Rapito e torturato
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I was a happy, normal 13 year old girl. My biggest worries were whether the spot I’d just found on my forehead would be obvious, why my boobs weren’t as big as my friends, why my Mum wouldn’t let me wear thongs when Beth’s Mum let her and whether Danny was going to the party on Saturday, and what I should wear to impress him and why did he always play football instead of standing with me when he was supposed to be my boyfriend!!
That all changed a few weeks before the end of the school year. I woke up one morning feeling awful, I felt sick and had a headache, and I just felt horrible. When I told my Mum she said I’d be fine once I got to school so off I went. By mid morning I was feeling worse, my head was banging and I hurt all over so I was sent to the school nurse who called my Mum. When she picked me up I looked white and could barely stand so she took me straight to the Dr’s. The Dr examined me and said I had the flu, he advised bed, paracetamol to bring down my temperature and take away the pain and to drink plenty of fluid. When we got home I got changed into my pyjamas as my school uniform was soaking wet from sweat, took 2 tablets and I went to bed.
In the afternoon my Mum came to check on me, my temperature had gone up, my neck was stiff, I hurt all over, and I’d started being sick so my Mum called the Dr again, he came round and again said I had flu, and just gave us the same advice he had in the morning.
In the evening I was even worse, the room was spinning, I couldn’t move, I was in agony and had a temperature of 42, so the out of hours Doctor was called. This one was a bit better. She diagnosed a virus, gave me some antibiotics and told my parents I’d be fine in 24-48 hours. That’s the last thing I remember, and I only just remember that. I was told the rest by my parents later.
My Mum came in the next morning, she tried to wake me but couldn’t, when she pulled the bed sheets of she saw I was soaking wet and now had a purple rash on my arms and legs. She immediately called 999. The ambulance was there in minutes. They carried me out, put me on the stretcher and told my Mum to grab some keys and money as they were going straight away. The paramedic put a needle in my arm, gave me some drugs and fluids and I was taken to A&E on blue lights as I was still unconscious. On the way I had my first cardiac arrest.
I woke up 6 weeks later in Paediatric Intensive Care. Though I didn’t know where I was, I was aware that I had a tube in my throat and that someone was just of to my left. I tried to talk but couldn’t. My Mums face appeared over mine, she was crying but smiling and saying hello and telling me not to worry. She then called over to someone. A nurse appeared and said she’d get the Doctor. A couple of minutes later a man in theatre scrubs appeared, he told me that he’d take the tube out of my throat. He detached the tube from the ventilator just leaving the one in my throat, told me to take a deep breath and then breathe out hard, as I did that he pulled the tube out. The nurse held a cup with a straw near my mouth and I drank a little, then she put some tubing round my head with 2 little prongs in my nose, she told me it was oxygen. The Dr was back above my head smiling.
“Welcome back Jessica, I’ll give you some time with your Mum, the nurse is calling your Dad, when he’s here I’ll come back and have a chat with you, ok?”
“Ok.” I said softly, “Thank you.”
My Mum leaned over me, kissed me on the forehead and cuddled me. I tried to cuddle her back but I couldn’t, my arms wouldn’t move. I started to get worried but then told myself it was the drugs Id been on and I’d ask the Dr about it.
“What happened?” I whispered to Mum.
“Wait for your Dad and the Dr.” She replied and then carried on cuddling me.
This really scared me, what had happened to me. I then started to notice my body really didn’t feel right. I could feel the sheet on my stomach and chest, but not on my arms and legs. I tried to move my feet but I couldn’t. Neither could I move my knees in fact I couldn’t feel or move any bit of my legs, it was the same with my arms. I really was starting to panic now. My Dad then walked into the room. I started crying.
“Dad, what’s happened to me, why can’t I move?” I sobbed. He came over and kissed me.
“Later sweetheart,” he whispered.
At this point I became hysterical, shouting as loud as I could, trying to move and crying inconsolably. The Dr came over, I saw him put a syringe into the tubes coming out my neck, I hadn’t noticed those earlier. Before I had a chance to argue I went to sleep, he’d sedated me.
When I woke again it was dark outside, I was on my own. I suddenly remembered earlier, I tried again to move and feel my arms and legs but I couldn’t. I called out, no one came so I called louder, I heard the door open and tried to sit up but I couldn’t. My parents appeared above me, they kissed me and told me to try to stay calm this time and the Dr would be here soon.
The Dr I’d seen earlier came into the room a few minutes later.
“Hello Jessica, I’m Dr Peters, you can call me Alex, ok? Would you like to sit up a bit?”
“Please.” I replied softly.
He checked the sheets would stay up to my neck which I thought was odd, then he pushed a button on a remote control and the head end of my bed down to my waist moved up until I was sitting on my butt, I remember thinking that there was an odd sensation down there but just put it down to having not sat for a while.
“Right Jessica, you’ve had something called Meningococcal Septicaemia ok. Have you heard of Meningitis before’?
I nodded.
“Well you’ve had a strain of that caused by Meningococcal bacteria along with Septicaemia which is the medical term for blood poisoning. And before you ask, we don’t know how you got it, but we have now vaccinated everyone in your school to make sure they don’t get it.” He smiled again. He had a nice smile.
“Meningococcal Septicaemia can affect different people in many different ways and I’m sorry to say, you seem to be one of the worst affected people I’ve dealt with Jess. When you arrived at your local A&E you were in cardiac arrest, fortunately they were able to stabilise you. They then called on our services, we came to your hospital, assessed and treated you as best we could and then brought you back here to Great Ormond Street in London. When we got here we took you straight to theatre where you had another cardiac arrest. If you find your chest is sore that’s because we had to put you on a by-pass machine. Fortunately we were able to revive you and then we performed the life saving surgeries I’ll tell you about in a bit.”
I could feel myself starting to panic again. Surgeries. What surgeries. What had they done to me?
“We then brought you down to the PICU here.” Alex continued. “You had a 3rd cardiac arrest and again we managed to revive you. You were starting to go into multi-organ failure as the infections were working harder than the drugs we were giving you so we put you on ECMO, which stands for Extracorporeal Membrane Oxygenation and dialysis. Basically these take over the functions of your organs allowing them to rest. You were kept on these machines for 11 days by which time your body had recovered enough to look after itself. Then after that we waited, you remained intubated, which was the tube down your throat I took out when you woke up, but other than that we just waited for you to wake up. All in all you were in a coma for 6 weeks and 3 days. Now here’s the hard bit. Unfortunately Jess, because your GP misdiagnosed you and there was such a delay in getting you treatment, by the time we got to you in A&E the infection in your limbs had destroyed them and your arms and legs were poisoning your body. We gave you strong antibiotics in A&E and waited until we got here to GOSH to see if they would work, sadly they didn’t and your heart wasn’t able to cope with the toxins coming from your limbs, this is what caused your 2nd cardiac arrest. Between the surgeons, your parents and myself we took the decision to amputate your limbs to save your life. I’m very sorry Jessica but you are now a quadrilateral or quadruple amputee.”
“What do you mean?” I asked, not sure I’d heard him right.
“They removed your arms and legs Jess,” Dad said softly with tears in his eyes.
“What, all 4?” I asked incredulously.
“Yes, Jess, all 4.” Replied Dad.
Amazingly I wasn’t upset by this, in fact I’m not sure I really felt anything at all.
“Well how much of them are left?” I asked Alex “Nothing I’m afraid Jess, the septicaemia had killed you’re entire limbs. They were all gangrenous and necrotic so we performed a bi-lateral hip disarticulation on your legs which means they were removed at your hips and a bi-lateral shoulder disarticulation which means...”
“You removed them at my shoulders.” I interrupted. “Yes.”
“Ok, when can I go home Alex?” I asked.
My parents and Alex all looked shocked at this. “It’s a bit soon isn’t it honey?” Mum asked.
“No, why is it too soon? They can’t do anything else here for me can they? They can’t attach new arms and legs to me can they? Alex said my body had recovered so why can’t I go home?”
Mum and Dad didn’t know what to say, they both looked at Alex who still looked a bit shocked.
“Erm, well no, you’re right, there’s not much we can do for you here that your local hospital can’t do, but you do need some rehab and monitoring for any other after effects.”
“Like what?” I shot back at him.
“Well. Like seizures, speech problems, learning difficulties, clumsiness and co-ordination problems, weakness, paralysis and spasms of body parts.”
“How can I suffer from clumsiness and co-ordination problems, and what parts of my body can spasm, you cut off my arms and legs!!”
“Ok Jess,” Alex replied slowly. “Once we can get counselling and rehab arranged at your hospital we’ll send you back there for a bit, but I’m not discharging you home, not yet, OK?” He looked at my parents, who nodded, then he walked out, my Dad followed him.
“I just want to be somewhere I know, and see my friends.” I turned my head to my Mum. “I know things can never be normal again but I want to get back to as normal as possible, you know.”
“I know sweetheart.” She cuddled me.
“Mum, would you take this sheet of me I want to see my body?”
“I think it’s a bit early for that really.”
“I don’t, it’s been over 6 weeks since they amputated so they’re not going to be horrible and bloody are they? Have you seen them yet?”
“No.” Replied Mum. “Are you sure you really want to Jess?”
“Yes, very sure.” I looked her in the eyes.
“OK.”
Mum took the top of the sheet, and pulled it off me being careful not to pull the central line coming out of my neck and PEG feed coming out my tummy. When the sheet was completely off she looked at me. She was trying to hide the shock in her face but she didn’t do very well. I looked down and realised I was completely naked. I looked at my shoulders. There was just a small pad on each side where my arms had been. The top of my shoulders were now a lot shorter and rounded off at about the same angle as my shoulders would have but were level with my chest. Where my legs were attached was covered in larger pads, my hips just seemed to continue round then levelled of at the same level as the lips of my vagina so if I sat straight up I would sit on my vagina lips. In between my hips a catheter came out. I asked Mum to get me a mirror. She went of to the nurse’s station while I carried on looking at my new, shortened body. Mum came back after about 5 minutes with a full length mirror which she put at the end of the bed. I sat and stared at myself, my hair was a mess, it was all greasy and needed a good brush, I guess I’ll have to get Mum to do that for me now. I continued staring. I looked tiny. I was just a torso with a head. It’s amazing how much of your size is in your limbs. I then got Mum to move the mirror to my side and take the pad off my shoulder. She did this and I turned my head and stared again. The scar where my arm used to be was a very neat, red, kind of X. Each line was only about 2-3 cms. I was amazed at how tiny the area where your arms attach was. I then realised my boobs looked huge from the side now, I smiled. Mum stuck the pad back on. Then it started, what I think my parents had been waiting for since Dr Peters told me, the crying came. I couldn’t stop. It was like floodgates had opened. Mum put her arms round me, picked me up and put me on her lap. Dad came in, sat on the bed and cuddled us both, for a second I felt odd being naked around my Dad but that soon passed as I carried on crying. Both my parents then started. I felt so tiny and helpless as we sat there, I couldn’t even wipe the tears from my eyes.
We sat there for about an hour cuddling and crying. Once I’d stopped Dad wiped my tears with a tissue, kissed me again and told me he loved me no matter what.
“I know what will make you feel a bit better.” Mum suddenly said. She then stood up and passed me to my Dad.
She came back in carrying a bowl of hot water, a flannel and some soap.
“You can’t have a shower or a bath just yet but I thought a good wash would help.” She then smiled.
Mum laid me on my bed and wiped me all over with the warm flannel, then she put soap all over me, laying there wet while she rinsed of the flannel I could feel a light breeze on me and I got goosebumps all over, she then washed all the soap of me, I felt odd when she washed between my hips though. She then rolled me so I laid on my front, not having arms to support me meant my weight (what there was of it) was all on my boobs, I said “Ow” and told her, she apologised and rearranged my boobs for me. That felt very odd but I guess I’ll have to get used to it. She then washed my back and bum. Afterwards she put a towel over my back, rolled me over and wrapped me up in it. Then she picked me up and carried me like a baby over to the sink. She ran the water until it was warm, held me over the sink and my Dad filled a jug with the water and poured it over my hair, he repeated this a few times until it was all wet. He then got some shampoo and gave my hair a good scrub, then rinsed all the shampoo out with the jug, checking the temperature each time. Once it was all washed out he got the conditioner out my Mum’s bag and put some on my hair, then rinsed that out. After that he got another clean towel and dried my hair. Mum then carried me over to the chair and sat with me on her lap. Dad left the room again and Mum and I sat in silence for ages.
Suddenly Mum broke the silence.
“I am so sorry Jessica.”
“What for?”
“For not believing you when you said you were ill, for not pushing it when the Dr said you just had flu, for not checking on you in the night, if I’d found you like that earlier maybe you would still have ... maybe this wouldn’t have happened to you.”
I could see the tears in her eyes again.
“Don’t be sorry Mum.” I told her. “This is not your fault, you couldn’t have done anything, I don’t blame you, it’s that fucking rubbish GP’s fault.”
“Jessica, don’t swear.”
“Sorry, but it’s true, we should complain about him, it won’t help me but I don’t want this to happen to anyone else Mum.”
“Ok, we’ll sort that out later.”
A nurse then came in and changed the sheets of my bed then checked all my observations. After she’d done Mum put me into bed then kissed me good night. I fell asleep in seconds.
I woke up the next morning, it was a beautiful sunny day, Dad was there but Mum wasn’t. He heard me stirring.
“Morning beautiful, it’s a lovely day out, how do you feel?”
“Erm, fine, I guess. Could you open the curtains please? Where’s Mum?”
As he opened the curtains I could see the sun coming through, I had to squint against it.
“I sent her back to the hotel, she was exhausted. Is that too bright?”
“No, it’s lovely.”
“Morning.” A big West Indian nurse called Alice chirped as she walked in the room. “Good news, Dr Peters says we can stop using the PEG feed and you can start eating again, what do you fancy?”
“Errr, just cereal I think.” I replied.
“Ok, we’ve got most of them, any particular one?”
“Not bothered.”
“Ok, I’ll be back, would you like anything Mr Bindon?”
“No thanks, I’m fine with my coffee.” Dad replied nodding at the steaming mug on a table.
“If you’re up to it I thought I’d bring your brother and sister over later,
they’re dying too see you.”
“Yeah, please do, I’d love too see them.”
“Good, I’ll get your Nana to bring them down then.
Alice came back in with some Weetabix and orange juice, she put them on the table and asked Dad if he wanted her to feed me, he told her we were ok and he’d do it. He then came over, used the remote to put my bed up and sit me up. He then sat in the chair next to the bed, grabbed the spoon, put some Weetabix from the bowl on it and started to feed me.
“It’s been a long time since I did this.”
We both smiled at each other.
“Thanks Dad.” I whispered.
He carried on feeding me, I watched his face while he did, he hadn’t shaved for a while, his eyes were red and blood shot from where he’d been crying and not sleeping. He looked a lot older than I remembered.
“I’ll be alright Dad.” I said softly.
“I know you will be sweety, I know.” And he stroked my hair back.
Once he’d finished feeding me, Mum and Dr Peters walked.
“Morning.” Mum said as she kissed Dad then me. “Alex has got some good news.”
“Morning.” Said Alex. “Yes, I’ve got the results of the CT scan and EEG you had while you were in the coma and they’ve come back normal, as far as the neurologist can tell there should be no long term effects.” He said, then suddenly embarrassed he added, “Apart from the obvious that we already know about. Sorry.”
“Also.” He went on. “We no longer need the PEG feed and central line so we’ll get them taken out. If you want to I’ll have your catheter removed aswell. And, if you’re up to it I’ll let your Mum and Dad take you outside, how’s all that sound?”
“Great, thanks.” I replied.
About an hour later another Dr in scrubs came in with a nurse, he explained he was going to take the central line and PEG feed out. He asked my parents to leave, laid me back, pulled the sheet down to my waist and put a sterile drape over my head, chest and stomach. It took him about 10-15 minutes to do the procedure. Afterwards he covered me up with the sheet and sat me up again. As he left I thanked him and my parents came back in with Alice the nurse.
“Do you want that catheter out now?” she asked.
“Please.”
She emptied the catheter bag, then lifted the sheet up to my waist. I could feel her doing something around my bits, it made me feel all tingly. Then she was done.
“There you go Miss Bindon, you should feel more comfortable now.”
“Thank you Alice.”
“That’s alright darling, make sure you shout if you need to go ok?”
Mum then pulled the sheet back, if I had had arms I would have covered myself but as I couldn’t I just laid there for anyone to see. Out of her bag she got a pair of knickers, a bra, a pair of shorts and my favourite Faithless t-shirt. She then dressed me in them, put my hair up in a pony tail and then brushed my teeth. I noticed that the t-shirt sleeves now hung of my shoulders despite the top being small and tight fitting and the shorts just flopped were my lap used to be even though they would have been very short shorts. Then Dad came in with a wheelchair, quite a cool looking one in my favourite colour, purple.
“We bought this for you, hope you like the colour.”
“It’s cool Dad, thanks.”
He then came over, picked me up and put me in it, put a belt around my waist and then put a blanket over me. He stood up walked around the chair and pushed me out as Mum followed.
“Have fun and don’t be too long.” Alice called as we walked past the nurse’s station.
As we walked through the hospital I noticed that I actually was sitting on the lips of my vagina. Every time we hit a bump I got a feeling through my body I’d only experienced once before, just before I was ill. We’d had a biology lesson at school and that night in the bath I decided I want to feel what my vagina was like. As I was stroking and feeling I discovered I liked certain areas being stroked more than others so I concentrated on these areas and masturbated myself to my first and very powerful orgasm. As I was being pushed I was getting those feelings again. We walked out the hospital into the outdoors, I took some deep breaths and tried to ignore the feelings but it got harder. I found the fresh air felt wonderful in my lungs and on my face and neck but also made matters worse. As we walked we found one of the many squares around that area of London, I think it was either Tavistock or Russell. Dad wheeled me over to a bench where he and Mum sat. I finally managed to control myself though I was on the brink of coming. I even had to ask Dad to take the blanket of me as I was so hot I was sweating. After he did I noticed a lot of the guys and some women were staring at me, I started to get upset but stopped myself and thought to hell with them. Dad noticed the stares too.
“Do you want to go back, or have the blanket on?” He asked.
“No.” I replied. “I’ve got to get used to people looking might as well start now.”
“Ok.” He smiled.
The 3 of us just watched as all the office workers came to eat lunch and meet friends. After a while Mum’s phone rang. She went off and chatted on it. When she came back she said it was Nana and they had just got of the train at St Pancras so we’d better head back. Before we left I asked Dad to adjust my position, so I was laying back slightly, I told him that I my hips ached but really it meant I wasn’t sitting directly on my lips. This time Mum wheeled me back. As we walked along we went past a group of kids about 15 or 16 years old. They all stared as we passed, then I heard them saying I was a freak, my Dad was going to go back to them but Mum stopped him.
As we walked back into the ward Alice saw us.
“How was the walk?”
“Alright apart from a few arseholes at the end.” I replied “Don’t you worry about them,” she said. “You’re still beautiful, and I bet you’re more intelligent and will come to more than they ever will. By the way, you got guests.”
“Thank you Alice. Do you know when Alex Peters will be around, I want to ask him something.”
“After clinic, about 4, is that ok or do you need me to page him?”
“No, that’s fine. Thanks.” Mum wheeled me into my room. Nana was there with my big brother Andrew and my little sister Olivia. Andrew and Nana came straight over to me and gave me a big kiss and cuddle, but Olivia was a little scared until Dad took her hand and brought her over to me and picked her up, then she put her arms round me and gave me a big cuddle followed by a sloppy kiss. Dad put me back to bed then Nana and Olivia fed me my lunch and then we sat and chatted for ages until I fell asleep.
When I woke it was dark outside and my family had gone. I could hear Alex Peters” voice and it was getting louder. He walked into my room.
“Evening Jess, sorry I didn’t come up earlier clinic went on late then I had to go out on a retrieval. I have some good news but first Alice told me you wanted to see me, how can I help?” He asked as he sat the bed up.
“Erm, yes. 3 questions really, first I noticed I seem to be getting very hot and sweating a lot, in fact I’m sweating now. I noticed it was bad when I was laying here naked with just the sheets over me. Now that I’m dressed and have been doing things it’s dreadful.”
“Well Jess.” Alex started. “It’s all to do with body surface area. You see being a quadruple amputee you have a much smaller BSA than an able bodied person, or even a single or double amputee over which to lose heat, so your body sweats more. Unfortunately there’s very little we can do about it. Sorry. What was your next question?”
“Err, well, it’s a bit embarrassing really.” I could feel myself blushing and getting hotter.
“Don’t worry, Jess, I’ve heard it all before, just tell me in your own time, ok?” He smiled “Well, I noticed that when I got taken out in my wheelchair earlier.” I got redder, “I was sitting in such a way that meant ... well I mean, erm, having no legs means I’m sitting on bits I’ve never sat on before and, well, err every time we hit a bump, I errr.” My voice trailed off, “ I found I ... Enjoyed it. It made me feel nice, down there.” I nodded downward. “It kinda turned me on, kind of.” I was so embarrassed.
“Ok, that’s not normal but not unheard of after an amputation like yours, if it’s ok with you and only if you want me to, I’ll get a nurse and I’ll examine you to rule out any damage down there from the either catheter or surgery and make sure you’re not going to cause any further damage either, ok. I’ll call your mum too or do you...
“Hell no.” I interrupted. “Please don’t call my Mum, I’d die if she found out.”
“Ok Jess, I won’t call her. Do you want me to examine you?”
“Please.” I replied still red.
Alex went out and came back with a nurse and some equipment. He explained what he was going to do. Then he pulled the sheet up to my waist. Pulled my shorts and knickers off which I noticed came of very easy. I could feel as he slid the instruments into me, it made me wince and get goosebumps. Once he was done he put the instruments on the tray, got a towel and wiped me and started to put my knickers back on me.
“Please leave them off.” I asked, I get too hot with them on, could you take my top off too please?”
“Yes, Ok, Jess.” He turned to the nurse, “Would you mind.” He then slid the sheet over me. The nurse came over, pulled the sheet down and took my top and bra off.
“Is that better?” She asked.
“Much better, thank you.” I replied.
“Well.” Said Alex, I can’t see anything wrong, It’s something you’ll just have to put up with I’m afraid, like the sweating. Though you’ll probably find that in time you’ll get less sensitive to it and the problem will go, ok? What was the 3rd thing?”
“This may sound stupid, and I know I’m young and shouldn’t be thinking of things like this but will I be able to have sex, not that anyone probably would want to, but you know, just in case?”
“Of course you can.” Alex said as he sat on the edge of the bed. “There is absolutely no reason why you can’t have a full sex life, and having had meningococcal septicaemia or being a quadruple amputee should not affect your ability to conceive. I know of a number of survivors and quad amputees who have gone on to have families, ok. And besides, any guy would be lucky to have you.” He smiled.
“Ok, but what about giving birth, “cos when you watch films and telly the lady’s always got her knees up or ankles on a weird contraption with her legs wide open and I can’t do that.”
“Don’t worry Jess, when the surgeons removed your legs they moved your hips and buttocks into a kind of permanent sitting position, primarily so that sitting straight shouldn’t be a problem but another advantage is that it opens the vagina and pelvis up so you should be able to deliver a baby naturally. Ok. Anything else?”
I shook my head, then as Alex got up to leave,
“What was your good news?” I asked.
“Oh yes.” He stopped and turned. “You’ll be leaving us tomorrow. I’ve arranged everything at your hospital, transport’s booked for 11am. I’ll be here to give you all your aftercare and say goodbye ok?”
“Yes, thanks Alex.”
“Good night Jessica.” Alex walked out of the room and I fell asleep.
I was awoken the next morning by the sound of my Mum packing. “Morning.” I said sleepily.
“Morning honey, I’ve got good news, we’re going back home. Dad’s already gone and taken your chair and our stuff, he’ll meet us at the hospital”
“I know,” I replied, “Alex told me last night, is there any breakfast, I’m starving?”
“Yes, over here.” Mum walked over to the table, picked up a bowl, sat in the chair next to the bed and sat my bed up. As she did the sheet dropped to my waist and she could see I was naked.
“Oh.” She said. “You were dressed last night when I left.”
“I know, “ I replied, “ I asked the nurse to undress me in the night as I was uncomfortable and really hot, apparently people with no limbs sweat more as we’ve got less body surface area or something.”
“That’s right,” Alex Peters appeared at the door, “How’s my favourite patient doing this morning?”
“I’m fine thanks,” I replied, it didn’t bother me that I was sitting there with nothing covering my top and he could see my boobs. Mum seemed to forget too and carried on feeding me so I didn’t say anything.
“Right,” continued Alex. “Here’s all your wound care information, and information on how to sit and lay and things ok?” He put a load of papers on my suitcase. “Also here are your follow up appointments, I want to see you a few times here in clinic before I discharge you completely to the care of your local hospital ok?”
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I kept sneaking glances at her as she sat at her little table, scowling at the menu. I couldn’t help it—she was stunning. She was also darker than anyone I had ever seen in my life.When I checked in, Mrs. James said there was only one other guest. That wasn’t a surprise for a country inn in October, almost an hour from the nearest town. I only picked the place because it was near the gypsum plant I had to inspect that week.“And what would you like for dinner, dear?” Mrs. James hovered over me....
InterracialI opened the door to her cell and let myself in, closing the privacy curtain behind me. She was sitting on the single bed against the wall. With the exception of the handcuffs on her wrists in front of her, she was completely nude. I always prefer the girl to be nude and handcuffed on our first meeting. It makes her feel vulnerable and completely available. It makes her very afraid and very easy to connect with on a very deep basis. I think they feel that if they connect with me, I will have...
Two more of my men were to be discharged from the hospital today; that made me feel a little better. I had a 0800 meeting with Andy and Ed; Andy wanted to start the process of replacing the men on Monday to get the OPS and Rapid Response teams to full strength. He was right in his argument that we may need them in a hurry. I agreed with Andy’s assessment and the quest would begin with HR reviewing all the applications already on file. The funerals were on Friday; HR was checking and double...
Monday, April 29, 2013 My final day of student-teaching with John Waters was bittersweet. I'd gotten close to John over the last four months of working together. I told John about my new job as a graduate assistant at Temple. He envied my opportunity. He thought he would have enjoyed an opportunity like that if he had the chance after he graduated from West Chester way back when. I kept a close eye on the clock during the lecture. I had one more thing to say to the class and didn't want...
Last part of book lover. I’ve tried to do it justice and bring it to a satisfying conclusion. Hope it gives you pleasure, that’s what this is all about after all. Feel free to comment. ***** Faye recovered quickly from the surprise of being caught fucking her best friend by her future husband. Besides his expression wasn’t exactly one of disapproval. This could get very interesting and she could use it to her advantage. Jon had just watched the best porn he’d ever seen, that his fiancée and...
Hi guys and gals i m aaryan from a small city gorakhpur.. Main dikhne mein average hoo fair complexion 5.10 ht.. Waise main sex ka deewana hoo muth marta rehta hoon stories padh kar aur mujhe bahut maja aata hai… So now coming to story mere bhaiya ka nayi nayi shaadi hui abhi do mahine hue bhaiya ne love cum arrange maariage kia… Bhaiya bhabhi ek dusere se bahut pyaar karte hain lekin dhire dhire bhaiya bhabhi se door hone lage kyunki woh bahar reh kar job karte the manager ki post par aur woh...
The story is inspired by something I experienced myself. ?Working night hours at a classy hotel, I found a pair of sexy red panties hanging on door 146. They smelled wonderful, that mixed smell of feminine perfume and musk. They where still warm when I smelled them, and, fuelled by the mystique, I looked into the matter. ?A classy business woman had been living in that room for a long time. ?I saw her several times after this and even served wine to her as room service once. She had another...
When Alice and Helen had moved into Stanley's house his twin sons Bill and Bob were 17 years old. They didn't care much. They thought that Helen was hot and would have loved to fuck her hard, but she was their father's woman and so they only dreamed of doing so. The 12-year old Alice was gawky and as far as they were concerned just a trailer-trash brat. She was not of sexual interest to them. But in the time it took Stanley to enslave Helen (See HELEN IS ENSLAVED), Alice blossomed. Within...
Donna was a very nice girl even though she was my niece. My brother was her father. Donna took after her mother with a pear shape body. She was kind of small up top and kind of big down below. Donna was not a small girl as she grew up and at sixteen she was about fully-grown. She was five feet six inches tall and weighted about one hundred and eighty-five pounds. It was all in her ass, hips, and thighs. Like I said Donna was a very nice girl. One day she came to my house and cried her...
OK ... back to Debbie's perspective, again... It was an old building, but it had been looked after with some care. In fact, as hospitals go, it had a sort of reassuring solidity, Edwardian brickwork providing a sombre background to the constant bustle of staff and patients, and the technology and infrastructure more recently bolted on. And there was a lot of technology around ... a ventilator, portable ultrasound, more beeping machines that I could not begin to identify. Even as I...
As part of the signal system I had to assign pennant numbers to all the ships. It was either that or spell out “Pirate’s Gift” every time I wanted that ship to do something. Pennant numbers were easier. Shark would be number one. I probably wouldn’t be sending any messages about my own ship, but what if I moved to another ship? What if King Tom wanted Shark somewhere and sent a signal? Shark needed a pennant number, too. I gave Wrong Place, Thunder, and Sword numbers two, three, and four,...
Our romantic weekend didn’t start so well for my wife and I. On the Friday night after checking in to the hotel I had booked, she seemed pretty pissed off that the hotel wasn’t as fancy as I had led her to believe. ‘Boutique’ is what it had said in the info. ‘Grotty’ is how she described it, ‘Fucking shithole!’ she added. We went for a meal and spent the evening bickering while deciding that we would try to find another hotel for the Saturday night. Waking up after a sexless night’s sleep, I...
"Oh my God, my head hurts." I tried to open my eyes but they wouldn't cooperate. "Where am I?" "You're in my bed, big boy." "Who are you, and how did I get here?" I finally got my eyes open to see an attractive woman, perhaps 40 dressed in a white blouse and white shorts standing a few feet away from the bed. She was slim, trim and looked fresh as a Daisy. "I'm Harriet but everybody calls me Harry. I'm Paul's aunt, and I brought you here. You were to drunk to drive, so they...
In a jungle far away in time and distance was a group of people who lived a simple life. They planted seeds by the moon and they planted seed in their women also by the moon. The priests had long ago determined the best time for c***dren to emerge from their mothers was in the fifth moon. During the seventh moon, fertility grass was harvested, one stalk in the number of fingers on two hands leaving other nine stalks to fertilize the grass that helped sustain them. This grass had fine...
### DN-328 ###Wife Gone WildBy Marvin CoxFOREWORD"The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation." So wrote American poet and essayist Henry David Thoreau in the Nineteenth Century. This statement appears to be just as true today as it was then. Perhaps it is even more valid today, considering the pressures and frequent monotony of modern society.The majority of today's men and women live in an overcrowded, competitive, noisy world. Most are put into slots and walk on a treadmill-going to...
I was 23 when it happenedI had known this friend for 7 years and she was gorgeous, we dated for like a week in college but nothing ever came of it, coz neither of us had been in a long term relationship before, anyhow, a few weeks ago i invited her over to hang out as we often did, but today was going to be different, i hadnt planned anything it just happened:when she came over she looked amazing as ususal, she was a bout 5ft 8, brunett shoulder lenght hair, with size 40DD tits, had a medium...
It was just after six on Friday evening and Linda was still at work trying to finish off an urgent report, which had to be mailed out before she was able to leave for the day. Her office was in a high rise building on the 27 th floor and the view from her office window out over the city was spectacular, especially the sunrises and sunsets. Linda never did mind having to work late as it meant spending “alone” time with Marc, her boss, who she had fantasied over ever since starting her position...
What time is it? Damn it, its barely seven o'clock; Jeez, I slept like a baby. Where's Melissa? Oh, shit, I forgot, she just went to Las Vegas with her grandmother, fucking everyone there with a cock. Probably everyone with a pussy, too. I hope she's leaving something over for Grandma. I wonder if they've ever done a threesome; maybe some day I'll do one with them. That'd be really hot. Oh shit, would that be hot. I can't believe my fucking slut-wife has me thinking in curse words....
My name is Brian and I'm 18 years old and a senior in High School. I'm a pretty decent looking guy. I have played sports all my life and am currently on the football team. I am about 6' 2” and weigh 220lbs. There is one thing odd about my anatomy, but we will get to that in a minute. I have never had any trouble getting girls, just keeping them. You see the problem I have is my cock. It's thick, about 2” across and long, at least 10”. There is one thing about it though that makes chicks...
Straight SexI'm looking for something I lost I don't know what it is But it looks like a loose green dress floating on a summer meadow of wildflowers It smells like earth And the perfume of those flowers It moves like a shadow caught in the corner of my sight It sounds like the fall of a wholesome rain I'm looking for something I lost I don't know when I lost it I was very little I think I can almost remember the taste of it Rich and sweet but soothing on my tongue I almost remember its...
When we were out of sight of the church I pulled Mum's skirt up and placed my hand on her pussy. She made no protest, just spread her thighs and thrust her groin forward. "My, you are horny this morning, aren't you? You're pussy's decidedly moist and I just bet you want to stop on the way home. Let's go to that lay-by that we visited last week and see what happens." She never answered, just drove down the side road and turned into the lay-by. When she had parked behind our bushes she...
“I see Mariah, Amelia, Mindy, Lisa and Cheri all waiting for me over there. Let me out here Beth, and I’ll see you tomorrow morning ... today was a blast and I really enjoyed spending it with you.” “I really enjoyed being with you too, Bobby Joe. I’ll get Colin to come to the library, and meet you. Bye Sweetie,” Beth said, as he gathered up his bags, threw them over his shoulders, and walked over to where the girls were. They were dancing, grinning, and laughing, as he walked toward...
The act of cumming inside Destiny had taken its toll on Chris's body. As the high from cumming in her ass faded, the feeling of tiredness sweep over him. Chris was laying down next to her as she reached over to hand him a washcloth. Chris took it and just placed it over his limp member. Chris wanted to clean up and do other things, but the sex had robbed him of all energy. As Destiny got up to head to the bathroom, Chris had a hard time keeping his eyes open. The sensation of cumming in her...
It had been three weeks since she had received her wake up call and a lot had happened in that time. Frank and Sarah had followed through on their plan and Sarah and the boys had moved out. That night Frank had left Sarah and the two boys at the motel and had come to the house and explained to Rick what he was doing. Rick had not taken it well. He seemed to feel that his father was being disrespectful to the memory of his mother. She found that curious because it had only been a couple of...
The Venus Academy for Girls is, unfortunately, neither as divine nor as stellar as its name implies. Although once unquestionably the best girl's finishing school in the state for the 18+ woman, it's fallen far from grace. Today, you can see girls doing cocaine in the washrooms, or wearing skirts that end halfway on their calves. Others party late into the night, then skip class. Grades have been dropping. The best teachers have all quit. In fact, the only thing stopping the state's education...
Teen"We're your bodyguards. I'm Natalie." "And I'm Nicole," said Natalie's twin sister. Lucy looked from one to the other. Despite the fact that Nicole had black hair and Natalie had blond, their hair was cut in the exact same style. It was parted along the top of their head and hung down to their shoulders without curls. They both had simple bangs that came down to just above their eyebrows. Lucy asked, "Which of you dyes your hair?" Natalie removed her wig, exposing her short brown...
I have a problem. Like almost every girl, I love to shop. I mainly shop for shoes, skirts, bags, especially hot lingerie, but I won’t bore you with the details. I’m 20 years of age and live alone in a rented flat. I’m a student and I work part time as a waitress. At work I have to wear a short black skirt, and a white shirt, which with my 34DD boobs, they really fill up the shirt making my bra noticeable when wearing one. I have long brown hair, green eyes and full rosy lips with pale, milky,...
My virtual love making with beautiful Jodi TaylorThere were times, and I am sure it was my imagination, that she enjoyed teasing me by having sex while I was in the house.I am only human and have to admit that looking at Jodi's hot body turned me on like any red blooded canadian boy, but I never forgot that she was a porn star.So, this is where my story starts. Jodi Taylor the woman of my dreams. She is sexy, smart, loves sex, and has the most beautiful long white brown hair you have ever...
It was the summer after my freshmen year of college. In between soaking up the sun and taking trips in the city, I stayed in contact with both Alana and James. Unfortunately though, I hadn't gotten to see either of them again. Of course we flirted and sent naughty pics through texts, but I hadn't felt James's big cock filling up my pussy or Alana's tongue teasing my clit since the last time we met up. That didn't stop me from fantasizing about it though. Many a time I found myself waking up hot...
SeductionMom Lauren with her Son & Her daughterBy Dina PetroLauren is a gorgeous Mother of 40, who happens to be a sexy, great looking, real MILF, she had always taken good care of her looks and the sexy, erotic way she dresses makes her turn necks on the street. Lauren had a late teen age Son, Mark who was an athlete boy, tall and very handsome, and Nancy, her teen age daughter, who was so hot and sexy as well, taking it after her mother.Nancy and Mark were alone at home, their mother was out,...
Two teen friends, Samantha Reigns and Hazel Moore, want to go on a fun road trip together. Unfortunately, Samantha’s stepmom, Natasha Nice, is too afraid for their safety and doesn’t give Samantha permission to go, which means BOTH of the friends are stuck. After Natasha leaves, the teens are bummed. However, it doesn’t take long for them to hatch a mischievous plan to win Natasha over… and they soon eagerly make their way to Natasha’s room. Once inside, they get...
xmoviesforyouAdam stood there on the Manhattan Beach pier enjoying the unseasonably warm springtime day. He was soaking up the sun and taking a break while trying to cool off from his intense midday bike ride. He pulled off his bike jersey and the blazing sun felt good on his bare skin. The water looked tempting but instead, he was enjoying watching four young women clad in skimpy bikinis frolicking nearby playing volleyball.He normally would be wearing his bike shorts that had a built-in liner, but they...
CheatingBased on the Swords books by Fred Saberhagen mixed in with the Marvel comic book universe (616). The Gods forged the 12 swords to use in their games, planning to distribute them amongst the foolish humans and watch them lie, steal, and murder their way to power with them. The problem was their toys worked too well and even the Gods were vulnerable to them. Each sword, once drawn, has its own power and vulnerability. Coinspinner, the Sword of Chance has the power to make impossibly lucky things...
Mind ControlLindsey is a very attractive, bubbly, and leggy blonde teenage girl. She’s got quite the personality to match. Lindsey is a phlebotomist, and like all of our lovely candidates, she’s sick of it. So she’s gonna see if she can suck and fuck her way into success. She’s a super smiley girl, she’s got a lotta spunk, and it’s a grand time getting to know her. We find out some great stuff about her fucking these two dudes like during class when she was in high school. She really might be cut out for...
xmoviesforyouI have written before about one of my fantasies of helping a young man lose his virginity. My neighbor Timmy has only fueled this fantasy by spying on me while I tan. When I would see him watching me I would put on a little show for him by flashing him and seductively rubbing my pussy. My husband Sam was always the beneficiary my little fantasy as it would make me very horny and very wet. I would pretend Sam was Timmy putting his cock into his first pussy. Sam enjoyed playing the part of the...
First TimeDirty blonde Betty Foxxx’s striptease reveals big globes, thick thighs and ample ass. The married MILF tells neighbor Mark Wood that she’s a swinger newly arrived from Spain. He sucks her huge, gumdrop nipples and labors to tug her skirt down over her thick posterior. Excited Betty gives him a blowjob. She kneels for a doggie-style fuck as Mark spanks her, thumbs her butthole and drills her into the rug. He lubes her ass for an anal reaming; Betty slaps her boobs and pinches her...
xmoviesforyouNancy woke a bit later than usual. She had read a lot more of her mother’s diary. It turned out that Nancy’s mom had some competition for her dad. It was Lilian’s mom but she suddenly went for Lilian’s dad when he moved into the city. That left her mother with her father. It was obvious from her diary that she wasn’t going to let him change his mind about her as a real woman. Soon her mother’s notes related how her father was making love to her as often as they could. Yes, she became...
I had seen Adrian many times before. It wasn’t like you could miss her. We lived in the same apartment complex and her husband was stationed at the same base with me, even though we weren’t in the same unit. She had a little girl about three years old and the two of them were frequent visitors to both the apartment pool and the beach across the street. Even though she didn’t flaunt it and actually appeared very shy, every swimsuit she wore accented her beauty. She had marvelous breast that...
It’s a crazy hot day, and your wife Romi Rain needs to cool down after just getting home from a day of running around. She chills out by plucking some ice from your drink as you’re maxin’ and relaxin’ and swirls it around her ridiculous cleavage after removing her top. Thing is, Romi starts heating up again just by giving herself a rubdown with some cold, wet ice. Her nipples on her big tits get hard, and so does your cock as you watch. Soon enough, she’s pulling your big dick out of your pants...
xmoviesforyouLooking down and seeing the grinning face of Mr. McMasters, with residue of cum smeared on his lips, may have been the biggest shock of my life. How and where he came from I do not know. While June was kissing me, he had begun sucking my cock and caused me to have an enormous orgasm filling his mouth with cum. My mind was in a whirl when I heard someone say, “Good show, now eat my pussy.” The voice was not June and it was not a voice I recognized. A hairy pussy descended down over my face...
My First Blowjob I am a 34 year old gay crossdresser and have sucked a countless amount of cocks. There are so many stories I could tell about the powerful orgasms I gave these men and how they screamed my name on the top of their lungs as they pumped their loads in my mouth and all over my face. This particular story is about the very first cock I ever slid through my lips and into my mouth. This is the story of how I became the sissy cocksucker that I am today. Before I get into...
Sorkana's Rise, Training and Meeting Allies By: Malissa Madison Sorkana was looking over the latest supplies delivered from the Weyrs of Pern. Olinda was ticking everything off adding it to the list of stores as she directed where it was to go, calculated how much the items were worth so they could make proper restitution to those who had donated them. "What's this?" she asked of several crates sitting to the side. "Those were marked for R'nold,"...
The Trip to Dallas She had been extensively modified over the past couple of years, specificallyfor sex. Her appearance had been enhanced and altered for the specific purposeof stimulating men to respond instantly to her: she had essentially been redesignedto make all men want to fuck her. She had also been changed in ways that madeher different to fuck. The entire effect was quite irresistible to heterosexualmen, and made many a gay man reconsider. And she had no use for women: theyhad no...
The Bra Shop had been open for just under a year now and things were going well, really well in fact. Business was great and I spending more and more time helping Cathy out. I just loved being in the shop watching all the big breasted ladies walk in and check out all the beautiful bras we have.During the first year we had lots of fun as well. We hired some amazingly beautiful and hugely endowed girls to work in our store and lucky old me got to fuck them all. Perhaps the best two were Marissa...
She couldn’t sleep, her mind was full of images of him: at the movie theater, walking down the street, in the diner, any where she had seen him around town. His thick, black wavy hair, tucked under a ball cap, or watching him run his hands through it. His smile - not just his perfect teeth, but the way his lips curled up in the corners, almost in slow motion, unknowingly teasing her, and his bright blue eyes narrowing his gaze at her, almost twinkling.Jane rolled over onto her back, frustrated...
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xmoviesforyouI would like to say that I got a lot of sleep, but I tossed and turned for most of the night. Sure, most men would love to be the sex toy for two women, especially two attractive women, but it was a reality for me. Most of my thoughts dwelled on Rachelle; she was the one that I thought about most. Her sexy accent, as well as her huge boobs, filled most of my days since meeting her.Then there was Monica, who wasn’t as prominent in the chest department but what she did have was a massive ass...
Office SexMargaret sat quietly thinking over the fantastic tale she'd just heard. I could see in her expression that she didn't just buy it out of hand but she wasn't blowing it off either. My resemblance to the Brent she knew was just too close. Now was the time to hit her with irrefutable evidence. Hex had been sitting in the grass and watching us carefully from about twenty yards away. I looked at her and nodded. She stood and came toward us. "Margaret," I said, "I'd like you to meet...
Nylon cocoon Since an early age Jason had a mild facination with ladies hosiery. Unlike anything else the material was semi transparent and clingy. It made the wearers legs look different, softer, smoother, sleek and almost any colour you would want as well as masking blemishes. As he grew up he dated a few girls, girls that would regularly wear his favourite items (that is afterall partly why he dated them). Jason was now 26 and still single. He tended not to go out to...
By : Preetikul Cheer! Again this is Preeti Kulkarni from Aurangabad banging a story for you and this time it’s my first fuck of life thru my Mom’s Boss Son, Ronit returned from UK. studies. My Mom agreed to Khot uncle and granted his Son to fuck me as he dreamed to fuck me since he met. The day was fixed by 3 of them but wasn’t informed to me. But later told by my Mom that he was eager to fuck me as he fantasized that I would have to piss infront of him and after 10 mins he will take the aroma...
It’s December, and I have started working at a law firm. I file, type, and transcribe, and after my first few days on this job, when I showed up on time- not too hard to do considering I lived only a few blocks from the building- and did my job competently and professionally (their words), I was welcomed with open arms. You see, I replaced someone who set new standards for incompetence and tardiness, so when I show up right at 8 am, I am greeted by happy faces, even weeks after I started. ...
I was looking forward to the fun I could have in my own place. I spent some time on the male chat line looking for someone to play with. he to liked to dress but like me was not at all passable . when he showed up at my place he hade on black thigh highs open toe heels and a corset ,he was taller then me and of average build . it was the bulge in his panties i was interested in. I was dressed in pink thigh highs red strappy heels pink panties and a light purple chemise with a pink bra under...