A Well Lived Life Book 4 BethanyChapter 45 Dumb Boy Part II
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January 1981, Milford, Ohio
On Sunday evening, after an uneventful but normal day, I called Jennifer. I knew I had to tell her about Kara.
“Jennifer, do you remember me mentioning Kara?”
“Sure. She’s the one from the ‘Holy Rollers’ table you were angling to deflower.”
“That’s the one. I did that, but it ended far differently than I expected,” I said, my voice dropping in resignation.
“How bad is this?” she replied with concern.
“Oh, not that way! That is, if you mean am I messed up, out of control or have a hysterical girl who is freaked out about what happened.”
“Then what happened?”
“I fell in love with her. We’re dating.”
“Dating? As in boyfriend and girlfriend? Exclusively?” Jennifer said, sounding a bit worried.
“Yes. I’m not having sex with anyone else and I don’t want to.”
“Wow! Maybe Bethany was right about you. I’m impressed. What about Stephanie?”
“That’s still going to happen. Nothing is going to stop that.”
“And Kara is OK with that?” Jennifer asked.
“She doesn’t know, and I’m not going to tell her.”
Jennifer laughed.
“What’s so funny?”
“Kara’s no threat. I had started to get worried about nothing. If you can’t tell her about Stephanie, there’s no future for the two of you. Enjoy the sex, if she’s any good,” Jennifer giggled.
“She’s a quick learner, and the sex is great. She might be a bit naïve, but she’s enthusiastic,” I answered, relieved that she was taking it well. “I seem to remember a young girl who was exactly like that a few years ago?”
“True! And you’re a pretty good teacher. I just can’t imagine a goody two-shoes like her blowing you or letting you fuck her ass.”
“Jennifer, what style of sex do I like the most?”
“In the past, just regular missionary sex, slow and sweet. But then you met Katt!”
“Katt and I are done. She’s with Mikael. And I’m happy with just simple lovemaking. Kara does like to be licked, and you know I love doing that!”
“So now you’re back to conventional sex? What the hell happened to you?”
“I fell in love. And I’m growing up. I had a spat with my mom and didn’t try to convince her of anything or try to argue her into a position. I simply refused to let her try to ruin my life again.”
“And what does Bethany say?”
“She’s supportive. We’re just friends at this point, but I’m taking her to Prom because Kara isn’t allowed to go to dances.”
Jennifer paused a moment. “I think this is a good development.”
We talked for a few more minutes about school and then said our goodbyes.
On Monday I stayed late to try out for the role of the father in I Never Saw Another Butterfly. I read my lines from the script and Miss Alvis told me that I had the part right then and there. I was a bit surprised but agreed to take the part. I took a copy of the script with me to start memorizing. I saw on the board that I would be playing opposite Bonnie Wonder, a cute Senior, who was playing the mother.
On Tuesday, Ronald Reagan was sworn in as President and unsurprisingly, the Iranian government decided to release the hostages that had been held for 444 days. I had been in Sweden when the embassy had been overrun and I remembered how Anders had been afraid that it was part of a lead up to a world war. The Soviets were still in Afghanistan, but I fully expected President Reagan to do something about that.
On Wednesday, Josh told me that he’d been accepted into the YFU program and would be going to Sweden next year. I let him know that it was entirely possible I could see him there because I was heading there on vacation in June of ‘82. I also promised to start teaching him some Swedish. After school, Beth and I made a visit to a vet in Springdale and demonstrated our software for his office. He was concerned about the cost of the computer and told us that he’d think about it. I encouraged him to talk to Doctor Grossi.
On Thursday, when I got to chemistry class, Kara kissed me on the cheek and then turned bright red.
“Steve,” she whispered, “I got my period this morning. Do you still want to go out?”
“Of course. I like just being with you. We could still make out, if you want!”
She smiled.
That evening we went to dinner and spent an hour in the apartment cuddling, doing just a bit of kissing.
“Thanks for being so understanding.”
“I know how your body works, and I know about periods. It’s fine. Don’t be embarrassed about it. You’ll be done when I come back from my symposium and we can make love.”
She kissed me deeply, and we headed to her house to drop her off before curfew.
January 1981, Cincinnati, Ohio
On Friday, I left school at noon to head to Cincinnati. I gave Ralph a ride, but he would come back to Milford with Mr. Yockey on Sunday because I was going straight to Don Joseph’s house. I followed Route 50 into the city and followed the directions to the hotel. I reluctantly turned the car over to the valet, and Ralph and I went inside. We found the registration desk for the symposium and I was surprised to see that I had a single room. I got my key and went to find my room.
The room was small, with just a full-size bed, a desk, a table with two chairs and a television, and the bathroom had a stall shower. The view out the window was only that of other fairly ugly buildings. I unpacked my weekender bag and went back down to the main meeting room. I found Mr. Yockey and Brent, and a moment later, Ralph walked in as well. We still had about 15 minutes before the introductory session and we weren’t ready to sit, so we stood in the back of the room.
I went to get a Coke from the refreshment table when I felt a hand on my arm and heard a familiar voice softly say my name. I turned to make sure.
“Hi, Becky,” I said with a note of annoyance.
“How are you, Steve?”
“I’m doing OK. How are you?”
“I’m OK,” She replied.
I said nothing and simply let the silence hang because I really had nothing to say to her.
“I’m sorry,” she said. “I made a big mistake. I’ve made lots of mistakes with you.”
“It’s all water under the bridge. There really isn’t anything left to say.”
“I know,” Becky sighed. “I didn’t expect to see you here.”
“I certainly didn’t expect to see you, either, but here we are.”
The lights in the room flashed a couple of times, indicating that the first session was about to start. I was annoyed but not surprised when Becky followed me and sat down next to me at one of the long tables. I contemplated getting up and moving, but decided that would just be too rude.
A man dressed in a suit stepped to the microphone and called the room to order. Everyone settled down quickly, and he welcomed us to the symposium and then described how it would work. There would be four presentations, one each from the government and the opposition leaders from Honduras and El Salvador, with breaks in between. Once they had finished, we would have a dinner where the US Ambassador to El Salvador would speak. After dinner, there would be a mixer with music and dancing. I looked around the room and saw that the ratio of guys to girls was only slightly off, about 60-40.
Becky leaned over and whispered, “Would you dance with me tonight, Steve?”
“That’s not a good idea. No,” I whispered back.
“Please! It’s just a dance. Just think about it.”
I sighed and listened to the introduction of the first speaker. Becky hadn’t changed. Actually, that wasn’t quite true, she had filled out a bit since she was fourteen and lost all of her baby fat. Her breasts had grown out as well — no longer just small bumps, they were firm and conical. Her hips had widened a bit as well, and I had to admit she had become a beautiful young woman. My mind flashed back to our lovemaking and caused an involuntary and undesired reaction. I shifted in my seat and tried to adjust myself for comfort without being noticed. Becky’s smirk, which I saw in my peripheral vision, told me I had failed.
At the first break, when I went to get a Coke from the refreshment table, Becky followed me.
“I see you still like me!” she giggled.
“We’ve had this discussion several times!” I said, quite exasperated.
She nodded and leaned forward to whisper, “But I still make you hard,” as she gently touched my arm.
“Becky!” I whispered sternly and went back to my chair.
The problem was, she was right. Becky still made me hard. Our lovemaking had been intense, though not as frequent as with other girls I’d had relationships with, and it had been very enjoyable. On the other hand, I remembered all the bad things that had happened between us, especially the unintended — by me — pregnancy and the resulting abortion.
At the next break, once again Becky walked with me to the table.
“You know we never really did talk things through,” she said. “It’s my fault, I know, because of what I did, both in deceiving you and in letting my mom pressure me into an abortion. Would you at least talk to me? Please?”
Dredging up all those old memories was not something I really wanted to do. I had pretty much dealt with everything and moved on.
“I’m pretty much at peace with the past at this point. I just don’t see the point of rehashing it.”
“You had lots of people to talk to. I didn’t. I’ve never really been able to talk to anyone,” Becky said, her voice full of sadness.
Given this was Becky, my first thought was that it was just another game she was playing, just another attempt to pull me into a relationship that I knew would be doomed even before it began. Even a friendship with Becky was fraught with all kinds of risks and danger. But, given the circumstances, I was probably the only person she could really talk to. I’d have to set limits, though, for my own sake. It was risky, but I was reluctant to let her suffer if I could help her.
“I’ll talk with you. But it has to be somewhere semi-public. We can have privacy, but not somewhere alone. And you need to know that I have a steady girlfriend, and we’re exclusive now.”
“I just want to talk. There’s an hour between dinner and the dance. We could sit in the hotel lobby. There are a couple of couches there that are private enough. Would that work?”
“Sure, that’s fine.”
After the last two presentations, the organizers covered how Saturday would work. In the morning, each country’s representatives would have a small meeting room where students could go to ask questions and spend time talking to each side. We would be divided into groups of six students, and we would be responsible for a ten minute presentation on Saturday afternoon about one major issue separating the government and the opposition. My rough guess was that there would be between three and four hours of presentations. Saturday evening, after dinner, was free time, and there were discounted movie tickets available. Sunday morning would be the closing session with an address by an Under-Secretary of State, followed by lunch.
During the half-hour break between the presentations and dinner, I went back to my room and relaxed. I turned on the radio and pulled out All the King’s Men and read. I was taking quite a few notes as well, and formulating my thesis, so reading was slower than usual. I only got through about fifteen pages before I had to head down to dinner.
When I walked into the dining room, I found that we had assigned places, and were seated randomly around the room. I was at a table with nine students from schools spread around the Tri-State area. Five kids were from schools in the city, the rest of us were from the suburbs, including two from Kentucky and one from Indiana. The food was decent, and I was entertained by the seven guys, all trying to impress the two girls at our table. One of them was constantly looking my way, but I wasn’t really interested. I’d made my commitment to Kara and, despite the flirty looks and smiles, I avoided anything that might convey interest.
When dinner was finished, I went to find Becky. We walked to the lobby and found a sofa that was along a wall in a fairly quiet area.
“OK, Becky, talk,” I said evenly.
“Can’t you please be a bit nicer?” she asked softly. “Please?”
I took a deep breath, let it out, and said, “I’m sorry. Tell me what you want to talk about.”
“Everything, I guess,” she sighed. “Everything I did wrong. Everything I messed up. About our baby. About my deceiving you. About the abortion. About us,” she said, a tear rolling down her cheek.
On reflex, I moved my hand to wipe the tear away and Becky smiled at me, that same smile that had always melted my heart. I felt bad for how she felt. She was right, I should be nicer to her.
“Just let it out. I’ll listen,” I said gently.
“I guess the first thing to say is that ever since you met me, and even before, I’ve been scared. Scared of relationships, scared of sex, scared of losing you, scared of being pregnant, scared about having the abortion, scared that my entire life would fall apart because I was foolish and insecure. Scared that nobody would want me,” Becky said, trying to hold back tears.
She was still the same frightened girl who I had known, and the events of the past two years had only fed her fears. I’d had a small part in that, I felt, because I should have known what it meant to her to make love, to give me her virginity. But I was young and stupid then. Of course, at seventeen I wasn’t exactly old, but I was certainly wiser and had more experience. I’d screwed up enough times and learned from those experiences. It didn’t stop me from being dumb, but I liked to think I’d gotten better. I was sure my sister would disagree, but that seemed to be her role in my life!
“We’re all scared,” I said gently, trying to reassure her. “Growing up is hard. We make lots of mistakes and cause lots of pain, both to ourselves and others. We have to learn from those mistakes and put them behind us. They will shape us, but we can’t let them control us. I have a very good friend who was raped when she was thirteen and ended up pregnant. She had an abortion. For a couple of years, her entire life was defined by that rape. Eventually, she decided not to be a ‘rape victim’ for the rest of her life. She’ll never forget what happened, but she no longer allows it to define who she is.
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August, 1983, Chicago, Illinois I walked in the near 90°F heat to Carla’s place. I was grateful that the humidity of the morning had dropped significantly; otherwise the heat would have been unbearable. By the time I walked up the steps to the apartment over the photography studio and knocked on her door, I had broken into a light sweat. Carla answered almost immediately and invited me inside her studio apartment. The air was moderately cool, and the window air conditioner was running full...
July 1982, Milford, Ohio On Tuesday morning, I kissed Kara goodbye and headed to my parents’ house for my usual morning routine with my little sister. She was happy that I could spend the morning with her and asked to take a walk, so we weren’t in the house with my mom. “Let me guess — this walk will end in the clearing,” I said with a smile. “Yes,” she said, taking my hand as we walked down Overlook towards Klondyke. As usual, we turned around and walked back, taking the path to the...
March 13, 1994, Chicago, Illinois “Hi, Steve!” Ailea said when she opened the door. “Hi,” I replied, accepting the offered hug. There was no touching of lips, just of cheeks, and I wondered if I’d misread her intentions at her birthday lunch, or if, perhaps, she detected my reluctance to return the offered affection. “Lunch is ready, so go ahead and sit. I’ll bring it in from the kitchen.” I went to the low table, sat down, and a minute later, Ailea brought miso soup and sushi, our usual...
April 3, 1997, Dallas, Texas “Remember what I said about drinking too much,” I said, as I poured bourbon into three cups. We’d stopped at a liquor store, bought a bottle of Blanton’s, and then returned to the small suite I’d reserved at the Westin. Deborah’s room was down the hall, and Krissy’s was two floors below. Krissy’s comment had caught me a bit off guard, but I hadn’t reacted visibly. I didn’t know her quite well enough to know if she’d been teasing with Deborah, so I was being...
March 28, 1991, Chicago, Illinois “This day belongs to you, Kara!” I said when the three of us woke on Thursday morning. “Happy birthday!” Jessica said. “Thanks,” Kara replied happily. “I think I’d like an amazing birthday fuck from our husband, and then a nice loving shower with my wife!” Kara said. “Do we have enough time?” I asked. Jessica giggled, “I set the alarm for thirty minutes earlier!” “Then let’s not waste any of it!” I said pulling Kara to me. Kara’s squeals as I plunged...
September 4, 2000, Chicago, Illinois On Monday morning I went to my study to make a surreptitious call to ensure that the surprise I’d planned for Kara was still going to happen, and after confirming that it was, Jesse, Matthew, Michael, and I began preparing for the Labor Day party by getting beer and soda into coolers, getting the grill ready, setting up tables and chairs in the backyard, and ensuring the liquor cabinets were stocked while my wives and daughters worked on food prep in the...
September 1, 1987, Chicago, Illinois “I heard that you have some kind of plan to help Ed,” I said to Connie. “There’s no plan,” she replied. “A witness who saw the shopkeeper alive after Ed left came forward.” That sounded convenient, and I wondered if the witness was real or someone that Anthony had put forward to solve the problem. Certainly, the videotape was real, because I couldn’t imagine how Anthony could have faked that, but the witness? Who knew? “So is he being released? Or is...
August 17, 1997, Chicago, Illinois We finished lunch and Marissa and the younger kids went to play, but Natalie sat with the adults to talk, with coffee, tea, or soft drinks. The Sarcus were very comfortable, but the Heaths were still struggling. But, vitally, they hadn’t left and hadn’t insisted Natalie leave the group. “Can you explain how you developed this attitude and approach?” Chris asked. I nodded, “It started when I was just a bit younger than Natalie. My mom was a total control...
July 1979 — Falkenberg, Sweden On Friday, when I got back from my run, Pam was in her bra and panties again. I whistled at her, she giggled, then finished dressing. I showered, and we went to breakfast and finished up our last day. Once class was done, we were pretty much free. On Saturday, we’d have several optional activities and then on Sunday we’d head back to our host families. After dinner on Friday, I took Pam’s hand and we walked towards the river. It was quiet and peaceful, and...
July 1980, Over the North Atlantic We reached cruising altitude, and I settled back to read my book. Pam raised the armrest between us, snuggled close to me and read as well. The cabin crew offered drinks, and I had my first Coke in a year! Meal service began about an hour and a half into the flight. After the cabin crew picked up the trays and offered drinks again, they passed once more, offering headsets for the movie. Trevor and Maria took them, but Pam and I didn’t, instead we turned on...
July 8, 1997, Chicago, Illinois “Is it really that surprising?” Leah asked. “I suppose not,” I replied. “I just didn’t read too much into the kiss on the cheek.” “I didn’t think it was a good idea to kiss you on the lips with all those people around, because I had no idea who they were or what they would think. You were VERY careful with our dance, so I kind of followed your lead.” Which showed very mature thinking on her part. Both of these girls were exactly the kind of students I...
November 8, 1993, Chicago, Illinois A dark fog swirled before my eyes as I tried to take stock. My head hurt, badly. I felt something on my face and realized, dimly, it was an oxygen mask. My right hand was uncomfortable and I recognized the feeling of an IV and pulse-oximeter. My left arm ached fiercely. On my chest I felt the pads and wires of an EKG. I didn’t feel anything else wrong as I continued taking inventory. I tried to open my eyes, but the fog didn’t clear. I tried to speak, but...
MARILYN AS DUMB AS THEY CUM DO NOT READ IF YOU DONT LIKE TORTURE **** OR INTERRATIAL!!This story is about one dumb fucking whore. I will start with the very beginning. Her name is Marilyn Yvonne, my name is Epar. We met one day at a beach in the north of Canada. She was 18 I was 19. I new I wanted this slut to play with because she was as dumb as they come. Wanting to **** her was going to be so easy to do for the fact that I knew after talking to her she was not the brightest bulb around....
August, 1983, Chicago, Illinois In the morning Anala and I ran as we had the previous time, then showered together, carefully washing each other’s bodies in an intimate but non-sexual way. After our shower we went to the kitchen and I made breakfast and we sat down to eat. “Steve, may I make a suggestion?” she asked. “Sure.” “Broaden your circle of friends. Other than me, all of you are white, nominally Christian, 20-year-old Americans. And you don’t invite me to your Sunday...
June 23, 2000, Chicago, Illinois “Steve,” Kimmy said over the intercom, “I have a Suzanne Aavik for you.” “Thanks,” I replied. “Put her through, please.” A few seconds later, Suzanne was on the line. “Hi!” she exclaimed when I greeted her. “I’m in Chicago for three weeks. Can I still run away and join the circus?” I chuckled, “You might want to find out what the circus is actually like before you join! If you’re free, you’re welcome to come to the house tomorrow or Sunday and meet the...
March 1979 Monday was back to the normal routine of school. Debbie Courtney, who lived across the street and had turned fourteen the last week in February, started flirting more with me on the bus each day. Debbie Vaughn, who lived just down the street, would turn fourteen on March 16th and invited me to her birthday party. And Donna Woody, who lived just down the street in the other direction, would turn fourteen on March 20th. She had made it clear what she wanted for her birthday, and in...
June 2, 1990, Chicago, Illinois “My office, please,” Sensei Jim said after class on Saturday. I followed him to his office and waited for him to bid me to sit. He did, and I sat in the usual chair across from him. “She has a real problem, you know that, right?” he asked. “I do. That’s why I insisted she start seeing a counselor.” “I run a huge risk having her here with that kind of temper and her violent acts.” I nodded, “I understand. May I ask what you intend to do?” “I really don’t...
February 21, 1991, Chicago, Illinois “Hi, Sweetheart!” I said, greeting Bethany at the door. “Uncle Steve!” Nicholas exclaimed. I took him from his mom and he hugged me tightly. “Is Jesse with his moms?” Bethany asked. “Yes. They won’t bring him back over tonight so you and Nicholas can surprise him in the morning.” “Perfect!” “How was the drive up?” “The same as usual. Just a bit of traffic in Northern Indiana. Otherwise, smooth sailing. It was driving the other direction that was a...
November 4, 2000, Chicago, Illinois “Good morning, Sensei,” Miyu said when Kara, the girls, and I walked into the dojo on Saturday morning. “Good morning, Miyu.” “Do you have a moment, please?” I nodded and we went to the small practice room for privacy, as Sensei Jim had a family in his office. “What can I do for you?” “I need you to meet a young man,” she said. “I think you might be taking this ‘not do anything without permission’ a bit too far!” Miyu shook her head, “No, I’m not....
May 1979 The limo dropped me at home about 9:00pm. I took my stuff to my room, stripped, and hung up the tux. The rest of the things went into the hamper. I took a shower, put on shorts and a t-shirt, and walked down the hall into my dad’s office. I saw no reason to put this off any longer. “Stephen, you need to explain yourself!” my mom demanded. “I was in Mrs. McGrath’s, well, Mrs. Sanders’ now, wedding, as I said.” “You walked her down the aisle! You’re sixteen and not even related to...
November 3, 1990, Chicago, Illinois “I still don’t understand why you told everyone to leave Katy alone last night,” Elyse said on Saturday morning. “Because we weren’t going to talk her out of it. I could tell by the way she told us. I hoped letting her sleep on it would allow her to hear what we had to say. Obviously I was wrong.” “I was surprised that she wouldn’t talk to Jennifer at all,” Kara said. “I thought Jennifer would be the one to get her to listen to reason this morning.” I...
February, 1983, Chicago, Illinois Our first joining since the previous summer was slow and sweet, trying to express our deep love for each other through the motions of our bodies. When we finished, Karin held me tight and refused to let me move off of her. “Sleep there, please,” she whispered. I kissed her once more then adjusted my pillow so that I could rest my head next to hers. It wasn’t the most comfortable position, but it was what Karin wanted. The feel of her firm body under mine,...
July 3, 1996, Chicago, Illinois I blinked several times and took a breath before responding. It didn’t help. The best I could do was contain my visceral reaction at her completely out-of-line request and her wrong-headed assumptions when she had NO idea what had happened in my life the previous eight months. “What makes you think you can make that request after refusing to talk to me for nearly eight months? And equally importantly, without explaining Alexi? And without giving me the first...