
AJ feeling human used to be weekly, then it went to a fortnight. Now, it
was creeping up to only monthly. He knew it would not last forever,
nothing did. It did sadden him that she would just never show up again
in his life and there would be no proper goodbye. No closure on one of
the few good things in his life. Then hopefully he would find something
which would give him the grace to feel human again.
Thinking of that day he would find out Julie was no more part of his
life also brought joy to him. If she moved on from going to the
nightclub, that meant Julie found what she was looking for. The angel
incarnate deserved true happiness, the kind which only came from within.
The man with the wounded soul knew the good memories of a good soul
giving the most important thing a person has, time, to him would carry
him on in future hard times. She would keep on giving to him long after
he faded from her memory.
Her stopping to speak with him on her journey back to her hotel gave him
nourishment for both his body and soul. The man whose roof was the sky
could feel the endorphins lift his mood when she listened to him. It
also provided wine for his body and soul, she would always stop at the
corner shop after dropping off the food, to get him whatever he wanted
to drink.
The man who went by AJ knew it was a little after 1 AM and was waiting
to see if he had a couple minutes of being human again. It might be the
last time he got it personally from Julie.
**********
As soon as Julie started to walk under the overpass, her feet were
aching less, her corset felt a little looser, and her gaff was better
fitting. It was from seeing her friend AJ. Julie gave a friendly stare
to her friend as she waved to him.
Most people averted their gaze from him for what he was and how he
looked. People looked past the homeless for they did not want to
interact with them. They might be asked to give alms. People also did
not want to look at AJ for he was faceless. His long beard, sunglasses,
and mane of dreadlocks covered any distinguishing features which would
show he was once an individual.
AJ always bit his tongue at this point, as she waved. Even with knowing
that his friend was going to stop to talk with him, he did not want to
make any assumptions. That simple assumption of interaction would also
be an expectation. If the expectation was not met, it would crush his
fragile soul.
Julie smiled. "Hey AJ, it's great to see you!"
AJ wanting his old friend to at least know his real name said, "Julie,
you know this is all my pleasure, and please call me Austin tonight."
Julie was a little tipsy and almost asked why Austin, then she figured
out that was her friend's name. It touched her that the faceless man
with the unshared past opened up to her. "OK Austin, you hold on to the
food, and what do you want to drink?"
Julie asked the question full-well already knowing the answer- A bottle
of red wine, the cheapest one. Austin asked for the least because he did
not want her to spend any more money on him than she had to. "OJ. I want
some orange juice."
Julie thought that maybe the man with hurt in his soul, needed to go to
stronger pain relief. "With vodka?"
"No, I am not drinking tonight. Can you please also get me a cake and
chocolate milk? I just want something sweet. I can give you the extra
money for the dessert."
"Austin, the after dinner treat will be on me. It is the least I can do
for you, with what you do for me."
If those words came from anyone else, Austin would have taken them as
pity. With Julie, he did not. He knew that she was missing something
from her life and that void was forgotten when they talked. Austin did
not know why just talking to him did so, but was grateful he added to
their relationship.
"Thank you. Hurry back, I have to tell you something."
Not wanting or expecting anything from Julie was what Austin added to
the relationship. He was the only person she knew that was glad to just
see her. She liked that she made him happy by just being herself. It
made her feel better about being who she was than any worthless one
night stand.
As Julie crossed the street, Austin thought that was how he should
picture her. The smile on her face as she was happy to give a little
kindness to a lost soul, was how he should remember her. He made the
decision this was going to be the last time he saw her. That was still
something important, but not his original news.
"So what do you have to tell me, Austin?"
With a tear hidden by his sunglasses, the man who was about to end who
he was said, "This is the last time you will see me."
Julie felt bad for she knew her not coming up to go clubbing weakened
their friendship. "Oh come on Austin, I will start coming back up here
more often. I Just need to find my groove again.
Even if I don't, why don't you move down by me? Salisbury is a nice
little town. There is a nice community there for you to join."
How Julie called the homeless residents of her hometown a community made
Austin feel good. She saw them as human also. Knowing that he was not
special to her made him feel normal. Made him know at that moment, he
was making the right choice.
"Julie, I do not want to join that community. I want to help them, not
join them. I am done with living on the street. I am done with trying to
live my life in a bottle. I am going to get help, then I will help
others.
I wanted to tell you, for you helped me come to this decision. You
treating me like you treated anyone else made me want it more. I want to
be human again.
I was going to wait until you disappeared from my life by not coming up
here anymore. My news was about me just starting to turn around my life.
Now, I need to do it right now. I need you to know you changed someone's
life by just being you. I need you to see that the old me is no more"
That joyous news made Julie sad. She knew she was being selfish, but it
was yet another connection in her life that ended. They might not be
close friends, but Julie felt a close and deep connection to Austin. She
cared for him, for who he was, and she knew he cared for her, for who
she was. Not wanting to cry, Julie cracked a joke. "Who will I share my
after clubbing meals with now?"
"How about that Rob you talked about? You know, the guy from Amesbury
you chat with at the club?"
Julie laughed, she was not ready for Rob to be a bigger part of her
life. Rob was one of those keepers she saw at the club tonight. She was
not good enough, in her mind, to be the person Rob shared his life with.
She needed to become a better person. "I am not ready for him. He
deserves someone who can give him a good life. I can only give him a
good time."
"You can give him a good life. You help others, you made me see that I
can help others just by being yourself. You made me a better person just
being in your presence. I will say you are able to give him a good life
for you will be trying to.
Don't worry, you will be fine without me. Also don't worry about me, I
am now part of your past."
Those words, and Austin's decision to change, made Julie see that she
needed to change also. She needed to take the chance with Rob. She knew
she could land him in bed, she was just scared that she could not keep
him around outside of the bedroom.
"Fine, I will, but here is the deal: Six months from tonight, we will
meet right here. I want to see Austin after he changed his life."
"I will be there."
Julie was hurt by the truth of Austin becoming just a memory. It was
goodbye. They would not see each other ever again. Even with Austin
saying he would be there, she did not believe him. It was not for he was
dishonest. Most People do not keep those kinds of promises. They were a
lie to mask the pain of two people going their separate ways for good.
*********
Six months has past, and true to her word, Julie planned to go under the
overpass after a night out on the town with Rob. She took that chance,
and landed that keeper in and out of the bedroom. Even with not being at
the club for three months, having a great time and enjoying seeing her
old friends was only nice. She did not miss it at all. It was not for
her anymore.
It was time to go, for what she enjoyed so far from the night in London,
was emerging from the Underground at Tower Hill station. That sight
always made her stop in her tracks when she saw the Tower of London
about 100 meters to her right. She found it striking to come out of a
modern day marvel of technology to see a complex which was over 800
years old, which was a marvel of technology when it was built.
It was a little past 1 AM and the couple left the club. Their friends
begged them to stay, they knew it was the last time they would see those
two. Julie knew she could stay there until the bouncers told everyone
they had to leave. Her feet were not hurting from the 6" fuck-me heels,
and the corset and gaff were feeling comfortable. Julie knew she could
not stay. Still it was time to go. The lady with a new life had a
promise she wanted to keep.
Those two picked up food from the takeaway shop and then headed for
under the overpass. They turned the corner and Julie's heart dropped. No
sign of Austin. She thought the worse, that Austin ended it all. It
pained her, and her grip on Rob's hands got a little tighter, she turned
to bury her face in his chest.
Austin was running late and turned into the other entrance of the
overpass as Julie went into premature mourning for a friend. He saw her
being held by a man and that put a smile on his face. He knew that man
had to be Rob. The reborn man picked up the pace of his stride and said,
"Julie, sorry I am late."
Hearing a stronger more confident version of Austin's voice changed
those tears of sorrow to tears of joy. "Austin!!!"
Rob looked at the love of his life and was so happy her friend made it.
He nodded to tell her it was all right to go meet him.
"Oh my God! You clean up so good Austin."
"You look so much better also Julie, that is the best smile I've ever
seen on your face."
"While I can say the same, then again, this is the first time I ever saw
your face. You are a handsome man. You better never grow a beard again!"
"Before we join Rob, I know that is Rob, for how happy you are. Answer
this question for me? Why were you so kind to me and treated me like a
human?"
"Austin, for you were so kind to me. The first night I met you, you
treated me like I was a human. You did not see me as a man in a dress.
You did not see me as a person who could help you. You only saw me as a
person. You were in pain and needed kindness so I gave it. I only
treated you how you treated me."
Afterward: This story, not the characters themselves, is based on a
personal experience in my life. There was a homeless lady who I
befriended and would buy food and a little drink for in the town I live
in every time I saw her. She never assumed I was going to when I saw
her. Then one day she was so happy to see me. It was for once she was
going to give me something, news. She told me about going to rehab.
Go ahead 9 months I saw her again. The rehab did not take. She saw me
and went the other way. The rehab did not take. I saw the shame in her
face when she knew I recognized her. She thought that forgotten her. Her
shame and was helpless to at least help her pain sadden me. That is all
I have to say about that.
Alma
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