AUTHOR'S DISCLAIMER: This story series is a fictional work set in the
Star Trek universe. I have made a reasonable effort to make the
story's details consistent with known events, situations and hardware
configurations established in previous Star Trek productions. I make
no claim to be a Star Trek purist. Any errors, in continuity or
otherwise, with prior Star Trek productions are unintentional. If
such errors offend you, I apologize in advance.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: This story is a follow on to the first installment of
Star Trek: The Transporter Incident. This is not a stand-alone story.
To fully understand this part of the story requires that the reader
have knowledge of what has already transpired. The author strongly
suggests that you read Episode I of this story before reading this
installment.
Star Trek: The Transporter Incident, Episode II
By EmiNow
I eventually faded off into a peaceful euphoric state such as I had
never before known.
The next thing I distinctly remember was waking from a wonderfully
sound sleep only to stare directly into the face of Commander Taupeda.
"Good morning, ladies."
I looked to the side of the bed where Maggie was last seen. She was
just waking. She looked straight at Taupeda and mumbled, "Not now,
Taupeda, and certainly not here."
Not knowing what Maggie was attempting to communicate, I added
"Commander Taupeda, to what do we owe this unexpected pleasure?"
"Please excuse my intrusion, ladies; I'm here on official business.
When I received no reply to my hail of the Doctor, I thought it best
to let myself in. The Captain requested that I look in on you two.
The Captain wants you two to understand that, while you are guests of
the Romulan Empire, you each have jobs on board this ship that need to
be attended to. The Doctor knows only too well that she is due on
staff in sick bay at 0800. You, Ensign, have an appointment to speak
with the Captain at 0830. Since you are not familiar with this
vessel, I will escort you to the Captain's ready room. I will return
for you at 0815. Please be in uniform. I'm sure the Doctor can give
you a quick run down on Romulan uniform protocol."
With that, Taupeda did a quick about face and exited, leaving Maggie
and I alone. "What time is it?" I asked, directing the question to no
one in particular.
"Almost 0600," replied Maggie, "time to get up. I need to get ready
for the duty day and you need to learn some things about life with the
Romulans before you meet with Gaulgetar. I need a shower. You
probably do too but, given that we don't have all day, I recommend we
not shower together. You go first. I'll fix us some breakfast while
you're washing. Romulan food replicators are a bit idiosyncratic and
there isn't time right now to teach you how they operate."
I appreciated Maggie's offering me first dibs on the shower. As I
slipped into the spray, I realized that this was the first extended
opportunity I had had to examine my female body. I intended to
examine myself at length and at my own pace. With warm water
sprinkling over my shoulders, I first shampooed my longish hair (it
seemed to take forever), then started a methodical examination of my
newly acquired femininity by examining my breasts. They were full,
probably 36C or somewhere there about. The nipples were distinct and
firm with dark, proportionate areolas. They were quite pert; the
muscle tissue supported their weight with little sagging. Were I a
male, they were a pair I would have enjoyed playing with. As it was,
I enjoyed playing with them all the more.
My waist was narrow but not extremely so. I had proportionate hips
and a firm, if slightly oversized, butt. I estimated my measurements
were close to 36-25-38. My thighs were firm and trim. I appeared to
be in good physical shape. I intended to keep it that way; I always
was one who enjoyed regular physical exercise.
I saved the examination of my vagina for the last. I slowly pulled
back the folds of my labia one at a time. I'd done this on other
vaginas before but this experience was completely new. I gently
washed each fold. I became immediately aroused and had to fight with
myself to stick to business. I began to lose track of time. It
seemed like only seconds before I heard a rap on the shower door
followed by Maggie's voice.
"Stop playing and start rinsing; this shower is a shared asset and
your time is up."
I'd been busted and I knew it. I finished rinsing, grabbed a towel to
dry myself, then stepped out of the stall. Maggie was waiting, buck
naked and towel in hand, to replace me.
As she entered the shower stall she said to me, "Before you get
distracted by other things, I seriously recommend that you get to work
drying and brushing out your hair. If you do it immediately after
showering, you'll find it much easier to work with. Long hair is a
fashion statement but it requires constant upkeep. If you don't
attend to it now, you'll wish you had. There are a great many things
you need to learn about being a woman. I can help you with many of
them. We can start with hair upkeep."
"Thanks for the advise," I replied.
"I'll give you more tips later, things about being a woman that I
learned the hard way. There are things you need to know about
Romulans in general and the crew of this ship in particular.
Meanwhile, I have my own hygiene to attend to. I left you some
breakfast; it's on the table if you're hungry."
Following Maggie's advice, I dried and brushed out my hair. As it
dried, it all just sort of fell into place. I noticed that Maggie had
laid out an assortment of cosmetics. I wasn't sure if they were for
her, for me, or for both of us. I quickly decided not to explore
make-up without some direction from Maggie. Instead, I checked out
what Maggie had prepared for breakfast.
As she said, she had laid out two plates of what, but for a distinct
blue tint, looked like scrambled eggs. They smelled like something
close enough to scrambled eggs for me to take a small nibble. Their
taste suggested scrambled eggs. I thought that Maggie wouldn't have
laid out anything unfit to eat and I was hungry so I downed one of the
plates. There were also two mugs of what could have passed for
coffee. I helped myself to one and was almost finished with the mug
when Maggie exited the shower. She noticed that I had eaten. She
asked, "Did you like the paldak eggs?"
"Paldak?" I asked.
"Paldak," she answered, "a flightless Romulan bird, the first cousin
to a chicken. The food replicators are all programmed to produce
foods native to Romulus just as Federation food replicators produce
foods native to Earth. I tried to get the replicators to produce a
few earth standards but, without a real Earth food item to use as a
prototype, there was insufficient data to create a replicator image.
So I make do with Romulan foods that approximate things on Earth. I
suggest you just get used to it."
"What about the chicken salad you prepared for me?"
"A bit of cooked paldak, some farnx leaves, some Romulan spices, a
little holographic trickery and, presto, instant chicken salad. I
make it regularly and I've gotten past the blue tint."
There was an uncomfortable pause in the conversation. I broke the
silence.
"Not meaning to change the subject, but I think I deserve to know.
Why did you deceive me by actively participating in the Romulan's
attempt to fool me into giving up Starfleet's torpedo codes? Why was
it necessary to trick me? Had I been told the truth up front I
probably would have made the same decision I ultimately made to
cooperate with the Romulans and stay here to help you. But why the
subterfuge?"
Maggie paused before she responded. I had clearly gotten into
uncomfortable territory.
"We need to get to that. With the Romulans, things are very often not
as they seem. You have some things that you need to know to bring you
up to speed with how it is to be a woman and the way things are on
this ship. Let's start with you.
"We both know that each of us started out as human males. We both
also know that that is no longer the case. If either of us is to
return to our male lives, the road will likely be long, circuitous and
bumpy. So you need to purge your memory of any thoughts of your male
life and acclimate yourself to the fact that you are now female. The
quicker you accept that fact and begin to act, and react, as a female,
the better off we will both be. Do you understand?"
I nodded my head in agreement.
"Your attraction to me, and my attraction to you, are both predicated
on how we appear to the other. I consider myself, at my core, a
heterosexual male. As such, I have no inclination to take up with a
genetic male even though I am, at the present time, outfitted as a
fully functional female. Do you consider yourself, at your core,
heterosexual or homosexual?"
"Heterosexual, like you."
"Good. We are both heterosexual but we are attracted to each other
because we each visually perceive the other as female. I submit to
you that if the Romulans had returned you to your male body, you would
have continued to be attracted to me since you view me as female. I,
on the other hand, I would not have been attracted to you since my
orientation is also to females. Am I making sense to you?"
Again, I nodded my head in agreement.
"This ship and its crew are part of an elite Romulan corps, an arm of
the Romulan spy ministry. The Romulan Space Corps is staffed with
both male and female officers and ratings. Not so this ship. On this
ship there are exactly six females. Three are young Vulcans, captured
and now held as slaves. They are assigned to the section
euphemistically called "Crew Comfort". They function as the ship's
prostitutes. There is another Vulcan, a female whom Captain Gaulgetar
has taken as his shipboard mistress. Then there are you and me.
"Our Romulan crew mates, who are exclusively male, perceive us as
female. That is an illusion that we are well advised to maintain.
Romulan males, like males of any species, are ultimately motivated by
the desire for sex. They will give you most anything you want if they
think there is a chance of an interactive orgasm in the deal. You
have to work with the tools you have at hand and, in this case, your
tool is femininity.
"Let's talk about Romulans for a moment. Romulans are a very
pragmatic people. They are loyal to themselves and to the empire, in
that order. Klingons place great emphasis on honor. A Klingon will
look you straight in the eye and, before he eviscerates you, will tell
you when and how he intends to do it. He'll tell himself that, by so
forewarning you, he has acted with great honor. Either way you end up
dead.
"A Vulcan will seldom kill; they will, however, bore you to death with
an explanation of why their course of action is totally logical and
your logic is less logical than theirs.
"A Romulan, by contrast, will kill you with stealth, from behind, with
no warning. With Romulans, you always have to watch both of their
hands because one may contain a dagger. Never trust what a Romulan
tells you. To a Romulan, lies and truth are equally appropriate when
dealing with off-worlders.
"Having said that, understand that Gaulgetar is, in some ways, an
exception to the general rule. He is a man of honor and a man of his
word. When he tells you he will do something, accept that it will
happen. But don't think for a moment that he likes you or is
sympathetic to your predicament.
"When I assumed my position as a member of this vessel's crew,
Gaulgetar warned me that I would be both the only human and the only
non-prostitute female aboard. He said that put me in a dangerous
position, particularly if word leaked that I was also a transformed
male. He promised that he would institute a policy with the enlisted
crew that I was not to be touched. He did just that. The penalty, by
the way, is summary execution. But he left the ship's officers out of
that order. He then specifically charged Commander Taupeda with
looking out for my physical well being. That put me in an awkward
position. Taupeda would guarantee my safety from the officer corps
but nothing guaranteed my safety from Taupeda.
"In fact that's how it has worked out. In exchange for guaranteeing
my personal safety, I have become, by default, Taupeda's mistress. In
exchange for favors of a sexual nature, I am allowed safe run of the
ship and complete freedom in pursuit of my medical duties. Taupeda
gained a mistress while Gaulgetar cemented the loyalty of his second-
in-command; a win-win all around, by Romulan standards."
"Now before I end my orientation regarding Gaulgetar, as I said he is,
in many ways, the exception to most Romulan rules. I am told that
Gaulgetar was happily married and quite true to his wife. They were
married for almost 20 years before she died tragically about a year
ago. That is when he took up with the Vulcan as a mistress. Rumor
among the crew is that he is madly in love with her. That same rumor
says she doesn't reciprocate that attraction but plays along for the
better quarters and lifestyle that come with being the Captain's
woman.
"When I joined Starfleet I never pictured a career path leading me to
the position of mistress to a Romulan officer. When I first committed
to work as a part of this ship's medical staff, I had hopes of
eventually jumping ship and, somehow, making my way back to Earth. My
thought was that I would be better off living my life as a female on
Earth than as a Romulan anything. But as the consort to a high
ranking Romulan officer, there is no way for me to jump ship anywhere
in Romulan space and have my disappearance go unnoticed. By taking up
with Taupeda, I sealed my own fate.
"I'm confused," I said. "We both agreed that we each consider
ourselves heterosexual. How could you take up with Taupeda and not
consider yourself homosexual?"
"Survival is a strong instinct. I was presented with the choice of
being either the mistress of Taupeda or the fuck buddy of the rest of
the officer corps. I chose the lesser of two evils. I'm not proud of
the choice I made but it has kept me alive. You had better be
thinking of the choices you will have to make. I'm sure Gaulgetar has
more to discuss with you this morning than torpedo codes."
That thought brought a chill to my spine and the conversation to an
abrupt lengthy pause.
"Now to directly answer your question about why I deceived you, the
answer is complicated. Understand that all Romulan spacecraft are
equipped for battle, including this one. That having been said, this
ship's main mission is spying. There is far more intelligence
gathering equipment aboard this vessel than armament. In fact, her
mission, until yesterday, was to shadow the Enterprise to determine
Starfleet's intentions in this sector."
I injected, "The Enterprise was on a mapping mission."
"Indeed it was and we found little evidence to of anything but that.
But there is, from a Romulan viewpoint, a fine line between mapping
for geographic and geological purposes and assembly of intelligence
useful in planning an attack on the Romulan Empire. Never
underestimate the paranoia Romulans hold concerning non-Romulan
species and cultures.
"Now understand that the Federation spies on the Empire to the same
degree that the Empire spies on the Federation. Neither side trusts
the other. That distrust is well founded. But the Tribax really
posed no substantial threat to the Enterprise. Her mission was to
observe, not to attack. The captain's orders are explicit; do not
fire unless fired upon.
"Yesterday the ship experienced a major failure of its main power
system. That left her without warp power and able to maintain her
cloak only for, at most, 12 hours. Given the Enterprise's sensor
range, this ship could never have hidden from the Enterprise without
her cloak but also could not have withdrawn beyond detection by the
Enterprise's sensors before the cloak was lost. That left the captain
with only one choice, to attack and hope to disable the Enterprise
long enough to escape back to Romulan space. That's where you came
in.
"This ship's sensors detected the survival exercise under way. The
Romulans identified you as someone who had access to the torpedo codes
and had little Starfleet experience. A plan was quickly hatched to
bring you on board the Tribax, transform you to a female, and convince
you that the only way you would ever regain your malehood was to
divulge the Enterprise's torpedo codes. I was invited to sit in on
the planning session. I was assigned the task of trying to get you to
reveal the codes voluntarily. I accepted my assignment voluntarily.
It was unfair to you to be deceived but, in the scheme of things, it
was necessary.
"Had the Enterprise detected the Tribax in her damaged state, she
would have been seized by the Enterprise and her crew taken prisoner.
As the only human on board, I would probably have been charged with
treason and possibly executed. But it was not my personal fate that I
was concerned with. The capture of the Tribax in what would have
clearly been Federation space would have humiliated the Romulans. The
Romulan's probable response would have been a series of guerilla raids
against Federation outposts along the Neutral Zone. In response to
these Romulan attacks, the Federation would arm the Federation side of
the Neutral Zone to the teeth. Given this situation, an all out war
with the Federation would have been inevitable. I didn't want that
war laid on my shoulders. I seem to always be choosing the lesser of
two evils. I chose to participate in the Tribax's escape voluntarily.
What I didn't factor into my calculation was you volunteering to
remain on the Tribax and I totally miscalculated my response to your
offer to aid me in my gender dilemma.
"Before yesterday, I had been without human contact for over 6 months.
I wasn't prepared for the emotional effects that interaction with
another human would have on me. My mission was to get you to give up
the Enterprise's torpedo codes. I ended up giving up my emotional
core. Intellectually, I knew you were a male but physically you were
a human and I was horny as hell. The thought of sex with someone
other than a sweaty, ill-behaved Romulan, and a young and attractive
human at that, overwhelmed my better judgment. I didn't mean to
develop an emotional attachment to you. I don't intend to allow
myself to continue that attraction. Hereafter, I will restrict my
relationship with you strictly to business. I suggest you do so as
well."
That suggestion struck me like a bag of bricks. My first reaction was
that I was flattered she found me attractive. In my heart I knew,
against all logic, that I was in love with Maggie. Beyond that,
though, I had not thought out any of the realities of the situation.
Intellectually, I knew Maggie was just an image; the real Maggie was a
man just as I was. I then realized that I was much more emotionally
driven than I ever had been before. Perhaps the estrogen that was
pulsing through my newly feminized body was affecting my thought
processes. I needed time to think this situation out.
"Do you understand what I'm saying to you? Are we on the same page
here? Can we put the sexual stuff aside and work together as crew
mates and as the Starfleet officers that we are, or at least were? We
have a mission to accomplish, to regain our male bodies and get back
to Starfleet. Are you up for this? Are you with me, here, Fil?"
I was still trying to bring my thought processes on line when I found
my head, acting on auto-pilot, nodding in agreement.
"Good. Now there's a lot you need to know about being a female and we
haven't got much time.
"Let's talk about make-up. It took me forever to get the hang of it
and you don't have that long. Even Romulan women wear at least a
basic foundation, rouge and lip stick. Some things, I guess, are
universal, no pun intended. You'd better get used to wearing at least
a basic make-up. I haven't time to instruct you in how to do it right
so, for today, I'm going to do your make-up for you. Later I'll help
you with how to do it yourself. Likewise, I'll help you with your
hair style. You are fortunate in that your hair naturally falls into
something that approximates an attractive style. You should count
your blessings.
"I'm going to say this to you discretely but you need to know that, as
a human female, you will menstruate. Probably not today but your day
is coming." That thought sent a distinct shiver down by back. "You
need to know how to handle this. We'll talk about this at length
later.
"You'll need to practice assuming a female demeanor. This will take
some time and effort. For now, just remember the basics. Romulan
males, even more than human males, are threatened by aggressive female
behavior by those they view as subordinate. They will listen to you
if you present your ideas passively, more as suggestions than orders.
Never speak to a Romulan in a demeaning manner. Never suggest that a
Romulan in a superior position is wrong. Always present your ideas as
logical but purely suggestive. To do otherwise is self defeating.
You have to think of yourself as a second class citizen. You'll find
it easier to get along with Romulans if you do. Your mission, at
least for now, is to get along with the Romulans, to get them to
accept and trust you. Understood?"
"One more thing you need to know is that the Romulans are masters of
illusion. They have taken holographic imaging technology to levels
that make Starfleet pale by comparison. You saw how complete and
believable the imaging was when you transported onto the Tribax
yesterday. Did you even slightly suspect that you were not on the
Enterprise? The Romulans ability to make believe a 3D holographic
image is real is without parallel. Be very careful. Things you see
and people you meet today may not be as they seem. They may test you
on what you say, do and on your loyalties. I can't tell you how to
differentiate the real from the unreal. You will have to use your
instincts for that. Just be aware at all times and never accept what
you see as real."
She inserted a long pause to let that sink in.
The next hour or so passed in a blur. Maggie peppered me with things
to know and to think about. My mind was on information overload. I
tried my best to process what I was being given and to, at least,
retain what I couldn't immediately process. Maggie instructed me on
how to properly wear a Romulan uniform, starting with the underwear.
She gave me a few pointers on application of make-up and hair styling,
all the while laying out what I might expect from the Romulans in
terms of duties and social integration. All too soon, it was Maggie's
time to report for duty. She gave me a big hug and wished me well.
She told me not to lose sight of my ultimate mission or my loyalty to
Starfleet. Then, with a woosh, she was out the door which closed
behind her.
Very shortly thereafter, I was hailed to the door by Commander
Taupeda.
"Why didn't you just come in like you did this morning?" I asked.
"Because I knew you were awake. The Captain's specific orders are to
escort you to his ready room. Beyond that, I have no other specific
orders. I know the Captain has taken a special interest in you,
Ensign. Consider yourself lucky in that regard. Now, if you would
kindly walk with me." Taupeda motioned toward the hallway.
As we walked to the lift it occurred to me that I hadn't really set in
my mind the physical layout of the Tribax. At the Academy we were
taught always to do this when we found ourselves in a foreign
situation. From the length of the hallways, the Tribax appeared to be
a much smaller vessel than the Enterprise. Taupeda said nothing as we
walked. We quickly came to a convergence of several hallways at which
was a lift of some sort. The lift door opened, Taupeda motioned me
into the lift and the doors closed behind us. He grumbled something
in what I took to be Romulan and the lift set off upward. There was a
diagram, in Romulan, that indicated that we had entered on the third
deck. The lift stopped at the top deck, the eighth. We exited the
lift. To my left I saw what I took to be the ship's bridge, complete
with large view screen. The screen was blank. In fact, the bridge
was all but abandoned, staffed only by two crewmen, neither of whom
wore officer's insignia, who appeared to be a security detail. To the
right was a door which I took to be the Captain's ready room. Taupeda
initiated a hail. From inside, a voice said "Enter". The door
whooshed open. At a desk in the far corner of the room sat Captain
Gaulgetar.
"Come in, Ensign," said the Captain, motioning for me to enter. "Have
a seat," he continued, motioning to a chair at the left side of the
desk. "Thank you, Commander Taupeda. That will be all. Please see
that the door is secured as you leave." Taupeda saluted and did as he
was told.
"So tell me, Ensign, are your quarters satisfactory? I trust you
slept well."
"Quite satisfactory, sir, and yes I did," I replied.
"You'll find, Ensign, that we Romulans are a quite hospitable people
when you get to know us. But then you didn't expect that we are here
to discuss your sleeping arrangements."
"Unlikely, sir."
"So let me tell you, Ensign, exactly where you are and the situation
you have placed yourself in. The Tribax has returned to Romulan
space. We are currently in a Romulan space dock at a location and the
identity of which you do not need to know. We are undergoing repairs
for the damage incurred in our last mission. We anticipate leaving
space dock tomorrow, mid-day. When the ship gets under way, you will
be given the option of remaining at the space dock as a Romulan
prisoner or remaining on board the Tribax as a member of my crew. I
am prepared to offer you a field commission with the rank of acting
Ensign. As an officer, you will be extended all the courtesies
extended to Romulan officers and you will assume all the
responsibilities that accrue to your commission."
"What, exactly, will be my responsibilities aboard the Tribax, sir?"
"While we are here space dock, we are undergoing a significant
computer upgrade. New hardware is being installed and the crew is
being trained in its operation. The whole operation is being
supervised by the ship's IT Officer, Lieutenant Zovak. I would like
you to monitor that training and prepare a report to me with copy to
Lt. Zovak listing the similarities and differences between Romulan and
Federation approach to automated ship's operations. If Lt. Zovak and
I are satisfied with your report, that you are being honest and open
with us and do not fill your report with a lot of eye candy or, I
believe the Earth term is, "hogwash" then once under way, you will
work for Lt. Zovak as Assistant IT Officer. On the other hand, if
either Lt. Zovak or I suspect any games are being played, we will put
you off the ship and you will be, as any human female would be, at the
mercy of the local culture in whatever location in Romulan space you
happen to land. I can assure you that your experience, in this
circumstance, will be less than pleasant."
I contemplated that for a moment.
"With all due respect, sir, yesterday I saw a room full of state-of-
the-art Starfleet tech gear aboard this vessel. If you have all that
hardware, why do you need me?"
"You have an inquisitive mind, Ensign. That can be a good thing at
times; at other times it can just be annoying. Had you seen that much
technology in a cave in prehistoric Earth, what could you conclude?"
"That the hardware came from some other place or time and that the
inhabitants of the cave couldn't even to power up the equipment much
less know what to do with it."
"Exactly. Which is not to say that the Empire doesn't know how to
power up the equipment or how to get it operational. We have already
gotten that far. And, given enough time, we could probably discover
all the intricacies and nuances of the equipment. But time is
something we do not have in bulk."
"Permission to speak freely, sir."
"Permission granted."
"Why was I brought aboard this vessel, sir? I understand I was not
just a random acquisition. What was there about me that attracted the
Empire?"
The Captain gave me one of those grimacing looks that told me I had
wandered into uncomfortable territory. "This is one of those annoying
moments that I referred to earlier. To be honest, Ensign, you were
specifically selected because snatching you off Ribos III was rather
easy and you were the only member of the team on the surface of Ribos
III with the expertise we needed to get out of the predicament we were
in. We needed your ability to access the torpedo codes for the
Enterprise. That is why you were initially brought aboard. We chose
to bring you aboard as a female in order to give us leverage in
convincing you to release the codes to us. We had not contemplated
you choosing to voluntarily remain aboard the Tribax, but once that
decision was made, your knowledge of Federation technology made you a
valuable asset to this ship and to the Empire."
"I see. If I may be so bold as to ask, how did the Empire come into
possession of all that Starfleet equipment?"
"You may ask, Ensign, but I am under no obligation to answer. How the
equipment came into our hands is not for you to know."
"But you want me to show you all the ins, outs and nuances of the
equipment's operation so you can use it against the Federation?"
"To the contrary, Ensign. We have no intention of using the equipment
we have on board aggressively. Romulans are a peaceful people. But
we do see a need to keep up with all technologies that might be used
against us by an aggressive force like the Federation.
"Are you familiar with Earth's history, Ensign, specifically Earth's
mid-twentieth century?"
"Do you refer to what was called 'The Cold War', sir?"
"Exactly. What you had was two rival societies each of which had the
weaponry to destroy the other. In fact, each had the power to destroy
all life on Earth. So fearsome were the weapons that both sides were
afraid to use them. As long as both sides were equally armed, a
stand-off existed. It was referred to as the 'Balance of Terror'. In
a nut shell, that is what we have here. The Empire can destroy the
Federation and vice versa but neither side can take the first
aggressive action without guaranteeing that both sides will be
destroyed in the ensuing battle. That type of stand-off exists only
when neither side gains a significant tactical advantage over the
other. All we are attempting to do is maintain that balance."
I had no immediate reply; the logic of Gaulgetar's argument had me
scrambling for a rebuttal. "If the Romulans are such peace loving
people, why has reaching a working peace treaty with the Federation
been so hard"
"For the same reason your Earth's Cold War dragged on for almost 50
years. Neither side trusts the other. Perhaps one side owns the
moral high ground; perhaps both sides are wrong. Such matters are to
be dealt with by diplomats. I am but a humble servant of the Empire
and I follow the orders I am given."
"So I should trust someone who is just following orders? If you know
Earth history, you know of the world war that preceded the cold war.
It was marked by mass killings, the perpetrators of which claimed to
be merely following orders. Don't you have to consider the morality
of those orders?"
"Indeed we do, Ensign. Everyone must choose to obey or to suffer the
consequences of disobedience. I believe that, politics aside, the
Empire operates in an ethical and morally justifiable manner. Can you
say as much for the Federation?"
I realized that I was, again, painting myself into a corner; it was
time to move the conversation in a different direction. "That's a
topic for another day and another time, sir. On another matter, I am
aware of an 'arrangement' between Doctor Campbell and Commander
Taupeda. Will there be a comparable 'arrangement' regarding me,
either with Commander Taupeda or some other ship's officer?"
The Captain grimaced a bit, took a breath, then responded. "How much
did you study the Romulan culture at Starfleet Academy, Ensign?"
"Not that much, sir; only the basics. Why do you ask?"
"Well, you see, there is a long established Romulan practice of what
we refer to as Ship's Women. We carry very few females on the Tribax.
Our missions are usually long and in regions of space with little or
no friendly local population. We Romulan's recognize that our crews
have certain biological needs. Crew morale is improved by attending
to these needs. Thus we carry on board a few females for the sole
purpose of crew comfort."
"So I have heard", I responded. "Your crew comfort program is of no
real concern to me. But that Commander Taupeda appears to have
annexed Doctor Campbell as his personal recreational vehicle does
concern me. Am I to be expected to provide occasional morale building
exercises for one or more of your senior staff?"
Gaugetar paused, quietly contemplating his answer. "I like you,
Ensign. You go directly to the point. Please understand that you are
here under distinctly different circumstances than those of Doctor
Campbell. Granted, you both came aboard the Tribax in an unfamiliar
physical body, but Doctor Campbell wasn't as subtle in her ability to
cope with both her instant femininity and not being able to return to
her original identity. The Doctor fought against the situation. She
resisted cooperation with the Empire. She even tried to modify some
of the medical equipment into an improvised communication device and
attempted to contact Starfleet. Her effort failed.
"Please recognize that Commander Taupeda is both my XO and my
enforcer. As Captain, I stay above petty disputes between my
subordinates; that is Taupeda's job and he does it very well. Taupeda
also has family connections in Romulan politics. He has risen through
the ranks quite quickly and will, undoubtedly, have his own command
before long. He may even be my commander some day. If that happens,
I expect to be on favorable terms with him.
"When it became obvious that Doctor Campbell could not be returned to
Starfleet, Taupeda suggested to me that the Doctor could use an
attitude readjustment and that administering such an adjustment came
well within his designated duties. How he actually worded it was
'That bitch needs a good fucking'. I agreed. So it came to be that
Taupeda was given permission to take Doctor Campbell under his wing,
so to speak. The doctor's attitude did turn around, and rather
quickly, and she has been a valued member of my crew since. The
'arrangement' has been good for crew morale, particularly Commander
Taupeda's, and ultimately for the doctor herself. I could have
consigned her to the crew comfort program or put her ashore at a
location not at all friendly to female Earthlings. She should count
her blessings.
"As for you, Ensign, as long as you remain under my command, if do not
undermine my authority or the good discipline of my crew, and as long
as you complete the tasks assigned to you in good order, neither
Taupeda or any of my crew will lay a hand on you. Does that allay
your fears?"
"Yes, sir, it does. Now, when will I have a chance to meet your
Lieutenant Zovak?"
"No time like the present." Gaulgatar punched a button on his desk
that I took to be an intercom. "Lieutenant Zovak, please report to
the Captain's ready room."
"You need to be aware, Ensign, that only a handful of my officers
know of the gender change you experienced when you came aboard the
Tribax. Lieutenant Zovak is not among them. As far as Lieutenant
Zovak knows, you are a Federation computer expert who has defected.
He has been told that you have a thorough knowledge of Federation
computer systems and will incorporate Federation technology into
Romulan computer systems where you think it is appropriate."
"That's my cover story? Does Doctor Campbell have a similar cover
story?"
"As I said before, Doctor Campbell came to join my crew under very
different circumstances."
At that point in the conversation, a hailing tone sounded which I took
as an indication of someone requesting entry to the room.
Gaulgetar shouted a commanding "Enter".
The door opened and in walked a rather wonky looking Romulan whom I
took to be Lieutenant Zovak. The wonk saluted and stood at stiff
attention. "You wish to see me, Captain?" he asked.
"At ease, Lieutenant, and please take a seat. Lieutenant, I would
like you to meet Felicia Burton. Ms. Burton has been assigned to this
vessel for an unspecified period. I have given Ms. Burton the acting
Romulan rank of ensign. Ensign Burton is the person of whom you and I
spoke last night. Ensign Burton is an expert in Federation computer
technology. She has chosen to leave the Federation for reasons that
you do not need to know. She wants to make her expertise in
Federation computer technology available to the Empire. To that end,
I have assigned her to the temporary position of assistant IT Officer
of the Tribax. Ensign Burton is to assist you in the current system
upgrade."
Zovak gave me a quick once-over glance, then extended his hand.
"Welcome aboard, Ensign. We have a lot of work to do to complete our
upgrade. I can truly use your help. Are you ready to get to work?"
Gaulgetar interjected "Lieutenant, would you please wait in the
hallway while I have a final word with Ensign Burton."
"Certainly, sir." Zovak saluted, turned and exited the room. The
door whooshed behind him.
"One last thing, Ensign. You might be interested in knowing that as
we speak, the Captain of the Enterprise is reviewing the death
certificate of Ensign Phillip Burton. It seems that Ensign Burton is
missing and is presumed to have died on the planet Ribos III. A
search party was able to recover parts of Ensign Burton's shredded
uniform, but they failed to find any remains of Ensign Burton.
Fortunately, there was enough of the Ensign's DNA on the uniform to
confirm that it was actually his. He is presumed to have died of a
carnivorous animal attack while on a survival exercise. His next of
kin have been advised. He will be given a full Starfleet funeral,
albeit with an empty casket, the day after tomorrow."
That bit of information left me speechless.
"It would appear that you, Ensign, are a man, or should I say a woman,
without an identity. The Federation considers you officially dead.
The Romulan Empire considers you a prisoner. The official log of this
ship will indicate that you were captured attempting to covertly beam
onto the Tribax from a Federation vessel while both were operating in
Romulan space. Once captured, you voluntarily divulged certain
confidential Federation data that proved to be valuable to the Empire,
in exchange for which you were confined to quarters rather than
summarily executed as a spy.
"I bring this to your attention, Ensign, because Starfleet is no
longer looking for you. Even if you were able to contact Starfleet,
you would first have to convince them that a dead male junior officer
is being held against his will in the body of a female human serving
aboard a Romulan warship. You are bright, Ensign. Can you talk your
way out of that dilemma? Probably not. So, unless you are willing to
invite my wrath and risk being put off the ship or even executed as a
Federation spy, I suggest you take the mission I have assigned to you
seriously and do not try anything that would damage my confidence in
you. Do I make myself clear?"
I was still digesting not being invited to my own funeral but I knew
that this was no time to be glib. "Understood, sir." I saluted the
Captain sharply, turned exited the Captain's office, joining Lt. Zovak
in the hallway. "Let's get to work, Lieutenant."
Zovak motioned me to the lift. We entered the lift and Zovak ordered
a command that I didn't understand. The lift started downward,
stopping at level 4. We exited the lift, preceded down a long
corridor. I recognized the hallway. In a room off this hallway was
the HES in which I had been interrogated the day before. It was in an
adjoining room that I had seen the cache of Federation tech equipment.
At the end of the corridor, we passed through a large doorway and
entered an equipment room some three decks high.
"Welcome to my small corner of the Tribax, Ensign."
"Thank you, sir."
"If we are going to work together, please feel free to call me the
name most of the other officers call me. That would be Rube. It's
short for Rubtrek. And may I call you Felicia?"
"If that is your wish, sir, but I would really prefer that we keep our
relationship strictly professional. My preference would be to call
you Lieutenant or Sir and you call me Ensign. Your thoughts, please,
sir."
"As you wish, Ensign." Zovak was clearly offended. What I said it
was to emphasize that I was not on board this ship to make friends
with the Romulans and to reinforce in my own mind that my mission was
to work with them until my real mission of returning, with Maggie, to
Starfleet was completed.
"I take it this is the ship's computer core. Please give me a quick
tour."
Zovak grew a large smile, like someone had just asked him to show off
his prized possession. What followed was a complete, and amazingly
detailed, tour of the data processing hardware of the Tribax. I found
it interesting because, except for form and format, and on a smaller
scale, the internals of the Tribax computer were a virtual carbon copy
of the computer aboard the Enterprise. It could be that the laws of
physics are universal and both the Empire and the Federation came up
with identical devices and processes independently. More probable was
that one side had access to the technology of the other and was good
at making copies. If it were mine to call, I'd say the Romulans were
excellent rip-off artists. Eventually, the grand tour came to the
room in which, the previous day, I had seen the assemblage of
Federation tech equipment.
"This looks like real Federation equipment", I said to Zovak.
"That's exactly what it is. This is equipment that we accumulated on
our last mission. Most of it will be off loaded while we are in space
dock and sent back to Romulus for reverse engineering. There are a
few items here that you could help us classify, but we'll get to that
soon enough."
"How did you manage to acquire all this hardware?" I asked.
"That, Ensign, is a closely held state secret. I know only enough to
allow me to function. I am not at liberty to say much but you may
want to familiarize yourself with the Ferengi Rules of Acquisition."
Zovak needn't have said any more. At the Academy, we were frequently
warned to never allow Ferengi on board Federation vessels, except
under close guard, and to be very suspicious of all dealings with
Ferengi. It was well known that Ferengi traders dealt in stolen and
counterfeit property. It was also well known that a lot of items
available from the Ferengi were cheap knock-offs and outright fakes.
Zovak might be in possession of an array of non-functional or only
partially functional hardware. I didn't see it as my position to
point that out. I said nothing.
"It's time for you to earn your keep, Ensign. I am about to lead a
class for the computer operators of this vessel. We just installed a
new user interface to our master sub-space communications program.
I'd like you to sit in on that class. Afterward, I'd like a run down
on how the Federation's systems differ from ours and what improvements
we can make to keep up.
"That's what I'm here for, sir."
The hardware used by the Romulans for their sub-space communications
system, the system that was the topic of Zovak's class, was a dead
knock-off of the Federation's sub-space communications gear. It was
essentially a flat glass touch panel on which various computer
generated controls and data read-outs were displayed. The display
would change automatically as the context of the task at hand changed
and/or as the situation demanded. Even the various displays were
Federation knock-offs. One thing that caught my attention quickly was
that the Romulans had not adopted the "swiping" motions that expedited
response times to events displayed. It was like they were unaware
that the swipe feature existed. Without its use, the operation of the
comm panel was a bit slow and clumsy, but it was still quite
functional.
Another thing I quickly deduced was the Romulans did not understand
that there was a feature built into the comm panel that allowed for
quick "shorthand" notes to be created and transmitted on a side band
of the main sub-space channel. The Federation had developed this as a
means of sending short text messages between ships and from ship to
base without tying up the main communication resources that might be
critical in a tactical situation. Sending a text was a matter of
composing the message with a series of swipes on an area of the
display panel in the lower right corner. In the Federation version,
that area of the screen contained a Starfleet logo. The Romulans had
managed to black out that area in their pirated version. Incoming
messages would be displayed in that same area of the panel. It took
some training to master but the feature had proven quite popular with
Federation Comm Officers and crews.
It hadn't occurred to me until then but the Romulan alphabet is
significantly more complex than ours. The official Starfleet alphabet
has 26 characters; the Romulan alphabet has 57. All those extra
characters require extra keys on a keyboard and extra effort to
construct a message. Maybe it wasn't just happenstance that led the
Romulans to not develop a "swipe" shorthand. Or maybe they just
didn't know that Starfleet already had.
At the risk of sounding like a nerd, maybe I should explain a bit
about sub-space communication. Like warp drive can propel a ship
faster than light, sub-space communications can send communications at
speeds that approach warp 100. Thus it is possible to communicate
over vast distances without a significant time lag between transmittal
and reception. The transmitters of a starship are powerful but they
do have finite limits. To facilitate communication over the entire
Alpha quadrant, Starfleet has established a grid of retransmission
stations, called "comm buoys", throughout the quadrant.
All Starfleet network transmissions are digital and encrypted. Voice,
video and text messages are first routed through the universal
translator and converted to English, the primary language to
Starfleet, then digitized and encrypted before transmission. On
receipt, they are decrypted and again routed through the translator
for conversion into the preferred language of the receiving vessel or
facility.
I mention all of this because interception of Starfleet communications
by non-Federation forces is an ongoing concern. In fact, each side
has a series of listening posts along the neutral zone to do just
that. The Federation has been fairly successful at deciphering the
communications of the Romulans. It would appear that the Romulans
have had successes of their own.
It was at this point that I got an inspiration. If the Romulans were
uninterested in developing "swipe motion" as a computer input and
communication short cut, maybe they had discounted its use by
Starfleet to the point that no one was monitoring Federation
communications in that specific region of the broadcast spectrum. Was
it worth the risk for me to find out? I made a hasty decision to try.
As the class wound down, I asked Zovak if I could putter with comm
panel to familiarize myself with its capabilities. He told his
charges to take their mid-day meal break, then motioned me to help
myself. What I was about to do might just save my bacon with
Starfleet but it could also leave me as a female and a stranger in an
inhospitable corner of space or condemn me to confinement in the
Romulan equivalent of a POW camp.
I sat down at the comm panel and did the introductory swipe to tell
the station that I wanted to send a quick text. I then laid out my
message. I said that my name was Ensign Phillip Burton of the USS
Enterprise. I said I had been taken prisoner and was being held
against my will on the Romulan spy vessel Tribax. I scrawled out that
I was being held with another Starfleet officer, a Doctor Campbell, of
an unknown vessel. My swipes told Starfleet that I was unable to
receive incoming communications. No attempt should be made to
respond. Further details about the Tribax, its location and its
mission would be transmitted as circumstances permitted. I said that
if it was possible to determine the location of the Tribax by
triangulation, the ship is scheduled to be at its present location for
at least 24 hours.
Then I took a deep breath and paused to let the rational portion of my
brain catch up to what the emotional side was about to do. I
considered that the Tribax would likely archive all transmissions of
any type. I also considered that we were in a Romulan space dock. In
Federation space docks, all ship's radio comm is silent. Both for
security and safety, all necessary transmissions are done via hard
wire link to the dock's transmitters. The Romulans probably had a
similar policy and my sending this message would likely be immediately
detected as well as recorded. As much as my emotional side screamed
at me to send the message, my rational side compelled me to
immediately erase the message, which I did.
This whole sequence of events took less than a minute. My heart was
pounding. I took a minute to consider what I had just done while
pretending to give the comm panel a once over. As I stood there
regaining my wits, I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned to see
Zovak who pulled me in to him in what amounted to a one armed hug.
My mind raced as to how to handle, and hopefully avoid, what could end
up being my first female fondling. Then, just as soon as it started,
I felt Zovak's body stiffen and his arm drop. Then the reason for his
change in posture became obvious. Behind us stood Commander Taupeda.
"Are you two getting to know each other?" he asked.
"Yes, sir!" answered Zovak.
"That is a good thing, Lieutenant. You have much work to do. And
you, Ensign, have a report to prepare for both the Lieutenant and the
Captain. I would like to deliver that report to him before your duty
day is finished. Will that be a problem?"
"No, sir!" I responded.
"Good! Then I will leave the two of you to your assigned tasks.
Carry on."
Commander Taupeda marched off down the corridor. Zovak, visibly
sweating, let out a quiet sigh of relief.
"I plan to walk my crew through a few simulated training exercises,
Ensign. You are welcome to sit in on the training or, if you would
like to use the data station in my office to prepare your report,
please feel free."
"Thank you, Lieutenant. I would not want to displease the Captain.
Now might be a very good time to prepare the report he requested."
"Very well. From the data station, ask the ship's computer to log you
onto the records recorder. I have already set up an account under
your name. The ship's computer will talk you through setting up
password protection for your account. Then just dictate your report
and tell the computer to send my copy to my file in box and to deliver
a hard copy to Commander Taupeda. Questions?"
"A hard copy, sir? Shouldn't my report be encrypted for the Captain's
eyes only?"
"On this ship, Ensign, there is virtually nothing that the Captain
doesn't share with his XO and vice versa. If the Captain didn't want
to share and discuss your report with Commander Taupeda, he would
never have asked Taupeda to deliver it. Any other questions?"
"None, sir."
Zovak escorted me to his data station and quickly exited, closing the
door behind him. I queried the computer and, following Zovak's
orders, created a password for my account. Then I paused for a moment
or two to collect my thoughts. A lot had happened in the past 7
hours. As the pieces started to fall in place, the warning that
Maggie gave me about things not being as they appear.
Nothing I had seen this morning seemed particularly out of place, out
of context or conveniently available for me to see. On the other
hand, Zovak was particularly eager to lead me to believe that the
Federation comm gear I saw was acquired via the Ferengi. It is well
known that the Ferengi are galactic capitalists. They have no ethical
constraints about selling anything to anyone under any circumstance as
long as there's a sufficient profit in it for them. Stealing secret
data is one thing, stealing large and heavy hardware is quite another.
Obtaining the quantity of supposedly classified comm gear that I saw
would not have gone unnoticed by the Federation. Then again, it could
all be cheap Ferengi knock offs. But the likelihood of the Romulans
accepting and paying for such a large quantity of state-of-the-art
tech gear without giving it a proper inspection was unbelievably
small. One or two of the pieces in this puzzle were not fitting
together. What all that meant, why I was privy to it and how I should
react still had me wondering.
Then I had to ask myself some hard questions. How much do I want to
tell the Romulans about what I have seen today, about how Romulan
technology measures up to Federation technology? How much was I
willing to give up of what I knew about Federation tech and what were
the risks that this whole exercise was just a test of me and how
cooperative, or duplicitous, I was willing to be with the Romulans?
They say a good lawyer never asks a question that he/she doesn't
already know the answer to. What were the chances Captain Gaulgetar
already knew the answers to the things he expected me to report on and
wanted to test how candid I would be with him? So many questions; so
few answers.
Then it finally hit me like a bag of bricks that, were Gaulgetar a
Starfleet officer, he would never entrust any Romulan with the
classified information that I had been privy to this morning.
Gaulgetar might be an honorable man and a really nice guy but he was,
first and foremost, the commanding officer of a Romulan starship.
Such a man would, without question, verify my honesty and loyalty to
the Empire before allowing me to see actual classified information and
equipment. From this point on I would have to either outsmart the
entire crew of the Tribax or I would have to provide information that
was full, complete and unqualified which, in the eyes of the
Federation, made me a traitor. Yet the alternative was to provide
incomplete or false information that, if discovered to be such, doomed
me to life in a Romulan prison, a women's prison at that, or worse,
the worse being that my male persona was now certified by Starfleet as
dead and buried. I really had sealed my own fate.
With that thought, I queued up the computer and started dictating. I
decided to play it straight, including every detail I noticed with an
occasional opinion as to the effectiveness, or lack thereof, of the
Romulan installation of what I was lead to believe was stolen
Starfleet equipment. The whole process took about an hour after which
I paused, took another breath, then directed the computer to generate
and send a hard copy to Commander Taupeda with file copy to Zovak.
When finished, I signed off the computer and took a deep breath,
knowing that my new life as a traitor to the Federation awaited me.
Not knowing what Zovak and his students were up to, I decided to find
and join them. I exited Zovak's data station. The hallway was
unusually quiet. I quickly concluded that wherever Zovak and his crew
were, it wasn't here; the entire deck appeared to be unmanned. I made
my way back to the lift which immediately opened, almost as if it had
been waiting for me. I entered the lift and, not knowing the proper
Romulan command for the bridge, I said nothing. The lift doors
closed. From the lights above the door, I could tell that the lift
was headed toward the bridge. Was that coincidence, could the lift
read my mind or was the lift pre-programmed to take me to the bridge?
No matter, in a few seconds, the doors opened and I exited to a bridge
that was just as unmanned as the deck I had just left. Even the
security detail I had observed earlier had left their post. Very
strange.
As I examined what appeared to be an unmanned star ship, the thought
flashed across my mind that, given the technical expertise that the
Romulans were said to possess in holographic projection, what if this
was all just a large hologram? The Romulans had me believing I was on
the Enterprise for the better part of 18 hours. What if I never left
the original HES? Was the Tribax real? Was the ship's crew all just
a computer program writ large? Was Maggie real or just a projection?
Was I really female? When you allow yourself to doubt your own
sensory organs, the line between sanity and insanity is easy to cross
and I could feel myself heading in that direction.
But just as soon as I questioned my sanity, something slapped me on
the back. I turned to see what it was and there stood a pretty young
Vulcan woman.
"You look lost. May I help you, miss?"
I remembered that Maggie had said that there were only four female
Vulcans on board the Tribax, three "comfort women" and the Captain's
"wife". I quickly concluded that the Romulans would not allow common
sex toys to wander about the vessel unsupervised. Only the Captain's
"woman" would be afforded certain liberties. Realizing that I was
talking to the Captain's woman made me choose my words, and expressed
intentions, carefully.
"I am new to this vessel. I was looking for Lieutenant Zovak.
"As I understand it, the entire crew is at a memorial service for a
crewman who passed away recently. Only a skeleton crew is manning the
ship right now. If you tell me where you are billeted, I can give you
directions to get there."
"Could you give me directions to the ship's sick bay?"
"Are you sure you want to go there now?"
"Quite sure, but thank you for your offer. What is your name, ma'am?"
"My name is Tok-Ro but you may call me 'Tok' if you prefer. Most of
the crew know me as Tok. And if you don't mind me asking, you are a
human, are you not? I have seen very few humans in my travels. I
understand we have a human doctor on board. Do you two know each
other? And what do they call you, Ensign?"
"Doctor Campbell and I have met, Tok, and my friends call me Fil,
short for Felicia, thanks."
With that, Tok accompanied me to the lift, down two decks, down a long
curved passageway and into an area with signage all in Romulan that
was, to me at least indecipherable. The universal translator works on
verbal communication but not signage.
"Here you are, Fil, the ship's sick bay. And as you can see, it is
all but deserted."
"Not quite all," came a familiar voice from a back area. "Some of us
are still on duty", said Maggie as she came forward to meet us. "Tok,
nice to see you. How did you two come to meet?"
Tok was quick to answer. "I met Fil on the bridge level. She was
looking for Lieutenant Zovak. He and his crew are at the memorial
service. Apparently you two have met. Fil asked me to direct her
here. It was easier for me to accompany her than to give her
directions."
I chimed in, "I was thinking that we could have lunch together. If
Tok is available, maybe she could join us. Are you able to get away?"
"Actually, I am not", replied Maggie. "Since I am the ship's entire
medical staff at the moment, duty requires me to remain on duty until
relieved. Why don't you two go on without me?"
"Well, Tok, would you care to join me for a quick meal?"
"I'd be delighted. You understand, the ship's cafeteria is closed
until the full crew returns. Since I am not authorized to leave the
ship, and I suspect you are not either, that limits us to what is
available from the replicators in the individual crew quarters."
"Well, why don't we go to my quarters and see what the replicator can
come up with?"
"Enjoy lunch, ladies," Maggie replied as she went back work.
"I hope I can find my way back to my quarters, I commented as Tok and
I made our way back out to the hallway and down to the lift."
"Not to worry", Tok commented. "I know where your quarters are.
Please follow me."
So off we went, down two decks, half way down a curved walkway, a left
turn and then a right turn. Within minutes we were there. The door
whooshed as it automatically opened allowing us to step inside.
I clumsily managed to say, "Welcome to my humble home. What can I get
for you?"
Tok replied, "I can get it myself. I suspect you are not all that
familiar with Romulan food replicators or Romulan food in general.
Let me get for you, Fil, that you might be accustomed to. OK?"
"Certainly, please do."
She did. She ordered up our lunch, things that I couldn't hope to
repeat, in a language that likely was either Romulan or Vulcan. It
didn't matter because I don't speak either, but the replicator quickly
produced two plates of something that resembled salad. It looked and
smelled good and I purposely didn't ask questions beyond that.
As we ate, Tok made small talk until, at one point, she hit me with
the show stopping question, "How do you find the whole experience of
being female?"
"Excuse me?"
"You heard me. How do you find the whole experience of being a
woman?"
I didn't see that coming and it took me a moment to organize my wits
and put together an appropriate response. "How do you know about my
'transformation'?"
"As you have already correctly deduced, I am the Captain's chosen
partner. There is very little that happens on this ship that I don't
know. Now, please answer my question."
"Well, to be honest, I haven't given it a great deal of thought. The
experience was thrust upon me along with many other incongruities that
I have been forced to deal with simultaneously. But if you want a
quick answer, female breasts are amazingly inconvenient. They always
seem to be in the way. How do you deal with them?"
"Well, when you have never known anything different, it's a bit hard
judge."
"So are you here as part of the Captain's evaluation of me or was
there some other ulterior motive to our 'chance' meeting?"
"The Captain said you were bright. For the record, I have only
indirect input to the Captain's evaluation of you. And yes, there was
an ulterior motive to our meeting. I had heard about a new human
female on board. I needed to meet you to size you up and determine if
your temperament was that of someone like Dr. Campbell. I've
determined it is not."
"Is that determination a good or bad thing?"
"It means that you have the potential to be an asset both to this ship
and to my subset of the crew."
"And what would that subset be?"
"Well, the Vulcans, of course, and to the back channel communication
we have developed with the crew."
"Back channel communications?"
"Yes, Enisgn. On Federation vessels, is it not true that at least one
officer is designated as ship's counselor? Why do you think that is
so? I will answer my own question. Because a contented crew works
harder and smarter. A worried or frustrated crew does not work as a
coherent and cohesive team.
"Are you aware of how we Vulcans came to be aboard this ship? You
might find it interesting. Vulcan has established several off-world
mining and manufacturing operations to supply the home world with
needed minerals and other things. The living conditions off-world are
sparse but the pay is very good. All of us ladies were born and
raised in an off-world mining camp. We grew up together. One day,
the Romulans invaded our camp. They seized all our equipment and
inventory and imprisoned the Vulcans working there. The Tribax was
among the Romulan ships in the invasion fleet. We ladies were
separated from our families by Captain Gaulgetar and brought aboard
this ship as 'comfort women'. We've not heard of or seen our families
since. We think that they are likely in a Romulan prison camp
somewhere or, perhaps, dead. But, survival being a strong instinct,
and having few other options, we adapted. We continue to adapt."
"You know, you are the second person today that has told me survival
is a strong instinct."
"And indeed it is. I, along with the other Vulcan ladies, comprise
the closest thing that this ship has to ship's counselors. Please do
not think that the only purpose served on this ship served by we
Vulcans is sex. You would be quite surprised to know how many young
crewmen visit us just to talk. Most of these men, boys really, are
quite young and are away from home for the time. They just need
someone friendly to talk to. We become their surrogate girlfriends
and mothers. They frequently tell us more than we ever wanted to
know. Things like their opinions of the ship's officers the ship's
food or the general working and living conditions aboard ship. We
often cannot do anything about the crew member's concerns but at least
we listen, which is more than their officers do. In the process, we
hear a lot about how the ship is actually operating. We learn who is
respected and who is not. We learn things the crew would never tell
their officers. Keeping the crew's confidence is essential. We are
very judicious in what we relay to the officers and what we do not."
"Very well, but how did my transformation become known to the crew?"
"Who do you think it was that actually operated the transporter that
brought you on board the Tribax? Who might have actually routed your
data stream through the chromosome transfer routine? No matter how
much the Captain wants to believe that he controls information flow on
this vessel, he doesn't. It's just that simple."
"So if the crew know about me, they know about Dr. Campbell as well,
right?"
"Yes, most do but not all the officers do. There are some things that
the lower ranks just do not discuss with their superiors."
"OK. What, exactly, did you mean by sizing me up and determining if I
had a temperament like Dr. Campbell?
"Understand that, with Dr. Campbell, the Captain was, as you
earthlings say, between a rock and a hard place. Because she couldn't
return her to her male body, the Romulans couldn't release her back to
the Federation. The Doctor did not choose to stay on board willingly.
She was, at first, like a wild animal in a threatening environment.
She trusted no one and kept her own council. She needed to be broken
which Commander Taupeda eventually did by making her his mistress. I
needed to know if we could deal with you or if you needed to be
broken. You appear not to need breaking. There is one last thing
that we need to do before we treat you as trustworthy. Would you
agree to undergo a Vulcan mind meld?"
"I've heard of it. Are you saying you want to mind meld with me.
Why?"
"To investigate your sincerity. If you are legitimately here to look
after the interests of Dr. Campbell, we see no reason not to trust
you. If you are here on other pretexts, we will know and act
accordingly."
I took a minute or so to contemplate what I had gotten myself into. I
concluded that I was in too deep to back out now. "Do you want to do
this here and now? How long will it take?"
"Yes, here and now and it takes but 5 minutes or so."
I had known several Vulcans at the Academy but was not close to any of
them. I had heard of the Vulcan mild meld but only in vague terms. I
wasn't sure what I was getting into here but I had nothing about the
Vulcan mind meld being harmful. I opted to take a chance. Whatever
happened to me couldn't be worse or more bizarre than what already
had.
"OK. I have nothing to hide. Do what you wish."
With that, Tok moved to the chair adjacent to mine and placed the
thumb and two fingers of her right hand on my left temple. She made a
grimace or two like she was in a trance. My recollection of what
happened next is hazy. It felt like I was having some sort of dream
state out-of-body experience. My visual focus was off and voices were
muddled. I could see and hear things around me, just not clearly.
I saw visions of my life, of growing up in Montana, my life at the
Academy and of my limited time on board the Enterprise.
Interestingly, I also saw snippets of the early life of a young female
Vulcan at various stages of growing up. That Vulcan girl was Tok. I
then realized that the Vulcan mind meld works both ways. While Tok
was free to examine my mind, I was able to access her thoughts and
memories as well. She was obviously more practiced in mind meld
techniques than I was but I did find that prodding her memories was
not all that difficult. What was difficult was stopping her from
blocking my probes as fast as I could start them. She was good at
blocking. Good but not perfect. Not only was I getting a broader
understanding of my own personal life story, reliving it as it was
being transferred to Tok, but I was receiving a completely new
recorded life story from Tok. I'm not sure that Tok intended to copy
her life experiences into my brain but that is what was happening. It
was now my job to make sense of it all.
From her childhood recollections, she was indeed born away from the
Vulcan home world, the daughter of a high level worker in what was
apparently a Vulcan off-world dilithium mine. The mine was relatively
new and Tok was among the first babies born on the planet. Tok's
mother was a chemist who also worked in the mining operation. As the
mining effort grew, so did the planet's Vulcan population. In the
mine's first year, at least 12 children were born on the planet to
parents working in or for the dilithium gathering operation. Of
those, half were female and all the females were younger than Tok.
Tok had a natural talent for leadership which, combined with her age
and a certain ingrained stubbornness, made her the Alpha female of the
Vulcan youth community, something that occasionally conflicted with
the other children and most of their parents.
What I hadn't expected in Tok's timeline came in her late teens. Now
understand that Vulcans are well noted for their suppression of all
emotion. As she reached the Vulcan age of puberty, it was not
surprising that she would suffer from the hormonal effects of pon
farr. In reaction to her first pon farr, Tok attempted to suppress
her hormonal urges with meditation which worked to some degree. When
approached by the Alpha male of the mining camp, a Vulcan boy named
Yoma, Tok rejected his advances outright. Tok realized that the only
way to fight the urges was an act of severe violence or to find a
surrogate mate. She approached and seduced a girl named Ryxe who was
also undergoing her first pon farr. The subsequent lesbian
intercourse ended the hold of the hormones on Tok but not on Ryxe.
Tok came away with the firm understanding that she was a lesbian. It
was the acceptance of her lesbianism that she attributed to ending her
personal pon farr. Ryxe came from the tryst quite disturbed but she
suppressed the guilt like any other emotion. She could only hold back
her hormones for so long. Unable to deal with her raging internal
chemistry, she killed herself in an act of severe violence. Tok never
really forgave herself for being the ultimate cause of Ryxe's suicide
but, in true Vulcan fashion, she suppressed the guilt.
When the Romulan's invaded the mining camp, they pillaged the camp,
taking anything of value, starting with their inventory of refined and
crystalized dilithium and ending with the Vulcan's themselves. Young
females were a high demand item. The Romulan commanders agreed to
some impromptu division of the invasion spoils. Tok, along with three
other Vulcan girls, were consigned to Captain Gaulgetar. Unwanted
assets, like the elderly or infirmed, were left behind to fend for
themselves. The Romulan's apparently had no desire to occupy the
planet, only to plunder it.
Once aboard the Tribax, suppression of emotion was a survival tactic
for all the girls. The wisdom of that decision was only amplified
when the girls observed what happened to Dr. Campbell who resisted her
detention by the Romulans and wound up as the mistress of the ship's
First Officer. Ever since, the girls have tried to operate below the
Romulan's radar with a small scale resistance aimed at minor sabotage
of the ship and fostering discontent among the ship's crew.
Having gotten that much information from TOK, and she appearing to
have gotten what she wanted from me, she removed her hand from my
temple and left me in a solitary state of muddled thinking from which
I eventually recovered enough to ask "Did you find out what you wanted
to know about me?"
"Indeed. You are exactly what you appear to be, a male Starfleet
officer now captive of the Romulans, forced into a female body
concocted by the Romulans as a means of getting you to give them
certain sensitive data about the operation of the Starfleet vessel
Enterprise. You appear to have taken the bait that the Romulans waved
in front of you, specifically Dr. Campbell, and given them what they
needed to avoid capture. You now realize, I hope, that the cause of
the failure to this ship that resulted in your being brought on board
was a product of the Vulcan resistance. Thus, by aiding the Romulans
to escape, you foiled a fairly elaborate plot that we spent weeks
preparing to disable the Tribax in Federation space and force its
capture. That having been said, I understand the logic behind your
actions. Given the information you had to work with, I cannot fault
your logic even as I condemn you actions."
Tok stood up, paced around the room a time or two, then strolled up me
from behind. She grabbed my breasts and began to massage them. She
brought her face alongside mine and began licking my ear. "Fil, you
owe me." My mind flashed with a revelation from the mind meld that I
hadn't yet fully processed. Tok was erotically aroused by the thought
of making lesbian love with me! She fanaticized about lesbian sex
with a man living in the body of a woman. The strange thing about
that was that I felt the same way about her. I had always had a
fantasy about making love to a Vulcan if only to see if I could arouse
her to the point where she could no longer restrain her emotions and,
with deep passion, scream out for more. I'd never had the opportunity
to bed a Vulcan, at least until now.
"Well, take what you want from me. All that I have is yours."
We quickly adjourned to the bed and thus began something I can only
describe as well beyond my fondest wet dream. This was obviously not
Tok's first lesbian tryst. She immediately undressed herself then
slowly removed my uniform and had me down to bra and panties in no
time. As she removed my bra she went to work on my breasts, licking
each nipple and areola with the tip of her tongue until my nipples
stood at full attention. She then went full mouth on my nipples,
sucking each alternately and gently but increasing the force of her
sucking with each alternation. The sensation was incredibly erotic.
As she proceeded with her left hand and mouth, she quietly used her
right hand to slide off my panties and, almost undetectably, began
working my vagina and clitoris. I was feeling wonderful things going
on in place where I didn't even realize I had places. Gently, she
escalated the vaginal stimulation until I was in full orgasm mode.
Now, not being a male virgin, I know what a male orgasm feels like.
The sensations I was getting were nothing like that. They were
neither localized to the groin and pelvis region nor did they slowly
build to an explosion, then taper off. These sensations were like
waves of joy breaking over my entire body, each better than the one
before.
My concentration was such that I had stopped taking mental notes but
at some point Tok planted her face near my vagina and used her tongue
as a probe to gently massage my labia and clitoris. The waves just
kept on coming. By now I had lost all track of time and just wanted
the waves to continue forever. If this was one of Tok's tests to see
if she could scramble my thought processes, she had me at the first
lick.
Then, just as smoothly and gently as she brought me a fever pitch, Tok
eased me back down. Her manipulations of my clitoris lightened up and
smoothed out to a gentle massage. She lapped my labia one last time
before returning to my breasts where she gave each a gentle licking
before she eventually rolled over and lay beside me in the bed,
leaving me to contemplate what had just happened.
After a few minutes of contemplation, Tok turned to me and announces
"Your turn on top. Show me what you've got". Apparently this was a
tag team match and I had just been tagged. Remembering the encounter
I had just experienced, I set out to give as good as I got but I had
to admit to myself that I was a rookie playing in a pro league. To
make a long story short, by the time the afternoon's activities were
finished, we had each gotten the best the other had to give and we
both had physical exhaustion to show for it. We both fell breathless,
entangled in each other's arms. Tok whispered in my ear "Was it good
for you?"
I responded "You have no idea", although I suspected she really did.
We lay there for some time just basking in the afterglow and, for me
at least, regaining my composure. At some point Tok observed that we
could both use a shower.
"Do you want to go first?" I asked.
"I thought we could go together."
The shower stall in our quarters is tiny, even for one person.
Fitting two people, even petite women such as Tok and I, is
logistically questionable but, from my perspective at least, totally
erotic. "Sure, why not?"
The reason for why not became obvious immediately upon entering the
shower stall. It would be a gross understatement to say that it was
close quarters. There are numerous bad jokes about dropping the soap
in a group shower. In this specific instance, had we dropped the
soap, it would have been physically impossible to pick it up without
one of us exiting the shower stall. That said, it was wildly erotic
once we got the water flowing and our bodies sufficiently lubricated
with soap suds. Sliding up and down against each other was a
sensation I could have imagined. Even those dreams never had me
rubbing a matched set of my own C-cups, an oversized butt and an empty
crotch. While a wet rub-a-dub was amazingly fun, neither one of us
could move our arms all that much. Shampooing was wildly impractical.
Neither of us even tried. The entire shower only lasted a minute or
two, long enough for us to replace the smell of sex with something a
bit fresher, after which we patted each other dry and dressed.
After taking a few minutes to regroup, Tok said to me "So, are you
ready to join us?"
I wasn't sure if she was asking me to join her in lesbianism or if she
was asking me to join the "resistance". I needed to clarify. "What,
exactly, do you mean by 'join' and what is it you'll want me to do if
I do?"
"Well, it works like this. Whether or not you choose to continue
cohabitating with Dr. Campbell, you are welcome to the occasional romp
with me almost any time. The Captain's demands, of course, taking
precedence." The thought that I was sharing the sheets with the
'Captain's woman' hadn't occurred to me during all the afternoon's
activities, at least until now. "By the way, the other three Vulcan
ladies, whom I would like you to meet, do not share my affinity for
female companionship. But I was specifically referring to the
resistance. It is our sworn mission to bring down this ship and its
officers. We are not a suicide pact; we want the ship to fail but we
want all of us to live to tell the tale."
"So, I ask again, what do you want me to do in furtherance of this
'resistance' or yours?"
"We want your experience and knowledge of ship's computer systems.
The sabotage we have done thus far was crude and, frankly, dangerous.
We did injure one of the crew with an electrical explosion we
initiated last night, the incident that forced the Tribax lose power
and, thus, to break off its shadowing of the Enterprise to return to
space dock, where we are now. It was not our intent to hurt anyone
although I understand the crewman's injuries were severe and,
ultimately, fatal. What we did intend to do was put the ship's
cloaking system out of order long enough for it to be detected by the
Enterprise and taken captive. With your knowledge of computer
systems, perhaps we can do the harm to the ship that we need to do
without physical injury to anyone."
"I see. And what if the Captain finds out that I have violated his
'woman'? That alone could consign me to the ship's brig, or a Romulan
prison camp, for longer into the future than I have been alive. Why
would I want to further alienate our dear Captain just to settle
whatever score you and your ladies think you have with the Romulan
Empire?"
"Because it's the right thing to do. Captain Gaulgetar may look like
a fair and honest man. He is, when it benefits him. The fact that
you are still wearing a vigina, a very fine one I might add, indicates
that he wants to keep whatever leverage being a female has on you. He
has no real incentive to change you back to your male self. As it is,
he has your brain and, apparently, your loyalty. All that in exchange
for what? If we succeed in forcing this ship into Federation hands,
you have a much better chance of returning to masculinity than you
ever will by remaining loyal to Gaulgetar and the Romulan Empire.
That assumes that you really want to return to your male body. From
personal observation, you were very much enjoying both your new body
and our little horizontal romp. What say you?"
"Where, exactly, does Maggie play into all of this? Is she with you,
against you or, perhaps, does she have a foot in both camps?"
"Actually, the latter. Dr. Campbell supports our efforts in principle
but Commander Taupeda keeps her on a very short leash. She actually
has very little freedom aboard this ship outside of the sick bay. We
were hoping that, with you now on board, Taupeda might cut her some
slack. That remains to be seen."
"How do I know that you are not some Romulan holographic image?
Romulans are famous for their development of holographic imaging
technology. The holograms they used on me had me convinced that I was
aboard the Enterprise for most of yesterday. How do I know you are
real?"
"Well, Fil, you tell me. Have you ever experienced the orgasmic
convulsions I just created in you? Do you really believe that those
waves of ecstasy were just a hologram? Seriously? And, for that
matter, could the melding of our minds that you experienced be
artificially created? The Romulans are good at artificial reality,
but not that good."
"You have a point there. And you were wonderful."
"Thank you. I tried."
"But if I put in with you, how do I maintain a low profile when I am
in the Captain's spotlight? You do realize that all communications of
this ship, verbal or digital, inbound, outbound and intra-ship are
archived and available for the command structure to monitor and
review. I wouldn't be at all surprised to find out that the crew
quarters are bugged and all conversations here are recorded. How have
you functioned thus far without being discovered?"
"Well, in truth, there are several spaces on this ship that are
specifically not monitored. First among then are the quarters and
offices of the Captain and the First Officer. Also free of bugs are
the "crew comfort stations", something the crew demanded when we
Vulcan ladies were brought on board. The open conversations that free
space allowed are how we were able to gain the confidence of the crew.
They knew they were free to talk openly without risk of the officers
finding out. Lastly, there is a device you may not be aware of." Tok
reached into a small pouch in her blouse and pulled out a device about
the size of a deck of cards. "This is a jamming device. It is
specifically intended to block all of the ship's bugging devices in
the immediate vicinity of the device. The senior officers each carry
one which allows them to hold confidential conversations anywhere on
board ship. As the Captain's woman, I was able to obtain one.
Anything said in this area at this time can't be recorded or
archived."
"You really are an industrious sort, Tok. Could you get me one of
those devices?"
"Unlikely. These devices are closely controlled by Taupeda himself.
By the way, these devices can also be used by the senior officers to
locate a user anywhere on board. Bet your left arm that Taupeda knows
I have been here in your quarters and will inform the Captain soon if
he hasn't done so already."
"Is that a problem?"
"Not really. The Captain will believe anything I tell him. I don't
lie to him but do neglect to tell him everything I do in any given
day. And while we're on the topic of whom to trust, be aware that Dr.
Campbell is not an active part of our resistance. As I said earlier,
she is not opposed to our efforts but she is kept on such a short
leash by Commander Taupeda that she finds it best to stay at an arm's
length from our activities. We don't tell her what we are doing and
she doesn't ask. You would be well advised not to give her
information that she might, intentionally or otherwise, pass on to
Taupeda.
"So which is it, Fil? Are you with us or not? I have to get back to
the Captain's quarters before he returns. I need to know if you are
in or out. Which is it?"
I thought it for about a few seconds. I had already sealed my fate
with Starfleet. Should I ever actually escape the Romulans and get
back to Federation Space alive, I would likely spend the rest of my
life in a Federation prison. Whether or not it was a men's or women's
prison remained to be seen but life in prison is still life in prison.
Did I really want to compound matters by fighting a private guerilla
cyber war against the Romulans that, should I be discovered, would
insure my future would be spent in a Romulan woman's prison or worse?
There seemed to be no good alternative. Then I remembered the old
Earth adage 'When you've got nothing, you've got nothing to lose'.
"Count me in, Tok. What do you want me to do?"
"At the moment, nothing. I will be back to you with further
instructions. Thank you, Fil. We appreciate you. Now, I have things
to attend to in the Captain's quarters. I will talk to you soon. As
we say on Vulcan, 'Live long and prosper'." And with that, she left
and the door swooshed behind her, leaving me alone. What had I just
gotten myself into?
My mind was racing over the events of the past 24 hours or so, of my
time at Starfleet Academy, my receiving a plum assignment to the
Enterprise, then being transported into the body of a woman and,
although I didn't know it at the time, onto a Romulan vessel hiding in
Federation space. I thought about Maggie and Tok and how they were so
different in their approach to an impossible situation. I lay down
with no intention of taking a nap but, at some point, I must have
dozed off. My next recollection is the ship's intercom blurting out,
in Taupeda's voice, "Ensign Burton, please report to the bridge
immediately. I say again, Ensign Burton, please report to the bridge
immediately."
TO BE CONTINUED