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Good Idea By Vivian Bird As soon as Marian's husband, Robin, came in the door, he cried out "damn it Marian, it happened again, right out there on the street. I don't know if I can stand it anymore." "Tell me what happened, Robin," asked Marian. "Did someone hit you, or steal something from you? Why don't you sit down and tell me what is bothering you so much. Come here and sit on the sofa next to me." As he did so, Marian noticed that Robin was crying. "These three teenagers stared at me as I passed by them and called me a faggot," said Robin. "Then they asked me to give them blow jobs. I ran two blocks home from there. I was afraid that they were going to follow me, but they didn't." Marian and Robin were both 28 years old and had been married for six years. Marian was slim and beautiful, with long blond hair and stood five foot five in her stocking feet. She worked for an advertising agency. Robin was a free lance writer for magazines and newspapers. He was also quite slim, had long brown hair which reached his shoulders. He usually wore his hair in a pony tail and was five foot six inches tall. However he exhibited many quite feminine mannerisms without even knowing he was doing so. His gestures, the way he walked, and even his flowery arm movements were much more suited to a woman than a man. He also had very tiny breasts, just big enough to notice if his chest was bare, but only then. Marian had obviously noticed this about Robin when they first met and had asked him about his background. He told her that his father left his family before he was born, so he lived with his mother and his two sisters, who were both slightly older than he was. Robin explained "I grew up watching three women as long as I can remember. so naturally I started to copy everything they did, the way they moved, the way they walked, even the way they talked. I never played with boy things, only dolls and other girly stuff. They used to dress me up every day in their old clothes. I can't even remember wearing anything but dresses until I started going to school. It got to the point where I really thought that I was a girl. Until my voice changed, I could sing higher than my sisters. So you see, that is the reason I seem so feminine today. I don't want to but I just can't help it." After hearing all this, Marian began to really understand why Robin exhibited so many feminine traits. However, he was a gentle, really good person and quite an excellent writer. She knew that she had fallen in love with this soft spoken man who obviously loved the ground she walked on. He had already been published many times in newspapers and magazines. He was also a wonderful lover who always tried to satisfy her every desire. So, they got married. There had been several instances of people calling him names when he was alone, or when she was with him. However, he had been able to walk away from all those instances until today. "Here, Robin, take my hanky and dry your eyes. Lets see if we can't do something that will make you feel better." "That's the problem, Marian. I feel fine about myself. I just can't understand why so many people can't accept me the way I am." Marian knew that this situation was bound to arise sooner or later. So, she had already decided how to proceed when the inevitable happened. "There are two things that I can suggest, Robin, that might alleviate your problem. The first possibility is going into therapy where you can possibly be trained to eliminate all of your female tendencies, or at least enough of them to appear more man like." "I guess that would be possible, Marian, but I like myself the way I am. You obviously seem to like the way I am as well since you married me six years ago and we seem to be a very happy couple when we are together." "Well, iif you don't want therapy and you want to continue the way you are," said Marian" I can only think of one other thing that might take care of your problem, although you might think of the idea as quite radical." "What is your idea, Marian,? I am anxious to hear it." "The other thing that you can do is embrace your femininity and let it take you wherever you want it to go." "I don't know what you mean by 'embracing my femininity' Marian. I like the way that I am. I don't especially want to change I just want to change the way others treat me." "If you don't do something, Robin, I'm afraid that you will continue to get teased wherever you go." What I mean by embracing your femininity, is to increase your feminine traits, not change the ones you already have. You are probably blocking some of your feminine instincts, so just allow them to come out. Your mind and body seem to be telling you to go this route." "What exactly would I have to do?" In order to increase your femininity, I think that you could start off slowly by perhaps wearing a piece of feminine attire under your clothes. You might find it more comfortable and allow you to think of yourself more in the feminine sense. If it doesn't work, you can go back to what you are wearing today and nobody will be any the wiser." "What do you suggest I start wearing Marian.?" "I think that you could easily replace your jockey shorts with a pair of women's panties, the frillier and more feminine the better. Wear the panties for a day or two and see if it is more comfortable and more importantly, will the panties stimulate your feminine side. Right now, your feminine traits are a detriment because others see dressed like a man, but acting very much like a woman/. Perhaps the panties might allow you to pay more attention to how they make you feel and less on what others say." Robin thought for a moment. "Is that all I would have to do, wear panties?" "For right now, yes. Wear them as long as you think they are helping you. We can easily go further if you feel you need additional encouragement." "I don't want to wear your panties, Marian. Do I have to go into a store and buy some? That would be very hard for me to do." "I tell you what," said Marian. "I have the perfect pair for you to wear tomorrow. They are silky with a lot of fringe. They might be slightly small on you, but not much. Very feminine looking. Of course the two of us would be the only people who would see them. In the meantime, I will buy you a couple of panties in your own size tomorrow on my way home from my office, in case you enjoy wearing them. If you don't enjoy wearing the pair I will give you, then I can return the other one to the store, since you won't have worn it yet." Alright, Marian. If you think this will help, I am willing to try. I have an appointment at a publishers office tomorrow morning, but I will be wearing a suit and I could easily wear the panties underneath." "Let me get the panties for you right now Robin, so you can see if they will be comfortable enough for you tomorrow." Marian went upstairs and got the panties which were pink and frilly. She brought them down and gave them to Robin. "Go ahead, Robin. Take off you pants and jockey shorts and try them on." Robin did so sheepishly. "These look a lot like the ones my sisters had me wear." "How do they feel, Robin?" asked Marian. "Just a bit tight, but I like the smoothness of the material against my body," answered Robin. "Hmm, I can see they feel pretty good by the size of your erection Ok, why don't you take them off now so they will be clean for you to wear tomorrow." That night in bed, Robin was very sensitive in the way he caressed Marian and made love to her. The next evening, Marian was anxious to hear how the experiment had turned out. "So what happened, Robin? Did you wear the panties all day? Did they feel alright? Did they change your outlook at all?" "Well, I wore the panties to my appointment and the rest of the day as well," answered Robin. "The only problem I encountered was I couldn't use the urinals for fear someone would see my panties. So, I sat on the toilet each time I had to go, just like women do. The panties felt fine, in fact they felt very comfortable, a lot better than my tight jockey shorts." "How about your outlook?" asked Marian. "Did the panties make you feel more feminine?" "Maybe a little, but I was still very nervous that someone would make fun of me and call me names. I don't really know if the panties were enough to make a difference." "Do you still want to wear panties tomorrow and possibly for a few more days?" questioned Marian. "I bought you a few extras just in case you really liked them. I could return them to the store if you don't want them." "No, I would like to keep them. I really like the way they feel. Is there anything else you could suggest that would be as feminine as the panties, that could be hidden under my clothes?" "As a matter of fact, I bought some other things for you today that I would like for you to try. I think that nylon stockings would be a good second step. I got a few pair of thigh high hosiery for you that I really think you would like. You could wear them under your pants and wear your socks over them so nobody would know. I thought that pantyhose would be too awkward for you along with the panties, These thigh highs don't even need a garter belt to keep them firmly in place. You just roll them on up to your thighs and they will stay firmly in place, all day. How does that sound, Robin? Do you want to try on a pair this evening?" "If it helps my problem, I'll give them a try," he answered. "There is one small problem," said Marian "You don't have a lot of hair on your legs, but I would suggest you shave off whatever hair you do have. You will find that the nylons will feel much better with no hair there to interfere with the sensation." "I don't have a problem with that. What should I use? My electric razor?" "Let me give you one of my old fashioned razors. that women use to shave their legs. It will give you a closer shave. I'll take it out and put it next to the sink in the bathroom. Don't forget to use shaving cream with it. Be gentle so you don't cut yourself." After a while, Robin went to the bathroom, took off his shoes, socks and pants and spread shaving cream over his legs. He carefully shaved off the few hairs on his legs and came back to the living room. The only clothes he had on below the waist were his panties.. Marian was waiting for him with the stockings. ""Robin, you have very shapely legs now that they are hairless. Let me show you how to put on these nylons. Roll one up and put your toes all the way inside. Then start pulling the stockings up over your foot and up your leg, making sure to not to leave any wrinkles. You will run out of stocking, once you reach your thigh. Notice that they get tighter around your thigh, to make sure they don't fall down until you want to take them off. Now you try to put the other one on. Robin stumbled a bit, but finally got the stocking on his leg. "Very good, Robin. you are doing that very well. I think that you will love wearing them. Now run your hands up and down you legs to see how it feels." "Wow, it feels great, Marian. The stockings feel very snug on my legs and seem to be holding them gently. When I rub my hands up and down the stockings, it feels smooth and very sexy Now I can see why women wear them." "Get up and walk around the living room and make sure you stockings rub against each other on each step. I think that you will enjoy the sensation." Robin did so and walked around rubbing his legs together and running his hands up and down his legs. "This feels incredible, Marian. They feel so smooth and sexy." "Obviously they feel good, Robin, but I can see I'm going to have to give you some instructions on 'tucking' your penis. All you have to do is reach down, grab your penis and pull it back between your legs. While you are doing that, push your testicles into the body cavities just above them. Than, pull your panties up as tight as you can, capturing your penis between your legs. But wait until your erection is gone before you try that. It should give you the flat exterior of a woman in the crotch area. If that doesn't work, we will have to buy you a gaff. That is more of a heavy duty solution." "Remember now, you will have you wear your socks so people can't see the nylons on your feet. They will only see your pants, socks and shoes. Of course, if you wear them with long pants, you won't feel that delicious sensation of the nylons rubbing together. You might try shorts when you are working at home. "I'll give it a try, Marian. Tomorrow is Tuesday and I can work at home. Same thing on Friday, so both days I can wear shorts with the panties and nylons. However, on Wednesday and Thursday, I have meetings to go to so I will have to wear a suit with long pants. I will also try the 'tuck' method that you mentioned as well." On Thursday, Robin came home complaining that he found the nylons were less noticeable when he had to wear them under long pants and socks. He said that the nylons felt wonderful under the shorts that he wore on Tuesday and he was looking forward to wearing shorts on Friday.. "I still love the feel of the nylons no matter what I am wearing, but they just feel super when I wear shorts." "Now you know why I, like many women, mostly wear skirts and dresses so most of the time my legs are bare, except for the nylons. That way I can feel the stockings rub against each other all the way up to my thighs. I don't have to wear socks either. I really think that they make my legs look sexier as well." The weekend passed and Marian decided to make a drastic move. For the past two days, Robin had asked her about the next part of her plan. So, on Sunday evening, she told Robin that she was ready to discuss "the next step." She had noticed that when Robin was wearing nylons, his feminine mannerisms became a bit more pronounced. . He couldn't feel his nylons through his pants, but he kept his legs tightly together while seated and rubbed them together quite often. When he wore shorts, he was continually rubbing his legs together and she noticed him rubbing his legs with his hands and smiling. He had also continued to wear panties daily. Marian felt that Robin was slowly getting used to wearing female attire and seemed to like it. Marian's "next move" was to get Robin to wear a bra. Once she got Robin to wear a bra, along with the panties and nylons on a daily basis, it would be easy to get him into dresses. "Robin, you wanted to know what the next part of my plan is," said Marian. "Well, I feel that your search to explore you feminine side would not be complete unless you started wearing a bra. All women wear bras, so how could you really know how women feel wearing one on an every day basis, unless you started wearing one?" "But Marian, I don't have any breasts. It would look silly for me to walk around with a bra that was totally empty." "We could always get breast forms for you to put in your bras if you want, especially later on, however right now, everyone would think that you are a man with breasts. I just think you might enjoy the feeling an empty bra would give you if it is sized correctly. It will gently hug you around your chest and around your shoulders and give you more of a feminine feeling. My bras give me a feeling of being held and are a constant reminder that I am a woman. You could wear a bra to your meetings and nobody would know. It would be underneath your shirt and suit coat, totally invisible. I know that you would be embarrassed to go into a store and buy a bra, so I can measure you to get the right size and stop at the store tomorrow and pick a couple of bras up for you. What do you think?" "Marian, aren't we going too far? I really enjoy wearing the panties and nylons, but wearing a bra is something else. I want to explore my feminine side, but a don't want to lose my male side." "Your 'male side' is getting you in trouble on a daily bass, Robin. Face it. You mannerisms are much more like a woman than a man. That is why people ridicule you. You've already said that wearing panties and nylons make you feel good. A bra would make you feel even better than that. You can hide it from the world for as long as you want, just like you are hiding your panties and nylons. The only way you will know if you can be happy is to explore your feminine side to the fullest. I'm overjoyed to be able to help you." "Alright Marian, I'll give it a try, but if bras don't help me to feel better, I'll stop wearing them." "That's fine, honey. Let me get a tape measure so I can see the size that would fit you best." The next afternoon, Marian came home with three very feminine bras She told Robin to shave off the few hairs that he had on his chest as well as the hair in his armpits. "Women wearing bras don't walk around with hairy armpits, or chests. You might as well also shave off that fine hair that you have on your arms as well." Actually, Robin had much less hair on his body than most men. In fact, he didn't have to shave his beard more than three times a week, Marian often wondered if Robin had a lot more estrogen in his system than the average male. When Robin finished shaving, Marian showed him the bras she had purchased. They were in three different colors - white, black and beige. "These are all size 38B. The 38 is your chest measurement and based on that measurement, according to the lady in the bra department, you would look and feel best with a B cup. You will look more like an average woman that way. Hopefully they will fit you comfortably. Lets try one on you now. Do you want to put it on yourself, or do you want me to help you on the first one? "I'd rather have you help me, at least the first time, Marian. It looks complicated. I wouldn't know where to start." "Very well," answered Marian. "You do have some experience though. You have taken my bra off many times before and during sex. So you know that it has hooks and eyes. Most bras have two or three sets of hooks. You should try each of them to see which one is the most comfortable for you." I'm sure that you have seen me put on my bras many times. I just put my arms in the straps and then reach around behind myself to get the hooks placed. You could try it that way, but many women don't have the dexterity to reach that far behind themselves. In that case, they hook themselves up in front, then rotate the bra around their bodies and then put their arms through the straps. Here, take this white one and give it a try. I will stay right here in case you need me." After fumbling for awhile, Robin finally got the bra hooked in front of himself. bra and "I used the middle hooks, Marian. That doesn't seem to be too loose or too tight." "Very good, Robin. You will be an expert in no time. Now, swing that band around until the hooks are in the middle of your back and I'll show you how to adjust the straps." Once that was done, Marian told Robin to walk around and do some upper body stretches to see if the bra is comfortable enough. "So how does it feel, Robin? Too loose? Too tight? Remember women wear their bras all day long, so it is important to make sure they are comfortable."" "To tell you the truth, Marian, it feels like my chest is gently encompassed by two hands and the pull of the straps on my shoulders is comfortable and a little bit erotic." "That's great, Robin. That is what I meant by allowing yourself to embrace your femininity. Take your pants, shoes and socks off, so you are completely dressed in feminine lingerie. Now how do you feel? How do those nylons feel rubbing against each other? How do those panties feel against your bare skin? How does that bra feel against your bare chest?" "It is hard to describe, Marian. It feels totally different than just wearing jockey shorts. I feel so feminine. The more I move, the better I feel. So much better than before with my male clothes. "Do you realize how much more feminine all of your movements have become? You back is straight and your chest is pushed out. Look at your hand gestures. Much more feminine than before. Your right hand actually has a limp wrist. Look at the way you have posed, one foot ahead of the other. A pose woman often take.. If you got insults before from people you pass on the streets, I guarantee it would be much worse now, if you wore all these things under your male clothes. It seems to me the lingerie has brought out your inner female, just as it probably did when your sisters and even your mother intentionally tried to take away your male identity and succeeded to a great extent. "So what should I do now, Marian. I'm a man, not a woman. I don't want to get insulted even more" "For the rest of the week, wear your bra, panties and nylons under your clothes. If you are wearing a shirt and jacket, nobody will realize that you are wearing a bra. See how that feels when you are away from home. I'll bet it increases your awareness of wearing feminine lingerie and hopefully, will bring out your femininity even more. "But Marian," said Robin, "what if I can't control my femininity and coworkers start asking me questions? What do I tell them?" "That is your choice, Robin," answered Marian. You don't have to say anything, at least for now. But you can also admit that you are transitioning to see who your inner self wants to be. That is the truth after all." On Friday, as soon as both of them were home from work, Marian asked "so how did it go, Robin? First of all do you still enjoy wearing a bra in addition to the rest of your things?" "It felt wonderful, Marian," answered Robin. It felt like these are the things I should be wearing. I actually felt sexy and there were times I got an erection, just sitting at my desk. Believe it or not, I wish that I could have taken my male clothes off. I even told a few of my friends what I am really doing. Both of them told me how happy they were that I was doing something, since they had seen how unhappy I had become." "That's wonderful Robin" said Marian. Now comes the biggest part of all. First of all. I have taken a weeks vacation from work and I would like you to do the same. In fact, why don't you call your office right now and let them know you won't be in at all next week If need be, you could still write from home. Then, starting tomorrow, if you agree, we will start to totally feminize you. I mean dresses, hair styling, shoes, makeup, earrings, the works. This is the only way to really find out whether your current feminine gestures are just a manifestation of your childhood experiences, or actually your body screaming to let out your inner woman." "During my lunch hour, I bought a couple of dresses for you. Hopefully, they will fit. If not, we can always take them back. After dinner, we will change your hairdo in one of two ways. For a long time, you have had a male pony tail, jutting out form the lower part of your head. It would be easy to just raise the pony tail to higher on your head, the way that women wear it. Or, if you prefer, since you have long, shoulder length hair, I can make an appointment for you at a beauty parlor. They could style your hair into a more feminine manner. I can certainly show you how to put on makeup, including a cover up for the little facial hair that you have. You won't believe how nice it is to put on lipstick. You will find yourself licking your lips all day." "Sound's great, Marian," answered Robin. "Let's stick with the pony tail for now though. I want to see how that looks before going to a beauty parlor." "That is about all I can do without both of us going shopping together, dressed as women. I know that it is going to be very difficult for you to do this, but it is necessary . When we get to the dress store, I will get a saleslady that I know who will take you into a dressing room and get your measurements. Then she and I will pick out several dresses and skirts for you to try on in the dressing room. Unfortunately, the dresses will not look quite right because you don't have female breasts. Dresses and blouses are made with extra room in the chest area and tend to look strange if a woman does not at least have small breasts. So, I bought something that will take care of thatl. I will show you my purchase a little later." "Another thing we have to shop for is shoes. Women's shoes are hard to size. Without trying them on, you will never know which style or size will be comfortable on your feet. I would suggest that you buy a pair of flats and a pair of heels, two inch pumps probably. You should be able to handle those easily with a day or two of practice You can wear your own shoes to the store. I would suggest your sandals. They look quite unisex.." "I would also suggest getting your ears pierced, one small hole in each earlobe. Clip on earrings are very painful to wear, and there is not a great selection. Earrings for pierced ears are limitless. As a matter of fact, you can just use mine if you wish. There is only one size and I must have at least 100 pair. I guarantee that you will feel much more feminine with dangly earrings in your ears." "But Marian," cried Robin, "what if I still look like a man in a dress? Then people would make much more fun of me than they do now." "We will have to see how it all comes out Robin. I think that you will look like a very attractive woman. However, once we complete the changes I mentioned, you will be the judge. If you don't think that you look like a woman, than we will go back to what you were doing. However, for now, I want you to allow yourself to really immerse yourself into becoming a woman. Your gestures can be as feminine as you want them to be. Your voice is naturally high and could either be a woman's voice or a mans. Your name is obviously suitable for either a man or a woman." "I want you to think of this as a grand experiment, Robin. Have fun with it and let your inner female out. That is the only way you will truly know who you really are." After dinner, Maggie took a fairly sedate knee length flowered dress out of the packages she had left on the sofa and had Robin put it on over his lingerie. She straightened it out, happy that she had bought the right size for him. "Do you see the way the top of that dress looks empty? That is because you don't have any breasts to fill up the space. Take a close look in the mirror and you will see what I mean. And buckle that belt tighter around your waist. It will give you a bit of a figure." "I think that I see what you mean, Marian. The dress just hangs on my chest now. So what can we do about it?" Marian smiled and took another package out and opened a small box. It contained two breast forms. "Wow, Marian, they look like real breasts. They even have nipples." For now, we will just insert them in your bra and see if you don't look better. If you are comfortable with them, we will add some adhesive sometime in the future and secure them on your chest. They are supposed to stay in place for several days unless you want to take them off. Now loosen the top of your dress, so I can insert the forms in your bra." "Now, take a look in the mirror, Robin, from the front and from both sides. I think that it looks pretty good. Very feminine." "I can certainly see the difference. The forms really fill out the top of the dress. How big are they?" "Just a B cup. You don't want anything bigger right now unless you want to attract attention. How do they feel?" Robin took several steps and turned quickly. Then he turned the other way. They feel fine. They seem to jiggle a little when I walk." "That is exactly how a woman feels when she walks, unless her bra is too tight. If you tried to run with them on, they would almost bounce if your bra was too loose." Robin went back to looking at himself in the mirror. He was smiling and seemed to be admiring himself. "OK," said Marian. "I think this part has been an unqualified success. Lets have dinner. Don't forget, you have to take everything off before you go to bed. I'll get a nightgown for you to wear. Tomorrow, we will add several more things to make you feel even more like a woman." After taking off all of his female garments, including his bra and breast forms, Robin said, "Now it feels funny not to have all those girly things on. I even miss having boobs." "You will have them back tomorrow, Robin," answered Marian as they both went to their bedroom. "In the meantime, this tricot nightgown will feel very feminine when you put it on." Robin put on the nightgown and immediately got an erection. "It feels so sexy, Marian, just like having a sexy dress next to my skin. I am feeling so horny. It has been a long time since we had sex." "Ill tell you what Robin, lets have sex the way two woman have sex together, orally. I'll give you a blow job and then you eat me out. OK?" "It's a deal Marian," answered Robin." As he lay down on the bed he shouted, "I'm ready for you to suck me right now." "You really are horny, aren't you Robin. Just let me take off my clothes and we will get started." Marian finally got his cock into her mouth and started to suck. In the meantime, she put her hand under his ass and started to rub his asshole. With all of that stimulation, it didn't even take Robin a minute to spurt cum down Marian's throat. After Marian swallowed his load, she rolled over on her back and spread her legs. "Now it is your turn, Robin. I want you to make me cum, no matter how long it takes." Robin took a minute or so to relax after his orgasm and then rolled over on top of Marian. First I want to suck you boobs, Marian. They look beautiful. I am beginning to think I want two just like them." He started licking and sucking her breasts, first on and then the other. Marian began to squirm as Robin really stimulated her tits. She also began to feel her pussy getting wetter and wetter. "Enough, Robin. I don't want to have an orgasm until you are sucking my pussy and clit. Stick your tongue in me as far as you can. Ooh that's good. Now put a finger in me while you suck my clit." After a minute or so she said, "Now go to work eating me. Every so often, suck my clit. Marian started to moan "That's wonderful. Keep going.. Make me cum." Robin did so and soon Marian began thrashing around and then started screaming "I'm cumming, I'm cumming." Afterwards, Marina said, "You really have a talent for cunnilingus, Robin. You will be very busy eating me during and hopefully after your transition." The next morning, Marian was up bright and early, getting ready for Robin's entry into womanhood. After his shower and after he washed his hair and shaved his face as close as possible and the rest of his body hair, including his underarms, Marian had to do something with his hair. She had to do so many other things with him that she thought she would take the easy way out and give him a female pony tail. Then, she would make an appointment at a beauty parlor so that he could get a professional hair styling as well as a manicure and a pedicure She might be able to get his ears pierced there as well... After Marian combed his hair into a female pony tail, she used a rubber band to hold it in place. Next, she had Robin put on his usual lingerie - panties, nylons and now a bra with inserts. Then she wanted to get him into a dress again. He enjoyed it last night, so she would use the same dress this morning. Now it was time to put makeup on Robin for the first time. Marian knew that Robin had no idea what to do, so she would have to do it all for him, at least for awhile. She planned to go the whole nine yards, foundation, mascara, eyeliner, and lipstick. Marian knew that she was not a makeup or hair expert, but she just wanted to allow Robin to pass this morning. She would be taking him to a beauty parlor in a day or two, for the full treatment. Next, Marian gave Robin a manicure including bright red nail polish. His nails were quite short for a woman, but she didn't have time to get nail extenders and paste them on him. Another job for the beauty parlor. She put the same color of polish on his toenails so that the shoe salesman would notice. After applying the foundation, Marian began on Robin's eye makeup. Robin started squirming while Marian applied mascara and eyeliner, making her job more difficult. Marian finally had to tell Robin to sit still, when he objected to her plucking a few stray hairs from his eyebrows. When she put bright red lipstick on his lips, she had to warn him to stop licking his lips or she would have to apply another coat. Earrings could wait until Robin would consent to having his ears pierced. She did give him two very feminine bracelets. She would have liked to have him wear several rings, but his fingers were far too big for anything she had. Finally, she sprayed him with just a touch of perfume. It took her awhile to do all that, but when she finished, she thought that Robin might very well pass for a woman. Now, she thought, would be the appropriate time to let him know what was in store for him that morning.. Robin didn't realize it yet but he would be going out en femme for the first time. It was necessary so that a proper wardrobe and shoe selection could be made. Marian had already talked to Maggie, a friend of hers who worked in a women's clothing store and told her she would be coming in with Robin. Maggie, had experience with transsexuals before, so she would tend to his clothing needs. Next, they would visit a shoe store. He would have to wear a pair of his shoes to the stores, but he would need to buy at least a pair of flats and a pair of high heeled pumps, probably two inches high to start with. She could raise him to three inches and even four inch stilettos eventually. Here again, she would have to get a salesman to help with the proper size. Robin's feet weren't huge, but they were bigger that Marian's, so he couldn't wear her shoes. She knew that without a correct measurement, Robin would be in agony wearing the incorrect women's shoe size, especially with the heels she wanted to get for him. She looked around his closet and found a pair of open toed sandals which might be classified as "unisex" and realized that would have to do until they went to the shoe store. Marian wasn't pleased with Robin's pony tail, even though it was in a feminine style. However, she knew that she would have to get Robin to a beauty parlor to get his hair styled properly, as part of a full makeover, including piercing his earlobes. . Marian finally let Robin look at himself in a full length mirror. "Oh my god," he exclaimed. "Is that really me? I can't believe it." Marian watched as Robin posed in front of the mirror and turned around quickly to see his dress swirling around his nylon clad legs. Marian realized that Robin's feminine movements were even more pronounced wearing a dress that they were prior to this experiment. "Two more things, Robin and we will be ready to go out. She sprayed a little bit of perfume on his wrists and behind his ears and gave him an old purse of hers to carry. "A woman never goes out without a purse. You don't have any pockets in that dress." "What do you mean 'go out' said Robin. "I can't go out looking like this. If people made fun of me before, they would have a ball looking at me now. I just can't go out this way, Marian." "Then we won't be able to find out what your clothes size is for women's garments. We certainly don't want to buy ill fitting things and you can't wear that same dress every day you know. As a matter of fact, it is a little tight on you. Also, I can't measure your feet, to see your proper shoe size. You can get away with your sandals for today, just to get you to the shoe store, but you will need flats and heels to really feel like a woman." "Tell me one thing, Robin. Do you or do you not really feel good in the clothes you are wearing? If not, then you might as well change back to your suits and ties and forget all we have been doing." "Marian, I never want to wear a mans clothes again" answered Robin. I feel too good in these clothes. I feel like I should have been wearing them for my whole life. I haven't felt this good since my sisters had me in dresses when I was a child. I'm just afraid that people will laugh at me even more than they did before when they see me dressed this way." "Think about this, Robin," said Marian. "They laughed at you before because everything you did, walking, gestures, posing, all looked like you were a woman wearing the clothes of a man. Look at yourself closely in the mirror now. What do you see, a man or a woman? What do you feel like, a man or a woman? What do you think people in stores will think you are, a man or a woman? All of those feminine traits that made you the subject of ridicule before are now perfect for the image you are portraying, an attractive woman. Now is the time to allow all of your feminine feelings to come out. Those deep down feminine urges that you have felt since your childhood can be released now. Let them all come out, Robin. This could be the start of finding happiness for the rest of your life. Come with me to the stores as you are dressed right now and don't be afraid that you will not be accepted. What do you say?" Robin went back to the mirror and examined himself from head to toe. He ran his hands over his body, feeling his breasts, his waist, his hips and pulled up the skirt of his dress to see and feel the nylons underneath. He posed in several positions. "Marian, you are right. I do look like a woman. I even feel like a woman. I guess I have to overcome my fears of going to the stores with you." "Great, Robin," answered Marian. "It would be best to go to the shoe store first, so you will be wearing women's shoes when we go to the clothing store. By the way, I will have to address you as 'she,' or 'her' because 'him' will just not cut it the way you are dressed and are acting. Is that alright with you?" "I guess so," answered Robin. I sure don't look very masculine right now. This will be the first store I went to wearing a dress." "One other thing, Robin, see if you can raise your voice just a bit. You have a high voice for a man right now, but if you can raise it just a bit more, you would really sound like a woman.." They drove to a shoe store and found a salesman who was eager to sell them some shoes. Marian picked out three pair for Robin to try on, a pair of flats, pumps with two inch heels and another with three inch heels. The salesman took a long time measuring Robin's feet to get the proper size. When he went in the back room to get the shoes, Marian said, "Robin do you know why he took so long measuring you? "No, not really. I guess he was just making sure of my size. Don't you think that was the reason?" "No, not at all. Did you see how red his face was getting and did you see how he kept getting closer and closer to you? "So what. Maybe he likes the smell of my perfume. I don't understand what you are getting at." "I'm talking about the show you were putting on. Remember, you are wearing a dress. You were sitting there with your knees spread apart and he was staring up your dress. I imagine that he could see the tops of your nylons as well as your panties. When he got up to get the shoes, he had quite an erection. Was that what you were after? Were you teasing him?" "Of course not," answered Robin. "Now I feel embarrassed. I just didn't remember to be careful wearing a dress. I guess that I will have to practice that. I'll make sure that I keep things covered when he comes back with the shoes." "Are you sure that you want to? One of the nicest things about being a woman in your ability to tease men. They can't help themselves. If your skirt is above your knees, they are going to try to see between your legs. If your blouse is loose, or low cut, they are going to try to look down your cleavage. Didn't you see women do those things in the past? Didn't you want to look up their skirts, or down their blouses?" "No, not really. There were times when I thought about it, but I never had the nerve to actually do it. Most of the time, I felt sorry for the women who were unaware of what was happening. "Interesting. You even had a lot of sympathy for women back then who found themselves in a compromising position and had not intended to do so. Anyway, here comes the salesman now with the shoes for you to try on. I suggest you tell him to leave the shoes with us and I will help you try them on. Robin followed Marian's suggestions and the salesman walked away with a very disappointed expression on his face. As it turned out, all three pair fit perfectly. Robin had a bit of trouble standing up and walking in the two inch pumps, but Marian kept reminding her to keep practicing walking in them. You will be comfortable in them in just a few days if you keep practicing every day. Once you get comfortable in the lower heels you can try the higher ones. They will make your legs look slimmer and much more sexy." Once they paid for Robin's shoes, they left the shoe store with Robin wearing her new flats and headed for the clothing store.. Marian's friend Maggie met them as they walked in the door.. "Oh my," exclaimed Maggie,"she looks much better than I thought she would. I think we can outfit her very well, if she cooperates.. I have a waiting room open for you Robin. Just go in there and I'll be in shortly to get your measurements." After Robin went into the room, Maggie turned to Marian and said, "I can't believe that Robin is really a man. Every thing about him screams female." "Yes," answered Marian. "She has always had effeminate characteristics, but as soon as I got her in a dress, the real Robin started coming out. My bet is that we will never see her as a male again." "Let me get her measurements Marian and I'll bring in some clothes for her to try on. I assume she is wearing breast forms in her bra? "Yes," replied Marian, "she is wearing breast forms in a 36 B bra now, but measure her and make sure how that affects her dress size. Believe it or not, I saw her actually fondling and squeezing her breast forms a while ago. I think that we will need to get a few dresses, skirts, blouses, panties, half and full length slips, nylons, probably thigh highs, but also a garter belt and regular nylons. I don't want her messing with panty hose yet. Please make sure to try a variety of styles on her and include a couple with higher hemlines. Oh, and Maggie, try to get her interested in earrings. I will be taking her to a beauty shop tomorrow to get her hair done, and a facial. I want her to consent to getting her ears pierced." "How far will you be going with her, Marian?" questioned Maggie. "Will you be giving her hormones?" "Maggie, I will take her as far as she wants to go. In the past couple of days, she has already expressed how comfortable she feels in women's clothes. I am convinced that she would be much happier as a woman than as a man. I will be letting her know things available to her if she wishes, including HRT, breast implants, even cosmetic surgeries and gender reassignment surgery if she wants it. I won't force her into anything. I will suggest, but not insist." "OK, then," said Maggie. "Let's get started with the underwear first and work our way up to the outer garments. This will probably take a couple of hours." Robin and Marian walked out of the clothing store a few hours later, laden down with packages containing Robin's new wardrobe. "That was a long session, Marian, but I'm happy we did it. Everything we bought was not only beautiful, but they all felt so good when I tried them on. I can't wait to start wearing them." They went home for lunch and Robin spent the entire afternoon trying on and posing in each outfit. Most of the time she wore the two inch heels and consistently looked at her legs in the mirror. She had a bit of trouble walking in them, but a few hours later, there was definite improvement. "You were right, Marian. My legs do look slimmer and sexier with heels." Marian said, "Just wait until you see yourself in the higher ones. Your legs will look even slimmer and sexier. Why do you think women wear high heels? The higher they are, the more attention they get. Women in four inch heels and higher, seem more vulnerable and men like to help them from place to place." "Marian, what are the plans for tomorrow?" "I made an appointment for you at the beauty parlor for tomorrow morning with Denise. I always use her, I thought about doing it myself yesterday, but I am nowhere near as good as she is. She will style your hair to fit your face. She will also give you makeup lessons and give you all sorts of tips on doing your makeup yourself from now on." "Maggie was suggesting that I have my ears pierced so that I can wear earrings. Don't they make earrings that aren't made for pierced ears?" "They do, but believe me, you don't want to wear them. You have to screw them onto your earlobes and after an hour or so, they really begin to hurt your ears. Also, there are very few different styles of those type of earrings. Women just don't wear them anymore. I would suggest if you are going to wear earrings, and I think that it is a great idea, I'm sure that Denise can pierce your ears tomorrow. I have a huge assortment of earrings for pierced ears, in many styles, and you are welcome to share them with me. Let me show them to you." So, for the rest of the afternoon, Marian showed Robin her earring collection. "These earrings are so pretty, Marian. I can't wait now to get my ears pierced so that I will be able to wear them. I especially like the long dangly ones." "By the way," said Marian. Denise can also change your hair color if you wish - blond, redhead, anything you want. I'm sure she will tell you her suggestions for your complexion." So, the next morning, Marian drove Robin over to the beauty shop and introduced Robin to Denise. Denise exclaimed, "Wow, Marian. I thought that I would be working with a gangly man, trying to look like a woman. Robin already looks like a very pretty woman now and even seems to act like one. I will enjoy making her appear even more feminine and beautiful. You might not recognize her when you return to pick her up in a few hours." "By the way Denise, Robin told me that she would like to have her ears pierced today. She is excited to wear earrings. Also, we discussed hair color. What do you suggest for her?" "My first inclination is blond, but let me work with her for awhile before she and I make a final decision. Come with me, Robin. We have a lot of work to do." When Marian came back a few hours later, she couldn't believe her eyes. Instead of the husband she once had, now there was no male resemblance whatsoever. Robin had blond hair, in a wavy style, that caressed her ears and ended at her shoulders. Not only was her makeup expertly applied, but Robin's eyebrows had been plucked to give her a high woman's arch. There were two shiny studs in her earlobes and a big smile on her face. "You were right, Marian. Denise is terrific. She even gave me lessons in hair grooming and how to put on makeup. She mentioned that I could get rid of the thick makeup we use to cover my chin hairs if I get laser hair removal She said that it would take awhile, but since I have such a light beard, it wouldn't take nearly as much as for most men,. I also love having pierced ears. Denise said that I would have to wear the studs for about six weeks until my ears heeled. Then I can wear other earrings, as long as they are not heavy." When they got home, Marian said, "Robin, it seems like you are very serious about continuing your conversion to becoming a woman." "Absolutely, Marian. There is nothing I want more. I know that it will take awhile, but I can't believe how feminine I look after just a couple of days." "There is something more we can do if you want to, that might speed up the transformation. For a long time now, I have suspected that you have less than the normal male's amount of testosterone in your body but instead have an abnormally high amount of estrogen, the female hormone. I suspected this because so many things about you lean toward the feminine side. You even have tiny breasts, bigger than most men. I would like to take you to an endocrinologist to see if I am right." "What if you were right, Marian? What could the doctor do?" "That would entirely be up to you Robin. If you want to get rid of some of the feminine characteristics you have, then the doctor could give you testosterone shots. However, if you are serious about transforming into a woman, then the doctor could give you additional estrogen and testosterone blockers. "What would happen if I continued taking the feminine hormones?" "Several things, Robin. Your body would change, as would your emotions. However, I would rather let the endocrinologist explain all that to you. Do you want me to make an appointment for you?" "Absolutely. As soon as possible. I don't know if your theory about my already having more female hormones than most men is correct, but I do know that the last few days have been wonderful. Just look at me. I have changed from an effeminate man into an attractive woman, at least on the outside." "Alright, Robin. I will make the appointment for you. In the meantime, I suggest you make out a list of all the questions that you want to ask the doctor. Otherwise, you might forget something important." Marian called a few of her friends who might know of a good endocrinologist. She got a couple of names and started calling them to see if they had a quick appointment for Robin. Luckily, the first office she called just had a cancellation for the next morning. When Marian told Robin about the lucky appointment, she was overjoyed. "Great," she said. "I'll wear my prettiest dress and my heels. I'd better go practice with them." The next morning, Robin was very excited. After breakfast, She tried on several dresses, before deciding to wear a white, ruffled , sleeveless blouse, with a black, knee length pencil skirt. "I thought that I would go traditional. I wouldn't want to give the doctor the impression that I was flamboyant," After Marian helped her with her hair and makeup, Robin put on her new heels and walked around the house to fully familiarize herself with them. "Do I have to carry the purse we bought yesterday, Marian?" "You had better get used to carrying one, kiddo to just about everywhere you go. You have a lot of necessary things you have to take with you and you will notice that your clothes don't usually have any pockets in them. For example, a wallet, a makeup kit, hair brush and comb, keys, tissues, and anything else you might need before we get home again shuld be in your purse. By the way, make sure that you bring your health insurance cards, as well as a list of your current medications" They finally got ready and got into the car. "Would you like to drive in your heels, Robin? You will find it is not the same as driving in flat shoes." "How about if I drive on the way back. I'm too nervous about this appointment to try something like that now." "There's no reason to be nervous, Robin, answered Marian. When I made the appointment, they told me that everyone just loves Dr. Lambert." "Is Dr. Lambert a 'he' or a 'she'?" "Dr. Sylvia Lambert is a 'she.' By the way, when we get there, you will have to fill out some paperwork concerning your medical insurance and medical history." Dr. Lambert turned out to be a middle aged woman, neatly dressed, who invited Marian and Robin into her office. When they were seated, Dr. Lambert introduced herself and asked which one was Robin. Robin said, "I am and this is my wife, Marian." "So why are you here?" asked the doctor. "Because I am really just starting to transition from being a man my whole life and I understand that you can give me hormones that would help the transition." Marian jumped in, saying, "It is a little more complicated than that, Dr. Lambert. You see Robin has been unhappy for a long time. You will notice that she has a lot of feminine mannerisms and traits and it has led to people making fun of her as a man. She also had a background of being forced to wear dresses when she was a young child. Also, I had an idea that she might have a hormone imbalance with too much estrogen in her system for a man. So, I thought you might be able to help." "Well, it sounds like the first step is to get a blood test from you Robin so we can find out what your hormone situation really is. I would like to examine you as well, so that I can determine if you already have some bodily female characteristics. However, before we do anything else, I want you to tell me how serious you are about transitioning." "Dr. Lambert, I have never been so serious about anything in my life. In the last couple of weeks, I have gone from a frustrated man being humiliated by how my natural tendencies are viewed by others, to becoming a totally satisfied person. I love being a woman. I love the clothes, I love the way people treat me now, but most of all, I love the fact that for the first time, I can be myself. I can act totally natural in front of everyone and they won't laugh at me. But I also know that I still have a lot of male characteristics and that is why I am here, to get help in ridding myself of as many of these characteristics as possible." "Alright, Robin. I have to step out for a couple of minutes, but my nurse will be in shortly to get a blood sample from you. Then, I would like you to take off all of your clothes and lie down on this table and cover yourself with the sheet that my nurse will give you. Then, I will return and examine you. Marian, please stay and keep Robin company. This type of examination can be very difficult for the patient and I think that you can help to relax her. Robin you can get dressed as soon as the examination is over." After the blood sample had been taken and the doctor had completed her examination, Robin got dressed and she and Marian waited for the results. Dr. Lambert returned smiling. Marian, your guess about her hormones was correct. Robin has a good deal more estrogen in her system than the average male. I could see some results of that when I examined her. Robin, several parts of your body have definitely been impacted by the extra estrogen in your system. For example, you seem to have more fat deposits on your thighs and derriere than most men have. You also have small, but very well defined breasts. You do not even seem to have the musculature that men usually have. Do you still want to take female hormones?" "Yes, doctor, I certainly do," answered Robin. "Then, I must also tell you about the dangers of putting additional female hormones into your system, especially if you also wish to take testosterone suppressors. First of all, they will not affect your bone structure. However, they will certainly affect most other things. For example, your breasts will start growing, although quite slowly. You will put additional fat deposits on your thighs and derriere. Your waist will become slimmer. Fat deposit changes will also slightly modify your facial features to give you more of a feminine appearance. Most importantly, eventually your testicles will shrink. You will be able to have an erection for awhile, but you might not be able to keep your erection long enough to achieve penetration. Eventually, your ability to have an erection will cease. There are other things too, but they are all explained in a pamphlet I will give you before you go home. What I would like for you to do is go home, read the pamphlet and make a decision on whether or not you would like to begin taking hormones. If you do want to begin, call my office and I will send a prescription to your local pharmacy." "Robin, I suggest you read the pamphlet carefully, discuss everything with Marian and take your time making your decision. Just remember, transitioning from male to female requires quite a few permanent bodily changes. Make sure this is what you want for the rest of your life. I say this because you have just been transitioning for a very short period, a couple of weeks. I realize how advanced you are in dressing, makeup, feminine gestures, even walking in high heels, but taking hormones is a major decision and should not be taken without making sure that is what you want." "Thank you for your advice and counsel, Dr. Lambert, answered Robin "Marian and I will discuss it at home and read the pamphlet as well. I expect to be calling you back in just a few days with my decision." On the way home, Robin said, "Marian, the only reason I didn't tell Dr. Lambert to give me the hormones prescriptions today is I really want to discuss our future together if I completely transition If we are both filled with female hormones. I know that we both said we would continue to love one another, but wouldn't you want to have sex with other men, especially if I eventually get a vagina instead of a penis? "Perhaps, Robin. But it is quite possible that if you had a vagina, you would also enjoy the feeling of a male's organ inside you . We could also continue to have sex with each other as two females. The important thing is to make sure that we continue to love each other. If we do, then things would work out, better than they are now in fact, with you being so unhappy as a man. There are lots of cis females and trans females living together very happily. I'm sure that we could contact them about it if you wish." "I think that the most important thing to think about Robin, is the permanent changes the hormones will have on your body. When you grow breasts, they can be surgically removed, but that will leave scarring. Changes to other parts of your body can't be altered. Right now, people are laughing at you because of your feminine traits. Imagine what they would do if you went back to being a man after taking hormones for a couple of years. What I'm really saying, Robin, is you have to live with this decision for as long as you live. Either way, my love for you won't change." "I never want to go back, Marian. I love being a woman. Obviously, hormones will be a major step and I welcome the changes they will bring. My only worry about them is that I don't want them to affect our loving relationship." "Silly, I was the one who suggested you wear women's clothes in the first place. I figured that you have always been more of a woman than a man. That blood test proved it. I think that you are doing the right thing, Robin and I love you even more now that you have come to grips with your problems." "Then, that decides it," concluded Robin. "Tomorrow morning, I will call Dr.Lambert and tell her that I will go to her office later today to pick up the prescriptions for estrogen and a testosterone blocker. I'm going to tell her to give me the highest doses that are safe, since I want these body changes to occur as soon as possible. I'm also going to ask her to recommend a therapist. or psychiatrist to go to so that in a year or so, I will qualify for the SRS surgery That will give me a long time to determine if I want to go that far. I have already been living as a woman 24/7 for a few weeks and I don't plan to ever go back to being a man again." Six Months Later "Marian," said Robin, "Everything has been so much better, since I have been taking hormones for the past six months. However, I am starting to get very impatient with one important part of my transformation. Some things are great, such as my hair seems thicker and is growing faster, while my body hair is almost all gone. My nails seem to be growing faster and I can notice changes to my hips, waist and buttocks.. I also noticed subtle changes in my facial features making me look a bit more feminine. I am also well on my way to removing all facial hair with my laser treatments. My emotions have certainly changed. It seems like I start to cry almost every day about something or other. The one thing that I am not happy with are my boobs. It has been six months since I started taking hormones and I still can't completely fill a padded A cup bra. I know that this takes time, but I don't want to wait years and years to have beautiful breasts like yours. I want to wear low cut dresses like you do. When we go out together, men seem to flock around you, but not me" Marian asked "Robin, remember when Dr/ Lambert asked you at one of our appointments what size breasts your mother and grandmother had? You told her they had very small breasts, B cup at the most. Then she told you that your breasts would probably not be any bigger than what they had. and might be a bit smaller.. You can wait another year or so and hope for the best, but if you really want breasts like mine, than I think you should investigate getting breast augmentation surgery. I'm sure a qualified surgeon would be more than happy to give you whatever you want. A few things to consider though about bigger boobs, Robin. First of all, they are quite heavy, so you always have to wear a bra so your breasts don't begin to sag. Next, unless you are wearing a fairly snug bra, your breasts will have a tendency to bounce when you walk That will probably be titillating for you at first, but believe me, it can get old fast. If you try to run, you will have to wear a sports bra, or your tits will actually be flopping around." "Also, if you are thinking of getting C cup boobs like mine, be aware that that they will be the first thing that men and many women will be looking at when they see you. You might get much more attention then you want. Believe me, I know from experience. Of course, if that is what you want, than by all means, go for it. You can mesmerize men just by leaning forward in a low cut dress. Even a fairly low V neckline is enough. That, of course, is teasing and the man, or woman, might think that you are looking for more intimacy, so you have to be very careful as to who you try to entice" "At any rate, I will support your decision, no matter what it is. Just remember to really give this your utmost attention and please, don't rush into anything. I love your breasts the way they are right now and I would love your breasts if they were larger as well. Do what satisfies you and no one else." "I have also been meeting with my psychiatrist, Doctor Elie Karson for about five months," stated Robin, "and I have recently told her that I definitely want to have sex reassignment surgery as soon as I become eligible. I have lived as a woman, 24/7 for over six months now and I have never been more sure of anything in my life. First the boob job, which I have thought about for six months and then SRS when I'm eligible." Four months later "Now that you have fully recovered from your breast surgery," said Marian, are you totally satisfied with the way they look?" "Oh yes, Marian. They are absolutely terrific. I was going to get 38C implants, just like yours, but the surgeon said my chest was large enough to accommodate 38 D breasts, so I gave him the go ahead. I really like the fullness that the one extra cup size gives me. I can't stop touching them and looking at them in the mirror. Imagine that at one time, you were wondering if I should have breast implants because there is really no going back to being a man, once you have large breasts. Do you know what I did when you asked me that? I looked at you and saw how proud you were of your breasts and I just knew that I wanted large breasts of my own. I didn't want to go back to being a man long before getting breasts and I certainly made the right choice. I have never been happier. I love it when you touch them and suck on my nipples. My breasts are so sensitive that the slightest touch gets me excited even when I touch them which is quite often.. As you so wisely said, people, both men and women, first stare at my breasts, then at me. Maybe some women get irritated about that, but I just love it. I also love the fact that I don't have to wear breast forms any more. I was so tired of massaging my breast forms and not really feeling anything. I really think my decision about going for D cup breasts turned out to be just right. Anything smaller would not have satisfied me and anything bigger would have been just too much." "One thing that is bothering me though. I have been taking female hormones for nine months now and I am having problems getting erections and when I do get them, they don't stay long. It makes it hard for me to penetrate you and stay hard long enough to satisfy you.' "Robin," answered Marian, "we both knew that this would happen sooner or later, just as Dr. Lambert said and we both accepted it. Quite frankly, the oral sex episodes we have been having have been mind blowing. I love the way you eat my pussy and make me cum again and again. You even cum sometimes when I suck your cock. You don't have to achieve full penetration to make me happy.. Gentleness and knowing what your partner enjoys goes a long way. Although I loved our sex life previously, I love it just as much now. It is just different. I think that you should just relax and enjoy things as they are. Remember, you have your SRS coming up probably in less just a few more months." "I know that, Marian. I know that soon I will have to make my final decision about the surgery. I know that I want it, but there are still questions in my mind." "What are they, Robin? Is there something that I can help you with? You know that I am always here to help you." "I am grateful for that Marian. The thing is I have no idea how I will respond to men. I like it when they stare at me now, but I also love it when women do the same thing. To tell you the truth, I have no idea what would happen if I were to go out with a man on a date. I know that I look like a woman enough now to pass, but I'm still wondering what would happen, especially if the man started to come on to me." "Here's the thing, Robin. You have to decide how far you want to go with the man. Do you just want a platonic relationship, or do you want him to touch your boobs? Do you want him to take off your top and bra? Do you want him to suck on your nipples? It is very important to let a man know ahead of time that you are transitioning and that you still have a penis. It might turn him off totally, but not nearly as much as if he finds out when he is trying to get his hands under your dress. He might understand and go as far as you let him, or he might dump you like a hot potato. That is the chance you take now when you date a man. That is why you must every man you date who and what you are before you ever go out with him. Are you telling me this now, because a man has asked you out on a date?" "As a matter of fact, yes, Marian. I was so happy that everyone at work seemed to be quite accepting when I came out to them and since them, I haven't had any problems. But one of the men has asked me out a couple of times and I don't know what to do. He knows I am transitioning, but he doesn't know how far I have gone." "Do you like him Robin? Does he seem like a nice man, or is he just someone who is asking you out because you have big boobs?" "He is really nice Marian and although he does look at my breasts from time to time, he doesn't stare at them. He is also very handsome. Before I started all this, I never felt sexually attracted to men. Now, I find myself very attracted to some of them. Of course, I am still just as attracted to women as always." "Well then, it sounds to me like you have already made your decision. You want to go out with him. If you do, set the ground rules, before the date. Above all, let him know that you still have a penis and will for at least the next few months. By the way, what is his name?" "His name is Tim and I understand perfectly, Marian. When I see him in a couple of days, I will tell him I would be happy to to go out for dinner with him, but only under certain conditions. Then he can decide whether he still wants to take me out." Later that day, Marian received a phone call from an excited Robin. "Marian, would you believe that Tim asked me out for dinner tonight? I agreed and he will be picking me up at six. When I get home please help me find a good outfit for me to wear." Later that night, after Robin returned from her date, looking a bit disheveled. She went to the bathroom immediately. After she came out, Marian asked "how did your first date with a man go, Robin? Did you have any fun? Did he try to touch your breasts? Please don't leave anything out." "Tim was a real gentleman when he picked me up. He opened the car door for me and then closed it after I got situated. It takes a while to maneuver with four inch heels. He even opened the door for me when we got to the restaurant, for both the car and the restaurant entrance. We had a nice dinner although his eyes once in awhile did stray to my cleavage in my scooped neck blouse. Actually, I enjoyed that. My big new boobs certainly cause attention, as you predicted. " "Afterwards, we went to Tim's car, got in and talked for awhile. Then, he leaned over and kissed me on the lips. I was startled by his sudden move, but to tell you the truth, it felt really good. So, when he kissed me a second time, I kissed him back. Soon we had our tnngues in each other's mouths. I had told him earlier that I didn't mind if he kissed me, but if he went any further, I would very likely stop him. Then, I noticed his left hand on my right breast. He seemed to be breathing faster and I know that I was as well." "He put his hand under my blouse and started massaging my breast through my bra. "Robin," he said," you probably noticed that I have been staring at your breasts all evening. They are beautiful and sexy as hell. I want to touch them and suck on your nipples." "I didn't know what to say, or what to do. The next thing I knew, Tim had pulled up my blouse and my bra, uncovering my breasts. When he started sucking on one of my nipples, I found myself holding the back of his head against my breast, I realized how much I enjoyed what he was doing and I was getting really sexually excited." "Soon I felt him put one of his hands under my skirt and begin rubbing my leg, I knew I had to do something very quickly. I had told him that I was transitioning but much to my chagrin, I realized that I never told him that I still had a penis; I was actually in panic mode when he started rubbing my thigh. I had to distract him somehow so I leaned over toward him, and started to unbuckle his belt. That seemed to shock him and he stopped rubbing my leg. After I got his zipper unfastened, I reached into his jockey shorts and found a large, very erect cock. I immediately started massaging it with both hands. He started to moan and his hands went to the back of my head and pulled me down to his penis. I put it in my mouth and began giving him a blow job. After awhile, my jaw started to ache and I realized I had to do something else quickly to make him climax before he started to grope me again. So, I reached my free hand under his boxers and felt around for his anus. When I found it I started to rub my finger around the edges, listening to Tim starting to breathe hard and actually gasp. Then, I put one finger inside him, then two. As soon as I started to move my fingers around, he suddenly came in my mouth. I quickly swallowed as much as possible but a few drops ran down my chin. I reached over to my purse, took out a hanky and wiped away the leftovers. I guess that Tim was satisfied, since he didn't grope me any more. After that, he took me home. I am almost ashamed to say so, Marian, but the truth is, I loved sucking his cock. Between that and his sucking my breasts, I wound up coming in my panties." "I hate to say I told you so, Robin, but I was afraid that something like that would happen if you went on a date without telling the guy the whole story. You look so much like a women, he had no way of telling that you haven't completed your transition as yet. So what are you going to do now," questioned Marian. "You're absolutely right, Marian. I'm so ashamed of myself for leading Tim on without telling him the whole truth. He is a really nice guy and I would like to see him again, but I have to tell him the facts about me first. Then, I hope that he will still want to see me again." "I'm glad you feel that way, Robin," answered Marian. I suggest that you call Tim tomorrow and tell him the whole truth. There is a chance that he might just hang up on you, but that would be better than you continuing to lie to him." The next morning, before going to work, Robin called Tim. "Tim, I called to apologize to you for what happened last night. I wasn't truthful with you and I'm so sorry." "Robin, I was just about to call you to apologize for doing things that I would never think of doing on a first date" answered Tim. It was just that I am so attracted to you and you looked so sexy and beautiful last night that I got totally carried away. I'm so sorry and I promise that if you will go out with me again, I promise to behave myself." "I'm so glad to hear that Tim, because i am very attracted to you as well. However I have to tell you the whole truth about myself and if you want to hang up and never see me again, after I tell you, then I will understand. It is common knowledge at work that I am transitioning from male to female. Recently, I have had breast surgery where implants were inserted in my chest. Whereas before, I used breast forms to give me the illusion of having breasts, now I really do have breasts that look and feel like the real thing. That is why I can now wear more revealing dresses and blouses than I did before. However, and this part is the most important part, I still have a penis. I will be having sexual reassignment surgery as soon as I'm eligible, but it will probably be several months, before my psychiatrist can legally sign the papers. Then, with my psychiatrist's permission, I can schedule the surgery. My surgeon will operate on me and create a vagina from my existing penal tissue. After the surgery, and a lengthy healing process, I will be able to have sex just like any other woman. I can go t through all of this in detail with you later, but for now, I want you to know why I couldn't let you touch me between my legs last night. I only wish I had been honest with you from the get go and it wouldn't have happened that way." "I am so glad that you told me, Robin. It makes me think that I didn't totally turn you off last night with my sexual advances. As far as you still having a penis, It is certainly a surprise, but not one that turns me off. I have been admiring you at work for some time and seeing how beautiful you were last night and being able to kiss you and touch your breasts got me so sexually aroused that when you started to kiss and suck my penis and then put your fingers in my butt, I couldn't hold back my ejaculation. I guess what I am saying, is that you don't need to have a vagina to get me excited, because it is you that is making me feel that way. In fact, I am getting an erection just talking to you over the phone. If and when you get a vagina , it might be that much better, but i am perfectly willing to wait for as long as it takes.: "Robin, would you be willing to come to my house after work tomorrow for dinner? I am a pretty good cook and we can talk more then." "I would love to Tim. I'm overjoyed that you feel t he way you do and it makes me feel that we might have a chance at a real relationship. But I have one proviso and that is you promise that you will kiss me again." "Again and again and again, if you want," Tim answered. "See you at work. You can either follow me to my house afterwards, or I can take you there in my car and drop you off at your car later." Immediately following her phone call to Tim, Robin found Marian and said, "OK, Marian, I told Tim and he seems to be alright with who I am. In fact, he invited me to his house for dinner after work tomorrow evening and I accepted his invitation. I just want you to know that just about anything can happen." "What if he asks you to go to bed with him?" asked Marian. "I hope that he does. I really want to have sex with him in any way that I can. I want to suck his cock again, but I don't want him to suck mine, since he is straight, at least I think he is, and it might totally turn him off. I was thinking that lots of transsexuals have anal sex and he might be okay with fucking me that way. I really want to find out how it would feel to be penetrated by a man's cock. I wish that I had a vagina already since that would eliminate the problem, but that won't happen for awhile yet. I was so happy that at least I have breasts, large ones. They really turned Tim on. I can't believe how excited I became when he started suckling them." "Robin," said Marian, since you still enjoy sex with me and now you have discovered that you also enjoy sex with men, it seems to me that you are bisexual. I have never told you this, but I am bisexual as well. Before I met you, I had sex with several women and enjoyed it immensely. If I am attracted to a person, it doesn't matter whether they are male or female So, once you have the final surgery, I will be attracted to you just as much. I love you, whether you are a man, or a woman.. I am also glad that you are going to have sex with Tim this evening. I'm sure that it will be quite a learning experience, one way or the other.". "Thank you Marian. That means so much to me. I love you too and I always will, whether I am a man or a woman. Instead of having a penis which becomes more useless day by day. I can only imagine what it will be like to have a beautiful vagina, like yours, and a sensitive clitoris. I am anxious to have my pussy penetrated by a man's cock. Also I can't wait to feel what it will be like to have my pussy licked by you, or another woman, or a man. If it feels as good as it does to have my breasts fondled and sucked I can't wait." The next morning, Robin put on her sexiest lingerie, not for work, but for Tim's eyes and hands after work. She also wore a dress that showed plenty of cleavage and four inch heels. When she got to work, she got plenty of stares, from men and women alike. Nevertheless, she made it through the day without talking to Tim even once. At the end of the day, Tim waited until most everyone had left before meeting her at her desk. When she stood up, he devoured her with his eyes. Robin was sure that anyone seeing them together would naturally assume they were having sex with each other.. "Tim," said Robin, "I think that I would rather follow you home in my car. Then I can drive home after dinner without having you drive me all the way back to work. Is that OK?" "Certainly, Robin," answered Tim. "But I'm going to miss seeing you sitting next to me on the way home." When tshe got to Tim's house, he raced out to help Robin out of her car. She was aware that as she got out of the car, her dress rode up on her legs, giving Tim a good view of her thigh high nylons and maybe her panties.. Tim grabbed her hand and walked her up to the front door. As soon as they got into the house, they were all over each other, hugging and kissing. "Please take me into the bedroom Tim, then help me out of my clothes. I want you to see me all over as I really am, at least for now." As Tim took off her dress, he couldn't help stopping to kiss her neck and her lips. Then he just stood there staring at her in her sexy lingerie. Robin could swear that he was drooling. He came over to her and filled his nostrils with her intoxicating scent. She took off her bra and Tim immediately began rubbing her breasts and sucking her nipples. Robin was beside herself with passion, as she almost ripped off Tim's shirt and started to tug at his belt. When she finally got it undone, she unhooked his pants and pulled them and his shorts down around his ankles. His cock was so erect, that Robin thought he must be in pain. She immediately dropped to her knees and took him in her mouth. This was what she was waiting for ever since she got home last evening. She fondled his testicles while she got as much of him in her mouth as she could and began sucking furiously. Tim soon began to moan and came in her mouth. Robin went to the bathroom to gargle and brush her teeth. When she came back, there was Tim, naked, sitting on the bed. "I'm so sorry, Robin. I really wanted to make it last, but I was just so excited I couldn't help myself." "Please don't apologize Tim. I attacked you as soon as we were inside and wanted to suck your cock so badly again that I couldn't contain myself. Next time we will take it slower and make it last." "You are still wearing your panties, Robin. Please take them off and let me see you as you really are. There is no need for you to hide anything from me." Robin nervously pulled her panties down and stood there in front of Tim. Her penis was small and flaccid. "I wish I could show you a real vagina instead of this pathetic thing, but that will have to wait awhile. I just hope that this doesn't turn you off." "Robin, I feel so strongly towards you that there is almost nothing that would turn me off, certainly not a part of you. Would you mind if I came over there and kissed it?" "Only if you really want to, Tim. I can certainly understand why you would never want to touch that part of me." Tim walked over to her, kneeled down and kissed her cock. Then, he took it in his mouth and started to suck it. Robin, now with rears in her eyes, said "Unfortunately, I don't get very hard anymore. Those female hormones I have been taking for months have done with the doctor said they would. I can still ejaculate a little bit, but not the way a man would. What I would really like for you to do if you want to and I will certainly understand if you don't want to, is have anal sex with me. I want to feel your stiff cock inside of me. It won't be my pussy yet, but I have cleaned myself thoroughly and I hope that it will be a good substitute for now. I even have a condom for you if you want to try." "Are you asking me to fuck you in the ass, Robin? I would be happy to, but if it is your first time, I don't want to hurt you." "If we go slow at first, and you open me up some with your fingers, I think that it will be OK. I'll get some lubrication from the bathroom so that you can put lots of it on your beautiful cock and in my ass. Tim, I am so anxious to have you in me. I want you to fuck me." After the lube was applied, Robin lay on her stomach on the bed with her behind up in the air. She also put a pillow under her stomach. Tim stared at her and said, "Robin, you are the most beautiful and wonderful woman in the world. I am so hard again that I was barely able to put the condom on." Tim took the tube of lubrication and put it on two of his fingers. After inserting a good deal of lubricant in her butt, he slowly inserted the first finger into Robin. "Mmm that feels nice Tim. Put your finger in as deep as you can. Oh my, that is really wonderful Now move it back and forth." This continued for awhile, until Robin told Tim to insert the second finger. "Go slow, Tim. That hurts a bit. After a minute or so, Robin asked Tim to spread his fingers apart so he would stretch her virgin asshole out a bit. Robin squirmed in pain a bit as he did so. After about five minutes of this, the pain subsided and Robin was ready to have Tim put his cock in her. "Make sure that you have lots of lubrication on your condom, Tim," said Robin. I think that I am ready for that beautiful cock of yours. Just put the tip of it inside me. As he did so, Tim heard Robin groan. "Tim, your cock feels so big. I don't know if it will all fit inside of me. Don't push any more, Tim. Let me get used to this first part." After a few minutes, Robin was ready for more. Tim said, "next comes the crown which is the biggest part. Once that is inside you, the rest will be much easier. Do you want me to start now?" "Yes, answered Robin. Put the crown in me quickly. I know it will hurt, but I hope you don't tear me apart." Time pushed hard and the crown entered Robin. She screamed in agony and tried to pull away. Oh god, Tim, I feel like I am being split apart. It hurts so much. I want you to stop right now." "OK, Robin. Lets just rest a bit until you get used to it. Now that the crown is in you, the rest will be easier, but I won't push again until you tell me too. I hate hurting you Robin, abut until we get you stretched out more, it is going to hurt a bit. Just wait, baby, before long you will be feeling much better." After ten minutes, Robin said, "Alright, Tim. I'm ready for a little more." Tim pushed and a couple of inches of his cock sank into Robin. She was uncomfortable, but not as much as before. In a minute or so, she said, "Just a little more now, Tim. pushed again, but a little harder. "Oh, that hurts, but I am also feeling something really good." She was now starting to push back on Tim's cock. "Now I'm ready for more/ See if you can push the rest of it in me." "All of it is already inside of you, baby," said Tim. "My cock is totally inside of you. You took it all. It feels so good to be inside of you like this." "It is starting to feel good to me too. I feel like I am stuffed with cock. Any more, and I would be able to feel you in my throat." "Are you ready now for me to start pulling in and out of you? Making love to you?" "Yes Tim. I want you to make love to me. Do it to me. Fuck me Tim. I want it so bad." Tim started going back and forth which caused Robin to feel some pain again. However, she also was feeling pleasure as a woman, for the first time. "I only wish that you would be fucking my pussy instead of my ass. This is OK, but I'm sure that vaginal sex would be much, much better." Eventually, Robin asked, "Tim, could you do it a little harder please and go as deep as you can/, Really start fucking me. Give it to me. That's it. Wonderful Keep it up, please. It hurts so good. This is what I needed to find out ." "Robin, I am going to cum..I can't hold it back any more; very soon. I wish I could go longer, but .... here it comes." "Do it Tim. Let it all go." Afterwards, after cleaning up, the couple lay on the bed, cuddling, and sucking on. Tim asked, "Robin, were you able to have an orgasm?" "Not really, Tim. But it felt good anyway, at least part of the time. I know that it will feel a lot better when I have a vagina with a clitoris. I want to feel what it will be like to have my pussy filled up with cum. Please continue rubbing my breasts like you are doing. As a matter of fact, when you play with my breasts like you are doing, It really makes me feel good. "Robin, your breasts are so beautiful that I can't take my eyes and my hands off of them" answered Tim. "Do you want me to fuck you again?" "No, Tim. I'm really sore down there and I'm really hungry as well. Please kiss me one more time and I will get dressed and get ready for that dinner you promised me." When Robin got home, Marian was still up and was, of course, very interested to hear how Robin's evening with Tim had gone. "It was good, Marian, at least for the most part. Tim was a real gentleman. He was very attentive to what I wanted and even cooked dinner for us afterward. As soon as we got in the front door, Tim started to undress me. I pulled his pants down and sucked his cock. It felt great, even better than when we did it in his car. After I brushed my teethed, Tim noticed that I was still wearing my panties. He asked me to take them off, so he could see me as I really am, at least for now. I was amazed that he came over and kissed and started sucking on my cock. Of course, it didn't get any bigger as you already knew from past experience." "Then I asked him to have anal sex with me so that I could feel what it would be like to have a man inside of me. He was very gentle, trying to open me up first with his fingers and lots of lubrication. That hurt a bit, but not nerly as much aslater when he put his cock in me. He doesn't have an especially big cock, but it was big enough to really hurt a lot when he put it inside me, especially until he got the crown of his cock inside. Afterwards, it still hurt as he pushed inside of me all the way, but I admit I felt some pleasure too. It wasn't long before he came into his condom an to tell you the truth, I was glad it was over. I'm sure that when I get a pussy, there will e some pain associated it, especially at first, but I certainly hope t will be a lot less painful and a lot more pleasurable." "Tim played with my breasts and sucked my nipples after we finished and that part was very nice. My breasts seem to be more sensitive now than they were when I first got the implants. At any rate, I really enjoyed that, just as I do when you play with my boobs. He also asked me if I wanted him to fuck me again and of course I said no, because I was so sore." "Then, Tim cooked me a delicious dinner and afterwards, I told him how tired I was. We kissed a few times and I got in my car and drove home. I guess that is the whole story, Marian." "So how did you feel about all that happened, Robin? Did you enjoy having sex with Tim? You already said that you enjoyed giving him another blow job and it sounded like you had quite an ordeal having anal sex. I guess what I'm asking is did you enjoy it enough to continue doing those things with Tim? You know that it will be at least three ot four months until you can have the surgery, plus whatever time it takes to find a surgeon and get it on the doctor's schedule. Will you be satisfied with repeats of tonight for that length of time?" "To tell you the truth, Marian, I thought about that all the way home. I went through everything in my mind that has taken place in the last couple of days and I came to a conclusion. Tim is a really nice person and he sincerely wants to make me happy. However, I have never told him that I am happily married to a wonderful woman. I don't think that he could have accepted that, since all he wanted was to have sex with me." "What I really think is that I love you Marian, not just for sex, but for who you are as a person. This whole thing happened because you noticed I wasn't happy and made suggestions that changed my whole life. I won't be able to live as a man anymore and that seems to be fine with you. You have encouraged me through my whole transformation, from wearing panties and bras to taking female hormones. You were even very encouraging when I told you I wanted breasts like yours. You are encouraging me now, when I talk about having SRS." "My biggest worry now, is what will happen to our relationship after my surgery? After all, we have lived for years as man and wife. I guess, now we will be wife and wife, if we both want that. I sure do. I realize that we can never have sex again as we used to. But to tell you the truth, what we have been doing sexually for awhile now is very satisfying to me. What do you think, Marian? Where do you want to go now and when I have completed my transition? "To tell you the truth, Robin, you have already completed your transition. You are a woman now and probably have been one your whole life. Now it is just fine tuning your body. Your mind is just as female as mine is. I loved you as a man, even when you were miserable because of people making fun of you. That is why I tried to let you see how feminine you really are. Hormones and breasts and even a vagina do not make a female. A female is a person who truly believes that she is a female. As far as sex is concerned, do you realize how sexually satisfied I have been when you eat my pussy almost every night? Did you realize I had to make you stop several times, after I had multiple huge orgasms, so that I wouldn't pass out? I even get very excited when you play with my breasts and suck my nipples. "Marian, I don't know if you realize how sexy you are and how good your body tastes. I love getting my head between your beautiful legs and making you feel good. Sometimes I get carried away and I don't want to stop." "Robin, you know, that when you get your vagina, my head will be between your legs every night as well. Hopefully, we can do each other at the same time." "Marian, something that I have been meaning to ask you for awhile. Do you miss being penetrated by a man? I know I wasn't the greatest lover, but it used to feel great to me." "Robin, as I told you awhile ago, I am bisexual. I adore making love to a woman and I also love being screwed by a man. Before I married you, I had several affairs with other women. Afterwards, I completely enjoyed sex with you. As I also told you, I think that you are bisexual as well. You seem to really enjoy sex with me and you told me how excited Tim made you feel. Perhaps, we can have it both ways. After you recover from your surgery, we can make lesbian love to each other and then when we feel like it, we can pick up a couple of studs and let them screw the hell out of us. It would be very easy for two sexy women to pick up anyone who interests us." "A question I have been meaning to ask you Robin. You have come a long way since you started wearing panties and nylons under your suits. Once I got you to put on a bra, there was no stopping you. I knew that you would always dress as a woman from then on. I was hoping that you would get a boob job and now I am really looking forward t you SRS. You seem to be enjoying your new life immensely. Am I right?" "Absolutely, Marian. I remember how nervous I was about wearing the panties and nylons, but they felt so comfortable on me, that I never wanted to take them off. Then, when I started wearing a bra, I looked forward to the day when I could have the cups filled by my breasts, not breast forms. Almost every woman wears a bra. It defines her as a woman. No man wears one, unless he is transitioning. That is what I realized after a while. I wasn't just wearing women's clothes, I was transitioning into becoming a woman. Now I feel and look sexy and I love wearing low cut dresses and mini skirts. I wonder sometimes if I am turning into an exhibitionist. I just love it when people watch me when I walk into a store, or a restaurant. I used to be scorned as a man. Now, I am admired as a woman." "Well then," exclaimed Marian, "you should probably schedule your surgery as soon as you can. You have been seeing your psychiatrist, Dr. Karson, for over nine months now. My understanding is that can give you permission for the surgery after a year if she feels you are ready and sure this is what you want. So, you should have her permission in three or fourmonths. I can't believe that Dr. Karson wouldn't sign the papers as soon as she can, maybe even sooner that the one year mark. So, I suggest we look for surgeons. You might want to interview them to see who you would be comfortable with, both echnically and who you feel most comfortable with. Then, as soon as Dr. Karson signs off, you can schedule your surgery. Sound good to you?" "Sounds great to me, Marian," answered Robin. "I owe it all to you, for making me understand that I have been a woman my whole life." As Robin grabbed Marian and hugged her tightly, she said, "I love you Marian and I always will. The end