The air was stale in the car, stifling really. Loosening my tie helped a
little. I went to roll the window down and immediately heard "Don't roll
that down, you'll mess up my hair," as my wife stared at me with a
perturbed scowl on her face. This was going to be a fun trip back to our
home.
What was it that the doctor said? Oh, yeah, "unresponsive Crohn's,"
hence my wife's abominable mood. She has been suffering from chronic
diarrhea for the better part of three years now. It doesn't matter what
she eats or what meds she takes, the results are, shall we say,
uncomfortable. And the latest doctor is about as helpful as, well he was
not helpful. We have spent a small fortune on alternative procedures
again and again. This is quite tiring.
Even the crackpot chiropractors, with all of their claims, are not
helpful. Every healthcare "professional" is so optimistic on the front
end. They perform a little show for you. You render payment for their
treatment and in return, you receive that stony uncaring practiced look.
They must practice this look in their bathroom mirrors as part of their
daily morning ritual. Then they either admit they are not able to help
or the more popular response of letting you know that they think it's
all in your mind. Fu**, this is so frustrating. They all claim that you
are the one patient that seems to be beyond their knowledge, as they
have "helped," so many others. I need someone with a little actual
knowledge that can help my beautiful wife, not what passes for medical
care in this carnival show that is our current system.
The very worst, as someone suffers through their nightmare, is all the
unsolicited advice from, well-meaning, acquaintances. The preverbal
wisdom from pleather of people that don't have a clue as to what they
are talking about. Somehow society expects you to listen politely to all
their misplaced wisdom and not tell them to go Fu** themselves. So, you
smile and nod and go about your day after thanking them and letting them
know that you will let Monica know so that she can try it. What a bunch
of horseshit. Just how much of my day was wasted on polite platitudes?
In all actuality, the day is quite pleasant outside and the car is
comfortable, but Monica's mood sucks the air out of you. The attitude,
not that I can blame her, is palpable and seeps into our whole
existence. The silence is killing me, I have to do something to make
this better. So, I verbalize those hated words, "I wish there was
something that I could do."
Wrong move jackass, the look of contempt and maybe a little hatred is
immediate and striking. She doesn't say anything, however, the stale air
in the car was taking over again to the point I was reaching for the
window opener again before her look brought me up short. I wish I hadn't
said it, but I'm a man, and I need to make things better. It's what we
are expected to do. We provide for and protect those that we love and
have committed to.
"Go, are you going to sit at this light all day, it's green." Monica had
seen no response started snapping her fingers to get my attention. I
hated this maneuver as it is awfully disrespectful and somewhat
demeaning. Also, I believe this response is beneath what Monica should
consider appropriate behavior. So, I zoned out. I heard her in a faraway
disengaged sort of way, but nothing registered. We were en route again
as I glance over to my wife, she is shaking her head.
We pulled into the garage and Monica runs for the bathroom. She has no
choice, now I feel bad for copping an attitude. I went into the kitchen
and started an herbal tea and set out graham crackers. They don't help
her but they settle her stomach. When she exited the bathroom she headed
straight for the master bedroom and closed the door. She didn't lock it
but when it was closed, she preferred to be left alone
I went back to the kitchen and put away the items that I set out for her
benefit. I settled into the living room and turned the tv on low. You
never know if a migraine or some other host of ailments are accompanying
her present condition. You learn to live with someone that has a life-
altering condition. It would be so much easier if Monica would just let
me know what is happening. It would take a lot of guesswork out of the
equation. Her pride is not all that helpful.
The first five years of marriage were a dream. Monica is a very
vivacious woman. Sexy, animated, and social Pyrrha. All seemed drawn to
her. She makes friends easily. She isn't judgmental. Gossip is not her
thing. All that put guest list together, assume to invite her to make
the party rememberable. Monica is always at the top of everyone's list.
If she can get some rest or even a full night's sleep, then like most
people she will recover enough to again partake in a semi-normal
existence once again.
This time it was not going to follow the normal pattern that has been
the new norm. She would have a flareup, rest while figuring out which
foods consumed added to her discomfort. And as she felt a little better
join in our shared existence once again. When she would rejoin me things
would slowly, quietly return to a regular state and we would resume life
as if nothing had transpired. I don't know how but these patterns just
develop as things happen. Nothing is discussed we just fit ourselves
into groves that still work within the cogs that drive our lives. What
other choice did we have? We can only work with what we have or can
afford to consume from what's available. This is what we are, in a
nutshell, victims of our existence.
She stormed into the living room grabbed the remote and hit mute. She
seemed to be angry or mad. That is not an accurate description. She is
stoic. She has made up her mind. There has been no forewarning; no
conversation; no hint; no possible clue as to what is about to
transpire. This is serious.
My mind is racing trying to get ahead of the imminent onslaught. Did I
do something aggreges? Does she know I ate the rest of the lasagna? What
is so terrible? Again, I find myself at a complete loss, about to hear
the next rule for living with a person that you love. One that, due to
her condition, has at times had unreasonable demands. Most marriages
iron out all these little idiosyncrasies in the first year. When one of
the spouses gets sick it is ongoing and quite frankly stressful.
"I want a divorce."
I sat there dumbfounded. I was just staring at her. So, she repeated her
statement. Then she repeated it again and again. It was a strange
mantra. Monica seemed to be trying to convince herself that she wanted
this divorce. We have been married for 8 years now and out of the blue,
she wants to end our marriage. The sigh that escaped me was that of a
tired spouse. I wasn't going anywhere, but I didn't want to have this
conversation. The scene was punctuated by the silent flickering of the
tv that continued spilling forth a silent movie of sorts.
"No" was all I said. I got up and placed her in a gentle but solid hug.
I just stood there holding on to her until she resolves withered and her
face softened. It was tense for a couple of hours and then things
started to feel semi-normal. At bedtime, I just hoped that she felt
better in the morning.
The next morning, she explained that she didn't want to bring me down.
She was the one that was sick. That I should not have to deal with all
this. I shook my head at the stupidity of her thought process. Then
visibly she noticed that I was angry. She reached out and placed her
hand over mine in an attempt to ease the tension, but the look upon her
face showed that she now was worried. I was mad and really who knows
what she is now thinking. Someone that just a few hours ago was stating
that she wanted a divorce and now looked at the person that loved her
and the anger on my face was something that I could not disguise. Maybe
she thought that she was about to get what she asked for.
I would have liked to calm down and alleviated her fears, but F***, I
was angry. I have been along for the ride for three years now and I'm
feeling very underappreciated. I steeled myself, took my hand back, and
asked "what kind of person do you think I am?"
Monica was taken aback. The confusion was written all over her face. The
relief was there but it was majorly secondary. Then she said the only
thing she really could have, "what do you mean?" Then on her face I
could see the logic once again reeling through her mind, she was taking
the altruistic high road. This was her problem and she was going to deal
with it. Since it seemed insurmountable, she would weather that storm
alone. She was a control freak. Someone that could handle everything on
her own. It has always been this way, it's just her personality. She
always takes control and now she finds that she can't even control her
bowels. She waited through my silence as I collected my thoughts.
"I am your husband do you think I would abandon you because you have an
unpleasant condition? I married the woman that I love. There is
absolutely nothing that could make me betray my wedding vows. Whatever
either of us goes through we will be there for each other. To suggest
that I should pick up and leave because you are sick is an absolute
affront to everything that I consider myself to be. You make me angry
with the approach to our problem that you have taken. How dare you shut
me out. And when I say our problem that is what it is. Not only that but
as more people have this condition the Pharma industry will be trying to
capitalize on this condition for major profits. Right now, the doctors
have nothing to offer, but at any time soon someone will profit big on a
cure or at least, and more probably, a protocol to control the
situation. I am and have always been there for you, do not treat me this
way again."
I was on a roll. We tended not to discuss our issues. We pretty much
just worked through them. It would probably be better to have more
discussions as the matters at hand were very serious, but I pretty much
followed Monica's lead. It was her affliction; shouldn't she be the one
that decides how to deal with it? After months, well maybe years of
dealing with the air need to be cleared. I believe I just accomplished
that.
There was nothing for her to say. She understood how wrong she had been.
Now we sat there with this weird tension as she had been put in her
place and this doesn't sit well with a control freak. Monica never liked
to be wrong and it was near impossible for her to admit it. This
occasion was no exception, she hated to admit she was wrong.
Then, to the casual observer, a strange thing happened. Monica became
very amorous. Maybe she will not apologize in the normal sense but it is
an unspoken admission of reconciliation on her part. I believe that most
people call it make up sex. I now found myself divested of all my
clothes and being pushed back on our California king bed. She is a
beautiful woman who just now removed her panties and climbed on top of
me. Oh GOD, it has been so long. I want to enjoy this. And I did.
You see, three months ago Monica and I were enjoying our marital bed
when the Crohn's disease kicked in and ruined our expensive Egyptian
cotton sheets. Egyptian cotton my ass, it's just a come-on to charge too
much. Well, that is a pretty hard event to overcome. Monica's
embarrassment was such that, for the last three months I've taken
matters into my own hands, sort of speak. Another three thousand dollars
to replace the pillow top mattress and I thought it would be forgotten,
but again I was wrong.
So now we are back to square one. The air has been cleared and again we
move forward but, with no answers about what to do with the condition at
hand. Our relationship is again comfortable, that is something but not
where we want to be. It's so easy to ask why, but it doesn't help.
Monica and I will be alright. We will wait for some medical miracle on
pins and needles. The wait is not fun.
CHAPTER TWO
Did I mention that I liked NOVA? Monica and I were watching the miracle
of creating a person. The precise nature of creating a little person was
amazing. There seems to be a genetic time clock that follows such a
ridged flow chart, it's a wonder that anyone can give birth. But we do
and the planet contrives to move forward in such a mundane way that it's
hard to believe that anything miraculous happens. As it turns out,
everything is miraculous.
And then it happened, a simple statement of fact that would change my
life forever. As it turns out the newly created person gets biomaterial
as it passes through the birth canal. This, as it turns out, is
supplemented by breastfeeding. So, the baby's intestine achieves its
health by basically feeding from the mother. Nothing happened right
away, but I could see there was something on my wife's mind.
Monica asked for my undistracted attention. Here we go again, would this
be something else that bothered her and needed my adjustment to make
things agreeable? No, she brought up the subject of the NOVA program
that we watched together. "Eddie, I want to try something that could
help my condition. You are the healthiest person that I have ever known.
And to that end I want you to repopulate my intestinal bacteria. As I've
told you in the past, my mother did not breastfeed me. She was worried
about her shape and size. So, her vanity negating what her child needed.
"You think you will benefit from a fecal transfer from me. I've said
before, that this may help." "It is also nice that you do blame your
mother." My sarcastic personality does bubble up from time to time. It's
not that I didn't get along with my mother-in-law, so long as she
didn't, well in general speak or voice her opinion about any and
everything. So as Monica rolled her eyes at my feeble attempt to make
light of this conversation, she said. "No Eddie, I've had three fecal
transfers with absolutely no success. What I want is you to visit Renee
and get a few hormones that would enable you to produce breast milk." To
say that I was shocked, would be an understatement. Was she pulling my
leg or, more importantly, was she serious? It is excepted knowledge that
this is possible but it fringes on jokes at the water cooler. People
just don't do certain things.
Renee was a friend of Monica. She is an MD and a very sexy woman. Sexy
in the serious student with a knockout body and an astute mind sort of
way. God, I love intelligent women. The only thing missing was the
glasses. She was professionally dressed, no lab coat as this was just an
office visit, a smart skirt suit affair with hose ending in high heels
that her too-small feet resided in. Her straight black hair is held in a
bun with what looks to be chopsticks skewered through it. This left a
perfect line sight to the only "unprofessional touch," a set of silver
or white gold dangle earrings that brought attention to the fact that,
although she is a professional, she still, under everything is a woman.
Monica has already talked to Renee about what she wanted to try. Renee
was dubious but was willing to try as Monica, her lifelong friend was
apparently at the end of her tether. Renee did tell Monica that at best
this was a very long shot.
I met Renee at her office. She greeted me and expressed her concerns. I
countered with I can't tell you how many times I've offered to do
anything that I can to help. So here we are. What do I need to do to
possibly make this helpful? She let me know that I may have some
swelling in my chest area. I asked if this was reversible and Renee
believed that yes this was no big deal. So, on my end what was the
problem. I could make my wife happy and best case help her condition.
My prescription was at hand and I took it dutifully. It's a strange
feeling to take something foreign and to swallow. That was my first pill
of many and Monica seemed so proud. It's not many things nowadays that
Monica enjoys, but this was one of them. I don't know if it was the
comradery or the fact that I was willing to try such a left-field long
shot, but she seemed to enjoy this little exchange. Maybe it was the
fact that she was standing over me watching me swallow what, felt like
my impending doom and to be unequivocally in charge of something again
that touched her happy zone. Either way, I was now on track for
something foreign to myself.
Well, I was being melodramatic, as basically nothing happened. I guess I
was expecting something radical to change instantly. That is not how
this works. As the months wore on and our relationship renewed itself,
we both felt better as we were doing something towards making our
existence better. For better or worse we were doing something. Which is
way better than anything that passes for modern medicine in the United
States.
At about 3 months and a few days, my chest did indeed start to swell.
This was very disconcerting for me. Monica thought it was miraculous, as
it did show my commitment to her and us. All those times I said "I wish
there was something that I could do," now actually meant something. And
there was physical evidence to prove what I had verbalized so many
times. She became much closer to me in a way that I never knew was
possible. We truly are in love.
Now that we were certain that things were proceeding, we needed to
purchase an adequate breast pump. Being that Monica made much more
financially than I did, she not only insisted that it would be a double
pump but one of the highest calibers. I could not argue but I didn't see
the need for buying the best for something that quite frankly will
probably not produce results. Monica however, was adamant and I soon
found myself attached to a double pump sucking at my nipples. Now I
can't complain as the feeling was exquisite. I've never felt anything
like that. Monica has on occasion taken my nipple into her mouth while
we made love, but this felt very different. Was it the mechanical device
or were the hormones adding to the feelings that I now experienced?
Nothing came from the pump. A real small amount of clear liquid. Monica
seemed delighted. I wonder if she knew something that I didn't. Anyhow
our love seemed deeper and more genuine than ever before. There were no
more empty words, no epitaph, and no false platitudes. Everything was
now proven and very real. And I had a side effect of sensitive breasts
that I never expected to bring such a feeling of joy. I don't know how
to describe it but joy seems to fit.
So, as we continued down this seeming forlorn path, I started to get a
bad feeling as to the near future. It is great to prove my dedication
and love to my wife but the grabbing at proverbial straws was starting
to get to me. What will happen after this distraction folds in upon
itself and Monica sees that it is just another dead end. Nothing on the
horizon medically to hope for? She had me pumping every evening to
stimulate and see what will happen. After all, we didn't know the simple
biological outcome of our little experiment. Renee had warned us that
this might not even bear fruit to the point of producing real milk. It
was a real surprise when not only did the pump start producing milk, it
looked of quality and substance. So, at almost five months in, I started
to produce what could only be considered mother's milk. My now almost b
cup breasts were more than a source of embarrassment, they were
seemingly producing exactly what we were after.
CHAPTER 3
False hopes and disappointments were to follow. We pumped my breasts.
Monica always helped for some reason, if she was around. We ended up
with three, which seemed to be high-quality jars of mother's milk in the
fridge. Now after all this time Monica poured herself a small glass of,
if I may say so, prime mother's milk straight out of the great Eddie's
B+ breasts. I know it seems strange to find pride in this but I never
thought I would be able to do such a thing. Now after all this effort
and time Monica didn't seem capable to drink this blessed concoction.
The site or texture or what was off-putting. I love my wife but after
all, I've been through this is not acceptable.
"What the F***, Monic drink the damn shit."
And she did. The face that followed, well that was something of a
mixture of disgust and horror. A fit of giggles followed from both of
us, as she screwed up face made the situation laughable. Afterward, she
admitted that it wasn't all that bad, but a merlot was much more to her
liking. She hugged me and thanked me and apologized to me, I believe for
the first time in our 8-year marriage. Now we have made the elixir and
delivered it, all we have to do is wait.
More pumping, which for me was enjoyable, more drinking that Monica
seemed to be able to tolerate. But as I learned, it is not nice to say
something smart-ass while she is trying to ingest her "medicine." We had
no idea how long before we could get some results, but we were hopeful.
This strange experiment seemed to be bearing fruit.
After another three months and now C cup breasts, nothing had changed.
So far, I've been able to compress my new appendages so that while I was
at work no one seemed to notice. I like my breasts minus the obvious
embarrassment that their size and occasional leaking if my pads are not
in the right place. Monica came into the living room where I was
watching NOVA again and switched off the volume. This is a habit that I
do not appreciate but have learned to live with. She wasn't mad or stoic
this time. She seemed defeated. There was something else there though.
Now she completely understood that I am in her corner. She proceeded to
turn the TV off.
"Eddie, I want you to know that what you tried to do for me is amazing.
I love you so much. You don't need to take those hormones anymore as
this is not doing anything for the Crohn's." She then grabbed both of my
hands and led me to the master bedroom. She stripped my clothes off and
pushed me onto our bed. She started to shed her sweats in dramatic
fashion revealing that underneath she was all decked out in female
finery. As they came off her she revealed the most amazing female form
that I have ever remembered. Monica was after all a complete knockout.
As I started to move, she warned me to behave or she would tie me up.
I decided to cooperate. The disappointment was not in my immediate
future. There were seductive kisses, nibbling at my newly acquired
appendages and stroking at my inner thighs. She was an animal. When she
felt that I was hard enough she climbed on top and unceremoniously
impaled herself on my neglected man meat. Up and down she started to
ride to the music that she put on, Luther Vandross. I didn't care what
music was playing, I flipped us over and landed on top of my beautiful
wife. I started slowly pumping in and out when all of a sudden, she
latched onto my protruding breast. Momentarily I paused having lost my
bearings. She began to suckle which was an amazing turn-on. I've never
felt anything like it. We continued to make love as she emptied both of
my breasts. The orgasm that followed was earth-shattering. We were
spent. I rolled off of her and laid on my side of the bed. "wow" was all
I said. She looked at me with a knowing smile. And with typical male
gratitude, I feel into an immediate deep sleep.
CHAPTER 4
I haven't taken the hormones now for three weeks. I don't know when my
breasts will subside but Renee seems to think that it is imminent.
Honestly, I'm torn, I've come to love my breasts. That is contributed
mostly to the fact that our love life has returned and Monica is fond of
sucking all the milk directly from my breasts. I like it. The feeling is
like nothing that I have ever felt. It's almost like having additional
orgasms before the quintennial male orgasm quite frankly ruins
everything. I don't understand the plethora of lovemaking as before it
has been rare and not too often. I know that returning to my original
male chest would be the easiest route. Living in society's norms and not
having to hide things that fall outside of excepted pathways is simply
the easiest existence. What I would be giving up to have an easier
existence though I've learned is substantial.
I came home from work today, surprised to see Monica waiting for me with
my meds in her hands. A glass of cool water on the counter and my wife
with an overjoyed expression on her face. Take this she demanded.
Handing me my foregone pills as they didn't help her. I took the
proffered pill and was dragged to the shower and washed and led to our
bed. I can't complain, but I wondered what was happening. Sex, sucking
and my very vivacious wife of five years ago held me spellbound.
"Want to tell me what that is all about?" Yes, she did, it seems that
mother's milk from the bottle does nothing, but somehow straight from
the source works miracles. Well, I was speechless. What we did, she
believes is working. I never held out much hope for this endeavor, but
here we are?
"Are you sure it's not just a coincidence?" She answered that either way
she was not looking a gift horse in the mouth. At the very least she
said that I enjoyed having my beautiful tits emptied while I Fuc*** her.
This is true and there is no arguing that. The fact that she was able to
continue performing in the bedroom was all the proof she needed. I was
not so sure. I did however like my breasts and I have decided that I
didn't want to see them go. Now I have a reason to keep my breasts and
get bouts of lovemaking like when we were first married. How could this
be a bad thing?
CHAPTER 5
Monica hadn't been going to her Crohn's disease support group for some
time. Wednesday was the regular night. She had fostered many friends
there, not a surprise, as her personality almost dictated this
occurrence. Tonight, she was going to attend. Everyone had missed her
and wanted to support her upon her arrival. She relayed the bad news by
her latest doctor and the platitudes were forthcoming. She felt all
alone that night as her fellow sufferers didn't know how to support her.
They each had had some success with the treatments offered. Although not
enough, to have no advancement towards a healthy existence they could
not fathom. When she came home, we opened a nice merlot. Afterward, she
took me, emptied my breasts, and screwed me raw.
Monica's health seemed to be returning. Just maybe this silly experiment
was working. Monica sure thought so. I searched on youtube that night on
Crohn's disease and spontaneous cures. Nothing came up, maybe she was
right.
Every day Monica was getting healthy and becoming her old self. I was
getting my wife back. This is all I wanted; she is getting better. I
don't care that I am sporting small D size breasts now. I can still sort
of hide them. Even if not all the way, most people don't look so close
to care. I've only had a few commits at work that maybe I needed to hit
the gym. Life goes on, my wife is now "cured" and our lives and sex
life, although slightly changed is so much better.
Upon Monica's trip to her support group today, everyone noticed a change
in her demeanor. Staci wanted to know what is up. Monica hemmed and
hawed. This was not well received. Staci was an A-type personality that
doesn't let the sleeping dog lay. "I've noticed that you haven't run to
the bathroom all night, what gives?" Staci had a way of cutting to the
chase.
"I've stumbled upon a cure, I think. But it's embarrassing." Staci
raised her eyebrows and dug into what Monica had just said. "You may
have a cure and you are not willing to share with the rest of us?" Staci
was not happy. "I know you know how bad this condition is and yet you
hold back possible relief from this terrible condition?" Monica was the
most, affected member in this group, or maybe John, however now she
seemed symptom-free. Staci left no room for her contempt that she now
freely showed. "I want to know what you have discovered and what is
making you feel better which I can see." All the members of this group
were well endowed and have spent a small fortune trying to fix
themselves.
Monica was now sitting on a "cure" with a wealthy group of people that
would try just about everything and probably already had. "Ok, Staci but
I must insist on privacy." She went on to inform her friend of three
years what has transpired with her condition and her husband. "OK,"
Staci said I'm in. "I'll give Eddie Ten Thousand to let me suck off his
tits 5 times." Monica sat there in stunned silence. So many questions,
with really no answers. So, the simple answer was to say that she would
try to convince Eddie to play ball.
Eddie, we need to talk. Staci in my support group is willing to pay ten
thousand cash for the privilege of sucking your mother's milk from you
five times. The amount of money she has spent trying to beat this thing
is upwards of $78,000.00. I want you to help others with this cure.
"I can't believe you told others about this." What am I supposed to do
now? Do I even believe that this is what has helped my wife? Can I open
this up to help others? God, I don't know about this. Two weeks later
Staci was knocking on our door when Monica went to greet her. I wasn't
nervous anymore after 3 scotch and sodas. Staci handed me an envelope of
cash, I led her to the spare bedroom. Thirty minutes later and the very
good-looking Staci was leaving our home with a full belly. I could not
hide the erection that was still tenting my sweat pants. Monica thought
this was funny, but I felt like I had just cheated on her. From my end,
this was a problem but Monica just shrugged and led me through to our
bedroom and took advantage of the hard object.
Is this a problem or a Godsend? I don?t know. Every three days Staci
came back for her booster feeding. I had the same results every time.
When someone is sucking your milk from you, it just feels really good.
There is a feeling of a strong vibration that fills my whole chest area
that becomes more intense and falls away with each heartbeat, but
without an actual vibration, I do not know how else to describe it. So
basically in 3 hours, I?ve earned ten thousand dollars. I wasn?t sure
but it seemed that I started to lose weight. When breastfeeding fat is
taken from your body at a rate you simply cannot replace. What a great
side effect. You get a whole lot of money, a really pleasant experience
and top of all that you lose weight. There doesn?t seem to be a downside
to this.
Monica said we needed to talk again. I don?t like that interlude.
Nothing good usually comes after such a statement. She informed me that
Staci was indeed feeling much better after receiving her treatment from
me. I told her that I felt that it was great that we helped her. Then
the bomb went off. "Eddie," Monica said, "most of the group is
interested in having the same treatment." I think we should help them.
What happened to privacy, as you told me that Staci understood? Was this
not to be a one-off? Now everyone knew what I may have under my shirt
and wanted access. This is not supposed to happen this way. What to do?
Could I be selfish and deny everything? Just go about my business and
deny access to all these people that needed help? Unfortunately, I could
not. This is not who I am. Damn this experiment. Why do I need to be
several peoples? health messiah? How could this have transpired?
Now money started flowing in. I helped all the women in her group.
Fifteen in all. And then with the success with the women, the men in the
group wanted a go. This was problematic for me. Women seeing my
condition was one thing but a guy sucking my milk from me is quite
another thing. I know it?s a double standard, but some things are just
what they are. The therapeutic effect for some reason was only effective
from the source. With all these people that I helped my weight loss was
almost extreme. Now I was one hundred and twenty-five pounds to be
generous. I swallowed my pride and sucked it up sort of in a distended
way and took payment from several men to come five times and suck my
milk from my new beautiful breasts.
We had bought a gun safe and started storing my earnings in it. This is
the first time in our marriage that financially I was outperforming
Monica. In a jovial way, she started to refer to me as her cash cow.
This is not a joke that I could get fully on board with. Although I
certainly could see the efficient ties to reality, it stunk of a mean
streak that didn?t sit well with me. I did all this to help her and
being relegated to the level of a farm animal just didn?t seem right. I
let this slide as she didn?t bring up that all my clients left here
leaving me with a boner that was indecent at best. Sometimes Monica can
be very unappreciative and condescending. You have no say in whom you
love. And boy oh boy I did love, Monica.
CHAPTER 6
Bob Emmerson enters our home handing me the standard fee. It is actually
in a used envelope from some bill he had received and repurposed said
envelope to hold the ten-thousand-dollar fee. I bring him back to our
spare bedroom to administer his treatment. When I unbuttoned my shirt,
he got very quiet. Then as he was leaning in to take my nipple in his
mouth he abruptly got up and hurried for our door. Trying to cover me, I
pursued after him saying "take your fee with you." He didn?t listen and
just basically fled our home.
It was two days later that I received a note from Bob apologizing for
what had happened and an offer that I found strange yet profitable. Long
and short of it, Bob could not get past that I was a guy with tits.
Well? no duh. But the fact that I?ve already helped most of his group
makes him want to try it. The note informs me that he has already spent
north of eight hundred and fifty thousand dollars trying all sorts of
remedies. And his proposal is simple. For the sum of an additional
twenty thousand dollars he wants me to go to a service that makes men
look like a woman. He will pay for everything the service suggests and
would appreciate it if I would consider this.
Monica asks to see the note. She peruses it then lets out a low whistle.
She looks up at me and gives me a quizzical look. "What?s there to think
about that is three times the money for a little dress up?" She didn?t
get the big picture here.
Basically, with the appointments made all that remained was to confirm
the appointments. Monica was only too happy to call and confirm, per the
directions contained in Bob?s letter. This she did with a flourish, to
my dismay. Looking at me she thought I was being foolish for not jumping
at this opportunity. But at any rate, the wheels were now in motion. I
would show up at the appointed time and do what was necessary.
Friday, I found myself entering a beautiful brownstone building that had
been converted to a beauty shop of sorts. I was a little surprised to
see various lasers at several stations on the ground floor. Ashley was
what her name tag said, led me upstairs to a shower room where I was
asked to disrobe. She handed me a Merlot and said that this particular
moniker is simply so wonderful that you will have a feeling of euphoria
and relaxation like never before. Tasting this, I could only agree. I
was sent to the showers and asked to soap up. To my surprise, Ashley
joined me in the shower. She produced a razor and started shaving almost
everything off my body. I asked her why they didn?t use a dilapidator
cream she informed me that the lasers worked better with a cleanly cut
hair follicle. Now with the smallest panties that I have ever seen, I
was led to a hair removal laser. Beverly now took my hand in the most
feminine of greetings and I giggled. I was asked to reach for a bar that
hung from the ceiling while she spread the cream all over my body. This
was not going to be a quick dress-up session.
As it turns out, the Merlot was most definitely spiked. When I asked
what the cream was for, my speech was slurred. Beverly answered as if
nothing was out of the ordinary. "It?s to make you comfortable through
the laser treatments." Well, that makes sense, I thought and proceeded
to lie down on her table. Sometime later, I was coming too with someone
rubbing my whole body with another cream. Not asking this time what it
was I noticed another woman coming at me with a tray of unrecognizable
items on it. She started handling my testicles and penis. Well, that is
a wake-up call no matter what they have administered to you.
"What are you doing?" Bob has paid to have my man parts glued back out
of the way, was my answer. Well, no Fuc**** way will I allow this to
happen. I get up to leave and am informed that if I don?t want any
service that I only need to inform them of my decision. Ok then, now I?m
in charge again. I?ve only had Permanente hair removal while unbeknownst
to me I had ingested some harsh tranquilizers. I would like to see what
has already transpired since I?ve been drugged for a procedure that I
may have already declined if I understood it was "optional." And, when I
say permanent, this treatment was everywhere. Well, as I understand it,
one treatment doesn?t do all that much but boy was my skin red. And it
was red everywhere.
An hour and a half later Ashley, was taking me back to the showers. Of
course, I wanted to know why. She said, "we need to remove the self-
tanner to stop its development." Now I?ve had another procedure that I
wasn?t aware of and now felt out of control once more. I was starting to
get aggravated once more. As I came out of the shower, I started to
notice the beginnings of a very nice tan across the spectrum of my
hairless body.
Off to wardrobe, Rita was already pulling things together to make me
into what everyone would assume was a "natural" female. As I entered,
she noticed that I negated the gluing of my penis back and out of the
way. She became flush as she realized that I was not only above average
in this department but was probably in the top 20% as to size.
Understandably, most of whom find their selves here are probably on the
small side. She disappeared into one of the wardrobes and came back with
a gaff. Taking the pro-offered item, I donned it quickly to regain some
modesty.
This is much better, being covered in front of strangers until Rita
started adjusting the gaff for proper effect. Well her administrations
did not have the desired effect. Suddenly the gaff was rendered useless.
Her intentions were purely professional, but the flushness of her face
upon seeing the unintended results made me so uncomfortable that I
nearly bolted from this facility. It was not as ridged as after a client
takes their "medicine" from my body, but that has been taken care of by
Monica every time. Now Monica is not here to take advantage of my
situation.
Monica was gaining back her health and with it a renewed desire for
contact, love, and a newfound lust for the sex that has been missing
from our relationship. I?m a little off-put that every time someone
latches on to my newly formed sensitive breasts, I get a raging hardon.
Monica has been scheduling my appointments and after discovering the
extra benefit to my rendering help to these unfortunate souls, she has
made sure that it is convenient for her to take advantage. I?ve started
to feel that I?m being conditioned, not intentionally but, as every time
I render service to a client, I am also rewarded with my beautiful wife
pushing me backward on our bed, mounting my ridged member and sucking
any remnants of mother?s milk from my body. I have to be careful not to
let my clients see my condition. But the result is Monica basically
schedules my "fluffers" at a high price and then takes a ride on the
resulting physical response. It?s nice and clean and straight to the
main event. I always thought women wanted all of the precursors to
lovemaking, but in Monica?s case, this did not hold. I guess it was
quantity over most people?s definition of quality.
I?ve already been here for five hours; I was thinking three tops. I
think Rita was envisioning going home at some point today as she
suddenly had a blue gel pack shoved against my predicament. Well, that
was efficient. Now with things clearly in hand, my gaff was fulfilling
the intended purpose. Moving on to a bra fitting, I discovered that I?m
just a large C cup breast. When you have breasts suddenly on your former
male chest and spend much of your time concealing them, your impression
is that they are larger than you thought they were. It is shocking how
much more pronounced and now comfortable my chest was with a properly
fitting bra.
Now having some modesty with a robe and properly fitting underthings,
I?m asked to follow Rita to a nail and hair station. Melisa grabbed my
hands and started putting these strange black u-shaped stickers under my
nails. Someone from behind started grabbing my hair and putting silver
alligator clips dividing everything into sections. Jessica tapped my leg
prompting me to lift it onto a stool that was now in front of me. My
sensory overload was apparent to me, but no one was paying any attention
to my state of mind. Or even my willingness to follow along their
prescribed path. The fascination of what was occurring simultaneously
preempted any complaint or control that I should have put forth. This
was not a relaxing day spa treatment; these ladies were turning out a
product. Some sort of gel was being rolled off a brush across my natural
nails and onto the strange little stickers that adorned my fingers. My
toes were held one by one while an emery board was slid back and forth
across them. A weight seemed to be being added to my scalp.
Color now adorned my toes. My hands were free of the little black
stickers. My hair was now a foot and a half long. That part I could only
feel. My fingernails were treated to the emery board the same as my
toenails, but with a much-extended white material that looked a little
like Japanese rice paper. Some smelly chemical was added to my hair and
I would assume extensions that have just been added.
All of a sudden Rita appeared with some shinny delicate material and
started rolling them into little doughnut shapes. She did the tap at my
foot. Then licked her finger and seemed to be checking the dryness of my
toe lacquer. Satisfied she manipulated my foot and started installing
the most sensual material that was soon to encase my legs.
Suddenly time stood still. As Rita worked whatever brand hose these were
to my legs, all of my anxiety dissolved. Having so many technicians
reworking my personage to present as something I?m not. And the
efficiency that they developed with time practicing their craft, made
for an overwhelming attack into my personal space. Never even having
gone for a massage, this was not only new to me, but it was also an
extreme affront to my boundaries. But now, as this wonderful material
was glided first over my glistening toenails then rounding over my heals
past my ankles and onward being shimmied front to back as this silky
material sent new sensations over my freshly denuded legs. Rita was
undoubted "Fu***** with me," She understood how to get the most dramatic
effect with this procedure and she was incorporating her developed
methods. Her slow ministrations seemed to be an attempt to test the
quality of their company?s supply of gaffs.
"Bliss, simply bliss," was all that remained in my now addled mind. How
could this possibly feel this good? As she placed my first leg back to
the floor and started the next, I was going into overload. I don?t know
what causes some people?s eyes to roll back into their heads, but this
must be a contender. She looked into my eyes to see if the desired
effect was transpiring, my expression must have confirmed that she had
achieved her intended goal. Now as she started to proceed, she slowed
down and seemed to readjust the fit a bit too much. She might be a
little evil but, she certainly added to the enjoyment of my time here.
How could women complain about this? If my manhood wasn?t already
trapped my boner would have outdone the previous hormone-induced
sensations caused by suckling at my breast. A guarder belt was added to
the ensemble with a flourish of an awkward dance that got the job done.
After she connected the eight suspenders of my newly acquired guarder
belt she stood back with a knowing smirk on her face. I was taken to a
sink to wash the die from my hair. I didn?t know what to think anymore.
All these sensations were adding up to an experience I never thought was
possible.
A little paint on my fingernails. Now I matched. The hairdresser now
started trimming and shaping the new volume that I possessed. A small
thin boy with a zest for sculpting hair to a new category of perfection.
Johnathan, I believe the others called him. The hair, well it was
perfect if you were a beautiful woman. And I guess that was the point of
this exercise. Johnathan was a talented little shit.
The appearance of Elizabeth was the start of the first major sour note.
Here she was and she was going to sculpt my eyebrows. It might be silly
at this point but with everything else that was semi-permanent, the
eyebrows would not be able to be concealed at my place of employment. I
took semi total control at this point leaving Elizabeth with
disappointment written all over her face. She was able to get me down to
a Brook Shields look and that was it. A far cry from where she wanted to
end up.
Back to the wardrobe. Oh no, a stop at makeup first. A half-hour later I
left that chair with an exurbanite amount of powders and creams.
Surprisingly, with all that had been applied, it was a lot, it didn?t
seem much at all. It looked very natural. I honestly do not know how
this is possible.
As I entered the presence of Rita, I was noticing a little black dress,
heels, and a small clutch. Oh God, we are at the finish line. So,
decorated with the final items of feminine finery, the transformation
was finally complete. To say so myself, with my naturally occurring
beautiful tits, the weight loss by suckling clients, hair make-up, and
beautiful yet simple clothes, I looked a natural woman. Good looking and
vivacious myself, a term that I have used to describe my soulmate many
times. Rita then used an atomizer to liberally add some favorite
perfume.
CHAPTER 7
Bob collects me from the transformation service. He is very pleased.
"Edith, he said, please do me the honor of accompanying me to
Rothchild?s." I have heard of Rothchild?s but never dared enter the
premises due to the astronomical cost of dining there. Three hours later
Bob and I are at his luxury apartment taking in the view. He sits on his
favorite Lazy-boy of all things and pats his lap. I join him and he lets
my dress unfold in such a way he can access my breasts. Slowly, as if to
enjoy himself, Bob leans forward and takes my nutrient-rich nipple in
his mouth. He starts suckling gently and is rewarded with what he has
sought out. This time there is no hesitation or awkwardness, just Bob
attaining what he wants. Bob is on his way to receiving the help that he
desperately needs. If to create such an illusion is what it takes to
gain the result, then the end justifies the means. He informs me to meet
him at Nathan?s three days from now. He will send the required outfit.
I walk into our home to hear Monica asking me to join her for dinner. I
answer back that I just need to go get changed. No, she said to come
through as dinner is already on the table. I walk through, she knows
that my boner is probably painful at this point. She insists that I sit
down and have the fellowship of this fine meal together. I?m decked out
as a beautiful woman, sexually frustrated at this point, and a very sexy
wife that seems intent on changing the nature of our game. Monica
doesn?t say anything, but I see she is sexually charged by what the
transformation business has achieved. It was a weird meal, in that
nothing was said. We sat in silence eating a wonderful meal. She stole
glances at me throughout and would look down and, I don?t know if she
was blushing or turning flush. She had at one point removed her shoe and
used the instep of her foot to rub my hose covered leg. The overpriced
meal that I consumed with Bob was virtually nonexistent. Monica was
enjoying my predicament and thinking about how to take this to her full
advantage. It seems that she had a few ideas that she would like to try.
In the bedroom, Monica asked that I go down on her. We are now in new
territory. For some reason, this has never come up before this evening.
I gave it a good effort. Slowly I started to lap at her nether region.
All I needed was her response to know if this is what she needed and how
good it felt. In the next half hour, I believe I was an accomplished
pussy licker. Monica could no longer hang back, her pointed feet started
to involuntarily shake. Her nipples were as extended as I?ve ever seen
them. And then she screamed. Oh God did she scream. "Damn I?m Good" was
the egocentric thought that prevailed at this moment. Then she removed
anything that impeded her access to my boner and impaled herself on me.
Looking straight into my eyes she started her ministrations that would
yield an orgasm from each of us that was life-changing. Monica liked
what she had just experienced and wanted much more.
Then, after she was sated in a very carnal way, she started exploring
the soft fabrics that adorned my body. Her foot started a slow rubbing
sequence up and down my chins exploring and feeling causing an explosion
of sensations within me. She noticed the effect, smiled, and while
continuing to stimulate my hose-encased leg placed her hand just to the
inside of my crotch rubbing the soft skin that surrounded my tool
without ever actually touching me directly there. She kissed me softly
making our lips part and our lipsticks to mix and pull slightly away as
she disengaged the kiss. She nestled down on my breast and started
suckling while still maneuvering her other ministrations. I?m pretty
sure that I never did it twice until that night.
This time she didn?t climb on top of me though, she was tired from her
earlier exertions. She rolled onto her back and invited me to penetrate
her. I obliged. Having entered her, she had this almost relaxed on the
beach expression on her face. I started noticing my hair cascading down
my back and falling in front of my view of a very contented Monica. I
pushed up to give space for all this hair and noticed my glistening
fingernails digging into the pillow on each side of her beautiful face.
I smelled my perfume, sensed the makeup that still adorned my face minus
the lipstick and foundation that was around my mouth but had since been
mostly rubbed off. Looking down my breasts that have come into their
own, were just so beautiful, I started to pump softly up and down and
Monica bent forward and took my right nipple into her mouth. "Oh my
GOD," I hate this expression especially coming from very young girls?
mouths as it is so overused and annoying, but "OH MY GOD," was all that
I could think of at this moment.
?I believe you will need to call into work and ask for your vacation
time." I don?t see how you can disguise what has been done for the
immediate future. Monica was right of course. Press on nails and a wig
should have sav-iced. Not that I opted for such semi-permanent changes
but here I was all decked out with a repeat performance just three days
away. I called into work and made arrangements. Even with an
explanation, eluding to a family emergency, work relented but seemed
unhappy. Now I was Monica?s free and clear. She delved in and didn?t
come up for air until I needed to meet Bob at the appointed time.
I don?t know why I did what I did, but I did not inform Monica that Bob
had given me an additional $5,000.00 not to undo what was done by the
institution. This would save him a serious sawbuck. It also had the
effect of sowing a serious amount of guilt that I had hidden this small
addition to our deal. I?ve never kept anything from Monica until now.
Not sure why I hid this information from my wife I departed to meet Bob
at Nathan?s, having donned a very beautiful sequined number that had
arrive just the day before. It was a soft rose color and probably out of
today?s current style, but it made me the center of attention. I?m not
sure how an antiquated dress looked so good on my frame but compliments
galore poured from the mouths of many strangers.
Bob was cordial and nice. He simply needed to create an environment that
would allow him to partake in an unusual treatment. Many of the
treatments were self-debasing or at least extremely humiliating.
Recognizing that what I had in my now perfect looking breasts could be
an actual Godsend, Bob seemed eager to please and continue the
relationship. He admitted there was a certain attraction when I was
dressed this way which allowed him to partake of the treatment. Can you
imagine swallowing someone else?s shit, literally? Most of the support
group has done that two or three times and other treatments that they
considered worse.
Bob wanted to know why I refused the corset. Although it was beautiful,
I just felt that somethings were just going too far. I did let him know
that I appreciated his willingness to spend an exuberant amount of money
for the illusion to be perfect. He let me know that he expected me to go
back to the institute before the third treatment for a refresher course.
This seemed out of place as Bob although willing to spend huge amounts
of money also seemed to be a cheapskate on so many other levels. In the
back of his limo, I administered Bob?s treatment. This dress was not
entirely thought through as it was so cumbersome to the task at hand, it
needed to be removed. Bob had himself delivered to his place of business
and instructed the driver to take me home or wherever I wished to go.
By the time I arrived home, my dress was back in place and I looked
impressive exiting the stretch limo all decked out in feminine finery.
Monica was appreciative of my coy look and beckoned me forth to our
master bedroom. "I?ve never made it with a celebrity before," what was
it that Bob called her, oh yes "Edith."
"Yeah, I don?t think that name goes. It?s just something Bob does for
his justification at the weirdness of this situation." Monica didn?t
registrar what I was laying down, she just took my purse from me and
indicated for me to assume the newly found position of head pussy
licker. And boy did I deliver. Slow drawn-out exaggerated tongue
lashings that would make a nun consider giving up her vows. Three
screaming orgasms later, I was flipped over and taken advantage of from
my preferred joint venture. The changes in our lives are becoming
extreme, but I don?t think I can complain. Life, as strange as it has
become, really has never been this delightful. I?m so lucky to have such
a partner as Monica.
CHAPTER 8
I arrived back at the still beautiful but somewhat untrusted
brownstone, for my refresher course. Ashley came out front and grabbed
me by the hand and brought me back to the shower rooms. A quick
interpretation of my raised eyebrow brought a small giggle out of
Ashley. "Bob doesn?t want all that razor stubble destroying the illusion
he has spent so much to create." Disrobed and back in the shower again
Ashley joined me with a safety razor and proceeded to denude all of my
body again. I must say I liked the feeling. Soaped up and someone
drawing a razor across all of your flesh leaving hair free trails of
suppleness was a very new and appreciated feeling. As we exited the
shower, I noticed the glass of Merlot. This was something that I did not
intend to fall for the second time.
"You know what Ashley, why don?t you enjoy that beautiful merlot." And
she did. She drank it like a mermaid sucking back the biggest slug you
have ever seen. Now I felt a little more relaxed. No one was trying to
gain an undue advantage over me any longer. I liked to be in a position
of control. In my marriage, I pretty much allowed Monica that luxury, as
she succumbed to the ravages of her condition, it only seemed right.
Then I noticed a large platter of catered chicken salad sandwiches. "Do
you mind," I inferred? Ashley only answered that no-one was going to eat
those as the high-calorie intake was beyond anyone?s waistline. It?s so
nice to be able to eat whatever and not worry about gaining weight. I
ate five triangles of half sandwiches. And these were not the gas
station chicken salad sandwiches with all the filling at the front with
nothing but bread towards the non-display side on white bread. These
were 7 grain with cranberry bread piled with an even layer of diced
chicken salad with plenty of whatever that white cream sauce was layered
across this delicious convection at least ?" thick.
Suddenly, I found myself on the laser hair removal table with an exact
repeat performance as the first time. Who drugs chicken salad
sandwiches? Ashley let me know that the institute just wants me to be
comfortable when they perform the hair removal treatment as it could be
somewhat painful. Well, thank you, Ashley. Remind me to never play poker
with Ashley.
I left the institute with a darker tan, eyebrows that didn?t escape as
they did last time, and second complete hair removal. A new outfit had
been installed and even if I didn?t feel like a million bucks, I looked
it. I felt vulnerable as I hailed a taxi to bring me to my home and
safety. Up to this point, I hadn?t considered that now I?m moving
through my day as a female. At first, this is just something that is
part of an agreement, basically a work requirement. Now I realize that
I?ve crossed into new unfamiliar territories. Now presented in a very
short bone-colored linen skirt 4" above my hose covered knees with 4"
black stilettos and simple black angora with rabbit hair turtleneck
sweater and a matching headband with globe-shaped little fur-covered
black ball earrings, dangling from newly pierced ears. I wonder if
Elizabeth is happy with herself. The corset that now adorned my skinny
frame was not overtightened and I was more like a swaddled baby hugged
in a blanket to keep calm. In a few hours, Bob?s limo will pick me up.
What have I gotten myself into?
There was a ring at our door. It was too early to be Bob?s driver (no
one says chauffer anymore). Monica and I exchange looks seeking
knowledge if the other had been expecting someone. Shrugging her
shoulders Monica went to answer the door, she realized that I was still
new to all this feminine paraphernalia and saved me the awkward shuffle
to the door. "Special delivery," Monica announced as she signed for the
package. A note in a separate envelope, I opened it as she handed it to
me.
The note proclaimed that something was missing from the outfits thus-
far and Bob had intended to rectify this oversite. Monica looked at me
with childlike enthusiasm filled with curiosity and excitement. I don?t
get why women get so excited over little packages, especially ones that
are delivered to the door. A little nod from me while looking in the
direction of the package and Monica attacked the packaging to reveal its
contents. Inside were many velvet covered boxes and strangely a piercing
gun. Monica gasped; I was confused.
Opening the little boxes revealed many high-quality costume jewelry
trinkets. The kind that women just swoon over. Starting with the
smallest, for some reason, was what looked to be an engagement ring.
Monica quickly donned this, held it up to the light with her fingers
stretched out in a dramatic flourish seeing it bounce light in multiple
directions. She then disengaged the ring and took my finger looking
directly into my eyes slipped it into place on my ring finger. There was
some unknown to me, meaning behind her look but this was beyond my
grasp. Next, she moved onto the largest, women have their reasons,
inside was a large diamond sculpted neckless. This didn?t compute in
that the turtle neck would completely cover this item and was too big
for it to be worn over my turtleneck. Moving on there were matching fake
diamond 1 ?" wide bracelets and anklets. The last box contained three
quarter diamond earrings with a note asking for a second ear piercing on
each side just behind the dangling earrings.
I don?t know if this is a good idea. I already have one hole in each
ear that will take a while to heal. Monica smiled and disappeared into
the kitchen. Coming back into view she had a bowl with ice in it and a
Sharpe marker. "Oh, please let me do this," she gushed. She argued that
two holes will heal the same as one hole and Bob had paid an awful lot
of money for this endeavor. Soon, not wanting to disappoint Monica, I
was sporting two very beautiful cubic zirconia earrings. They were the
smaller earrings residing behind the dangly fur covered balls that
hinted at some secret meaning hanging off of a silver chain three inches
below their place of attachment through the ear lobes.
Now I am as complete of an image that I think is possible. The only
thing that might give me away as people glance in my direction is my
narrow hips and ass. The clothes that Bob has chosen do seem to
camouflage this aspect of my vulnerability. I wonder how he knows to
pick the correct clothes. He had the option to have me padded out at the
institution but had not chosen to do so. Did he choose to negate that
aspect due to cost or for some other reason, I wondered.
Bob brought me to another bright spot. A very expensive and sought-
after location, a place where celebrities who need exposure can be
assured, they will have it. As we exited his limo flashes started going
off. Paparazzi were everywhere. Bob set me up, tomorrow our picture will
be in some paper exclaiming the new girlfriend of Bob Emerson. I should
have been mad, but curiosity got the better of me. "what gives Bob?" He
informed me that a business deal was hinging on if he was in a committed
relationship or not.
Then a bombshell went off, as Bob explained that the jewelry was real
but would be a great tax shelter for tax planning purposes. The deal
pending his relationship could not be preserved with anything but the
best. I now had the best and I quite frankly don?t know if I can share
this new information with Monica. Knowing that I was wearing a large sum
of money somehow made my penis twitch. I have no idea why. Looking down
at my crossed legs sheathed in stockings sporting now what I understood
to be a very expensive anklet sitting above my stiletto heels pointing
my feminized toes, I squeezed my thighs together producing a response
from my trapped penis. This reminded me of Katie Couric squeezing her
lower set of lips as she gives an interview. I can?t be the only one to
have noticed this.
So, a beautiful evening being dotted on and treated as a beautiful lady
maybe is affecting me. I gave Bob his treatment, the whole 30 minutes
that Bob suckled at my developed breasts, I couldn?t help but look at
the various diamond enhancements that now adorned my dark tanned skin. I
was dropped back home. He stayed in the limo this time to see me home.
There was something that he wasn?t saying but this was his third
treatment and six more days from now he should be into the recovery.
Monica was there to welcome me home.
Chapter 9
Now that I have finished with Bob, I disassemble much of what has been
levied against my personage. The clothes and makeup. The hair extensions
cut away. The fake nails were removed. High heels traded for men?s
loafers. Simply, just a more relaxed existence. I can?t believe that I
am missing the complicated clothes. As restrictive and cumbersome that
the female clothes are, they are also very soft and sensual to the
touch. But now I?m back in my environment, work does define the man.
Having bound my substantial breasts and put forth the manliest facade
possible, I endeavor to take on the backlog created by my absence.
As I was about to enter my office, I?m flabbergasted, how could there
be such a pile on my desk and the credenza right behind it. Before I
enter, hand on the frame and the other still clutching the doorknob, my
head swivels in the direction of my PA. "Jennifer, what the Fu**?"
Mobile again the lights come on with the motion detected and the site is
worse than it seemed upon first glance. I?ve made it to the far side of
my desk leaving my attach? case in one of the guest chairs. Two things
happen in one cofounded moment in time, it is an obscene happenstance I
now find myself in. Jennifer enters looking downcast and a pile of files
shifts, almost in slow motion, onto the floor. This is just Fuc****
GREAT!
Jennifer retreats and brings in some, much-needed coffee. No sugar with
a splash of cream, this is probably the only real benefit to this job.
This company never skimped on the quality of the supplied coffee. She
steps in carefully so as not to disturb any more files and suggests that
I call maintenance and have a folding table brought in. I exit my office
and procure a table myself. Why would I wait for some stooge to bring me
what I need? And we dive in. Prioritizing, organizing copulating, and
lastly assembling the fallen files back to their original jackets. Now
it?s gone just past noon and we haven?t even started any actual work on
the road in front of us. I thank Jennifer and tell her we will start
just after lunch, but I want to know who has dumped their load on my
office, as this can?t possibly be only due to my three-week absence.
Johnathan Kendal Prince summons me to his office. This is not my
immediate boss and I find this unorthodox move somewhat disconcerting.
As I enter his office, he seems indifferent to my existence. He didn?t
acknowledge my presence but seemed to know that I occupied the same
space that he did. "Starting with your lack of performance over the last
two weeks, I must say that I am disappointed."
In the middle of his much practiced, montage, Johnathan loses his train
of thought and leans in with his eyes studying my face in an utmost
uncomfortable manner. His eyes shift down to my bound breasts and a
quick nod as to his justification of sorts and his course of action is
foolproof. A little shake of his head and he was back on track for the
great impressive act of managerial importance of the day. Johnathan had
come to some conclusion that reaffirmed his superiority to the masses.
Is this guy a moron? "Sir I?ve been on vacation for the last three
weeks." I don?t understand what you think my office would have to
contribute to that time frame. As it turns out, this guy is retarded.
I?m sacked. Ten years with this company and I?m let go for using
vacation time that I?ve built up for years. Reasoning with a swing set
would have been easier. How do people with no mental capacity get
management positions?
I emptied my desk, taking only what belonged to me, minus a stapler. My
effects being carried in a liquor box, I stop at the men?s room and take
a careful look in the mirror. My breasts are not as hidden as I thought
they were. On my face, even with all my efforts to remove all traces of
makeup, there are still remnants of the applied substance. I guess that
I?m not as clever as I thought. I must say in my defense that this is
all new to me and given time I would have been more proficient.
I would have liked to know what devilish plot had been levied against
me in my absence. The pile in my office was on the scale of a practical
joke, but Jennifer wasn?t laughing. We were giving it the old college
heave-ho, but then I found myself unemployed. The only thing that I
could think of is that it may have had something to do with my new
appendages and that I hadn?t concealed them all that well.
Devastated I head home and wait for the inevitable onslaught. What
husband wants to inform his wife that he is no longer gainfully
employed? When Monica comes home it?s to a wonderfully executed home-
cooked meal, but the look on her face even before the bad news is an
extreme disappointment. "What?s wrong Eddie?" I?ve been sacked, I inform
her. The reaction is not what I expected, raucous laughter. "I don?t
think that I was as successful at hiding my breasts as I thought I was."
More laughter, then a serious note, "did they fire you over becoming
more feminine?" I believe so but they put it in light of work
performance.
Monica didn?t see the problem. "Eddie, she said, you are making so much
money without even trying, that it doesn?t make sense for you to keep
that dead-end job." The problem as she saw it was that all of Eddie?s
clients felt more comfortable "receiving their medicine," from someone
that looks the part.
I want you to go back to the institute and redo what you removed. Our
love life has never been stronger and our love never deeper. "Just so
that you know, some of the Chron?s group may want a second helping to
maintain their results." All of them have been more comfortable with
your new choice of dress.
"This is not my choice of dress, Monica." "You know that."
"Ok, but I must say that I have enjoyed everything that has transpired
over the last couple of months. Was Monica?s retort. She softened it by
adding "Eddie, you are my world, what you have done for me has saved my
very existence. The fact that you were willing to help my whole group is
just amazing. I never knew that someone, although very well compensated,
could be so unselfish." She just gushed over the fact that she was so
happy to have ended up with me. "If I was a Godfearing person, I would
have to believe GOD personally delivered you to me." Then she went
through to the kitchen phone and made an appointment for me at the
institute. In two weeks, time I will again be subjected to that place
that I have such mixed emotions about. She seemed very happy to contrive
this existence for me.
I enjoyed the simple life of dressing as a casual male in the role I was
born. It is so much less labor-intensive than the ritual of presenting
as female. As I reflect on my current situation that "presenting as
female," really does sum up what I feel I?ve been doing. Two clients
later and yes there is again the uncomfortable hesitation from each
associated with receiving their medicine from a male with albeit
beautiful breasts.
I returned home with another complete body hair removal and an upkeep
tan. I didn?t let them trick me with the tranquilizers, I requested
them. There is more than one way to be in control. My hair was back in
place as if I never cut it off and my fingernails were immaculate. My
skin for some reason seemed smoother than before. My eyebrows were
thinner. All in all, I looked to be very attractive if not an average
woman. Monica was overjoyed at my return to the softer side. Shouldn?t
this bother me?
Later that month my former PA Jennifer and I did have a conversation
somewhat explaining the catastrophic mountain of paperwork assembled in
my former office. The other managers did not know what was different but
had perceived weakness in my demeanor and were doing their best to take
advantage of it. Those Bastards, well with Kendal sacking me, not only
did their work which was woefully behind their allotted schedules
descend back upon their shoulders but also all of my workload which was
substantial. I?m going to miss that coffee.
CHAPTER 10
Staci has another treatment course started. Happy to pay her suggested
rate when all this started. While in the middle of her treatment I
inquire if Monica?s statement is true. This was not good timing. The
awkward repositioning, swallowing, and trying to talk while some milk
dripped off my engorged breast, reminded me of an overly talkative
hygienist. She reached forward with her tongue and licked my milk not
wanting to waste anything. She pulled back and had a questioning
expression on her face.
I needed a small pause, as that tongue lick set me back on my heels.
Monica said that everyone was more comfortable taking mother?s milk from
someone that looks the part. What I need to know is if this is true.
Staci shrugged her shoulders and said that she hadn?t thought about it.
She didn?t know if the fact that she has gotten to know me better or the
fact that she could not argue with results, had made the difference.
Knowing that something helps sure lets you look past a whole lot of
preconceived notions. But now that you mention it, "it does put me more
at ease during these sessions." And then as she was going in for more
she asked "does it bother you to dress up?"
I didn?t realize it before, but I do not have an answer to Staci?s
question. "Does this bother me?" I looked into the mirror that showed
two attractive women performing a taboo. The site along with the
hormone-induced sensations was a turn on, to say the least. My head
tilted back sending my new masses of hair to dangle free off of my back
and slightly my chest pushed ever so subtly forward with this movement.
My toes pointed and things, in general, became more ridged. Goosebumps
appeared and Staci kept ingesting. Closing my eyes seemed to help, but
this was a sexually charged interlude. Yes, this bothers me, and God it
feels so good. I guess I will have to quote Cher. When asked why if she
was bothered by people having nasty comets about the things she does,
"why don?t you stop doing these things if their comments bother you?"
The unequivocal response by Cher was simply "it didn?t bother her that
much."
Upon entering our home after another hard day at the office, I say in
jest, Monica had invited a small clutch of friends from her single days.
She introduced me as Ashley. Being blindsided and needing special
attention that Monica normally provided, I saw red. I went to storm off
to the master bedroom when she grabbed me by the wrist. She pulled me
close and hugged me. "someone, bring Ashley a Merlot, my girl needs one.
These five women are now working on their 3rd bottle and have been
discussing our relationship and the new dynamic with all of the changes
and the in-depth reasons for everything. In other words, we have no
secrets on any level. No saving faces. No pretenses that things are
different than they appear. No doubt as to motive or need or desire. Our
relationship has been laid bare. I do not know why our business is now
everyone?s business. Still, now that there are no secrets, a lot of
pressure has strangely been removed. In front of all Monica?s friends
and associates and at this point presumably family, we do not need to
hide anything. I wonder how much they know about our newfound sex life.
We all sat and I listened to stories about their times together. I
answered questions about being cross-dressed. I saw the pride on
Monica?s face as she relayed the real reason that I now had taken on
this form. Seeing jealousy in her friends? eyes and the ego boost it
brought to my wife?s status, made my initial anger calm to a quite lump
in the back of my throat. We will need to have a rational discussion
about this later. As this small curious group plied me with Merlot, the
questions became much more personal. Not willing to take things at face
value, even with the proof of me standing there all decked out making an
attractive figure in the dim light, they started probing the truth that
Monica had put forth. Things started going down yet another strange
road.
Sandra, fu** she is hot, gets this alcohol-induced faraway look in her
eye. "I want to taste it" The three other friends in unison chorus
"WHAT?" A fit of schoolgirl giggles ensue and I?m feeling very
uncomfortable. Monica hands me a scotch and water, which I take, and as
I look at her, I have the surreal understanding that she is ok with
this. This particular group of women reminds me of the time my former
company sent me to of all places, the God-forsaken spot on the map known
as Tucson Arizona. While there by my hotel, I didn?t see a better fare
than the hooters that was essentially in the connected parking lot. This
was not your average hooters with politically correct hires. This was a
small group of extremely good-looking college girls taking advantage of
poor sops willing to fork over big tips for bad food with a nice view.
I?ve even gone a few times to local Hooters and was left to wonder why
this chain has not "fixed" the food if the hiring standards were shifted
to avoid being sued. Even Jennifer, the least shining diamond among them
overcomes her lack of extreme good looks with her personality. This is
an attractive fivesome, I?ve never felt this uneasy in my life.
This is not a wholesome endeavor to help those that are in great need.
This is Monica showing off and offering me up. A silver platter for her
sexy drunk friends to satisfy their curiosity and show the sway she
enjoys over me. I?m so torn I don?t know, what to do. My sexy wife is
coming at me with unwholesome objectives. She had been drinking and now
it seemed that I was being offered up as some plaything for their
entertainment. It would seem that most red-blooded American boys could
only dream of being offered up to such a group. I downed the proffered
scotch, excused myself, and headed for the master bedroom.
Monica followed; it seems that I have embarrassed her in front of her
friends. Tit for tat, accusations, bribery, and Monica not seeing much
different than me making it my job to let people suck at my breasts.
Just to get her to shut up, or was the scotch kicking in, I found myself
prone on the living room couch waiting for a bizarre procession of my
wife?s sexy friends licking, sucking, and trying to out due each other.
I was mad but holy crap I?ve never been treated to multiple orgasms
without shooting my load, ever. Looking over at Monica, I saw that she
was engrossed at the image developing in front of her. I might as well
be tied up as my helplessness at allowing this outrageous occurrence to
unfold with my cooperation. My toes were curling, my back arching, at
one point my whole torso involuntarily started shaking. At that point, I
looked up to see Monica latched on. I could not possibly take this much
longer. They went back for drinks as they waited for their turn at
tonight?s entertainment. Having sated themselves of this weird little
game of debauchery and fact-finding expedition, they pulled me up to a
sitting position.
This all reminded me of Monica relaying the history that occurred when
this group was very young. Yolanda had pilfered her mother?s cigarettes.
All including Monica wanted to show each other that they were worldly,
experienced, and had the flair for smoking in an attractive manner, the
little brown sticks that occupied the little carton. Each, in turn,
lighting up and sucking most tantalizingly. Monica and Sandra both went
into a coughing fit, with Monica losing her twinkie she had consumed
only minutes ago. Nine and ten-year-old girls acting all grown up,
sucking for their preverbal status as women of the world. Only now, I
was the cigarette in question. The lipstick mark that was missing from
the paper cigarettes, was stamped all over my milk offering breasts. Who
would be the one that looked best while sucking and manipulating this
situation?
Someone handed me another scotch. The air was palpable with sexual
tension. Jennifer broke the tension as only someone with her keen sense
of humor could. "Monica can we now test out his other tool?" Sitting
there with breasts exposed holding a scotch that would soon be gone in
one gulp, the look on my face must have netted her desired result. The
laughter that ensued was contagious. Monica reached and gave me some
modesty by pulling my clothes into a more unrevealing position.
Everyone admittedly had too much to drink, so we popped a movie into our
(some people still remember these) VCR and made sleeping arrangements
for everyone. Later, in bed, Monica thanked me so much for being so
understanding. I can?t imagine what she needed to prove to these ladies
but I guess friends from younger times have different influences on your
psyche. In the morning, I made bacon and eggs, sausage, and greasy hash
browns. All of our alcohol effected systems liked the greasy
confectionary delivered to our suffering bodies. Everyone thanked me
profusely as the breakfast was just what the doctor ordered. Jennifer
could not help but comment that I was making a habit of helping people
with their ailments.
Sandra was the last to leave. She and Monica were saying their goodbyes
at the front door. I thought I heard Sandra whisper Fiction-something-a
and then tell Monica that she was jealous of her newfound potent sex
life. A couple of air kisses and she was gone.
CHAPTER 11
Monica said that she has never wanted me so bad as of right this second.
"It?s too bad that my hangover will not allow my need to be fulfilled."
So instead we started tiding up together. The house was ship-shape in no
time, just taking out the garbage and cleaning up a few breakfast dishes
didn?t take very long. I went to grab the vacuum and finish but Monica
asked if that could be done after her hangover cleared up some more. It
seems my breakfast helped but it was still going to be a long day for
her. She grabbed her work iPad and started getting comfortable.
Today she was very interested in whatever she was reading. She was
taking notes and having ah-ha moments. She must seriously be making
headway with whatever work-related task she must have been assigned. At
noon she sought me out and we enjoyed a steamy shower together. Laying
panting in bed after my wife has become such an aggressor, I?m moved to
a new level of appreciation for this woman who has overcome so much. Not
only have I gotten my wife back, I believe I now own the new improved
model.
Several weeks went by and Monica was spending an exuberant amount of
time on her iPad. I would usually leave her to her devices, but I was
starting to feel neglected. Twice now, returning to our home after
administering "medicine" to my clients, I did not receive proper care
from my beautiful wife. I?ve come to expect the use of my condition
after what she knows is a conditioned response to what I?ve been paid
for. Now I don?t know any longer what I can expect to transpire. It is
nice knowing the pattern of everyday life. What to expect, rewards for
this, punishment for that. Now I do not have a clue what to expect or
do. I do not like being put in the passenger seat.
I found it strange that work people showed up to remodel the spare
bedroom. We always told each other what was up or happening. Except
that, I had an additional payment from Bob Emerson that I didn?t
registrar with Monica. Now I saw an extremely feminine room being
created without my knowledge or consent. I think that my new found
relationship that I assumed to have recovered has been changed somewhat
dramatically. I?m so glad that Monica seems to be recovering, but I
don?t understand what has changed from the original formula. I was not
impressed with what was done. Not only that, but my sacred belongings
started to be assembled in this grotesque homage to femininity. My
indestructible drone was placed on a landing pad just to the left of the
window. My computer was now front and center of a small work station and
all of my makeup appeared at this little cute vanity. What was going on?
Monica informed me that she has had this unquenchable desire/fantasy to
have a French maid at her beck and call. This was news to me, where all
this inspiration comes from, I didn?t know. With all that has transpired
over the last year did she want me to subject myself to further
subjectivization of my manhood? I already have assumed the newfound role
of a domesticated female in our relationship. I now cook and clean while
she is at work. And when I go to work, she is usually there to take
advantage of my prone condition. I?m at a loss. Where she is going with
this, I don?t understand.
"What have you done to the guest bedroom? I can?t believe you changed
our home without consulting me." She then informed me that this was part
of the fantasy. That I found myself with, as her friends called
amazingly beautiful natural looking breasts, decked out as a woman, was
Monica?s will that was forced upon me. That in essence is the fantasy.
So, the room was changed on her orders. She knew that I did everything
for her benefit, out of love, but this fantasy was that she forced these
changes.
The kinky evening with her childhood friends, was a clue that my mostly
healed wife has a sexual deviation from the strict normal, is now
revealed. Now I didn?t have a ridged job, nor any ties to cultural norms
as is dictated to most of the population. My real purpose in life now
revolved around keeping my wife healthy and helping rich people overcome
Crohn?s disease. Also, having had my original wife returned to myself,
continuing Monica?s happiness for the newfound zest she has discovered
with regaining her health, how could I possibly deny the aspect of life
that after basically three years, Monica was starting to live again. My
whole goal in life was to see her happy again, and now she was. She had
already started down this road she called a fantasy without my consent.
I could play ball for a while.
I asked her if she wanted me to get a maid?s uniform. "Oh no, was her
response. When that time comes, I will reveal your uniform to you".
Always the control freak is my automatic thought. What she wanted was a
long drawn out conversion of docile hubby into a compliant maid. So full
of sexual energy, she ordered me to our master bedroom to service her
and then to be ridden hard and put up wet, as the saying goes. I don?t
quite get that saying. Again, this was a pleasant experience for both of
us. Something just changed, but I had no idea what had changed.
CHAPTER 12
Bob, as it turns out, belongs to additional support groups. And Bob is
not tight-lipped about the glorious cure that he has found. His
description of the most perfectly formed breasts residing on a man that
all but the skinny ass and hips could be a woman?s fashion model had
cured him of a most unpleasant condition at a fraction of the cost he
would have been willing to pay. This got the attention of his other
group, they all understood that Bob was tight and cheaper than a free
night stay. Bob at some point had taken snapshots of me all decked out,
these he used to show what his prized cure?s external package looked
like. Three members of his other group contacted and immediately
contracted me to perform a five-session curing regimen. This is great we
are on the way to easy street if this continues. As with Bob, all of
this group basically "needed" to set the stage with dinner and now added
dancing or other appropriate activity before consuming, well me. Each
had a preferred feminine name they referred to me by. It started to feel
like they were trying to out due each other as each sent fabulous
outfits now combined with, I assume very high quality, costume jewelry.
Roses and candy started appearing before our "dates." When two of my
clients sent custom perfumes, Monica for the first time, inquired if I
was doing more than administering medicine. Wow, that line of
questioning hurt. I was taken aback.
"Monica, you know that this is all because of you. All of it." Out of an
altruistic sense of duty to mankind or alleviation of guilt for being
"cured," while so many other people remain sick, Monica had opened up my
solution to pretty much anyone. "You pushed this on me and no I am not
doing anything but administering help to those that need it." "Unless of
course, you consider what you and your friends did to me." Now Monica
was wishing she could take back what she had inferred. She knew that I
would never break our marriage vows. That simply was who I am. When it
comes to it things that swarm around in my head, they are very black and
white. All these new colors of existence are very new to me.
I resolved that Monica and I needed to spend more time together. It was
a whole lot quicker to have a client show up do the deed and leave. Now
there was an evening out at the finest establishments with a play or
opera to follow. A limo ride and a treatment is given in some
extravagant apartment the likes of which I never knew existed. All of it
seemed to have the romantic atmosphere of being courted. I found myself
decked out as the ideal mate of whichever client was creating his stage
and found that I felt like an actor about to give a winning performance.
Monica was being left behind. Only in her mind, but that doesn?t make it
any less real. I was given outfits that if Bob Mackey designed truly
beautiful outfits for Carol Burnet (as she truly thought) today's
designers would be hard-pressed to beat. Wined and dined and then taken
to the best events that today?s society had to offer. Then brought to
the finest residences where I was taken most sensually. God, I?m good
with this acting stuff. Most of these clients believed they had had me
after I administered their treatment. I probably needed to spend more
quality time with Monica to alleviate the extra mile I?ve gone with some
of these new clients.
Monica started to develop a certain disdain for what was starting to
occur. Her husband was being wined and dined in the best establishments
with gifts the like of which I never understood transpired in certain
circles. Jealousy is an ugly companion. She watched as I was transformed
into a fine specimen of female something or another, the idea escapes
me, but here we are. I?m collected, doted on and no expense will be
spared to ensure my happiness. These are things that I could never
afford when I dated Monica and now are an expected part of my clients?
offerings. We do not even venture out anymore as our lives seem to be
all consumed with sex. This is not what it used to be.
With these new clients, I noticed that I was not the only one leaving
the session with a raging boner. I was somewhat disturbed by this but it
would be a double standard if I held that against them. They may be rich
but they were kind of geeks. Having access to a "beautiful woman?s
breasts" must be a new occurrence for them. Spending a half-hour
consuming Mother?s milk for someone that must have a hard time kissing
their date good night, really must be a turn on.
There was much in common with these three from Bob?s support group. The
only major deviation was with Ramone. When he sent me to the
institution, the treatments were pretty much the same, however, when I
left under his guidelines for procedures, my backside was increased
twofold. I guess Ramone liked his ideal woman to have plenty of
backside. Also, higher heals, my walk with these new apparatuses was
extremely feminine. How could they not be? Two more earrings were added
to my ears. With each of these groups wanting certain looks, the
institute was their preferred method. They could be assured that their
time with me was as they expected, look wise. Now I don?t even know how
many laser treatments I?ve had but body hair certainly will not be
destroying the illusion ever again. These geeks certainly know how to
set the stage, even if their performance was Ill-fitting when the time
arrived. Still, they had paid a lot for their experience and any
failures during their evening were not due to their lack of putting
forth the best effort available to themselves.
Ramone?s requirement for the rear end to be padded was the first time
that things for me felt fake. It might seem strange after everything
else that was visited upon my personage, but this was the first time
that silicone enhancements had been deployed. For whatever reason,
everything else had a natural feel to it. Now I had lumps added that was
just stuck to my sides and rear. When I returned home to Monica, I had
the unpleasant experience of removing the girdle that held the padding
and the enhancements fell to the floor. This almost destroyed the mood.
Monica however was forthcoming with enticements to solve this dilemma.
I can appreciate that the enhanced lower half seemed to complete my
look, but nothing felt natural anymore. This simply translated into
something else being somewhat off. Some things probably needed to be
left alone. At some point good enough needs to be accepted.
On the fifth treatment of the last new client, things got a little
strange. Norman, when it came time for his treatment removed most of his
clothes leaving on only his underwear. And topping that off his
underwear seemed padded to some extent. Explaining several of his very
expensive clothes ended up having breast milk stains when I gave him a
quizzical look. He climbed on my lap and grabbed on to my breast way too
hard. Well, this hurt, and my response were to slap him across his face
hard enough to leave a handprint. The red outline of my palm and fingers
now decorated his cheek. In all the treatments that I have rendered only
a little discomfort has ever been part of this. Now Norman has been
slapped the crap out of seemed more energized. What was going on? After
this interlude was over, I will reserve the right to refuse treatment to
anyone that I see fit.
When I went home, Monica was there to greet me as usual but there was
nothing for her to take advantage of. "What?s up Ashley?" Monica
inquired. My response was that I didn?t know, but I felt that something
was wrong with what happened tonight. Later, after some searching,
Monica informed me that Norman didn?t have Crohn?s Disease.
"What was he paying me for then," as soon as I uttered those words, I
realized what he was paying me for. Holy shit, without knowing it, I had
just prostituted myself. I?m going to need a psychologist to get my head
wrapped around this one. Monica couldn?t help but let a giggle escape.
"He sucked your milk; he didn?t screw you." Still, I felt dirty. Moving
forward I will demand that everyone wanting my services to produce a
doctor?s proof of diagnosis. What was Bob?s other group? Were the other
two also getting their jollies sucking at my pump? I don?t know but I
think that I will just look forward as anyone who doesn?t want the
answers says. It is a cop-out but much easier to deal with.
CHAPTER 13
Monica announced that we needed a vacation. Oh GOD yes that would help.
Things have gone off the rails and we need a reset. The Bahamas here we
come. The question in my mind is do I go as male or female? Monica
simply then stated we need to get your identification as Ashley. The
look on my face prompted her response. "Tits like those need to be
displayed on a beautiful woman, whom I love." It?s hard to argue with
the sentiment Monica created.
I was standing before a judge in a very sensible sweater dress being
asked why I wanted a name change. Looking at my personage the judge
simply granted the motion and I was no longer Eddie. Now I was legally
Ashley. This felt permanent. I don?t know why but I lost it and started
to cry like I haven?t since my childhood dog died, "Butter." The name
might be strange but it fits him. Now I was crying at a similar loss,
only I really could not identify it.
I?ve got a new identity and we head out on a beach filled vacation. Just
me and my wife on a second honeymoon of sorts. No clients, nothing
demanding from my wife?s work, just quality time together. Strangely not
much was going on sexually. Most of our time was spent shopping,
swimming, and sightseeing. We renewed our friendship and took a break
from the demands of constant sex. Strangely I was relieved. Monica also
seemed just comfortable to hang together and enjoy the comforts of life
without the added pressure that sex can bring.
Now that the pressure was off, we did enjoy an amazing interlude of
spontaneous sex. I collapsed on Monica?s nether region and brought her
several orgasms. After she emptied my sculpted breasts, she flipped me
over and enjoyed her previous ministrations on my standing at attention
penis. Slowly at first, she started to ride up and down. God, she was
beautiful. While she rode me and entertained my senses she started to
speak. "Eddie," she hadn?t called me that in at least two weeks, "when
we go back, I want to role play and have you as my bondage slave." I
didn?t know what that entailed but right now reality didn?t matter to
me, this was bliss. "whatever you want my love."
The two weeks were coming to an end, it?s funny unless you have a job
the calendar doesn?t mean much. Soon we would head back to our lives
such as they were. My mindset was much better after our break. Monica
was headed back to her old grindstone, nothing for her has changed much.
Except for her husband now presents effectively as a beautiful woman and
there are no home chores for Monica any longer. I will see who wants an
appointment with me and make sure that there is a medical reason for it.
All have a purpose in life and mine would not be wasted. I will help
those that need it and prevent myself from being subjectified all that I
could. It?s not a perfect existence but I will be happy to know that I
have helped many people.
CHAPTER 14
One evening I came home after servicing one of the men in Monica?s
group. To find objects laid out on our bed that I didn?t understand
their purpose. In short order, I would find out. Monica, stripped me
down to the basics, leaving the hose and shoes. And I soon found myself
in a bevy of bondage devices that severely limited my movements. My now
perfect looking breasts were on full display and the overall look was at
least erotic. She led me over to a strange device that looked like it
might be painful if administered wrong. An adjustable pole on top of a
circular platform with a realistic-looking phallus attached to the end.
"Up," she demanded, I didn?t see a choice and found myself being
strapped in and things inserted in an inescapable position that I didn?t
know how to react to. This is all very foreign to me. Now, I basically
can?t move and am attached to a pole that has been set against my nether
regions. A push of remote control as Monica looks into my soul and then
grabs onto my left nipple with intentions to receive whatever still
resides there. In and out the fake phallus starts pumping and
stimulating my back passage. She is sucking for all that she is worth,
but having breasts of her own, she understood the gentle nature that
this activity requires. At first, this is not only disconcerting but
painful, suddenly there is a phase shift and I enter a delirious
catatonic state that only produces extreme pleasure. This can?t be bad,
can it?
I have no idea where she is getting all of this, quite frankly, strange
inspiration. Or for that matter, where does someone obtain these strange
devices? We have been on a strange journey together that started with an
altruistic purpose, now things are developing in a primal carnage sexual
way that is coming out of the left field. I never would have thought
that not only that I would present as a woman let alone be relegated to
the role of pseudo sex slave or maybe a better description would be
sexual artwork. Looking into the mirror that was hung across from my
platform, sexual artwork is a fitting description.
After an undetermined amount of time, I?m released from the platform. My
hands are still immobile being attached to some strange collar that is
locked around my neck. My legs are hobbled by a pole attached to some
sort of leg cuffs as I try to move around. My breasts that I am informed
have caused a few of Monica?s friends to be quite honestly envois to
their shape and size, are still on complete display. Access to these
beautiful appendages is unimpeded at this very moment. Where this goes
from here is totally out of my control. I believe that this is the
intended result of this new experiment. I love Monica but I will admit
that at this moment I?m completely at a loss in my life and my purpose
for it. I do not know where this will lead.
Monica leads me to a niche in the wall that we used to have a life-sized
traveler sculpture installed. It?s no longer there and I seem to be its
replacement. From somewhere a buttplug has been inserted and a random
vibrator comes and goes at various intensities. Monica comes back and
starts applying more layers of makeup and adds several squirts of
perfume. She changes my shoes adding two inches to my standing angle.
What a sight I must make.
Standing back and rubbing her chin, Monica seems to be divesting the
best way to improve the esthetics and sexual atmosphere of my display.
She removes the but plug and brings over the machine that she had me
attached to just previously. She indicates that I need to move to the
side and she places it in the niche. "Up," she demands again and I find
myself impaled once more. Only this time I?m now three feet off the
ground being impaled on my little private stage. So now I feel, besides
the insistent phallus sliding back and forth in my back passage, that I
am a sculptor?s piece of art on display. She produces her I pad and
presses a few places on the screen. This first turns on a fog machine
then the lights go off leaving us in darkness. All of a sudden, a strobe
light starts a slow pulse while simultaneously the machine starts the
slow in and out motion once more. Monica starts clapping and jumping up
and down then starts rubbing her clit in a most unwholesome way. After
she has contained her excitement, she released me, and still hobbled she
slowly leads me to "our" master bedroom. Pushing me back on "our" bed
she lowers herself onto my lips and later impales herself on my member.
I don?t know if it should feel this good being used.
I?m not sure what has come over us but our whole relationship seems to
have changed. Now, I?m not a farm animal or a show pony or a glorified
cigarette waiting to be inhaled, now I?m an object, for Monica?s
entertainment. I?ll let her have her day but this is not what I signed
up for. For God?s sake, I?m now a sculpture being fu**** in the ass for
my wife?s entertainment. I don?t like where this is heading.
Demands are forthcoming. Monica informs me what to expect. All my
efforts have had serious shortcomings. Therefore, she has hired a
professional to teach me the correct ways to perform my required duties.
From now on she will expect a certain level of performance.
Petra, as she was introduced to me, takes me by the hand and brings me
to our kitchen. "This is the most demanding room for cleaning." She
informed me then proceeded to teach me how to do it admirably. The
process was repeated for every room in our house. Now I have been taught
how to perform cleaning most proficiently. "Great, I feel so much
better." This the great wisdom passed down to me. I have realized that
my purpose in life is to grant a "cure" to those in need. And I can make
my wife extra happy by playing a role-playing game that puts her in the
driving seat.
On Tuesday Monica brings me a wrapped present. She is all kinds of
excited. This brings new energy to what is happening. Inside the tissue
paper is the most beautiful French maid?s outfit that ever existed. Not
what I expected, however, the quality and artful existence of the said
object brings a newfound excitement to what our relationship has become.
The skirt portion of the dress is not the petticoated look that you
would expect. It?s more like black satin leaves cascading down and
around the bodice almost in a classical ballerina style. It?s full yet
so very classical. I go forth to don the exquisite dress. When I return,
I?m immediately removed from the new garments and taken in a new manner
that instills fear for the future for myself. Never had anything made me
feel so vulnerable as that "lovemaking" session that we shared.
Now I?m a French maid. My duties don?t seem to bother any of my
customers with the way I "choose to dress." It?s not my choice but no
one seems to care. Monica installs me into the new maid?s quarters. All
my male clothes have been boxed up, by me, and placed in the garage. I?m
truly living as a female domestic now all at my wife?s bidding. Monica
decided to invite her little clutch of friends back to see the new
developments in our relationship. As I answered the door, three of her
friends entered, but as they passed all of them rubbed my chest as they
entered. Embarrassment aside, I announced their arrival to my wife.
"Yevette, go and bring refreshments to my guests." Without missing a
beat, I produced beautiful trays of ordures and a decanter of their
favorite wine. I am well on my way to being the perfect domestic. One of
her friends doesn?t show up, and this seems to bother Monica more than
Trump being called out for being a liar.
Sandra as it turns out has a more pressing engagement. As sexy as she
presents herself, there are times that it is necessary to focus on
things that don?t involve Monica. Although she was impressed with the
latitude that Eddie showed in reverence to Monica, she thought that with
some training Eddie could go the distance. That boy shows real potential
for being the ideal mate. According to Sandra, Monica should be astatic
to be in a relationship with the former Eddie.
As her friends consume a plethora of fermented beverages Monica claims
that she has something she wants to show this reduced ensemble. I now am
installed in the niche. Some changes have occurred. Instead of a collar
holding my arms cuffs have been attached to the sidewalls of the niche.
A neck collar is strapped around my neck and fastened. All of this is
happening behind a tapestry that is hanging from a very stout rod that
now hides the fact that there is even a niche behind it. I am completely
immobile as Monica starts tapping at her IPad. The tapestry starts to
roll up on the new rod above and now, I?m on complete display about to
feel the machine start to penetrate and slide backward for everyone to
see. The fog machine kicks in the strobe light starts and then the
machine starts adulating in a most revealing manor. Her little group has
a small pause and as things registrar, they clap with excitement as they
realize what tonight was all about.
Now being on full display in the best light possible, I find myself
offered up to Monica?s friends once more. I am immobile and I find that
with a set of stairs on wheels my wife?s friends have uninterrupted
access to anything they deem pleasurable. If I could communicate I
would, I?m not happy. Suddenly Yolanda is on the ladder and inserting
some gag in my mouth and strapping it to my head. These women, having
consumed pleather of alcoholic beverages proceed to take full advantage
of me. I don?t understand but I?m now having my breasts emptied and my
cock used at their discretion. No one directed my cock into their pussy
although two of them seemed inclined to take advantage of what they
considered a wasted anomaly. Ressie sets the ladder on a course to the
uppermost level and proceeds to impale herself on the protruding end of
my gag. Grabbing onto the stout rod holding the curled-up tapestry for
balance, she takes advantage of the sexual artwork that Monica has
offered up. This girl must not be afraid of heights. I wonder if Monica
is recording this.
Thanks, are offered up all around from Monica?s friends, as they make
their exit towards a proffered cab that Monica had called. At some point
in this activity, Monica happened to notice that I was extremely
perturbed by what was transpiring. She let me down and undid all of the
constraints that impeded me. I set off to the "maid?s quarters" with no
concern towards Monica?s need for affirmation that she did not cross a
line unacceptable to me. When I entered, I locked the door. I had no
intention of letting Monica off the hook as it were. I do not deserve
this treatment.
I did not exit the new bedroom that I had been relegated towards until
Monica had to leave for work. I did not answer any phone that day. I, in
short, was not happy. The unappreciation for all that I have done for my
wife was weighing very heavy on my thought process. I do get that for
three years plus, Monica lived a shell of an existence, but I also
suffered through those years. I wanted adulation for all of my efforts
but received none. Why do I always put forth such an effort only to be
relegated to the back of the bus every time? I left for the day and let
Monica stew in her juices as it were.
They say that if you want to fix a relationship, you need to be able to
abandon it. I was now at this point. Furthermore, Monica received the
message. When she returned home, it was with gifts and a catered dinner.
Chinese food, and not the sweet Americanized crap. This was eggrolls and
cashew chicken. General Tasso beef and shrimp and scallop with green
onion entries. Yeah I know this sounds like the Americanized version,
maybe it is, but at the next level.
We didn?t converse about the events from last night, Monica didn?t
apologize. She rarely did. I believe that only once did she lower
herself to apologize to me in our now proceeding marriage of nine years.
I don?t believe that she will be placing me in that niche ever again. I
hope that we are starting to reach an understanding of the limits in
this newly defined relationship.
The niche remained unchanged residing behind the now rolled down
tapestry. Upon inspection, as I held the corner away from the wall, I
noted that everything remained. The stand and bondage devices were still
there waiting silently for their next occupant. This does not instill
trust on my end.
We reached an equilibrium. I went back to performing miraculous healing
procedures and cleaning and cooking for myself and Monica. Monica
received a promotion at work and that affirmation did wonders for her
ego. She was a new person once again. She seemed to forget all about her
debacle with her friends and putting me on display. Now her attitude
shifted once again to the dominant role. She started bossing me around
again and finding the limits of my cooperation. I do find that I have a
natural submissive streak and Monica has control issues.
So now I?m a maid that outperforms most people in the money-making area.
I service people that need help with the affliction of Crohn?s Disease.
And I find myself lately denied sex and only a participant in cunnings
for my dominant wife.
My French maid outfit is simply divine. So soft and body-hugging that it
is almost enough to rediscover myself unto myself, under the guise of a
healed wife. My meal preparation has improved tenfold with the
supplemental classes that I have had time to undertake. I now know the
absolute best way to approach cleaning a room. Whichever description
that it calls for. Nothing but the best results can be expected from the
newly formed French maid that is me.
Monica informs me that she needs me to cook for two on Friday night and
serve the same. I don?t know what to expect, but this isn?t sitting well
with me. I clean Monica?s house, for that is what it is, a prenup
declares all assets belong to those in position before entering this,
our marriage. Also, any earnings of each individual shall remain in the
possession of the individual that earned such an asset. The house was
Monica?s when we married and remains in her possession. I?ve made
several payments on her behalf when things were not in their best light.
With the house clean and the table set, I make a meal that would make
ex-presidents envious.
There is a ring on our doorbell. I cross the room to welcome our guests.
Monica and a gentleman are standing outside. I welcome them into
Monica?s home. She introduces me to Mr. Woody. I curtsy as taught and my
face lights up knowing that this is a put-on (Mr. Woody indeed). No one
is named Mr. Woody. Still, this is somewhat uncomfortable with my wife
entertaining some man at our table while I serve them. The meal is
perfect and the couple enjoys what has been served. Many drinks by this
time have been consumed by this couple.
I serve and supply all that is demanded. A curtsy with every
commandment. Except for looks of sexual appreciation for the image I
bring to this evening, I?m largely ignored. This is becoming a strange
game with my wife rubbing her hose covered foot up and down Mr. Woody?s
pant leg. My feathers are beginning to ruffle and my mind is sliding
into a dark place. Monica had better be careful where she brings this
new game.
Monica now announces that they will be retiring to the master bedroom
for a much-needed Rodgering by a real man. It has been so long since she
enjoyed what a real man could bring since her husband had left her. The
servant should bring refreshments as they conclude their interlude and
be ready for additional clean up services that may be required. The
place was a wreck due to the cooking and preparations. The couple left
the clean-up for the in-house servant.
Ashley, now Yevette, entered the maid?s quarters and turned on her
computer. There she chose the English French program and quickly typed
out in English turned French a note informing the reader that we need to
talk before things are too late. With this article printed out, Yevette
entered the master bedroom to witness Monica heavily petting and kissing
Mr. Woody. A silver tray with a note on it waited for an acknowledgment.
Monica in a perturbed voice asked what she wanted. The tray set forth so
as not to break character as was warned by Monica the preceding day with
a promise to discuss everything in a fortnight.
"Yes girl, go ahead say what?s on your mind. My new lover here is not
someone that I keep secrets from." "Well go on girl say what?s on your
mind we have urgent business to address." "No, then keep your tongue and
clean the house and prepare to serve us our desired drinks as outlined
in your directions." Well, I stamped my foot in anger and started with
an exaggerated pace, then I remembered to stay in character. I stopped
and with my back turned to this unnatural couple I slumped my shoulders
forward and resumed my exaggerated feminine walk. Monica, first filled
with concern watched and as my shoulder slumped assumed that this was my
breaking point and all that she read about on Fiction mania was about to
transpire.
Now I was on autopilot, all the colors that I had experienced were now
very black and white. Totally and utterly betrayed, I proceeded to my
room and turned on the computer once more. Unbeknownst to me Monica
being somewhat worried came from the master bedroom to check on me. I
was hoovering the maid?s room carpet, with my back turned to the door.
She returned to the master bedroom proclaiming that they had a whole lot
of time as the maid seemed intent on cleaning the whole place top to
bottom. This has been a long time coming, all of the feelings of neglect
and humiliation that my wife?s actions have descended upon me were no
longer bottled up. My anger now came to full fruition. I booted up my
drone and sent it out the window. Monica and Mr. Woody were starting to
get busy. The drone easily captures Monica climbing on top of Mr. Woody
and taking advantage of his somewhat acceptable manhood. Monica was
cheating on me with someone who had a penis smaller than myself. This
didn?t make any sense but now I don?t care.
The computer was up and going so I uploaded the proof of infidelity to
the prenup that Monica had me sign all those years ago. A click of the
mouse and the prenup was filed with the county. Now I had a fully
executed prenup with full proof evidence that was indisputable in court.
This vision was now public knowledge if someone cared to investigate.
Monica?s insistence that our money is kept separate made this exchange
extremely easy. A quick trip to our safe and my earnings was on their
way to my car. Monica and her new lover were very busy. I shed the
maid?s uniform and placed it very neatly across the maid?s bed. Grabbing
my clothes, I reached the garage door. Out in the garage, I had a
disturbing thought that Monica?s way might be ok. A shake of my head and
that thought passed very quickly.
I loaded all my clothes from the upstairs maid?s bedroom into my GTO. A
classic muscle car that I have hung onto all these years. My male
clothes are already boxed up in the garage. What I forgot was to stay in
character. I went back upstairs and utilized the French program to type
out an in-character letter of resignation. I left that in the mess in
the kitchen. Back in the garage after standing close to the master
bedroom and hearing what was transpiring, I opened the garage door
marveling at the quiet of the new garage door that I purchased for
Monica. Pressing the brake and shifting into neutral I felt my freedom
start to bloom. The incline of the garage having been set at more of an
incline due to the natural setting and the winter months sending more
snow than usual into the garage, made for a natural movement down and
out of the garage. The car fully loaded with my earnings and belongings
and a whole lot of jewelry started a quiet escape from the
unappreciative souls that didn?t matter to me any longer. Seeing my wife
sliding up and down another man?s pole whatever size it was threw cold
water on the back of my neck. I now felt no feelings for Monica.
Strangely, you could love someone so completely, but with the
understanding that the commitment is one-sided, love can turn off almost
like a light switch. I never knew love was so fragile.
When at the bottom of our driveway, I turned over my key bringing the
beast to life. The noise created as only a true American muscle car can
create, hearing this, Monica thought that someone else had a GTO or
Injun in our neighborhood. God how she loved that car. The vibrations
that it created were an aphrodisiac unto themselves. She might have to
learn to drive stick to fully enjoy her newfound existence, totally in
control of every aspect of her life.
Looking out through the windshield of my GTO, I couldn?t help but think
that maybe this was my fault. My freedom was at hand but I didn?t know
where all these problems were coming from. Did the slow descent into
accepting her conditions under her sickness bring forth me being
susceptible to strange and unreasonable demands? Did her attitude
mandate these responses? With everything that I did for her health and
future, why did she pursue a secondary relationship? Did my slow consent
take me to a place that allowed my wife to think that fu***** someone
else would be acceptable to me? All the time Monica was sick, was this a
slow permission of sorts to allow her any discrepancy, while I and she
gave me no latitude? Why did I go along with this game of hers, that
other than a physical response and curiosity satisfied, that I derived
no satisfaction from? My only goal was to see Monica happy, well what
about my happiness?
Now that this decision was made for me, I started to ponder this
conundrum. Being dressed as a beautiful woman and having my substantial
member being drawn into Monica?s mouth as she proceeded to insert a butt
plug in my rectum, seemed to confirm some preconceived notion, that she
was going in the right direction. Things just kept going towards some
fantasy that she had contrived. Maybe as things spiraled into directions
that I didn?t fully enjoy; I should have put my foot down. Maybe I could
have put a stop to this ill-conceived direction. Did Monica ever
actually love me? If you listen to David Emerson Thorough, "Your actions
speak so loudly that I cannot hear what you are saying." The answer is
no, she never did love me. My course is totally clear and I will not
feel any guilt whatsoever over what has been forced upon me.
Diving my GTO decked out as a sexy woman, I could appreciate the
vibrations that Monica eluded too. My car from my high school years now
contained a driver slipping back and forth on a short skirt with
pantyhose clad legs shifting 455 horses at my sole command. Not only was
I hot, after years of making everyone else happy, but I was also now in
total control. What a vision I must make. Stiletto heels and what turned
out to be my favorite sweater, the black angora rabbit hair turtle neck
with diamond jewelry in a white GTO convertible cruising to God knows
where. What a beautiful sight.
Bringing to the forefront, where was I going? Now divorced, dressed to
kill, and a plethora of my earned cash, what should I do next? I never
wanted a divorce, but those were the cards I was dealt. No choice is
given, freedom thrown upon me, and no guilt for anything that had
transpired to date and a whole lot of cash while not needing to answer
to anyone. What to do? What to do? This is a strange accommodation to
find me in. For years, perhaps all my life, I have taken on the mantel
of caring for someone, now all this has been removed. I?m not sure what
to do with myself. I feel the sumptuous clothes that adorn my body,
every movement sends familiar if not new, sensations to my enhanced
existence. What I came up with is to find some racing fuel for my
beloved beast. I can?t tell you why but I seem to have reverted to my
earlier days, only just decked out in an entirely new fashion. Only now,
I was not going to apologize to anyone or anything. I was a beautiful
person in an engineered time capsule finding its lifeblood to live life
to its fullest. All of my time wasted on others would not see another
daybreak of the same equation.
Finding a gas station that caters to such needs, I stick my card in the
slot and push the appropriate buttons. Soon racing fuel will enter the
hole that I just penetrated the gas nozzle into, to purchase what I came
for. Looking up I realize that, not only am I on display with my Gto but
there is a pleather of interest in my female persona. The gas station is
lit up like daybreak and I?m on full display with many onlookers that
seem to have forgotten their task at hand. Every male has stepped around
their respective gas pumps and is now just standing mesmerized at the
display in front of them. I must look incredible with the added backdrop
of the Gto and the purchase that could only be for racing this stock
beast. Slick car and slick legs with breasts that were seemingly
manufactured for impressing the masses. I, at this moment in time, did
represent many wet dreams that even I had entertained. The original
paint job on the Gto and a new paint job on the driver and things are
just as they are meant to be, sort of.
I ended up driving all night. Dolled up to the max, with every truck
driver ogling either my car or the sexy little driver or both. The
overhead street lights making my pantyhose covered legs shine at just
the right times. A pothole in the street making my angora covered chest
bounce provocatively. A legend in the making of clean lines, power, and
a certain sexiness of a time gone past. Many witnesses would undoubtedly
use these memories to create explosive interludes as necessary to
achieve relief shortly and for years to come. I was lost in thoughts as
to what had gone wrong. How had I contributed to the failure of my
relationship? In the end, it didn?t matter, Monica had performed an act
that I simply could never forgive. Nothing now could change that; I wish
she would have talked to me.
I don?t know how much money I have on hand but tomorrow I will declare
said money and pay the tax. I will not give Monica the upper hand.
When Monica and Woody were done taking satisfaction from each other
Monica rang the bell that should bring Yevette running. (Yevette, had
grown to hate that disrespectful bell.) She should bring our drinks then
perform cleaning services as we feel necessary. Yevette was about to
learn how to serve a couple with her mouth. Providing the last vestige
of service to those that are superior to her. At last, she would have
what she truly needs, and even if she didn?t realize it, what she
desires. Monica was such a good and decent superior. Always thinking of
what the help needs.
Monica intended to use Ashley?s tongue to bring forth an orgasm that
Woody was not able to deliver. When no one materializes Monica went to
investigate. The house was dark but the light to the servant courters
was on. Looking around, the house was in shambles. Nothing was cleaned
up and the house seemed deserted. Entering the maid?s quarters, Monica
was amazed at how clean and organized it was. The computer was on but
the screensaver had just transpired the drone was gone and so seemed the
contents of the open closet. The only thing that remained was the
computer and the maid's uniform placed with extreme care on the bed.
Monica screamed at Woody to bring the crop as her maid needed negative
attention. This was too much and Monica was going to install complete
control. She had been nice thus far but her sissy has just gone too far.
Yevette was nowhere to be found. Monica didn?t know what to do. She went
down to the garage to find the prized GTO and all the boxes belonging to
Eddie gone. Racing up the stairs she opened their safe. Everything was
gone. "Oh my God, what have I done," was Monica?s comet as she collapsed
on the living room floor. Woody was at a loss.
Woody held up a piece of paper that he found amongst the mess in the
kitchen. Quickly Monica closed the distance between them and took the
letter of resignation from her "new lover," as she had called him.
Yevette had composed a letter stating that she could not work for
unappreciative white trash that would treat her loving husband so
terribly. It went on to say that she did not care for a letter of
reference as she would never again be anyone?s maid. Furthermore, she
was glad that Monica?s condition had improved but it was no excuse for
treating people so badly. Signed "Yevette."
There was also a p.s. asking if this was staying in character in a good
enough fashion for Monica.
Monica went to Eddie?s computer. The only remnant of Eddie that was
still in her house. The screen had expired but hitting the space bar
brought it back to life. There was a new screen saver. It danced across
the screen as a photo bouncing everywhere in a scheduled pattern. It was
a video in a photo sized outline showing Monica screwing Mr. Woody. If
this was not enough, it suddenly changed to an executed prenup. Monica
was officially divorced. Her prenup had been used against her. Legal
separation and Eddie was gone presumably forever.
Immediately she dialed Eddie?s phone, nothing. Again, and again,
nothing, what would she do? How could she fix things? So many questions
and no answers. To always be in control and all of a sudden have none is
a very vulnerable place to find one?s self. Monica sat at Eddie?s
workstation clasping her head in her hands. She seemed very distraught.
He didn?t understand why the loss of a domestic should be so
traumatizing. Surely, Monica could hire a new maid. What was the big
deal, they had with each other? They could make each other forget their
sorted pasts. He, for his part, was willing to try.
CHAPTER 15
Monica now found herself cut off from every avenue that could help her.
Ashley wanted nothing to do with her. Monica had told Yevette that they
could talk tomorrow. And that is what she intended. Finally, that is
what she thought was fair. But, the next day still no answer. She tried
to text message. She texts that Eddie said he would never give up on
their marriage vows. This brought a response. Eddie wrote that he didn?t
abandon his wedding vows but Monica had.
"We need to talk Eddie." This is what Monica wrote to his response. "you
want to talk when there is nothing to talk about. Go back to your lover.
I have nothing left for you. "I do not want to see you ever again. I
hope you are happy with your new-found lover, "a real man." Monica
responded with; she didn?t understand what he meant. There was simply no
more communication from Eddie. Monica was now truly on her own.
Upon reading Fiction mania stories, Monica had the impression that she
was doing what Eddie needed. People like him needed someone to take
control and guide them in their endeavors. After all that Eddie had done
for Monica, she felt compelled to give him the environment that every
natural sissy would need. Her logic dictated that no one would so easily
do the things that Eddie did unless truly they were a sissy. And she
loved her sissy. For God?s sake she was screwing a boar of a man with a
smaller penis than her sissy, what more could she possibly have done for
Eddie? Now she has lost her husband, her treatment, and a huge cash cow.
Nothing left to do Monica called Sandra. Monica filled in Sandra with
all of the gory details. She informed Monica that, "holy shit girl,
there is a big difference between fantasy and reality." Eddie wasn?t a
sissy he did everything to help you. And you betrayed him utterly. When
you play these games, you need to discuss everything and develop safe
words so that certain unacceptable lines do not get crossed. I hope that
your Crohn?s disease is at a point that you are cured or at least the
current meds will now be effective. "I don?t think Ashley will be there
for you anymore." Upon hearing this Monica broke down knowing that she
ruined everything. How could she have been so clueless? Then Sandra
dropped a bomb asking," since Ashley no longer wants anything to do with
you, would you mind if I pursued her?"
Sandra wanted to take Eddie away from her. Monica was heartbroken.
Sandra went on to say that although she "cherished" their friendship a
superior find like Ashley was very rare. And to say that her qualities
were valued was an understatement. With an appropriate time for Ashley
to grieve over the loss of his beloved Monica, Sandra was sure that she
could ensnare the beautiful Ashley. And that is what she intended to do.
So, in one small time frame, Monica lost her husband and one of her best
friends.
Sandra was a little late. Ashley had made quite the contact in the park.
A regular jogger had seen Eddie transition right before her eyes. A
regular pattern of both Eddie and this jogger visiting the park finally
caused Micha to stop during her run and inquire about Eddie?s situation.
Micha was intrigued by the story of Eddie willing to help first his wife
then a plethora of Crohn?s sufferers. She didn?t understand her
attraction to Eddie/Ashley as no one ever really interested her on a
romantic level before. When Micha found out of the troubles Eddie?s and
Monica?s relationship was having, she didn?t mix words. She swooped in
and took possession of Ashley and protected her and coddled her. She
built up all that she had done and marveled at her accomplishments. When
Micha finally came up for air, she was in the possession of what she
never realized she needed. A soulmate to share the rest of her life
with. She didn?t understand the attraction but she accepted it. She was
the one person that Ashley was meant to be with, everything else
notwithstanding.
It is a strange circumstance that brings this story to an end. Everyone
is content and happy, except Monica and Mr. Woody. When Ashley first
learned of the betrayal of their marriage vows, she sought to remove all
vestiges of her feminine appendages. She had scheduled a bilateral
breast removal. Monica?s Crohn disease group caught wind of Ashley?s
intended course of action and put together an appreciative dinner to
honor Ashley.
The night this dinner was to go down all of the group showed up at an
extremely upscale venue. They found Eddie in attendance. He did become
much more efficient at binding his breasts. All other vestiges of
womanhood had been removed. His clothes however smelled of the exhaust.
All of his male clothes had been boxed up and placed into the trunk of
the GTO. Even after several washes, the exhaust smell remained.
Hopefully, this would abate with additional washes and time. Maybe the
American car companies had improved over the years. There before Eddie
was a group of people that had benefited from his willingness to help.
All of their efforts to obtain help from the American medical
establishment went unheeded. Now all of them started sharing stories as
to the extent of help that Eddie had provided.
One customer, Jane informed the group that another individual having
heard of Eddie?s financial gain had tried to repeat the formula that
brought such riches to Eddie. His price was reduced but yielded no
benefit. It seems that tomorrow Eddie will remove our cure permanently.
The only thing that ever helped us will be gone due to Monica?s
selfishness. "Please Eddie for our sake, do not make a rash decision and
remove those most perfect looking breasts." "I?m sorry to put this all
on you but none of us have an alternative."
The whole room, except Monica who came stag hoping to reconcile with her
former husband, began to implore Eddie to continue to make available
their desperately needed treatment. Having heard all of these
testimonials and seen the actual appreciation for all that had
transpired, Eddie was moved. He looked to Micha for a response. She
already had tears in her eyes as to the wonder that Eddie had provided
to a very desperate group.
Monica had not expected Micha to be in attendance and her hopes were
utterly dashed when she approached Eddie and only received a look of
disdain. How could someone that loved me so completely have no feeling
for me any longer? This was a quandary that Eddie himself could not
understand, but actions do have consequences. Eddie was now in a new
relationship and Monica no longer was a consideration. Eddie?s new
squeeze did not feel comfortable if Monica was to ask for treatment,
paid for or not. She felt that this might make her a smaller person, but
she could not help the way she felt.
It was a lovely night. To be given such accolades for services rendered
was such an affirmation that Eddie was on cloud nine. It is nice to
receive credit for what you have accomplished. Micha informed Eddie that
she didn?t care how he presented himself, that it was his soul that she
was attracted to. This left Eddie with a lot of decisions to make. First
off, he canceled his breast removal, he could simply not let so many
people down. The confusion created from this decision brought Eddie to
an impasse for several weeks. Finally, Eddie made an appointment at the
institution. The image that was created for Eddie made everyone,
including Ashley, very happy and content. Ashley was still his legal
name.
The beautiful female version of Ashley continued to make appointments to
help those that needed it. No jealousy was ever displayed from Micha.
The only exception to this is when Monica sought out help from Ashley.
True to his promise, Ashley did not render service to Monica. When
he/she had kept information from Monica it caused a lot of guilt. Ashley
did not want to go down that road again. She simply informed her past
wife that if she wanted treatment that she would need to obtain
permission from Micha. Monica was too proud to seek Micha?s permission,
so she went without.
Monica, well Monica probably should have communicated with Ashley. She
had everything and now she does not know what her future will bring.
Whatever it is she will have to face it alone. Her first response to
face things alone has now come to fruition. True love is very hard to
come by. She never realized that her control with her prenup would ever
be used against her. How could things have gone so very wrong? The loss
of someone that you truly love, is something that you can never
overcome. But to have someone that you truly love, no longer believe you
is devastating. Ashley has truly moved on and wants nothing to do with
Monica. The only road left for Monica, as it were, is the "high Road,"
for now she truly is on her own.